#THERES NO FANDOM IN HERE IM LOSING MY MIND

[skelelephant]

“Come, you shall have absolution.”

Hiiiiii come closer let me tell you all about Black Death (2010). You wanna watch this movie about the plague soooooo bad you wanna consume this media

[anonymoosen]

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(I SHLDVE DONE THIS A LONG TIME AGO HELP-)

MY NAME IS ANONYMOOSEN (u can call me anony or moosen or moosey or anything u want)

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I LOVE FANGIRLING

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UR ALL THE FIRE ON MY GRILL THAT KEEPS IT BURNING

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MY CRAZINESS CAN ALSO BE QUITE CONCERNING!1!1!1

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ANYWAY FR THO- BASICALLY I MOSTLY FANGIRL OVER PPLS ART HERE AND OCCASIONALLY POST DOODLES

(AND ON RARE OCCASIONS, DOODLE COMICS-)

AND I ALSO POST RANDOM THOUGHTS AND STUFF AND REBLOG OTHER PPLS AMAZING AND WONDERFUL ART I WLD SWOON OVER

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Pronouns: Anythingggg go spin the wheel or whatever I don’t mind!!

Main fandoms right now: Invader Zim and Hazbin Hotel!! (I mainly doodle about IZ and ZADR tho-)

If anyone sends hate about anything, I’m sorry but I’ll have to reject ur attempt at flirting with me 🥺🤌✨ (GUYS IF U GET HATE THEYRE JUST FLIRTING WITH U CUZ THEYRE SPENDING TIME ON U INSTEAD OF DOING LITERALLY ANYTHING ELSE FKDKFK)

If u guys send drawing requests, all I can do is doodle 😔 (plus it takes a looooong time for me to answer requests but I’ll still try my best to answer them-)

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Other monstrosities I’ve created:

A RANDOM ZADR SHIZPOST STORY CUZ WHY NOT SO IF ANYONE WANTS TO LOSE BRAINCELLS AND CRINGE GO READ IT: ZIMPAI STORY (ITS ALREADY ENDED AHHFJDJD)

AND THERES ALSO THIS AU IN PROGRESS I WLD PROLLY NEVER FINISH: BEST FRENEMIES WHENEVER AU (I forgot this one exists-)

LASTLY THE IZ X TOH AU WHICH WAS AN AU I HAD IN MY BRAIN FOR A LOOONG TIME WITH MY BEST FRIEND PEACHIE!! AND @thechaoticlittlejester DECIDED TO REVIVE IT WITH ME (but we both have our own diff versions of the au! Go support their version and art too!!)

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[drowsystarlight]

oooh wait MORE asks I am a fan of these ask games they rock (all of these are about Five again cause I know them, but if you give me a crash course in your OCs from other places even if I'm not in the fandom I would be Very Happy :D nothing quite like losing your mind over your own fictional characters, is there?)

🧡 - Is your oc honest? Why or why not? Are there only specific people they’re honest to?

🌇 - What does it take for your character to trust someone? Do they have to prove themselves? Or does your character not trust anyone no matter what? What made them this way? (I know parts of this from Heartbeat but I'd love to hear more!)

🍁 - What brings your character joy? Do they find happiness in the small things? Does it take a lot to cheer them up?

🥕 - How does your character treat themselves after a long day? Do they buy something new? Maybe they eat a sweet treat? Call someone they love? Take a hot bath?

✴️ - Is there anyone your oc admires or looks up to? What qualities of this person does your oc admire? Do they want to be like this person one day?

also your art is the prettiest thing ever and while rn I'm Broke one day I WILL buy a commission from you because your art really is amazing and I love it so so much

AYYEEEE NO WORRIES I LOVE FIVE ASKS!! my ocs are here and there and i havent had the time to yap bout them recently so maybe someday >;3 THANK U FOR THE ASKS!!! <3

🧡 - Yes and no . There's only specific people they're honest to, and 9 times out of 10 they have no problem with lying to a stranger about something . They don't trust people that easily, or at all :3 However they will tell you the truth about it months later if they get close

🌇 - AHHH YOU READ HEARTBEAT YIPPEE!!! theres a whole another chapter in my file but i havent drawn anything for it so im keeping it there for now LMFAO,,, anyway, it doesnt take much pther than time and kindness . it doesnt matter if Five likes or dslikes you, eventually theyll form a more solid opinion of someone and they can earn their trust by then :3 My Five was alone for years before the start of the ZR series . being alone, lonely, and isolated for so long does that to you </3

🍁 - Don't tell anybody else . Cats . ANY cat, real or not

🥕 - Unfortunately they don't . Five thinks rest is a treat . it's not a treat and its a normal basic human need . They learn this from Abel people eventually--by that time, they treat themself with some sweets :DD

✴️ - Janine . They love that she's a leader and is put together, knows what she's doing, etc etc . They admire her for being strong and stern and level-headed . They also admire Maxine and Sam for being kind and warm people... Also Yes. They want to be like them someday

THANK YOU!!! RAHHGH,,, i always see your reblogs and notes and tags and it always fills my heart with warmth,,, it means so much to me especially now that im suffering thru my art college thesis,,, WAHGDSH

[sneezemonster15]

I'd give you an analysis, but frankly from what I've seen from your own "analysis" you're not very good at reading

also if you'd be so kind to tag this as mha spoilers, or screenshot this ask and put it under a read more so i dont spoil anyone who's interested in reading mha. it'd be greatly appreciated

(also thanks for getting rid of anon, this time i will include pics !)

anyway, this is the "straight dude who is having a typical cutesy high school het romance with a girl in a taken for granted het world." you're talking about;

also i wont lie, calling mha a het world when these are real dialogue is highkey stupid:

and i know the topic at hand is s/n/s and bk/dk but lets pivot to tg/chk bc theyre more relevant to what im saying

theres a lot to say but honestly, the manga speaks for itself :)

oh and also, you're right, bk/dk has no romantic subtext - it has romantic text. no subtlety needed! :) that is, if you have read the manga - my favourite example is this:

and then shgrk then proceeds to kill bkg, who "dies" (sort of) thinking about izuku in his final moments:

and then izk loses control when he sees bkg "dead" on the ground

and these are from recent chapters! imagine the rest of the series, ey

well! that got long. i'd tackle your crappy assessment of deku's character, but then I'd be here all day!

anyways, if i were you, I'd reread mha and really really understand the text you're reading. you might end up seeing something you missed at first!

