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Okay, but imagine how sick it would be if Pillow won TPOT
Picture this: It’s the finale, and Pillow wins. Two gives her the limitless power, completely unaware of her murdurous attitude, and she immediately starts causing chaos.
Everyone has to team up to try to stop Pillow from ending the world. Background characters, the failed debuters, even the post-split contestants show up.
It’s just this massive war of chaos and discord, which, in my opinion, would make an awesome finale.
I’m just saying.
#found this in my drafts#What was I on when I wrote this 😭#Past me has a point tho#bfdi#battle for dream island#tpot#the power of two#battle for bfb#bfb#tpot pillow#pillow tpot#bfdi pillow#pillow bfdi
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i really like that one tiktok


#Hi guys its me Beeduoo on tumblr#alliumduo#cranboo#ctommy#i actually saw the tiktok on youtube shorts first im an unironic youtube shorts user😭😭#I IMMEDIATLEY THOUGHT OF THEM TOO Dream smp you will never leave my mind#Sorry i was gone for like twenty years i got really into aphmau for like the fourth time in my life I'm rewatching mystreet in school with#my friend Chronologically its going awesom we're on Llp Bro pdh was Insane#I FW EIN AND KAI IDGAF idk WHAT THE HELL EIN DOES later but i still like him AND KAI WAS A VICTIM OF BAD WRITING OMFGG IT MAKES ME SO MAD#That migbt be a hot take idk i only ever see Hate for them but like Kai especially i feel like jess just wrote them to be Stupid and weird#out of nowhere just to give aph a reason to go back to aaron the date thing WAS SO STUPID ok sorry for the side tangent#that was part of it but its mainly im just a Senior im Eighteen years old now and it sucksss when u get to this age i didnt draw for MOTNHS#in general bc of college apps all of that ughhh so ANNOYING imma be real im not even done yet i still have to do fafsa scholarships oh my#Damn god I STILL LOVE MY FAVS i would like to draw More again thank u i Love tumblr love these Tags i love to talk bye
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I'd like to headcanon that in Coulson's letter to Daisy, he wrote, "You may not have been my daughter from birth, but I love you just the same and am so proud of you." 🙂
I'd also like to think that he says something along the lines of, "If I had a daughter, I would've wished she was as cool as you." 🙂
#did i completely rip this from my own birthday card my irl coulson and his wife gave me last year? absolutely. 😭😭😭#and last year for fathers day you can bet your ass i wrote “its funny what can happen when someone believes in you” in his card.#im so serious#yes i am a 28yo woman using tv quotes to show my father figure how grateful i am for him 🫶🏻#and that second quote in the post was said TO MY FACE by my irl coulson... like how did i get so lucky? 😭🤮#i went home that day and sobbed my eyes out. mans is unreal#ANYWAYS. enough of my yapping 💀#agents of shield#phil coulson#daisy johnson#phil coulson is daisy johnsons dad#i just love them so much your honor#original post
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I have never seen or read Demon slayer (and tbh I don't really plan to). And I've also never even heard of the clones up until your blog, so my only knowledge and understanding of them is almost solely formed on your interpretation. You made me want these guys in ways that are concerning feminism. I can't even think about picking up the manga because if the canon is somehow different by your interpretation I fear I would feel as if the canon ones were ooc. Like, no, Null never said they would do that🤨 does this guy Koyoharu even know what she's talking about??🤨🤨
Your cult leader loves background characters and tries give them as much love as the popular ones!!
bUT I TAKE A CHARACTER AND TRY PUSHING THEIR WORST QUALITIES ACCORDING TO MY DELUSIONS, SO THEY COULD BE JUST A LITTLE NICER OR WORSE.
sighs.. but tysm.. I try my best to make them in character as possible even if some qualities might irk you, but isn't that what makes them even more loveable? I hope I can bend the perception of more characters in due time.
Even if you did watch/read demon slayer, you wouldn't see these jerks until season thREE and EVEN THEN. SLAMS HEAD AGAINST THE WALL. WITH SO LITTLE SCREEN TIME. That's also probably why you haven't seen them around. they don't have much content or focus on their backstory, so the Fandom didn't get as attached. and I make it up with the scraps given.
holds your hands. I do recommend at least watching the scenes with the clones in the anime. their VAs did such a good job, I love both sub and dub. Sekido's grunts, Karaku's laughs, Urogi's laughs (and screeches), And Aizetsu's WAVERY VOICE all echo in my head constantly. I miss them.
