#Stony Man Trail

[buckcherried]

kento nanami didn't realize he had it in him until he met you. and by god, did it surprise the absolute fuck out of you both.

you thought your sly comment would earn a small but rewarding dig out of him. get a rise out of his uptight, slack-wearing ass and encourage him to live a little. you took your role just as seriously as he did, but fuck, this man was the personified definition of the term bootstrapper. playing with powerful men was a fun little hobby of yours; a bit of entertainment during your incredibly taxing day-to-day duties of being a jujutsu sorcerer. gojo could take your shit like a champ and give it right back to you without missing a beat. you knew you held very little power in this light over the strong-willed man you knew as kento nanami. he never gave in to your antics to rile him.

it was a personal challenge of yours to break the blasé businessman.

and tonight you were keeping him taut and teetering on the very edge of his composure, not that you had to know that. kento nanami was good at remaining professional, especially so here at the office. and especially in front of you, someone he personally held a great amount of respect for, a notable and proven challenge to even the strongest, with an even smarter mouth.

it was just the two of you, finishing out the last of your tasks for the evening. you were sat in his office, in the chair that stood before his desk flipping casually through the stack of potential recruits you stiffed from gojo’s desk. you didn’t even catch exactly which quip from your armory of smartassery fell from your lips as you got up to leave the man to his work that had him up and flush behind you in a flash.

nanami had your ponytail wrapped around his fist and yanked hard, your head slamming back hard into the crook of his neck as his front was suddenly flat against your back. an astounded gasp was choked from your throat at the sudden blow to the back of your head against his stocky shoulder.

"is this what you want, sweetheart?" he whispered as his sharp cheekbone grazed the apple of your cheek as your head remained restrained there at his hand. his tone was all too casual for the rate he had your heartbeat at, "if you want something, you have to ask for it."

your eyes instantly shot over to study the businessman, whose face was a mere inch from yours. though you strained to get a good look from the position he had you in, you gathered no expression about him. like this reaction of his was completely typical of him. like you should have seen this coming. from the corner of his eye, nanami's stony gaze fell to you.

your stunned silence was not the right answer, but your mind was in no state to converse. the man who had never so much as cracked a playful one-liner back at your frequent lashes of witticism had you now standing flush against his front rutting his rigid cock into the fat of your ass.

this, was certainly not what you expected from kento nanami. but you had absolutely no objection of the matter.

the hand that didn't have your hair secured tight around it trailed flat up the front of you, leaving no curve untouched in its wake. he grazed upward through the valley of your breasts to reach and rest at your collarbone, ever so controlled and meticulous. he could feel your heartbeat hammering. "beg. maybe i'll consider."

the gasp that escaped passed your lips was completely involuntary. the 7:3 sorcerer was capable of a lot more than you thought. and fuck — you couldn't deny the ache in your cunt as it clenched in compulsion around nothing. but oh how you wished it was that unrelenting cock at your back that was filling the space—

with a clearing of your strained throat, your eyes dart back to his in this intimate proximity he's placed you in, "is this how you're going to handle gojo's smart mouth, too? if so let me know— i'd love to be there to see it."

without hesitation kento's hips snapped up into your ass, retaliation for that fucking mouth, grinding that weapon of a cock into you. "satoru doesn't make me feel like this."

his free hand was at your neck now, his fingers grazing upward of the exposed skin until they reached your mouth. his fingertips brushed over your parted lips, his index and middle finger tapping lightly together at the entrance. you took a sharp inhale in through your nose and held it there.

"you know exactly what you want," nanami's voice was a steady growl in your ear, almost like he knew how to tame you, "let's see how much you want it."

nanami slips those same two digits passed your lips to settle on your tongue. instinctively you hollow your cheeks out around them, sucking on the slender length of his two fingers as if they were the hard unyielding cock at into your backside. it twitched beneath you at your actions in encouragement. your tongue made quick work of the digits, coating them in your spit.

your actions earn a satisfied tut from the former businessman. "thaaaaat's it, sweetheart."

nanami dips his fingers further down your throat and you gag around them, saliva filling your mouth. pleased with the result, he pulls a sloppy string of it straight out. he hastily releases your hair and wraps his hand around to the front of you to roughly undo the button of your pants. your eyes widened, and before you can say a word, his slick digits pushed aside your panties and slapped hard against your clit with a wet thwack!

"kento— fuck!"

you couldn't help but yelp, your knees going weak and body concaving back even further into nanami's sturdy frame. he cushioned the responsibility of your sudden weight, stepping back til his backside hits the desk, leaning back onto it so your body could recline back against his.

“shhhh," he coos, fingers working ever so tender circles on your throbbing clit. it had your legs shaking against your accustomed tight control. "i’m going easy on you. i should be getting the belt right now thanks to that mouth of yours."

the sheer thought of this man stripping his belt from his perfectly tailored suit just to bend you over his knee to take it as punishment had your pussy soaking through your panties. his all too expensive cologne was the only thing you could get your overstimulated brain to focus on, breathing him in and out as it worked deliriously on catching up to the scene splayed out before you. your bare legs spread and split open before him. watching the endless laps he drew over your clit with the sloppy slick he earned out of your cunt. you drifted your hazy gaze to his lust-blown eyes that watched himself work with such precision, such care. like that smart mouth of yours he had been reprimanding you for seconds prior was something he was truly quite fond of. kento leaned back and parted your thighs further with the tops of his knees, propping up your numb lower half like he was trying to get a closer look of his handiwork.

kento slowed his pace even further, even lighter, like he was a wind-up toy in need of another crank. you pushed a guttural groan out of your throat at the new tempo. it felt so good it turned to torture. so antagonizingly slow. moving so still you had the time to notice how your body rose and fell with his deep breaths beneath you. how his free hand held your hip so softly, as if you were so delicate you'd break under any sort of pressure. the way his sharp cheekbone found a resting place in the hollow of your cheek. the man was so caught up in pleasing your cunt to notice you noticing the details of his actions. your lips parted as if to speak, but the only sound to be heard in grain of the silence was the squelch! of your sopping cunt at the mercy of his fingers. kento hummed in contentment.

"for a woman with such an arsenal of satirical cracks i'm quite surprised you've stayed quiet for this long," nanami's lips were at your temple as he spoke, and if you weren't so drunk on his fingers and oh so very touch-starved you might have almost mistaken the motion of his lips brushing against your skin for kisses. "i didn't know you had it in you. i almost enjoy the quiet."

your laugh startled the both of you. he was successfully riling you up. "oh, say it like you mean it, kento," your hips were softly bucking up toward his touch, wordlessly begging him for more, "you love my smart mouth almost as much as you'd love fucking it."

though he tried to conceal it, you caught the waver in his slick-coated digits as he tried to seamlessly resume his pattern. a shit-eating grin found its way to your lips. you had the man wrapped around your finger. but he sure as hell wasn’t going to let it show, at least not on his face. his throbbing cock still flush against the meat of your ass said it all.

despite the back talk, and like the perfect gentleman he was, his fingers continued taking great care of that sensitive bundle of nerves for you. his gaze hadn’t faltered from your growingly antsy core. he had a simple question fall from his lips, “is that what you want?”

the idea of him with a hand locked at the back of your head as he leisurely fucked your mouth slow and deliberate had you clenching desperately around nothing again. your head was quick to shoot up off his shoulder at the rising temperature boiling within your core. nanami took it upon himself to quicken his pace, if only a degree faster, his strapping bicep tensing around you as he started putting in overtime.

you were breathing hard through your nose as you bit down on your lip, doing your best to hold in the moans that were threatening to spill out into the office building. you knew you’d cum just like this if he kept going, but you wanted— no, needed, more of him.

your cunt was aching. and though you could feel his unrelenting cock pinned against you he had not yet made one move to reward himself with any pleasure whatsoever.

a moan hitched in your throat, coming out as a desperate gasp for oxygen. your hand shot up to latch onto his forearm. it was a warning. “do us both a favor and just stick that cock of yours inside me already.”

his face made no change as you peered up at him, stoic as ever. it pissed you off. seeing yourself come so undone while he remained as normal as ever. like he didn’t have your weeping cunt propped up before him completely defenseless against any form of attack he wanted to pursue. he knew exactly how to push your buttons, just as you did his. you hated being on this side of the torment. everyone may not have been entirely wrong when they claimed your mouth would be the death of you. because you sure felt like you could die right here, right now, in the palm of kento nanami's hand.

he paused the movement of his fingers entirely. "you're not in a position to make demands."

without warning he slipped his inner fingers into your sopping cunt, as far as he could given his limited reach, but it was plenty enough to rip a moan from the depths of your gut. he rutted them inside until the hilt of his knuckles stopped him, pulsing them there in short spurts til you stopped holding your breath with the scream that spilled out of you. you hadn't even noticed you had been holding it. yet there you were, every move he made you were waiting there with baited breath. this man would be the death of you.

you were desperate and lacking your usual self control. it was unlike you to let your yearning cunt speak for you. especially to the 7:3 sorcerer. "please! god— fuck! please, please, nanami. please."

you were not above begging now. nanami couldn't deny how much he wanted to give in to your pleas. to fuck your pretty little cunt beyond oblivion just as you had so bluntly demanded over his desk until the wood snapped.

but that would ruin his entire lesson plan for you.

kento nanami returned his full attention to your pussy with full force, slapping four long fingers to your clit and lapping it in fat circles. you're not attempting to hold any sounds back now. even if you could you didn't want to, your noises were the highest of praises pouring from your parted lips for the beautiful blond man underneath you to keep going. you were so close it hurt. bursting at the seams at the doing of just one of his hands. what a panting, sweaty mess he made of your usually put together and composed self. but the most terrifying truth of it all was that you had no problem being at his mercy.

you gasped as you realized it, even in your state of seventh heaven. you weren't breaking this man. he was breaking you.

in a flash nanami had you on the desk. he was at the door by the time your head snapped up, stunned as you laid there propped up atop the cold wood.

nanami’s face was expressionless, but it told you everything you needed to know. you cursed at yourself under your panting breath. this was a move out of your own arsenal. and you couldn't blame him. it was about time someone gave you a taste of your own medicine. but out of all people… you didn’t realize kento nanami was the one who had it in him.

son of a fucking bitch.

he left you with a simple caveat — looking the definition of cool, calm, and collected as he readjusted his suit jacket and lugged his finished stack of paperwork out the door, "bad girls don't get to cum. let's try again next time."

[ddejavvu]

I can't get the thought of marking Hotch up with lipstick marks out of my head. Like imagine leaving a trail of kisses down from his neck to his dick. And if the lipstick is starting to fade, he'd reapply it for her so she could continue marking him

Hotch is typically more-than-professional during round table sessions, the grim atmosphere of the room setting the tone for his no-nonsense behavior. However, he can't stop himself from itching at a persistent stinging against his collarbone- probably something to do with the mark you'd sucked into his skin only hours earlier.

it's such an intense sensation that he slips a hand beneath his collar to itch it skin-on-skin, something probably unprofessional considering his environment, but one of those base human things that must be done even if it shouldn't be. A few wandering eyes note his movements, observant but neutral as a profiler should be.

It isn't until he withdraws his hand, fingers stained a crimson red, that anyone reacts.

JJ shifts in her seat, eyes blowing wide as Prentiss leans forwards, "Hotch, is that blood?"

Aaron's already grasped the edge of his manila folder with his lipstick-stained fingers, turning the yellow paper a sinful shade. He frowns, glancing down at his pristinely pressed suit, but there's nothing red against his chest.

"Your hand," Reid urges, his brows knitted in concern, but it's Derek- of course - who recognizes the red for what it really is.

"Hold on," He laughs incredulously, a great gust of air that comes out like a bark, "Hold on, hold on, hold on, that came off'a your chest?"

Caught red-handed, Hotch composes himself, which is a very stark difference to the way that his team dissolves into teasing giggles. Penelope has clapped a hand over her mouth, perhaps the only way she can hold herself back from opening it.

"Settle down." Hotch attempts, but Rossi undermines him with an exasperated groan. Once the oldest of the team proves unreachable Hotch knows he's lost the room, and sits in stony silence while he waits for his coworkers to finish getting their fill.

"My man." Morgan declares, clapping Hotch on the shoulder with a strong hand he's lucky not to lose, "She got you in the doorway this morning, didn't she?"

"We're talking about dead teenagers, here." Hotch reminds them, raising a brow as Emily, Penelope, and JJ collapse into girlish giggles, "Can we please focus on the case?"

"This is on you, Hotch." Rossi levels him with what's supposed to be an unimpressed glare, and what really comes off as a smirk, "It's not their fault you come to work with lipstick under your clothes."

"I have to ask Y/N for that shade," Penelope gushes, but at Hotch's warning glare she grabs her remote and retakes her place beside the viewing screen, "But-! But our trusty boss is right, there are lives on the line here. So- um, incriminating lipstick stains pushed to the back of the mind, we'll start up again on our case."

Hotch's shoulders relax as the team sinks back into careful contemplation of the case details. He thinks he's escaped scrutiny altogether thanks to the shocking violence of this particular unsub, but it's three days later when he hears about the lipstick stains again.

Surprisingly, it's Reid that comes to torture him, and the slick comment comes when Hotch is forced into sharing a motel room with him. Communal bathrooms are in the middle of the complex, but it's easier to change in their rooms. He unbuckles his belt facing the corner of the small room, giving Reid space to change himself, and giving both of them as much privacy as possible.

"Careful, Hotch," Reid calls, voice misleadingly kind-hearted which lures Aaron into a sense of security, "There's a gap in the curtains behind where you're standing. You wouldn't want any onlookers to see any more lipstick Y/N left behind."

Hotch decides that Reid is worse than Morgan. Morgan is expected to be crass, so it's not a shock when it's delivered. Reid, however, is one to watch out for.

"Reid," Hotch responds, hearing Spencer's breathy laughter already bubbling from his throat, "I'm sticking you on desk duty for a month when we get back."

[jaegerbby]

➳ brat taming

╰┈➤ word count; 5045

╰┈➤ rundown; how he would deal with you catching an attitude. i had toji fushiguro, sukuna ryomen, suguru geto, ryusei shidou, katsuki bakugo & touya todoroki in mind for this ;)

╰┈➤ caution; female! brat! reader, use of the words bitch, slut, fuck doll, begging, blow job, deep throating, face fucking, spanking, choking, rough + unprotected sex, creampie, dumbification, marking (hickies and scratching), hair pulling, he is MEAN.

pls let me know if i should add any more warnings !! not proofread !!

"babe." you throw your head back in annoyance, reaching for the large palms gripping your hips as if trying to right your wrongs but it only upsets him further.

"told you no touching." he roughly pins your wrists to the bed, his face nears yours and you find yourself leaning closer to kiss him but he just won't give in. "keep them there."

his warm touch finds your thighs, coaxing along the flesh before his hips roll and he slowly fucks into you.

he feels good, too good.

he always does but right now this isn't enough. the slow stroke of his cock pulling your cunt apart and the swollen head nudging your cervix isn't enough.

you feel every vein, even ridge, every bit of his stiff cock but he's fucking into you so painfully slow. your chest heaves, fingers twitching, desperate to be on his skin. you're desperate to have him messily kissing you until his pink lips are swollen.

his eyes look stony, gazing at your cunt swallowing every inch. he seems to take in every bit of slick that coats him. you're soaking. you've drenched him entirely.

he can feel you pulsing along him, he can feel your slick hot and sticky on his cock.

he loves your pussy too much for his own good. he's drunk on you and you know it too well. that's why he has to do things like this.

every pump of his hips to fill your cunt, is too slow for you to think straight.

you're aching for a rough pounding, you're aching to sink your nails into his back, to have his chain hanging in your face and his gravelly moans in your ear.

but this.

this is torture. you think this might be the worst punishment you have ever received.

he is mad, you can see it all over his face.

you spent the entire drive home squeezing your thighs together looking at him grip the steering wheel so hard his veins were more pronounced.

maybe you would've behaved if you knew this was what he had in mind.

you would think a man this enraged would have less restraint but somehow it seems to be the opposite for him.

your jaw hangs, a muted whimper escaping you as he cants his hips and sinks his cock inside you again. it feels like forever before his tip kisses your cervix. you can't help that your hips buck forward, you can't help that your legs tighten around his narrowed waist, urging him closer.

he doesn't budge.

his fingers squeeze your hips and you swear you've broken his resolve but you're left hissing in surprise when he pulls out. it's the first thing he has done swiftly all night.

"do you ever listen?" his lips pull back in irritation.

"i said i was sorry." you whine. your cunt clenches around nothing, only leaking with more slick. you're all doe eyed feigning innocence as you look up at him.

"you weren't sorry when you were acting all bitchy" he quips. his darkened eyes trail over your messy cunt, your neglected clit is just begging for his touch. for him to rid you of an itch only he can scratch.

you raise yourself to your elbows, eyes never leaving his. his breath slows when your hand caresses his chest. your skin is far softer than his.

he's only growing angrier.

he finds himself wishing he wasn't this weak for you but truthfully, he wouldn't change a thing.

your touch trails down from his stiff chest to the ridges of his abs. his head tilts to the side, you're really pushing it tonight. you stop just before his cock, your eyes skim over the stiffened thickness of his girth, coated in your wetness and leaking.

you bite down on your bottom lip before your fingers find your cunt, trailing through the wetness, you're so sensitive your back arches as you sink two fingers as deep as they can go.

"i promise i'm sorry. want you to fuck me like you mean it, think i deserve it." your voice is all whiny and soft. all honey dew and sugar coated.

you're spoilt rotten, he's the one responsible for it. you know how to get your way, you're good at it.

but you're forgetting he is as stubborn as you.

your fingers slip out, sticky with strings of wetness and you're spreading your cunt for him to see. he breathes hard.

you jolt when he roughly snatches your hand.

"you think you deserve it?" he says incredulously. "really?"

the corners of your lips tip into a sly smile that you're fighting to conceal.

"mmhm and i really need you." you know how to fuck with his head. you know how to destroy his sanity. "need to feel you deep inside me, need you to fuck me until i can't think."

you're shoved down against the sheets, his hard body meets yours, you hum at the feeling. his eyes are darker. his chest heaves more. you feel his cock brush your dripping hole and your legs instinctively hitch higher on his waist.

"if you want to get fucked, you need to listen." his hands are so much bigger, they enclose your wrists and press them to the sheets.

your tongue slips out to wet your lips and you nod. "i'll do whatever you say."

your jaw hangs in a drawn out moan as his cock slowly fills you. his abs tense due to your relentless clenching.

he's closer now, he's on you now.

you tilt your head up, lips brushing against his but he doesn't lean closer than that.

"keep your hands to yourself." he breathes. "and you only take what i give you."

you nod.

your cunt aches a little more, he's so big. every time he sinks back into you, you feel yourself stretching. he pulls you too wide and goes too deep. it rids your mind of any coherent thoughts.

you're huffing hot breaths, trying to control your hips. trying to be obedient.

your eyes trail over his face. he's pretty.

his lengthy lashes flutter, nose scrunching ever so slightly every time he feels you. he likes being in your cunt, he likes how hot you feel on him. and he likes-

"so fucking tight."

you're smiling. of course you are. your body rocks while he fucks into you. but it's still slow. he rolls his hips forward with a low grunt.

"babe."

he ignores you. he's too busy plunging his aching length inside your messy cunt.

"babe." you whine, a pout on your lips when he meets your eyes. "y'know, you haven't kissed me for the night."

you lean up to nudge your nose with his and he hates the way he falters. he hates the way he can do nothing to stop his hips roughly pounding into you before he finds his bearings.

he hates how pleased you look. he hates the way you dumbly smile with a ditzy look on your face from only a few heavy strokes of his cock. he is breathing hard into your shared air before his jaw clenches.

"listen to me or i won't fuck you at all." he doesn't know how much longer he can hold up this stupid punishment. he wonders if he's punishing you or himself because he has his pelvis flush to yours and your sticky pussy is slurping on him like you don't ever want to let him go.

too tempting.

"you're bluffing."

"try me." he grits his teeth.

he sits back on his knees, you find yourself disappointed at the distance.

"don't move."

he pumps his hips. moving shallowly, only the base of his cock exiting your gummy walls before he fucks it back into you.

you mewl. his dextrous fingers find your clit and he rolls the stilted bundle of nerves for the first time tonight.

he looks pretty like this, he looks pretty with his eyes trained on your cunt and his cock deep in you. he looks pretty with tense shoulders and a heaving chest.

you're really trying your best, you're trying to restrain every bit of you that is begging to touch him. but how can you really help yourself?

he looks good when he's mad. he looks good when his jaw is locked and you think it's cute how he flares his nose.

you know how to push his buttons. you're desperate to push him over the edge and break his resolve.

"it wouldn't make a difference if you stopped, this doesn't count as fucking me anyway." it's terribly unconvincing because your voice is all watery and broken.

he presses hard on your clit before his hand harshly smacks the twitching bundle of nerves, your hips cant upwards on his cock still lodged inside you.

if he was angry before, you feel like steam would be coming out of his ears now.

"you know what? i don't have to deal with this nasty attitude when my hand works fine." you flinch as he suddenly pulls out.

he wouldn't stop, right?

"mine does too." you retort but the ache between your legs is still begging to be quelled.

his arms flex, biceps bulging as his fingers grip your face and he squeezes your cheeks. his eyes are narrow.

oh, you've done it now.

"go ahead, fuck your little cunt for yourself. see if i care." his voice has deepened, strained with anger and his unsatisfied desires.

you can use your hand.

you can fuck your cunt until you cum. you know your body as good as he does but it won't be the same.

that wouldn't be enough.

it would not compare to his heavy body over you, or his fingers knotted in your hair. it would never compare to the girth of his cock pulling you wide open and fucking you until you're plugged full of hot, sticky strands of his seed.

why do it yourself when you can have him?

even if it means begging a little.

"babe, c'mon." you quip. he looks like he has already made up his mind and it won't change.

"i'm sick of your shit." he moves off of you, sitting at the edge of the bed but before he can reach for his boxers you are on him.

he breathes a little harder as your lips find his neck, your hand threading through the thick locks of his hair before caressing his angular jaw and trailing down his firm chest.

he jerks in surprising when your much smaller hand strokes his cock, still hot and sticky from your dripping pussy.

it's all he's thinking about, sinking deep inside you again sounds much better than depriving himself of your cunt.

he wishes you weren't so prissy then he would fuck you the way you're aching for.

"m'sorry." your voice should not be this adorable. no one could possibly resist you.

"yeah, right." he says through gritted teeth, eyes slightly rolling as your delicate hand palms his cock. he can hardly think straight and your goal for the night seems to be destroying him completely.

and then you whine in his ear like a fucking sex drunk slut.

"m'really sorry, y'know i didn't mean it. just missed you." he lets out a shaky breath, biting his lip as his eyes flick down to watch the languid strokes of your touch gliding up and down. he is covered in so much slick, so much of you that it's easy to tug at his cock.

"that's your excuse every fucking time. you act like a bitch and then say s'cause you missed me." your finger trails along his ear, a second later your tongue replaces it. he curses lowly, too caught up in the feeling of your lips trailing down the column of his throat. leaving his skin heated with saliva from sucking marks. "how does that make sense, baby?

"you're the one that didn't see me for three days." your voice is less begging now, bordering on irritation as you separate from his neck.

"there's that attitude again." he sucks his teeth, biting back a groan when you squeeze around the base of his thick cock. he tilts his head towards you, his nose nudging yours and he is all too pleased at how quickly you melt.

your eyes go wide and teary, your lips pouted and all he wants to do is bite them until they're swollen red. "i'm sorry, m'sorry, babe." he really is trying to resist you but then your little hand leaves his cock and reaches for his nape to pull him for a kiss so desperate it erases every thought of denying you.

he lets you, he lets you have your way with him. he lets you trip and fall and act like your world will end without him.

he likes you this way.

you're whimpering apologies with your tongue lashing his and he is licking into your mouth with renewed vigor.

he likes knowing how entangled you are in him.

you separate just barely, shared air growing dense with tension, with palpable want. "i'll make it up to you." you hum and his chest heaves as you steady yourself on your knees at his side and lean down to teasingly lick right below his navel.

he swallows hard because your ass is bare and perched out for him to see and all he can think about is how badly he wants to leave it bruised and stinging.

his jaw clenches tight enough to grind stones when your tongue laps over his leaking tip. you were trying to fray his resolve at the edges but it was undone a long time ago and he cannot deny himself of you any longer.

"wonder who you love more, me or my cock?" your breath is hot and damp while your slick tongue glides around his blushed head. his length glistening with the remnants of your juices and resting it's taste on your tongue.

"love you." you whimper, soft hand jerking his cock before your lips press to the tip and saliva is spewed down it.

he likes how nasty you get for him. he loves seeing the defiant heat in your eyes when you're being all mean to him because he knows this is what you'll be reduced to a second later.

he bites down on his bottom lip, hips thrusting up and muscles bulging as your slimy tongue rolls around and prods his slit.

it's hard to believe you love him more than his cock when you have the swollen and dripping head between your puffy lips and you are soaking it with spit after he had it lodged in your cunt.

"you're so big." your voice practically vibrates against his cock before you take it into your mouth, slow and deliberate. he has seen this sight too many times to count but he would never tire of it.

a soft groan rumbles in his chest as you lower yourself further. the taste of you and him, laying heavy on his throbbing erection, is one of salt and sin. the heady mixture instantly makes your head spin.

he has your mouth wide as you take him deeper, he borderline whines when you reach his base. his cock hitting the back of your stretched throat and he has to fight the urge to thrust.

all he can feel is the warmth of you wrapped around him and every muscle gripping him.

"you piss me the fuck off. always get me mad and then do shit like this... s'fucking annoying." he can hardly contain himself when his dick is shoved so deep in your throat that your pretty eyes are watering.

you hum around him, the vibration making his eyes roll before your cheeks hollow and you suck.

you are taking his soul. there is no doubt about it.

then, you go in for the kill because you bob your head and he swears he is seeing stars. "fuck. fuck, baby." his hips jerk, he wants to fuck your mouth, he wants to hold your head down and use your bratty throat as he pleases.

with the feeling of velvety warmth surrounding his cock and your pretty face coated with tears, his hand reaches for your ass.

"look so good with your mouth stuffed like this, can't talk shit when you're choking on my cock, huh?" he gropes the flesh of your ass before his hand rears back and connects with your skin. you jolt, still swallowing his cock over and over until messy strands of spit collect on his length and stream down his balls.

he soothes the sting with soft circles of his callous hand but he's smirking at the way you let out a muffled shriek when he does it again.

