#WHY DID THEY HAVE TO BE SADDDD!!!!

[petrigrof-doomed-yuri]

i hate petrigrof.

just kidding. i do not. kinda.

note: this post makes petrigrof seem toxic. its not toxic. its just very doomed.

this is part one of my talking about the things i hate about petrigrof! because theres a lot. its. its insane.

i hate fionna and cake the series. just kidding again, but i hated the they way handled them. it felt so.. incomplete. which the series isnt over yeah, but simon basically was like “yay! im happy again!” at the end so im gonna pretend all the relationship building is over.

this also isnt the only time im talking about the fionna and cake series with this, because thats where we get most of our content from. but yeah anyways eyebrjdbsmd

i hate how simon was made out to be the bad guy and like betty did no wrong. which, did simon do something wrong? yeah he did. he didn’t consider how much betty gave up to fulfill his dream and stuff etc etc.. but betty is a grown woman. shes her own person.

this like also kinda harmful stereotype of women wanting to do what the man wants but i digresssssss 😁😁

but anyways, betty is her own person. simon never asked her to do any of it. like, yeah i agree simon is really stupid for no realizing it. yeah i think simon shouldve known better, but then again.. this isnt anyway his fault.

the fact though, is he never asked for her opinion on things. THATS the problem. but that wasn’t really ever talked about, so its kinda just.. bbbbllllleaaaaggghhggghh…

another thing about betty is that she should definitely be hold accountable. but also, to be fair, she thought “wow simon is my idol and is soooooo cool” and then started dating him. like babe i love you but why would u do that… there was such a horrible power balance because she read his books before and she thought of him as something higher because of that. so of course she subconsciously gave up all of her dreams for him. which sucks but i feel like she needed to learn how to stand her ground.

i am NOT blaming her though. at all.

she just was OBSESSED over simon to the point she wasnt her own person. which sucks, but she needed to learn to let go and move on.

dont get me wrong though.. i love these two so much!

i think definitely with a longer relationship (they were only together for about 5 years or under and didn’t even get married) so they were early-ish in their relationship so they didnt work out any of the kinks. and thats what sucks about them! they didnt have enough time to you know, have a relationship.

i think these two with enough time couldve been something great and its so sad they couldn’t get the life they deserve:( i love them sm

(i didnt cover all of my points here, so later down the road i may rewrite this LOL)

(also i didnt re read this so uh. sorry for the mistakes!)

[meo-eiru]

DUDE I JUST PLAYED THROUGH THE GAME, WHY IS IT SO SADDDD😭😭😭

and why is he hot

Starling went through quite a few redesigns through the entire development process so let me talk about it a bit :3

It all started with this notes app drawing I made with my finger

Right from the start we knew his tail would be made out of tongues but figuring out how many and placed how was quite hard, I really had to girlmath my way thru

This was the first actual drawing I made of him. The story wasn't complete yet but I went ahead and designed something anyway. Here he was definitely "scarier" and his scar was also placed differently. He had gills on his neck but as you will see I changed their location to under his arms later on. We were actually considering not giving him a tongue of his own so I wanted to make his mouth terrifyingly big and empty.

Here I tried giving him bigger eyes like a fish. This was when his playful and childlike personality had started shaping as you can see from the expressions. I definitely liked this direction better but it also wasn't perfect just yet so I went ahead and did a few more changes

I slowed down on trying to figure out his design a bit after that and instead focused on how his sprite would look. He is a merman after all, he can't just stand straight like a lot of the other visual novel characters. This stage was PAINFUL.

These were the first ones I sketched, we ended up deciding we liked the 3rd one the best.

I carried that 3rd one over to another canvas and started playing around with how we could place his tail, we started entertaining the idea of having him sit on a big rock

This is when his pose really shaped up. The animated Little Mermaid movie was actually a big inspiration, I sat and rewatched the entire movie and studied how they animated her tail

And after that I finally finalized his design. We decided to change the end of his tail to be more eel like for aesthetic purposes (normal tail shape looked weird with tongues)

And for anyone wondering this is what Maelyn looked like at first. Since the story wasn't complete yet I thought it'd take place in a more modern setting and designed her with that in mind but we decided to have the story take place in 1800s so I changed the design based on that. I did a lot of research on glasses and corsets to make the design as accurate as I could.

Yes glasses! We didn't use the sprites in the main story but Maelyn does wear glasses and looks very pretty in them if you ask me. You will be seeing more of it in the bonus episodes!

[russo-woso]

Comment || Arsenal x reader

Request | Masterlist

Warning mention of bullying, mental health problems, mention of suicide

Summary You accidentally reveal why you don’t interact with your team

A/N this is a sadddd and angsty one so buckle in

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“Y/N, you’re coming to the restaurant with us, right?” Katie asked, seeing you try to scurry out of the room without anyone noticing.

Unfortunately for you, Katie saw you and was curious whether she’d see you at the restaurant that night.

To celebrate the end of the year and Christmas, the team had organised a meal out at a local restaurant, nothing much but enough to satisfy the whole team.

You hesitated a bit, you also unaware of your own answer.

You see, you hadn’t always had the best experiences with a team.

Your previous teammates had made a few comments here and there about you.

She doesn’t deserve to get minutes

Why did the club even sign her

Shittiest player I’ve ever seen

Drop her back down to the Sunday league

At first, they were just small remarks that happened every so often, but then it turned to 24/7.

In the changing rooms, over text, on the pitch. Everywhere, anytime.

They were bullying you.

And even when you brought it upon the manager, he just shrugged, ‘that’s banter for you’ he had told you whilst laughing.

Maybe you were just being sensitive. Maybe you were taking it the wrong way. Maybe this was how a team was supposed to play.

From that moment onwards, you thought it was normal.

You didn’t complain about it anymore, just bottling up your emotions so they didn’t have to see it.

