#Thank you so much for this one

[ragnarockz]

ok so, your tags on this https://www.tumblr.com/ragnarockz/774110958846148608 made me think of how Evanora would've been in this 'verse and how this now affects Agnes. Because there's no way she wasn't homophobic af and would've hated for her to be masc presenting on top (and there's no way a teenaged Agnes/Agatha didn't also have a ridiculously high libido too), and she's constantly fighting against those words from her whenever she finds a girl flirting with her even now.

And, my point being, Rio noticing this or Agnes having a particularly bad episode at some point remembering something abusive Evanora did and trying to get her to see that she isn't everything her mother told her she was

I couldn't wait to get home fast enough to answer this. I'm gonna try my best and hardest to answer this one without crying lol This one means a lot to me and I was so glad when you asked if you could send this over because wow, yeah

Here's my tags on the post mentioned in the ask:

I can totally see Agnes always being this way, always was a little tomboy and then realized eventually she was into women and of course, Evanora would notice (Mom's know everything - my Mom knew before I even came out to her at 21. She had a feeling I was a Lesbian when I was in my early teens). She would notice all these signs, blatant or not and try to 'tone down' her daughter or, simply, ignore her for who she is.

That leads to Agnes being this quiet-hidden from her true thoughts/feelings-into women young adult who's just trying to make it all make sense? And who do you turn to? If you're in an environment where that isn't nurtured (family/schooling - I went to a Catholic school for both elementary and high school...draw those conclusions yourself) you find out through other means (in my case, the internet).

And there's the high libido. Which is actually really interesting you bring up for 2 reasons: 1). Wanda brings this up to Vision in Wandavision about Agnes and, 2). I feel like I can pull this directly from myself (wow, once again, shocker 😂). So, here's this terrible, awful dilemma. You know who you are and what you're into, you know the type of people you're romantically/sexually attracted to. And yet, you have become so watered down, so sheltered, so hidden away from your true self that you become this shell, this facade until it will, eventually, boil over and you're gonna have to deal with it one way or another.

I can't tell you how many years I had to walk around and tell people I wanted a boyfriend or even that, I was excited for the first time I would have sex because wow, it would feel so great to 'do it' with a man 🤢 (no offense ya'll, but not my Lesbian ass). So, when you're alone, in those dark and lonely hours you really just gotta give it your all because if you're not imposing this hyper-sexual heterosexuality to your family and friends, that's all just gonna boil over.

And that would have boiled over for Agnes as well; locking herself up in her room and just delving into all these fantasies alone, maybe with a book (obviously this is modern day so she has the internet, too) and finding the most 'deplorable' and sexually 'deviant' shit she could find to make her feel something, anything that wasn't what everyone wanted her to think and feel. Do you ever feel normal about that? Having to hide away what gives you sexual gratification? No.

There's this desire to be seen and heard and have what turns you on sexually explored and at the same time you are so obviously scared to even THINK about those things because it's always been told you were wrong for it. Girls shouldn't think that way about other girls. You'll grow out of it. Some man will come along and make you realize you're straight.

So you become this removed self; chasing that high that really only masturbation can give you because you're sure as shit not going to tell your friends and peers you're into women; who knows what they'll do to you and you're pretty sure none of them feel that way. So it's you, alone in your room with toys you've secretly bought at the mall or online and it's just, you telling yourself that what you're feeling and the sexual high you're getting out of it is right and even worth it.

Then there's the whole predatory thing too. A lot of women don't like it when men are predatory around them. True. Women who are into women are also pretty fucking scared of 'seeming' that way towards women (I know I the fuck am; I still struggle with that). We don't want to be that way; we don't want to seem like we're this scary, exploitive force towards anyone, let alone women. So, of course Agnes isn't making the first move. That's something a lot of men do and she doesn't want any part of it.

She puts herself out there (dressing and presenting the way she does; her body language, her tone of voice, etc.) but there's still that part that needs, almost has to, hold back.

There's a lot of scenes in episode 1 where Agnes will not look Vidal in the face/in her eyes. Her body language changes; that half-head shake she gives herself as like a, "calm down, push those sexual thoughts aside, that's probably not what she's talking about so you need to check yourself - you need to not be sexual right now. You need to not seem predatory right now."

Makes my heart hurt, you know? 💔

Agnes definitely goes through the motions with Vidal, even when they're more established (hell, even when they're living together). I think it's hard to break away from that upbringing; what you've had to tell yourself to keep yourself alive, to keep your identity secret, to keep yourself you and not change because other people wanted or expected you to. I think Vidal is great at giving Agnes her space and not pushing her. She'll let her talk if she needs to but there's no pull from Vidal. Agnes is a big girl and she knows that if she needs to talk, she has Vidal there willing and waiting to let Agnes talk/scream/cry/be pissed off.

I also think Agnes likes to sit in her emotions? It feels like it validates her anger? Her disappointment? All those lost opportunities she may have had if she just let others in? I feel like it can be good to feel all those emotions (even though people will argue that they're negative emotions; they still help put things into perspective). She's scared of being the angry and aggressive dyke. She's scared of people not understanding why the way she is, why she reacts to certain things, why she choose to carry herself the way she does. She closes off a lot to the world but not to Vidal.

I'm sorry this was suuuuuper long but I had a LOT to pull from (as you can all tell...y i k e s 😂) so, thank you for this ask and thank you for whoever takes the time to read this!

This is where I stem a LOT of my Agnes HCs from so; if you go back now and maybe catch something I hope you may get a little 💡 moment ❤

Gonna end this on a nice, happy pic of Agnes because I feel like we all need it now ❤

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A Complete List of Fears Ages 5-28 by The Yellow Dress is the saddest song, I usually associate it with jmart but it also works really well with timsasha, especially the archivist au :)

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Oh…. Well, it’s over for Crunchyroll I guess

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my favorite pieces from 2024

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I like to think i'm funny:,)

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The girlies!! &Silver <-honorary girlie I think

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lighthearted.

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i turn 24 today. To celebrate, I made this comic to be a spiritual successor to lead balloon, a comic in which I talked about the darkest period of my life so far.

A lot has changed since my 23rd birthday and this one. My priorities have shifted a lot, in ways that I think are mostly good. But i think the best part about today is that suicide has gone back to being a far away notion. I'm really lucky, and I'm grateful for that.

[syrupbitee]

sanji's first days in the crew

[luguangs]

though the movie might be cancelled, yuri on ice will live forever in our hearts. thank you yoi fandom, it's been real ♡

[eatmyson]

this one's inspired by @cringefailvox's time has changed the metaphor!

It was such a good read and I couldn't stop thinking about these three ever since.

[kuni-kuun]

and another mundane day

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Happy one year anniversary to In Stars and Time!

[e-turn]

links to some translations under the cut

и заодно выложу пару любопытным образом перекликающихся переводов потрясающих фанфиков!

тьма нынче обретает жизнь великолепного автора @/goodlucktai

и еще одна покорившая меня зарисовка rem - а тени пусть уходят

[egophiliac]

WAIT when did he get FANGS

[hansoeii]

stuck in the rain.