[!!DEMON SLAYER AMOUNT OF BLOOD!!]
#cult leader cameo#null brainwash#cloaked cult member#not art#BLUSHING!! WTF. IM SO FLATTERED 😭😭😭 the last part sent me. gwahh so kind...#Gotouge wrote a lot of doomed family dynamics that i love. a great creator with characterization that i can't get enough of!#i treat the clones as my ocs atp tbh. but not in a disrespectful way i hope!!#i love shounen and their fighting styles are so telling of their characters too. like how i mentioned a while ago#that they barely communicate while fighting but still know exactly what the other is thinking#sekido and karaku both even got annoyed and basically said “i know” when there WAS communication#urogi just listened to orders without complaint and i thought that was really cute.#aIZETSU LITERALLY COMPLAINS THE ENTIRE TIME I LOVE HIM#FUCK IM JUST RAMBLING ATP. I REALLY LOVE THE CLONES#THIS IS JUST A SIMPING POST FUCK.#DID YOU HEAR HOW SEKIDO'S VOICE COULD GET SO MELLOW?? THATS HOW I IMAGINE HE SPEAKS TO YOU THAT MAKES HIS BIAS SO OBVIOUS. ITS SO!!!!!!!!!!#im gonna rip out my hair
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Tomarry AU where Harry knows everything but it's not because he is a time traveller, neither because he is a seer —
Pages and words have always been Harry's best friend. Living inside a cupboard did not help with his obsession. Rather, it was due to those pages that he survived. (He was 14 when he got his room instead of a bloody cupboard to sleep in.). The library was the only place Harry was able to hide from Dudley before they were sent to different schools.
When he was fourteen, and hiding from Dudley in the public library (he was mad that his gaming room was given to him.) he ends up reading a book he came to like very much.
It was a book about an orphan boy (like him.) who ends up going to this magic world (oh, how Harry wished) but sadly Tom ended up being hated there as well. Harry was awed by Tom's strength, but also angry (at the world how they let Tom down.) and angry at Tom for destroying himself to destroy what hurt him (or maybe he was angry at himself for not being able to do the same, maybe he was angry that he couldn't save Tom —) Harry was fourteen and it would seem he was angry at a lot of things.
(—that day Harry punched Dudley back after Dudley hit him. He didn't get to eat for a week straight.)
Jealousy is something he never let himself feel, because it wasn't a privilege he was given — not really. But one thing he was jealous of was the fact that Tom got to fly. (Harry wondered some nights — hungry and unable to sleep — what would he do if he got a magic letter? Would he have friends? How nice it would be to get to eat 3 times a day — how nice it would be to just fly away.).
Harry Potter loved Tom Riddle. Harry Potter also loved Lord Voldemort. The boy who died to be born as a monster. The boy who swallowed all the hatred so that he could hate the world in return (oh, how Harry wish he could burn down the world too sometimes — how he wish he could just hate hate hate and not care care care; maybe then he would finally stop trying look for approval in his aunt's eyes). Harry knew when started reading the book Tom was as cruel as he was strong. And he knew as he read the text, there would come a day Tom would burn the world like he was also burned. Even though he didn't agree with Tom's decisions most of the time he knew Tom. So yes, Harry Potter might not agree with Voldemort but he still loved him. And he wished that he could tell him that. Wished he could tell the man who was still a boy that wanted a family so bad that he stayed up for hours at night searching, hungry to find any living family there was, hungry for a belonging that he wasn't even deigned in the magic world. He wished he could tell Voldemort that no matter what he became, Harry would love him.
So imagine his surprise when he wakes up in a moving train — right after going to bed (instead of a cake he got a can of soup) the night he turned sixteen. Imagine how surprised as he sat there, in robes that he doesn't remember he ever owned. Imagine him freaking out that he got kidnapped as the door of his train compartment opened, and in came Tom Riddle.