It wasn’t until a very poorly played game that you realised just how damaged they’d made you.

You had played the final four minutes of the game.

When you ran onto the pitch, your team was already losing 4-0.

And although you’d impacted the game massively and had prevented two goals in them four minutes, you were entirely blamed for the loss.

You had dreaded walking into the changing rooms after, all your teammates angry at their performances but somehow blaming it on you made it a lot better.

One of your teammates had squared up to your shaking body, their finger pointing at you.

Your breath became uneven as you closed your eyes in dread.

“You were shit today! You were the reason we lost! You were a let down today. You made us lose! Do us all a favour, Y/L/N and fuck off. We don’t need you on our team! You just fuck up our play and make us fucking lose! Nobody likes you, Y/N. You’re a shit player!” She screamed, the rest of the girls agreeing. She finished shouting at you, but was not finished without pushing you to the floor.

You put on a strong face, standing up and grabbing your stuff before walking out.

You walked for miles in the rain, no car, your phone dead, just you and your thoughts.

You don’t remember much from that night, you’d passed out on some bridge for most of it.

But you remembered one thing.

You remember laying on the bridge, your body fighting for consciousness and thinking would it be so bad if you were to never wake up?

Would anyone actually miss you?

You had your mum left but she mainly focused on your older brother more - he’s a lawyer and had kids - no more explanation needed.

You were so close to completely giving up, so close to letting ending everything.

You used all your strength, pulling yourself up and taking yourself over to the edge of the bridge.

The river underneath was violent, the water crashing against its beds with purpose.

You started counting down in your head, dunking it with your heartbeat.

3… 2…

“Dear! What are you doing?” A voice exclaimed from behind you.

You turned with watery eyes to see a woman, 65 maybe?

You looked in her eyes, a solace look in them.

“Please… look at me. I’m a complete stranger to you. You don’t know me, I don’t know you. But what I do know about you, is you have so much to live for that maybe you don’t realise you have. Take a look around. What do you see?” She began, taking a few steps towards you.

“Bushes, the river, trees.” You listed, taking deep breaths steady your breathing.

“Trees. Look how they’re blowing in the wind. They’ve got no control over themselves. They’re being pushed around and they can’t do anything, but one thing that they are doing, is having a tiny bit of strength to keep them standing. A storm may have big impacts but at the end of the day, they go away. What you’re going through now is just a storm, I promise. You’re young, you’ve got your whole life ahead of you. Go travel, go to London, go somewhere you’ve never been before. You’re just stuck in a storm, a bad one, but at the end of everyone is sunshine.”

You listened to her words, taking into account what she was saying.

Slowly but surely, you stepped back from the edge, collapsing into the womens arms.

You’ll never forget that night.

The woman, you didn’t even find out her name, but you knew she was your guardian angel that night.

And although you didn’t completely believe her words, she was right.

You were in the middle of a passing storm.

Not only two days later, you were sat in your managers office being told you were going to another club.

You were given a list of clubs that were interested but one stood out massively, a London club.

You were doing what the woman told you to do, you were going to London.

Which leads you back to the conversation with Katie, your Arsenal teammate.

“Umm… I’ll have to see how tired I am.” You lied, making up a random excuse.

“You said that last time, Y/N.” Alessia pointed out, a playful smile on her face, a completely innocent one which meant no harm.

“And the time before that.” Kyra then added, gently knocking her shoulder into yours.

“Please come, Y/N. I barely know you, it’ll give us time to get to know you.” Steph explained

You hesitated between yes and no.

“Okay. I’ll be there.” You finally said after a few moments.

Everyone cheered, telling you what time to be there and how excited they were that you’d said yes to going.

Maybe these girls aren’t as bad.

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You were one of the first ones to arrive at the restaurant, not wanting to be late.

Katie and Caitlin were already there and called you over.

One by one, the team filled the table, a buzz filling the air as everyone chatted to each other.

You sat quietly at the end of the table, having nothing really to say.

“What’re you doing for Christmas, Y/N?” Alessia asked, obviously realising no one was talking to you.

“Nothing much. I’ll probably get a few snacks in and watch some…” you began but soon slowed down your words as you set eyes on someone from across the room.

There, sat your guardian angel, your lifesaver.

“Y/N?” Alessia asked, confused but followed your eyeline to see the woman. “Are you okay?”

“I haven’t seen her in months.” You mumbled to yourself but Alessia also heard.

“Who is she?”

“She saved my life.” You responded, not knowing it would lead to you revealing your secret.

“Oh my god…” Alessia whispered, realising it was a big moment for you seeing her again. “Is she a doctor? Were you ill?”

“No.” You shook your head, your eyes not leaving the woman. “My old team, they used to make comments about me. It started with a few - what I thought were harmless - comments but they continued coming. Over message, in the changing rooms, on the pitch. They made me feel like I didn’t belong there - that I didn’t belong on earth. After the match against PSG—” you began

“—The one where you played a few minutes?” Alessia questioned, you nodding in response. “You played incredible that match. You completely turned the game around.”

“Yeah, I thought that too. But after the match in the changing rooms, I got blamed for the loss. My old teammate pushed me to the floor and the rest of them laughed at me. I ended up walking into the rain and walked for miles. I collapsed on this bridge at some point and I decided to go towards the edge. I was counting down in my head. My heart wasn’t racing, I think it was the calmest I’d felt in years. It was what all my teammates wanted so I was going to do them all a favour. I was going to… I was on seven when I heard a voice behind me. It was her. She saved me.” You explained, looking back to Alessia but seeing 25 sets of eyes on you.

Most of the girls had tears in their eyes, your story hitting them hard.

“That’s why it took so long for to come out with you. It wasn’t any of you personally and I’m sorry if it felt like that but I don’t think I can ever trust teammates again.”

