#SORRY THIS JUST BECOMES ABOUT CATER FOREVER I LOVE CATER!!!

[mochinomnoms]

why were you digging? what did you bury, before those hands pulled me from the earth?

art by wolfythewitch

Hozier lyrics in which they embody when loving you.

multi x gn!reader

[tw/cw} - some of the lyrics are gendered, few suggestive parts

[note] - i forgot i had this drafted for a while lol anyways only romantic vibes cause i couldnt find satisfactory lyrics for grim and ortho :( i also was gonna add the halloweenie boys but then it wouldnt have been evenly split and i didnt want that lol

[edit] - I FORGOT AZUL IM SORRY AZULITO FORGIVE ME—

"I know who I am when I'm alone/I'm something else when I see you" - It Will Come Back

He's always been sure of who he is and how he presents himself. He has an image that he must uphold, his reputation is dependent on it. Yet, that perfectly sculpted person comes crumbling down, firm marble turned into malleable clay with you. He should be appalled by the very idea of someone having so much hold over him, yet he can't bring himself to care. You see through him, and it's addicting. You see through him, but still show him kindness, and it's addicting. You see through him, still show him kindness, even knowing just what thoughts he has of you at night, and it's addicting. He has an addiction, and you're his drug of choice. There is no rehab for getting him off of you, once he's hooked he's never letting go of the high that you are. Then again, if you knew just who he really is, perhaps the addiction was mutual.

Riddle Rosehearts, Cater Diamond, Azul Ashengrotto, Jade Leech, Jamil Viper

"We lay here for years or for hours/So long, we'd become the flowers" - In a Week

He is admittedly a simple man, even if he might portray or say he desires otherwise. But deep down, he is very simple: he'd like to be with you forever, that's it. Laying in the grass, the sounds of cicadas and birds singing, the smell of dewy grass and freshly bloomed flowers, all of that with you would be his dream. He hopes that you two will live a long life together, that your graves will be one, your bodies decomposing together into the earth as nature intended. You hope that centuries into the future, some bright-eyed archaeologists will see the patch of flowers growing over your grave and dig to find your two skeletons intertwined. You both hope that theories and myths are created in the image of your long gone bodies so that the memory of your love will live forever on.

Ruggie Bucchi, Jack Howl, Rook Hunt, Silver

"She'll know me crazy, soothe me daily/Better yet, she wouldn't care" - Jackie & Wilson

Loud and impulsive to a fault is how most would describe him, and really he should care more about the problems this causes. He should, but why when you take him as he is, flaws and all? To you, the impulsivity, his loud mouth, his rash nature, his bluntness, they weren't flaws—they were him and you love him. And he loves you—for all your naivete, doting, and enabling ways. If there's trouble to be found, it's likely you're both involved: you chasing after him as he goes of. Is it naive to think that this sort of relationship won't eventually burst into flames? Probably. Is it a bit toxic if you were to look at your relationship critically? Probably. But he doesn't care (even if he normally would or should), and neither do you. Instead, for just a bit, you indulge in the present, rather than the past or future. Just for a bit

Floyd Leech, Kalim Al-Asim, Epel Felmier, Sebek Zigvolt

"You're bright as the morning, soft as the rain/Pretty as a vine, as sweet as a grape" - Too Sweet

Something about you is just a bit off-putting: you're a bit too put together, too cheery, too sweet for someone in your situation. It's more off-putting to him that he's drawn to you anyways. Part of him holds himself back, as he's a realist at heart. One day, any day now, you can go back home, where your sweetness rightfully belongs. Part of him though wants to that sweetness, make it rightfully his and his alone. It's why he can't keep himself away from you, he'd rather defile you, ruin you for anyone else so that you'd have no choice but to come running back to him for that sweet satisfaction that only he can provide. You're not stupid though, you know just what he's doing; lucky for him, you're happy to let him age you into a fine wine, made just for his taste.

Trey Clover, Leona Kingscholar, Vil Schoenheit, Lilia Vanrouge

"Heaven is not fit to house a love like you and I" - Francesca

You have ingrained your very being into his own. The sight, the sound thought of you has him yearning for your touch in ways that would put a god to shame. But Eros had no role in his love for you. Since he's met you, somehow you've managed to core out a space in his heart in the shape of your body. Without you, he'd be empty. Without you, he'd be devastated, experiencing an anguish that would kill his very soul. His love is so strong, so overwhelming, so earth-shattering that he'd alter the very laws of the universe just to keep you with him. Could you even bring yourself to deny him if the choice to leave ever came? You have him in the palm of your hand, like a god with their worshipper. You'll be a merciful and loving god to your devotee, won't you?

Ace Trappola, Deuce Spade, Idia Shroud, Malleus Draconia

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[30somethingautisticteacher]

Buck's favorite words

Just a little idea I couldn't get out of my head so enjoy this ficlet 🙂

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Buck isn't sure why he likes the word so much, but every time he says it, it's like sugar on his tongue. It makes him feel warm and fuzzy and like everything is right with the world.

"Sorry, I'm flattered but I'm seeing someone," Buck says to the pretty girl he's just evacuated from a 3-alarm blaze. His voice is kind but firm, a far cry from the Buck of old who might have preened at the attention.

"Oh come on, handsome hero man. Give me your number," she purrs, reaching out to touch his arm.

Her relentlessness gives Buck a little push, and he finds himself using the word for the first time in public. It rolls off his tongue easily, filling him with a quiet pride.

"Sorry, but like I said, I'm taken," he says, gently stepping back. Then, with a smile that's both apologetic and genuinely happy, he adds, "I have a boyfriend."

The word 'boyfriend' sits in the air between them, and Buck feels a warmth spread through his chest.

From then on, he finds himself saying it as often as he can, each time feeling that same warmth, that same quiet joy.

At the flower shop, where he's picking out a bouquet for his and Tommy's dinner date, the florist asks, "Do you need help picking something out for your girlfriend?"

"Boyfriend, actually," Buck replies with an easy smile. "And I'm good, thanks."

At the coffee shop, he leans on the counter, eyes scanning the pastry case. "Do you have any cranberry orange scones? My boyfriend loves them," Buck asks the barista warmly.

Later, at the bar waiting for Tommy, a pretty girl sends a drink over. Buck catches her eye, raises the glass in thanks, and then gently shakes his head. When she approaches, he's ready with a now-familiar phrase: "I'm flattered, but I have a boyfriend."

Each time he says it, 'boyfriend' feels more natural, more right. It's not just a word anymore—it's a declaration of who he is, who they are together. And Buck finds he loves that feeling almost as much as he loves Tommy.

There's nothing better than the word boyfriend. That is, until a new word takes its place.

At a restaurant, the waiter approaches with menus in hand. "Would you like to order an appetizer while you wait?"

Buck's eyes light up, a grin spreading across his face. "No thanks, my fiancé should be here soon." The word 'fiancé' rolls off his tongue like honey, sweet and perfect.

On a work call to a new gym, Buck finds himself pacing with excitement. "Wow! This place is nice. Do you have a free trial? I bet my fiancé would love to try it out." He can't help but emphasize the word, feeling a thrill every time he says it.

Later, meeting with the wedding caterers, Tommy sits right next to him, their hands intertwined. Buck squeezes Tommy's hand as he says, "No, we definitely don't want German chocolate cake. My fiancé is allergic to coconut." He glances at Tommy, catching his soft smile at the word.

With each use, 'fiancé' becomes more than just a title. It's a promise, a future, a declaration of forever. And Buck realizes that while 'boyfriend' was wonderful, 'fiancé' is magical—a constant reminder of the commitment they've made and the life they're building together.

But the magic of 'fiancé' only lasts for so long before it's also replaced with something even more profound.

At the hospital, Buck's heart races as he approaches the reception desk. "Hi, I'm Evan Kinard. I just got a call that my husband was here." The word 'husband' feels both new and familiar on his lips.

The receptionist nods reassuringly. "Oh sure, it looks like your husband has just been discharged. Just smoke inhalation and a minor concussion."

Later, at Maddie's place, Buck finds himself chuckling as Chimney and Tommy argue about movies. He turns to his sister with a grin. "I don't know whose husband is more stubborn, yours or mine."

At the 118's karaoke night, Buck takes the stage, his eyes locked on Tommy. "I'd like to dedicate this song to my husband," he announces, his voice full of love. As the opening notes of "I Can't Help Falling in Love With You" begin to play, Buck starts to sing, his voice soft and sincere. Tommy's face flushes with a mix of embarrassment and deep affection as Buck serenades him in front of their friends and colleagues.

Each time Buck says 'husband', he feels a surge of pride and love. It's more than just a word—it's a testament to their journey, their commitment, and the life they've chosen to share. And Buck knows, without a doubt, that 'husband' is his favorite word yet.

[quantum1mmortality]

Yeah, BOO!! Twst men kinks and shit idk

another writers block blurb LMAO

My one coworker bought me ice cream in exchange for a shenhe smut so I'm trying to get done the floyd smut im working on so I can get that to her </3 here's some filler so you guys don't go starving waiting for content

Cw!!! Fem reader, so much filth

NO ORTHO.

