#Right now my brain needs to… rest

[whentommymetalfie]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52604242/chapters/158596090

tumblr keeps breaking the link but there’s a new chapter of Bird Song out now❤️

[xxplastic-cubexx]

personal happiness or what the fuck ever

bonus:

[vaguely-concerned]

ingellvar must have so many strange off-putting little personal habits in their day to day life that they don't even realize come across as weird, especially if they haven't ever dated outside of the watchers much. in rye's specific case I think lucanis has a capacity for such immaculate 'sure my life is already so fucking weird this might as well happen' energy that I believe he'd be able to roll with the punches admirably given the time, but it really would be a situation like

(what was going on there was that rook was placing down some experimental wards, by the way, it's what he does to calm down before bed and if he wakes during the night. what with the necropolis itself being a liminal space of lf sorts on a cosmic scale, watchers take the additional liminal space between wakefulness and dreaming extremely seriously b/c they know there are things drifting through that would just love to get their foot/tentacle/conceptual spores in that particular half-ajar door that should not be allowed inside. or outside, I suppose, depending on your point of view. rook and lucanis are also experimenting with whether solid wards can help any with lucanis' weird post-spite dreams even if they can't do anything for the more mundane ptsd ones. third reason because in my worldstate they still live in the lighthouse after the game: unless gently dissuaded wisps will sometimes drift by while you're asleep and hover over your face curiously as they sense your mind doing stuff in the fade, and no one likes waking up on an eldritch sneeze with a well-meaning yet terrified wisp zooming about the room. important watcher novice 101 lessons.

blessed mental image of rye cross-legged on the floor, barefoot in his PJs with his hair down and no makeup, peaceably tracing out elaborate geometric shapes that somehow make your eyes scared when you look at them* while lucanis sits on the bed and reads out loud to both him and spite and occasionally sneaks some carnal looks at rook's fully unleashed curly hair and bare wrists & throat...... okay I think I've found the thing that will help me through the day thank you for coming on this journey with me)

*what is the paint he's using made out of and why is it such a deeply unsettling colour? don't worry about it! :) patented mostly well-meaning yet also borderline condescending mortalitasi hand wave of 'don't worry your sweet little non-nevarran head about it we both know you don't actually want to know. do not ask questions lest you learn the answers, especially if you're going to be annoying at me and freak out about it. let the things man was not meant to know stay unknown. unknown by you I mean I'm built different'

[boos-gh0st]

Guys please I love drawing ISAT but how the FUCK DO I DRAW SIFFRINS CLOAK IN DIFFERENT POSES IM GOING INSANE IT NEVER LOOKS RIGHT

[moeblob]

[fuzzbuns]

Was talking to a friend about this so excuse the ramble but:

I feel like we are at a really weird point in fandom culture where like. People just want to be fed content rather than engage with anything meaningfully ever which has led to people being incapable of letting things just end. Like i thought we all agreed that people making seasons and seasons and seasons of shows for profit as it becomes such a nothing burger and everyone starts hating it is bad and we would rather creatives be allowed to tell the story they want to tell with the ending they want it to have. But now a movie comes out that people enjoy and rather than just enjoying it for what it is people beg for a sequel or a spin off series. An indie animation that was released slowly over multiple years finally comes to an end and instead of looking forward to the next project from a talented group of creatives people just. Ask for more of the thing they JUST finished.

Like what happened to making shit up. What happened to taking your desire for more and like. Doing something with it. Loose ends or things left up to the viewer should be fuel for you to write a fanfic or make fan art or just like, excitedly theorize with a friend. Or like it should incentivize you to seek out more art. Ok you liked this show for x y reasons so go read this book that inspired it or watch the other shows the writer made or look for a fan fic someone else wrote about the one thing you cant stop thinking about.

That and like my friend pointed out, it feels like people dont even chew on their food anymore!! Like are you even meaningfully connecting to what you claim you love so much before asking for seconds??? You didnt even finish chewing!!!!

Idk. I think ppl honestly want to be in a fandom with constantly updating official content more than they want to actually connect with and engage with art and i find that sad but its also not like im the first to point this out 🤷‍♀️

[gingermintpepper]

Insane brainworms tonight but after listening to almost nothing but Hozier, Lord Huron and Monster Hunter OSTs for the past three-ish weeks, I am now thinking of a Hunter/Rider Hyapollo AU entirely because I cannot get the image of Apollo crossing blades with Hyacinthus over Malzeno.