"s'not really your fault that you act like this, i know." he coos, eyes narrowing as he glances down at you. his dexterous fingers trail between your ass cheeks before cupping your soaking pussy. "it's hers. she makes you act all stupid, cause you let her do all the thinking."

his hand smacks your messy cunt and you whine around his cock, drooling around his girth.

you pull off with watery eyes, reaching down to rub your sticking spit into his swollen cock. every bit of you has wrecked him, he smacks your puffy cunt again, practically growling when you yelp and your cheek meets the dense muscle of his thigh.

his breathing is ragged while you work his cock, your thumb pressing hard against the vein that pulses along his underside before you lean in to drag your tongue along it.

"you're a fucking menace." he snarls, his hips bucking as he seeks more of your silken touch and your heated mouth.

you tug his cock down to envelop him back in heat as you swallow, your jaw aching at the stretch and your tongue squirming against him. his hand tangles in your hair driving his hips forward until you are gurgling and your lips are wrapped around his base.

he throws his head back, you feel unreal, you drive him insane. "actually g'na kill me." he groans, fucking into your mouth and cooing at the sight of furrowed brows and endless tears as he hits the back of your throat repeatedly.

"my pretty baby, love when you're being sweet." he hums, voice breaking into a stuttered moan. he can't get enough of your mouth, of the addictive feeling of you and having you at his mercy.

he grips your hair tight, shoving his entire length down your throat before letting go. you pull off his cock, gasping for air, spit and precum webbed in your mouth and sticking to his pulsing length. you sit up, liquid staining your jaw as you swallow the mess.

your pretty face is close to his, "still mad at me?" your voice is raspy all because he had his heavy cock deep in your throat.

he knows it will be sore tomorrow.

he knows that anyone you talk to tomorrow will be able to tell you let him raw your little throat.

"yeah." his voice lowly fills your ears yet he cups your cheek, stroking it gently which tells an entirely different story.

your kiss swollen lips pull into a smile that makes his heart beat quicken.

"won't stop until you're not mad." you clamber onto his lap, straddling his muscular thighs as you reach down for his hefty cock. you drag the thickness between your folds before position it at your soaking hole.

he grips your thighs as you take him, you both sigh in unison as you slowly take every inch of his pulsing cock. "pussy's so in love with me, look at how she opens up for my cock." he groans but you can tell how little control he has because his nails are digging into your flesh.

"uh huh, loves you s'much." you drawl, looping your arms around broad shoulders, face overtaken by bliss because you finally have what you wanted.

"i know, couldn't even go three days without it cause you're fucking obsessed with me." strong muscular arms surround your waist as you drop down on him, thighs smacking against his and your back arching once you are filled to the hilt.

he has your body flush to his, so much bigger than you that he engulfs you completely. he pulls out only a little before roughly slamming into you and making you shriek.

the stretch hurts so good.

he has your cunt spread and strokes every bit of your gooey insides and now any restraint has long been thrown away.

you desperately kiss him, lips softly smacking and a smug smile tugs at his lips. "just need fucking dick to make you act right. always need me to stuff you with my cock, that's the only time you stop running this slutty mouth."

he says all of it knowing he would live and die for your pussy, he is equally as obsessed with you.

he drives his hips roughly into you, his sodden cock jamming into your walls so hard your teeth grit and your back arches.

"this is what you wanted right? wanted to get fucked so hard that you can't think. look at you, drooling for it like a slut." his lips curl back in a snarl, wet squelches filling the room with every pound of his hips.

you whine, your hands scrambling on muscly and broad shoulders as your mind goes blank. "yes, yes, s'all i wanted! feels so good." he hugs you tighter, squeezing your body against him, fingers digging into your flesh.

your body is shaking as he pounds open your sopping pussy, roughly jolting from the weight of his thrusts, your thighs practically peeling away from his each time.

you gasp into his mouth when he hits a spot deep inside you that has you entirely consumed by the delicious feel of him claiming your cunt again.

his jaw drops into a moan too, cheeks reddened and brows furrowed before his tongue flicks out. yours meets his, slimy muscles glide together as his pulsing cock drags along your insides.

"fucking nasty, your pussy is so messy for me. she's crying on my cock cause she wanted it so fucking bad. would've fucked her out earlier but you just had to be a bitch."

your fingers knot in thick tuffs of hair and he hisses when you roughly pull. you arch against him like you want to be closer even though your skin is flush to his built body.

"you love it, you love when i'm a bitch. love when i fight you and make you chase me." your plush lips part in a high pitched moan because the weight of his thrusts only increases. "s'why you fuck me like this." you whimper.

he jerks his hips, rough and powerful, it hurts. your body grinds against his and he only fucks you harder, the rhythm punishing. your forehead meets his, gasping for air because he takes it all away. his fingers are digging into your flesh and you know without a doubt they leave bruises in their wake.

"yeah." he leans in to lick into your mouth, using your body like a weightless fuck doll. "i love when my baby thinks she can mouth off to me cause it means i can fuck you like the little slut you are. don't have to feel bad about being mean to you when you deserve it." he snarls but he leans in to claim your lips in a sweet kiss.

his firm muscles are all tense and straining, your thighs trembling while he continues to buck upwards, absolutely no exhaustion overcoming him.

he kisses down your sternum before taking your nipple into his mouth, rolling the pert bud with his tongue and biting down. he groans when you tug his hair but he's sucking down and grazing his teeth on the sensitive flesh.

"you're fucking hot, baby. s'annoying." one arm keeps you secured to him, entirely at his mercy. his other hand wrapping around your throat, that's dwarfed by the size of his palm. he squeezes, enough to make you feel it, feel him.

his cock slips out shallowly and slides back into your soaked cunt with a filthy suctioning noise like your pussy wants to keep him stuck deep inside you. like she never wants to let him go.

your trembling thighs are stinging every time dense muscle meets the underside, your body already aching from the rough fucking.

"cunt's still tight as hell. doesn't matter how many times i've fucked her, she's still strangling my cock." creamy white has started collecting at his base, each thrust driving into you harder than the last and he is slamming your body down to meet every movement.

he presses his lips to yours, tongue fucking into your mouth like his cock is drilling into your pussy. he can taste himself on your tongue.

your body convulses, cunt incessantly clenching around him and it only goads him to drive deeper into you. your nails scrape at his shoulders, it seems he has fucked you entirely dumb.

his touch glides up your back before raking down your spine, leaving similar red welts. you are shivering in his lap, your cunt drenching him so much that it stains his thighs and drips down his heavy balls.

you can only let out ragged gasps as his cock throbs inside you with a steady pulse. you swear you feel every single vein on his thick cock.

"giving you exactly what you wanted, always do. got you so spoilt." his voice is low and it only makes your cunt squeeze him.

his lips find yours, hungry and demanding and you reciprocate with your tongue messily tangling with his. "so fucking tight."

he growls against your mouth, meanly pounding up into you. you can't take much more. your brain is scrambled and tears have long been streaming down your face.

"you love it, love me and my cunt and how it chokes your cock." it is throbbing, it is spewing strings of pre cum in you already.

"nasty girl, you get so nasty for me." he reaches down to strum at your swollen and jittery clit. your cunt spasming and guzzling around him. "could fuck you forever, i could live inside your pussy."

"you better." you've left streaks of red scratches down his back and chest, desperate on his skin as you lose your bearings. "you better fuck me forever, don't want you to ever stop."

he lowly laughs at your admission, his eyes blown out with desire.

his swollen lips curl back in a snarl, holding you flush to him as he quickens his hips. your pussy sucking on his cock as he begins to drill into you rougher then before, harder than before. hitting so deep you swear your vision is turning white.

he hits that spot inside you every single time, the knot in your stomach binding tighter and tighter.

your fingers pull his hair but it does little to move him, shrieking watery moans every time his cock plunges into you. you grit your teeth, lids fluttering to send an onslaught of fresh tears down your cheeks.

you are shaking, your syrupy walls spasming and gripping him tightly. he is rolling your clit quickly and intensely.

your body is jolting like you want to get away but you are holding him and pressing against him like you need him to fuck you to completion.

you can feel his cock swelling inside you, his thrusts becoming more erratic and uneven the longer he fucks you.

"g'na cum, babe. m'gna cum." you whine, crying as your head drops to his firm shoulder, you are jerking with zero restraint.

"give it to me, baby. cum all over my cock, show me how much you love it." your gummy walls quiver against him, spasming before wrapping around him so tight that he is hissing. the rhythmic pulsing has his eyes rolling before your pussy floods with your release.

it coats his cock endlessly but even then he doesn't stop fucking you open.

"s'too much, fuck it's too much." you whine and his eyes flash.

he lets you go, you barely steady yourself on trembling hands as you rest them back on his knees.

both your eyes find the messy exchange of your pussy pulled wide around his cock, your slick covering him. callous hands grip your waist and he pumps into you, quickly and unevenly.

his abs tensing and biceps bulging. you feel too good on him, you feel like heaven sent.

"take it. fucking take it all, cause this is what you were acting up for." he can barely get the words out, they're all gruff and gravelly.

his expression is overtaken by open mouth moans as he watches his cock plunge into your pulled apart slit.

you shriek at how hard he grips you, at the sting of his thighs clapping against yours. all he is looking at is how completely ruined you are.

"you're so fucking perfect." his voice breathy and drawn out, brows knitted together before his jaw hangs and his hips slam up to fill you to the brim.

you're crying out his name, you can feel his cock throbbing inside you then thick spurts of cum coat your insides. the heated liquid streams deep within you and once he has thoroughly creamed your pussy, he gathers you into his arms.

your fingers thread through his hair and your lips meet his.

"i love you so much." he pants.

"i love you too." you whisper, a bit dopey and in awe when a smile spreads across his face. he looks good when he's angry and seething but he arguably looks better like this, with flushed cheeks and softened eyes. with sweaty skin and ruffled hair. you're admiring him as you lay limp against him.

"i hope you learned your lesson."

you lightly laugh, pressing a wet smooch to his lips and though you're nodding your head the mischievous smile on your face is proof that you're plotting your next scheme.

luckily, he loves dealing with your little attitude.

thinking thoughts , still working on the other fics i mentioned

[bunni-v1]

Literally at the post office but I CANNOT get Lycaon and Hugo off my mind.

MDNI

They’re so very opposite in the way they approach everything, there’s no way it’s not the same in the bedroom. Like c’mon think of the possibilities of taking both of them at the same time. They’re so good, but I can’t get ahead of myself. Let’s establish how they are separately.

Firstly, Lycaon is all things gentle and loving. He is nothing if not a giver when it comes to your pleasure. Slow and steady in pace, he takes his time with you. His touch leaves no part of your body neglected, carefully taking in all you have to offer him. He is purposeful and each movement has intent to make you sigh.

It’s like he’s trying to swallow you up in your own pleasure, wave after wave you are drowning in his unending love for you. Sex is an extension of his admiration for you, he does not want it to be anything less than that. So he takes his time, ensuring you feel nothing but loved. It’s overwhelming, but that’s how he feels about you. Overwhelmed in his adoration, he lets it all out here.

He may be a wolf therian, but he is no more than a lovesick puppy between your legs. Claws and teeth dulled from gnawing on the kindness you’ve given him. He is stony and cold on the outside, but his heart has melted into mush for you. This is the easiest way he knows how to reciprocate, to show you he loves you when he cannot find a way otherwise.

Hugo, on the other hand, is fast and exciting. Passion in all he touches, he leaves trails of fire across your skin with his cool touch. It’s light and teasing, intent on making you squirm and cry beneath it, teasing you until you cannot think about anything other than him.

He wants you to drown in him, have himself etched into you brain, unable to think of anything but him. You’ll suffocate in the overwhelming pressure of his desire to see you come apart. To him, sex is fun and light, a passionate dance between the two of you. Maybe even a stress reliever at times, but it’s nothing serious, it’s just something you two do. Something thrilling only the two of you can share!

Speaking truthfully, behind his bravado and cheerful facade, he wants to consume you. He desires nothing more than to drink you up, watching each curve and twitch you have to offer him. There is no treasure in the world more perfect than you, and he knows how lucky he is to have it in the palm of his hands. So, he keeps it fun, light, easy for you. Anything you desire he gives up, because what is sex if not fun?

When they come together, it’s like fire and ice. They cannot decide who is right in how the pleasure. Lycaon insists you must be treated with care, Hugo complains about his boring style and suggests more fun! It’s quite a conundrum, but why can’t it be both? You can have fun and still feel loved, so surely they can come to an agreement?

Oh, they most certainly do. By some miracle, of course, they’re able to set aside their differences for you. Leaned agains Hugo’s chest with Lycaon between your legs, you may have to reconsider your fate. Lycaon laps at you, drinking you up as if he’d gone without fluid for days. Hugo has you speared on him, smiling all satisfied as he watches you crumble apart between them.

Lycaon inhales deeply, clearly enjoying himself a bit too much, not that you had room to criticize. What with the way you can’t keep your mouth shut, it was smarter not to poke fun at him. A particularly nice roll of his tongue had you fluttering around Hugo’s shaft. He chuckles at the sensation, kissing up your shoulder as if to encourage you.

“They liked that one,” He hums, fingers dancing along your stomach.

Lycaon doesn’t pay him any mind, far too focused on swallowing you up. You’d think he were a man starved with how vigorous he was. Your head pressed back into Hugo’s shoulder, only to be corrected by the man. Firm grasp on your chin keeping your eyes where they belong, focused on Lycaon. It drew a squeak of surprise out of you, and that was the first time Lycaon paused, narrowing a warning glare on Hugo from his place between your legs.

Hugo smiles, “Continue, please.”

“Be gentle,” Lycaon grumbles back, the vibrations of his deep voice sending your head spinning.

He returns with more vigor, lapping at you with more energy now. Seems he was eager to have you finish, thanks to Hugo’s annoyance. If you had half the mind, you might’ve thanked him, but when Lycaon begins to suck on you… well… most thoughts fly out your brain. Replaced only with him, his name falling from your lips over and over.

You wind your fingers through his fur, pulling him closer to you. The friction addicting in your hazy state. Lycaon directs a smirk up at you, watching your expression with unabashed delight. Unfortunately, you only get to enjoy the expression for a few moments before the two do you are caught off guard by an abrupt thrust from Hugo.

Lycaon pulls back fast enough that his teeth don’t catch on anything sensitive, and they snap together with a loud click of annoyance. Hugo does not stop his thrusting though, hands squeezing your hips as he guides you to bounce in time with him. Based on the look Lycaon has, he was most definitely taunting the therian.

Not to be deterred, Lycaon shifts focus. Decidedly kissing up your body, taking his time in worshiping you while Hugo does his best to make you fall apart. He fits perfectly inside, dick rubbing against your walls just right. Just enough to drive you mad, but not quite enough to push you over the edge yet.

Your mind is melting, chest heaving with effort at every new sensation. Lycaon’s heated kisses across your chest and Hugo’s throbbing member inside you working like a team to make you jelly. You nearly choke on air when Lycaon nibbles at the side of your neck. It’s like they want you to die here, suffocated between their unrelenting heat.

Cold fingers find their way down to your heat, playing with you in a lose way. It was just simple teasing, a means to make you fall deeper into pleasure, but it worked too well. Between the soft and sweet kisses and the rapid thrusting, it was just what you needed to cum for them.

A cry of someone’s name, you’re not aware enough to know who’s, rips from your throat. Your body shakes, hands grabbing onto whatever they can. The thrusting does not stop, Hugo fucking you through your orgasm, until you are abruptly pulled away into warm arms. You promptly lose consciousness for a few moments, and when you wake, you are being cleaned off by Lycaon with a warm rag.

He is cross, though not at you. Just annoyed, but he still finds in himself to smile at you sweetly. A clawed hand cups your face, thumbing your cheek sweetly. You lean into the touch, smiling back at him.

“You are alright, my love?” He asks with a deep grumble.

You nod, again smiling to reassure him. Sore, but you are alright. Someone shuffles in the room from the bathroom, and Lycaon sighs as Hugo takes his spot next to you. He cuddles you into his chest, cooing at your flushed face with playful admiration.

“You did very well, darling! Did you enjoy yourself?” He asks, and though his tone is light, you know he means the question truthfully.

You nod, “Of course I did.”

He hums, “Good, good~ Can’t have your needs going unanswered. Though, I’m a little disappointed…”

You frown at that, insecurity crawling up your back at the sudden change in tone, “What’s wrong? Do you not enjoy yourself too?”

He laughs, shaking his head, and you hear Lycaon audibly scoff from across the room where he is still cleaning things up.

“Of course I did! It’s just…” He sighs, dramatically looking away.

“Just what?” You urge.

He waits another moment, smirking to himself, “Well, I did all that work, and you cry out his name instead of mine. It really hurts.”

You blink at him, unable to find a response to his stupid hold up. Luckily, Lycaon seems to find it for you, “Perhaps you didn’t do enough for them.”

“I beg your pardon!” He shouts, jumping upright from his position.

You can only sigh as they start bickering with one another.

[antidesire]

specialize in havin' fun. antidesire

disclaimer, 18+ only. f!reader x logan howlett, logan is ancient so obvi age gap? idk who this is for, what am i doing? think im the dick-sucking writer, i seem to always write about it. no established relationship, reader and logan fool around but reader is head over heels for him. this is just porn, I didn't intend to write logan so rough I think I went off the rails. roughness, a lil non-con??? forcefulness, oral m! receiving, boot.. fucking >:), saliva, desperate!reader, pet names, hair pulling, I haven't written in so long I forgot how to tag, lmk if I miss anything, sorry this is garbage babe.

reblogging, interacting and sending feedback is always much appreciated, requests are open !! ♡

logan's boots hit the stony pavement with a thud, leg swinging over the body of his motorcycle, propping it up diligently. what a fucking day, with a sharp inhale, he tried to shrug off any lingering thoughts that were worming around his brain.

your apartment was a humble and homely one, sure, sometimes the water would either scald you or, leave you falling on your ass when it blasted you with an ice-cold wake-up call, but you had decent neighbours, ones that didn't pry, or make a lot of noise, lot's of privacy, logan liked that, though he'd put up with anything for a night with you.

though this habit of leaving your door unlatched because you expected him, was something he didn't want to put up with, had he not taught you better?

"told you not to do that.." logan mummers under his breath, lord knows any fucker that tried to creep into the naively sweet girl's apartment, is one dead fucker.

pushing the door open, he was greeted with the familiar warmth of the living room, a chiffon scarf with tassels draped over the lamp on the tableside, drenching the room in tranquillity, candlelight flickering to compliment the dimly lit ambiance, he almost slammed the front door shut, as though the outside would taint it if it got too long of a look.

like a domino effect, just the click of the door scrambled you to your feet, tripping over the blanket thrown over your shoulders, "logan!" your hush whisper sounded just as excited as every other time he walked through the door, as though it was a script you followed.

"hey bab- ouh," logan huffed out, your head smacking against his chest first, your arms following in quick succession, squeezing tightly around his chest, "one day you're gonna give yourself a concussion doin' that."

muffled laughs vibrated against his chest. when you breathed in you could smell the gasoline on his clothing, and that cologne he wore, smelt earthy, woody, and a little citrus too.

impatient as always when it came to overtaking all your senses with the man you were enamored with, your fingers find the bulkiest part of logan's arms, not nearly enough length on them to get close to fully engulfing the meaty muscle of them, you squeezed and forced them both around your upper waist, encouraging him to hold you tighter, you wanted to feel light-headed with him.

if you could see the soppy smile that stretched on his face, eyes wrinkled with delight, you would've pounced further on him, "how do you do it?" your head raised at his question, chin digging uncomfortably into his sternum, he continues, "exist when i'm not here for you to love up on me?" logan's fingers tapped up your back, under the shirt of his you were adorned in, the blanket you had over you, long forgotten about.

your cheeks puffed out and lips parted, but only an exhale left them. you quickly shook your head, only nudging into him for more comfort.

“c’mere,” it was quite comical because any closer would’ve been impossible, though you craved it, with a push under your chin, logan leaned down, and without another beat he pushed his lips to yours, his thumb, followed by a trickling of his fingers trailing downwards along your neck, resting his grip mindfully there, as though the kiss hadn’t dazed you enough.

hoo boy, you were easy.

logan had years on him- years was an understatement, and you, this doe-eyed girl, hopelessly head over heels to please him, it was dangerous, logan felt guilty, soiling such a deer.

it was perverse.

it was perverse when he first rammed into you and you choked out the cutest little sob he had ever heard, eyes flooding with fat tears, he had tensed himself, so much restraint it took out of him to even think about pulling out after all the effort it took to push his cock inside you, you’d noticed and in a bit of a panic, “no- nonono.” your legs raised up and around his hips, the heels of your feet pushing against his back, “keep— hngh, stay, can do it.. i can do it.” your breath was so unsteady, “please.” and who was he to deny such a brave girl?

and now when he felt your lips part, trying to sloppily catch up with his own, fingers fumbling awkwardly at the lower hem of his raggedy white tank top, it was perverse.

it didn’t have to go like this every time, but it did, it got out of control, and fast, every single damn time.

logan's beard was dark, mostly, with little flecks of grey if you looked close enough. it scratched your pretty face deliciously when you pushed up further into the kiss, your hands exposing his tanned midriff, wandering upward to his chest, covered in coarse hair, you squeezed his flesh under your greedy fingertips every time you grazed over his waist.

the last thing logan would ever tell you to do was slow down, as much as he reveled in control, seeing you like this, your thoughts at the back of your mind, all action and no consequence, just what feels good, it was euphoric for him.

his nose prodded against yours as his tongue invaded your mouth, the sound of wet lips smacking and breaths hitching, you only let up when a sharp twinge of pain jolted at your scalp, logan's grip from your neck had moved up toward your hair, a bunched handful that arched your body delightfully against his own.

just sometimes, he'd have to nod you in a direction, when you got all fuzzy in the head for him you would've been feeling up on him with your tongue down his throat until your knee's buckled- just a little nod.

with another tug, you let logan maneuver you to the floor, not so gracefully when your knees thudded against the wood, but you didn't flinch, making quick work of his leather belt, the thing was heavy, a big brass oval buckle being the obstacle between him being down your throat already.

logan ever so kindly helped when he tugged the rest of the belt through the loops, it clattering to the ground beside his boots, next came the pop of his button and a quick push of the zipper downwards, flickering his eyes to where you were sitting, knees squashed underneath you, palms on each side of his thighs, and big pupils ghosting over his fingers.

"look at me baby." his thumb prodded at your bottom lip, inviting it to slip past and rest on your tongue, your eyes blinking up at logan, and your head tilting a little when your fingers scrunched the denim of his jeans.

his thumb pushed against your tongue and his finger hooked under your chin, pulling you into him until your cheek smushed into his abdomen and he retracted his hand, pushing his strained cock against your mouth.

you darted your tongue out and felt the texture of his briefs against it, eager fingers nudging the elastic down just enough to get him out of the fabric, barely letting his cock twitch as it met the air, a line of open-mouthed kisses trailing from the underside of his cock, hazily trailing the vein your tongue searched for, the one that leads straight up to his tip.

“s’like you’re drunk when you get like this,” logan hums, his grip on your hair was loose now, you made the prettiest distraction he’d ever laid eyes on, his thighs clenched and he twitched against your mouth again, already shallowly fucking up against your lips, “you remember last time? gotta take it easy, baby.”

last time, was partly logan’s fault, far too carried away in the warmth and slippery slick of your mouth that he had forgotten how big he was, and how small you were, how small your mouth was, it was an easy mistake when you always took anything he threw at you so sweetly, even if it ended with you gagging so uncontrollably, you almost threw up, oops.

your skin warmed out of humiliation at the gentle reminder, hastily leaning up on your knees, either of your legs sprawled out beside you when you reached up to hook both of your fingers in either side of his belt loops on his jeans, a steady handle now you opened your sticky-glossed lips and pushed the tip of his cock into your mouth, that familiar ache in your jaw not tearing down your confidence, but fuck, he was big and thick.

he tasted salty and he felt heavy in your mouth when you shoved more of him past your lips, shocks of hot lust pulsing straight between your legs whenever you heard the man above you even so much as sigh.

here he was, not even five footsteps into the room, with his pretty little thing kneeling before him as though he was a deity you praised, and devoted yourself to, in truth further condemning yourself with a life of sin, much to the both of your pleasures.

your head bobbed, and every so often you'd pull your head upward and curl your tongue around the red-hot tip of him, decorating him with sticky kisses, before he got a little too riled and there came that pulse of pain in your scalp again.

"that's very cute," the mewl that sounded in your throat was buried as soon as he pushed on the back of your head, and stuffed his cock down your throat, "i said take it fucking easy, but don't push your luck sweetheart."

your eyes almost bulged when you felt the tip of his boot nudge in between your legs, awkwardly bouncing until you feel it slip underneath you, flush against your aching warmth, "ffu-" you choked out, a stray fat tear trickling down your puffed out cheeks, mixing in the mess of saliva that pushes past your lips when logan keeps fucking up into your mouth.

"sshush, shsh." he coos out, his fingers that were previously tangled into your hair moving to your cheek, wiping at your sweet little tear, "I got you, baby, relax." his voice was as smooth as honey, and you took a second to still yourself, unclenching your jaw, as much as you could whilst he was rammed into your throat impatiently, exhaling out of your nose and hollowing your cheeks, taking a stronger grip on the hoops of his belt, for your own sanity because the way he tilted the tip of his boot up against your pussy was wickedly evil.

the thin layer of your short shorts did little to help you, you'd spoiled them as soon as his lips meshed with yours earlier.

another inhale,

exhale,

you managed to slide your mouth down much more fluidly this time, even tugging him flush against you, until the hairs at the base of him tickled your nose, you tried your best to pay no attention to the way logan had his boot in between your legs, no, no attention to the way your hips had a mind of their own, swaying against the hard material, your clit bumping deliciously every time you breathed him in, and raised your head and letting it fall in a rhythm.

the sounds that parted from logan's lips were otherworldly, his timbre was guttural and he got increasingly vocal, "fuhhck, mm," logan's brow bone had wrinkled, bliss evident, even in the way his head tilts to watch more darling little tears push past your eyes, "wish you'd greet me like this every day, ah, ah!" he hissed out, the muscles in his thighs tensing when you jolt him forward by the loops in his denim jeans, and he hits the back of your damn throat, and you take it.

cocky, that’s what you were being, and he loved every single drop of it, “gonna be a good little girl, make me cum, mm? yeah?” logan hums, feeling you squeeze his legs in approval.

good little girl,

if there were any three words to put together to make you putty in logan howlett’s hands, it was those.

your little sobs were more evident every time you lifted your head to pay some sweet attention to his tip, collecting the dribbles of sticky precum at the tip of him, rutting yourself against his boot which didn’t fly by logan’s head- no matter how enamored he was with his dick down your throat, “desperate for me to ruin every single bit of you, have a little more respect for yourself sweetheart.” he chuckled out, cruel.

if you weren’t so full of him, your senses screaming loganloganlogan, you would’ve said something, you would’ve scowled at least.