Aiyyo someone got triggered! Hehehe. Ah it was inevitable that the moment I talked about MHA and rejected shippy head canons from the show, some delusional hardcore shipper would get all up in arms. Sigh.

You think what you wrote is analysis? Hehehe.

So just some random panels and chapter covers from the manga prove Bakugou or Deku is gay? Lol. I have seen fans like you in Naruto fandom as well. But you are right, I am not as invested in MHA, because it just doesn't have the versatility and genius of Naruto and Shippuden, it is actually quite a straightforward story and I don't need to burn a lot of my braincells to 'get it'. Lol. I am not saying it's bad, but as compared to its contemporary mangas, it just isn't at par for my tastes. It's good for entertainment but it doesn't affect me like other mangas that it takes inspiration from. Some silly shipper telling me I can't read, I would tell you my credentials but nah, too much work for disproving silly ass headcanons.

Fans make comparisons between Naruto and BNHA because Horikoshi is inspired by Kishimoto, definitely some similarities are there, but it misses on the most crucial point. Naruto and Shippuden are love stories. BNHA is simply your typical shounen manga. Naruto and Shippuden use the narrative tool of subversion to tell a love story in the restrictive genre of shounen. It has multiple layers and you need presence of mind to see them. Naruto is gay and you see comphet in his character, his interest in Sakura looks superficial from the beginning and then in kage arc, it is concluded as a mere cover to run from confronting his dilemma, and closetedness. His character is consistently shown as having an internal fight, a dilemma. Sasuke is just on your face, he is clearly shown as having no interest in women, but with Naruto he is especially intimate on his own accord. Ya know, using random panels ain't gonna help, you need to establish it in the narrative. Headcanons are all nice to entertain when that's all you watch media for, shipping. But please to be showing more maturity and media comprehension when sending me an ask, I am not very sympathetic to gaslighters whose heads are filled with shippy shit and cheap self gratification. When I talk Naruto, I make comparisons with other clearly gay media, and point out the common tropes, it's a result of expansive research. Not just random panels that prove nothing. Little one, you need more than that to prove your theories. I have watched a wide range of media, including gay media, your ask is just representative of your ignorance and lack of knowledge about how storytelling and character building works. Heh. Or do you think BNHA has its own concept of homosexuality, its own private language that cannot be compared with how other media establishes homosexuality in a given universe? Yeah, solipsistic ideas like that cannot be taken seriously.

Conformity is one of the pillars Japanese society is built upon, so it's not surprising that Japanese media talks upon how anything that doesn't conform to the norms is rejected. Their media is representative of their society. Mha also touches upon that and there's no surprises there, but again, you need more than that to prove it in the course of plot building and narrative. Some random out of context panel about some character saying something about conformity proves your point? You need to SHOW it and not just tell. But where other mangas, great mangas, popular and critically well acclaimed mangas have explored this idea in detail, MHA is just touch and go. It doesn't entertain a balanced proper discourse on it. It is truly shounen in that sense. Again, I am not saying it is bad, it is just more age appropriate. Which is totally fine. Do you know how heteronormativity is established in the narrative? Like this. Show me where this happens in MHA. Lol. Sweetheart, if the writer had made any attempt to write this world as heteronormative, where gay characters face challenges, I would have seen it. But mha is just not that deep. Sorry to burst your bubble. But that's just a fact.

Seriously, you are going to give me the example of Toga? I haven't gone through the recent chapters yet. I have only watched the anime. But it is clear that, that girl is medically insane. Her idea of liking someone is to kill that person and drink their blood, for her own pleasure. She ain't a homosexual, more like hemosexual. Hahaha. Again, you gotta show me the trajectory of her character, start with the base and show me how it escalates, how does she learn better about herself, her own feelings, the world from her perspective. No character is isolated, any writer who is talented enough to write multimillion franchise knows that. Don't project your assumptions on the story and the characters, work with what you have and draw the meaning from what's given, not the other way round.

There is no doubt Izuku and Bakugou have a strong relationship, even if it is mostly rivalry. But one can see that Bakugou cares about Deku and vice versa. Before telling me how to read, perhaps you should have done it yourself. Lol, I see this type of behaviour a lot from typical silly shippy shippers. "What, did you just say my ship makes no sense? 🤬"

Read.

