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Fucking hell
Welcome to my TED talk where I tell you why our board manuals and preparation are useless. Ok, so I had my Hindi board today, it went well, alright not bad, eh, the lit and writing part was ok, all good and well. Now we come to grammar which is all right fine, ig I did ok, now, I come to comprehension tell me why(I had 4/4/4, set -2) the first question in the entire paper and I get the first four answers as all B, I am telling you, I have been having an impending panic attack the entire day. I cannot tell you how anxious I have been the entire day that I basically fucked up the first question FIRST QUESTION of my FIRST BOARD paper. I have been asking around to EVERYONE whether they have set two and whether they got the same answer to the first question as me, not just people from my school people from different schools in my area and people from different states I know. And they kept telling me that they did not get the same answers as me at all, my friend sent this answer key thingy with the answers of the 4 sets and I check and I am like BLOODY HELL, did I fuck up 50 per cent of my paper and I actually wanted to cry.
Now, Ways this could have been avoided was if THE FREAKING TEACHERS WERE KIND ENOUGH TO KINDLY LET US KNOW THERE LIKE 25 SETS, and tell me why I thought there were only going to be 4 sets throughout the entirety of India, I asked someone I knew and they were like, yes, there 6 groups of 4 sets which are 24 sets. So whoever I asked it's pointless because there is very little chance that we got the same group and set of paper, WHY ??, I-
Either ways is any of you cbse board, class 10 2023-24 term, Hindi board 2(sparsh, sanchayan), set no. 2 grp 4/4/2?? if so pls tell me what you got for the first comprehension (the magnus chase and Rameshbabu Praggnanandhaa para), I got 1-4 as B and 5th as D
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thenexustimes · 1 year ago
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UP Board Exam Date 2024: यूपी बोर्ड की परीक्षा शेड्यूल जारी यहां देखें कक्षा 10, 12 की डेटशीट!
UP Board Exam Date 2024: यूपी बोर्ड ने UP बोर्ड हाई स्कूल (कक्षा 10) और इंटरमीडिएट (कक्षा 12) परीक्षा 2024 की तिथियों की घोषणा की है। कक्षा 10 और 12 के बोर्ड परीक्षा 22 फरवरी, 2024, से प्रारंभ होकर 9 मार्च, 2024, तक समाप्त होंगी। UP Board Exam Date 2024 UP Board Exam Date 2024:उत्तर प्रदेश माध्यमिक शिक्षा परिषद (यूपीएमएसपी) ने UP बोर्ड हाई स्कूल (कक्षा 10) और इंटरमीडिएट (कक्षा 12) परीक्षा 2024…
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UP Board Exam 2023 | 10th board exam 2023 | UP Board | Board Exams 2023 | up board result 2023 | UP Board Exam
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latestsarkarijobs · 2 years ago
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UP Board 10th Class Exam Date 2023 – New Exam Time Table Announced
UP Board 10th Class Exam Date 2023 – New Exam Time Table Announced
Name of the Post: UP Board 10th Class 2023 New Exam Time Table Announced Post Date: 11-11-2022 Latest Update: 10-01-2023 Brief Information: Board of High School and Intermediate Education Uttar Pradesh (UPMSP) has announced exam date for 10th class 2023. Candidates can check their exam date at below link Board of High School & Intermediate Education, Uttar Pradesh (UPMSP) 10th Class Exam…
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clarisse0o · 2 months ago
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Camp Wiegman-Part 78
Lucy Bronze x Ona Batlle
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Sunday, April 10th – Manchester Airport.
I've never been so excited to go on vacation. I'm sitting next to Lucy, holding her hand. We're waiting for our flight. Jenni and Alexia dropped us off an hour ago after we ate together, and now we're alone. It's soothing to be just the two of us, especially after the past few weeks.
"Excited?" Lucy whispers to me.
"Oh yes."
"It will be well-deserved."
We exchange a smile. After nonstop studying, tests, mock exams, and even working at the gallery with Grace for two Saturdays... Yes, I think it will be well-deserved. I've worked hard, but I don't regret it. It helped lift a huge weight off my shoulders. At least I've secured my spot at art school for next year. That's something. Now, as agreed with Lucy, I must step away from my studies for two weeks. It's difficult because my diploma is still on my mind. I worked hard, and I think I did quite well on my mock exams this week, but you never really know. In the meantime, I promised to make the most of these two weeks, so I’m trying not to think about it. The only thing I need to focus on is Lucy and our families.
"I was thinking we could go camping," I shared with Lucy.
"Camping, huh?"
"Yeah. We've talked about it so much. It would be a great opportunity. Or at least spend the evening on the beach! Oh my God, I’ve missed that so much," I said excitedly. "With a campfire, marshmallows, and—"
"Hey," Lucy laughed. "Relax. We'll have all the time to do whatever you want. It seems work has gotten to your head, huh?" she teased, running her hand through my hair.
"Are you making fun of me?" I asked, pouting.
"Oh no," she smiled mischievously.
"That was the deal, remember? I had to give it my all until vacation and then calm down afterward."
"That’s true. You didn’t sneak any study materials into your suitcase, did you? Maybe I should have checked."
"Stop," I giggled. "I wouldn’t do that."
"Oh no. That's not like you at all."
I laughed harder and playfully slapped her thigh at her irony. It's true I thought about it, but I didn't do it. I really want to enjoy this relaxing vacation. After all, we're going back home.
"Hey, none of that," she said, intertwining our fingers after my playful slap. "We have to endure almost 3 hours together in the air, so let’s not start hitting each other."
"True, but we'll sleep through half of it, so you don’t have to worry."
"Speak for yourself. You're a real napper."
I smiled. It's hard to argue with that. I enjoy being calm in moments like this. Finally, boarding time arrives. This is going to be a long trip. My six-hour flight back to Barcelona will seem like nothing compared to the nineteen hours we're about to face, with a layover, no less. We settle into our seats after passing through security. It's a shame, but I won’t see Shay here. She explained that she tries to be on the Barcelona flight as often as possible because her boyfriend lives there.
"Do you take this trip often?" I asked my girlfriend, gazing out of the window.
I’m eager to take off, but also nervous. I've never liked flying to Portugal. I wonder how Lucy feels about it. I remember she's not particularly fond of flying either.
"I think I’ve told you before," she answered. "I visit my parents twice a year… although, that might change next year."
"Why? Because of me? Please don't say that. I haven’t even met your parents yet, and they're going to hate me."
