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COMPLETELY RUDE OF THEM TO DO THIS
TO HAVE LAVA LAMP TALKING TO HIS FATHER ON SCREEN, FULLY VISIBLE, BUT TO FRAME THE PANELS DELIBERATELY SO WE CAN’T SEE WHICH SYAORAN HIS FATHER IS?
TO TEASE US LIKE THIS??
Horrible. Just so mean.
Or… OR IS THIS A KIND OF A BACKWARDS CONFIRMATION?
CLAMP have been selling the idea that Lava Lamp’s father is Li Syaoran from Cardcaptor Sakura for a few chapters now. They’ve dropped numerous links and connections and WANT us to think that.
BUT THEN, IF IT WAS ACTUALLY TRUE, THEY WOULD JUST SHOW HIS FACE, RIGHT?
They’ve already DROPPED this information. We already THINK it's Li Syaoran. So there would be no need to hide his face any further.
UNLESS IT WASN’T TRUE.
UNLESS THIS IS NOT LI SYAORAN.
UNLESS THEY’RE CONTINUING TO HIDE THE IDENTITY SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE IT WOULD GIVE AWAY THE FACT THAT THIS ISN’T LI SYAORAN.
And am I jumping to conclusions? Yes! Yes always! Welcome to the Jumping To Conclusions Blog at Tumblr Dot Com. But you’d think that even if this was just another version of Syaoran, he’d look relatively identical to what we’d assume to be Li Syaoran. They could just show his face and we’d still assume we knew who he was, even if it was wrong.
DO YOU KNOW WHAT THEY WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO GET AWAY WITH SHOWING?
MIS-MATCHED EYES.
THERE WE GO. CRACK THEORY TIME. This is the only reason I can currently guess for why they’d still be hiding Lava Lamp’s father’s face.
It is adorable and extremely appropriate that Lava Lamp has the same style of shirt as his Mysterious father, especially when they’re completely side by side at the bottom of the page. How they’re so so very similar in name and face and identity and personality and fate, but even in just the shirt you can see ever so slight visible differences differences that are not eyes and are in fact shirt specific decorations.
ALSO, very fun choice that they’re talking about Sakura here while also being surrounded by cherry blossoms. It’s very Dream World coded, even though we see the supports of buildings in the background, so it’s probably not actually a dream. I...
No wait I was about to say we don't ever see buildings in the dream world, but that's not true. Watanuki sees them all the time. Hmm.
WELL, putting that aside also, this is possibly just a nice detail about where they live, and possibly a nice thematic link to the fact that they’re currently talking ABOUT Sakura’s dream visions.
I’m also desperately trying to recall if the transition into a flashback (the black borders around the page) is usually accompanied by those swirls of white in the edges? Is that a new detail or am I just looking too closely?
It’s the eternal mystery.
#I mean I am VERY MUCH looking too closely#I suppose that is the entire point#But anyway please enjoy some absolute nonsense#Just some complete bonkers thoughts based on nothing but hints#I’m sure there could be ANOTHER reason why they’d hide the face#For the drama maybe?#That'd be enough on it's own#... BUT IS IT?#Liveblogging the reservoir chronicle#Vol 192#Tsubasa#Lava Lamp Guy#And... A Syaoran#WHICH SYAORAN?#A SYAORAN#Hey you know who else’s parents we don’t get to see the faces for?#Watanuki!#Wow how interesting I wonder if there’s a connection between him and Lava Lamp#ANYWAY
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Here I am, pushing the Jian Li (Akai Kotou! Zuko) = Jinshi (The Apothecary Diaries) agenda.
