#WHAT THE FUCK. LOOSING MY SHIT
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Donnie is okay!!!!!! He’s safe!!! Now they just need to bring him home and help him recover from whatever magical residue stuff lingers. Please say he’s gonna remember everything when he wakes up!
(P.S. where is Odette? And Odile? Surely they don’t just disappear?)
odile was made to hunt odette, and no other reason. the magick that created her dictated that so long as odette still lived, so must she.
now, it's time for both of them to rest.
credit to @dryad-druid for inspiration for odile's black swan/ballerina form.
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#holy shit.#I#I.#I CANT form words#usually I’d be shouting but holy fuck holy fucking hell what the fuck I can’t even#i cant even#wtf omfg I what I what I what I what oml I love thsi so much I’m exploding this is so crazy I’m crazy.#ohhhhh im so crazy kshhxdh I can’t even pretend#I CANT EVEN ORETEND TO BE NIRMAL ABOUT THIS OH MU FUCKING GOD THSI IS WHAT. WHAT.#OHHHHH NY GOD#‘of course. your my little sister’#WHAT THE FUCK. LOOSING MY SHIT#IN THE MODT POSITIVE WAY HOMY FUCKIGN SHIT#OH MY FUCKIGN GOD#WHAAATTTT THE FUCJ#OHHHH NY GOD.#HOMLMNDHDHSDYHS HOMYHSUXHSHX HOLLLYYYYUUJXHDHDUSHXUDHCUSHD#AAAAAAAAAAAA#SCREAMS INTO THE VOID#WHAT#WHAT. WHAT.#OH NY GOD#OH MY GODDDD#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#HDUCHDUDWJUDWJXUWJXUWHXUSUS
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I’m re playing new Vegas and decided to follow Vulpes out of Nipton just to see where he goes. He walked over the hills out to the road, stepped on a land mine, and died instantly. It caused me to immediately fail several quests that I hadn’t even started.
#fallout new vegas#fallout#vulpes inculta#I’m loosing my shit rn#what a fucking loser#i love this game
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experimentin w shit heehee
#fake peppino#arts#mine#horror#eye strain#guh#body horror#a lil tho but i just think thats a more commonly blacklisted tag than 'horror'#spooky month is the only time im like. i guess i should TRY to draw spooky shit#i always feel like my style is too loose and roumnd to convey it in the way i want to#but spooky month is like okay u can fuck around and fuck up and itll still be good. the spirit of spookyness n all that#i love horror so much but it feels so hard to grasp. like what is ACTUALLY scary yknow?#its very easy to say whats not scary but then its also so hard to stop urself from doing the same things lol#to be fair. stories and 'motion' (through the use of comics or animations) are far easier ways to convey things like suspense n stuff#still art is like. well that is an image alright lol#not entirely true tho; theres an artist i dont know the name of that did trailcam images that were photorealistic#and theyre sooooooooo fuckin creepy#like when i get around to doing more fp art i wanna use that and the lighting in it as practice#okay thats it i think; gonna draw furry shit bc i need comms yay yippeeeeeee
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Hello! 🦠 anon here again... I'm not sure if my ask wast sent so im gonna ask again,
What are your headcanons on swatch? Can you tell more of your concept of them? Like how do you view him? I would really appreciate it even it's like small fun facts! thanks a lot :)
you're fine i didn't have art to post so i didn't log in for a few days. uhhhhhh SwatchThoughts(tm):
they're the head butler ofc, but they're also queen's right-hand-man (gender neutral), her #1 bestie. they know everything about her, even about lancer before the events of ch2. they will literally do anything she asks and anything that will entertain her. it's tiring and they do complain sometimes but they enjoy their work, they know what a kind person she really is and that she's generally a good ruler, so they like to make her happy :)
weirdly competitive. nobody beats them in queen's monthly fruit-smashing competition and if you somehow do, they're a good sport but You Will Not Win Next Month. You Won't.
