#UPSET ABOUT IT

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[ryonello]

HI i finally made an instagram if you want to find me there 💕

had to cave and add a little bastard underscore ........

[housewifebuck]

God I wish I could write

[irlactualhuman]

Got fully ghosted by a dude I was talking to for a solid week or two with no indication that it would happen and no reason why.

Like. Fair enough. Okay. Your right to decide you don't wanna talk to me anymore, but genuinely: *why* did you act like you were so into me up until the last second? Usually, there's some sort of decline to track or an inciting moment or incident.

Ugh. We played smash melee together with awful ping. That used to mean something.

[slimedblr]

NO THEY KILLED THE PREGNANCY BIT

[itchose]

laura asked me why i said vienna by ultravox playing in two different travis scenes is significant to his death and now i'm making it everyone's problem. there are a few songs that play twice in the series and both times it plays, there's a reason for it.

we first hear vienna when travis is revealed to be dead.

the second time we hear it, he can't find javi, it's dark and getting cold, and he's starting to panic. nat finds him, and she tries to calm him down, and he tells her "something happened last night." something happened to him, something he's refusing to process himself, and he's focusing all his energy on finding javi instead. because he can't change what happened to him, he likely can never truly get over what happened to him, but finding javi is something he can do.

he's dealing with a lot of (misplaced) shame over what happened to him the night before, and while nat is the only one he feels like he can trust, it's so scary to even try to open up to her or be vulnerable with her at all so he feels like his only option is to push her away. he feels like he has to. he chose to go with jackie, that inevitably made him a target for all the other girls, and he feels like he betrayed nat for it. after all that happened, he can't fathom why nat would want to help, so he tries to push her away just to protect himself from that inevitably rejection that he thinks he deserves anyway.

"i don't want your help, nat." "i know." "i don't want your fucking help, nat." "i know." "[...] i'm so sorry. i didn't want to. i fucking love you, natalie."

it's the way she doesn't argue and just accepts it that travis eventually gets to the place of allowing himself to open up. he's never revealed this side of himself before, always hiding his vulnerability with anger and attempted cruelty instead ('attempted' because even though he says what he says, he doesn't really say any of it in a way that makes you think he believes in what he's saying). he's not good at apologies which is why he mumbles it out, hesitates before he says anything, but he finds it necessary. she's not arguing with him and that grants her access to his breakdown and he needs her, he's finally willing to admit it, even though he's so guarded with everyone now.

this wilderness scene goes back and forth between travis and nat's conversation + nat cleaning up her motel room as she prepares for her suicide attempt - with the photos of travis's death in the forefront, obviously implying that that's what's leading her to this. the scene in the teen timeline gives us real insight into why his death affects her so heavily in the adult timeline, but it also heavily parallels what travis is going through, too.

travis's death is so tied into his belief of what's going on in the wilderness + javi. both of these things started that night, the day after doomcoming, after what was his most traumatizing experience and he was desperate to find some way to cope. he couldn't be an outsider anymore because it made him a target, so he tried to follow lottie instead, become a part of it + give in to the blessings because he thought that's how he would survive - and ultimately, she gave him hope that his brother was still out there, and he needed that.

as an adult, he wants to talk to It, he wants to feel something, and the only way he knows how is to die, even just for a few moments. what happened to him on doomcoming + what happened to javi are both his most traumatizing events and they go hand in hand, he blames himself for what happened that night and inevitably losing javi because of it, and he thinks he would still be alive if they hadn't gone through that.

"a voice reaching out in a piercing cry, it stays with you until the feeling has gone."

the song plays in the teen timeline and ultimately signifies his impending doom. at this point, we already know that he's going to die. he's dead before the narrative begins but this song playing at his death reveal and here tells us that this is the start of how he gets there. doomcoming is so significant to the downfall of his entire life and his inevitable death.

[majorbaby]

unexpected bj feelings tonight

[communist-hatsunemiku]

the way i used to like, have serious issues with shame and shit irt to liking anime titty, RIP in pieces to that version of myself, glad your dead tbh

[rafeandonlyrafe]

well 🧍‍♀️ as a reminder this blog is NOT a safe space for trump supporters but it IS a safe place for women, queers, trans ppl, people of color, undocumented people, and any marginalized group.

[lazylittledragon]

can't believe we're all adults being forced into the club penguin level of censorship in 2024

[chaotic-neutral-knitter]

Harrow: my deepest darkest trauma is that my parents killed a bunch of children in order to make me into a powerful necromancer. they died for me. their blood is on my hands.

Gideon: that sucks dude. anyways I'm going to sacrifice myself to save your life. you'll be an even more powerful necromancer. pretty sick, huh?

Gideon: why are you so upset about this

Gideon: is it because you don't like me

[alagaisia]

Hey. Why isn’t the moon landing a national holiday in the US. Isn’t that fucked up? Does anyone else think that’s absurd?

[fallenangelblade]

mary winchester becomes a grandmother at age 30 when her sons, ages 38 and 34, adopt their dead 400 million-year-old best friend’s 22-year-old newborn son

[ineed-to-sleep]

Collection of bg3 sketches I've been nibbling at over the month. teehee

[anna-scribbles]

emma dupain cheng on the brain😽🎀

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[bamsara]

I think that one thing people fail to understand is that unsolicited literary criticism coming from an online stranger who is reading with no knowledge of what the authors intended goal is, is not going to be received the same as say: the authors beta reader or friends who know what the authors intended goal and has the sufficient knowledge and input to help the author reach that desired outcome.

"But I'm only trying to be helpful" How do I know you have the knowledge and literary skill for you to be able to actaully do that when we don't know each other and you are essentially a stranger to me? Are you applying this criticism based out of personal biased experience and desire to see the story or characterization be driven in another direction or tweaked, or do you know the author's intentions for the character? If the story is incomplete, are you basing your criticism of a character on the incomplete narration with only partial information available of them or are you building up a report until the story's completion? Did the author provide you with the information needed to make a fully informed criticism?

Have you discussed with the author what their plans are or are you assuming them based off the narration, especially if the narration is proven or implied to be unreliable or missing key points of the plot? Are you unbiased enough to help them reach their desired outcome for the characters and story regardless of your personal feelings towards the characters/antagonists and setting? Can you handle being told your specific input isn't wanted because you're a reader and/or have no written anything relating to their genre or topic? Do you understand and respect that the author's personal experiences might influence their writing and make it different than how you would have done it personally? Do you understand if an author only wants input from a specific demographic relating to their story?

If it's for fanfiction or other hobby media, are you holding a free hobby to a professional standard? Are you trying to give criticism because you feel like the author has produced 'subpar job performance' of their fic? Are you viewing their work as a personal intimate outlet or something that must conform with mass media? Are you applying rules and guidelines when the fic is shared for simple sharing sake? Is your criticism worded appropriately and focused on the parts where the author has requested input on rather than a general dismissal and or disapproval?

Have you put yourself in a place where you assumed you have the input needed for the story to evolve better, or have you asked what the author needs and what they're having trouble with? Can you handle having your criticism rejected if the author decides their story doesn't need the change and not take it as a personal offense against your character? Are you crossing that boundary because you think you are doing the author a favor? Are you trying to be helpful, or do you just want to be?

I think sometimes when people hear authors go 'please don't give me unsolicited writing advice or criticism' they automatically chalk it up to 'this author doesn't want ANY constructive feedback on their stuff at all' and not "i already have trusted individuals who will help me with my writing goals and- hey i don't know you like that, please stop acting so overly familiar with me'