#Reiki Master Kitchener

[gilly-tamar-w1tch]

2023 highlights…..so blessed to have been able to work with so many clients in 2023. Happy 2024

[codyrichards91]

How To Reiki Animals Astonishing Unique Ideas

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Reiki Therapy And Catholic Church

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[su-univeralai]

MAILEE???? AS PARENTS???? Tell us more Su.

Ok, Joy, so I was thinking about this a lot last night, and had originally thought that they would have 3 biological kids, Mai and Ty Lee get different sperm donors. Mai would get pregnant first and have a girl, and then Ty Lee would have twin boys. They would also foster orphans and teach them etiquette and how to defend themselves (but I'm not going to include them since they're only there until they age out of the system with some dope skills, or are adopted)

BUT THEN!!!

I thought.... Ty Lee is 1 or 7 identical sisters WHAT IF instead of having twin boys, she had like quintuplet (5) boys!!! But she gave them all very different names and made them do very different activities so they were their own people, unlike how she felt with her sisters. Of course the five of them would end up forming some sort of group gymnastics team or something so they could spend more time together.

IDK Joy! I'm conflicted on which route I wanna take. I'll lay both groups of kids out for you (and anyone else who's interested) and y'all can help decide which Mai Lee family will make the cut lmao.

Also going to put a cut here because... well this is gonna get looong

Yaisha (F) Firebender, 29: Yaisha is Mai's biological child, yet very much has personality close to her Titi (Ty Lee). She isn't a very skilled firebender when she starts, but cousin Ichika (Azula's daughter), trains her to become a pretty an average bender before heading off to the Royal Fire Academy for Girls. She latches onto Kya (steambaby) who is 3 years older than her and they become close like sisters. Seeing that Yaisha isn't the strongest bender, she is also taught dagger throwing, which she excels at like Mama. Although her firebending skills are quite avaerage, she uses them masterfully in the kitchen, specifically as a baker. She ends up marrying an earthbender at some point in the future (I have no other info on this dude yet, sorry lmao) and they settle down in Ba Sing Se and open a pastry shop next to the Jasmine Dragon.

Yaisha is there in both iterations of my idea. The rest of these OCs will be split between Ty Lee having twin earthbending boys (bc her sperm donor was an earthbender) or two firebenders, an earthbender, and two non-bender quintuplets.

Twins:

Siju and Dizai (M) Earthbenders, 27: Siju and Dizai are pretty skilled earthbenders for people who live in the Fire Nation without any proper training. While Yaisha trains at the Royal Fire Academy for Girls, the twins are shipped off to train with Toph. The twins get super close with Suyin they become a trio until Su gets sent to Gao Ling to live with her grandparents. Siju is quite a skilled metalbender, but Dizai turns out to be a lavabender. Once they hone their skills, both of them come home to show Mama and Titi their skills. Everyone is very impressed.

Siju stays home and meets a midranking officer in the Fire Navy and they fall in love.

Dizai travels around the world and meets Sokka and Suki's daughter, Alayi. Even though Dizai is 6 years younger than Alayi, the two fall in love and settle in the SWT where Alayi wants to teach the new waterbenders how to master their element. Together, they have two children, an earthbender and a firebender.

Quintuplets:

Jaree (M) Non-Bender, 20: Jaree is a skilled chi blocker like Titi, but is also interested in welding. He becomes the youngest and best-known welder in the world but the age of 15. People come from all over the world to get beautifully designed weapons made by the boy. Jaree makes customized weapons for his Mama and Zaija on a regular basis as 'practice'. When he turns 18, he only does commissions because he enjoyed spending his time with his brothers dancing and messing around.

Zaija (M) Non-Bender, 20: Zaija on the other hand, takes after his Mama and is a skilled thrower. Jaree makes customized throwing stars, daggers, knives, etc for him. They are perfectly balanced and ensures that he never misses his target. when he's not small weapons and going on top secret missions for Shushu Zuko, he writes under the name Wang Fire (courtesy of Sokka). Wang Fire is the best-selling author for teen dramas. Only Sokka knows his secret.

