#Take it with a grain of salt im also really tired rn

[noctilu-uca]

Guys am i the only one who doesnt like the "nayuta is original ramuda" theory like . it rubs me the wrong way tbh

I think either ichijiku or honobono were donors for the ramuda project i think power wise its more likely to be ichijiku but looks ? Honobono is a strong contender

I understand the nayuta theory, i do, but also like .... ? I dont think rei wife lover amayado would want to use his wifes image and recreate her multiple times probably seeing her die or disformed multiple times from failures and let her image be used for government shenanigans. Lets be fr guys. Dont let his kids have a skewed image of their mother which also happens to be their best buddy ramuda.

It would make more sense (in my head) to have someone actually working for the government to donate dna for this usage as it keeps it secure info since its insider testing and also wouldn't have the emotional toll of "this is my lover im looking at rn" and keeps it at "holy shit i just created sentient life" on rei. And YEAH ik the looks would be slightly different from actual nayuta but come on any similarity would be kinda awful.

Also just design wise, he doesnt fit in. I imagine nayuta to look more like jiro since ichiro = rei, jiro = nayuta, and saburo = both. Look at their designs and tell me jiro is slightly off and saburo is a mix of both of them. Go do it. And actual ramuda looks nothing like bb come on

Ramuda himself, i think genuinely the only thing keeping honobono in the game is the pink to purple hair, otherwise he has blue eyes like ichijiku, and pink hair.

Anyway yah stop giving rei more tweak material please he misses his wife

@akkivee TAKE IT

[dispotatorulzz]

One day I will try to explain how I feel love in a way that can be understood

[blushydrangea]

im here to ask u ur thoughts in the... pj controversy ehhekekfke i wanna say smthn abt but like i feel as if i dont grasp the whole thing yet so i chose to shut up rn

hi love! under the cut so the people who are tired of discussing this topic can avoid it.

it's a long one!

i know everyone here has likely come across the tweets pj made, but as an archiver at heart i feel the need to break everything down. screenshots aren't mine.

on the 18th, pj made a tweet about fellow drag queen and artist chappell roan, questioning the authenticity of her love for drag. most people (me included!) thought she was trolling, which unfortunately didn't happen to be the case. plane appeared to be under the impression that chappell was mean or cold towards drag queens she invited to her shows, something she allegedly heard about in boston and, according to some people on reddit so take this with a grain of salt, was debunked. she followed her tweet with another, ironically saying "i love chappell roan". the first tweet was then deleted.

after several people accused plane jane of trying to gatekeep drag from women & having an unfair opinion deeply rooted in misogyny, pj released a notes app screenshot on the 19th. however, going against the purpose of most notes screenshots, hers wasn't an apology. instead, she chose to call out the hypocrisy of people attacking her because they were calling her a man (it's important to note that pj hasn't directly told us what her ood pronouns are afaik).

she made some more shady tweets after that and argued with stans on social media but i don't feel like including these, so the last update we have was this apology pj made for her fandom.

before i speak my mind on this, i just wanna say that i am willing to discuss this as long as people are polite, any aggressive messages i might receive will be promptly deleted.

to be honest, i didn't like what she said. being a person with a platform and, let's be real, several crazy stan accounts who follow her word like gospel, it was wrong in my opinion to call a growing lesbian artist (one of the very few we have, at that) performative for her love of drag. someone who also engages in the *checks notes* performative art of drag. there isn't much of a "bag" to be secured by pretending you love drag, as it's not that mainstream, and i can't help but wonder if pj would have the same criticism were chappell a gay man instead of a lesbian woman.

misogyny is real and it's present in all of us, we were all raised to see women as less than. pj is white and male-presenting with her makeup off, she isn't incapable of misogyny because she is gay or a drag queen. therefore, it rubbed me in the wrong way to see her voice out the same beliefs i've heard from other gay men before – that women deserve to be questioned whenever they exist in drag spaces. i don't agree with the sentiment that pj meant women shouldn't do drag, as she never said that. though she honestly reminded me of those men who ask me very specific and tricky questions about the tree of gondor or whatever when i tell them i love the lord of the rings. are you a true fan?

her notes app statement was what pissed me off. she was really immature imo, ofc she's only 26 so there's room for growth, but twisting a situation you inserted yourself in to seem like the victim based on... people calling you a cis man? come on. it was a self-centered statement made by someone who seemed to refuse to take any criticism on this subject matter. i was very disappointed she chose the "but you are wrong too!" route instead of apologizing to the people she hurt.

