#You may blame me and you may hate me for this
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also letâs be fucking real. blaming it on his autism is infantilising. autistic people can have tact. in fact, many of us learn to have tact by force. if he truly lacks it that badly, thatâs a separate issue from autism. but we all know that that is not the case. as an autistic person, i am PISSED that people are excusing this behavior bc elon musk is autistic. he may be autistic, but autism doesnât make you a fucking neonazi.
look at his politics that heâs been open about in the past and tell me sincerely that youâre surprised (not appalled, not disgusted, but SURPRISED) to see him doing nazi salutes back to back on live TV. i sure as fuck am not surprised, heâs been on this road for a long, long time. itâs not excusable because heâs autistic. being autistic doesnât mean you canât recognise well-known symbols like this, unless maybe if you are much more severely disabled than elon fucking musk is.
he may be a total dumbass who doesnât know shit about anything he pretends to know about, but itâs not like he has an intellectual disability or something where this might have some more nuance (and iâm not the authority on that btw since i also donât have an ID, so if anyone has an ID or a loved one with one and wants to chime in that that wouldnât bring more nuance, please feel free to correct me).
he functions well enough to arrange for his own attendance at all these political events, and influence politicians directly, and oh yeah, heâs the wealthiest man in the world and manages his finances well enough to retain that status. he was born with a silver spoon but he can handle ADLs and iirc heâs college educated so he MUST have learned about this salute in a history class at SOME POINT. shit, i learned about it in like middle school, you donât have to go to college to fucking recognise it!!
you canât pretend his autism makes him blameless, and insisting that it does is an insult not only to jewish people but to autistic people as well. we are not fucking affiliated with his disgusting behavior. i hate when other autistic peopleâusually autistic white men, specificallyâget a pass to be bigots because of their autism. being autistic doesnât make bigotry ok or inherent. thatâs not how ASD fucking works, ok?!
autistic people donât get to just say and do whatever we want, and we shouldnât! but for SOME REASON, when a WHITE CIS MAN is autistic, heâs allowed to do whatever and nobody can get mad at him bc âheâs autistic, he doesnât know better!â even other autistic people arenât allowed to get upset at an autistic white man! iâm tired of that! autistic people also need consequences, just like everyone else! this fucking worm of a man has gotten away with so much in his life, because of being white and rich and cishet, donât let him get away with this, too
âElon didnât mean to sieg heil, heâs just autisticâ
Do you guys remember when Kanye said he was gonna go âdeath conâ on all the Jews? Do you remember how his apologists said he was just off his bipolar meds? Do you remember that he doubled down, said he didnât actually have bipolar, and he had been misdiagnosed by a Jew doctor? Do you remember he proceeded to meet with prominent white supremacists and told infowars he was a Nazi who loved Hitler?
Nobody ever believes the Jews the first time, even though our culture has spent literally thousands of years learning the warning signs. We know what weâre looking at. Itâs two consecutive Nazi salutes on a white supremacistâs inauguration day. You can downplay it all you want, but this coal mineâs canary isnât coming back to life.
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oh dutch van der linde damn the cruel man you are, knowing when and how to take advantage of those who have done nothing but devote themselves to you. but then again, the blame may be put on those same people, arthur, john, even hosea; the blame may be put on those who still somewhat believed in him even after showing his true colors. but then again, dutch knows how to play those strings, tugging at them with a proper and certain use of âsonâ so, how much blame can be placed on the rest when it is a deliberate choice every time he calls one or the other son? clearly thought out.
Iâve always found interesting the context within he uses such word; when there is confrontation or when he sees this need to validate someone, âyouâre like a son to meâ may have come out of his mind for the genuine enjoyment of the little race with arthur. however, when else is such word use? the way i see it, usually he uses it to disregard any doubting surrounding his ambiguous plan.
these are people that lack parental figure, heâs a savior to almost everybody and he knows that, to a degree i even believe him to take vain pride in such fact. for that very same reason, how can you talk back to your savior? to your father? it puts this disparity in between, by familiarizing himself with the others and stepping over the boundary of simply a âboss and crookâ relationship an emotional weight is put over the already tight hierarchy there seems to be. now raising concern over dutchâs poor choices becomes somewhat harder, this is the man that taught them how to read, how to write, how could they not have their fatherâs back with nothing but ardent fervor? bloodâs thicker than water after all, isnât it?
