#Will AND Naomi can shoot a gun

[mrkeatingsblazer]

Will Solace blinding his enemies with his light Will Solace deafening his enemies with his sonic whistle Will Solace disabling his enemies bc of his medical knowledge Will Solace weakening his enemies with his plague powers Will Solace with a fucking gun

[kaurwreck]

I'm rereading bungou stray dogs, and I noticed that when Dazai shoves Atsushi into Sugimoto, Atsushi accesses the tiger just enough to stabilize himself and pin Sugimoto to the ground. And he does so in a specific stance, one knee braced, one hand pinning Sugimoto's hands behind him.

His resolved pout, firm grip, and poised stance are very much unlike how he confronted Tanizaki during his entrance exam or how he reacted to Higuchi when she emptied a clip into Naomi.

But, I did recall another instance where Atsushi similarly pivoted into seemingly confident resolve— when he tried to shoot Akutagawa shortly after Akutagawa arrived on scene. He seemingly dives Akutagawa, only to grab the gun near Akutagawa's feet to shoot him. This is silly; Atsushi's tiger is most adept in close quarters, and Akutagawa has already shown that Rashoumon is a range weapon.

But, Atsushi hasn't yet learned to tap into his tiger's strengths, nor does he know how to fight— which means he doesn't know how to evaluate how Akutagawa is fighting either. So, he doesn't clock that Akutagawa is maintaining physical distance, that Rashoumon extends out, that Akutagawa is frail and coughing. Instead, he snatches a weapon, launches himself at a distance from Akutagawa because he's scared to stay too close, and shoots him.

And, despite not knowing how to fight, clearly having little clue as to how to approach Akutagawa— Atsushi has a resolved pout, a firm grip, a poised stance.

Atsushi has never shot a gun before, and each time we've seen him encounter a situation in which he's felt uncertain, he's fallen apart. Even when he's brave (like covering the "bomb" with his own body during his entrance exam), he trembles and screws his eyes tight or stares, frozen. What made him even think to go for the gun, having never shot one, and whose expression is on his face, if not his own?

Like, sure, in the moment before he acted he'd remembered Kunikida telling him he was part of the Agency, and to not besmirch their good name, but that explains why he became brave, not why he went for the gun, or looked so sure doing so— oh, wait!

I do recognize that resolved pout, firm grip, and poised stance, actually. From earlier in the same volume.

And, regarding the Sugimoto pin— Dazai knows that Atsushi will be fine, that he's built to grapple, and that he can regenerate if shot. It made sense to throw Atsushi, a tank, at Sugimoto because even though Atsushi doesn't know how to fight and is a bit of a coward, he can take damage as well as he deals it.

But Atsushi doesn't take the damage— not like he does later, when he learns to fight to his strengths. Instead, he accesses his tiger, not to take the hit or use his speed to escape, but to push Sugimoto into a pin that looks too polished for someone who's never pinned anyone before. But he has seen someone be pinned, and he's been pinned too. Quite recently, even.

Each time, one handedly. And so, when he's thrown into Sugimoto—

His expression isn't his own because he's not protecting himself— he's protecting others, and he can't rely on himself to do that yet. He's too weak, too cowardly, and too uncertain of how to be someone in the context of others yet.

That's where his tiger becomes useless. Atsushi's tiger is raw, single-minded force. Its sole preogative, the sole reason it exists, is to keep Atsushi alive. And it's kept Atsushi alive by barreling him forward, negating what would kill Atsushi so that he can tear forward no matter what comes for him. His tiger is starving, enormous, and seemingly indomitable because it's carved from Atsushi's basest desire to live.

But where the tiger keeps him alive, it doesn't make him brave or steadfast or purposeful. And it's certainly not something that knows how to protect other people. Because a desire to live is not the same as the will to live or a reason to live.

And before Atsushi could articulate a reason, before he could recognize that he could exert will over the tiger, he relied on Kunikida's instead.

Kunikida knows better than most that relying on one's desires (such as his desire for a good and ideal world) can be manipulated and countered. Fyodor attempted to do so during the Cannibalism arc, Jouno during the Hunting Dogs arc. But as Ranpo said, Kunikida is the noblest, strongest member of the Agency. It's evident when instead of choking on the perversion of his own intentions, he continues to act, to save the next person if he couldn't save the last. That's not raw or instinctual. It's discipline, motivation, and will.

This is why he's their heart, their wrangler, their compass, their sincerity, and the template for what they should do when they're overwhelmed by who they are or who they could become. Because good is not who you are, it's what you do.

[petra-creat0r]

Naomi Ref

Oh gods this took me forever. The Chicago ref was in... October? Dear lord...

Info under the cut.

Naomi the Fish

They/Them

Voice Headcanon: Michaela Dietz

Full name: Naomi Quinn Pisces

B-Day: May 30th 2122

The sheet might say they're the youngest of Undyne and Alphys's kids but that only applies for their biological children. Naomi's adopted human sister, Annie, is actually the youngest

Even among Naomi's clutch mates though, they were the runt

Very chaotic and rowdy like CK, likely how they get along.

Even despite their high energy though, Naomi still experiences chronic pain, which means they sometimes struggle doing the things they want to without aids like their wheel chair or crutches

Their soul trait is a mix of Bravery and Justice

Naomi's primary magic is electricity magic, which they can shoot as lightning bolt bullets or throw as lightning bolt shaped spears.

Naomi is rather active and sporty, taking part in as many extracurricular sports as possible from soccer, to track, to even hockey. Their favorite sport is soccer

Even if Naomi plays hockey, they still don't particularly like the cold, considering their a fish monster like their mom.

Naomi is obsessed with westerns, much preferring cowboys and guns over magical girls and giant swords like their siblings or parents.

Has a toy stick pony they have declared their trusty steed and named "Stick"

Along with their prosthetic leg, which they wear since they were born without one, Naomi also has a tiny tail.

Naomi's scales are likely tougher than the average fish monster's scales, more resembling a lizard's.

They also have sharp teeth like Undyne, but a buck tooth like Alphys. They often use their teeth to bite things they really shouldn't, like rocks.

Naomi's Dark World weapon class is a gun.

Their Dark World appearance heavily resembles a cowboy and shares a color palette with Bitsy.

Their secret boss companion is Bitsy. Sometimes Naomi wonders if their and Wilbur's secret boss buddies got mixed up due to how different Bitsy seems from themself.

Naomi's other best friend is Britni, who doesn't seem to mind their chaotic nature.

Also good friends with their clutchmates, Mako, who was adopted by one of Naomi's uncles, making them cousins now.

Favorite show is a Space Rangers of the Wild West, a western set in space that they often watch with their younger sister, Annie.

[that-was-anticlimactic]

Ouu okay okay how about kunikida + another character of your choosing and "Where exactly do you think you're going?"

i spun a bsd character wheel, and it landed on tachihara!

Tachihara quietly closes the door to Jun's door behind him and lets out of a soft breath of relief.

"Where exactly do you think you're going?"

He freezes, then slowly turns around to see Kunikida with his arms crossed.

Da.mn, of all the people to catch him, it just had to be the one with a major stick up his a.ss, huh?

"Hey, man," he says, slowly raising his hands. "I was just, uh, dropping something off."

"This early?" Kunikida raises a brow.

"Yup." He pops his 'p'. "I'm an early riser. So, if you don't mind, I'll be on my way--"

Just as Tachihara is about to book it, he sees Kunikida's eyes land on his neck. His very bruised neck. His neck that is covered in bite marks and hand prints that he plans to cover up when he gets back to his place.

"If you think that's bad, you should see the other guy," he blurts out.

Kunikid's eyes widen, and Tachihara thinks now would be a good time to pass out or, perhaps, keel over a die.

"Sh.it."

"Sh.it indeed."

"Look, dude, we really don't need to get into this, okay? It's perfectly natural for enemies to hook up every once in awhile. The whole fighting this is sexy sometimes! Sue me!"

Kunikida does not seem impressed.

"Gah, look. Just... please don't tell anyone, okay? He isn't ready to be out yet and he's terrified of disappointing you so--"

"Tachihara-kun."

His mouth snaps shut.

"I'm not..." Kunikida drags a hand down his face. "I'm not disappointed. Just surprised and... just don't let it get in the way of work and for the love of God, please make sure Kenji-kun and Kyouka-kun don't walk into... anything."

Oh thank GOD.

"That won't happen, trust me. We usually do it at my place but Naomi-chan is away for the week, which you obviously know, and there's something kinda hot about sneaking around here."

Kunikida wrinkles his nose.

"I don't want to... whatever. Does Naomi-chan know?"

"Heh, no. Not yet, anyways."

Kunikida nods. "That's probably for the best. She's really smart, though. Dazai trained her for a bit, and Ranpo has taken her under his wing. It won't be a secret for long."

"Yeah, we kinda figured." He scratches the back of his neck. God, this is awkward.

The silence starts to get to him, and, because Tachihara has no impulse control, apparently, he snorts and says: "What you aren't going to threaten to kill me or anything?"

A slow grin starts slinking up Kunikida's face. "I don't see the point in wasting my time when I know that Naomi-chan will threaten you in a most effective manner."

Kunikida clears his throat before Tachihara can properly process the threat and adjusts his collar (but not before Tachihara sees a patch of yellow and purple...) and bows. "I trust you can see yourself out."