Do you even know what subtext or text is? Hahah. This is text and subtext. So just because Bakugou and Deku talk about their rivalry in their vulnerable moments, that the audience knows as congruent since we have already seen they have a hot and cold relationship but that they are friends nonetheless, that proves they love each other romantically? You obviously don't know how romance tropes work. The dynamic between two men who respect and admire each other is always shown with a lot of empathy in Japanese media. It is one of the founding pillars of shounen, a genre meant for teenaged boys. They are certainly closer to each other than they are with women they are interested in, but a lot of fans such as yourself misinterpret it as romantic, because headcanon goggles. No, you gotta have more than that. Where Naruto and Shippuden have it in truckloads, none of that in BNHA. Deku is heterosexual af. If he is so interested in Bakugou, how come he reacts the way he reacts to Uraraka? Where is his conflict? Where is his dilemma? His affection and romantic interest in Uraraka is genuine and sincere, not a cover to hide his more private feelings. Unlike in Naruto's case. Kishi uses clever narrative tricks and tools to tell his love story in shounen and he does it skillfully. His motives and intentions are clear as water. He uses inventive smokescreens and red herrings to escape from being too controversial and colour inside the borders of shounen, nothing like that in BNHA. To begin with, Horikoshi doesn't even delve into the sexualities of his characters, because his story is not about that. There's no context, no set up, nothing. His worldbuilding is simply conventional, by which I mean heteronormative, there's no talk about sexual orientation of characters. You see the usual shounen perviness by Mineta and Kaminari and typical straight girls going kawaai over good looking boys like Todoroki, what impression does that give? If Horikoshi wanted to establish his characters being gay, he would have set up the context mindfully and carefully, like Kishi did. Gay relationships and characters can't be shown so explicitly in shounen as that would jeopardize its distribution in the west. Reason? Censorship. That's why Kishi had to be so careful, his target audience might not get it, but the adults do. Well, unbiased adults do, at the very least. So the boys in bnha are gay just because? Because you want them to be? Storytelling and character building doesn't work like that.

Seriously everything you think works as 'analysis' isn't even valid. I honestly didn't even want to respond to this ask, given it's so surface level and ridiculously simple minded. Perhaps you are a tween or teen who thinks every time two boys or girls smile at each other or rescue each other, they are gay and in love. Lol, watch gay media. Like actually watch it and see where your arguments stand in the scheme of things. I will tell you, nowhere. Juvenile kiddy stuff. I won't entertain anymore asks like these, they are a waste of my time.

[xxxjarchiexxx]

i dont disagree with the point (which is that being a leftist is defanged in our generation by academia + pop activism by getting tied up in hypotheticals and extremely specialized niches and as such marxism is sidelined etc) but the amount this post relies (whether purposefully or not) on the implicit idea that focusing on ecology or land relationships or non-normative religious structures is Unserious belies a certain amount of not-yet-unlearned anti-indigenous sentiment like theres a lot of implications in this post.

if i felt confident of the ability to call this out to op for a conversation without the fact im an anarchist being used to mean im unserious and missing the point etc i would because i do not think any of this is intentional on the part of op, but i know i have all the markings of an unserious tumblrista not worth listening to (fandom-y anarchist into pop music who dabbles in idealism from time to time) and i will lose my mind and cry at the museum with my grandparents if i get bullied for that today so here i am vagueposting.

[creativebrainrot]

Open Journal Entry - New Years (2023)

okay so i canNOT be coherent but fuck theres a lot on my mind right now.

this year was the worst fucking year of my life- it's atLEAST in the top 3.

We faced near-homelessness, awful food insecurity, the death of two beloved pets, the death of our abuser, of 20+ years, after he had only been out of our lives for two/three years at that point, and he did it to himself.

Our car broke down, our debt got worse, our abuser's family tried to take out home from us, they were such cunts. We had been trying to sell our house all year, we didn't succeed until a month ago.

I lost my first ever cat and it still hurts that she might be here right now if we had only had more money saved. She had a great life but I wasn't ready to let go of her, and I don't think losing BK will ever stop hurting. I miss her sweet little face so much. I miss her sweet little chirps and her silliness and just her presence so fucking much. it's agonizing. I miss her.

This year was one in four awful fucking years.

I don't know if 2023 was worse than 2022 for me. They feel like the same year. It was fucking awful.

But.

Last december, I forced myself to reach out. I made myself make a little "hey does this fandom have any guilds or discord servers for/by gw2blr?" post before I went to sleep for the night. I made myself reach out right before I had to sleep so that I couldn't panic and take it back.

It was one of the best decisions I've ever made for myself. I made my first ever friends from that decision. In fact the person (hi silv ily silv (/platonic)) who invited me to the gw2 server I hold so dear (hi slei ily slei and stuu ily stu /platonic kissy ur forehead) Is one of my closest friends now.

I have, a lot of issues. with trust and self-love and self-worth and I still struggle so much with thinking im not good enough and that everyone will find someone better etc etc I've made insanely good progress AND i have never before had people in my life that I feel like I know I can trust with myself. i am staring directly at my good friends Silvesi and Wynn/Straywyvern. shoutout to you to Specifically.

AND

im throwing affection directly at all of my friends. sorry im just like this not sorry receive affection for the new year CUNTS-

I absolutely love talking with Silv & Wynn & Del, you motherfuckers understand me on a very specific and unique autistic level ily and i love talking to you and infodumping to you and shitposting with you etc etc we need to be more insane with eachother more often beloved friends etc etc my besties <3

I've met so many people who while im not as close with them I love and am so fucking happy i met them and got to be friends with them regardless. lieflet, stu, slei, mabi, dot, lynx, fox oh my god theres so many of you.

youre so creative, kind, fun, chill, I feel safe with you and I love being stupid with you and im so glad I met the lot of you.

I've met so many fucking artists I admire so much through slei's gw2 server and that server is so relaxed and fun and chill I miss being able to hang out with you all in game. "your idols are your peers" lives in my head rent free as quote because its so true and I love. I Love.

im rlly hoping this next year my dad and I can fucking relax. for TWO minutes. oh my god.

I miss being able to relac. I miss feeling safe. I miss, so much. But not the last four years, and not that shit house I grew up in.

What I look forward to is pestering my besties more and more as I become more and more confident in myself and what others seem to see in me. I can't see it, but I'm gonna try and trust the words you say to me more and more.

Even if I end up being right, my worst fears come true, eventually. I'm gonna put in the effort like this is "forever" because we deserve to try the best for ourselves Right Now.

here's to the new year At The Very Least not getting WORSE.

[the-kipsabian]

You know.. others might not care, but I actually love seeing your rants about Kip and all that you have to say. I read it all. And I love seeing it. I care about you and I'm going insane with you in spirit.

