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Okay, but imagine how sick it would be if Pillow won TPOT
Picture this: Itās the finale, and Pillow wins. Two gives her the limitless power, completely unaware of her murdurous attitude, and she immediately starts causing chaos.
Everyone has to team up to try to stop Pillow from ending the world. Background characters, the failed debuters, even the post-split contestants show up.
Itās just this massive war of chaos and discord, which, in my opinion, would make an awesome finale.
Iām just saying.
#found this in my drafts#What was I on when I wrote this š#Past me has a point tho#bfdi#battle for dream island#tpot#the power of two#battle for bfb#bfb#tpot pillow#pillow tpot#bfdi pillow#pillow bfdi
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no wait bc what abt yandere character whoās been your best friend since childhood and he got you this adorable teddy bear for you except it has a tiny camera in it and he tells himself heās content with you not being with him as long as you donāt dare to date anyone else. he has to pretend he isnāt fuming whenever he asks you what you did today and you say just studying even though he knows youāre lying because you had a boy over in your room (who is your classmateā¦ and you two were very much just studying but his obsessive nature twists it into something else entirely). right when he thinks heās losing you, itās like the universe answered his prayers. tonight, heās capturing grainy footage and staticky audio of you masturbating and he nearly cums in his pants when itās his name youāre whimpering out.
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Good morning šš¼
I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.
Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people Iāve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didnāt have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So Iām very grateful for everything.
I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and Iāve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious Iām spamming everyone too much so I probably wonāt reply to everything. Please donāt feel pressured to support me financially, thereās is a free option on patreon to follow. Iāll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go šš¼š
#my brain to me: what in the retired YouTuber ass type post.. (screams) ok#I just received a lot of anons about the situation and I wanted to clarify itās okay!!#I know the usd conversion rate is crazyā¦ so Iāll try to wrangle my head to post some stuff publicly. I had a friend who supported me from#brazil.. I was like what! ily but if itās breaking bank please donāt do it!!!#I also didnāt want people sending me asks thinking I didnāt read it.. listen Iāve been a fandom lurker for a while. yes I do get sad when#people donāt reply to my asksā¦ because Iām like I want to know your answer so bad#sorry Iām not doing a very good job replying š Iāve actually never had a fandom blog of this level#Iāve never gotten more than 5 asks over the 3+ years of tumblr usage..#Iām also an ultra perfectionist where Iāll reread what I wrote 2ā5 times before posting. yeah itās a bit crazy! if you send me a list of#recommended comics before I will probably read every single one and then reply 7+ months laterā¦#ššš#let me not ramble more šš¼#going to go get breakfast
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Tomarry AU where Harry knows everything but it's not because he is a time traveller, neither because he is a seer ā
Pages and words have always been Harry's best friend. Living inside a cupboard did not help with his obsession. Rather, it was due to those pages that he survived. (He was 14 when he got his room instead of a bloody cupboard to sleep in.). The library was the only place Harry was able to hide from Dudley before they were sent to different schools.
When he was fourteen, and hiding from Dudley in the public library (he was mad that his gaming room was given to him.) he ends up reading a book he came to like very much.
It was a book about an orphan boy (like him.) who ends up going to this magic world (oh, how Harry wished) but sadly Tom ended up being hated there as well. Harry was awed by Tom's strength, but also angry (at the world how they let Tom down.) and angry at Tom for destroying himself to destroy what hurt him (or maybe he was angry at himself for not being able to do the same, maybe he was angry that he couldn't save Tom ā) Harry was fourteen and it would seem he was angry at a lot of things.
(āthat day Harry punched Dudley back after Dudley hit him. He didn't get to eat for a week straight.)
Jealousy is something he never let himself feel, because it wasn't a privilege he was given ā not really. But one thing he was jealous of was the fact that Tom got to fly. (Harry wondered some nights ā hungry and unable to sleep ā what would he do if he got a magic letter? Would he have friends? How nice it would be to get to eat 3 times a day ā how nice it would be to just fly away.).