her apology to her fandom was... fine, i guess. it served to show me that she seems to be comfortable living in her bubble.

do i think she's a bad person? no, i don't. but i do think she had a misogynistic take and doubled down on it because she refuses to admit she was wrong. i'm staying away from her for the time being, i'll probably get over it eventually but rn i don't wanna see her face all that much. no judgement whatsoever to people who forgave her and are still posting about her, it's your blog, do what you want <3

[polychromatiica]

i love ur art sm!! ur such an inspiration 💌💌how do you choose your palettes? the colors you use have always catched my eye

thank you so much!!!

For the colours, I don't know what to suggest if you do traditional art as I'm not very skilled in that but if you're a fellow digital artist I can try!!

pretty long post coming up, btw I do need to preface I'm just a student and not a professional, so take this all with a grain of salt especially if i get technical at all

TL;DR (too long didnt read): i use a green and or orange multiply layer, i try to give everything a dark green-orange undertone, focus on how certain colours look when next to each other and how they can appear completely different

also also its late and im tired so i apologise for any mistakes

i usually start by doing colours that generally match the character im drawing, then i just kinda go wild with altering them, ive learnt to pick them on my own through practice but a lot of the time and starting out i simply mess around with "blending modes". It'd be difficult to explain all of them and they may differ from software to software but my favourite one is "Multiply" (which should be on most softwares, hopefully!)

now, what you do with these depends on what sort of vibe youre going for, I like warm colours, I don't really know how to describe my art, but I like it to be saturated yet dark.. if that makes any sense lmao

gonna use this random doodle of emma to explain what i mean. on my phone rn so its not,, very good but itll do haha

so, i started by getting roughly similar colours to what she has. colourpicking from official art is always an option too, if youre drawing an oc then just figure out the general "local colour" (flat colours unaffected by lighting) you want the character to have and put them down, my art switches from being desaturated and saturated a lot depending on the vibe im goung for, for the more saturated art I'm gonna add a clipping layer of this solid bright yellowy green olivey colour in this example (the colour you use changes the atmosphere of it a lot, i usually use green or orange because i really like the look it gives, i love dark and warm tones)

clipping is a feature a lot of art softwares should have, for this im using ibis paint x, i usually use clip studio paint, others will have it and blending modes too, it lets you create a new layer and "clip" it to the one below, anything you draw on the clipped layer will only show up on space that has been drawn on the layer below (but you can hide/delete anything on this layer and it won't effect the original layer!)

next im gonna use the multiply feature,

"keeps only the darker colors of the blend layer and makes light colors less opaque. The resulting color is always darker, except for where it's pure white" (taken from a website called sketch) dunno how much the specifics of its affects change between different softwares, but the way I view it is always "makes base colours darker, and adds a tint of whatever colour you selected"

the result from doing that is this! this gives a sorta green tone, you can play with the opacity to change the intensity. this is a really simple trick to get cool looking colours, and the more I've used it and paid attention to what specific colours i get from doing it. for these saturated pieces ive noticed that depending on how much I tinted the piece any colours that would for example be white (like the hair frederick has in this drawing) is actually straight up yellow/orange

i have some art thats a little less saturated/a bit darker than this though, but its a pretty similar process! you can see the white of their shirts are actually again a dark desaturated yellow/orange, now you may notice it looks a little green at first, that is another thing to keep in mind

colours can trick your eyes a lot! and you can use this to your advantage very well, I'm not well versed enough in colour theory to explain the exact specifics on how this happens, but basically depending on the colours surrounding it, certain colours can appear completely different

another example is normans waistcoat in this drawing, you probably see that and think "thats blue" but nope, somehow, its actually a very very desaturated yellow! grey can appear as blue a lot ive noticed

if we isolated that grey/yellow colour you can see it is in fact grey, but it looks blue in the whole drawing!

whilst obviously theres nothing wrong with making a drawing of a character where things like blue actually are blue or a white/grey is actually white/grey, in the style of art I do i personally enjoy limiting the amount of colours used and using certain tricks to make it look like theres more variation in hues than there actually is, i like how cohesive it makes the artwork look :)

heres another example of what multiply can do with a few different colours, its best to learn to colour without it, i see multiply (and other blending modes! theres a lot of them) like training wheels, its not cheating to use them, its just a little boost to help you start out, and you can go a lot further in developing your understanding of colour if you try and learn to colour without it :D

[t4tgempearl]

HI im sorry this took so long!! So the undergrove, I will admit i know a little less about it as opposed to some of the other empires but its still v fun to play around with! this isnt as in depth as my gilded helethia rant partically because i am really tired and partially because i know less, i might flesh it out a bit more at a later date though.

