#Yg!Sam

[lung-worm2023]

I made an Yg Au where the main cast is different. Let me show you.

It’s not like most of my other Maincast aus. Because most of them are just character swaps. But it’s different characters AND magic in this one.

I don’t have a name yet so if y’all have any suggestions let me know :3

[Their powers are in the alts]

[captainpirateface]

"Trump on the Loo" by Jim'll Paint it

"Uncle Sam" by Alex Ross

[black-pink-soul]

Let's PROTECT JENNIE!!!

Here the thig...many people were excited that Jennie got her first role in american project and with famous director ("euphoria" tv series) BUT our fandom cant just enjoy the moment quietly)) a big article came out in Rolling Stone magazine about how terrible things were on the set and that Sam Levinson is a creepy pervert and there were unacceptable things in script. There were also a little bit about Jennie an luckily there wasn't outright bad stuff but what's written doesn't evoke good emotions either. It said that Jennie was called in for hype and ended up giving her just a few words in each episode and her main job was to "to sit and be pretty". It's not awful on top of everything else and its even good that she wasn't involved in questionable scenes BUT who's that going to stop? Jennie gets sued for minor things so you don't have to work hard to imagine how much dirt she'll get for participating in such scandalous project (if it shows up on screen HBO still haven't announce premier date). So if you reading this post and you care about Jennie let's start a big campaign to support her right now. She's not responsible for what all this has turned into, she was given an interesting offer and decided to try something new. Remembering the scandal (over the questionable hairstyle) that arose after she appeared in trailer for a few seconds its scary to think what will happen now. Let's be united wall behind her back right now and if we can't stop other people's hatred we can show the power of our love and support!

[witchblade]

jennies like super duper in that show like enough for gifsets how did this happen

[pearlprincess02]

playlist for: TAURUS EDITION

part 1 for more artist

BY TAURUS MOON

"touch" - nct 127 / “warrior” - demi lovato / “dark side” - kelly clarkson / "impossible" - christina aguilera / "terrified" - childish gambino / “wait a minute” - the pussycat dolls / “confident” - demi lovato / "from home" - nct u / “pity party” - melanie martinez / "stand tall" - childish gambino / "find you" - nick jonas / “my life would suck without you” - kelly clarkson / "beautiful" - christina aguilera / “soap” - melanie martinez / "3005" - childish gambino / “give your heart a break” - demi lovato / "remember i told you" - nick jonas (feat. anne-marie, mike posner) / "walk away" - christina aguilera / “because of you” - kelly clarkson / “moonlight mile” - the rolling stones / “stone cold” - demi lovato / "bacon" - nick jonas (feat. ty dolla $ign) / "feels like summer" - childish gambino / "underappreciated" - christina aguilera / “dollhouse” - melanie martinez / “beep” - the pussycat dolls / “angie”- the rolling stones / "summertime magic" - childish gambino / “carousel” - melanie martinez / "teacher" - nick jonas / “i don’t need a man” - the pussycat dolls / “brown sugar” - the rolling stones / "numb" - nick jonas (feat. angel haze)

MORE SONGS (JUST VIBES)

"adorn" - miguel / "golden" - harry styles / "harvest moon" - neil young / "latch" - disclosure (feat. sam smith) / "stay" - rihanna (feat. mikky ekko) / "best part" - daniel caesar (feat. h.e.r.) / "the weekend" - sza / "electric feel" - mgmt / "sedona" - houndmouth / "crave you" - flight facilities (feat. giselle)

BY 2ND HOUSE MOONS

“i will” - mitski / “as if it’s your last” - blackpink / “salute” - little mix / “be the one” - dua lipa / “no excuses” - meghan trainor / “drunk dialing…lodt” - summer walker / “the good side” - troye sivan / “first love / late spring” - mitski / “love me like you” - little mix / “dear future husband” - meghan trainor / “physical” - dua lipa / “playing games” - summer walker / “love to hate me” - blackpink / “sweet leaf” - black sabbath / “me too” - meghan trainor / “drunk walk home” - mitski / “levitating” - dua lipa feat. dababy / “i’ll kill you” - summer walker (feat. jhené aiko) / “move” - little mix / “lost boy” - jaden / “planet caravan” - black sabbath / "reflection" - christina aguilera / “a pearl” - mitski / “hopeless romantic” - meghan trainor / “girls need love” - summer walker / “new rules” - dua lipa / “i” - jaden / “secret love song” - little mix (feat. jason derulo) / “wild” - troye sivan / “fluff” - black sabbath / “better when i’m dancin’” - meghan trainor / “happy” - mitski / “thinking ’bout you” - dua lipa / "hurt" - christina aguilera

MORE SONGS (JUST VIBES)

"ridin' solo" - jason derulo / "fancy" - iggy azalea (feat. charli xcx) / "royals" - lorde / "money" - pink floyd / "material girl" - madonna / "rich girl" - hall & oates / "billionaire" - travie mccoy (feat. bruno mars) / "gold digger" - kanye west (feat. jamie foxx) / "luxurious" - gwen stefani / "uptown funk" - mark ronson (feat. bruno mars)

taurus moon playlist (honorable mention : moon - venus aspects)

BY TAURUS VENUS

“and i love her” - the beatles / “breathin” - ariana grande / “change of heart” - cyndi lauper / “moonlight” - exo-k / “sativa” - jhené aiko (feat. swae lee) / "a&w" - lana del ray / “let it be” - the beatles / "purple rain" - prince / "panorama" - iz*one / “god is a woman” - ariana grande / “what is love” - exo-k / “love” - lana del rey / “when you were mine” - cyndi lauper / “comfort inn ending (freestyle)” - jhené aiko / “in my life” - the beatles / “love me harder” - ariana grande (feat. the weeknd) / “xoxo” - exo-k / “ride” - lana del rey / “i drove all night” - cyndi lauper / "l.a.love (la la)" - fergie (feat. yg) / "thats what i want" - lil nas x / "let's go crazy" - prince / “here, there and everywhere” - the beatles / “my turn to cry” - exo-k / “needy” - ariana grande / “true colors” - cyndi lauper / “blue jeans” - lana del rey / "clumsy" - fergie / "rodeo" - lil nas x (feat. cardi b) / “love me right” - exo-k / “positions” - ariana grande / “time after time” - cyndi lauper / "glamorous" - fergie (feat. ludacris) / “national anthem” - lana del rey / “i want to hold your hand” - the beatles / cream - prince / holiday - lil nas x / “money changes everything” - cyndi lauper / “born to die” - lana del rey / "big girls don't cry (personal)" - fergie /

MORE SONGS (JUST VIBES)

"from the dining table" - harry styles / "make you feel my love" - adele / “sweetest thing” - lauryn hill / “so into you” - tamia / “love on top” - beyoncé / “crush” - yuna (feat. usher) / "liability" - lorde / "1965" - zella day / "lover" - taylor swift /

BY 2ND HOUSE VENUSES

“no surprises” - radiohead / "otherside" - red hot chili peppers / “good old days” - macklemore (feat. kesha) / “neon lights” - demi lovato / “don’t know what to do” - blackpink / “all i need”- radiohead / "dani california" - red hot chili peppers / “hymn” - kesha / “blessings” - big sean (feat. drake, kanye west) / “cool for the summer” - demi lovato / “reckoner” - radiohead / "by the way" - red hot chili peppers / “forever young” - blackpink / “your song” - elton john / “woman” - kesha (feat. the dap-kings horns) / “savage mode” - 21 savage & metro boomin / “i don’t fuck with you” - big sean (feat. e-40) / “videotape” - radiohead / "californication" - red hot chili peppers / “don’t go breaking my heart” - elton john & kiki dee / “you never know” - blackpink / “bank account” - 21 savage / “boots” - kesha / “lotus flower” - radiohead / “skyscraper” - demi lovato / my last - big sean / “crazy over you” - blackpink / “out for the night” - 21 savage / “someone saved my life tonight” - elton john / “guap” - big sean / “sorry not sorry” - demi lovato / “whistle” - blackpink / “monster” - 21 savage & metro boomin / “single again” - big sean

MORE SONGS (JUST VIBES)

“thinking out loud” - ed sheeran / “earned it” - the weeknd / “stay with me” - sam smith / “let’s stay together” - al green / “you are the best thing” - ray lamontagne / “lovely day” - bill withers / “i will always love you” - whitney houston

taurus venus playlist

OTHER TAURUS PLAYLIST

taurus sun playlist (honorable mention : sun in 2nd house, sun - venus aspects)

taurus rising playlist (honorable mention : venus in 1st house, venus - asc aspects , venus dominants)

main masterlist

©pearlprincess0

[wedangrondehangat]

Saling Mendidik

Pernikahan itu sangat unik.