Harry Potter loved Tom Riddle. Harry Potter also loved Lord Voldemort. The boy who died to be born as a monster. The boy who swallowed all the hatred so that he could hate the world in return (oh, how Harry wish he could burn down the world too sometimes ā how he wish he could just hate hate hate and not care care care; maybe then he would finally stop trying look for approval in his aunt's eyes). Harry knew when started reading the book Tom was as cruel as he was strong. And he knew as he read the text, there would come a day Tom would burn the world like he was also burned. Even though he didn't agree with Tom's decisions most of the time he knew Tom. So yes, Harry Potter might not agree with Voldemort but he still loved him. And he wished that he could tell him that. Wished he could tell the man who was still a boy that wanted a family so bad that he stayed up for hours at night searching, hungry to find any living family there was, hungry for a belonging that he wasn't even deigned in the magic world. He wished he could tell Voldemort that no matter what he became, Harry would love him.
So imagine his surprise when he wakes up in a moving train ā right after going to bed (instead of a cake he got a can of soup) the night he turned sixteen. Imagine how surprised as he sat there, in robes that he doesn't remember he ever owned. Imagine him freaking out that he got kidnapped as the door of his train compartment opened, and in came Tom Riddle.
#and no harry doesn't know how the story ends#the book ended when the first war started#so harry knew was that Tom will destroy the world#so yes Harry might know a lot#he also doesn't know a lot#but what he knows is that#he loves Tom#and Voldemort#and thats that#so join harry annoying tf outta tom š#with all his knowledge#and the ability to understand tom#but also watch harry getting the love that he deserves and finally someone who would love him#like all the love he has to give#tomarry#harrymort#Harry Potter#Tom Riddle#yes it's basically time travel au without the baggage of fated enemies and baggage#I really wrote tim traveller instead of time fuck my life
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I just skimmed through the art part of your blog and holy bajeebus your LMK art is so beautiful and the headcanon ideas you come up with are so good I wanna steal em-
Kinda wanna see like a part 2 of the little angst you did between MK and Macaque a while ago. It's so interesting and I wanna see Macaque's reaction in your art style. (You don't have to of course, it's just a suggestion [idk if i spelled that right])
Thanks for reading and hope you have a good day/night!
Hope this is to your liking ^^
Part one here
#Iām sure there are some character nuances im forgetting but well š¤·š½#I want their misunderstanding or whatever they have going on between then come to a head. literally just going āwait whatā#for me I think itās entirely possible that there was an actual fight and maybe tension leading up to that point#cause I feel like macaque is not just bitter about thinking he died to wukong but maybe some stuff that built up to that#maybe the fight was just the breaking point. maybe theyāre idiots who donāt talk about it because they think theyāre on the same page idk#chipper-smol wrote a cool theory abt them using macaques āyouāre nothingā line in s4ep1. from what I understand it could be a direct parall#parallel to when he said that to MK right before MK regained his nerve and hit macaque in the eye.. since flying bark foreshadowed monkey mk#waaaay back in season 1 (where his shadow is his monkey form in the opening) i think that could be deliberate#and they could have gotten billy to voice an entirely different line for that scene. but they reused his line from s3#in a very specific scene with wukongs narrative foil. hm#that aside I would have liked to hear billy voice the āyou abandoned meā line that would have killed me. but thatās just me lol#also looking at this I should have shaded the last frame to make it look more dramatic and serious but I ran out of time :(#if anything I want to see MK try and help them get back together. poor kid tries so hard to understand people so I think it would be cool to#see that happen. thatās what I like about him.. he asked macaque why he was working for LBD instead of accusing him of dooming everyone bc#he wants to and he tried to comfort spider queen by admitting he was scared of LBD too šš#my art#myart#Lego Monkie kid#lmk#Monkie kid#lmk spoilers#Lego Monkie kid spoilers#lmk macaque#six eared macaque#lmk sun wukong#lmk swk#lmk MK#lmk xiaotian#lmk season 4#Lego Monkie kid s4
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Iāve never felt so conflicted about a franchise in my life but at least this dude was hot
#I watched conquering the demons and demons strike back at 3am last night and I have to say I like the first one more#but not by a lot#like I wanted so much to like this movie#but fucking Duan manā¦#like I read the plot beforehand so I wouldnāt be caught off guard by anything but DAMN that SA scene was sooo much worse watching it#girl this is not the girlboss pussy slay move you think it is queen#I liked her character so much too before that cuz sheās so cool but the unconsented captive fuck or die foreplay was NOT the move#then she had the nerve to rip up sanzangās book and turn to us and be like you know what I think I still have a chance - GIRL HES RUNNING#then they had the nerve to make him fall in love with her anyway boy you a VICTIM#then the second one just had [redacted] in it and I did not enjoy looking at his face for two hours - ruined the whole experience#also I have to say that was the worst iteration of Sanzang Iāve ever seen I was actually happy when I thought wukong was boutta kill him#I talk all this shit but I really did like the effects and monster designs in the movie they were so cool#also I thought the first sanzang actor was sooo cute and pathetic why didnāt they keep him š#well itās for the best I wouldnāt wanna have seen him turn abusive like they wrote him in the second movie#also dsb is the only movie in which I can understand the wukong and tripitaka shippers cuz that ENDING SCENE yeah I saw it#oh right my tags sorry lol#digital art#my art#journey to the west#jttw sun wukong#conquering the demons#demons strike back#sun wukong#also his glowup in between movies is so funny lmfao#if you couldnāt accept him at his conquering the demons you donāt deserve him at his demons strike back#at least dsb gave me this human version of wukong please sir just one chance just one sniff-
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For writers:
Whatās your favorite piece of writing youāve done, and why??