#and no harry doesn't know how the story ends#the book ended when the first war started#so harry knew was that Tom will destroy the world#so yes Harry might know a lot#he also doesn't know a lot#but what he knows is that#he loves Tom#and Voldemort#and thats that#so join harry annoying tf outta tom 😭#with all his knowledge#and the ability to understand tom#but also watch harry getting the love that he deserves and finally someone who would love him#like all the love he has to give#tomarry#harrymort#Harry Potter#Tom Riddle#yes it's basically time travel au without the baggage of fated enemies and baggage#I really wrote tim traveller instead of time fuck my life
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justin 😭😭😭 my babyyy
#the way i would have legit melted down at this 😭#public speaking is my worst fear#i can literally see justin having a mini anxiety attack up there 😭😭😭#in my mind he's staring directly at ja'marr and joe BEGGING for help#so many thoughts on how the original lsu trio all have their shy introverted sides (and probably all prefer to stay like that)#but developed an outgoing socializing mask at lsu with the other two#because forcing yourself to be uncomfortable is part of growing up and isn't that what they did at lsu? grow up together?#joe's very obviously introverted and i've talked a lot about how meeting justin at lsu brought ja'marr out of his shell#bu i also think justin has that same quiet side#like he did an interview after his extension where he was like 'i like being alone and at home and that's why minny's perfect for me'#which doesn't fit what a lot of people think when they think of justin jefferson#we talk so much about perfect pr-trained justin but how much does that take a toll on him?#i'm sure he does adore being the center of attention wherever he goes - but it must get exhausting sometimes huh#and he CONSANTLY talks about how he has two masks: justin (himself) and jets (jets being the flashy confident wr1 on the field)#(ok my headcanon that ja'marr gave justin the 'jets' nickname makes this just 😘)#he does like being that charismatic guy that laughs off mistakes on the prompter -but that's not who justin really is#never forget that justin was a two star recruit all scrawny with horrible grades before coming to lsu#like -i think justin brought ja'marr out of his shell but i also think ja'marr also gave justin more confidence#and he's blossomed into the guy who's constantly decked out in jewelry and isn't afraid to wear this amazing glittery suit#isn't that so beautiful? changing someone and being changed by that same someone in return?#lmao just realized i wrote a whole essay analyzing justin#disclaimer that i don't actually know these men lmao#justin jefferson
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Me in 2015-2023: idk why but I never cared about iwaoi or bokuaka. ig shiratorizawa just captured me with their tragedy and uber autism
Me in 2025 suddenly for no reason: aND THE UNBREAKABLE BOND OF CHILDHOOD FRIENDS DESPITE SEPERATION OF MILES AND THE TRAGIC REALITY THAT SOMETIMES YOU DO GO YOUR SEPERATE WAYS. AND CAN YOU IMAGINE GRADUATING SEPERATED FROM YOUR OTHER HALF WHO YOU KNOW LIKE THE BACK OF YOUR HAND. YOU UNDERSTAND HIM MORE THAN ANYONE EVEN THOUGH REALLY YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HIM AT ALL. YOU ARE SO UNALIKE YET HE CAPTIVATES YOU MORE THAN ANYONE AND YOU WANT, NO, NEED TO MEMORIZE EVERY PART OF HIM. YOU ARE THE PROTAGONISTS OF THE WORLD BC HE MADE YOU BELIEVE IT
#I didn’t even care about in another life#I KNOW. BLASPHEMOUS#idk why I literally didn’t care wtf—#but the universe is endless I thought we were too fucking DESTROYED ME. and when i think about it i genuinely get depressed—#and in the case of iwaoi idk why I legit didn’t care about them or seijoh#like iwaoi on paper is my perfect ship… maybe i just didnt get the Oikawa hype and got averse simply bc of the fandom?#but now I’m fucking obsessed for some reason 😭#my ass not giving a shit about seijoh and fukordani is so crazy#like all my mutuals and friends loved them so ofc I wasn’t like indifferent. I reblogged stuff constantly (mainly bc I rb all art ever) but#I wasn’t interested wtfff. they’re legit the most popular teams and are so compelling#kuroken ushiten and their teams altogether had me by the balls#and then Karasuno was filled with the most RAHHHH#I was so obsessed with tsukiyama and kuroken so maybe that’s why I didn’t have room in my heart for another set of childhood friends 😭#kuroken. …#wait.#*looks back at what I wrote*#hm.#the rare og text post#haikyuu#bokuaka#iwaoi#oiiwa#kuroken#haikyuu save#bokuto koutarou#akaashi keiji#iwaizumi hajime#oikawa tooru#make me crazy rn and idk even know why#so sudden but it’s real
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For writers:
What’s your favorite piece of writing you’ve done, and why??