Sebelum menikah, saya seringkali melihat dalam rumah tangga orang lain bagaimana seorang suami mengatur istrinya, dari mulai penampilan hingga hal-hal detail dan kompleks lainnya. Ya, mungkin lebih tepatnya mendidik, bukan mengatur.

Pernah melihat status seorang teman bagaimana suaminya kerap mengingatkannya soal memakai kaos kaki jika keluar rumah.

Teman lainnya ada yang membuat caption bangga pada istrinya yang tetap menggunakan kaos kaki meski sedang berjalan menyusuri tepi pantai yang basah.

Saya kerap menunggu momen-momen itu terjadi dalam pernikahan saya. Namun, yang terjadi agaknya malah sebaliknya.

Saya kerap yang mengingatkan suami soal kaos kaki harus yang menutup lutut jika mau keluar futsal, kalau shalat usahakan jangan cuma kaosan, tapi pakai kemeja atau baju koko, dan lain-lain.

Suami saya juga sering sekali di pagi hari sebelum barangkat kerja bertanya, "hari ini aku pakai kemeja yg mana?" Atau ketika mau pergi kondangan, "aku pakai baju yang mana?" Atau saat mau ke mall, "aku kaosan aja atau kemeja?"

Kesannya tuh kenapa sih dia kayak manja? Kenapa jadi saya yang harus mikir? Kenapa dia nggak cari aja di gantungan baju yang sudah saya setrika? Kenapa saya terkesan jadi yang dominan? Kenapa harus saya atur pakaiannya, bukannya harusnya dia yang mengatur saya?

Maha baik Allah tahu bagaimana kepribadian saya, tahu bagaimana saya kurang nyaman jika diatur-atur. Maha Besar Allah mengatur pertemuan antara dua insan. Allah Maha Tahu segala-galanyalah atas segala tanya mengapa dua orang insan dipersatukan.

Rupanya dalam pernikahan ini justru saya yang terkesan banyak mengatur. Itu jika orang luar yang melihatnya. Padahal sejatinya hal itu terjadi karena suami saya mempercayakan sepenuhnya dan apa-apanya kepada saya.

Hingga suatu hari tante saya bercerita tentang perceraian temannya. Ini nyata. Mereka berpisah karena mungkin ini hal yang terdengar sepele; karena sang suami sangat mengatur istrinya, mulai dari model baju yang dipakai hingga kacamata yang hendak dibeli sang istri.

Tante saya menyarankan agar bertahan apalagi karena penyebabnya yang dinilai cukup sepele. Terlebih lagi sang istri tidak bekerja sementara mereka punya anak-anak yang masih sekolah. Namun, akhirnya keduanya berpisah.

Sang istri sempat ingin rujuk karena secara ekonomi jadi kekurangan, tetapi suaminya tak mau karena mungkin terlanjur sakit hati dan akhirnya menikah lagi dengan perempuan lain. Saking dendamnya sampai-sampai saat mengirimkan uang untuk anaknya harus didokumentasikan, ia tak ingin mantan istrinya memperoleh sepersenpun.

Pernikahan dan permasalahan di dalamnya itu unik. Bagaimana dari kerisihan karena suami yang sangat pengatur membuat sang istri menggunggat cerai meski akhirnya ingin rujuk namun akhirnya tetap berpisah.

"Beginilah mba kalau menikah. Tante aja nggak boleh potong rambut padahal udah gerah banget rambut panjang gini. Tapi om gak suka kalau tante potong yaudah nurut aja."

Tante juga bilang bahwa masih banyak permasalahan berat lainnya yang perlu kita hadapi dan kita pikirkan solusinya di zaman yang kian edan ini. Banyak masalah umat yang perlu diselesaikan. Kata tante, hal-hal remeh kayak gini mending udah dituruti aja deh kemauannya suami.

Meskipun memang nggak bisa menyamaratakan yang bagi kita sepele, bagi orang lain mungkin nggak sepele.

Hanya saja tante memilih untuk mengikuti apa yang suaminya inginkan tanpa meributkannya. Toh hanya perkara rambut, sepele bagi dirinya. Tante lebih banyak menghabiskan waktunya untuk mengurus umat.

Kembali lagi dengan yang terjadi dalam pernikahan saya, patut banyak-banyak syukur bagaimana pun uniknya pernikahan kita sendiri.

Adapun saya haturkan terima kasih sepenuh hati kepada suami saya yang telah mempercayakan banyak hal pada saya; rumah, keuangan, masakan, pakaian, hingga keputusan-keputusan rumit dalam kehidupan. Ia selalu melibatkan saya dan semoga selalu demikian.

Sekali lagi, pernikahan itu unik. Mau suami ataupun istri, sama-sama bertugas mengingatkan. Suami memang perlu mendidik istrinya, tetapi ketika suami salah, istri perlu juga untuk mengingatkannya.

Kenali bagaimana ego pasangan kita, kenali cara terbaik menyampaikan maksud kita padanya, kenali cara berdiskusi yang ia sukai.

Suami ataupun istri sama-sama berperan saling mengingatkan dalam kebaikan sebagaimana tugas kita kepada sesama muslim.

Catatan ini terlebih dahulu saya tujukan kepada diri saya sendiri.

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Masih di Jatinangor, 8 Juni 2023

[whatever-vi-is-thinking]

just to get back on my bullshit 🤭🤭:

mcu bucky would have to end up with a black woman. I’M SORRY THATS JUST HOW IT IS I DONT MAKE THE RULES GUYS. I mean rly think about it tho hear me out:

he spent TWO YEAAARSS of his life in Wakanda and didn’t see not one bad b he wanted? yea okay whatever u say 💀

ONE OF HIS BEST FRIENDS IS THE MF FALCON. and as soon as he meets sams family what does he do? flirt with his gorgeous brown skin sister. need i say more? I SAID NEED I SAY MORE 🗣️🗣️🗣️

idk if ygs know who grandpa ken is on tiktok but thats bucky. look him up if you dont know BC YOU WILL AGREE!!!!! (alternatively you could disagree but then you would be wrong so like)

mcu please cast gail richards as a black woman thats literally all i want pls ill give a kidney and maybe a piece of my liver for it.

alr im done ill get off my lil soap box now 🤗

also guys no one have hurt feelings over this post pls. it is just in good fun and a personal opinion do NOT attack me bc i think he needs a black gf 😭… and technically gail richards is captain americas ex fiance so i feel like thats a slightly more pressing matter than me thinking kevin feige needs to make her black.

[1000-year-old-virgin]

200 Best Songs of 2023

Janine - If I Call *FAVE SONG OF THE YEAR*

Kim Petras - Brrr

Sam Smith, Koffee, Jessie Reyez - Gimme

ILIRA - Work of Art

Joseph - Nervous System

Mariah the Scientist ft. 21 Savage - 77 degrees

PinkPantheress & Ice Spice – Boy's a liar Pt. 2

Ryan Destiny - Lie Like That

Latto ft. LU KALA - Lottery

Chrissy Chlapecka - I'm So Hot

Ashnikko - Don't Look at It

serpentwithfeet - Gonna Go

Don Toliver ft. Lil Durk & GloRilla- Leave The Club

Don Toliver ft. James Blake - Let Her Go

Miley Cyrus - Flowers

Miley Cyrus - River

Meghan Trainor - Mother

Ice Spice & Nicki Minaj - Princess Diana (Remix)

Melanie Martinez - DEATH

Natalie Jane - Seeing You With Other Girls

Amelia Moore feat. jxdn - FUMD

Ashnikko - You Make Me Sick!

