#WORD vomit

[luxgalador]

do something weird and gay and taboo and degenerate tonight if possible it'll help

[hyperdramas]

"there's no one like you." you say, looking down at seokmin as his arms smoothly fit around your waist. seokmin's eyes are that pretty dark brown, lips glossy with the tears he had just shed as he smiles while sniffling. "really?"

"seokmin, of course. i married you for a reason." his head laid against your stomach, his breathing slowing as you leaned over him.

seokmin's graceful hands ghosting your exposed back made you inhale sharply, and the soft feeling in your chest bloomed as he looked back up at you.

"how do you think we'll meet in our next life?" he asks simply, and you laugh, throwing your head back as you smile. "seokmin, really?"

a pout comes onto his features as his eyebrows become downturned. "yes, really. how do you think we'll meet each other again? since we're soulmates and all," seokmin says the last part while leaning in and kissing your exposed stomach.

you giggle, and sigh as he looks up at you again, strong hands still in place on your waist. he's waiting for a reply, and you try to think hard, imagining how you'd remember seokmin from this wonderful life you and him were currently living.

"i'd just hope the universe does me another favor and bring me to you. that's all i'd really want, i think." smiling, you cup seokmin's cheek, thumb grazing over his smooth, clear skin and ghosting his pink, sweet lips.

seokmin stares up at you as if you hung the stars in the sky for him—his brown eyes have those familiar sparkles in them, and the small smile that graces his features touches your heart just as much as it does his. his hands gently press you down towards the floor, and you follow, finally on your knees as he presses and molds his soft lips to yours.

the sound of the air conditioning and small pecks the two of you share isn't loud or distracting, but so small and minute that you crave more of it.

you crave more of seokmin like this. you crave more of your seokmin stripped down to who he really is—not a charismatic guy who just laughs and smiles all the time, or the friend everyone comes to help for—but just a sweet boy who needs comfort and cheering up, just like the rest of the world does.

"i love you." those words—when seokmin whispered them to you, like he did just now—made you slow down and appreciate the world that was lee seokmin. his voice was soft and mild when he said it, but you knew without a shadow of a doubt that he meant it.

"and i love you, seokmin." you said back, lips tickling his before you planted another one on his lips again. he smiled at you, and you caught it in your pocket, saving it for a rainy day.

[literaryvein]

L. V., idk how to write anymore

[bakersimmer]

I hate building, but I decided to give Clover a manor inspired by a real one near where I live. It's massive, I have no clue how to furnish it, and it's a bit weird and wonky. But she's got the money… might as well spend it. It's day two, and I've barely made any progress 😑

[evilmskitty]

Jurassic World Chaos Theory and communication

Season 2 spoilers, be warned: long post ahead~

(Now that I’ve simmered down from my high horse, and can look back at the opinions from fresh out of the oven)

Communication is a big theme throughout season 2 (and 1 really), often highlighting major points in certain episodes.

Miscommunication and lack of communication, were often intertwined with different characters. Just to be clear, I am not a big fan of the miscommunication trope because it gets me pissed off. Mostly because it can be very realistic, which hits close to home sometimes. Brooklyn’s character and story line are majorly in this trope.

Brooklyn spends time working on shady shit to get a story and put an end to the shady shit. In doing so, we see her neglect maintaining her friendships/relationship because she’s using it to cope. Then said shady shit comes back to wreck her life up, which she knows can harm her friends. Brooklyn does try to include Darius in last minute but then it gets skewed after the awkward confession. She gets attacked, not expecting to be alone, in a trap set for her. She entertains the idea of staying dead when it’s presented to her. Vetoes it. Andddd then is shown that it’s still very dangerous for her to return and tell her friends. So back to staying dead, because it’s safer for everyone.

Brooklyn continues to be radio silent and in doing so misses a lot of what happens in season 1. I don’t think she knows the group was hunted down or why they were all in Africa other than tracking the Broker there. What she knows is glimpsed from the news, the Broker, and Ben. Her conversation with Ben does irritate me, however it shows how difficult both their situations are. Brooklyn is trying to keep them safe and Ben is trying to find proof she is alive/what happened/what they’re dealing with, neither are in a good spot to really reach out and actually break down what’s happening.

