#Uhhh maybe expect more main three posting

[dont-hug-me-its-yuri]

the fact that red guy is the one who seemingly wants to leave the most but when things change in a way he dislikes he immediately tries to turn everything back to normal

[archiveikemen]

Amamiya Henri Main Story — Chapter 14

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Kanade: He would always step away and watch us from the sidelines.

Kanade: It’s as if he’s putting himself in the audience's shoes.

Kanade: That bad habit of his has stuck with him from those days, all the way until now.

MC: Oh gosh…

I gasped when I heard Kanade’s words.

(As expected, Kanade is aware of it too.)

== Flashback Start ==

Henri: Especially in high school, where I met Kanade and Kyoichiro.

Henri: I realized that no amount of hard work can make me on the same level as geniuses.

Henri: Up till then, I’ve been doing everything without really trying, so I can just continue doing so.

Henri: That’s what I told myself.

Henri: But I knew deep down that it was because I didn't want to hurt myself.

== Flashback End ==

I was thinking about what Henri said to me at the cafe, and…

MC: Um.

I looked up at the two of them.

I was about to ask what they felt about that, when—

Henri: Oh? MC is here too.

I turned around when I heard the living room door open, and saw Henri.

MC: Yeah. Kyoichiro invited me.

Henri: Eh— but you turned me down when I invited you—

Henri smiled and plopped down right next to me, as if that were the most natural thing to do.

Maybe it was his shampoo, but a sweet and refreshing smell coming from Henri’s hair wafted into my nose.

Henri: What were you guys talking about?

MC: Uhm, I was listening to stories about the three of you during your high school days.

Even while responding to his question, I was still feeling nervous because not only could I smell him, the distance between our thighs was so small that they were almost touching.

(Henri is sitting so close to me…)

As I gripped my hands tightly and placed them on my lap, Henri didn’t notice my reaction and continued talking.

Henri: You mean stories like the one about the legendary King Kanade who controlled the entire school, from its student council, all the way to even its teachers?

Henri: Or the one about a fight amongst the male students over Kyoichiro—

Kyoichiro: … Hey. How come I don't know about that one?

Kyoichiro raised his eyebrows, and Henri grinned happily.

Henri: Eh— the sports club and culture club were competing over who got to have you in their club.

Henri moved his face closer to me and whispered in my ear.

Henri: I’m not exaggerating, you know? It's a true story.

MC: O-Oh.

I felt a sweet ticklish feeling radiating through my body from my ear, when…

Kyoichiro: Henri. Instead of talking about other people, why don't you talk about yourself?

Kyoichiro said with a sigh.

Henri: Uhhh I don’t have a “legacy” like the two of you, so my stories are boring.

Kyoichiro: … You’re always saying that.

Kanade: Hm.

Henri then turned to me and spoke.

Henri: MC, are you… interested in hearing my stories?

MC: Yes! Of course.

Seeing my enthusiastic response, Henri’s face instantly lit up.

Henri: Got it~ Ah, but I genuinely have nothing much to share.

Henri: Hmm well then, a long time ago, I…

I felt my heart beating faster and faster as I listened to him.

(It could be because I’ve been drinking, but I'm being more aware about the close distance between us than usual…)

I couldn't seem to get used to the lack of distance between our thighs and shoulders.

(I should move away a little.)

Kyoichiro chuckled while listening to Henri’s story.

Kyoichiro: You’re the one who had lots of friends, Henri. Both guy friends and girl friends.

Henri: Ah— I wanted to make 100 friends in high school and eat onigiri at the top of Mt. Fuji with them.

Kanade: Mt. Fuji? What are you talking about?

Henri: Ehh— Kanade, you haven't heard this one before?

Kyoichiro: It's the lyrics of a childrens’ song.

Kanade: I see. Sing that childrens’ song for us, Henri.

Henri: Now!? I don't want to. Kyoichiro should sing it!

While listening to their lively conversations, I sipped the alcohol Kyoichiro poured me.

The three were chatting happily about their high school days.

(It feels great… listening to everyone’s stories about Henri like this.)

(I want to hear more!)

My heart was pounding with excitement, and the alcohol tasted better than usual.

Just like that, it was getting late into the night…

I was struggling to keep my eyes open.

Kyoichiro: Stop leaning on me, Kanade. Hey.

Kanade: … I’m not leaning on you.

Kanade’s groans and Kyoichiro nagging as he looked after a drunk Kanade could be heard in the distance.

(This isn't good… I’m getting sleepy.)

When my body started to incline and I was about to knock out…

Henri: Heeyy, MC.

MC: Mm… oh.

The moment I opened my eyes, I saw that Henri’s face was right in front of mine.

Henri: Are you sleepy?

MC: … No. I’m fine.

I quickly looked up and shook my head.

Henri: Eh—? Really? I thought you looked like you were about to fall asleep.

MC: Uh…

(I think I had too much to drink.)

Kyoichiro: Leave the tidying up to me, Henri. You too, Kanade.

Henri: Okay~

Henri responded cheerfully, reached his hand out towards me, and…

MC: Oh! Wah!

I exclaimed in a small voice when my body, which had been seated on the sofa just a second ago, was now in the air.

MC: What!?

All of a sudden, I was being carried in Henri’s arms.

(Is this a princess carry…!?)

Henri: I’ll carry you like this, princess.

MC: P-Princess!? Please put me down, I’m heavy.

Henri: Haha! It’s fine, it’s fine~

Just like how we helped the lost girl earlier in the day, Henri started walking with me in his arms.

(Is Henri drunk too!?)

No matter how many times I told him “put me down”, he would only respond with a smile.

I ended up being carried back to my room.

…

Henri opened the door to my room and entered.

He then gently lowered me onto my bed.

Henri: We’re here!

I heard the sound of the bed creaking.

While laying down, I looked up at Henri.

Henri: Hm?

MC: … I was woken up by you.

Henri: Haha

Disregarding what I said, Henri sat down at the edge of my bed and reached his hand out.

He gently caressed my forehead and spoke.

Henri: Do you need a lullaby?

Henri: Should I call Kanade over?

MC: N-No, thank you. … I can’t ask for such luxury.

Henri: That’s a luxury indeed.

Henri gave me a small smile and his fingers stopped moving.

He rested his hand on my temple.

The lingering feeling of his touch made me nearly forget how to breathe.

(This is so embarrassing and my heart is going crazy… )

After staring at each other in silence for a while, I heard the bed creak again.

Henri: Good night, MC.

Just as Henri was about to leave my room, I…

MC: … Wait.

Henri stopped in his tracks when I called out to him.

Henri: Yeah?

Henri’s voice sounded more gentle than usual, it felt pampering to hear.

He slowly walked back to me and looked into my face.

Henri: What’s up, MC?

MC: Henri… um…

Henri: Hmm?

MC: … You shouldn't… be so nice.

I told him my most honest words.

Henri: Why?

MC: I might get the wrong idea.

Henri: … Oh.

I heard Henri chuckle.

(I have more to say, but I’m so sleepy… I don't think I can keep my eyes open.)

My eyelids became half closed, and I could see Henri reaching his hand towards me again.

His fingers touched my forehead like he did just now, and…

(... Ah.)

Something softer than his fingers touched my forehead.

Henri: That's fine with me.

Henri muttered and pulled away, then he got off my bed again.

Henri: Good night.

He turned my room’s lights off and closed the door behind him as he left.

(What was that?)

(That felt like a forehead kiss.)

I vaguely remembered that soft touch on my forehead.

I wanted to remember it even more clearly, but the drowsiness got to me and my eyelids grew heavy.

(Maybe I’m imagining things.)

This time, I fell asleep and entered dreamland…—

…

When I woke up the next morning, I took a quick shower in my room’s attached bathroom.

I looked at the bright sun from my window while toweling my hair dry.

(I spent the whole day going on a date with Henri yesterday, and drank with everyone in SilverVine.)

(And…)

== Flashback Start ==

MC: I might get the wrong idea.

Henri: That's fine with me.

== Flashback End ==

MC: …!?

(W-What!?)

My heart started hammering hard against my chest the moment I recalled those word that sounded so sweet like honey.

(T-That was a dream, right? Those words.)

(Don’t tell me that you're fine with me getting the wrong idea.)

…

I changed my clothes and headed to the living room to calm myself down.

Henri had just finished his breakfast and was about to leave for work.

Henri: Oh. Good morning, MC.

MC: Good morning.

He was wearing his usual smile, but I briefly saw his facial expression stiffen.

(I knew it. That was just a dream.)

I kept trying to convince myself that it was just a dream, but I couldn't help looking away awkwardly…

MC: … Wah.

Henri suddenly touched my forehead.

I turned to look at him in surprise, and our eyes met.

His gaze that seemed to contain a hidden passion burning behind those eyes took my breath away.

(H-Huh…!?)

While I was stuck at a loss for words, Henri smiled.

Henri: I’ll get going now.

[ram-de]

[Book] Ari&Dante (1) ~P101

[~p10]

I... This book... Umm😳

So. This is another impulsive beginning of starting another book... I never knew about the existence of this novel two days ago. My sister asked me if I had another book to read, and, frankly, I said no because I still have several other thing to read and I’m a slow reader. But I looked of fiction titles anyway... Just some random keywords like ‘Novel about X’ or ‘Things to read about Y’ and stuff like that. And I’ve come across this one. 

IT’S ONLY 10 PAGES but i feel like the synopsis set me up for something exciting like... I LIKE IT... Mostly the bite-sized chapters so I can read it when I could and not forgetting which part of the chapter I’m in. So... Okay. Like, compared to the one book I read but I haven’t picked up again because I kept nitpicking about it (i see u hikkikomori chan from 2015...) BUT THIS ONE... ok. ok. ARGH. 

The first three chapters is what the early part of the introduction. Like, getting to know about our main protagonist, his relation with his family, upbringing and what bothers him. That’s mostly it. This is far too early to write anything about what I thoughts lol but i’m excited to pour my excitement into words so I can’t help but write about it. expecting good vibes. HA....

*I just looked it up but the term ‘book’ and ‘novel’ aren’t interchangeable?!?! there’s like word count and stuff. oh well maybe I’ll just change the title of this kind of thing later on >_> -------------------------------------------------------

[~p20]

Interrupting reading more to write some of my thoughts is a bad idea i swear but UHHH I’M😳

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i love them ur honor. it’s so fluffy (as of now, bcs there’s probably angst and conflict later) but like the way characters is portrayed is soooooooo good. i am feeling things!!!! it’s making my heart warm!!!! and the tropes... opposites attract?????? two lonely peeps finding comfort in one another????? okay... OK??? HELLO...

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[~p76]

uh... why do i feel so sad now. ari is having a fever and he’s sick and he started to have all this dreams which i don’t really understand because dreams are dreams but i feel like i’ll understand the more i read but IT HURTS. moving onto the second chapter i feel like the aspect of loneliness is going to be described more and it’s scary... i think.

i think summer break is over and supposedly they’re going to admit back to school? something about ari being happy to know even a tiny bit of his dad ‘being real’. so precious... love that there’s a lot of light dialogues, makes it seems like i’m intruding their conversation. also i said some stuff about liking opposites attract but i didn’t know they’re also going to put angst with that because... dante seems like the one to have everything (emphasis on seems because he has something going on too) while ari lowkey feels like he doesn’t compare and jealousy and stuff😔 i’m lowkey dumb about philosophy and like the deeper meaning so i’ll just read it as i read. NOT ANGST... PLEASE... 

