#Song i wrote

[sun13koi]

Hold me Close

Written by yours truly

sung in a similar style to The End by MCR

———

So I’ll scream and I’ll cry

thoughts and my tears

never enough except to those who aren’t near

I keep doing my best but what to care

when just being myself always

makes people stare?

When stress and pain only leads to despair?

When I’m gone far enough, but keep

pushing my luck.

When I grow up, went you see me for me

I hope you how broken

and in pain I can be

I’m no golden child, even bronze, a stretch-

though my heart once was,

it’s tarnished in vain

I’ll never, ever, be like you and if I

am, then, someone please hold me

close for all of eternity…

(insert music break)

Tarnished and broken,

kicked to the ground.

I’ll wipe off my knees though and curse the sound

Misfits yeah sure- so what, I don’t care!

I’ll wipe off my make up- it’s someone I’m not

And I’ll free myself from your cage of rot.

Oh you’re not my family,

not deep down inside

blood is thin compared to what I can hide

gather round all of

those who know the real me

who accept and hold close everythiiinggg…

(Music break again)

I’ve been too strong

I don’t know if I’ll last

can’t you just love me, just a chance?

I’m no big deal, I’m a teen lost in life

you’re my true guiding light

you’re what keeps me alive

just… hold…me…close…

[rambling-rocker]

Sometimes dreams

Can make it seem

Like everything’s alright.

Sometimes dreams

Can make you scream

And cry out in the night.

Sometimes you're haunted by a thought

Sometimes you think what you ought not

Sometimes you lose all that you've got

Down deep within your dreams.

Sometimes you never want to wake

Sometimes you toss and turn and shake

Sometimes it causes hearts to break

The feelings in your dreams.

Sometimes dreams

Can make it seem

Like everything's alright.

Sometimes dreams

Can make you scream

And cry out in the night.

[alasskkaa]

tdot forever track 14 - alasskkaa

[buster-boone]

Made some changes watching this,chorus,beat and a couple other little changes. But full song and a good video, so I post this for now.

[busterboone]

Made some changes watching this, chorus and beat, couple other edits. But full song and good video, so post this for now.

[bethvalentinexx]

Eternal Misery

I’ve found the cure to writers block— just don’t stop

Let the words spill onto the page like raindrops

I think I’ve said all that I can

Yet I’ve said absolutely nothing

I’m just eighteen but I feel like it’s too late for me

‘Well, that’s just your anxiety’

Well, fuck, it feels so real to me

I go to work and I come home

Growing up, I was alone

The other kids hated my guts

Maybe that’s why I was always throwing up

I’ve got loads of problems and far more scars

That refuse to fade from my thighs and arms

Can’t sing or play the guitar

Can mediocre lyricism get me far?

Am I too sad to succeed?

Do I have what it takes?

What do I need?

They’ll tell you to believe

Well, hope breeds eternal misery

Its not like it’s any fun to wallow

Just a bullet you’d rather swallow

Than having to really savor the bitter taste.

[the-railroad-earth]

song about shoveling snow

[sometimeinthelate60s]

I remember

I memorize you

On the opposite side of you

On the opposite side of you

Take me to your house again

Show me the things

Show me the things you taught me to do

Take me to the place we met

Take me to your house again

In your backyard too

I’m still here singing with you

[thisiswhereitendssoicanbegin]

I swear I'm not okay. Things are harder than they've been. I wish, I wish, that I could be okay again. There's a storm brewing and I'm stuck in the middle, no way to stop the rain from pouring down my face. I'm not okay. This isn't okay. I wish I could pretend but I know how close it is to the end. Please hear my cries, know I'm not fine. I want to die. That's how I feel. I'm lost in this world and scared. I need some help, somethings got to give. I'm not okay. This isn't okay. I can't believe life has gone this way. I just want to be saved. Let me be saved. Let me try again. I need this. I need a friend. I'm not okay. Things aren't okay.