"Yes, sir, I can!"

He's not about to refuse the out Kunikida so graciously gave him, so he shoots Kunikida with finger guns and bolts down the hall calling, "Seeya!"

[suneslvr]

GRAPES OF WRATH. - Samuel T. Owen (Sato )

🎧 listening to - concrete jungle (bad omens)

CONTENT. - heavy themes of manipulation, sexual themes (consensual and non consensual ), mind break, humiliation (non-sexual), broken bones, yandere/obsessive behavior, unknown character death, infantilization, gun play, violence & murder, age difference, terrorism’

…

The theory of immortality is confusing.

The idea that a living, breathing, human, can overcome the disease that is death is one that many have left to their imaginations.

To be human, to be alive - is to die. The process of your cells breaking down, once your heart beats one last time, is a fate which many of us will soon know. A fate that all organisms have known. Whether their heart stops beating or not.

So, what do we call these … Agins?

They simply cannot be human, they disregard every human being’s greatest goal. “death” but they were born human weren’t there? raised as a human? Speak like we do, eat like we do, is it a mimicry? Have they been faking the traits that all humans know? For what purpose?

so many questions.

They build up in the mind like a ticking time bomb, keeping you from doing the simplest of tasks. - Ever since you saw the news that faithful day.

A young reporter, one that even looked slightly like you. Stood in-front of what looked like a mental hospital. You and your friends gathered in front of the tv inside your friend’s little bedroom, watching in silence as the reporter confirmed that there are beings out there, who have defeated death. That one of them, resembling a human, a man, tall, dark, and almost cute had escaped one of these facilities that was meant to hold them. With the help of one of their other “Agin” buddies.

The confusion clouded like gas, thick. With an abundance of questions. Your friend was the first speak out, Naomi, the owner of the little room you sat in.

“I gotta call my parents! this has to be fake!” she said fumbling with her phone as she stood up.

“Nah, I don’t think it is,” Chloe started, they wouldn’t put a prank like this on national tv.” You shook your head in agreement,

“hopefully uhm, they catch them soon?” your voice comes out unsure, not helping with Naomi sopratic behavior.

“I hope they don’t.” Chloe leans back on her chair, pulling out her phone. “Who knows what they did to him in that lab, probably ran all types of experiments.”

Only if you knew the end of it.

Only if they had shown a photo of the Agins on that faithful day, the dark man who had escaped wasn’t the villain in your story, just another player on a chess board played by a wannabe god.

And the wannabe god was certainly was close to it.

He didn’t even bother tying your hands up the first time he laid you in that thin metal bed, you were stripped of your clothes, only left in a pair of pink cotton underwear and fluffy socks. He had laughed when you offered him money, combed his hands through your hair, when you tried to beg for your freedom, wondering why you were in that predicament in the first place.

The first night was your only night of peace, when you think about it. Waking up the next morning to the sound of playful shooting games and the heaviness of your swollen eyes. Slowly blinking open to the sight of a metal warehouse.

“your awake now sleepyhead?” He only glimpsed up at you from his chair. His constant clicking keeping his attention off of you.

The first thing you had thought of was how strange this whole situation was. Who was this strange man? Why hasn’t he even looked up at you! were you going to die? was he going to sell you off as meat to some old men around the world? Or is this some type of sex slave thing?!

Like he can read your thoughts, he sits up and stands next to you. Every nerve, muscle and bone in your body quakes at you to run. Flight or flight kicking in as your hand bunch up the much softer blankets below.

“your probably very confused right now? I’m not one for monologues but I uh don’t watch you to be to scared.” he’s much taller than you, now that you can see him up close and not under the dark moonlight. Much bigger too, more masculine than any man you’d ever seen. Older as well. But you can’t tell his actual age, not from the contrast of his face to his body.

You wouldn’t stand a chance.

“You’ll be staying here for a while with me, won’t worry I won’t keep you separated for long, I even had the bedsheets changed to be more comfortable.”

he pulls a piece of loose hair behind your ear, in an almost sappy way. Like in those romantic drama you used to love so much.

“I wouldn’t run either, I wouldn’t want to have to break one of your pretty arms, right baby?” You externally cringe at the pet name . The expression washing over your face. “I uh… sorry, I’m not used to this.” He looks almost… embarrassed? But that’s not the correct term. Almost pitiful, you would say. He even washes his hands over his face dramatically as he left you there on the bed. Fully unrestrained.

And you sat there. Unrestrained for days. Months probably. By yourself in a room. With nothing but the uncertainty and confusion of your situation.

In reality it had only been two weeks, The only human interaction was with that creepy old man and the quiet ginger who brings you food. The only time you’ve really spoken was with the latter, it was on one of the days where your fate weighed heavy on you. Your eyes becoming swollen and you couldn’t help but sob into yourself. The thin man had happened to come in around meal time, pushing a plate of rice and soup onto your dresser.

“Uh-uhm. Are you okay?”

He came up behind you, hesitant to touch you in your state.

“Hey I get it- I felt powerless before too. But trust me, Satos only going to help you!”

Sato.

The only real thing you took from that conversation.

Sato is the one who took you away from your life to put you in a playhouse with only metal walls, a bed and a tv.

And you thought the boredom was the extent of your problems.

The boredom that soon rotted away with the presence of the same man, the one you thought was too scared to even show himself around you.

“Whew I’m beat.” He starts.

You blink up. your body clutching around the covers in your defenseless state.

It takes you a second to adjust but you wish you hadn’t.

You certainly wish you hadn’t seen him covered in blood, his overalls stained with scent of ash and crimson.

You jump up, your bodies instincts failing you once again as he grabs you.

“Chill..” he whispers as he holds you down, his voice deep and low, your stomach filling over as his scent overtakes your being.

“what happened?” You manage to cough out, your voice seeming unrecognizable even to yourself, not even realizing why you asked the question.

“aww are you worried about me? Most of this blood was mine, so I guess you’re not far off.” He chuckles like he isn’t pressing you down into the bed. You quickly shake your head.

“Why would I be worried about you?!” You ask, with more venom than intended. “You’ve kept me locked up here like some patient!”

he’s not stunned by your outburst, not at all. Only laughing as he presses his head into your neck.

“Do you miss being outside?”

The words shock you more than his actions do, you don’t make a sound, however, shaking your head with less hesitance than you wished.

“How about we make a deal then?” He waits a moment before starting. He starts without words, with a kiss actually. A soft kiss to the soft of your neck. It’s sensitive, not from anything sexual but from the lack of human touch. “Don’t fight me, and I’ll let you outside?”

You’ve been bidding your time for a while. Every time he waltzed into your room. And laid in your bed without words, playing his little games or fumbling with the controller. You knew you couldn’t beat him, you knew that there was something different about him that ruined your chance of your body even trying to fight him. Now that it’s confirmed, with both his body language and the stains of blood he lays in, that If he tells the truth, this might be your only way out.

But actions speak louder than words. So commences. You were unsure if you’d let him rape you if he’d wanted to, but you were unsure if that would even be considered rape. Especially if you moan whenever his harsh lips meet your skin, sucking red and blue bruises into it. His knees in between your thighs as you held onto his blood-riddled shirt. You would almost hump his leg if let alone for another week.

“Have you had your first kiss yet?” He says softly, his voice is still so deep, and almost exhilarating as he grinds his knee against your clit.

“N-no” you whimper out, and he laughs at you again, it’s probably his favorite thing to do, giggle at your expressions or your cries.

The memory after it, kinda flutters in your mind. But he definitely keeps his promises.

Letting you outside to watch the buzzing city life. Not without the repayment of your body, not always sexual but your time as well.

Listening to him yap away about his video game rants. His playful energy would be almost delightful to be around if not your predicament. And the more time you spent with the others, the more your head cleared from the delirious state he had previously kept you in. Now gathering pieces of your old self.

Your old mind and humanity.

He loves to keep you entertained, wresting as a form of foreplay, before he ripped the peices of clothes he was hesitant to give you in the first place, (until he remembered that if you were to be around others, you had to be some-way decent). You could even inflict damage that would surely leave a scar, and as long as it lasted you found yourself using your full strength against him. Always to end up face down, with him whispering the filthiest things in your ear and his large hands creating bruises around your hips.

The constant drive in your mind grew as soon as you found out what his true nature was.

Which happened in a way, most might deem comical.

You were sitting in a larger room with two of Satos friends, unnamed and unimportant when a familiar face walked right through the door. Not familiar in the way as someone you would’ve known but someone you had wished to avoid in your normal life.

Tanaka.

An agin.

A creature. One that couldn’t be considered human, who broke all laws that surrounded human nature,

Your body had been conditioned around blood and violence, consistently filtering out the names of government officials, high towers that were continently destroyed on the news the next day, or the room, the constant location switches, the metal door which you had believed wasn’t filled with guns and weapons of war .

Everything clicking in your mind, from the first time you saw Tanakas escape to when they had bombed a pharmacy and Sato had turned off the tv before you had the chance to only see the familiar gray hair and thick eyebrows, in your heart maybe you’ve even heard his name before!

How could you be so stupid!