Flo Milli ft. Lola Brooke & Maiya The Don - Conceited (Remix)

Flo Milli ft. Monaleo & Gloss Up - Bed Time (Remix)

Astrid S - Come First

Ashnikko - Want It All

salem ilese - PainHub

Libianca ft. Ayra Starr & Omah Lay - People (Remix)

Labrinth ft. Billie Eilish - Never Felt So Alone

Katie Belle - The Best You'll Ever Have

Emilie Nicolas - Everyday

Donna Missal - Flicker

Donna Missal - Out of Me

Donna Missal - Move Me

Donna Missal - God Complex

Donna Missal - I Saw God

LØLØ ft. girlfriends- 5,6,7,8

Jackson Wang & Ciara - Slow

Troye Sivan - Can't Go Back, Baby

Baby Tate & Saweetie - Hey, Mickey! (Remix)

Shania Twain - Number One

Shania Twain - Got It Good

Empress Of ft. Rina Sawayama - Kiss Me

NLE Choppa ft. SexyyRed / Sukihana - Slut Me Out (Remix)

Maggie Lindemann, Siiickbrain - deprecating

Ed Sheeran - The Hills of Aberfeldy

Rita Ora ft. Fatboy Slim Praising You (Fatboy Slim Remix)

Tyla & Ayra Starr - Girl Next Door

Kesha - Only Love Can Save Us Now

Ciara ft. Lola Brooke & Lady London - Da Girls (Girls Mix)

Jeremy Zucker - OK

CXLOE - Flight Risk

Josh Levi - See Low

Josh Levi - BIRTHDAY DANCE

Alex Vaughn & Summer Walker - So Be It (Remix)

Alex Vaughn & Ari Lennox - Demon Time (Remix)

Taylor Swift ft. Ice Spice - Karma (Remix)

Taylor Swift ft. Lana Del Rey - Snow On The Beach (More Lana Del Rey Edit)

Boris The Lucid - BOYFRIEND

Carrie Underwood - Take Me Out

Libianca - Jah

Conan Gray - Never Ending Song

The Aces - Always Get This Way

Madison Beer ft. Timbaland - Home To Another One (Remix)

Äyanna - Girlfriend

Nicki Minaj & Ice Spice ft. Aqua – Barbie World

Rita Ora - That Girl

Rita Ora - Unfeel It

Tanerelle - Feel Good Inc. X Sidetracked (Perfect Lover Mash Up)

Sleater-Kinney - Hell

Saweetie ft. YG & Tyga - BIRTHDAY

Mae Stephens ft. Meghan Trainor - Mr Right

Brooke Candy - FMUATW

Ben Kessler - When I Hate Myself

Eliott ft. Vancouver Sleep Clinic - Happy On My Own

Reneé Rapp - Pretty Girls

Leah Kate - Bored

Chappell Roan - HOT TO GO!

Rina Sawayama ft. Amaarae - Imagining

GAYLE - Leave Me For Dead

Selena Gomez - Single Soon

Äyanna - Change Your Life

Julia Wolf - Wishbone

Cloudy June - Devil Is A Woman

Anne-Marie ft. Shania Twain - UNHEALTHY

Leaf ft. Bandmanrill, DJ Drewski - 2 Freaky

Olivia O'Brien - I should've fucked your brother

SIIICKBRAIN - Psychopath

Adekunle Gold - Do You Mind?

Duncan Laurence - I Do

Dizzy - Open Up Wide

Leigh-Anne ft. Ayra Starr - My Love

Troye Sivan – Got Me Started

Cate - Girlfriend

NERIAH - Falling 4 Somebody

Cardi B ft. Megan Thee Stallion - Bongos

Amelia Moore - Over My Ex

Johnny Orlando - Boyfriend

Tyla - Water

Tems - Me & U

Mette - Mama's Eyes

Wrabel - Beautiful Day

Chxrry22 - MORE

Norah Jones - Can You Believe

Kanii ft. Trippie Redd - sins (let me in) [Remix]

Niall Horan & Lizzy McAlpine - You Could Start A Cult (Encore Version)

Travis Scott ft. Beyoncé - DELRESTO (ECHOES)

Addison Rae ft. Charli XCX - 2 Die 4

Gyakie - Rent Free

Kim Petras - Hit It From The Back

Kim Petras ft. Banks - Bait

Kim Petras - Dirty Things

K. Michelle - Blame Yourself

Sunnitharapper ft. Salma Slims - Moody

Troye Sivan - One of Your Girls

Lady London ft. Jeremih - Do Something

Zara Larsson, David Guetta - On My Love

cassö, RAYE, D-Block Europe - Prada

Serpentwithfeet- Damn Gloves

Dove Cameron - Still

Kenya Grace - Paris

Dua Lipa - Houdini

Tokischa ft. Sexyy Red - Daddy

Zach Seabaugh - Helium Balloons

COBRAH - 10/10

COBRAH - BAD POSITION

COBRAH - TEQUILA

Clinton Kane - PANIC ATTACK

Megan Thee Stallion - Cobra

Nick Wilson - For You It Was Him

Nick Wilson - Way Back

Ice Spice - Deli

Enchanting - Needy

SZA - Kill Bill

Kylie Minogue - Padam Padam

Summer Walker - Girls Need Love (Girls Mix) ft. Tyla / Victoria Monet / Tink

Tate McRae - exes

Tove Lo - I like u

Kim Petras - Je T'Adore

Doechii - Booty Drop

Kim Petras - Claws

Sam Smith & Madonna - VULGAR

Kim Petras - uhoh

Borgore x Cupcakke x Chase Icon - Abracadabra

Clinton Kane - DISAPPEAR

Nicki Minaj - Big Difference

Nicki Minaj - Pink Friday Girls

Charli XCX ft. Sam Smith - In The City

Reneé Rapp ft. Megan Thee Stallion - Not My Fault

Flo Milli - Never Lose Me

Kim Petras - Thousand Pieces

Kim Petras - Minute

Charli XCX - Speed Drive (jamesjamesjames Remix)

Chrissy Chlapecka - BRAT

The Last Dinner Party - My Lady of Mercy

Shania Twain - Waking Up Dreaming

Nicki Minaj - Fallin 4 U

Jessie Ware ft. Pabllo Vittar -Pearls (Brabo Remix)

Shania Twain - Queen Of Me

Chiké, Oxlade - Spell [Remix]

Anycia - REFUND

Lah Pat ft. Flo Milli - Rodeo (Remix)

Biig Piig - This Is What They Meant

Niall Horan - Save My Life

Bronze Avery - Sex In The Room

Ava Max - Cold As Ice

Peach PRC - F U Goodbye

Suzanne Sheer - Off Limits

Nicki Minaj - FTCU

Madison Rose - Girls Girls Girls

Kaliii ft. GloRilla - Can't Get 'Em

BIA - FALLBACK

Miley Cyrus - Jaded

Kylie Minogue - You Still Get Me High

Miley Cyrus - Violet Chemistry

Miley Cyrus ft. Sia - Muddy Feet

Bebe Rexha - Visions (Don't Go)

Coi Leray - My Body

Coi Leray ft. Saucy Santana - Spend It

Maiya The Don - Luv U Better

The Last Dinner Party - Nothing Matters

IDK ft. Jucee Froot & Saucy Santana - Pinot Noir

Tinashe - Uh Huh

Nicki Minaj - Beep Beep

Nicki Minaj - Pink Birthday

Bella Poarch - Bad Boy

Nicki Minaj - My Life

Trippie Redd & BANKS - Saint Michael Myers

Tamera - Frozen

Shygirl & CoSha - Thicc

Ari Lennox - Get Close

Flo Milli - Fruit Loop

Mette - For The People

Amaarae - Angels in Tibet

Jamila Woods ft. Saba - Practice

Rachel Chinouriri - Maybe I’m Lonely

Jonah Kagen - Save My Soul

The OMG Girlz - Lover Boy

Karin Ann - A Stranger With My Face

Victoria Monet - Alright

Paige - Aquarian

2022's List

[heyimflame]

Your Generic Scenerios Plans till Episode 6

As I have mentioned before. Episode's 1-5 were supposed to be the preperation state for YGS. Figure out how well I work, the style, everything of the sorts. Now that all thats over. It's time to get real.

Here's some things I plan on focusing on before Episode 6 is decided and starts production.

Figure out Backgrounds and make them as consistant as possible.

Make a new art for the Webtoon Thumbnails

Fully map out the town and layouts.

Ref Images for the main 10, as well as the characters that made minor apperances (Sam, Jamie, Sarah, Axel, Katelyn, Jayden (and Jayline tbh), Harmony, Tracy, Simmone, and Vivian.) It's a lot lmao.