I think it's a lot less established then many of the other empires. Not less established as in ramshackle but more as in rather empty. There would be some gnomes that made it through the portal with her but for the most part its populated by forest animals who decided shrub was a friend and the occasional person who didnt want to stay in any other empires.

Shrub became the ruler of the undergrove after she founded it when she led the remaining gnomes to empires from their old world (i havent watched shrubs pov so take that with a grain of salt) She never thought she deserved the title but she ended up taking it anyway.

The culture would be rather different as opposed to many other places, they forage rather then farm. Only a few things are grown or imported. Status is almost non existent and everyone knows everyone. People do many things together, work, eat, sleep. A lot of their traditions revolve around community as a way to get back what they lost after the destruction of their home world.

For cusine and clothing (my favourite parts) i think it would all be rather rustic. Clothes are handmade from animal furs and fabrics imported from other empires. Theyre usually quite loose and practical, lots of pockets and easy to move around in. Colours to match the mushrooms are favoured so many people where white/grey with pops of warmer colours. This does cause a bit of contrast within the forest though so clothes for things such as hunting and foraging are usually made in darker shades of brown and green.

Food is usually made in large batches, big pots of stew, massive loaves of bread, etc. Despite the gnomes smaller size they do this so they can share food and also so it lasts for longer. Many people carry around 'snack pouches' in which they will carry berries, dried meat and other such things to eat throughout the day.

Animals are treated as equals and often have their own homes, if they are the companions of certain families or people they will wear pieces of cloth tied around their legs or necks to show that. Wolves are somewhat revered as holy animals and it is forbidden to ever harm one lest you become cast out and ostracized.

Thats about all i got rn im afraid i need to go to bed, i hope you enjoyed my hopefully somewhat comprehensible rant that i am not bothered to spell check

That was so awesome to read! Tysm!!

I love the undergrove and I am so normal (lie) about shubble characters

[the-true-noodles]

UPDATE:

warning: i only took selected things i deemed relevant and interesting to the new rules, BUT this does not mean they might not change it in the future so i suggest skimming trough it every once in a while. ive also added a tl;dr at the end, but do keep in mind i may have accidentaly skipped some things or misread, so take this with a grain of salt.

ao3 follows the rules of new york, manhattan, but its the users responsibility to obey the laws of their own juristiction (country) and they repeat this more than once btw. (aka dont be underage in your country, etc.)

III.A. Applicability

"where you may have different legal rights in relation to your Personal Information"

III.B. Scope of Personal Information we process

2. "We may collect your Personal Information (such as your IP address and email address) when you request an AO3 invitation, register for an AO3 account, or otherwise access or use AO3."

III.D. Aggregate and anonymous information

2. "Nothing in this Privacy Policy restricts our use of anonymous information or other information or data that does not qualify as "Personal Information".

III.F. Information shared with third parties

3. e. "For legal reasons: We may share Personal Information if we:

are legally compelled to do so;

2. have a good-faith belief that such action is necessary to comply with a current judicial proceeding, court order, or legal process served on the OTW; or

3. are cooperating with law enforcement authorities.

"We will cooperate with all investigations conducted by law enforcement authorities within the United States when legally required to do so. Cooperation with law enforcement authorities from other countries and cooperation when it is not legally required are at our sole discretion. Our discretion looks favorably on freedom and justice, and unfavorably on oppression and violence.

"We will attempt to notify you any time we disclose your Personal Information to a third party for legal reasons, unless legally prohibited from doing so or if, in our sole judgment, notification might hinder an ongoing investigation. In some cases, the Personal Information we have, such as an IP address, may be insufficient for us to notify you."