Idk I just woke up thinking about this & now Iām curious!!! & may or may not be compiling a tbr based on your responses since I really havenāt had the time to read any hl fics yetš«¶š«¶š«¶
#I donāt really have an answer bc I love all of my oneshots/fic equallyššš#the latest oneshot I spent a month writingā¦my fic has been in the works almost a year nowā¦#but I was thinking that the Imelda oneshot I wrote in still crazy about and I reread it and love it#but itās not popular at all but I donāt even think about popularity/notes with these thinfs#like if *I* am satisfied and happy with it#thatās what matters and I write these things because itās a fun hobby and I write to my tastesš#and my fic is like my babyā¦my brainchildā¦Iām weaving such a crazy plot together and NOTHING has been revealed yetšš#but Iām excited for things to start coming together & I *hope* itās satisfying#and the Ominis oneshotš¤š¤š¤ idk I like them allšš#but yeah I donāt talk with many writers on here bc I started out only posting my scribbles#I want to start reading more too!!!!!!!! and itās funny bc I actually started out in this fandom writinf only#but months of posting to nobody I just have fun writing and sharing these thingsššš#ignore these hashtags Iām always so incoherent right when I wake upššš#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanfic#maybe even if you just read them but you have a favorite tell me why!!!!!
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More pp fanart b4 the vn drops....gna miss it by a few hours but I WILL GET TO PLAY I WILL
#pine point#Zeddyzi#My art#Fanart#Gna miss out on the initial excitement and gushing.....I love shabbat but I hate when that happensš#Don't look at what I wrote on the page it was a moment of weakness
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we're so fucking back baby
#wrote and wrote and wrote and every word feels like coming home#Y'ALL š i forgot what it was to write prose completely#when i was writing the first draft of ouro i just. forgot. because i didn't have time to ponder for hours#searching for the right turn of phrase or the perfect simile#BUT NOW I CAN. NOW I CAN#I don't need an epic plot i wand DOMESTICITY AND INTIMACY. and i will have it#by god i will yoink it. yank it crazy fucking style and keep it forever#this is actually so helpful for edits too? oh my god. thank you healers hands for my life
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This idea was floating my mind yesterday after shift, I was so tired and needed some silent comfort, and ofc bucktommy will come to my mind. and with what we got today I definitely wanted to share my thought, but again I don't know what happened and it turned into a fic? ficlet? idk I just talk a lot š oh and please read the tags
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They didn't have any plans, buck was ending a 24h shift, and tommy was going to start a 48 in few hours.
Thats why tommy was confused when he got a weak knock on his door. He wasn't expecting anyone. Especially not his boyfriend who told him about his plans to spend his off day sleeping until his next shift.
When he opened the door, he was surprised to see his boyfriend there, exhaustion covering his features, some semi deep scratches on his face, and a big pout showing his discomfort and tiredness. His duffle hanging loosely on his left shoulder.
"Evan.." Tommy's hand started to move to reach Bucks face, but before it could reach there, Buck threw himself on Tommy, wrapping his right arm around Tommys neck and burying his face there.