Two disclaimers this time: SOME OF THESE MY INCLUDE SAM AND CREWEL, WHEN THEY DO, READER IS NOT YUU FOR THEM. also not proofread teehee

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Loves doing it in public. The fear of you guys getting caught while also having everyone know that you're his turns him on to no extent. He'll be thrusting into you at such a high speed, hand over you mouth as he whispers things in your ear, "someone may hear us, you may wanna keep it down." He says that with the CHEEKIEST grin on his face, he KNOWS how much you're struggling 😭😭

♧Cater, lilia, leona, rook(?), floyd, jade, Sam(would do it in his store)♧

Really like soft, sensual sex. Views it more as "love making", as he puts it. Will be rough if you want him to, but would never hit you. It may be hard for him to be rough at first, give him time. But back to the love making thing, he just can't get enough of you. He loves missionary because he can see all of you, having you in such a vulnerable position and having you let him do this to you makes him feel so trusted. He'll be going at a fast enough pace. Telling you how much he loves you, how much he wants you and how he wishes he could stay like this forever. Seriously the bestest men ever.

♧trey, malleus, silver, azul, riddle, jamil, kalim, jack, deuce,♧

So in love with you he'd try anything you want. Wanna tie him up? He's okay with that. Blindfolds? Who needs to see anyway. Wanna piss in his mouth? He thinks about it for a minute, but decides he'd gladly be your trashcan. In a way, all he wants to do is please you, he wants you to pleasure yourself on him so bad he'd do anything for that to become a reality.

♧kalim, sebek, malleus, ROOK, ruggie(only if you give him donuts), deuce, riddle, azul♧

Possessive sex x10. Would see you with another man and would get so anxious you may leave him. Too much of a baby back bitch to talk to you directly about it so he takes his frustration out by fucking you really hard. Says he's sorry later and tries to talk about it later but he's too shy.

♧just idia♧

SOOOOOO into breeding. Literally so inlove with how his cum drips put of you once he's done. Can't wait until you guys are older that way you guys can actually make a family. Seriously in love with the mating press position and hearing his balls slap on your ass when he's fucking you so hard.

♧malleus, leona, rook, vil, trey, cater, jack, crewel, azul, jade, floyd, jamilly willy♧

Wouldn't mind fucking you infront of a crowd. Not the same as fucking you in public, I mean like ACTUALLY fucking you in front of a crowd. Having hundreds of people watch the two of you express your love to eachother turns him on, he'd really like to do it but wouldn't wanna overstep your boundaries.

♧malleus, kalim, vil, leona, lilia but specifically general lilia♧

Really loves foreplay and can get off just by mouth fucking you. It turns him on knowing how easily you can get overstimulated from his mouth or fingers. He never expects anything in return, and he usually does it after you have a bad day (with consent ofc) so you can unwind more easily. Always runs a nice warm bath after <3

♧malleus (does want something in return sometimes but would never force you), trey, cater, ace, deuce, leona, silver floyd, jamil, rook♧

Kind of on the same page as the last one, LOVES having you sit on his face. Holds you down by your thighs and eats you out for hours on end. Definitely the type of guy to grab you by your waist, one hand rubbing your clit as he bounces you up and down on his tongue. Looks cutely fucked out when he's done.

♧ughhhhhh everyone bc yes <3♧

Uses lots of pet names during sex, will call you things like "darling","beloved","princess", idk may call you schnookums. Type of guy to call you all of these in one breath.

♧leona, rook, vil, floyd, lilia♧

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A/n: might make a part two idk lololilol

[liveontelevision]

I saw someone do headcanons on Lucifer and I know you'd write it perfectly. They basically said that if you were to ignore him, he'd practically BEG and WHINE like a bitch to have you talk to him. Even if it's telling him he's pathetic. As long as he hears your voice.

Ofc don't feel pressured to do this if you're busy or anything else, Ily🫶🏻🫶🏻 keep up the great work! :]

OKAY MORE SMUT (seriously, mdni 18+)

Sorry this one took forever but I'm prettyyy sure it's worth it. Let's just say this is Lucifer discovering some new things about himself :D

And ILY THANKS FOR THE REQUEST BBG

Throwing out a CW: Intersex Luci

Ignorance is Bliss | Lucifer x Reader

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Becoming comfortable with the King of Hell as his partner was easy. He made sure to cater to all your needs and give you everything you asked for. Overall, Lucifer was a sweetheart and a gentleman. And this was especially the case in bed. Considering his immense powers, he was giddy to fulfill any of your fantasies you'd have, no matter how bizarre. After being with him for long enough, fantasies dissolved into curiosities. Some nights became spicing things up in the bedroom in ways that you'd never consider, just to see how much you could handle. Now? you wanted to see how much he could handle.

Neither of you were comfortable with bringing intimacy to the public, not without proper care, at least. But what if you could work him up in a way only you knew about? Tease him throughout the day? How desperate could you make him without touching him? You couldn't recall where you picked up this idea, maybe somewhere online at some point. Knowing how deeply devoted he was to you, he was sure to hold a great reaction to this.

You were together when the hotel was renovated, so it was an easy transition for you. Everyone already aware of your relationship and loving you in turn made your afterlife seem like less of a punishment.

His top priority was your comfort when you both moved. He made sure to be close to you in group settings, keeping a hand on you at almost all times. Whether that be a hand on your thigh or the small of your back, or simply having his fingers intertwined in yours, it felt like a relief for both of you.

But with this little act you were pulling, you would lean away from his touch, and make excuses to disappear for the afternoon. Or in the halls, where he'd usually greet you with a quick kiss or I love you, you'd pull out your phone as you approached him, or simply smiled with your eyes barely looking his direction. He would swear, if anyone asked, that this wasn't bugging him one bit. Not. At. All. You were all his at the end of the day, you could treat him however you want and he'd submit. He's fine. He's acting fine.

When it came to the hotel, there weren't many demons jumping at the chance of redemption in the beginning, so some nights turned into drinks, games, and music. You felt so incredibly lucky to be a part of this family, your eyes scanning across the room and taking in just the pure enjoyment of everyone around you. The center of it all tonight was Lucifer. He was going on about some fantastical story that involved a circus in some other ring of Hell, that then evolved into sharing baby photos of Charlie. His eyes always sparkled when he would talk about his daughter. You loved her too, of course, but your heart always fluttered when his admiration would show.

Still, you had that little experiment to play with tonight. As Lucifer went on about his stories, either entertaining demons with their content or his ridiculous retellings, everyone was drawn in. Not to mention, he was drunk and was acting like a fool, so he was even entertaining Alastor. With one foot on the barstool and the other propped on the counter, he acted out some ridiculous story that you paid no mind to. In fact, you made it a point to not react to anything, despite how intense he was becoming. You'd look down at your phone as he spoke. Or you'd start some random conversation with Husk, who really could care less, but he at least responded to you.

Keeping your eyes off of him was a challenge, but you could tell he was trying to get your attention when he'd brag about something. With no response, he would stutter mid-sentence, then change the topic after not getting the reaction he wanted out of you. With each ignorant glance, he took a swig of his drink.

He was seated after that, being scolded for scuffing the tables with his heels. That's when the ridiculous jokes began. You loved his jokes! You could listen to them all day, even laughing when he told you the same joke over and over. But not tonight, you had to remind yourself. You bit your tongue and sucked in your lips to hide any smile or laughter that might pass through. Still avoiding looking in his direction entirely, Lucifer was suddenly silenced. You looked up at him through half lidded eyes, then back down to your screen, mindlessly scrolling through essentially nothing. Charlie was quick to distract him with a story, he was nodding along and smiling as best he could for her. The party dwindled, leaving you, Lucifer and Husk.

“I-uh.. think our royal highness has had enough. You should take him to bed, kid.” Husk finally draws your attention to Lucifer, who has laid his head on the countertop, incoherently mumbling. You sigh and nod, taking his drink from his hand and rising to your feet. Just barely touching his shoulder, he immediately straightens his posture.

“Good call, kitty!” He had a habit of calling Husk that when he wasn't entirely there, it made both of you cringe, “Bedtime, my love?” He takes a hold of your hand in both of his and you have to remind yourself this is just for fun. The endgame has to be worth it. You pull away, already walking through the portal he had created when he was talking. He looked at you as you stood in your shared room, still seated at the bar. Finally turning, you sigh and place your hands on your hips.

“C’mon, Lucifer.” You said absentmindedly, using a beckoning finger to draw him in. He eagerly jumped from his seat following you in, even with his chest aching. You didn't normally use his name. Usually it was darling, or my love, or good boy if he was acting accordingly. He takes a hold of your arm as the portal shuts, pressing a kiss to your knuckles, then running small pecks along the length of your arm, stopping at the start of your shoulder. You let out a small, almost nervous sounding chuckle, before reeling back.

“Didn't see you around the hotel today, darling. Did you do anything fun?” Lucifer sways as he speaks. Maybe small talk would help? He was trying his hardest to act casual and keep a clear conscience considering how much alcohol he’s had at this point. You shake your head, pulling your top off. You decide to sort through your clothes long enough to let Lucifer catch the sight of you bent at the hips, rummaging through a dresser drawer while topless. You could hear him gulp. He starts the same way, but struggles with the buttons on his vest.

“L-love, I might need-” his intoxication is clear in his voice at this point. After throwing on some sort of silky slip, you sigh and turn your attention to him. Looking down and fiddling with the buttons, he begins to lose his balance and finds himself leaning against a wall for stability. You approach him silently, and easily undo each of his buttons. You'd be lying if this alone wasn't making your stomach flutter. Even then, it was easy to keep your cool after seeing that he was clearly enjoying this too much. You notice his labored breathing as he braces his arms against the wall, allowing you to run your hands across his bare chest and slipping his shirt and vest to the ground with some maneuvering. You keep your hands at his hips for a moment, he lifted his pelvis away from the wall, maybe hoping for some kind of friction. You were lingering barely an inch away from his lips. Hearing the smallest whimper seemed to remind you of your mission, so you quickly pulled away.