So stupid to believe that everything had an explanation that you didn’t need to be told. That all you had to focus on was gaining Satos trust even if that mean cockwarming through long matches of his games. All of it was for nothing because the people you had sat along with, were a different version of monster.

And before you knew it, your barefooted feet, were hitting the metal of a door; locking yourself in with only two ways out. A locked back entrance and the door you had just came out of. Even that escape was lucky, you didn’t know what they were capable of! And now that you’ve locked the door, what will they do to you? But it won’t matter because you won’t be there to find out! Throwing yourself, slamming your fist until their dark and blood. You don’t even get to savor the satisfaction of getting the door open.

Only him. A known terrorist, someone you’ve let violate you, even after he took you from your home, and killed all of those people!

but it’s not time to wallow! You try and push past him the best you can. Small fists being gripped and pushed behind your back, but you continue to struggle, to fight, to kick and push and headbutt. To scream and wallow and cry like the first time you were brought here, like after the first time he had kissed you and stolen your innocence. But it’s all useless.

As soon as the others get the door open, you’re pinned to the floor; your arm snapped in half and your eyes clenched shut in pain.

“Such a sorry sight, almost kinda feel bad for her,”

He doesn’t even speak; no response but another laugh. One that rings in your ear at the sound of your arm snapping,

Snap, and his laugh,

As he carried you back to another room.

Snap and his laugh,

As he stripped away your clothes until you laid naked on the cold floor,

Snap and his laugh,

Is all that replays when he finally mounts you, and doesn’t stop until there’s blood.

Snap and his laugh.

As he toys with you, throughout the days.

But maybe this feels better than before,

Knowing you’re not letting this happen, that you fought and lost.

That you didn’t enjoy the constant jokes and conversation.

Or enjoy him in anyway. That you weren’t craving his attention and touch on particularly cold night. Praying no God could hear you moan out his name as he spelled his name with his tongue.

Or enjoy his comfort. That you didn’t bat an eye when he told you not to worry about all the bad things he did.

You knew it all along and him being an Agin wasn’t the breaking point.

It feels good knowing that they laugh at you and believe your weak, that they can hear when your moans mix with cries when you call him a monster he forces a gun inside your little hole,

It feels good knowing that you’re helpless and it’s not your fault.

The confusion of it all wipes away, you won’t ever be pliant, you think. Only a mixture of sorrow under the rough hands of the man who shapes you, someone who couldn’t be considered a human, even though he acts, talks and sounds like him. No human would ever treat you like this, or be so cruel, to pretend like you love a real human girl, but all of it is lies, you lie to yourself to feel better about your delirium, to mend the cloud that forms whenever you whisper back “i love you toos”,

A sick joke, played out by an even sicker thought .

[secretsburiedinsnow]

Naomi Hcs Post

Beautiful princess with a disorder (hpd/Histrionic Personality Disorder)

She's transfem :3 Just for fun!!

She's one of the Akutagawa siblings!

She has an endurance ability, details in my intro post!

Having been given lessons by Dazai, she's very strategic and sometimes exhibits behaviors similar to his.

She has scars all over her back from that time Higuchi shot her so much.

She likes school, especially dances because she gets the opportunity to dress up fancy.

Recently, though, she's been teased at school because somebody saw her scars while she was in the changing room before gym class.

She would like to do more extracurriculars, but doesn't have much time due to her job at the ADA.

She does take theatre clases during school.

She sometimes catsits for Haruno! She suspects something is odd about Mii/Natsume.

She likes chess, but never gets much of a chance to play it unless it's against Dazai (who she always loses against).

She's very brave, especially when it comes to helping her friends (especially Jun).

She's unsure about her sexuality!

She (like Junichiro) also has a bit of trauma surrounding doctors due to her past, but she gets along with Yosano.

She has her ears pierced but never wears dangly earrings unless she's dressing up fancy because she finds them inconvenient, she usually wears studs or very small hoops.

Some things she learned from Dazai are including but not limited to: pickpocketing, lockpicking (a little bit), strategic stuff, and how to shoot a gun.

She's very dextrous and can be quite sneaky when she wants to be!

She doesn't enjoy cooking! She can bake though, and her favorite thing to bake is cookies.

this will be updated later!!

@evvwenthome @dazaisrealbf

[soupthatistohot]

BSD: An Absurdist Analysis - Chapter 4

Shinsoukoku's first encounter

[Masterpost]

We begin in the middle of Atsushi’s first encounter with Akutagawa, and Higuchi starts shooting at Atsushi and Tanizaki, but Naomi shields her brother.

Now I didn’t really talk about the Tanizaki siblings in the last post partially because I was focused on Akutagawa’s introduction and partially because they’re fucking weird and I try not to think about them too often. That being said, they’re relevant now so I guess I gotta talk about these two people who I hope are not genuinely siblings and just have an incest fetish — which I will specify is still not great, but at least its better than them literally being siblings!

Anyway, I mention the incest thing because… well, it’s absurd. Everyone who is not the two in question is made pretty uncomfortable by it, and even though its played for comedy most of the time, for both Naomi and Tanizaki, their affection for one another spurs them to take action in an absurdist way. 

Naomi, despite not being the ability user of the pair, takes the bullets. Although we know as people who have read BSD that she does this likely knowing that Yosano will be able to heal her, there’s no guarantee of that, and a first-time reader definitely wouldn’t know that. To the reader and even to Akutagawa and Higuchi, Naomi stepped in during a seemingly hopeless situation, even though her actions were likely to only temporarily help. 

Luckily, Tanizaki uses his ability against Higuchi until Akutagawa steps in and easily takes him down. 

Then, we’re left with Akutagawa and Atsushi alone (after Akutagawa slaps Higuchi across the face… not one of his better moments).

For all intents and purposes, Atsushi should have no chance right now. He doesn’t really know how to use his ability, Tanizaki and Naomi are both down and Akutagawa is set up as this ruthless, dangerous, and basically unstoppable force. 

Akutagawa begins the interaction by claiming that Atsushi just hurts everyone around him, sending the latter into an anxious spiral until Tanizaki tries to tell him to run, alerting him to the fact that he and Naomi are still alive and cementing his determination.

At this point in the story, Atsushi only lives for other people, not himself, and this will be his driving force for a while, though his experiences will eventually begin to undo that mentality. It is after this that he decides to fight back against Akutagawa, despite the odds. 

Akutagawa even kind of calls him out on his absurdist behavior, having full knowledge of his own reputation and skills and the apparent likelihood that he would succeed over Atsushi. “Dying for justice…? How cliché,” he says disdainfully.

Atsushi steals his gun and then tries to fire at Akutagawa, but then he reveals that Rashoumon can protect him from bullets and dismembers Atsushi’s leg. Once again, we’re put in a position where it feels pretty much impossible for Atsushi to win, and he is launched into a flashback from his time at the orphanage. He reflects on the fact that he’s been spurned since birth, but even so he continues to fight back. 

So, despite being terrified of his own ability and its potential to hurt other people, Atsushi makes use of it in this moment in order to rebel.

And that’s what absurdity is all about, the act of revolt against what is unfair in life. Atsushi having to face Akutagawa as an opponent right now is wild, for all the reasons I stated earlier, but because Atsushi refuses to give in and accept his own death (even if its because he wants to protect other people rather than himself), he is able to protect himself long enough for Tanizaki and Dazai to stop the fight, and he survives. 

Dazai reveals that his absurdly forward flirtatious behavior from the prior chapter actually enabled him to plant a bug on Higuchi, implying that she suspected her from the very beginning. Higuchi argues that the Port Mafia will decimate the Armed Detective Agency if they don’t hand over Atsushi, emphasizing how large the mafia is and how much control they’ve got. I’ll I will say about this for now is that basically this won’t happen because the agency continues to survive and succeed through the power of absurdism, basically. 

Oh, also? Dazai is revealed to be a defected member of the Port Mafia! But I’ve already talked about his defection and Oda, so I don’t feel the need to reiterate all of that, I just wanted to note that this is when this fact is revealed, and it’s revealed by Akutagawa. I will talk more about Akutagawa’s obsession with Dazai when it becomes more directly relevant. 

That’s the conclusion of this chapter! I do want to mention that going forward Atsushi and Akutagawa’s relationship is going to become increasingly important because they’re essentially the conflict of an absurdist versus a nihilist, and we certainly see the foundations of it in these first few chapters.

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hmmm...excluding yosano and kyouka, who is your favourite bsd girl character?

Favorite characters in general is always a tough one for me, but I'll ramble about a few of the girlies because I just adore them.

Absolute favorite is probably Kouyou, hands down. She's just really interesting to me. She has this past of dreams being shot down, but she now has enough power she could probably leave the mafia if she wanted to, but has found her own place there now. She's not the scared little girl that ran away anymore. In a way, she's content there. She didn't want to see Kyouka get broken down the same way she did, and again. If Kouyou found her footing in the mafia, couldn't Kyouka be happy there too? (The answer is no. Some flowers bloom in darkness, but not all, of course.) In a way she kind of parallels Verlaine and Kyouka with Chuuya, where in trying not to let their younger mirrors experience the same pain they did, they're inflicting a whole new set of violence and agony on them instead. And so the cycle repeats. She... kind of sucks, but she's so interesting and has really muddied motivations and morals that I love to unpack.