Figure out Shading. It's not gonna be a lot of shading lol.

I'm not gonna work on Ep6 till this junk is done.

But I will work on..

Streaming finally lmao

More rendered art (Spesifically YGS Related)

Pokémon Reemerged (maybe)

Commissions (They will open back up soon, I just wanna update the Comm Sheet and add more options for y'all cus y'all deserve it ;] )

Music stuff

Also other OC stuff :]

2025 is gonna be a big year for me lol

[ladystoneboobs]

y’know, whatever the true parentage of aegon vi aka young griff, in a way he is more like rhaegar than jon snow is. by which i mean their attempts to force themselves into archetypal roles, rhaegar as the prophesied hero against supernatural dark forces and yg as the hidden-prince-in-exile come to save the country and restore peace and harmony by taking the throne.

rhaegar’s very existence is owed to a prophecy, when the ghost of high heart said the ptwp would come of aerys/rhaella’s line they were forced to get married by their father. his destiny was decided and agreed before he was born, as just a hypothetical male prince. bc ofc this promised prince must be a son born with a cock, right? no one ever looked for or expected a princess for this. and when he was born during the mysterious tragedy at summerhall, what could be more of a sign that the prophecy was fulfilled? no need to keep waiting for any more kids, anyone further down the line, this baby had such a dramatic entrance he has got to be the specialest boy of all. rhaegar likely knew all of this from a very young age. grandpa jaehaerys ii believed enough to force his kids to marry, so he wouldn’t want this important planning to go to waste by taking it to his grave, now, would he? was rhaegar reading all the time bc his favorite genre was old prophecy scrolls or was he always doing homework to become the hero he knew he already was? does it really matter when either way he never really had much choice in his role in life? one day he finally goes to train with the master-at-arms only bc he realized from his reading that he “must” be a warrior. he became as great at that as he was at anything else, according to ser barry, but he never enjoyed knighthood. 

to me that’s all a far cry from jon, who grew up idolizing daeron the young dragon and dreaming of glory and conquest. jon, who spent most of his waking hours training in the yard even when injured at the end of asos, just bc he didn’t know what else to do and it helped him blow off steam. jon, who had a nostalgic “hunger” in him when hearing the sound of swords in the yard as lc. the same guy who as of acok still couldn’t get why sam would consider old books and crumbling scolls to be treasure. jon, who has nothing but doubts once he does rise to power and herodom as lord commander and can’t conquer them. and most importantly, jon, the hero who chanced into his role as shield guarding the realms of men only bc ned won the fight at the toj after rhaegar died and took him to be raised in the north. if/when jon does return to life and take his place as a heroic head of the dragon, that role can only be his own choice, not one he was raised for his entire life, just as his membership in the night’s watch was ultimately his own choice based on his northern childhood. (jon’s conception may have also been prophecy-related, but beyond that, his path and rhaegar’s sharply diverged.)

know who was shaped for a royal destiny “since before he could walk”, though? that’s right, aegon in essos aka young griff. his destiny was already chosen for him by the schemes of illyrio/varys just as rhaegar’s was by grampy jae ii and other dragon prophecy nerds before him. he studied his scrolls and trained with the royal master-at-arms just as aegon studied in the routines of his entourages and was trained by knights of the golden company.

and, at some point, we know rhaegar realized he wasn’t the ptwp and decided it was his first son, aegon, instead. mostly bc a comet was seen the night of aegon’s conception. i remember seeing a post years ago saying rhaegar must have spotted the comet that night, run naked straight to elia, and declared they had to get babymaking asap bc the comet was a sign too significant to be ignored. a joke post, prob, but i feel like there’s prob a lot of truth to the idea of rhaegar desparetely forcing the signs to add up, concieving a child on that night after he’d already seen the comet rather than just happening to have sex with elia on the same night there just happened to be a comet sighting. i believe this bc why would it all just be lucky coincidence if aegon vi was not the ptwp? lbr now, whether he indeed got his head smashed in by the mountain or was switched out and sent to essos, rhaegar’s elder son was/is not the promised hero. (just like rhaegar himself could not be the pwtp, after all.) a previously-thought-dead-for-16-years newbie with shaky parentage credentials introduced this late in the game is not going to steal both jon’s and dany’s thunder like that, c’mon. so a comet appearing just for his conception feels about as likely as red rahloo actually killing 3 kings just for the sake of frickin’ stannis. it’s even possible that rhaegar later decided aegon might not be the ptwp either and put more stock in dragon head #3 bc of the whole ice and fire union aspect with lyanna. we just don’t have enough info about that part of the story to know for sure. but there’s no suggestion he was unhappy with elia beforehand or that either of them thought she could not bear more children until the maesters actually said so after aegon’s birth. and even if he was “right” about lyanna’s child being the most important one (ew), he was still counting on both aegon and rhaenys to be the other two heads of the dragon, and presumably planned to raise all 3 of them for their destiny together in kl as he had been. in which case his plans utterly failed, because that is just not at all what happened with any of those kids.

in that sense, death is what jon and his bio dad most have in common as they both walked fairly boldly and blindly into their doom. but the circumstances are still a bit different as jon was murdered in a mutiny rather than killed in battle, not to mention his likely resurrection as an actual hero of prophecy. despite being around 10 years older than either jon or aegon is presently, i’d say rhaegar was even more naively overconfident in his plans than jon was in his final moments. to go that quickly and without any known hesitation through each change of plans from simply being ptwp himself to becoming a warrior as well as a weirdo nerd to fathering 3 heads of the dragon to truly fulfill prophecy to organizing a political coup at harrenhal to honoring lyanna instead to eloping with her after aegon’s birth to make her wife #2 and mother of dragon head #3 to riding off to one definitve battle against cousin robert after hiding in his lovenest with lyanna for months, idk, that does not read to me as someone suffering the same questions and doubts jon did in the nw. rhaegar told jaime “when this battle’s done” not “if i return in victory” in their farewell. he had no back-up plans in case of his defeat, leaving elia with aerys and lyanna in the toj, no plans for how to protect either wife or any of his all-important prophesied progeny in the event of his loss, just as he had no immediate plans to deal with aerys yet. (compare that to idealistic young king robb stark, thought to be recklessly honorable and accused of thinking himself invincible in his youth, yet he still managed to make plans for his succession should he die childless in battle, and planned to put his wife and mother in strongholds held by trustworthy (sane) allies who could defend their positions for some time in his absence.) all that only makes sense to me if he always thought he’d still have time for all that later, never truly envisioning the possibility of house targ being overthrown so soon when all his hero kids were still babies. 

after all, whether he was the ptwp himself or only meant to raise the 3 promised dragon heads as heroes, surely their destiny was already written years before and he couldn’t go out in such a mundane way, right? i’d say aegon/yg shows the same kind of overconfidence in going along with all the gc’s changes in planning, from whatever varys/illyrio originally wanted with viserys iii alive to finding dany and marrying her after the birth of her dragons to leaving for an invasion of westeros first to conquer the stormlands himself before wedding dany as equals. he never imagined she could refuse him until tyrion told him so, and imo is still not grasping that his female relation could prove more important than him in westeros with her 3 dragons. rhaegar may have known he was doomed since his tragic birth among so much death and later knew he wasn’t the pwtp, but he likely still expected a higher doom, one as dramatic and magical as his birth at summerhall. he couldn’t imagine his chest being caved in by lyanna’s dumbass ex, his boorish cousin robert, just as aegon/yg can’t know what doom could be in store for him in westeros either. 

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You’ll always be strong to me no matter what.

Sibling bond between the Carpenter sisters!

Tara carpenter has always been the follow up to her older sibling, well not like that exactly. More like how Sam would always carry Tara’s things or most of the groceries herself. Tara insists on helping but Sam always told her the stuff she carries is “too big or “heavy” in her words.

To this day, Tara wished she could prove to Sam that she is just as strong and capable as her.

When it was time to go grocery shopping for this months food, Tara took it as her chance to help out. At first Sam didn’t intend on bringing Tara but the little one wouldn’t stop bugging her about it so she gave in.

(Later)

As they entered the big supermarket, Sam grabbed a cart and headed down the main isle “Ok Tara, stay next to me. I don’t want you getting lost or hurt in this big store.”