Also, just as a reminder.. people don't really have to care.. and what you do is what you do, nobody can stop you. 💜 So keep going insane if you want to, I'll be here. :)

thank you. and like, i know im not going to stop. i care too much and im gonna lose my mind if i dont let it out

but i also know, as ive seen it, how little the fandom cares so its always just like.. theres that stupid, specific feeling of not belonging and being annoying when im talking like this. about stuff that 99% of other people dont care. like if this was about almost anyone else it would be a whole different deal

and im not taking it personally or anything but just at moments like this thinking about it just kinda hurts and makes me feel stupid so. lmao

[ashdoesfandomarchieved]

Tell me ur fav vat7k fics

I’m hungry for bedtime story but I can’t eat your fic yet bc it will melt my mind and I’m already melty on the edges just knowing it’s there and I’m waiting

YES YES OK I GET TO RANT ABOUT MY FAVORITE FICS!! I'm not going to include my favorite longfics because you specifically asked for a bedtime story.

(s)wing and miss by @aziraphalesbookkeeper is the only (?) wingfic in the fandom I've read and it's CUTE AND FUNNY AS FUCK.

This one has six chapters but also how to train your werewolf is in the same vein of FUNNY AND CUTE and fucking unique when it comes to varigo werewolf fic.

this collection of oneshots by @cayenneavocado makes me insane if you just wanna sit down and read through a bunch of SITUATIONS. A fun mix of angst and comedy and I don't think any of them are connected so you can just pick what you want! Anyway read all of them 🔫

hello my old heart by iza (don't know their blog handle!! </3) was the first varigo fic I ever read!! And still absolutely my favorite oneshot!

Lesson in Luxury by @varibean is two chapters in and ALREADY MAKING ME EAT DRYWALL. Head the trigger warnings but it's SUCH A GOOD READ.

Moving Through a Portal of Two Green Eyes by @sundropsapphic!!! You ever wanna see Varian go through A Scenario. Like really see him DEAL WITH HIS TRAUMA?? Yeah this is the fic for you. Also Nuru's in it =P

The Simple Act of Scraps Unravelling by @hybrix-hidings (hope I'm @ing the right blog here bestie) is the Hugo fell first but Varian fell harder manifesto and I'm losing my mind.

Darling, so It Goes (Some Things Are Meant to Be) by @littlemisslol-fic was her submission for varigo week and ITS!! SO!!! CUTE!!! Y'all ever just wanna MACRODOSE on a varigo proposal?? WELL HERE'S SEVEN CHAPTERS OF IT.

Gonna also rec one of my own fics bc I giggle and kick the air whenever I reread this one bc like ninety percent of it is just based off the groupchat vibes me and some of my friends have. Anyway vampires discord fic.

THERES SO MANY MORE GOOD FICS THAT MY MUTUALS AND PPL I FOLLOW HAVE WRITTEN AND IM SURE IM MISSING SOME but these are the ones that come immediately to mind! HAVE FUN AND PLS GET SOME SLEEP DARLING <3

[autisticbokutoenthusiast]

fandom get to know me better

was tagged by @nozunhinged AND @jeffsatyr so i had too

3 ships you like:

ok 3 that im into lately

villaineve- they make me turn into the joker <3

aobpuen - like i feel lik if you get it you get it like... i dont have words for them if i think about them too hard i need to bite something

sakuatsu - ride or dies the great fan artists and fic writers of the world have done such wonderful work

the three that im obsessed with currently (like fundamentally changed me

sandray - if you follow me on here you know. literally the last thing i think about before going to sleep and the first thing i think about when i wake up. they were manufactured in a lab to make me periodically lose my mind actually like, id never watched a thai series or heard of them and the only reason i chose to watch only friends was a ray edit someone made right after episode ONE that felt like it was bat signalling me and here i am 7?? months later a fully changed person..... like they will forever be a part of me now i think ill never be the same

vegaspete - similar to sandray in that i watched kinnporsche because of the vegaspete gifsets on the dash and was surprised to find out the series was not about them having bdsm sex in front of the corpse of a hedgehog like i was led to believe, not that i didnt end enjoying kp anyway. they alone would have been enough to make me obsessed but the things people create about them have changed me, thoroughly, like i am unrecognisable to myself after certain fics and fanart....

bokuaka - they are essential to my lore actually, like i dont post about them or engage with them as much as i used to because they are like my eyelashes like they are just a part of me now. bokuaka fanfic was what got me through high school tbh.

First ship ever: idk because ive wrote fic about characters since i was like 8..... actually im gonna be cringe and say chad and ryan from high school musical cause they were real to me when i was in elementary school <3

Last song you heard: good for what by little simz cause it will always get my pumped no matter what

Favorite childhood book: i read like a book a day when i was a kid but i think my favorite was the box car children even tho it traumatized me...

Currently reading: im always in a state of rereading my poetry collection and its recently been claude mckay but i need good novel recs PLEASE SEND THEM TO ME

Currently watching: at the peak of covid fever i started pit babe and im around halfway? thru now, also 23.5 the series as it comes out, and abbott elementary, and tsukutabe, also want to rewatch iwtv 2022... then theres all the shows my mutuals i posting about that i want to watch (im looking at you dead friends forever and moonlight chicken)

Currently consuming: hamantaschen that are supposed to be for tm but there raspberry jam flavored so im celebrating early 🫡

Currently craving: for food: i havent had cheesecake in like 5 years but i think about her everyday. in life: to try to get into the drag scene

ill tag @le-trash-prince @lilleeboi @jenyifer @kitas-cleaning-supplies @luminouschaotic @bokuto-my-beloved

and whoever wants to!!!