#atla#avatar the last airbender#zuko#atla fanart#prince zuko#atla art#kyoshi warriors#Kyoshi Warriors AU#Kyoshi Warrior Ursa AU#Akai Kotou#Solitary Red Island#zuko art#zuko fanart#Kyoshi Warrior Zuko#atla zuko#the apothecary diaries#jinshi#If you know where this pose is from then you're my best friend#Moon Spirit Jinshi you'll always be gorgeous enough to topple nations#Have another one sketched somewhere because that Jinshi-wakes-up-does-a-sword-kata-and-lies-on-the-floor-to-mope scene is literally Zuko#“I can't keep my secret forever. Even that girl who's ignorant about the oddest things will probably figure it out soon...”#“Or maybe she already knows... That'd certainly make things easier for me.”#I swear the more I read the light novels the more Zuko Jinshi becomes.#But anyway THAT scene#Is literally Zuko struggling to keep his secret from Katara and the Gaang later on in the AU/fic#He's like “I can't tell her. But I can't hide who I really am forever. I can't. Why won't she figure it out already?”#It's all very dramatic and very mopey and very Zuko#So yeah. You'll probably get more Jian Li = Jinshi stuff later.#Which is hilarious to me because Jinshi is very much aware of his otherworldly looks right? Right?#Jian Li/Zuko has NO idea of how smooth he can be at times. He's so stupidly unaware of his own beauty and I think that's the best thing ever
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OOOOOO CAN I ASK HOW WOULD THE N2 SQUAD REACT TO EACH OF THEM DYING?
What have you unleashed?
(WARNING: Angst, allusions to death, all that fun stuff. Nothing graphic tho, don't worry)
Jamil
He shouldn’t be surprised.
Well… He isn't surprised. Jamil Viper doesn't get nice things. Not for more than a few months, anyway.
Every once in a while, life takes pity on him and throws some nice, agreeable news his way. Just enough so that he lets his guard down. Just enough so that he allows himself to think maybe things will get better. Just enough so that he can pretend he isn't chained to a fate he will never escape.
A letter to NRC, a plan that goes a little too well, a couple of upperclassmen who seem to genuinely love him for who he is and not who he pretends to be.
So of course it doesn't last. Life gives and life takes.
Kalim follows, Octavinelle gets involved, Leona and Vil-
Well…
He isn't surprised.
Jamil Viper doesn't get nice things.
Vil
They look at him like they expect something from him. Horror, anger, ugly tears maybe. Just a reaction. Anything. Anything at all.
Vil doesn't give them that. Doesn't give them an opportunity to pity him. Doesn't give them food for gossip. Doesn't give them any material to make this topic last for any longer than it has to.
He knows how it works. Someone snaps a pic of him at his lowest, someone records his voice breaking during an interview, someone catches his lips tremble for but a second, and everybody will start talking about it again. And again. And again. For as long as there is a reaction from him. For as long as the topic attracts views.
Suffering brings more views than success.
So Vil doesn't react. Doesn't say a thing. Doesn't acknowledge the topic.
Better to be a cold asshole for a few weeks than to hear about it for years.
And in the darkness of his own room, where there is no camera, no eyes, and no ears to witness his grief-
Vil cries himself to sleep.
Leona
It’s just sand.
Only sand.
For miles and miles, further than the eye can see, nothing but sand.
Ruggie had the clever foresight to send all of Savanaclaw packing when Leona got the news. They would be sand too otherwise.
Who cares.
Who fucking cares.
He could turn the whole world to sand and it wouldn't be enough.
He might as well turn his own heart into sand.
It would hurt less.
#are you a masochist Anon?#or do you want others to suffer lol?#those are short but I think they convey enough#I have a lot of thoughts for Vil's reaction tho#like I imagine Jamil would be defeated and lose all warmth#and I imagine Leona would either go full depression or destructive anger#but VIL-#can you imagine how shitty it must be to have everybody's gaze on you when you're trying to mourn?#how that'd be the only topic you would find online about yourself for weeks?#we all know Vil is obsessed with how he's perceived by others and he'd definitely check his own name just as much as Neige's popularity#so Vil looks up his name and sees those fucking news again and again and again#and it just opens his wounds again and again and again#and his only way out is to pretend he doesn't care#and so he keeps everything to himself#uses his acting talent to pretend he isn't as affected as he is#and only when he is alone does he let himself break down#anyway those all would be long enough into dating that they are serious about each other and that it'd be known that Vil is dating#but not long enough for them to have made their own life with this relationship#just a tease from life#because Jamil is a tragedy and a half and I had to play with that :3#twisted wonderland#n2 squad#leojami#leovil#javil#ask me anything#jamil viper#leona kingscholar#vil schoenheit#twst fic
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wizard kittens ✨
so far Melli's been the biggest troublemaker, which is apropos to her namesake! Rusza's a little more lovey, which is rather less so, hehe :3
