#Was it the neurodivergency perhaps?

[rest-your-head-in-my-lap]

Something about messy grinding just gets to me... I think it's the raw feeling behind it, the lazy need or harsh desperation it's all really good. Also just, the leftovers of being loved in that way, the marks, the cum sticky on your skin mmnnnnn It's such an obvious sign of how much the other person wants you That's proobbably why I also like being handled and tugged and shit, it's all based on sheer need and want and it makes it so obvious the way you feel Also makes me feel closer to a doll or toy, just- a plaything. Honestly I like being moved and positioned even out of sex for aforementioned reasons. Something about it just melts me so nice.

[venuseology]

anybody stuck on the fact that Colin told Penelope that he traveled to seventeen cities but told his siblings that he couldn’t remember how many he went to / refused to talk about his travels ………….. sigh

Not only that but also the fact that he was probably so lonely the entire time. Just completely, utterly lonesome. Writing letters to his siblings who complain about his writing style, not receiving any responses from Penelope, he was detached from his taste of interesting, riveting correspondence that he had during his last travels w Penelope and the hunger that seeped from that absence left him starving for it unknowingly.

Even when in the arms of beautiful ladies he didn’t know, he was utterly, completely, alone and unheard and unseen and left chasing for some feeling that he could not grasp or reach. His own insecurities flooded up inside him and left him wondering for something unknown. Looking for the right personality, the right purpose for him to be seen and taken seriously not only by society but also his own family. He doesn’t enjoy adhering to the rules and constructs set up by society but the world does not accept him as he is so he conforms and twists himself up into this fabrication of a person and it works.

Or at the very least, he perceives that it works because Anthony begins to start respecting him and taking him out for celebratory drinks and the ladies seem to swoon at his every word and he isn’t bothering his family about the “unimportant” details of his travels (meaning that he doesn’t speak of his travels to anyone, besides penelope, penelope who encouraged his interests and behaviors and quirks, penelope who embraced him with smiles as bright as early greek mornings that rise with her wit, her beauty, her tenacity.)

His attempt to blend in with the norm has worked, yet he feels oh so alone and empty and unsatisfied. He has been suffering for eons trying to fit in and once he finally reached this goal it’s almost as if… he’s been drained of meaning. It’s almost as if he’s uncomfortable pretending to be this man that society tells him that he must be, as if he doesn’t want to be this man, but instead, wants to simply be, colin.

[1rubydoodles]

with the gravity falls coming back i just have to say

i hate the mischaracterization of ford being an uncaring asshole

i hate people acting like fiddleford is completely innocent

i hate people making fanon stan seem kinder and sillier than he was (“he was going through a hard time” says the people who demonize ford for being manipulated by the same character they love for being “silly”)

i hate the ford hate the most. most of the stuff that pisses me off comes from fiddlestan shippers.

i’m going to write a way longer post on that probably. unless this becomes one

i am so pissed

stan isn’t just a better version of ford

goddammit ppl say billford isn’t a proshit because “it’s just maturer themes being explored 🥺” and then ship fiddstan or whatever because ford is just autistic and not in the tumblr loved “silly autism bean” way an “asshole”

i. i hate the whole “fidd loved ford but ford was asshole so fidd fucked stan insted” thing. he cared about fidds so much have you read the journal-

fiddleford is the type to bottle up emotions bro ford is such an asshole for not noticing even though he’s canonically bad at social skills 🙄 /sarcasm

[genderimpala]

does anyone else change their phone background before they go out to socialise to something incredibly specific so if asked about it it's one of your favourite things that people will remember about you but it's also not too close to any truths so people don't find out anything about you

[chubbychiquita]

answer my strawpoll abt nd identity re: fat kink please

[edge-oftheworld]

Im bored so go ahead and psychoanalyze me. Lukes lane btw (tied between him and michael but i saw you already did someone with michael and lukes almost exactly tied). Go ahead and look at my blog if you want but its mostly reblogs.

ooh I didn't realise this would get so popular! I'll go with your tie bc I like to try do it as authentically as possible. just taking a little bit to get my bearings and my head out of You're In Your Midtwenties

I can see the muke fan in you, your blog gives off enthusiasm and excitement and ambition, maybe not the kind of ambition people usually think of but you know what you love and you're passionate about and you're very self-motivated about it. you love making things fun and that's a strategy that's going to serve you forever--no task is boring with you, because with the power of friendship and creativity you know how to make it into a game or a fun adventure and that's gonna make everything a lot more doable, and a lot less tiring throughout your life. some people are going to judge you for that, but more and more you're realising that your true friends appreciate it and admire it about you, as they should!

you have acquaintances who think you're cool and wish they could be part of the fun productivity. you probably think they're really cool too, or maybe you're jealous of them (because as hard as you try to be confident you do get insecure sometimes). but if you said hi to them you would be great friends! (case in point: muke). so don't be afraid to make new friends, but also to appreciate the ones you have.