Mozu (M) Firebender, 20: Mozu is an awful combat firebender, but he's very skilled in firebending as a healing art. He studies under the Bhanti sages to learn how to energy read with firebending. From there he learns the power of Reiki and massage therapy to heal people. Mozu and Shain start a healing business together, as Shain is a skilled acupuncturist and acupressurist. In his small amount of free time, he likes to study teas. Eventually, after the quintuplets stop competing, Mozu goes to help Iroh in Ba Sing Se at the tea shop.

Yaro (M) Firebender, 20: Where Mozu could barely fight, Yaro excels. Yaro is sent to the Sun Warriors to learn firebending from Ran and Shaw. After returning, he makes it his life mission to learn how to control the colors of his fire. By 17, he is able to create any color flame he wants. He explores how different things react based on the different temperatures and colors the flames are. Yaro becomes a potter, creating unique bowls, plates, etc for the nobles. He and Jaree open a gallery together to sell their masterpieces.

Shain (M) Earthbender, 20: Shain is the odd man out, being the only earthbender in the family. He is sent to train with Ayi Toph and discovers he's a very skilled metalbender. Between his metalbending abilities and knowledge of muscles and pressure points, Shain creates a better way of doing acupuncture than the experts have done for the past 300 years. Shain spends one season each year in Zaofu with Suyin and Bataar to better his metalbending and teach other metalbenders his acupuncture technique.

The five of them are all super flexible and able to get some height when jumping. They form a gymnastics and dance troupe of the five of them. They compete in the group version of bending dance competitions that Tiao Wu does. He's a big fan of them and is always siked when they let him dance with them.

OK! Here is a much longer than I intended answer to your Mai Lee babies ask. Please let me know what you think and which direction you think I should go because both would be interesting to have.

[petalsmooth]

“Not a masterful poet”- means she heard the critical feedback that was not impressed.

“clearing the energy that gets stuck in your body” is literally just standard meditation therapists can teach you that doesn’t require laying down huge sums of money to advance in stature. I took a class in college with it as one of the lesson plans 20 years ago teaching breathing techniques/coping with stress. Although in Lili’s case I suspect aside from attaching spiritualism to the concept she has certain “mood enhancers/mood altering drugs” taken alongside.

“abs are made in the kitchen”- abs are made in the gym too

hard on herself for not working out or eating a certain way- no Lili. That wasn’t about pressure to look a certain way at least not directly. You had that brief motivation to work out because she were coming out of a breakup and like millions of other women felt a natural desire to feel better about yourself and glimmer of wanting the ex to realize the mistake they made. People do this all the time after breakups once they move out of the vegging stage, in front of a tv, crying, cuddling pets. They have makeovers, take selfies, join a gym, etc...Actually if you had just said this it would have been more relatable than what you actually said trying to seem relatable.

spending time with friends being a game changer--well she could be right if we view Charlie as the one who roped her into reiki. Otherwise spending time with friends was nothing new and all they did was was enable her in bad mental patterns/behaviors. Par for course.

29 million followers- literally inserted for the rich/powerful interview aimed to attract attention of, no other reason to be etched into that section

I know how lucky I am to have this job and be working- continued damage control from the prison commentary of last year. Interesting it’s in this article though not meant for masses. Wonder if it filtered back to industry influencers and caused some hesitancy/friction

-actually spent more time in their homes last summer than had there been no quarantine so not sure what the point is about leaving an empty house. Granted no weekend flights to L/A but that wouldn’t have amounted to a lot of time.

-already covered the yard

-zumpie covered the mattress

-I refuse to talk about Tik Tok

Yeah...this is why I don’t read most of her interviews.

[forestwhisper3]

Working on...a lot of things, to be honest, but in the meantime I figured I’d do one of these since I haven’t done it in a while. 

So...welcome back to the SI/OC series, where I introduce some of my various brainchildren. Today’s SI is one Reiko Urameshi, twin sister to the infamous Yusuke Urameshi.

Continues below the cut:

Reiko is the younger twin, although people tend to assume she’s the older one. She more or less remembers what happens as far as the story, but honestly, she’s pretty much done by the time it starts. All she wants to do is master her own spirit energy, keep an eye on Yusuke to make sure the butterfly effect doesn’t kill him, then get the heck out of dodge. She figures she’ll have a pretty good chance of living a comfortable life seeing as it’s still technically Earth, and if it’s anything like the Earth she came from she’ll have some foresight on that too.