“you’re so pretty like this, let me fuck your throat yeah? you want that?” it wasn’t a question, logan’s rough hands settled on either side of your head and not missing a beat, he was thrusting into your mouth, forcefully, and hard.

his grip was stable, far too strong for you to do anything, anything but your arms flailing and clawing up at his chest, even tearing a hole in his white undershirt that bunched up under his arms.

too much. your brain screeched in panic, but your body betrayed you, helplessly fucking yourself against his boot with your thighs squashed on either side, and holy fuck, you were cumming, your puffy clit rubbing perfectly, and the lack of air did something so euphoric, it was all so wrong, but it could only be right when your body pulsed with pleasure so overwhelmingly you could do nothing but trust him, and let those fat crocodile tears stream down your face.

“sh-shit, did you just cum?” he laughs, he fucking laughs, “ahnngn, that’s so sexy.” logan was losing it, his fingertips pressed into the plush of your cheeks, hips getting sloppy as he neared his high.

one, two, three more thrusts, stuffing himself into your mouth and he is cumming for what feels like an eternity, hot and sticky fluid gushing into your mouth and spilling past your lips, dripping onto your thighs.

he lets up and eases out of your mouth when he squeezes the rest of his spend onto your tongue, gesturing with a nod of his head, “there’s my sweet girl.” you swallow, and it hurts, the strain in your throat, in your jaw, between your legs, every inch of you feels used.

“thank you, lo.” you barely scratch out, knees trembling when you lean up, nuzzling your face against his abdomen, your arms clasping around his waist for comfort, his stomach gleamed with sweat and saliva too, somehow.

logan lifted you to your feet in a swift motion, one of his hands under your arms as the other tucked his dick back into his briefs, getting you to the couch, wrapping that previously forgotten about blanket around you, “i’m gonna run us a bath, you stay here.” his lips pressed a kiss so delicately to your forehead that you felt it almost regenerate your entire body.

“can you stay for a second longer?” your voice was small, unstable.

“m’ not leaving.” logan finds it endearing, honestly a little heartbreaking, “you can’t walk and your shoulders are up to your ears sweet, lemme get a bath going,” he explains, more reassuringly but you still grumble.

he sighs at that, you barely even recognize you are horizontal after what feels like a long blink, one of logan’s arms snugly under your knees whilst the other held your upper back, and he walked onwards to the bathroom, “you remind me of a little lamb like this.” he observed, and laid another sweet kiss, this time to your lips, and your stomach churned in delight, he reassured you once again, just for tonight,

“don’t worry, i’m not leaving yet.”

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Chest heaving, you pushed yourself to run faster despite your legs burning. Heart pounding in your ears as you jumped over logs, shoes splashing in whatever water you hit.

The sound of wings growing ever closer, as you let your eyes dart around. Pausing you shrugged off your jacket tossing in one direction as you took off in the other. That seemed to have distracted the creature of a moment but of course you did not get very far as you felt a claw wrap around your wrist, your feet hovering a few feet off the ground as your body hit a strong and sturdy chest.

"Gotcha"

A stoney cheek nuzzling into your neck as your feet finally touched the ground. "How did I do?"

"You're gettin a lot better dollface" Stan shot you a smile, his wings folding in, a stony nail moving under your chin forcing you to look up at him as he clicked his tongue. "Though stripin for me, that's a new one." His red gaze locked on your form, shoulders bare.

Humming, you placed your hand on his chest as they slowly trailed down his pants though just as you were about to unbutton them the shrill scream followed by Stan getting body stopped your movement. Two little girls found themselves sitting on top of their father's chest. While from a far anyone would have mistaken them for human but on closer inspection they were anything but.

Tiny horns peaked through their hair, little claws dug into their father's chest as their tail's swayed back and forth. Little wings not strong enough to help them fly but that never stopped them from trying too. "Got you daddy!"

Falling back, rather dramatically Stan wrapped his arms around his twins as the girls let out a shriek of laughter. "Ah can't believe you pulled a fast one on your old man."

Smiling, you crossed your arms over your chest. It was an adorable sight. While you may not have been turned it never stopped you from loving Stan or your girls any less. "Alright you three, time to head back home...mommy is tired."

While the twins may have whined they didn't protest, instead they let themselves perch upon Stan's shoulders as he stepped closed to you bringing you to his side. One claw gliding across your hip as his tail wove around your hips. "We'll continue our little game later beautiful."

"I'll hold you to it Pines."

A/n: Than you to @gravity-falls-fanatic89 for the idea of the kids!

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Steadfast 4

Warnings: non/dubcon, power imbalance, obsession, and other dark elements. My username actually says you never asked for any of this.

My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.

Character: King!Bucky Barnes (Medieval AU)

A Knights, Kings, and Knaves Story

Summary: you serve Duke Rogers, but when his friend, the king, takes an interest, you find your work in turmoil.

Note: I’ve wanted to do medieval drabbles for years. I bit the bullet and now we’re all doomed. I was torn on whether to make this one Stucky however… I think Steve deserves a wifey in his own installment.

As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. I’m happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging ❤️

The days turn gray as you ride for the river. The nights are short but dark. You sleep by a fire under the king's cloak as he keeps watch. He dozes astride, often lurching and snoring behind you. His heat, his proximity, grows familiar if not smothering.

For all your life, the divide between servant and master has been kept wide. That rift between you always steep and retractable. Now, it is nothing but a whisper.

The king's hand remain on the reins despite his fatigue. Yours are lower down on the leather. You wear the mittens of lamb's wool he found for you along with a plain but lined cloak. He is a masterful barterer.

The horse snorts as it descends the bump incline. The smell of water dampens in your nose and nips at your cheeks. You see a dock ahead along the coastline. There are boats and barges, voices hollering up into the sky, the grind of wood and billow of sail. You lean forward and squint to see it clearer.

"Gander's Crossing." The king startles you with the declaration as he straightens in the saddle. "It will lead us to sea. It is those deeper tides I worry for."

"Worry?" The word wisps from you before you can stop it.

"Yes, even I worry," he assures you. "Why shouldn't I when I have more than myself to trouble my soul?"

"A whole kingdom," you murmur, "your highness."

He hushes you. "Certainly, yes, a people alone."

You rock with the horse as he guides it down the stony pass. He waves as he comes closer to the dockers and calls 'ho'. He dismounts as you feel gazes in your direction. You stay with the horse as he speaks with a captain.

"Double gold, for your trouble..." the offer rises loud enough to hear. You can see the reticence in the grey-haired man.

"...not the horse that's the problem..."

Their voices lower again. When at last, they part, it is with the clink of coin between them. The king stalks back to the horse and works at unleashing the saddle bangs from its rump. He sighs.

"Stay close as ever," he warns.

You obey and trail him down with the horse. He passes over the steed to a boatman and he beckons you with him. There are more gazes and you wonder if they know who he is. Yet, there eyes barely seem to snag him.

"Men of the sea are wary of women," he affirms as he herds you up the ramp.

You shrink down. Oh. You come upon the barge as the king lingers like a shadow.

You're shown to a cabin. The tilt of the boat makes you dizzy. You teeter and back into the king. He catches you with his hands on your hips.

"You'll get your sea legs yet," he bids. "Best to sit."

The room is small. There is something hanging from the ceiling. You feel along the wall and slide down to sit on your feet. You feel better, less treacherous. He goes to the fabric strung from above.

He spreads the cloth and turns. He maneuvers himself into it, landing in the odd sheath that cradles him. It rocks with the boats idling sway. You shift and sit on your bottom, hugging your knees.

"A hammock. A sailor's bed," he explains.

You dip your chin down. You've only ever slept on straw and floor. You'll do just fine down here.

"I will find us some food when we set off. Let the boatsmen lift anchor first," he says. "I wouldn't mind a moment to close my eyes."

"Yes, your highness."

He hums. "There is enough room for you as well..."

"Your highness..."

"Pip," he opens an eye and looks at you.

"Poppet," you correct yourself. He grins.

"Very well. Keep mind to the bucket in the corner, lest your stomach join the river in churning," he wiggles and closes his eyes again. He yawns and drapes his arm over his face. Your eyes dart to the pail. It might not be unwise advice.

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You shiver as you hug the bucket. Your back racks and you ready for another violent heave. Your stomach twists but does not upend. Cold sweat drips down your forehead. You temples throb as the waves lash at the side of the boat in a startling cacophony.

"Dear pip," the king kneels beside you and mops your brow with a wet cloth. "It will pass."

Your teeth chatter and you gag. There's nothing left in you to expel. You groan and shield your face with your hand. You are humiliated.

"Is this... death?" You babble.

He laughs softly, "no, sweet pip. You are unused to the sea, that is all."

You moan again. He pulls your hand away from your face and presses his knuckles to your cheek. You lean into their comforting warmth.

"Rest will do you well," he draws you over to him as he stretches his arm over your shoulder. You shiver and slacken against him weakly. He rubs your arm as he holds you. You're too sick to care for propriety.

"My apologies, my king. I've never... never been about."

"Oh, do not apologise, sweet pip," he cooes and pets your hair. "When I was a boy. Oh, you could ask the duke yourself. We went upon a large galley. I was rather eager to be upon it but once we could not see the shore, I was but a puddle of sick."

You groan and cling to his cloak as your insides constrict. The bile sears your throat but gets no further. He hums and reaches below your cloak to rub your stomach.

"Be calm," he caresses you through your dress. "You will survive this, pip. You are ever strong."

His hand continues to move as you shake. The water hits the boat and the voices of men carry on the wind whistling above. He leans back with you against him and extends his legs out. He keeps you again him and his hand crawls along your hip. You quiver and it falls onto your thigh. He leans his head against yours as you start to hiccup.

"This night will pass," he assures, fingers tracing the wrinkles in your dress. "And we will be here still."

[my-castles-crumbling]

Embarassing

Thanks @zoerest97 for the awesome idea!

"James Potter?" the nurse called, looking like she wanted to be anywhere but the waiting room of an oral surgeon's office at 3pm on a Tuesday.

"Yes! Me!" James nearly-yelled, standing in a rush.

He wasn't nervous. He was just...nervous. Regulus was his everything, and imagining his boyfriend being cut open, even if only to extract his teeth, was making him want to tear his own hair out.

"You're ridiculous" Regulus scolded him this morning as he refused to let go of the shorter man's hand, though he smiled while saying so. It was no secret Regulus liked the attention. "I'll be fine, Potter."

But now, as he followed the nurse into the small room to collect his boyfriend, he was just glad everything had gone alright.

"Reg," he breathed, taking in Regulus's form, laid out on a reclined chair, walking forward.

It wasn't until he was only a step away that Regulus turned, breaking into a face-spitting grin.

"James!" he exclaimed, voice a bit muffled by the gauze in his mouth. "Jamie, I missed you so much."

At first, James thought it was sarcasm, until Regulus stood and stumbled forward, wrapping his arms around James's waist and attaching himself there.

"Never leave again," he whispered into the fabric of James's shirt, leaving a trail of drool there.

James blinked. "Erm...is he okay?" he asked the nurse. "He's not usually so..."

"He's just still coming off of the laughing gas," the nurse said in a bored voice. "He'll be fine in a few hours. Take him home and let him sleep it off."

James nodded, half-dragging Regulus out of the office.

-

"Oi, Moony! I have a recording to show you!" Sirius shouted a week later, grinning devilishly.

"No," Regulus said, face stony. "Not again, Sirius, I swear to God, I'll murder you."

But it was too late. Sirius had his phone out, pressing it in front of Remus's face. Regulus, meanwhile, covered his face with his hands.

"Ey, Reg!" On-screen Sirius called, the camera showing a drowsy-looking Regulus, who held an ice pack to his cheek. "How do you feel about my boy, James?"

On-screen Regulus's eyes got huge. "James? Oh, he's perfect. I love him. I love him so much, Sirius, so much more than he knows. But don't tell him, it's embarrassing how much I love him, really. Gods, I'd do anything for him and-"

"Alright," James admonished, taking the phone and locking it. But the pleased expression on his face was unavoidable.

[flowerandblood]

The Price of Pride (16/?)

[ canon • Aemond x Royce • female ]

[ warnings: sex content, unprotected sex, targcest stuff, smut, the angst, sexual tension, imprisonment, abuse of power ]

[ description: Prince Aemond finds a solution to the disproportion in the number of dragons between Dragonstone and King's Landing: he decides to find dragon blood and, like his half-sister, train dragon riders. He takes as his target the daughter of Daemon Targaryen and Rhea Royce, whom he abducts and imprisons in the Red Keep. Slow burn, darkish, insolent, arrogant Aemond. I have combined several requests here: (dragon blood female & prisoner female). ]

* English is not my first language. Please, do not repost. Enjoy! *

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She didn't know if there was a worse humiliation for a man than being forced to fuck his wife in front of other people – on top of that, if he was listening to mockery from his own brother. She didn't know what to do to help him, so she simply covered his ears so that he couldn't hear what Aegon was saying.

He had always been a twat.

He'd been lying with his first for years, surely imagining it was our mother.

Say, cousin, does he cuddle up to your tits too?

Does he suck on your nipples like a little baby?

She knew he was saying it to hurt them both and was furious that he had partly succeeded – she felt pain and discomfort at the thought of her husband returning to the embrace of another woman, the woman he trusted, the woman he desired, the woman he felt safe with.

The realisation that nothing he had experienced with her was new to him filled her with sadness.

She knew, however, that her husband was suffering more now and it was him she should focus on.

She prayed that Aegon's words didn't reach his ears – he was truly focused on his task, preserved in the embrace of her arms, cuddled into her breasts simply pursuing his peak, treating her body like his own hand.

He had to do this, and she begged in her mind for him to simply come, moaning softly, wanting to give him courage and deafen whatever was leaving his brother's mouth.

She felt a squeeze in her throat when he lifted his head, when she saw his gaze full of sadness and regret begging her to comfort him – she took his face in her hands and let their lips melt together in a wonderfully warm, tender kiss.

She sighed loudly when she felt his warm seed finally spill inside her, and he groaned quietly, moving inside her for a moment longer.

It wasn't until everyone had left and they remained alone that he burst out crying like a small child.

She wasn't surprised – she herself had been horrified by how cruel this spectacle had been, and wondered if this was how his brother had treated him all his life.

She finally understood why he hid behind a stony face, why he was cold and aggressive, why he was endlessly anxious to prove his worth – whatever he did, what he suffered in the end was humiliation.

She stroked his body and embraced him, lying behind him on the soft bedding, singing him the lullabies that her nanny used to sing to her when she was still a little child. Her voice must have been to his liking, because eventually he turned in her arms and cuddled his face between her soft breasts, demanding more.

So she sang for so long until she finally felt him fall asleep.

She flinched and twisted in her place, awakened in the middle of the night from a deep slumber as she felt his hand on her waist – his lips placed a soft, warm kiss on her neck while his fingers slid slowly between her thighs – she sighed, not opening her eyes, unsure if it was a dream or not, feeling his fingertips sink into her delicate, silky folds.

"– mmm –" She hummed, feeling a pleasant tickle in her lower abdomen as his fingers began to play with her little bud, trailing around it in lazy, slow strokes, slowly building tension deep inside her.

"– shhh – sleep –" He whispered in her ear, placing moist, gentle little kisses on her face – his other hand slid under her body and closed over her breast, teasing her hard, popping nipple, his fingers between her thighs soaked in her wetness.

"– ah –" She moaned as she felt his hard manhood hit her buttocks, then again and again – she sighed as his hand gripped her silken thigh and spread it, lifting it slightly upwards, the swollen, thick head of his erection pushed against her slit, opening her wide.

"– Aemond –" She mumbled out as he began to groan along with her, slowly sliding all the way into her, imposing an aggressive, fast pace on her at once. His fingers slid down from her breasts to her throbbing womanhood – while the tip of his length rubbed the spot deep inside her again and again, his fingertips stroked her little pearl from the outside.

She squirmed, clasping her hand on his arm, panting loudly along with him, listening to the way their bare hips pounded against each other with loud, sticky splats.

"– yes – yes, yes, yes, yes, please –" She begged, feeling that she was so wonderfully close, his hot, accelerated breath on her face telling her that he wanted nothing more than for her to come.

"– shhh – come on, soak my cock – thaat's it, there we go –" He whispered tenderly into her ear as her fleshy walls pulsed around his hard manhood in spasms of pleasure – she threw her head back, moaning sweetly along with him, feeling her moisture run down her thigh when, after a few messy, sloppy thrusts, her husband filled her with his seed with a sigh of relief.

She swallowed hard when he put his arms around her and hugged her back to his torso, entwining their legs together, leaving his throbbing length deep inside her.

"– can we remain like this? –" He asked quietly, and she nodded.

"– yes – I want to feel you –" She muttered, and he hummed contentedly, placing a warm, affectionate kiss on her bare shoulder.

She thought that she was going to experience nothing but rest until sunrise, but as soon as her husband awoke, still before dawn, he turned her gently onto her stomach and used her body to his heart's content.

"– ah – mghm – g-gods –" She mewled, half sunk in sleep, clasping her hands on the soft bedding beneath her, feeling the sweet tension in her loins again as he pounded into her from behind with loud smacks of their hips, hitting her little spot again and again.

"– sleep –" He breathed out in a voice heavy with desire, their bodies hot and throbbing, his swollen erection thrusting hard between her soft, warm thighs, not letting her escape.

She gasped as she came with him, listening to his groans of pleasure, unsure how many times he had done this to her – when she awoke, her cunt was all sore, leaking with his spend.

"– how many times have you taken me through the night? –" She mumbled, snuggled into his bare chest, trying to count in her thoughts.

Three?

Four?

Probably four, she thought.

"– I don't know what you mean – I slept like a little baby –" He murmured softly, running his fingertips down her back, not opening his eye.

She huffed quietly, knowing that he did this because he wanted to regain control over the situation, that he couldn't allow their closeness to be associated with the humiliation he had suffered because of his brother.

"– how am I supposed to fly on Sheepstealer today if I struggle to even sit down? –" She asked resentfully and heard him sigh heavily.

"– you had no objections then –" He grunted.

When, she wanted to ask to tease him further, but she didn't dare.

She raised herself on her elbow and shook her head, amused.

"– you must promise to let my poor, aching womanhood rest –" She said softly.

He pressed his lips together, tracing her bare, girlish body with the gaze of his healthy eye.

"– for how long? –" He asked uncertainly, unhappy.

She stroked his head with her fingers, looking at him with tenderness, his gaze fixed on her face gentle.

"– one night should be enough –" She replied.

He hummed under his breath and nodded.

"– mmm – very well – you have satisfied me many times tonight – you deserve to rest –" He muttered, and she placed a loud, lingering kiss on his cheek.

"– let's eat together –"

Despite the unpleasant events of last evening, the thought that they would be having a morning meal together for the first time filled them with good mood – her husband, dressed only in a linen shirt and breeches, sat down at the table as she headed for the seat on the other side, putting her nightgown over her shoulders.

"– what are you doing? –" He asked, grabbing for the bread, looking at her in surprise. "– take a seat by my side – unless I'm terrifying you so much –"

She smiled at his words and moved towards him, sitting down in the chair right next to him.

She wanted their closeness to be based on his desire – for him to know that he had control over what was happening between them and that she would not impose on him even as his wife.

It was the first time she'd seen what he ate in the morning – it didn't surprise her that he reached for scrambled eggs – a source of protein and strength he needed before sparring and training. She smiled under her breath as she herself reached for a platter of oatmeal, pouring it into her small bowl before pouring warm milk over it.

They ate in silence, but it was a pleasant kind of it, devoid of discomfort or tension – she couldn't help but smile, catching him glancing at her once in a while, the expression on his face gentle and content. She reached out her hand to him – he hummed under his breath and grasped her fingers in his, stroking her soft skin with his thumb.

So this is what her days will be like now, she thought, feeling nothing but peace for some reason.

"– I have a gift for you –" She said lightly.

He blinked and cocked his head, his smirk indicating that he was curious and excited.

"– mmm –"

She quickly ate a few spoonfuls of her porridge and rose from her seat, walking to one of the chests that had been moved to his chamber the day before.

Her Prince had wished her to have some of her belongings in his quarters, so that when she spent nights with him she could stay in his room in comfort.

She reached deep and smiled under her breath as she felt a long object wrapped in the fabric – she took it out and approached him – he wiped his hands in the white cloth, swallowing loudly at what was in his mouth.

She pulled the material off in a sweeping motion, and to their eyes appeared a long dagger specially made to her order – she had hunted many times with her cousin in Runestone and knew what proportions would be right for a man of his stature and height, making sure it would fit his hand well.

Her husband took her gift in his hands, completely surprised, gazing intently at the handle, which ended with the head of a dragon that had small sapphire stones inserted in the place of its eyes.

"– Vhagar –" He muttered, noticing in the beast's features a resemblance to his dragoness, which was no coincidence.

"– I drew her for the smith as best I could –" She confessed, and he looked at her, something in his gaze from which she felt a pleasant warmth in her heart.

He was touched.

"– it's a beautiful, thoughtful gift – of course that's what I received from my wife –" He said softly, taking her hand in his, lifting it to his lips, placing a delicate, tender kiss on her skin.

"– I also have a gift for you, ābrazȳrys – but I'm afraid it can't compare to yours –" He said, and she smiled with excitement and nodded.

"– wait for me –" He said and rose from his seat, moving towards the door, leaving the chamber.

What was this if he couldn't keep it in the room?

She waited for him for several long minutes, and when the door finally opened and he stood in the threshold, she noticed a small ball covered in fur in his arms, making a squeaky, high-pitched sounds.

It's a puppy, she thought in disbelief.

A hunting dog.

She got up from her seat and ran over to him, gushing with joy, reaching out her hands to him – her husband handed her the pup, who barked loudly and started wagging his tail – he had long, loping ears, his belly and paws were white, his back and sides brown and black.

"– I thought we should set off on a hunt together someday – when I saw him, I found you had the same eyes – I couldn't resist that pleading look –" He hummed, folding his hands behind his back, clearly pleased with her reaction.

"– hello, little one – ah, you're so sweet –" She mumbled as he licked her with his tiny pink tongue, squirming in her arms with excitement.

"– iksis ñuha ābrazȳrys biare? (is my wife happy?) –" He asked, and she threw him a joyful, bright look.

"– kessa (yes) – emā vēttan nyke olvie biare, valzȳrys (you have made me very happy, husband) –" She said softly, coming up to him – she stood up on her toes, placing a warm, wet kiss on his scarred cheek, from which a grimace of satisfaction spread across his face.

Her husband was to provide her little friend with an education so that, in fact, her dog could accompany them on hunts – the Prince burst out laughing when she said she would name her hound Daemon.

"– at last there will be a Daemon in my life whom I will be able to love –" She grunted, gently combing his hair after the bath – she longed to help him care for it herself and tie it at the back of his head, finding it a very private and intimate task, perfect for a wife.

She saw that, at the word love, he gave her a long, drawn-out look in the reflection of the mirror, but did not say a word.

She didn't care what he felt for her.

He was making her happy.

"Will you fly with me… to Harrenhal?" He asked suddenly in a voice strangely quiet and uncertain, as if for some reason he feared her refusal and rejection.

She threw him a quick, surprised glance, braiding the front strands of his snow-white hair with a black ribbon.

"Of course. My place is by your side. Always." She said without hesitation and placed her hand on his shoulder. She smiled warmly when his fingers caught hers, pressing her palm to his full, moist lips.

"– kirimvose, zaldrītsos (thank you, little dragon) –" He whispered, as if ashamed of his own words. "– kirimvose syt issare sȳz naejot nyke (thank you for being kind to me) –"

She blinked, feeling her heart squeeze at his words, so childlike, simple and sincere, guessing how difficult it had been for him to get such an embarrassing confession out.

"– iksā sȳz naejot nyke tolī, lēkia (you are kind to me too, big brother) –" She said softly, throwing her hands on his shoulders, leaning in so that her lips placed a gentle kiss on his temple.

When they were both ready, as planned, they set off on horseback to Vhagar's lair to soar into the sky on their dragons and fly over King's Landing – there was something beautiful in this act of unity, in the proof that from now on they were creating something common, together.

The meeting of the Small Council, which took place after their return, proceeded in a tense atmosphere – her husband made no sign of what humiliation he had suffered the day before, but his rage and desire for revenge was evident in his tense figure and sinister gaze.

His brother paid for rising from his bed with excruciating pain, so he was again given large quantities of the milk of the poppy.

"Now that the future of the Kingdom has been secured by marriage, we must take measures to take back Harrenhal from the Blacks. Daemon is gathering his forces there, ready to set out any day to his wife's aid. We must face him before the two armies are united." Said Otto in a voice full of calm and conviction about the rightness of his own words.

The Prince nodded.

"My wife and I will move at the head of our army in a few days to finally resolve this matter. I count on my sister and Dreamfyre, though not eager to fight, to defend the keep in our absence." He said coldly, and his grandfather nodded.

"I will see to it."

The rest of the day, which her husband spent on his duties, she spent in her chamber, playing on the floor with her new little pup – she knew she would have to return him to his guardian for the night to sleep with the other dogs, but now she could enjoy being with this sweet, innocent creature.

She liked how well thought out this gift was – not only did her husband show that he knew her nature, but he also gave her something to bring them closer together in the future, to give them another reason to spend time together.

This thought comforted her in the moments when her imagination showed her his face snuggled into the bosom of some pretty, mature, tender woman.

Did he love her?

Maybe he still does.

She blinked as the door to her chamber opened and her husband's sister, Queen Helaena, stepped inside – she rose quickly and bowed, surprised by this visit.

"I am sorry." She said, playing with the rings on her fingers. "For what happened to you last evening."

She nodded, accepting her words in her heart.

They had never spoken to each other before – after her son's death, it seemed to her that she had lived in a land of her own mind, unable to bear reality.

