#This isn't good

[inkskinned]

you're in the habit of denying yourself things.

if someone asked you directly, you would say that you love a little treat. you like iced coffee and getting the cookie. you drink juice out of a fancy cup sometimes, and often do use your candles until they gutter out helplessly.

but you hesitate about buying the 20 dollar hand mixer because, like. you could just use your arms. you weren't raised rich. you don't get to just spend the 20 dollars (remember when that could cover lunch?), at least - you don't spend that without agonizing over it first, trying to figure out the cost-benefits like you are defending yourself in front of a jury. yes, this rice cooker could seriously help you. but you do know how to make stovetop rice and it really isn't that hard. how many pies or brownies would you actually make, in order to make that hand mixer worthwhile?

what's wild is that if the money was for a friend, it would already be spent. you'd fork over 40 without blinking an eye, just to make them happy. the difference is that it's for you, so you need to justify it.

and it sneaks in. you ration yourself without meaning to - you don't finish the pint of ice cream, even though you want to. the next time you go to the store, you say ah, i really shouldn't, and then you walk away. you save little bits of your precious things - just in case. sometimes you even go so far as putting that one thing in your shopping cart. and then just leaving it there, because maybe-one-day, but not right now, there's other stuff going on.

you do self-care, of course. but you don't do it more than like, 3 days in a row. after that it just feels a little bit over-the-edge. like. you can't live in decadence, the economy is so bad right now, kid.

so you don't buy the rice cooker. you can-and-will spend the time over the stove. you can withstand the little sorrows. denial and discipline are practically synonyms. and you're not spoiled.

it's just - it's not always a rice cooker. sometimes it is a person or a job or a hug. sometimes it is asking for help. sometimes it is the summer and your college degree. sometimes it is looking down at scabbed knees and feeling a strange kind of falling, like you can't even recognize the girl you used to be. sometimes it is your handprint looking unsteady.

sometimes it is tuesday, and you didn't get fired, and you want to celebrate. but what is it you like, even? you search around your little heart and come up empty. you're so used to denying that all your desires draw a blank.

oh fuck. see, this is the perfect opportunity. if you had a mixer, you'd make a cake.

[newwavesylviaplath]

i actually hate the idea of not being my favourite mutuals favourite mutual

[animatronic-assistant]

Elara sits alone in the cabin, curled tightly into a ball to make herself as small as possible. A faceless one's words have broken her. Left her drowning in a memory. She has been too free with expressing her thoughts and feelings. At least that is what she is telling herself. She did not express the correct emotion. How foolish. She was taught better... she was programmed better. She needs to be a good girl. Smile and be pleasant. Do not disagree or argue. Do as she is told. Do everything quickly and efficiently. Always seek permission. She can be good. She will be good... or she will be punished, ripped apart and rebuilt... she will be good, she promises. Just... please no punishment...

[phantom-of-the-501st]

Uh oh? UH OH?!

DON'T YOU "UH OH" ME MR DEE BRADLEY BAKER WTF IS THIS???

@eriexplosion help

@phis-writing this is gonna he a stressful ep...

[eidolons-stuff]

Enid: "What do we do?" *looks a Ajax*

Ajax: "She will be fine after a while. Just need for it to wear off"

Bianca: "Yeah.... isn't that only if you're a gorgon though?"

Ajax: "..."

[kply-industries]

Awwwwwwww, shit she's back

[falling-mellow]

I just caught note that my country's song got leaked.

I can only pray this won't lead to another DQ since I've heared earlier stories of same situ's with other countries of the sorts.

Best case scenario they will ask him to make a new song, right?

..right?

[damian-al-ghul-wayne]

Come on. Come back. Come back come back come back even the river styx misses you! Come back Damian you don't get to just up and leave. That's no fair! No fair! No fair!

Come back.

Come back.

Why won't you come back.

You shouldn't have left.

You belong here.

COME. BACK.

im sorry, I know, it's not fair. it's not fair for me to be here. I didn't deserve what my father did to bring me back. please, it wasn't my fault for what happened.

ill come back. I promise ill come back. just tell me how.

how?

[ginger-grimm]

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[brionysea]

shut up no way is don't you (forget about me) on will's playlist

[jeonghantis]

idk who in svt would love to have their nips played with but i do know jeonghan would scream his lil aaaaa scream when u play with his nips

the giggle i let out reading this because i can TOTALLY see this happening 😭😭

i can see jeonghan being So Sensitive to being played with.. is it just me.. oh just him jerking around, his face wincing, as he's letting out his aaaa's but it gradually becomes more sputtered out and he tries to suppress it by pressing his lips together but he Cant

[kerosene-saint]

when you feel terrible but the two people you trust aren't available so you just kinda sit there like "oh no"

[antennatoheaven]

[christinered]

How do they not realize when we become very dangerous? Boys....Bless their hearts (sigh)

~Red

[batcavescolony]

Katniss is such an unreliable narrator. She says "Then something unexpected happens. At least, I don't expect it because I don't think of District 12 as a place that cares about me" girl you deliver strawberries to the Mayor, you hunt and trade for the district, when you fell at Prim being chosen someone caught you, when you went to Prim people parted for you, when you volunteered EVERYONE stopped. Idk how to tell you but I think you're a pillar of the community.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

License to Kitty.