#dnd#dungeons and dragons#character art#illustration#gnome#halfling#wizard#kittens#cats#when I told him the names we were considering#my brother whose roommate's cats had the kittens-- and who was in the campaign in which ruszca was an NPC--#said 'oh that'd be a good name for the one with orange on her she seems like the really curious one'#joke's on you! BOTH names are derived from chaotic-ass gnome wizards dkfgjhdfghkjh#melli's so weird she's got a lot of Opinions but it's rarely clear what on earth they're about#most vocal cat I have ever had#they're both affectionate but rusza is much more willing to be picked up and held and scritched until she falls asleep#whereas ruszca the NPC is notorious (at least to kethri) for being antisocial and sometimes kind of a bastard lol#ruszca#my OCs#felix#melliwyk#kethri#dungeons and doodles#noncanon shenanigans#... I don't THINK I'm going to draw the cats enough that they'll need their own dedicated tag. but we'll see
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#i think i may just make my thesis on fan identity construction in relatively long standing fandoms#as in.................. one direction#either that or taylor swift#maybe taylor swift is far enough from my own personal experience ???#do i particularly care about her tho#(i don't)#sociologically it Is interesting but.......#i asked my thesis advisors if they thought being close to the subject of study in this particular case would be beneficial or an obstacle#they just were like ''that sure is a question!!''#and yeah i KNOW it's something explored in literature and up for debate and something i have to figure out THAT'S WHY I ASKED FOR ADVISE#YOU KNOW. AS MY ADVISORS#i have a meeting in like an hour and a half and i need to have a clear research plan#i know i made a tag for this a long time ago but i forgor#let's do#thesis lb#i accept any input atp 💀#should i just throw lesbianism in there#that'd be fun#that would just basically be studying me though lmao#my main struggle is picking a case study to study#and that'd guide my methodology#but i've just been hitting a brick wall#obviously i KNOW there's more artists and fandoms but i want online bc 1. access and 2. online = more exposition to heterogeneity
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I love you thiiiiiiiiiiis much! (Patreon)
#Doodles#Original#Yanderapy#The boys are back in town the boys are back in town <3#At least for the moment! Caught a quick glimpse of inspiration for them and then it settled again haha - but they're here now!#Following up on the idea of their give and take - Ishida is definitely the more selfish of the two and Micchan the more giving#You'd think that'd lead to them overstepping - Ishi asking for too much and Mitsu being all-too-happy to grant it but no!#Part of that is from Micchan being in therapy lol - even when he has trouble recognizing his healthy boundaries himself he has external help#And him being honest and upfront - communicating where he struggles - eventually puts the onus on his boyfriend to help him!#And he does!! Because Ishida loves him!! ♥#They're still weird about it tho lol <3 There are things that both of them can get away with that they wouldn't if they were dating others#Featured here is Mitsu initiating snuggles and Ishida reciprocating a little aggressively lol - which Micchan is into <3 Feels loved!#And also flusters him so he responds with his own cute aggression lol - but they recognize that in each other! They play :D#Mitsu would Try to reciprocate to the level his partner sets the standard of but he's full of these big feelings!#It all works out that Ishida Also feels that way haha - they match each other's energy naturally <3 They have quite good chemistry :)#They also behave when they need to lol that's enough PDAs for now ♪#And of course they also got caught in the plush brainmush everyone does everyone needs to#They'd be so cute...... Holding hands or plush-kissing................#I don't think Micchan's necklace counts as an accessory hmm what would they have#They both need their bracelets! Of course#But besides those hmmm what Signature Objects could they have I wonder#And how would Ishida's glasses stay on! Magnets? Stitched on? Hm! Many things to consider haha
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Apparently hearing someone talk about things they've held grudges for over the years and telling them "you are emotionally stunted" is a bad thing.
... But it gets them to join Galactic, suddenly realising they're not the bastion of maturity they believed themselves to be and course-correcting so they can prove they're not a predictable disappointment.
#[the fem grunts in galactic speak so oddly. as a side note#and anyway it definitely just adds fuel to cyrus feeding off of... becoming the figure people want to impress#stepping into a void that'd been left for them. but they werent fully confident enough to fill on their own]#☆ headcanon
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I really wonder about Spinel's motivations and the reason he stole Rakurium. He was making his own move and acting independently from Gibeon's orders, since Zir and Conia were spying on him on Amethio's orders. Amethio also suspects him of plotting something.
