#This man should be come with a notice
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Ok…I don't understand why Rio take back his money…did he didn't trust her in the end or, did he thinks that because they had sex, it's mean she is his wife now and the money is them???^^ Or…he knew that she use it for Boland motors and be jealous???? (this man is so weird^^)
#???#This man should be come with a notice#seriously#^^#gg rewatch 2022#ggrewatch#ggrewatch2022#gg rewatch#nbc good girls#gg#good girls nbc#2x04
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I’ve been playing…pizza tower…
(adding a tag I saw that made me burst laughing) “MAMA MIA LIMBO WE’RE REALLY IN IT NOW”
#just because he’s Italian colored doesn’t mean you have to listen to him man…#mine#while drawing this I was like I can just do anything I want ever#save your local dying business with this one easy trick#ah dammit I just noticed I got the hands wrong again (pepinos hands have the thumb on the wrong side rip)#ever since playing I just wanted these two together lol I think they would be friends :)#anxiety ridden middle aged Italian man and …#should I spoil limbo?? ok I will#anxiety ridden middle aged Italian man and anxiety ridden sorcerer (initially)#friends!!! the potential is there#coming back into my own tags to add I think pepino would legitimately summon limbo instead of a berserker#they’re both violent creatures fueled by anxiety
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I know people are not loving this “legally distinct from Spider-Man” design in the new Invincible episode, and I get where they’re coming from. But I went and watched the clip myself and personally, Mark’s reaction to Agent Spider fighting Prof Ock being “What are you doing? Are you trying to hurt this old man???” makes up for it 100%. If you can’t use the classic Spider-Man look, then having a third party assume that Ock is an innocent old man and Spidey is a creep who’s wailing on him for no reason is the most Spidery thing you can do. Plus they got Josh Keaton!
That being said…
LOOK AT HOW THEY MASSACRED MY BOY!!! THE “P” IS FOR “PISS POOR ATTEMPT AT A DOC OCK DESIGN.” WHY THE GIANT HELMET? WHY THE CAPE?? HE’S GRAY??? And worst of all, if that’s Josh Keaton Spidey, IS THAT SUPPOSED TO BE A VERSION OF TSSM OCK AKA ONE OF THE MOST SLICK AND STYLIZED OCK DESIGNS OUT THERE??? I’m SO much more offended by megamind here than by Agent Spider
#finally: it def doesn’t mean anything but I am Noticing this is the second major cameo josh keaton has done as spidey recently 👀#and I am Noticing that the x-men cartoon that was cancelled in 1997 was recently brought back for a new season 👀👀#i am DEFINITELY reaching bc there is supposed to be a new spidey cartoon coming out soon and it is NOT a tssm revival but.#what if tssm revival though? 👀👀👀👀👀#also this post is /lh it was a cute cameo. I should really watch invincible#spider-man#agent spider#doctor octopus#professor octopus#invincible#wharf.txt#spiderposting
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Calling it now that I think Simon is going to have to genuinely reconnect with Gunter and NEPTR and the other weirdos who kept him company in his time as Ice King.
#at#fionna and cake#simon petrikov#original#Gunter was his baby and I'm willing to bet Simon hasn't spoken to him in 12 years#Gunter loved him so much he used the crown to become another version of him#I think it could be a really beautiful way to explore the moments of love that existed in his life as Ice King#just some thoughts I'm having while rewatching a bunch of episodes from the original series.#Gunter is in most of ice king's scenes being his weird son#neptr also calls him papi#the man's mothering instinct stayed with him even in his insanity and he managed to find insane children to claim as his own#I just rewatched the Adventure Time holiday special with all the video tapes and I think those same tapes are going to come up#and Simon will notice that Gunter is with him in basically every one of them and realize#despite his soul crushing loneliness as Ice King he was never quite alone and maybe friends like Gunter still care about him#i don't think he should go back to being ice king i think he needs ways to make peace with every part of himself and his life#and also i really like Gunter i think he's a delight
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Khaos Reigns (2)
So far, my two biggest complaints about new Mortal Kombat storytelling is the lack of Tomas in Lin Kuei-focused Khaos Reigns and lack of sensible logic behind characters’ choices. This is not really about how characters behave toward each other as this is rooted in the previous game, but how weak is the reasoning that pushes the story forward. Which sadly is how the whole attack on Kuai Liang’s wedding feels to me. We have Bi-Han’s lie
Cyrax: I still cannot believe that Liu Kang capitulated to Outworld. That he agreed to break up our clan.