Gin is nonbinary in my heart, but since as far as canon goes she's a girl, I'll include her because I love her very much. Especially Beast!Gin, who's the most functional out of any mafia character in that damn novel. Shout out to her specifically for keeping her shit (mostly) together. I love her in the normal universe too, though. She's not overshadowed by being Akutagawa's little sister, she's managed to carve her own path. Especially as someone so surrounded by powerful ability users, she's so impressive. It takes a truly incredible assassin to hold your own in that kind of world, and she does far more than just hold her own. She's intelligent and resourceful and still manages to have a life for herself outside of the mafia, too. Good for her.

In the realm of ability-less younger siblings: Naomi. I'll be honest her canon character gives me hives whenever her brother is around and I try to ignore, well, you know. But when you look at her actions, that girl is damn intelligent and crafty. And has the potential to be a masterful manipulator. She's not the ditz she pretends she is, and I'd love to see more of her resourcefulness one day. She's clever. She picks up on things. I like her as her own character and hope she can stop being the butt of a joke long enough to see her skills put to use.

I can't talk about girls without my favorite girlboss girlfail Higuchi. I just love her in general. You know that post about girls feeling more confident/better in general when they have a sword in their hand? I feel like thats Higuchi with her guns. We've seen her show skill with multiple arms with ease, she can bait people into a trap no problem, is a dedicated and trusted mafia member, and if she could work on her self confidence as an independent operative could be something so so special (even though she already is.) She cares about people. But she's also so shoot-first-ask-questions-later that she messes it up. She definitely reads trashy romance novels in her free time and I hope she has the time to reread all her favorites. Adore her.

[youraveragedeltafan]

First book spoilers ahead! (please tell me there's prequel book fans, I can't stop thinking about it)

The first Road 96 prequel book is the most interesting thing in the tri-state area to me because of Robert, John, and the fact that it's kinda left up to interpretation whether or not Jarod was a good dad. There is a scenario in which he slaps Lola. Was it just that one instance or a pattern? (and a reason why Robert, a former teacher, could manipulate her into running away)

It's clear that Robert looks for vulnerable people to take advantage of, like Kaito's family and the Kims later on after they join. Notably, we know for almost a fact that both Naomi and Stephen were having second thoughts about the "plan" (I feel like ppl forget that the Brigades didn't cause the attack in '86 but they did try). It's clear that all the adults with Lola were self aware too, as they bring up their concerns about her being in danger at least once.

But here's the interesting part-it's not all Robert (In fact, he's said to have gone missing in dialogue, right before the attack too. How convenient). I know that it's said in the game that John used to be like him, but I think it's in a whole other lens reading it in the prequel. To me, it almost adds more to his guilt in the game when seeing him be kinda mean to Lola or manipulate Naomi and Stephen (who legit have a 5 year old with them) into going through with their mission despite everything.

Anyway, that's why the book is very funni and good and adds to the game. Read it if you haven't. Yes I'm talking to you random person who doesn't care about spoilers and read this because new post in the road 96 tag (Me. I am calling myself out)

Oh, also Stan and Mitch can potentially do the stupidest thing in the world, and they BOTH do it no matter who you side with so it PROVES that they share one braincell depending on who you're nice to. I know I like to write Stan as if he never has done a violence in his life, but he shoots his gun at the most random crap in the book and at the worst times. He is responsible for at least 2 game overs that I know of and it's funny every time

Side note: I really want to add the wacky misadventures Florres had in the book into the wiki but I am too distracted by other stuff atm and also are the books even canon??

[shslpunkartist99]

Oreo - Tycoon - The goal is to get rid of the cards in your hands in order from lowest to highest. The players are labelled as Tycoon, Rich, Poor, and Beggar depending on how quickly they get rid of their cards. Whoever gets the most points in the end wins.

Leroy - Soixante-Trois - Each person pulls a card from the deck and plays it face down, saying what the card is. The person can lie or tell the truth. The goal is to not go over 63. When someone decides to pass (not play a card), they tally the results. If it's over 63, the person that didn't play wins. If it's under, that person loses.

Keith - Rap battle and Spit - Prefers his rap battles, but card game Spit is fun too. You have to get rid of your deck as fast as possible into 1 of 2 piles. Once you run out, you quickly grab the pile with the least amount of cards. If no card can be played, each player places a card from their deck. The winner is whoever gets rid of their cards

Cherri - Escape room - Each room is different. Solve various puzzles in a particular order to escape. Some areas have booby traps, and it's all timed.

Amelia - 21 - a simple card game: dealer deals out cards. Don't go over the value of 21.

Naomi - Daredevil - Each person gives each other a dare the other must do. The dares cannot be deadly, but they can cause bodily harm. The dares must also be something both/all players can do. If the person denies it, and the one who gave the dare does it, they're the winner. If nobody does the dare, the game continues.

Pachinko - Brawl - A classic battle between strength and abilities. The person to tap out, get knocked unconscious, or runs away is the loser

Pico - Rock Paper Scissors "Shoot" - Russian Roulette with a twist. Each player plays Rock Paper Scissors. Whoever loses has to shoot themselves with the gun. If blank, the game continues. The gun starts off with one bullet, then adds another bullet after 3 blanks. (The person is healed/rezzed if shot)

Tsuri - Memory - A simple memory game of cards. If a player finds a pair, they can keep going until they mess up or if they want to pass it to the other player. The one who makes the most pairs wins.

Keno - Hide n Seek - You hide, he hunts. Traverse the environment, find the key to the exit, and don't get caught.

Otis - Chess - Basic game of chess. Checkmate and win. (I suck at understanding and playing chess so uhhh yeah no explanation here lol)

Kurai - Road of Phobias and Dice - For challenges, you go through various phobias you and the general may have. Reach the end and you win. For gaming, make a bet. Put 2 dice in a cup, shake it around, and slam it down. The one with the lowest total wins the bet

[okthatsgreat]

Finally, what would your ocs choose if given that choice at the end of lgowab.

OOOOOOOOOO FUCK YESSS i love oc questions always and forever mwah mwah mwah

spoilers for lgowab under the cut!!!! and i mean SPOILERS this is like. the very end of the story gfhdskgk

ooooooo this is a tough one... this is assuming that danganronpa had been watching them pretty heavily throughout this convention, enough for them to be selected as the one to MAKE the choice in the first place.......... half of these people would not even make it this far but ASSUMING THEY DO:

• rie: kyoko. brainwashed into being anti-ahl, is very frightened and desperate at that point and would shove a lot of the responsibility onto kyoko rather than do anything too "risky"

• ryobe: hard to say honestly, could see him not shooting. isnt able to hold any gun in his hands and would have shit aim regardless just because of how bad he would be shaking. this isnt to say that team dr wouldnt just take out whoever he had pointed at themselves but still i think he either becomes so inconsolable that he doesn't shoot or he ends up mayyyyybe firing at makoto. or maybe at himself idk

• naomi: doesn't make it to this point in any universe, but if she hypothetically did i reckon she'd be similar to ryobe in that she can't find the strength to shoot somebody else (which is all ironic and crap) OR she fires off at the director, gets everybody else in the building killed in the worlds most awful mirroring of her own killing game, and THEN takes herself out

• billie: depends. she's an easily influenced character who latches on to different charismatic presences for guidance. her choice depends on who managed to get in her ear throughout this entire killing game i reckon. most basic answer is she doesnt shoot, but i can honestly see somebody from the ahl getting in her ear and swaying her towards shooting makoto but that ahl member would REALLYYYY have to work hard

• yoshito: oughgh probably kyoko. he's an extreme pacifist so it would hurt him a lot, but i think he would have been poisoned by team dr enough that he reluctantly takes the shot rather than abstaining. maybe in one universe he gets so fed up with how his class has been treated he points at the director but kyoko seems far more likely

• mika: honestly. makoto. she's a lot more vindictive than yoshito is, not to mention she would project a lot of her own resentment towards her not having a talent onto him. he is the ultimate lucky student that "made it", that became the ultimate hope but then BETRAYED everybody, and he is everything she wants to be and everything she totally despises. makoto definitely

• erin: also wouldn't make it this far due to ahl (especially considering the fact team dr would have had to have been watching her for a while for her to be making this decision in the first place!!!). hypothetically if she was there it would be an immediate shot fired at the director or makoto

• sae: ouguhg this ones tough. because she would really think about it she really really would. she's smart and (maybe???) calm enough to know that not firing at anybody will get herself killed, same with firing at the director, and shes not willing to let that happen so she's going to aim her gun at SOMEBODY, just unsure who....... her decision would rest a lot on how she went through this killing game as a whole and i can honestly imagine a lot of different outcomes for her so it's a tough choice. because shes on the enforcement team im gonna say that kyoko is most likely but makoto is a close second

THANK YOU FOR THESE QUESTIONS SO SO MUCH THEYVE BEEN FUN <333!!!