Idk I just woke up thinking about this & now I’m curious!!! & may or may not be compiling a tbr based on your responses since I really haven’t had the time to read any hl fics yet🫶🫶🫶
#I don’t really have an answer bc I love all of my oneshots/fic equally💓💓💓#the latest oneshot I spent a month writing…my fic has been in the works almost a year now…#but I was thinking that the Imelda oneshot I wrote in still crazy about and I reread it and love it#but it’s not popular at all but I don’t even think about popularity/notes with these thinfs#like if *I* am satisfied and happy with it#that’s what matters and I write these things because it’s a fun hobby and I write to my tastes😆#and my fic is like my baby…my brainchild…I’m weaving such a crazy plot together and NOTHING has been revealed yet😭😆#but I’m excited for things to start coming together & I *hope* it’s satisfying#and the Ominis oneshot🤌🤌🤌 idk I like them all😆😆#but yeah I don’t talk with many writers on here bc I started out only posting my scribbles#I want to start reading more too!!!!!!!! and it’s funny bc I actually started out in this fandom writinf only#but months of posting to nobody I just have fun writing and sharing these things💓💓💓#ignore these hashtags I’m always so incoherent right when I wake up😆😆😆#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanfic#maybe even if you just read them but you have a favorite tell me why!!!!!
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so after boots, what other hsr characters do you like?
hm. well. hmmmm. ahhh.. uhhhhhhhhhhh
#sal.asks#it's cowboy all the way down baby !!!!!#this is only kind of a joke answer lol. i legitimately lost 90% of my interest in other characters once i saw leaks abt him LOL#and it's only gone downhill from there#...he should have a ship name like that. uphill or downhill. theres a joke there#otherwise i am a big ratio fan. second funniest character in the whole cast#bro is so done with EVERYBODY'S shit#i have to respect his dedication to not giving a fuck about what anybody thinks about him lol#(but also there's clearly something else going on underneath that?? WHAT is going on in his brain. i wanna study him like a bug)#homie is here for one purpose and that is EDUCATION. he's so funny#i wrote like 5k words of a fic for him with an oc. putting him in a box and shaking it around#like that pear wiggler gif. you know the one#i am also a screwllum lover 💝 silly man. deeply charming. also incredibly funny just in a subtle way#i am a moderate dh enjoyer as well bc that boy is slaving away in the angst mines#and also. dragon. insane about his aesthetic#theres so much beautiful merch for him. i saw a gold-lined pin of his dragon and dear godddddddd#if i werent broke from the holidays it would be MINEEEEEEEEE#i was geared up to be obsessed with aven (i think i have a supernatural sense for when backstories are going to be interesting)#but then i saw the bh leaks and every other thought fled my brain LOLLL#anyway yeah i know it's deeply unusual to only post about one character for these sorts of games lol#so the question is reasonable#the answer is just not that exciting unfortunately 😭
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More pp fanart b4 the vn drops....gna miss it by a few hours but I WILL GET TO PLAY I WILL
#pine point#Zeddyzi#Artshit#Fanart#Gna miss out on the initial excitement and gushing.....I love shabbat but I hate when that happens😭#Don't look at what I wrote on the page it was a moment of weakness
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we're so fucking back baby
#wrote and wrote and wrote and every word feels like coming home#Y'ALL 😭 i forgot what it was to write prose completely#when i was writing the first draft of ouro i just. forgot. because i didn't have time to ponder for hours#searching for the right turn of phrase or the perfect simile#BUT NOW I CAN. NOW I CAN#I don't need an epic plot i wand DOMESTICITY AND INTIMACY. and i will have it#by god i will yoink it. yank it crazy fucking style and keep it forever#this is actually so helpful for edits too? oh my god. thank you healers hands for my life
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This idea was floating my mind yesterday after shift, I was so tired and needed some silent comfort, and ofc bucktommy will come to my mind. and with what we got today I definitely wanted to share my thought, but again I don't know what happened and it turned into a fic? ficlet? idk I just talk a lot 😭 oh and please read the tags
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They didn't have any plans, buck was ending a 24h shift, and tommy was going to start a 48 in few hours.