“Y/N, don’t say sorry.” Leah’s breathed out, leaning over the table to take your hand in hers. “I’m so sorry you had to go through that.”

“I know it might take some time to realise but not all teams are like them. If you can, can you please trust us. We want to show you what being in a true team feels like.” Kim told you, rubbing your back comfortingly.

“I’d like that, thank you.”

“We’re here for you, Y/N. Here at Arsenal, we’re not just a club, we’re a family. Whether you like it or not. Some of us - Kyra - can be annoying sometimes but at the end of the day, we’re a family, and that’s the most important part. We’d like nothing more than to be your family from now on.” Lia added, sending you a smile.

“A family, huh? I think I’d like that.” You said, a smile appearing on your face.

“Enough of that now. That’s your past, it’s time to think about the future. And I’m not having you all alone on Christmas so you’re coming with me to my family on Christmas.” Alessia stated confidently, not giving you any choice.

“Alessia, I can’t, it’s your—”

“Ah, no — remember we’re family.” Alessia told you, hitting your shoulder with hers.

“Family.” You whispered quietly, smiling to yourself.

You took another look over to the woman.

She was still talking away to the man she was with but managed to catch your eye.

She sent a wink and a smile over to you.

You took your eyes off her for seconds and when you looked again, she was gone.

You never knew her name, and you didn’t know who she was, but you couldn’t be more grateful.

Not only had she saved your life that night, but she had also brought you a family.

[crguang]

HI HELLO SHALOM INTERRO ??? THOUGHTS ??? HOW DO WE FEEL ABOUT CHIEF BEING THE PERSON TO BREAK THE PARADEISOS LOBOTOMY

ABSOLUTELY FUCKING INSANEEEEEEEEEEE. UNBELIEVABLE. WHAT????????! they are intrinsically linked together. at once by the shackles, paradeisos, loss of self, mutual liberation and their inevitable end perceived by others. they’re literally the same. shalom pre-lobotomy is chief pre-awakening; refusing to be controlled, full of vitality, hatred and defiance (as defined by having freedom). i have so many thoughts in my head and it’s hard to concretize them all but the language shalom used to talk about how chief opened the door for doubt in her mind stroke me, it’s so violent. “rift” “corrupting” “shattering” “beast/monster” “tore me apart”… it really conveyed how shocking of a transition it must have been for her to suddenly feel those “unnecessary emotions” that had been taken from her for 8 years. even more, it must be so surreal to understand that you’ve been dissected in two, dehumanized and objectified while simultaneously being able to gaze upon that part of yourself that cries in indignation. if she was truly emotionless it wouldn’t mean a thing, but she’s not… she’s so incredibly self-aware. i think this is what makes it so sad for me, knowing you have an expiration date based on your usefulness because you were “made” for one purpose while being able to feel pleasure and have desires, etc— to understand the weight of what has been snatched from you by people who think themselves righteous when they’re really just a bunch of fear-stricken cowards would have anybody go crazy. seeing what paradeisos did to her made me so sick. the apathy with which they treat every threat to themselves is shocking but straight up mocking her will to live for herself by calling the monster they’ve made using (a part of) her Rebel made my stomach churn like that is so disgusting… shalom is aware of the severity of what paradeisos did to her and it’s sick that she has to risk everything just for less than a 1% chance of success that doesn’t even include her survival mind you. im just SICKK

to think she was so full of life and fighting spirit and is now reduced to “resigned” looks and smiles, compared to an instrument and a doll— oh my god sev it made me so uncomfortable. i know that during the loyalty test in the consciousness observatory or whatever, she was essentially embodying paradeisos but reading her being described as “doll-like” “void” and such was so tough… for chief to get that impression of her being an empty shell, expression that shalom uses again in the end to describe herself, then for shalom wonder if she’s even human afterwards made me so sadddd 😭 i do like these two excerpts though because i feel like it describes the duality of her character well, the surface level at least. the fact that she is capable of being genuine and has mastered the art of “embodying paradeisos” so that they wouldn’t notice that flaw makes her impossible to figure her out without diving into her psyche. even chief couldn’t understand her fully, she wont be able to now that she’s forgotten her. she’s so wonderfully complex and her interrogation portrayed that concept super well.

ive talked about shalom and her smiles before but another thing that’s always struck me as odd was that she kinda laughed too much for an unfeeling robot. im not talking about her cute little chuckles either, yeah sometimes it’s only to add to her manipulation but at the end of flora unfurl, when all of her plans were coming to fruition and in the face of coquelic’s rage, she was laughing then still. her laughs and smiles are sometimes so inappropriate but her laughter especially stood out to me and i didnt really know why until this one scene… it takes more effort to fake a laugh than to fake a smile like she does all the time; from what i remember she wasn’t mocking coquelic or being unnecessarily cruel, but when she burst out laughing i was so confused exactly because it felt unnecessary and out of place, like what happened in that scene. laughter is often accompanied by emotion and during a time where rationality couldn’t explain the motive behind her action, schorl immediately scanned her for defects like that’s insane. the level of scrutiny she’s constantly under is impossibly oppressive— “try to rectify such purposeless physicalities”?! cant even laugh anymore because of woke. can’t voice her thoughts, can’t be fully genuine with the person who freed her from rationality, she literally cannot do shit omg. all of herself has to be available to paradeisos’ sterile gaze every second of every day… she’s used to that scrutiny but ughhh it’s not fair and it’s not how human beings are treated. shalom i will save you from this prison if it’s the last thing i do