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[~p101]

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:(

no one told me there’s going to be angst... and the trope of sudden “i will be moving abroad”... and the accident... and now that i’m almost 1/3rd of reading the whole book.... maybe i should take my time reading. BUT I CAN’T HELP IT....? i’m to engrossed in reading this ugh... i really liked ari and dante’s convo they make me laugh!! the repeated words in their convo. like. idk. it felt so endearing i don’t really know what else to describe. digging down to ari’s fear is scary because it’s kinda described in umm... a little bit too uncanny description, i guess? like okay... >_> 

this post is so messy lol i want to write a post about what i thought overall about this novel, but after i read it whole. so that it can be more better worded and i’m not interrupted every 20 minutes because the urge to read more lol

[sp1resong]

I'll bite what's tales of godborn

my oc story!! uhh the main plot follows a group of feline demigods living in a semi-sentient (or maybe just straight-up sentient. it clearly comprehends enough to pick favorites and be a dick on purpose lmao) magical house called Godborn. more lore under the cut because there is a Lot

there are three 'worlds' within the ToG reality--The Immortal Realm, the Waking World, and the Realm of Death. the Immortal Realm is home to all immortals (including the Council of Gods--god is a title in this universe, not a species), the Waking World is. basically like our world, but with more magic (+ cats and humans live alongside each other, because it started off as an overcomplicated warriors fic lmao), and the Realm of Death is ruled over by Death himself and inhabited by the Nightmares (creatures of pure magic) and any ghosts that he likes enough to let free.

the space in-between the Realms but within reality is known as the In-Between, and can be accessed by only a select few creatures with very powerful magic. All portals lead through it.

the space outside reality is known as the True Void, and is home to the eldritch horror side of things--creatures outside reality, far more powerful than any immortal, able to manipulate the Fabric of Reality from an outside standpoint. the True Void is hostile to any being (or anything at all) from within the Fabric and will pull them apart one thread at a time, should they somehow be sent there.

one of the most notable True Void creatures is the Doorkeeper, also known as Void. It interacts with the Realms far more directly than its kin and is the only True Void creature on the Council of Gods.

there's also silver claws but i don't feel like explaining her right now. all you need to know is that she causes problems on purpose and if there's any sort of universe fuckery going on it's probably her

back to Void! as it is from outside reality, it can't actually have biological children, so it settled for doing things the hard way--namely, by editing them into the Fabric of Reality manually. it only has one at a time, but they are functionally immortal until something truly fucked up happens. each is their time's head of the Keystone Institute, a group of adult demigods who have left Godborn and now work to stop reality from entirely falling apart, and has the cosmic titles of Keyholder

interestingly enough, it hasn't been very long since the current Keyholder (Crow)'s creation, but no one remembers the previous one, for... reasons.

all demigods are cats, as cats were specifically created in the gods' image. true void creatures just appear however the viewer can most easily attempt to comprehend them, so they're usually cats. because the protagonists are cats. woo

magic largely functions on dream logic, i.e. there are some basic rules but largely it works however you expect it to work.

uhhh demigods are hated in most of cat society. there's some history behind it, but they're frequently seen as unnatural and bad omens for their parentage. godborn was created as a safe space for them.

i won't get into the backstory, characters, and plot as that would make this longass post even longer, but uhh. that's the lore lmao

[its-deputy-caleb]

Ok uhhh, how about Sean as a ghost? Haunting the gang post-Rhodes, but in a chill way

OOFT anon this was a hard one. I had no idea if i got what you wanted right and this is a whole mess. I kinda got weirdly angsty but tried to keep the "sean is a chill ghost vibe" so here goes nothing.

also a huge thank u to the 700 followers <333 even tho most of u are not from the rdr fandom oop.

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Fuck did things go bad in Rhodes and while you weren’t necessarily there yourself, you wished you had been. Maybe then you could have saved him.

You’re sitting out by the dock at Shady Belle, hoping the bottle of whiskey in your hand will drown out the negative thoughts again. Throwing little pebbles and sticks into the water is a nice distraction for a while but that voice in your head always comes back. The voice that tells you to relive the moments when Arthur rode into camp with his hat held in his hands as he told you the news about your beloved Sean.

Everyone knew how close you two were, how much you cared for each other. You were just a bunch of outlaws causing mischief all in the name of love. Of course, both you and Sean understood the risks that came with this sort of life, knew what could happen as an outlaw but you never imagined you’d see it so soon.

You never thought that some random sunny morning would be the last time you ever saw him. No, you always thought it’d be a train robbery or some other reckless job. You remember the day clearly, sat on guard duty watching as Sean, Bill and Micah all mounted up to head into town. He gave you a wink and a cheeky smile, yelling he’d be back for dinner with pockets full of cash and that had been it. The last time you ever saw Sean alive.

“Whatcha doing over here crying for darlin’?”

You’re startled out of your thoughts by a voice behind you, one that sounded so much like Sean. Jumping up and spinning around, the whiskey bottle in your hand smashes to the floor at the sight before you.

There standing in front of you is Sean. Well not quite, it’s still Sean only he’s covered in a greyish cloud of what you could only guess to be smoke. He seemed to hover slightly above ground and had an almost translucent appearance, it was all quite odd if you weren’t in such shock.

“SEAN?! What the actual fuck! You’re dead, I saw them bury you for chrissakes!”

“You thought I’d only take a couple of boozed up rednecks to get rid of me? Get’outta here love, gonna take a helluva lot more than that!”

Sean’s arms are open like he wants a hug and you’re mind is still trying to process what exactly its seeing that you just simply let it happen.

It seems Sean is still getting used to his apparent new appearance too as he falls straight through you. When you turn around, just as shocked Sean’s mouth is open in surprise. It seems he wasn’t expecting to nearly fall flat on his face.

-

Sean sat with you for the next few ours, telling you that he had no real idea of waking up a ghost or exactly how he got there. In fact, there was so few details that apart of you was sure he was only a figment of your imagination. But God it felt nice just to hear him again, to see him in front of you— even if you’d get called crazy for it. You wanted so badly just to lean your head on his shoulder like you had done many nights before but clearly his current state did not allow that.

Eventually Sean wanted to pester away at the rest of the gang, so in a spring of energy he bolted for the main campfire where many on the gang were sitting.

It seemed everyone was just as shocked as you to see Sean waving his hands about like an excited child— like nothing had happened.

“Looks like ya can’t get rid of old Dead Eye Macguire that easy eh? Oh lighten up a little guys, ya look like ya’ve seen a ghost! Wheres the whiskey fellas.”

Trust Sean to make a grand entrance, floating high above the fire so he could address everyone huddled around it. The flame turned the greyish smoke a bright amber and it matched the colour of what his hair used to be, for a moment he looked almost normal.

Everyone was completely shocked just as you had been. Javier had stopped playing the guitar while Dutch’s cigar burnt out slowly, completely forgotten in his hand. The silence was only broken when Pearson dropped the boiling stew all over the mudded ground.

“Williamson why so sour all the time? Lighten up will ya! Now that the life of the parties back. And Arthur! Wheres me hug aye?”

Sean spent the rest of the night going around to each member to see what they’d been up to, mostly it was just to annoy them but on this particular night I don’t think any of them minded.

At some point, your dear friend Charles came up to stand beside you with a gentle hand on your shoulder.

“Charles… I’m not hallucinating am I? Thats really him?”

The shock of what had happened was slowly easing away and now all that was left was how tired and emotionally drained you were. First you were grieving and now you’re not? You didn’t know what to think.

“I’m afraid so, the annoying little fella is back… but everyone is happy to see him back.”

Charles always had a way of cheering you up. Knowing exactly the right time to throw in light hearted jokes and comforting reassurances, he was the one you could go to when dealing with Sean’s death was a little too much to bear sometimes.

A smile comes to your face as you watch Sean laughing with the other members, trying to drink a bottle of whiskey but failing as it went straight through him. Memories from when Sean returned from blackwater came flooding back and all the other times you’d spent with him and the gang. You couldn’t help but feel at home once more.

-

At some point you call it a night, wanting to get a least three hours of sleep before the sun would eventually come up. You’re lying under your blanket, trying to sleep when Sean comes flying through the wall of the tent to hover over you. It’s clear he can’t hug you like he used to but he sits beside you the whole night and for the first time in a while, you’re not afraid to go to sleep.

He’s humming some old Irish folk song gently under his breath and you’re slowly relaxing, letting sleep take you.

The last thing that you hear before you drift off to sleep is the soft whisper of his voice.

“Ain’t gotta worry about me leavin’ any time soon…”

[angst-in-space]

march '22 writing progress

words written: 15.6k

most words written in a day: 1192

least words written in a day: 119

current yearly total: 64.8k

projects worked on:

- posted ch 6 of sylvix dreamscape fic - edited ch 7 of dreamscape fic - worked on writing ch 8 of dreamscape fic - edited ya sci-fi book - started editing renga fic

works published in march:

"dawn goes down to day" (sk8, matchablossom)

"you're a dream (i'm never waking up)" ch 6 (fe3h, sylvix)

march goals:

- post ch 6 of sylvix dreamscape fic - start editing ch 7 of dreamscape fic - finish first round of word-cutting on my book - rewrite end of my book - work on ch 8 of dreamscape fic if i have time? - apply to revpit - possibly apply to a zine??

april goals:

- post ch 7 of sylvix fic - start editing ch 8? - finish editing first two chs of the renga fic and hand that off to betas - meet my camp nano goal (30k words) - rewrite ya sci-fi book ending - continue reverse outline if i have time? - finish writing ch 8 of sylvix fic - at least start writing ch 9?? maybe finish it haha? - apply to writementor summer mentoring program - apply to roguementor

notes:

i actually... did better in march than i expected lol!!

i finished my first round of word-cutting on my ya-sci fi book which took me like... three months. at this point i've cut like 50k out of it since the initial draft but it is still Too Long (and yet still does not have a real ending yet so uhhh) *lies on the ground* but oh well at least we're making progress. anyway! one of my main goals for april is to finally rework the ending (i forget if i've explained this but... my first draft got extremely long and i was like "oh maybe i'll make this a duology" then i decided to make it a standalone after all. but that means cutting out a lot more words and giving it a real ending so lol.)

i also FINALLY posted chapter 6 of the sylvix dreamscape fic during march!! aaaand i edited all of chapter 7 and handed that off to betas, so i'm hoping i can get that published by the end of the month. i also have nearly finished a draft of ch 8, soooo here's hoping i also have some time to start editing that––as well as writing chapter 9––this month.

uhhh i also applied to a couple things in march!! (one was revpit and the other was a zine) and i should hear back about both of those mid-april so fingers crossed!

i'm hoping to apply to a couple more things during april (maybe depending on how busy i am and what shape my book is in lol) buuut i'm gonna aim to apply to at least one more mentorship.

oh yeah and i finally started editing my renga fic which i finished writing like months and months ago lolll so i'm hoping to at least get the first two chapters of that to betas fairly soon.

AAAAND i'm doing camp nano with a goal of 30k words (i'm aiming to do like 500 words of original writing and 500 words of fic a day) so WOOOO

... april will be fun

[arofili]

how’d u get into writing? like, writing fic and being part of the silm community, being Known, that stuff? i’m really new to being a silm cc and i’d love to know ur advice! also: how’d u build up the confidence to start posting meta/hcs? bc i have a Lot of hcs and meta ideas but also i’m really anxious abt posting them bc yknow anxiety is like that

these are some great questions, anon! I’m gonna go through them one by one :)

how’d u get into writing?

not to be like, super cliche, but I’ve...kind of always been a writer? as long as I can remember I’ve been telling stories, and when I was too young to read or write I would dictate them to my mom, who would type them up for me and help me choose clipart illustrations to accompany them. when I got old enough I would always be writing; I attempted my first novel at age 9, and while that never really went anywhere I did finish the darn thing and it had some pretty sophisticated plot twists for a 9-year-old!

like, writing fic

around the same time I got into fandom! I was deep into Warrior cats (like. really deep) and I believe I started writing my first fics when I was like? 10 or 11? my memory is kind of fuzzy on the order of things, but I know I got an account on the Warriors forums when I was 9, and that I was already posting my fic there when I made my FFN account. I believe I was 12 when that happened, but who knows. I haven’t the faintest idea of what happened with those forums, but uhhh pretty much all of my Warriors fic is still up on FFN lmao. you could probably find that if you want to but um...maybe don’t?

my first Big Fic was a self-insert of...my entire 5th/6th grade class into the then-current timeline of the Warriors books...well. I honestly think that might still be my most popular fic of all time l m a o though I try not to think about it because Hashtag Cringe. though as much as I look back on that time with a “yikes,” I am very grateful for the Warriors fandom in a way? that place was so accepting and encouraging of OCs, of AUs, of completely disregarding canon, of worldbuilding that is completely alien from canon - it was a fantastic sandbox to begin with, there were so many ways to write stories and practically all of them were accepted and had fellow fans invested in them!

and being part of the silm community, 

soooo I wrote Warriors fic until my freshman year of high school (wow sdjfhkdsjfh), which was when BOTFA came out, and I was absolutely wrecked by the ending and immediately started writing my own fixit fic. I was also super hooked on Kiliel! so that was my intro to the Tolkien fandom; and simultaneously, I joined tumblr, and, well, the rest is history tbh.

