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xoshepard · 6 months ago

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ough i decided to repurpose my "bad business" tag for just general romance posts bc im too humiliated to keep all the text posts that used to be in it especially given recent revelations, but part of the reason i did this is so that i can try to get back to being my former romantic self, if a little more grounded

but the problem is like... like that "find someone who pays attention" post, it came out of the queue so reading it just now was like reading it for the first time again and im so 🧍 like i don't think i believe i can find someone like that anymore skjdhfs like i think the part of me that used to believe that someone would think i was special or interesting or pretty or some combination of those and fall in love w me or whatever has been replaced by the thought process that says no matter what i am gonna have to contort myself into some unnatural shape, not compromise for love but change who i am just to be accepted, if i ever want to be in a relationship

it's why i got into a relationship w my ex even though i didn't think he was attractive and felt like he didn't rly care about what i was saying. like. a lot of people make me feel like they dgaf what i have to say so atp do i just have to accept that or be alone forever. it's starting to feel more and more like the latter.

there was someone who was v interested in what i had to say and wanted to share things w me and know about me and i felt the same about them, but since then it has never ever happened and even tho i don't want that specific person back anymore i also kinda feel like that was a fluke born of both of us refusing to get close enough to see each other as people, and i will never truly have that kind of connection with someone

like other people get into and out of relationships like it's normal but i think i'm just. idk warped into a shape that doesn't fit with anyone else anymore. and like i wish i was someone who just doesn't want to be in a romantic relationship but that's not even it. i still want to but the more time passes the more i believe it's just Really Not Possible for me

like god i keep saying to myself "maybe i'll meet someone in grad school" bc that's the only thing that stops me from feeling sorry for myself all the time, but i don't even really believe it anymore. i think i'm just gonna keep hoping i'll meet someone at the next thing i do until i run out of next things and i just die after having been alone for the vast majority of the time

tl;dr: no one wants me my guy

#tirah talks #delete later #but tbh ik some of this is that im deadass just so scared of rejection atp that i don't show any of myself to ppl anymore #like nobody can be the person in that post bc i just don't let people get that close #and that knowledge is what keeps me hopeful #bc i still have work to do. if i work on those things and still can't find anybody #THEN all hope will be lost #but not just yet

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cozylittleartblog · 9 months ago

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cant tell you how bad it feels to constantly tell other artists to come to tumblr, because its the last good website that isn't fucked up by spoonfeeding algorithms and AI bullshit and isn't based around meaningless likes

just to watch that all fall apart in the last year or so and especially the last two weeks

there's nowhere good to go anymore for artists.

edit - a lot of people are saying the tags are important so actually, you'll look at my tags.

#please dont delete your accounts because of the AI crap. your art deserves more than being lost like that #if you have a good PC please glaze or nightshade it. if you dont or it doesnt work with your style (like mine) please start watermarking #use a plain-ish font. make it your username. if people can't google what your watermark says and find ur account its not a good watermark #it needs to be central in the image - NOT on the canvas edges - and put it in multiple places if you are compelled #please dont stop posting your art because of this shit. we just have to hope regulations will come slamming down on these shitheads#in the next year or two and you want to have accounts to come back to. the world Needs real art #if we all leave that just makes more room for these scam artists to fill in with their soulless recycled garbage #improvise adapt overcome. it sucks but it is what it is for the moment. safeguard yourself as best you can without making #years of art from thousands of artists lost media. the digital world and art is too temporary to hastily click a Delete button out of spite

#not art #but important #please dont delete your accounts because of the AI crap. your art deserves more than being lost like that #if you have a good PC please glaze or nightshade it. if you dont or it doesnt work with your style (like mine) please start watermarking #use a plain-ish font. make it your username. if people can't google what your watermark says and find ur account its not a good watermark #it needs to be central in the image - NOT on the canvas edges - and put it in multiple places if you are compelled #please dont stop posting your art because of this shit. we just have to hope regulations will come slamming down on these shitheads #in the next year or two and you want to have accounts to come back to. the world Needs real art #if we all leave that just makes more room for these scam artists to fill in with their soulless recycled garbage #improvise adapt overcome. it sucks but it is what it is for the moment. safeguard yourself as best you can without making #years of art from thousands of artists lost media. the digital world and art is too temporary to hastily click a Delete button out of spite