despite it all, she has her small pleasures and it makes me want to scream and die. the way she “plays” with schorl by having it scan her meaninglessly, how she enjoys catching people off guard and observing their reactions, the way she’s always making fucking jokes?! so important to me. shes so unserious. shalom making jokes that fall flat because they’re in the middle of a heavy topic or issue is so important to me. “haha your garden’s better off with me than dead right? kidding, heh” and “why should i give a fuck about humanity?… just kidding! love these people” is so 😭😭😭 i genuinely find her hilarious because she doesn’t relieve any tension at all, she is NOT meant to be comedic relief 😭

back to her and chief tho…… is it not absolutely crazy how she was acting like they were once married with three kids before chief got amnesia. mind you they met ONCE before, officially. ONE TIME. and she was like “you made a lasting impression on me” “we’re friends” “i wanted to see you/my own subtle yearning to see you again” “we held hands like this once before… i still remember the touch” “being apart from you, i cant help but worry” SLOW DOWWWWWWN. MY GOODNESS. i know chief changed her life but shalom was so intense from the get go like she wants that cookie so effing bad. they used the words “tender” “intimate” and “gently” too often for me to believe they dont want each other like. and why was the hand holding written like a fanfiction— matter of fact, this whole thing was written like a fanfiction because why am i reading about the exposed skin of shalom’s collarbone, her pushing chief onto her bed then essentially climbing into it as well to whisper in her ear WHILE encouraging her to choke her?!?!?!?! what was even happening. lesbians make me sick. what a freak. i actually dont know how many times ive called shalom a freak while playing the first 2 interro phases

wish i could add all the screenshots from the choking scene but tumblr’s a BITCH. but this whole thing was insane. LIKE INSANE. this is gayer than 000 kissing chief. this is gayer than being a housewife for the assassin that kidnapped you. reconnecting with an old “friend” you cant remember yet feel an undeniable familiarity and connection towards and allowing yourself to be vulnerable and exposed in front of her regardless of ulterior motives… soulmates across space and time and circumstance idkkk, at the end of the day the one who can understand shalom the best if given a real chance is chief idc they’re mirror images of each other. shalom was so genuine in the interrogation room despite chief being suspicious of her like im sure of it now. the fact that they freed each other is forever ingrained in my heart, that is the most precious gift they could’ve given to each other even if it was done unconsciously from chief’s part. ALSO the fact that the one moment we hear the most emotion from shalom is when she’s at chief’s bedside telling her to come back? yeah. exactly.

let me stop yapping but there are many things that are escaping me that made me go “holy fuck”, i have a hundred screenshots and recordings just from her interro like it really blew my mind. shalom’s character is a bit clearer to me now and it really does put everything into perspective aaaaaa im aching to write for her properly this time

[nixwriteschaos]

SPOILERS FOR ARCANE

I'M SO SADDDD!!

WHY DID THEY NEED TO KILL JINX? SHE WAS ALREADY HAVING HER REDEMPTION AND FINALLY HAD VI IN HER LIFE AGAIN. WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY DID THEY HAVE TO DO THAT? I DON'T WANT HER TO BE DEAD CAN SOMEONE PLEASE MAKE UP A THEORY THAT SHE ISN'T DEAD? LIKE THE SHIMMER IN HER BODY LIKE- ALLOWED HER TO LIVE?? DUIBAUIBDIJWABJD

[luffythinker]

Spinner said he was jealous of Dabi in season 7, i was watching the dub and the way his kind eyes thought about him when he heard Dabi had been defeated and he got upset IN THE SCENE WHERE AFO WAS PUTTING HIS HAND OVER SPINNERS EYES TO GIVE HIM THE QUIRK WHEN DABI WALKED AWAY

what if Spinner had a crush on Dabi and just never spoke up and Dabi legit never knew? like he never suspected Spinner liked him and he kinda bullies Spinner a little anyway (keeps calling him lizard but it's all in good fun tjngdkv sometimes)

and that scene was Spinner accepting he would never tell Dabi how he felt crying emoji

SpinnerDabi - and Shigaraki ships it lol hes telling him to go for it when he found out but Spinner never did and its so sad cause afterwards they all d*e so his crush is gone NOOOooo :)

ok this is just so sad, especially after today's episode... he never had a chance to talk about his feelings, he never told dabi how he felt and dabi never knew it

they never even stood a chance im so sadddd this is heartbreaking

i'm imagining shiggys trying to hype him up and say he would never know until he tries but he never had the courage to do so and now they will never have a chance UGHJFJJHJFFJ WHY WOULD YOU MAKE ME SO SAD ABOUT THEM IM GONNA CRY IM SO FR

[knwatchesninjago]

S1E10 The Green Ninja

*SHARP INHALE*

OH. MY. GOSH.

THIS EP WAASS SOOO CCRINGE!?!?!?? (and here i thought ep7 wass cringe)

BUT IT WAS ALSO REALLY NICE, SO LET'S GET INTO IT!!!!

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OK!!! Imma leave #CringeyKai to the end, so bear with me...

first of, we finallyyy got some scenes where Lloyd

#RegretsLifeDecisions

YES!!!

My poor baby!!

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Also we got some scenes where::

#Lord_Garmadon_Is_A_Hilarious_Menace

Honestly... this warlord is such a hilarious character!! I mean look at his face!!

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Also!! SOme really adorable...

#Father-Son Bonding

Honestly... the way their expressions fell at the same time was soo sadddd 😭

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AT LAST!! THE LONG-AWAITED: CRINGE

I SWEAR!!!

THE MOMENT THE FIRST FRAME OF THE EP CAME INTO PLAY I SIGNED OUT OF MY COMPUTER!!

THE CRINGEEEEEEEEE

Kai... baby. Zane is cringey... why are you as well?

Y'all... I dunno if it's actually cringe or if it's second-hand embarrassment-- BUT I COULDN'T watch this ep in one sitting.

Y'all know this part? When Kai fights Garm to prove that he's the Green Ninja? I COULDN'T WATCH IT!!! I felt so embarrassed for Kai that I had to take a break from this ep.

