a gentle tongue breaketh the bone | 11: gambit
pairing: fem hybrid fox omega!reader/hybrid Alpha!nct 127
tags: reverse harem, non-traditional omegaverse hybrid! cyberpunk au, pack dynamics, polyamory, slowburn/slowbuild, angst & hurt/comfort, heavy content warnings inc. torture, graphic violence, suicidal ideation, explicit sexual content
summary: the year is 2127. decades of eugenics and warfare have led to the rise of designated populations: the ruler Alphas and their rare, prized omegas sequestered from the Beta population. in the aftermath of the War of the Two Tigers, New Goryeo ushers in an Imperial dynasty determined not by birthright but by the alliance of the Syndicate’s clancorps to choose the best pack of your generation. you are destined to take your place within the Imperial harem as a queen, and–perhaps–Imperatrix herself
but you have a secret, written into your skin and bones–one that could easily kill you, depending on who finds it out
ten years ago you chose your Alpha and their pack in a fateful meeting
now, you must make them choose you
[masterlist & glossary] [read on AO3] [0: prologue] [1: escape, again] [2: lost and found] [3: returned] [4: bound] [5: home] [6: gift] [7: reunion] [8: security] [9: secret] [10: prisoner]
wc: 6.6k
chapter warnings: a teensy bit of violence, voluntary drug use
recommended listening: that's not fair - nct
Mark Lee [α, unknown Felid genetic composition] (3rd prince of the Lee dynasty, formerly 20th in line for the throne)
There's nothing particularly exciting about escorting their new ward a few floors to medical but he finds his heart racing the moment he gets Taeil's request, watching Donghyuck stop moving his haptics immediately in the window of their shared call. He'd tried to get the younger to weigh in on personnel rosters while they talked circles around your disruption of their business, all to no avail.
Everyone is distracted, it seems.
"Back in the hotbox," Haechan sighs, ending his game abruptly and covering his face with both hands once his slimline visor is removed.
"You could just stuff your nose with cotton balls or something," Mark says, a strategy he'd taken up the last time that scent had permeated his entire brain. He's not sure what you or even any other omega are supposed to smell like, but it certainly shouldn't be rancid fruit or the smell of flower stems left too long in water.
"It's not my nose I'm worrying about. Give me five." Donghyuck lifts something up for the camera, the white plastic sleeve still cabled into his rig, hiding untold horrors.
"Fucking gross, man. No."
"Three minutes?"
"How many times do I need to tell you I don't want to know about you jacking off–"
"Fine," Donghyuck raises his hands innocently. "Not my fault your balls haven't dropped yet."
"Meet me downstairs stat," Mark yells before disconnecting. He finds himself blanking out the moment he gets up, slight vertigo making him stare at the wall of his unit as if he'll find answers in the printouts held up with magnets and tape on the wall adjacent to his study, over his book collection. A tangled web he lives with every day, trying to understand why you’re here and not there.
It’s weird–not knowing what you are. He’d done everything in his power to treat you like just another problem to be solved before they could offload it on someone else, the way Johnny had done when he’d left. But you’ve embedded in his brain, a splinter he can’t help but worry about since your admission.
“I don’t love him,” you’d said. There’d been sadness, of course, but something more firm beneath it in intention. Like you were thinking of someone else.
One picture seems to beckon most of all–a still from the grand ceremony they'd held when you'd been returned. He hadn't been in the Dome then, too soon after the surrender for the Syndicate to decide what to do with demilitarization, no victory for the losers.
In his case the loss had been an open wound—his father's body found a week before armistice with the gun still warm in his hand, blood spattered across a childhood picture from a better era, when the firstborn and second born male twins and their triplet omega sisters had just been children. Dressed in robes fitting a different age, almost comical to think of now after a decade of Beta melo re-enactments.
Before the war–before bloodshed had cut all bonds between them.
Watching his aunt crawl back with you by her side, both of you dressed in white ceremonial mourning clothes for the dead Imperator, had left him feeling empty even as a child. His father had tried to bring peace and change to this stupid system and whatever little he'd accomplished had only led to the reinforcement of it. The ones left to mourn him and his cause could only do so in private.
