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cw: mention of suicide but also, hope.
REFUSE to let life force you out of your own body. REFUSE to die. I planned to kill myself on May 10th of this year. I planned to "go home." I spent so many days hiding and crying trying to avoid certain things happening in my life. Things out of and in my control. I have been hopeless for the last two months, assuming that I would be dead before my next birthday.
I'm not a strong black woman who can brave any storm and come out stronger of any situation. I'm soft, I'm a crybaby. I get scared, I call my mom when I'm sad and I have been struggling with depression since I was old enough to understand what my life was.
I woke up last night, full tremors and found I wasn't sad anymore. I was angry. I was fucking pissed. Why the fuck was I trying to convince myself that I didn't deserve a good life?
Because I do. I do deserve a good fucking life. I deserve everything I wish for others. I deserve love. I deserve friends. I deserve safety. All of it! And so do you.
We're not spare humans who this world could give or take. You're a real fucking person with real fucking desires. You are not some written character that needs to be strong or needs to be killed off.
You and I both deserve a good life. And know now that when I saw that to you and anyone else, I know I deserve that too.
#This feeling will fluctuate#When things get hard I will feel this way again#But I'm learning just like you and I'm trying to get my mind tight just like you#We got this
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it's zoro's birthday!! happy birthday big guy, may you say many more insane things to your enemies in the coming years
#one piece#zolu#comic#a while ago I reread some of the earlier arcs in one piece and was caught off guard by zoro's dialogue in the daz bonez fight#finally got around to making a comic abt it#boys fluctuating wildly between chatting shit n making jabs at eachother n having a sweet heartfelt moment#they have the range#the weird shape next to zoro's face in the second panel used to be a question mark#umm but it didn't get erased fully apparently#and im too lazy to do anything about that now that i've noticed it so enjoy!#oh also when luffy says baaastard hes imitating zoro saying temeeeee#does quite have the same feel...“baaaa” like a sheeps bleat vs the kinda drawl-y rumble of “meeee”...oh well
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A common misconception about Fairy Crowns is that it indicates the emotions a Fairy has. This is not true. A Fairy's Crown is purely an indication of their magical energy, as magic is directly connected to their health.
A crown losing its form is an indication that the flow of their magic is fluctuating, which humans often mistaken it as high emotions. Humans should be wary of Fairies with visible fluctuating magic, as it can mean that they are about to impulsively use magic in an erratic or dangerous manner.
Thankfully, crowns cannot do direct harm to others, and Fairies cannot do magic without a wand! Take their wand, and they won't do you harm!!
Bitties Series: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
Instability: [Start] > [Previous] > [Next]
#fairly oddparents#fop#fop a new wish#fop timmy turner#fop timmy#timmy turner#fop peri#peri#itty bitties fop au#AJAHEJHE YEAAAAAAAAHHH VERY VERY EXCITED AND HAPPY TO REACH THIS PART#HAD SO MUCH FUN DRAWING ALL OF THIS#timmy knew peri's fluctuation would mean he'd throw a tantrum. he's feeling LOTS of emotions!!! and its impacting peri's impulse on magic.#at best timmy expected peri to use his wand and go crazy with it. like explode his drink. or turn him into a frog. or shrink him down.#(which has all happened before. unfortunately.)#(it took CosWan 3 days to find Timmy and get Poof to change him back. Timmy was lost in the deep jungles that was.. the livingroom carpet.)#but nobody expected for whatever it is that happened here.#also the sketch lines left in on the last panel is 100% intentional.