I wonder if he is working for a third party, which is not the Explorers, though I doubt it because it'd make things a bit too crowded. And from what we've seen of him so far, I don't really see Spinel as someone who'd be involved in a grander scheme (good or bad). He prefers to be alone most of the time and avoids people usually, and he seems to have his own agenda.
Given how the Rakurium is also called "eternal blessing" and that Gibeon mentioned needing more of it for "eminent prosperity", I wonder if it has some healing properties or if it's capable of improving someone's quality of life (which would be the reason why Gibeon wants it)? I wonder if Spinel is doing all of this for someone else's sake, or if there is someone he is willing to do anything for. We know he is capable of love, since Blacky is a friendship evolution, and they are both loyal to each other and love each other. I think it'd be interesting if Spinel was willing to cross some lines and hurt others for a goal that could be considered altruistic.. At the very least, we know that Spinel probably joined the Explorers for his own interests and goals and that he is currently not acting for Gibeon.
#i just hope there's some reasons behind this and not just 'i am evil because something something world domination'#because that'd be very boring (that's why i don't care for the antagonist teams in most of the early pkmn games)#there is potential for an extremely compelling story right here so i'm waiting to see what they do with it#spinel buttering up gibeon when he is in front of him and secretly doing his own thing behind his back is so good. i love him#my current train of thought is that he is probably doing this for someone else (that could change with time the more info we get)#i just don't see spinel as caring enough about people to plot something too grand idk#what are your secrets ikemen etc#spinel#hz054#character notes#episode notes#pokemon spinel
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So I'm making this half-asleep
And halfway to deliriousness. So excuse the mistakes. Fat fingers and all that bull. Autocorrect too, iff you believe.
I like making art.
That's obv if you've seenn my last 2 posts and what I reblog. I like OCs even more.
But I made those with my fat fingers on a shitty phone on an admittedly good app. And my glasses frames snapped so my lens kept falling out. 🙃
Sooo, I do have a drawing tablet 'Artist tablet 10 (2nd gen)' this is the name but this fella does not work with my dying whale of a laptop which will probably serve me two more years, and it's not compatible with my Honor X6 phone.
I want to buy Samsung Galaxy Tab S9. That one is fucking expensive, but worth it, it even comes with a pen. But I'm broke.
What do I do?
I say, in my 36 hour no-sleep extravaganza, I open commissions, for OCs, and if people come, they do, if they don't, I grow sadge.
I thought, what would be a fair price, given that would have to draw and redraw one bitch until you're satisfied?
$45.
It's $45.
Take it or leave it. And no refunds cause I don't do AI shit.
So do you wanna bet on me? Drop requests in asks if you're interested.
That's all from me.
#i'm going to bed#i need to sleep#commissions open#character art#oc art#oc artist#I have no fucking idea what other tags to put but I have a craving for pickles#digital art#done on sketchbook app#paypal#Yeah you're gonna use paypal cause I'm a basic bitch#srsly tho#Are you crazy enough to commission me?#I bet you ain't#I win this#Or do I lose#...#I'm not really sure#did you know#I'm planning on opening my own café?#that'd be cool#But my bro called me lazy and selfish#And that I'm limiting him bcos of my illness and not helping around the house much#Even though I'm the one with the job rn#But that doesn't count cause it's me so yeah...#happy family bonding 🙃#i'm tired#i'm so tired#i'm sorry#i'm sad
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ok. i guess
#i'm willing to forgive the acting lmao i'm biased & i've grown attached to these characters anyway#& i love that they gave these actors the exposure so. honestly idc. even if this seems rushed#yea they could've cleaned the script but. the substance. the depth they're giving the backstory...ok. go off. scream that shit#i mean ya the class inequality had been set in the beginning & in fairness is a theme they didn't forget no matter how tiring the plot had-#gotten#[i think it's a shame how the extension rlly brought down the quality. these past few months had been honestly unbearable & tiring so i-#understand the frustration & disappointment from the others & i can't blame them for setting their expectations high.