workaholic. oh god they wear so many hats in the mansion and they're so tired all the time, it's a miracle they get everything done
the color cafe is a regular butler cafe up front and a host club in the back. a handful of the birds, including swatch, can be paid (at quite high rates, swatch especially) to join you for drinks or sweets, flirt with you, cuddle - p much have a sweet and lightly romantic time. you would not believe how much money spamton dumped into the host club back in the day. their undisputed #1 customer even 20 years later
i generally view them as very asexual (demi specifically. + nonbinary) but they still love their host work! it's fun, they like making people happy and playing at being a romantic. and the sweets. they like the sweets just as much 🍰
damn good chef and an even better baker
very polite but short tempered 😔 they're quick to rough up people who don't follow the rules or who just personally annoy them/cause chaos, and they always win
they are the tallest swatchling, at 9 feet tall. Beast. good for carrying queen on their broad shoulders though!
their feathers, which are all slightly curly, have a slight iridescence to them that tint, along with accents on their outfit, in accordance to their mood or the paint they've been drinking . the default is pink
dressed to the nines 24/7. even on their time off.
they adore their birds. they spawned each and every single one of them (the ones in their own flock that work for queen, anyway), they know all their names even when everyone's the same color and they remember what's going on in their lives. which is impressive when there's at least a couple hundred of them ;;;
their favorite flavor of paint is dusty lilac
their favorite normal flavor is strawberry
as an art program they not only create things for lightners but also for queen ! they design a lot of things for her with her input, and with as quickly as they can draw things directly into the dark world they're always working on things for her, while dressing up their cafe for themed events in-between.
the underside of their tail is a swatchbook
they love being pet please pet them please please please p
#deltarune#swatch#ask#anonymous#anon#swatchlings#headcanons#its fun to make headcanon lists. its also an excuse to link a bunch of old art dhjdsbfhj#i've drawn like half of this already but it's nice to have it all together like this#tldr they're a big sweetie but with a short temper and a bad sweet tooth. and they're drawing near-constantly#i'm sure there's a bunch of really obscure little headcanons i could throw in here but if i list every single one of them i can hunt down#this post will be 2 miles long#shit like 'they love really frilly dresses' and 'they have exactly one (1)stuffed animal their birds gave them they pretend they dont Adore#(its a floppy little bottom-heavy plush crow with button eyes. one of the swatchlings made it for the host club's sleepover event.)#(cinnamon thought the customers would like it better seeing all these huge birdfolk with cute little stuffed animal buds. and she was Right#(and swatch just. never got rid of it. they love their little floppy guy look at that their bird made that for them they gave it a bowtie)#it sits on the headboard of their bed so it doesn't get lost among the blankets they nest in. -- swatchlings sleep in nests also#huge nests made of blankets and pillows. let them loose in a Homegoods and just see what fucking happens#see what i mean i can just keep fucking going forever. this is the shit i think about when im like. doing dishes#this is what i mean when i say i'm rotating my blorbos in my head#thinkin bout random ass headcanons that dont have anything to do with the source material. they're just fun. for funsies :)
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Me shaking Peter Jackson by the shoulders like a stuck vending machine: IF THEY'RE NOT GAY WHY EVERYTHING ELSE? WHY PETER? WHAT IS THAT?