Tara grabbed a bag of candy for herself and tossed it in the basket. She folded her arms hearing what her sister said “I’m not a kid anymore Sam, I can handle myself you know?”

Sam smiled “Yes you can Tara, yes you can.”

The first thing on the list was bread which the siblings headed to “Sam. Can I please push the cart?” She shook her head “No Tara, I got it.”

Tara flailed her arms “But Sammmm”

Sam didn’t respond until they got to the bread isle “Most of this stuff I’m getting is pretty heavy Tar. I wouldn’t want you to break your back or drive the cart into the shelf.” Tara sighed “Fine but at least let me get the bread at. I’m sure it’s not “heavy!”

Sam nodded “Tell you what, I’ll let you get some of the items we need then put them in the cart, starting with the bread.”

Tara beamed in joy as she dashed over to the bread. Unfortunately the one they need is at the top shelf out of Tara’s reach “Eh. No matter” the young sibling stood up on her tippy toes, giving her the length she needed to get the bread.

As Tara was about to grab the item, she felt herself hovering over the ground “What the-“ she looked to see her sibling holding her by her legs, smiling “Go on sweetie. Get that bread we need for our breakfast. Two loafs to be exact.” Tara groaned as she got two loafs of bread.

Next up was the 40 pack of water. “I could have gotten the bread myself you know.” Tara said with a pout.

Sam nodded “I know.”

As the siblings made their way to the beverage isle, Tara was about to grab the water before being tugged away by Sam. “No,no,no. This is too heavy for you, I got this.” Tara rolled her eyes

“Sam I can handle-“ before she could finish her sentence, Sam was already lugging two cases of water over her shoulders before quickly dropping them into the basket.

“Sorry what were you going to say?” she asked, wiping some sweat off her forehead. Tara shook her head “Never mind. Let’s just get the rest of the food.”

As the trip went on, getting the rest of the groceries was no struggle but it took longer because Sam was “Doing most of the work” in Tara’s words. As she loaded the last of the items into the basket.

Ironically the only thing Tara got to “help” out with was the bread but that was from her sister’s unneeded boost.” The rest was just her standing off to the side like a kid waiting for their mother to finish shopping.

After the sisters went to check out, an employee loaded the items into the car for them. Her and Sam flirted for 20 mins and Tara had to watch that too, whilst gagging in the process.

“She’s cute. Maybe I’ll call her tonight.” Sam said as she started the car. “Oh brother” Tara said.

The car ride was quiet until Tara connected the phone to the stereo and picked out a song. She was shuffling through her playlist until it randomly selected “I just wanna party” by YG.

Unfortunately she only heard the first minute before Sam disconnected the Bluetooth and changed the station to a cheesy 60’s group. Sam hummed and tapped her fingers on the wheel to the rhythm.

Tara lightly slapped her leg “Aw come on! I was listening to that! What the hell is this hippie shit you put on?”

Sam shot a glare at Tara “Sis that music you were “listening” to is inappropriate and offensive.”

Now Tara was mad “So?! It’s just music, Sam! Put it back, now!”

Sam shook her head “Nope. I’m not listening to that garbage. Honestly I don’t know why you or anyone likes that kind of music. All they do is degrade themselves with their massive ego and treat women like sex toys.”

Tara crossed her arms “Like I said. It’s just music and who the fuck are you to insult my playlist?”

Sam huffed “You insulted my music first and second, maybe you shouldn’t be listening to that genre If all it’s going to do is turn you into a potty mouth.”

Tara laughed “Oh my god you didn’t not just say “potty mouth” I’m not a kid anymore Sam!”

“No but your sure as hell acting like it. I don’t want to argue with you anymore Tar just let me drive home and you can listen to whatever you want.”

Tara hits her head on the door “First you wouldn’t let me help you with the groceries and now you want me to listen to this junk? What a great sister you are Sam.”

Sam shook her head as she drove the last few minutes home. As they got there Tara opened the back door and was about to grab the groceries until Sam swooped them all and the waters “Hey!”

Sam looked down and handed Tara a few bags, light ones to be exact “Sorry, here.” Tara snatched them and went to open the door. She held the door open as Sam made her way to drop off all the items on the counter.

Tara decided to head to her room, seeing as there’s no point in asking to help now. She took her shoes off and laid down on her bed before selecting another track from her playlist.

She was getting into the music before Sam hit the wall “Tara! Do not blast that music out loud. Use the headphones I bought you.

Oh right. She means the “hello kitty” headphones. Surprisingly they worked and sound good when Tara got them but they were for kids and Tara wasn’t a kid.

But she reluctantly put the headphones on and continued to listen to music until Sam knocked on her door and called her for dinner.

Sam made lasagna but as Tara took the big knife to cut it, Sam quickly snatched the knife away and cut Tara a piece. She lightly shoved her sister away “Sam! Will you stop hovering over me and acting like I can’t do anything by myself.”

Sam patted her sister’s shoulder “I just want to make sure my little girl didn’t get a cut on her finger.” Tara gritted her teeth and had to restrain herself from punching Sam in the stomach.

‘Bitch, did you forget I was STABBED SEVEN TIMES while you were in Modesto! Did you forget we fought masked psychos twice who had buck knives?!’ Tara thought.

Sam took the plates over, setting them down and pulling out a chair for Tara to sit, the little sister threw her hands in the air before eating.

Halfway through their meal Tara spoke up “So are you gonna call that girl later?” She teased. Sam smiled “Maybe. If she’s into me.”

Tara laughed “I know she is, you just have to call her.” Before whispering “So you can finally get out of my hair and dump all her mommy protection on her.”

(The next day)

Tara was reaching for a box of cereal that was on top of the fridge until she felt Sam pick her up again “Sam put me down please. I got it.” She said. “It’s ok Tara, grab the cereal you want sweetheart.”

Tara felt anger build up inside her “Sam I can stand on my toes and reach. Put. Me. Down.”

Sam wasn’t letting up “Tara, I don’t want you to hurt your-“

“I SAID PUT ME DOWN!! RIGHT FUCKING NOW!!” Sam quickly did what she was told, startled by her sister’s outburst.

Sam stood there for a minute while Tara kept staring her down. Then heavy tears start to pour from her face “I-I’m sorry…..I’m so sorry.” She said as she quickly ran into her room and closed the door.

Tara sighed as she grabbed the cereal, pouring herself a bowl. As Tara was eating her cereal. She felt bad for snapping at Sam but was never going to let up if she didn’t speak up.

Finishing her cereal, Tara washed the bowl and spoon in the sink before sitting on the couch, watching a movie (readers choice of the movie)

Two hours have passed and Sam still hasn’t came out of her room. Tara was a bit worried but was debating on either leaving Sam alone for the day or going in there herself.

She didn’t take long to make that decision

As Tara got to Sam’s door, she didn’t hear anything “Sam….can I come in?” She still didn’t get a response. “Ok I-I’m coming in sis.” Tara said as she opened the door.

The room was a mess and Tara found Sam on her bed facing the wall with a photo album in her arms. Tara felt like she was about cry but went over to Sam’s bed and laid down next to her.

Sam turned around to face Tara, her eyes red and puffy. Tara extends her arms for Sam which she falls into.

She cried and heaved in Tara’s embrace “Shhh, shhh it’s ok. It’s ok” Tara said while lightly stroking Sam’s hair and back. They stayed that way for a bit until Sam calmed down and both pulled away.

“Can we talk?” Tara asked

Sam nodded “yeah”

Tara took a breath and began to speak “Look Sam. I love you and I know you’re scared of losing me again. I don’t blame you but……you can’t keep treating me like a child or some fragile object. I may be small but I can still handle myself sis.

Sam nodded in understanding “Ok. I won’t do that anymore. Is that why you were in a bad mood yesterday at the store?”

“That, yes but I just wanted to prove to you that I can lift heavy objects and be a big help. All my life I’ve been made fun of because of my height and weight. Mom didn’t do anything to help either, agreeing that I would struggle with a table.”

Now it was Sam’s turn to comfort Tara “Please just let me prove that I can be just as strong as you Sam. I may not have your figure but I want to try.”

Sam kissed Tara on the top of her head, smiling “You already did.” Tara was confused for a minute “Weren’t you the one comforting me earlier when I was down.”