Here’s a story snippet to help demonstrate the sort of attitude Reiko has towards everything:

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"Is Yusuke home?"

The girl at the door stared at them, then sighed and opened it wider. "Come in."

Once the three of them were inside, she leaned against the wall, arms crossed and staring at them flatly. "Is this super important, or do you have time for tea?"

Kuwabara fidgeted. "Er...it's kinda important, Reiko-chan."

So, Kuwabara knew the girl. Given the familiarity and the close resemblance to Yusuke, he was willing to bet they were siblings. Still, he had to wonder why Yusuke hadn't mentioned her before...

"Got it," she said with a nod. "Quick wake up call it is. Wait here."

They watched as she headed into the kitchen, the sound of the tap reaching them moments later, as well as the sound of a refrigerator door. A minute later, she was walking back, bucket in hand and tight smile on her face.

"He'll be with you shortly."

She entered a door and there was silence for a split second. Then, a high pitched scream filled the air, followed by a slew of curses. He couldn't quite hold back a chuckle at the sound, and going by the smirk on Hiei's face, he was equally amused.

"What the hell, Reiko?! That shit's cold!"

"Your friends are here."

"Why couldn't you just wake me up like a normal person?!"

"Why did you invite them over at five in the damn morning?"

Silence.

"That's what I thought. Next time, don't even bother if you don't actually plan on being awake to answer the door."

Reiko stepped back out, a tired scowl on her face. "It's too early for this. I'm going back to sleep," she muttered as she walked back to what he assumed was her room, pausing momentarily to look at them one more time. "I'd say it was nice to meet you red and spiky haired guys, but...I really couldn't care less. It's good to see you though, Kazuma-kun."

Kuwabara let out a nervous chuckle. “Good to see you too. Goodnight?”

“I should hope so, after this bullshit...”

The door closed behind her, and Kuwabara let out a sigh of relief.

“I didn’t know Yusuke had a sister,” Kurama mused aloud, giving their teammate a pointed, curious look.

“Kind of hard to imagine, right?” Kuwabara said with a slight smile. “Honestly, if it wasn’t for the fact that I’ve known them pretty much my whole life, I never woulda guessed.”

“Is she always so...blunt?”

“Usually, but she also tries to be a lot nicer about it normally. It’s always just when she wakes up that she’s...uh...the most like Urameshi.”

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Stats and Trivia:

Birthday: March 26

Age: 14 (at start of canon events)

Height: 5′3 (~160 cm)

Strengths: Above average physical strength and endurance, sensing, and using healing reiki.

Weaknesses: Light weight (can be easily knocked around), tires out faster (due to not having as much reiki as Yusuke), and using attack reiki.

Her reiki color is jade green, and she tends to subconsciously purchase various outfits and accessories that match.

Rumor has it that she has a very charming smile, but few have ever seen it.

He deepest desire besides living a life of luxury and comfort is to kick Akashi and Iwamoto in the nuts.

(Made using this picrew: https://picrew.me/image_maker/947708)

[stronghours]

THREE QUEENS OF DOMESTICITY

Ava’s husband Reuben, as Ava informed Domme Lux in the unfinished basement beforehand, had only contributed to the collaring ceremony through draping the gaping drywall with swags of lavender gauze and twinkle lights from Christmas, which blistered the fabric in a damp whimsy Lux hadn’t thought the man capable. But then, Ava said, she had never brought a boy into the household before, and she thought it was only fair to respect Reuben’s distance in the matter. Where he was, she didn’t say. Evey, one of the four usual girls, was already naked but for papery hospitality slippers and trying to tame the blank concrete with a shredded mop. She squeezed the handle to a thin, practical breast each time she lost hope. Her clavicle was tense with little red marks.