[asummersday]

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👻 What is your wildest headcanon?

the kids set a fire in the living room.

april one day finds out theyve never had s’mores. shes rightfully horrified (ahh the wonders of being 11). they can’t exactly go camping, so they make do. when splinter goes to bed, they all sneak into the living room, make tents out of blankets, build a LITERAL fire pit with stones and all that they collected from the sewers (after removing the rug, so it doesn’t burn. raph is wise. he is still literally 10) and start a fire. they have marshmallows, hershey’s chocolate, graham crackers. they prepared ghost stories. thing is though. theres no ventilation. it’s a sewer. so smoke fills up the living room after like 2 hours. they panic, douse the fire, it makes it WORSE. mikey, in tears (from panic and smoke), goes running WAILING to wake splinter.

his FACE when this poor man walked into his living room at 3am to find his kids freaking out and smoke EVERYWHERE 😭 the patience on this man. the shit he’s had to deal with omg. (the s’mores were delicious though. they make them again, but without setting a fire in the fucking living room this time)

(im so glad i got to share this headcanon i came up with at like 3am that had me losing my whole fucking mind. i have a whole page of headcanons for this show i am so unwell 🫶)

🎁 Have a piece of a WIP you want to share?

of course! here u go :3

Mikey shifts in the bed, getting closer to Leo until he can feel his little brother pressing against his shell. “You know you can tell us if something’s wrong, right?” he asks quietly. Leo turns his head until his face is buried into his pillow and sighs, heavy and deep. “I don’t want to talk about it,” he mumbles back, muffled. He hears Mikey sigh, defeated. The slider half expects his brother to get up and leave, frustrated. He knows Donnie and Raph are annoyed with him, and he can’t really blame them for it. It’s not like Leo’s being difficult on purpose. At least mostly. But Mikey doesn’t leave. He stays, and drapes an arm over Leo in a half-hug. “That’s fine, too. I’ll be here when you’re ready.” There’s a lump in his throat and his eyes burn at the words. Leo doesn’t trust his voice so he just gives a quick nod and reaches with a shaking hand for Mikey’s, locking their fingers together and squeezing tight when he finds it.

💥 What is one canon thing that you wish you could change?

letting karai live for at least longer than 2 episodes. i totally get why that didn't happen, but if i could change ANYTHING honestly i'd love to see karai develop a relationship with Splinter and the turtles and train their ninpo and stuff. we could've had it all :((

💡How many WIPs do you currently have?

oh i love this question! so so many :)

but for ones im actively working on in this fandom? 5. there will be more as i continue planning for whumptober tho ;)

thank you for the ask!!! <333

Fanfic Writer Ask Game

[doomed-stickfigure-yuri]

augrh aurgh aurgh aurgh ember i just signed up for a fucking ZINE. a whole FANDOM ZINE. its very lowkey and literally no competition as well as purely digital but its a ZINE. if i do this im getting my nAME published. like??? my actual NAME. (not my irl/deadname obviously, i mean my NAME). that qualifies me to give writing advice right. or like theopposite. your pick. still working on that btw. will probablyyyyy get it on tomorrow because my nanowrimo is ticking away by the second and i gotta DO IT. 3: anywaysi wanted to tell someone thing but not make it an actual Post bc idk if its supposed to be like super secret. i didnt sign a nda tho so ptobably not but i WANTED TO BE SAFE. its past midnight for u when u see this. barely 9 here actually. i still got a good 3 hours to midnight. WISH ME LUCK 🗣🗣🗣

OUHHH THATS SO COOL !!! WAIT HOLD ON . I HAVE TO GOOGLE SOMETHING . OHHH THATS WHAT NANOWRIMO IS OK- GOOD LUCK WITH ALL YOUR WRITING!! AND YES THAT DEFINITELY DOES QUALIFY YOU TO GIVE ADVICE AND ALSO I DONT KNOW WHY IM TYPING IN ALL CAPS BUT IT FEELS RIGHT . ALSO I ACTUALLY GOT THISD AT LIKE A LITTLE AFTER 11 BUT I WAS RIGHT ABT TO EEPY SO I DIDNT RESPOND THEN HDKSHFKSN ok thats enough of the all caps . why so much all caps ? i woke up like twenty minutes ago my brain is an enigma man . anyways im going feral so ill be in your inbox to ramble about the running minds au sillies soon because God im losing it and also my packages arrived !!! The glass scientists physical copy..... its going to save my life 2day from the crushing boredom of church (id complain that i have to go but i Did sort of agree to it- i made my bed now i have to lie in it (im an atheist for the record dhskhdksjd)) See im having like a little transgender crisis here . because i generally am Out but its a church man . not even the fun kind like The Church its just A church . and i used to go there a long time ago so people are gonna recognize me and theyre gonna have questions abt my short hair and junk and im Scared man . i mean i live in a really good state for this kinda stuff but its a Church . anyways did you know theres a legoset of dt87 scrooge and the triplets?? i have it now and im going FERAL man cant wait to build it . my hyperfixation shelf is THRIVING also did u know theres a donald duck hotwheels . cuz there is and i have it

was too lazy to go take a picture of my own but Look At That Thang !!!

[padfoot0216]

Part 1 of me single handedly trying to grow the Miracle Workers fandom because I love the show.

Segment 1: Out of context quotes (Season 1)

1. Eliza - “Theres no way we can answer all of those [prayers].

Craig - I generally try and shoot for three, four a day. Although, now that I’ve got you, a teammate, theres no telling what we can do. I’m thinking 5…6…maybe as many as 6!”

2. Eliza - “There’s got to be something we can do .

Craig - I mean you can press F7.

Eliza - Does that stop typhoons?

Craig - No but it turns the sound off.”

3. Craig - “And does the debris ever dance?

Person - What?

Craig - Say the debris had lost an object, and then that object were found for it, would the debris be like *insert Craig dancing slightly*”

4. God - “But if you fail…

Eliza - Earth explodes.

God - Yeah but also…you have to eat a worm. Alive. The whole thing. The head and the butt. In front of everyone.”