Her eyes lit up at the sight of her baby dog, who ran up to her on his short paws, squealing and whimpering, begging for attention. She smiled, looking up at her with an expression of childlike joy on her face.

"A puppy. Can I pet him?" She asked softly, and she nodded, throwing her a hearty, genuine smile.

"Of course, Your Grace." She said calmly, and seeing that the Queen sat on her knees on the ground, scratching Daemon's back, she did the same, taking the seat opposite her.

"My brother. He has changed." She said, however, not looking at her, but at her pup, busy combing his fur with her fingers.

"I don't follow, my Queen. Do you mean your lord-husband?" She asked in surprise.

"Aemond. Before he imprisoned you, he was on the path to his own destruction. There is a fire flowing through his veins that burns him from the inside everyday, however, he began to control himself for you – he doesn't want you to look at him like our mother does. With regret and resentment." She said calmly and gave her a long, dreamy look, then turned her gaze away again, as if distracted.

"Do you like to embroider? I like it a lot. Preferably all sorts of insects." She said lightly, suddenly changing the subject.

She blinked, feeling her heart pounding like a mad, unsure of how to behave, figuring she would simply follow the course of her thoughts.

"Unfortunately, I'm not talented in this aspect. Or maybe I didn't have a good teacher." She said honestly.

"I can teach you. It's not difficult if you master the technique properly." She replied, allowing Daemon to climb onto her thighs, content to recline comfortably in her lap.

"Very well." She replied without thinking, recognising that she should not refuse her.

Helaena did not look at her, but smiled broadly, as if her words made her happy.

"Your son will have your eyes."

She froze, looking at her in disbelief, wondering if she had heard correctly what she had said.

"Forgive me, Your Grace, but I do not understand." She muttered.

"I can see you holding him in your arms. The future king."

She swallowed hard, feeling the drop of a cold sweat run down her back.

"And my husband?"

"He is not beside you. All I hear is the sound of water."

She looked at her, feeling as if she froze, her heart stopped beating for a moment.

He is not beside you.

Why?

"What do you mean, Your Grace?" She mumbled in a trembling voice.

Helaena lifted her gaze to her, her face suddenly serious and fully focused – they both shuddered as the door to her chamber opened, and her lēkia stepped inside.

"Sister." He said cautiously, standing between them – Helaena, however, rose immediately without looking at them, her eyes widening again.

"– keep her close –" She said to him and walked away, leaving them with expressions of disbelief on their faces – her brother turned to follow her, concerned.

"What was that supposed to mean?" He asked when the door of her chamber closed behind her.

She shook her head, shrugging her shoulders.

"The death of her son has caused her to close herself off in her mind. She is lost." She muttered, herself not believing what she was saying, unable, however, to shift this burden onto him.

"What did she tell you?" He asked further, stepping closer to her, tense, his hands clenched into fists.

"She expressed her grief and sorrow for what her brother-husband did to us." She replied, thinking that telling him only part of the truth wasn't a lie after all.

All I hear is the sound of water.

"Never mind." He said, wanting to quickly change this uncomfortable topic.

"I have come to announce to you that summoning you to my chamber every day is tedious. I expect you to wait for me in my bed every evening." He said in an official tone, as if he had just presented her with some royal decree.

She smiled wearily and nodded, taking little Daemon's in her hands.

"Very well. I will take my friend back to his brothers and sisters and come to you." She said softly.

He hummed, pleased with her answer and left, leaving her alone.

She clenched her eyelids and burst into sobs as soon as the door to her chamber closed behind him.

He is not beside you.

All I hear is the sound of water.

So where will he be while she is caring for their child?

With his mistress in a hot bath?

She swallowed hard, looking down at her trembling hands, trying to calm herself, realising only now that Aegon's words had sunk into her heart like a thorn.

She preferred not to let him see her tears, so she cried until she calmed down – she recognised that prophecies and dreams, even if they contained a grain of truth, did not represent the full picture.

Surely there was something she could have done, she thought, trying to reassure herself, walking to his chamber in only her nightgown and a thin robe thrown over her shoulders.

Her husband was lying on his bed when she came in, holding a book on his thighs, which he was looking through curiously – he lifted his gaze to her when he heard her footsteps and hummed, his eye expressing gentle contentment.

"Come here." He murmured softly, drawing her to him by her hand when she was close enough, making her fall against his chest.

"– how is your little cunt? – did it rest properly today? –" He asked lightly, pulling the material of her nightgown up – he gently sunk his long fingers into her silky folds from the side of her buttocks, making her involuntarily smile with amusement.

"– yes – I am grateful to you for your understanding, husband –" She said softly, placing a warm, tender kiss on his cheek, while his other hand was stroking her back in lazy, slow motions.

"– mmm –" He said, spreading himself comfortably beside her as she lay on the soft bedding on her back, stroking his jaw with her knuckles.

He is not beside you.

She swallowed hard, feeling a squeeze in her throat, thinking that she cherished that face, those lips, those eyebrows, those cheekbones, that chin and nose.

"What are you thinking about?" He whispered, seeing that her thoughts had drifted far away.

She blinked, pressing her lips together, feeling warm tears begin to run down her cheeks one by one, his loud gasp told her he was surprised.

"– what's it? – look at me, ābrazȳrys – where are these tears coming from? – tell me –" He muttered with sincere worry, lifting her chin with his finger, as if he was afraid that something had happened that would make him suffer her rejection.

Could she have asked him about her?

Of course not.

He will be furious.

"I can't. It's a subject you certainly don't want to discuss with me or anyone else." She muttered wearily and heard him swallow hard, his hot breath enveloping her face.

He was silent for a long moment, as if hesitating, and then she heard him open his mouth.

"You are my wife. I allow you to ask me anything you wish. I know you will not deliberately offend me or cause me discomfort." He said slowly, his voice trembling slightly, betraying his anxiety.

She looked at him surprised, whooping with tears, meeting his concerned, sad gaze.

This was not what she had expected.

She licked her lower lip, dry with stress, wanting to find the right words, the right way to tell him what was bothering her and not discourage him at the same time.

"What Aegon said. Then. He was referring to a woman who was important to you. Who you trusted. Who you kept coming back to. I don't know what I expected, but hearing that you did the same things with her that you do with me hurt me. Maybe because you are my first. There was no one before you."

"And the servant boy?" He asked dryly, looking at her sternly, wrinkling his brow – although he looked as if he was frustrated, his fingers trailing down her neck and cheek softened his expression.

She blinked and shook her head, wondering what that had to do with anything.

"I was desperate. I wished for someone to make me feel good, to make me feel safe. After all, you know it – you were there. You gave it to me yourself." She whispered.

"And there you have your answer." He replied calmly.

They looked at each other in silence, just being and breathing.

You have your answer.

He was desperate.

He wanted to feel good.

To feel safe.

He had no one to turn to, no one to go to, so out of desperation he went back to the brothel, to the woman who gave him comfort, to forget, at least for a moment, what he was experiencing inside himself.

She nodded, accepting his words, and he sighed quietly, as if relieved, obviously afraid that she would try to continue the subject further.

His hand slid down to her warm cheek, wet with her tears, which he brushed away with his thumb. She felt a pleasant sensation in her heart as he leaned in, his forehead pressed against hers.

"– there's no point in dwelling on the past – not when there's a shared future ahead of us – yours and my fate – no one else's –" He whispered, as if he was telling her his secret, something he was ashamed of.

Yours and my fate.

No one else's.

Something in his words, in the way he said them, made her feel relieved. She smiled softly and he drew in a loud breath, looking at her for a moment, only to cup her face in his hands and sink his fleshy lips into hers in a hungry, aggressive kiss.

She moaned into his throat, clasping her fingers in his hair, teasing his mouth with hers with sweet sighs of delight, thinking of how much she adored his scent, his closeness, his touch.

"– hāedar –" He breathed out into her lips between the loud clicks of their saliva, as if he was saying the words of a prayer.

She let his hands tear off her nightgown, let his head lean down, let his lips clamp greedily on her puffy nipple, sucking on it with his loud grunt of pleasure, her fingers pressing his body against her breasts.

She sighed as his lips traveled higher, placing wet, sticky kisses on her collarbone, on the hollow of her neck, on her jaw.

"– I want you inside me –" She mumbled, and he broke his caress, throwing her a surprised look.

"– I exaggerated last night – I don't want to cause you pain –" He said uncertainly, stroking her hot cheek with his broad hand.

"– I want to feel you – just be gentle –" She said, throwing her arms around his neck, spreading her thighs in front of him without shame.

She was his wife after all.

No more encouragement was needed – his hands immediately slid down to his breeches, untying them, after a moment releasing his heavy, swollen erection that hit her lower abdomen.

"– come here – there you go – shhh – easy –" He whispered as he guided his long manhood to her slit and with a slow, lazy thrust he opened her on the head of his cock, pressing his forehead against hers, looking down at what he was doing to her.

"– sadly, this poor cunt won't get any rest tonight – mmm –" He gasped out as he gently slid all the way into her – she moaned, feeling her aching walls pulsing around his hard length with desire, thinking that all she wanted was to be one with him.

Don't go where I can't follow you, she thought, looking at his face, his misty gaze full of hot lust, feeling the soft, steady thrusts of his hips as he rooted into her with the quiet clicks of her wetness.

"– does it hurt? – I'll stop, just say a word –" He whispered, stroking her cheeks, her shoulders, the sides of her waist and her buttocks, as if he couldn't decide what was more dear to him.

He leaned over her as she shook her head and kissed her in a way from which her heart fluttered in her chest like a bird – his moist lips brushed hers in a wonderfully tender, sweet caress, his thumb stroking her silky cheek, holding her close.

She closed her eyes, concentrating only on that, on his scent, his loud, warm breath, his sighs, the fleshy structure of his full lips that melded with hers again and again, his hard, pulsing erection stretching her slick core.

"– my lips never touched hers – never caressed her down there –" He whispered into her mouth, making hot shiver run down her spine, her cunt giving his length one, greedy squeeze – they both groaned into each other's throats as he shyly quickened his pace, thrusting into her more confidently, hitting the sweet spot deep inside her fleshy walls.

"– then, in the library – it was my first kiss –" He breathed out with difficulty, slamming into her harder and harder, his hips bumping against her buttocks with loud slaps.

She sobbed into his throat as his full lips sunk into hers again, the loud clicking of their saliva all around them in the utter chaos of their tongues and teeth.

Then, in the library.

It was my first kiss.

"– don't leave me –" She mewled into his mouth, feeling the wonderful tension building in her lower abdomen, a pleasant, tickling sensation running through her nipples, her fingertips and her throbbing, leaking womanhood.

"– never –" He breathed out, pressing his lips against hers in a more violent, passionate kisses, matching his thrusts, rough and deep, evidence of his pure lust – his hand ran lower, between her thighs, his thumb finding her little bud, all swollen with desire, brushing it with circular strokes.

"– I love you –" She cried out, feeling that her peak was approaching, that she was about to experience the strongest fulfilment of her life – she heard him sigh in surprise, his cock throbbing hard inside her in response, pounding into her with sticky clicks of her moisture.

"– I love you – I love you – I love you –" She sobbed loudly, feeling tears run down the sides of her face, clasping her fingers over his soft buttocks – his gaze was hot and dark as he looked down at her, his mouth wide open in disbelief, his hips slamming into her as hard as if he had lost his mind.

"– me – me too – f-fuck, I love you too – ah –" He exhaled and gasped, feeling her warm cunt begin to clench on his cock in delight, sucking it inside, her sweet whimpers of pleasure making him just come with a loud grunt, all welted and sweaty just as she was.

"– good gods, hāedar –" He breathed out and fell on top of her, as if he didn't believe what they had just done and said.

And yet.

Her walls were sore all over, but the feeling of fulfilment she experienced now, when he was deep inside her, when she smelled his scent, when she heard his heavy breath, was irreplaceable.

He gave her neck a little, tentative kiss, panting hard along with her, his manhood throbbing softly deep inside her, filling her with the remains of his seed.

He wanted to slide out of her, but her hands clamped down on his buttocks.

"– no – not yet –" She mumbled, and he sighed as if relieved, with a gentle thrust sinking deep into her body again.

They lay like this in silence, just embracing each other and breathing, taking comfort from their closeness, from the warmth of their bodies.

She ran her fingers through his hair, stroking his back with her other hand and closed her eyes, wanting to remember this, this moment, them, together, happy.

I will always be by your side, she thought.

I will save you.

_____

Author's note: The dog she got from her husband is a Beagle. Aemond saw the servants carrying some puppies walking down the courtyard and, looking at one, thought "gods, he looks at me like my betrothed". He thought that she probably felt lonely in the Red Keep and perhaps she would be happy to have a companion.

[evergreen-endo]

CHERRY WAVES — J. TOGAME

"a gem cannot be polished without friction, nor a man perfected without trials."

cw: 18+ mdni. f! reader. porn without plot. not exactly dom/sub dynamics but reader does take control. reader is a bit of a cherry picker too, lol. a/n: pussy job with virgin togame, written with my clit. not a typical super subby, nervous virgin depiction; he’s pretty shameless! :P wc: 1.8k.

You’re already wet from the way Togame’s been slowly licking into your mouth for a painstakingly long time. He thought he had the upper hand pulling a soft moan from you when you first arrived; but the way you flipped the switch on him has him weak in the knees. 

He wasn’t expecting it from you— the way you push him back onto the bed to crawl on top of him, sitting right on top of his bulge. The barely-there grind of your hips as you lean down to kiss him again, soft lips trailing along his jawline and onto his neck. His pulse makes itself apparent, softly thrumming against your mouth as you smile at the thought of having such an effect on him.

Togame just can’t keep his hands off you, large palms trailing over your back and thighs, up to your shoulders and the base of your neck. He squeezes at your waist when your hips push harder into his, a needy little moan escaping him before he bites his own lip. The way you stare down at him, narrowed eyes searching his own– he knows you know by now. But he hopes and prays you won’t say anyth–

“Are you a virgin, Jo?”

He wishes it wasn’t so obvious, but his cock twitches as if to answer your question. He can’t bring himself to be embarrassed, either; not when your eyes light up like that. So he shrugs, and tilts his head, leaning back into the pillows, “Yeah. Gonna do something about it?”

You bite your lip to conceal a squeal before dipping down to nip at his earlobe. His sharp exhale tells you he likes that— though you don’t really need a reminder with the wet patch growing between the two of you. It makes you giggle, “I might.”

A valued treasure gleams beneath you, jewel toned eyes sparkling with want. He’s a precious gem all in your care, rare and rough around the edges. It’s charming when his breath hitches at the feel of your fingertips teasing his skin under the hem of his sweater. You move your mouth against his again to distract him, unaware of how his head spins at the overwhelm. Your palm picks up the soft ridges of his abdomen, the outer edges of a happy trail brushing against your thumb, and he shivers at your touch. Soft smacks of a slow kiss echo in your ears, interrupted by a huff and a barely contained groan as your fingers graze over his nipple. 

It’s so cute how hard he tries to regain focus, craning his neck up to make his mouth meet yours again. You let him back in, leisurely tracing your tongue along his before tweaking at his nipple, and tapping when you feel it perk up beneath your touch. His back arches, another sharp inhale, and a keen from the back of his throat. Pulling away, you catch a glimpse of his eyes rolling forward to meet yours. His expression is stony— cold and calloused despite the flush on his neck and heave of his chest. 

You wonder if you’re pushing your luck when you smile and lean forward again, inadvertently rolling your hips against him. His chin tilts up, expecting a kiss, but your thumb traces his lip instead, picking up traces of your mixed saliva. 

“Feeling needy, Jo?”

He doesn’t think he needs to answer that, but he does, with a tone much breathier than he intended, “Whose fault is that?”

“I didn’t make any promises, you know.” Another roll of your hips. It’s just too fun to watch him twitch in an effort to hide the effect you’re having on him.

“You don’t have to,” he assures, even as you can feel him throbbing between your legs. “This is…this is enough. Feels good.”

“Oh, is it?” You tease, easing up the hem of his sweatshirt until you can see the planes of his chest. You coo at the moles and freckles scattered about, pressing kisses to the ones within reach from where you sit. He watches you with lidded eyes and a slack jaw, a look you’re all too familiar with. Togame is too horny to think. Your lips latch around his nipple to make matters worse for him. A breathy groan falls from his lips, and his hips buck up in quick bursts before he steadies himself. You’re so charmed by his method of distracting himself, too— the way his large palm comes up to the crown of your head, petting you softly.

Your mouth trails along the expanse of his chest, flicking your tongue across his other nipple and using your free hand to tug at the fabric getting in your way. You murmur against his skin, “So you don’t want this off?” 

He chuckles, nervously, “I– I never said that–”

And you’re tugging it over his head in an instant. He lifts his arms so easy for you. You take your time taking him in; his fluffy black locks and his biceps that flex, straining not to rip your shirt off you as well. You don’t miss the way his fingertips twitch, though, so you take it upon yourself to fling your flimsy top across the room. 

Bringing his hand up to palm at your chest, you can’t help but tease again, “You can touch me too. Just, y’know, try not to cum in your pants.”

He tsks, “Hey, hey, c’mon. Easy now. Tch. Treating me like I’m some kind of…”

You tilt your head with a smarmy smile as he squeezes, losing his train of thought. “...Virgin? Who’s never touched tits before?”

He flushes, but he keeps his composure, “Never ones as pretty as these, no.” He brings his free hand up to palm at the other, squishing them together gently. As an afterthought, he adds, “And soft.”

You watch him with sparkling eyes, humming in consideration. “Maybe next time I’ll let you fuck them. For now, though,” you tug at the loose elastic waistband around his hips, “Let’s get these off too, yeah?”

Togame is frozen in place, staring through you, still processing the first words that came out of your mouth. His hips are nearly dead weight when you try to pull his pants off. You make the switch from saccharine to stern to get his attention, “Jo. Hips up. Come on.” 

He blinks, lifting his hips and helping you strip him down. All that’s left is your bottoms, which get discarded once you stand after trailing kisses down his thighs and calves. When you begin your ascension back to his lap, you tap curiously at the precum leaking from the tip of his dick. Togame feels dizzy being the object of your worship, and a playtoy all at once.

“So,” you start, tapping at his cock to watch it bob back up, “I’m feeling a little selfish.”

He pants, another droplet of pre stretching down onto his tummy, “You don’t say?”

It makes you giggle. “I’ll still make you feel good. I just don’t think you’re ready to be inside me. You need some polishing.” He has no idea what that means, and not enough available brain capacity to ask. Especially not when you dip your head down to lap up his mess, loose hairs tickling his abdomen. He shivers; you’ve got him at your mercy. 

His voice is strained when he speaks, trying his damndest to keep his composure, “I’m, uh, down for whatever. But hey— I don’t think I can wait much longer.” He tries to distract from the desperation in his voice with a chuckle, but it comes out forced, too.

You settle on top of him at that, listening to his breath stutter at the feeling of your wet warmth sliding ever so slightly against him. “Perfect. Neither can I.”

It’s not long after that the room is filled with wet squelches and heavy panting. He's hissing and muffling his grunts in your neck, curling his arm around your waist and pressing your sweat streaked bodies closer together. The rhythm of your rolling hips against him has him blabbering, “Hah– you’re so good, baby, fuck.” The praise sends shivers up your spine, and you whine as you pull yourself up onto your forearms to see his face. The sight has you clenching against him– his gorgeous eyes rolled back into his skull and bottom lip pressed between his teeth. When he feels your breath against his cheek, he sets his lidded, blurry gaze on you. He has to fight back a grunt under the intensity of your stare, but can’t bring himself to close his eyes. 

You manage to pant out, “You look good like this.”

He lets out a strained chuckle, “Look who’s talkin’.”

It’s all messy. Saliva smeared along both your cheeks, your slick coating his cock, steady streams of precum puddling in his happy trail. It’s when he struggles to kiss back that you know he’s close, hand tightening in your hair as he pants, breaths becoming more and more drawn out with every slick glide of your pussy against him. His eyes flutter closed, brows furrowing inwards as his jaw drops to let a loud groan escape. 

You talk him through it, low in his ear, “That’s it, Jo. Feels so good, I know. Gimme. Wanna see you.”

“Fuck.” He coats your own stomach and his with streams of pearly white, trembling and moaning wantonly. You even glide over his tip just to drag it along his cock, sticky between your folds.

Togame lays beneath you boneless and twitching, gasping for breath, sunken into the pillows. It’s a sweet sight; one you worked hard to see. You relish in it for a bit before speaking up, running a hand through his hair, “Doing okay?”

He cracks an eye open, nodding, mouth agape. If you squint, there’s a slight curve to the corners of his lips.

“Don’t you think I deserve a reward? For making you feel so good?” You know your words are going in one ear and out the other. He nods again, melting into your touch. It hurts your heart a bit to disturb his peace, but the ache in your core betrays you.

He jolts when you roll your hips again, eyes wide. “W–wait! Need a sec–”

“Shhh, shh. You’re okay.” You bite your lip as you drag your clit against his once again hardening cock, “Sit pretty and I’ll cum fast.” 

He’s a mess, twitching and whining from the overstimulation. Not a coherent word leaves his lips and all he sees is the back of his eyelids. It makes you smile— this is how you break him; smoothing down those rough edges to get him ready for the real thing.

A high pitched cry dies in his throat before he goes limp, and he cums again, rivulets of white streaming slow out of his tip. 

Sigh. He’s got a long way to go.

[sarahisslytherin]

duty and honor.

cregan stark x tyrell!reader

summary: it has been decided. you are to wed the young lord stark. you know little of him or the north but will do your duty. this, however, does not release you from your worry of how the union will go or how you will settle into your role as lady of winterfell. luckily, cregan takes it upon himself to make you feel at home.

contains: fluff, people rooting for a bedding ceremony.

a/n: i am so in love with this man i need to be restrained.

word count: 2k

The carriage rocked on the road to Winterfell, your ocean blue gown ruffling as it did. You tried your best to ignore the wild beat of your heart in your chest, tried focusing instead on the growing pines that passed your window with increasing speed. Your mother sat at your side, a stoic presence that soothed you somehow. You took her hand in your own, and when she looked at you you didn’t have it in you to mask your utter fear. 

“You will be alright, child.” she sighed, bringing that same hand up to cup your cheek. “Lord Stark is a good man. I know you will be far from all that you know, but surely you will grow to love your new home as well as your betrothed.”

When you finally came to a halt outside its gates, you felt your heart drop to your stomach. You clutched your mother’s hand like a frightened babe when they drew open. The courtyard was full of expectant faces you knew you would eventually commit to memory. The townspeople were out and about, young rosy-cheeked girls squealing with delight as they spotted your carriage. Their soon-to-be Lady was within it, and you could only hope when the time came that you would not fall short of their expectations. They watched keenly as you stopped before them one final time, and you prepared to be devoured by hungry, prying eyes. You tugged on the fur lining of your cloak as your mother stepped down from the carriage. You quickly followed suit.

Indeed, you could feel their glares cutting clean through you. You had known enough ladies and lords to know they were searching for faults and virtues to remark upon as soon as you were out of earshot, but there were so many faces you could not focus on a single one. 

Instead your gaze swiftly fell upon the mountain of a man that was the young Lord Stark. His chestnut locks fell in such a manner that they delicately framed a rather rugged face, on which a scowl seemed to be permanently etched. But this was to be expected. It was common knowledge that smiles were rare amongst Northmen. Though winter was still months away, he was already cloaked head to toe in furs, an uncommonly large sword strapped across the broad expanse of his back. 

“Lady Y/N, welcome to Winterfell.” he rasped, his voice quite gravelly and masculine for so young a man. You offered him a small curtsy in return, but couldn’t quite muster up the agreeable smile your mother had asked you to perfect on the way here. You tried your best not to gawk as you took in the ancient castle, trailing behind Lord Stark as he strode through Winterfell’s stony halls. The biting cold of the north left your bones as you approached the hearth in the Great Hall. 

You listened as your mother exchanged pleasantries with members of Lord Stark’s court, though your eyes did not leave the dancing flames and glowing embers.

“You’re a long way from Highgarden.” he said as he came to stand beside you. His accent was harsh, the vowels flat and words clipped, but you would be lying if you said you didn’t find it somewhat pleasant to your ear.

You turned to regard him. Gods, he was beautiful. The fire cast his features in a golden hue, the color returning to his cheeks. He was a sight to behold, powerful and perhaps even fearsome, but in this moment so soft. You wondered what your future with him would look like. Would he take a liking to you? Would he hate you? When you eventually gave him children, would they take after their mother or father? Would it be a life worth living?

“Yes, my Lord.” you sighed, rubbing your hands up and down your arms. “A long way indeed.”

The muted ivory of your gown made you appear one with the snow of the Godswood. Your hair was unbound, save for the intricate braiding around the crown of your head. Only the moon’s and torches’ light showed you the way to the weirwood tree. Your father swiftly came to your side, looping your arm in his. He offered you a gentle caress along your icy cheek, a solemn look about his face as if watching a spring rose being sacrificed to the unforgiving cold of winter. Wordlessly, you began to walk.

Despite the North’s fame for brutal winters and even more brutal people, you couldn’t help but marvel at the quiet beauty of the Godswood. So still was it, that you could have sworn you felt its ancientness in your bones, could feel every ring of age around each tree stump. Snowflakes danced on their way down, coming to land upon strands of your hair. It was then that you saw him before the weirwood, his lips drawn into a thin line. He was covered in dark furs and a cloak, his hands clasped behind his straightened back. 

“Who comes before the Old Gods this night?” The words were spoken by a family ward. 

“Y/N of the House Tyrell.” your father replied. “She comes here to be wed. A woman grown, trueborn and noble. She comes to beg the blessings of the Gods. Who comes to claim her?” 

You watched as Lord Stark approached, towering over you. You hoped you would grow accustomed to it, to him. You held your breath when he spoke. “Cregan of the House Stark, Lord of Winterfell and Warden of the North.” 

You dared to look up, to meet his gaze. You found nothing but gentleness in them. “Who gives her?” Your father spoke his name. And now the ward asked you the question. 

“Lady Y/N, will you take this man?”

You could feel the overbearing weight of watchful eyes, of held breaths and keen ears. But Cregan’s eyes hadn’t left yours, determined to hold your gaze. You could have sworn a flicker of joy shone in them when you gasped out. 

“I take this man.”

