#Voiding Dysfunction

[saentorine]

"I don’t mind paying to use public restrooms because the paid ones are cleaner!” Then you clearly do not experience the profound frequency that can make paying-per-pee an itemized travel expense akin to an extra meal in my food budget, nor the level of urgency that has prevented me from ever turning down a restroom opportunity when I need it, which is constantly. We are not the same.

[cthaehart]

Someone help him

[ghastigiggles]

sebby tickle art? plsplsplsplspls? feed us I beg

what to do when youve got a Mood? go find ol' reliable.

[daydreaming-robot]

Jeez when was the last time I talked about my crakship? ok uhhh

I did some revisions and thought it'd be fun to draw Void as a cowboy to match his so-called "boyfriend"

I tried to design him as some sort of thief/Robin Hood like character in contrast to Starlo's "sheriff" persona, and BOY did he play that role. Since he canonically has no "real" face(his face is made out of condensed light particles) so I think it's fun to have a portion of his "face" covered by his hat.

Fun fact: he can use his scarf as a lasso

also i'm sorry I drew the hand wrong

About the voilo crackship, I'll be honest I put this thing on hold since college started, so maybe I'll go back into it once it's over. With all honesty I'm trying my best to get rid of my executive dysfunction by doing things I like(including this).

I'll PROBABLY set it into chapters or smth, and I'll let you know when that's finally in motion

[crunchsomebones]

I think I'm slowly realizing how much OCPD traits have affected my ability to enjoy things, especially hobbies. I can't draw because I'm too worried I won't do it right. Can't watch TV shows I've wanted to watch for years because I won't enjoy them properly. Can't apply to drag shows unless I have a meticulously planned number that I've rehearsed to death already and also unless I buy that new wig and new foundation, because the stuff I have currently isn't good enough so I shouldn't even bother. Can't jam with friends and create music because it won't sound like a fully finished product, and I know my controlling impulses will make me into a total bitch and I'll micromanage them, which will inevitably cause resentment. Can't hang out with people because I won't perform the correct persona and they will grow to resent me. Can't learn new skills because I'm not good at them yet. Can't use old skills because I won't do it right. Can't enjoy anything without it being so mentally exhausting it's barely worth it. I need to do it RIGHT.

And that's how I end up numbing my brain with mindless content I don't actually care about, because if I don't care about it, I can't really do it "wrong". But then I am failing at being productive, which triggers the OCPD in a different way, and I feel like my skin no longer fits me and I need to crawl in a hole and die.

[arrowmoose]

God, I need to start drawing more

and I mean like, character ref sheets, with coloring and everything

but I’m actually terrible at coloring and ref sheets so uhhhh anyone got any tips or outlines I could follow? 💀

[actual-changeling]

honestly i think any pairing or relationship i'm obsessed with can be broken down to "if i loved you less i could love you better".

there's always a certain kind of devotion that's so rooted in self-hatred it results in the need to escape from one's life by making it about someone else—and sometimes being terrified by that thought and attempting to escape any genuine connection to the detriment of everyone involved.

which is all deeply unhealthy, obviously, and what makes it interesting & fun.

however, one of the effects is that every now and then one of the characters is so bad at healthy interaction it causes an annoying anger/loose hatred. like i love them. but by god they're a horrible person or act like one when it matters and the other one would be better of without them.

i still want them to fuck though. but i DO have a favourite and a hill i will die on.

[vrepit-salt]

ADHD actually fucking sucks because emotional dysregulation makes me wake up mad as hell for no reason.

[outsideyourhousewithaknife]

You HAVE to love the moment after your phone dies and you are left hunched over the screen, your eyes deprived of the blue light to which they have grown accustomed, your mind deprived of the distraction from the horrors of your reality, to behold your own image (reverse Narcissus) in all its double-chinned, acne-scarred, chocolate-stained and cheeto-dusted glory, and horrified by who you have become, and you are full of guilt and (remorse) exhaustion, and you are (entirely, devastatingly) alone, and you blink, and you get up, and you (cry) (look in the mirror?) go plug in your phone and get some more cheetos

No, really, you have to love it. It's the law.

[umbrellaeclipse]

Me: I have a free day today I should clean my apartment, catch up on work, go to the library, go to the gym, take a walk (the icy jaws of winter are finally relenting), hang out with a friend, finish a WIP, draw for the first time in forever, finish a book...

Also me: has not left bed yet except to make tea as of 10:55 am

[henkan-writes]

*screams indefinitely about things that should definitely be under my control but somehow arent*

[maketeaandstudy]

i have the worst executive dysfunction of my life rn and it’s making grad school seem impossible. i literally feel so dumb because i can’t complete even the easiest assignments and nothing seems to help. even deadlines don’t work, i’m weeks late on several assignments, and am so anxious about it but that’s not enough to push through it all. i don’t know what to do

[once-ina-blue-moon]

tfw you go through an entire day waiting for meetings/calls/people to get back to you just to find 30 minutes before you were supposed to do any given thing that it’s been cancelled so now you’ve wasted the better part of your day waiting & preparing for stuff that didn’t even end up happening and now you have work you have to be doing instead of doing something else that’s actually enjoyable . 🙂

[maepersonal]

me no do work ;-;

[kaleiidoskope]

i want to draw something related to I Saw The TV Glow and my ocs or whatever but NO NO I GOTTA FINISH THIS BEFORE I DO THAT!! OR ELSE ILL NEVER GET THE FIRST THING DONE!!!!!! AAGHH!!!!!!!!!!!