#Thesis Stuff

[ask-walter-and-vince]

Flustered (animation wips)

[smolsleepyfox]

Reading interviews for my thesis and I love Matthew but either the (German) interviewers catch his tone in a weird way or he is just REALLY good at giving non-answers. Babygirl I just want to know more about your concept of the werewolf as a symbol of boundary-crossing in the religious imagery of your band.

[narrenstrich]

[repressedqueen]

In a very real sense, people who have read good literature have lived more than people who cannot or will not read. It is not true that we have only one life to lead; if we can read, we can live as many more lives and as many kinds of lives as we wish.

Hayakawa, 1990

[homulizard]

academic book i want and would be very useful is $90 without shipping, wishing all academic publishers a very Explode Now

[ignore-tenderness]

ur thesis tag is so interesting what are u writing about :0

oh thank you!!! I'm looking at riot grrrl and intersectionality through an interdisciplinary lens: I'm in a MA history program so I'm looking at the history of feminism in the 1990s in general (like the overall discourse) but also the transition from second wave feminism to third wave and how the term "intersectionality" manifested into riot grrrl as a feminist movement and if it can be referred to as such. this isn't a new topic and there are many POC scholars who have written quite extensively on it

so I'm using Python (yeah the language!) as a way to find frequently mentioned words across a selection of zines (whether created/curated by WOC or not) to determine important themes that align with intersectional feminism or overall inclusion. this will have to be supplemented by other research whether conducted by myself or research from others - but it could go the other way and be representative of the very simple narrative of how riot grrrl came to be, that leaves out a whole history of those in the punk scene that precede riot grrrl, like queercore for example

LASTLY, i love oral histories so I'll be conducting my own with WOC in their local punk scene (only focusing on southern Ontario region where it is feasible to set up interviews. also, to narrow down an already large topic) who have memories of riot grrrl (so any woman who lived through the "original" riot grrrl movement and can speak to that experience, whether they aligned with that label, liked riot grrrl-aligned music, or hated it and rejected that label) but ALSO interviewing todays generation of young women who have experienced a revival in riot grrrl or inspired by some aspects of it - i am loving the revival of zine making that is occurring where i live and in surrounding cities, so there's another layer of analysis to an already complicated topic

so to summarize:

- focusing on riot grrrl and how it is presented vs. accounts of racialized scholars who lived during whether as part of or as observer to the movement. this is being done through zine analysis and close reading of a large collection of zines

- interviewing WOC, prioritizing narratives/experiences of queer and/or trans WOC if they wish to share their stories/memories etc. my interviews will be with two separate groups: one group being WOC who experienced riot grrrl as it happened and their memories, experiences, whatever they wish to share and also their thoughts of riot grrrl as a feminist movement, the second group is to determine the impact of RG's legacy in the generations that follow and if a discernible revival in the local area exists

probably missed a ton even w this long ass response but tysm for asking! I could go on forever abt it

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[roosterzebra]

I just came up with the Best Lacanian pun, and now its going to be a key part of this chapter I didn't know what to do with

[lebedame-wegelagerin]

I held a celebratory Session on Discord where I had invited some Friends to witness me closing all the Tabs that had amassed over the Time I worked on my Thesis and talked about each a little. We counted them and this was the final Result:

[slonk-hill-man]

“Pol de Limbourg has alluded to the duke's propensities in this scene in an even more direct way. The handsome young cup-bearer who pours his master's wine elegantly at the far left is presented as the duke's Ganymede ± a common classical allusion to a male sex-slave for, as many poems of the medieval period describe, after being ravished by Jupiter in the form of an eagle, the boy served as Jupiter's cup-bearer by day and as his bed-partner at night. This witty allusion is also evoked by the appearance of the totally naked water-bearer in the top right of the blue, white and gold zodiacal frame above Ganymede was synonymous with the figure of Aquarius throughout the Middle Ages. 26 The `earthly' Ganymede and body-servant of the duke is highly eroticized on this page, not through nudity but through dress. Visible against the dark elegance of his robe is a clearly phallic object - similar to that which sticks out from between the legs of the duke's carver, who performs his office at the table beside the pantler. These corkscrew-like objects are not only insignia of office, they are playful emblems of youthful virile sexuality. These six beautifully dressed young men in the foreground, one of whom crosses his differently decorated legs, stand out in the foreground of the scene as `cross-dressed' in a courtly sense. Their male bodies are just as eroticized as female ones. If the February page displays to the duke the penises of his subjects, so too, in a more allusive way, do these courtly phalluses of the January page play upon the power of the penis, so crucial to the princely persona of the period.” 