"Why are you getting so worked up?" she laughed. "Of course not. The venue will take up a lot of my time. I'll have other things to do than visit them. They'll just have to come to me for once."
"Okay," I murmured.
"Are you still nervous about meeting them?"
"A little…"
"Everything will be fine, I promise."
I smiled as she brought my hand to her lips. She makes me feel like everything's going to be okay. It’s crazy.
"Come on, get some rest. The trip is long, so you might as well recharge."
"Doesn’t it bother you...?"
"Sweetheart, you’ve been pushing yourself hard for three weeks. I know you’re tired. Rest, this is your time."
"Okay," I murmured. "Promise you won’t let me sleep too long though? I don’t want to leave you alone for the entire trip."
"Sweetheart, don’t worry about that. Sleep. We’ll have plenty of time to enjoy each other’s company when we land."
She nudged me to rest my head against her. I smiled and settled into a comfortable position. It’s true, a little rest wouldn’t hurt. I’ve been going non-stop. It’s time to relax, but before that... she’s right. I need some rest.
"Thank you," I murmured as I watched the takeoff through the window.
My eyelids felt heavy after half an hour. I tried to stay awake to keep Lucy company, but she seemed to avoid talking to help me fall asleep. It didn’t take long.
Sunday, April 10th, – Lisbon Airport.
It's either early or late... I’m not sure anymore. Now I remember why I hate jet lag. The good thing is the flight made me forget the time and regain some energy. I feel great, and I think Lucy does too. We’ve got silly smiles on our faces. We know we’ll finally be able to live safely here. We were so happy to return to our homeland. As we enter the terminal, I immediately spot my grandpa. Lucy must have sensed my excitement because she released my hand without saying a word, letting me run toward him. I immediately hug him tightly.
"I'm so happy to see you again! I missed you."
"And I missed you."
We pull apart, and I turn toward Lucy, who’s now by my side again. Before I even have time to introduce them, my grandpa asks:
"Well, is this the lucky one?" he says with a grin.
"Yes. Grandpa, this is Lucy. Lucy, this is Charlie Batlle, my grandfather."
"Nice to finally meet you. Ona’s told me a lot about you."
She smiles genuinely, though I can tell there’s a bit of tension behind it. My grandpa chuckles and catches her off guard by giving her a big hug.
"Forget formalities with me, dear. It’s a pleasure to meet my granddaughter’s girlfriend."
I smile in return. I didn’t expect this meeting to go any other way. My grandpa has such a big heart. When I told him who I was coming with, he was thrilled. I expected nothing less from him.
"How was the flight?" he asks as we start walking.
"Long, but overall good."
"Oh yes, it’s quite a haul. But we’re glad to finally be here."
I let them chat as I take in my surroundings. Just feeling the ground beneath my feet is a pleasure. My legs had started to go numb from sitting for so long. The sun shines through the large windows, making me smile. I feel like a ball of energy. It's wonderful to be back, but also hard. The last time I was here was for my father’s funeral... I don’t have time to dwell on it, though, as we grab our bags and head outside. The weather feels nice. A bit cool, but I’m not surprised given the time. It's early, and this time of year, we’re in autumn. I think we’ll be lucky. It feels mild, and we’ll be able to do lots of outdoor activities like we talked about on the plane.
"How’s the weather?" I ask my grandpa for his opinion.
- "I think you're going to be lucky in the next few days," he replies with a smile.
- "Great."
We walk through the parking lot, looking for his car. I spot it immediately, remembering it perfectly.
- "Oh, you still have your old pickup!? I can't believe it!"
I rush over to it, making my girlfriend laugh. I've always loved this car. My grandfather used to let me sit in the back whenever we took short trips. I expected him to have gotten rid of it by now.
- "It's a nice car," Lucy comments, running her hand over the bodywork. "1970 Chevrolet, right?"
- "Yes, that's right," my grandfather says, surprised. "You like cars?"
- "She loves them," I chime in before Lucy can respond. "She's a huge fan. If there's anyone you can talk to about your old cars, it's definitely her."
- "She's exaggerating," my girlfriend replies, a bit embarrassed. "I know a little thanks to my dad. He loves them, so I guess I inherited that from him."
- "Do you know a bit about mechanics?" he continues. "Because I think this old thing could use a little tune-up."
- "Oh. Well, I can take a look if you'd like. I restored my first car with my dad, and it was about the same age, so I think I can manage."
- "Really?" I say, surprised. "I didn't know that."
I knew she liked cars, but I never knew where it came from. Now I do. I think these holidays are going to be a way for us to learn more about each other. After all, we’re returning to our roots.
- "I wouldn't be as interesting if I told you everything all at once," she teases, making my grandfather laugh.
- "She's right! That's how I kept your grandmother for all those years."
He adores my girlfriend, it's obvious. I couldn't be happier. His opinion matters a lot to me. It's like my dad accepting her.
- "What was her name?" Lucy asks.
- "Mandie."
- "That's a beautiful name. We’ll have to keep it in mind for later."
I blush at this comment, which is clearly not a joke. It's obvious she means it. I think back to the conversation we had at the restaurant. She really does want to have kids with me someday. Finally, we pack our things into the back. Once we're done, my grandfather hands the keys to my girlfriend.
- "Oh, um..."
She looks at me, unsure of what to do. I shrug with a little smile.
- "I wouldn’t say no if I were you. You must be dying to, and let’s just say he doesn’t let just anyone drive his baby..."
- "Oh yes, that's for sure," confirms my grandfather.
- "I don’t even know the way," she tries to argue.
- "Well, we’ll guide you," I reply. "Come on, I'll sit next to you."
I snatch the keys from my grandfather and drag Lucy to encourage her to do it. I sit in the middle to stay by her side. I can tell she's feeling a bit awkward behind the wheel, but that quickly fades once we leave the airport. I smile because it's clear she's enjoying herself. The engine purrs, showing its age, but it still drives smoothly. It just needs a good clean-up. On the other side, I can see my grandfather is happy too. He was so excited to know we were coming. It's been a long time since anyone visited him. I know he knows a lot of people here, but it must be tough losing all your loved ones and being left without family nearby. In any case, he's in great shape. He hasn’t stopped talking the entire ride. I'm really glad I got some sleep on the plane; otherwise, I wouldn’t have handled this conversation as well given the time of day. On the other hand, I'm enjoying seeing Lisbon again. It feels like home. I smile when Lucy parks in front of the family house. It’s a little home that I’ve always been particularly fond of. We’re far from the city, and there’s a small beach just behind it. I’ve always found this place to be peaceful. Lucy must think the same, judging by the way she looks at the house with wonder.
