#TESTIMONY

[garden-of-thoughts-fruit-of-lips]

" Out of Line"

It's the person who's "out of line" who is always told to, "Get back in line!"

I'm "out of line," and the students tell me to, "Get back in line!" But I say, "No, " and I saw a smaller line, and they all seemed happy and stood out as different. They were dressed in school uniform. So I started making my way over there. And the teacher of the line I left came and asked me to, "Get back in line" and when I replied, "No", immediately that teacher took it to the principal and now the principal and teachers from my original class started threatening me in front of the students. Who were trying to scare me to get back in place. When I started to break down and cry, my original classmates and other students of that class said, "If you would have stayed in line, this wouldn't have happened to you!" Even with that being done, I kept making my way to the other line. Now, the teachers became furious, and bullies from that school approach me, telling me to turn around. Once again, I refused, so the principal gave a "signal" to the bullies, and they said, "Fine, you could go." As I turned and walked a couple steps further, they added by yelling, "This school dressed you! So we're taking your clothes from off your back!" They started ripping the clothes off of me in front of my classmates and other students. "Hahahaha," they would all laugh as I became naked. Once, I was stripped, and the students of that class noticed the scars and bruises on my naked body. The bullies moved aside so all could see, and I saw pointing, I heard whispering and laughing, and from the laughing crowd, words came out, "How long you had that there!" followed by more laughter. I even heard the ones that had pitty for me say, "If he would have only stayed." At that exact time, I got up from off the ground and turned my back against them

[dayinadream]

“This one month felt like 100 years.”

Palestinians arrested by Israeli forces during Israel’s ongoing aggression on Gaza described the torture and abuse they were subjected to during the last month. They were brought to a Gaza hospital for treatment following their release.

[girlactionfigure]

[lyle-and-erik-menendez]

"His whole face was this pale, ashen and he had this gray under his eyes. The weight of his testimony, of having to really destroy the reputation of my family. I remember when he apologized to me on the stand, for molesting me. That was a devastating moment for me. He had never said he was sorry before."

Erik Menendez

[classycookiexo]

Right, let’s get into it 💗

[theinwardlight]

We are not called to save the world. That’s a burden too heavy for us to bear. We are instead called to follow the Spirit of Christ speaking within us, the Spirit of the one who carries the sin of the world, the one who can lead us out. Part of the work of Jesus is to break us out of the closed circle of self-justification. As long as we struggle to be good we will never be able to bear the weight of our guilt. [...] If instead we rely on the goodness of God, the goodness we partake in as God’s beloved creatures, then our guilt can be faced. Then we can do our small part to untie the sticky knots of sin that riddle our lives. We are loved and we are responsible. We are sinners and we are saints. We are warped by sin and we are precious children of God.

Mark Russ, "The Good News of Sin"

[thewordfortheday]

Go tell the wonderful things God has done for you! Mark 5:19

This is not a command just to the man who was delivered from demon-possession, but also a command to us! God is merciful! He has forgiven us, God has saved us through His Son Jesus Christ and He has given us eternal life. 

God has been good to us; He has been faithful to us until now. He has healed us, delivered us, protected us, provided for us...How can we not share this powerful message with others?

Prayer: O God, give my mouth the words to say, and a heart full of joy so that I can be effective in telling others what Jesus has done for me! In Jesus' name I ask for this grace. Amen.

[grace-of-spades1]

my testimony

for eighteen years,I lived a life of fear and dread. My parents were toxic and abusive and the best way to avoid that was through just taking the blows. I was born and diagnosed with autism. Since I was the one kid that couldn't do anything the way they wanted or in their words, 'the right way' i became the family scapegoat. It was my fault if something went wrong always. I was never like my siblings or into the same things as them. My parents praised my siblings because they were athletic and smart and followed along with the mind games they would play. I was quieter and more into the arts. My gifts and talents were seen as useless and stupid. I began to believe it and fell into a massive hole of depression, anxiety, self loathing, and suicidal thoughts and actions. those who figured out what was happening at home were pushed away and were seen as bad people. I never felt more alone in my life. Eventually, I moved to a private Christian school. I was miserable. I was disgusted by the thought of Jesus Christ and how He allowed all this suffering in my life. But I remember one day in class, one of my teachers pulled me aside and told me that Jesus saw me and He never left me alone. He was watching over me and had big plans for my life. After hearing that, I could feel the Holy Spirit moving in the room. I burst into tears and allowed Jesus into my life.

