#UNWELL I TELL YOU

[justafriend-ql]

Su Yu, can you ever say something nice? I'm afraid if I say something nice, I'll move you to tears. STAY WITH ME Episode 13

[quillkiller]

jen it’s 1:33 am but i woke up in a cold sweat thinking about this. what about mary/petunia. WHAT ABOUT MARY/PETUNIA!!!!!!!!!!!

SAINTS…… saints. saints. i am on! my! way! to! work! and this has awooooooooooken something in me. i feel myself changing.. forever.. mind altered. listen there are SO many options here. so many

1. common hc that mary is a halfblood right and therefore maybe shes spending a lot of summers at lilys place and petunia being drawn to her. drawn and jealous and resentful but oh shes beautiful. isnt she beautiful. and charismatic. and not at all like i thought magical people would be. isnt it just so interesting to hear her talk about her experiences with a muggle parent and a wizard person. isnt she just so interesting

2. marylily summer fling and petunia catches them. she sees them kiss and shes soooooo angry about it. why is she so angry.. why is she feeling this way. she was just starting to like mary and now she feels so angry. and shes just tired of being jealous of lily. shes so tired

3. the summer of jily. mary and lily start growing apart. things aren’t the same. shes showing more interest in petunia when she spends a week at their house this time. mary and lily have started fighting. petunia is selflishly really happy about it. the summer of homoeroticism. they fall asleep together. marys holding her and petunia refuses to fall asleep because she wants to feel her arms. they whisper and talk all night. about their insecurities and issues and anger and resentment. petunia has already met vernon but he’s nowhere near as soft and as lovely as mary. why is she so soft and why is she here. with me. i dont want lily to have her. she doesnt deserve her. james is no one. is that marys lips against my neck

4. MARY/PETUNIA SECRET LOVE AFFAIR ? FOR YEARS EVEN ? LILY NEVER FINDS OUT ???? ? mary trying to mediate between them. tries to be there for lily when they fight. no one knows. no one!!!!!!

5. the war. mary runs away and she lives. she goes to petunia for one night when she does. when all her friends have decided to fight. shes already mourning the loss and petunia is still so selfishly glad that she came to her. petunia is worried about her sister and everything is wrong and scary and she hasnt heard from lily in a long time. but mary is here. she chose to come here after leaving lily and their friends. maybe they even spend the night together. for the first time ? or after a long secret affair? petunia is married but its mary

6. lily dies and mary stays gone. until theres a second war. and their son goes to hogwarts. and mary needs to see him. and hes living with the dursleys. and mary is watching them. watching petunia having become so small and a shell of the woman she used to be. living under her husbands hand. (not an excuse for her abuse of harry obviously!!!!!!!). petunia thinks she sees her one night. someone lurking around the shadows. she thought she had died. maybe fought in the war after all. she was lost along the rest of them. with lily. lily got to have her in the end. but no shes here. shes here and shes watching petunia. she cant leave her alone. she had gone to see harry first but now shes watching petunia. shes mourning her. for having become the woman she whispered to mary she didnt want to become. when mary spent the night in her bed and they stayed up all night. petunia feels so much shame knowing mary is watching her. seeing her like this

just! some! options! 😃😃😃😃😃😃

[acipaer-at-scribare]

i am, to be honest, Unwell

[dollya-robinprotector]

That one event when PC sleeps in History class and wakes up with cum on their hand. It's not the only one, but, like......

No just let me delulu okay just LET ME THINK IT'S THE HIGH CONFIDENCE ROBIN and this is the premise we need for Somnophilia Ronin okay "no one seems to notice" BUT IF YOU LOOK TO YOUR SIDE HONAY MAYBE YOU LL SEE SOMEONE IS BLUSHING JUST LET ME DREAM PLEASE SOMNO ROBIN IS REAL AND I'M SO READY FOR IT.