- "You must be starving," says my grandfather as he gets out of the car. "I’ll go make you both some breakfast. Ona, why don’t you show her around the house while you wait?"
- "Yeah," I say, snapping out of my thoughts. "Yeah, of course. Thanks."
We get out as well, and I smile as I watch Lucy taking it all in. It feels strange to see her here, far from our obligations, but especially at my place. I finally feel like her girlfriend and not just her student.
- "Not bad, huh?" I ask, nudging her playfully.
- "It’s beautiful, indeed," she says with a small smile. "Is this the family home?"
- "Yeah... This was my dad’s last home," I confess.
- "Really?" she raises an eyebrow.
- "Yeah. He came back to live here after... my grandmother passed away and my parents divorced."
- "I see," she nods. "It’s a lovely place, though," she whispers. "You must have a lot of memories here."
- "Oh yes..." I breathe.
I squeal in surprise as we’re interrupted by a ball of fur that literally jumps on me. Lucy bursts out laughing and crouches down to greet the dog, who quickly forgets about me.
- "I can’t believe it! A little petting, and he’s off to someone else," I grumble, making my girlfriend smile.
- "Good thing humans aren’t like that. So, aren’t you going to introduce me?" she teases. "It’s an Australian Shepherd, isn’t it?"
I laugh, shaking my head.
- "Yes, that’s right. Let me introduce you to Buzz, the youngest member of the family. Well, sort of!" I giggle.
- "Wow. He seems like such a sweet dog."
I tilt my head with a smile, noticing she’s clearly no longer paying attention to me at the moment. Oh, so she really loves dogs, huh? Another thing I didn’t know. I crouch down too and finally manage to get the dog’s attention, along with Lucy’s.
- "Do you like dogs?" she asks me.
- "I do, yes. I didn’t know you were such a fan."
- "Oh, I love them, but they need a lot of attention, unfortunately."
- "That’s true."
I start petting Buzz too. I missed him. My dad wanted to get a dog so my grandfather wouldn’t be alone when he was away on missions. My grandfather wasn’t too keen on the idea at first, but in the end, he’s the one most attached to Buzz.
- "Maybe we could consider getting one."
I look up at Lucy in surprise.
- "Really?"
- "Well, why not? Maybe not right away, but once we see how our schedule is next year. If everything works out, we could get one."
- "Definitely, yes!"
I nod enthusiastically, making Lucy laugh. It would be a great first step toward commitment.
- "Alright," she says, standing up.
- "I should really show you around the house," I announce, standing up too.
We grab our bags and head inside. It feels strange being here again... The last time I was, my dad was still around. It’s bittersweet because I’ve always loved his rustic style. Lucy must have noticed my change in mood because she gently places her hand on my back.
- "Will you show me our room?"
I smile shyly and nod. From where we’re standing, we can see the living room, but I lead her upstairs to our left instead. Lucy follows closely behind. The house isn’t very big, but it has three bedrooms and a bathroom just on the upper floor. Mine is at the end. When we walk through the door, we’re greeted by a room flooded with light from a large bay window that opens onto a small terrace, almost as small as my room itself. It’s barely big enough for a bed and a wardrobe, but it’s more than enough. I chose this room because I fell in love with the view of the sea. I’ve lost count of how many times I left the curtains open just to wake up to that view, accompanied by the sound of the waves. It feels like paradise. Nothing has been moved, yet I can tell everything is clean. My grandfather must have taken the time to tidy up.
"It’s lovely," she whispers, pulling me out of my memories. "Is that your dad? »
I nod as she points to a picture of us. To be honest, it's the last one we took together. We were in the back, by the sea, and he tried to throw me into the water when we had just arrived here. In the end, it made for a beautiful shot, taken by my grandfather.
"You look a lot like him," she says with a small, sad smile. "How about we take a walk this afternoon? We can visit his grave while we're at it."
"Really?" I reply, surprised. "I mean, I don't want to burden you with that. I would have done it another time, like when you go for your morning run."
"Don't be silly. I'd like to come with you, if that's okay."
I smile softly and nod. I didn't want to pressure her, but if it's her idea, I won't say no.
"Okay... Thank you."
"It's nothing. You seem uneasy... Are you sure you're alright?"
"Yeah. It's just strange to be here..."
"You haven't been back since?"
"No," I admit. "We came back for the funeral, but..."
I take a deep breath. She has a right to know, after all.
"I didn't have the courage to set foot here again. I made my mom book us hotel rooms."
She nods in understanding.
"Come here."
She opens her arms, and I immediately snuggle into her embrace. She kisses my forehead, holding me tightly.
"It’ll be okay, alright? He wouldn't want to see you like this."
"I know... But it's stronger than me."
"Okay," she says, pulling back. "You know what? We didn't come here to mope around, so... How about we plan that stargazing night tonight instead? We can always take that walk another day. I can see you need a distraction."
"Really?"
"Well, yeah. If I'd known there was a beach right behind the house, I would've agreed to this sooner. Might as well enjoy it while the weather's nice. It might not last long."
She's amazing... She always finds ways to lift my spirits. I smile and nod. There's no rush now that we're here, but I really like this idea to start things off.
"Great... And what do you say we help your grandfather now? I can already smell waffles, and honestly, I’m starving."
I laugh and nod. If there’s one thing that didn’t go well during the trip, it’s the meals over the past few hours. A good breakfast will do us good.
"Yeah... You're right. You’ll be impressed. His waffles are the best."
"Oh, really? Better than mine?"
"Um... Hard to say... But yes. I’d say so," I tease, grinning.
"Oh, really? I might need to remind you otherwise..."
"Wh-"
I don’t even get to finish my sentence before she attacks me with tickles. I burst out laughing, squirming to escape her grasp, but it's no use. I accidentally pull her down onto the bed, but she still keeps control. I tend to forget just how strong she is.
"S-stop, p-please."
"Oh, now you’re begging?"
I can barely catch my breath. Lucy slows down, but her laughter still echoes in my head.
"So? Are you going to admit my waffles are the best?"
I try to breathe, but giggles still escape. Her fingers hover threateningly over my stomach, as if daring me to give the wrong answer. I grin, deciding to play along.
"I’m not changing my mind," I say with exaggerated seriousness.