Like his mother.
She’d returned to the Dome, as well, head held high, no scraping and bowing for her dead father. Peace could only come with the voluntary surrender of the Lees to the Syndicate but she'd made it known she was not a willing subject, not like your mother.
Or you.
After learning more about your own struggle, maybe he feels a little sorry for you. At least, he thinks, he's less nauseated by the sight of your face.
It's too bad that empathy can't extend to his latent animal brain; the urge to retch on the floor outside your unit increases the moment he's within proximity of your scent.
Donghyuck joins appropriately late and hastily dressed in half of his gear, eyes bright and cheeks flushed in a reflection of how Mark feels even if he'd never admit it. He wrinkles his nose and shakes his head in disgust.
"Don't say anything," Mark orders, watching his best friend grin like an idiot as he pulls the air towards him with his hand–savoring it.
"You have no idea."
"I'm glad." Mark snaps.
He gives you a courtesy of ringing the doorbell from the touchpad, adjusting discreetly into a stiff posture years of remote Academy teachings and active service have molded him into.
There's no answer.
Several rings later and he still can't sense or hear anything from the other side. He looks at Donghyuck to see if there's any alarm on his face to match what he feels.
"Probably sleeping," the other shrugs. "Just go in."
Mark would rather shoot out a window and throw himself off this floor than walk in on an omega in the throes of heat but his hesitation only lasts a few seconds. He forces the door lock open with a press of his agent against the security pad.
Immediately he's struck by a wave of concentrated pheromones, stomach twisting but staying down as he realizes it's not as bad as he expected–mitigated slightly by the warmed-leather scent of the pile of clothing and bedding blocking the door.
"What in the hell–?" Mark kicks through it, recognizing a pack-issue uniform tangled in the pillows and comforter.
"Johnny's," Donghyuck answers, knowing he doesn't have the ability to discriminate scent profiles. "Jungwoo said she'd need it for her nest."
Mark groans, entering the room as cautiously as he'd cleared the school a day ago–wait wasn’t it three days ago? It feels like an eternity since that firefight.
"____?" He calls, finding the bathroom empty and moving to the main chamber.
You're in a better state than he'd found you in than in Confinement, but not by much. That frail omega body is curled into the lower bunk around the same rucksack you'd brought with you, packed full of clothing. You're dressed, thankfully, in more layers than he expected–body shaking when he grabs your shoulder to give it a weak tug.
"Are you okay?"
You whine, burrowing deeper away from him.
"No funny business, alright?" He finds himself warning, but it's not needed. Your skin is clammy to the touch, ears flat against sweat-damp hair as you protest him pulling you away from your cache.
"Don't touch me," you say. It’s more of a growl, really, your voice deeper than he’s heard it. Something inside him sings to hear it, approving. He doesn’t have time to question it as Donghyuck panics, rushing to intervene.
Mark elbows him in the gut so hard that he folds against the screen wall, wheezing.
“You forget to boost in those three minutes?”
“How could I?” Mark doesn’t need Alpha scent to recognize the younger is lying, staring Donghyuck down until he pulls out an inhaler and takes a puff.
“Good?” Mark asks.
“Good.” The look the younger gives him is pure menace, lazy eyes darting to you. He ignores it, carefully watching your response. Your tail is dead weight on the bed, heavy for how still it is.
"We'll take you to Med, but you need to get up," Mark tells you.
“I can’t.”
This time, when you speak, he believes you.
Mark crouches on the floor beside your bunk, finding himself awkwardly unable to touch you lest Donghyuck lose it any more than he already is. His hand hovers over your ears, the fur tickling his palms. It's his first time touching them–he had no idea how soft they were. The sensation makes his pulse skip.
"Need . . . need to get out . . ." you whine. "I can't be alone. Need to get out of here."
"Okay." Mark doesn't argue with the request. "Can you get up?"
You shake your head a bit.
"Let Haechan carry your stuff," he sighs. "We'll help take you down."
"It hurts," you say, quietly. "I'm so cold."
Can you be any more dramatic? he thinks, but doesn't say as much looking back at his partner to find his eyes wide, nostrils flaring and mouth in a thin line.