Tommy, taking his weight easily, held an arm around buck's waist, and the other quickly took the duffle out of buck's shoulder, which immediately gave buck the opportunity to wrap himself around tommy and put his whole weight on his boyfriend there.
Tommy was concerned, he rubbed a hand along bucks spine, the other around his shoulder, and kissed the side of his temple. "Hey there," he said softly "everything okay?"
"Yeah" buck answered with a sigh. "Just..." another sigh and let his self relax into his boyfriends embrace "exhausted"
They stayed there for a moment, then tommy swung his boyfriend inside the door "okay lets get you inside big boy" and led him to the couch
"Let me see that pretty face of yours" tommy said softly
Buck didn't want to let go. He needed the comfort and warmth of his boyfriend around him. He wanted to bury himself inside of tommy and stay there, but he did reluctantly
Tommy looked worried, gently held his hand above the wounds on bucks face, brushed on them with a feather like touch, which caused buck to wince slightly, "sorry.." tommy muttered "what happened"
"Oh, nothing much, just some stupid accident happened on call," Buck said, waving a hand
Tommy still looked concerned, and he just hummed softly
"Sorry," Buck said quickly, obviously starting to get anxious about the whole situation. "I know you have a shift in a few hours, I really shouldn't come over without talking to you first. it's just that this stupid day was so exhausting, and Gerrard wasn't making it any easier, and this wounds, I know they are nothing to fuss about, you know these happen they aren't even painful or anything.." he tried to laugh it off but instead he felt something building in his throat, and his eyes burning, he shifted his eyes avoiding Tommy's, continuing with a cracked voice "sorry tommy, I should go you have to get to harbor, don't want you to be late and ā"
"Evan," tommy said, cutting his boyfriend there. Pulling him out of his head "Why are you apologizing now? None of that, I'm definitely not mad or upset that you came, and never will be!" Tommy said firmly, "you are always welcome here, and I want to always be here when you need me" and without any more words tommy pulled buck in his arms and wrapped them around him "I just got worried" then he kissed his hair and leaned on it "and I am sure I won't be late to my shift, unless I need to be there 5 hours before it start"
Buck laughed lightly and held to tommy tightly, buried his face in the crock of Tommy's neck, and breathed shakily
"I'm here Evan, as long as you need" Tommy said softly, holding Buck with a hand, and caressing his hair with the other
They stayed there until tommy felt buck relax in his arms, the tension leaving his body slightly. then he pulled himself up, which caused his boyfriend to whine in protest, tommy looked at Buck, caring and loving gaze, scanning his face and when their eyes met, he smiled at him softly and gave him a quick peck on his lips, and another gentle kiss beside his wounds, "oh I guess kisses does have a healing effect" buck said
"Oh? Then I think i have to give you a full dose of them until you fully heal, dont want to compromise your health there"
They both huffed a small laugh, tommy kissed him again, tucked him in his arms, and they stayed there, in their comfortable warm zone
#look i am in no way a writer consider this words dump or whatever š#oh and if there is any mistakes? no there isn't English isn't my first or second language please just ignore them lol#its just a scene i imagined and it really got me emotional i wanna see them comforting each other š¤§š¤§š¤§#bucktommy#tommy kinard#911#911 abc#evan buck buckely#evan buckley#bucktommy fic#?#should i tag it as fic? lol#ficlet#yea? ig hehe#i talked a lot again in the tags š#and i want to add that i really think tommy will be more silent when comforting buck than what i wrote here#*
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You guys have to get weird about dandadan with me I can't do this alone
#š«“#October 4th is when the first ep drops mark ur calendars#idk what it is about this series that makes me so insane#it's just FAST and HEARTFELT and I think it's narratively perfect tbqh#once the mangakas editor was like ok time to improve. what do you have no experience with. and the mangaka was like romance I guess?#and the editor was like okay go read 100 romance manga. and then they did. and then they wrote two romance manga š#and now dandadan has beat structures that are VERY SPECIFICALLY romance manga#squawk tag
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Was Aleksander power-hungry or wanted power to use it for the protection of his people?
This question is one of the most hotly debatable in this fandom and I decided to clear this out not by analyzing his words through the POV of other characters (who don't believe him and therefore the reader finds him a liar) but through his own perspective in "Rule of Wolves".