Her mock-offended expression makes me smile like an idiot. I love when we’re like this together.
"Oh yeah? And what should I do to change your mind, huh? Oh, I think I know..."
I laugh as her lips brush against my neck.
"Please. You can’t torture me like this."
"Oh really?" she whispers. "I think I’m the only one who has the right to torture you like this."
I wrap my arms around her neck. I can’t help it. What I wasn’t expecting was for her to start tickling me again, this time under my shirt. The sneaky move leaves me laughing uncontrollably, unable to defend myself.
"S-stop, stop! Okay, okay, you win! Yours are the best! Yours are the best!"
The torture stops at my pleas. The next moment, her lips meet mine, and I immediately relax. I laugh as I try to catch my breath. She really is the one I need, no doubt about it.
"See? That wasn’t so hard."
"Girls?" my grandfather calls out. "Everything’s ready, if you’re hungry."
"Well, look at that. We didn’t even get to help your grandpa."
"He’ll survive," I murmur before kissing her.
I wrap my legs around her waist, but Lucy doesn't seem to agree. Though she chuckles, she gently pushes them away.
"Sweetheart..."
"What?" I laugh. "He can wait two more minutes."
"Okay," she sighs.
She kisses me back. I smile as I feel her hand caressing my stomach. She doesn’t even realize how much she drives me crazy... or maybe she does, judging by the way I move my hips against her.
"Not here, and definitely not now," she teases. "We need to go down."
"But!"
I groan in protest, making her laugh softly. She’s so adorable, looking at me with her head tilted. Her eyes drift down my body, and I realize my shirt is pushed up to my chest. I quickly pull it down, which brings her gaze back to my face.
"If I don’t get to, neither do you."
"Oh, you’re like that now?"
"Yep. Too bad for you. You’re missing out."
I get up from the bed and walk down the hallway, purposely swaying my hips for her to watch. I can hear her laughing behind me, which makes me turn around to stick my tongue out at her. What I wasn’t expecting was for her to catch up and grab my butt at that exact moment.
"Don’t worry, I plan to take care of that during this vacation," she whispers to me.
"Really?" I reply, breathless. "If you stick to your rule of no hooking up under family roofs, we won’t be doing much of anything."
"Who said it would be in a bed?"
Her comment stops me at the top of the stairs. Did I hear that right? Where did my innocent girlfriend go!? It’s her turn to tease me with a playful smile as she walks into the living room where my grandfather is waiting for us. Oh my God. We’ve only just started our vacation, but I don’t know why, I feel like this will be the best one we’ve ever had. Then again, we came here... there's no other word. We understand each other, we live together. I’ve never had it so easy with anyone else. My father was right. In life, you only meet one true love. It doesn’t matter how many people come before or even after... but there’s only one, and you feel it instantly. You just have to be lucky enough to find them. I think I knew from the first day what Lucy would mean to me. I was scared at first. After all, we each tried to push the other away with all our strength... But once again, my father was right. You can’t avoid the inevitable. Fate wanted us to be together, and here we are. One thing’s for sure, I’m not going to repeat my parents' mistakes. Lucy is going to be my priority, and I’ll make sure to nurture our relationship. It’s my turn to show her she deserves the world. Smiling, I join her as she’s already deep in conversation with my grandfather about old cars. Yeah, this woman is perfect.
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ramblingsfromthytruly · 2 months ago
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my academic journey (warning: i ranted) -
so ever since i started school till about the end of 8th grade i was always a 90%+/straight A student. the kind of child my classmates & cousins would be compared too. not trying to glamorize comparison btw, i personally think that's really toxic & pressurizing. so yeah, i was a "good" quiet kid. i listened attentively in class and submitted all my homework on time. the only complain teachers had about me was that i was "too quiet" but that wasn't a real issue. i was just shy but talkative with my few friends yano. i spent the entirety of 7th grade & most of 8th grade in online classes so my habits of studying went to shit. still somehow managed 91% in my 8th grade finals. and then 9th began and it all went downhill. teachers kept saying 'next year is ur board exams, u need to study a lot, etc, etc.' so if u're not from india we basically have these major 'board exams' at the end of 10th & 12th grade. but 10th boards don't really matter all that much, teachers just make a big fuss about it. 12th boards matter, but that's also the time we give college entrance exams and that sorta matters more according to most ppl. n yeah, idk what happened but i got overwhelmed. i could no longer just do well in class and study before exams and get good marks. i felt dumb. my grades didn't see a single improvement. i honestly gave up in the middle of it all and got sick of school. and at one point, it became less burn out & more clinging to the familiarity of not doing anything. i became lazy. and i became a hypocrite. i'd always tell myself, this time i'm gonna study, this time i'm gonna score well. well that 'this time' never came. 10th grade got even worse and i scored 73% in my board exams because i barely studied at all. at the same time, my relationship with my parents has constantly been unraveling. and i saw just how much of their 'pride' was dependent on me being the kid they could show off and smile widely when others replied 'wow she's going places'. my father can't hold a single conversation with me now that doesn't go back to me being a disappointment. and now i'm the kid who has to listen to her parents compare her to others. 'be like her, your friend', they say. halfway though 11th rn and i guess what?? still no fucking improvement. but the thing is i know this is the last straw. i can feel it. i got around 64% in my first tests (pa-1) of 11th. haven't gotten mid term results yet but i'm estimating just above 50%. and the thing is it's not that i can't score well. i know my potential all too well. i know i can score such high marks. but the problem is i don't study. if i just studied a couple hours every day, i can easily manage above 80%. with constant improvement i can manage above 90% again. but i don't. and that's ending right this instant. i'm not gonna turn into an academic weapon overnight or smth ik that. but i'm gonna start slowly but surely working hard. i have big dreams, i know i can achieve them if i just put in the effort. plans have been made, all i need to do is execute them. execute my laziness. i'm gonna get better. i'm gonna prove everyone who thinks i'm never gonna do it wrong, and i'm gonna prove myself right. this comeback will be for me, my inner child. the little kid in me deserves to not wind up a washed-out failure.
academic goals! -
pa-2 - 75-80%
11th finals - 80-85%
12th pa-1 - above 90%
uni - iiser (college for pure science research, bs + ms integrated)
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studywithmith · 4 days ago
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Introduction
Heya it’s mith! This is a nickname from my original name. I am Tamil and I’m from the state of Tamilnadu from south India :)
This is a study or/blog about my life as a CBSE student where I’ll post about motivation, any interesting topics and just tips that I found useful. I am planning on posting my 11th chemistry notes by the end of this year, once I’ve finished typing them up as I’ve hand written them! So you will see resources being posted!!
