#The sskk scene was so good 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[sskk-manifesto]

Ouch it went SO CLOSE to the sskk homoerotic bloodsucking

[iztea]

I confess!

I'm curious to hear your thoughts hehe.

wdym by "beastzai's plan failed in a way, which makes it even more tragic"?

since his goal was to make oda live and be happy, wouldn't that mean his plan was a success? since oda got to live in the end

do y'all really read all my tags man i was just rambling😭

okkk yes of course, he did succeed in the sense that yeah, Oda gets to live here, but when i said that "his plan failed" i meant it in a broader, existential sense. he thought he was going to offer Oda this peaceful, ideal world by playing God and orchestrating everything, but (if we consider the Beast movie that shows the aftermath canon) his death caused a big havoc and hurt a lot of people in the process. Chuuya got mad and destroyed the city and they planned to attack the ADA as some sort of revenge, which doesn't sound like a Very Good Time for Oda. To him, Oda is more important than the world he lives in so he is willing to burn it all down for him, but wouldn't that affect Oda's "happiness" as well? Yes, he succeeded in making sure Oda lives, but he failed in achieving the ideal, quiet world where he gets to write his books that he hoped for, he failed in mending bridges, he failed in realizing just how important his own life is to those around him (Atsushi, Chuuya, even Aktgw) and simulatenously (and quite ironically) just how "unimportant" he is in the eyes of Beast!Oda himself (the bar scene). Overall, he failed in being this hidden "hero" who played the role of a villain. And even if we don't consider the Beast movie canon, the story ends with his death; we only get a few scenes after that so, just like him, the audience doesn't get to see the future, it's left to speculation. I think he was so blinded by his one and only true goal that he overlooked his own significance in this world; that he will also be missed when he dies, if not on a personal level, then at least on a "political" level --being the boss of PM and all of that. He just passes the mess he's made to sskk and almost hopes things will sort themselves out, but the thing is.... he doesn't know and, by extension, we don't know either which makes up the entire tragedy of his character, his plan and story overall. That's why i said his plan "failed in a way" -heavy emphasis on the *in a way* part. Maybe failed is not the right word but again, i didn't think anyone would read my tagggs bhjsd tl;dr it's like that "we did it, Patrick! We saved the city" spongebob meme

[littencloud9]

WELL!! THAT EPISODE SURE WAS FUCKING SOMETHING HUH.

im actually gonna chew all my walls down i cant do this. heres my thoughts

- AYA AND BRAM??? THEY CONFIRMED THAT THE GIRL AYA RESEMBLES WAS HIS FUCKING DAUGHTER OHHHH IM SICK IM SO SICK. I CANT BELIEVE IT. I GENUINELY SOBBED WHEN I SAW THAT

- sigzai elevator scene you will always be famous… what was that… when dazai put his hand on his face… what WAS that

- dazai’s little 👍 when they were saved made me die a little inside it was not in fact 👍

- SSKK REUNION MUAHAHAHAHA i actually am gonna kms. aku looked terrifying. atsushi going ‘hey its me!’ like 😭 also i dont recall aku biting himself in the manga? but i honestly love that addition (if it is anime-only). because atsushi realises that aku would be fine even if he wasnt defending himself due to regeneration. AND YET HE HESITATED. AND DIDNT HIT HIM. and paid the price. im so sick of them. ‘we made a promise!’ YEAH 😭😭😭😭😭😭

- fyodor’s acting scene was top tier i may have giggled. BUT ALSO that scene when he asked sigma what year it was? he looked ADORABLE i was stunned

- skk……. Skk………….. chapter 109………

- they let dazai say bitch! i think thats funny

- CHUUYA WAKE UP OUR FATE WILL NOT END IN A PLACE LIKE THIS BECAUSE YOU AND I ARE DESTINED TO- 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭. 😰😰 im so shaken that im using this many emojis. do you understand. do you understanabdnans

- the cameo of the three ada members bleeding out was not fun! i sobbed

- fuck fukuchi or whatever

- THEY ANIMATED UP TILL THE START OF 110???? IM SO TERRIFIED FOR THE LAST EPISODE LITERALLY WHATS IT GONNA BE??!;!:!:&: oh my god

lastly, the pov changes were so quick i was stressing out, but it does do a good job of showing how many things are happening at once and how FUCKED we are. i was panicking. i am going to die. sskk and skk and sigma my bbg on top. actually no aya and bram on top. i am UNSTABLE and id like to reiterate, what the FUCK