that has no backing up. A certain time has passed between MK1 and current story mode, right? So if Liu Kang capitulated to Outworld, then logically Outworld forces should showed up in Earthrealm or the Fire Lord would knock on their door to say sorry guys, no more Lin Kuei; something Lin Kuei would be first to know. Even more, since apparently Lin Kuei were asked to protect Earthrealm in dire need in the previous game, something they refused to do (as we were told by Tomas). Liu Kang capitulating to Outworld would be a political change hard to miss. So it is no wonder why Cyrax is not buying it, as this lie makes little sense.
(Personally I think it would be better if Lin Kuei were not “deceived” but simply wanted their independence and supported Bi-Han for this goal alone, while Sub-Zero letting his father die still works fine as the shocking revelation to cast a doubt in Cyrax’s mind.)
Then we have Sektor and Bi-Han acknowledging Cyrax suspecting their deception
but apparently this is not a concerning enough to, you know, not including her in the attack or not giving her the top-technologically advanced armor, if you can't be sure of her loyalty.
Bi-Han said they will be ready when Cyrax learns the truth but as the story goes, there are no backup plans for that scenario. Sub-Zero does not deny he lied or killed his father and I really wonder what he or Sektor expected to happen? Yeah, so much for being ready to deal with the problem they were aware of from the start.
Same with the stealth attack on the wedding. Lin Kuei warriors successfully got unnoticed inside Wu Shi place,
where the wedding was happening. And instead of some of those ninjas quietly opening one of the gates, Sektor was using her guns to destroy the main gate, losing the element of surprise.
A tactical surprise that she and Bi-Han wanted to use it to their advantage.
Not to mention Lin Kuei warriors had no problem with getting past the not-even-so-high walls so it is not like the main gate was so necessary for their army to get inside. Or if they have such great firepower, they should thrown some grenades over the walls or set bombs before frontal attacking. Just saying.
Okay, that could be just Lin Kuei arrogance or testing the armors in battle (something they could anytime anywhere), but one would think a clan that for ages was doing commando-like work for Liu Kang would get the stealth attack correctly. Especially since one of the first things Sektor told us on screen was that Lin Kuei were not trained for Tournaments but for war.
Cyrax is overall a fine character, but for me she lacks an edge the MK9’s male Cyrax had and thus feel, well, meek. The story shows her as a person with a strong moral sense, however Bi-Han literally said to her the mission is to attack Kuai Liang and his clan. Harumi chose to fight back so why is Cyrax so surprised that Lin Kuei warriors were ready to kill her? It’s not part of their missions, she said when attacking her own people to save Scorpion’s fiance/wife-to-be, but for me this shows how much Cyrax is just naive and detached from reality. The previous game showed us that Lin Kuei brothers are ruthless fighters (Bi-Han was ready to decapitate defeated Shang Tsung, Kuai Liang effectively killed his opponents with no hesitate), so Cyrax jumping to rescue a woman that killed her own comrades kinda made me wonder, why she is even that important to Sektor or Bi-Han to be involved with them so close? Like, there is little I can see that could interest Bi-Han or Sektor in her, as she is presented from the start as disrespectful toward her superior and mentor (Sektor) and way more idealistic than any of them is. Literally the first argument she has with Sektor and her criticism about ambush & sneak attack tactics feels a bit off, considering this is what Lin Kuei were doing even as the good guys, presumably for centuries and with full approval of Liu Kang (as was seen in previous game).
Sure, we could say Cyrax is new! She knows no better… but then storyline openly claims she and Kuai Liang knew each other before he left the clan and even were once friends, so it is not like Cyrax just joined the Lin Kuei. On one hand, I understand why NRS went with Cyrax’s personality in such a direction, on another, she feels so un-Lin Kuei, I have no idea why Sektor and Sub-Zero even bothered with her in the first place. Like... what was so special about Cyrax for the whole fuss about her from their perspective?