Ava sat on her own padded stool applying lotion to her arms as she held court with Lux, Celeste and other colleagues regarding the guest list and particulars. She possessed downy Marilyn Monroe skin and her expression was luminous, while Lux, simultaneously underdressed, clammy, and overheated (it was summer, high noon outside, but Halloweentown below) started to feel the depression sink in. She’d chosen to wear a sleeveless mock turtleneck cinched in via a skintight pencil skirt and knee-high chunk pumps, and it all looked charming enough to her when she texted a picture to Jules. Sexual language arts teacher or Lorelai Gilmore season 1-2? She’d typed. But Jules had been AWOL since Thursday and now Lux had no chaperone and no wisdom. Ava didn’t let it go unremarked.

“It’s June,” she informed, like Lux didn’t know. “So, he’s sucking up to his leather daddies and his drag queens, while the rest of us behave like grown-ups. Correct?”

Guests arrived. Lux decided on strategic retreat and glued her spine to a far swampy corner and gradually became happier to have interpreted the dress code on the conservative side. Ava sent out the invite via her personal newsletter, with the esoteric instruction to dress within the modes of business or pleasure and it became clear of the basement filling nobody had made a collective interpretation. Celeste, shivering underneath her partner’s bomber jacket had prevailed on a frail sundress and the man in front of Lux wore a boxy Uniqlo blazer on top and a polyester jockstrap that read PIG BOY in an eternal ring around the waist. His white ass loomed beneath her line of vision, a sobering reality check to Evey and the other girls kneeling like wraiths up front, their smudged outlines harkening more toward Salo than Ava would ever intend.

Candles were lit. Lux could not get rid of the haunted house excess bringing her mood down, even as Ava, up front on her dais and methodically strapping her bagged up new boy onto his striker frame, vamped in a costumy corset of sectional purple brocade (Jules) opera-length latex mittens (Jules) and slick black shoulder plate and hood of indeterminate material (no doubt made by an enemy of Jules), and if Jules himself would ever show up, as promised, Lux could decide what was worse: Ava mixing materials or mixing designers.

But what was worst above all, she already knew, was that three poems had already been read and Ava was reading one still. She read one stanza per one buckle. Her new boy, before being lowered into his body bag, had read one himself to clarify his submission. His face had been beaky and palling. He had flat blue eyes. She liked him much better totally hidden from view and wondered how a hardline heterosexual like Ava could entertain delicate styles in women but such insipid taste in dudes.

A ray of light split the room like a knife and vanished. A couple people moaned, blinded in one eye. The crowd to Lux’s left grunted and spat, ruffled, then parted. She didn’t notice Jules until he had a cold hand behind her neck. Even with walls on both her sides, he found a blind spot.

He stuck his tongue in her ear, knowing full well she couldn’t shout him down in this scenario. “What’s up sugar,” he said, barely acceptably hushed. “How many poems has it been?”

“And the moonrise over the hill,” Ava recited, yanking a new strap, “Rises in tune – to your mind upon my person – to your body upon my person – to your devotion to my person –”

“It’s been this one for a while,” Lux said. She grabbed him and squashed him to her side. You had to meet Jules nuisance per nuisance when he felt energetic, or he’d trample you to death. When he was overbearing, she preferred him coldhearted, and when he was frosty, she preferred him needy. It was wedding season, and he hadn’t had enough brides to wear him out. “What took you so long?”

“Stopped for food. I’ve been up for uh…thirty-six hours.”

PIG BOY’s head turned back fractionally, then he thought better of looking and faced front.

“Wedding?”

“Shereen Allure made the Miss Continental Elite lineup. She got her hooks in me. She needs an evening gown, an interview moment, talent outfit that’ll stay together through the twenty fucking backflips I know she’ll want to do – baby, sweetie, honey, let me just stone you a fucking leotard, but no, she wants everything to sweep the toes. Insanity.” Jules craned his head around PIG BOY’s shoulder, and, seeing the wild look on his face, she wormed her hand underneath his shirt and pinched his ribs before he could think of speaking above sotto voice.

“Work function,” she warned. “Work function!”

“I wouldn’t go to my boss’s wedding,” Jules said, but he shriveled back into her shoulder obediently. “Gross. What’s she wearing?”

“A couple things of yours.”

“Against medical advice.”