#i have OPINIONS about the artistic choices in the hobbit movie#i just wome up from a bagginshield dream#and then laid there for like 20 minutes staring at the ceiling replaying all the events from the movie#like thorin right the middle of his gold madness gifts bilbo the second most valuable thing in the entire mountain#a fucking CHAINMAIL SHIRT OF MITHRIL#IN THE MIDDLE OF THE GOLD MADNESS#and then what whas all that talk in the tunnels where they look at each other like they hung the moon????????#thorin the eagles??????????#HE WAS-??????????????#absolute madness from mr peter Jackson that's what I'm saying#and it's not like you can say 'oh but the book'#the book doesn't even have 1/10th of that whole homoerotic shit#lotr is full of homoeroticism but the hobbit? certainly not between thorin and bilbo#mr peter jackson please i am begging on my knees can you please explain your artistic choices to me becauae I'm loosing sleep over it#bagginshield#the hobbit#thorin x bilbo#bilbo baggins#thorin oakenshield#thorin#bilbo
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Put those smelly feet away
Click for unfuzziness
#can you imagine the scars from glass and shit#also gave him a new fit overall#a wrestling belt#and some actual gear from the nypd instead of scraps and garbage#a tank top but very loose(it was some kind of sheet before)#mm love how i rendered this#gornack art tag#gornack click to see details tag#bay#tmnt bayverse#bayverse raphael#bayverse raph#tmnt raph#tmnt raphael#kinda wanna do the others but i like leo and donnies second fits so much already#itd just be adding gear and tats mostly lol#mikey tho. let me get my fucking hands on him. i love his outfit already but honey what r u doing#i can give him better than his old ratty ass filthy sweater and duct taped chucks#i give him normal chucks already lol#and i wanna draw the sunflower sleeve again#tmnt redesign#tmnt raph redesign#bay redesign
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*emerges from 3 straight months of writing* Oh god what the fuck what the fuck what the fuck how does arting work what the fuck what the fuck what the fuckkkkkkk-
I'm so glad I didn't go ahead and post with an earlier fuglier sketch of this which is based on something I scribbled in my tiny sketchbook while at L.A. Comic Con earlier this month. Anyway, warmup sketch for something incredibly ridiculous I hope to work on and finish before the end of the year... among a fuckton of otherthings I hope to finish either before the end of the year or before Season 3 of the Mando Show airs. Rest in fucking pieces, self.
#shirozora draws#dinluke#skydalorian#lukedin#din djarin#luke skywalker#grogu#the mandalorian#star wars#just a little sketch to remember how the fuck sketching even works#which is the first step in remembering how arting works#after writing nonstop for months I need a fucking break holy shit#anyway have a nice loose scribble#which has only confirmed that this ship still has a death grip on my soul#very shaped coparents to the gremlin magical baby is what i'm all about
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reminder that i don't want anyone okay with pedo or incest ships following me
#tbc this isn't about pro/anti ship discourse because those terms are fucking stupid#or ''''''purity culture'''''' (using this term loosely because it's misused a lot)#this is strictly about my boundaries. im not here to tell you what to do but im not having triggering shit in my space
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naturally~🎃
#body shots anyone??#now?#now i’m void posting#i’m beyond grave posting#i’m pretty sure this one isn’t new or uncommon for you whores but#i die a little more and loose my mind a little more every time i see this tummy frimage#bc i mean#totally just a pool side pic#really totally just that#but jfc i don’t believe for a second that he knew EXACTLY what the fuck he was doing when he took this pic#and subsequently posted this shit ON THE INTERNET#and i’m so here for it#and i so very much love him for it#fuck#fuck fuck fuckfuckfuck#Frank’s Tummy#frnkiebby#frank iero#mcr#frnkiero#frnkie#mcrmy#mcr5#my chemical romance#my chem#ilhsm
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saw this fun meme thing being done by mutuals so ill do it. obviously hypotheticals-
#van speaks#i kinda liked writing this out bc it's mostly my actual existence outside of tumblr#look media im a fan of is so integral to me and i adore it#but also the full picture of me includes other central pillars like my relationship to nature or my home#fandoms. bearishness. the south. nature. the pillars of what i will yap about for actual days straight if im let loose#this is also probably proof of how much i go to antique/thrift/oddity shops and stalk every inch of them for deals on weird fucking shit
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...am I just losing my mind or did yer icon become evil? I don't remember that BeAst behind Boe
yuuuump always been behind me