In all fairness, I’m also a bit confused how MK1 and Khaos Reigns follow the same storyline. In the previous game, Bi-Han was captured by Kuai Liang after the ill-fated mission and presumably imprisoned. Then somehow Lin Kuei was asked(?) to aid Liu Kang in the battle against the sorcerers
so how is that the news of Sub-Zero allying with Shang Tsung is still a secret to anyone if Lin Kuei already made a decision to abbadon Earthrealm in need - story wise, after Bi-Han was defeated by Scorpion and captured? So I’m to believe Scorpion took compromised Sub-Zero to Lin Kuei headquarters like nothing happened, did not mention the whole allying with enemy, then left to honor tradition and dad and joined Liu Kang and some time later he is angry at Cyrax she believed in a not-well prepared lie? Is this me, or did NRS not connect all the dots together between the first game and the additional storyline and kinda every character took damage to intelligence so the story could go from point A to point B?
The relationship between certain characters is frustrating, I won’t lie about it. But I’m much more frustrated by how the logic and consequences of events feel either forced or make little sense. I do not except a brilliant, smart storytelling from a fighting game, but when characters that are supposed to be competent and/or trained for a specific job suddenly share one brain cell - and no one is using it at all - kills a great chunk of enthusiasm I had for Mortal Kombat.
I may not like my fav characters being robbed of their original complexity and yet still enjoying the fact they are part of the storyline. I do however take a great offense when story mode turns them into incompetent idiots just to push plot from point A to point B.
#mortal kombat 1: khaos reigns#mortal kombat#mortal kombat spoilers#bi han#sub zero#sektor#cyrax#lin kuei#mortal kombat worldbuilding#if i should even call this mess like that#cienie's rants#look i can forgive nrs making my loved sub zero bi han into bastard or evil man#but making him an idiot is the crossing line i won't accept#the whole first chapter of Khaos is such a mess#there is so little logical reasoning behind the action#we want stealth attack! so we fucking blow up a door when our people could quietly get inside#we know cyrax will be a problem when truth will come out#so we gave her our super advanced armor and take on mission she is already questioning#so fucking smart move uh-uh suuuuure#we make a lie that makes no sense since liu kang capitulation change the whole status quo and is too big deal to not notice something is of#like if he agreed to break lin kuei he would be already there knocking on their door#something to few months(?) has passed liu kang is still not there to destroy your clan but sure a perfect lie#at this point of story i think tomas stole the one brain cell get super smart and simply get the fuck out of this mess XDDD
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well well well, if it isn't the feelings i said weren't that deep
#nano bits#this is about every single feeling i have but specifically right now.....#everyone. how does one have a crush like a normal person. idk how to have one#either i am so nonchalant that people think idc about them or i fumble through every social interaction that has—#—and will ever exist and they and their grandma notice right away#i'm 27 i should hold it together better than this#nothing's gonna come from it btw even if he found out#we respect an aro king#we still caught feelings!! but we respect an aro king i will not burden this man with (vague hand gesture refering to self)#whatever i've got going on#we play dnd together and i my character became the source of one of his character's traumatic events#<-(taunting one of the big bads for them to attack ME and getting someone else hurt by dice decision)#i was trying to keep that from happening... so it was DEF NOT ON PURPOSE but yk#i still feel so bad (and anxious. as one does. when they're normal.) nano wth is wrong with u it's playing for fun...#he's kind he won't hold it against you#nano brain: WHAT IF HE STARTS HATING ME#dude chill out. you're good. it's whatevs#(<-me lying to myself)
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I HAVE 4 OR SO ASKS THAT ARE INCREDIBLY OLD AND I PROMISED MYSELF TO DRAW SMTNG IN ORDER TO ANSWER CUZ I AM THAT PETTY-
ALAS while I rest amma work on a commission I have to deliver and then get to smtng else I been wanting to draw.........mwehe
If u are one of the ppl that sent me an ask and didnt get a reply til this day I Am So Sorr-
#stfu sky#i swear Im taking breaks-#LIKE I REALLY HAVE BEEN TAKINg my time man Idk if I just#am faster than I thought when drawing or I litr cannot Stay The Fuck Still.#i should time how long I spend in a drawing I didnt notice this whole while that I worked on the comic and set timers for breaks-#ILL FIGURE IT OUT#anyways just lil update for whats coming next <3
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a friend told me this needed to be shared with the world. my magnum opus. why chainsaw man and identity v are both like kingdom hearts, and what they all have in common with each other: the venn diagram.
