#You deserve the world

[ceristhefallen]

I'M GONNA CRY...

The themes of regret, grief, and guilt have been in my mind lately, particularly regarding my sweet angel child-Damian.

It’s a pretty consistent theme in the comics that Damian believes he is not good enough, he’s a monster, that he’s not like his father or siblings, and that he’s full of uncontrollable anger, malice, and spite.

And while of course each batkid (and especially Bruce) have their own unique experiences with guilt and regret, I can’t help but imagine what all of that must feel like to a kid so young, who is incredibly skilled and highly intelligent, yet also very naive in a way that a child is about the world and their place in it.

Damian is frustrated when people don’t understand his harshness and his intense motivations, as it creates a barrier in the way he relates to his family. Additionally, he is barely able to step out of his own perspective as a child, preteen, and even young teenager to understand other people’s ways and motivations. This would certainly be incredibly isolating, having this drive and intensity you were tortured to develop and that you are now being told is wrong even though that’s all you know. But more than anything, he just wants to please someone, and it feels like they just keep misunderstanding him. This, of course, is not to say they didn’t try. Dick, Alfred and Bruce are his heroes for a damn good reason, but it took a great deal of time and constant redirection.

Even now, as an early teen, he’s still struggling with maintaining all the work he’s done on himself to reframe his self image and control his emotions. YOU KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS FOR A 14/15 YEAR OLD TO CONTROL THEIR EMOTIONS?!?!

Do you know how much guilt and regret that must take, to keep him on track?

His desire to please is so strong because each small bit of praise that he earns reinforces this very feeble idea that, maybe, just maybe, he is good, and is doing something right. Each time he hears these things, it slowly erodes that constant weight on his tiny little shoulders of the guilt he carries everyday.

I can’t help but think of all the times he pleaded with himself and some high figure or something to “please, make me good like Richard. Help me be better. Help me be like Father. Please, please please” as silent sobs gripped his tiny frame and tears poured down onto his pillow.

Or all the times where he is sketching or training or just trying to exist and is hit with a wave of guilt as he has a flashback about his time in the league or even his early days in Gotham. Those are the days when his sketches get crumped because “it’s not worth it to even try to create something beautiful” in those moments. And how he refuses to wrap his hands as he hits the punching bag over and over again, feeling a small bit of relief at every spilt knuckle because “I deserve this pain” is all he can think.

Still til this day, as nightmares come and go, he lies there in bed and repeats to himself that “yes, that was me, i did kill, i did slaughter”, and even though what he just experienced in his dream wasn’t real, it was all at one time very, very real.

There were times when he wouldn’t eat breakfast after he lay up all night, coming to terms with his past self, reasoning that breakfast is for people that deserve it. He must instead punish his body for the its sins. Seeking comfort to placate his conscious was weakness as well. He did his best to hide his guilt and suffering from Dick and Alfred and Bruce, as it was not their cross to bear.

What he forgets, and still often forgets, is that he is and was just a child. And what he is trying to learn is that everyone has regrets, but we are not our past, we are our efforts to create a better future self. It gets a little better each day. He is trying.

At least now, he has given himself the permission to seek out the love and comfort he so desperately craves. When he silently pads into Bruce’s room at night, Bruce understands. They don’t speak, not then at least, but Damian no longer constantly denies himself the goodness that he is learning he deserves.

[eggsdoodz]

i love u

[writersmorgue]

LOOK AT HER SMILING AND HAVING FUN WITH FRIENDS I'M GONNA CRY

[goldcoasthoney]

Start rooting for yourself the way you do for others. You have no doubt that people you love will have a beautiful life because you’re convinced they deserve it. Now apply that same irrational faith to yourself.

[jordynbreeloa777]

Why manifest by a “certain deadline?” You have everything you want NOW.⏱️

Why set limits on yourself to manifest this desire “in a week”or this desire is “bigger so I’ll manifest it in a “month” like what? Do you not know how stupid you sound. If you truly knew about the law, you wouldn’t be saying stuff to yourself like this. If so, the only reason is that your desires should never take more than 3 days to manifest. PERIOD. IF NOT, don’t get discouraged. But Neville Goddard specifically quotes “that for this world, the realization is 3 days” Keep a mindset like that. YOU ALWAYS MANIFEST IN 3 DAYS OR LESS. YOU HAVE ALL YOUR DESIRES RIGHT NOW BECAUSE YOUR CHOOSING TO HAVE FAITH IN THE LAW, AND THE UNSEEN. NEVER, like I don’t ever want to hear you guys say “oh to manifest a dollar will take me 2 days, but a million dollars will take me 3 months.” If that’s your mindset, and your dominant belief you have, which is to put unneeded limiting beliefs on yourself. No desire or manifestation is “big or small” instant results is 100% real even if it’s not in the 3D yet, remember that’s not our goal we want to have it in our imagination since that is truly the only real reality. Happy Manifesting!💝💝

[crimson-and-clover-1717]

It breaks me that two of Ed’s reasons for what he likes about living are on the very bottom rung of Maslow’s hierarchy of needs. And even intimacy (level 3) is phrased in such a way it might as well be.

Warmth? Fucking warmth? Ed may as well say - Reasons I like living: I enjoy breathing.

This is the traumatised boy speaking.

Ed’s list is reptilian-brain survival.

The thing is, Ed knows humans need more than this in order to thrive which is why he states his con as ‘I don’t think anyone’s waiting for me’.

But I think it does show Ed wants to live. He’ll take the bare minimum rather than set a high bar. He lists very achievable things.

Even if it’s for basic reasons, even if no one is waiting for him, a part of Ed really, really wants to live.

[becauseheartsgetbroken-hs]

the most precious boy

[evilwizard]

if you were truly evil you would smite me from this earth

NYANCRIMEW????!!!!!

[earth-orbit]

literally the type of hug people need to give to our precious boy. vessel, i believe you did your best, remember that you're so loved, sweetheart

[bubblegumflavor]

🩷🩷🩷 Happy Birthday Johnny Lawrence 🩷🩷🩷

[positivelypositive]

❄️

here to remind you...

...that you deserve all the good that comes your way and more.

your mistakes are meant to help you learn how to be a better person. they aren't meant to punish you for life or to take away your joy.

let yourself move on from your past mistakes. you deserve happiness ✨

[eggsdoodz]

:-)

[princegeorgeofwales]

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY TO HRH PRINCE GEORGE ALEXANDER LOUIS OF WALES🎉🇬🇧🎂����💙🎉🇬🇧🎂👑💙

[strawberrycowtime]

quick scribble to get rid of the art juices. i did in fact reference the mario bros they are the ones who inspired this post/drawing

og photo

[jordynbreeloa777]

“ why are you worried about how or when you’ll get to Barbados when you’re already In Barbados? “

[lockheed-martin-unofficial]

Need to hear Ratchet laughing maniacally. Or at least just a genuine, unhinged laugh. I think he deserves it after all he’s been through.

Specifically TFP because that’s what I watched in full, but also every version of him.