#ask#anon#pazuzu's just been there since the beginning#mainly because my avatar use to be of 2D in front of the d-sides album cover. or atleast one of the covers#and i had a lot of transparent edits of 2D over that cover#but when i had Boe made. i put him over it instead and i just kinda kept it like that cause i thought the colours together were really nice#as for the blurry swirls. i just like doing simple effects in paintdotnet#i don't really imagine them as much besides the blurriness of the minds eye. like this is how you'd see the inside of my brain maybe.#or not really my brain. boes minds eye maybe.#i don't know if i have a ''lore explanation'' for pazuzu in Boe's life in limbo/hell#or specifically in relation to Boe i mean#i'd still like to actually visualize what limbo looks like. or specifically the area in limbo in which Boe lives#which is just an old manor in the middle of nowhere. with old computer crts and keyboards in the mud of his back yard#dark purplish skies with maybe blueish roaming fields with no horizon#i do have a map file of me trying to create what i imagine to be Boes house but i've only blocked out his porch#i've got a loose idea of what the layout of his house's interior is like but nothing solid honestly#the reason he lives in an old manor is due to mystery case files: ravenhearst. inspiration-wise#use to play that growing up from bigfishgames. fucking love the look of that manor and the intense mess that resides within#i think i also think about the Gorillaz' o green world phase where they had kong studio's absolutely trashed with junk and shit#did actually buy MCF Ravenhearst the other day actually. specifically for higher res ref images of rooms#played a little of it the other day but i was so tired for most of that day so i didnt play for long#anyway. thank you for the ask anon :) yeah he's always been there. pazuzu kinda just blends into the background i think
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Smiling friends hc basically canon tho that pim is one of those people who had a lot of really bad shit happen to him but tries his hardest to keep everyone around him happy almost to his detriment. I mean in the first episode u saw his family lol
YESSSSS YESSS and thats why im so obsessed with him i can't think of another character that's like that off the top of my head and its so fucking relatable TWT like the message a lot of people got from the first episode is that pim is naive and i dont think thats the case at all, i think he just realized over time how to keep himself stable as long as he doesnt dwell on shit until he spirals and he started spiraling, i dont believe for a second hes never once thought the same shit desmond was talking about
#charlie talks#answered asks#especially the bit in the episode 7 trailer... where mr boss is like 'at ease' and pim immediately gasps for air#GODDDDD dragged me in a .02 second joke#thats where the zoloft post came from#from charlies pov though like i feel like pim has a more old school approach to mental health and doesnt broadcast hes medicated#so there would be one fucking day where he looses the bottle and is like CHARLIE WHERES MY SHIT I CANT GO TO WORK#and charlies like dude what the fuck are you talking about medication do i need to call an ambulance#smiling friends#im like if pim lived like charlie#which is probably bc im 22#yeah yknow what thats totally the dynamic#charlie is just reaching the light at the end of the tunnel that is the most depressed years of his life#and pim is just out of it so hes like trying his best to guide him in this fragile time#but charlie isnt a baby and pim isnt that much more experienced they both have a lot to learn about the world#so like over time charlie learns that no pim isnt optimistic because he doesnt know better its bc he has to be#hes learned its the only way worth living and pim is so adamant things will be okay bc he did all that shit#thats why episode 6 is my all time favorite#the implication that pim cant just let loose or he goes off the rails fast... OOOH bitch
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I used to like saying "gender is a social construct," but I stopped saying that because people didn't tend to react well - they thought that I was saying gender wasn't real, or didn't matter, or could be safely ignored without consequences. Which has always baffled me a bit as an interpretation, honestly, because many things are social constructs - like money, school, and the police - and they certainly have profound effects on your life whether or not you believe in them. And they sure don't go away if you ignore them.
Anyway. What I've taken to saying instead is, "gender is a cultural practice." This gives more of a sense of respect for the significance gender holds to many people. And it also opens the door to another couple layers of analysis.
Gender is cultural. It is not globally or historically homogeneous. It shifts over time, develops differently in different communities, and can be influenced by cross-cultural contact. Like many, many aspects of culture, the current status of gender is dramatically influenced by colonialism. Colonial gender norms are shaped by the hierarchical structure of imperialist society, and enforced onto colonized cultures as part of the project of imperial cultural hedgemony.
Gender is practiced. What constitutes a gender includes affects and behaviors, jobs or areas of work, skillsets, clothing, collective and individual practices of gender affiliation and affirmation. Any or all of these things, in any combination, depending on the gender, the culture, and the practitioner.