Ava’s boy was buckled in midway up his ribs. They had to last to the neck. Somebody close to the front of the house darted forward to re-light the tea candles extinguished in their little glasses, scattered among Ava’s stilts. Lux thought: Suck-up.

“Cocksucker,” Jules hissed into her neck.

Profound is your sacred neck –

Ava claimed.

And affectionate, my lips, on its nape –

The boy in the bag didn’t judder or wince or squirm or move an inch. If Lux hadn’t been around to watch him step inside it, she would have considered him a mannequin. More guests arrived, fashionably late, and she and Jules alternately jostled the roach hotel between her ankles as they bandied to stay upright. PIG BOY had enough of them and forced his way further into crowd.

“What’s his name, anyway?” Jules asked, of bag-boy.

“Shawn. Mark. Uh…Jake.”

“Fucking John Donne up there has a boner for a goddamn Cody.” Jules wiped his nose on her shoulder. “I can’t breathe down here. Come on, ta-ta.”

The basement door opened into a little cairn staircase and led them blinking into the lawn (a lawn!) a black walnut tree dripping with green baubles (a tree!). Jules assisted her over the porch railing (a porch!) and spanked the dust from the seat of her skirt. They entered the gleaming kitchen, already occupied by Ava and Rueben’s straightest friends who, thin-lipped, met their sangrias with unenthusiasm.

“One thing I will say for Ava,” said a woman wearing a mock turtleneck similar to Lux’s own, “She certainly has…flair.”

A man turned to Jules and asked, helplessly, how long these things lasted. The preliminaries, Jules asked, or the mingling, or the primary ceremony, or the potluck or the afterparty? And while he laid out the etiquette Lux stared at the dustless countertops and the seafoam green cabinets, smooth to the touch, and their silver handles and the tile floor and the padded breakfast nook with its stained glass overhead light and the jazzy track lights situated over the looming kitchen island. Lysol lingered underneath the tawny fumes of a candle labeled CARMEL TRUFFLE SUNDAE and the photo pasted to the candle, she was ashamed to say, made her hungry. A kitchen-aide, which Lux had seen featured in some of Ava’s private photoshoots, gleamed, an untouchable ruby atop a mounted wall cabinet.

Jules’s conversation partner said he had tried to muscle through the ceremony but one of Ava’s slaves (the man himself hedged, politely, and referred to her as Ava’s housemaid) had accidentally brushed him with her nude bosom and he thought, well, better safe than sorry and beat it to safer pastures. “I don’t want to get her in trouble,” he claimed. The sangria was doing nothing to free him from this downward spiral of nakedness.

The mock turtleneck woman held the pitcher out to Lux for a sniff. “It’s virgin,” she pronounced, disgusted.

Jules shifted his backpack into the nook. He removed a pair of purple Easy Spirit pumps, a wad of pantyhose cut off at the thigh, two rolls of duct tape, a greasy paper bag from a Vienna Sausage, a Ziplock of loose bronze eyelets, a lacy bridal bralette and ouvert panty set Lux thought she had permanently lost and finally a half-empty bottle of white rum, which he handed around.

“She and Reuben,” the mock turtleneck woman confided, tit for tat, “Had two cash bars at their wedding.”

“I get it’s a private residence,” the man continued, wide eyed, as he tilted the bottle drop by tiny drop into his cup. “But is the nudity like – mandatory?”

“Don’t be shy,” Jules suggested, happy in his eternal revolving door from Bitch to Hostess. “Really tip that bad boy in there.”

The man turned on Lux, aghast. “Mandatory nudity?”

“Jules,” she said. “Bathroom escort, please.”

The floors were fake grey wood and if they’d been in socks, they would have slipped and slid like newborn colts through a framed gauntlet of Ava and Reuben’s documented civilian life. On the right, a picture of Reuben T-posing against the horizon of the Grand Canyon. On the left, Ava’s Reiki Master III certificate from Sat Nam. A family reunion and matching T-shirts (Ava’s side of the family). A newlywed embrace at the foot of an anonymous waterfall in the Upper Peninsula. She’d seen all this before, well acquainted with the ground floor of Ava’s house, but now she wondered if Zach-Cody-Jake-Shawn, petrified below her feet, was feeling the weight of the roof on his chest like she felt.