I am a high-school student, 17 years old ( year 11/ 11th grade )studying in the science stream. My subjects include —
Physics.
Chemistry.
Mathematics.
Computer Science (python)
English
Why a studyblr?
I opened this studyblr in order to stay productive and help others to do so too if I can. Also through this account I would like to share bits of my student life and motivate other students to do what a student should do like - study and enjoy life. I will post a lot about how to get motivation and how I study certain subjects and these posts will update as I go along!
Any competitive exams?
I am doing four exams ( sobs) which are for design and architecture respectively. These are NATA, JEE paper 2 ( this includes, maths, drawing and aptitude , not physics chemistry and maths ) , UCEED ( design) and NIFT ( design)
Future career?
I am hoping to study design or architecture and maybe get a literature or business degree as a side goal.
Any goals for 2024?
I wanna learn foreign languages such as Italian since it’s my current obsession. I’ve already learnt a bit of French so I’m planning on learning all of the Romance languages, so you will see me post about language learning too!!
More about me:
I was born in England and I’ve lived in India and England on and off, every few years I’d shift to England and then come back to India. I did my boards (10th) in the uk in the form of GCSEs. GCSEs are usually done in 10th and 11th so I’m repeating a year again in India so it’s easier for me for my 12th boards!
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study blogging!
Tagged as #studydaily- it's where I post about my daily study logs.
study_plans!
Tagged as #study plans - it's in the name lol. It's where I post about what I'm gonna do to keep myself disciplined.
motivation!
Tagged as #motivation - to keep myself and you motivated! :)
litblr!
Tagged as #litblr - for literature and any other interesting topics
questions!
Tagged as #questions - just some questions lol!
know me!
Tagged as #know me — it's in the name :p
NATA and JEE2 help
Tagged as #NATAandJEE2 - where I post about the architecture exams and general tips and resources
UCEED and NIFT help
Tagged as #UCEEDandNIFT - where I post about the design exams and general tips and resources
Language learning!
Tagged as #languageblr - I post about my progress in learning languages, this will be separate to my daily logs so i won’t post whatever I learnt in languages in my daily logs. I might create a separate account for langauges alone!!
Tips
Tagged as #chemtips, #mathtips, #phytips, #Cstips and #engtips - these tags are specifically for tips that I’d found useful sharing in that particular subject! You can also use the tag #tips to find all the tips and tricks in one go!
Notes!
Tagged as #notetaking- as I have said earlier, I am planning on posting my chemistry notes by the end of December once I’ve finished typing them up and making them colourful to read. This will be free Ofc, and it does follow the ncert pattern.
Well nice meeting you, maybe drop a comment so that I can know you too?
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I'm hoping for the best to happen and also working for it!! <3 Show some support please for this account and have a great day/ night!!
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sukoon-rooh · 7 months ago
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Assalamualaikum tumblees 🤗
I was simply sitting and a thought appeared in my mind!
Why not get closer to our Deen by sharing Tahajjud stories? Do y'all believe in miracles? Because I do. I do believe in miracles of Allah SWT.
I'll go first.
My Tahajjud story is from 4 years ago. I was in class 10th and due to the pandemic, family problems were going on. My board exams were appearing and I had lost hope but I didn't lose hope in Allah SWT's mercy. I kept praying my 5 daily prayers along with Tahajjud and Ishraq (Duha). I used to stay awake the whole night just so I wouldn't miss Tahajjud. I kept making dua for the cancellation of my board exams but as the days passed by, they confirmed that we'd have the exams. I was deeply saddened because I was not prepared up to my expectations. There were not a few days left for my exams when my dad passed away. I thought of skipping the exam and taking a drop but I didn't wanna give up too. Somehow with the little confidence that I had in my little preparation, I went to take my exam. And after seeing the question paper I was amazed to see that it was the easiest question paper ever 😭. Alhamdulillah 😭. After the exams, I made dua that I should get good results and guess what it was way more than I expected Alhamdulillah. It was 92% Alhamdulillah 🥹. But after losing my dad and being hit by such calamity I lost hope within myself. I gave up praying. Whenever I used to try, I was getting lazy or just giving up. But now after 4 years, after struggling with myself, after making lots of dua, I'm back to praying 5 times and Tahajjud too. Alhamdulillah 😭. I can't thank Allah SWT enough for all the blessings in my life. Alhamdulillah 🥹.
Now share your Tahajjud story to inspire others who are struggling to pray! May Allah SWT reward you 🤍
-اقرأ
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my-castles-crumbling · 2 months ago
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Hey Cas! I'm sorry just need to rant so day's been pretty shit my marks are vv bad.....but expected tbh like I told u these exams are vvvvv hard I got 71/100 in eng lit 70/100 in geog 80/100 in phy I've been depressed since after skl and skl was omg so fucking bad C wont even talk to me My seatmate R was a great help I had 3 panic attacks today and she kinda helped me through them But now at home it's just total shit After I came from tuition (sort of like tutoring for certain subjects) I was literally in the car with mom on our way home and both my mom and tuition teacher were criticizing abt me and I was already crying before then They tell me that I'm too helpful or that I panic and that is no reason IFK THAT IT IS NO REASON......NO NEED TO POINT IT OUT!!!!!!!!! And skl is off tomorrow so I will be even more depressed at home My dad's gonna kill me idk if i'll get my pc now and I just honestly want to die cuz this shit is maddening On top off that my skl teachers embarrassed me My English teacher told me that she expected more from me My Hindi teacher called me in front of the whole class and asked me why I used a red pen for heading Bitch was colorblind it was fucking pink and I couldn't point that out to her cuz she'll be more bitchy And everyone tells me that I hv boards (sort of like GCSE's) in 10th so considering my status i'll probably fail They tell me it's useless to cry...and I'm just making a big deal (idk how that came up) basically I'm crying to show that I realize my mistakes but I dont reallly realize it.... LIKE BITCH I WOULD CRY FOR SHOW DO YOU FUCKING THINK I WANT EVRY1 TO KNOW I'M DEPRESSED!?!?! My class thinks I'm some dumb kid and honestly idk wht they think(glad idk) Idek anymore..... Like the pain is so bad I cant express it and I feel numb just literally no emotions rn except depression(edited) tx for listening <33
Hi!