“Good night, Lucifer~” just that sentence alone sent him spinning. Your lips so close to him and your voice so smooth, he was beginning to enjoy the sound of his name in your mouth.

More. He needs more.

As you crawled under the covers, you made it a point to hum and moan as you stretched and settled in. Pulling your phone back up to your face, you barely had time to look at anything before a clawed hand had slowly pushed your device down, revealing a very red-faced Lucifer.

“Is something wrong, love? Can I.. help you?” He was genuinely worried. You almost felt guilty at that moment. With a final sigh, you set your phone aside and cupped his hot to the touch cheek in your hand. He immediately let the weight of his head fall into your hands, humming contently at the long overdue contact. Still, you shake your head in response to him, keeping your lips sealed. His lip finally starts to quiver and he lets out a shaky breath.

“Please, I need your voice, love.. I miss it- I miss you.” He almost breaks you, so you decide to reward him for this display at least. You silently press a kiss against his eager lips. He's ready to pull you in and ravish you with that alone, he’d do anything to hear your voice. You pull away. He tries making connections in his foggy mind, tracing through the past few days to see if there was anything he might’ve done for you to be this cruel to him. He can't think of any wrong doings, but.. he'll do anything.

“P-please? darling?” He stammers out, continuing to crawl towards you and sitting prettily on your lap. The view itself drove you mad. You could keep your lips sealed, but you couldn't prevent the blush becoming apparent across your cheeks. He hums, satisfied with this reaction at least.

“I don't know what's going on with you, but.. I love you.” Oh, shit. “.. I love you~” He repeats.

You keep your eyes away from him. This one was a struggle.

“T-That’s fine, don't tell me about your day.. o-or laugh at my jokes, but, darling-” he turns your head to face him, a hand lightly bringing you forward by your chin, you notice his eyes glowing. “I love you.”

…

Fine.

“I love you, too.” You said it quietly, a hint of defeat in your tone. He immediately perks up, shifting his grasp on your chin to thumb at your jaw, nearly encompassing your throat with his hand. Closing the already very small gap between your lips, he eagerly explores your mouth with his forked tongue. You yelp into his lips in surprise, before pushing him away carefully, seeing how much of a mess you've made him from just that phrase.

“Lucifer, that wasn't very nice, was it? You have to ask.” You said sternly, sitting up to rest your back on the headboard and pulling him with you to keep him seated on your thighs.

“W-Wha.. Ask? To kiss you? Well that seems.. rather…” He questions with a nervous laughter, waiting for the punchline. You only nod your head in agreement.

“Well.. can I kiss you, then..?” He asks awkwardly. It was cute enough, But this wasn't your original vision.

“Mmmm- no.” Making a big show out of tapping your chin and letting your eyes wander around the room, you finally look back at him.

“What? Oh- um.. please?” He clarifies, a now nervous smile present on his face.

“Please, what?” You start running your hands across his abdomen, letting them interlock behind his back and pulling him just a bit closer.

“C-can I kiss you.. please..?” You thought he'd be agitated at this point, but his voice is dripping with desperation. He likes it. You see his hips shifting just above your thighs.

“Hm. Maybe.. I just don't think you want it enough, my love.” You say sweetly, pouting as if you felt any remorse. You ran your hands up his chest, then back down his sides, brushing your fingers just slightly below his belt. He huffs.

“Sweetheart! I-I do want it! please..? I want you, p-please..” He finally moans out, panting heavily only from your hands along his bare skin. You couldn't help but smile, and finally give him what he wants. With a gentle kiss onto his lips, it's clear that he's shaking with anticipation. He wasn't jumping you like before or taking the lead to suffice his own desires. It's as if he was waiting for permission. You weren't going to give in that easily, though.

You pulled away after that single kiss, looking at him like you had just asked a question and were waiting for a proper response. Finally catching his breath, he braces himself up by keeping his hands on your shoulders. He looks at you with the sweetest puppy eyes, shifting his weight on his knees to ease the growing discomfort pressed in his pants.

“More, my love.. I need more- I-I need you to-” He's still rambling. You hum, letting the hand that had been sitting on his hip palm at the bulge in his pants. You learn forward, pressing your lips against his skin and running your tongue up his neck. He shivers, the sudden sensations after being ignored for so long already forces a pathetic sound from him, music to your ears. Your kisses become sloppy, and your little nips will surely bruise and shine by the next morning.

“I-I want- ahh~” He’s keeping up with it? You thought for sure this little game of yours had ended. You won and you're giving him the attention he finally needs, yet he's still begging for you? “talk to me.. darling-” he chokes out, moving his hands that had been tightly gripping your shoulders to cup your cheeks. You were pulled back by his touch, a slightly shocked expression on your face. “Please.” His eyes were brimming with tears. A single line of golden blood and saliva dripped from his mouth from biting a little too hard on his lip, in an attempt to keep his noises at bay. You moved your hands away from his buldge, which had accumulated a wet spot onto his trousers, then went back to trailing your fingers across his skin again.

“Okay.” You respond. He perks up at your acceptance, the little sparkle in his eyes brings a smile to your face. “Since you asked so nicely.” you said sweetly, “So.. how badly did you miss me? Only a few days like this and you’re already a mess.. did you miss our little conversations? My voice?” You question softly, brushing your thumb across his cheek to wipe away some stressed tears that had fallen. He nods, holding onto your hand and burying his cheek into your palm.

“-My touch?” You massage his hip, letting your hand drift closer to the clasps on his pants. He nodded again, much more eagerly this time. “Hm. Good.” with one final kiss to his lips, you push him to the side, swapping your positions, to where you were hovering over him with your arms caging him in. He barely has time to process the quick switch, before feeling your hands tug his pants. He's moaning at the sensation alone, holding onto whatever he could find, gripping your wrist in one hand and balling up the sheets in his other.

You linger above him, your lips just above his. You could feel him panting heavily against you, even before touching him. You'd normally be passionately entangled at this point, But here, you got the chance to see his face. You were enjoying taking your time with this one.

“You're being such a good boy for me.. you're doing so well.” Your eyes flutter shut to capture him in another heavy kiss, and you reach unto his pants, planning to slowly relieve his stress. A sudden request leaves his mouth, stopping you for a moment.

“N-no..! Nono.. love, my name. Use my name- please..” He's shaking his head, finally mustering the courage to make his request. Another new development. God, he was perfect. You move to his jaw, pressing kisses up to his ear before breathing heavily against it.

“Lucifer-” you finally say. He lets out a pathetic whimper, clamping his grip down onto your wrist and bucking his hips into your sudden, yet tantalizingly slow, palming. “You're doing so good for me, Lucifer. My Lucifer. My sweet, Luci~” you mutter into his skin, beginning to pump your hand a bit faster. He is doing so good for you, afterall, he deserves it.

This wasn't the only game you wanted to play tonight. you wanted to fully take care of your poor neglected king after all you've put him through. After toying with him for long enough, edging him from release each time, you finally let him rest. You pull away, after bringing him to the brink and tearing him away each time, you were reveling in his pretty tears. All the senses you were enrapturing suddenly put to a halt, forced him to look at you desperately. You fully dismount him, leaving him nude under your gaze. Slightly embarrassed, he pulls his legs together. You rest your hands gently on the top of knees.

“I’ll need both tonight, Luci.” You say casually. This was something you've tried before, and it was definitely due for a second round. You felt he needed the extra love. He nodded, his face completely heating up. walking your fingers across his legs and helping him take his trousers completely off, you were treated with the pretty sight of his already soaked pussy, that sat quite nicely below his already overstimulated cock. The combination of his two sexes was enough to drive a whimper even from you. You quickly dip down, your own desperation meeting his. After bringing him to the brink beforehand but not letting him finish, it wasn't long before he was squirming and whimpering under your touch.

Even with all that, he was still begging you for more. Drunk off his juices already, you ran your tongue up from his folds, flicking at his clit, then sending a heated trail right up to the head of his cock. he arches his back into the full exposure, and you have to keep your hands on his thighs to keep his legs from shutting. The agonizing moans and gasps he was letting out only made you want to hear more. Hastily pushing three fingers into his entrance, his voice cracked out some resemblance of your name. He doesn't use his other sex often, so when you get the chance to eat your fill, he's almost always struggling to keep any composure. pumping his cock in one hand, you skillfully pump and curl your fingers into him with the other, all the while maneuvering your tongue and lips to suction onto his clit.

“Mm-! I-I can't- ahha- take… anymore- m-mmy love-” He's stammering. You pull away for a moment to let out a single phrase,

“What do you say, Lucifer?” Before continuing your brutal overstimulation. Only hearing more whimpers, you slowed your motions, waiting for a proper response. You only speed up your movements, after keeping your thumb lightly pressed against the top of his head.

“P-Please-” he shoots his head back into the pillows, his legs already shaking. “Please, can I-I-” You hum against him, sending a mild vibration that still made a big impact, before lifting your thumb just slightly.

“You may, Lucifer.” You run your tongue across his entirety again, enclosing his cock into your mouth and taking in his final thrusts.

