#WHICH IS BASICALLY TMRW

[yapception]

GUYS HELP WHAT DO I WEAR ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL I AM FREAKING OUT

[fantasykiri5]

for day 24 of @hermitadaymay it’s ZombieCleo!!

[clowningcrows]

takes agathario in my mouth and shakes them like a dog

[faaun]

pls i need to provide updates

[cosmogyros]

Auditory processing issues suck SO HARD. I just spent about 1.5 hours watching the first half hour of a movie on YouTube, because I had so much trouble understanding the dialogue that I kept constantly having to go back and listen again and again and again, look up a transcript of the full film (the transcript contained mistakes, so it wasn't much help), compare and contrast various subtitle files available online, even cup my hands around my ears, etc. Just to figure out what the characters were saying to each other.

And it's not just literally understanding what words they say to each other, oh no. That's only the first step. The next step is figuring out what those characters MEAN when they say certain words. Like when a dude says "You know, I see, like, if we can get successful, it's, like, L-L, man… limos and Learjets," I feel like I'm having a stroke. I have to hit pause and sit there for a sec and ask myself a bunch of questions and do some research online.

Why did he say L-L? Why did he randomly say the initials of the two things he wants? Also, why does he specifically say 'Learjet'? When people dream of having a private jet, don't they normally say 'private jet'? I'd never heard the word Learjet before, so I had to go look it up to try to get more context, but that didn't really help. Is this a music biz reference I don't know? Is this a Canadian reference I don't know? If this happened once or twice during a movie, it would be no problem, but when I'm stopping and going back literally every two minutes, it takes for-fucking-ever to get through the film and my brain is So! Fucking! Exhausted!

I had to stop at about the half-hour mark. I felt like I was about to cry from frustration, so I quit for the night. I'll return to it in a day or two, when I've got a bit more mental energy, and try to work my way through the rest. If I can get through half an hour of film time per day (in an hour or so, however long it takes to get through that much), I can finish the movie in three days of watching. (And this is a movie I really, really WANT to see. I wouldn't waste a moment of my time struggling through it if I didn't care this much about it.)

Anyway. Sometimes when people say they "don't watch movies much", it doesn't necessarily mean they're being elitist snobs or whatever. Sometimes it's just so fucking challenging and exhausting to watch a movie that it leaves me feeling angry at my own body for being a dysfunctional piece of crap. I don't know if this counts as a "disability" and I'm not claiming that label because I don't want to step on any toes, but I have to admit that the mere prospect of watching a film often fills me with dread because it can be so intensely difficult for me (unless I just mentally check out and give up on understanding it completely, which is what I typically do when I'm watching with other people).

[rennisaturate]

went to the store and came home literally covered in ice 😭😭😭

like that may look wet but no that was all ice till i stepped in my apartment 🥴😩

[basic-bitch-alkali]

bruhh just cuz i act like im calm doesnt mean im actually calm , why tf are u getting angry at me

[aropride]

did a quiz AND an exam today. both for math. Not to brag

[ahaura]

i've gone out driving twice today once with my mom and then my dad after he got off work. this time around i've only had 1 and a 1/2 days to prepare bec they had a cancellation and on one hand. i havent been driving lately so i feel a bit rusty but also maybe not being able to over-prepare is good? and since i only had less than 2 days warning my dad says it's no big deal if i dont pass but i WANT to pass and this time im exhausted and tired which is both better and worse. the good news is that my dad is able take part of tomorrow off so he can take me to my test.

[transfagholmes]

[boomerang109]

what if capitalism is making the one job i thought was possible for me feel unattainable not because i haven’t literally been doing it since age 13 but because it’s not well paid enough so until you get into a higher position you have to work multiple jobs and i knew that i always knew that but. fuck. why is adulting going to be so exhausting. what if this really is the best time of my life? being a depressed college student? what if it’s downhill from here?

[velvetineblue]

idt i know any other btvs / angel fans so i'm probably speaking this into a uncomprehending void rn but . . . what if for taiyang's vampire verse, his ship was a slayer x vampire pairing. yes.... eheheeheheh. * laughs to self evilly & sexily *

[harrylights]

made it!!!

[faaun]

ok let's catch up quickly

[nomaishuttle]

ALSO daj complimented my hair andnsaid it was very thick and looked nide and jm like :]]

[nintendont2502]

I'm actually in hell I woke up from an Evil Nap (6-8pm) and I cant find my water bottle anywhere and my throat feels weird and im thirsty but I don't want to drink out of a glass for reasons and AGH