What did I do in that break?

I watched Barbie edits to help me prepare for the cringe... |

(-_-)

It's not my fault. Anyways, that edit soon became me just wasting hrs watching more edits and animatics.

But FINALLYYYYY after like 2 hours, I decided to resume the vid.

In all honesty... I think I mayyy have overreacted. This scene wasn't that cringey.

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Anyways!! I'm coming close to the 30-pic-limit so I'll just frantically show y'all some more snapshots.

#Pythor's weird face

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In all honesty... I was like HUH!?!?!?! When Jay was all like "WIND!!!"

Did a quick Google search and found this pretty intersting vid

So I really recommend y'all to check it out, lol!!

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ALRIGHT!!! I HAVE ONE MORE PIC LEFT!!!!

So I leave y'all with some

#RGBsibs4ever!!

Y'all.... it is now officially confirmed!! The Green Ninja is our little gremlin. :')

Poor Lloyd... his life is gonna get so hard in the near future...

Anyways, Byeeeeee y'alll!!! See y'all in ep11!!! Imma go to bed now!! Good night!!

https://www.tumblr.com/kittenninja14/731916269075480576/hey-yall-i-just-found-this-incredible-video-and

[nerves-nebula]

Think neither of my sisters asking how I was doing and instead asking about if my ex was ok when I told them we broke up set me back years insofar as emotional vulnerability goes. Like I really feel like I was getting better at talking about my feelings and shit and then when we broke up I had no one, cus she was the one I usually talked to. So I tried to talking to the only people I could even sort of consider my support network and not only did they not care how I felt they clearly cared MORE about how she, this person they’d only met a few times, felt.

And it’s like. I just lost my biggest source of emotional support, and now I know my sisters don’t care about me or are, for some reason, under the impression that I wouldnt be in pain about this??? Like at all???

When I brought it up to one of them she just said she didn’t think I loved my ex. And it’s like yea ok I’m aroace and I’m not touchy or romantic but I care about her more than I’ve ever cared about anyone. And we’re still best friends. And I’m still loyal to her I’ve still got her fucking back.

Neither of them even asked why we broke up (it was cuz she cheated on me (kinda on accident it’s complicated but that’s how it made me feel) and I decided neither of us would be happy if we kept dating. I broke up with her cuz I wanted her to be happy and be able to date whoever she wants) so now I wonder if they just assume it was my fault.

I guess that I’ve always known logically that people would see me as being more heartless cuz I don’t get romance or fall in love, but this one hurts even more because my sisters know how sensitive I was as a kid so why the hell do they think that’s changed?

Part of me wonders if it’s just cuz I’m visibly less expressive nowadays or cuz I look more masculine. Is this like a butch thing where ppl don’t think you have feelings once you’re not seen as sensitive emotional girl anymore. Like yea maybe I seem emotionless now!!! Cuz I’m emotionally numb!!! Dickheads!!! I’m in constant emotional pain and I’m too tired and wary to express it!!

Why do my sisters not know me anymore. Why did they treat me like I wasn’t still that devastated overly emotional kid they grew up with. Why am I not worth worrying about. Do I gotta kill my self to get any sympathy here or what.

Anyway ignore this. It’s past 1 am so I’m just bein sadddd

[raspbeyes]

SPOILERS FOR EP 11 DRDT

Since I did a prediction earlier today, time to update!!

OKAY NO HiATUS WHAT NOOOOO! honestly having looked at the time during the livestream, i genuinely was questioning how they were gonna wrap this up by ep 12 like last time and started to wonder if this chapter will be longer as we spent this whole epsiode in david's extended mask off moment. as much as im sad abt the hiatus i am glad this is extended BECAUSE WE DIDN'T EVEN TOUCH THE ACTUAL CRIME SCENE OR A DEBATE SCRUM tho ughhh noo this hiatus might kill meeee

OKAY DAVID OMG bro lost it AHHHHH i really wanted to believe that david had a good/moral reason for all this but to know he did all this secret maliciously?!!? ik he's not killer for sure so i do wonder how he's gonna be used in next chapters cuz as hot as he lowkey is rn and i do love his biting sarcasm, he's gonna be geninuely such a bitchy force to deal with in future chapters. to have this man constantly causing trouble for no other reason than fun and never trustworthy, i have to wonder if there's any hope left for him. i really hope that his arc actually has him improve cuz u know, poetic irony and all that jazz. Since now we know he doesn't believe what he says, i truly hope drdt takes the time to prove him wrong cuz i really dont want a grimdark killing game proving david (and in some ways, teruko) right. and also, idk why people are surprised david would lie abt being arei's killer and want to get himself killed rn. Bro literally now has lost his career and his public image is ruined. He doesn't have a life anymore for him to go back to. He already mentions how he hates everyone there, so I see zero reason why he wouldn't lie to drag everyone down with him

ACE SLAYS ONCE AGAIN! BRO POPPING OFF WITH THE TRUTH YESSSS AND CALLING OUT PEOPLE'S HYPOCRISY FOR NOT GOING AFTER DAVID WE LOVE TO SEE IT!!! Also j saying that she doubts ace's testimony just cuz she thinks he cant be quiet makes me sadddd

ALSO NICO AND CHARLES!!!! I love that nico comes back in clutch to help actually point out david's suspiciousness. His bluntness is always needed, especially with cutting through david's bs. ALSO CHARLES YESS IM GLAD HE IS NOW GONNA BE CRITICAL TO THIS CASE!!! I like that drdt takes advantage of its video format as normally to have a character interject like that in a mainline dr game would be bad since it's interupting gameplay and taking control out of player's hands. But it works here since we're not actually playing and shows teruko and charles backing each other up and shows people actually getting involved!!!