--

TL;DR it seems like you are responsible for what you do there and they dont take any responsibility if you break the laws in your country.

they proccess your information using third party subprocessors which you can find here. these subprocessors may not follow the privacy laws of your country or the same ones ao3 do, as they may be working from another country where the laws are different. ao3 will only give law inforcement your data if the request is lawfully made and they are legally required to do so.

and for other countries "Cooperation with law enforcement authorities from other countries and cooperation when it is not legally required are at our sole discretion. Our discretion looks favorably on freedom and justice, and unfavorably on oppression and violence."

in my opinion it seems like its kinda fine, but we should look into the subprocessors more, and we should still be vigilant and keep an eye out.

im not gonna look into the subprocessors rn as im really tired.

i- im not from the united states, nor do i live there

honestly, the country i want the LEAST to have access to my personal data, is the united states

i know we were warned changes would be made (i really should hve read them, i know) but this feels like its trying to avoid/go around international laws or something.

im gonna read Terms Of Service, Content Policy and Privacy policy before i do anything just to be sure

(this is probably stupid but i dont remember this being here before so im gonna be carefull)

[iniquity-fr]

kind of a weird question but since im maybe(?) working on a petsite, i was wondering if u could talk a little bit abt why you like and play fr?

ok my response got a lil long so under readmore it goes (take this all with a grain of salt tho bc the only other petsite i ever used A Lot aside from FR was neopets back when i was like, 9-12 mostly, so it’s not like i can really compare my FR experience to much else anyway.)

mmmm well everyone has a different reason for that ofc, i’m sure (especially if you ask multiple ppl in the tag/comm this question) you’ll probably find everyone has a different answer, which is obvious yes, but i say that first anyway bc it IS smth do like about fr a lot...! i know a lot of ppl who can pick out a specific aspect or two of the site and say “THAT���S what i love about this one” and i think that in of itself is a fun and good thing :> having multiple Draws to your site is a good thing, i think!

personally my FAVORITE aspect on the site is dragon dressup, i LOVE coming up with outfits and variations on outfits and figuring out The Perfect Outfit for dragons and how there ARE variants on almost every piece... as i’ve said here and in many chats and convos in the past: i rarely ever decide i’m going to buy/keep a dragon until i can come up with an outfit for it. that is the MOST important part of the entire game to me, being able to dress up a dragon the way i want.

that said, i also love that it’s relatively EASY to do so--apparel isn’t difficult to come by, and the amount of items that DO cost premium currency are far outweighed by the amount of items you can get through treasure/coli/baldwin/chests/etc, and ofc the ease with which you Can get premium currency to get even the high-price apparel is a whole other reason people enjoy FR compared to other sites. you’re not having to shell out a fortune at every turn or constantly be buying premium currency JUST to get your “pet” dressed. plus, my favorite site feature, the dressing room.. exists! you can preview apparel and skins and everything on dragons, scries, whatever--it wasn’t until you could dress up scries that i started to actually give a shit about g1 dragons.

also just...... the amount of colors and genes n stuff possible on dragons, being able to have SO MANY dragons, many dragons being allowed to have the same name, etc, all very good. the fact that the dragons cannot and will not die like some petsites (*coughs at lioden and whatnot* if your pets can die its a bad fucking shitty stupid petsite <3) is another big good factor.

honestly im tired and also kind of tipsy rn so trying to explain why i like dragon website is hard but i love dragon website. being able to dress dragons and have so many different unique things i can do w these dragons and lore i can either ignore or work with to create CHARACTERS is!! so good!!!! hope my rambling helps. thanks

[doubleminor]

what are your top five favourite teams? also happy birthday

i really like the cbj, flyers, sabres, red wings, stars, preds, flames, sharks, and canucks, but i also like the canes, pens, caps, sens, leafs, avs, jets, and then the rest of the teams to a lesser extent? i also cant count

but take all of this with a grain of salt though i’ve been working on a lab, doing midterm reviews with my supervisors for senior design, assorted homework, going to class, and other academic things for 12 hours straight nonstop so im not rlly all here rn im tired??? i typed ‘i’m not 21′ instead of ‘i’m now 21′ earlier and didn’t really notice what was wrong with it, so let that tell u my mental state rn lmao

and thank you for the birthday well wishes! sorry i couldn’t really helpfully answer your question.

[redoqs]

She stopped talking to me a whole month, with no explanation, now i don't think we are something, i send her a message and she responds, that is the only contact we have in the next two weeks, i tried other methods to ask or help, but it ends in a emotional talk, a promise and everything goes the same, no matter how hard I try, and I'm tired honestly, i should end the relationship at this point- dense anon

Hey, dense anon, I’m sorry you have to deal with this, I know it’s rough and that it sucks. Imma try to help you out, hopefully it’ll do something for you. Lemme say this rn, I’m not a relationship expert so you can take everything imma say with a grain of salt.