“That’s different Sam. That wasn’t physical strength.”

Sam shook her head giving Tara another head kiss “Physical and Emotional fall on the same category. You showed that you can be emotionally strong and comforting in situations like this.”

Tara took a breath “I guess you’re right. But can I still help out more with the groceries next time? Watch me carry a case of water by myself.”

Sam laughed in joy “Alright my little one. I’ll stand off to the side while you get most of the food and push the cart…I’ll even, Eh let you choose the music too.”

Tara laughed “I may be little, but I can still go for your stomach with a good punch.”

“That’s won’t be needed Tara because

You’ll always be strong to me no matter what.”

Yeah this story was more on the silly side buts it’s pretty relatable that some people deal with siblings or mothers like Sam.

[lung-worm2023]

Updated Gooch And Sams Designs for Teaoyg!

[deeply4u]

Nina baring mengangkang di atas katil di master bedroom. Nina pun membaringkan tubuh mongel dia di atas katil dan membuka kedua belah kaki dia dengan lebar. Kami berempat melutut mengerumuni Nina.

Dia melurutkan seluar dalam lace hitam dari badannya dan jelas kelihatan pantat tembam Nina yang sudah pun basah. Tanpa melepaskan peluang ini, aku sekali lagi mengambil beberapa shot gambar Nina yg sedang terkangkang luas di atas katil.

Jelas sekali cipap tembam Nina dan dubur bulat dia dari mata lensa camera aku. Aku mengambil satu ‘close up’ shot di celah kangkang Nina yang terbuka luas untuk tatapan aku.

Aku ingin menangkap gambar lubang cipap , biji clitoris dan lubang dubur Nina yang akan aku simpan buat kenangan. Zai menghulurkan satu tangan dan mula mengorek cipap Nina dengan 2 jari dia.

Manakala aku menggunakan satu tangan untuk mengorek lubang dubur Nina. Aku menekan 2 batang jari aku ke lubang dubur Nina. Aduh! Ketat sungguh! Tak termasuk jari aku kerana dubur Nina masih ketat.

Aku bergegas ke dapur dan menyelongkar peti sejuk mencari margerin untuk dibuat pelincir. Aku mengambil satu sudu besar margerin dan kembali ke ruang tamu. Si Zai sudah naik gila, aku nampak dah 4 jari masuk ke dalam cipap bohsia aku.

Zai mengeluarkan jari-jari dia yang basah melekit dengan air cipap Nina dan Zai masukkan jari dia dalam mulut Nina. Nina menghisap jari Zai dengan rakus, menikmati manisan air pantat nya sendiri.

Aku suruh si Zul dan Sam menarik kedua kaki Nina naik keatas supaya jubur Nina terangkat. Ini memudahkan lagi kerja kita untuk mengerjakan dubur dan pantat Nina.

Aku calit satu jari dengan marjerin dan menyapukan margerin sekeliling lubang dubur Nina yang sedang kemut. Setelah aku rasa cukup licin, aku guna dua jari untuk tekan masuk perlahan-lahan kedalam dubur Nina.

Aahh. masuk pun! Pada mulanya lubang dubur Nina memberi halangan dengan kemutan yang rapat. Aku paksakan juga jari aku masuk dan aku dapat merasa lubang dubur Nina membuka dan memberi ruang untuk jari aku lepas masuk.

Aku menekan kedua jari aku masuk kedalam sampai ke pangkal dan mengorek-ngorek lubang dubur Nina. Aku dapat rasa lubang dubur Nina terkemut-kemut cuba menahan korekan jari aku.

Zai bingkas bangun dan menuju ke dapur. Agaknya Zai pun nak jadi kreatif juga. Zai kembali dengan seulas pisang kapas yang belum di kupas kulit. Mana entah datang pisang tu! Boleh tahan kreatif Zai ni, pikir aku.

Zai terus menusuk batang pisang tersebut kedalam cipap Nina. Terangkat jubur Nina. Sakit agaknya kerana saiz pisang tu agak besar juga! Sementara aku masih sibuk mengorek dubur ketat Nina, si Zai sedang ganas mengerjakan lubang cipap Nina dengan batang pisang.

Cepap, cepup bunyi batang pisang ditangan Zai keluar masuk dengan laju dari cipap Nina yang basah. Cepatlah, kita punya turn pulak rayu si Sam dan si Zul.

Tak tahanlah tu. Aku menarik keluar jari aku dan bertukar tempat dengan si Sam. Sam menghulurkan batang zakar dia yang keras menegang ke lubang dubur Nina yang berkilat licin dengan marjerin.

Dengan sekali henjutan dia menghayun batang zakar dia ke dalam lubang dubur Nina. Aaarghh sakit! Berkeriut muka Nina kesakitan akibat dubur yang koyak di kerjakan batang si Sam.

Ah! ‘Ah! Ketat gil betulah dubur awek ni’, mengeluh si Sam. Aku jenguk melihat dubur Nina dan aku nampak ia berdarah sedikit. Batang Sam betul-betul mengisi penuh lubang dubur Nina.

Kawasan sekelilling lubang dubur Nina kemerahan akibat tusukan mengila si Sam. Habis rabak dubur bohsia ni, pikir aku! Sam semakin menguatkan hentakan batang dia ke dalam dubur Nina.

Nina menggetap bibirnya menahan kesakitan yang teramat. Zai mengambil kesempatan untuk melajukan korekan batang pisang yg dia gunakan. Kedua-dua lubang Nina sudah padat dipenuhi dengan batang dan sedang rancak di kerjakan oleh rakan-rakan aku.

Ah. aku tak tahan ni, teriak si Sam. Sam menarik batang zakar dia keluar dari lubang dubur Nina yang sedikit berdarah dan meluru ke muka Nina menghulurkan batang dia ke dalam mulut Nina.

Creet! Sekali lagi sperma bercurahan ke dalam mulut Nina. Dengan pantas si Zai pula mengambil giliran dan terus kongkek dubur Nina kemudian, Zai pula memancutkan maninya ke mulut Nina.

Kami berempat bergilir-gilir mengerjakan dubur Nina yang sememangnya sudah luas ternganga akibat di gangbang 4 batang zakar. Petang itu kami berempat mengisikan masa lapang dengan anal gangbang dan memuaskan nafsu dengan Nina.

Sepanjang ‘fuck session’ petang itu agaknya dekat separuh liter sperma di telan oleh Nina! Kenyang sperma lah jawabnya! Nina tertidur kepenatan diatas lantai. Penat sangatlah tu agaknya.

[black-pink-soul]

https://twitter.com/dailynaver/status/1666825815839985664?t=gxx40bXRvSJY33hQ7ZHclA&s=19

There are so many articles like this at different sites...like I never thought that this will happen to Jennie. She doesn't deserve this. Even if she's worst actress with worst taste and wrong choices...she's a person. They act like she was in porn, like they ruined everything for her. I believe in Korea they stop giving her brand deals and photoshoots after this. Like so many other idols move provocative on stage like sunmi hyna hwasa and boy group members too but look what they made with jennie for that...its crazy awful and ik really worried about her and her mental health. The weekend happily touring and no one starts witch hunt and Jennie who praised Sam Levinson for his previous work Euphoria (almost every one praise him and I didn't see Zendaya received hate for her dragaddict role) and she's have only her version of scenario like every actor...they called her slut and rapists supporter🤦‍♀️ im sad and omg...i just hope yg didn't pull her out if company now, because they did everything I mean nothing to support her or protect. And I just hope that girls will stay by her side. Right now she need someone to be always near.

When Cannes invite her everyone praise her and now...i just cant believe this article is real and comment with more then 500 likes...🤦‍♀️

Please support Jennie as you can and report every awful comment. As person you can judge someone wrong words or wrong choice but you have no rights call young women slut and mention porn only because she's emotionally dance with two guys 30 seconds episode.

[lamyaasfaraini]

Day 1 - Describe a time in your life you succeeded in doing something that scared you

30 days gratitude challenge

Sambil mikir apa yaa.. Apa aja yg udah terjadi sama hidupku, apa aja ketakutanku yg sukses aku melewatinya.