To the actual crime ... uh i dont know ... clearly this crime is so complicated that we need a TRIAL 2: ELECTRIC BOOGALOO lmaoo. i mentioned before but charles's comment of "fucking up" at the end seems to strongly imply the time of the murder, and thus everyone's testimonies for that time, are now irrelevant. Since arei was alive in the evening last night (ace does claim 7:30, but i do agree with david that ace might have just said that to back up his point rather than it being true) the death happened the prior night or early that morning. it puts into the question the note, calling for 7:30 but it could be 7:30 am before the motive reveal. however, unless it was something like a trap, such a time is so tight i find it hard to believe. maybe i'll do a post later doing a fully theory as i lose my mind during this hiatus (praying for it be under 6 months)

[sionnisaweirdperson]

Okta spamton yap time let's go

So just like jevil i really do think that the themes shown with spamton's story are really cool and well-exicuted. He's a very very cool side character who you actually have to get interested in to look into: which I love to bits. The desperation and fall from grace is also just wahhhhb wahhhh poor boy I need to give you a hug,, he lost everything and is at a point of no-turning back desperation until kris comes along. I often have little daydream thoughts that are purely self insert and self indulgent of "what if I took this trash raccoon of a man and let him in my house and took care of him" and it always makes me so SADDDD WAHHHHWHSHDJDBEJEJ going back to talking about the themes of spamton's battle and downfall OH MYGOD SPAM5OJ JSUT CAME ONF IN MY HEADPHOENS LETW GOOO THEY LNWO anyqyayd! NOWS YOUR VHANCE TO BE A BIG SHOT! I really like how he's just trying to manipulate Kris into them giving him their soul a lot of the time but at the end kris ends up HELPING them it's great did I mentionthat I we t absolutely insane when I figured out that you ARENT supposed to actually spare spamton in the battle TO spare him I started bawling my eyes out no joke but i also want to touch on a little idea of the man on the other side of the phone being like a fals3 idol character,, like he made spamton rise to power and spamton is now relying on him and then he just vanishes,, really shows why you can't really put your entire life in someone else's hands because it (most often ) ends in disas5er- thsi is like so interesting to me because lkek he's just a guy who needs help at the time that kris enters and like,,, I desperately want to puck him up and give him a hug,, I need to make sure he's okay poor glorbo.... poor boy let me METAL CRUSHER UNDERTALE OST IS SUCH A GOOD AONG THIS JUST CAME ON IN MY PKAYLIST ABSHJSBWBAHW anyways I digress but I DESPERATELY need to take care of spamton like poor guyyy yes I'll let you live in my house and eat my waffles like a fucked up cat WHY IS SO MUCH OF UNDERTALES OST FIRE AAAHHHHHHAHHAGSGSGDHSHSHSHS I'm actually going insane all of this was typed while in a waffle house btw if you xare I'm not eating anything I'm just sitting here going slightly feral over dumpster man,,, I would ve a big ahoy with him auhfbdhhh I want spamton as my fucked up cat and Sans as my bone head ahhb neighbor please let me phase into yhe world of deltarun I beg I plead I scream I cry please please eplease psl4as5 EHAHHSHSHDHWIWHWKAJSKWKQJ I love these guys so much,,, ouuugjhh brain worms wahshbdhrhsbsh oh god I almost refreshed and lost all of this anyways spamton yap over congrats if you made it this far

[optreee]

Love Between Fairy and Devil spoilers.

So I just re-watched Episodes 28-32 (because I guess I like getting my heart stabbed multiple times by a searing white-hot knife) and realized…

1. The three days when XLH was in the Fuju cave were after DFQC received the nine Bone-eating Spikes, so you’re tell me there were three nights when our Moon Supreme DFQC was experiencing BOTH the Fuju Cave torture AND the nine spikes piercing his organs/ants eating his flesh/bones being cut off…SIMULTANEOUSLY??? How is this man still alive/functioning??? LET THE MAN HAVE HIS WOMAN because if THIS doesn’t earn the right then literally NOTHING does

2. Omg… *cries* so Orchid dissolves from his arms when she dies from the sword, right? But then *sob* in his dream when he finally admits to himself that he knew it was a dream and tells his dream-Orchid that he has to leave, his dream-Orchid dissolves in his arms, too… *heaving* He created the dream to experience happiness with her, but instead, it’s like he loses her TWICE *hysterical wailing* why did he do that to himself 😭😭😭 why is this so effing sadddd 😫

I’ll probably post about some more heartache later. 💔❤️‍🩹

[saltinekryze]

ahsoka ep 1x04 liveblog / post-mortem

the ultimatum about sacrificing ezra for good to prevent thrawn’s return…. i had a feeling it would come to that but actually hearing it hurt. OOF!

ahsoka expressing the same thought to sabine that ezra once did — “can i count on you?” bro i’m gonna THROW UP 😭

sabine fighting like a mandalorian let’s fucking GOOOOO

HERA AND BROCCOLI BOYYYY

when jacen asked why his mom gets to disobey orders and he doesn’t, chopper definitely said ��yeah what’s up with that?” 💀

hera let jacen push the lever to send them into hyperspace 🥹

oh the cloak removal….. the drama….

ahsoka’s lightsaber twirl was SO anakin-like pls

WHY THE INQUISITOR EXPLODE LIKE THAT

“he never mentioned you” ooooh burnnnn

MORE CLOAK REMOVALS (*insert “she’s so crazzyy!! love her!!” meme*)

i must add that i love baylan’s costume design. ray stevenson himself brings such an interesting physicality to the role. like a stoic old king or medieval knight.

interesting that ahsoka hasnt been using her second saber….

canon confirmation that sabine’s family died on mandalore 😭😭😭 but the “because your master didn’t trust you” line had me wondering. didn’t they die in the purge mentioned in the mandalorian? if not, what exactly happened and how does ahsoka tie in?

