stormy weather
Echo, no pairing
summary: Echo has a low and is in a lot of pain after his physical therapy. Wrecker is there to help. Set after TCW S7 E1-4.
warnings: derpessed feelings, hopelessness, phantom pain
words: ~1400
a/n: hello everyone! here's another fic for @summer-of-bad-batch! this time i could even bring in three different prompts: "you're a bad liar.", battle scars and the bonus prompt light in the darkness. it's been a long time since i wrote something for echo, i hope you enjoy!
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Physical therapy was horrible.
He hated it with all his guts.
His legs hurt, they burned, and he felt like they were going to fall off. But the worst thing was: he couldn't make it feel better.
Hell, he didn't have those legs anymore and still they made his life so much more painful.
Pump, the physical therapist, tried to help him a lot and even though his tips and advice sometimes did wonders, he still hurt.
Then there was his stomach - he had problems adjusting to the amount of food he needed. When he was on Skako Minor, he was mostly fed with fluids. Now he needed to chew his food again, taste the grossness of it, and just swallow down the weird consistency.
Also - his muscles hurt. Pump always said he needed to build them up, so he can be fast and strong again. And he knew he had to. He really wanted to. But on some days, he just felt like he couldn't.
Today was a day like that.
Pump made him do some exercises with an odd looking thing. He never did those exercises before. Not even in ARC training. And even though he tried so hard, at some point he just couldn't do it anymore.
He felt like a failure. Like he wasn't good enough. How would he ever be able to keep up with everyone? Especially with the Batch? He could learn all their crazy plans, but how could he contribute anything, when he just wasn't strong, fast and persistent enough?
Pump had tried to cheer up him up, but Echo almost fled out of the training room.
He needed to get away. At the same time, he already felt the embarrassment creep up his neck. He felt like a shiny, on his first day on a Venator-class Star Destroyer, where everything was just overwhelming even though they already learned how it would be like on the inside. In theory, at least.
He was stumbling along the walls, trying to find his way to the Batch's barracks.
He just wanted to be alone and sulk in his hammock, until he felt better about his sorry self. He was so disappointed in himself and his lack of ability.
When he reached their barracks, he slipped inside. Relieved, he realized that he was alone. The others seemed to have training, or were up to something else.
He sighed once, before making his way over to his sleeping place, not bothering to turn the lights on.
From outside, he could hear thunder. The rain rattled against the large windows, and not for the first time he could laugh about the irony of Kamino. He felt like the weather was mirroring his conflicted and sad feelings. The storm outside was just as unpredictable and unhinged as the one inside him.
He curled up into a small ball, trying to disappear in himself.
When his hands... His hand touched his metal knees, and his scomp made a small 'clink' noise, he sighed a second time.
Never did he expect to turn out... like this, when he finally passed his final test, such a long time ago. With Fives, Hevy, Cutup and Droidbait.
He knew it was practically hopeless, but he still always imagined how all of them made it out of the war alive. Together. He liked to daydream about what would happen after all of it. After all the pain, and fear, and grief. He was sure Droidbaid would start a bakery one day. Cutup and Hevy would open a gym, just to train like maniacs themselves. And Fives probably would have traveled a lot. He always wanted to try and see new things. Just about his own future, Echo wasn't sure. But he soon realized, it wouldn't matter anyway.
After Rishi, after Hevy's, Droidbait's and Cutup's death, he realized that all their dreams and hopes were indeed meaningless.
He always thought he would during the war.
He was so sure he would, when that shuttle exploded on Lola Sayu.
He never knew what life would have brought for him, but he never would have guessed to turn out as a cyborg.
He almost didn't hear how the door opened behind him. Just when Wrecker's face appeared in his sight, he realized that he had company.
"Hey, Echo. Back again already?" the brawler asked and grinned down at him.
Echo looked back with big eyes. "Yeah," he nodded.
"So soon, too? Thought it would take another half an hour at least. How was it?" Wrecker started to talk to him, patting the side of his hammock.
Echo blinked a few times.
"Yeah... I-... Pump decided we should take a break. It was... great," he murmured and looked around, just not to meet Wrecker's eyes.
Wrecker stared at him for a few seconds, not moving an inch.
"Are you feeling okay?" he then decided to ask.
"I? Y-Yeah. I'm fine," he tried to assure his new brother, and forced a light smile on his face. It didn't reach his eyes. He knew that.
Wrecker knew, too: "You’re a bad liar."
He sighed again. "I know," he whispered.
Wrecker carefully stepped over and took a seat next to Echo, making the hammock swing back and forwards a few times.
"Do you want to talk about it?" he asked and put a hand on Echo's metallic calf. He couldn't feel the warmth of Wrecker's fingers, couldn't really feel the pressure. It was almost as if they weren't there at all.
Echo looked at Wrecker. At his younger, bigger brother, who seemed so happy and joyful all the time. He was so strong and gentle at the same time. And when Echo looked into Wrecker's face, at the scar and his milky eye, he just knew he could talk to him. When someone could understand what he was going through, even just in a slight way, it was Wrecker.
"It's just hard... Adjusting and stuff," he almost whispered.
He saw how Wrecker's thumb was moving up and down, swallowed, and took another breath.
"Physical therapy feels like torture. I can't- I just can't really do anything like I could before. I'm weak, and exhausted so fast. And I know it takes time, but it just takes... so long," he started to play around with his scomp, "and everything hurts."
Wrecker nodded, with an understanding look in his eyes.
"I know it's hard. And it's never going to be like before again. But we can try. We can try to make it easier. To make it better. And to make everything feel okay again," Wrecker said. "Healing isn't easy. It's hard and it's exhausting. And it's not just a straight line up. It's like a road full of holes and bumps and stones. But you have to try to jump over them, Echo."
Echo looked up at him with teary eyes. Wrecker's expression was so honest and genuine, that he didn't doubt a word he said.
"I know it's hard, but you have to keep going. I know you can. And if you need help, we're always here for you," Wrecker ended.
Echo nodded. He knew, but everything just seemed so hopeless sometimes.
"What helped you the most?" the former ARC-Trooper wanted to know.
A small smile appeared on his brother's lips.
"My brothers. The Batch," he said, and his smile grew even bigger.
"Every time I felt like I was at the bottom and couldn't do it anymore, they were there. And they pulled me up again. I couldn't have done it without them," he confessed, and Echo's heart warmed a bit by that.
He smiled at Wrecker, and he realized that everything just felt a little lighter.
The storm in him seemed to calm down a little. The clouds made space for a small ray of sunlight.
He still had aches everywhere, and he still was way too exhausted. But at least he felt a little spark of hope in him, like a light in the darkness. Warm and cozy, and ready to get even brighter.
Wrecker's words felt good, and he knew he could seek out the others whenever he needed them. Even Crosshair.
He knew everything would be going to be okay again. He knew he could do it. He knew he would be up and kicking again, even if it would take some time.
Sometimes he just needed a little heads up.
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