#csm#chainsaw man#idv#identity v#kh#kingdom hearts#brought to you by me liking all three#and noticing that kh guys kept liking one or the other#sometimes both#anyways orpheus deross is a kh villain#that's the ultimate conclusion you should draw from this#if anything#orpheus and alice are so xehanort and eraqus coded#thank you for coming to my ted talk
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does anyone else's mom think they are "mean" for having boundaries? or is that just my mom?
#me: maybe there is a reason none of his 4 daughters speak to our cousin anymore. should we really invite him over to christmas?#my mom: i'm not ignoring red flags. i just don't feel the need to be so mean and not invite him over anyway!#me: okay.#she is so completely attracted to weak and failed men#the more they use her the more she wants to be around them#it's like... have you not noticed that this man only calls when he needs money or rides or a free caretaker???#she will literally ALWAYS find the money to take care of men like this but will happily screw me and my credit score over if she doesn't#feel like paying a bill that month#literally my score is a 542 right now and i have mommy dearest to thank for that along with my own stupidity in trusting her not to be#an idiot when it comes to money but she will never change on that front#lol but she found a way to give thousands to my dad this year#it's honestly like she HATES any woman who is competent and not serving men#it's like she thinks it's her duty to harm herself financially to care for men
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If you’re still out there erasing Tom Robinson’s queerness then 1) hey man have you nothing better to do 2) you continue to be wrong and nothing you ever do will be as consequential as writing Power In The Darkness and also you didn’t write the national anthem Glad To Be Gay so why are we even still talking
#I am up at 5 reading my inbox urgently in case I have to interview Huw Stephens at 7#It looks unlikely but I’d rather catch it than miss it should the email come#And just like got thinking about his 6Music colleague Tom#And just the general erasure of queer men than marry women#Tom is bi— and survived being an outspokenly gay man through section 28. Through the aids crisis.#Goddamnit; Tom lost people! Nothing is queer enough for the straight detectors—#I for one just tend to believe that those who say they are queer and had to live through the consequences of#publicly saying they were; are queer. That’s queer enough for me. It’s the David Bowie discussion ALL over again#But anyway it seems I have no new emails so I’m resetting my alarm for 7:50. Don’t think at this short notice I’ll have a 7 AM phone in#It’s probably tomorrow. I hope it is!! They’ve sent me the press release from last night’s WMP now they just need to get a hold of Huw 😭#Listen to Power In The Darkness in the meantime#tom robinson#Tom Robinson band
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i just don’t understand. why say ur ready to talk if you aren’t?
can u believe this post is what got me to reach tag limit
#vaugepostimg on main about an irl don’t mind me#i just. am feeling sad bcus i have been trying to keep my distance and respect the space they said they needed. and then they reached out to#me for their book club and said we should chat and i got excited! i miss my friend of course i got excited#still let them take the lead. i want them to be comfortable. they said they’d lmk what day they were free#and then proceeded to ghost me for like. almost two weeks??#(it was 10 days but !!! still!!! almost 2 weeks from them suggesting i come to book club which would’ve inherently necessitated an irl talk#and then after all that yesterday said they actually weren’t ready which. hurted#tbf i knew something was up after like 2 days of them not replying so it’s not like i was fully caught off guard it just really hurt#and like i feel weird bcus our social circles are really overlapped and i spent a lot of time with them last winter and i had thought#that would happen again this winter. we would swim together a lot and i consistently went to their house dinners#bcus if i care about you i show up! and i’m understanding ! bcus i am patient and kind person and as a triple taurus i’m not tryna rush ever#especially when it comes to people’s emotions ??? especially if someone has told me i hurt them???? like ik im an autistic lesbian but#despite popular conceptions on that particular identity. im not fucking evil ????? if you ask for space i will give you space !!!!!#and like when it comes to emotions and conflict i’m blunt but i’m caring and it takes a lot for me to be disinfranchised by people#or relationships. so i’m not saying i don’t want to still be her friend#i’m just. noticing behaviors#they did tell me that they were very avoidant in conflict and i told them i’m very much not and like. now that i’m on the receiving end of i#idk what to do!! i’m not gonna chase her down like they’re grown!! and again!!! if you ask for space i’m going to respect that!!!#and like honestly. i’m happy she at least gave me the curtesy of saying they weren’t ready to talk even if it took her mad long to do it#so like. who tf knows when we’ll talk. if ever. probably when she wants the validation of our friendship if it even happens at all#bcus again. she reached out not to reconnect and clear the air but to check if i still wanted to come to her club she was starting#ik in earlier conversations she was worried no one would come but ig she found people. which like good for her tbh but to be honest i feel#discarded?? i’m feeling like i’m failing to not project too much so i gotta stop but idk man i’m just feeling weird about it all#and then i had the thought today of like. is this what i want in a friendship? someone who goes back and forth abt whether or not i’m worth#which again. kinda wasn’t expecting that bcus we spent so much time together last autumn/winter/spring like. many times per week!!!#so the idea of not being her friend all of a sudden?? feels fucjing weird to think about#but like? i don’t want to feel this way this is what i hate about west coast/white people conflict resolution!! there fucking isn’t any!!!#and i can’t deal with that! i can’t spend my life with people who aren’t going to engage with me as a person who cares about them#humans are fallible creatures and were only here on earth for so long so why are we wasting time here? what is the point of all this ???????#but then the guilt and shame say i deserve it all and at that point i just need to stop so. i’m gonna stop now lol
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Zuril. Zuril's new design isn't as babygirly as the og one but is cool... I guess.