SABINE NAURRRRRRR. I GET IT BUT NAURRRR 😭😭😭😭

(she is training to be a jedi but can’t let go of her personal attachments… she has lost so much already and she cannot bear to also lose ezra for good….. i am SADDDD)

“i have a bad feeling” HMMM FORCE-SENSITIVE JACEN CONFIRMED?

LIVE ACTION WORLD BETWEEN WORLDS??????? OH FUCK OH SHIT

“HELLO SNIPS” WAAAAHHHHHHHHH

ANAKIN!!!!!! IM CRYING (damn they really got hayden with the cgi. i understand they needed to de-age him but i was like o that’s a Lot)

we are def gonna get some funky world between worlds shit next week (hell yeah). flashback mayhaps???

speaking of the world between worlds. you know who else has accessed that plane? that’s right…. ezra bridger. babe where are u? we miss you. sabine misses you. we want to see you. what have you been up to? are you doing okay? are you staying hydrated?

[mxstyk13]

HOUSE OF THE DRAGON SPOILERS !!

i love coming on here and blabbing ab shows and movies i just got done watching its so fun lmaoooo

okay no but fr. this WILL be all over the place. alicent in her younger years always looked so depressed and honestly i get it. everytime her and her damn dad interacted i felt so bad for her, like he rlly only gaf ab the throne huh :/. daemon trying to get w rhaenyra sexually as her uncle 🫥 i know its like the 14th century but DAMN. also, the first time skip had me flabbergasted what do u MEAN alicent is pregnant? 🤨 shoulda known sir criston was an insane mf when he got caught for having intercourse w rhaenyra and his first thought was genuinely and srsly “kill me, i deserve it” and then proceeded to try and kill himself, i shoulda fuckin knew. i know they took their oaths seriously but calm down buddy. and i was so sadddd when laenor’s lover boy got killed. again, shoulda known criston was gonna snap when TWO mfs in one day confronted him ab that indecency lmaoooo and my god, GOT and HOD do not gaf ab showing gore my god MY GOD.

what else? alicent got on my absolute nerve in her later years. i know she was just trying to perform the duty and role she was forced into but can u blame me? 😔 and can i just say, that whole house pisses me off? everyone is like off their rocker. the hand aka her father, sir criston, that man with the limp, alicent herself, ALL her damn children except her daughter 😭 aegon but ESPECIALLY aemond show me serious potential to be joffrey 2.0s. nuh uhhhhh

when visery’s, in his sickly state, went above and beyond to make sure the court saw that he wanted her to be heir still and hers would inherit :’) still confused why on his last breath he changed his mind but i digress. daemon is so fine until he show that stinky personality, same for aemond like mannnnnn. sometimes i could forget daemon was truly a d*ck when i focused on that long hair and beautiful face and the kindness he showed sometimes but forever would he remind me 💀 ALSO AYYYYYY love seeinf rhaenyra as queen. and dare i say love it when she ordered men around, what can i sayyyyy what can i sayyyyyy lmaoooo EXAMPLE: how daemon was ab to fight the hand and she simply said no and he put that sword down. i never knew i enjoyed that sm until now, like u better listen. im a lesbian but that enjoyment does not discriminate. AND AHHHHHH SICKENING SICK SICK- when lucerys’ (?) dragon got tore apart and possibly him along with it….. i wanted to be happy when he made it to the clearing but i knew GOT liked to play mind games and i was right. :| i wanna believe he’s alive but, at the end, daemon told rhaenyra ab it. which makes me wonder, how did he know before anyone else? unless he came across his body or personally saw it himself. but then again, idk. but yea. this show had me stressed tf out. i need s2 ASAP RN

[rasp-passion-tea]

A small (big) update/catch-up post for anyone curious on where I've been and where I'll be:

*rides in on a skateboard with sunglasses and a mocktail in hand* yo

The past couple of years, I've been pretty M.I.A. I'd feel bad if I'd have any remaining folks who cared about me are left in the dark (as much as that anxious part of me will try to convince myself otherwise, I did build genuine connections on here 🥰). There also just might happen to be old inactive friends of mine who might randomly wonder where that random raspberry girl on tumblr ended up only to come back to see that she might've disappeared,,, or been sold on the dark web 🧐. There could also be any eventual new people to our small community to wonder that. So y’know what 🤔 I'll keep a little post up top so people can know (also, it'd be nice to give a speech once more to my imaginary audience c:)

With that said, I'll ramble about sum up under the cut:

So, where ya been, Rasp?

Well, to start things off, I'm doing really good :D looking back, I might've given people the vibe I was majorly depressed and that might've woried some people 🥲 it was never anything major, but I was still dealing with some teenage girl stuff, and this blog and ship and the fanbase I joined because of it became my mini safe spot. Simply put, I didn't have any sources to be able to properly word that to. I have that now and feel much more grounded and capable, and that's all I could've wanted years ago :)

You might've already guessed, but I've been busy lately, with adult stuff specifically. Yup, the fandoms resident little sister is grown now. She's working!! And she's in college!!! Wow!!1! I HAVE BASICALLY NO MORE FREE TIME!!!!!!!11! :DDD That, and a bunch of other reasons have made it harder to focus on one thing at a time, which is why I've been pretty scarce on this app, and online on general.

Soooo how ya been then, Rasp?