it is almost wicked the way he sees this fragility within the people that already had a harsh life so young before meeting him, and he decides to simply take advantage of that. âoh, arthur needs to restâ is vile, âI was coming for youâ is repulsive.
the fallout is nothing short of disastrous, because itâs their father, their savior, lying and scheming right in front of them.
but then again, they couldâve left. arthur couldâve run away and he didnât, part of the fault may fall on him âbecause at the end of the day heâs his own personâ yet, itâs almost as if dutch had groomed him into that life. could he have been happier with mary? yes, could it have been a successful thing? who knows? that choice was chopped off by ideals and parental figures that really werenât there.
dutch van der linde is a clever man, charming even, heâs a really well written antagonist. hell, i even fell for his lies as a player in the beginning. testament to his ability to embellish and make the poorest of situations a gilded fantasy.
heâs a really good character, letâs not twisted with morals, and thatâs why i cannot help but hate yet love it.
#red dead redemption#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption community#dutch van der linde#ramblings#rdr2#red dead redemption arthur#arthur morgan#red dead redemption playthrough
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so often i see people try to downplay violet and minervas relationship like it wasnt Real enough or was some Inferior Romance that her relationship with clementine could Never compare to, and i find it so annoying and boring
she LOVED minerva!! and its okay that she did!! she was her first love!! childhood best friends turned girlfriends!! seeing her being so heartbroken and miserable about what happened to minnie, how deeply and desperately she missed her, hugging that bed frame so pathetically. but clementine makes her CARE again. makes her LOVE again. slowly violet becomes comfortable with the idea of opening her heart up to people again, after trying so hard not to because the pain of losing people she cared about was too much to bear (especially when she blamed herself for them being gone)
then she learns minnie didnt die. shes falling in love with clem while grappling with the fact that minnie might still be out there??
then she meets minnie in the woods. but minnie has changed just like she has. theyre both different people now. and slowly violet is forced to come to terms with the fact that the person she loved so deeply isnt that person anymore??
violet at the beginning mourning minerva and blaming herself, to shooting her to save clems life. she LOVED minerva once, but she doesnt like the person she is now. and shes not gonna let her hurt anyone else she cares about. shes done mourning her by the time they get to the bridge, only crying out for tenn
like idk i just find their relationship evolution to be so interesting and sad as shit. the fact that they once loved each other so much and it has now come to this?? but violet makes her choice and she Chooses clementine, because she admires and loves clementine, probably similar to the way she used to admire and love minerva if the way she talked about her is any indication
i just think "i never thought i would ever feel this way again" is way more interesting than "wow minnie Never made me feel like This"
#violet makes minnie a stronger character literally Just by being there#the way vi and minnie and clem all bounce off each other is so fucking good#CLEM SLEEPING IN MINNIES BED IS NOT AN ACCIDENT#clem has essentially replaced her. and minnie is seething about it. because she wanted them all to follow her to the delta#but instead theyre following clementine. who she sees as a threat to their lives. when in reality the real threat is her and the delta#now its minnie who is sad and lost and doesnt know how to grapple with it#instead doing what she can to save herself. even if it means hurting the people she cares about#and violet HATES THAT!! and shes willing to fight to save the people she loves#even if it means hurting someone she used to care about more than anything#she places that shot so perfectly. she doesnt WANT to hurt minnie. but she wasnt gonna let her hurt clementine either#she may have loved minnie once. partially blames herself for what happened to her. but theyre both different now. and she loves clementine#LIKE IDK that evolution is just so good and makes the clemvi romance even more strong??? violet knows Exactly what and who she wants#so by downplaying the vinerva romance it inherently makes her choice to choose clem weaker??#the more she loved minnie the harder that choice was. and she chose clementine#anyway this is why the clem vi minnie boat fight makes me bark like a wild beast#either i see people try to downplay her love for minerva OR they overhype it and act like she never got over her#when her getting over minnie is the whole point!! taken vi trusted her bc she LIED to her about sophie!! and clem broke her trust#god shes so heartbroken and confused in that cell get her out of there!!!!! vi i'll save you every time!!!!!!#thinking about clemviminnie instead of working what else is new#twdg#violentine#vinerva
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SHIPS
(I got nothing funny to say, so take these ships drawings I made!)