So let's take an objective look inside his own thoughts and find out.
His very first thoughts were how could he reclaim his powers, describing the whole experience as somewhat painful and confusing to him. His second were about Alina.
And these are his third ones. He explains how utterly worthless Nikolai and Zoya are to save Ravka. How immature and weak. Aleksander finds himself to be the only one able for this task. His powers, experience and general abilities are testament to that.
But note how he calls Ravka "his country". From the carved woods decorating his bedroom to his knowledge of "every pebble and branch" of it, this country is special to him. He loves it, feels a connection to it and wants to protect it.
(You just can't call the Darkling "unpatriotic")
He displays bitterness for his loss and Ravka's new state just verifies to him that his plans would only prevent this decaying fate.
Yuri: "Sankta Alina who gave her life for Ravka"
Aleksander: "Am I a joke to you?"
And indeed is he?
Aleksander displays a very strong resentment for the lack of recognition he has gained. His statement: "I gave my life for Ravka" probably doesn't only allude to his death from Alina's hands but also his total commitment in the protection of the Grisha and Ravka that lasted for centuries. He gave his life away by pushing his personal happiness and well-being aside and wholly dedicating his life and skills to a selfless goal. He wasted years, allies, soldiers, endured otkazat'sya Kings that rule him, a bitter mother and his own immortality only for others to hurriedly erase any memory of him once he's gone.
So it seems that his desire to be seen only stems from his long-awaited and secret wish for his actions to be recognized.
Based on the last screenshot, he views his actions as justified not because of a "power-hungry nature" but out of his efforts to help others. Whether these actions are justified or not depends on the reader.
I believe this is one of the most concrete evidence that Aleksander truly cared about the Grisha.
He felt intense anger for those who were ignorant and apathetic towards the Grisha's fate and he himself cared about who was gonna sit the Ravkan throne.
No matter how much humanity he shed as the years passed, it seems that he didn't shed all of it by the time of these books.
Apparently Aleksander had two main goals in this book:
- To protect his people and country as he always strived to do.
- For others to finally give him some credit and have their acknowledgment that yes, he has done something for this country all these years.
In order to help the Grisha and change their fates he needed to be in a position of strength, hence his desire to take the throne. He views himself as a fatherly figure towards his people. A protector and guardian.
But he also wants to become a Saint and king. For people to look up to him. So many Saints had done less than half in comparison to Aleksander and they still won people's love. Now it's his turn and he thinks he deserves it.
I'm adding a short parenthesis here.
His concern didn't only extent to the Grisha but to his blind, otkazat'sya followers as well.
He cared about what would happen in the battlefield and seemed ready to create nichevo'ya to protect them. Merzost is extremely painful but this "selfish" villain is ready to use it to protect his naive but innocent army.
A hundred of years ago Aleksander refused the King's gold as payment for his services. Instead he opted to plead for the construction of a palace. A home and haven for all the Grisha that were hiding out of fear from the persecution against them.
He saw his chance and took it to make the lives of his people a little better.
So this whole "the Darkling created the Fold out of his desire for power" was bullshit after all.
He wanted power but only to use it to end the wars. Ironically, the result of it (aka. the Fold) only aggravated the problem.
And the Darkling's dream never came entirely true. He gave them a home but never a safe life. Ravka was almost always at war, Grisha were never accepted, the Ravkan kings never paid much attention to the Grisha's problems regarding their role in society which placed them almost at the bottom of the food chain.
All these things worried Aleksander and pushed him to action both when he created the Fold and when he started the Civil War.
The Darkling has a very different mentality than those who don't have the burden of immortality on their shoulders.
Aleksander uses time as an advantage and has a remarkable patience. He bides his time and strikes when he sees the opportunity, leaving other people to die since they're only just a part of a whole. He probably thinks: "Well, I'll meet plenty more new otkazat'sya in the future so why should I be concerned for this bunch here?"
But the bleak future of the Grisha make him stop and think. They're the only reason why he stays and fight and why he proclaimed Zoya a Saint.
So it's obvious that Aleksander only used power for the benefit of his people and country.
- When king Yevgeni offered him a handsome reward, Aleksander turned it down and chose to appeal for a better future for the rest of the Grisha.