[dollmoth-productions]

Chapter 3 the tragedy

⚠️TW OBSESSIVE BEHAVIOR STALKING POSSESSIVE BEHAVIOR STOCKHOLM SYNDROME MANIPULATION ABUSIVE BEHAVIOR AND DRUGGING DO NOT DO ANY OF THIS ITS NOT HEALTHY ⚠️

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It has been a few weeks since the bear-hugger's death and Moth hasn't even left their house. They were in a state of mental distress, and it was obvious. Everyone suspected it was just another suicide. Although Bates was trying to comfort them, ‌he was feeling guilty especially since he knew how close math and Bear Hugger were. Honestly, he was just hoping that this would all be worth it and Joe would be a fantastic boyfriend. But deep down he knew what he was doing was wrong deep down he knew Joe would be terrible he just desperately wanted Joe to care for them and treat them like they were just amazing people because they are.

Although they haven't left their house in weeks, Motj had continued to talk with everyone to make sure that they were alive although they were just so sad they knew they had to stay strong. They knew nothing was bringing him back, so they went out with Naomi again. Honestly, they got very giddy around her. Joe is almost an afterthought, although they were still crushing on him. They couldn't help but feel a strong connection towards Naomi. They could have been just because they were both trying to get a history degree or both of them were falling in love. Joe could tell the signs that someone was falling in love because he often felt them all the time when he was around his darling. But some filthy, disgusting creature was trying to take them Away.

But there was one thing on Leonora's mind: self-defense. The one person that he knew that had as much about guns was Hans and she was a little nervous to ask him especially since she didn't know what gun to actually use. She was nervous to say the least but she didn't feel safe with Joe walking around especially around her friends especially since the deaths that happened in these past weeks. Finally getting upon a huge house. It had a German flag on it and she instantly knew who it was. She gently knocked on the door. Finally after a while Hans open the door and smiled " Guten Tag Leonora! " she smiled hesitantly" hello Hans I have a small question for you?" Hans gently tilted his head " I want you to teach me how to shoot a gun…"

"Was?"

" I want you to teach me how to shoot a gun I'm scared of what this guy is doing and I'm so scared for moth and my friends safety"

Hans turned away and allowed her to enter his house. Immediately when she entered she heard loud tweeting noises repeatedly and different patterns " are you listening to bird noises.

" do you listen to bird noises"

"Nein I own a bird sanctuary would you like to see"

She smiled and followed Hans into this greenhouse-like area filled with multiple Birds. Suddenly a large Hawk landed on top of Hans's shoulder

" hello sugarbeat!" He said they were very gentle. Leonora stared at the beautiful bird to be honest she kind of knew that Hans took care of birds but not birds like this the Hawk was very affectionate towards Hans. Before it flew right next to her and made a very obvious coo noise to be honest she was scared but mostly fascinated. She was lost in a trance before she heard a slight chuckle " she likes you…" he made a whistle noise for sugarbeet to go away and just on command she did. She couldn't help but smile even in a situation as dark as this she could admire the beauty of something so interesting " sorry I didn't know that you own Birds"

" I have owned Birds since the ending of the war to cope with my trauma shell shock can really get you but my darling sugar beet has helped me through it all my life Mary Noel gave gave her to me although this is not the original sugarbeat I still love her' Hans said in a little bit of a sad tone even after all these years where shell shock was no longer used as the term for PTSD he still used that label he seemed to be slightly out of touch with modern slang or Modern Health in general. Although after all this he was still very healthy and still very strong even if he's over a century old but it didn't change her mind that she needed to do this" and about me learning how to you know shoot I I just"

"Nein you don't need to tell me anything my friend you are family"

She couldn't help but smile at this she started following Hans around the area finally opening the door to this huge backdrop of land. To be honest she kind of suspected him to be rich but not this rich. He let her to mini shooting range that he had and handed her a simple handgun " now I'm going to teach you the basics it's very important that you hold the gun right and not below any of your fingers off because let me tell you it's not very pretty" although he was laughing it was more nervous. Several hours went by as Hans was teaching her how to shoot a gun before they knew the sun had a ground and he smiled. He couldn't help but gently rub her head as a sign of affection.

" you did fantastic my darling let me make you a special drink as a reward-" he was cut off as he heard a large shriek. It wasn't human, it was a bird. For the first time Leonora had actually seen him scared he dropped his Cane and started limping towards the bird sanctuary as fast as he could. It was obvious that he was grunting and in pain but she quickly dropped the gun and picked up the cane walking into the bird sanctuary with him. The lights had been shot out and he started looking around hesitantly. It was a mess, everything was shot out, leaves were ripped out, food was destroyed. And most importantly sugar beet had been shot fatally. And by the way she was shot it would be a very painful death. The person who had shot sugar beets purposely did it so Hans would have to kill sugarbeet. He gently picked up sugar beet and hugged the hawk very close to his chest. He felt tears go down his face as he gently placed the bird and a headlock and snapped the neck. He couldn't help but cry. He loved that bird. He couldn't help but feel the tears rush down his face. He wished this was all a dream. Everything was silent. As the wind slowly faded out there was small footsteps leading towards the town. Bates was smiling as he had finally done something that would earn his best friends respect. Nothing would get in the way of this and nothing would ruin this. Joe would surely let him be his best friend and help him make the perfect match for him in the mall so then they would live happily ever after he knew that this was the right thing to do.

Bates looked side to side hoping to find his best friend before he knew it he stumbled upon Joe he was going on his nightly Patrol. He immediately ran up to him and hugged him which caused a small noise of disgust to radiate off of Joe almost like it was some disgusting monster hugging him not his best friend. But he could tell Bates had something to say " what is it Bartholomew?" Bates instantly smiled and told Joe what he did. He smiled so wide it was incredible. And for the first time Joe hugged him back very tight Bates couldn't help but hug back finally feeling safe and loved once the hug was over he smiled. And gently rubbed the top of Bates head before walking away. He couldn't help but smile at the idiocy of Bates slowly pulling his hand from behind his back as he was holding a bottle of chloroform. He smiles so wide this was his Gateway for his darling.

He planned for this for too long but he first needed get rid of their stupid girlfriend. As much as he would enjoy killing her he thought of a more Twisted way of doing things. Oh yes this would be the perfect Sweet Revenge on this little Naomi not for his darling though it would be a little twisted. He just couldn't help but smile thinking of what he might do as he was walking to his house. It was almost like a strut like he was walking on stage after winning an award. He pulled out one of his favorite weapons, the shotgun. He especially liked it when he went hunting and hunting he will go. Honestly he thought of the perfect plan if he could just distract the two most annoying people that are in his way he could get his darling. But he needed to wait. This plan would only make sense if he just waited. Until finally he saw his Target and smiled and fired his gun. He smiled at his prey before he dragged the animal away and took out a butcher knife quickly getting rid of anything that wasn't useful. He walked around and noticed the restaurant he walked in holding a key he walked around noticing the kitchen lights were on and he smiled he pulled out his butcher knife again and went to the power breaker quickly cutting the wires that had all the power.

Leonora and Hans were cut off. It was strange normally the power would be on until 3:00 a.m. unless it was a bar night. It was most peculiar but Hans didn't mind he knew how to deal with Darkness so he was calming down Leonora he was cut off by hearing a loud bang he was completely terrified he tried not to be scared whenever his family friends or any wasn't danger or was scared but why was he so scared why couldn't he move he needed to move he had to move why couldn't he move. It was almost like he was stuck in place he tried his best to calm down before he heard a pot slam and he quickly crouched to the floor trying to calm down his breath was raspy he couldn't understand why he was so scared why couldn't he just move why couldn't he move why was he so scared. He couldn't help but feel clammy. He tried his best to calm down as Leonora was trying to discover what the problem was. She wished she could stay by Hans but she knew at this moment he was terrified and she couldn't risk getting hurt herself. She walked out of the room with her phone using it as a flashlight. She slowly panned it across the room before she saw a familiar figure with orange hair.

She screamed as loud as she could before she jumped back and she felt something hit her head as she passed out. Joe couldn't help but laugh at her cowardice. It was hilarious seeing someone that was supposed to be so strong acting like a coward honestly this is what he expected for someone like her. He slowly walked away happy at what he did; he liked making people afraid. It was hilarious to me he couldn't care less about the people that he harmed. He backed away checking if there were any permit violations since he knew that this would be on security but nothing was the matter. She was alive unfortunately but she will continue to live. Whether he liked it or not. He just wondered how he could get his darling all to himself. He just wanted them to caress them, maybe make them bleed a little bit but he just wanted them as his wife.

Once he was outside the restaurant he threw his prey over his shoulder looking excitedly getting ready to debone this disgusting abomination.

A few hours later Leonora finally was awake. She couldn't help but feel fidgety. Why was Joe in the restaurant after hours and how did he have a key? But most importantly did he harm Hans. She ran into the kitchen before she saw Hans in the corner holding something it looked to be his Cane or a knife but he was obviously having a panic attack or something he kept her distance but try to make sure he was grounded in reality it took around 40 to 50 minutes but he was back he looked like he was crying. She sat to him , gently caressing his hands. They were old wrinkled scarred one of his hands missing three of his fingers. She wished she could help him more but he was old and stubborn. She was in her own head as she heard him say very gently.

" Leonora I need you to do me a favor

" What Hans?"

" If anything happened to me or Anton you need to take care of moth I don't trust what's going on here although I am tough for my age, I know I will probably die if anything happens to me of this severity again….."