From what I remember, the two of you just started your first year of college, right? Also, you two used to spend a lot of time together, right?

Here’s the thing, college is a whole new scene. Different environment, different experience, different dynamic that I’m sure both you and her might still be adjusting to. This is the beginning of figuring out who you are and what you want, something that the two of you will be constantly doing the rest of your lives. It’s not always going to be easy either. This could maybe explain why she hasn’t really been talking to you. Also, the thing with high school is sometimes the people you hung out with everyday only did so because they saw you five times out of the week. Once you move away where you no longer see that group or that person, those/that connection can start to fade. However, on the flip side, if two people want it, that connection is only going to grow stronger and stronger, I know because I’ve seen it happen. That’s with any relationship, let it be romantic, platonic, familial.

You also got to take into account that the two of you are also different people. As someone in a long distance relationship, lemme tell you right now that that shit is hard. The thing is, take away the distance and the requirements to maintain the relationship are still the same as any other couple. But just like any other couple, you gotta be able to enjoy your “me” time. Your partner doesn’t wanna be all up under you all the time and, even though it seems like you might want it now, you don’t wanna be all up under her either. If you don’t understand that now, you will eventually. You can be in a relationship but you also have to focus on yourself too. Despite what social media and media says, those things can coexist. Do things you enjoy on your own, hang out with friends, just make sure your entire being doesn’t revolve around your relationship with one person (can you believe that it’ll actually make it stronger?). You’ll become codependent and that’ll damage your relationship if left unchecked. Im not saying that you do this because how could I know that? But just be sure you’re taking care of yourself too, alright?

But you should know, just because someone isn’t talking to you for a few hours or even a day doesn’t mean that they don’t still love you, that they don’t still care about you. Sometimes people don’t wanna talk and need a day to recharge, sometimes they lose track of time because they were doing something they enjoy, maybe they’re grieving and need time to process, whatever the reason may be, they still love and care for you all the same, they’re just focusing on themselves for the moment and that’s more than fine.

Now onto what you said about your partner going cold turkey on you for a month with no explanation? That’s not good, that means there’s a lack of communication going on on her end if you’re always the one reaching out. The thing about that is, people are only going to talk when they want to so you can’t force her to communicate. Sometimes, you have to wait for them to come to you but you can only do that for so long, you know? Since it’s been a month, this isn’t really one of those times, in my opinion. Communication is one of the most important things in a relationship and it sounds like the lack of it is negatively affecting your relationship.

One thing you have to remember: relationships are hard, there’s going to be lapses in communication, there’s gonna be disagreements and arguments and times where the two of you don’t want to be around one another for a bit. And all of that is okay as long as the two of you come together and find a solution together. I like to think of it as “It’s the two of you against the problem.” If you can figure out what the problem is then the two of you can work together to push through it and, in the process, come together as a couple.

Based on what you said, what I said about college and beginning to learn and unlearn aspects about who you are, here’s my advice: find time where the two of you can have a deep, real conversation about what you want. Doesn’t matter if it’s over the phone or in person, just find some time and make sure you can hear her voice. I promise that you’ll find the time because those who actually care will make time for you, When you find the time, lay it out for her completely, tell her how you’re feeling without blaming her and be vulnerable, you gotta be able to tell her what you feel in order for her to know what it is you’ve been thinking. People aren’t mind readers, they only know what you tell them. Figure out the problem and work through it if both you and her can.

But you also have to remember, sometimes things won’t end the way you want them to and while that’s an unfortunate part of life, it’s something you’ll have to be able to accept. You said the two of you end an emotional conversation on a promise, yeah? I’m sorry but words aren’t enough. Actions matter, they really truly do. If she says she’s gonna do better then she needs to show it, not say it. What people do show you how they really feel.

If you truly feel like you should end the relationship then do it. You don’t owe her an explanation but if you want to explain then you can. However, if you want this relationship and she tells you that she wants it as well, come up with solutions to overcome the problem at hand, work together and communicate, work for what you want and I promise if you do all that, it’ll come together.

I hope everything goes well for you.

[pokefanbri]

When you feel the world has turned its back on you, or you turn your back on the world.

I promise will never, I will never make you feel like you're alone, that you cant come to me at your weakest because I would do what I can to help you be strong & help you up when you're down. That I'll take care of you, You're pain is my pain & I will help you the best of my ability to see it through with you. You will never have to worry of my locality or trust fading, because if I love you, you won't ever have to question how much & I will do everything in my power to do right by you. But my forgiveness shouldn't be abused or taken for granted to where my respect & love fades, just makes it harder when trust is being built & the taken away...its really not hard to show worthiness just dont be shitty to people.