- When the wars didn't stop coming and Grisha were again getting killed, he tried to use merzost to augment his powers and put a stop to it.
- When he tried to use the Fold as a weapon with Alina at his side, he did it to place Ravka in a stronger position in comparison to his enemies.
- He viewed Nikolai and Zoya dangerous to the rest of the country.
- He was concerned of what would happen to the Grisha if Demidov became king.
- He was determined to save Ravka and lead it as their king and protector.
- Even though he thought of leaving, he stayed out of concern for the Grisha (again).
Contrary to the people who say that the Darkling began selfless but by the time of these books became selfish, it seems that he never lost his selflessness. He still kept thinking about others and his last moments he was unrepentant for his crimes since he did them for others not for himself. It's true that he had pride and an ego but rightfully so. No one else was as powerful or as capable as him to make a change and, honestly, no one else made a decent effort but him.
He also displayed a strong bitterness for the fact that others were so quick to forget him and his actions. He felt wronged that after all he had done, none wanted to acknowledge his own part in the protection of Ravka. He wanted to be seen and appreciated. His anger and indignation came from a place of injustice as he saw it. Whatever he did was labeled as wrong and people only feared him, never feeling gratefulness or love towards him. The Darkling wanted others to give him his due for what he went through, did and tried to do. Recognition after so many years of feeling invisible and hated.
It was something that even his enemies admitted about him:
The strongest evidence of his yearning to shield his country is how he willingly gave his life for it at the end. He would be tortured forever but at least his people wouldn't forget him and he would have fulfilled his desired role as a protector of his country.
#the darkling#pro darkling#aleksander morozova#shadow and bone#it's like you work your ass off for years on a project and somebody else gets all the credit and love#Alina did nothing (+ is still alive) and people worship her#all the other Saints never troubled themselves about the Grisha but they were still revered#but what about him? why can't they see that he sacrificed much as well? much more than all the other Saints combined#his exasperation is completely understandable#people wrote him off so quickly without admitting that he too played his part in the protection of the Grisha#but the rest of them couldn't see it because they weren't alive back when Grisha lived in caves. were burned in the stake#and killed each other to survive#classic ungratefulness#on another note I got out of my hibernation mode! see ya again in another six months š«”š#pro aleksander morozova#grishaverse#rule of wolves#ruin and rising#alina starkov#anti zoya nazyalensky#nikolai lantsov#the darkling meta#meta#grishaverse meta
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so after boots, what other hsr characters do you like?
hm. well. hmmmm. ahhh.. uhhhhhhhhhhh
#sal.asks#it's cowboy all the way down baby !!!!!#this is only kind of a joke answer lol. i legitimately lost 90% of my interest in other characters once i saw leaks abt him LOL#and it's only gone downhill from there#...he should have a ship name like that. uphill or downhill. theres a joke there#otherwise i am a big ratio fan. second funniest character in the whole cast#bro is so done with EVERYBODY'S shit#i have to respect his dedication to not giving a fuck about what anybody thinks about him lol#(but also there's clearly something else going on underneath that?? WHAT is going on in his brain. i wanna study him like a bug)#homie is here for one purpose and that is EDUCATION. he's so funny#i wrote like 5k words of a fic for him with an oc. putting him in a box and shaking it around#like that pear wiggler gif. you know the one#i am also a screwllum lover š silly man. deeply charming. also incredibly funny just in a subtle way#i am a moderate dh enjoyer as well bc that boy is slaving away in the angst mines#and also. dragon. insane about his aesthetic#theres so much beautiful merch for him. i saw a gold-lined pin of his dragon and dear godddddddd#if i werent broke from the holidays it would be MINEEEEEEEEE#i was geared up to be obsessed with aven (i think i have a supernatural sense for when backstories are going to be interesting)#but then i saw the bh leaks and every other thought fled my brain LOLLL#anyway yeah i know it's deeply unusual to only post about one character for these sorts of games lol#so the question is reasonable#the answer is just not that exciting unfortunately š
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Happy 5/14!!!!
Aaaaahh not sure if this is my best work š I just really wanted to draw smth for vettonso day but my brain hasn't really been functioning well LOL so I kept dreading working on this, especially bcs its so important to me, y'know? I hope it's good????? I'm happy with the concept, but I was just so unsure on so many of the angles and it was killing me. I did the color thing bcs I thought it'd add something interesting to it :) since I didn't paint it as I usually would
Anyways! Process!