Cregan offered you a shy curl of his lips, then took your hands in his. You noted that they were far smaller in comparison to his weathered hands as he led you to the trunk of the weirwood tree. Its face provided you with some strange comfort. Perhaps the gods would heed your prayers. Perhaps they were watching over you as you both knelt before the trunk. Silence fell upon the Godswood as the wedding party prayed. No sooner had the moment passed that you and your now husband rose to your feet. Cregan’s large hands reached around you to gingerly remove your cloak, a golden Tyrell rose embroidered upon it by your mother. 

You shivered as the cold crept into your body, but were swiftly covered once again, this time in a Stark cloak, the wolf sigil stitched boldly enough for all to see. And just like that, it was done.

It was the first time you had seen him smile, truly smile, since you had arrived at Winterfell. From where you sat at his side on the dais, the entirety of the Great Hall stretched out before you. Jovial music filled the hall, and you watched the merry faces of Cregan’s men as they helped themselves to the wedding feast. Their chatter echoed on the stone walls, and for the first time since you had left Highgarden, you felt somewhat at home.

“Has Winterfell begun to grow on you, wife?” Cregan’s husky voice came from your left. When you turned to meet him he was wearing a boyish smirk. He was playing. You didn’t suspect the Wolf of the North had it in him.

“Well, it may be a while longer before that happens.” you sheepishly admitted, struggling to hold his intense gaze. “But I know I will come to love it.”

“Aye.” he said. “I know it will never be your true home, but I promise you I will do all in my power to make it the next best thing.” He placed his large hand atop your own, taking your palm and squeezing it gingerly. You were thankful for the gesture, and couldn’t ignore the flush of your cheeks that resulted from it.

“You’re timid.” he observed, only causing you further embarrassment. “It’s quite charming.”

“You may very well be the only person who finds it to be so. Even back home my soft temper has been known to irritate others. Most times people can barely hear me when I speak. I find it easier to keep to myself and observe.” you confessed. “I truly must grow a thicker skin if I am to survive amongst the wolves.”

“You won’t survive.” Cregan stated matter of factly. You whipped your head toward him with wide eyes at that, not prepared for what he would say next. “You will thrive.”

You felt your muscles loosen up once again, offering him an incredulous laugh.

“I am perfectly serious, my Lady.” he went on. “You will rule the North at my side.”

“I hardly think I am equipped to rule such an – unruly people, my Lord.” you tried to mask the nervous tremble of your hand as you brought your wine to your lips.

“Cregan.” he rasped. “Call me Cregan.” You nodded, eyes crinkling above a smile. He leaned in, as if he were about to tell you a most precious secret. “Sometimes all a beast truly needs is the touch of a gentle hand.” 

You backed away to meet his eyes. They held nothing but truth in them. Nothing but honor. But your moment was soon ended by the clamor of the wedding party. The men began to holler, whooping and howling in unison. “Time for the bedding!”

You had anticipated this, and you now braced yourself for the unpleasant experience of being hauled to a bed with Cregan. You had always known your first time would be like this, and though you loathed the idea, you could not alter tradition. It was a surprise to you when Cregan rose from his chair, planting his large hands on the dinner table before he spoke.

“I am sorry to disappoint you, but there will be no bedding ceremony tonight.” he bellowed out through the hall in a voice so commanding it was an effort not to shrink in his presence. “And I won’t hear any complaints about it. It’s too lovely an occasion to taint with a brawl.”

The men did their best to mask their disappointed groans as they returned to their dinner. You weren’t quite sure what had prompted Cregan to make such a decision. Did he not like you the way you had hoped? Perhaps he thought you fit to rule by him, to be a figurehead, but not someone he could ever desire in earnest. He must have read the emotions as they crossed your face, because he quickly took his seat beside you again. 

“Are you well, my Lady?” he asked. You merely nodded in response. He gently took your chin between his thumb and forefinger, forcing your gaze towards his. “When you wish it to happen it will be just the two of us, husband and wife. No prying eyes or ears.”

Warmth bloomed in your heart at the words. It was as if he had quieted the growing storm in your mind with only the touch of a hand. A gentle hand.

“You are a man of honor, Cregan.” you said resolutely.

He only smiled in return as he brought you in closer, finally pressing his lips to yours. The touch sent sparks down your spine. It was in that moment you knew that spark would soon fan into a flame a thousand northern winds could not snuff out.

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You believe me like a god (I destroy you like I am) - VII

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Jacaerys Velaryon x reader

TW: Self-hatred/Implied Self Harm. Complicated family relations. The reader is a Targtower.

Chapter Seven: Trust in me, I will rise (Through the fire, in the sky)

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Jacaerys had been ignoring you. Of that, you were sure.

The last you had seen him in many days had been when he’d caught a glimpse of your conduct with Reynford. You could only imagine what he must have thought the ordeal to be.  He’d watched you gather your skirts and escort yourself out of the throne room, unable to bear the sight of his mild indifference, refusing to meet your gaze after that tense exchange you’d shared.  Your distress had made you unaware of just how much his eyes were burning holes into you with an intensity so unacquainted by a man whom a woman would share but a mere friendship with. 

His chest constricted at the sight of your back facing him. His whole body tensed, each muscle ripe with anxiousness, each nerve tingling and screaming for him to follow you as his mind, ever the voice of reason, told him to keep his composure in place at the sight of the many eyes cast on him — to grab your arm, urge you in his arms, demand an answer. But his feet were rooted in one spot as if chained by iron fetters.

The desire to call out your name, to beg you to stay, burned alive on his lips like molten fire, but he swallowed whatever want and need his heart ignited with, his pride refusing to give in.

You didn't see him that night; he did not join you for supper as he would, which didn’t make the weight of your conversation with Lord Reynford any lighter on your soul. Nor did he come the night after, the one after that or the one following. 

It seemed like he was purposely avoiding you, and for your own sake, you did not wish to cross your path with his. You did not know if you could face whatever confrontation you would get from him if he wished to finally speak to you. 

Spending the days keeping to yourself was something you were all too good at. The familiarity of loneliness, ever a willing companion to you and your thoughts, filled the emptiness that Jacaerys’ absence brought. Weeks passed by, and the routine of isolation settled in like an old friend, so familiar and willingly welcomed. 

Whenever you went for a walk, the halls felt emptier - or maybe the silence was just louder as your steps rebounded around the stony walls, the rustle of your skirts lingering like leaves swept away to make space for a new season.

Jacaerys, your shadow, had been nowhere and everywhere all at once. His absence was a constant weight, an ever-present reminder of something missing. But you could feel it, sense it, almost touch his presence trailing after you when your back was turned in his direction. You could spy him with the end of your eye, trailing after you, following you, but never approaching, keeping his distance. He was ever the trail haunting your steps, always nearby, like a weight on your shoulders. You wished he would approach you, but you knew he would not do such a thing. 

The pride of men, fickle and always bigger than their body can handle, bargain, swallow down. 

It hurt to admit that you yearned for him, to have him back…in your life, your thoughts, in your days and your nights. 

‘Come back to me, please.’ Tears as hot and infinite as the mellow nights cascaded your cheeks, framing them with the trail left behind, so cold and dark, if not for the glow of the candle to keep you company. 

Words only in thoughts and never in body, as you howled them in your mind not as a woman sane of her mind but as a beast, a wretched, savage animal of yearning, asking for a taste, for one last meal. 

“If I’ve hurt you, hurt me back! Hit me, scream at me! But do not ignore me; I cannot bear it! Anything but your indifference. Be with me always. If you do not wish to speak, then you won’t. Hold me in your arms, and then there’ll be no need for words. Caress me. Comfort me, and I will never ask for anything else. Haunt me! My thoughts, my sleep, my dreams. Take any form! Drive me mad! Only do not leave me in this abyss empty of your presence. Of your love, of your affection!”

But only silence stood the test of time to respond to your pleas. Abandoned in body, the cold of the room, of the sheets of your bed picked at your soft skin like a cruel reminder of the loneliness surrounding you. You lay there, tears streaming down your face. Your body ached for his touch, his presence. Your mind was like a storm, swirling with thoughts and feelings that you couldn't control, that you could not allow yourself to feel, that you should not allow your heart to clench for.

For his warm presence, for his reassuring words. For the way, his mere presence seemed to bring comfort and security, like a strong stone wall. The time you two spent together was like a soothing balm to your itching soul, and without thinking, without noticing, without meaning for it to, he made you happy.  A happiness you buried along the remnants of your past self, the twitching butterflies it brought with itself and the buzzing coming alive in the depths of the crevices which made your body — the same as the one he ignited in you. 

You had grown so accustomed to the feeling, yet you were so unaware of it. It had become a part of you, and without it, you realised the loss of the comfort you wished to never part from. You had long forgotten being comfortable with anything at all, and yet Jacaerys subtly, quietly, and unknowingly brought it out in you—so suddenly, so unwarrantedly, and oh so gently.

His absence felt like a phantom limb. Every conversation seemed dull, every moment less colourful, and the days grew gloomy as your spirits dimmed and the season changed. 

You couldn't turn a blind eye to the feeling of emptiness, not when it swallowed you whole. His character, so gentlemanly for a boy of twenty years of age, so modest and mature. His attention, even to the little things others might turn an eye to, when he could never turn his eye from you, taking you in each time as if he was seeing you for the first in many. His jokes, his charisma, and his demeanour made for a perfect and worthy heir for the iron throne, and you couldn’t be happier that one day he would be the one you would bow to as King.  You could not think of a more perfect fit to be a leader of men, with a just head on his shoulder and a mind as advanced as his. Your brothers had always looked the part they were raised to fit, arrogant and envious beings by nature, except Daeron, who, growing amidst the gentile of the Reach, was southward in character and the fancies of many girls. 

Boyish but with an elegance seldom worn by man. Intelligent, with a nick for excelling at anything to which he put his mind. A great knight and a skilled strategist, it was thanks to him that Rhaenyra was able to gain the upper hand in the war and gain King’s Landing, for you had heard much later, when the castle’s siege had ended, that it was him that had planned for the plot that led to the fall of King’s Landing alongside his grandsire. 

You knew of his exploits and his courage, but they paled in comparison to who he truly was, to the version of him you knew so intimately. He was kind and gentle, with a maturity that was surprising for his age.

One could not ask for a more reliable and capable heir to the throne.  But above all, he was a good man. And you loved him.

Love. 

Oh, love. How had you become so foolish as to dream of things like love? Reynford was right. Who could you fool?   Love is a fool's game, you thought, a dangerous game to play. You had been hurt enough, why must you destroy yourself?

Your hand is cold,  like the waves violently crushing upon the shore through a storm, Mine burns like fire,  Molten and as dangerous as dragon fire, How blind are you?

You wanted to scream, to shout, to shake him. How could he not see it, how could he be so blind to your pain, your love, your suffering?!

Your heart is like the moon, Silent, distant, and cold. Mine is like the sun, Burning, passionate, and intense.

The days seemed longer, and the nights infinite. The thought of him consumed you - his warm smile, the comforting weight of his gaze, the way he would reach to take your hand, hold it into his, the warmth of his skin engulfing you whole, warming you from within.

You are like the sea, Constant, predictable, and steady. I am like a storm. Unsettling, unpredictable, and destructive. Can you not feel it? The way my heart beats like thunder for you.

To the surprise of no one, you quickly fell back into your old habits. You had spiralled again, but then again, had you ever recovered enough to consider yourself cured? Or was it just a momentary distraction? When Jacaerys was around, it looked as if everything would be well. Beside him, you felt you could transcend between the wordly and otherwordly.

But not with your vices. 

They suited you like a well-fitting glove, and it is well-known that old habits die hard.  Refusing meals, picking at your nails, going mute for long periods, and spending days locked in your rooms were natural to you, like a second nature you regressed into. 

You are like a clear night sky, Calm, peaceful, and tranquil. I am like a raging wildfire. Passionate, consuming, and consuming. Can you not sense it? The way my soul aches for you.

No one took notice of your absence; was it by simple lack of care or the prolonged antecedence you made a habit of - the former the likely. But the old habits of isolation and neglect came back like they never left, leaving you weak and drained of energy. Your appearance came to show your detriment: more brittle in body with dark circles adorning your eyes as a result of your severe lack of sleep.

You had worked so hard to restore what little left there had been of what joined you two. Dreaming of days when the war never happened, where he never left to live on Dragonstone, when times were easier, and you two were never apart. I’d been difficult; anyone would have thought so, after all, the loss you two shared was not easy to overcome. He’d lost his brother, his grandmother and the man he viewed as a father, not to mention two before him too. And you, you had lost your whole family. 

Sometimes, you believed that grief could not be overcome. It’s like the ocean. It’s quiet, unattended, calm as still water. And then, it crushes you; it comes down like a great wave and all of a sudden, you’re back in that room, and you’re watching your sister throw herself from her window, your brother drinks himself to death, and your mother dies quietly in a pool of her own sweet and delusions. You’re brought news of your brothers’ demise in battle, and you’re all alone, having to take care of your niece who has forgotten her mother, your beloved sister, and who sees you as her own.  The world you knew, burned to ash by the fire of dragons, one where he walked beside you — that inconceivable, unbelievable, long-gone world where you two could sit under the shade of the weird wood tree with his head on your lap as you read to him the histories of the books he loved so much. You always read because he always asked. He loved your voice that much. The world where you flew the confines of the sky on your dragons, side by side, racing the other from Dragonstone and back to see who would reach it the fastest. 

You teased his lots back then, making jabs at how you’ll get there first because of Silverwing’s mightiness in comparison to Vermax’s lithe size. 

Not so little the green-scaled dragon anymore. Still nowhere near the size of your dear old girl.

With every visit since he moved to Dragonstone, he never failed to show everyone the difference between him and your brother. He was courteous, despite the lack of warmth, always treating the members of your family, who in due never gave back. 

But you’d always been a different matter. As his mother busied herself with the matters that had long gone unattended by her lack of presence in King’s Landing, Jacaerys spent long hours in your company, enthralling you with tales of his days spent in your family’s ancestral seat and with each visit, he never failed to bring you forth gifts.

Pearls harboured in the ship racks of Driftmark and laboured by the hands of his grandsire’s servants, twisted and elaborated in necklaces, earrings, rings and hair ornaments.   Books for you to read to him, always handed with that begging glint in his eye whenever you opened the box they’d be carefully placed in. Poems were your favourites, especially when read by his lips —  he dined with you, hawked with you, which you were far less capable than a squire in, sailed with you, entertained you in hushed whispers your ears were blessed with by making mock of the animosity between your families and your brothers’ fury at his attention for you. 

You are like the day, Warm, reassuring, and bright. I am like the night, Dark, lonely, and mysterious. How can you resist me? When my love for you is as vast as the sky.

Upon one of the last visits his family paid yours with, he’d gifted you your most prized possession. The seven-pointed star necklace you seldom forget to wear. His mother had always been open to remind him that while at home, he was free to worship the gods he so wished to pay his prayers to, but every Targaryen, if willing to serve the Seven Kingdoms, must answer to their gods.  You’d always been a tenant for him to look for when thinking of the seven-faced god. No lesson, no prayer, no visit to the sept, could ignite in him religion the way you did. Myth personified, that’s what he’d turned you into — but how could he not when you looked so sacrilegious before the gods? The maiden herself, purity, love and beauty personified. He’d woven since a young age that the moment he could compete in a tourney, he’d make you his queen of love and beauty. 

It was clear he was fond of you, and yet he was always the gentleman. Always so well-behaved and polite, especially knowing how much your family disliked him.

His thoughtful gesture had touched your heart, and you’d worn that necklace ever since, feeling its comforting weight around your neck. It was a constant reminder of the bond you shared, of the love you knew the gods could not approve. But he was too good, too chivalrous and honourable, to ever consider breaking his vows or making you a sinner, he could never stain your honour with his…bastardy. And so you watched him continue his affection for you, day after day, grew more and more distant.

Until it was long gone.  The war had destroyed it all. Broken the bond you had forged together, leaving you lost and alone without him. The memory of the past was both a comfort and a heartbreak as you reminisced about what could never be yours again. 

You are like the earth, Safe, nurturing, and grounded. I am like the wind, Free, untamed, and unyielding. How can you forget me? When my body aches for nothing except the touch of your skin.

Afraid of the hit your condition had taken, your maids grew concerned that you would collapse any minute. They arranged for one of them to keep by your side, a constant, a step or two behind yours.  Alone, in a castle as big as this, everybody seemed to ignore you and your plight, but alas, your maids and lady servants were there to keep you the company you so lacked. 

In your wavering emotional state, you noticed that there was a particular girl who fretted over you more than the others ever did. She seemed to take your troubles as her own, wanting to make it all better for you. She pushed the hardest for you to eat your meals, tucked you always in the warmest sheets, and brought you that sweet milk cream you were fond of.  But you had never told her your fondness for the dessert… 

She is small, maybe young or just short for her age. You tower over her, even if slightly. Slim, pretty, with sandy hair. Maybe Dornish? If so, a stony for sure. Little fingers, some scrawny and some scarred, and a nibbled pinky. 

You’d asked her name one evening as she placed the tray with your meal on the table. It caught her off guard, but she had let out a somewhat hearable ‘Nyssella’ in response.

Why do you close your eyes to me? When the sight of your gaze leaves me weak.

How much must you have aged in just three years? No longer a girl, you were but a flowered woman. But perhaps you had never been a girl; your girlhood’s never been yours.  The moment it bloomed, flowered, flourished, it was wrung out like death out of you by people willing to use it for their own, like your mother and grandsire. You had been anything but a girl, never receiving the privilege of being one.  Always a woman, sacrificial, dutiful, mindful, understanding. The one your mother relied on the most because you understood, you always did. But you didn’t, you never understood, you just did as you were told to do; you did the right thing. You never questioned, you never inquired, spoke up or rebutted; you just listened and followed, and you were loved and appreciated for it. 

And you loved to be loved. Oh, yes, you did. 

And they took. And they took. And they took. 

You lived for the attention of others, for their approval and appreciation. But how much of yourself had you lost in your quest for their love? How much of who you were had been sacrificed in the name of duty?

Helaena. Helaena she loved most, but she was not perfect. She was not you. 

You and Helena, raised as Targaryen princesses, expected to follow certain social cues and unspoken rules that she had difficulty picking up upon.

Helaena, allowed to forsake duty in preference to spend her time with her children and her dragon, where she’d been herself above Princess Helaena of all else, not having to put on a mask and play a part because you did it for her. 

Helaena, seen frequently on Dreamfyre, Queen Rhaena's mount before it was hers, the smallfolk recognising the pale blue scales of the creature above, associating her with the nostalgia of the prosperous reign of the Old King, while you were chastised for riding Silverwing and taking away from your duties. 

Your mother and grandsire expected you to be the perfect princess, while Helaena was allowed to be herself.

“You see your sister, don’t you? She might be older than you, but she’s the gentleness of our line.” Your mother had chided you one night as she deftly braided your hair before bed.  “You and your brothers must always take great care of her”

The words cut deeply now, as you remembered her soft, gentle nature and how you had failed to protect her.

The memory of Helaena was bittersweet.

A Targaryen’s softer side, as children, you would care for her, as your mother had instructed.  She never liked the touch of the maids, so you’d always been the one that braided her hair. You could never forget the softness of silver mane when you would brush it for her. But now, all that remained was the poignancy of knowing that you had failed her. You had not been able to protect her, as your mother had asked. And so, every memory you had of her was tarnished, like a once beautiful object now broken and useless.

You had always been the one to fulfil your duties, to put others before yourself. But who was left for you? Who was there to care for you, to love you, truly and deeply?

Humble and loyal had been your motto, not chosen by you. No, your mother had, as she had for all of you, and you had lived by yours faithfully. Loyal to your family. To your House, to your blood, to the ideals you have inherited, to those you follow and will die for. 

Humble and penitent is what you have become. Rhaenyra demanded so.  She had demanded penance from you for the sins of your brother, the usurper, that of your family, and you had given it, humbling yourself before her wrath, become the embodiment of humility and penance, at her command.

Not yet a corpse, not yet a human, and rot clogged at your insides, trapped in a state of being, somewhere between life and death, as if your very existence was a limbo.

A limbo someone was particularly interested in pulling you from.

If Jacaerys had been ignoring you, Reynford was more than happy to leave abide his dues to pay his due diligence to you.  Filling into your steps was his. Where you went, he followed. Where your eyes landed, his were there to catch them.  Ser Rickard’s white cloak always acted as a means to shield you from unwanted attention and straying eyes, but when without Ser Rickard’s presence you could only hope to turn to the gods for protecting from that which taunted you so. 

You had allowed this to happen. If there was someone to blame, it would be yourself. But you had a feeling he carried something you’d want to hear, and you were willing to face the darkness that scared you so.

It was one dark afternoon. By then, it had been raining for days — a part of you hoped the sky took pity on you and shed the tears you’d been left dry of, but you knew the most likely answer was that the weather was letting on its last efforts before the air would fill with pollen and the warmth of the sun.

The rain pitter-pattered outside of your room, and the wind clashed and banged against the cold surface of your window, which seemed on its last strength in holding the storm brewing outside from seeping your bones.  You sat in front of the fireplace in your room, the floor a comfort you could afford in the lack of leisure you lived by.  The flame of the fire beamed high, the wood burning within overturned by one of your maids each time the flame dimmed ever so little. Its kiss warmed the skin of your cheeks, clashing with the cold the stone of the room kept inside of it, sending shivers at the change of temperature surging through your body. At times, you held your hand too close for your maids’ liking, one of them often coming to pull you away in fear of you possibly doing something as reckless as letting your hand go through the flames. 

Fools, the whole of them. Targaryens do not fear fire. If it engulfed you whole, you would embrace it like an old friend. 

I am the blood of the dragon; I must not fear. It is something you often tell yourself in moments of great tribulation. 

As you fiddled with the seven prayer beads of the faith, murmuring hymns of prayer you were taught since you were a babe by your mother, who used to lull you to sleep with them, a copy of 'The Book of the Mother’, once belonging to her, worn and with annotations written on the side of the illuminated manuscript, laying wide open on the front panels of your skirts as servants moved about the room, tidying it and cleaning it out, you decided to show no fear when the stony dornish girl entered the room, bowed and announced the presence of the visitor's beyond the door.

"Lord Reynford Redwyne, princess".

Your heart skipped a beat at the sound of his name. The prayer you’d been humming is left dying on your lips, the beads hanging in your hands as you turned from the hearth to look at the door, sensing even from it that Reynford meant business — but so did you. 

“Let him in.”

He came strutting through the door in a great hurry, dressed in the grandeur of the name only his house could afford. Silence followed his sudden and untoward presence in a space he looked so unfamiliar in. So out of place, he looked, but so did you when you’d first moved to this room too. 

You turned to your servants, each with their heads bowed in respect. You tightened your lips before letting out a cold ” Leave us.” 

One by one, each of them swiftly dispersed, leaving you alone with the man. He stopped short of a breath, bypassing the servants exiting, stopping Nyssella of all, handing her a velvety pouch, whispering something in her ear, the same way he did with you, and you only wished to slash his face open with the knife sitting at the table not far from you the sight churning at your insides. 

You might have, were you not a lady above all else. And a lady’s courtesy demanded you’d be agreeable. 

Closing the door behind her, she left you two to wallow in the unbecoming silence of the room.  As he approached, the only sound reverbing in the room was his footfalls, chains, and belts chiming with each step.

His eyes stormed over your form until they stopped at your hands, bloody and raw, clutching and turning over and over the beads.

“Forgive me, my lord, but I do not think that I am an ample conversation partner today" you murmured, your eyes stuck to the flickering flames of the fire before you. An effort to keep your sanity.  He suppressed the pang of disappointment that tugged at his chest. You did not even deign him with a look; surely, it hit his pride. 

His brows furrowed ever so slightly, his lips tightening over a straight line, the cracking of his knuckles like chalk on a board, straining your ears and driving you mad.

"I can see that," he said, his eyes moving to the table beside him, where a couple of plates filled with food he could only presume to have been your lunch remained untouched, surely left by the servants in case you grew hungry over time, which he argued would not happen.

"And what's causing this, if I may ask?" His hand reached for a wooden toy dragon delicately painted in a grey coat. His fingers traced the part where the paint had come undone, chipping against its surface. The toy looked new; surely It could not be because of the wear of time.

”I’ve been told you have not left your room today or the day before?” He sighed “Or any of the passing days. How long have you locked yourself in here? Weeks? I expected to hear from you…”

“Forgive me, I could not find the strength”, you were able to muster in subtle annoyance, voice low and rough as if you had consumed it all. His brow raised at the notion of you possibly having lost it in a screaming fit. He left the toy on the table, taking a few great steps to your still form on the floor, clutching his hand behind his back.  “Why is that?” “He’s been ignoring me…” you breathed, a sharp intake that looked almost painful “I fear he’s mad at me.”

You needn’t need speak the name of the man causing you such pain, for Reynford was already aware of this predicament that had befallen you. Of course, he had, how could he not after a little altercation he’d had with the prince not much earlier? That, he would not tell. It was a tale for another time.

But as to not raise any alarm in you, especially not in this state, for he worried you could not come to handle such revelation, he played along.

“He hasn’t been speaking to you, I take it?”  "Not a word.” you whispered "He evades me.Turns his back on me so as not to cross my path. My very presence draws him away” Your hand trembled with each word you spoke, the beads in your hand along with your scarred and maimed flesh.  “And you’ve come to your conclusions as to why?”  “You know very well why” you scoff, voice dripping with dry sarcasm ”Us two. He saw us talking that day in the throne room. He...might have misunderstood, but he won't let me explain” Your voice trembled with pain, exasperation and urgency. Your teeth gritted, each set grinding on the other.

He furrowed his brows, his eyes fixed on you. So that was it.

 "He saw us," he repeated, his voice quiet as if contemplating some big discovery. A moment of silence passed, filled only with the sound of the fire crackling. He let out a sigh, his jaw clenching. "My fault, I suppose, I wasn't exactly subtle, was I?" he asked, a small smile entertaining his words "The young prince is quick to assume, is he not? Ah, the rush of youth pooling through him. So young and so eager to prove himself. In all the wrong ways one supposes.”

He chuckled softly, shaking his head slightly in a mix of amusement and resignation.

”You know him. All rash and urgency. Headstrong and impulsive. He takes after his late step-father, the Prince Daemon,” his lips curled up in the ghost of a bemused smirk ", and that is no surprise, not really. I've always assumed he was turning too much like him, too stubborn and reckless and proud. Perhaps a bit too impulsive for his good", he muttered, the smile on his lips fading "It won't do him well in the future” a beat, then “unless he has the right person beside him to calm that temper of his.”