[wildflowerteas]

hella got through chapter 6 everyone cheer!

i don't know how to respond to this coherently so i'm just going to scroll down and let the word vomit happen:

the choice of emoji reacts to some of these . . . i'm surprised hella hasn't killed you guys. keeping gin away from this mess is the last thing on my mind, unfortunately *stares at the BEAST tag*

ARRGHHHFGHHH IM SO GLAD YOU GUYS LIKE SSKK. they're such a breath of fresh air, and writing them comes so easily to me. while i like writing skk ( fucked up as they are--even at this point in the story ) and the fast-paced nature of their relationship, this is romance writing work coming from the guy whose only other fic had a first kiss at uhhh...160k words.

yesenina did serve too hard. i imagine her as similair to the others, but with a Rita Hayworth-like air of ambition about her, and that's a serve. and it's what gets her killed.

Chuuya Yuan history coming in SOON. actually. Next chapter. seeing hella lose it over Chuuya's internal monologue here has been absolutely hilarious and kind of rewarding. I Knew All That because I'm the author ( duh ) so i never really grasped how strange the shift to Chuuya's thoughts about the relationship would be. I mean there's snippets of it, like the diner scene, but you're right, it's fanfic and so that is a lot easier to sweep under the rug.

ACAB. I considered putting a line from Doc Riedenschneider in The Asphalt Jungle ( 1950 ) "Experience has taught me to never trust a policeman. Just when you think one's alright, he turns legit." in a divider chapter between part I and part II, but I thought was too on the nose following 7 ( and a bit pretentious considering this is just ao3 fanfic and not a published work or anything ) so i grabbed myself by the metaphorical monkey backpack and didn't. Mafia Nepo Baby 😭 I love Hella HUGE WIN FOR ME. I was so nervous because i needed to balance Chuuya being observant but also quite literally *out of the loop.* He's not from the same world as Dazai--he's not involved with the murders or the politics or the mess going on yet. He comes across as oblivious at times because Dazai's POV is purposefully designed to make you see him that way. Dazai's so sure he's in control of what Chuuya knows that he doesn't realize he might have met his match.

ZSKK are uhm. yeah. all im gonna say there.

the "PARDON." IM CACKLING

argh. the switch up with this chapter...why the hell am i getting nostalgic for something i wrote less than two months ago ( ican't believe i've been grinding through this fic so fast jesus ).

i love unhealthy dynamics, truly. this fic was really a test to see if i could write soukoku making each other worse. which is a pretty stark contrast to my other stuff.

HELLA. OH MY GOD. that bit about their careers . . . i can't believe she noticed that. Chuuya started the fic genuinely ambitious, wanting the spotlight, wanting to defy expectations set upon him by his looks, his race, and his past. Dazai's a cop, sworn to uphold the law, but he doesn't feel like a good person. He can't ( interlude chapter . . . stares out the window ), but he can use everything about who he is to give Chuuya the life he wants. like a guardian ange--*gets taken out by a sniper chapter 8 style* Their original goals aren't gone, per se, they've simply been reoriented.

can't wait for chapter 7

i know it'll make Hella want to hunt me down for sport, so i'll sleep with both eyes open for the forseeable future.

[daggryet]

really hoping bones will cover beast for season four, especially because they've cut so many good sskk development scenes in previous seasons (cannibalism arc 😭), and with chapter 88 on the horizon; it'd be a good segue into making viewers really feel the tragedy they're about to witness

[daz4i]

atsushi for the ask game? 👀

thank you!!! <3

First impression: "huh. that sure is a protagonist" (2016. this was in 2016. i had a bad taste back then and automatically disliked protags due to being an edgy teenager)

Impression now: son boy allowed. i have legally adopted him 👍

Favorite moment: any time he ever went sicko mode, best one is probably in dead apple where he has flashbacks and screams about how a tiger will use its claws when cornered. ALSO!!! goncahrov battle using rashomon for the first time, but that's more of a sskk moment than just atsushi 🖤

Idea for a story: atsushi has a good day where he gets to relax and hang out with his friends and no one tears his leg off 👍 amen

Unpopular opinion: i've seen people say he's boring/generic or whiny and i highly disagree. he's not boring he's like one of the most interesting and unique protags I've seen of his character trope (of like, the whole positive inspirational guy who has to save everyone that you mainly see in shonen), like he's bitter and petty and down to fight not to prove himself or w/e but bc someone pissed him off. at the start of the story his main motivator is money and he's not even ashamed to admit it. he roasts people around him and isn't naive or bright-eyed optimistic. AND he's not whiny he's just mentally ill 😭 i'd argue the anime's first season's oversaturation of his flashbacks scenes is what gave off that impression to a lot of people