"Don't move. Either of you." Mark says, retrieving a blanket from the pile near the door. He's not surprised that the moment he wraps it around your body there's an immediate relaxation in your shoulders, tail swaying under the new layer.
"I'll carry you," he says with only a little bit of resignation. It takes effort to extricate you from your things but soon you're curled into his arms, those warm velveteen ears pressed up against his jaw as you cling to his tech vest.
"I'm sorry," you whisper, yelping a bit when he finally negotiates you both to a standing position, arm under your knees. "It just . . . it came out of nowhere.”
"What did?" Mark is grateful for the distraction as he carries you out the sliding door, almost tripping on more bedding.
"Cramps." Your tiny reply carries a bit of embarrassment and he can't help but huff a laugh. Donghyuck is at his side sniffing experimentally, making Mark wish he had a free arm to push him back. He kicks with his boot instead, missing the younger Canid when he dances away.
So much for having a second to help keep things in control.
"We'll get you painkillers. Have you eaten yet?"
You don't answer.
"I'll get food," Donghyuck offers, excitedly. "Anything you want or need–"
"Medical first," Mark orders. With your weight in his arms he's realized that the shivers in your body are involuntary, small quakes that seem to originate in your torso and spread to your limbs, making you rigid. Any doubts he had about your condition are beginning to dissolve, feeling you fight the pain to hold onto him.
Thankfully Taeil is expecting you, helping him the moment the med wing doors slide open to get you into the nearest bed. He's relieved to no longer have you wrapped around him but there's a strange sensation in his chest watching the doctor unwind you from the duvet and check your pupils, attaching a remote monitor to your temple.
"Why did you turn off your agent feed?" Taeil asks, tapping the screen on your wrist back to life.
"Old habit," you murmur.
Mark watches your eyes slide to the right, towards the fogged view of the city skyline outside the floor-to-ceiling windows. This floor is the lowest of their demesne, closest to the marine layer that reappears nightly no matter what sunset breaks through it. It’s late now, and there aren’t even stars to fixate on.
"Your signal stopped hours ago. You need to cooperate or you're going to be in more pain than necessary." Taeil presses the face of his wrist worn agent to yours, initiating a data transfer.
It's rare Mark has seen Moon so agitated, realizing the older Alpha has thrown a white coat over sleepwear as if he'd been roused from bed. He's about to ask Donghyuck to get coffee when he finds the younger has already fled, your bag abandoned on the floor.
"She'll live, I'm guessing?" Mark asks, watching the nearby screen pick up multiple waveforms. "What is all that?"
"It's standard to monitor her endocrine response through perspiration," Taeil explains, looking amused when Mark's expression remains blank. "Sweat. From her wrist gland."
"Oh." Mark nods, keeping a straight face.
"She'll be in full heat within the next few hours," Taeil says. "We have a call to make."
"We do,” Mark nods. “Doyoung said–"
"We don't need any more orders," Taeil interrupts. "Let's discuss this in private."
You perk a little, still on your side. Mark catches the way your body adjusts and your ears swivel in your mussed hair.
"Stay put." He doesn't add the tone shift of an order but you still give him acknowledgement in an eye roll.
Taeil leads him to his own private quarters, keeping the glass doors programmed to mostly translucent as he shuts them. Mark is immediately struck by the disarray in the usually-clean room, the musty smell of Canid making his hackles raise.
"I've already messaged Doyoung. You're going to have to put her in Confinement."
"What?" Mark is less shocked by the request than the look of resignation on Taeil's face as he watches you through the door. He coughs a little, as if to cover it.
"I've taken three dosages of suppressants in the past 12 hours. Do you understand?"
He glances Mark's way, glasses reflecting the low green light from outside. The sweatshine and the rough patch of growth darkening the doctor's chin all begin to make a little more sense.
"Really?" He can't help but choke out. It's been years of working with the doctor and he'd never imagined seeing him lose his cool when he was needed the most. But then he'd never imagined you being dropped into their lives like a dirty bomb as Johnny had so articulately described.