His eyes flickered over to you, studying you for every little reaction you could have had to your words, the way you held yourself, the way you fiddled with the beads in your hands. 

"I know what you're thinking..." you said "We got to have it out, I think. Perhaps I already knew" 

You stood from the ground, closing the book, marking the page you were on with the beads. You walked to place it on the table, before regarding him with a sharp inbreathed. 

”Your plan. The one you've been plotting all along — the one you approached me with falsehoods about”

He smiled at your words, your perceptive nature a sight to behold. He pushed himself away from the table, pacing a few steps down and back before stopping, arms folded behind his back. 

"You have me figured out, I fear," he said, his voice low, “That’s good. We’re free to speak openly about this, then. Always been sharper than you let on. I have your mother to thank for that.” "But that's what you like about me, no?" you spat coldly, “The untouched, perfect piece you can mould to your liking to win this battle of chess you alone are playing. The pawn that’ll guarantee you unquestioned victory.” You gritted your teeth further, feeling your sharp canines ache with the effort “Because who could have ever thought of the traitor’s sister?”

His grin is almost wicked, and his eyes darken in a way you’d never seen before, but what scares you most is how collective he looks despite all.

"You do me a disservice.” He chuckles lowly “You’re far more than just a pawn, princess. You're a force to be reckoned with. A queen.” his gaze flickered down to the seven-pointed star of your necklace. "One could misgive your words for treason", you teased, your own show of strength coming forward. “and where would your plan go from there? I'm sure you'll find a way to evade death even then” "You give me too much credit.” he moved closer, closing the space between you, his shadow enveloping your form "I wouldn't get caught now, would I?” “You’ll be too sly for that.” “You know me well,” he muses, “but you don’t see beyond the surface.” "What is there that I don't see?" You snarled, "Enlight me, will you?”

Your question was a challenge, a taunt, an invitation to speak as freely as a man of his station could. No riddles or ominous words would be spoken no more.

He reached a hand to graze your hair, free of the confines of braids, twists, or hairnets, petting it down.  ”You are so much like your mother in a certain light", he whispered "You're right, I am using you, but I'm also protecting you since I was unable to protect her.” he said "Your mother's cause did not die with her. I harbour it still. As the last of her line, I will make sure I see her plans to the end. That is the only way I can keep you safe.”

The intensity of his words sent shivers down your spine, but the gentle pull of your hand lingering about your flowy locks lulled you into a quiet state. The scepticism and curiosity staring back at him, which pooled your eyes, all but made him smile in that hard-lined way of his.  “You question me I can see,” he said “I do not blame you, I did come too forward our last time. I must have frightened you. Forgive me, it was not my intent, I did not think you so easily impressed.” 

The words you wished to spit back at him died in your mouth. He had rendered you speechless, stumbling on a well, a damn that had broken.

"You're not like your brothers", he murmured, pausing for a moment to watch the way the fire flickered in your eyes, "You're not like your father.”

You didn't know when your eyes began to water, the sting of the tears gathering in your eyes burned your irises unfocus, his last words allowing one singular tear free of the confines kept in, Hot and wet, it rippled on your skin like the waves of the sea. He whipped it away with the pad of his thumb, no indifference to the lack of restrain you’d just let his eyes fester upon. 

"Your mother tested her hand in a path forged by a fire, not of her own making, but by that of dragons, creatures far beyond her understanding. She met the fate the gods saw fit for her to fall into," he sighed defeatedly "With her gone and all her children except you, one would think there would be no one around to fight for her blood to run for the throne” His hand receded from your cheek to grasp your chin, lifting it gently, his gaze boring into your eyes, his expression intense and determined, his fingers gentle yet firm.

"Yet, here you are, the last of your mother's lineage, still alive and fighting to continue her cause," he said, his voice low and urgent. "others whisper that we should advance your niece Jaehaera, but alas, I cannot put a child on the throne" he shrugged “nor can I hold the throne for a child that does nothing but play with her dolls and weep at the first occurrence she’s bid to do what she does not want to do.” 

Sensing your displeasure at the way he talked about Jaehaera, he bowed his head in a show of submission “Forgive the phrasing, I did not mean to offend the little princess.”  Offence seemed to be the last thing he ever wanted to do. And yet he always managed to offend. His hand slid down from your chin to your jaw, his thumb trailing along your face, his gaze never leaving yours, still intense and unwavering.

"And so you are the only one left," he said in a soft whisper.

The fire crackled in the background, providing the only other sound besides the soft thump of your heartbeat in your ears. His words weighed heavy in the air, and you could feel the intensity of his gaze on you.

“How do you mean to give me a throne?” You echo his sentiment for once, and for a moment you become two bodies sharing one heart.  “The only way I can,” his tone grows serious “, the only way you can.” You gulped down a hard knot as realisation crushed down before you.  "Jacaerys..." you whispered. You shook your head. Wretching in mild violence against his grip. “I could never use him in such a way-“ "It is not an act of selfishness, princess," he said, his voice taking on a hard, commanding edge as his eyes bore into yours. "It is self-preservation. I know how you love the boy. No matter how you deny so. Wouldn't you want him to be yours? His queen beside the throne he sits on?” His thumb gently traced your lower lip, a tender yet almost possessive gesture. “And in return, I'll give you what I promised. Security, power. A throne" he smirked “freedom.”

Your eyes were wide, your pulse palpitating in a way it never had, your breath was laboured, your chest heaving in and out.  "He doesn't love me" you whispered, the words slipping out before you could stop them. “You fool.” his whole demeanour changed completely. Gone was the tenderness as he now shook his head mockingly.  “Of course he does. Open your eyes, will you? Everyone knows of his affection for you. A prisoner treated the way you are? Who do you think you have to thank for that? Rhaenyra? Were it up to your damned sister, you’d be in a motherhouse, singing hymns and praising the gods”  "But why-" you whispered, your words cut off abruptly as he seized your face in a sudden, almost harsh manner. Fingers dig into your cheeks, forcing you to look at him, a mixture of desperation and irritation radiating from his gaze as he leaned closer. "Do not play ignorant with me now, princess," he breathed right on your face, "You are far more intelligent than that, and I have no time to indulge in childish games of pretence.” Your face contorted in fury "Let go of me!.” "No," he replied with the same fury blazing through his eyes "Not until you speak truthfully to me. You're no fool; I know you see it. I know you do. You know he loves you. You’re scared of what that means. He is everything and you're nothing. Why would the heir to the iron throne ever love a traitor's sister, huh?” His words stung, and you felt yourself bristle at the insult to your pride. He was right, and both you and he knew it. You were a prisoner, the sister of a traitor, a victim of your family's actions.

What right did you have to claim the love of the future king?

“Stop” you pleaded weakly, gripping his arm. "I will not" he raised his tone "if you want me to, command me then. Tell me to step aside. Show me you’re the only woman in the seven kingdoms worthy of his love.”

 The audacity he had to even suggest such a thing, to challenge your very being. You wanted to tell him off, rip at his face in anger as you told him to leave you be, to forget about all his machinations and schemes. The other part, though, the deeper part that he knew so well, felt a pang of desire in your core.

“You are cruel”  you whispered, your voice quivering with an anger that mingled with a strange sense of arousal. “I am pragmatic.”

Those words made you lose all rationality. With the last bit of your strength, you pushed away from him, parting the both of you. You both stumbled to regain your footing, the push that strong.  Surprise etched his face, but not for long, replaced with a smirk. He knew he had gotten to you, and he revelled in it.

“You will never do that again” you whispered dangerously.  He stopped midstep, swallowing his curse, regaining his breath, smiling in the most genuine way you had ever seen him do, “Blood of my blood. I see you now.” He took another step toward you, his smirk never faltering as he watched your expression "I must've really upset you", he mused, his tone almost nonchalant. "but I can see now that I'm speaking to the real you.” His words hit you like a punch to the gut. You bristled at the implication that he knew you better than you knew yourself, even though deep down, you knew he was right. 

Damn him. He had a way of getting under your skin. Of unravelling you, layer by layer until nothing but the clay you’d been shaped you were left exposed.

You tried to regain your bearing, even if but little. "Tell me," you said, or moreso ordered, "Tell me the whole you've been planning until now” “I’ve thought much and more about where the complexities of this web I’ve been weaving begin and where they end” he mused “I know you will not like what I will speak of, but there is no other way we clear the path ahead unless you make peace with Rhaenyra.”

His eyes searched yours even as you forced them not to roll all the way into the back of your head and stay in place. 

"It's the only way, I'm afraid," he said, his voice soft and almost gentle "You have to be on good terms with her" he added "At least pretend to be, for the sake of appearances and favour.”

You shook your head annoyingly, your feet pacing you around the room as you considered his words. 

“Don’t do that,” he grumbled authoritatively. "I need you to listen.” “Am I not?” you argued dismissively.  “No, you’re not. You have to play along," he insisted. ”She will invite you for supper tonight. Word has spread of your…’ condition’, and perhaps she has wisely realised that before she puts a warrant for your death, you’ll kill yourself by your own designs, and she can’t have that, can she? Not unless she wishes to make an enemy of Old Town. Tonight, you’ll go, put the front a pained, sad, loving little sister and when the time is right, you'll make your case”

His instructions are clear, and his intentions ever clearer.

“You’d expect me to throw myself at her feet for mercy? Haven’t I begged enough?” you asked him incredulously, disbelief evident in your expression. "Is that all I'm to be? A meek supplicant, begging for scraps from the table of the enemy?”

“Yes!” he dragged his words, his exasperation with you coming to a tilt. “A tragic figure who has lost everything and needs nothing more than the benevolence of the enemy — because that’s what you are! Sometimes, even the bravest among us must bend the knee before we can rise once more. Rhaenyra may be a Queen. But she’s a mother, a sister, a woman before Queen. She has a woman’s parts and all the squeamishness reserved for her sex. She’ll have no choice but to listen to you.”

You bit down on your tongue to avoid snapping at him, the bitter taste of defeat and surrender filling your mouth. You knew he was right, in his twisted, pragmatic way. Sometimes, the only way to survive was to surrender, to play the part of the submissive, defeated fool, you had learned as much.

His words rang true. You needed her.

The journey to Rhaenyra’s apartment is excruciatingly long. Reynford had proved right, and just before you usually took your meals, Rhaenyra’s lady-in-waiting, Elinda Massey had come to call on you. 

The steps of the grand staircase that connected the king’s apartment, the queen’s apartment, and the upper floor’s Tower of the Hand each seem to last longer than the other, and with one you take a hundred more appear for you to take.  The dragon sconces hanging on the walls are alight with fire. The night is as dark as its darkest hours, with crickets singing their songs, The air is light but heavy with the smell of musk the rain left behind.  You’re announced by Ser Lorent, and let it by his holding of the door open for you. 

You must look a mess, but so had Reynford instructed you to. You had neither washed nor changed into clothes befitting an audience with the Queen. All so you could play the part. You usually spent your afternoons draped over your bed, sometimes sleeping, sometimes just resting, and without your indulged time, you were left cranky and twitchy like a ferret.

“No bath. No change of gown. Go as you are.”

A large rectangular space with soaring ceilings, the king’s quarters were divided into a reception area, a study, and a sleeping quarter. Manly, masculine, and tall, big architecture, as befits a king. But it’s not a King that occupies such space. It’s a Queen, your sister, in the place your father, your brother before her once filled with their presence.  With the tail of your eye, you spy the elaborately carved bed decorated with sumptuous bedding. It’s where you last saw your father before he passed, convulsed by his illness, lost to the milk of the puppy, as you dabbed his forehead of the perspiring he was waning of.  It’s where you last told Aegon goodbye as he indulged in a cup of red Arbour wine instead of his medicine. As the roars of dragons resounded in the capital, bats of heavy wings announcing their arrival.

The same cup you used to serve him the poison that killed him, just as Rhaenyra’s guards burst into the castle. The same poison the cup was filled that you made sure was found in Lary’s possessions. 

A gentle death for a cruel soul. You’d rather have him die as a rat than have his head mounted on the spikes of the walls of the Keep. It was your first and last gift to him. He’d drank it, you’d turned to place it back on the tray, and the second you returned to him, he was gone, blood dripping out of his mouth and nose, his eyes wide but empty of life as he stared at you.  You closed his eyes and kissed his forehead.  Your last goodbye to him as you felt the sounds of heavy footsteps and shouts of the guards looking for him.  But Larys arrived before them, ready to infiltrate your brother out of the capital as he had with Jaehaera and Maelor months earlier. You screamed, cried and pointed your finger accusingly at the man who had killed your brother, who, in turn, claimed false the claims he’d been accused of as he was carried and thrown to a cell to await his judgment. A vial was found in his room, carefully planted by his squire, which you had paid off, that’d landed his head on the chopping board for betraying the King he’d sworn fealty to. 

Tears of Lys, maester Gerardys had declared, as judgment was laid on Clubfoot. 

Rhaenyra is dressed in a crimson gown, less elaborate than the one she wears for appearance's sake. Her long silver hair falls loosely about her shoulders, an image of effortless grace and regality even at her age.  She stands out against the opulent surroundings of your father’s former apartments, her presence filling the room with a sense of command.  She turns when she hears you enter, a slight frown appearing on her face as she takes in your dishevelled appearance. But her expression quickly softens into something like pity as she sees the weary, listless state you are in.

"You're trembling", she murmured gently, but it was a cold sound. Her voice breaks you from your reverie, pulling you back to the present. “Take a seat,” she orders, gesturing to a plush armchair close to hers.

Your steps heavy and weary as you comply. Your body sank into the soft fabric of the chair, a tired sound pulled from your lips. Rhaenyra watches you with an appraising gaze, her expression unreadable. A servant nearby appears with a goblet of crimson liquid and offers it to you before it's quickly dismissive by a flick of Rhaenyra’s wrist. 

The air in the room is heavy, charged with tension as you fiddle with the cup in your hands. She studies you, you can see, as you sip the honeyd mixture, letting the sharpness of the wine slide down your throat and into your belly. Her gaze never wavering. When she speaks, her voice is soft and measured but, alas, calculating. 

"You look unwell,” she observes, her gaze roaming over your dishevelled appearance. “I have not been myself as of late.” She hums, a sound so soft for the hardened person she had become, a hint of something, concern perhaps, flashing through her eyes. She leans forward slightly, her gaze locked on you. "Is it grief?" she asked. The question so sudden. A whisper so impactful.  ”it never leaves", you gulped down another sip ", but I must carry on.” “Yes, you must," she agrees understandingly, her voice quiet but with a hint of steel. She leans back in her chair, her gaze fixed on you as she continues, "We must do. But not like this.”

Pity. You realised. Concern, too, but pity was what she regarded you with. A glimpse of something akin to a kindred pain, a shared burden she knew all too well herself.

A daughter, a son, a mother figure, a husband. You realised Rhaenyra knew well the pain of losing family.  The pain of loss, of grief, of solitude is, unfortunately, a shared burden. Rhaenyra spoke softly, a hint of shared experience in her voice,  “I know the pain of losing love”.

And the pain of replacing them. When Daemon died in the battle above the Gods eye, Rhaenyra had been urged and later forced to take on a third husband. The first ruling Queen to sit on the throne after a civil war that resulted in so many losses could not allow herself to go without following the expectations put before her.  Rhaenyra had four sons, three under her yolk at the time, to inherit after her, but a woman ruling without a man by her side would simply not do so. 

Her council had chosen for her Qoren Martell. The same Qoren you had heard tales of your father considering wedding her to in her youth as a way of bringing Dorne into the realm. Now aged and rule hardened, Qoren had been less than pleased to broker marriage talk with the Targaryens. You remembered the letter he sent back to your grandsire when first approached with favours, wishes and prosperous promises in return for his support and that of Dorne in the war.

 He had written back a single yet very telling note.

“Dorne has danced with dragons before. I would sooner sleep with scorpions.”

But Qoren did not seem to have a problem sleeping with a dragon if it meant making him the King Consort of the Seven Kingdoms. 

The marriage had happened the moment Rhaenyra lay victorious. With no more brothers to rise against her, she could finally sit the throne unchallenged. They made for a handsome couple. The ceremony is said to have rivalled the Golden Wedding of King Jaehaerys and Queen Alysanne. All the splendour insisted by Rhaenyra herself, who believed a show extravagance might quench the hunger people had for more than just food. Dorne covered half the cost, with the crown's coffer still laying empty of a quarter of its last strength. But it could not masquerade that neither wished to be part of this grotesque misalliance. 

Dorne had once and for all joined the Seven Kingdoms, a feat no Conqueror had been capable of. But, at last, your sister, a woman and the first queen in her own right, had accomplished it simply by offering her bed to a Martell.  Except for the fact that Qoren could be found anywhere but in Rhaenyra’s bed. Everyone knows of his share of lovers and paramours he keeps busy with. He relishes in the privileges his position offers without so much as putting the effort in it. You were glad he was a somewhat decent parental figure and loyal to a fault. Otherwise, you worried Jacaerys would have taken Qoren's head himself for his indiscretions towards his mother. 

Rhaenyra may turn her eye to her husband’s transgressions, but you know of the whispers behind her back that it is a sign of her terrible lack of taste in decision-making. Qoren had flowered the court with a mix of foreign flavours alongside the many Dornish noblemen and ladies that flocked to court in favour of the new Consort.  But alas, the dornish traditions he and the others embezzled around did not go well with some of the courtiers who grew the seed of dissent through the man and blamed it on Rhaenyra.

You could not disagree with the fact that Qoren looked like the better prospect for your sister. Sure, Corlys had pushed for one of his own Velaryon relatives, but Rhaenyra had digressed on the basis that: “You’re a loyal servant, Corlys. But a Queen does not marry her servant’s subjects. Only her own.”

Enraged at the dismissal and the umpteenth time at being passed over for the throne, Corlys retreated back to his seat at High Tide, rebuilt after the Battle of the Gullet with the scraps left behind. He did not attend the wedding and only returned to court at the urging of his nephew, Jacaerys, who had brokered peace between his mother and grandfather once again.   One would think that with such a show of displeasure, Corlys had been the one turned down as a possible suitor. Not a nephew or cousin of his.

Qoren brought wealth, steel and the costumes of his house, which Rhaenyra needed. Many men would ruffle their feathers at being sidelined to the regards of a Consort — but not Qoren. His son and daughter, Qyle and Coryanne Martell, had made the journey to the capital with him while his eldest daughter and heir, Aliandra, remained at Sunspear to overlook her father’s seat. 

It wasn’t to dismiss also that Qoren proved worthy of the union the very moment he joined hands with Rhaenyra —by finding her lost son, Viserys, believed to have died in the Battle of the Gullet. It was the combined efforts of Qoren, his son-in-law, Drazenko Rogare and the aid of the legitimized Velaryon heir, Alyn Velaryon, that the gods shined their light of luck upon Rhaenyra, who, after two years of being believed to be lost at sea, reunited with her little prince, fallen into the hands of the Rogares by the sheer luck of merchants selling him about. 

The Rogares had not proved easy to negotiate with. Lysaro was as hard-headed as his brother Drazenko has warned. He wished for his daughter Larra to be wedded to Viserys. Rhaenyra vehemently refused and threatened Lysaro that if he did not abide by his tenure, he would soon meet the same fate as those who dared rise against her.  Lysaro was not convinced, but only when Drazenko advised his brother to lay his pride unless he wished to see his keep burned, he begrudgingly relented, and an agreement was formed.

Viserys would be returned on the condition that when he came of age, he would marry the daughter of Aliandra and Drazenko, the four-year-old Alyssandra, making him the future prince consort of Dorne. 

And so it was decided. A huge ransom was paid to the merchant princes of Lys, all by Qoren’s coffers, and Viserys was brought to the shores of Westeros once again. 

The boy had grown, that was certain. A strappy, lean lad of ten, no more the green and scared eight-year-old his brother Aegon had last seen. The two brothers reunited in a great show of affection, and Viserys’ return did much to lessen Aegon’s loneliness and guilt. Aegon worships his two, once three, elder brothers —  but it's Viserys with whom he shares his bed-chamber, his lessons, and his games.  Nowadays, he seldom part from him still, as if afraid to lose him once more. You saw it him in, at times, when watching him as he played with Jaehaera. The same guilt you shared. A boy still, but such wrath to never truly forgive himself for leaving Viserys to his fate when he fled the Gay Abandon on dragon back before the Battle of the Gullet.

You twisted the cup in your hand before taking another great sip. She watches you as you do so, the way your fingers grip the glass tightly, almost as if you were grounding yourself in the present moment, her eyes trailing from your hands to your lips and meeting your eyes.

“The grief is hard to shake, but it’s the loss of purpose that truly gnaws at you” Your fingers grip the glass tightly, as a means to ground yourself in the present moment. "I have no greater purpose now than being at your mercy", you murmur "Long are the forgotten days of plots and exploits at the end of my mother and grandsire. Gone as they are. I hope you know that.”

Rhaenyra regards you with a knowing look, her eyes searching you for any signs of falsehood.  “I do know, and I must say, the change in your disposition is a welcomed one. I've always known that you were all victims at the hands of your mother's ambitions. Led astray by the counsel of evil men.”

Your teeth dig into the flesh of your tongue to not let an unkind or any kind of word come out. Anger boils at you. The fragility of your frame shakes in the same manner one might as in a state of great distress. 

"You don't have to put on such a performance," her lips tilt, but it’s more sneer than smile. As if she has already been shown a show such as this one. ”There’s no one you need to impress. You may speak freely.”

But instead, you push on. Past your quarrels. Past your judgment, your anger, and your fear in a show of courage. Or rather theatric. 

"Your grace, I beg you to listen to me." you stand, and the cup is placed on the table, soon to be long forgotten as you come to stand before her "I've been selfish. Naive. And I've wronged you.” 

There’s a tremor in your voice, so well placed that even you believe yourself. 

“I’ve neglected my duties. In my confinement, I’ve allowed myself to fall into my vices. But illness is no excuse. The gods know so, and they command of me to take on the greatest duty of all. Serve you.”

Your knees let you down in a harsh fall by her feet. Your knees scream in pain, but you make no show of it. Your hands slither up her skirts to fist at the silks.  “I know you must have been told. You must have heard. You must have been whispered to ill-meant words of my character. My intentions. My will. But I’m here to show you that none of it is truth. False. I will declare so before the gods.” 

Tears, pools of rippling water, burned down your cheeks like acid. Like the one coming up your troath.

“I offer myself to you, sister. I’m yours, yours alone. I bid you to do with me as you wish, but if, god willing, you have it in you to show mercy upon me, I beg you to find in you the love you once had for me.”

You watch as the cold indignity she regarded you with slipped from her face, her eyes warming in the same way they did many years ago.  She places her hand softly upon your head, her touch gentle and almost motherly. 

"Enough," she commands, her voice barely above a whisper. "You are my own blood. I will not have you begging like a beggar. You've asked for my forgiveness, and I shall take you back into my heart. Whatever else has become of you, you remain the blood of the dragon and my sister, whom I love.” 

Rhaenyra’s fingers gently thread like rippling water through your hair, her touch tender and comforting. "All is forgiven now.”

Her words are tender, but they strike a deep chord within you, the raw emotion and the relief of them overwhelming. 

Tears stream down your face. You’re not sure if as falsely as before. Your breath catches in your throat as you press your forehead down on her knee. She reaches for you, her hands gently pulling you up and back onto your feet. She stands, towering over you as she always has, her presence powerful. "Come, take your place at my side," she says softly, her hand coming softly to your chin, tilting your face up towards hers.

She cups your cheeks with her hands. The many rings adorning her fingers cool the warmth of your tear-strained face. She pushed the hair away from your face, letting it frame it as she tugged the front behind your ears. 

"There you are" she smiled, a rare sight from her. She keeps a firm grip on your chin, her thumb gently rubbing at the tears on your cheeks. "Look at you," she said. "You're a mess.” She tuts at you the way she would a child, gently tilting it this way and that, studying your every bit of your features. "You need a bath, some proper clothes, and a good night's sleep," she says with a great sigh. "You look like you haven't eaten in days. I can't have that if you're to be one of my ladies.” “Ladies?” You stutter out the word in feign confusion. You know better. 

"Yes, ladies", she replied, "If you're going to be by my side, you'll need proper gowns. No more of these dreary dark drapes you insist on wearing. You’ll have a seamstress to dress you. You'll eat proper meals and be taken care of. No more wearing yourself to the bone, my dear. You'll have proper bedchambers and proper companions to dine and gossip with. As all ladies in waiting do.” Her thumb moves to gently trace the line of your lower lip, her gaze still fixed on your face. "No more of this," she murmured, her tone more serious now. "You won’t waste away like this any longer. I won’t allow it. I have Jacaerys telling me off all the time about it enough.”

“He does?” You lose your voice, and your lungs are without breath. Your intentions are lost, your purpose wavering. Your belly comes alive with the dance of butterflies you don’t remember having swollen. And all of a sudden, you’re hungry. Hungry to know more, to hear more, be told more. 

“He speaks often of his concern for you. He’s been…rather insistent on your wellbeing. It’s all I hear every time I talk to him. It’s what got me worried as well. Why I called for you tonight. I can see his concern was in good faith. I’ll have to thank him for that. And I don't doubt for a second that he won't be glad to see you in good health and spirits again. Though, I don’t suppose I could take all the praise for it, can I? He surprises me more each day, that one.”

‘He thinks of me’ Your heart feels light; it skips a beat, catching your breath violently, and you feel so foolish for having thought he spared none of his for you. Then, perhaps, he's not been ignoring you because he's mad at you. 

If that were to be the case, then that means he’s…

Oh, Jacaerys…

“He cares for you, you know. Deeply,” Rhaenyra rumbles on, unaware of your inner turmoil and the revelation you had just come to. “He has never forgotten the childhood you two shared. I know he thinks fondly of him. In a kinder light than that of any other person, perhaps more than I myself. You were a good influence.” 

She jests, but you can see there’s something dangerous that lingers when talking of the closeness between you and her son. 

It is then you push your luck.

A tentative step, and you’re in her arms, engulfing her whole, holding into her tightly. You close your eyes shut as you await her response to the embrace.  She’s caught off her.  You feel her tense. Her muscles tighten at the suddenness of it all. She wraps her own arms around you, holding you close against her chest, her chin resting lightly atop your head. Her chest moves steadily with each breath — in and out, out and in — the rhythm almost lulling you into a state of comfort. Rhaenyra has not allowed herself to soften the rough steel she has turned her skin into in many a year.