Now I will explain all of them:
Boy king au is where it all starts of course. I think their relationship is the most developed in this compared to the others, but at the same point, they just start from such a different point, especially affection-wise. All of these kinda have a power dynamic, except the last one, and this is the most imbalanced. Fernando is being subservient, the only part of Seb he may kiss(in public lol) is his hand.
Matador au next. They hurt themselves when they try to be affectionate, because they live in the culture of a sport of violence and death. The sword separates them, their love for the sport keeps them apart, in fear that they hurt each other. Seb, yet again, looks down upon Fernando. Seb haunts Fernando's whole career, the constant overhanging presence. Also aside from that, shame that you can't see his three musketeers look bcs of the black background š
2012 core!!! I think this one is pretty easy to understand. Both of them often kiss their trophies, more so than any driver. So they're both trying to claim the wdc trophy by kissing it. Maybe you guys should just get rid of the trophy altogether and claim each other! But yes, just like the sword in the matador au one, the trophy and their ambitions divides, keeps them from ever bridging the vast gap between them, at least at that point in time.
The conclusion! Aka what I wish we will get at Imola 2024- kidding kidding. But it is 2024. Finally there is no conflict between them, there's no big thing keeping them in conflict, they can finally come together. Finally they can touch, there is no gap to bridge, they can appreciate each other, and appreciate what they failed to in years past.
The thesis is basically that they always have their aspirations between them, and their aspirations happen to be basically the same thing. Until those are resolved, the gap between them is too vast for them to recognize and/or find any commonality. How do you get along with someone when you're both fighting for the same thing? How do you get along when it feels like one of you is winning more? How do you get along when there's such a vast gap?
In boy king au, it's going to take a while before they both feel settled about the issue of the throne. That's what makes that au interesting, they're trapped in this state of non-closure and they have to actually solve their issues without the matter of one of them simply removing themselves from the equation. They have to find a way to get over themselves and their aspirations, because like it or not they're stuck with each other. I think with the hand kissing, it represents how Fernando, at that point, is only willing to play along with the game if it's tradition, and he often won't budge in other ways. Yes, I will show subservience, but only in this detached, formal way that I don't connect personally to. He's still holding his own bitterness over meaningfully appreciating Seb. Though it's not like Seb isn't at fault. It takes a while for him to not hold things over Fernando, and constantly humiliate him. One day they will meaningfully show affection, and it won't be some sort of power play.
I think matador au is pretty similar to real life, and the 2010s era(it's basically just their actual plot line but in the context of bullfighting.) They're forever going to have this big elephant in the room, and it only really gets resolved when one of them leaves the sport. Once they're not fighting directly against each other, they realize what they've been missing out on and what they were not appreciating for so many years beforehand. They finally come together because they can't just rely anymore on the sport keeping them together. They actually have to make that step to be in each other's lives, rather than just taking their presence for granted.
Also the text on the comic. "We keep missing, and missing, and missing, and finally kissing." It's basically: we keep missing the point of it all, we keep failing to appreciate each other presence in our lives and in our own individual grand stories. But when we're not forced together anymore, we have to make the choice to come together again ourselves. We keep missing what we actually need to do. Missing each other in favor of our aspirations. Etc etc. One day we will finally embrace and there will be nothing keeping us apart.
#hahaha im more proud of what i wrote under the cut so make sure to read that!#im happy w the concept but the art hurt my brain so its not my best work i dont think#i also never draw kissing#so please take my token of actual shippy affection for once#VETTONSO DAY!!!!!!!!!! AAAAHH#man im glad i realized that last wk bcs i think i wouldve never recovered if i didnt draw smth for it#tho thsts why i think i kinda dont like this drawing š#the process was rly stressful to me bcs im like I HAVE TO FINISH THIS#its my national holiday and i must pay my dues š¤§š¤§#but im happy abt the plotline of this all :)#sigh. when will vettonso truly stop missing and actually start kissing#i rly hope 005's art and mine works as some sort of sacrifice so we get pics of them together from imola#like PLEASE guys if theres literally one thing you could do for me. it would make my year. genuinely#i just need that shock again of japan 23. just the completely unexpected pictures#cmon lets have a meetup of aston failboys as they look upon the amr24 and commiserate#^ see exactly the point of this art. they have this bridging them together.#conflict that keeps them together and that they can relate to rather than dividing them#conflict is not man vs man anymore. it's man vs car š#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#catie.art.#catie.rambling.txt
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Reading the webtoon andā¦
Does this imply that Kim Dokja also tried to write a questionnaire for her to fill in since she wouldnāt speak to him, that either he 1) never gave her in the end (especially if he couldnāt find her after she was released) or 2) gave it to her and she STILL refused to answer?