Just know if you need me,I'll be there, I truly mean it, just don't walk all over me & lie to me makes things so much worse then it has to be, do right from the start. My heart is pure, but it's been hurt so much because it cares so much about the people that have broken & taken advantage of it, and even when destroyed, let down, & weakened its still loves with a passion..not completely broken but puts on another bandaid & keeps going.

Men are more complex than it seems. But I know they love & care of those that love them the most. I just don't know how he'd feel if he lost me too, if it would hurt just as much. If he loves & cares about me like he says, why hurt me at all, its unfair 😔 If im to really love somebody fully, they just have to be the sword to my shield, & fight along side me, by a good rock to get through things with. Hopefully reach a true purpose & something bigger than ourselves. Care for eachother & have our backs, because who else is gonna look after us when nobody else can. We have to look out for eachother. I'd much rather not lose hope, & not lose a dear friend over foolish things or whatever lost in translation when we're so much better than that, it's not worth the pain that comes with it, & beats having to lose somebody that means so much. With equal understanding & validation of our feelings I know we can overcome things if we believe we can, doubting ourselves & being so full of guilt & regret gets nowhere, & we punish ourselves cuz we don't know what we're doing or how to handle it. It's just how do we come to terms with everything that happened, find peace..to forgive ourselves so we can forgive eachother for the mistakes we've made & how alone we felt when together & worse now that we're apart..all of if that got us to where we are now...its a whole mess. Whats the point in breaking somebodys heart that had nothing but good intentions for you. Its hard enouph to find someone who genuinely cares about you. We're both pretty strong willed, strong when things are tough & only even stronger together.

I hate to admit it, but he did drastically shaped me into who I am now & where I currently am life. Which makes me feel my life was formed to this point, directed & led to him for a reason, he helped shape me, make me better, something did..because I'd do anything for him & be there for him if he needed me even if I was hurt which is so fucked & im worth so much more but he still for whatever reason is worth it to me..& cause we had a messed up beginning to something that could've been greater there's alot left unfinished. I feel so damn empty & lost without him, I feel stuck & trapped with nowhere else to go & I'm just waiting to be saved. I just want to see his face again, hug him tight, be his best friend again & show him as much light as I can. Really look into his eyes & show him how much he means to me. Because he's the best person I've ever met & he has no idea what my heart goes through for him. I miss him so much & it hurts that he's not here. He became a purpose & priority the moment I laid eyes on him & its so hard to let him go, I feel like I can't when theres supposed to be more than what I was I given & chances that have been blown without understanding why or how to fix it 😭. I can't go on with my soul somewhere else. Honestly my heart hasn't felt anything like this for anyone before, which makes the pain of the loss even more dreadful to bear. I don't want to lose him, he was the world to me, we were good to eachother the best we could but fell short, it happens..I know it in my heart we could do even better if we just try. But I also know it'll take time, even space to get a grasp on things & I just have to be patient.

When I love with a full & unimaginably heavy heart it doesn't care about getting hurt, it's the risk it takes to try & find somewhere it belongs. It has to hurt so that it knows the depth of how it can really love. And for intended purposes, I feel it's reached its cap when it comes to him. But is weaker & lost without him. Sorry to say but it's the God honest truth.

I have to let this out & say this now at my emotions peek while I can, cuz im a tired wreck rn that's literally crying out in anguish for him to hear her. There's no way to contact & I need him so much right now. I know he's around.. so where ever you are babe I hope you're hearing me somehow. I'm so sorry, I don't mean to be a nonstop wreckless talking idiot but I need to be heard just as much u know. Im probably too blunt & brutally honest sometimes for my own good too, but take with a grain of salt I don't mean to trouble you or cause you anxiety too or anything I miss things if I don't pay attention to every text give.. me a break? I have regrets & worry when anything I could say could mess things up when I mean well. Please don't be scared or hide,take all the time you need but plz dont leave me hanging again, the chance wasn't ruined it's okay. Hurts so much but I don't hold it against you just talk to me, where do we go from here, the things we've said we meant them..they can't just be taken back we've been through this before with unfulfilled promises...how do u say good heartwarming things without real meaning to it, just gets lost & forgotten, brushed aside like they meant nothing. Mean whats said & give me more credit where it's due, meet me in the middle,communicate, i can't do 1 sided decisions in general or relationship wise I need to be heard too.. understand me too & help me understand you more. Im just trying the best I can. We're grown as people we should be able & mature enough to not do the same dumb things over again when it should've been better. Idk pave a good path not destroy it right? Is this a minor setback or can we actually make a major comeback? Please forgive me,you know you can trust me. Just tell me it's gonna be okay, we'll be okay, reassure but be able to back it up. You must know how scared I am to lose you I just can't babe you're 1 in a million to me. Please don't give up before we even start. I still care about you nomatter what. Realistically, u know as well as I how shitty of a situation this is, we're besides ourselves, & can be a pain in eachothers butts...but we can make it through I just know it. I promise I will be there for you. Always