Ben is left to either keep his promise not to say anything or tell the group. We watch it cause him such a visceral reaction he has a panic attack. Once he calms down, he thinks it over. Ben makes the decision to tell the group, and is immediately thwarted for plot reasons the rest of the episode and those following. Which causes more doubt and the desperate scramble for more proof. It builds up and he reaches out to the most levelheaded person he trusts to talk him through it. Yaz. Once again is thwarted by plot and because the doubt is eating at him but so is the guilt. Yet that scene also shows the build of up different communication issues.

We’re seeing Kenji having self sacrificing tendencies (borderline suicidal which is another topic altogether) to avoid feeling the heavy burden of emotions, worrying the group. Darius is wandering off to hyperfixate on dinosaurs to avoid having to discuss his feelings (as one does) or make sure Zayna is okay (if I see anyone shipping them I will cringe into dust). Sammy is also mostly making sure Zayna’s okay but is actually dealing with her emotions (improving from season 1) along with Yaz.

Darius is tasked with talking to Kenji, who Yaz has tried to get through to, both of them getting nothing but the mask he puts up. It isn’t until Ben is stuck in the position of telling them about Brooklyn or keeping quiet does anyone get through to Kenji. Also due to Darius wanting to avoid talking about his emotions again. Ben gets through to Kenji, but Kenji doesn’t get to what’s eating at Ben.

All of these come together during the last 3 episodes. Brooklyn who is unaware that the phone was eaten by a hippo, thinks Ben went out of his way to find her there. Ben who is overly baffled that his friend is here in person and not dead doesn’t really know what to say, much less willing to argue anything. Kenji who is an outsider watching the exchange, festering emotions explode. The rest of the group watch in horror as their supposedly dead friend works with the Broker. When they all meet back up, Ben is confronted with trying to explain his side and there’s a lot being thrown at him. Darius takes lead because he knows this won’t help anyone (in the moment) and they need to get out of the facility. But also because he’s still reeling from everything as well. (Someone pointed out he’s due for his breakdown next season which is very likely that boy is going through it).

In the end, the very thing Brooklyn had gone quiet for, didn’t really matter. The group was still targeted even after her death. They still ended up in Africa at the research facility. Still experienced danger and possible death many times. But she doesn’t know the whole scale and is desperate to keep them safe. So she continues to shut them out, continuing to get as much evidence as she can without involving them just she doesn’t know which is less she’ll have to lie and so they don’t know so they won’t be in harm’s way.

(There’s also my whole thoughts on the confession scene which is another unreliable narrator/miscommunication trope. Darius acts as if he made a huge confession to Brooklyn, likely due to the guilt of not being there during the attack, when in reality it wasn’t. Brooklyn fresh off a break up with their mutual friend catches the slip of tongue to mean exactly what it actually means for Darius. Love, in love, and she reacts to it. Which fair, but it shows how both sides dealt with it. Brooklyn brushes it off, Darius can’t stop feeling ashamed for it.)

(The recent posts I made were hot flash opinionated and fresh from watching the show in full bc I’m a certified slacker and knew I would hyper-fixate if I watched it when I had shit to do)

[fallen-faerie]

make a girl smile today.

give her a sword.

[cat-eg]

new hbomberguy vid moodboard

[easternkid]

"Henry Winter would've loved the notes app" No. Henry Winter didn't and will never love anything modern. He uses a fountain pen and isn't bothered by the ink, he even reads under candle light - for christ's sake, he uses and is obsessed with Latin, which is by the way, a dead language.

[undeserved-halo]

found this on pinterest CHAOTIC EVIL GANG STAND UPPP

[thatguywhodoesstuff]

In A Weird Way, Princess Loolilalu’s Words Rang True

I was rewatching Candy Carrier Chaos!, when I realized that this:

Was said not even a minute before this:

So in a weird way, the gang accidentally stayed true to their word and got Gummigoo executed.

Man… that just twists the knife further.

[luxgalador]

But they were, all of them, deceived, for a Younger Sheldon was made.