#slay the princess#stp voices#mai art#mai doodles#stp voice of the Opportunist#stp voice of the smitten#stp voice of the broken#stp voice of the cheated#smittchea#smitken#stubtunist#((first time drawing ship art))#((hope ya like it))#((i blame EG and polite for making me ship the first 2))#((i hate you/j))
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Happy birthday ritsuka uenoyama the entirety of given DOSENT DESERVE U AT ALL
#the narrative the characters the fandom and kizu should be ashamed of themselves ngl#the way you gave your VERY ALL to save mafuyu at his darkest being there at his lowest helping him to find light again#even if you think you are no better than the other even when you dont know his whole story even if you feel no better than his first#you still gave your very best for him by finishing his deceased lover's song and sang it for him#only for your character arc your development your issues insecurities and trauma to be ignored shunned and discredited#your lover was your first but you knew you weren't his first#you knew he loved someone way before you and now that he's gone your lover still clutched on to the past#but you helped him moved on from the darkness and give him the light through music#you ended up filling the void he left for your lover and everyone else only for you to become a shadow of him#the fact that you a main character is constantly set aside and had no character arc whatsoever just to make way for a deceased lover#you are often demonized and hated and told that his lover and his previous lover should've been together and he would choose him over you#and when you asked him one thing he then ignored you and you tired to reach out to him only for them to blame you as you are the problem#seeing you often makes me sad because you did SO MUCH of the story and the narrative would just trash you out#but when someone calls out that you deserved better the same people will stake them saying that you dont undertand the narrative at all#if they cant appreciate your efforts just because you are not him then i would#if you were my oc i would give u the amount of love they never gave#if you were my oc i would develop and expand your character arc so that i would know you better and your ambitions#if you were my oc i would make sure you would be as loved as everyone else#and if you were my oc i would create someone to love you understand your troubles and appreciate you efforts way more than your lover could#the fandom may love a previous lover he loved but you ritsuka uenoyama shall be mine#dont mind the corny ass tags i just feel like it lmfao#uenoyama deserves better#uenoyama ritsuka#ritsuka uenoyama#given#given manga#given anime#bl animanga
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ok you know. the Ellu in dav crossover au is very fun but i am a little bit enchanted by the concept of him AND Rynn at once. Best of both worlds in a sense.
#posts that sound like noise to everyone but me fdjgfd#but like. yeah rynn gets to be the main leader and have an emotional connection to the world he's fighting for#while not keeping emotional distance from everyone around him jkgfh#but then you ALSO have Ellu there to make some of the tougher choices that Rynn doesn't fully trust himself to make / would come to regret#(cough minrathous/treviso cough)#and willing to shelter the blame of it too so the guilt doesnt eat Rynn alive#and companion wise Rynn would actually know what the fuck to say to Taash for example. whereas Ellu is. *gesturing vaguely*#not equipped to understand these conversations. guy barely has a sense of personhood if that- much less knows what gender is#i feel like it makes all the companion dynamics so much more interesting actually#balancing out Rynn's kind naivete with a more experienced but also much more unhinged perspective fjkgdf#wait did i just invent Alistair and Orion dynamic 2.0. ...you saw nothing fdjghdf#yeah nah not really Orion is VERY different but funnily enough would approve of Ellu's choices way more than Rynn's đrip little guy#but yeah the companion arcs..#some pushback on Bellara freeing the archive because unlike them both Ellu's not saddled with misplaced guilt about the ancient elves#some pushback on the griffons going back to the wardens because. Ellu's not biased đ#(though i still think they have a much better infrastructure for breeding them and ensuring they survive so Rynn could win that argument)#ellu and rynn being the angel and devil on harding's shoulders during her quest fkgj (not that one option is bad but you get the joke)#ellu getting psychic damage after hearing the concept of lichdom is a good thing here etc#also what the situation would be with Solas in two Rook world. all potential options are hysterical#Do they BOTH communicate with him in the fade prison? they both hate his ass - does he get twice the amount of bullying?#Ellu by the standards of his world probably counts as a spirit with a body in dragon age- so how does this affect things?#does Solas hear 'THAT'S your god of trickery??? pathetic' from what he sees as a spirit of chaos#and does that give him a teensy existential crisis fghhdfgh#also fun because ellu's age is intentionally impossible to gauge because fey time bullshit but could very well be in the thousands#on technicality of time dilation at the very least#so placing that little idiot in this world is SO fun.. so many options..#'wah wah i'm the dread wolf I have no spine when i have to do what's right but my slaver girlfriend doesnt agree#but i will end a world inhabited by people because they're mortal now and i dont see them as people :( ' GET A GRIP GRADPA#-> said by guy who may be older than him
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r/v + loneliness.