Why did he give him pants? Let him dress slutty ffs!
Hey at least he's still a twink :/
#zuril#grendizer#steel rambles#he's one of my first crushes ever#the original war criminal babygirl of my life#look at my man#mansplain manspread manwhore#come ooooooon#he was one of the best villains in that series#if not straight-up THE best#i should rewatch Goldrake|Grendizer#maybe i won't like it as much now as I'm older and i hevw different standards and probably will notice some sexist bits here and there#but that was my childhood and the villains were so fucking cool omg gandal and his wife would make conservatives and terfs go fucking crazy#when did we stop making anime villains so fucking unhinged i miss them#I'm tired of goth ikemen gimme my freaks back 😭
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hrmmmm
#i may have a problem#how do u like. stop being a jealous person#and before i say anything else - i am fully aware how ugly this part of me is#anyways the thing is i cant do the 'theyre my friend and im happy for them!!!' thing cuz they're not my friend#and im just like. THAT SHOULD HAVE BEEN ME. WHAT U R GETTING SHOULD HAVE BEEN MINE AND U R NOT DESERVING OF IT.#i dunno. maybe its just because i cant socialize and am creatively bankrupt. which i am#or rather maybe i think i deserve a reward for the shit ass life i've had to live and it needs to be made up to me somehow#i know how it sounds dont fuckin speech bubble this shit#everyone should be praising me respecting me wanting me to be around desperate to be my friend#hyperbole ^ but you get the idea#like come onnnnn... i swear im so much cooler and have way better takes and am worthy of notice etc etc etc#idk man i need to have my brain altered or something. maybe get lobotomized. make me more pleasant and less self-aware#collapses to the floor like walter white#WHATEVERRRR MAN WHATEVER#there are the nice parts of me and the bad parts of me which need to be carefully removed with a scalpel
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Enough time has passed now, so I can finally say with certainty that the only good MLs of the Jewelpet Series are Akira Nanase and Retsu Akagi 👍🏻
#jewelpet#jewelpet twinkle#jewelpet sunshine#jewelpet kira deco#jewelpet happiness#lady jewelpet#magical girls#txt#like— be so for fcking real????#all the ‘mls’ in there are like ‘i will always save you!’ meanwhile akira and retsu are like ‘i would k word for you’#AND THIS IS WHAT’S A MAN SHOULD BE ABOUT WHEN IT COMES TO HIS GIRLIE MIND YOU????#also yeah they’re all like… kids in there so IDK why sanrio put love interests for elementary/middle school kids 😭#but some mls (coff coff yuuma and mikage coff coff) just piss me tf off 💀#then again in jewelpet sunshine all the peoples are ANNOYING af because like… kanon… sweetie… WHY ARE YOU BEEFING WITH A BUNNY???? 😭#idk guys… maybe it’s cuz i’ve seen many shoujo anime read many shoujo manga and want my man obsessed with me like— i want him WEAK for me…#the other mls in the jewelpet series sometimes i think like ‘what… are you there… for??’#akira nanase PISSES ME TF OFF his personality is SHIT but the way he goes on about rinko??? he is a SIMP and i love that#and retsu??? retsu would literally roll a red carpet down the path pink walks on and that makes me HOLLER every single time guys 😭#like— once you see how akira and retsu treat rinko and pink… the other mls become just bland in there#yuuma mikage and cayenne give NOTHING to their series#they’re love interest just for the sake of having love interests#because akari and momona are better off alone tbh cause they genuinely are such BADDIES#they’re so cool that when you see their love interests you are like… ‘babygurl don’t settle for mediocre guys like that pls…’#like… akari and momona are the men in their ‘relationships’ 😭#don’t get me started on kanon and mikage like— wHY ARE YOU CRUSHING ON YOUR TWIN BROTHER???? AND WHY IS HE CRUSHING ON A BUNNY?????#thank god they broke up after finding out they were related (THANK YOU GOD!) but now why is he head over heels ROMANTICALLY over a bunny???#aside from all these weird shit the plot wasn’t interesting at all and gave… well… nothing…#anyways!! akari and momona deserve better men for real 🫤#or sanrio could’ve left them single yknow…? we wouldn’t have even noticed pft#these are controversial and unpopular opinions among the jewelpet series fandoms… but i just had to get them out of my chest phew
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thinkin about felix habitually finding lost cats and bringing them home. thinkin about felix taking up missing persons cases. thinkin about felix waiting outside the magical darkness to make sure everyone else made it out safely. thinkin. thinkin.