Still whimpering and gasping, you continue to bob your head, moving slow circles across his clit, and causing his body to fully tremor beneath you.

You finally sit up, enjoying the view beneath you, while wiping away anything that you didn't manage to already swallow. Even with his eyes closed from the pure exhaustion, he's muttering your name under his breath. You still don't know how you managed to get this lucky, so you appreciate his drunken appearance for a moment longer before cleaning him up and eventually settling him under the covers. You hold him tight to your chest, your limbs intertwined. Even with immense angelic power, he returns your embrace weakly, with shaky arms.

“I love you, Lucifer.” You hum, pressing a kiss onto his forehead while brushing some hair from his face. He's still catching his breath, “Luci-” you say just as sweetly. He barely opens his eyes to meet your gaze, still silent. With a gentle grip on his chin, you pull him upwards to fully face you. “I love you~” You repeat.

“Mmn- love you.. dear…” He grumbles, still clearly dazed from the events of the night. Running your thumb along his lower lip, you muffle his tired moan with a kiss, before letting him rest his chin comfortably against your chest. You’d say your little experiment was a success. And you're sure Lucifer learned a lesson along the way; He has to ask for what he wants.

♡♡♡

Hope you like intersex lucifer bc I recently discovered I LOVE INTERSEX LUCIFER

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[sapphicflower-ao3]

what are ur personal favorite fics? i can be a bit picky and have a hard time finding fics but i love ur writing and i feel like we might have similar tastes based on that :3

i'm sorry it took me like a week to get to this!! i wanted to compile my faves and write notes for each of them... and i went overboard LOL. but thanks so much omg, i'm flattered that you would trust my taste based on my writing!

these are all bkdk obviously :)

i. 'In Case of Fire' - passengerside

post-canon // complete // 11K // E

an absolute MASTERPIECE!!! this author has become a recent favourite of mine, i love the way they incorporate little details into their work and make the mundane so beautiful.

highly recommend all of their other works, especially 'Pacemaker'! so freaking beautiful and fun and the lead up to the confession was a genuine holding-my-breath moment

ii. 'Sun Hands' - yesthisisnarumi

snowboarding AU // complete // 5K // T

i've re-read this one so many times it's SOOOOO good! so fun and so classically bkdk it's insane. everybody say thank you OP for giving us the rival olympic champions to lovers story we needed

iii. 'all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing' - maxisnotokay

UA compliant // complete // 11K // T

i dont usually read a lot of whump but this was brilliant, im a sucker for this specific trope and for LOVE CONFESSIONS YEASS!!! obvi it has a happy ending bc i wouldnt have it any other way. a good length too :)

iv. 'Spinnin' On Our Feet' - sage_and_cinnamon

High School AU // ongoing // 47K // M

UNDERRATED AS FUCK and my favourite ongoing fic right now. i usually dont read jock x nerd AUs but this fic is so brilliantly funny and charming and heartwarming and it blew all my expectations out of the water and then some. i've been following it for ages and it's been on hiatus for a good while, but it updated recently and when i tell you it was the best day of my freaking life...

v. 'In Perfect Rhythm' - chalk

Band AU // complete // 50K // E

yes how surprising, a band AU fic in my faves list. anyway shut up, chalk is literally godlike in their writing and this fic was SO FUN and scratched all the itches. nothing gets me going more than awkwardly endearing izuku n rockstar katsuki

vi. 'Last Days of War' - antisora

Pacific Rim AU // complete // 44K // M

GENUINELY ONE OF HUMANITY'S BEST PIECES OF LITERATURE???? fuck. i never have the proper words for this fic, but it is SO gripping and the worldbuilding is so tight and their relationship development is so good and the CLIMAX OF THIS HAS BEEN MORE EPIC THAN HALF THE BLOCKBUSTERS I'VE SEEN. i beg you to read this even if you have never watched Pacific Rim. or maybe go watch the movie and get EDUCATED and then read this! i'm begging you, dear reader!!

vii. 'Ingenium' - crandberrycrush

Astronauts AU // complete // 85K // E

guys i love sci-fi sorry lol. this one is another brilliant fic. OP put so much blood, sweat and tears into research and it shows, it is just very intelligent and the plot itself is HEART RACING and GUTTING and THRILLING. there's a lot of POVs and it really fleshes it out, tho ofc bkdk is the main thing. happy ending obvi! it is the space/astronaut drama that i love and adore, just BKDKified now!

viii. 'The Magic in a Mirror' - totallyrottentomatoes

Magic/Circus AU // complete // 80K // E

oh how surprising, a totallyrottentomaoes fic in my faves list. anyone who knows me knows that i rec this fic all the time. it's one of my all time favourites, if not my favourite of all time lol, and it's really because of the writing and the imagery and the characterisation and the relationships b/w all the characters. it's all just so well done and MAGICAL. no joke, if i could print and bind a fic into a book, it would be this one. no notes. perfection. caters to my tastes so specifically. i could go on about this fic forever but i'll shut up for now

also highly recommend 'The Distance Between Suns' by this author - it's a high fantasy epic with TIGHT AS FUCK worldbuilding, brilliantly written, the romance is BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN, the payoffs are amazing, etc... this deserves to be published and revered

ix. 'Battle of the Bands' - roadtripwithlucifer

Band AU // complete // 168K // E

look i know i always rec this fic, i just can't help that it's like my favourite thing ever. roadtripwithlucifer and totallyrottentomatoes my BELOVEDS. the humour in this fic is so fucking yummy and brilliant, the writing is gorgeous in typical roadtrip fashion, the stakes are gripping, the climax is thrilling, the romance n yearning is INTENSE, the sex is hot as hell, the ending is so satisfying, just..... the whole package.

and while you're here, read other roadtripwithlucifer works like 'Nothing Else Fills' if you feel like destroying your heart :) an angsty and beautifully written time-travel-to-save-my-kacchan-gone-wrong war AU fic. i love OP's works but her more recent fics (eg. after battle of the bands) have had some of her best writing. i adore it when you can feel how an author has poured their soul into their work, you can always feel it in a roadtripwithlucifer work and it's just the cherry on top

x. 'Scar Tissue' - Loriqod

canon-compliant // complete // 18K // E

loriqod is another author with a characterisation that i fuck with so hard... this one was so full of that Yearning and Tension that i so vibe with. bonus points to the plots focus on bkdk's scars like yes pls more of that <3

anyway i might make a part 2 some other time, these are just the ones i grabbed from my public bookmarks. i have a lot of private ones and some of them i forgot to make public oops

hope u find smth u enjoy!

[kirain]

What's your take on the whole Max and Chloe break up in Double Exposure?

Also are you going to play it? I enjoyed your analysis of True Colors and Before the Storm.

Thank you! And oh boy...

My friends and I have actually been talking about this for the past few days, and maybe it's just my specific friend group, but ... we're fine with it? 😅

None of us sacrificed Arcadia Bay for Chloe. I'd say half of my friends hate her and half of them love her, but even my friends who love/relate to her couldn't justify it to themselves. One girl from our group, who dyed her hair blue after playing the game and absolutely worshipped Chloe, still chose Arcadia Bay. So from that standpoint, none of us are really hurting from Deck Nine's decision.

As for the people who are hurting, I'm sorry. Truly. I'm sorry you're disappointed. I understand how it feels and it sucks, especially when you chose Chloe despite the consequences. That was your decision and you had the right to make it. You had the right to enjoy it. Narratively, though ... it does makes sense. At least in my eyes. The only aspect that doesn't is Chloe ending up with Victoria, which I've heard happens? But I've searched high and low and that doesn't seem to be confirmed anywhere. There's a message where Victoria and Chloe go to a concert together, but that doesn't mean they're a couple, so I think this is just a stretch from angry players.

Other than that, I don't find Deck Nine's thought process all that outrageous. Their reason for breaking up is something I considered when it came time to choose between Chloe and the town. Chloe openly asks you to sacrifice her, saying that her mom and everyone else in Arcadia Bay deserves better—and I agree. Joyce, David, Warren, Kate, Alyssa, Stella, Dana, Daniel, Ms. Grant, Samuel the custodian, they all deserve to live. Even the characters we don't like, like Taylor and Victoria, at least deserve a chance. They're teenagers.

If you sacrifice Arcadia Bay, the animation when Max and Chloe drive through the demolished town clearly shows an air of regret on Max's face. She refused Chloe's first and only selfless demand and let thousands die for her; animals, men, women, and children. I personally find it difficult to believe that their relationship could work after that. Even the comics explore this concept, with Max leaving Chloe for a while because she can't handle the guilt.

The first Life is Strange is essentially a game about a girl who can't stop running from the past and a girl who can't let go of it. Given what Max and Chloe go through together, and considering how different they are as individuals, it's perfectly reasonable to assume that, as they grow and mature into adults, they wouldn't be able to salvage a slowly breaking relationship. Chloe would forever see the girl that killed thousands—including her own mother—for her, while Max would see a constant reminder of all the people she killed. It's a very realistic outcome for Pricefield, if we're being honest. And according to the letters, Chloe wanted to move on, but Max couldn't, while Max felt like Chloe was being a hypocrite. It's raw and complex and entirely believable.