"We can arrange for you to go to a rut hotel if you need to–"
"I'm not leaving." Taeil shakes his head. "If anything happens to her it's on me. But I need you to take charge and to keep us safe at all costs."
"Keep us safe?" Mark is surprised at the use of words. "Not her?"
"She's the safety issue. Didn't you read the file I sent you?"
"I think I got it." Mark lies. He’s understood maybe one word out of the ten buried in scientific jargon but it was the debrief reports on investigation into suspected Nostradomina agent activity that had sunk in. If there’s one thing he understood it was infiltration.
"I just don't think she's . . . we don't have any indication she's working with the Syndicate. Do we?"
Taeil grimaces. "That's not the problem. Do you understand why we had to separate her and the others?"
"Well everyone in the building but me wants to–you know."
He’s gesturing towards where he thinks Donghyuck is jerking into a potted plant but he ends up pinned in Moon’s unrelenting stare. The look the other man gives him is merciless.
"She's a liability. All reports indicate her kind are genetically engineered to take over a pack from the inside. Like an infection."
The words seem dissonant to the image of your body in a hospital bed, your eyes clenching every now and then in pain. Mark can't believe that something as small and vulnerable could constitute a real threat to their safety but he also knows instinct all too well. Growing up outside the Wild had just been a taste, seeing his kind in the throes of it in drills or in battle another thing altogether.
"Are you worried you'll go into jimseung like Jaehyun?"
Taeil hesitates to answer. "I won't shift with my level of conditioning. Jungwoo and Yuta are safe, too . . . at least, I think. Both have exposure to omegas and aren't responding the way I am."
"But they could." Mark says. He'd already gone over the results of Jungwoo's testing after the incident in Johnny's quarters–wanting to be sure the other Alpha wasn't playacting that he'd been perfectly in control. If Donghyuck or Jaehyun were any indication, holding it together in the presence of a ripe omega was too good to be true.
Whatever had happened, you'd been scared and hurt. He wasn't going to let that occur again, even if it meant grounding an asset.
"You have to understand she's something different. Possibly because she was raised in the Wild–some kind of new anomaly." Taeil paces the small area, wrestling with his thoughts. "I'm not in the right state of mind to do the experiments necessary to–"
"No. It's not necessary, period." Mark says, placing a hand out to signal he’s on board. "We get her through this heat cycle. You get through your rut. And then we figure out what to do with her."
"We need to put her in Containment, then." Taeil says. "Or . . ."
"Or what?"
Taeil doesn't look at him, crossing his arms as he takes in his unmade bed.
"Accept our fate."
"No." Mark finds himself shaking his head, almost a little violently.
"I don't want this as much as you do," Taeil says. “Too easy, too simple, really. But she’s embedded in the pack bond.”
"Johnny forbid it," Mark says, and he believes it. The prime Alpha's order always stood, regardless if he was present. Mark was willing to die by that rule even if the Canids had shown a marked dissent. Blaming biology and hierarchy only went so far–all of them were free agents and with nine people to manage they'd have to weather the storm together or suffer the consequences.
In this case, the risks were much too high to not face it together. Taeyong wasn't going to be himself for a few days–certainly not capable of making the tougher calls with the genetic bond you already shared.
No, that’s up to him, now. The understanding of it leaves him feeling more like a villain than a protector.
"No one touches her until Johnny allows it." He affirms.
Taeil opens his mouth to speak but nothing comes out. He nods instead, reaching for the door control.
"Do me a favor, Doc?" Mark says before he thinks too long about it. "Put her under, first? You can make it easy, right?"
Mark watches the elder's shoulders slump as he looks through the door at your huddled body.
"It's your call," Taeil says. "Hope we can stand by it."
"Do you feel better?" Mark asks, seeing you sitting up in bed.
"Infinitely."
You'd watched Taeil carefully as he administered the double injections into the dripline–waited until they were both distracted to pull the needle out of the connector port while keeping it trapped under the gauze on your wrist, pretending to look through your agent on your other hand.
"You're probably starving."
You give him a weak smile. "Ramen isn't as good as I thought it would be."
"No," Mark agrees. "We'll get you the best meal ever when we get off lockdown. Whatever you want. Beef even."