Okay so I don't know the grading system where you live but isn't a 70 and 71 still a passing grade? Passing is still something to be proud of. These adults sound awful, like...how are you supposed to feel like you're able to succeed when all they do is make you feel stupid?
Please try to take deep breaths and be kind to yourself. I am so proud of you and I know how hard it can be. These grades are nothing to be ashamed of <3
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academicgremlinhehe · 2 months ago
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my academic journey (warning: i ranted) -
so ever since i started school till about the end of 8th grade i was always a 90%+/straight A student. the kind of child my classmates & cousins would be compared too. not trying to glamorize comparison btw, i personally think that's really toxic & pressurizing. so yeah, i was a "good" quiet kid. i listened attentively in class and submitted all my homework on time. the only complain teachers had about me was that i was "too quiet" but that wasn't a real issue. i was just shy but talkative with my few friends yano. i spent the entirety of 7th grade & most of 8th grade in online classes so my habits of studying went to shit. still somehow managed 91% in my 8th grade finals. and then 9th began and it all went downhill. teachers kept saying 'next year is ur board exams, u need to study a lot, etc, etc.' so if u're not from india we basically have these major 'board exams' at the end of 10th & 12th grade. but 10th boards don't really matter all that much, teachers just make a big fuss about it. 12th boards matter, but that's also the time we give college entrance exams and that sorta matters more according to most ppl. n yeah, idk what happened but i got overwhelmed. i could no longer just do well in class and study before exams and get good marks. i felt dumb. my grades didn't see a single improvement. i honestly gave up in the middle of it all and got sick of school. and at one point, it became less burn out & more clinging to the familiarity of not doing anything. i became lazy. and i became a hypocrite. i'd always tell myself, this time i'm gonna study, this time i'm gonna score well. well that 'this time' never came. 10th grade got even worse and i scored 73% in my board exams because i barely studied at all. at the same time, my relationship with my parents has constantly been unraveling. and i saw just how much of their 'pride' was dependent on me being the kid they could show off and smile widely when others replied 'wow she's going places'. my father can't hold a single conversation with me now that doesn't go back to me being a disappointment. and now i'm the kid who has to listen to her parents compare her to others. 'be like her, your friend', they say. halfway though 11th rn and i guess what?? still no fucking improvement. but the thing is i know this is the last straw. i can feel it. i got around 64% in my first tests (pa-1) of 11th. haven't gotten mid term results yet but i'm estimating just above 50%. and the thing is it's not that i can't score well. i know my potential all too well. i know i can score such high marks. but the problem is i don't study. if i just studied a couple hours every day, i can easily manage above 80%. with constant improvement i can manage above 90% again. but i don't. and that's ending right this instant. i'm not gonna turn into an academic weapon overnight or smth ik that. but i'm gonna start slowly but surely working hard. i have big dreams, i know i can achieve them if i just put in the effort. plans have been made, all i need to do is execute them. execute my laziness. i'm gonna get better. i'm gonna prove everyone who thinks i'm never gonna do it wrong, and i'm gonna prove myself right. this comeback will be for me, my inner child. the little kid in me deserves to not wind up a washed-out failure.
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jaybleu25 · 8 months ago
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My Heart Hears You (Part 1)
Another HS Bros related story!! Again, if you want to know more about my AU and such, you can check out my channel or send me asks! I'll be happy to respond!
------------------------------------------------------------------------------Time: HS Years; Bros are in 9th, Bowser is in 10th. Setting: Bowser's Castle. Work room. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------
... The previous night was a rough one. Not just for Luigi, but for Bowser as well. Due to Bowser's low grades during his freshman year of high school for his science class, he had to be held back in terms of his science classes. Unfortunately, this meant that he ended up having to share a class with Luigi. Mario was there too though, which made the class not as boring. However, things got worse once it was revealed there would be a group project as the final exam grade. While Bowser hoped to get Mario, he mainly was hoping to just get anyone but Luigi. And yet, his wish did not come true. Luigi and Bowser were stuck together. While Bowser found it annoying, Luigi found it terrifying. Not only did that mean Luigi had to spend more time around Bowser, his main tormentor, but he also knew Bowser would likely do none of the work. Luigi would have to do it all, like always. It wasn't anything new to Luigi, however. During his time at high school so far, whenever he's had to do something group related, he'd always end up doing all the work (unless, of course, Mario was in his group; then they'd share). The only thing Luigi was worried about now was the fact that Bowser would likely pressure him more during it. That ended up being the case. The day before the group project was due, Bowser 'kindly' requested for Luigi to come to his castle. This was so they could finish the group project, and also so they'd be left alone, away from Mario and Princess Peach. That way, Bowser could do what he wanted without being caught. As Luigi had predicted, Bowser made Luigi do everything himself. The group project topic was essentially up to the group. The group had to pick a random topic, and they had to teach the class about it. Luigi decided to pick the topic of brine lakes; the idea of certain water being underwater intrigued him. Bowser was not as impressed. He didn't really like water that much. He felt it was too cold. During the time spent at Bowser's castle, Luigi did the best he could to work on the 'group' project. All while Bowser continued to pressure him. The main things Luigi was working on were both the trifold board, as well as on what he and Bowser would say during the presentation. Essentially, he had to come up with not only an entire essay, but he also had to work on the design of the trifold board that would somehow visually represent brine lakes. Luigi tried to make the trifold board have not too much information that would be boring to look at, but he also did his best to make it look somewhat visually pleasing. Unfortunately, Luigi was not the best at art. Mario was more skilled in that department. What he lacked in art however, he made up for with his essay. He had such a way with words. Unfortunately for Luigi, he had a disruptive partner. A partner who also kept asking every 30 minutes if he was 'done yet'. Additionally, this partner continued to get more and more bored. "Are you done yet?" Bowser asked, annoyed. "I'm s-still finishing up the essay..." Luigi responded. "Ugh, do we really have to do that whole thing?" Bowser groaned. We? "I mean, it's water underneath water," said Bowser. "What's so interesting about that? It's just there." "W-Well, actually, the brine contains high concentrations of hydrogen sulfide and--" "Ughh, who cares??" Bowser groaned even more. "Why is that important??" "Because they're toxic to marine animals due to their high salinity and anoxic properties," Luigi answered. "In English," Bowser asked. Luigi would take a deep breath. "If you touch it, it gives you a toxic shock, and could possibly kill you." Bowser would go silent. "...Woah," muttered Bowser, taken aback. "Water can do that?" Luigi would nod. While the topic of brine lakes did intrigue him, the main reason he actually wanted to do a presentation on it was to warn people. They could be dangerous. "Well, i-if the pressure from being so low down in the water doesn't, then...y-yeah," Luigi responded timidly.