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Autism & Fluctuationing Support Needs Part 2
Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place
#autism#actually autistic#autism acceptence month#autism awareness month#autism & support needs#fluctuating support needs#executive dysfunction#interoception#special interest#energy levels#sensory sensitivity#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place (Facebook)
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They're at a cafe on a rainy day bc.. I want to sit at a cafe w someone and just vibe tgt
#jon is just scrolling thru tiktoks while damian is talking about whatever#also the way they look in my art constantly fluctuates bc for some reason I do a lot of experimentation with them as the subjects#like what do you mean I drew a whole background HUH? I hate to work hard!#i consider going back to rework some previous pieces because my learning has been large over this last month#I'm really really loving how my art looks these days fr tho#i think it feels very pretty to look at :)#anyway no more art for fun and leisure I HAVE A BIG COMMISSION TO DO 😭😭😭 DON'T LET ME DRAW FOR FUN GUYS 😭😭#art#digital art#fanart#screentone#manga style#illustration#jondami#damijon#damian wayne#jon kent#jonathan kent#damian al ghul#damian al ghul wayne#also the sketch layers for this were so bad I didn't even put them in the digi sketchbook HAHAHAHAHA#maybe I'll fish them out tomorrow#might be kinder to myself then!#also.... the way I draw hair at the moment? freakin nice I love it#they're both having hot chocolates btw#me vs everyone should drink hot chocolates actually#also do Not Look at the shoes I know I need to do shoe studies I KNOW. OKAY. I know 😭#jon tilting back his chair and slouching hard bc uh yeah he absolutely is doing that#also as always I don't know how to draw children so they're young adult age 👍#yes I know I have to study how to draw children but please forgive me I am just so silly
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bound to want (part two) /// part one rest of pages under READ MORE after ID
[ID: 23 page digital comic of Vashwood from Trigun Maximum. The comic is in a limited palette of a dark blue, light pink, white, black, and a light beige color for Vash's skin and a mid-brown color for Wolfwood's. This comic is the second part to "Bound to Want" and is spoiler-free. The first part is linked here.
It begins with a panel close up of Vash's expressions. The sky colored in dark blue can be seen behind him. He has a neutral expression, but he holds a slight frown and the reflection of his glasses covers one side of his eyes. Wolfwood says, "Hey. What's with the distance?" In the second panel, the shot widens to show both of them, a clear physical distance separating them with Wolfwood walking ahead and Vash trailing a little behind. Vash responds, "What? I'm just walking a bit slower today..." Wolfwood looks at him with a an irritated expression, clicking his tongue. Wolfwood says, "I was going to wait for you to start... But yer just running away away."
Vash is seen looking away, unable to hold eye contact with Wolfwood as he continues, "You've been avoiding me since that night. Did ya think I wouldn't notice? It's about that dream, right? Tell me about it already if you're going to be moping like this." Vash looks slightly downwards, his brows furrowing and he starts to walk ahead of Wolfwood without looking at him and responds stiffly, "I really don't want to talk about it..." Wolfwood looks at him with a surprised expression, but doesn't probe.
A panel close up to Wolfwood's eyes as he watches Vash go on ahead before he follows suite with an irritated sigh. The panels are overlapped by Wolfwood's hand holding the bottle of the Bride with motion lines, indicating a transition in time.
A wide shot of Vash and Wolfwood in a room now. Vash is seated, his back turned away from the viewer, while Wolfwood's body faces the viewer with his eyes looking towards Vash. He rests the bottle of the Bride on the table with a "clack" and his other hand holds two shotglasses. The background is coated in a light pink.
A panel shows a close up of Wolfwood's face, his eyes looking downwards to Vash as he says, "Let's drink." Next to this panel is Vash looking up at Wolfwood, his brows furrowed and a slight frown. The bottom half of the page is a wider shot with Vash's body turned away from the viewer as he says, "I'm not going to talk about it." Wolfwood responds, "You don't have to." as he sits down.
A wide panel of Wolfwood holding the shotglass, pouring in the drink as he continues, "I'll talk." The next panel is a profile view of Wolfwood, his eyes looking down at the now filled shotglass as he continues to say, "You're..."
"... upset with me." Vash can be seen next to this speech bubble with narrowed eyes, looking towards Wolfwood. The panels are all coated in with a dark blue background. Wolfwood continues, "I can't be certain why since yer not telling me a thing -- but it's probably... my bad." The panels show Wolfwood about to bring the shotglass to his mouth but he turns way as he continued to speak, his eyes not on Vash. The bottom page shows him looking away completely with a guilty expression as he says, "I'm sorry.
If you can ever tell me why, I can try and adjust to make it more bearable. But if you're just trying to get rid of me--" The panels follow Wolfwood's certain expression as he says this, "I don't intend to leave you. I can't... and I won't." A panel shows Vash's wide-eyed expression, surprised upon hearing this, and then his eyes soften as Wolfwood again concludes with, "I'm sorry."
Vash's inner thoughts begins, a boxed speech at the center of the page and panels of his eyes, his brows furrowing again and a resigned, but frustrated expression. His thoughts starts, "Stop. I shouldn't be happy hearing that. And why are you apologizing? I should be the one to..! I can't let anything like that happen to you. You deserve to live a long steady and peaceful life. I want to be optimistic. I want to protect you, but I might end up doing the opposite." The text surrounds Wolfwood from Vash's perspective, the other man drinking out of his shotglass, his eyes downcasted.