Leonora pondered for a few seconds before she gingerly helped him up and gave him back his Cane" I swear on my life"

He smiled but it faltered slightly" I don't know if I mentioned this before but have you seen Naomi recently she's been missing for a few days even though she's with Moth at the moment I don't think they have seen her either"

They both looked at each other for a small bit before getting a worried expression they hoped no they prayed hoping that if not anything Joe had not found her yet. Leonora especially knowing what Joe is capable of scared her the most.

" You go home I'll deal with everything please" His voice wavered almost hesitantly but they knew It would be the best idea even in his old age he had the most fighter experience out of everyone.

Leonora Walked out of the restaurant looking around hesitantly Something felt off like something bad will happen but yet some Soon not tonight but soon

She walked off finally looking into a convenience store seeing a very very Sad moth. They looked so Gray per se like all the color had drained from them felt like it was the best idea To let them stay with her tonight. She hesitantly walked in and tapped them on the shoulder

“Hey moth” she said gently they look so numb so tired she wish she could fix it somehow” you want to come over to my house for a bit”

“…. Yeah I would like that.” they smiled, and started walking with Leanora” things have been crazy the past few days it feels good to finally be able to relax you know”

Leanora knew that her friend needed to relax and once they got to her house they just kind of talked for the night about what was happening who they thought was causing all the death “ I don’t know to be honest I don't know who's causing it. Who do you think is Leo?”

She couldn’t help but pause for a few seconds before she decided to see who she thought I was doing it” Joseph…..”

“ Joe really, but he’s so nice”

“ Moth he’s nice to you because he’s a little obsessed with you it scares me. Sometimes I catch him staring and it makes me concerned. Whenever you hang out. It scares me because you’re a close friend and I don’t want you to get hurt.”

“ oh, my…” they look to the side wondering what do you think? What do you say? How could they were they strange for liking this man” well, I guess Shen was right”

“ He was always right. He’s just a little abrasive for people who he cares about. He’s not the smartest for explaining his emotions.”

both of them chuckled, bitterly, wondering how their close friend would react to them talking to him in this way I felt nice to get loosen no longer have to feel so sad, but something continued to tickle the back of Leanora‘s head” can you please stay the night I could be me being paranoid or anything but I feel like something bad is going to happen”

“ I can’t do you know as well as me I can’t just do that I know you’re concerned I know you are but I would love to just go home and relax for a bit you know?”

“….yea just please be safe”

“ I promise plus I’m tough” They said gently, punching her shoulder. They both laughed for a small time before Moth picked up their items and started walking out. It felt nice to finally get out and feel happy for once they continue to walk not really knowing where they were going or how long will it take to get back to their apartment.

Moth started walking down the alleyway that was the fastest way to get to their apartment. They started walking before they heard footsteps behind them, and they quickly turned around.

Nothing

It’s always nothing is good. They started walking again slowly, taking faster. steps. finally, they turned around again seeing nothing,

Nothing

Thank God it’s nothing

They started walking again before they felt their arm roughly pour into a tight grasp. Something put over their nose and mouth. It smells awful; it smells of chemicals. They tried to fight back, But the person who was holding them down was much stronger, much more strongly.

Moth started going in and out of consciousness; they wanted it out; they wanted to stay awake. They couldn’t. Moth finally started drifting in and out of consciousness, only seeing a blurred vision.

Of orange hair.

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Sorry for fucking dying

I plan on doing a series of one shots by the way to describe the life between moth and Joe it's not gonna be pretty but it's it's gonna be exciting because I genuinely really do love this story it's just I suffer from writer's block and being an idiot

Any way Sorry if it's shitty I had to deal with a new microphone on my tablet and I'm using my phone to write for the moment because I like that microphone better

I swear I still wanna continue this story I'm just an idiot That doesn't know when to stop playing game

I'm blaming miitopia

Star Mika belongs to @cyrah-is-cool101

Bates belongs to @pupcakedoesstuff

Adarna belongs to @nesssblog

[immigrant-rob]

3 weeks later

The past 3 weeks have passed quickly, as one would expect when they are settling in a new country. We hit the ground running as Naomi went straight back to work and I started my online study for the physio exam I am required to take. We currently live in a tiny apartment in down town while we wait for our shipment to arrive and settle our rental contract (very exciting news potentially!). On our first weekend we went winter clothes shopping, because who on earth would have clothes suitable for -40 degree weather conditions. After a lot of good advice from the experts I left with clothes that would puff me up like a penguin, but keep me warm. Pictures below are from the park around the corner and apartment view.

On our second weekend we did the Healy Pass trial which was through the forest, up the valley to a small pass from which we had stunning views over Egypt Lake and the larch trees spread out beneath us. Days like these make me realize how lucky I am to have such nature less than 1.5 hours drive away from me. This was 2 days after the news of that 2 experienced hikers got killed in a bear attack which did make us a bit more alert while hiking.

On Wednesday we visited my first ice hockey game, from now on referred to as ''hockey''. I had to compromise on this change of naming to get Naomi to accept that ''football'' was the proper sport with a round ball, not the eggball they play here. In return hockey is played on ice, while field hockey on a pitch. Anyway, watching my first ever ice hockey game left me with mixed feelings. The first 7 minutes were great, high intensity, body slams, great feats of skill. Everything you hope to see in a good sports game. And then BOOM, lights out, everyone skates to the ''dug out'' and these ice sweepers skate onto the rink to clean up the chaffed ice. But while they do so adverts and minigames are being played in the arena. A very confused Rob was then told this was the ad break, so the tv advertisements could play and generate revenue. And this didn't happen just once, but every 6-7 minutes, for each period of the game... That's a total of 6 interruptions, without the official breaks! You can now understand that this did not fall well with a European who is used to watching a sport 45 min + extra time undisturbed. with a nonsense fluffy dog mascot entering into the crowd shooting T-shirt cannisters from his high pressure gun. It was a cool experience, but the take away message was that American sport events are more led to be ''entertainment'' events where sport comes second.

Lastly, I've already experienced how the weather can swing within a few days. 5 days ago I played my first football match with my new team (VG Legion) in 20 degrees. Within 5 days the weather has swung from that, to a 10cm layer of snow and -10 degrees. Better get used to it, at least I was on time buying warm clothing!

[svturn-exe]

more oc stuff bc i love rattling these guys around in my head<3

cw for mentions of cannibalism and being buried alive

🔪most of what edwin would describe as 'supernatural bullshit' is usually invisible to normal humans for a number of reasons.

🔪demons can alter their appearance to appear human, or hide themselves altogether. however, they are still visible to other non-humans, so many demons will choose to simply disguise themselves instead, unless they're leeching off some poor sap's energy. everybody eats!

🔪angels can also take on a human disguise. the human brain can't comprehend most angels in their true form, so it blocks it out altogether unless the angel is either VERY determined to interact with them, or actively attacking them. nephilim are human-adjacent enough to be perceived, but this doesn't make them any less distressing to behold. fallen angels, who are locked into a more humanoid form, can also be seen

🔪spirits and ghosts n shit aren't visible to regular humans under normal circumstances and can't do much about that, but they may appear in cameras and mirrors

🔪edwin has a large scar on his back from an ill-fated encounter with Supernatural Bullshit he had as a child. the incident taught edwin that certain ghouls and beasts aren't fond of finding out he can See them. the incident also taught edwin that his dad can and will shoot a demon with a gun to protect his boy (father-son bonding !)

🔪edwin has the sight, and can tell when Supernatural Bullshit is afoot, even when it's disguised. (for example, when jackson first approaches ed at the gym, he can instantly see something is up with this guy, even if he's not sure what, exactly, bc he'd never seen an angel before) edwin also looks different to himself in his reflection (lighter eyes and light pupils)

🔪cero, emile, and jay (after gaining a demonic bestie) all have a partial sixth sense. cero can see ghosts/spirits and angels in unfiltered rawdog form, but it is possible for a demon to hide from him. emile can sniff out (sometimes literally) when someone isn't as human as they seem, but can't see ghosts (though pup can smell them). jay post-consensual possession can see demons, and develops a mild aversion towards angelic presences (though that's mostly due to girlie chilling in bug's body. angels are her natural predator and she would prefer not to get eaten)

🔪edwin, by the time he meets jack, has been on t for years, and likes his voice in general. he especially likes his voice in the mornings, though

🔪emile has entomophobia and arachnophobia. when there's a bug inside their apartment, jay is the one who has to catch them and bring them outside. because emile WILL start crying

🔪graveyards and human burial rites are fascinating to jackson. most disputes among angels end in bloodshed and subsequent cannibalism. actually the response to just about any death of an angel is usually to eat them. you mean your bury your dead or cremate them? instead of descending upon the corpse like vultures? wild. (edwin voice) babe,,

🔪jackson and grand finale both had other names before the death of god, but don't go by them anymore. jackson fell in love with humanity, and chose a name to reflect that desire to be human and live among them. grand finale just stopped using its old name and didn't pick a new one until it started a relationship with naomi.

🔪a0 is cis on a technicality, but somehow still has two deadnames. the first is the name his birth mother gave to him shortly before his burial due to them mistakenly believing he was stillborn. the second is the name that was given to him when he was found wandering around as a young kid

🔪emile: i got that dog in me jay: ??? emile: (transforms into a giant dog) jay: this explains so much, 🔪aspects of grand finale's character are intended to be a foil to jackson. jack went down to earth of kings own free will, grand finale was forced. jackson loves humans and takes any excuse he can to mingle with them, grand finale at its most tolerant is still not the biggest fan of humanity, and prefers to be on its own or with naomi (and later, cero).