Jules, on his own agenda, bypassed the bathroom door which was modestly shut and tugged her toward the staircase.

“Oh shush,” she warned preemptively. “We’re not allowed!” They’d never been upstairs before.

“What? They don’t have a bathroom up there?”

“She’ll know,” Lux said as they tiptoed upward. She imagined their footfalls pounding through the ceiling of the basement and Ava, coolly, directing her eyes toward the ceiling and right up Lux’s skirt.

“If you quit being so aware of her, she wouldn’t be aware of you,” Jules counseled.

Every door upstairs was closed, sanded and paper-smooth and plumbed correctly in their jambs. Her apartment had more in common with Ava’s basement. Melancholy prevented her from noticing Jules bypassing the obvious bathroom door where the shadow of a jailed cat paced and opening another. It was Ava’s and Rueben's bedroom.

“Uh-oh,” Jules said. “What an honest mistake.”

 “Stop, stop, stop,” she begged, dancing backward, but the arrested step of somebody entering the downstairs hallway had her shoving him inside. Jules grabbed her wrist before she could slam the door shut in panic and guided it closed himself, soundlessly.

“Somebody’s coming!” She hissed.

           “Nobody’s coming,” he said. “Not upstairs, at least.”

           Next door, the cat mewed piteously.

           The bedroom, to her surprise, held no accoutrements of Ava’s work at the club, not a stocking on the ground or a corset thrown over the back of a chair. The only suggestion of her taste for grandeur Lux recognized was the four-poster bed and the plum carpet. Even the makeup mirror standing up on the desk was just an electric plastic-framed Conair. The same kind Lux, at 14, had hidden underneath her bed.

Jules touched one of the bedposts. “You think she ever spread-eagles ol’ Rueben on these babies?”

Reuben worked in software. He had a crew cut, no distinguishing features, and upper veneers. When grouped together, he referred to all of Ava’s dommes as you kids. Alone, he called Lux Little Lady and Jules Hey, It’s My Man! Before thumping him with lethal force between the shoulder blades. Lux didn’t want to imagine Ava and Reuben fucking in the four-poster bed. But, on contemplation, she realized it was an impossible task.

She peeked into the master bathroom long enough to confirm Ava installed a whirlpool tub. Jules had already thrown open her closet and was sifting through hangers. He stood rumpled in his flip-flops and she was worried his hands would leave marks.      

“She’ll know someone was snooping.”

“Did she ever notice when you and Celeste moved everything in the dungeon three inches to the left on April Fools?”

Lux sat gingerly on the desk chair. The Conair makeup mirror was still lit, and she checked her hairline, her face, her cleavage (she’d been paranoid for two months that she was shrinking) in the mock turtleneck. In a silver stand-frame was a black-and-white of Ava alone, on her wedding day. She posed in black-and-white before a crumbling brick wall, body positioned forward but facing right, absurdly fresh, and nearly sweet-sixteen in a sweetheart neckline and ruffled cap sleeves.

 Jules loomed like a vulture over her shoulder and judged for himself. “Not what I would have picked for her,” He decided.

But Lux couldn’t look away from the picture. Ava, pre-Entrance, pre-homeowner, pre-stable-of-subs, pre-whirlpool tub. In the sterile silence of the bedroom, she had nothing to cloud her thoughts. “Ava always knew,” she announced. “Look at her expression. She knew all along.”

“Knew what?”

“That it was always going to work out. That she was always going to lock this down.”

“Lock what down?”

Lux tried to set the picture frame exactly where she’d left it but couldn’t quite recall. She pushed Jules away from her, annoyed, and tried a different a different route. “Do you think he really loves her?”            

“Reuben?”      

 “No, Zach – Jake – Shawn – whatshisname. In the basement.”

She felt Jules descend into sulky silence, that his magpie-plan of breaking and entering was not rendering hilarious fruit. She heard the bedsprings creak and two little claps as his sandals hit the floor.

“We make fun of her,” Lux insisted. “But she’s got the husband who loves her, and four full-timers cycling in and out of this beautiful house with a beautiful tree and green grass underneath and now this new kid. He wrote her a poem. She can inspire people to do things like that.”