"I shouldn't have you. And you won't leave." Behind these text is a panel of Wolfwood's eyes finally looking over to Vash. Vash's thoughts continues, "It's so unfair." When Wolfwood sees Vash, his eyes soften and he frowns. The last panel shows the lower half of Vash's face, but tears begins to flow down his cheek. Wolfwood's hand is already reaching to wipe at them as he starts to say, "You know..."
A wider shot of Vash and Wolfwood, Vash slightly leaning forward with his mouth tightly shut, and tears steadily continuing to flow out of his closed eyes. Wolfwood continues to wipe at them with his hand as he continues, "This isn't a dream anymore. I don't know what you saw for you to be this shaken up, but whatever happened, you'll overcome it, right? If not you, I'm here too. You'll be okay, Spikey. So..." Wolfwood's expression grows more tender, "Have a little faith in me... and come back already." The dark blue starts to fade.
The wide panel has the dark blue background faded and replaced is the light pink. It shows Vash in full up to his shoulders, his eyes are still tears littered, but there's light in them as he says, "Wolfwood..." making eye contact with the other. The next panel shows Wolfwood's tender expression, his eyes and brows fully soften and he has a small smile on his lips, finally seeing the other return a level of sincerity with him.
The next panel shows the bottom half of Wolfwood's face and his hand is offered towards Vash for a dance as he says, "C'mon. We don't have to talk, but this is okay, right?" The background is now white and a ribbon flowing across the page separates this panel from the next sequence. Vash's inner thoughts continus, "I've spent too long avoiding this. It's scary to want after I've taken so much from others." A sequence close up of their hands is shown, with Wolfwood's outstretched hand on the right and Vash's reaching hand on the left. Vash gently places his hand in Wolfwood and at the bottom, Wolfwood wraps his fingers across Vash's.
Throughout the page, a dark blue ribbon starts to flow around the both of them with confetti raining alongside the effect. Vash and Wolfwood are hand and hand, dancing together with Wolfwood as the lead. The viewer can see a peak of Vash's expression, full of fondness but also a hint of sorrow as he looks down at Wolfwood. His inner thoughts continue, "I don't deserve this. I don't deserve you. But why is that even though I have these burdens, I still want to love you. I still want you to be by my side."
With a close up of their mouths, Vash's thoughts continue, the text covering his mouth, "Wolfwood, I--" Wolfwood's speech bubble covers Vash's text as he completes his sentence, "want you." Vash's eyes widen for one panel and in the next, his eyes spark, a blush appearing on his cheek and the confetti flows and spark. Tears ease up on his eyes again.
"Want me too already, Spikey." Wolfwood has leaned in enough to rest his head against Vash, a hand of his on Vash's neck, holding his nape and another hand pressed gently against his back. A ribbon separates this panel from the next, a mix of confetti flows across the page, as Vash envelopes Wolfwood in a hug too, holding him and his hand gripping tightly onto his back.
This page is just the ribbon flowly throughout the page on the white background, one white ribbon and the other a dark blue. Near the bottom, the ribbon envelopes each other in a loop. A conversation of Vash and Wolfwood is held over these ribbons, Vash starting to say, "What if I hurt you? What if you..?" Wolfwood responds, "You? How could you hurt me?" Vash, "You know what I mean... You see it everyday..." Wolfwood responds, "If you think I'm going to kick the bucket so easily, I suggest you look at me more closely from now on, idiot. I'm not that easy to get rid of."
The next page has the ribbon criss cross over the top of the page. Vash and Wolfwood can be seen in their dancing position again, Wolfwood now resting a hand on Vash's shoulder, as Vash takes the lead. Vash continues, "Well, I know that... I tried." Wolfwood responds, "But you won't anymore... since you want me... around, yeah?" Wolfwood's head cocks to the side, smiling with assurance, cheeks flushed. Vash looks at him with a wide smile and fond, loving eyes. The confetti flows across the bottom of this page and as it eases into the next page, it starts to disappear.
Vash responds, ".. Yeah... I do..." as he pulls Wolfwood into a hug again. Wolfwood says, "Not going to run away anymore, are you?" Vash says, "No... I trust you." A panel shows Wolfwood's turning away slightly with a shy expression, muttering "Geez..."