[oddly-charmed]

Okay, you’ve heard of pillow talk and talking someone through getting fucked, but have you considered the beautiful intimacy of someone talking you through dying. Like- you’re bleeding out with your head resting in someone’s lap, and instead of trying to stop the blood or help, they just run their fingers through your hair, maybe lightly touch their fingertips to the edge of the wound, softly telling you that it’s going to be okay. Dying happens to everyone, it’s normal to be a little nervous, but you do it so well and so beautifully. It’s alright to let go. You can relax. I’ll take care of everything, you don’t have to worry your pretty little head. It’s okay if your eyelids get a little heavy, you can go ahead and close them. Or, better yet, I can close them for you, yeah? It’s too much work to do it yourself, I understand — you just have to leave it all to me.

And they hover their blood stained hand over your mouth just to feel your breathing get all slow and shallow, reminding you of all the things you won’t have to worry about. Besides, isn’t this the best way to die? In the arms of someone who’s there through every step of it, whispering sweet nothings, promising that they’ll take such good care of you once you’re gone. Telling you all the things they’re going to do with your body, softly groping you, making sure you feel good and safe in your final moments.

[posallys]

"do you dream of mom" he dreams of this: a hospital room, quiet mornings on the beach, a toddler stumbling in the surf, ancient words whispered as a lullaby, a woman he's waited for for a thousand years, a life he cannot have, a life she will not take, a promise he cannot keep.

[intheconfessiondial]

12 Months of 12 - September

[thatringboy]

what do you mean the foxians have a species wide generation trauma surrounding borisins and the borisins release fear inducing pheromones and the borisins kept foxians as livestock for eons and the leader of the borisins is a giant werewolf man able to crush people in his palm and a little pink twink of a foxian is currently being held hostage by him and a giant pack of borisins and is sacrificing himself to keep the borisin inside the shackling prison by enticing the leader of the borisin to hunt down his enemies, therefore subjecting himself to his species' greatest fear of all time

[dreamdripdistance]

jotchua... 👼

[vanmarkus]

EVAN BUCKLEY + close-up 8/?

[vildo]

Remember the look Kirk gave Spock when he found out about Leila?

and how he stared her down LIKE THIS afterwards

Since they didn’t specify why Kirk was the only one immune to spores, I’m gonna take it so far as to say it had no effect on him because he was so mad at Spock about this

[kaiminluu]

happy birthday to our most beloved will byers :) here're some byler grease concept sketches

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 231

doomed timeline

u ever think about how literally every single one of the thousands of aradias that traveled back to fight in the trolls' boss battle was from a doomed timeline where she had to a) watch all her friends die b) process that she was also doomed and c) then power through all that to do a bunch of time travel detective work so that she could advise the alpha iterations of her friends on how to avoid splitting into that doomed timeline in the first place? before traveling to a battle she knew she wouldn't make it out of?

yeah man

[awaywithself]

Thinking about zosan where they butt heads during the day, shoes to blades, scalding words, scathing glares. while none of it holds any real weight, they still play up this grand facade of hating each other, swearing by the stars they can’t stand to be in the same room.

but when night falls, those same stars pay witness to how zoro lingers in the galley as sanji cleans up after dinner, dozing off to the gentle clinks of washed plates. they see how sanji climbs up to the crow’s nest long after everyone has fallen asleep, with blankets and a bottle of zoro’s favorite sake in tow.

they see how zoro ambles into the men’s quarters after night watch and clambers into his hammock, bumping not-so-subtly into sanji’s. they see how sanji gently rouses at the movement, and when zoro’s settled, his breathing even, he slides out of his own bed and climbs in with him. he nudges him over, zoro huffing with childish and weightless petulance as he shifts to give sanji the space to curl into his side. they stay like that for however long the darkness of night lasts, sanji’s head on zoro’s chest and zoro’s arm around him, tucked close into each other, warm under the blankets and briefly, blissfully impervious.

and when the sun rises, chasing away the stars and their secrets, they part and do it all over again.

[trashmammal-7]

It makes me actually sick how Aziraphale and Crowley love each other SO much but they just don't talk to each other about literally anything important. Season 3 better just be six hours of them finally, properly talking to each other istg.

[starry-bi-sky]

mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.

now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.

He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.

(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)

The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.

The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.

And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.

(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)

The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.

anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)