5. God - “So we could explode his heart, or his lungs, *under his breath* or his penis.

Sanjay - Explode his penis?

God - Woah now that’s an idea!”

6. Abe Lincoln - “Out of my way black cat I’m late for my fun play!”

7. Craig - “Oh, no. No. Im not scared.

Eliza - You’re not?

Craig - No. I’m a bold, intrepid man with a strong mind. I’m a risk taker. I’m a big, bad…boy?”

8. Man 1 - “Oh shit my melon.

Man 2 - There goes our fruit salad.”

9. Craig - “If the world explodes then you will go down as history’s greatest murderer. Nobody wants that.”

10. Person - “This isn’t the department of anuses. We have integrity.”

11. Craig - “Thank you, and this pizza gentleman is gonna live, right?

Eliza- We are back on track.”

12. Eliza - “That necklace…why? I mean who wears bones to a massacre. I mean ugh I thought I was so hip.”

13. Sanjay - “We just watched you eat mud out of a bog.

Craig - Yeah that was clean mud.”

14. Person - “Why is the tornado staying in one place! This is impossible!”

15. [God scatting]

16. Craig - “It would make me really sad if God couldn’t read.”

17. Eliza - “Did he just turn that guy into a jellybean?!”

18. Eliza - “I am objectively bad at my job. I have accidentally killed a ton of people and I’m the leader of this group.

Sanjay - It’s true.

Craig - She leads us.”

19. Craig - “Yes! She saved us! Nooo, I have it away! He knows.”

20. Sanjay - “Okay, okay, new pitch. Uh, how about a romantic carriage ride?

Craig - Nope. Sam’s afraid of horses. Doesn’t like their eyes.

Sanjay - All right, then, uh, what about an eyeless horse? We get some crows, right?

Craig - Wait, where are you getting crows from?

Sanjay - It’s Earth. Anywhere. We get them to swoop down and peck the eyes out of the horse.

Craig - No, crows only peck out of dead things, though. So unless you’re going to get a dead horse-

Sanjay - Then I’ll get a dead horse!”

21. Eliza - “You’d go for it, right?

Craig - Well, no, not necessarily. Not if I was unsure about how she felt about me, or was scared to death if losing her as a friend, and also pretty frightened of her in general.

Eliza - What?

Craig - What?”

22. God’s Brother - “Explain cows.

God - I don’t want to do this anymore.

God’s Brother - Tell mom and dad what a cow is.

God - It’s like a big dog you can drink from.”

23. Gods Brother - “Tell then about giraffes. What’s a giraffe.

God - Tall dog with a leg for a neck.”

24. Craig - “(singing) Mr. Mop and Mrs. Bucket you live on a shelf. One is wet and one is dry and you are both my friends.”

25. Eliza - “(to Craig) Listen I’m sorry we put you in the cabinet.”

26. Person - “I’ll be honest, I’m always high, you know?”

27. Eliza - “Craig! Craig! Are you okay? Craig?

Craig - Bzzzzzzzzzz.

Eliza - *gasp*

Craig - Just kidding.”

28. Sanjay - “(pointing to a word that is clearly mammoths) We do it right here in the department of love.

God - Oh. Makes sense. Okay.

God - There sure is a lot of mammoth stuff in here.”

[maaaxx]

my wips are stressing me out so you guys have to hear about it

or not i dont care

Cots

literally fighting for my life out here with this new wip. I could have the first chapter (???) out in like a few days but like,,, i dont want to do that

but im also not getting any immediate dopamine from this so im having trouble working on it.

Im also scared of having a new audience because like aside from a set few people most of my mutuals know me from ihiap and yall are nice and new people scare me

I even gatekeep ihiap, like if you dont know me from ihiap your not allowed to know about ihiap

a lot more people read that fic than i thought and it stresses me out

off track

i do genuinely think cots is going to be better than ihiap because ive had like two years now to figure out how to interact with fandom and im friends with other writers not and have more of a grasp of my writing style than i did before.

so im really excited about this

but i have enough trouble updating ihiap idk about doing two fics at once

but if i wait until im done with ihiap thatll take like two more fucking years

and ill lose focus

and wont do this fic

again, getting off track.

theres still so much that im not sure about with this fic. Like Zuko I think is the main character

But Sokka is EXTREMELY relevant

so i think im going to split the povs

But theyre at opposite ends of the world at any given time and sokka isnt going to (physically) be doing much.

so im not sure how to approach that

also i have no clue what the fuck kataras doing

like miss girl has two options and what she chooses will DRASTICALLY change the story like SHE controls the plot not me.

Sokka and Zuko are just there for the ride

Azula is also going to be relevant

like the story is about them 4 no one else matters

except aang maybe but like hes actually the avatar in this so thats a given

my first story where aangs the avatar!!!

also outlines are hard

and prologues are hard.

Ill be back with more complaints later

Ihiap

I have a love/hate relationship with ihiap. The characters in it are amazing theyre my favorite people ever. Some might make a cameo in cots, i havent decided yet.

REasons i hate ihiap:

-I accidentally stole half my ocs i talk about this a lot and ive been reassured but im not going to get over it. I hate myself

-Its so badly written like half the time There are some parts that i absolutely love and some that make me want to delete the entire fic. Like ive actually considered it multiple times. I hate it so much, so much second hand embarrassment. Is it second hand embarrassment if I'm the one who wrote it???? -Zuko is so ooc he might as well be an oc

-I dont even know twf azula is doing Azula and Mailee is one of the plot holes that drives me nuts. Because like I wrote Ty Lee into a scene but miss girl is supposed to be in the circus by now. I forgot about that part. Also Theres a certain detail about Azula and MaiLee thats going to be very prevelant near the end of book 3 but i forgot to imply or write that in so thats going to come out of no where. -most major events were impulsive and had no value to the actual plot Examples: That stupid soldier dude, the islands thing. I hate these parts and im going to write them out eventually -PLOT HOLES Reasons why Ihiap is the best piece of literature ever written:

-Relationships and characters

So the thing is despite the fact that theres so many things im bad at doing in writing/havent had enough practice yet, there are things that I know that I am great at writing.