you love learning, but you also get overwhelmed sometimes and feel a little trapped when people say you have to do things a certain way. you have a lot of admiration for people who feel free to be themselves and you want to be them, sometimes you're scared though. as you grow older you'll have more and more chances to do things your own way and to live life how it makes you happy. it's not a contradiction that you can sometimes be really good at something but also need lots of time to rest and decompress after, it's quite common actually. it's natural: some people's brains are born to 'sprint' (do really well at something but only for short amounts of time) while some are 'marathon runners' (can keep going for long times but don't have as good or out there ideas nearly as often). you know yourself though, you're quite self aware even though you don't always tell people what's going on in your head. you're independent when it comes to being cared for by adults, but you love close friendships and community when it comes to your peers.

look after yourself and your self-esteem--though you love alone time too, you feel great when you're around your best friends but you start to beat yourself up easily when things are going wrong socially. learn that it's not your fault. whether or not you have it, you might enjoy looking at posts on adhd positivity or the few and far between positivity posts for the pda profile of autism. as to whether any of these things are you--you'll figure it out. you always do. you like a little puzzle. and you do want to accept yourself, to learn how to be kind to yourself, learn to rest even when people tell you to keep going but you need a break to feel like yourself again. and you can get there!

[beautifulphilosopherbird]

you now what the inside of the dungeon meshi dungeon feels like to me? a neurdivergent mind

[alice-makes-things]

Dyslexic Librarian

Being a dyslexic library manager will always be worth it purely for this wonderful ✨teachable moment✨:

I misspelled a child’s name on their Summer Reading Challenge certificate (I won't go into specifics, but think "accidental vowel swaps on a common name which then becomes another very common name"). The child pointed this out, and I apologised and showed them my “I’m dyslexic” badge.

Me: Do you know what dyslexia means?

Child: No?

Me: So “Dys” means “difficulty”, and “Lexia” means words. So it means I have difficulty with words! So, sometimes, I find it particularly difficult to read, write, or spell.

Child: *finds this hilarious* NO YOU DON’T *hysterical laughter* YOU WORK IN A LIBRARY *further laughter* THAT’S A LIE OF COURSE YOU CAN READ!

(Reader, please bear in mind that, throughout this entire interaction, I’m somehow still shaking this child’s hand after handing them the certificate)

Me: I can read and I love reading! And sometimes I have difficulty with it. I have a certificate from a doctor and everything!

Child: *continued merriment, disbelief and general amusement*

At this point, the child's mother steps in to explain that (a) dyslexia is real, and that (b) several of the child’s friends are dyslexic, including (c) their best friend.

Child: *continued disbelieving laughter* before *a slow realisation and acceptance of the truth* before *a sudden, horrified thought*

Child: CAN I CATCH IT?!?!!!!

Reader, I may simply pass away from laughter. 10/10 library interaction

[greghatecrimes]

Autistic Thirteen & Autistic House work thoughts:

I'm not sure if I've said before, but I think House would be the kind of person who needs near silence when overstimulated. If there's any kind of noise at all, it has to be extremely soft white noise. Nothing else. Noise cancelling headphones are a godsend for him, because they keep everything else out.

On the other hand, I think Thirteen might use sound to regulate when overstimulated. We saw in season four that she's so hyperaware of her body, all the time-- who wouldn't be, if they were on the lookout for symptom onset of a genetic condition? Anyways, because of that, I think that when she gets overstimulated, she would feel totally trapped inside her body, completely aware of every little sound and sensation as if they're magnified by a hundred, unable to "turn it off". So she needs something to pull her out of her body instead of grounding herself back into it. Hence where sound comes in. Noise cancelling headphones would be perfect for her for the exact opposite reason they help House: they trap the sound in, and make sure she hears nothing but whatever sound she's picked to help her regulate. I think something like rain or thunderstorm sounds would help her a lot. And she probably has a playlist of certain songs that are "safe". She knows she can use to just lose herself and get away from all of it, and they won't make the overstimulation worse.

[friedarcademoon]

Okay so I can't get this guy outta my head and I ended up drawing more of him (And the cast in general)

[talleslittlelion]

~ Rocking and jamming to his favourite song on repeat ~

[harbingerofsoup]

sometimes i think im probably neurotypical cause i don’t think any of my behaviors negatively impact my life that much (they do)

and then i remember a few months ago when i physically couldn’t stop myself from interrupting a classmate who was talking about the last writers strike but got the date wrong, practically yelling in the tiny classroom that it actually started in 2007 and i knew that because it was the reason castiel was created

[rosseatsrocks]

anyone else remember this classic childhood moment 💯

[mossy-rot]

reading about autistic meltdowns is crazy. in retrospect maybe that time i ended up sobbing self isolating and lashing out at people because I couldn't figure out how to set up my laptop the same way it had been before might've been because of The Autism

[vroomvroomwee]

On today's question: Are you really socially awkward, or do you just not know how to act as your assigned gender at birth?

[ohimsummer]

merman satoru would unironically clap his hands like a seal too ONCE, then is in horror and disbelief when u ask him to do it again and any time u give him smth from then on

THIS IS SAUR CUTEEEE!!! LET HIM CLAP >:3333 I am imagining he gets so excited every time you offer him fish because he is a Hungry Man and he loves to eat >>:33 it is like….his version of stimming (???) while eating (and he also does a little wiggly dance while he is eating his fish :33 and he looks very cute when doing it okay it helps him eat better)