[choccorin]

what about satoru who secretly and slowly turns you into a carbon copy of his best friend, suguru. his best friend that he fell in love with, still in love with. his best friend that was his first and last true love.

it started with him getting you into the foods that suguru liked and loved— such as rooibos tea. even though you have a sweet tooth just like him, he insists that you only add one sugar cube instead of three. it's strange for him to say that when you just watched him add four sugar cubes to his own cup, but he reasons that it'll taste better with just one.

you believed him.

you're also a bit of a picky eater and it was hard to get you into eating new foods, but satoru was persistent and it eventually worked out.

the hardest part of changing you was your appearance. he thinks you're adorable and beautiful, but the fact that you don't look like his ‶one and only″ irks him. you have suguru's mannerisms, interests, and favorite foods, but you don't look like him at all. and satoru will do everything he can to change that.

if you have curly hair then he'll try to convince you to straighten it, he doesn't care if you love your natural hair. if you really love him, then you'll do what he wants, right? it took months and several arguments, before you finally obliged his wishes with a heavy, reluctant heart.

when you meet shoko again after a few months, her heart sank at the sight of you.

the way you moved, the way you spoke, the way you ate, the way you dressed, your interests, and your appearance were different. other than your face, skin color, and height, you look exactly like suguru. you even have his signature hair bun. she spoke to satoru about this and he acted clueless, saying that it was your decision and he contributed nothing to your transformation; only gave you his love and support.

little did satoru know, you were completely aware of his plans. ever since you heard him mumble suguru's name that one night while he was sleeping, you knew he was still in love with him and knew that this was bound to happen. even before your relationship, it was obvious that his feelings for his best friend never left. you just didn't expect for him to go this far. if it were another person, they'd immediately leave, but you can't.

you love him too much to make him experience another heartbreak. (would it really break him when he's not in love with you at all?)

it breaks your heart to know that every time he looks at you with that smile—the one that makes his eyes crinkle—he’s not really looking at you. he’s looking at the man he fell in love with years ago— the man he will always love, even in death.

[novascotiaducktoller]

grabs your face with both my hands. you guys understand that deconstruction of the binary means that the experience of one group does not automatically indicate the reverse experience of another group, right? like. if something happens to trans men it does not mean trans women experience the same but opposite. they are two separate groups who do not intrinsically replicate the experience of cis people. and nonbinary folks can have experiences that both and neither trans men and women have happen to them. the binary is false and so are all implications of it. tell me you understand this.

[whatapunk]

Look we can talk all day about why the Rebels episode “The Honorable Ones” is amazing but honestly my absolute favorite moment of all of it is when Zeb is going to go pick up the glowing rock and Kallus sounds like a terrified child asking him where he’s going and the voice acting in that moment is award-level brilliant and it’s the most real that man has ever been or sounded up to that point and it just completely does things to me idk

[arcan3-reliquary]

Do you think Veritas Ratio, at any point in his adult life, has felt loved? It's a silly question, at least it may seem - because logistically, he knows he is. He has living and breathing parents he calls on the phone, colleagues who would assuredly miss him and do when he's off on missions, and students who lament the absence of his classes when they graduate. Indeed, he knows for certain that he is loved. However, knowing and believing have been proven to not be mutually exclusive states.

It is one thing to be loved for your altruistic philanthropy, or your intelligence, wit, and brevity. It's one thing to be applauded and praised for your good works and good name, and make no mistake that recognition is still a little warming - Ratio is only human, thus capable of embodying pride - but it's not quite the same. Those people still bristle when Ratio, blunt as ever because that's just how he is, makes a scathing comment that they know is correct. They still give him a wide path in the halls of the space station whenever he visits because, despite making every effort to prove the opposite, they still view him as miles above them (like a cold and logistical god amongst men.) It's more akin to idolization and bordering on worship at times.

That is not the same as being known and beloved.

It's not the same as having a close someone who sees the human in you. It's not the same as having someone who plays into the facade you put up in public because they understand what that mask means to you, and maybe they are the same. It's nowhere close to not having to spell out everything you say because someone else has taken the time to learn your language, and has plenty of honeyed words for the both of you. It's not warm hands in yours or even a gentle pat on the shoulder (It's not cotton candy eyes that have a stupid lovestruck stare to them that you can't shake off)

When you're standing on a pedestal built by those around you, it's hard to feel loved when everyone below worships you instead. Worship you never asked for. And maybe the only true way for someone like that to feel loved is by someone who understands the nature of assumptions and publicity.