Fase Berduka

Bisa melewati fase berduka sih sepeninggal ibu. Di hari ibu meninggal ditengah kehancuran hidupku sekaligus rasa takut muncul apa aku bisa hidup tanpa ibu? Kayanya ngga bisa. Mungkin pasca smua ini terjadi sebentar lg aku gila, aku gabisa nerima kenyataan yg pahit ini. Aku marah sama Allah, knp harus menimpaku? Aku butuh ibu, sangat butuh. Banyak momen yg harus kulewati bersama ibu. Knp Kau ambil ibu ya Allah? Aku takut gmn nanti menjalani hidup. Apa aku bisa??? Hubunganku dan ibu sedekat itu, teman ngobrol bahas ttg hidup, akademik, film, hobi, buku, gosip artis. Terakhir2 ibu suka drakor thn 2009 itu banyak di indosiar. Cukup ada ibu hidupku komplit, kalo ngga ada gmn??

But life must go on. Berusaha menjalani hidup tanpa ibu berat, apalagi awal2, perannya kaya kudu aku yg gantiin. Kayanya pernah aku tulis jg disini. Ya gitu sebagai anak sulung, kayanya tanggung jawabnya besar jg bahkan kdg bapakku ada sisi fragilenya. Seorang bapak yg harusnya tangguh bisa tiba2 fragile dan gabisa ngambil keputusan, minta ditenangkan. Disaat yg sama aku gatau gmn cara menghadapinya, sebetulnya akupun sama2 fragile tp aku kuat2in aja dgn "menguatkan" bapak padahal dlm hati dan jiwaku sedang trembling parah. Adikku lebih parah lagi, dia sangat bergantung padaku. Aku ternyata seorang people pleasure yg sebetulnya fragile inside. Lantas aku harus mengeluh pada siapa? Akupun lg dalam fase berduka, akupun hatinya hancur, pengen ditenangin. Tapi ttp saja peran baruku aku jalani wlpn babak belur, karena akupun sayang mereka.

Alhamdulillah setelah semuanya adaptable termasuk aku sendiri. Berperan sendiri yg melelahkan akhirnya perlahan mulai selesai, kita semua jauh lebih kuat. Setelah bertahun2 aku pribadi sukses melewati fase berduka ku yg amat menakutkan perlahan bisa diterima dgn baik, sudah ngga terasa berat lg. Lukanya mulai sembuh, mulai terbiasa dgn ketiadaan ibu.

Pengalaman pertama melahirkan

Saat hamil yg selalu ditakutkan pasti melahirkan, saat seorang ibu berjuang hidup dan mati. Banyak kasus ibu meninggal, anak meninggal atau dua2nya meninggal. Gimana ngga stress ngadepinnya. Di tengah hamil aja ada berita duka, temen kuliah anaknya meninggal, teteh sepupu anak ke 4 nya meninggal. Temennya temen meninggal krn melahirkan dpt ajalah kabar2 duka kaya gt selama masa hamil.

Trimester 3 apalagi, hamil besar mendekati lahiran. Berdoa terus ngga berhenti, sering tiba2 nangis ke suami dan blg aku takut ngga selamat dan suamiku jadi duda, anak jadi gapunya ibu. Ditenangin terus, dipelukin, gaboleh stress bumil tuh.. Tapi ya gmn yaa huhu. Taunya karena ketuban seret di minggu ke 37 anakku harus segera dilahirkan, jadi lahirnya di jadwalkan setelah kontrol lusa disuruh balik lg. Aku takut, takut bgt. Yg ditunggu2 selama 9 bulan akhirnya tiba, ketakutanku harus kuhadapi. Bismillah..

H-1 menjelang lahiran aku tidur di mertua karena dirumah mertua banyak yg jagain. Kita tidur dikamar tidur suamiku, saat malem2 aku nangis dan baper. Aku blg sama suami, "ini malem terakhir kita berdua, bisa aja aku ngga balik lg (meninggal) atau kita balik lg ke kamar ini jadi bertiga. Skrg aku bener2 takut" sambil nangis sesenggukan. Suamiku jadi sedih dan nenangin aku terus kalo smua akan baik2 saja, Allah jaga kami..

Hari H masuk RS lsg diinduksi karena memang belom ada kontraksi, bahkan konpal (kontraksi palsu) pun ngga ada samsek. Di cek jg msh bukaan 1. Suami nemenin aku terus sambil ngehibur aku. Besok paginya ketuban di pecahin sama obgynnya, baru mulai kerasa mulesnya. Jam10 pagi aku inget. Makin parah menuju siang, yg jenguk dan nemenin mulai rame sebetulnya aku mulai risih tp skaligus berterimakasih atas perhatiannya. Semuanya panik ngeliat aku kepayahan, sampe muntah2. Rasanya susah dideskripsiin, sakitnya parah kaya disiksa sampe bergumam "Ya Allah maaf jika aku banyak dosa aku pantas dapat siksaan yg sakit ini, aku pasrah tolong ambil saja nyawaku aku udah gakuat nahan rasa sakit ini". Beneran gakuat udah sepasrah itu. Bukaan mentok di 5 pula, lama bgt! Akhirnya menjelang sore udah mulai dikit2 kebuka lg jam 5 lebihan baru deh tuh bukaan 10 dan pindah ruangan ke ruang melahirkan. Aku harus masih berjuang, ngeden.. Dikasih instruksi dulu kalo udah mulai terasa ada kontraksi silakan ngeden, jgn ngeden kalo ngga ada. Untunh msh mudeng, udah mau pingsan boro2 dengerin jg. Mana tangan kiri infusan jd ngga ada tenaga posisi ngedennya. Tp tetep aja main gunting aja biar cepet haaa.. Pas udah keluar bayi, enak bgt itu lsg lega ya Allah, kontraksi mereda. Tp ngilu saat dikodok plasentanya kedalem, gpp sebentar itumah. Yg paling traumtis sih mules kontraksinya. Saat di jahit aja yg katanya sakit dah bomat deh sakitnya. Sempet2nya bidan bercanda ke suami "bapak, ini dijahitnya sisain ngga?". Muka suami msh shock ngga nangkep itu candaan, ditanggepin sm senyum getir aja. Kalo aku ya bu bodo amatlah buruan aku pgn tidurrrrr cape bgtttt! Boleh ngga tidur 1000 thn???

Alhamdulillah lega ternyata aku dan bayiku selamat. Terharu bgt dgn keajaiban ini, penuh rasa syukur. Aku dan suamiku resmi jadi Ibu dan Ayah di usia pernikahan kami yg belom setahun itu huhu. Sudah terlewati masa itu.. Waktunya berjuang kembali dgn tantangan berikutnya, mengurus bayi new born yg ngga kalah challengingnya.

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REVIEWING THE CHARTS: 10/02/2024

Noah Kahan’s “Stick Season” is still #1, it’s a short episode, you really probably should skip it - there's nothing of value discussed here... welcome back to REVIEWING THE CHARTS.

Rundown

This is not a good week. You could call it a stale week, it’s probably accurate, because there’s not much of interest and what is here is mostly utter garbage. Potentially, up there with the worst weeks ever in terms of new arrivals to the UK Top 75, which is what I cover, and speaking of what I cover, notable dropouts are songs exiting said top 75 after five weeks in the region or a peak in the top 40, and this week, we bid adieu to: “Skin and Bones” by David Kushner, “neé-nah” by 21 Savage, Travis Scott and Metro Boomin, “Practice” by Drake, “Pink Friday Girls” and “Everybody” featuring Lil Uzi Vert by Nicki Minaj and finally, “Paint the Town Red” by Doja Cat. One highlight of this dire week is that I’m not really complaining about any of that.

Lewis Capaldi’s “Someone You Loved” returns to #67, what a joy, as well as “Anti-Hero” by Taylor Swift at #62 and “Flowers” by Miley Cyrus at #51. Can’t help but think the GRAMMYs had some influence on these. As for notable gains, we see boosts for Taylor’s “Is it Over Now?” at #68, “MY EYES” by Travis Scott at #65, “What Was I Made For?” by Billie Eilish at #58, “Would You (go to bed with me?)” by Campbell and Alcemist at #52, “Perfect (Exceeder)” by Mason vs. Princess Superstar at #39, “Runaway” by Ye featuring Pusha T at #35, seemingly because well, there may or may not be an album coming because that’s what we needed: more discourse. Then we have “Scared to Start” by Michael Marcagi at #31, “Selfish” by Justin Timberlake at #29 (why are we doing this?), “exes” by Tate McRae at #23, “Alibi” by Ella Henderson featuring Rudimental at #16 (Christ), and we end with two positives at least, as YG Marley and Benson Boone both get their first top 10s with pretty damn good songs, in my opinion: “Praise Jah in the Moonlight” at #9 and “Beautiful Things” at #5, which brings us to that top five, which is otherwise completely the same as last week. Jack Harlow’s at #4, Teddy Swims at #3, Sophie Ellis-Bextor at #2 and for a sixth week, Noah Kahan at #1. You know the song names off by heart by now, and I need some time to let off a deep sigh before rattling off the new songs. Oh, boy, the new songs.