102 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch. 4 / 4 / 8 / Art Wallace, Shadows on the Wall / 603 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch 4. / 473 / Richard Sherman, Demo: "Lovely, Lonely Man/Chitty Chitty Bang Bang Finale" / 2
#†roger collins & victoria winters. â pain sometimes precedes pleasureïŒmiss winters.#†edits & art. â the evans cottage art gallery.#compilation tag#idk I have just been Thinking about this since that gifset lol.#âIâll blame it on youââ she says â because you are the one who has brought me hereâ she thinks#because she seems to anticipate even in their first meeting that she will play Eyre and he Rochester.#there had better be many more such tĂȘte-Ă -tĂȘteâs on the cliff side or sheâll be terribly disappointed !#[and not only cliffside proselytizing: barging into her room at all hoursâ chasing her around townâ dragging her bodily into the drawing#roomâ andâ occasionally on a good dayâ an actual genuine date or a meal sometime.]#Roger has ââ in theory ââ everything that she wants. a familyâ a homeâ a wife and childâ history and ancestry! boy does he have that!#and yet he is terribly terribly alone in this well he has poisoned.#(from whichâ I might addâ vicki drinks greedily.)#''What do you want out of life?'' when he's already achieved (or so it appears on the outside) the midcentury blazon of success:#a familyâ a well-to-do office position at which he really does nothingâ a succession of american-made sports cars.#he may be separated from his wife but togetherâ he and elizbeth and david and carolyn form a mimetic image of the nuclear family.#to which vicki is desperate to grasp ontoâ even in its most nightmarish formâ whether or not she realizes that's why she stays.#but what does he want? he wants the same thing she wants. love and companionship. (that he hasn't yet ruined. that he can't stop ruining.)#she may not precisely understand his type of loneliness but she knows about loneliness among people. she's lived it.#and she knows too about ... a visceral loneliness pushing you to push people even further away (as in the childhood story she tells david).#so she sees through his fronts a lot of the timeâ whether they be a layer of charmâ or terror. and boy does he hate that. being seen for#something real. where his actions matter and produce consequences. where feeling is real â good or bad.#the little governess and her capacity to find shadows to throw light on! whether they be locked chambers in the basement or the atria.
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Feel crazy seeing everyone talk about how good maestro is... I think it's okay at best đ
#theres parts i really like (prechorus) but overall its so weak compared to their other titles đ honestly. this is the least svt a title has#felt to me idkkkkkk like even other songs of theirs im not a fan of (censored for safety) im still like yeah thats svt!#this one does not give me that feeling:/#also. i HATE the dance break sonically like personally i dont think we ever need that and we really didnt here#maybe the fact that i thought i didnt like the mv is also bringing down my opinion but what can i say#their mvs used to be so !! and then hybe came along#we need the man who did fighting BACK. we need vm project BACK. we need digipedi BACK. like dont piss me off đ#you may think i blame everything on hybe. and i do blame most things on them. but am i wrong
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I think there's pressure when you enter your recovery journey and your healing journey to never fuck up again but unfortunately that is unrealistic. The sooner you realize that the less youâll beat yourself up when it happens.
#ryan.txt#healing#recovery journey#me when Iâm not perfect even though my recovery journey hasnât even been going on for that longđ€Żđ€Żđ€Żđ€Żđ€Ż#mad bc I got swept up into someoneâs lies and manipulation://////#need to stop blaming myself for it#this person used a lot of shit to get me to think they were a certain way#and yes there may have been signs but you never know until it happens#anyways I hate still dealing with toxic people I just want to be surrounded by healthy people#and I hate that [redacted] was right._.
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*tests different styles and this happens*
uhm do I need to I explain or
ok imagine this is paldea, so teratypes exist
soren is mainly a ghost type trainer, but his main mon is jigglypuff with a ghost teratype. pretty cool right?
why is he a ghost type trainer? I think this is obvious given his backstory đ but basically laguz ignore him, he feels like he doesn't exist, so he feels kinda like a ghost!!!!!