Not to mention the first game never promises that Max and Chloe become a couple. You can sacrifice Arcadia Bay without romancing Chloe. There's two variants, couples or besties. So how on earth was Deck Nine going to cater to everyone, especially when there's a timeline where Chloe is dead? It would be impossible without making two drastically different games. Their only option was to remove Chloe from the plot entirely (alienating her fans) or miraculously revive her, in which case she would become the main focus of the story instead of Sifa, and it would negate the majority of people's decision from the first game. Nearly 60% of players sacrificed Chloe across the board, so I can understand why Deck Nine gave that outcome precedence. But it was a lose/lose situation from the start, so perhaps the best argument one can make is that they shouldn't have made a new game at all.

NOTE: I just found out that in the comics, Victoria and Chloe actually become good friends and Victoria matures a ton, so I dunno. Maybe the two of them getting together makes sense after all. 🤷‍♀️ That said, the comics aren't canon to the games and, in my opinion (based on what I've researched), they seem like a fanfic written to try and justify the sacrifice of thousands of innocent people, so I'm pretty indifferent to them.

Of course, there is another detail I've rarely seen people broach when discussing this drama: we don't really know anything yet. Above all, I think we need to remember that the game isn't finished. We've only seen two episodes. We have no idea where the narrative is going. For all we know, Max and Chloe might get back together by the end. Or even more likely, this is an alternate timeline Max. Much like the comics, this is just one of infinite possibilities. I think people need to calm down and hold their criticisms until we see the final product.

[elainsgirl]

I just can't with this fandom anymore. I'm not leaving but some part of me has just felt done with this fandom for a long time. It's honestly exhausting to not be able to escape having people tell elriels they're dumb and delusional for literally just reading the books and picking up what was obviously put down. I just wish we were left in peace. After years in this fandom, I'm seriously disappointed with both bb and sjm, and I've tried my hardest to not be and to be understanding. But at some point it becomes so taxing to see fans who truly enjoy her work hit over the head with the opposite of what the actual narrative is about and told that is the story told in the most cruel and degrading ways possible. Doxxed, harassed, insulted, bullied out of the fandom. And told they're dumb, delusional and pathetic. Because god forbid elriels are left in peace. I don't want to throw around words like gaslighting carelessly, but its just the closest word to describe what's going on from antis towards elriels.

How many mutuals have I seen leave at this point? Not because they lost interest but because they couldn't stand the toxicity of this fandom. People who were akin to friends, and now that connection is gone.

The reality is there are several books of obvious buildup, iconic moments, romance coded scenes between elriel that shifted the whole narrative before they even got their book. Connection, friendship, lust, longing, ache, beauty. "Are you dumb? They're rebounds!", "she's useless, she doesn't bring anything to the story!", "you idiot, he's just lusting after her!", "potatoes? Pathetic. Az just has mommy issues!", "the shadows hate her!", "elain doesn't belong in the night court, you dumbass, learn to read!", "she doesn't belong with him because she can't have his babies, obviously!", "she's can't handle his darkness, and you're illiterate by the way"...

Have that, and all the other gaslighting arguments from antis, hammered into you for four years and it's not so fun anymore. Oh, and you'll be called overly sensitive for being a little affected by it. Which is why I'm sending my first anon ever, after a decade on Tumblr in various different fandoms.

When fandoms turn toxic, I've seen authors put their foot down. Not through any grand gestures, but a simple social media post. And still, radio silence from both bb and sjm. It's just exhausting and it's unbelievable. I think it is wrong. I think published authors have some responsibility towards their readers that made them successful. I think it is catering to the toxic parts of the fandom to stay silent, because at some point, the silence becomes enabling, whether you want it to or not.

I will read the elriel book and I am sure I will enjoy it. But after that, I am forever done with both BB and sjm. I cannot understand caring so little about the fans that actually love your work. I don't know why any author would want this as part of their legacy without ever having put even the most minor effort into doing something about it. Sorry for the rant.

never apologise for ranting anon, we all need to do it once in a while and thats what I’m here for 💕

being an elriel in this fandom is hard because everyone else gangs up on you: the unconventional theories gang + eluciens. Especially when you consider how elriels are in the minority whereas these guys aren’t. Their voices in the fandom are louder - their opinions are more favourable because its what the majority wants to hear. And being an elriel, you have to constantly deal with all these bs takes that are so easily disproven but no one ever wants to listen because its not what they want from this series.

I can confidently say - elriel and elriels are held to a different standard then every other ship/stan. We have to work twice as hard to prove ourselves and it’s something no other ship has gone through. There’s double standards and hypocrisy when it comes to how people view elriel. Lets take the lust arguement as an example. For Nessian - half their book was them lusting for each other, their bonus was them being down bad for each other. No one called Cassian disgusting or icky. No one said Nessian can’t be together because they only “lust” for each other. Yet the minute we get Azriels bonus, his thoughts and its AFTER we’ve seen him risk his life for her, spend his time listening to her talk about her gardens, making everyone wait for her, the bonus is after all these scenes that show us how much Az cares for Elain - yet just because Az thought about how much he wanted to pleasure elain (after she was turned on) instead of confessing his undying love for her - you have antis saying its just lust! Az is toxic! Az is disgusting! He’s a F-boy!

So yes. Being an elriel in this fandom is very frustrating. Its unjust. And the worst part is - unless you’re in private chats for positive elriel only- antis infiltrate every elriel space across all platforms. So no matter how much you try, you always will come across them hating on elriels and elriel. The best word for it is draining. It drains the joy out of you which sucks because thats not the purpose of the fandom.

and then on top of them undermining elriel - its the constant jabs and insults thrown at elriels for no reason at all, taking a dig out of our reading comprehension, calling us desperate. Copy cats. And then its the bullying, making fun of our fanarts publicly- policing us constantly for things that aren’t out fault. The doxxing, stalking etc. Its so juvenile behaviour and that makes you feel even more isolated and attacked

can’t forget for being called cry babies when we bring up valid issues. They dont even allow us to enjoy ourselves. Look at last week: when the cards came out - antis where the first to make fun of us and how we needed to rely on cards for our ship to work. Then came the article which antis said elriels need articles to feel confident whilst they have the books. Its like every time something good happens to elriels, every time we’re acknowledged - antis have to go and ruin it by being bitter. And then instead of enjoying ourselves - its back to being defensive and having to explain how none of those things confirm elriel but its a good sign. Something thats common sense to normal people.

I respect the authors that call out the BS they see in their fandoms, those authors make it a safe place for their stans to enjoy. Sarah and BB haven’t done that - they’ve allowed so many things to happen and go far with such as the illyrian womb arguement. And I try to be understanding, like @nikethestatue mentioned today - that there’s around 2000 (maximum) of active, hardcore shippers in the fandom whereas Sjms reach is upto millions. We’re all just tiny little ants running around. She can’t see us and rlly doesn’t gaf. Even the loudest of the loudest voice in the active online fandom -still isnt loud enough to make Mass notice. And for Sarah, not only is her fandom big - her books receive lots of criticism. I can understand her wanting to stay away from all that - protect her peace but BB have also neglected this fandom and its annoying when it feels like every other author is constantly interacting with their readers and here it’s just radio silence for 4 years. I think feeling frustrated and angry at BB is completely valid. 4 years is honestly just ridiculous especially when the book isn’t guaranteed to be good.

After the elriel book, exactly like you, I am done with Sarah and her series. Nothing will ever tempt me to come back, i’ll make my content after reading the book - my thoughts on it and thats it. I’ll leave the fandom on all platforms because I have no interest in any other of Sarah’s series and with how long I’ve had to wait just for the elriel book and knowing what I went through whilst waiting, I dont want to experience this ever again. It stopped being fun long ago. And I honestly don’t understand Sarah’s or BB’s thought process right now, why they decided to wait so long or how they’ll announce the book but I think they’re all betting on this book to do rlly well so Mass can re-enter the fantasy genre w a bang becoming a hot topic again. But with how long its been? I dont think they’ll get the response they expected. Maybe that might teach them a lesson.

[mylittlesecrethaven]

I'm Making Fluff Headcannons Cause I'm Sad: Heartslaybyul

Let's do this :3

(This is gonna be multipart because otherwise it would take too long.)

Riddle:

Baby boi

The most adorable when he's not angry

But he's not the best with comforting or being super lovey-dovey

So if you're a touchy person who loves contact, it's not gonna go well, sorry

But he'll warm up eventually

Just start slow please

But he is the freaking best with acts of kindness

Having trouble with school work?

Now there's detailed notes on your bed

Overworking yourself?

Suddenly, Ace and Deuce are helping without telling you why

Also, the best teacher for croquet

Super patient with you (and you only)

And yes, he'll still be strict on the rules with you

But he won't collar you (immedietely)

And he won't yell (as much, at least)

He tries his best with you

But he's still too nervous to say he loves you back

Just give him time

(Also, would def fight his mom if she said anything bad about you. He's a momma's boi, but he will do a lot for you)

Trey:

Trust me, you're never gonna get a scolding from the dentist again

Not even joking

And if you didn't have a sweet tooth before, you do now

But also, if you really don't like sweets, he'd compromise for you

He'll make whatever sweets you like

Also always there for you in whatever trouble you have

Dealing with Grim will be a double duty thing though

Even he can only take so much of the little devil cat

A lot better with physical contact, but not big on pda

You can initiate it in public, but he'll only do it when nobody's around

Wanna learn to bake?

He got you, no worries

Is Riddle mad at you?

Trey can so easily calm him down

Ace and Deuce messing with you?