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ruporas · 8 months ago

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dragon meat, you, and me

#marcille donato #falin touden #farcille #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #tw blood #tw body horror #tw gore #as a normal farcille fan this revival has been on my mind since i first read it and getting to watch it is like yippee!!#like messy revivals are everything - the consequences that will haunt u for the rest of the time they are alive #the initial hopeful moments where it all seemed well but quickly descend to That not being the case - losing not only the bit of evidence #evidence that your dream may work out but also someone you deeply care about in the process… marcille my Beloved #ofc wholly thruout the journey - at the forefront of it - getting falin back was the most crucial point but so wuickly :(( it was lost #on the other end its crazy to think about the compoments of falin now - human - dragon (dungeon) - marcille’s magic and desperation #the food the crew cooked (digested) - she is made of many parts!!#also i did not realize how medical it feels to draw smth like this. i dont usually explore the inner parts or use a lot of blood #in my work so rendering everything and looking up refs it felt quite magical (?)#ruporas art

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hinamie · 8 months ago

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surprise it's yuri!!!in 2024

#my art #yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #yoi #fanart #katsuki yuuri #victor nikiforov #victuuri #yoi fanart #this was the secret 4th thing that lost the poll jdsfgsdfjj #id been thinking about doing a tribute since getting that one ask but i didn't anticipate how Into it i would get once i started #the way i flew through this piece .. just over 1 day??? insane #yuri is /that/ ingrained in my muscle memory #I was looking at refs and ?? id forgotten how wild this show was #we just got all of that?? a pole dance a proposal a kiss a pair skate....and it was ALL canon? incredible #AND YEAH UNPROMPTED HISTORY MAKER PLAYS IN MY YT MIX #dean fujioka jumpscare #also looking back at my old yoi pieces was so wild. that ws really 8 years ago huh.#little bit of an ego boost looking at how far ive come #but also im just grateful idk sry 2 b sappy on main #i hope 16 year old me is happy that i did this bc im happy i did this #edit bc i forgot a bunch of white outline i am a fraud

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egophiliac · 2 months ago

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still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)

anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with nightmare before christmas #hajimari no halloween #calling dibs on skeleton kisses as the name of my band #man scully is just a delightful little weirdo and i'm enjoying him immensely #(i'm going with scully until we get something official just because it makes me think of x-files)#(スカリー is also how the agent's name is transliterated and i don't know if it was intentional but i love it as a bonus reference)#(i want to believe™)#gosh though #'no one at school likes me because i won't shut up about halloween and jack skellington' i'm feeling VERY attacked right now twst #look scully your people are out there #just get on the forums and -- oh wait you're probably from like the 1800s or something #(my theory is that he's from the past and there's just some Book Magic going on to bring us together)#(LOOK they made a point of saying that the book fair has been held annually for a super long time)#a hot topic goth born before hot topic was invented...so sad 😔#i dunno i could be wrong but that feels like a good working theory for now #if it wasn't for mal sensing twsty ~magic~ on him i would think he's like. a christmas elf who's going to kidnap jack in a reverse-nmbc #(not ruling that out though because it would be amazing)#god all the sprites in this event look AMAZING. loving the desaturated colors and the extra drawn-on lines 😍#i'm genuinely kinda sad that we aren't gonna get to see every character like this #who knows...maybe halloweentown will be imperiled again next year...#come back and destroy my keys again please #(that said i'm doing weirdly well so far?)#(i promised i'd save for sebek and just do cursory pulls to get the SRs and not hope for the SSRs)#(...but then leona jumpscared me four coffins in anyway. halloween magic is REAL)

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hellenhighwater · 3 months ago

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Forbidden orange juice

#Narcissus is an overlooked tragedy i think #in that its not usually considered one #but narcissus was born beautiful and wanted by everyone #and he spurned all advances #generally without particular cruelty--mostly it seems he ignored or recoiled from those chasing him. and for that he was cursed #to love what would not love him back #to be doomed as soon as he knew himself #in a mythos with ravaging heroes and grotesque monsters narcissus is punished for being beautiful and solitary #and the moment he catches sight of his reflection in still water he is lost--gazing at himself #that which would not love him back.#wasting away until nothing but a gold flower remained #and that's what this is about #finding a stranger in your reflection #the self that does not love you #a curse for someone who was solitary #narcissus i hope the water was fathomless #i hope you found something worthwhile in yourself.