Like, Apollo would never ride Malzeno but he would be protecting Malzeno. Like he is absolutely studying the Qurios and specifially ways to rid the monsters in the valley from them when the people in a nearby village put the request out to the Guild for Hunters who can handle the berserk Malzeno problem. Hyacinthus is definitely a Master Rank Hunter who's on a specialist expedition from said Guild to put down the Malzeno and because Hunters don't really know about Riders, is gonna be taken entirely by surprise when him and his party are stopped by this blond Wyverian riding a Seregios drawing a line in the sand with his arrows and refusing to let them travel any further until they assure him they're not poachers/tourists or idiots.

Like, I need Hyacinthus stepping up to speak for the party only for Apollo to shoot an arrow and slice his cheek as a warning because he's crossed over the line. I need Polyboea (the expedition Handler) FURIOUSLY trying to get into contact with the base because "hey, hi, hello, you guys did NOT tell us that this was Seregios territory, nor were we informed that there was also a Wyverian village in the area what the FUCK??". I need Harpalus immediately popping open his helmet to smoke because it's already bad enough that this was an expedition to catalogue and possibly slay a berserk Elder Dragon (which, genuinely, truly could end in any or all of their deaths) but now you're adding pretty boys claiming to be Monster Riders (???) to the mix and truly he cannot be bothered to take this seriously.

All while in the center of the drama, Apollo still has his bow drawn and Hyacinthus is trying to reason with him (read: buy Polyboea time for that update because what the HELL is going on here) only to be immediately de-escalated when Apollo catches sight of Hyacinthus' Palamutes.

[icewindandboringhorror]

sometimes looking at like Self Help Strategies lists for the symptoms I'm having is always just like:

thing that I already do

thing I have tried 10 times

thing I already do

thing that I don't have the money to do

thing I already do

thing I've been doing since I was 10yrs old to no avail

thing that is impossible given my situation

thing that doesn't apply to me

thing that I already do

thing I have already tried

hrmm, oh wait, maybe finally- OH, yeah.. okay. thing that I already do but it was just phrased slightly differently

thing I have already done

[lightbulb-warning]

so has anyone figured out WHY there is the Need To Share our Artworks™ or is it just the vibes and our Soul apparently

[itspileofgoodthings]

I have never needed the school year to be over more.

[torchickentacos]

I hate it when my chronic illnesses are chronic and my disabilities are disabling and my seasonal affective disorder is seasonally affecting me

[biblically-accurate-dca]

KILL!!!!!!!!!

[nyxnco]

i know it is common courtesy to simply nod and move on with your life when you see someone your age or younger show more talent than you but dear GOD is it difficult to fight back the jealousy that comes with

[murdleandmarot]

The gang’s all here!! They’re on the case!! And there’s no ghost that they wouldn’t chase!!!!!

@mysticalcats’s Foxglove, @toki-toro’s Chaumet, @emimii’s Clownaire, and my own Bluebelle :)

[rileys-battlecats]

i really gotta get better about listening to my own brain and needs when i'm making things. i've been working on a video and i'm almost finished (yippee!!), but drawing this One Specific Frame was giving me trouble. i could have just brute-forced my way through it and finalized the initial sketch, since it was relatively good enough. but instead i left it and took a day off from working on the project, let myself recharge, and came back to the sketch with fresh eyes today. and what do you know, my redrawn sketch today is WAY better! now, i can finalize that frame and be genuinely proud of it, instead of just powering through on something i was less than happy with.

i hadn't done any other art stuff that day when i couldn't get my sketches to look right, so letting myself stop and have a break from the project felt sort of "unearned" i guess. but it's just. what i needed! and the break did what i needed it to do; i was able to come back later and make something i could be proud of.

anyway i guess this is me saying that, if you're like me and have this weird morality-complex about letting yourself rest, it's ok to take breaks, even if you feel like you haven't "earned" one yet :)

[musical-chick-13]

I'm sorry, but if you all you see in this character is Sexy Girlboss Lady and not a deeply vulnerable, traumatized woman with a complicated relationship to both her own flaws (in the sense of gladly accepting some of them while fearing certain displays of failure) and the person she loves (criticizing them for their overconfidence and recognizing the danger they pose, while simultaneously being genuinely moved by their kindness and thinking the universe is better off for having them in it), then that is a you problem, and I cannot help you.