-To be continued...-
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Part 1: You're already here!
Part 1.5: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746341378314944512/my-heart-hears-you-part-15
Part 2: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746500897895514112/my-heart-hears-you-part-2?source=share
Part 3: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746506353298767872/my-heart-hears-you-part-3
Part 4: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746920665451495424/my-heart-hears-you-part-4
Part 5: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746921486930034688/my-heart-hears-you-part-5
Part 6: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746923474412568576/my-heart-hears-you-part-6
Part 7: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/746924406863020032/my-heart-hears-you-part-7
Part 8: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/747120181983281152/my-heart-hears-you-part-8
Part 9: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/747121034850975744/my-heart-hears-you-part-9
Part 10: https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/747121820844556288/my-heart-hears-you-part-10
Part 11 (END): https://www.tumblr.com/jaybleu25/747122379621269504/my-heart-hears-you-part-11
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daughterofruins · 9 months ago
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Hey! what books have you read by Jane Austen?
I'm about to read Pride and Prejudice after my exams(and i know I'll love it), but I have another book by her downloaded, so thought of asking your opinion
Persuasion, it's called
Hey!
Exama rn? Wait are you giving your 10th boards? Because I am
that sounded like kya aapke toothpaste mein namak hai
Anyways Jane Austen you say my sweet summer child? Buckle up because that is my favourite author right there hehe
PRIDE AND PREJUDICE IS EXCELLENT ITS JUST MUAH GO GIVE IT A READ IT'S FANTASTIC. I read first when I was in class 4 and it was an abridged version and believed for a very long time that Jane was the main character and yet Liz had so much more drama lol. I absolutely love that book possibly because I have a thing for arrogant dummies who turn into softies around women they love and use meanness as methods of flirting
Anyways I have not read Persuasion but will be reading it after my exams. What I have read, though, is Emma. Only partly because then I fell sick and thats a story for another day. But the thing is, you should read Emma. ABSOLUTELY. i read this meme somewhere that Jane Austen always named her books according to the problems that were mainly present in them like in pride and prejudice it was Darcy's pride and Liz's prejudice and in Emma its Emma lol. Plus my sister keeps calling me Emma because I love matchmaking.
Anyways she has another book, some Alley that I haven't read but will read soon, hopefully.
Hope this helped. Feel free to ask anything else<3
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khaleesiofalicante · 8 months ago
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DANI DANI DANI I GOT INTO COLLEGE!! COLLEGE IN A DIFFERENT CONTINENT FROM MY PARENTS (🥳) AND EVEN THOUGH THEY ARE TRYING TO CONVINCE ME TO WRITE ENTRANCE EXAMS FOR COLLEGES NEAR HOME THERE IN NO WAY IN HELL THAT IS HAPPENING. LOL.
That aside, I just wanted to tell you what a positive impact your fics have had on me over the years 🥰 ESPECIALLY during the pandemic with the isolation and stuff I was really at a low point but having something to look forward to every week just made it all a bit easier, and I can never thank you enough for giving me that 💞
I remember reading tlnd during my 10th board exams and now i’m officially in college(!!!) I’m super excited for the mavid rwrb au, lbaf VII and all that the future holds 😊 lots of love xx
MANY MANY MANY CONGRATULATIONS.
I'm glad you get to experience the 'home away college' thing and it might be a lot more fun - if that's something you'd enjoy (which i think you do hehehehe)
The pandemic was an asshole and I was at my rock bottom during it so I am glad my writing was some kind of comfort to you.
And i'm very emo about you growing up for some reason WHAT DO YOU MEAN TLND WAS 2 YEARS AGO?
Sending you best of luck for this new adventure! it's gonna be awesome ❤️
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causenessus · 3 months ago
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omg i hate that guy <- not really anymore,, he's a good teacher my grades shot up SO fast (D->A within three months of him teaching) BUT LIKEEEE HES BEEN TEACHING ME SINCE 8TH GRADE AND SAYS LIKE 1 GOOD THING EVERY 6 MONTHS
HE ARRIVED AS SOON AS I READ UR ANSWER
he said i did well today 😎 and if i study properly ill do the same in all my next exams !!1! i have to start a bunch of different coachings eww
ANYWAYS i woke up at like 5 today (us moment) !! idk why because i had online classes that started from 9
sleep early tho!!!!!!! i hate waking up and i hate sleeping i hate everything actually
i conked out at 11:30pm last night (omfg i did not know i could do that)
im doing so good (still high off the grades) but like lowkey panicking bc of the next exams !! my goal is to beat my sister's records <//3 basically she's pike crazy good and got 7 A* and 1 B </3 i alr got an A* in the subject she got a B in, and then i have like 7 more subjects to give exams of :[
but like she is ACTUALLY so good at studies n shit she got the highest grades in her batch in biology in this years board exams (wtf!) and when she gave her 10th grade boards she got like the highest marks in economics in 34 years/basically the whole school history i will cry .
the english teacher i have rn is fucking insane she told us callous and careless are the same thing i almost cried
she also spelled ajar as ajure
NOW YOU MIGHT SAY but lina thats hecking stupid !! its not her first language:( SHE HAS A DEGREE?? AND IS THE HEAD OF THE ENGLISH DEPARTMENT ??? and she took up four classes (4hrs) just talking about the SYLLABUS not even what we're learning
im aiming for like,, country highest at least in english so having her is a terrifying thought
ALSO A GIRL FROM THE BATCH ABOVE ME GOT WORLD HIGHEST IN HER MATH BOARD EXAM (100%!?!?)