In a more simplified style, Wolfwood is seen gripping Vash's cheeks now with his hand, "Though... You do remember you avoided me for two weeks straight, right? How are you going to make that up to me?" Wolfwood asks. Vash responds with eyes closed and a pucker of his lips. A vein of irritation appears on Wolfwood's face. Wolfwood starts to squeeze at Vash's cheek with both hands, shouting, "Now that you've recovered, you're trying to be funny, huh?!" Vash says through the squished cheeks, "I'm just happy..."
The next page opens with a closed up panel of Vash's widen eye as Wolfwood's hand moves from squishing his cheeks to gently holding them and Wolfwood leans in. The inner thoughts starts again, "There's a chance I'm not making the right choice... My dreams, my fears of losing you, it will never go away. But you said you won't let it happen... And I want to hang onto your words closely this time. After all, if it's anyone who can make me believe, it's you." The white ribbon from previous pages flows across the page and it visibly ends at the bottom of the page, enclosing the two of them as they share a gentle kiss with Vash holding Wolfwood's face, a tear in his eye.
The next pages starts with Wolfwood saying, "You cryin' again?" Vash responds, "I'm just grateful..." Wolfwood responds, "But you've always had me." Vash responds, "Being like this is different from staring at you from behind all the time though..." The two can be seen together again, Wolfwood pressing his elbows against the table with Vash leaning over him. Wolfwood is easing the tears out of Vash's eye again, just like earlier. A close panel of Vash's fond expression is seen as he says, "Thank you, Wolfwood." Wolfwood looks up at him with a small smile, gentle eyes. Confetti starts to flow lightly across the page as text starts to appear against the white background, "I'm the one who's grateful...
That you'd embrace someone like me, when I'm not fit to hold you in the first place... But I know better than to hesitate. The moment I acknowledged it, I knew I'd spend the rest of my life loving you. So, have as much of me as you want, Vash."
The final page shows the confetti gently falling down the page and at the bottom shows Vash and Wolfwood pressing their foreheads together, Wolfwood's hands cupping the side of Vash's face gently, and both of them smiling brightly with each other. ID END]
#vashwood#trigun#trigun maximum#vash the stampede#nicholas d wolfwood#its done.... after 2 months.... collapses on the ground#theres a lot of things i would prob change about this but. its so sappy that it makes me a little happy where it ended up#they deserve a little sap too!!! and in the end this is the closest they could get to a first confession#through want! want in each other's life and company since they both have this strained relationship with keeping people permanent in their#lives... and the people or things that are tied to them in the long term tend to be something that harms them.#and as the saying goes -- good things never last! and im sure they prob gave up trying to find a good thing for a long time#vash managed to be found after the moon accident and got his good thing for a bit but even he prob knew itd come to an end eventually#ironically it was wolfwood that ended it. but he really just planted smth new for vash... and now they have some security#or at least vash does. or at least just for this one moment#a moment of bliss and feeling like they are deserving of love is so Fluctuating for vashwood#and ultimately i think wolfwood could only push onwards to initiate because he sensed there was smth vash wanted. and its just#naturally in wolfwood to give to those that he love#but anyway anyway.... i like to think in a sweet universe -- they had the chance to confess like this and got a little bit of time to#enjoy and share their company in this manner. to be a little less restrained and love each other freely#ruporas art
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It really is like. you don't realize until you ask other fat ppl, how common it is for a thinner person to use you as a Fat Sounding Board for their feelings about THEIR own weight.
#listening to someone Half your size use you as a conduit to say they hate how fat they feel#is a serious twilight zone level experience. are there cameras???? is someone filming this?????#me. the person LEAST interested in hearing it. ME. I'M the sounding board??? ME???????????????#sergle.txt#you don't really think of it as a Thing until a bunch of other ppl describe an identical conversation to ones you've had lmao#they are like so eager to talk about it. unprovoked usually but also if they see an opening#my weight fluctuated a few times recently bc of mental illness / the woes of high dose bupropion and people were ELATED#to start dieting conversations with me after noticing any changes.
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last night i dreamt we did our laundry together.
#azulyuu#twisted wonderland#azul ashengrotto#twst grim#grim#twst yuu#azul ashengrotto x yuu#twst#disney twst#twst azul#nyuudle#oc x canon#twst oc#my art#2023#octopup#how i draw grim fluctuates with the type of feeling im trying to convey thru my art LOL#i love grim so much..... i know people hate him but hes my little gremlin. MY gremlin#like thats baby.. my baby... my baby... youre my baby say it to me... baby my baby#nyuudles baby brother grim...