Rhaenyra is rage. She’s overwhelming and maddening grief. She is the anger and the frenzy that drives a hand capable of hurting those near to you. She is the sadness in betrayal and the love in nostalgia. She will keep bleeding until there is no more to be given until everyone around her is completely and irreparably stained. she is the hope of a child whose trust has not yet been taken and the mistrust after a heart is broken. 

Helaena was the coming home and being trusted with the deep, painful feeling of nostalgia running deep inside your veins without really knowing why. Dreaming of days old gone, wishing to have them back, knowing the impossibility of such a thing, letting it be your demise. 

And you. You’re forever trying to cleanse your hands over the guilt that consumes you. But the red never leaves. Doomed to spend your life trying to scratch your way out of your body

Three sisters, now two. Rhaenyra is all you have. 

Guilt washes at you, as it always does. You know it well. It closes your troath and clouds your mind. You’ve felt it before, and you know you’ll feel it tomorrow, and the day after, and the day after that. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, until the end of your days. But now, you’d rather let it consume you whole than let yourself be drowned in it.  The gods as your only witness. 

As you leave her room, the night is deep. The keep haunted by the silence brought by the sleep of its inhabitants. The guards standing at her door do not watch you leave, but you know they’re aware of your every movement. The air bites at the skin of your neck and turns your fingers a hot red as you make the journey back down the great staircase. With a jolt of your step, you’re on the ground floor. On your right is the entrance hall that will lead you to your room. On your left…is the throne room.

The iron door is heavy as you push it. Old as it is, its hinges sing as it opens.

It’s dark. No torch is lit and no guard is there to watch you your indiscretion. The sound of your feet and the rustle of your skirts fill the empty chamber in all its vastness as you walk down the cavernous stone hall. The eyes of the statues of Kings of Old followed your steps, but you dared not meet their gaze of judgment. No, your eyes were on one thing only. 

The towering, barbed, iron throne.

Doubt seized you. You stared up at it, standing before its steps.  You take on the first, the second, the third and fourth, climbing at them before you loom over the chair. Your hand reaches for the pommel of one of the swords sticking out of the melted armrest. Gently in fear of nicking yourself as your father had.  The steel is cold and harsh. You feel its myrrh on your tongue, its taste filling your mouth.  It's monstrous. All pikes, jagged edges and twisted metal from hundred melted, beaten, broken blades of surrendered enemies. 

It’s ugly — but so is power. 

“A king should never sit easy”, and you do not. The iron beneath pushes through your clothes to your skin until it settles deep within your bones. It hurts, it’s a struggle to find ease with each shuffle of your bottom. One wrong move, and you’re dead.

It killed Maegor. Wrists slashed, and a spike through the troath, the singers say. But you understand it. The allure, the weight of a thousand lives that live the chair. The memory of every man who has sat it before you and paid the cost in blood, violence, heartbreak, pain. The Iron Throne. The most dangerous seat in the world. A seat of power, the beacon and crucible of the whole realm.  A test of will, a challenge to be endured. You sit on it now, your back straight, your head held high and you see the challenges ahead. But could you reign? It’s one thing to sit on it; ruling is another. 

The hall around is empty of life, but you dream of it filled with courtiers, noblemen and noblewomen, peasants and gentry alike, all looking up at you, a scene straight out of your childhood. The finery, the dresses, cloaks, jewels and silks glimmering in the light, staring up at you with curiosity and awe as you did when you were just a girl. The bells of the sept ring in the distance, and the dragons roar as one, the same they did when Criston Cole placed the steel and ruby crown on your brother's brow. Most stared in silence, confused and wary, at the unnatural woman sitting before them, in the centre of it all, like a lone flower standing in a field of grass caught unawares between your past and present. 

We’re all just specks under this big, powerful dome. Grains of salt in this endless desert. We exist only that much. Some truths will be revealed only after time, and some will be forgotten. 

Forgetting is freedom.

Otherwise, the tongue you speak with and the earth you walk on will not let you go.  Just, when did you see yourself superior to all beings the Gods have created? When did pride dominate you, which at night will not let you sleep, and like a storm in the sea rages through my heart and soul? Who recognised you as better than other people and liked you? The day you raised your head, the seed fell in you.

The seed of pride.

If you’re the moon, If you’re the moonlight, he’s your source. He is your sun.  He knows you better than everyone else and loves you most.  He planted the pride in your heart and soul. 

It was the seed that awakened the dragon.   It started wars lasting years and a dynasty like none the world had ever seen before. But, like the dragon’s destiny to lose, just as he himself led to his fall, You, too, feed the seed of pride to prepare your end. 

For every life has a day of judgment. Everyone’s death has a unique colour, and yours shall be dictated by your designs alone.

There are moments when one turns away from mercy to achieve victory. To survive.  Whatever happens, stay alive.  Because this world is for cruel people, not for the valiant.  If you’re not like them,  If you’re not cruel, they won’t let you live. 

Be purified of your fears. Fear evokes evil and hatred. When the time comes, be courageous.  Only with courage, you will get what you deserve. Everyone gets what they want.  What happens in the future will happen because you deserve it.

You wanted it. You knew then. It was a want driven from the deepest, darkest parts of you. You wanted it more than you’d ever wanted anything. No guilt carries your thoughts. Your mother had not felt guilt when she took the throne, and even until the last of her days, she never confessed to any. Why shall you, then?

No one is going to save you. Might as well save yourself. 

May the gods forgive you. And if they don’t, they’ll understand. Will they not? The gods forgive but do not forget, but they, most of all, understand.  But there are no gods here. There are only monsters. A hunger so deprived, as sharp as a dragonglass, that watered your mouth and made your belly rumble in famish.

Humble and loyal be damned. Hidden and patient, that shall be your motto.

You break into a smile. A triumphant, proud smile that evokes all the wrong intentions, knowing that tonight you’d won your first victory.

The throne is yours.

It’s sharp blades and cold edges are now a part of you; they have marked you forever. In you sits the power to rule, the ability to bend the will of men, the right to command armies and wield dragons.

You wish to rule? So you shall. 

You will rule.

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[kiame-sama]

Tender Love and Care- (Yandere!Miguel x sick!reader)

Warnings; reader is bed bound by illness, helplessness, obsessive miguel, mention of kidnapping, yandere behavior, yandere tendencies, lovesick yandere, semi-soft miguel, scolding, confusion, fever, mention of death, possessive behavior, slight objectification,

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"Reckless and stupid, that's all it was! Do you not understand how stupid it was? Truly? You could have caused the multiverse to completely collapse!"

Miguel hissed as he paced in front of the three most recent spider-people to let him down. He thought that they would be able to handle a simple mission, but it was clear that he put far too much faith in those standing before him. Keeping the multiverse from collapsing was no easy feat, but so far it seemed like Miguel was the only one holding things together.

"But, Sir, the parameters of the mission were to deal with the anomalies."

"And did you deal with them? No! Ay, madre de Dios, now Noir and Spider-punk have to deal with the extras you all missed. If I have to step in again on another botched mission-"

The soft sound of coughing made Miguel fall silent, his head turning to the door at the back of his office where his most treasured possession lay. A soft whimper and croaking noise made his brow furrow in worry. The other spider-people standing at attention exchanged a look of confusion before his attention snapped back to them.

"Do better next time or there won't be a next time. Dismissed."

He held his stony demeanor for a moment longer as they shuffled out of his office with their heads bowed low, red eyes trailing the group with precision. The coughing sound came again, this time closer than before. Low ragged breaths were being gasped down as the raspy sound of labored lungs fought to inflate.

"Miguel..?"

"(Y/n)," the dark haired man turned on his heel and approached the now open back door, "you should be in bed resting."

Despite their sallow and sunken features, he still found his dearest to be the most beautiful person he had ever seen. It didn't matter how many universes he had to look through before he found them again, he was going to keep this version alive. Of course, the constant canon events were trying rather hard to take them away, but he wouldn't let that happen.

The current problem was a rather debilitating illness that wracked the body and lungs of his beloved, leaving them gasping for every breath. Each cough struck his heart with pain as Miguel heard the following whimpers that came with any fit. If he could only lift away the illness that plagued his dearest, he would happily do so. However, all he could do for them at this point was keep them comfortable and hope their immune system could fight off the worst of the virus they were plagued with.

"Come on, you need your rest."

They didn't argue or fight against his gentle touch as he herded them back towards the large bed in the room. Though the room had once been for Miguel alone, it was now less sparsely decorated and seemed to have a bit more life to it thanks to the new life he felt he received from his darling. Miguel was careful to keep an eye out for any sign of stumbling or struggling so he could catch his darling before they had a chance to fall.

As their foot caught on the corner of a carpet, he quickly caught them in his arms. He may not have the spider sense like many others did, but he was no less observant of his surroundings. His muscled arms were hardened after years of training and fighting, so lifting his darling the rest of the way into the bed was an easy task for Miguel.

The other spider people knew Miguel had someone in his room, though they didn't know the true origin of how that person came to reside in the room. Not that Miguel would tell them, but he had scoured the many universes for any incarnation of his beloved and only found them after months of searching. They were laying in bed, rendered helpless by the pandemic illness that consumed that universe. He couldn't just leave them laying there without any help or defense.

His universe had already mostly eradicated the virus in question, so he knew they would be better off with him instead of in their dying universe riddled with the aggressive virus. Sure, he hadn't exactly asked if he could take them away, but in their delirium they weren't exactly able to deny thier savior anyway.

Once he got them back to his home, he endeavored to keep them safe and sequestered until the virus passed. Lyla was both supportive and judgemental of Miguel taking and keeping his beloved from their universe, she also knew how it would destroy Miguel to lose them again. She brushed off any questions the other spider-people asked her and simply said Miguel was allowed to keep his personal life away from his work life.

"Miguel..."

The hoarse whine of his dearest drew him back to the present as he finished tucking them into bed, resting a cool cloth over their forehead. They rest their cheek against his hand, nuzzling into his touch affectionately as they stared up at him with a kind of feverish delusion. He let the small smile tug at the corner of his lips as he stared lovingly at his darling.

"Rest, I'll wake you up later with food, alright?"

"M'kay..."

"Te amo, (y/n)."

[damneddamsy]

second sight | cregan stark x oc (part ix)

a/n: on today's episode of Stark angst-fluff, it's all bloodshed and swords. And death.

The gates of Winterfell groaned open, a shadow yawning into the night, and Cregan felt the cold settle through him in a way that wasn’t simply the midnight air. Beneath his calm, the rage lay coiled, ancient and fierce, thrumming with the need to strike. He could feel it stirring, a force under his skin that he’d kept at bay for too long.

Tonight, the reckoning had come, and his enemy came as he’d least expected: alone, at the gates, a twisted mockery of honour that demanded restraint when every instinct demanded blood. His grip on Ice was steady, yet his mind roiled, fixed only on Sylas—the man who had touched what was his, hurt what was his, and now dared to stand in the shadow of Winterfell, the home Cregan had vowed to protect, alone and smirking in the night.

“So,” Sylas called out, his voice echoing mockingly across the courtyard. “The wolf king. Winter itself.”

No allies, no horses, no men. Just one man and the scent of fresh blood dripping from the carcass he’d brought like some cruel gift. The insult seethed in Cregan’s mind. It was more than a challenge; it was a mockery, a claim that Sylas the Grim feared no man, not even the King of the North.

Cregan’s expression remained stony, but his eyes narrowed, catching every sneer and glint of derision. Sylas was baiting him, testing for cracks in his stoicism. But a wolf doesn’t bare its teeth to bark; it saves them for the kill.

“You’ve brought breakfast?” Cregan asked, his voice sharp, restrained. His gaze flicked to the mangled reindeer, its blood staining Sylas’s shoulder and leaving a dark trail in the snow. “Thought you came with more ambitious intentions than a mere dead hart.”

Sylas’s grin widened, yellow teeth bared in something almost akin to amusement. “A civil gift, my king. I don’t need an army. Just a seat by the fire, and the wolf to see to it.”

Cregan crossed his arms. “My hearth is for allies and friends,” he said with an edge to his words. “My guest’s seat isn’t set aside for those threatening the Lady of Winterfell.”

Sylas laughed, the sound coarse and feral, resonating with the ancient and untamed. He glanced over the quiet battlements, then back to Cregan, as if taking in the walls that had withstood centuries.

“Aye, your pretty princess. Talked you up, she did. She seemed sure you were no ordinary man.” Sylas shook his head in mock disappointment. “I expected a king, maybe even a monster. And here you are, just a boy, wrapped in fur.”

A ferocity flickered in Cregan’s eyes, but his voice was calm, tempered. “And you came here alone, claiming a guest’s right?” His lips curved slightly, coldly. “Bold, for a man who sought to break the North.”

“Bold?” Sylas echoed, a dark gleam in his eyes as he stepped closer. “More like knowing what I want. I want the North, boy. And then more...”

He let his words hang, his eyes glinting with unspoken challenge.

The blood in Cregan’s veins pulsed his hand itching for Ice’s hilt. But he held still. He came alone, Cregan reminded himself. Honour bound him to the rules of hospitality, however, twisted they felt tonight.

“Well,” Cregan replied coolly, though the anger simmered like a fire under his words. “You've come bearing meat and hollow promises, but if it’s fire you seek, you’ll find it. As for the rest...” His lips curled in a threat. “When the last bone on that deer has been picked clean, I’ll feed you to my direwolves—meat and all.”

The wildling smirked, shifting the dead weight on his shoulder with a shrug. He took a step forward, the weight of his insolence heavier than any army.

“Good. I’ll take that fire.”

X

Cregan watched Sylas with thinly veiled disgust, his jaw tense as the wildling devoured his meal like a starved animal. Sylas tore the meat with his bare hands, juices dripping down his fingers and settling in his beard, where bits of bread and meat clung, smeared carelessly as he bit into the next piece. Each tear, each wet, ripping sound only served to deepen Cregan's revulsion.

This was the man who’d claimed he wanted to take his wife, the one who would lord over his people and his legacy? The wildling seemed a filthy joke of a threat, and yet, here he was.

As if summoned by some inner protest to this vulgar display, the oak door whined open, and Claere entered. She was freshly bathed, her silver hair gleaming in crowning braids, her dragon-riding leathers perfectly pressed—a deliberate contrast to the wildling seated like a beast across from Cregan.

He stiffened, irritation rising as he caught sight of her. It was mere hours past the hour of the wolf, she waltzed in like it was the first light of the morn. He had to make sure her violet eyes held consciousness, that this was not her on another one of her sleep-walking rituals.

He’d told so many to keep her away if she woke, to make excuses or detours, anything to spare her from this savage again. Yet here she was, gliding in as if she were the queen he knew her to be, composed and unnervingly calm. She stepped forward, her gaze briefly assessing Sylas before she met Cregan’s eyes.

She bent down and kissed him—a light press of her lips on his, murmuring, "Good morrow, husband."

That kiss arrested him, a public display she rarely indulged in. Usually, it was he who initiated, who sought the reassurance of her touch. Now, she was sending a message—to him, to Sylas.

Cregan's gaze darkened as Claere settled beside him, her calm demeanor a direct contrast to the storm brewing within him.

“Claere, love,” he murmured lowly, leaning toward her, his voice tight with a warning. “This is no place—”

She cut him off with a light smile, reaching over. “The bread, please? I’m famished from last night.”

The casualness of it jarred him, yet he passed her a slice with reluctant, guarded hands. She spread it with honey, added a thin layer of cheese, and bit into it. Her movements were practiced, graceful—the kind of elegance that felt all the more pointed in the presence of the feral man across from them.

A stillness fell over the room as Claere’s gaze lifted, settling unflinchingly on Sylas. His smirk froze, and for a moment, he seemed to falter, something almost indiscernible slipping behind his eyes as he took her in. The hungry glint in his stare intensified, though his smirk started to die under her silent, unwavering regard. She merely took another bite of bread, the faintest smile tugging at her lips as she chewed, deliberate as it was unbothered.

“Lord Sylas,” she spoke at last, her voice smooth, lilting with a quiet steel. She wiped the edge of her mouth with a thumb. “Come to draw first blood?”

Sylas’s grin returned, wider this time but edged with something darker. “I’d draw the dress off you if I could, little queen.”

Cregan's hand slammed against the table, plates clattering, as his eyes hardened. His voice came in a low, fierce growl. “Filthy cunt—”

Claere’s soft laugh, muffled behind her hand, slipped into the silence. She let it settle before dropping her hand, her expression calm.

“Forgive him, dearest,” she said lightly, glancing at Cregan with a wry sparkle in her eye. “We mustn’t expect manners from a rabid dog who strays beyond his territory.”

Sylas’s gaze sharpened. “Misplaced loyalty.” His eyes flicked to Cregan, then back to her, almost mockingly. “I would be a kinder lord. I never thought I’d see such a shiny thing descend so low... to a Stark.”

Claere’s stare never wavered, her lips curving faintly again, but the edge in her voice was unmistakable. “Descend?” She tilted her head, the movement controlled, slow. “From where I stand, the only descent I see is yours, Sylas. After all, it’s my husband’s home in which you sit. Like a vermin, starved for scraps.”

Sylas's smirk dimmed, his eyes flashing with irritation before he forced a grin that showed far too many teeth. He leaned back, folding his arms.

“Funny words from behind his shield,” he said.

At that, Cregan's hand jolted toward Ice, but Claere placed her own hand over his, a patient, restrictive touch. She met Sylas’s stare, her voice so soft it was nearly a whisper, yet it was unmistakable in its authority.

“Then try your hand, Lord Sylas,” she replied. “But remember this: before you reach for the Iron throne, you’ll need to survive me.”

Sylas laughed, though the gleam in his eye was feral and frustrated. He tore into another bite of his food, his gaze burning into them both. Still, Cregan could feel the shift in the room, the silent power Claere held even as she sat there, composed, calm as she drew her husband’s hand up to her lips in an unexpected, calculated kiss on his knuckles.

And at that, Sylas fell into a strained silence.

The old wildling spat a chunk of bone to the ground, licking the grease from his fingers with a careless smirk. He leaned forward, eyes flickering between Claere and Cregan, a sly gleam in them.

“Didn’t come here just to fill my belly, boy,” he rasped, voice low and rough. “I came with a deal.”

Cregan’s grip tightened on the edge of the table, his knuckles pale against the wood.

Cregan’s hand gripped the arm of his chair, his knuckles whitening. “Don't waste your breath. Your deal holds no interest for me,” he replied harshly.

“You might be.” Sylas grinned, something feral in his smile as he leaned back, chewing on the edge of a grin. “See, I'll give you what you want most—your North, all of it, untouched and free. No raiders. No bloodshed. It's yours, I'll ride on South. The price?”

His gaze slid to Claere, his expression raw with crude intent. “Her.”

The weight of his words settled heavily. Cregan’s face hardened, his fingers flexing on the hilt of his longsword as he met Sylas’s gaze with unyielding fury. “You think I’d trade my wife for your empty oath?” His voice was cold, a quiet danger laced within each syllable. “You think that’s all I want for her? A future of enslavement and shackles?”

Sylas’s smile only widened, his gaze flicking back to Claere. “Peace, on a plate. A truce,” he went on, voice almost mocking. “For the little queen.”

Beside him, Claere sat perfectly still, her calm presence masking the tension rippling through her. Her eyes narrowed as she regarded Sylas, collected, even as his intentions became glaringly clear.

“There will be no trade,” Cregan said with finality, his tone leaving no room for argument. “She is mine, and neither your threats nor your offers will change that.”

Sylas tilted his head, his face a mask of disappointment. “Pathetic,” he murmured, rising to his feet, and towering over them both. “If she doesn’t come with me, I’ll take your home, every inch of it. And when I do,” he said, leaning close enough for Cregan to catch the bitter edge of his breath, “I’ll take your head too.”

“Then I suggest you start taking your aim,” Cregan rose to his feet, stepping close enough that Sylas could feel the threat radiating off him like heat. “Because you’ll have to kill me to take her. And I don't die easy.”

A dangerous smile played at the corner of Sylas’s mouth. He glanced down at Claere one last time, eyes brimming with twisted satisfaction.

“So be it,” he sighed. “I'll kill you first.”

Sylas's grin twisted as he reached down to the table, plucking a sharp bone shard from the remains of the deer meat. With a snap of movement, he lunged, aiming for Cregan’s shoulder.

Cregan’s reflexes were as quick as they were honed, sensing the threat before it even surfaced. He sidestepped the wildling’s strike, his hand latching onto Sylas’s wrist in an iron grip. With a twist, he forced Sylas’s arm down, the bone shard falling to the floor as Sylas struggled against his hold, sneering in frustration.

“Not before the lady,” Cregan’s voice was a low, lethal rumble, his hand shifting to Sylas’s neck. He tightened his grip, enough to make the wildling’s breathing hitch, and leaned close.

Claere simply scooted her chair away from them, taking a short sip of her water.

Cregan’s grip only tightened, his face a mask of simmering rage. “You’ve already overstayed your welcome,” he growled, voice low, deadly. “You want a fight? I won’t sully my ancestors’ hall for the likes of you. We’ll finish this outside.”

Sylas’s eyes gleamed, his smirk twisting into something feral. “Good.”

Without another word, Cregan released him, shoving Sylas back a step. The wildling stumbled, then righted himself, his grin still plastered across his face as he spat a dark glob onto the floor between them. Cregan watched him, gaze cold and unmoved.

“Hope you’re ready to bleed, wolf,” Sylas sneered, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, the room heavy with anticipation.

X

Dawn barely crept over the horizon, casting a grey, ghostly pallor across the courtyard. Cregan stood, his breath misting in icy clouds, muscles taut as he faced Sylas before the towering gates of Winterfell. The wildling was a solid wall of muscle, twisting a brutal-looking axe in his hands, its edge darkened by countless kills. A ring of soldiers circled the two men, their eyes shifting between them with tense anticipation, breaths sharp in the biting cold.

Sylas grinned, a dark gleam in his eye as he rolled his shoulders back, his size and coiled power making him look like a beast unfurling for a strike.

“You're smaller than she made you sound. And here I thought you'd have some big fangs.”

Cregan’s gaze remained steady, unfazed. “I’ve faced wilder beasts than you in these woods.”

Sylas barked a laugh, lifting his axe as he advanced. “All but me.”

The first swing came roaring and fast, almost catching Cregan off guard. He parried with Ice, though the impact sent a jarring vibration through his arms. Sylas was quick and ruthless, and as they traded blows, he drove Cregan back with brute force, step by step, the ground slick beneath them.

Clang. Thud.

Each blow echoed across the silent courtyard.

Their eyes met briefly as Cregan steadied himself, bracing against Sylas’s next assault. Sylas sneered, breathing hard, the wild gleam never leaving his gaze. “Lady Stark spoke of you like you were a god,” he taunted, swinging his axe again. “But it seems she’s only good at telling pretty tales.”

Cregan twisted his blade up to parry, gritting his teeth as the clash of steel echoed. "You talk too much,” he growled, landing a swift kick to Sylas’s chest.

Sylas staggered back a step, laughing. “Soon she'll be telling those tales to our sons by your fire, wolf."

Cregan’s grip tightened around the hilt of Ice, his knuckles white as he steadied himself, but Sylas was relentless. With a brutal shove, Sylas sent him sprawling again, and the ground came up to meet Cregan in a hard, unforgiving blow. He gasped, feeling the sting of steel biting into his arm as Ice slipped free, the blood seeping quickly into the frost-bitten earth beneath him. The soldiers around him shifted, some whispering, others simply watching as their lord was brought to his knees.

Sylas circled him like a wolf sizing up wounded prey, the twisted grin on his face stretching as he tilted his head to the gathering crowd.

“So this is the wolf of Winterfell? Your king?” he sneered, his voice a mocking growl. “Brought low by a wildling. Tell me, Stark—where’s my little queen?”

Cregan staggered to his feet, pain radiating up his arm, vision blurring as he forced himself to keep his footing. Sylas’s eyes glinted with malice, revelling in every faltering step, every gasp of breath Cregan couldn’t quite catch.

“You’d think the witch would have the decency to show,” Sylas taunted, his voice growing louder, pitched to the soldiers listening in. “Or has she slunk away, letting you bleed for her wrongs?”

Cregan braced himself as Sylas closed in, teeth gritted against the pain, his stance unyielding. But Sylas’s taunts sank on him, gnawing at his focus, his strength ebbing as Sylas struck him hard across the chest. The air was forced from his lungs as he dropped to a knee, every nerve searing with the agony of his wounds.

Sylas grinned down at him, his voice a sneering whisper. “Look at you. A beaten mutt. Unfit to rule.” He leaned closer, voice dripping with venom, “Where is she, huh?”

His words went ignored. With one last surge of strength, Cregan forced himself upright, eyes locking onto Sylas, rage and defiance blazing. He was battered, barely able to stand, but he’d face him to the last breath if it came to that. When the snows fall and the white winds blow, the lone wolf dies but the pack survives, his father had said to him once.

Let the lone wolf die. Let him die.

“She burns like the cold,” Cregan said in a painful breath.

X

The bedchamber flickered with dim firelight, casting shadows over the map sprawled between them. Claere and Cregan stood side by side, alone and cloaked in silence, their eyes fixed on Winterfell’s drawn walls and the ragged paths marking where Sylas’s forces would come. They needed no counsel tonight; only themselves.

Claere's face was unreadable, her gaze shadowed, and Cregan felt the weight of something beyond hesitation. He wanted to pull her close, to let his warmth dispel that cold distance, but he held back, tracing his fingers over the edges of the map instead.

“Sylas will move fast,” he murmured, his tone low and matter-of-fact, though his eyes drifted toward her face. “If he pushes hard enough, he’ll think he can break us here.” His finger tapped the curve just south of Winterfell. “He’ll press his men until they’re inside the keep—close enough to choke us in our own walls.”

Claere’s eyes didn’t waver, her expression carved in something colder than he’d ever seen. Yet, beneath it, he sensed a dread she kept buried. For a moment, he thought she might ask for a different way, to use a slower plan, anything to avoid the fire and fury he saw in his own mind.

But instead, her voice came, soft and impassive. “If he’s brought them all here… then Luna can burn them out. It will turn the tide.” Her fingers brushed along the edge of the map, pausing over the paths the wildlings would take, but her gaze held his. “I don’t see any other way.”

Her solemn words struck him harder than the battles they’d fought. She’d chosen this herself. Reaching across the map, he laid his hand over hers, feeling the coolness of her skin and the fire behind her eyes. He tightened his grip, his voice coming in a quiet murmur.