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paintedcrows · 19 days ago

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"Bill... Can I call you that?" / "You can call me whatever you want except 'My Love'!"

"Ha ha! That's a joke! Everybody loves me!"

Y yo a ti Ford, or whatever. @fearoftriangles pointed out that in the Spanish version of The Book of Bill: Bill says Ford can call him anything but "Mi Amor" instead of anything but "Late for Dinner" and-

...I swear, Spanish translators cannot keep getting away with this

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mischievous-thunder · 15 days ago

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Logan, a few hours after he got kidnapped:

Also Logan, a couple of days later he got kidnapped:

Much, much later:

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tawnysoup · 3 months ago

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the fritter (frin critter)

#inspo struck right after posting the last two. some kind of a hermit crab. a snail #they think they look all cool and mysterious under their safety shelter but if u remove it they're a disastrous puffball of uncombed fur #the hat is not accurate to an adult human btw. i tried to put them in a full size hat and they were lost forever. this is a child sized hat #they need to swap out for bigger hats as they grow #MY FRIENDS WROTE AND DREW SO MUCH FOR THE FRITTER I HOPE THEY CAN REBLOG AND ADD BC THEYRE SO GOOD <3 #we started making a whole au about critter species in the wild and how they interact and survive. very fascinating.#i need to collect all the worldbuilding into one place eventually. rn all i'll say is.. overworked odile petsmart employee (tealgoat's idea #isat critters #isat #in stars and time #isat siffrin #my art #a6se/twohats (this tag only) implication then is that loop is bald i guess aksdks. loop = wild shorthair. fritter = domestic longhair.

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charcoaldustonmyfingers · 29 days ago

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Same as it Never Was

Thought I’d give drawing these sad old men a go. Rip

#tmnt sainw #tmnt 03 #tmnt 2003 #03 donatello #03 leonardo #03 Raphael #03 Michelangelo #teenage mutant ninja turtles #Raph: fuck yeah motorcycles! (just gotta not die in the death race)#leo: fuck yeah my best friend! (also gotta save my brothers of course)#Mikey: fuck yeah superheroes! (except for splinter that’s a bit tough)#Don: the world has ended. all hope is lost. my brothers are dead.#like oof tough break man #t*cest dni

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mroddmod · 2 months ago

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what cipher has done to my hands

#gravity falls #stanford pines #bill cipher #ford pines #billford #maybe?#idk #ermmmm anyways i just wanted to draw bloody knuckles 🤒#and also i love love love this excerpt from the tbob i think about it literally all the time #it haunts my every waking moment #'i hope f's gloves will hide what cipher has done to my hands'#like???? are you crazy?????#i'm killing myself asap #this was from a magma doodle that i cleaned up but i think i lost the original vibe 💔 this feels really stiff to me idk #BLEGH feeling. crazy.#okay bye #mods art #mods draws #my art

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inknose · 10 months ago

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happy valentines day!! they're really like this.

#tgcf #hualian #my art #tian guan ci fu #heaven official's blessing #hey uh hi #hope you've all been well #read tgcf. lost my mind. now im bout to start posting like its 2012 #you know how it is

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 15 days ago

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Put that thing back or so help me.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jiang cheng #wen qing #a-yuan #I had a few different ideas for what do for 'JC visits WWX in the burial mounds' but I must say...#JC's genuine baffled outburst at why the hell WWX has a child running around really took me out.#WWX for his credit isn't much of a fatherly figure. More of a 'cool uncle that occasionally plays but has work to do.'#I know it is a common fan headcanon to put WWX as a surrogate parent to A-yuan. It's cute though I don't really see it!#All the Wen remnants and WWX have something a lot more complex than a straightforward found family thing going on.#It certainly isn't a little western nuclear family unit. They are bound by trauma and guilt and they will *not* talk about it.#A-Yuan is the representation of all the children lost to the war. He is also a little seedling that there is hope for the future.#And he is an opportunity for WWX to reconnect with his own displaced childhood.#Right now his rather dismissive of him but we'll get there. Wei Wuxian will have his unhealthy coping mechanism moment with this child.#I sure hope nothing bad happens to them! I hope Jiang Cheng just comes by for a nice visit!