Favorite relationship: would sskk being too easy of a pick. in that case i'll say 1 his friendship with kyouka, like his refusal to give up on her, his protectiveness over her, spoiling her even when he doesn't have to bc he wants to make sure she has a good time when he only knew her for one day??? and how their bond transcends time and space and they're still so close in beast 🥺🥺🥺 I Care Them 2 yeah i'm biased abt this one, his relationship with dazai. i love that he takes no shit from him but still clearly respects him and sees him as someone safe that he can trust. and i have so many other things to say i might have to make an entire post just about that tbh

Favorite headcanon: oh i have that whole theory about his name that afaik hasn't been debunked yet. you know how in beast the orphanage director refers to him by number? implying all the orphans have a number. i assume, since he was abandoned as a baby, he wasn't named by his parents. or at least if he was, it's not like he had any way to know what name they chose for him. ANYWAY you know how he quotes smth from one of irl nakajima's works. but claims he doesn't remember the name of the author. i think he just took it 👍 he wanted a name, he felt connected to this book. he might've not even realize this is where he saw that name before, and thought he chose a name at random, when the name on the book's cover was already worn out with time to the point of being unreadable yet it was still written in his subconscious!

[kyouka-supremacy]

Bestie I love your new blog theme 💜

Aaawww thank you 😭😭😭 I'm very happy with how it turned out so I'm glad you like it too!!! 💕

The full cleaned 55 Minutes sskk illustration (I queued it too, but showing it here so you don't have to wait three months to see it pffftt)

But listen listen Violet I NEED you to know about the context of this illustration it's absolutely priceless. I initially wrote it in the tags but it predictability got too long so sit down while I offer you (and any passerby) tea and biscuits and talk about sskk while laughing my head off because I just love them so much and they're ridiculous

So Atsushi was after this object, this destructive weapon that in a matter of minutes would have swiped the whole Yokohama away. You have to understand 55 Minutes is set on a ship‚ or a floating town; Atsushi was currently on one of the bottom floors underground of it, several meters underwater‚ looking for the weapon in a computer room with big aquarium-like windows that looked directly to the depths of the ocean. AND. AND OF COURSE. AND OF COURSE AKUTAGAWA HAD TO DROP HIMSELF TO THE BOTTOM OF THE OCEAN. LIKE IT'S JUST SO ABSURD HE DID THAT HE 1) definitely isn't physically strong enough to swim that deep 2) is canonly thin and underweight which would make sinking even harder?? 3) dude has a literal lungs disease there's no way he could hold his breath that long. Yet he just DROPPED himself to the bottom of the ocean (for Atsushi... ) and BROKE THROUGH what must have been some of the thickest glass on earth, just to go after Atsushi. Which. If you ask me. Is something. And I didn't even mention the part where he was still falling down‚ locked eyes with Atsushi still inside and mouthed the words “I found you”. So Akutagawa basically had this entire ship-island almost sink just because he had to run after Atsushi and he was extra?? And because in that moment he believed Atsushi was a terrorist that had to be stopped because Akutagawa has two brain cells. But seriously just. The image of Akutagawa going after Atsushi and talking and talking and talking and smiling and talking, while Atsushi is just trying to run away from him struggling to make his way through running water and thinking “WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH THIS DUDE” is just priceless. And WHEN ATSUSHI SAID “DO YOU HATE ME THAT MUCH” AND AKUTAGAWA REPLIED “IT'S NOT HATE” HELLO???????????? And when Atsushi tried to pull the “Dazai is here too” card and Akutagawa replied “Cool then I'll kill you for him too” alsbdksjdjlsbdksbsk. Anyways sskk is seriously the only 55 Minutes redeeming quality. Further on there's even a scene where Akutagawa was in a position to kill Atsushi‚ didn't do so‚ looked at him with sorrow in his eyes (???)‚ freed him from the restrained condition the enemy had put him in and told him “Good. Now hurry. Do not waste my time‚ Jinko.” freeing Atsushi while HE HIMSELF was still at the enemy's mercy????????? Okay I'm perfectly normal about this

[sskk-manifesto]

Omg I actually enjoyed this episode quite a bit!!!