[golge200505]

Song Recommendation Of The Day

This is a song of mine I composed when I was 16. It would make me really happy if you took a listen ☺️☺️

[dolleyesdollmouth]

Suicide Song

F G Am E

(Verse 1)

Because you don’t love me

I wish you were dead

I wish you’d OD on pills

With your new boyfriend

(Chorus)

You wiped me away

Like dirt on your shoes

Now I have nothing

And nothing left to lose

The pills won’t save me

Only you could do that

Did you ever love me?

Or did I always fall flat?

(Verse 2)

With a gun to my head

And a razor to my wrist

Every cut I make

Will remind me of your kiss

(Bridge)

I wish you were here

To see me bleed out in bed

But I’ll be sleeping alone

Until I’m finally dead

[inkskinned]

okay is she being actually immature or is it just a woman over 30 expressing a human experience you find to be immature.

like yeah. at certain ages... let shit go. im not defending the real immature shit. im not defending the karen you're picturing. i worked in retail i hate those people too. (once somebody got mad at me because she didn't like how our winter window decor was a snowman smoking a pipe. i wish i was joking).

but men at 57 will write books about how 17 year old girls are soooo sexy. they will invent worlds where women have to be naked for "armor reasons." they will write songs that treat women as objects. people rush to defend them. meanwhile a woman at 35 will be like "heartbreak is hard, actually" or "i feel betrayed by a friend" or "i am struggling with something emotionally." immediately people will say stuff like this woman is 35 by the way. by the way this woman is SO OLD to be experiencing this. BY THE WAY.

im 31, almost 32. the other day a poet was blasted online because at her "big age", she had written a poem about feeling unloved. top comment was "this woman is 29 by the way." this woman is too old to still be useful, by the way. she has to behave better . maybe if she was a good wife and mother she could stop existing loudly, and the story could continue on without her. this woman has served her purpose, by the way. she's so cringe, by the way. at 29 - so old! - she still hasn't figured out that her existence should be one of shame.

[rambling-rocker]

Dear Lord, You know she’s in my heart.

That girl who made my feelings start.

You know how much she means to me.

And our future that may never be.

Please keep her safe, and happy, Lord.

May her needs never be ignored

By anyone she’ll choose to see.

Let them love her even more than me.

Oh Lord, You know how much I’d give

For that dream-life with her to live.

But it’s just a silly fantasy.

A future that may never be.

I pray that if it’s in Your Will,

This one request You might fulfill,

And make it a reality.

A future where she chooses me.

I know it’s far too much to ask.

For Earthly beings, it’s quite a task.

But You could do it easily.

And open up her heart to me.

I fear that isn’t in Your plan.

It hurts, and I don’t understand.

But that’s just how it has to be.

Just, please, do one more thing for me.

Please keep her safe, and happy, Lord.

May her needs never be ignored

By anyone she’ll choose to see.

Let them love her even more than me.

[alasskkaa]

NO MORE SUNSET - ALASSKKAA

I was trying to sound like Frank Sinatra

[mariisauruslove]

Revival & Reunion

I had a dream that death kissed me

But love had known to let me go

Came back from drowning in the sea

Never knew love to sing in my soul

I think I’m healing maybe

Progression overwhelming me

Tasting sweeter than honey

They cant seem to stand the heat

Baby, my body was born ready

Death speaks to me lately

Whispers in the dark breeze

Sending shivers down my spine

“Think of me until the end of time

But dont you dare end your life

You’re precious to me”

Thats what death said to me

Reminding me to breathe

Kissing sweeter each time

Scars that cut deeper in my soul and mind

Knowing I’m an all time favorite crime

Being touched in red when I’m colorblind

I fell in love with him

The glory of his power and sin

Death kissed me and let me go

Knowing happiness, barely so

Sacrificing time for my soul

I took a walk by the ocean

This love was forbidden poison

Id love to sink in it all the time

Swimming deeper in the light

Knowing id fall in the dark at the end of it

I had a dream that death kissed me

But love had known to let me go

Came back from drowning in the sea

Never knew love to sing in my soul

But I came back to you

Orchestras singing right on cue

This is what lovers do

Death, my love, I came back to you.

[junglejim4322]

“Touch me while your bros play grand theft auto” the tortured poet screams