Dealt with (in a vice-housewarden way, not an illegal way)

Kindest, most patient understanding mans ever

Cater:

Pda

Straight up, pda

(Unless you're uncomy with it. He can keep his distance if you prefer)

But social media is a big factor now

Even if you're not a fan, he'll beg and puppy-dog eye you until you give in

If you're real insistent, though, he won't post it

He'll just keep it on his phone

He'll try to help with schoolwork

But he's not as good as Riddle or Trey would be

Much better with more practical stuff

If you're anti-social, no prob!

He'll keep the spotlight off you and on himself

And if you do like to be seen?

He can draw a crowd for you if that's what you want!

And he swoons every time you ask for a pic with him

Mans is over the moon for you

Ace:

Tease

Absolutely teases the heck out of you

And loves it if you tease him back

But if you can't take the teasing (or you're just not in the mood), he can lay off

But just know, he's directing his teasing to Deuce if he can't tease you

Not the best with helping out with.... well.... anything

But he tries!

Need help with Grim?

He can help! (He does try, at least. Give him credit for that)

He's not easy to embarrass with pda, even though he's not real big on it

But oooo boy if you kiss him in front of anybody, he becomes more red than angry Riddle

Boi will stutter and just get more and more flustered

Great Sevens forbid you get a picture of him flustered

You could hold that over his head forever

But like I said, he loves being teased

Super great at comforting tho

You feel sad?

He'll lend his shoulder

(He ain't the best with comforting words tho, so don't expect any)

Great at making you laugh

Deuce:

Don't tease him

You'll break him

Praise him and he's like a little puppy

He'll do the same to you

Any small achievement and he's complimenting you like you've just got a 100 in Crewel's class

Not the best with schoolwork, but loves it when you help him

He will, most definitely, carry you everywhere he can

Bridal style, piggyback, you name the way, he'll do it

(Ask him for fireman carry, he'll get so flustered, but he'd never say no to you)

(Unless it's dangerous, in which case he puts his foot down)

He loves running around with you

And if you're athletic?

He loves loves loves racing with you

And if you can ride a Blastcycle?

Y'all can ride together!

And if you can't?

He can teach you! (Or you can simply ride while he drives)

Overall, very puppy boi

No pda or he will shut down

Kisses do that to him anyway even if you're not in public

I hope these are ok. It's my first time doing this, so lemme know if it's bad or not.

:3

[dreamsnails]

Hi! Im kinda new to tumblr and asking fanfic requests so please let me know if im doing something wrong! So I have a request for a sal fisher x GN reader (preferably headcanons but if you'd be more comfortable doing a oneshot that's also completely fine!) Where the reader doesn't really have any friends and has pretty extreme social anxiety? Like, they have hard time speaking in front of people they just met and get really fidgety and even sometimes have panic attacks? And they just really want to have friends and they get really mad at themself for not being able to keep or start friendships. Again sorry if I've made a mistake with requesting!

Oh boy, this one hits oddly close to home. I actually wrote (but then scrapped) a whole vent fic about Sal comforting someone (me specifically but I formatted it to be for anyone) who had a really rough day and is now thinking about every little embarrassing thing to ever happen to them but they don't know how to process or vent those emotions by themselves. I might go back and try to finish that and post it later if you're interested in fluff content like that, but for now here are my headcanons for this specific situation. I really hope you like them.

<3

In Public:

He’s always holding your hand. He makes sure to gently rub his thumb over the top of your hand, especially when he notices your warning signs. 

He never ever speaks over you, even if you’re taking a while to say what you mean.

He always invites you to hang out with his friends if he’s going to. If you don’t want to he won’t try to push you.

He will 100% complain about your order at a restaurant for you, but if you’re worried about causing a scene he always orders something you like for himself so you can switch if they mess up your food.

He carries little fidgets like small fidget cubes and magnetic beads in his pocket so you can have something to focus on when you’re overwhelmed or overstimulated. 

He comforts you and praises you quietly and away from people after you interact with receptionists or cashiers or strangers, especially if you feel you had a particularly bad interaction. He understands how much extra energy it takes you to communicate with others.

He understands if you can’t find the energy to do those things, too. He’ll talk for you if you ask him to and he would never criticize you for not being able to speak to someone. He’s proud of you for wanting to try regardless of if you succeed or not. 

He immediately removes you from crowded areas if you happen to have a panic attack in a public space. He’ll comfort you in whichever way you need. He has an arsenal of tools that you both brainstormed together to help you recover, and he’ll let you decide if you want to go home or continue in public after you do. 

He goes to your doctor’s appointments with you for moral support. 

In Private:

He will hold you forever if you will it. 

He will also give you plenty of space if you're overstimulated by too much physical contact.

RESPECTS. YOUR. BOUNDARIES. He NEVER pushes you when you're not comfortable with something-- from him touching you, to you not wanting to go somewhere, to you not feeling comfortable speaking to him at a particular moment. He knows you need patience and compassion and he gives you ALL of it.

He gave you his cellphone number, his dad’s number, his landline number, and Larry’s cellphone number so you can reach him no matter what when you need him.

He lets you borrow his shirts so that you have a part of him to comfort you when he can’t be around and he rotates them so they always smell like him. 

He writes you little notes about how much he loves you and how proud of you he is and hides them around your room when he visits for you to find later.

He’ll cater to your every need if you have an especially hard day at work or school. He’ll come over and build you a blanket fort, get you your favorite drink, and play your favorite games with you until you feel better.

When you become upset with yourself for struggling to talk to people and relate to people, he is always there to remind you about all of the amazing things he loves about you. He also lets you know how much he and his friends enjoy hanging out with you, and that they are your friends no matter what other people think about you.

If a friendship of yours falls out, he’s the first to remind you that you tried your best and that all relationships take two to last. There are people who love and care about you just the way you are, like him, Larry, and Ash (and your family, if you have a good relationship with them). Everything will be okay.

Even if it feels like nobody in the world cares about you, he will, no matter what. 

[putschki1969]

following your previous reply to another anon, its still beyond me why there are fans who are more focused on the negative side of the girls. I still fail to understand their point of view.

Hello there! Another late reply. So sorry about that.

For anyone who is curious, this message is a direct response to my post HERE.

The thing is, it's not like I don't get where this is coming from. It's common knowledge that negative/hateful content on social media affects your brain like an addictive substance. At some point, you probably start to crave that shit and it becomes the only thing that's stimulating to your rapidly degenerating brain cells. And of course, everyone has long since realised that framing something in a negative manner will almost always generate more clout so this has become the default mode for attention hungry people.

Despite understanding the thought process behind all of this, it still frustrates me to no end that so many fans and wannabe critics choose to actively engage in such toxic behaviour. It's a shame and it ruins a lot of the fun of fandom for me.

I personally believe that all consumers have it within their power to influence the media world by giving or withdrawing support. The onus is on us to find new media/art that appeals to our tastes once something is no longer interesting to us. We cannot bully creators/artists into creating something that will forever cater to our specific interests. Yes, we are entitled to our opinions and we can critique art and media within reason to provide constructive feedback but in my opinion, it will never be acceptable to bash art or harrass artists/creators of media. Especially if it is done out of a false sense of entitlement. Just because you've supported and loved an artist or a piece of media for a long time does not mean that you are somehow entitled to anything.

[kingwithpaintedfingers]

If you were the official writer for Warhammer 40k, what sort of themes would you explore and what big events do you want to happen in the Grimdark Galaxy?

Sorry for taking so long to reply to this one, for some reason this question didn't show up on mobile.

To be honest, I'd hate to be in charge of the whole mess xD I'm not good at managing people, and I'm afraid they'd be passive-aggressive if I told them to change the way they write. And besides, it ain't all about me and what I like to read! There are a lot of people who like what they currently publish, and that's okay.

But I would like to be catered to a little with canon, y'know?

So, themes I would like to explore...

If we're going to be all grim-dark, let's get grim-dark with the Astartes and Primarchs, eh? Show them having more tender sides. Explore what they really are: child-soldiers, subjected to radical medical and psychological treatments that are often fatal, all for the glory of an authoritarian government, all so they can maybe have some glory someday?? Some authors do do that. When I provided my monster list of recs, I criminally forgot Aaron Dembsky-Bowden's Night Lord series, which does explore this! It shows the tragic nature of some of the most monstrous people in 40k while also not shying away from how, y'know, fucking monstrous these characters are. So...more stuff like that, I guess? Yeah, more stuff like that! No more stoic marines.

Let's see more xenos stories, too. How about some stories from the perspective of Tyranids? Some Tyranids are supposed to have human-level intelligence, so why not stories about Tyranids fighting for their hive? Maybe at the end the protagonist, a synapse creature mortally wounded in the protection of their biomatter pools, gives the orders to their subordinates to devour them and bring them to the digester pool so that they can be one with their hive forever? Have it be an uplifting, transcendent experience for them. You've got your grimdark there, the whole...dying and being eaten thing...but also some freaking light, dying what a Tyranid considers to be "the good death." If Necrons can be rewritten to not be mindless automatons of metal, then why not rewrite Tyranids to not be mindless automatons of flesh and chitin?

More alliances. More bridging gaps. I know it's not very 40k, I know it goes against everything they've ever written, but franchises are allowed to evolve, to change over time, yes?

And finally, I'd love to read stories about the early lives and early struggles of the Primarchs. Show them struggling to overcome, show them making friends and making mistakes, learning how to become great heroes instead of just...fully forming. Show us more interesting stories and settings.