I honestly do not remember when I first read the Silm, but I kind of got into the more obscure parts of the Tolkien fandom through fandom osmosis, and I do have a vague memory of doodling the Finwean family tree in geometry class so it might have been later on in freshman year? that was also the same time I was having my Queer Awakening, and Russingon definitely contributed to me unlearning my internalized queerphobia, so probably around then.

anyway - queer awakening, tumblr, Tolkien, transitioning from FFN to AO3 - all of that was happening around the same time. I know I dipped my toes in the Silm fandom then, but I was still primarily a Hobbit fic writer focusing on Kiliel. toward the end of high school I kind of shifted to LOTR and (qp) Gigolas...but somehow the Silm fandom is the most active of the Big Three within the Tolkien fandom, and I was getting dragged further and further in.

it wasn’t until @backtomiddleearthmonth 2019, my freshman year of college, that I really dove into writing Silm fic! I picked some Silm-specific bingo cards and never looked back :D that was really not all that long ago but I am obsessed in a way I don’t really remember being even with TH/LOTR, I obviously cannot see the future but I anticipate hanging out here for a long time. the Silm fandom is great overall and there’s just so much material to work with!! <3

being Known, that stuff?

so I don’t really have a whole lot of context on how “well known” I am in the fandom?? definitely within the past year and a half or so I’ve noticed that I like, get asks like this, and get a significant amount of notes on my posts, and I’ve made a lot of fandom friends especially since I joined some Silm servers on Discord (hmu if you want invites; I’m on the SWG server and 2 general Silm servers and the Russingon server) this past year. and I have 3,000 followers as of this month - and while ever since I hit 1k I don’t particularly pay attention to my follower count I can definitely say that I have more engagement now than I used to! but it took me a long time to build this “audience,” I suppose; I’ve been around the Tolkien fandom since late 2014, so nearly 6 years of this, lol.

really the best way to build a following, in my experience, is to just post a lot of stuff. when I started making edits I got a lot more engagement, because for a long time I would post one every day! (I made them in batches and queued them; I didn’t actually make one every day lol...and now I’m too busy to do that, so I just make edits for events and whenever I feel like it) And I have [checks ao3] 145 works in the Silm fandom as of today - I’m fairly prolific! I’ve come to generally expect 3-10 comments on most of my oneshots, which is a lot more than I used to have back in the day. consistency and quantity are more likely to attract people to your work - and quality, of course.

also: how’d u build up the confidence to start posting meta/hcs?

I’ve been writing since I was very young, and I’ve been writing fic for like...11 years? I think? in that time I’ve produced a lot of garbage, but imo most of that was in my Warrior cats phase, so I came into the Tolkien fandom with confidence in myself and my writing. I’m also working on original fiction on the side (I hope to eventually become a published fantasy author, but right now school takes up most of my time that I don’t devote to fandom, which gives me more immediate gratification and also is just Very Fun) and I know I’m a good writer.

basically, I’ve been doing this for like...half my life, and I’m still fairly young, so I’ve had time to build up my skill and confidence and I know I’m only going to get better with time. you will get better with practice. like I said, I’ve written a lot of terrible stuff, and it’s only through sucking for a long time that I’ve gotten to the point I am now. and I am far from perfect; I know I still have lots of room to grow!

for meta and headcanons specifically, I started with writing fic, and then when I didn’t think I could stretch something into an entire fic I would just make a hc post. I have a vivid memory of writing my first meta in a notebook during driver’s ed because it was so goddamn boring and I had Thoughts about Tauriel and Thranduil!

in my experience, meta comes from having Opinions and wanting to share them and most importantly to back them up - you need to have sources! you need to have reasons! you need to have justification! otherwise it’s not meta, it’s a headcanon or an AU. which is fine!! I love hc/AU!!! but they are not the same as meta, and I’m a stickler for being accurate when it comes to meta. if you have sources and shit to back you up, that will help you build the confidence to share your meta.

sharing disinformation and passing it off as meta instead of just coming out and saying this is a headcanon/baseless theory/AU or whatever is such a fandom pet peeve of mine; it’s not bad for something to not be Accurate! you just have to have that disclaimer - and even when you’re writing meta, you’re offering an interpretation of the text, and you need to acknowledge that other interpretations also exist and are valid.

um. I hope this answers your questions? and sorry for basically word-vomiting my entire life story, lol. this post got long; the main reason I’ve written so much fic is because I really just cannot shut up for the life of me. sooo if you can tear of that filter of being shy and just. say shit. you can go so far~!

OH and one more thing - I can’t believe I almost forgot this - but part of being a writer is participating in the community. this is code for LEAVE A DAMN COMMENT IF YOU LIKE A FIC. that’s how I made most of my fandom friends before Discord! I follow @ao3feed-silmarillion and stalk that blog for new Silm fics; I read the ones that interest me and comment on them.

I know this is not really the most common way for folks to find fic but it’s so rewarding to interact with new fic, new writers, new commentors, new stories - you can find gems that don’t rise to the top of the kudos/bookmark lists; you become friends with your fellow writers; you can watch people grow and change; you support smaller content creators. yeah, you might not be getting Just The Best Stuff, but it’s so so so worth it!!

and if you make friends in the comment section of other people’s fic - I guarantee you some of them will go to your AO3 profile and check out your fic, too! and they’ll leave comments! this is a fic community, and that’s what I cherish about fandom most of all, tbh.

anyway - again - sorry for rambling so much, but I hoped this helped! feel free to send in another ask, or to come talk to me off anon if you’d like! and definitely send me your stuff if/when you decide to share it; I would love to support you!!! <3

[sunlightwriter]

Underwing Challenge  ☉  Day Three

Info on this challenge can be found here!

Who is your main cast? Describe as many of your OCs as you can cram into one post.

Ohh yeah... I love my OCs... I made a bunch of them in a picrew here! It might get a little long since I can get pretty passionate about ‘em hehe...

Left to right goes like this: (Top row) Umbrian, Valentine, Vividi, (Bottom row) Dex, Maisie, and Queen Lucielle.

Umbrian is our main character and I care him so much. He comes off as bubbly and excitable, and loves to study magic and plants! He grew up as childhood friends with Valentine, who he confided in deeply after his mom passed when he was six years old. Over the first book he struggles with self confidence and overwhelming survivors guilt over the destruction of his kingdom.

Valentine is a knight who has been by Umbrian’s side since the Dark Kingdom fell ten years ago. He can be cold at times, and is often sarcastic and easily irritated. He is also so repressed its the worst. He’s essentially been putting the expectation on himself for the longest time that he has to keep upright to keep Umbrian safe, and has denied himself from becoming ‘too comfortable’.

Vividi is the former Princess of the Light Kingdom, blamed for her aunt’s (the former Queen’s) passing and exiled. I’m so worried ppl are going to hate her bc she is pretty pushy at times, but I love her so much! Honestly a lot of the plot is moved forward by her in the start of our story. She’s super teasing and loves to joke around! Is generally just supposed to contrast Umbrian’s more introverted personality.

Dex is a friend of Vividi who she met after her exile. He can be pretty secretive at times and comes off as someone who doesn’t care and prefers to just joke around. He’s encourages Vividi’s more sillier antics between planning the rebellion, and annoys Valentine to no end. Similarly to Vividi & Umbrian, he’s meant to be a contrast against Valentine. I love him so much.

Maisie! She joins a little later. Ten years ago, her fiance was at the Castle during the siege, and had promised that he would come back for her, but never did. With this, she wants to join the rebellion and help bring back the Kingdom she once hoped to live in with her future husband. She’s very genuine and comes off almost mother-ly at times, mostly due to the fact she’s the oldest of the group.

And Queen Lucielle! Our girlboss 😌 She’s the Queen of the Light Kingdom and is now trying for title of Queen of Staterra. She was an excommunicated priestess of a small group of the Light God’s worshippers that lived on the edge of the deserts of the Light Kingdom, and eventually came into the Kingdom and devised a plan to get close to the past Queen and secure the throne. She’s so very evil and does so many evil things. Unfortunately, there’s not a lot to see of her early on in the story.

I also got some of the Light Kingdom’s team figured out! I’ll try to keep their things brief hold on...

Left is Professor Minerva, the Light Kingdom’s head scientist. She’s studying how magic is processed through the human body and how it’s expelled, and how she can potentially fuck with it of course!

Middle is Marceau, he and the right are childhood friends who wanted to become knights together. He’s since been quite displeased with how it’s turning out, having dreamt of heroics and being a protective figure to the Kingdom’s people.

Right is Luc, and is friends with Marceau. He’s now the Head Knight and reports directly to Lucielle. He believes her to be a powerful ruler and has decided to dedicate himself to her so long as she rules. Him and Marceau got a little uhhh tension going on. It’s cool and fun.

This got so long... I care about them a lot! I got some drawings of a few of them, but nothing new that I’d want to show off hehe ;; Maybe later! These are everyone is most of-note, I think.

[starryfreckles]

✨ten questions✨

thank you for tagging me fae, grey, and sarah 💛this is three sets of questions so buckle in, this is going to be a long ass post lol but their questions are so good !! i couldnt not respond 🥰grab yourself something to drink, its a whole lot about me... 30 questions about me actually lol

from la twin @fvae​ ✨

#1 If you were a fruit, what fruit would you be ?

a mirabelle. its a mix between an apricot and a plum thats from france and maybe other parts of western europe idk 🤷‍♀️

#2 Free space!! Rant about whatever you’d like

thanks queen, what will i talk about today ?? ooh i know ok not so much a rant but im currently listening to harry potter and the goblet of fire audiobook becuase i wanted to read the stories again. this one is probs one of my favs and so much got left out in the film like DOBBY’S FUCKING ROLE IN IT ! also just the beginning when dudley is on his diet and harry has a fucking stash of food in his room and the weasley’s coming to get him. theres so much more to the story and i know they cant fit the 450 page book into a 2 hour movie but those details are so important for me. theyre part of the world building and we all know im a sucker for world building and character dev. like hell yea storytelling !! but just the wizarding world in general is my pride and joy and means the actual world to me 🥺 also after this one imma listen to order of pheonix becuase SOOOOO many details were left out in that movie and wowow best book but like highkey worst film... ((maybe thats the rant part of this lolol ok this was def a rant LMAOOO)) ok but its a really good one and i just wanted to be in that world again 🥺🥺

#3 If I were to visit your country right now, where would you take me ? What places should I visit ?

right, youd be coming to the southern west coast of the US. if covid wasnt a thing we’d go to a bunch of museums but ART, we are artists 🥰we’d also go to all the open air malls which are super cool and just fun to walk around and window shop. theres the beach for like beachy things lol, more touristy things. but theres also the mountains for hiking and being one with nature. there are a few observatories and telescopes within 2 hour roadtrips and those are cool becuase SPACE and just their location on top of super cool mountains for all the views you could ever want. 

#4 If you came with a label, what would it say ?

« not what you’d expect » or « beware of typos »

#5 If your life was a book, that title would you give this chapter of your life ?

oooh so i this chapter of my life closing soon ((RIP ME)) but i think id be called something like « what do i make ? » or « finding my voice »

#6 What is your stereotype in your friend group ?

oh lordy, im like a mom friend ((hi tasfia if youre reading this lol)), the super organised one that plans things lmaooo

#7 What’s your spirit animal ?

Im an owl or a fox lets be realll

#8 What’s the most unexplainable thing that’s ever happened to you? Does it still happen ?

lol not to get deep and sad but the amount of friends i have somehow managed to push away and lose... uhhh yea it does... im not good with relationships 😔sigh 

#9 What’s your favourite word and it’s meaning ?

extraordinary - adj very unusual or remarkable.

if you break the word down to its compoun words : « extra » and « ordinary » to me its almost as if it should mean something that is incredibly plain but its not, its quite the opposite of that. 

#10 What was something that made you smile this past week ?

i had a bunch of convos with my irl friend and coworker ((about wtfock LOLOLOL and just getting her to start watching skam lol)) that were super hilarious and just really nice 🥰

from @stoffans​ 🌸

#1 What would be the most fitting for you: the sun, the moon or the stars?

I think the moon. it has phases of lightness and darkness...

#2 Where have you felt incredibly out of place?

literally any party or group of people greater than three. im an incredible shy person around people i do not know very well and just sit there awkwardly...

#3 What are the moments in life that make you realise life isn’t all that bad?

when im out with my closest friends or when im making my creative work

#4 Which song makes you feel like you’re floating on a cloud?

visions of gideon by sufjan stevens its so soft and relaxing

#5 Sunset or sunrise?

seeing as im not usually awake fro sunrise lol, imma have to say sunset. i used to live near the beach when i still physically went to uni ((rip covid)) and man those colours and seeing the sun dip into the oceans wowow

#6 Do you like it when people do stuff for you without telling you?

i love that kind of stuff, im an acts of service kind of person and just the little things to show that they thought of me just gets me tbh

#7 Did you ever cheat on your tests in school?

uuhh nei, im a good student 😭

#8 Could you take care of a plant or would it die instantly?

i always had plants in my uni room, they did great 💛

#9 Do you think you’re a difficult person?

emotionally yes, i cant describe what im feeling and im terrible with words in difficult conversations... other than that, im the most indecisive person youll ever meet and pretty easy going.