🔪jay and naomi are very close siblings, and in their free time like to do urbex together. this joint hobby leads to them stumbling across grand finale, who just ripped and clawed its way through a facility of researchers and is pissed off at humanity. no one dies (no one important, at least) but this still does not end well

🔪naomi is no-op! luna takes e, and has vocal training, but is otherwise usually fairly masc-presenting.

🔪jackson was originally going to be a werewolf

🔪emile has that dog in it, but elaine takes after amelia (their human mother). i'm still thinking on the specifics of it but i know she's some kind of magical!!

🔪a0 is allergic to therapy, and so doesn't have many healthy outlets for stress and trauma. so, when he meets grand finale, their combined irritability and respective strong personalities result in them fighting. grand finale spares cero's life out of curiosity because the dude is clearly some kind of Creature, but it isn't sure what.

🔪cero keeps tracking down finale and fighting it. he knows he'll lose every time (grand finale is just stronger, and a0 can't yank it out of its body without severely injuring himself) but that doesn't matter. maybe he Needs to get his ass beat and not think about all the bullshit life keeps throwing at him for once

[alaska386]

F!Bsd anime watcher in the bsd world… pt 4/?

“𝐁𝐮𝐭… 𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞..”

Summary of the last chapter: Victoria guessed past occupation and Atsushi and Victoria got their first job. Atsushi first sees Ryunosuke’s appearance in a photo. Dazai laughed at Victoria’s ‘he has no eyebrows’ comment.

No one’s pov

Dazai’s singing on the couch in the agency with his headphone on.

“I’m waiting for a revelation.” Dazai says while smiling.

Victoria pov

Meanwhile Tanizaki, Naomi, Atsushi and me are following Higuchi, Atsushi’s doubting his abilities, if he’s cut out for this job. Tanizaki comforts Atsushi, then they’ve talked until Naomi starts doing weird things again, I only listen and follow Higuchi silently, thinking that Ryu’s gonna make Atsushi confident soon enough.

“We’re here.” Higuchi says, and we follow her into the dark alleyway.

“Is this really the right place?” Tanizaki asks, as we turn around to look at Higuchi.

“Um…”

“The name’s Higuchi.”

“Higuchi-san. Smugglers are a cowardly bunch. They’ll always have an escape route. But this is a dead end. If anyone came after them from there, they’d have nowhere to run.”

“That’s correct.” Higuchi drops her bag and unbuttons her shirt’s top two buttons as she continues. “I apologise. I led you into a trap.” She puts her glasses on, “My real target was you.” then takes out her walkie talkie.

“Akutagawa senpai.” Higuchi talks to the other side of the walkie talkie, which is Ryunosuke.

“Akutagawa?!” Tanizaki and Atsushi’s eyes widen and they say in a shocked tone at the same time, as I also mumble in a fake shocked tone, “Akutagawa..”.

“I have them, as planned.” Higuchi ignores our shocked expressions and continues speaking to the other.

“She’s…with the Port Mafia!” Gunshots are heard.

…

No one’s pov

In the agency, Dazai’s eyes widen while listening to his headphone and holding his suicide book to his chest.

…

Gunshots were heard. Naomi was shot. As Tanizaki tries to ask Atsushi to take Naomi out of this situation, Higuchi points the gun right at Tanizaki’s head, about to shoot him knowing that Tanizaki’s a non-combatant member. Tanizaki gets mad and activates his ability, light snow.

Victoria pov

I’m behind Atsushi, not comforting him cause not wanting to change any history, looking around at the green ‘snow’ as Tanizaki explains his ability, I quietly and slowly move to behind Atsushi since she did not shoot Atsushi in the cannon plot.

No one’s pov

Higuchi starts shooting all around her, she missed. Tanizaki grabs Higuchi’s neck from behind and he becomes visible as he holds her neck.

“Die!”

Rashoumon attacks Tanizaki from behind, Tanizaki falls down on the ground, the attacker coughs. “Fear death.”(bro’s trying so hard to make people fear him like people fear his mentor aka some suicidal maniac) “Fear slaughter.” Inserting Atsushi’s fish eyes scene. “Those who desire death have an equal desire to die.”(describing his mentor again) “Therefore… It’s nice to meet you. I’m Akutagawa, one of the Port Mafia’s dogs, as is she.” Ryu coughs again. (I hc Mori named every pm members as dogs, the animal that Dazai hated)

“Akutagawa-senpai!” Higuchi gets up. “I can handle this myself—” The port mafia mad dog slaps across the blonde’s face. “I believe my orders were to take the weretiger alive! And yet here you are, gunning everyone down. You useless bitch! Stand down.” Ryunosuke scolds the blonde, “I’m sorry.” she apologises.

Victoria pov

Ok the slapping scene’s actually amusing, why am I so weird… But it definitely hurt, it was pretty loud. Back to the topic, in order not to affect their relationship in the future, ima shut up.

Atsushi pov

“Take the weretiger alive?” I ask, still in the floor progressing things. “What are you after?” I continue asking the questions that have been in my head since they mentioned I was being targeted by the dangerous organisation, Port Mafia. What do they want from the tiger?…

“My target has always been you, and you alone, weretiger.” I hear the response…by Akutagawa that dangerous man even Kunikida san fears. “Your fellow agents lying there just got caught in the crossfire.”

I gasp, “This is because of me?”

“Indeed. That is your karma, weretiger. You cause misfortune for everyone around you, just by living.” I gasp again listening to his words.

My past memories came in my mind. “My…karma?” I stare at the ground, mumbling.

I could hear the mafioso. “Ability: Rashoumon.” I gasp as I see his…transformation…? I’m not sure— I look down and cover my face, I look at the side where he attacked, it… was destroyed destructively…

“I missed that on purpose that time, of course. But my Rashoumon has poor taste.(it’s hot though) It devours anything and EVRYTHING. I intend to capture you alive but if you continue to resist, I’ll take your leg next.”

“Why…” I look down at my shaky legs “Why… Why me?” Today, I have joined the Armed Detective Agency… Is this my fault, too…? Do I make everyone around me suffer just by living?

“A… Atsushi kun.” I hear Tanizaki and look at him. “Run, Atsushi kun.” T-They’re still alive.

Victoria pov

As I watch Atsushi struggle and thinking the worst, he finally gets up, runs towards to the gun behind Ryunosuke and grabs it and starts shooting Ryunosuke’s back, which did not work at all and Ryu the emo starts explaining about his ability, the hot Rashoumon again, I almost yawned, man.

Ryu cuts off Sushi’s leg, his eyes widen in shock and screams in pain, Ryu just coughs,(Covid man) the blood is all over the ground.

Probably after thinking about some memories related to crying stuff? I think, I remember it’s something like that. He transforms into a tiger, bro lost control over bad memories. Also! It’s amusing to watch, sadly I don’t have popcorn with me though. And- ah. No it’s fine, I’m too invisible and I’m not even the main topic, Tanizaki shouldn’t have paid attention to me and Atsushi 100% didn’t since I wasn’t one of the ones that got injured and I’m a child, Higuchi’s attention has been to Tanizaki, Atsushi and his emo senpai, Ryunosuke’s too focus on catching the target and abusing his subordinate(Higuchi). About Dazai who’ll come later on… it’ll be fine, everything’s be fine, for now still.

Damnnnnn! Shin Soukoku’s first fight! First meet! It’s so amazing- and again so interesting to watch! My eyes are sparkling with sparkles in an admired way. Oh? Higuchi starts shooting at Atsushi cause of his senpai, well she simps Ryu but uh, does too much! Just Ryu in the past he never listens to Dark era Daz 100% too— Rashoumon stabs through the tiger’s middle? Waist? Idk about tigers’ body parts.

As the fight continues, a familiar voice can be heard and be seen.

“Okay, that’s enough!” [No longer human activated] Can this man teleport??????? I probably was just too focus, sigh, whatever…

I look at Dazai, who used his ability on his old subordinate and the new one. After Dazai explaining why he’s here, he sits down in front of Atsushi and pats his head, telling him to wake up because he doesn’t want to carry all the people back at the same time.

No one’s pov

“The Port Mafia will claim that seven billion.”(I skipped some unnecessary sentences.)

“Is that a declaration of war on the Armed Detective Agency?” The brunette stands up and asks. “Try it…if you dare.”

“You’re a small-scale operation, whereas we are this city’s darkness made incarnate. We have connections in this city’s politics and economy at every level. An agency with a dozen or so operatives will become ashes along with your office in three days’ time. No one has opposed us and lived.” The blonde frowns and threatens the detective.

“I know all that.” The detective replies.

“Indeed.” The mad dog speaks. “You know that better than anyone as an ex-Port Mafia member. Dazai san.” Dazia smiles back confidently.

Victoria pov

As the silence continues, I stand up slowly and stretches. “Man are you guys done? You either stop the staring contest or I simply go back to the agency on my own Dazai san.” My legs have gone numb from not moving an inch the entire time!” I say as I slowly walk and stand next to Dazai.