Uhhh... good question. Fine, I suppose 😗 kinda just existing right now. I have a feeling a lot of that has to do with me being unmediacted at the moment, so I haven't been able to do a lot of the things I love the past few years. Sooo... if you're wondering why I never posted those fics I teased in the past, that's why 🥲 I have a feeling I will one day, though. Just a matter of time. Speaking of, let's go into my last point:

Does that mean you're abandoning this account, Rasp?? ☹️

Mmm not quite. I've been popping in every couple of months, and I might keep doing that. But I definitely won't be as active as I used to. Couple reasons:

I mentioned a lot of reasons why, but I've been. Very busy 🥲 being online hasn't been at the forefront of my mind lately, so I've decided to not stress about it right now. Like I mentioned before, I'd like to come back to all this one day, but that's not now. Speaking of:

As much as I feel bad saying this, once the show ended, the ship and its fandom got really quiet. For me that makes it harder to participate in things if there's not a large community. I've joined other fandoms cuz of that, but not like this one... this fandom was special...... *looks off into the distance*

Bonus reason that ties into the last one: a lot of my friends are inactive with me not having any way to reach out, and that makes meeee very sadddd 😔 So if anyone I've met happens to see this:

...heyyy 🤪 I hope you got something out of this post,,,, like I said before, I'm unmedicated and have been very scatterbrained recently, but I tried to make this as cohesive as possible 😭 guess to end this off I'll link some other socials:

My side blog: rasp-passion-two

(Also pretty inactive on there, but if you wanna see what I've been into lately, that's the spot (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ I'm pretty sure I never ended up sharing it fsr lol)

My discord: rasp-passion tea#5877

(I'm not active in servers anymore cuz I think I grew out of using discord, but if you wanna chat? Let's chat (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧ we could also do it on here but vsiwjsisvqisgwu)

...that's it lol. I think I'm kind of an enigma on here now, but thats alright. Uhhhh not sure how to "close" this off, so I guess I'll just say: if you read this whole thing?

🤍🖤🩶

^me rn

I'll see you all when I see you, but I'll always be here!!

~Tayah, AKA Rasp (and yes, it's pronounced "Razz" 😤👋🏽)

[an-honest-puck]

a collection of highlights and viewing notes from 'The Wizard of Paddington Station' because I don't have the time to liveblog while watching but I do have thoughts

(also: holy heck this got long XD)

I'm sorry to start this way but: the protagonist having a dead mother? yeah, that's a D1sney movie alright

in a more positive reflection of this movie: mate this was WHOLESOME AF OMG

so many good Hen quotes!!!!!! the man's a genius!!!!!

"Power! End of song." - Hen

"I do love an exaggerated scroll" - Hen

"And yet! A doubt circles me. Represented by this hoop. *holds up the headband/circlet from props* I reach through the hoop and pull out the doubt. Do you see what the doubt is?" - Hen, lowkey turning everything into a magic show XD

so many hat bits pfffff lololol

Bry's little "Oh! My hat!" when her hat gets taken away!!! D:

Hen: You are demoted to a hatless position.

Bry: I will walk a hatless existence 😔

give her character back her hat she's so sadddd DX

Bry: Could I have a hat with a pom pom on it, sire?

Hen *trying to pause dramatically but really checking the props hat rack*: ... Yes, we have one of those.

I don't think I've heard of a spell that terrifies me more than the tax-based spells from this movie /jk

any time Hen just declares "End of song" is gold lmaooo

Nancy and Josh as bins XD

"Hello, love! How are ya, darling?" - Nancy, as a bin lolol

Petunia (Ellie): What would I do without you two [bins]?

Bin #2 (Josh): Probably litter.

^ award for best unnoticed line goes to (which wasn't even the award of the night lmao)

I did not realise how much this highlights reel was just quotes but boy howdy there are just so many good ones XD

"You've only gone and put the hat in a portal, you mug" - Nancy, rather affectionately lol

the tickets!!!! don't put them in the bin!!!!! D:

Bry: I could delay people's taxes with this hat!

Hen: Certainly. You can cause massive inconvenience in a whole new other branch of public service.

Josh miming all the instruments in that one musical number lololol

Nancy: I missed the birth of my child child child

Nancy: I missed my child's 7th birthday birthday birthday

Josh: I missed my birth birth birth

hello can someone please tell me why 'Half Wizard' is one of the most audibly pleasing songs I've ever listened to?????????

Josh Elliot strikes again with his lovely baritone (?) good lord-

also, who does that "wi-i-i-zard!" line?! because it's either Bry or Niall and I know who I want it to be I like to think Niall's got the range lol

not Bry and Niall giving their ticket characters the most heartwrenching/heartwarming character backstories and arcs!!!!! 😭

everyone: THERE'S NOT ONLY ONEEEEEE / WIZARD OF PADDINGTONNNNN / THE WIZARD OF PADDINGTONNNN / IS IN FACT / IS IN FACT / IS IN FACT / EVERY-

Nancy: O- *no one else is singing*

Hen: *deliberately making everyone pause*

everyone: *trying not to break too badly*

everyone: ... ONEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!

Bryony: to the moon!

[loveywon]

ISTG IF BREAK MY HEART AGAIN PT 2 DOESNT HAVE A HAPPY ENDING W RIKI I WILL NEVER ACHIEVE HAPPINESS IN LIFE EVER AGAIN IT WAS TOO GOOD BUT POOR RIKI AND TBH ITS JW'S FAULT FOR NOT SEEING WHAT WAS INFRONT OF HIM HE HAS SULLY SO LIKE I DONT WANT RIKI TO BE SADDDD HES TOO CUTE AND SWEET FOR WAITING AND I JUST CANT (btw not forcing its completely ur choice but can we have a pt 2 for start now?)

LMAO u made me laugh thank u

and i stillll have no idea what to do for the endingIM SO BAD OOPS maybe u guys will like jungwon more in part 2 (or thats what the fic is currently heading) and willl maybe forgive me for the (possible) ending hnnmmm

if i were to make a pt 2 for start now it would nottt live up to the hype so thats why ive never bothered to do a part 2 for that fic and if i DID it’d be very short like 1k words max tbh and i dont know if people would really wanna read that! but idkk lmk ur thoughts!