I hope you miss me too. I love you

I hope you're okay & well, & are eating well.

Take care of yourself, Hopefully talk soon if you're up for it

[cerealmonster15]

what's collage art garbage compared to high school art garbage? I'm in high school and I've heard too many horror stories but art is the only thing I'm good at lol.

depends on what you’re used to and where you go! i did more performing art stuff in high school, so I can’t say much there, but the stuff i saw some of the people in drawing/painting classes do looked neat

right now i’m just in drawing I this semester and i really like it. it’s super intense, like we’re constantly busy with new projects (2-3 assignments at a time lol) and most of our classes are like, intro to a new technique and then days of working on an in class assignment with a lot of good feedback from the teacher. i’m learning a lot of new things and upping my observation skills hehe

i’ll be taking painting I in the fall so that’ll be learning more color theory and stuff so i’ll probs be complaining about that here too hehe. it’s tough stuff but i enjoy it

digital arts is all over the place but idk if that’s what you meant? i’m in a digital video fundamentals class rn so we’re learning a lot about video editing and filming and stuff, and i’ll be learning 3d modeling and some other stuff soon in my new classes next year/this summer ;p  it’s a lot of projects and hands on classwork, and that’s how i learn best so it’s been good for me

however, i go to a more general liberal arts school that focuses on music and business and law, so i dont go to like, an Art School™ (but im looking into it for possible grad school after!) so the experience could be even better or worse depending on where you go. my teachers seem to know what theyre talking about and give a lot of good feedback to learn from, but i too have heard people say they dont learn a lot from their classes sometimes? but i think more often than not youre gonna learn something!

do your research but also take what people say with a grain of salt. i complain a lot bc im constantly stressed and tired, but most of that is my personality/youre gonna be stressed and tired regardless of what you study ;p i definitely genuinely enjoy studying art and digital art a lot more than i did physics and computer science, so if youre gonna be spending a lot of time doing something, it might as well be something you dont hate!!

[grubauer]

Thoughts on the whole slashing thing??

idk when my opinion on hockey became important but i know im definitely biased whether i realize it or not and i’ll probably still be even if i try my hardest to be neutral so take what i have to say with a grain of salt...

i honestly didnt pay much mind to the call just like how i dont pay much mind to most calls made by the refs in the league (unless they’re actually important and im definitely wording that wrong buts its 4 am rn so i apologize) because for my own sake, i kind of just choose to block out the inconsistencies of nhl reffing because there’s really nothing i as an individual can do about it no matter what how much i complain so i honestly dont really have an opinion on the call itself other than the bruins guy probably should’ve gotten more than just two

however, on the whole cross checking thing... reffing in the nhl is inconsistent especially in the playoffs and everyone knows that, so in my opinion, no matter who was cross checking, they probably wouldn’t have called it anyway

as for the whole “you don’t know hockey thing” that ive seen a few people post about, i dont really know what’s going on because i blocked everything at the start of the playoffs lol so my dash has been pretty clear of things i don’t want to see but if it’s anything like last year... idk what else to say other than stay in your team’s lb and don’t go into your opponents’, block tags, filter content, unfollow/block blogs whose posts you don’t like, or if you have a mutual whom you love dearly but who cheers for the other team & it annoys you but you don’t want to unfollow/block them because that would be embarrassing, add their user to the filtered content list because you tailor your own online experience and your media consumption is your own responsibility and nobody else’s 🙃

and if you still purposely subject yourself to content that makes you mad... do whatever you want i guess but just mind your own business and most especially don’t go into the inboxes of fans of opposing teams to start shit where there is no shit to start lol