#10 Give me one word to describe yourself

anticipatory or thoughtful. i guess these two kind go together but i like play out different outcomes in different scenarios and anticipate so much... 

from @grey-mist-exist​ 🍂 ((you tagged me on my main but i wanted to put them all together, i hope you dont mine 💛))

#1 Does your current means of transportation (car/bike/etc.) have a name? What is it?

uhhh so i havent been in a car in about a month soooo imma say my rolly desk chair that i use to zip around me room lol. its from IKEA and its called sporren

#2 If you could learn a language over-night, what language would you choose and why?

ahhh id learn norwegian ngl, dutch is close second. OORRR i stick to my roots and learn vietnamese 🤨 hmmm idkkk there are many languages i would love to learn 😭

#3 If you were an article of clothing, what would you want to be?

id be a jumper, to keep people warm and cozy

#4 You get teleported into a childhood fairy tale / folk story- what tale is it?

peter pan 🥰🥰🥰 my main’s user is enough i think lol

#5 You get the choice between time-travel or travelling to a parallel universe (but only being able to travel one time). Which do you choose?

parallel universe. i want to see how another me is getting on in life. what happens if my parents never moved us out of france 🥺

#6 Sun, moon, stars, or other? Why?

the stars are so interesting and mysterious

#7 If you were a path, what type of path would you be (concrete, cobblestone, dirt road, highway, asphalt, etc.)?

red brick. for the aesthetic lol

#8 How do you know when you’re in love?

i get butterflies in my stomach and my heart drops when they walk in

#9 What is your cellphone wallpaper?

bb fae look ((you already knew this was it but 💛💛)) 

✨🌸💛✨🌸💛this lovely piece of art of my bb is by @jensrolt​ go check out all her other art, its always the cutest thing ever ✨🌸💛✨🌸💛

#10 If you could instantly become an expert in something, what would it be?

expert of molecular cuisine pls. i love cooking and food. that kind of science fascinates me

[danganronpedits-archived]

hellooo! i hope it’s ok if i ask for a kin matchup! any media is aaaa ok! :DD! uhhh i dunno if dis helps AT ALL but i’m an estp and a 7w6!! i get excited SUPER easily and i rlly like to use words like dis dat and doe when i talk to people cuz it makes me feel more casual!! i get distracted rlly easily toooo and i sometimes stretch out my words n stuff out of habit!! HOWEEVERR i do get scared quite easily and i tend to stay away from most things scaryyy!! please lmk if you want nethn else abt me!

you can absolutely get a matchup, anon!! this one was really fun to write, since you seem really, really cool, anon!!! i can feel your energy seeping into me even as i read this ask,,, weh your friends are lucky to have you ^^;;;.. let’s get started aa !!

first off, from danganronpa, i match you with...

ibuki mioda!

you may have seen this one coming ,, but you’re ibuki in the irl. in general, the energy i got from your ask is very similar to her- both if you seem very upbeat and not afraid to be hyper! in fact, you were called hyper anon in my drafts before posting this~.. she gets excited very easily, as shown with all of her (jokingly, sometimes)flirting, but she’s extremely passionate about music, and voices her affection towards other people very openly. i think that this can also be part of the ESTP personality type, as they can remark things about others that occasionally come off as insensitive- it’s not that she or you isn’t considerate of others, it’s just that it’s something that you just find as useful to say. this could range from seeing it as meaningful, to just being so excited and interested by it that it has to come out. correct me if i’m wrong though agagsjd,,, i think that she would use... not exactly slang, but casual language like dis, etc. (The mood's totally set to like, "OH NOES!" right now, y'know?”) and also stretches out her words commonly !! (“Goooood nom-nom-nommiing!” “Looks like today's gonna be another perfect tropical daaaaaay!”) i’d say that she does make an effort to be friendly and casual with everyone else, as while she is a bit overwhelming in presence, through her free time events she wants someone that she can truly connect with. her greatest desire is someone that she can play music with, who she trusts as much as they trust her- point is, she wants someone that she can have a deep, platonic or otherwise, relationship with. like earlier, this can also be related to the 7w6 enneagram- as they ultimately have a large fear of missing out.

ibuki and you definitely have short attention spans in common, as she’ll even write memos to make sure she remembers things, as she’s said herself. she also goes off on tangents in the middle of discussions, which, adhd solidarity, but even hajime remarks that, “There's no way [he] can keep up with what she's saying...” she also does get scared, or at least unnerved, rather easily! whenever nagito is... you know, nagito, she remarks that he’s a creep, and that he seems like the type who... well, was violent towards animals as a child, to not make it graphic. the two tend to not talk, probably part of her trying to avoid his creepiness factor. in terms of your enneagram and mbti type, i’d say that you and ibuki share a lot of traits there too! ibuki can definitely be sensitive, or perceptive, of others’ feelings, as unlike others’ free time events where the focus is their character arc, a lot of ibuki’s are spent with her trying to help hajime. plus, a big thing in both the 7w6 and estp types is wanting variety, hands-on work, and not having to stick to one schedule. ibuki is definitely this type of person. she holds the title of ultimate musician for a reason, and has experimented with at least two genres of music (pop and metal), as well as writing her own lyrics, making her own costumes, and she can play at least three instruments(bass, guitar, drums). she definitely has made variety for herself, just the way an estp likes it.

second off, from bang dream, i match you with...

toyama kasumi!

though ako udagawa is a close second! like ibuki, you and kasumi are both very energetic, in a way that definitely rubs off on people- i don’t know you personally, but just reading your ask puts me in a better mood. i’d say that your energy is part of why i’m so motivated to get this done... it’s kind of like, reading your ask, i feel like i can do anything! and that’s the kind of energy that kasumi puts out- with her band, and even just making other friends, her natural charisma(that i’m certain you have) causes her to inspire the people around her... even if by mistake. from rin, to arisa, to saya, everyone in her band and even the people outside of it are inspired to try harder(see arisa’s arc of being more social despite her shyness) and even grow as people(see rin’s arc of stepping out onto glitter*green’s stage when they show up late, and saya’s arc of expanding beyond her family) due to her influence. i feel like you can maybe relate to this if you take a step back, your energy and pep are absolutely contagious!! and i’m sure many other people would agree. she gets excited very easily, and always tries to see the fun in everything- at the very mention of her town’s festival, she loses sleep over it, and when it comes to the “sparkling and heart pounding” feelings she gets over stars and music, she actively pursues that thrill. once again, as an ESTP, i think you can relate to seeking out that specific kind of pleasure- it’s stimulating in a way i think you really adore!! she literally follows stickers on the sidewalk because they have stars on them, and wants to see more, and decides to start a band when she sees the random star guitar. even if arisa “doesn’t” want her to, she’s so excited that she barrels through any trials or tribulations.

the two of you also get distracted rather easily- as an example, kasumi, in the main story, essentially has a school assignment where she’s supposed to make a case. ambitiously deciding to make one for her guitar, she then proceeds to get distracted from the assignment and taking a few more days than needed... because she was practicing said guitar. i wouldn’t be surprised if something like this happens to you every now and then, where you get an idea, but something newer and fresher rises up! kasumi also forgets things very easily- for example, in the special episode “origami fun,” arisa tells her how to make a paper crane... and she forgets all but the first step quickly after. i think that you could also relate to that, it’s not that you’re trying to be insensitive or ignoring them, but your mind is just so all over the place that it’s hard to keep one thought nailed down. she definitely uses more eccentric language, ie giving all of her friends nicknames, as well as some quotes like, “sparkling and heart pounding”, “it’s like whoa!”, “nom and nom and nom...” etc. i don’t really remember any times where she stretches out her words, but she kind of... has that vibe. i expected her to, and went digging for quotes... it was surprising to not find any. she also can get scared rather easily, though!! see the band girls of the dead story for this one, kasumi is noticeably disturbed at the mention of a horror movie, and strongly dislikes any kind of horror.

and lastly, from c/rpse party, i match you with...

seiko shinohara!

first off, i think both you and seiko are very well meaning, energetic people!! the way i feel reading seiko’s dialogue is very similar to how i felt reading your ask, contagious energy like i’ve said before and like... nothing can really go wrong! both of you just have very comforting presences. she’s very peppy and gets excited rather easily, especially when it comes to naomi. she’s a positive and upbeat person who tends to find the good in everything, trying to keep her and others’ spirits up whenever her friend group is sent to heavenly host. she canonically uses phrases like dis, dat, and doe(dat ass/booty, to be specific), and tries very hard to be casual-like with others! while her smiley-ness is a bit more of a facade in seiko’s case, she does try very hard to be that kind of casual that you can describe, once again, even when the main kids are sent to heavenly host, and she’s just as terrified as everyone else. this may come off as her being insensitive or “creepy,” as naomi says, but in reality, i think both of you would try to stay strong if you really couldn’t get out of a situation like that. especially if there was someone you were trying to stay strong for- maybe part of it would be the pressure of usually being the moodmaker, but i think a lot of it is that you’re just trying to keep people happy, including yourself. after all, if you tend to try and fun the fun/good in everything around you by default, your natural response is to do the same in a bad situation... whether it’s a coping mechanism or just habit. she can also overstep boundaries at times, but she has such a good presence that people tend to just see her as... her. she’s typically the one initiating conversation with other people, which i think is part of the ESTP’s natural charisma and friend-making skills !! she’s a general moodmaker in friend groups, you know? i think you can relate to that, with how enthusiastic you seem. plus, in the introduction sequence, seiko is sitting on a desk, whereas everyone else is standing around properly. just a little detail that imo says a lot!

seiko can get distracted easily, as there aren’t too many examples, but whenever she first gets her part of the sachiko charm she says “I'll have to be extra careful not to lose my piece!“ ...the opposite happens. i don’t blame her, though,, she’s also described to not be the most responsible student(as in she has fallen asleep in class at least ones, thanks book of shadows.. and while it may not be exactly applicable to you, naomi’s... physique, tends to draw her eyes. does drag out her words every now and then  (specifically man?) “Maaan, we’ve been had!” “Maaan... So close, and yet so far!” “Na-o-miii...” and so on. she can also get scared rather easily, as both ayumi’s ghost stories and heavenly host visibly scare her. the latter is much more understandable, but it still shows that she loses her nerve rather easily, despite her cheery exterior. also, relating to 7w6 types, a common thing they do is justify others’ actions to avoid being upset themselves. seiko also does this whenever naomi ends up pushing her away, saying that she was just scared. of course, she was, but this is an explanation born out of seiko trying to get rid of any frustration with naomi that might grow. maybe you’ve had an experience like that, where you tell yourself that there has to be a reason that the other person did “that”, whatever your that was.

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you all know what time it is! from pokemon reborn, i also match you with julia, and from my little pony, you also very strongly remind me of pinkie pie! from danganronpa, you also remind me somewhat of akane owari, tenko chabashira, and slightly of junko enoshima and aoi asahina! from bang dream, you also very strongly remind me of ako udagawa and koroko tsurumaki, as well as somewhat of kaoru seta!

hope that’s alright anon!!! thanks so much for requesting, i really enjoyed writing this!! you gave plenty of info, so don’t worry!! :”) hope this didn’t bounce around too much for you!

-mod tsu

[wincore]

easy to love | na jaemin

pairing: jaemin x reader

words: 3.1k

prompt: animejaem sent: jaemin + organizing a valentine’s party together when reader has the BIGGEST crush on him 🥰

genre: college!au, friends-to-lovers!au, a whole lotta fluff

warnings: uhhh does pining count?

a/n: i’ll be posting the requests in between my larger projects !!

You think Valentine’s Day isn’t worth the hype. Simple things like chocolates and flowers are way more expensive than on literally any other day, the only movies on TV are the ones that make you gag, you can’t go out without feeling awkward and the holiday is just generally pointless. If you’re in love, why do you need a specific day to show your love, and why does it last for only a day? How do you even convert an act of love into material commodity? It doesn’t seem to have any personal meaning, neither does it seem to make a relationship any better. To conclude you are not terribly fond of Valentine’s Day, and your plans only ever consist of binge watching and consuming a higher amount of unhealthy snacks.

But sometimes you have an exception to not going out on this day, and that exception is Na Jaemin.