#I think fe engage is to blame#I was listening to its ost while drawing#I think it engaged with me and decided that I had to color with maximum saturation#btw why soren with jigglypuff you may ask#idk my they're my favourites so why not#also it's funny to imagine because soren would hate jigglypuff's manners LMAO#jigglypuff would annoy soren 100% even just out of spite#soren#jigglypuff#pokemon au
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WIP game!
i was tagged by @tortoisesshells âš
so i have two fics going one rn: 1) in the boat purgatory in at world's end, james comes across gov swann and the two have a final conversation together (not using that for this since i haven't done too much but something to look forward to i guess) and 2) bolt's "what if james had a dragon" fic and subsequent discussions and questions has me now doing a "what if hornblower had a dragon" fic so here is an excerpt from that:
âWho are you?â The dragonet is speaking French, and internally Hornblower swears. Is French the only language the creature knows? Itâs no issue for him, of course, but how can it be expected to be a British dragon if it only knows French? âCaptain Horatio Hornblower, most recently of the HMS Sutherland,â he replies, also in French â awkwardly so, because itâs a ridiculously formal introduction to make to a dragon, but in light of never having conversed with one before heâs fallen back on the old habit of saying more than is necessary. âThat is not a French name,â the dragon says. In English. âNon â no, it is not. You speak English, then?â âI do.â Pause. âThat was a long introduction. I hope you donât want me to use it whenever I want to call on you?â The idea of a dragon wanting to call on him at all is no less ridiculous than having a conversation with one, but it â he? The voice is deep â has a point. âYou can call me 'Hornblower',â he says.
i don't remember who all is writing things that hasn't already been tagged, so if you see this and are a writer, feel free to share!
#thanks tortie! glad i had something to share#further context: it's at the end of flying colours as you may have guessed from hornblower's intro#when he bush and brown go to steal the witch of endor they find the egg#bc originally the egg (maybe some others too?) was being sent by the navy somewhere but then as we know she was captured by the french#so now the french are getting ready to move the egg somewhere but surprise the escaped british prisoners are stealing your ship#the dragon is named justinian bc hornblower was like [sweats] how do i name things#and started thinking about the names of his ships but accidentally said them aloud and the dragon was like 'i like justinian thanks'#the fic just covers the finding/hatching/reuniting with the fleet#but i do intend to reread temeraire eventually so maybe more will come#...i hope there are no typos in these tags#also i hate posting long things on mobile but i refused to give in so here we are#also also justinian is going to be a good bean that will remind hornblower of kennedy sometimes#bc i think he needs someone like that in addition to bush. thank you show#and idk if the boat purgatory convo could happen in canon since their deaths were separated by a fair amount of time (?)#but i can do what i want#afraid of heights hornblower having a dragon is still funny to me. sorry buddy blame bolt#he's kind of a mashup of show!hornblower and book!hornblower#my writing#chilly chats#tortoisesshells
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anyways one thing led to another and now i'm daydreaming about may and nona dancing to "can't take my eyes off you" by frankie valli in the middle of their living room like goofballs because neither of them are really that good at dancing but they ARE really good at holding each other and laughing with each other and being mega in love
#im blaming my new obsession with 10 things i hate about you for that song getting stuck in my head#it spawned this daydream tbh#may strikes me as like#a dream (or nightmare) combo of kat stratford and patrick verona ngl#she has the vibes of both#ship : nonamay#oc : may costa#oc : nona darnell#wip : the nona incident!
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three months later and i still think it wouldve been the funniest thing in the universe if daigo and masato were A Thing at any point in time
#masadai#snap chats#i made that initial post in november and man.... brainrot got worse i may not show it but i think of them every night#like Obvious Emos Is Obvious but theyre such funny ârivalsâ if i can even label them like that#like they never had personal beef with each other but my brain can justify comparing them enough to make it seem legit enough#i blame my brother actually he put the brainrot back in my head with shit he said tonight#we were just joking around and talking about how funny itd be if aoki showed up after every one of daigos cringe fail moments#and its like. At The Funeral daigo sitting alone with mitsuo and he just kinda turns around#bro all âyeah yk in retrospect he made me think of an old friend of mine.. ambitious.. had pretty bad trust issues... capitalistâ#and mitsuo just squinting like â...sir do you have a type im very concerned about your typeâ and then daigo has a mental breakdown#denyin it like No Its Different Mitsu Please... but majima on the other side of the room like#HES A FREAK I KNEW IT YOURE JUST LIKE THE REST OF US DAI-CHAN#MY BROTHER REALLY WAS LIKE âand now mitsuo has to explain to ichiban why the chairman has his head in its hands#and its cause he kinkshamed him at the funeralâ LIKE ???? NEVER EXPECTED MY CONSIDERABLY-MORE-NORMAL-THAN-ME BROTHER TO SAY THAT#WHEN I SAY I GASPED#daigos kink is capitalists you hate to see it#i dont have steam or time to draw anymore we just have to take my insane ramblings instead#im forcing images into peoples brains one way or another#so if you see me make more masadai text posts. SORRY#i just like smacking my faves against each other like barbie dolls
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i'm thinking about the sunchildren again bc enkanomiya ost is my go-to study music.