New Entries

#75 - “Out for Love” - Andrew Underberg, Sam Haft and Daphne Rubin-Vega

Produced by Andrew Underberg and Sam Haft

So, Hazbin Hotel was a web pilot by Vivienne Medrano or “ViziePop” that was later picked up by Amazon as a television series this year. It is a musical animated series hence has several soundtrack singles, and given the weak charts and viral nature of the show, some of them have ended up here. I watched the pilot and first four episodes of the series, and found it genuinely quite difficult to stomach - I love adult animation, I love musicals, I actually even like the art style - it was the narrative elements of the show that killed it for me, and this is not a TV review blog, it’s a music review blog. I knew at least one song would debut as the midweek update showed one song at #73, I figured that would be the only song and it could potentially not even appear, so I wrote a very tersely-worded review for that song in particular. It’s a bit… not all that useful anymore, for lack of a better phrase. So I’m largely not going to be covering these. This is from the seventh episode, which I haven’t seen. Song doesn’t make any Goddamn sense to me. Journalism.

#74 - “Thank You (Not So Bad)” - Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike, Tiesto, Dido and W&W

Produced by Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike, Tiesto, W&W, Bassjackers and Renze Michels

Okay, if you’re going to credit a grand total of five EDM producers, why not go the full mile and have all eight pick out a lead? Also, I would ask how eight people were involved in producing this if I had any doubts that it wasn’t just an uncredited guy who got paid to sell this lazy sample flip off to people with actual star power. A sample flip of what, you may ask? Sigh… well, if there’s anything vaguely positive I can say about “Alibi” is that it’s influential. This is somehow even lazier, however, so I guess let’s start with some kind of history.

First of all, Dido’s “Thank You” is a perfectly fine, honest song that peaked at #3 in 2001 - “Do You Really Like It?” by DJ Pied Piper & the Masters of Ceremonies rightfully took #1 that week - and whilst I’ve never been a big fan, I can definitely see why the melancholy downtempo ballad resonates with people, and on a bad day, I can definitely throw this on and feel a little hope. This is a bad chart day, and if “Thank You” were to chart in its original form, it could perhaps be a reminder that things are, despite everything, it’s not so bad. So I imagine rap fans will know one of if not both of the uses of this song in popular hip hop, the first being Eminem’s classic “Stan”, probably my second favourite of his. It actually did #1 for one week in 2000, before the original had charted. It’s a stark and incredibly clever recontextualisation of the song that I’m pretty sure has already been discussed as much as possible, there’s a reason why many consider it Em’s crowning moment. Rae Sremmurd, “Lean’s Gone Cold”… maybe not so much. That one didn’t chart, but it’s funny.

Now there is precedent for house remixes of “Thank You”, and whilst I’m willing to consider interpretations and reimaginings of practically any song as any different style, I feel like making “Thank You” more danceable than just a vague nodding of the head skews some of the narrative’s tone? It definitely makes for a weirder, more dissonant listen, and whilst the Deep Dish remix, actually a GRAMMY Award-winning remix, does its best to maintain the atmosphere in its nine minutes, turning “not so bad” into a faint, looping mantra under a constantly developing house groove, to the point where it is a genuinely pretty great house song production wise… it still doesn’t feel like a great adaptation of “Thank You”, just a different product entirely, which makes sense and honestly makes for a better song. It doesn’t try and be “Thank You”, despite not even registering itself as an original song, just a remix of the original still credited solely to Dido. In 2016, European electro house duos Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike and W&W made a song called “Arcade”, it’s a loud, compressed smorgasboard of cheap synth sounds made for a live festival setting and being practically unlistenable outside of that context. In 2020, German producers Felix Jaehn and VIZE made a much more conventional and, at least in terms of how much it cribs from the original, a more faithful rendition of “Thank You”, subtitled “Not So Bad”. It’s a flavourless tropical house riff that I think the world would be better off not hearing, it’s like “Thank You” by Dido if she was commissioned to make it by an advertising company looking for a soundtrack to gym commercials.

Somewhere across the line, I guess it must have been Tiesto who said, “What if we made a version of that Felix Jaehn song but basically in the soundfont of “Arcade”?” - the latter even being directly listed as a sample on Genius. I mean, otherwise, I don’t know what the Hell Tiesto is doing here but, generally, you have to be shitting me, right? This is two minutes and 20 seconds constructed out of bits and pieces of songs I may not like but had a lot more purposeful artistic intent to them, if that’s a correct way of phrasing it. This is a vaguely functional crap-shoot molded from genuine song ideas, starting with a gentle singer-songwriter track that actually means a Hell of a lot to millions of people. I’d believe that to many fans, that Rae Sremmurd rendition means a lot to them. What does this mean to anybody?

#63 - “Bandit” - Don Toliver

Produced by ReidMD

I don’t like Don Toliver, really, or Tame Impala for that record, but there’s a level of inherent quality here, right? Don can sing, Tame Impala can construct a vibe and the sample here is “One More Hour” from their 2020 album The Slow Rush, it’s completely serviceable, could make for a good song. So why the sample is rendered in such low quality screeching is beyond me, but hey, maybe a powerful beat could work? Oh, the trap skitter is not only completely rote and overdone, it’s really high in the mix and distracts from the bass, which could really help make this song work? Okay, well, what’s Don doing? Being basically a cartoon character with his flows and incessant ad-libs? Well, that could be fun - oh, he’s comparing himself to Marilyn Manson? Barely rhyming? Catching a good, intense flow only to mumble repeated lines mostly about having sex that make up much of the song, with a tiny verse in the middle? Well, maybe the outro can make up for it - oh, he’s doing a Cookie Monster impression. Welp, all hope is lost.

#55 - “Poison” - Blake Roman, Sam Haft and Andrew Underberg

Produced by Sam Haft and Andrew Underberg

This is an upbeat synthpop jam that soundtracks a sex slavery montage. It sounds like a song by The Weeknd covered by a SpongeBob AI voice model. Next.

#53 - “Loser, Baby” - Andrew Underberg, Sam Haft, Keith David and Blake Roman

Produced by Sam Haft and Andrew Underberg

This was the song that made me turn the fourth episode off in disgust. I had a massive review prepared, covering its treatment of sexual abuse, which probably gave it a higher degree of nuance and generosity than many others are willing to give it, but I’m not compelled to rant about cartoons in this series. I want to write about animation more often but preferably animation I like or actually find compelling. With all respect to those who enjoy it and power to them, Hazbin Hotel was not something I would like to grant any more attention than the brief necessity of my format. Thanks for understanding.

#40 - “Home” - Good Neighbours

Produced by Good Scott and Oli Fox

I was very much willing to give this one a good shake because, I mean, what else do we have? Scott and Fox teased this on TikTok months prior before releasijng this as their official debut single together, after malformed, quickly aborted solo runs a few years ago. Sounds like a recipe for chart success and oh, the song’s terrible. It has a whistle about as charming as the American Authors’ milennial whoops, really insufferably screeching vocal tones that remind me of Passion Pit more than anything - that isn’t really a good thing - and sentimental lyrics about what home means to him, which would be completely serviceable without the stiff, grooveless splodge of grey matter that calls itself a chorus. Oh, and you know those sentimental lyrics? They’re gone by this point, it’s an incredibly manipulative breakup song with some really gross attempts at poetry - “wrap my name across your mouth when I let my feelings down”? Ew, man, Charlie Puth is less contrived than this. Naturally, the song goes nowhere and sadly, that probably won’t be its chart trajectory. Yet, once again, this song is practically unlistenable.

Conclusion

…Don Toliver gets Best of the Week. Somehow. Thanks for reading, I guess? See you next whenever.