And for the love of all the gods and other entities considered holy, give us some fucking light. Have some more uplifting stories. Seriously, having everything be sad and awful all the time gets boring and it's the reason I don't read that much 40k, because it gets so damn depressing. I read for escapism, damnit, please don't make the only uplifting thing in your book be that the Imperium hates aliens so much that they're okay with gays and POC, because in some books, that's the only happy thing going on.

[dammit-tazmuir]

Okay YOU KNOW WHAT, I'm very late seeing this but I love this kind of thought exercise so I wanna do a couple.

Colum Asht x Sister Aisamorta

Clearly Aisamorta gets wrecked by Devils offscreen during the invasion at the end of NtN, and then we learn some secret pocket dimension where souls go if bodies get possessed that way. An unlikely love blooms as these wayward souls navigate uncharted waters. 😩 -

Cytherea x We Suffer

Listen there were a lot of ways Cytherea could have lashed out against John but she chose BoE. This one practically writes itself. -

Judith Deuteros x Kiana

We don't know much about Kiana but listen, background characters are free real estate, I'm just assuming a very light base of "diet Cam" and inserting personality as needed.

So this one would start while Kiriona and Paul and Pyrrha take Nona to the Tomb. As one of the non-necromancers present, Kiana helps Crown look after everyone in the megatruck, including Judith. She notices how particularly concerned Crown is for Judith, and learns just how much Judith has been through both with the recent possessions and before then. It piques her curiosity, and over the course of conversation, Crown ends up sob-laugh rambling about Judith.

Initially I was gonna go for "Crown ends up accidentally fueling her own competition" but no you know what? I'm gonna be more indulgent. Crown accidentally turns Kiana into an immediate avid Jodybeth shipper and whenever Judith is coherent again Kiana tries to play wingman, only to realize Judith has been repressing her own feelings a long ass time. She decides she absolutely must help them realize this is mutual but it's not her place to just tell them, especially when neither has technically said it. In the course of meddling, she accidentally catches feelings for both of them herself and then ends up really conflicted, except oh no wait, are they reciprocating? Both of them?? But they were supposed to— oh no. ... Wait. Wait what if...

So one day she gets them both together and they both feel awkward being in a room with the crush they've given up on and their current crush and no one else. But she confesses her feelings for both of them, playing it as if she's so sorry, she knows not everyone would be willing to share a partner, but she can't help how she feels and it didn't feel right to start an official relationship or keep leading either on without making her feelings clear. 😔 Of course she wouldn't want to put any pressure on anyone and if either of them doesn't want to see her anymore she'll understand. It's too bad they aren't also into each other, heh, that would have been a lot simpler, but alas.

There's a very long awkward silence before Crown breaks and mumbles that she's had a crush on Judith forever, and ten minutes later after Judith recovers from the sheer shock of that they finally end up talking and Judith explains why she refused to take Corona as her cav and everyone is so embarrassed and relieved. They end up a very cute mutual triad and Kiana is just what the doctor ordered for helping her partners communicate better from then on. -

Ortus Nigenad x Admiral Sarpedon

This one would be set in the Coffee Shop AU. Since Gideon is our local BARI Star, Ortus is still Harrow's cavalier, and to his miserable dismay enlists alongside her. Because they fight as a unit, he feels like he's holding her back constantly and he is, though less than either of them expected. At some point she trains with other soldiers vying to replace him, but quickly finds that even though many of them are objectively more skilled, the degree to which Ortus just knows her and can cater and adapt to her needs is invaluable. This makes Harrow both more appreciative of it and more willing to show it, and bolsters Ortus's confidence enough to start taking some pride in it.

As they start seeing real combat, he's simultaneously horrified by it and overwhelmed by "oh my God I'm really becoming like my idol" and "this knowledge is going to help me write the Noniad so much better as long as we survive" and he's kind of ashamed that he's into it for such petty reasons but it's not like he feels that way on purpose, and he's gotta fight either way, so he may as well have that extra motivation. Together, they skyrocket through the ranks at a speed rare for any soldier, let alone a House's heirs, who are usually kept off the front lines.

It's a few years into their military career when they first meet Sarpedon. (By this point, Harrow has made it so far as implying to her hot BARI Star crush that if she were to ask Harrow to spend more time together Harrow would probably say yes. She has been suffering for a month that the hint hasn't been taken. Ortus knows better than to offer her advice but suffers through her laments.) Ortus never expected such a reaction, but something about the sheer confident authority this man wields leaves him in awe. It, uh, probably didn't hurt that this is also the day they first met the Emperor, who came to give the troops a rousing speech, and that Sarpedon is so very casual about just walking and talking with God himself.

Ortus starts working extra hard and trying to figure out ways to impress Sarpedon, and it actually works, and they start getting to know each other, and Ortus constantly feels like he's in way over his head and an anxious mess but in a way where he wants to see how far this can go. At least until the day the Emperor arrives with the Saint of Joy, and Ortus sees how Joy and Sarpedon talk to each, and he realizes he's accidentally wound up in a love triangle where his romantic rival is God.

TLT Random Ship Game

There's not enough crackshipping in this fandom.

Spin this Wheel of every character twice and put your pairing in the tags. For bonus points figure out how that pairing would even work.

If you don't like one of both of the characters spin again! It's for fun! Have fun!

[yanyan-stuck]

Sorry about my first request if it's okay can I please ask for a yandere Miku

With a quiet and sweet darling that wears

Jirai Kai fashion because it's cute and because of their social anxiety and

Even though they're aware of Miku being a yandere the darling is understanding and willing about it

Sorry if this is too much

Miku With an Accepting and Sweet Darling Who Wears Jirai Kei

When Miku started following you and bringing you gifts, you weren’t sure how to react. She seemed to know everything about you, her gifts tailored to your unique sense of style— Jirai Kei. Her gifts are so numerous that after a couple of weeks you feel like half of your accessory collection is made up of what she’s given you.

You’re generally meek, so you didn’t speak up against it despite the unusualness— and besides, you didn’t really dislike it. Nobody had ever paid attention to you before.

Especially because you’re openly fond of her, Miku is sweet to you, and always gives you compliments.

Miku imitates your style so that you two match.

You’re willing to cater to her obsession, telling her you wouldn’t mind being kept by her forever and that you’d be willing to stay with her until the end of time.

You start hearing horror stories around your school campus about Miku that confirm her disturbing nature. Other students warn you to stay away from her.

However, they never paid attention to you, and even teased you for your style and shy nature before you started hanging out with Miku— why should you listen to them now?

Miku never feels the need to kidnap or hurt you, because she knows that you won’t try to leave her side. She showers you in love to make sure you won’t ever want to.

She speaks up for you in social situations and is always very insistent upon your needs and wants.

She gets sad when you have responsibilities that don’t relate to her, and tends to follow you to them. It’s awkward and difficult to explain having her there at job interviews and things of the like, but you do appreciate her presence.

Eventually you’ll become just as obsessed with her as she is with you. Win-win.

[sukiitoru]

Hello, I love your writing😄💕 and I would like to ask you if you write friendship headcanons for all the characters in Twisted Wonderland for a female mc who is an orphan and never had any kind of family. Sorry if the request is too specific and also sorry for my bad english 😅.

Hey anon! Thanks for your request and for the kind worlds 🥺 my apologies for not writing this sooner I've been very busy and don't worry you're English is pretty good 👍

I finally finished part.2 hope you enjoy it

I hope you enjoy reading hope you all have a wonderful day 💙

Mc is female pronounce is she/her

Fandom: twisted wonderland.

Pairing: twst boys x FEM!mc.

Category: fluff, just alot of fluff.

Friends no matter what

Mc and the boys were having a sleepover and the conversation somehow switched into talking about families and that's when mc mentioned being an orphan

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Riddle and Trey didn't really try to dig into people's pasts so he never truly asked about Mc's family

Ace was definitely surprised and feels really bad you're one of his best friends after all how could he not know something as important as that

Deuce and cater will definitely try to get mc to not remember it as often won't talk about his family around mc knowing it's a bit of a sensitive topic

They only found out about it during the sleepover

Riddle can understand Mc's feelings to a certain level but his parents were around

Ace and Deuce eventually figures out that the best thing they can do is becoming Mc's big brother

Trey and cater will be more caring with mc

All the boys would definitely feel bad for mc but didn't want mc to think they were pitying her

Riddle will start being slightly affectionate around mc from fixing her clothes to patting her head whenever he had the chance

Mc will get a hug from riddle once every a blue moon but it's one of the warmest and most comfortable hugs she ever got

Ace and Cater become very clingy too their arms are around mc all the time probably pulling them into a hug or their arms around Mc's shoulder

Riddle, Deuce and trey won't be as clingy as but will definitely treat mc as their younger sister

Ace and Deuce baby mc and bully her to no end very brotherly bullying though

Trey would make mc alot of treats

Cater would take lots of pictures with mc and teach them about social media

Riddle will be very red while comforting mc feeling embarrassed but will treat mc like his younger sister

Ace, Deuce and Cater Will glare at any boy that comes near mc it doesn't matter who it is they'll be Mc's bodyguard

All the boys think mc is very strong for being able to come here after all of the hardships she went through

All the boys would want mc to get all the love in the world

'Mc definitely deserves all the love in the world' plan sets in motion as a plan the boys pulled together Riddle the one who suggested it

The boys don't think any less of mc they definitely cherishes her even more

Expect to get smothered in affection and to be very loved

"mc you're very precious and important to us okay your past doesn't really matter to me what matters is the person you are today never think badly about yourself I think you're pretty cool just the way you are" 'Riddle, trey, cater'