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nancywheeeler · 2 years ago

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hopeless time loop. the way out isn’t to save everyone. the way out isn’t to save even one person. the way out isn’t to change anything. the way out is accepting how it happened the first time is how it always will be. that’s how you acted, that’s how they acted, that’s how you would have acted every time if you weren’t given the curse of hindsight. the way out is accepting you can’t fix the past; you can only forgive yourself for it.

#there's this game i love called little hope that plays with these ideas (though not with a time loop)#i do love time loops narratives that explore how a person is confronted with their life and their choices #when forced to live the same day over and over again #and i LOVE time loops that try to reverse mistakes made and lives lost #but to see a character put themselves through loops upon loops upon loops #trying to rectify past mistakes (especially in the case where people died) only to be confronted with the reality it isn't working #and even in a loop where they save everyone the loop just resets #because the universe is essentially saying 'no that isn't how it happened and you know that's not how it happened'#it compels me!#i feel similarly about time travel where time 'fights back'#like this idea that there is a central timeline that time does not like being diverted from #so it will try to course correct itself #you save lincoln from an assassination only for him to die in a train crash #it's a cool way to confront the idea of fate #anyway all tragedies are hopeless time loops thank you for coming to my ted talk #a shout into the void #1k #5k #10k

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egophiliac · 2 months ago

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buckle up lads we're going BACK INTO THE BOOK

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #lost in the book with nightmare before christmas #hajimari no halloween #(the origin of halloween huh) (oooh)#why yes i did wake up way too early to watch the stream and will have no memory of drawing this later #anyway THE MAGIC BOOK IS BACK TO EAT US ONCE AGAIN!!!!#this does make things make a lot more sense if it doesn't have to. y'know. actually take place in the established world #like how jack and sally are apparently just gonna be THERE as themselves WHY NOT #i'm certainly not complaining mind you #scully looks like he's gonna be super adorable and i love him already #spooky scary skeleman who just goes :O a lot and is excited for halloween #he seems like he might actually be more of a fusion of jack and sally? or maybe i'm just reading too much into it #still getting jazzy vibes off of him though. is not scully j graves an incredible jazz musician name.#does this open up the possibility that the last time we went into the book there was a sexy anime boy stitch just offscreen the whole time #...maybe some things are best left uncontemplated #god everyone in this event looks fantastic i'm so glad i saved up some keys after all #a little sad that there's no lilia but you know what the fact that a halloweentown malleus exists is still pretty dang good #and sebek's hat is SO tall #the biggest hat for the loudest boy #i hope oogie is here too i need him and jamil to meet #i need jamil to be faced with a guy who's just a bunch of bugs standing on each other's shoulders in a trenchcoat #i am not coherent right now i just needed to get this out before i go pass out again

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astronnova · 14 days ago

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doodles (as i avoid work) of the super awesome you wouldn't like me alive fic by @ectoplasmranch which i binge read in a 7 hour sitting yesterday

#🧻 sharts #danny phantom #danny fenton #dash baxter #i aint tagging everyone else. jazz was the most fun to doodle though #figuring out their faces was . hm. it was a moment. i hope i made jazz and danny look related enough HAHA probably not. i wanted jazz and #him to have the same eyes its just jazz still looks like a normal girl and danny looks like he's lost all zest and life for the world #like shit man if someone looked at me like that in the highschool hallway id be scared too i dont blame you dash #UGH DASH IS LIKE A GOLDEN RETRIEVER TO DRAW FOR THIS FIC. i love it so much. i love me a shitty guy turned nice #elderich horror danny is cool. im tag rambling now. my bad #this fic has a bit of a death grip on me. i need to be normal and go to bed #ALSO I CANT FIGURE OUT HOW TO DRAW TUCKER IM SO SORRY. HIS HAT. IT PAINS ME #anyway uhhh if u like danny phantom read dis fic? pretty please? for me? its at 127k words atm so. if youve got a day to spare #(dont be like i me i fucked up my eyes binge reading it LMFAO. be smarter)#guess ill die (danphantom)

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