You wake up groggy to a text from Jaemin asking you to help him organize the Valentine’s Day gathering you have among friends (and ‘friends’ also include friends of your friends who will inevitably barge in and ultimately, the entire student body will be there) followed by a series of smile emojis and pleading eyes emojis. You’d make up an excuse to refuse, but it’s Jaemin—Jaemin, whose smile alone makes your cheeks red, who you can’t help but stare at during classes, whose voice, even if it’s over the phone, is enough to make your heart warm and jittery.

I’ll be there in an hour, you text him as your feet touch the cold ground beside your bed. You sigh deeply, placing your face in your hands and curse yourself. If it weren’t for your overwhelming affections, you could be enjoying a few more hours of sleep. Everything still feels hazy as you rub the sleep from your eyes and weigh the pros and cons of your decision. It’s far too early to walk to Jaemin’s place but clearly he doesn’t have any sense of time. And neither do you, apparently, as you walk sluggishly towards your washroom to get ready.

The cold breeze brushes your cheeks as you make your way towards Jaemin’s place, fortunately only a few minutes’ walk away. The clouds, painted with the colour of the night, follow your steps and you know that they’ll be a watery red soon, when the sun decides to peek its face into your corner of the world. The only times you notice these things are when you’re alone, or when Jaemin points them out to you. He’s more observant than people give him credit for and while you’re glad you’re the one who mostly gets to see that, you wish he’d share more with the world. In a city where summer is yet to come, you can only hope for the best as the usual thoughts plague your mind. Should you try spilling your feelings to Jaemin this Valentine’s? Maybe with some chocolates to further sweeten the bittersweet aftertaste they leave in your mouth?

Don’t ring the doorbell, Jaemin texts you when you’re standing outside his door.

You don’t have to wait long before the door swings open with more force than Jaemin probably anticipated as he cringes at the sudden ‘bang!’ and pulls you in wordlessly. He places a finger over his lips, lets out a soft ‘shh!’ and walks up the stairs, with you trailing behind him.

“I would’ve come over, but your roommates would freak out,” Jaemin whispers when you’re inside his room.

“Anyone would freak out if they spot someone knocking on their window in the middle of the night!”

“I didn’t mean to do that,” Jaemin grins, rubbing the back of his head.

The room is barely lit, but you can see his messy hair, the tip of his nose and the curved corner of his lips illuminated by the table lamp. He looks at you expectantly, as if waiting for some sort of response but you don’t know what he’s expecting. You don’t know the number of times you’ve found yourself in Jaemin’s presence when the stars are still shining bright in the night sky, but one of these nights made you realize where your emotions lie. The tempo of your heartbeat goes overboard if you look at him long enough, if you think about him long enough. That’s why you mostly resort yourself to acting as if nothing’s wrong, ignoring the unnecessary flow of thoughts and being a friend that didn’t make things awkward.

“Classes start in three hours,” you tell Jaemin, “Why couldn’t we discuss then?”

“Because there’s too many people then,” he complains, “And we barely have that many classes together.”

“So?”

Jaemin pouts. “So you don’t wanna help me?”

“Why should I, Na Jaemin?” your eyes crinkle as you lean back on his bed.

Jaemin hums, pretending to think. “Because of all the times I helped you skip class? Or because I give you my notes every time you ask?”

You sit back up, scrunching your eyebrows. Jaemin places a finger on his chin and continues his exaggerated acting.

“Also I helped you hide when you accidentally broke the window to the Dean’s office. Oh! Remember that time in high school when we first—”

“Okay, okay! I wasn’t actually asking for a descriptive essay,” you cut in.

Jaemin grins. You knew you’d listen to him from the moment you read his text, his winning smile means nothing to you.

“So what’s the plan?” you ask, tilting your head to one side.

“This year’s theme is,” Jaemin pauses to think. “Love yourself!”

You quirk an eyebrow. “Love yourself?”

“Yeah. It’s better for the kids who don’t feel loved or popular, you know?” he says. “Besides, I’m tired of couples making out wherever.”

“Okay, Mr. Class Rep. It’s all up to you,” you say, “But why do we have to plan at this ungodly hour and a day early?”

“They didn’t inform me earlier,” he frowns.

You narrow your eyes at him.

“And I had too much coffee so I couldn’t sleep, yeah.”

You smack your forehead.

“Jaemin, I warned you about your obsession so many times.”

Jaemin huffs. “We’re getting off course!”

“Jaemin—"

“There’s no time!” he presses.

“Fine. What do you want to do?”

Jaemin beams at you and you feel a soft drumming inside your chest. He starts to elaborate on his quick yet decent enough ideas for hosting the annual party ( “It can’t be worse than last year, Jaemin.” “Last year was Donghyuck’s fault. And Renjun’s.”) and while you’re planning a party which revolves around affections and love, you can’t get yours out in the open. It would be disastrous, no doubt.

You sleeping through your classes is entirely Jaemin’s fault. He promised he’ll make it up to you somehow, and you know he will because of the way he is. He’ll probably buy you ice-cream or take you to a café and while all that’s in good spirits, it makes you more frustrated, more annoyed at all the looks you get, all the assumptions that you wish were true.

“Why isn’t it in the dorms?” you ask Jaemin, following him into the student hall.

“Do you know how many people end up coming? It’ll be suffocating,” Jaemin says, his back turned to you.

“I mean, I’m not complaining,” you say, “But this hall looks creepy.”

“That’s why we have decorations!” Jaemin says, shoving a bunch of pink, golden and red streamers at you.

“Where- when did you even get these?” you ask, looking at the lively colours sprawled across your arms.

“Jeno bought them. Oh, and Renjun’s probably coming to help.”

“Okay.”

The occasion needs minimalistic decorations according to Jaemin (“Because love should be the main event!” “I’m not even going to tell you how dumb that sounds.”) and on the bright side, it reduces your physical workload. Jaemin rushes from corner to corner, your head following his movement as he gestures for you to give him the ribbons and garlands. The hall already looks a little brighter by the time you’re finished, all the little touches added by Jaemin standing out to you.

“I need those heart-shaped post-it notes,” Jaemin says, knitting his brows. His mouth is slightly parted and his eyes stare off into the distance as he looks like he’s processing all that he has to say. The sunlight that has snuck in plays on his cheeks and eyes and sometimes you wish you’d stop viewing him like that, like he’s a work of art. Sometimes you wish your miserable state of mind didn’t get any worse with each look, each word, each smile Jaemin gave you.

You end up telling Jaemin to make a shopping list and while he insists on going to the store himself, you tell him to sit there and wait for Jeno and Renjun.

You do the shopping, wanting to get out of the slow, smothering atmosphere, engulfed by your own leaking affections. You return not too long after, to see Jaemin leaning back on one of the chairs, his phone pressed to his cheek.

“What do you mean you’re not coming now?” his voice comes out in a low tone. “That’s not helping!”

Jaemin’s cheeks gradually turn pink at whatever the voice through the phone says. “No, you don’t understand. That won’t help!”

“Yes…I still get butterflies, Renjun- why are you laughing? It’s true- it’s not that cheesy!”

You think hard about Jaemin’s declaration, so much that you forget you’re holding a bag of stuff and almost trip into to the hall. Jaemin perks up at your sudden entrance and while you rub the back of your head sheepishly, Jaemin rushes to you and holds the bag.

“Turns out Renjun isn’t coming, after all,” he informs you.

“Oh, that’s okay.”

Jaemin adorns a broad smile as you try finishing up the extra details with him, and you don’t notice the soft looks he gives you every time you’re so focused, your tongue pokes out or when you try your hardest to scrutinise every corner of the hall.

“What’s this for?” you point at the stack of Valentine’s Day themed post-its in Jaemin’s hand.

“It’s for people to write what they love most about themselves. Or what they think is the best thing about them.”

“That’s nice,” you smile.

Jaemin takes out a pen to scribble something and sticks it on the wall beside you. You squint to read it (“My handwriting isn’t even that bad!”) but you only find your name written with a heart drawn beside it.

“Because you’re the best thing to ever happen to me,” Jaemin winks.

You hit your forehead against the back of your hand, and despite the cheesiness, your cheeks heat up at the look of glee Jaemin gives you.

Jaemin walks you home with the setting sun tracing your footsteps. You don’t speak all that much, like you do when you’re comfortable, but at moments like these, you wish you could hold his hand or do all the things you aren’t allowed. The shape of his lips change with each expression he makes, still rosy and looking soft despite how chapped they are, and his cheeks glow with a residual pink from running out of the hall and the honey in his eyes you get to see when faces you leave a sweet taste in your mouth. It’s difficult to not stare at Na Jaemin. Sometimes, you wonder how all his features came together to create something so incredibly lovely, something so Jaemin. When you reach, he thanks you, tells you to wear something pink, and runs back towards his own place after waving a quick goodbye.

You enter the party to find some additions by Jeno and Renjun like the fairy lights and a huge banner saying ‘Welcome!’ with a lot of unnecessary hearts. There’s also doodles which suspiciously resemble you and Jaemin which you wouldn’t have noticed unless Renjun specifically pointed them out to you. Oh, how you wish you could deck someone in the face in public.

It’s actually enjoyable being there, though. People did write the notes, you notice when you see the wall almost filled with fluttery pink notes, Jaemin’s one lost in the bunch. Most of the guests are engaged in their own little world or shoving snacks into their mouths—an accurate representation of what Valentine’s Day is like around the world. The place isn’t overwhelmingly pink, there are mostly different shades of it, sure, but they remind you of Jaemin and the effort he put in.

People have unanimously decided the dress code is pink and while you couldn’t find anything suitable in your wardrobe, you ended up with the pink beret Jaemin gave you for your birthday last year. Speaking of whom, you don’t see him anywhere for a good ten minutes after arriving, mostly following Renjun and Jeno around to help them set the chocolates at the snacks table, or eating said chocolates at the snacks table. Donghyuck makes a face at the old love songs playing as soon as he enters the hall and brings his phone to undoubtedly change it to some other weird playlist.

You find Jaemin in a pink corduroy jacket, surrounded by a bunch of people from uni, looking a little more than flustered. His hair looks soft albeit a little messy although he must have styled it before coming, and overall, his presence seems to be the core of the celebrations. He looks like an angel when he meets eyes with you, and the hearts your brain makes you see floating around him don’t help.

Jaemin excuses himself with a polite smile and jogs over to you, wreathed in smiles. You smile back and there’s an unexpected silence before either of you speak.

“You look cute,” Jaemin points to the pink beret.

“Th-thanks,” you manage to say through the sudden awkwardness.

Before Jaemin can say anything else, he’s pulled by the arm by some guy who points to a girl looking shy in the corner. You can already tell she’s going to confess her undying love for Jaemin and while you know he’s going to reject her with the sweetest no, you wish you had that kind of confidence too. If you tell him, would he laugh at you? Would he even grace you with his sweet ‘no’?

The ‘what if’s swirl around your head and you take a seat at the corner of the hall. Suddenly, all you see are people in love—people tucking flowers in their partners hair, or talking while holding each other’s hands, or showing affection in simple acts of kisses or hugs or feeding each other. They all have someone to belong to, someone to protect, to cherish, to experience things with.

“Hey.”

You look to your side to see Jaemin already sitting beside you, a curious look on his face. You push your feelings aside to shoot him a playful smile.

“Broke another heart, Jaemin?”

Jaemin’s cheeks turn as pink as the streamers and you almost instantly regret saying that.

“I felt bad,” he starts but trails off.

“I know,” you reassure him. Jaemin isn’t paying a whole lot of attention, though, and you think maybe you should tell him too. You should tell him that you’ve liked him since high school, when he found you hiding from your friends on your birthday to prevent getting caked in the face, you liked him when he offered to walk you home the first time, you liked him when he told you he’s relieved that you’re both going to the same college. You like him when he’s thinking quietly, you like him when he says something stupid to annoy you, and you feel like you’ll like him endlessly with every passing second you spend with him—every passing second that pronounces the voice of his existence.

“Jaemin.”

“Yes?”

“We’re friends, right? How would you feel about being more than friends?” you rush through your words, getting redder by the second. You’re not one subject to impulsive actions, but maybe, maybe Na Jaemin is an exception to this too. His lips are pressed into a thin line, pink with the chapstick you had bought him a long time ago.

“What?”

No. You’re not saying that again. If you have to, you’ll pretend this conversation never happened.

“You like me?” Jaemin freezes, his eyes scanning your face for a response.

“I- uh- yeah. Wow. That wasn’t how I was planning to tell you. I mean, there were chocolates in the initial plan.”