#me tho. marupok. <3 willing to settle for less. <3 jk]#& i know it's predictable from inigo & juliet. but i was thinking they might go the unpredictable route & introduce the other k1ller/s-#as someone rich & powerful & was just petty enough to fuck over their lives. for vengeance yes but not rooted in injustice but just dirty-#politics#like the Barbara route#but. this is good at least#i wish they didn't give away much on those previews tbh the surprise is ruined :/#but whatever we're here now. *sigh* 2 days left......what else do u have in store another wasted-potential-show :')#widows' war#now i'm wondering like. did the writers & production team got fucked over bc i really refuse to believe this is what they would settle for-#if this show was managed correctly#like who decided for the extension exactly. was it offered & they accepted or were they pressured to agree & extend idk how gma is so awful#@ handling this shit bc it happens to a looot of their shows.#stop wasting. literally everything. to ur scummy corporate business-oriented operation fkn. whatever stop whatever u're doing right now#sooo tacky. omg#s-z-t-e d0c i understand she's. in a league of her own. (a shitty one). but i refuse to believe the other writers r this incompetent...#can we re-do the show :( ye all of it :( & just follow what the writers & production team wanted for it originally :( that'd be great ty#edit: episode 143 finally utilizing their flashbacks correctly everyone clap & scream /j#edit: jericho...idk. idk about this one.#like it makes sense. he's a palacios. he's embittered by what happened to him & his mother. but to reveal it this way....idk. off.
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new icon
#espy art#and of course as always it looks absolutely awful at icon size#i made a good icon once and it took all my good icon making luck to do it#and it was a total accident. every time i try the same thing it's worse somehow?#like whatever. i'll get used to it and i'll complain about the next one i do#icons are more for an excuse to draw literally anything when i'm stuck with zero ideas#so at least if it's bad it served a purpose#y'all dont get to see it but once or twice a month anyways lol#assuming you even bother to glance at it#i hope? my art's stylized enough to be recognizable on it's own? that'd be nice if that's true#if you ask me my art's completely forgettable and unremarkable#i see much better art all the time against my will on this hellsite so it's hard to view my own in a positive way#whatever. two cakes
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Realized that my daydreams about retrieving Solanum from the Quantum Moon play out shockingly (hell, poignantly even) close to some sort of reverse tale of Orpheus
#as in. turning around to check shes there spelling her death versus having to stay turned around to be sure shes there keeping her 'alive'#outer wilds spoilers#solanum outer wilds#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#also it'd still be either doomed or extremely difficult (even discounting the sun thing) because like#she'd be a quantum object for the rest of her semi-existence pretty much#even if you got her OFF of the moon she'd still exhibit quantum properties in the same way other things entwined with quantum phenoma do#especially her since like. she's also literally speaking dead. causally her being able to exist YEEEEEAAAAAAARS after her species went#locally extinct is just makes that more apparent (given nomai can't be super long-lived given. textual evidence pointing towards them#being able to lose knowledge across generations within comperable spans of time)#though her exiting the moon and being succesfully taken back to Hearth or wherever would also mean she'd.#like. maybe also 1/6th exist there????#though that'd only last as far as the whole loop thing. fuck that sun in particular#.....of course my little stories about whisking her outta there are mostly involved in grabbing as many hearthians as possible and going#As A Group to the eye sldhgkllhkdsghlksgdhlkgdhlgdsgsdhlk so the sun going kablooey aint a huge deal in that regard#(though the prospect of bringing not-accustomated-to-exploring hearthians to the eye is ghoulish enough in its own right to even consider.)#(maybe just stick to the main 5)#well#six#seven including us really.
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i honestly do not know how other people put up with being constantly bugged about updates regarding their 100% free long-term fandom projects. i'd personally be quite irked and would have to hold myself back from being too mean. y'all are stronger than me i'd be brandishing a knife.
if it's my fandom art or writing made for free and someone's curious about when X thing will be out or updated, my response is gonna be "it will be posted when it will be posted, bug off."