Gender encompasses shared cultural archetypes. These can include specific figures - gods and goddesses, mythic or fictional characters, etc - or they can be more abstract or general. The Wise Woman, Robin Hood, the Dyke, the Working Man, the Plucky Heroine, the Effete Gay Man, etc etc. The range of archetypes does not circumscribe a given gender, that is, they're not all there is to gender. But they provide frameworks and reference points by which people relate to gender. They may be guides for ways to inhabit or practice a gender. They may be stereotypes through which the gendered behavior of others is viewed.
Gender as a framework can be changed. Because it is created collectively, by shared acknowledgement and enforcement by members of society. Various movements have made significant shifts in how gender is structured at various times and places. The impact of these shifts has been widely variable - for example, depending on what city I'm in, even within my (fairly culturally homogeneous) home country, the way I am gendered and reacted to changes dramatically. Looping back to point one, we often speak of gender in very broad terms that obscure significant variability which exists on many scales.
Gender is structured recursively. This can be seen in the archetypes mentioned above, which range from extremely general (say, the Mother) to highly specific (the PTA Soccer Mom). Even people who claim to acknowledge only two genders will have many concepts of gendered-ways-of-being within each of them, which they may view and react to VERY differently.
Gender is experienced as an external cultural force. It cannot be opted out of, any more than living in a society can be opted out of. Regardless of the internal experience of gender, the external experience is also present. Operating within the shared cultural understanding of gender, one can aim to express a certain practice of gender - to make legible to other people how it is you interface with gender. This is always somewhat of a two-way process of communication. Other people may or may not perceive what you're going for - and they may or may not respect it. They may try to bring your expressed gender into alignment with a gender they know, or they might parcel you off into your own little box.
Gender is normative. Within the structure of the "cultural mainstream," there are allowable ways to practice gender. Any gendered behavior is considered relative to these standards. What behavior is allowed, rewarded, punished, or shunned is determined relative to what is gender normative for your perceived gender. Failure to have a clearly perceivable gender is also, generally, punished. So is having a perceivable gender which is in itself not normative.
Gender is taught by a combination of narratives, punishments, and encouragements. This teaching process is directed most strongly towards children but continues throughout adulthood. Practice of normatively-gendered behaviors and alignment with 'appropriate' archetypes is affirmed, encouraged, and rewarded. Likewise 'other'- gendered behavior and affinity to archetypes is scolded, punished, or shunned. This teaching process is inherently coercive, as social acceptance/rejection is a powerful force. However it can't be likened to programming, everyone experiences and reacts to it differently. Also, this process teaches the cultural roles and practices of both (normative) genders, even as it attempts to force conformity to only one.
Gender regulates access to certain levers of social power. This one is complicated by the fact that access to levers of social power is also affected by *many* other things, most notably race, class, and citizenship. I am not going to attempt to describe this in any general terms, I'm not equipped for that. I'll give a few examples to explain what I'm talking about though. (1) In a social situation, a man is able to imply authority, which is implicitly backed by his ability to intimidate by yelling, looming, or threatening physical violence. How much authority he is perceived to have in response to this display is a function of his race and class. It is also modified by how strongly he appears to conform to a masculine ideal. Whether or not he will receive social backlash for this behavior (as a separate consideration to how effective it will be) is again a function of race/class/other forms of social standing. (2) In a social situation, a woman is able to invoke moral judgment, and attempt to modify the behavior of others by shame. The strength of her perceived moral authority depends not just on her conformity to ideal womanhood, but especially on if she can invoke certain archetypes - such as an Innocent, a Mother, or better yet a Grandmother. Whether her moral authority is considered a relevant consideration to influence the behavior of others (vs whether she will be belittled or ignored) strongly depends on her relative social standing to those she is addressing, on basis of gender/race/class/other.
[Again, these examples are *not* meant to be exhaustive, nor to pass judgment on employing any social power in any situation. Only to illustrate what "gendered access to social power" might mean. And to illustrate that types of power are not uniform and may play out according to complex factors.]