Thats why tommy was confused when he got a weak knock on his door. He wasn't expecting anyone. Especially not his boyfriend who told him about his plans to spend his off day sleeping until his next shift.
When he opened the door, he was surprised to see his boyfriend there, exhaustion covering his features, some semi deep scratches on his face, and a big pout showing his discomfort and tiredness. His duffle hanging loosely on his left shoulder.
"Evan.." Tommy's hand started to move to reach Bucks face, but before it could reach there, Buck threw himself on Tommy, wrapping his right arm around Tommys neck and burying his face there.
Tommy, taking his weight easily, held an arm around buck's waist, and the other quickly took the duffle out of buck's shoulder, which immediately gave buck the opportunity to wrap himself around tommy and put his whole weight on his boyfriend there.
Tommy was concerned, he rubbed a hand along bucks spine, the other around his shoulder, and kissed the side of his temple. "Hey there," he said softly "everything okay?"
"Yeah" buck answered with a sigh. "Just..." another sigh and let his self relax into his boyfriends embrace "exhausted"
They stayed there for a moment, then tommy swung his boyfriend inside the door "okay lets get you inside big boy" and led him to the couch
"Let me see that pretty face of yours" tommy said softly
Buck didn't want to let go. He needed the comfort and warmth of his boyfriend around him. He wanted to bury himself inside of tommy and stay there, but he did reluctantly
Tommy looked worried, gently held his hand above the wounds on bucks face, brushed on them with a feather like touch, which caused buck to wince slightly, "sorry.." tommy muttered "what happened"
"Oh, nothing much, just some stupid accident happened on call," Buck said, waving a hand
Tommy still looked concerned, and he just hummed softly
"Sorry," Buck said quickly, obviously starting to get anxious about the whole situation. "I know you have a shift in a few hours, I really shouldn't come over without talking to you first. it's just that this stupid day was so exhausting, and Gerrard wasn't making it any easier, and this wounds, I know they are nothing to fuss about, you know these happen they aren't even painful or anything.." he tried to laugh it off but instead he felt something building in his throat, and his eyes burning, he shifted his eyes avoiding Tommy's, continuing with a cracked voice "sorry tommy, I should go you have to get to harbor, don't want you to be late and —"
"Evan," tommy said, cutting his boyfriend there. Pulling him out of his head "Why are you apologizing now? None of that, I'm definitely not mad or upset that you came, and never will be!" Tommy said firmly, "you are always welcome here, and I want to always be here when you need me" and without any more words tommy pulled buck in his arms and wrapped them around him "I just got worried" then he kissed his hair and leaned on it "and I am sure I won't be late to my shift, unless I need to be there 5 hours before it start"
Buck laughed lightly and held to tommy tightly, buried his face in the crock of Tommy's neck, and breathed shakily
"I'm here Evan, as long as you need" Tommy said softly, holding Buck with a hand, and caressing his hair with the other
They stayed there until tommy felt buck relax in his arms, the tension leaving his body slightly. then he pulled himself up, which caused his boyfriend to whine in protest, tommy looked at Buck, caring and loving gaze, scanning his face and when their eyes met, he smiled at him softly and gave him a quick peck on his lips, and another gentle kiss beside his wounds, "oh I guess kisses does have a healing effect" buck said
"Oh? Then I think i have to give you a full dose of them until you fully heal, dont want to compromise your health there"
They both huffed a small laugh, tommy kissed him again, tucked him in his arms, and they stayed there, in their comfortable warm zone
#look i am in no way a writer consider this words dump or whatever 😭#oh and if there is any mistakes? no there isn't English isn't my first or second language please just ignore them lol#its just a scene i imagined and it really got me emotional i wanna see them comforting each other 🤧🤧🤧#bucktommy#tommy kinard#911#911 abc#evan buck buckely#evan buckley#bucktommy fic#?#should i tag it as fic? lol#ficlet#yea? ig hehe#i talked a lot again in the tags 😭#and i want to add that i really think tommy will be more silent when comforting buck than what i wrote here#*
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ok but like why wouldn’t you ask me first 😭😭
#just read my own writing passed through ai and wow that was so weird and uncomfortable!!#possibly partially because i did not ask for that. someone decided to shorten my writing using chatgpt and asked me to look it over#which i have qualms with in the first place. like just tell me to shorten it….#but also it’s like insanely uncanny 😭 i probably sound so out of touch rn i’m sure everyone knows but like damn#like it’s my writing. the general point i was trying to make is still there. but like it’s missing so much of my thinking#like when i read things i’ve written for fun or professionally/academically there’s like stuff beyond what’s actually in the text#as there is for like. literally any writing ever of course#but this is feels like someone read my work and then told me what they thought i was thinking while i wrote it and it’s SO off#ok that’s it not to be mr obvious as always but I DONT LIKE GENAI#mostly for reasons that are worse than this obvi but wow continued encouragement to be a hater!!!!