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making my own clothes has done so much for my body positivity (I'm not claiming to go through half of what my larger friends do, but everyone gets their dose of the Toxic Slurry from society)
lose WEIGHT??? and RUIN THE FIT OF THE GARMENTS I SPENT WEEKS PER PIECE MAKING??? FUCK THAT
(alternately, get a six-pack??? um I think you mean Lose What Little Abdominal Squish My Short-Torso-Having Ass Possesses And Make My ~*Comfy Corset*~ No Longer Comfy and we will not be doing that today thank you very much)
#body positivity#sewing#body image#I get weighed once a year at the doctor's office. if there are no sudden fluctuations and I feel fine#and I'm able to be as active as I like and my clothes still fit well?#I'm good
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One thing that I always disliked about how people approach mental illness was to frame it as a grand battle, a battle you can lose to.
Obviously, this type of thinking absolutely gets applied to people who have gone through cancer, but I leave it to people affected by cancer to articulate how they feel about this, because it's absolutely not in my lane to talk about that part of this conversation. I talk about mental health because people (at least where I am at) also apply the logic to mental illness - especially if one has "lost" their battle.
It especially bothers me because in many cases, people conceptualize battle as something wherein both parties are full participants, that one participant can only win. Do you commemorate and respect the people who lose battles? Often not.
I know that many times, people use battle euphemisms in order to preserve dignity and (somehow) imply that the illness isn't their fault, but I just don't personally resonate with the idea that illness is something you "win" or "lose" at, that winning means something Grand, Big, and it's something which good people achieve. In my personal experience, it can feel like a battle, but it's completely different in how it operates as a "battle."
#mental health#mental health advocacy#cancer tw#cancer mention tw#i know people use those euphemisms to be respectful and i appreciate that...#...but i think we can do it better i suppose?#and i'm sure people will dosagree and that's the great thing about being people - we have the privilege of being able to disagree#i personally just found it... almost objectifying (not the correct word but that's how it feels) when people apply that to me#so i tend to avoid framing illness of any kind with battle euphemisms. i tend to think of it in terms of fluctuation
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OTHER POSTS: Baby bunny Trucy, Uendo lizard, Prosecutors, Aura Blackquill, Clay Terran, Bobby Fulbright, modpoppy's Uendo, okartichoke's Caracalvier,
Compiled here is almost every single design sketch I've done for this... AU? It's my nonsense, take it or leave it! The tag for it is "#The Great Detective's Animal Attorney", but the prefix is mostly for filtering, I just call it "Animal Attorney".
I must disclaim that this is not meant to "compete" with any other AUs or designs! They're all real and I hope my dognix can be friends with yours.
The below post has my designs for the Gavin brothers, Maya, Fransizka, Phoenix, Athena, Sholmes, Lord van Zieks, aaand a teeny Harebrayne. Sadly, no Apollo this time, all his art is doodles and I hit image limit anyways! Him and Trucy may get their own post soon, however!
These were all done with my non-dominant hand, and Athena was done on a Magma board, if that explains the anything.
The Gavins are the first ones I really did, and they're both caracals! I've kinda wanted to go back and change Klavier a bit in regards to an insane headcanon, but caracalvier is too iconic like this, I just can't do it
Putting Maya and Fran together, cause they're both kitties! If Maya was a specific breed, then I forgot, but Fransizka (and her dad, by extension) are both oriental longhairs. If I weren't presently injured, I'd draw a scrungly Manfred, but alas your mind's eye will have to do the work.
Phoenix is a puppy dog! Very very nearly made him a hyena... But I couldn't. I couldn't reconcile it with Ryunosuke. I have a Yeenix in the back, for any interested parties
LASTLY for my main-series designs is Athena! She's a seal. I don't think I had a specific reason besides not being able to get ears to fit with that ponytail... Might change her to a sea lion, though!
AAAAND TGAA BONUSES... Aka the Barokorn Cinematic Universe
Sholmes is a lion (with his sad little low testosterone mane)! He was easily the hardest, as I went back and forth... Alot. He was a pigeon at first! I contemplated rabbit..? But I tried to steer away from the mascot designs, generally. I'm happy with the decision of lion, however, mostly cause it gives him fun symbolism with the whole Professor thing.