Gender is not based in physical traits, but physical traits are ascribed gendered value. Earlier, I described gender as practiced, citing almost entirely things a person can do or change. And I firmly believe this is the core of gender as it exists culturally - and not just aspirationally. After the moment when a gender is "assigned" based on infant physical characteristics, they are raised into that gender regardless of the physical traits they go on to develop (in most circumstances, and unless/until they denounce that gender.) The range of physical traits like height, facial shape, body hair, ability to put on muscle mass - is distributed so that there is complete overlap between the range of possible traits for people assigned male and people assigned female. Much is made of slight trends in things that are "more common" for one binary sex or the other, but it's statistically quite minor once you get over selection bias. However, these traits are ascribed gendered connotations, often extremely strongly so. As such, the experience of presented and perceived gender is strongly effected by physical traits. The practice of gender therefore naturally expands to include modification of physical traits. Meanwhile, the social movements to change how gender is constructed can include pushing to decrease or change the gendered association of physical traits - although this does not seem to consistently be a priority.
Gender roles are related to the hypothetical ability to bear children, but more obliquely than is often claimed. It is popular to say that the types of work considered feminine derive from things it is possible to do while pregnant or tending small children. However, research on the broader span of human history does not hold this up. It may be true of the cultures that gave immediate rise to the colonial gender roles we are familiar with - secondary to the fact that childcare was designated as women's work. (Which it does not have to be, even a nursing infant doesn't need to be with the person who feeds it 24 hours a day.) More directly, gender roles have been influenced by structures of social control aiming for reproductive control. In the direct precursors of colonial society, attempts to track paternal lineage led to extreme degrees of social control over women, which we still see reflected in normative gender today. Many struggles for women's liberation have attempted to push back these forms of social control. It is my firm opinion that any attempt to re-emphasize childbearing as a touchstone of womanhood is frankly sick. We are at a time where solidarity in struggle for gender liberation, and for reproductive rights, is crucial. We need to cast off shackles of control in both fights. Trying to tie childbearing back to womanhood hobbles both fights and demeans us all.
Gender is baked deeply enough into our culture that it is unlikely to ever go away. Many people feel strongly about the practice of gender, in one way or another, and would not want it to. However we have the power to change how gender is structured and enforced. We can push open the doors of what is allowable, and reduce the pain of social punishment and isolation. We can dismantle another of the tools of colonial hedgemony and social control. We can change the culture!
#Gender theory#I have gotten so sick of seeing posts about gender dynamics that have no robust framework of what gender IS#so here's a fucking. manifesto. apparently.#I've spent so long chewing on these thoughts that some of this feels like. it must be obvious and not worth saying.#but apparently these are not perspectives that are really out in the conversation?#Most of this derives from a lot of conversations I've had in person. With people of varying gender experiences.#A particular shoutout to the young woman I met doing collaborative fish research with an indigenous nation#(which feels rude to name without asking so I won't)#who was really excited to talk gender with me because she'd read about nonbinary identity but I was the first nb person she'd met#And her perspective on the cultural construction of gender helped put so many things together for me.#I remember she described her tribe's construction of gender as having been put through a cookie cutter of colonial sexism#And how she knew it had been a whole nuanced construction but what remained was really. Sexist. In ways that frustrated her.#And yet she understood why people held on to it because how could you stand to loose what was left?#And how she wanted to see her tribe be able to move forward and overcome sexism while maintaining their traditional practices in new ways#As a living culture is able to.#Also many other trans people of many different experiences over the years.#And a handful of people who were involved in the various feminist movements of the past century when they had teeth#Which we need to have again.#I hate how toothless gender discourse has become.#We're all just gnawing at our infighting while the overall society goes wildly to shit#I was really trying to lay out descriptive theory here without getting into My Opinions but they got in there the last few bullet points#I might make some follow up posts with some of my slightly more sideways takes#But I did want to keep this one to. Things I feel really solidly on.
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Hi. I've never done this before, but I've been eagerly reading everything since weekend started.