okay anyways ill go erm sorry for yapping.. IM STARTING MY HEALTHY STUDY GIRL ERA AND STUDY NOW!!! honestly im quite proud of myself because like a year and a bit ago my grades were like,, 1 U, 3 Ds, 5 Cs and 1 B like wtf .. anyways the subject i got a U in back then,, i got 90% in boards this year ! and my lowest grade recently was 80% like chat we r eating ts up
IVE TALKED ENOUGH THANKS FOR LISTENING OR WHATEVER NOW I FEEL EMBARRASSED
STAY SAFE AND HYDRATED NESS ILY ILY ILY BYEBYE :)
DON'T FEEL EMBARASSED!!!!! I LOVE TO HEAR YOU TALK <3333 (sorry i got distracted and immediately read the bottom paragraph LET ME READ FROM THE START) LMAO I'M GLAD YOUR TUTOR IS GOOD AT TEACHING!! EVEN IF HE'S NOT NICE 😔😔😔 KNOW THAT YOU'RE DOING SO WELL LINA!!! I'LL COMPLIMENT U AND CHEER U ON IF HE WON'T <3
LINA SIDE TAGENT THAT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH i love how energetic your writing is!!! like it's rubbing off on me <33 i was feeling a little sleepy but now that i'm reading your ask i feel more like !!! awake!!!! this is all /pos I JUST WANTED TO SAY I LOVE THE WAY YOU TALK </33 BUT PLEASE 5 AM???? AND YOUR FIRST ONLINE CLASS IS AT 9??? PLEASE BRO WHY IS THAT THE USUAL?? 😭 WHEN MY FIRST CLASSES WERE ONLINE IN HIGH SCHOOL I FR WOKE UP AT LIKE 8 EVERYDAY (bc idk how they were for you but like google meets were once a week and optional bc they'd just record it anyway so i'd watch the recordings at like 2x speed while doomscrolling tumblr or something)
YOU SLEEP EARLY PLEASE!! or like sleep more idk 😭😭 i could never wake up at 5 am willingly you're amazing for that 😭 the "i hate everything actually" is SO real it made me laugh so hard PLEASE 😭
YOUR SISTER SOUNDS CRAZY??? LIKE GOOD LUCK BEATING HER RECORDS IG </3 BUT PLEASE DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT OR MAKE IT A BIG DEAL !! YOU DID AMAZING THIS TIME AROUND WITH YOUR EXAMS AND IK YOU'LL DO GREAT AGAIN BUT DEFINITELY DON'T STRESS YOURSELF OUT TOO MUCH PLEASE!! i cannot believe the thing about your sister having the highest grades in ECONOMICS in like 34 years because economics is NOT fun that class made like 0 sense to me like bro if the global market is crashing and economists don't understand it HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO UNDERSTAND IT ?????????
CALLOUS AND CARELESS ARE THE SAME THING????????? HELLO????????????? HOW IS SHE A TEACHER I'M SO SORRY BUT LIKE EVEN IF IT'S NOT HER FIRST LANGUAGE THAT MEANS NOTHING LIKE BEING AN ENGLISH TEACHER IS NOT THE ONLY JOB OUT THERE IF SHE CAN'T TEACH ENGLISH THEN LIKE MAYBE SHE CAN TEACH SOMETHING ELSE??? BC I CAN'T BELIEVE THEY'RE LETTING HER TEACH IF SHE'S DOING THINGS LIKE THAT 😭 AND SHE'S THE HEAD OF THE DEPARTMENT AND EVERYTHING??? EVEN CRAZIER???? good luck with your goals though!! i believe in u <3
WHY IS YOUR GRADE BREAKING LIKE ALL THESE RECORDS?????? LIKE I KEEP READING MORE PARAGRAPHS AND WITH EVERY WORD MY CONFIDENCE IN MY OWN SCHOLARLY ACCOMPLISHMENTS IS DEPLETING LMAO 😭😭 I DID NOT BREAK ANY RECORDS BUT GOOD FOR U GUYS!!!
amazing job with the better grades!! and i love your healthy study girl era!! please make sure to take care of yourself and keep your mind and body nourished <333 i hope you're doing alright!! i just saw something on your blog recently that made me want to make sure you're doing alright!!! please know that my dms are always open to you!! <33 take it easy and you're an amazing person <3 you're so sweet and talented please let me know if you need anything!!
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deewanapdf · 2 years ago
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it's such a weird phase in my life rn
warning: long rant???
like in 10th of course you have to focus on your studies right, but I don't feel like doing any work. I'm not having fun in school - I love my friends and in the moments I'm with them I'm having so much fun but when I get home I realize we're such a close knit group and that we never go out of the class. there's really not enough places to sit with your friends and everyones so strict and it's a small school so all the teachers and guards are after you, especially that one guard didi with her whistle whos always mad at kids (understandable but still)
and I know that school is not a place for "fun" but it's also not one for misery right? I mean, I'm supposed to learn and have fun too but it's just. so much work. I only have fun doing extracurricular things like mun and ed board stuff
and I like history but i had a test today and I did not study at all and I feel bad about it cause I know I'll get bad marks and that will disappoint me but on the other hand I don't care. its so weird - I know marks don't matter and dont define me as a person and do not equate to my value or worth or whatever, but i still feel horrible when I get bad marks even when it's in subjects like maths which I know I'm not extremely good at or just don't like
I just want to. sometimes just not do anything. and sometimes just do what I want to do - writing, studying subjects I like. and when I get free time I still don't do that - I just waste my time and I feel bad when I do thag but i dont stop and it's just easier to do that and idk idk
and then sometimes I just. want to have a romantic partner yk. like i see in media (ofc not exactly like that cause a lot of it is portrayed as the ideal things etc etc) and my friends have dated people and I just want to hold someone like that, or kiss their foreheads and cheeks or rub circles on their hands and hug them and just sit together and do whatever but also do nothing depending on out mood. and I sometimes cant make out a huge difference between romantic and platonic relationships but it's still not the same yk
BUT. the people in my school. oh my god. all of then suck oh mygodddd. and if they don't they're my friends. and if they're girls they're straight/older (so they look at me like a younger sibling). and if they're guys I don't want to date them cause I have one guy as a genuine best friend and the others are kinda problematic sometimes
and all my friends are so far I have no friends near my house so I feel so lonely at home my god. and I can't do anything about it and it sucks and these days I'm just feeling so subdued and i really don't know anything anymore I'm lowkey dreading the near future but also anticipating the future that's kinda far (in a good way) cause I get to take subjects I like but i still think I'm going to mess up in school/exams somehow and idk i dont know anything I'm just a kid I was just 5 years old what happened I want to go back please please
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cute-as-buttons · 2 years ago
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It's that time of year again!! (Board exams) and I want to remind you guys: just do your best. Your best doesn't have to be your 100%. Know that whatever percentage you end up getting, it isn't reflective of your intelligence, especially if you're in 10th grade, cuz once you come to 11th, the first thing your teachers tell you is to forget your 10th marks and focus on what comes next.
You can do it<3
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