The van Zieks-es are unicorns, and Bunnybrain is a pony! I could go more in-depth, buuut that's kinda spoilery
Ryunosuke and Kazuma (not pictured) are both puppy dogs, and I think I settled on bunny for Susato?? To make her pops a bunny also? I also have some sketches of her as a sugar glider, but I don't really like most of their art 👎 so there's a couple gaps here
If anyone wants to (??!?!?!!) you can use these designs for pretty much anything you want (and feel free to extrapolate upon the rest of their designs, most of these are very limited), just make sure to tag me, partially for credit, but also because I'd just REAAAALLY want to see... They are my babies, my world, I think I might break down into tears (/pos) BUT ANYWAYS I LOVE YOU ALL. THANK YOU FOR STICKING WITH ME AND I HOPE THIS MAYBE MOTIVATES YOU TO DRAW SOME SILLY ANIMAL ATTORNEYS OF YOUR OWN!!
#aka watch my injuredness + skill in my left hand fluctuate LOL#I'M SO SORRY ARTICHOKE I HOPE IT'S WORTH THE WAIT#IF the reception continues to be positive‚ I'll make more posts with more doodles and designs!#and that last little bit is a lie partially. i actually made a full ref sheet for dogzuma BUT I'M TOO SHY TO POST IT LOL#The Great Detective's Animal Attorney#for sitting through my madness YOU GET EDGEWORTH LORE cause i didn't like the art i did for him way back#he's a borzoi / collie mix‚ but since he was raised around cats‚ his grasp on dog body language is questionable#he thinks tail ''flicks'' (wags) = mental stimulation so he thinks he's soooo subtle and nobody knows what he's thinking#wait i do actually have a sketch of that#LMK AND I'LL DROP IT#and please any questions / comments on anything here ARE APPRECIATED... I'M SO CRAZY !!!!!!!!#ace attorney#the great ace attorney#i... dont wanna tag everyone. that feels greedy#if you have any requests for fuller designs / designs for other characters LMK and ill see what i can do!! >:]#the deduction of art
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Lan Sizhui's no good, very bad day
[First] Prev <--> Next
#Poorly Drawn MDZS#MDZS#season 1#wei wuxian#lan sizhui#jin ling#lan jingyi#remember being in middle school when your friends would start testing fate and you were losing your mind cause you were still a lawful kid?#yeah thats this whole scene#Jin ling would throw rocks at a grizzly in the middle of a camping trip#feeling a bit dejected at my fluctuation with progress art wise#Im not a fan of this one at *all* especially as we're catching up to the point i start figuring out better paneling
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Autism & Fluctuating Support Needs
Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place
#autism#actually autistic#support needs#fluctuating support needs#Lil Penguin Studios/Autism Happy Place (Facebook)#feel free to share and reblog
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“everyone is capable of experiencing goodness and joy. not me th-“ *EXTREMELY LOUD INCORRECT BUZZER*
#OH BUT YOU ARE!!!!! YOU ARE!!! i literally prommy#i do NOT prommy if i dont mean it👍#it fluctuates and it wont always be there bc thats how life and adversity is but it’s THERE!!!#it’s there in the cracks and crevices of your silly little life#it’s in the girl at the mall who looked you in the eyes and smiled#it’s in the baby that stares at you like you hold all the warmth and love in the universe#it’s in the tiny victories like ‘i drank water today’ ‘i woke up today’ ‘i was okay with myself today’#it’s in the laughter experienced by people around you even if you dont feel like you can participate where you’re at#it’s in your favorite songs and your favorite color and your favorite food and your favorite animal and your favorite blanket and#and it’s in your favorite hobby your favorite outfit your favorite type of bug your favorite tree#and it’s in that safe place you have whether that is the corner of your room or your bed or the bathroom or your floor or wherever it is#the goodness sits there and it sinks in and it doesn’t go away even when you forget it’s there because of all the bad things overshadowing i#it#the goodness sinks its claws into you and sometimes you cannot help but be in awe#maybe you do not feel it right now#but it is there#and i promise that someday you will find it wherever it is resting#cathy says words#comfort#important
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now that things are on my own terms
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#I LOVE HER!!!!!!#drawing natsume too. i will try to color them tmrw or something#hence why reblogs are off#i want to draw nudity moreeeeeeee but im too SHY FOR NSFWWWWW#its so hard being me#nat rambles#my latest mugis were v skinny bc i was feeling spiteful But i missed her hint of squish.#i really like this body type on her#though ill likely continue to fluctuate w what i draw
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