Because that is so so so so awful. It was already bad but if he tried so many ways to get her to speak and she still gave him no response, regardless of her reasoningā¦ isnāt that still directly choosing to cut herself fully out of his life? Why in the hell did she lie for his sake and allow him to visit her if she wanted to never speak to him again?
I know everyone claims Kim Dokja is just like her in sacrificing himself for loved ones, but at least he tries his best to stay with them and to keep them in his life. He still chooses sacrifice, but itās not because he intends to never return. He always returns (even if much later than planned).
The only time this differs is with 51%, when he STILL tried his best to stay with them - at least as much as he could.
I sometimes like Lee Sookyung, but I am mostly still SO mad at her for completely ignoring her child since he was 8 years old. Especially when he must have looked like shit any number of times from being mistreated and bullied by family, friends, army, employers.
But maybe thatās just the fragment in me being eternally pissed with her. She DOES love him, but like he says in the webtoon in this chapter - maybe such truths are painful enough to be false anyways, because theyāre just SUCH bullshit. Thatās not how affection should work, if you actually care about someone and want them to be happy.
#RAWWRGHHH I WANT TO SHAKE HER SO MUCH#LOOK AFTER YOUR KID#and if you canāt do that because of circumstances at least ACKNOWLEDGE HIM#yes I do know she cared and itās just that she mistakenly believes heās better off this way without her but like#then WHY does she still insert herself back into his life when heās finally stopped trying to get her to speak?#yes yes others have great analyses on her and their relationship and I usually agree with their logic but itās still. So. Hard. to like her#but then I remember that this story was the little Dreamās wishful thinking to cope back then on his own#and so maybe in his world Lee Sookyung never ever would speak to him again#he just wished she would so he wrote it down as happening for This older version of him#and thatās somehow worse because like#even in the story where he got her to speak to him again she still wonāt speak so he has to force the words out some way (via outer god)#and if thatās true then itās still just his interpretation of her actions and choices#and not her own since she never told him#so like ARGGHHH#but I like to believe that characters have autonomy despite their respective authorās efforts in documenting them#so she still chose to speak all of this too and he would have accurately interpreted her this way because she controls what she says#even if he (little Dream Kim Dokja) is the one writing it down as wish fulfilment fix-it fic#a fix-it for himself and not just for the other people he loves#ššš#orv#orv spoilers#omniscient readerās viewpoint#lee sookyung#kim dokja
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nothing beats reading a really good fic from 2018, looking up the author on tumblr and seeing them still kicking.
hello!! (unfortunately) Iām stuck in whatever circle of hell klance originated and Iām so glad I stumbled across your fic āThe Stars Chose Their Loversā because it was a blast of a read (brought be right back to when everything was good and s7&8 didnāt exist yet).
Anyway, your writing is goated, I hope both sides of your pillow is cold, the sun shines warmly on your back and the air smells like rain for you. Godspeed.
OH?? Omg thank you so much this is so sweet š„ŗ
Iām so glad you enjoyed that fic! I have very vivid memories of writing it haha I canāt believe itās been 6 years already. Iām p sure itās my most popular one by far (except maaaaybe the tddk + Melissa fic I wrote?) and Iām still so blown away by all the love and support itās gotten. I NEED to start writing 6k word fics about passionate love confessions again. Tbh.
#Shima answers questions#Tysm š#I donāt talk about my writing as often as my art so when someone does point out a fic I write#*wrote#I get really excited and flattered <3#I love writing man I miss it. I havenāt published a fic on AO3 in two years. What HAPPENED#Iāve got lots of WIPs to work on so thatās always a plus ig haha#Nice things#Voltron#VLD#Klance#hiccupshypotheticalleftsock
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