Whatever you want, you think. Such a fitting testament to the next few minutes of stilted conversation. Taeil is hanging back like a beaten dog as you shyly answer Mark's questions, at some point sniffing his own clothing and making a face of revulsion.
Thankfully you hadn't waited long–not with the call that comes into Mark's comm. Again he'd gone into the next room, distractedly pacing as he talked to Yuta over his in-ear.
It didn't matter that the room was soundproof. You can tell your gambit has paid off by the absurdly annoyed expression on his face as you follow the conversation while making meaningless gestures on your wrist pad.
Mirroring Taeil's agent line had been simple. A beginner's hack, really.
Let the NSPD take care of it.
It's not a security vulnerability if you bring the whole team on.
They'll answer to you if I tell them to–
No. No. Okay.
Alright, alright. I'll be down in fifteen.
Five, alright.
I have stuff to take care of here. No. Not that.
Fine! I'm on my way.
"I need to take care of business on the sublevels. Are you alright resting here with Taeil and Haechan until I get back?" Mark asks once he's emerged again, only a corner of his mouth lifted. He's so very good at hiding his anxiety but you can smell it on him distinctly–sour lemon and a hint of bilgewater. You’re nauseated, as if you’re on the sea again.
"Haechan said he's making me something delicious and then I'll get some sleep, I think. I'm tired," you say, giving him a look of relief and gratitude. "Thank you, Mark. I couldn't think straight with how much pain I was in."
The words make you sick. The pain is interminable. You've kept the scream pressed between your gritted teeth but it's always there, like the lump in your throat and the slick between your thighs.
Containment.
Put her under.
You'd met Mark's eyes when he'd said those last words through the glass and combined with your physical agony it had only strengthened your resolve.
If you're going down, it's with a fight. You know how to pick your battles now that your main opponent has chosen his proxies.
Mark leans down over you to take your hand and you offer him your left quickly, squeezing it in your damp grip.
"It won't take long, he assures. "I'll check on you when I'm back. Please make sure to eat before you sleep."
If you knew better you'd think his concern was genuine. You blink at him lazily, exposing your teeth in what you hope is a genuine smile.
"Wake me up when it's over," you joke.
"Soon," he says, and then he's out of the ward. Only that bitter rind scent remains, made worse by the brushfire of Taeil's rut setting in.
You'd suspected enough after yesterday's confrontation but it's something else to scent a day's worth of Alpha stewing in his quarters. Over the cloying scent of disinfectants and the drug supplies you can’t help but scent through their refrigerated seals is something much more damning. Your doctor is compromised.
Good, you think.
Whatever rationality you're holding on to is disturbed by it. Unfortunately everything else piloting finds the Alpha’s scent criminally seductive. Right now Taeil smells like crisp white lychee, ripe beneath a prickly skin.
He’s still something of a mystery to you. Canid and an Alpha, yes. But no one recognizes him as such. Paying lip service to another omega, just doing his duty, unallowed the taste of what any of them would desire. He has to feel the pull the way you know his little helper does, the way Jungwoo did when you gave him the space for it.
He's even more attractive, sleep-touched, glasses askew in his hair—especially when he attempts to hide what you already know is happening to him. You've watched him step back, shoulders hunched, unable to make eye contact.
Yes, you think, he’s hooked. Now to pull in your catch.
Mark has disappeared long before you make your move. You’d be found out if you simply got up. Instead you make a tormented noise, adjusting in the bed. Pleasure roils through you when you see his back tense at the sound, more when he refuses to look at you.
"Hey," you say. "Could you lend a hand?"
Taeil turns around, head flinching a bit as if he's afraid of what he'll see.
You beckon to the floor beside the bed.
"I brought some of my things. Kind of stuck here," you add, lifting your wrist. The needle doesn't pop free, but you're conscientious of the drag of the cannula as you disturb it.
"Of course." He says. He's still wary as he foists your pack onto the bed. As soon as you unzip it he puts distance between you, the animal present in his quick glances over his shoulder.
"Thank you, doctor," you say. "I appreciate you letting me stay here overnight. I felt like I was dying."
"You're not . . ." he begins, immediately deflecting. "We'll make you comfortable for your stay for the next week."