“Are you kidding me?” You flinch at the sudden rise of his tone. “We could have been going out all this time?!”

“Huh?”

“I wouldn’t have had to do all this.”

“What?”

“In my defence, this wasn’t my idea,” Jaemin makes a sour expression.

You didn’t expect planning for a party to be your friends’ grand idea to get you and Jaemin together, and you don’t know how that works either. While that was a total failure, the dawning realization that maybe you’re not spending this Valentine’s alone makes your heartbeat quicken and your face warm.

“Will you go to the café with me this Saturday?” Jaemin smiles the brightest of smiles at you.

“I’m not having your poison coffee.”

“You ruined a perfectly nice moment.”

You smile and lean forward to rest your forehead against his shoulder, both of you shaking with silent laughter.

“Let’s leave before Donghyuck shoots us another look,” Jaemin tells you, taking hold of your hand and glaring at the sudden change of music.

The skies are pretty (or are you saying that because you’re happy?) and even more so when the late afternoon paints it orange and pink.

“You’re mine? You’re really mine?” Jaemin asks when you’re outside the gates.

You nod as you try to process the words yourself, a slow red rising in your cheeks.

Jaemin smiles the warmest smile before leaning in to peck your cheek. It’s a simple gesture—couples do it often, but it leaves your cheeks burning red and hot more than ever. Calling yourself a couple doesn’t make it any better, neither does the way Jaemin looks at you, or his fingers playing with yours.

Jaemin leans in again, and right when you feel his breath on your lips, he pulls back, shaking his head. When you continue looking at him with doe eyes, he laughs.

“That’s for Saturday,” he says, “If I kiss you right now, I won’t be able to stop.”

There’s a lot to look forward to on Saturday, you think. Besides the fact that it’s a weekend, you’re going out with Jaemin, someone who you thought you’d never be able to ask out. Someone who makes your heart explode into stardust but someone who puts it at ease.

There’s a lot to look forward to on Saturday. Cheaper chocolates, your choice of coffee, Jaemin’s lips—all of them, at the top of your list of favourite things.

[luckycheesefoodie321]

Ok SO! I just watched the original 3 Jurassic Parks in succession and I have some things to say... (Long Post and Spoilers I guess?)

JURASSIC PARK

what was wrong with the sick Triceratops? Like they made a big deal of Laura Dern digging in poop and looking at the plants and whether or not they were eating something weird, and I thought it would come up again... it did not and I just wanna know what was wrong with the Trike?!

Then the whole viable embryo chamber that Nedry stole... I suppose the embryos just died but they did this whole thing where we watch it get covered in mud, and once again, was expecting that to be a plot point but guess not??

Otherwise great film, obviously having not seen it when I was younger, I don’t have any nostalgia towards the film, so no rose-tinted glasses to make it look prettier than it is... but really solid thriller, they captured the majesty of these creatures that don’t even exist anymore... I’ll dig up the full legacy of the film later, but easily the best of the three in my opinion... pacing was good, tension in each action sequence was great, the cast was really solid too... Laura Dern, every scene she was in, she was brilliant... she’s equal parts charming, witty but also isn’t here to take any shit... she has things to do, and she will get them done... so far the only female character in the first three movies that I could stand screaming... including Sarah Harding who had a couple moments... Sam Neill was a good gruff hero who we’re endeared to by his awkwardness around kids... Jeff Goldblum was Jeff Goldblum, weirdly underused the entire film??? Like he had that weird laugh-growl, all those great lines in the beginning, and ofc the iconic leads Rexy with the flare scene (which I was expecting to be more epic but Sam Neill kept telling him to drop it and so it came off like he was doing something kinda dumb??) but he busts up his leg and has no other purpose than “Must go faster”, the sexy wounded Goldblum, and “look up and follow the main cable”...

THE LOST WORLD: JURASSIC PARK

Contrary to the previous one, I feel like Jeff Goldblum...uhhh...is not an action star? His dialogue during action scenes, his movements, his general character all seemed awkward and out of place, and maybe that’s what he’s going for... he’s a scientist/mathematician dude who didn’t wanna be there, but the “choreography” of the action scenes just didn’t seem like a dude actively trying to save himself and the people around him... the entirety of the raptor scene in the power station felt stilted and stiff, him, Julianne Moore and his daughter... that gymnastics scene could’ve been cooler but everything was so slow? Like it’s the longest of the three films and idk if that’s a good thing... the end bit where the T-Rex ended up in San Diego felt more than a little goofy and sort of separate from the rest of the movie, like there was no transition from the natural end of the movie (them getting rescued) and the Rex wandering around the suburbs..

However I really did enjoy Vince Vaughn and I’m so used to him in comedic roles?? But like he seemed like such a grounded dude that was secretly a sort of guerilla environmentalist set to rescue animals from poachers... I kinda would’ve preferred him as the main character and have Jeff be a side character just with more to do than in the first film... Jeff is great as a foil to the action hero, witty banter was a check, running commentary is always great, occasional moments of his own death defying struggles but Vince’s character had more moxie... Sarah aka Julianne Moore was fine as the obligatory female character that wasn’t a dinosaur... though for someone who kept insisting on knowing what she was doing and hanging around multiple predators, her screaming right at Mom and Dad Rex when the key is to be still and quiet, and also not clueing in that the baby Rex blood on her vest would attract the parents to her after she specifically mentioned them having superior scent tracking was a little ridiculous... obligatory kid was fine, but they never really doubled back on the whole “you never keep your promises” problem they introduced between her and Jeff..

JURASSIC PARK 3

Uh so... there are just... pterodactyls canonically nested and presumably breeding somewhere else in the world, and I was just wondering if it ever gets addressed in JW or JW: FK??? Like I’ve seen Jurassic World but without prior knowledge of the previous films, so idk if there was a reference slipped in, but it is the same universe as the previous films sooo...just gotta accept that they nested somewhere and no one did anything to stop them flying off??

Also Laura Dern... how did she manage to rally the military and the navy??? Like where did she get the power/the connections to pull that off???

Also also... did they face... no consequences for entering those islands after having invaded a foreign countries restricted air space???

Compared to 2, generally better pacing, much better action sequences... tension was pretty close to the first film in snappy action... got Sam Neill back and he’s nice... apparently the third is not well-liked but without the nostalgia factor clouding my judgement? It was about the same vibe... more of the same, an arbitrary event pulling them to Dino land, it being a Terrible Very Bad Idea, and cue in the herbivore Dinosaurs, the slightly more dangerous dinosaurs, and The Big Bad Dinosaur... much scream, much death, then rescue....

they overused the classic JP theme a little, and in weird spots... like there’d be death and terror, and then all of a sudden the JP theme would blast and something cute or majestic would appear and it was quite jarring...the genesis of the Spinosaurus would’ve been nice to know, they made that an unecessary mystery but whatever...guess it was born from some precursor experiment to the I-Rex sort of thing that InGen had been cooking up...

Tea Leoni just kept yelling and screaming and it was so annoying istg like stop no... I get she was scared but she was hysterical off her head and it felt very classic horror film but jfc you come to an island to rescue your son from dinosaurs, not get eaten by one! They also kept trying to focus on the divorced couple rekindling their relationship in this dangerous situation but please no I do not watch these films for the love story I’m glad it was barely even acknowledged in the first film that Alan and Ellie probably had a thing going on and I kinda did not like that they made Jeff and Julianne be an established thing and have John Hammond use that as incentive to push Jeff to go back to the island... so yeah no shoo-shoo the romance away please... also the poor boyfriend who died?? Like no grief for him I guess??

Sam Neill getting angry at Billy was really mean, so glad he survived... there were actually less terrible people who didn’t realise they were terrible people in this film... the closest we got was Billy stealing the raptor eggs and that was him just being rash and young and wanting to help out...

Otherwise another typical dinosaur fest... it wasnt Spielberg direction, and you could kinda tell... not as smooth in just the general flow of the story... not quite as golden touch as the first one, but not as dragged out as the second one and it had better action sequences... so idk about y’all but I might just rank the third film above the second one?

CONCLUSION

Anyway yeah! Netflix took down Jurassic World so I’m bummed my binge watch got messed with but Fallen Kingdom is being put up this week so looking forward to that!

[creativetrashcans]

Simmer - Get To Know

By @cupcakegnome

Tagged: @ talemagne

CHIWAWA

Your name: Lonely Chiwawa (she/her)

Languages you speak: Catalan, Spanish and kinda English 

Are you a mermaid: No not really... can barely swim tbh

Your play style: mmmh i like most things, creating sims, builidng is so much fun too, also challenges mmh stories no tho i cant write em LOL rip 

Your Selfsim picture: 

Stories or gameplay, builds, lookbooks, edits or cc:��Challenges, builds and some other things coming heh

Your favorite age state: Teen or young adult

Your favorite season: Winter!!! i feel it has a lot to do and the snow is soooo pretty 

Your favorite holiday: Only played harvest fest so far... in sims BUT irl i like Christmas 

How was your day: It was chill and nice, even went outside wew

Your favorite career: Painter...........................maybe?

Your favorite aspiration: Soulmate

Your favorite EP, SP or GP: Seasons 

How old is your simblr: Less than a year i think 

Have you woohooed: Yes, many times

Your favorite skill: Cooking, parenting and painting

The size of your Mods folder: 37,7 GB

Your 3 favorite mods: uhhhh hahaha impossible to choose

Your interests (other than sims): Drawing, make up and nails, mmh minecraft old anime and series too 

Your favorite sim (picture if possible): Maybe not my favourite Sim of all time because we got so many! But this is our version of Franky form One Piece. Before starting any project just for fun we made him and I always felt so proud of how he turned out. Not only he looks very attractive, i also feel its a good representation of how a human him would look like.

Which Sims games you have played (including mobile games): Sims 2, 3 and 4 

Propose a crazy scheme: People being nice always and world being in peace and not dying in gud old climate change

Best part of simblr: seeing how other people enjoy the sims and how they play also them aesthetic 

Worst part of simblr: mmhhhhhhhh lack of comunication between players i don’t feel much sense of community here at least now... i actually suck at comunicating so..... dunno

What other games you play: Minecarft recently but not much into games actually

Other websites or accounts (origin, twitter etc..):  

Twitter --> https://twitter.com/creativetrashc1

Intagram --> https://www.instagram.com/creativetrashcans/

Personal Instagram --> https://www.instagram.com/elia_clco/

My side tumblr --> https://generationtrashcan.tumblr.com/

Are you single: Nuuuupe

WORM

Your name: Lively Worm (she/her)

Languages you speak: Catalan, Spanish and some English.

Are you a mermaid: Nope, I’m a worm.

Your play style: I love building houses and decorating them, dressing sims and doing their makeup.

Your Selfsim picture:

Stories or gameplay, builds, lookbooks, edits or cc: I do gameplays, challenges and buildings.

Your favorite age state: I think it’s young adult because I can explore more.

Your favorite season: Autumn, because of the beautiful colors.

Your favorite holiday: I don’t know yet, I haven’t explored all of them.

How was your day: It’s 15:40h and I’m hungry, I want to eat soon.

Your favorite career: Musician.

Your favorite aspiration: Musical genius, unsurprisingly.

Your favorite EP, SP or GP: Pets and vampires.

How old is your simblr: Less than a year.

Have you woohooed: ¬_¬

Your favorite skill: I don’t know, maybe the singing skill?

The size of your Mods folder: 29,9 GB.

Your 3 favorite mods: I can’t choose. There are so many so good!

Your interests (other than sims): Singing, drawing, anime, manga and kpop.

Your favorite sim (picture if possible): Why?? I can’t choooooseeee, I love most of them! Okey, after a lot of thought I’ve chosen Una, Usopp’s daughter from our 100 Baby Challenge, because the three of us love her and I love drawing her!! She’s really charming and she’s grown up really well. I relate to her because she also loves drawing and vampires.

We posted some drawings of her on twitter and insta!

Which Sims games you have played (including mobile games): Sims 2, 3 and 4. And some PS game I don’t remember.

Propose a crazy scheme: Making people learn expectatives are bad and judging others hurts everyone involved.

Best part of simblr: I can share our art and tell many stories with interesting sims.

Worst part of simblr: The lack of comunication.

What other games you play: Kingdom Hearts, Hollow Knight, The Last of Us... mostly play station games.

Other websites or accounts (origin, twitter etc..): 

Common Twitter: https://twitter.com/creativetrashc1

Common Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/creativetrashcans/

Personal Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/makaru_walker/

Are you single: No, I’m Turtle’s.