Like Ion for example was someone who was inept with telling people's fortunes, but on his grave, it's written "he failed to predict his own short life." Tbh, based on the one conversation we get to have with his Sunshadow, where he tells us that many people of Enkanomiya have such poor luck so he chooses to lie to them instead, I feel that Ion must have known about his death. He doesn't know the context of it or why this is the case, but in that short span of life, he may have just wanted to make people happy, even if it meant lying about their fortunes.
Or Rikoru who was manipulated to believe Aberaku was trying to kill him when it was the one who manipulated him that would be the cause of his death. Aberaku was trying to speak up against the Jibashiri using a child as a puppethead over the rest of Enkanomiya, but of course, the Jibashiri would jail him and tell Rikoru that Aberaku was wrong and that he's just trying to threaten Rikoru. Plus, Rikoru being the first sunchild -- it makes me wonder how did the Jibashiri manage him first, setting a basis of how to treat the Sunchildren before tending to the others. I just wish that there was more information regarding the Jibashiri to understand them more.
#will probably come back to this later to ramble more i just really love the sunchildren#im just sad bc idk anyone else who loves them the way i do#my heart breaks everytime i go through my notes and remember finding the kids to talk to#and then just...#bc up to that point EVERYONE around enkanomiya including hteir caretaker clymene#all agreed that the sunchildren were bad - they pinned all the bad things that happened on the sunchildren#even though THEY WERE BEING MANIPULATED BY THE JIBASHIRI#like where is the argument against the jibashiri? ig its easier to blame a kid than an authority figure who could kill you in an instant#but ... that makes me really sad#ion is probably one of my faves mostly because he reminds me of two of my ocs - sheila and estrella#like i wonder how much these kids are told of the past sunchildren before they come to power#did ion know that the past sunchildren used to be so deeply hated?#i think we only know the first and last sunchildren - rikoru and orepeusu respectively#so ion wouldve/may have heard of the hatred the people held for their power#WHICH MAKES THE WHOLE 'I WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY' IDEA HURT ALL THE MORE....#snow speaks#enkanomiya#yeah....i just....i wish i could talk more about it.... make ideas w someone#i have other peoples fics to help me but ow ow ow ow ow ow ow#also im pretty sure i read most of the ones i had saved.... so now im out
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reverting back to my 13yo self
#by this i mean using kpop idols to motivate me to do stuff lol#when i was 13 i used a pic of snsd seohyun being mad watching a student sleep in class as my ipod homescreen#and wrote âseohyun would be disappointed in youâ so i would not use my ipo during class#and now i'm 20 printing a pic of le sserafim sakura with something she said during an interview at the bottom#she said âeffort is a shield to protect yourselfâ#i sometimes have trouble putting effort in things cause i fear doing my best and it not being good enough#i absolutely hate that i do this like me not applying myself to things is probably number one source of my anxiety#cause it turns out that because of not putting in effort things are rarely good enough for me since i know that i could do better#so i just get more frustrated and angry at myself#so this quote really resonated with me: putting effort into things is a shield from my own (and others) criticism#if i know that i did my best then i can't keep blaming myself for whatever shortcomings there may be#maybe it's a bit silly to print it out with a pic of sakura and put it in my wall#but i wanted that quote to be somwhere i'm looking at frequently so i can be reminded of it and the pic serves to drive my eyes to it#plus i don't mind being silly it's what we humans are made to be#my post
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Ok but
Why is that response towards demon shit
Your trauma responses once kept you safe. Thank them, then gently let them know their job is done. It's time to grow.
#between markipliers FAITH and tboi#you would THINK im fucking immune to pentagrams#well#lets just say the real world hates my username#and my username meaning âneither heaven nor hell may have jurisdiction upon meâ is just#yeah#i may be to blame for so. so many world evebts#mental health#<- why isnt it workign
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