"Week?" You ask in a hushed tone. "Will it hurt like this the whole time?"
He swallows. "Most likely."
Your lip wobbles with effort, tears a little easier to produce with the knife-in-your-gut radiating pain.
"Don't worry," he says, rapidly. "I think I finally found a method to mimic cryotherapy. We'll insert a central catheter and keep you on a steady infusion of parental nutrition and sedatives. It's a last resort, but you'll be–"
"No," you say. You infuse the word with the hours of time you'd spent in a similar position, shepherded into a dreamless state by types just like him. Imperial physicians who considered your body an object at their disposal, to be treated or used alike.
No, indeed. Never again.
"Please don't make me do this alone."
Taeil moves forward unconsciously, eyes lighter than you remember. For a moment you wonder if he's breaking already.
But then he's heading to the far side of the bed—most certainly to check your IV.
You dump the contents of your bag across your legs. Taeil pauses, catching sight of the object amidst undergarments and flimsy lingerie–all of which you'd worn recently.
The satisfaction you experience seeing him falter is worth the shame of all that scent and that horrible thing Jungwoo had given you laid bare.
"I'm so sorry," you improvise, stuffing everything back in your bag one-handed. "That isn't mine. I forgot I hid it there."
"It's fine."
It's absolutely not fine, if you're registering his panicked response correctly.
You pretend to hide the toy, only furthering the comedy of the situation by clutching onto twenty centimeters of soft synthetic cock and fumbling it in your offhand grasp. You look up at his blank expression, stuffing it away innocently.
"Jungwoo gave me it," you say. "I haven't used it."
Taeil's throat bobs conspicuously as he occupies himself with his tablet, unable to make eye contact. "It's a very common aid. You may want to keep it . . . for later."
"I wouldn't know how to use it," you admit.
For once he's silent. You let it hang, pulling out a blocker spray you'd been retrieving as you wait for him to fold.
He says something quietly under his breath that you pretend not to catch.
"Sorry, what?" you ask, tiredly.
"Videos. There'sinstructionalvideos." The last part is a bit muffled as he covers his nose and mouth at the offending mist as you apply the spray.
It's another little ploy you'd thought of in the past few days, after remembering something Wooyoung had said. The Alpha attractor was one of your more expensive purchases but you'd had to have it–curious what similarities the perfumer had captured to your own scent.
Majesté Impériale had been woefully dissimilar besides a few top notes but the synthetic pheromones were worth the price tag, judging by the way Taeil has moved away again.
"My apologies. I don't think this blocker is any good." You say, dousing yourself.
"Please," Taeil answers from beneath his sleeve. "It's not going to do much at this point."
"Oh. Well. Can you show me that video?"
The silence returns, this time punctuated by the tap tap tap of a stylus as Taeil considers your request.
"What video?" He asks, voice distant.
"The instructional one?" you ask innocently.
To his credit he shrugs off any embarrassment, back to practicality, but you can't miss the red blotches on his nape as he turns to regard you again. You know you're on thin ice but you cherish the fact that he's affected.
"I'll be happy to send it to you when you have your VR rig and are in a more comfortable environment," he says, mildly irritated.
"Of course," you demure. You add a lazy tone to your voice. "Thank you for taking care of me."
He has the audacity to laugh.
"You're surprisingly compliant tonight, Princess."
50 ccs of ketamine by IV drip will do that, you think, a twinge of regret that you aren't experiencing it.
"I certainly feel better," you say, yawning. "Just . . . really sleepy."
"Good," he says, adjusting his glasses back onto his nose. "You should get some rest. I can wake you up whenever the brat is done burning down the kitchen. I should probably go check on him, actually."
You pretend not to respond, burrowing into the pillows and concentrating on slowing down your breathing and heart rate. There is some truth, you know, to the presence of Alpha pheromones being a sedative and analgesic in this state–but it's nowhere as good as the fluid dripping useless down your wrist.
You keep your ears and tail still as you hear the doctor approach you again. It's not like you can hide the brainwave monitor but you lean into your meditation exercises for that. It won't be long, after all.