#maybe this is my grumpy side showing but like. c'mon#it's free fandom stuff i'm not scheduling that shit are you insane#i'll work on it and have it out when the mood strikes me#i mean doesn't adult life already circle around enough schedules and deadlines?#now if you slid an Andrew Jackson my way then hmmm yes perhaps...#if it was monetized like via Patreon subscribers or something that'd be one thing#or if it was original work that was a passion project and needs a schedule for readership/viewership reasons#but you want me to schedule my completely free fandom thing i do in my downtime?#a thing that i can't even truly call my own intellectual property and is only derivative work?#just for the entertainment of strangers on the internet?#you lost me#i love making fandom stuff so much but the suggestion that someone should make/update their free fandom work Just For You#or that they should otherwise work on and schedule it just for your pleasure#is one of the most obnoxious forms of online fandom entitlement ever#leave people alone about their fandom projects and just appreciate what's there 2k24#sky sez
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i want a nice big house. a garden with trees, creeping thyme as a ground cover, and flowers. a nice big catio. tons of storage. a living room. proper trashcans. my own bedroom. well planned windows for proper ventilation. solar panels. roof access to see the stars. well planned water system so we have fresh water available in summer and warm in winter without spending thousands a month. outdoors lighting. a backyard door. a fence. enough space to steal my baby and my grandma and give them the life they deserve. a desk. space to build whatever the fuck i want. house decor. proper doors. less stubby ceiling heights.
#but no moneys..#my bby misses my grandma a lot#it'd be the greatest thing ever if i could somehow make it so we live together w grandma and my parents#bc my parents were also like super important to the bby growing up bby cant talk abt them or to them without all three of them crying#but i live w my parents n sister in a 1bed lol i can only hope to one day get a job that'd help me save enough to like#repair the house n make a second floor n when the time comes convince the bbs parents that college in Mexico is the way to go#personal#if my calculations r right id need to work a very veery well paying job in local standards (40h/w for like 175dlls/w) til college is#imminent (like a year before the baby has to go..) in order to have enough for a second floor w low end finishings#but for that I'd have to sort my own troubles lol#i want bougainvillea n an orange tree..#a few basil bushes bc they smell so nice and grow so well n big here#both my gma n the baby are so good at growing plants! it never failed to amaze me how they could bring back to life what was#basically already dead
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#wh. um. fuck.#dad's told me about my nan's will#and uh.#the money goes first to my grandad's looking after obviously#but um once he's not around (in a year or two dad says‚ with his alzheimers)#then it's split between the family in percentages ive forgotten - including my mum‚ which is lovely#but basically in two/three years. i could have enough money to buy my own place.#ive no idea what my credit rating looks like in the least but i guess i have that amount of time to find out and sort it out#i imagine it's not very good - i don't have a credit card or anything like that but i haven't used my overdraft since i was at uni#but dad says i could get 60 grand! so if i buy somewhere with 60k up front and the rest as mortgage? right?#i have no clue whatsoever how to do all that stuff or even like how much furniture costs or how to choose a mattress or anything#ive never had anything like that new#so um. yeah. that's. something#i don't know what to do with it or anything. but it's a thing.#for now i need to go back and find a flat my own cs ive got like 6 weeks now to move from this place#and i have to ring the estate agent landlord people to find out if i can just move upstairs or what. cs that'd be my first choice honestly#but um. my brains gone to mush#i knew my grandparents were well-off but i didn't know it was by that much#or that id get such a high percentage - tho that's half what my dad's getting so i guess that makes sense#he says he's gonna buy a boat and go to south america#which sounds bonkers honestly like he's not a sailor whatsoever#but i guess he's a lot more sensible now he's been sober a year than he ever was when i was a kid
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its likee... i cant be satisfied with my writing and ideas so i'm feeling depressed, but its because im feeling depressed in the first place that i cant be satisfied with my writing or even do it to a meaningful degree. i have to focus on being happy first but i dont seem to be able to do that either
#i just feel empty#i dont wanna live like this#i guess i should probably be like#going outside#not sitting at the computer playing a video game all day#doing something else#but i dont have the brain capacity to even knowwhat that'd be#when i was happy for abit there i could like#i could think fast. i was fast and witty and i had energy and stuff#and not like energy that i Had to have for school. like energy just in and of itself. energy for my own stuff#i cant remember if i used to feel like that all the time but it felt like itd been so long#i get scared of coddling myself and think i just have to try harder and then thats not like. enough#i came up with a whole concept for a short story last night with twists and stuff but its just not interesting to me#maybe i write characters who introspect too much i need to get out of first person or make a different type of character or smth#dunno how to do that either#ventposting
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