“Luna’s flames will stop them before they ever reach the walls.” His grip on her hand grew, as if by force alone he could keep the determination he saw in her from wavering. “I’ll take Sylas myself when he comes through. When he sees the fires, he’ll know what’s waiting for him.”

Claere looked back down at the map, though her hand remained within his. Even a blind man could've seen that strength in her, unwavering, yet something in her silence twisted his own resolve.

“You don’t have to do this, love.” His voice softened, the words almost breaking the silence like a plea. “You owe them nothing—not after what they’ve demanded of you.”

She stilled, her fingers brushing a line on the map that led from Winterfell to the wilds beyond. Her violet gaze lifted, meeting his, and her voice came faint but sharp as a dagger.

“I brought him here, Cregan. If Winterfell burns, it’ll be by my hand, not his.”

He took in her words, feeling both pride and a chill he couldn’t shake. There was no stopping her once she’d spoken like that; he had learned this much. He released a slow breath, his hand still on hers, though his grip softened.

“They’ll protest,” he murmured, almost to himself, knowing the lords would sneer at her volatile dragonblood the minute they caught wind of the fire in her plans.

She smirked, a faint, bitter twist of her mouth. “Then let them protest. Their words have always come cheap in our halls.”

There was nothing left to say; they had both chosen.

His voice was a rough whisper. “And when Sylas comes to the gates, he’ll meet me there. Your fire will bring his men to ruin, and his death will be by my hand.”

Her expression softened then, something flickering in her eyes. She gave a slight nod, the unspoken words holding between them as surely as any vow.

“Then let it be us,” she said, her voice quiet but relentless, “and only us.”

X

Claere’s silhouette merged with the pale light of the oncoming sun, crouched upon Luna’s back. Her silver braid whipped in the frigid wind, streaking across her face as she peered down at the advancing figures below—Sylas’s wildling host, oblivious, like ants on a thread, skittering through the shadows toward Winterfell. Her heart clenched, not only with tension but with a sense of sickened resolve.

Claere took a steadying breath, reaching down to soothe Luna’s scales as the dragon rumbled beneath her, ready, eager, alive with a hunger for the command. This was what she was—she was a weapon of fire and wings.

“Dracarys, Luna,” she whispered, her voice firm, though her mind wavered. Fire, Luna.

Luna inhaled sharply, and the first jet of flame burst forth, tearing through the forest edge. The fire lit up the gloaming, a roar of blistering fury erupting from the dragon’s throat, tearing through trees and flesh alike and consuming everything in its path. The inferno roared so ferociously that Claere flinched, though she held firm, her gaze steeling even as her stomach twisted. Her thoughts churned as she took in the fire’s path below, eyes lingering on the wild devastation.

This wasn’t her—it was Luna, this was her dragon’s fury flowing from her through the fire. She could almost feel her resolve shake as the flames danced in her vision, searing images of charred trees and wildlings scrambling, scattering, disappearing. She repeated the words in her mind like a chant, Luna’s rage, not mine, though she knew even as she said it that it wasn’t entirely true.

Her breath shook as she leaned closer to Luna, coaxing her to move over the battalion attempting to retreat. The dragon’s energy surged as they neared. She stroked Luna’s side, voice soft but firm.

“Lykiri, Luna,” she soothed, her words almost trembling. “Dracarys.” Easy, Luna… fire.

Luna twisted mid-air, exhaling another wave of flame across the retreating soldiers below, sealing off their escape and turning the ground into a seething sea of embers. The dragon’s power coursed through her like a shiver, fierce and foreign, rattling her bones with its wildness.

The fire roared in her ears, and she looked down, on the scattered remains of Sylas’s army, their encroachment on her home, and her family. She watched as the smoke and flames lifted, wrapping Winterfell and Winter Town in a curtain of fiery defence. She took in the devastation below and fought the bile rising in her throat, her mind’s whisper growing weaker.

They came for Winterfell, for her people in Winter Town… they brought this upon themselves.

As the last embers died down, Claere closed her eyes, her voice barely above a murmur as she stared into the inferno, her gaze distant. “Sepār hae Daemon vestās. Lyks māzigon mērī isse perzys, gevie riña,” she whispered. Just as Daemon said. Peace comes only in flame, beautiful girl.

Luna’s fierce eyes glowed with residual heat, the dragon’s heart steadying beneath her. But Claere’s was anything but; her hands trembled as they left Luna’s scales, her mind, her heart now divided as they looked back over the ruins and toward Winterfell, her home now shrouded in the grim peace she had called forth.

X

Sylas barely registered the smoke rising from the treetops before Cregan advanced with a limp, his eyes dark with a calm that promised violence. The distant shadows of smoke from the burning woods curled into the sky, and for the first time, the feral wildling's bravado faltered.

"Looks like your men weren’t prepared for dragonfire, Sylas," Cregan remarked, his voice a low rumble that echoed across the men around him.

Sylas bared his teeth in a sneer, a wild, desperate glint in his eye. “I don’t need an army to take what I came for, Stark,” he spat. Yet his voice held a shake that betrayed him.

Cregan’s smirk was cruel, almost feral. Every step forward held the essence of Winterfell’s legacy, its unbreakable fortitude, a promise to the blood spilt for his land and kin. He swung his sword with controlled precision, matching his enemy's wildness, each clash of their blades filling the cold air with a raw, metallic shriek. Sparks shot out, tracing wild patterns against the snow as Sylas staggered, his strength now fraying against the brutal tempo of Cregan’s attack.

Sylas’s grip tightened, his movements turning frantic. Blood streaked down his hands, his breaths ragged as he swung, his attacks growing wild and uncoordinated. But he kept a cruel, bloodstained smile on his lips as he glanced toward the trees.

“You think this is over, Stark?” he snarled, forcing the words through grit teeth. “I’ve men coming to gut you like a fish. Soon enough, you’ll be choking on your own blood.”

Cregan’s expression hardened, a cold amusement flashing in his gaze. He nodded toward the columns of smoke, his voice barely a whisper.

“What men?”

Sylas’s sneer faded, his face going slack as realization washed over him. The inferno in the woods, swallowing his last line of defence. His final hope, his reinforcements—gone, turned to ash and embers under dragon’s breath.

Sylas’s eyes widened, and he stumbled back, a denial trembling on his lips. “Dragon cunt.”

But there was no more room for mercy here.

Cregan allowed Sylas one desperate reach for his blade, granting him the illusion of a fighting chance. The wildling lunged, his hands flying to the hilt at his hip, but Cregan shifted in one swift motion, letting his own sword slip to his left hand, then right again, like an executioner judging his swing.

The motion left Sylas exposed, caught off balance, and Cregan moved like the crack of thunder, his strikes hitting with unrelenting force. Sylas staggered, his pride and strength reduced to shallow, desperate parries.

Breathless, Sylas raised his sword once more, a final snarl erupting from his throat as he swung—but it was too slow, too obvious. Cregan ducked under the wildling’s strike, pivoting as he brought his blade up in one final, swift arc, the blade sinking deep into the base of Sylas’s neck. Sylas’s eyes widened as he gasped, choking on the blood pooling in his mouth, his strength bleeding out into the frozen ground.

Cregan held the sword steady, watching the fading light in the wildling’s gaze. When Sylas’s body slumped to the ground, he released his grip.

His gaze lifted to the familiar, haunting shadow of Luna as she swept above Winterfell’s walls—a silent harbinger of peace, however fleeting it might be.

Behind him, voices rose in triumphant cheers, the soldiers shouting to the grey, wintry sky.

"The King in the North!"

"The Winter's Queen!"

The chants rang across the battlefield, a victory anthem echoing off the stone walls and into the depths of Winterfell, where blood had been shed to ensure its unyielding hold on the North. And though the men cheered, Cregan’s gaze remained faraway, fixed on the horizon, where the smoke still curled—a reminder of the price paid for peace.

"The King in the North!"

"The Winter's Queen!"

X

As the last echoes of victory faded over the frozen fields, Claere soared above the remnants of battle, Luna’s wings slicing through the northern winds, her shadow vast and ominous against the frosted earth below. She descended with the grace of a winter storm, Luna’s silver scales gleaming under the grey sky, and as they landed near the ragged camp of wildlings, the ground shuddered beneath the dragon’s weight.

The wildlings huddled together, the children clutching their mothers’ legs, the old men narrowing their eyes in defiance mixed with dread. Fear rippled through them, but Claere remained impassive, her gaze steady, unyielding—a reflection of Winterfell’s ancient walls.

Some among the Freefolk, their voices hardened with anger and grief, spat curses and slurs at her, calling her “witch” and “murderous southern cunt,” hatred simmering behind the fire-stoked fear in their eyes.

Claere absorbed the words, her face an unmoving mask.

A single thrumming, ear-splitting roar from Luna stilled the camp, silencing even the most defiant. The great dragon’s eyes glinted like molten gold, her breath thick and hot, and the Freefolk felt the implicit warning in every bone.

Lifting her chin, Claere addressed them, her voice cutting through the cold air, calm and regal.

“All who wish to remain in my land,” Claere proclaimed, her voice resonating like a royal decree, “shall find protection here, beyond the Wall. I shall see that a settlement is forged near the Wall’s garrisons, where you may rebuild your lives, under the laws and traditions of the North. Take this as my utmost mercy.”

Her gaze swept over them, cutting through the crowd like steel, lingering on the wearied lines of their faces and the guarded suspicion in their eyes. “But you are Freefolk still,” she continued, her voice unwavering, regal. “Those who choose to return beyond the Wall may go freely, unscathed, provided you keep the peace in return. Understand that this fate was never one I wished upon your people.”

An uneasy murmur ran through the crowd. Many looked to one another, mistrust mingling with a hesitant hope, and one bold voice called out from the throng, roughened and raw.

“Why?” he demanded. “Why would you even care to cross the Wall? Why bring all this ruin?”

Claere’s expression flickered with a shadow of something unreadable, the barest trace of sorrow or perhaps defiance, but her answer was a mystery as if whispered from deep within.

“There are things beyond the Wall that need no reason,” she said. “I came for what lies beyond choice, beyond blood and oaths. Some things demand to be answered. And it's best they remain that way for some time.”

As Claere’s words hung in the frosted air, a quiet ripple moved through the crowd, each face etched with its own choice. Slowly, some of the Freefolk began to turn, gathering what little they owned, their faces set toward the Wall. They were the ones who would return to the wild, to the life they had always known.

But many others—mothers with children clinging close, the elders with their exhausted eyes fixed upon her—stayed where they were, watching the figure of the dragon queen with something like reverence and fear.

Claere took them in, her gaze softening for a fleeting moment, an acknowledgement of what lay ahead for them, and for her. She gave a single, solemn nod, a gesture that was both promise and farewell, and it was enough.

She gave them no further explanation, only that faint, haunting smile that seemed to come from another world entirely. As she climbed back upon Luna’s back, the great dragon unfurled her wings, her shadow stretching over the encampment. A dragon and a queen united in strength, mystery, and resolve. With a powerful beat, Luna launched them into the sky, and Claere looked down upon the land, her silver hair streaming like her own banner.

Below, the Freefolk watched as the Winter’s Queen disappeared into the northern sky, a figure both terrifying and triumphant, half Targaryen fire and half Stark frost.

The last vision of her was etched in their memories—a queen of two bloods, the very image of winter’s heart and fire’s wrath. A ruler, a legend, her name destined to echo in both hearthside tales and whispered fears for generations to come.

X

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oh my goshhh I loveee this Spotify wrapped idea!! Please could I request no.27 with JJ x fem reader

Call Your Mom

pairing: jennifer jareau x reader

warnings: mention of death, grief

summary: You’re there for Henry when he’s having a particularly hard night after his dad’s passing, but you also remind him his mom is there too.

word count: 2.1k

a/n: WAY more than a drabble. also pls ignore how im still working on this 2024 wrapped requests lol😀 not rlyyyy sure what the relationship is but it’s not established and idk if i would even consider it romantic. r would never make a move when jj is grieving. i think it’s about being there for the people in your life that mean the most and also hope that love persists and can exist even after grief. lowkey giving r has had unrequited feelings for jj for YEARS but never made a move and is more than content being best friends

#27 on my wrapped was call your mom by noah kahan (ft. lizzy mcalpine)

It was raining again. 

The soft patter against the window had been a constant for the past couple of days. At first you thought it was nature’s sick joke of mirroring the somber times. Yet, you surprisingly found the grey skies and steady drops therapeutic. 

Tonight, like every other night this past month, you were staying over at the Jareau house watching the boys. Despite her own raging grief and the violating attacks at her work, JJ kept insisting she could handle it all, that your help was too much. You knew her too well though.

You saw through her stony mask and through ever “I’m fine” she uttered between gritted teeth. You knew she was on the brink of cracking. So ignoring her insisting, you picked up what you could – getting the boys off to school, helping Henry with his homework, making dinner. You knew JJ would never outwardly admit to needing help, but you also knew she was grateful to be carrying a lighter load.

As you were finishing emptying the dishwasher and tidying up the kitchen, you barely heard a sock-cladded footsteps against the tile entering the room. Looking up, you saw a tired Henry, the young boy you’d known his whole life, who had somehow become a young man right before your eyes. Despite his recent growth spurt, he looked smaller than he had in years. 

“Hey, kiddo,” you said with a soft smile. 

He didn’t say anything, just nodded as he leaned against the island counter.

Closing the dishwasher, you turned around and leaned back against the sink. “Couldn’t sleep?”

“Didn’t try.” He shrugged, fidgeting with the sleeves of his hoodie. “Didn’t want to.”

You nodded, not wanting to push. The silence stretched, comfortable but heavy.

“She cries herself to sleep,” Henry said suddenly, his voice cracking along with your heart.

You didn’t need to ask who. You knew.

“She thinks I don’t hear, but her room is next to mine and sometimes she even falls asleep on the couch…” He trailed off, leaving the “not wanting to sleep without him” unsaid. 

You looked at him, taking in his appearance – his eyes rimmed red, hair messy, sweatshirt just a little too baggy. 

“She’s trying to hold everything together,” you said gently. “Just like you are.”

“She has to work and take care of me and Michael. She thinks she has to be strong for us, for everyone.” He swallowed hard. “I don’t want to add to her list of worries. It’s not fair.”

“Henry.” You pushed yourself off the counter and walked over to him, taking his hand in yours. “That is not true.”

“She already lost him. I don’t want to make it worse.”

“You’re not making anything worse.” Your throat tightened, but you kept your voice steady. “You’re what keeps her going, you and Mike.”

His gaze remained focused on your touch. “She loved him so much,” he mumbled.

“She still does,” you affirmed, squeezing his hands. “She also love you, more than anything, Henry.”

He blinked hard, his lashes wet. “But what if that’s not enough?” 

The question hit you like a deep bruise — not from the doubt of JJ’s love, which stung, but from the quiet ache in his voice. You could see the fear hiding behind the grief in his eyes, the lofty expectation of bravery he shouldn’t have to meet.

You didn’t answer right away, your own mind clouding with emotions. Then you spoke, choosing your words precisely.

“Then we hold her up, too.”

Henry finally looked up at you, his blue eyes meeting yours. It was scary how much he looked like his mother — the same clarity, the same storm behind calm. A fierce gentleness. 

“I miss him,” he whispered. “I’m scared I’ll forget him, but I’m also scare to talk about him.”

You nodded, slow and careful, as if the moment might break if you moved too fast. 

“I know,” you agreed. “That’s grief’s worst trick, I think. It makes you feel like remembering will break you and forgetting would crush you.”

Henry blinked, letting a tear escape down his cheek. Without saying a word, he removed his hands from your grasp before wrapping his arms around you. He leaned into your embrace, slowly, testing to see if the ground would hold. You wrapped your arms around him and let his tears stain your shirt.

A beat passed. Then two. 

“When we were little, he used to dance in the kitchen to old music, like a weirdo,” Henry said, lifting his head up as a shaky laugh escaped him. “Mom always said she hated it, but I think she was lying.”

“You’re right,” you chuckled. “She loved it.”

The two of you shared a fond smile, as memories of Will flooded the moment.

Then Henry looked at you tentatively. “Do you–“ he cleared his throat. “Do you think we could do it? Just for a minute?”

“Do what?” You tilted your head, a confused smile tugging at your lips. 

“Dance.” He shrugged sheepishly. “Like he did.”

Your heart pulled tight in your chest. It felt like a different kind of ache than before, not a painful one but a reminder that you were alive.

“I’d be honored.” You dragged him over to the living room so you were both standing in the open space between the couch and the coffee table. 

“I, um, don’t have a song,” he muttered, scratching the back of his neck. 

“It’s okay.” You smiled. “I remember.”

Pulling out your phone, you scrolled for a moment and tapped play when you found the one.

A soft crackle of vinyl came from the speaker of your phone as you set it down on the table, then the unmistakable notes of “This Magic Moment” by The Drifters filled the room, masking the sounds of rain from outside.

Henry huffed a small laugh. “This one?”

“Yup.” You popped your lips, taking your hand in his and resting your other on his shoulder. “Your dad always said it made any moment magical. Your mom called him dramatic.”

“He was.” Henry rolled his eyes as he placed a trembling hand against your waist. 

The two of you slowly began to sway, you assuming the lead. At first, he was stiff, his head ducked, eyes on the floor like he was afraid to see too much, remember too much. But then you did exactly what you’d seen Will do a million times – you spun him, suddenly and a little clumsy. 

Henry let out a full laugh, one from the chest that you hadn’t heard in weeks, as he stumbled back into your arms.

“That was terrible.” He grinned.

“I’m just trying to keep the tradition alive,” you chuckled, shaking your head.

He looked up at you with glossy eyes, but they were brighter now. “Thanks for doing this.”

“Thanks for asking.”

You danced like that for the rest of the song — nowhere near perfect, not even close, but it didn’t matter.

As the last notes faded out, you pulled him in for one more hug. 

“Next time you’re spiraling again–“ you said gently, wiping a stray tear from his face– “don’t let this darkness fool you.”

Henry pulled back slightly.

“Call your mom, okay?”

“Okay,” he nodded.

“Good.” You stepped back slightly to ruffle his hair, a task that had become exceedingly difficult with his new buzz cut. “Now go up to bed. Your mom will actually kill me if she found out how late I let you stay up on a school night.”

Henry rolled his eyes fondly, thanking you one last time before making his way back to his bedroom. 

You stood there for a moment after he disappeared up the stairs, letting the rainy night embrace you along with your own grief. 

Turning back towards the kitchen, you reopened the dishwasher to retrieve the few dishes you missed earlier. Then quiet clink of ceramic against ceramic was the only sound, save for the steady rhythm of rain against the windows.

You didn’t hear her footsteps, but you felt her presence — soft and unmistakeable. 

JJ leaned against the kitchen doorway, arms crossed over her chest. Her eyes were a little red around the edges, a look you’d unfortunately come to recognize on her, and she looked at you like she was she still catching her breath from whatever feelings she hadn’t wanted her son to see. 

“Hey,” you said, unsure of how much she’d heard or saw. 

“Hey,” she echoed as her hand came up to fidget with her necklace.

“Sorry for keeping him up so late.” You gave a soft smile, not wanting to push the envelope.

“Don’t.” JJ shook her head and took a deep breath. “I was going to come in earlier, but you had him. And he needed you.”

You didn’t move towards her yet, giving her the space she needed. “He needed someone,” you replied gently, placing the last dish in the cabinet. “Someone who understands but isn’t drowning in the same grief.”

“That was probably the most I’ve seen him smile in weeks.” JJ stepped into the room, her bare feet silent against the tile. 

“I just listened.” 

“That wasn’t just anything,” she insisted as she moved closer, her fingers brushing the back of the kitchen stool, unsure whether she wanted to sit or stand. Her eyes met yours and you were greeted with the same calm storm you’d seen in Henry–the same one she always wore when she was trying to stay afloat.

“I know,” you agreed, drying your hands on the towel. “It’s just what he needed.”

You paused for a moment, scared to say the wrong thing. “He’s scared,” you said as you gauged her reaction. “He thinks he’d burden you, so he’s holding it in.”

JJ sighed, rubbing her temples. “I know,” she admitted frustratedly. “I’m trying to keep it together for him and for Michael, but I’m scared too.”

Setting the towel down, you moved around the kitchen island so you were leaning against the counter beside her. “You don’t have to have it together all the time.” You reached out, your fingers ghosting over hers. She looked down at your hand for a moment, the wheels in her brain visibly turning, before she slid your hand into hers. “You’re allowed to fall apart, and you’re allowed to be scared.”

“I’m scared of forgetting how to be okay,” she murmured. “Of moving on too soon; of not moving at all.” 

You didn’t say anything, letting her voice all the emotions she’d kept bottled up the past month. 

“I’m scared of doing this without him,” JJ whispered, closing her eyes, scared as she’d just reveled her own secret to herself. 

You let the weight of her revelation hang between you before replying, “You don’t have to. You’re not alone.”

She opened her eyes again, meeting your warm gaze. You didn’t need to say anything. She knew how you’d been there for her and the boys the day it had happened so suddenly, how many nights you’d stayed to make sure she didn’t forget to eat, how many times you’d picked up the pieces that fell through the cracks as she tried to keep it all together.

“I’m here,” you said, knowing sometimes people need to hear it even if they already know.

JJ stepped forward slightly and rested her forehead against yours. The closeness wasn’t romantic but intimate, the kind of intimacy paved only by grief and stitched together with devotion. 

“I don’t think I’ve thanked you enough for what you’ve done for us,” she murmured, her voice hoarse.

“You don’t have to.”

“I want to.”

You gave her fingers a small squeeze. “Then just let me keep being here.”

She let out a choked laugh, like it hurt and healed at the same time. “You’re not going anywhere, are you?” she asked, her blue eyes piercing yours with a fierce sincerity that masked a nervousness.

Pressing a kiss to her forehead, you pulled her into a tighter embrace. “Not a chance.”

For the first time in weeks, maybe longer, JJ let herself lean–not into her job or her grief–but into comfort, into you.

By now, the rain had quieted outside, failing to wash any of the grief away. It hadn’t cleansed or absolved anything within you or her or the boys. But still, something had softened.

“I’m tired,” JJ mumbled into the fabric of your shirt. You knew she was beyond any kind of tired a few hours of sleep could relieve, but you saw her eyes drooping nevertheless.

“Let’s go to bed.” You squeezed her shoulders before taking her hand to guide her upstairs.

Wordlessly, and gratefully, JJ let herself be led by you up towards her bed. 

She knew, when she woke up the next morning, her grief would still be there. But she knew that so would you.

[yandere-daydreams]

Title: Tactile.

A Grab-Bag Commission For The Very Lovely @ohsotearful.

Pairing: Yandere!Wanderer x Reader (Genshin).

Word Count: ~750.

TW: Non-Con, Somnophilia, Stalking, Non-Consensual Touching, and Obsessive Behavior.

This was an old pastime, for him.

The broad strokes remained the same, but the details differed. As Scaramouche, the Balladeer, a glorified weapon for a foreign military waiting to become something he was always promised he would be, he watched you from a distance, passing your stall in the local bazaar when he had time to spare and letting himself into the recesses of your mind while he was still testing the boundaries of his newfound godhood, letting the nights you spent with him fade away like passing thoughts. As a wanderer, a being with no name or history to tie him down, he was more… physical in his approach, more eager to be close to you in the way that even the most insignificant flower strives to grow towards the sun. During the day, he’d trail after you like a lost puppy, desperate for your attention, and at night, he’d slip through your bedroom window, kneel at your bedside, watch the gentle rise and fall of your chest until his eyes stung and he couldn’t stand just to watch, anymore. In that life, he’d been naïve, so unaware of what he was that he couldn’t do anything more than cup your face and feel your warmth sink into his cold, porcelain skin. He hadn’t even thought to kiss you, much less leave a mark. It was all just feather-light touches – little objects of his sentiment you’d barely remember by the time the sun rose. It was all meaningless, and Scaramouche’s daydreams weren’t much better.

As the man he was now, still nameless but not quite so untethered, he’d learned his lesson from Scaramouche’s distance, from the wanderer’s artlessness. Close enough to make contact but not quite so caught up with his own pining that he couldn’t bring himself to touch you – he let his hands drift to your neck as he thrust into you, fingers wrapping loosely around your throat as he drank in the plushness of your delicate, tender skin. In the cold of night, your warmth was more addictive than ever, your body as inviting as it’d always been. Your expression was one of disrupted peace; the tranquility of rest agitated by the feeling of his cock fucking into you at an idle pace. He pressed the heels of his palms into your throat with just enough force to feel your breath hitch, to watch your features scrunch in aimless panic before pulling away, one hand drifting to take hold of your waist and the other finding your chest, nimble fingertips circling around your hardened nipple. You jerked in response, your reaction muted but visible enough. That was something he’d always liked about you: even at a distance, he could always draw something out of you.

Not that he wasn’t satisfied with your closeness. It was a sensation he, even now, wasn’t used to – the softness of your skin as opposed to the stoniness of his, the sharp cuts and awkward bends of his body lying in comparison to your smooth, vague curves. A being crafted by the hands of a god and polished by centuries of unyielding cruelty measured against a creature designed by no one and made to do nothing, where the former always seemed to somehow come up short. If he’d been able to, he would’ve hated you for it. If he’d been just a little stronger, he would’ve hated himself for not.

He let himself slip, rut into your deeper, fuck into you faster, savor the feeling of your wet heat dulling his rougher edges. He wouldn’t let there be a distance between you and him this time, he decided – he wouldn’t dwell in the back of your mind or sneak into your bedroom, wouldn’t find excuses to steal glances at you from the other side of a crowded bazaar or be happy to spend his days basking in your shadow. He’d always be this close to you, always be able to press himself into the elysium that was your meaningless, mortal body. He’d waited long enough for it, sought it out with enough desperation, and in that moment, buried inside you, your scent in his lungs and his affection for you finally delivered without reservation, he couldn’t imagine ever going without you again. He shouldn’t have to. He wouldn’t have to.

He dug his nails into your hip, a wide smile spreading over his lips. He watched with hawk-like attentiveness as your eyes fluttered open, as your expression went from confused to distressed. You started to say something, to scream, but his mouth crashed into yours and he swallowed anything you might’ve said, your voice slipping like milk and honey down his throat. When your protests faded into an incoherent collection of whimpers and sobs, he pulled back, grinning as he finally started to thrust into you properly.

This was an old pastime, but he wasn’t the person he used to be.

Maybe it was time for something to change, after all.