Taeil is wary as he approaches, not buying your act but too distracted to anticipate danger. You can smell the blockers on him, also useless with the onset of rut. His bloom is woodsy with a hint of spice–safe and delicious to your fox. You let her unfurl a little when he's close enough for you to feel the heat from his body—radiating cleansers and traces of bitter-sharp that you suspect are remnants of release from earlier.
How many times had he come to the fantasy of you already, you wonder. The thought is surprisingly satisfying, accompanied by the memory of watching Jungwoo earlier. Warm skin so close and willing to be explored, blood pumping heat to your sex and bringing precious fluid to the surface–
"____," he says. "You can stop pretending. You should have gone under three minutes ago."
You don't give him the satisfaction of springing awake, or moving at all. A calloused hand presses down your ears and they barely twitch, but something else deeper inside you does at the petting. You let go a shuddering sigh.
Immediately Taeil freezes. You resume breathing deeply until he settles, giving your ear a sharp tug.
You stay still.
You wish he'd continue–wish he'd touch you more in an effort to test your resolve.
In your own fantasies he'd undress you and prepare you for the procedure while you fought to remain unresponsive, letting him slide his hands down your naked body without resistance, using you for his own satisfaction as you stifled any sound–
"Last chance," he says, angling your head away. "Stay down."
The order thrums through you like a shockwave.
You hear the click of the penlight before your eyelid is lifted and with that first sliver of light you make your choice between the syringe under your pillow and your own, personal, last resort.
You choose the worser form of violence.
You seize his wrist and bite into it with all your might–still, technically, staying down.
"No!" He jerks away, free hand connecting with your skull so hard your vision flashes white. He fists your hair to break your hold as hot sweetness floods your mouth, that trickle matched by the one soaking between your legs.
You look up at his bloodless face as his grip goes slack, unable to fight, eyes pitted with the sudden dilation of his pupils.
After a few seconds you loosen your jaw, licking softly at the shallow wound . . . as if you were truly apologetic. The whimper he makes is pathetic, eyes scrunching closed at the heavenly sensation.
"I told you if you drugged me again you'd regret it," you say, between swipes of your tongue. "You didn't give me a choice."
"I was trying to help you," he says. He pulls back your head with a sharp yank, freezing the moment you let out a mewl of pain. He lets go, instantly, bewildered.
"This is the kindest thing you've done for me since you saved my life, Taeil," you say, kissing his wrist before you release it. "I remember."
"I shouldn't have," he says.
Under the warm glow of your successful conquest you feel the sting of his words.
With the bond in effect he can feel it, too, regret flitting across his dazed features. He's angry with you but it's the same irritation as if a fly were buzzing about his head–not the response of a man who's just lost his free will.
"At least you're being honest," you say. It feels good to know it, finally–to not question everything being said or done to you.
"I thought so," he says, checking the cannula and finding your pulled out IV. "No wonder you're still in pain."
"Stop," you order. He holds, unable to continue re-inserting the needle.
"Please let me give you something for it, at least." It's almost begging for how clearly desperate he is for relief from the pain transferred between you. Sweat drips into his sideburns, trickling down his neck.
"First time knowing what it feels like to be one of us? You'll be such a better doctor after this. Maybe even a better Alpha."
"Doubtful," he responds.
You laugh. Just as suddenly you regret it, doubling over as a fresh wave of agony ripples through you.
"Fuck." He collapses against the bed on his side as the pain crests, sucking in sharp breaths with each aftershock. Once it subsides he's barely standing.
"How was that so fast?" he muses. You know he isn't referring to the cramps. "It only took a few seconds. I could have recorded the recombination . . . Studied it . . ."
The fact that he's more upset at missing data instead of being bondmarked confuses your fox, but you cherish it. He really wasn't a bad first choice.
"I don't know why. I'm sorry."
"No you're not," he huffs, smearing blood across the sheet as he picks himself up. "I can feel that, you know. You've done this before, haven't you?"
"Stay down." You repeat his order back, savoring the flavor of it on your blood-soaked tongue. You can't help but enjoy this new invulnerability, the way his knees buckle and he's forced to hold on to the bed rail.