"come on, you know I love you very much you know I just love bullying you you're my little sissy I'll definitely love you forever" 'Ace and deuce'

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Leona invited mc over to hang out with him, Ruggie and jack and while Leona was complaining about his family mc explained that she was an orphan so she couldn't understand his struggles

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Leona will be calmer about this than Ruggie and Jack who got very shocked

They definitely didn't expect that

Leona and jack will definitely won't bring up the topic

Ruggie might ask some questions but will stop when he realizes he was bringing up a sensitive topic

Leona will be slightly softer when it comes to mc after knowing her background wouldn't want mc to feel like he was pitying her

Jack will slightly overprotective of mc standing by their side whenever he's around

Ruggie will be calm about it not changing his behavior towards mc at all he just thinks it shouldn't really change anything it's just a new fact about mc

Leona and jack will check up on mc more they definitely will get mc snacks whenever they go to the cafeteria

Ruggie will get mc food too more than the other boys though mc will never feel hungry with this boy around he has food with him at all time

All the boys definitely would become like protective dads if anything happens with mc around the school

No one dares come near mc if a glare could kill they all would be very dead

None of them would be touchy with mc they might ruffle Mc's hair that's all

Leona shows his affection with helping mc with anything really he'll allow mc to pat his head if he's in that mood that rarely happens though

Jack will allow mc to pat him whenever he actually enjoys it a little bit

Ruggie doesn't really mind either way just making you happy is enough for him

"come on little herbivore let's go out for a walk to help you feel better I'll get you some snacks too" 'leona'

"mc are you alright? If you're not feeling well you can tell me maybe patting my head will make you feel better. Do you want me to pat you instead?" 'jack'

"what's wrong? Are you hungry? I have snacks if you want don't worry just pick one out if you don't like any of them we can go get more" 'Ruggie'

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Thank you for reading all support is highly appreciated 💙

This is my writing please don't repost copy or claim as your own

[harryssweatcreaturee]

OMG please do cheating harry

The one where Harry cheated

a/n: this has been sitting in my inbox for FOREVER. here it is. i feel like i didn't do too good so im sorry if this wasn't up to par with the rest of my work ):

word count: 1.2k

warnings: cheating, bad words, heavy tension

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Harry was being insufferable.

(Y/N) loved him so much and understood that running his own company was exhausting but she was fed up with his short responses and unnecessary attitude.

Worst of all, it was inexplicable. Harry has had terrible days before, weeks even, and he’d never take it out on (Y/N). She just didn’t understand what was so bad that made Harry become cold towards her.

Their date nights were no longer happening since he was coming home so late almost every night. They’ve barely spoken more than a sentence sine about a month ago. They haven’t had sex since God knows when… Needless to say, (Y/N) wanted to find out what the hell was going on with her boyfriend, and most importantly why he hadn’t sought out to tell her.

Yet another night of waiting up for Harry.

It was 10 PM, (Y/N) waiting on their bed with a wine glass in her hand.

She had this whole script in her head that she’s been reiterating to herself for the past couple of hours, but she knew the moment she saw Harry, that was going to fly out the window. Nonetheless, she tried her best to keep it all in her mind, hoping he was about to arrive any minute now.

And he did.

As the new norm, Harry came into their room quietly, a small frown evident on the pillows of his lips. He barely even looked at (Y/N), fingers working to untie his tie and unbuttoning his blazer. “Hi, Harry.” She called out quietly as he finally brought his eyes to her, humming in response before his attention was fixed back on to removing his clothes.

“Do you ever plan on telling me what’s going on with you? Why you’re so repulsed by me all of a sudden?”

Harry sighed, looking at her as if she were insane.

“What are y’on about? You know I’ve just been having a rough time at work.”

“No, Harry. That has happened before, and you’ve never treated me this way. Something’s going on and I’ve given you space and time to figure it out before you come talk to me, but you haven’t. I’m here trying to pry it out of you.” Her voice was soft and mellow, not trying to sound like she’s accusing him of anything insane. (Y/N) got up, placing her glass of wine on the nightstand before standing in front of Harry, forcing him to look at her, her hand on the dresser, the other one resting on her hip.

“(Y/N), I’m sorry that I’ve been a little distant but there’s nothing happening other than work. Drop it.”

“I’m not dropping shit until you tell me what’s going on. I know you too well. There’s something you’re not telling me so I suggest you tell me now before I pack my bags and leave. I don’t deserve this. I’m way too good to you for you to keep secrets from me and lie to me. Absolutely not, Styles.”

This look came over Harry’s face. One she couldn’t really decipher. She’d never seen it before. It was guilt, pain, and relief, even.

And the thought crossed her mind at the same time that she felt her heart shatter into a million pieces. It was like she almost didn’t even need the confirmation.

“Harry…”

“I’m so sorry, (Y/N). I didn’t know how to tell you and I just- I don’t know how it even started but I couldn’t help it.” The frown on his face seemed permanent now, his eyes filling up with tears that (Y/N) would never believe they were real. It was only because she made him say something, otherwise he would never tell her.

Anger and pain washed over (Y/N)’s body, the worst feeling her soul has ever endured. Why her? Why her when she’s been nothing but perfect to the man she loved the most?

“You’re fucking full of it, Harry. You’re fucking unbelievable!” (Y/N) yelled as tears streamed down her cheeks, hands fisted and shoving at Harry’s chest.

“I gave you everything! I stayed here every day, catering to your every need because I thought you deserved it! I have been nothing but good to you, Harry! What the fuck did I ever do to you to deserve this?! Huh?! You piece of shit!” Her hands kept shoving him, Harry allowing her to let out her anger with a guilty expression on his face.

Harry’s hand came up to grab (Y/N)’s wrists in attempt to stop her, “(Y/N), please… Let’s just talk about it. I’ll explain.”

“No! Don’t fucking touch me! I gave you more than enough time to talk to me! Too fucking late now!”

If there was one thing about (Y/N) that was hard to break, it was her pride. She loved Harry so much, but he ruined everything. Nothing could ever fix his disloyalty to her. not when she gave him everything. Not when she would run to be the perfect trophy girlfriend just to make him happy.

“I’m leaving. Forget I ever existed Harry. We’re fucking done.” (Y/N) sighed, wiping the hot tears from her face as she walked into their closet to start packing her clothes.

“What? No, baby. No, come on. We can talk about this, yeah?”

A spiteful laugh left her lips, looking at him as if he just said the craziest thing. “Baby? Now you want to be sweet and talk? You’re delusional.” Her hands were quick to shove her clothes into her luggage messily, doing her best to keep her walls up and strong.

It was like her heart was ripped from her chest. 7 years of their relationship down the drain. Like if Harry paid no mind to the fact that they planned the rest of their lives together. All for what? It was all over, and she didn’t want to break down about it right now. Her main goal was to pick up and get the fuck out of his sight.

She could hear Harry spitting nonsense behind her, his hand trying to come to stop her but she flinched away, drowning out his words and quickly closing her bag as she walked past him and out of their – his room.

“I’m so sorry. I won’t do it again. Please, m’angel. I love you.” Harry ran a stressed hand through his hair, his feet hot behind (Y/N) as she approached closer and closer to the front door.

“We’re done. If you really love me like you claim you do, I suggest you forget I exist. Don’t even try to reach out to me, Harry. I swear I’ll make your life hell.” Her bitter words were followed by tears, her bag in hand as she rushed into her car, quickly pulling out of the driveway to finally sob and scream like she wanted to so bad.

Harry was left in disbelief, standing at the front door like he’d just been shot. Like his life was sucked out of his body and it might as well be because he ruined the one good thing he had in his life. (Y/N). All for some temporary pussy when he had his beautiful girlfriend at home, waiting for him eagerly. This was all his fault. His stupid mistake and that irreparable.

His (Y/N), now gone and taking a big part of his heart with her.

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[kira-ask-force]

"To become god is the loneliest achievement of them all." Thoughts on this quotation?

It’s interesting, I’ll give it that. If one were to “become God” as the quotation suggests, then yes, they would be extremely lonely. To achieve godhood, in my opinion, is to give up humanity and ascend to a greater height. One prime, yet impossible, example is immortality. Becoming immortal is a highly discussed topic in today’s world. “I want to live forever, but I would outlive all of my loved ones!” and “Life is short, so I want to live forever no matter the cost!” are things I’ve heard a surprising amount of times. No matter your own personal views on the situation, at some point, if you become immortal, you will feel lonely.

This same logic applies to any achievement or lifestyle that one would consider “beyond human” or “perfect”. For simplicity, I’ll use Kira as an example. Kira undoubtedly wants to achieve godhood in some sense of the word. He wants to reign over a world catered specifically to his ideals and he won’t let anyone or anything get in his way. To create this world without crime, he definitely has to make sacrifices. If Kira succeeds (which he won’t) he will be lonely, that’s for certain. However, I don’t know if that matters to him. He’s sacrificed so many innocent lives and has done so much for his own cause that I don’t think he’d care. He’d say something like “I’ve gotten this far, why give up now?” That’s the kind of thinking that anyone who honestly wants to become God operates on.

Oh, sorry. I spent a lot of time talking about Kira and not really addressing the quotation. So, in my opinion, yes, I agree. To become God is the loneliest achievement of all. It’s just a matter of if you can break through your own delusions and realize what you’ve done to get there.

- Light