- Michael Camille, “For our Devotion and Pleasure: The Sexual Objects of Jean, Duc de Berry ”

[drawerbread]

bury me in an unmarked grave

(aka gideon dealing with rejection aka me thinking about the fact that gideon's ultimate act of love is the ultimate act of betrayal for harrow)

details under cut!

[prideandperdition]

Almost finished. Just need to finish writing this abstract and this darn thesis is finally done.

[bacchanalianhamlet]

update on the thesis front.

supervisor prof said he's not well versed in feminist and gender theory it should be beneficial to seek someone else.

what's not making sense is I literally told him I'd be doing *gender and feminism* and he said let's see what you write. so why not just apologize then and save me the trouble?

[knifearo]

this year my challenge for everyone is to unlearn the association between love and morality. love is not something that is inherently morally good, and the absence of love is not something that is inherently bad. sex without love isn't morally bankrupt, it's just an action. people without love aren't less kind or less good, they're just people. when we can get past this false (and often unnoticed) dichotomy of good love/evil lovelessness then i think we are going to be able to take leaps and bounds in sex positivity, aro advocacy, certain discussions of mental health...

[branwinged]

"dragons plant no trees" gets thrown around a lot as fact, but i think the veracity of that claim is still up for debate in the books. because dany (like bran and jon and many others) is a narrative symbol of hope and rebirth within the series because of her connection to dragons and fire, not in spite of it. this is because dragons in asoiaf have a much more expansive narrative function than simply 'nuke metaphor'. the 'exclusively weapons of war' image they have acquired breaks down immediately if you recall that the first thing dany does with them is begin dismantling an unjust status quo. she rallies the unsullied at the gates of astapor with cries of dracarys! dracarys! freedom! <- dragons as a symbol of hope and freedom for the persecuted. and obviously they've been built up as an oppositional force against the others. we're told when the last dragon died summers became shorter. in that respect the dragons, or more specifically, fire which is warmth which is passion—very much embodies life against the numbing, deadening threat of eternal winter that the others represent. but fire also consumes, which simultaneously makes dragons agents of destruction, or as adwd shows: the monsters who eat little girls and leave behind their bones. but when dany found herself chained to a false peace which effectively undid her cause in meereen, it was the dragon that rescued her and reignited her fire to fight back—which is to say that dragons represent a wealth of contradictions within the text and this is likely something grrm means to parallel with the others to some extent, by questioning their apparent narrative role as the one true evil. because i doubt the series is gearing up towards a spectacle-esque battle wherein our heroes get to practice righteous, easy violence on a monolithic army of monsters. that feels like it would undo a lot of asoiaf's preoccupation with investigating violence against socially acceptable targets, even if said target is ice sidhe. and this binary between a one true good and a one true evil, i.e. melisandre's philosophy ("if half an onion is black with rot, it is a rotten onion. a man is good or he is evil.") is not something the story takes as given.

instead there's this exchange between bran, jojen, and meera in asos: "but you just said you hated them." / "why can't it be both?" / because they're different. like night and day, or ice and fire." / "if ice can burn. then love and hate can mate."—and i think it's talking about reconciling two conflicting ideas. because the dream of an eternal summer is just as unsustainable as the threat of eternal winter. i think the battle for dawn is more about questions of seasonal harmony. the first line from agot's summary says, "long ago, in a time forgotten, a preternatural event threw the seasons out of balance", so it's not totally out of question for the series to end with that seasonal balance restored once more. and that question of balance and how it can be achieved then works as a metaphor for a bunch of other things. because asoiaf at its core is very interested in exploring big contradictions, like love and duty? how do you keep all your oaths without betraying someone you love? how can one hope for a just, rightful ruler in a world where the systems in place can never allow such a thing? how do dragons plant trees?

you cannot frame dany's arc as a binary choice between planting trees or embracing (dragon)fire. because the fire is hers, it is a part of her, that's who she is. and her character has always existed outside of rigid dichotomies. at the end of agot she had two options, resign herself to a life of seclusion as a widow or die with the last of her family in that pyre, instead she performed a miracle. presently, i think grrm means to explore necessary, revolutionary violence with her arc because you cannot deal with institutional slavery by simply negotiating with slavers like she does in adwd. and the consequences thereof because she's also been set up to be more reckless with dragonfire in the future. but i think there will be an eventual reconciliation there, between her dreams "to plant trees and watch them grow." and her role as the mother of dragons, as a revolutionary figure. because if ice can burn, then maybe dragons can plant trees. they'll learn how to.

[why-the-heck-not]

me, a responsible being, working on the coding project as I should vs. me, a dysfunctional shithead, getting distracted by reading about brains (once aGAIN damnit (it's my favorite "I need to study my field but bc I should do that it's an impossible unthinkable feat now, so I'm reading about something else to fool my brain I'm still being productive"-topic))