After I graduated, i moved out. I have tried to restore a relationship with my family but no onehas bothered to return texts or calls. It has been a few months and I heard I had a new baby brother. The family made it clear I was not invited to see him. Please pray for them.

One verse in psalm 27 was 'when mother and father forsake me, the Lord will take care of me.'

Since I came to Christ, He has done so much in my life. I now have a job, a relationship with the distant family I missed out on growing up(so many cousins!), amazing group of friends, and a wonderful boyfriend.

So yes, my physical family may forsake me, but my Father in Heaven never will. Praise the Lord

He will turn your life around, He is knocking, let Him in

[one-time-i-dreamt]

I had to testify in court against Helena Bonham Carter and she was trying to kill me before I made it all the way to the courtroom, which was a few days away by car.

[funeral]

B.A. Van Der Kolk and Otto Van Der Hart, "The Intrusive Past: the Flexibility of Memory and the Engraving of Trauma"

[mrs-trophy-wife]

Before I won my first Mr. Universe title, I walked around the tournament like I owned it. The title was already mine. I had won it so many times in my mind that there was no doubt I would win it. Then when I moved on to the movies, the same thing. I visualized myself being a famous actor and earning big money. I could feel and taste success. I just knew it would all happen.

—Arnold Schwarzenegger

[jyeshindra]

Astrology Testimonials (I)

Hey y'all! I'm doing a new series on my blog where I document my personal testimonials of how I have experienced my particular placements. This way, other people can gain insight on how astrology manifests for the individual and those who share similar placements may compare.

On being Jyeshta Moon

A big theme with Jyeshta is authority and power. Jyeshta often rises to some position of authority over the course of their lives (Naomi Campbell, Donald Trump) and if they don't this theme of power/authority will present itself somehow.

For me, I have always witnessed power being abused! Whether it was in my own home or in work environments, this has repeatedly come up in my life. My father controlled the emotional climate in my home but was cold and emotionally absent. He misused his authority as a parent to control and constrict his home and failed to fulfill the duties of his role (no shade, Dad! Love you!)

When he passed away, I learned about his secrets from my mother and through the events that took place after. Mismanagement of our finances, adultery, and other scandals emerged, which continued this theme in my life. More happenings of my father misusing, abusing his authority. My mother isn't entirely innocent either but I won't shade her here (lol).

I was hungry for money when I came of working age and came in and out of a lot of different fast food positions. I would rise to the position of manager quite easily (another Jyeshta theme) and constantly witness my bosses and fellow managers mishandle or abuse their power. (iykyk, ff industry can be very toxic and abusive)

Because my father passed away at 13 and I learned his secrets between that age and 15, I spent much of my teenage years having this deep awareness that power could be misused. I would see it in institutions, in my teachers, at school, among my peers. In the world...hell, everywhere! Also, as a black person, I am no stranger to systemic oppression--another abuse of power. This too has given me a lens to engage these Jyeshta themes.

Such experiences then manifested as a deep mistrust of authority and by extension, my own authority. I have a difficult time believing people in power and at times have an unhealthy amount of skepticism within my mind. I feel at times I have seen too much. It can make me hopeless and almost corrosive inside. Thankfully, my Pisces sidereal placements (Revati) balance out my cold pragmatism.

All that being said, I am changing. And I am making space for a different framing of power. I am reclaiming my own now as I enter young adulthood (I am 22 years old!). I will always have a bit of a thirst for power. I can't describe it. I just know I'm meant for it. It suits me. And I know that all these insights on how power has been abused has cultivated a deep belief that if power chooses me, I will try to wield it responsibly.

So, I do everything with intention. Everything. I lead with intention. I love with intention. I speak with intention. I pray with intention. I manifest with intention. I do my best to be mindful and aware.

Those who use their power over others do not understand themselves. There is something in their hearts that is wounded and something in their minds that distorts their cognition. Wielding your power to abuse, lie, cheat, manipulate, hide, extort, abandon, indulge, etc. is an indication that healing is necessary. Rehabilitation is necessary. A change is needed--more love, is needed. And if that change is not sought, karma will come. This, I believe.