"Only once, after Johnny," you explain. "One of the new eunuch bodyguards they gave me was an Alpha spy. Like you, I suppose–chemical castration only."
You stuff down the revulsion at the memory, stalked through the gardens by what you thought was just another foot soldier for the Syndicate. You were used to your share of creeps even amidst the eunuchs but you’d recognized that Alpha stench the moment he’d pinned you in the grass. He'd almost had you, the knife your mother had made you carry in your sleeve useless against his disproportionate strength and speed.
"He only made it a few days before he tried to claim me. I managed to bite his hand when he tried to cover my mouth to keep me from screaming. And–well. All I had to do was ask nicely after that. He would have turned himself in, if I hadn’t asked him to help me by ending his own life."
Taeil watches you carefully, a wave of impression bringing you distant traces of satisfaction under the horror. He likes knowing you can protect yourself, you think. Your fox is singing with joy at the first positive feedback it's received from him without a barrier.
"I didn’t think he would do it,” you say, truthful now that there’s no need for secrets between you. “Do you know, he was still begging for me until the end, even after he shoved a blade into his own heart?"
You dig your nails into your forearm, drawing blood. Taeil mirrors you, clutching his bitten forearm at the pain and collapsing across the bed. You pull him to you, cradling his narrow shoulders. He doesn't fight at all, laying prone across your legs.
"I would have done it sooner but I wanted to give you a chance to do the right thing, since you saved me before," you say. “I’ll be kind and give you the choice to help me. Again.”
The man in your lap is completely yours, easier even than you expected. You stroke wild locks from his forehead, savoring the ambergris and musk released as he buries himself in your scent, finally. Your own pet–a decade in the making.
If you'd have chosen to bite Taeyong somewhere more vulnerable–nearer his scent gland–maybe you'd have been able to avoid this altogether. It had felt too risky at the time, too likely to get you in trouble. You'd been proven right.
The truth of your nature isn't something any of you can avoid now.
Either they accepted you, or they killed you. You weren't going to wait and find out which.
"You will help me, won’t you? Don’t you want to make the pain stop?"
"Guess I don't have to ask you your levels anymore," he jests, disarming you. “You should take something.”
"There's an easier solution to all of this," you say, thinking of what he’d said earlier. “Accept your fate.”
"What?" Taeil's face is buried in your belly, only a layer of synthetic down separating you. Your fingers drag lightly over his skull.
"Mate me," you say. "Maybe if you're a good Alpha I'll let you claim me, too."
His shoulders move with what you assume is a fight against his own instinct. When he finally turns his head to blink at you lazily you realize he's laughing at you, again.
"How is that funny?" you ask.
"Oh I could. We all could. But you'll just get worse," he says, slurring a little.
"What do you mean?"
Taeil's amber-touched eyes unfocus, settling on your neck. "Your heat. Won't break. Not until . . ."
He reaches for you, gesticulating a bit before his hand flops down. You panic, feeling more than seeing him begin to slip away. It feels a little like drowning again, watching your Alpha disappear into the waves of unconsciousness.
"Taeil?"
Something is terribly wrong, your animal brain unable to parse why as he slips out of your grasp, toppling a tray table in the process. A flash of yellow-white tubing follows.
You spider out of the hospital bed, dropping to the cold tile on top of his prostrate form and ripping out the needle he's secretly inserted in his forearm.
"No, no, no, stay with me–" you plead, slapping his jaw. "Don't leave me."
"Not gonna die," Taeil chuckles, unfolding on the tile. His white coat is spread like wings under his sleepwear, darkened with sweat, what looks suspiciously like an erection tenting his pants. "Just. So . . . high."
"Stay awake," you order.
His eyes flutter open for a half-second, looking up at you with dazzling affection.
"Good luck, princess . . . you'll need it."
Then he's out like a light extinguished, mouth partially open. You rock against his hips, with zero response.
"Wake up!" You yowl, already finding the shape under you flagging, your body desperate for him to return the favor.
You repeat his gestures to check his closed eye, his pupil barely responsive. He breathes shallowly underneath you as you curl over his chest, fists balled in frustration.
One down, five to go.
It's going to be a long night.
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