One of these things is delevoping relationships.

I'm really good at making people and relationships very complex and this isnt something that someone can change my mind over, like this is something that i love the way i do it.

This is one of the only redeeming qualities of ihiap.

-I love the plot.

I really want to redo this to do the plot justice because i do think it has potential.

Overall i think that ihiap has more good than bad but the mad really does bother me. If your ever rereading and there seems to be some stuff missing or changed its because im eventually going to go through and edit the shit out of it.

As of now the next chapter (chapter 14) has like 600 words. Chapter 15 has i think 445 and chapter 16 is completely done, chapter 17 had like half a sentence, then were done with twbb.

Chapter 16 is where stuff gets interesting.

Im perfectly aware that TWBB is boring but it was meant to be. I needed it to be for Zuko to not go insane and then also develop Tomnooks relationship (because believe it or not theyre not COMPLETELY self indulgement and they are important) and also Sokka and Katara and Zuko needed that sibling relationship. So i needed like a 17 chapter book in between the two main books for that stuff.

I'm so excited for the next book. Especially like the second half. Its also (most likely) going to be updated a lot more frequently than twbb. Twbb was a pain in the ass because there was very little actual plot and it was just day to day stuff. So i had nothing to go off us.

Like Book 1 was all about the crew and Zuko to kind of learn and build relationships and shit and Book 3 is going to be a lot easier because it has a lot of actual plot and a goal and shit.

Totp

" idk about doing two fics at once" miss girl you already are supposed to be doing two fics at once.

Im not even trying with this fic, if your invested, im sorry. I've thought about deleting it but i decided against it just in case i want to come back to it.

Its not looking good though.

This is what happens when i dont outline my fics

[gayspock]

cringe check

ok lastone tonight before i flush my head down the fucking toilet or whatever the fuck i can do , just god thinking abt how fucking much youre left behind with fucking everything. i wonder how many lives everyone ive known have lived in the past 10 or so fucking years, whilst ive done fucking nothing at all... because i cant even pull myself together just for one fucking second. i feellike a rotted fucking cunt. i dont know why i have to be such a fucking failure at fucking everything no matter how much i try like its never enough for anything and i cant make anything work out right and even when i do fucking try my best nobody ever even fucking believes me because its just that laughably bad half the fucking time . its so fucking embarrassing it just gets worse its fucking everything i cant fucking manage anything half the time without fucking falling apart. at least 10 fucking years ago i was a loser whose brain was fucking rotted by fandom bullshit or whatver now i fucking pick up anything and i feel myself shaking and sick half the time because it just makes me cry and get upset like i cant fucking read anything any more without losing my mind because even books about sad depressed fucking cunts have to have some other fucking person in it and to make the thing fucking go forward or they at least had something that they lost in the fucking first place and it just makes me sob because its not like i can even have that to fucking cling to i just fucking rot in here alone and its getting harder and harder to even be a fucking delusional dipshit. i dont know why i keep thinking new beginnings might help that trying might help and i hear other people fucking whispering at work and the tone of their fucking voices shift as they realise oh fuck me hannah did nothing again this weekend oh hannah youre not in contact with anyone from uni or with anyone else what did you do this weekend? oh spend it alone again oh ha ha um... no no noim fucking not i dont know whats wrong with me i spent 3 years i feel like they never happened any more i cant fucking remember anything i turned up to graduation and people didnt even know who i was because i just cant keep a fucking hand on any of it and the exact same thing happened at sixth form and secondary school and primary school no mnatter how hard i try at new places to try and be fucking nice nobody can fucking stand me and im trying not to be a btich half the time but it gets harder and fucking harder and the longer i go the harder it gets and nobody fucking wants to deal with a grown fucking adult that doesnt have anything that cant handle anything what do you even fucking talk about with a fucking blank wall and an empty headed freak with no other friends theres nothing but i cant handle anything i cant do it i keep trying and i cant do it by myself its such a stupid neverending fucking cycle and i feel like everything was so bad when then but i feel like a physical fucking difference with how much slower my brain feels nowadays like not just the brain fog i used to have but i cant even fucking string shit together or whatever and god fuckingg christ i think part of my brain might just be fucking collapsing in on itself im just biding my fucking time or whatever until etcwhy why why. sorry i dont mean all that

[angelicgaming1007]

My opinion on new astarion kiss

for context ^^^

Let me preface this with: I DO like the kiss. HOWEVER

I feel like as an ONLY kiss for A!A which is who im assuming its going to that its..going to lose its charm fast. Its great yes however so is the butt grab kiss. YES im a kinky a** person. I enjoy the kiss but-

The one we have pre-patch 6 is passionate and loving and while yes I know theres people out there who argue he doesn't love you anymore. He does in his own way he still does. You can believe otherwise im not here to tell you your head canons are wrong or your AUs are wrong, because thats the beauty of fandoms is headcanons and AUs can all exist as different "timelines" I don't want this to be the ONLY kiss, Im not saying I dont want it as a kiss. But I feel like this is TOO cold and distant to be the only kiss, and not appropriate for some places like the middle of the street or pre / post battle.

What I want is randomized kisses. Where we still have our little butt grab kiss, maybe the neck grab kiss that was spread around awhile back and this one randomized for ascended astarion. And then have 2 other kisses and the butt grab randomized for spawn. That way we have variety just like we do with the voice lines.