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You guys have to get weird about dandadan with me I can't do this alone
#🫴#October 4th is when the first ep drops mark ur calendars#idk what it is about this series that makes me so insane#it's just FAST and HEARTFELT and I think it's narratively perfect tbqh#once the mangakas editor was like ok time to improve. what do you have no experience with. and the mangaka was like romance I guess?#and the editor was like okay go read 100 romance manga. and then they did. and then they wrote two romance manga 😭#and now dandadan has beat structures that are VERY SPECIFICALLY romance manga#squawk tag
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Was Aleksander power-hungry or wanted power to use it for the protection of his people?
This question is one of the most hotly debatable in this fandom and I decided to clear this out not by analyzing his words through the POV of other characters (who don't believe him and therefore the reader finds him a liar) but through his own perspective in "Rule of Wolves".
So let's take an objective look inside his own thoughts and find out.

His very first thoughts were how could he reclaim his powers, describing the whole experience as somewhat painful and confusing to him. His second were about Alina.
And these are his third ones. He explains how utterly worthless Nikolai and Zoya are to save Ravka. How immature and weak. Aleksander finds himself to be the only one able for this task. His powers, experience and general abilities are testament to that.
But note how he calls Ravka "his country". From the carved woods decorating his bedroom to his knowledge of "every pebble and branch" of it, this country is special to him. He loves it, feels a connection to it and wants to protect it.
(You just can't call the Darkling "unpatriotic")

He displays bitterness for his loss and Ravka's new state just verifies to him that his plans would only prevent this decaying fate.



Yuri: "Sankta Alina who gave her life for Ravka"
Aleksander: "Am I a joke to you?"
And indeed is he?
Aleksander displays a very strong resentment for the lack of recognition he has gained. His statement: "I gave my life for Ravka" probably doesn't only allude to his death from Alina's hands but also his total commitment in the protection of the Grisha and Ravka that lasted for centuries. He gave his life away by pushing his personal happiness and well-being aside and wholly dedicating his life and skills to a selfless goal. He wasted years, allies, soldiers, endured otkazat'sya Kings that rule him, a bitter mother and his own immortality only for others to hurriedly erase any memory of him once he's gone.
So it seems that his desire to be seen only stems from his long-awaited and secret wish for his actions to be recognized.
Based on the last screenshot, he views his actions as justified not because of a "power-hungry nature" but out of his efforts to help others. Whether these actions are justified or not depends on the reader.

I believe this is one of the most concrete evidence that Aleksander truly cared about the Grisha.
He felt intense anger for those who were ignorant and apathetic towards the Grisha's fate and he himself cared about who was gonna sit the Ravkan throne.
No matter how much humanity he shed as the years passed, it seems that he didn't shed all of it by the time of these books.

Apparently Aleksander had two main goals in this book:
- To protect his people and country as he always strived to do.
- For others to finally give him some credit and have their acknowledgment that yes, he has done something for this country all these years.
In order to help the Grisha and change their fates he needed to be in a position of strength, hence his desire to take the throne. He views himself as a fatherly figure towards his people. A protector and guardian.
But he also wants to become a Saint and king. For people to look up to him. So many Saints had done less than half in comparison to Aleksander and they still won people's love. Now it's his turn and he thinks he deserves it.