TURTLE

Your name: Lazy Turtle (she/her)

Languages you speak: Catalan, Spanish, English and some basic French.

Are you a mermaid: Pretty sure I’m not.

Your play style: Starting projects and never getting past the building process is a playstyle? I usually like to have some objective though, instead of just playing aimlessly.

Your Selfsim picture:

Stories or gameplay, builds, lookbooks, edits or cc: I find stories pretty awkward to portray on Sims, and fashion and decoration were never my strong point. So I stick to challenges, both found and created.

Your favorite age state: Depends on what for. Young adults are the easiest to manage and have more options, but toddlers are the most challenging on a Baby Challenge.

Your favorite season: Autumn, always. Its colors are just beautiful.

Your favorite holiday: Haven’t played them all yet, so I can’t say.

How was your day: (Tumblr erased all my hard work on this thing, but the day I first wrote it I had my blood taken so not great). Today, I discovered the extent of human stupidity in mass hysteria situations. Never seen a supermarket so empty of food before.

Your favorite career: Hypotetically, writer. But I haven’t played as one yet so I can’t confirm.

Your favorite aspiration: Big Happy Family’s been pretty fun for our matriarch, but I still have many more to explore. (I can say it’s not the kid’s mobility one. Stupid mecanography.)

Your favorite EP, SP or GP: Probably Seasons so far.

How old is your simblr: Less than a year.

Have you woohooed: Uh.

Your favorite skill: Uhhh... No idea.

The size of your Mods folder:  29,9 GB. Worm and I share a game and a mods folder, but Chiwawa dumps her messily organized mods on us from time to time.

Your 3 favorite mods: Wow nope.

Your interests (other than sims): Mostly writing and reading (I’m the main writer of this tumblr, btw), but also videogames, anime and k-pop.

Your favorite sim (picture if possible): I wouldn’t say it’s my favourite sim of all time, I have far too many sims I love for different reasons, but this one was specially hard to get right so we feel particularly proud.

His name is Carles Serra, and he’s a parental figure for two of the MCs of the story we’re working on. He’s a math and ethics teacher on a very exclusive highschool, and he needed to have both a very refined and snobbish air and this inevitable awkwardness all math teachers seem to have. Plus, he has to deal with teenage drama all through the story, so I feel like he needs a lot of love. And maybe some vacation.

Which Sims games you have played (including mobile games): Sims 2, 3 and 4. And I think I once tried to make a sim on a terrible PS2 version or something.

Propose a crazy scheme: Mandatory therapy for teens so everyone learns empathy and management of one’s emotions would be pretty neat.

Best part of simblr: Sharing our common passion with others in a free and creative way, probably.

Worst part of simblr: The lack of interaction, I guess. I had only ever been in a very small fandom here on tumblr before, and compared to the closeness of that comunity, I feel like simblr is... very scattered.

What other games you play: Play Station ones, mostly. Whatever gives me a compelling story.

Other websites or accounts (origin, twitter etc..):

Common Twitter: https://twitter.com/creativetrashc1

Common Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/creativetrashcans/

Personal Twitter: https://twitter.com/ALazyTurtle1

Are you single: I’ve been dating Worm for years now.

We will tag: @hellobreadsims

[romchomp]

Gilmore Girls: The Love Interests

This post might get a little lengthy.

In Gilmore Girls, there are four girls we get to see coarse through different relationships throughout the seasons of the show. As someone who recently finished marathoning Gilmore Girls and has a blog based on romance shows and anime, I figured why not talk about all these relationships the characters went through.

Rory, as our main character, will go first. Talking about the different boyfriends she’s had will be fun because her taste is uhhh pretty questionable.

Dean is Rory’s first boyfriend and hence, the first love interest. I think we can all agree he was the worst. He actually started off pretty good, if not a little boring. However, it doesn’t take that long for him come off as dramatic with some sort of anger issue. He almost always put his feelings before Rory’s. When his marriage fell apart he got upset with Rory and made it out to be as if everything was her fault despite him being the one who cheated. He generally became less and less pleasant as the show went on and even at his best he was just generic and boring and while nice, still not that good of a boyfriend.

The next boy Rory dates is Jess. Jess is a tricky one to talk to about because while I love his character and find him to be one of the more interesting ones in the series, I really don’t like him as a boyfriend. All throughout their relationship Jess treated Rory horribly. He was moody, never talked to her about anything, and never even seemed like he actually wanted to be in the relationship. They were constantly arguing and most of the sweet moments between them were Jess’s attempt to make up for some shitty thing he did earlier. I liked him a lot more when he wasn’t dating Rory. Season 6 Jess was great, and maybe if the show took the route of Rory dating him once again things would be different and I could say I liked him better the second go around but that’s not what happened. Bottom line is, he’s a better character than Dean, also probably had more respect for Rory and I’d say he understood Rory better than Logan did too, but god he was a really bad boyfriend.

Last but not least, there’s Logan. Who has the opposite problem Jess did. Despite him being a complete douchebag and a personality I found to be quite unlikable, he was a surprisingly pretty decent boyfriend. My opinion of Logan moved around quite a bit through the course of the show. At first, I hated him. The way he teased Marty and talked to Rory immediately put a sour taste in my mouth. However after Dean broke up with Rory (for the third time?) at her grandparents' party I realized that huh, I like the way he’s treating Rory. The way he tried to cheer her up felt very platonic. Was he already pining for her? Probably. But Logan never came across as more than friendly until he started very obviously teasing her when she was showing that one Chilton student around. Then there’s when Rory asked him why he never asked her out (because it was pretty evident they both liked each other at this point), and Logan���s reasoning was that he didn’t know how to be a boyfriend. By this point I like Logan. He respects Rory and wants her around even if only platonically because she’s special to him. However, cracks start to show. Rory changes a lot over the period of dating Logan. She changes a lot of things that were always a big part of her character like...not cooking and not exercising. Okay while those things were small, these changes in Rory made it a lot easier to realize that Rory and Logan don’t have a lot in common. They don’t even have common interests, not really. This made me start backtracking how much I actually like Logan and before I noticed Rory changing, I would’ve told you I think he made a better boyfriend than Jess. However, if there is one thing Jess has over Dean and Logan, it’s that he understands Rory better. Rory and Jess also just kind of clicked more. Rory and Logan followed the basic steps of being a good couple, but there wasn’t much that kept me wanting them to stay together or even like them together. They were just...there.

Lane

The only love interests you really need to remember for Lane would be Dave and her eventual endgame, Zach ( Zack? The internet can’t seem to make up its mind).  From my knowledge, the actor who played Dave ended up taking a role in another show thus bailing on Gilmore Girls. Which would explain the very weak “he got a scholarship in California” reasoning for why his character was suddenly disappeared. A lot of people seemed to like Dave more than Zach and I was certainly on that boat for a while myself but I gotta say, I started finding Lane and Zach a really fun couple to watch once Lane got pregnant. I really liked the scene where they bonded over not wanting to have the baby (in a mostly comedic fashion) and it was around that point it became clearer how much the two actually have in common. Somehow the two became more compatible after having twins. Go figure.

Paris

On to Paris...can we just forget that Tristan and Fleming ever happened? Joking, joking (mostly). Paris and Tristan never dated (thank god) and therefore were never love interests, but Paris’s hard to believe crush on him was enough to be sigh-worthy. There was That College Guy She Dated During Chilton That I Can’t Remember the Name Of who didn’t really do anything noteworthy. Then there’s...eighty years old Asher Fleming. Look, I could go on about how Fleming was way too old for Paris and how problematic their age gap is, but it’s 2019 now and I’m sure every Gilmore Girls fan has both, ranted about and heard ranting of it so I’ll move on. If there is one good thing I can say about Fleming, he gives us more of an idea of what Paris cares about when considering a romantic partner: intelligence. That’s about it, which also means she doesn’t really care if her relationship would otherwise be seen as weird. She probably wouldn’t even care if the person themself was deemed weird either. Which leads me to Doyle, in my opinion, the best boyfriend out of any of the boyfriends in the series. I love Doyle. He’s strange but charming, squeamish but also capable of being a leader, and genuinely cares for Paris. While it took a few tries, in the end, Paris found someone she made a perfectly odd pairing with. I mean hey, that’s how life usually works out I guess.

Lorelai

Now we get to Lorelai, who I think had the more interesting love interests. Despite that, I won’t be getting into Max and Jason because frankly, I don’t think anyone really cares about them that much. By around halfway through the show, it becomes increasingly obvious that the only two true possible endgames for Lorelai would be Luke or Christopher.

There’s a bit of a parallel between Luke and Christopher in the sense of how big of opposites they are. Where Christopher comes and goes throughout the show, always leaving an impact after leaving; Luke is a constant throughout the show, with some major moments but often just peacefully going along with the plot. While Chris is impulsive and rushes into things, Luke over thinks himself out of things. Lorelai’s parents hate Luke but they’ve always loved Chris. Christopher is immature while Luke is arguably the most mature character in Gilmore Girls.

I was impressed when I noticed just how lined up their differences were. I wasn’t something I expected from Gilmore Girls in all honesty.

I think most of us can agree that Luke was better for Lorelai. They balance each other out a lot better than Lorelai and Chris ever could. Luke and Lorelai’s differences were also manageable so long as they had good communication. Which they didn’t while they were dating and is why they ultimately broke up in season 6. Which brings me to another parallel: the marriages. Luke and Lorelai broke up because of postponing their wedding. Chris and Lorelai on the other hand, broke up because they had rushed into getting married. I could go on and say how Chris proposed to Lorelai in Paris, the city of love, while Lorelai proposed to Luke in his diner as well. The comparisons are all over the place.

The reasoning the show gives for Lorelai and Chris not working out is because “the timing was never right”  which I personally find to be bullshit. They were always too much alike to work out. I want to say I always expected and knew Luke would be who Lorelai ended up with but I’ll be honest, season 7 gave me a good scare. I still think their ending together was weak though.

If I had to rank who had the best love interests it would probably go:

Lorelai (she had the most common sense)

Lane (went from a nice, but slightly boring bf to an asshole who became surprisingly decent once they had kids)

Paris (two duds and a real winner)

Rory (her taste was very questionable)

You know, that is considering the canon love interests.

Rory had three boyfriends, but what if there was another possible love interest in between the lines? Someone who has been by her side the whole time.

Well.

Then there’s Paris.

Paris...Again

Paris who had big, definitive goals for herself just like Rory. Who was hardworking and had a strong work ethic that Rory (arguably) had as well. Paris also has the qualities I liked the best in Jess. Paris could understand Rory’s studiousness and later on her personality in general. This also works vice versa. Pretty much every character has a hard time understanding Paris or simply downright disliking her but Rory always had a decent understanding of her even if the reasoning was something like “Oh, she’s just being Paris.”. She also makes up for my biggest problem with Jess, being moody and never communicating with Rory. Paris, on the other hand, is always quick to tell Rory exactly what she’s feeling and why.

Granted, Rory and Paris were never written to be love interests and even their friendship had some blemishes. I think the potential for Gellmore becoming a likable couple was at its highest in season three and four and slowly diminished as the show went on. In the end, Rory and Paris is a good concept that sadly works best in fanon.

Their relationship in canon was for the most part one-sided. Rory never seemed to want or need or even consider Paris’s help. I also don’t think the show drew out how the two have many similarities as well many differences (you know, the whole “you two have more in common than you might expect” schtick). I know it’s already in the show, but I would’ve liked to see them build on it more.

However, even though they would still have issues in canon, I think Paris could’ve been an improvement or just an interesting addition to the canon love interests even if she didn’t end up as endgame or had a short-lived relationship with Rory. But hey, what are you gonna do when a show was made in the earlier 2000′s.

All in all the love interests in Gilmore Girls were...okay. For the most part. Even the ones I liked had some baffling moments that I could rant about. The romantic relationships were never the part of Gilmore Girls that I think people enjoyed though. We watched for the familial relationships and dynamics that gave the show its charm.

[sideshowaarti]

Nicknames: Atari, & Arts are the main ones. I’ve also been called: A-A-Ron, Arby’s, Arteries, SmAarti, and just some plain stupid ones. 😂

Height: like 5’2 :,)

Hogwarts House: lol fam idk I’ve never seen the full movie nor have I read ONE book. Yeah I’m that creative.

Last thing I googled: How to keep your curls in overnight.

Yeah it isn’t funny like you expected >:) losers.