When the update comes out I dont think im going to go for it until I see more on these kisses to see how this works if its randomized or what they did. Because personally I don't want to lose the current kiss we have (or it be restricted to non A!A). So to my mutuals please keep me up to date if you can. Edit: I explained better my problem in a dm with friends copy paste below

the new kiss feels like it just objectified him for the sake of fan service and took him back to the power drunk post-ascension night where you're turned into a spawn. like..it feels like it lost all the romance and doesn't feel in character for the things they established in dialogue and I already had issues with the inconsistancy of the turning tav into a spawn dialogues I dont want ascended to be just turned into "Just a kink" like a certain person wants him to be. Bc all the dialogues leading up to ascension has choices that its NOT a kink that you are trying to help him and it feels post ascension that's thrown out like it means nothing. Thats why it bugs me because it feels like slipping back into that problem again.

I dont mind it as an option / variation with randomized kisses but if it becomes the sole kiss it feels we fall right back into that shoe horning that threw our choices out the window.

[lunart-06]

MAKOWO YOU ARE ONE OF THE PEOPLE HERE I ALWAYS TRUST MAKOTO WITH AND ONE OF MY FAV PEOPLE TO READ RAMBLINGS OF HIM.

You're right, it's that Makoto's character in his own backstory and personality are just so plain and ordinary despite being the protagonist AND the biggest role in the series to appear in almost all the danganronpa games. The way his background is just some normal, healthy life like anyone of us. His backstory is just so *commonly* with the audience compared to the other characters. That he was simply skipped pass just because there was nothing much about him more than what was given already.

The most highly popular characters- as you mentioned. Nagito, Hajime, Kirigiri, Byakuya, heck even junko, etc- are all more focused by the fandom solely because there are more to their background, that they are *interesting* because of their often sad backstory that has some relatable factors to the viewers' own or that their backstory was tragic enough to arose sympathy. It makes them seem more *deep* to the fandom rather than Makoto's whole character.

(Ex: Hajime, cause his insecurity over his basic, ordinary self that was much more prominent to the point of doing something destructive to become someone special has some factors of being relatable to most audience, a more realistic view to them.)

Personally I always love Makoto even back then after finishing DR1 for the first time years ago because Im just a sucker for a character that has a healthy, normal life and suddenly being hit with SHIT in the future. DR3 just make me obsessed with him more cause there are many indirect crumbs of his character development in the anime. That you have to squint SO HARD to finally see it.

Its just the way how.. how we never get to see Makoto er.. healing? Like getting better in a sense, like.. idk HOW to explain it cause my english isn't at best, but like. Kirigiri became more trusting to someone- or more open should I say, than how she was before. Byakuya has his own fair share of character development. Hajime became more confident, overcoming his own doubts and Nagito was now surrounded by his classmates accepting his antics and such despite what he had done in NWP.

The tragic characters that was loved the most get their (almost) satisfying closure. To overcome their flaws or that they finally get the (kinda) happy ending to their long suffering.

But Makoto... I don't know, there's just something about his own closure that left me tilting my head everytime I think about it. There's... nothing much to his, but to finally made progress to saving the world and now rebuilding the new hope's peak with him as the headmaster, with kirigiri who was revived back, etc. Sounds like a pretty nice ending for him but.. theres still, something off? To me at least, like, sure, it doesn't change the fact that he's still the ultimate hope even until the very end which is nice.

But also.. tiring? We didn't get to see him (or maybe I could forgot some things) to like.. be *better* for his character or situation. Not in a major way like the rest anyways. He's ALWAYS been optimistic, hopeful, determined, and ti'll now still is. And he just still kept going, with the same thing, all the moving forward and never lose hope biz to the point it just suddenly became all his character is for. We never get to see him to just- have a moment, to *heal*, his character was seemingly to be written as a character that would *always* managed through, to always *fight* despite all the injuries (both in a literal and metaphorical sense), fairly enough we never get to see him going through his own deep-in-mind, personal struggle because he's the Hope character.

His character gives off the feeling where everyone else was in the process of healing, his were just started. (Or heck, his could have been just delayed.)

I guess it's just that Makoto's life from before has been taken away from him by the tragedy and Junko, now him fighting in order to gain the world back the life they've lost before. *His* life that was lost before. And even when the world was slowly rebuilding it back, no matter how hard he tries, he can't gain back the life he had before (literally his friends both in hope's peak and before that could've been dead, his *parents*? Yeah.) does it for me-

i feel like i can go on endlessly abt the hows and whys of makoto being so unpopular in the fandom when hes the protagonist of the first game and one of the most prominent characters in the entire series (as well as the treatment of dr1 vs later games), but i feel like. part of it must be the way dr1 is written in comparison to sdr2 and v3.

nagito's entire backstory is made clear to us in the storyline. we know what molded him into such a fucked up person and we know the greatest moments that exemplify his tragedy. this is all given to us in the plot, with free times being purely supplementals. we dont necessarily need those free times to understand why he is the way he is.

compare that to byakuya, who's reason for being the way he is starts and ends at being the Ultimate Heir in canon. hes fucked up bcs hes the heir to the biggest conglomerate in the world. we only really learn anything about him, that he had to fight his siblings for his current position and his cutthroat behavior comes from the need to fight for survival from the very start, when we do his free time events.

byakuya's backstory is notably not in our face. we have to seek it out and dwell on it to understand his character. everyone has to learn nagito's backstory, and i dont think that's bad. but i think it creates an issue where people's attention isn't immediately grabbed, so they ignore the character.

I don't necessarily think it applies to every character in sdr2 vs dr1, notably Kyoko's backstory is directly given to us while lots of characters in sdr2 dont have story-relevant backstories. but Man. is it because makoto's backstory is so cut and dry, no event to point to that is the ultimate source of why he is the way he is? is that part of why hajime is praised so much, with his desperation for talent so great he was willing to get lobotomized for it? or is it just the want for edgy characters over hopeful/cheery characters. is this even anything at all or am i rambling.