I'm adding a short parenthesis here.
His concern didn't only extent to the Grisha but to his blind, otkazat'sya followers as well.
He cared about what would happen in the battlefield and seemed ready to create nichevo'ya to protect them. Merzost is extremely painful but this "selfish" villain is ready to use it to protect his naive but innocent army.

A hundred of years ago Aleksander refused the King's gold as payment for his services. Instead he opted to plead for the construction of a palace. A home and haven for all the Grisha that were hiding out of fear from the persecution against them.
He saw his chance and took it to make the lives of his people a little better.

So this whole "the Darkling created the Fold out of his desire for power" was bullshit after all.
He wanted power but only to use it to end the wars. Ironically, the result of it (aka. the Fold) only aggravated the problem.
And the Darkling's dream never came entirely true. He gave them a home but never a safe life. Ravka was almost always at war, Grisha were never accepted, the Ravkan kings never paid much attention to the Grisha's problems regarding their role in society which placed them almost at the bottom of the food chain.
All these things worried Aleksander and pushed him to action both when he created the Fold and when he started the Civil War.

The Darkling has a very different mentality than those who don't have the burden of immortality on their shoulders.
Aleksander uses time as an advantage and has a remarkable patience. He bides his time and strikes when he sees the opportunity, leaving other people to die since they're only just a part of a whole. He probably thinks: "Well, I'll meet plenty more new otkazat'sya in the future so why should I be concerned for this bunch here?"
But the bleak future of the Grisha make him stop and think. They're the only reason why he stays and fight and why he proclaimed Zoya a Saint.
So it's obvious that Aleksander only used power for the benefit of his people and country.
- When king Yevgeni offered him a handsome reward, Aleksander turned it down and chose to appeal for a better future for the rest of the Grisha.
- When the wars didn't stop coming and Grisha were again getting killed, he tried to use merzost to augment his powers and put a stop to it.
- When he tried to use the Fold as a weapon with Alina at his side, he did it to place Ravka in a stronger position in comparison to his enemies.
- He viewed Nikolai and Zoya dangerous to the rest of the country.
- He was concerned of what would happen to the Grisha if Demidov became king.
- He was determined to save Ravka and lead it as their king and protector.
- Even though he thought of leaving, he stayed out of concern for the Grisha (again).
Contrary to the people who say that the Darkling began selfless but by the time of these books became selfish, it seems that he never lost his selflessness. He still kept thinking about others and his last moments he was unrepentant for his crimes since he did them for others not for himself. It's true that he had pride and an ego but rightfully so. No one else was as powerful or as capable as him to make a change and, honestly, no one else made a decent effort but him.
He also displayed a strong bitterness for the fact that others were so quick to forget him and his actions. He felt wronged that after all he had done, none wanted to acknowledge his own part in the protection of Ravka. He wanted to be seen and appreciated. His anger and indignation came from a place of injustice as he saw it. Whatever he did was labeled as wrong and people only feared him, never feeling gratefulness or love towards him. The Darkling wanted others to give him his due for what he went through, did and tried to do. Recognition after so many years of feeling invisible and hated.
It was something that even his enemies admitted about him:


The strongest evidence of his yearning to shield his country is how he willingly gave his life for it at the end. He would be tortured forever but at least his people wouldn't forget him and he would have fulfilled his desired role as a protector of his country.
#the darkling#pro darkling#aleksander morozova#shadow and bone#it's like you work your ass off for years on a project and somebody else gets all the credit and love#Alina did nothing (+ is still alive) and people worship her#all the other Saints never troubled themselves about the Grisha but they were still revered#but what about him? why can't they see that he sacrificed much as well? much more than all the other Saints combined#his exasperation is completely understandable#people wrote him off so quickly without admitting that he too played his part in the protection of the Grisha#but the rest of them couldn't see it because they weren't alive back when Grisha lived in caves. were burned in the stake#and killed each other to survive#classic ungratefulness#on another note I got out of my hibernation mode! see ya again in another six months 🫡😭#pro aleksander morozova#grishaverse#rule of wolves#ruin and rising#alina starkov#anti zoya nazyalensky#nikolai lantsov#the darkling meta#meta#grishaverse meta
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