The brunette turns to me, “Oh my Vicky chan! I’m glad to see you healthy well! Mostly because of you’re not injured so that you can help me take how of these unconscious people back to the agency!~ Thank you~”

Higuchi eyes widen, “I forgot about her being here…”

Ryunsouke pov

I frown and mumble, “She heard about Dazai san’s past…” I shouldn’t doubt and worry about Dazai san, he’s not someone to be underestimated after-all, he’s the most powerful. I’m sure he’ll handle it. I frown further, 𝐛𝐮𝐭… 𝐖𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐡𝐞.

[viviennevivisection]

Session 29 Notes - “A New Lectern Night” - 3/19/23

 -Four offices in the Library -- one for Oran and then one for each of us? 

-The cop’s name was Bob (the one who Cass impersonated) 

-AACAB - all arcane cops are bad 

-The rose from the chalice…something happened there. The blood wasn’t absorbed -- it somehow came from myself. Alright!

-Ellie leaving the bathroom and searching for Noami -- finds her in her childhood bedroom. It’s been semi redone by Joanna since Naomi left -- guest ready. Very plain 

-Teaching Ezra and Leah magic? Teaching everyone magic? Naomi would be a good teacher! 

-Naomi and Leah trying to mend bridges

-Naomi comforting Leah -- knowing she feels different since her shadow is back 

L: “I don’t know where to put all of it. I’m sorry you had to go through it alone. I could’ve been there.” 

N: “I figured it out. I thought it would scare you.” 

-Pushing back the wedding 

-Leah laughing hysterically at the insane day we’ve all had 

-Ellie asking Cass to teach her to shoot gun :) 

-Ellie transformed the ceremonial dagger into a gun! Pointed it at Cass immediately, who turned the safety on for her. Talking about going to a shooting range to practice/learn (C: “We’ll have to find somewhere safe…for me.”)

-Give Ellie a gun! 

-Back at the library, getting Lectern Night set up. It’s like a lecture hall, very dark academia, but less dusty 

-We are bringing Cyrus in fluffy, pink handcuffs 

-Oran pulled us aside, offering advice 

-Be careful on the approach, especially considering their new…connections 

-Everyone here knows the power and value of information, be careful on what we share and how we share it 

-Checking on the populace, generally, and specially looking for Miles 

-Game planning -- whole truth? Half truths? No one wants to lie but the truth is simply so fucking nuts 

-THIS is the bridge 

-Everyone’s shadows are back 

Cass’ Mission Statement: “I want to stop these people that are just…parasites on this world. Making people sick. Just. Taking. And taking.” 

-Concerns about a vacancy -- with the Cor gone TC could potentially swoop in and reprogram everyone. It seems unlikely though considering the Pritchards do not own a TV. Despite now knowing the full story, it doesn’t seem like the Corsicans have any love for TC 

-There is a bit of buzz among the populace, people seem concerned about the lost time. Parents with children especially know something is up 

-Bethany is champion (will potentially champion Naomi’s cause) 

-Adeline could be a problem. She was on “””the path””” 

-She’s pretending to project a calm aura, but does seem worried knowing something happened, and that the Coralogia members are absent 

-Naomi is trying to snatch Adeline’s shadow 

-Finding Miles, checking his internal ley system 

-No trace of almost anything. There is nothing but a shell here. It looks like it was some version of the “devour intellect” feature, but focused on wisdom. Almost irreversible, would take a LOT of time and resources to fix 

-Naomi channeling Rebecca to see if she can help 

N to R: “I want to fix him. For you. I thought you might know how to do that.” 

-A lot of emotions coming through from Rebecca to Naomi, but she doesn’t know how to help 

-Rebecca didn’t understand what happened to her 

-Naomi is presenting 

N: “I am sorry to bother everyone. To make you all come here.” 

-Naomi has their full attention -- people noticed the lack of Coralogia 

-Something has changed 

-Some people seem scared, others seem to be rationalizing the strangeness 

N: “I wanted everyone to hear from me because I didn’t want you to have to go it alone. To do that would go against everything this community stands for. (Pause). We have been kept in the dark about a lot of things. I..I knew something was wrong. I didn't want to talk about it because I thought it was something wrong with me, not that I was being lied to. I want to apologize for not being able to do it alone. Or sooner. There were people here with certain goals FOR us that they weren’t telling us. They wanted to center themselves in our worship. The Coralogia have centered themselves and used our divinity for their own means. They wanted to keep that from you to ascend and become something worth worshiping.”

-A pause -- maybe like a full minute 

-People processing -- we cannot go back to moments ago -- before we knew we what we do now 

-Adeline is asking for proof

N: “I don’t want anyone to be scared like I was. If you’re willing to see it, everyone in this room has their divinity back. I promise that I’m not the only one here that can do magic.” 

-A kid is doing magic -- HI-YA! Did a little punch and sparks came out 

N: “Nobody here could do that this morning.”  

Adeline: “How do we know these are not gifts from them?” 

N: “If that were true…where are they?” 

N: “I don’t want there to be things we don’t all know together. I knew that would be hard to hear -- I’m thankful everyone was alright hearing it from me.” 

-Bethany has stood up -- “But…where are they?” 

N: “When everyone lost time that was because they had attempted to take Corsica where it wasn’t supposed to be. They were trying to do something I don’t fully understand…something scary. I think Corsica came back and they didn’t because what they wanted was too big of an ask.” 

-World views are being changed. Coach Cobb is going nuts, yelling, cursing. An outburst like this is almost unheard of in this context (previously) 

N: “We have not been dealing with scary, big, and stressful [feelings] for a long time. Expect heightened reactions. I tried to fix things so we could have big reactions again.”

N: “They were doing something to make themselves more important than they could be on their own. I was trying to make sure everyone came home.” 

N: “No one..is alone.” 

-What do we do…now? 

-What if they focused on themselves TRULY? Do what they want, study what they want, share the knowledge they are genuinely passionate about

-Living authentically

-You do what you like and share it with everyone else! 

N: “I don’t think a lot necessarily has to change. I think it’s better to continue the pursuit [of knowledge] and bring what you actually like and enjoy.” 

-An iconic English teacher has risen: “What we were doing wasn’t harmful in and of itself, it was the way it was being utilized.”

-A pivot in the community has been successful for now 

-Naomi being scared that everyone’s shadows are going to, for example, wake them up in the middle of the night holding them down with their faces rotting off 

Ellie: “With so much love, I think that might just be a you thing.” 

-Oran praised Naomi’s handling of everything 

-Filling job openings -- most of the Coralogia hold the important civic titles in the town. Adrien and Leah helping out? 

-Trying to keep a low profile with outsiders -- the more eyes on the community, the more needs explained. It may also be hard to explain to outside connections why half of the most important Corsicans vanished overnight 

-Ellie took notes on the current state of Mile’s condition -- hopefully to be able to study later 

-Whitmer was responsible for whatever happened to him 

-Ellie stopped the child who did magic during Naomi’s address, told him to be responsible and try not to hurt anyone, but to have fun. She gave him candy 

-On the way back to the Pritchard home and mysterious, gigantic person is walking the wrong way? 

-I cannot overemphasize how unsubtly we ran up to them to question them

-Ellie especially 

-They are extremely suspicious, have a glint in their eye like Sterling when he detects magic. Unresponsive to question. Maintain a lie that they were just out for a jog

-They want to get drinks? 

-Cass tried to get drinks with them and they refused, turned, and said: “I’m sure Molly is free, though.” → a direct threat

-Cass is channeling Saetus (?) to see where this stranger’s allegiances lie 

-This could be Alestra -- Whitmer’s TC contact. Maybe TC got wind something was wrong or different and sent them to check it out 

-They have no pacts binding them, at least not with Kirruk. There is technology at work, reminiscent of Sterling, but more advanced. This is a living, breathing individual. Cass also saw a vision, time rewinding and seeing this figure standing outside the Pritchard home, and watching. 

-This person has to contracts or viruses 

-They have a very strong, healthy magical essence about them 

-What do we do with Cyrus lol 

-There is no jail here 

-Where does VE put the dagger and chalice when they sleep? I said they just keep in on their belt, and Sarah dropped it….hmm

-Naomi following up on a promise from a while ago -- letting Dark Naomi sleep 

-Dark Naomi is more often than not trying to protect Naomi 

-Naomi has exhausted the full capacity of her power, doing this (letting DN) is good for her mortal soul 

-We’re all sleeping under Eleanor’s blanket! 

-Ellie gave the Bubble to Ezra (since we have the necklaces now) 

-Ellie drew of sketch of this mysterious jogger -- Cyrus didn’t recognize them 

-Danny Wright did -- somewhere in security, but unsure 

-Ellie texted Dr. Cunt to ask her, she said it was a conversation to be had over drinks

E: She just threatened our lives <3 can’t wait for drinks though! 

CH: And here I thought it was a more exclusive club to have you all. 

-Oran explaining the pools -- they’re very old 

-The Pool in the Halls of Innovation (on campus) is the oldest 

-They’re all connected 

-Use of the Pools

Travel using a teleportation sigil (requires seven combined spell levels to cast)

The Reflection/Baptism (knowledge about this was extremely restricted)

Scrying (five total spell levels -- if the target is near a different pool, it lowers the DC)

-It takes five total spell levels to change the mode from one to another