So if it's okey for me to ask I would love to request 💔💔🔥🔥🔥🥹🥹 ( hope it's not to much. I'm totally hooked on all of them but writing down every single emoji felt a bit crazy 😅)
🥰🥰🥰🥰 Please know I am bestowing the gentlest kiss to your temple and giving you the biggest hug! It is absolutely okay! (and I won't be mad if you wanna send in more or others asks for my stories!) 💛💛💛💛💛💛💛💛
💔 icemav break up / icedad
this is directly continuing from this ask!
“No! Of course not! But come on, Ice, you have to see-” “I don’t have to see shit,” Tom explodes, cutting Mav off before he can start trying to justify his, and Carole’s as well most likely, actions. “You hurt him. Do you get that? Does she get that? Bradley is here. He is living and breathing and you both are hurting him.” Scoffing, Mav rolled his eyes as Tom continued on. “Do you have any idea what your actions almost did? You both almost drove him away! I’ve had to stop Bradley from running off to do it all on his own three, three goddamn times! And I’m the only one who’s shown him even an ounce of support, Pete, and he still keeps trying to run off and do it all on his own because he thinks he can’t trust me!”
🔥 virgin jake - hangster
“You confused me,” Bradley blurts out. “You confused me and enticed me and I didn’t know what I was feeling. What I was meant to be feeling the first time I laid eyes upon you.” Snapping his mouth shut, he turns his gaze away from Jake to stare down at the floor. Scoffing, Jake huffs at his half thought out explanation. But before he could open his mouth to call him on it, Bradley continued on. “I was raised knowing I would have a courtesan. I knew what that all entailed,” he powered on. “But then…but then I saw you. I saw who would be mine and I lost my damn mind. I know I did. I broke tradition because I could not bear the thought of anyone but me guarding you until you were officially mine.” Jake flinched back, eyes going wide in surprise as he stared at Bradley. “What? What do you mean broke tradition"?”
🥺 chap2 of helper - a/b/o hangster
“Sweetheart, come here,” the voice calls, soft and soothing and like a balm to the raw nerve Jake’s worked himself up into being. “That’s right baby, I got you, okay? Just listen to me, okay, Jake?” He thinks he nods or maybe he mumbles out a yes or noise of agreement. He’s not sure, not really but what he does know is that suddenly he’s not pressed against the cold unyielding side of his tub or bathroom floor. Suddenly he’s pressed against warmth. Wrapped up in it really. In warmth and love and feeling like he’s once again tethered to something. But that can’t be right, Jake thinks, because he’s not supposed to be wrapped up in warmth and love. Because he doesn’t deserve that after what he did to Bradley.
Make Nixie Write This Weekend!
#themysteryofmind-blog#make nixie write#nixie answers#icedad#one day ice will be listened to and heard. sadly it is not any time soon.#and bradley is definitely not doing good y'all#but like ice. one day he too shall be happy#my patron my heart#bradley really did just lose his mind when he first laid eyes on jake#broke tradition and gave no fucks because he was like only I. only ME and MYSELF and I can protect what is meant to be mine#boy is stupid but he's mostly just stupid for jake#and while jake isn't getting that or into yet#he will be#he will relish that this powerful vampire looses his damn mind over jake and will do anything#and everything to give jake whatever his heart desires#hangster#sereshaw#who helps the helper#little view of what jake is feeling still from chap1#but it's okay because these boys ARE going to talk and figure shit out#they just. you know. need to get there first.#and go through a little more before they do#also i need to stop writing out of order because trying to piece these together#is starting to be tricky for me lmao
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You know those posts that are like "cool artist you've been following for years suddenly follows you back????" And how fucking amazing that feels, anyway in my experience more often that not, it's seeing a cool artists in my notes i know I been following for a while just, having the mutual plack next to their name already. It just makes me sit down and think for a second
#how when why and what the fuck!!#i didnt even notice.... when younstarted following wittle ol me....#im like hold up. is IT the guy(gn) that I think it is#and than it is and I loose my shit even more
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hey. hey guys. why. out of the 10ish lbs ive lost over the past week ive lost it in my FEET??????
#like literally my shoes are loose on me out of nowhere what the fuck???#cant you take that shit from like. my arms. or thighs. or like NOT MY FEET?????#im losing it guys what is up with this
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