-jyeshindra

[girlactionfigure]

mylandmyhomeisrael

“The things that Rotem Matias (16) misses used to be small parts of an ordinary life. The “perfect” pasta dish with cherry tomatoes, mushrooms and basil that no one cooks for him any more. Sitting with his mum, Shachar, after school, chatting about his day…  That world was obliterated, when Ham@s ki11ed his parents in their home in the Holit kibbutz, as they shielded their youngest child with their bodies.”  Rotem, now 17, is living with his uncle and family.  Source: @guardian Credit for quote: @jewish_in_calgary

[gabebrodudeman]

Jesus isn't interested in performing one grand miracle that forces everyone to accept the reality of his power and existence. That's not his goal. That's too impersonal and doesn't fulfill his intended will.

What he will do is reveal himself to the individual who needs him and in a way that can impact their lives for the better. Something that gives them comfort in a way only he could because the point is to make it personal so that together we can navigate the next step.

All he wants is a relationship. Just talk to him. He already knows your thoughts and your feelings. If you're angry. Tell him. If you're hurting. Tell him. Whatever it is, just tell him. He's waiting.

God bless 🤍

[faithful-christian-walk]

✝️ 『 Testimony - Jesus saved me 』 ✝️

Hello everyone!

I'm called to share my testimony here by the Lord. Thank you firstly for reading it, God bless you!

So, in 2023, I was saved by Jesus when I was a devoted new age believer without even knowing it. The new age preachers spoke well-packaged brainwash to me daily, and I was naive enough to succumb to their philosophies. I prayed to many gods and deities, channeled "fallen angels", played black magic and witch crafts with the thought of trying to help people like myself.

A little story about myself, I grew up in a neglecful and emotionally abusive family. My dad would use fear to threaten me daily while belittling anything I ever did, there was no love but controlling behaviors from him. It was awful. My mom was ignorant to it too, my sisters all thought it was "normal" so to speak, so I was always gaslighted into thinking it was normal. As an only son, there was a lot of pressure on me due to Chinese tradition, my life since young was full of degradations packaged in the name of "lessons" and "upbringing". There was no little rest for me daily, but work and learning, all in order to satisfy my dad's narcissistic, egotistic, abusive and self-exalting mindset. He saw himself as a god, always saying how he was born to make me right. Basically, he has god complex.

My school life wasn't any better either. At age 4, I had to kneel in front of a stool to erase my homework while being belittled in front of other students for finishing more pages in my homework than assigned. No friends, outcasted and bullied in middle school and romantically betrayed in high school. The teachers used me to vent their anger and I was always looked down upon and my efforts disregarded. College life was hit by the pandemic, lost my relationship to distance and accumulated brokenness. It was one thing after another, I was pushed to my limits.

Anyways, the new age practices taught me how tarot cards were "good" and it can assist people in need, it was bad. Then, one day I channeled and prayed to some evil deities without knowing, which is basically all demons (fallen angels are demons), again without knowing it. Jesus came to my rescue when I didn't even knew Him. He asked me, "Do you want to be saved?" And I said "Yes Lord, please save me!" And thus I was saved. Jesus Christ saved me from all the abusive, dark, evil demons. Never in my life had I thought about demons being real but it's really real, the fallen angels were real and evil. Absolute evil.

Nowadays, Jesus saved me from being haunted and rid me of the new age practices. I no longer am a victim of their lies.

I'm still a sinner, a work in progress, but by grace and mercy God, without me even knowing Him, saved me. He loved us before we love Him, thank you Heavenly Father for coming to meet me where I am at, I'm thankful. That's why I'm still alive today, to praise and serve the Lord, He blessed me immensely, I'm nothing but thankful, a faithful follower and a child of God.

For anyone reading, God loves you too and is using my testimony to reach out to you. Seek Him today, let God love you, help you, and change you. Jesus is the king of kings and lord of lords, trust Him. God bless you, may we meet someday, as fellow brothers and sisters destined for Heaven.

Thank you! ✝️

In Jesus' name, Amen!

[theinwardlight]

From Some Principles of the Elect People of God Who in Scorn Are Called Quakers, George Fox (1661)