Favorite Musicians: AJR. (Concert level favorite. Yes dude ik. Crazy right?! (Insert Key Smash Here), OneRepublic, Imagine Dragons, Twenty One Pilots, Melanie Martinez? Kinda? I’m not too info K-12. Yeah call me a sinner... uhhh idk..? Taylor Swift? Her older ish songs? Idk I’ll listen to anything at this point.. shh idk dude shut up.

Song Stuck in my head: good question. But I got nothing. I sometimes like sing Boy In The Bubble by Alec Benjamin, but most of the time I just recite AJR songs (mostly from Neotheater). Idk dude I don’t have any rn. Shocking right? Lame, yes. Yes I ISSS.

Following: 64 mainly Voltron Accounts and Meme Pages. Yeah that’s where my social life is rn too. Hah say sike rn. Nope it’s that sad.

Followers: 109

Y’all lil blessings I don’t even post so y’all just love me :,)

Do I ever get asks: 😂 I’m not even gonna answer that one sis.

*simon cowell- it’s a no from me.*

Amount of sleep: Varies. I’m fortunate enough to get around 6-8

What are you wearing: to be real with you, high water grey sweats (with pockets! *fangirl*) and a Nike shirt. Kidnap me why don’t you, you know my life story already. But usually a darker colored (striped ;) ) shirt, any blue jeans, and converse or vans.

Dream Job: something I enjoy

At this point idk. I just want to be a billionaire but I’ll do it legallly tyvm.

But in reality I’d like to become a well known songwriter, writing music relatable and just life changing that people understand a little too well. If I took classes maybe even a musical artist as well.

Dream Trip: England. Like that’s it. Idk how when or where. I just wanna go like dang.

Instruments: i taught myself how to play the piano. I can’t read music. I could if I tried to learn but hey for what. I’m doing fine as it is.

Yeah I’m that lazy aha. No motivation brochill

Languages: aHa. English. Dude that’s it. I should speak like three more but it’s whatever. I can read and write Hebrew tho! Woot Woot!

Random Fact: I can moonwalk, move my ears, and twitch my nose like a bunny ;)

But I have an obsession with sideshow bob. It isn’t even funny. If he comes on tv I legit scream it’s that real. Do I need therapy. Yes. Yes indeed.

Aesthetic: honestly idk it switches like everyday dude. Not stuck on anything I’m just floatinnnn

Annnnd that’s it. Thanks for reading the red talk I feel like a YouTuber that explains all my life story when like legit no body asked. So hah losers you read unnecessarily. Good for you you’re working your eyes. Now go outside or read an Actual book. Go debate your life choices some more. Yeh I see you CaRoL. >:0

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11/11/11 (or more like 44/11/11)

Rules: Answer 11 Questions, Ask Eleven Questions, Tag Eleven People!

alright, so i had a lot of people tagging me in this one and i was really happy about every single one! but to sum things up a little (and also so that i wouldn’t have to come up with 44 questions myself) i decided to put it all in one post. i will tag 11 people with 11 questions of my own and answer all 44 questions i received under the cut.

thanks to the wonderful @thewritingsofart, @i-rove-rock-n-roll, @writingsonesdreams and @waywordwriter for being awesome and for tagging me! xx

now, here are my 11 questions:

1. if you had to rewrite the earliest work you remember writing, what would you change?

2. have you ever written fanfiction? if so, what was your first fic about?

3. do you have any foolproof methods against writer’s block?

4. have you ever thought about quitting writing?

5. is there an author who you feel influences you as a writer?

6. would you like to have fanfiction written about your works?

7. what is the nicest compliment you’ve ever received on one of your works?

8. have you ever cried over one of your own stories?

9. do you draw about your own stories?

10. have you ever written an au about one of your own stories?

11. have you ever written something creative in another language than english? if so, which one was it? and which language do you prefer?

sooo, those were my 11 questions. now my 11 victims are: @storyteller-kaelo, @metaphors-and-melodrama, @wasted-hymn, @authorified, @writingnosefreak, @quilloftheclouds, @bookenders, @vhum, @madammuffins, @catgirlwarrior, @blueinkblot

and for those who are interested, here are my answers:

@thewritingsofart 

1. In what other format do you enjoy reading a novel? Script, Poem, Diary, Illustrated, etc.

i love stories of all kinds, the format doesn't really matter

2. What POV do you prefer reading from? Writing from?

third person, both reading and writing. it doesn't matter if the narrator is omniscent or stays up close and personal with the protagonist

3. Do you remember what your first creative writing piece was?

i remember the first one i created outside of school lmao it was awful but i've also grown a lot since then and i still remember my first work fondly. and tbh i still like the idea so i gottagive little me probs for that. it was about a girl who wakes up with no memories, in a world where everyone believes to have a certain destiny and thus doesn't question what happens to them bc they accept everything to be part of a greater scheme and she starts rebelling against that bc she doesn't want to accept that she was supposed to forget everything about her life and then tons of stuff happens

4. What are you working on now?

a fantasy novel which is a collab with a writer friend that i still know from school and a drama novel, set in the 1960's

5. How do you get in the mood to write?

usually i just reread what i've already written and that does the trick for me but if not then go back to my outline and work a little on that which reminds me of all the cool stuff that i wanna write that's yet to come

6. What in your daily life inspires you to write?

everything and anything. inspiration doesn't come from a certain place from me, it's compeltely random. i just hear or see or read something and it sparks an idea and then i'm stuck with it

7. Do you have a favorite writing snack(s)?

i don't snack much whilst writing tbh bc then i need my hands to write. but i snack a lot to procrastinate and then any snack will do

8. Who do you go to first when you want someone to read/look over your writing?

the friend i do my fantasy collab with is the only friend whom i'm entrusted with almost everything i've written in the last three years and i've even shared some of my older stories with her

9. What got you started in writing for pleasure?

i can't remember if there was a specific reason that got me started. i always liked the creative writing tasks that we got in class so one day i wanted to try writing a book. that was pretty much it

10. How do you create your characters? Do you use a character sheet or another method?

my characters are usually the first thing that come to me so i don't actually use any specific method to create them. they all serve the plot and are built for necessity around my protagonist to create the most believable and most fun dynamic that ultimately leads my main oc to where they need to be

11. If you could have one famous person, from today or history, to read your best piece of writing, who would it be? This includes authors

jane austen probably bc i think she could give me good advice on character dynamics and would smack me on the head for making a man the pov character in my drama novel. but i also think she would be super nice and encouraging in her advice. also she's one of my favourite authors so there's that

@waywordwriter

Heels or flats? flats! i can't walk in heels properly

What’s your favorite Starbucks drink? i don't go to starbucks. if i go to any café i usually get tea if i stay in or coffee if it's to go

Winter or summer both are very uncomfortable, temperature-wise. but i'll go with summer bc it's nice to be too hot for once when you're usually always too cold

Do you write short stories? heck yeah i do!

Favorite author? jane austen bc i always feel good when reading her books

3 words to describe your protagonist(s) going only with daniel from my drama novel: repressed, oblivious, gay

3 words to describe your antagonist(s) well, in my drama novel there is no clear antagonist as in it's not a person and in my fantasy novel the protagonists are kind of the bad guys so i don't really know how to answer this. capitalism? prejudice? believing you know what's best for the people you love and acting on it until your behaviour is downright abusive? none of these are three words but i'm rolling with it

Favorite school subject? constantly changed. when i graduated it was english, german, spanish, art and philosophy

Favorite book(s)? also ever-changing but since i picked jane austen as my favourite author i'm going with pride and prejudice

Favorite music genre? don't have one, it all depends on the song but atm i listen to a lot of old rock

How was your day today? veryyy stressful and emotionally exhausting but i also got to see a good friend of mine that i hadn't seen in some time now and that was nice!

@i-rove-rock-n-roll

1. What part of worldbuilding do you like the least? i'm a sucker for worldbuilding to the point where i procrastinate writing bc i worldbuild too much. there is no part that i don't like

2. Do you write in your own language? If not, why? i do! but i also write in english. at first bc it forced me to simplify my sentences due to a lack of vocabulary but now bc i like it and it gives me the possibiliy to share my work with a wider audience!

3. How many of your characters are orphans or have absent parents? not too many, actually. i think it's mostly a thing in my drama novel where it's 2.5/5 (one being an orphan, the other having abusive parents and one case where i'm not even sure if it's just a very complicated relationship or if it counts as downright abusive but the story doesn't dive too deply into it either). in my fantasy novel it's just 2/6!

4. Do you have any happily married couples in your story? uhhh... now that i think about it.. i don't. wow. never realized that, you really got me there!

5. What kind of visual arts (cinema, sculpture, painting…) inspires you and your stories? all.

6. Did you ever go somewhere and think “this is exactly my story’s setting”? not really. but certain places do sometimes inspire me to set my story somewhere similar. my trip to cambodia led to an outline for a pirate story that has yet to be written

7. If you take public transports, do you ever look at the people around you and imagine their story? yesss, i am 100% that creep that is constantly observing and analysing other people

8. What is the last book you read (or are currently reading)? Would you recommend it? it was "the death of mrs. westaway" and i definetely recommend it! it was a good read. even though i guessed the ending it was still thrilling and it didn't chip away any of the suspense bc the author always kept me questioning myself and always had me asking "but what if i'm wrong?"

9. When was the last time you read fanfiction and what was it about? maybe about two weeks ago? i can't remember what it was about bc it was just small bits of fluff but i do remember that it was a merthur fanfic

10. What is the first thing that came to you for your WIP? Was it a scene, a character, or something else? going with my drama novel: it started out with the idea to write something where the story couldn't stand the way it does if a single sentence where to be taken out. to have something written so minimalistically that only what is absolutely necessary remains but still have it be interesting, engaging and compelling. so i started writing something from the pov of someone who is just the most oblivious rhabbarb the world has ever seen. the rest evolved around it

11. Is there a genre or writing format you’d like to try in the future? not currently. these things tend to come to me with time and as soon as they do i try them out at once bc i can't wait haha

@writingonesdreams

1. How much of your writing is influenced by your daily life? Like does what happened during the day affect what and how you write? not intentionally but when it happens (and i notice it happening, usually) then it influences mostly my characters. their aspirations, their internal conflicts. the reason why daniel is struggling with the expectations of others is bc it's something i experience myself, although maybe not as strongly as he does. but then again, that's kind of a universal experience so it's not that noticable

2. How much of you is inside your characters? every single one of them has something from me but i always make sure to never make them too similar to me and whenever i see myself too much in them i start changing them around until i can distance myself enough from them to be able to write about someone else's experiences instead of my own

3. Do you start writing from the beginning or somewhere else? yes, i usually do

4. What is the most difficult for you about writing? connecting scenes. i never know when to write something out or to sum it up in one sentence and just dive into the next scene. it confuses me to no end

5. What is the hardest part about creating characters for you? my characters tend to come very naturally to me. they're born out of necessity for the plot and thus are fitted to it. i guess what is most difficult for me is reminding myself of the fact that all my charas have a live outside of the plot, except for my protagonist and usually have more than just that one (1) friend

6. What are the themes of your wip and what do they mean to you? both my wips deal with questions of morality, loyalty and autonomy and those are all themes that i spend a lot of my free time thinking about and/or that are very important personally. especially autonomy was always something that i was taught to value as a child and that my parents value a lot as well, even more than most germans which is saying something.

7. What books/movies/series whatever inspired or influenced your current wip the most? i honestly don't know. they're both not consciously inspired by specific media although i don't doubt that i was influenced by a lot of different works

8. What would be the biggest appreciation of your work for you? if someone loved it. if someone would read it not just once but then again just bc they felt like it and wanted to insert themselves into the world again. if someone would love the characters and bond with them. if my work meant something personal to someone.

9. Why did you choose to write this wip and not something else? What’s so special about it? my fantasy novel: i wanted to do a collab with a friend of mine whom i've known for a while now and she only writes fantasy so i thought it would be a good excuse to try myself out in the genre my drama novel: i honestly don't know. i can't even remember how the idea came to me but suddenly i was heads deep in a 1960's period drama about a gay dude and social pressure. i guess it was the way i write it, as minimal as possible, that appealed most to me

10. What kind of scenes do you not want to write/don’t enjoys writing but can’t get around them? scenes where i don't know what's going to happen plotwise but only the feeling that i want to get across

11. What part of the writing process is your favourite? (Coming up with the idea, thinking, outlining, researching, writing itself, editing, reading what you have written, etc) worldbuilding and creating characters bc i get to enjoy the creative process without worrying too much about perfection and editing bc it's meditative and bc i feel proud for completing my draft and don't have to worry about still having to write anything out. but i also love reading what i’ve already written! i guess in the end i have fun with all the parts lmao