#thinkin about how fucking bad it felt when limerick was like 'did you come looking for me?' and he had to say no--#even though it wasn't HIS fault that the fucking DM was like 'and when you track down the missing people you see limerick--'#'-- who oh btw you haven't seen in a couple days' hey wow I should have known that sooner!! man!! you should have told me that!!!#and I can roleplay that as 'limerick was missing for the same amount of time that I was investigating and I DIDN'T notice'#but it still feels fucking bad#I'm glad I found you. I'm glad I found you even without knowing you were gone. if I had known I would have looked.#my OCs#felix#felix insp
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long winded rant in the tags coming that’s partly about weight but in a very unfiltered sad way so if that triggers you do Not read on
#on holiday I was like oHHHHH this is what living in the moment is! What listening to your body is! what not worrying about how you look is#but doing what makes you happy#and then …… I came home and got sent the pictures#+ my friend being. unintentionally fatphobic as fuck#while hurtful as fuck too#and it’s all just been piling up too since I got home because I’ve been having a lot of conversations and seeing a lot of people that#confront me with who I used to be and who I am now and how I’m really not happy with that#and it feels like it’s not gonna get better#like I’m destined to be in a job I like but isn’t what I want because I’m not capable enough and I’ll never know what romantic requited love#feels like. I’ll never cure my vaginismus I’ll never be able to let someone in or they won’t want me this is just it for me#and SOMEHOW the way I look has become the ultimate culmination of all those things?#my face is suddenly a woman in her thirties face#I keep gaining weight despite not even eating all that much because FUCKING PCOS makes it impossible#my hair in my face grew back. my stomach is hairy and that plus the added beer belly just makes it look like I’m a 50 year old man#I am soooooooo tired of the dysphoria#and the way pcos ruins fucking everything because I can restrict calories all I want and move all I want but will it help ? No !#and of the fact that it impacts the way I feel about myself so much because I’m convinced now I’ll never find anyone#should have tried harder when I was 21 because that was the only time in my life I reasonably fit society’s standards like That was my shot#I’ve been taking supplements everyone says will help but I’m not sure I noticed anything in the past six months and I can’t take berberine#because it fucks with my heart medication. which. That too. I have that too#and I’m in pain! All the time now! ALL THE TIME so I can’t even work out to keep the weight stable because guess what ?#just after a normal day at the office I come home and have to lie down because everhthing hurts so much !#today I got an impromptu massage in an attempt to feel better but it didn’t fix shit and I had to buy clothes for kings day after#and I didn’t try them on just quickly grabbed some orange shit to try on at home and at what I saw in the mirror I genuinely got nauseous#I just don’t know who that is in the mirror but it’s not me and I can’t accept it. I’ve been trying so hard but I can’t#it genuinely makes me so sad and I keep telling myself that a reduction will help in feeling more like myself and it will help with the pain#but what if it doesn’t? what if my pain doesn’t go away after af all and my stomach just juts out and I feel like a gremlin all the time#what then. what the fuck do we do then. also I’m so fucking scared of that surgery anyway that I don’t fucking want to do it anymore#I want so many things and all of them feel out of reach and I know my own brain is my worst enemy and it’s not rooted in anything real but.#Isn’t it? really — isn’t it???????
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