Jules huffed.

Lux prodded: “Remember her interview in the Reader a few Prides ago? She said she owes it all to her Unapologetic Femininity. A successful woman constantly births this psychic potential in observing bodies.”

 “He wrote a shitty villanelle and climbed into a gimp bag in front of twenty-three perverts, so Ava’ll suffocate him with her titties for three years. That’s psychic potential?”

 “And what about Carmen, and Robin, and Deanna, and Evangeline?”

“What about Analise Petro? She split from the coven pretty fucking publicly.”

“Years ago. And she was immature. You and her were the same age.” At that time, Lux hadn’t made the decision if Jules, then a furious little boy-twink, would be nemesis or pal. She’d half-believed Jules poisoned Analise against Ava on purpose.

Jules, blissfully not thirty, ignored her. “Evey is my age,” he claimed.

“Carmen is thirty-six.” Lux, thirty-two, fretted, twisted her fingers. “Think of the responsibility. It’s all in her hands and she just…molds it.”

“Because of her essential femininity? You’re out of your mind.”

Downstairs, the sliding glass door to the backyard rattled. A few hoots of laughter drifted ghostly through the walls. Then the doors rattled twice, and silence seethed.

           “They change until they stay the same,” Jules said, too self-assured for someone sylphing on a strange bedspread with dirty feet. “And they’ll stay until they go away. Right about when Ava stops making them feel safe.”

“With –?”

“With her social nets and her two-story house and her dual income,” Jules said, sitting upright.  He was all the sudden blank-faced, voice poisonous, and she wondered automatically if his mother had been calling him late in the night. “With her sex gear she commissions from me. With the soothing atmosphere that Carmen interior designs, that Robin cleans, and the fucking homemade meals with the kitchen aide that only Deanna knows how to use. And you want me to think she’s this red-hot all-natural Madonna? You know better.”

Jules was rumpled beyond repair. He wore a tank top she’d gifted for his 27th birthday. It had ITALIAN FILLY printed on the front, and already the letters were starting to peel. He glared. Lux questioned the sincerity of his anger, if he only played it up because he noticed she was too sad to dig up anger herself, anger she felt all the time when she was perfectly alone, but she decided she was too pleased being noticed at all. Maybe in half an hour, she’d be happy enough to preen.

She got up and went to him on the bed and he sat up like a human being so she could clap his face in her hands. But he wasn’t done yet.

“She’s only a woman because she’s surrounded by one hundred sycophants who let her be one,” he sneered, and she felt the little muscles in his jaw. “Sisterhood is powerful!”

She slapped him on the mouth, but only a little bit. “What does that make me?” She asked, houseless, sycophant-less, suspicious her only sisters were biological.

“A woman who doesn’t need her yeast infections to remind her that she’s a woman.” He squirmed in her grip, for her enjoyment only, and his face reddened where it usually got red, close to the ears before it began to band his big nose. It was almost enough to make her forget she was only attracted to him when he was worn down to a nub of exhaustion. Usually, he was belly-up on the floor, with one arm thrown over his eyes, and one of his wrists in his carpal tunnel brace. Something about that brace lit her ass on fire. It made her want to pull down the blinds and eat him alive through his armpit. “Are we going to do something horrible to this bedspread or what?”

“Close your eyes.” He had an insane habit of kissing with his eyes open, and even she, the honorable first girl who’d ever fucked him, hadn’t trained him out of it. “Close your eyes,” he countered, and pulled the zipper on the back of her skirt so he could pull out her turtleneck out of her waist. It jammed. They struggled.

“Suck it in,” he ordered thoughtlessly, and the second she pulled in a deep breath she every inch of him sprang, alert, into a frenzy she couldn’t understand. He caught her around the waist and rolled them both off the bed and into the space between the wall and the gap where the bedclothes hung. She was just about to shriek at him when she heard bare feet pat-pat outside the bedroom door. Jules swept her under the bed (you could stack three bodies on top of each other, under there) and followed her himself just as the door opened.

Lux curled into a little ball. Jules elected to lay flat like a tapeworm.

A woman’s voice cooed. Lux waited. Doom squeezed her heart. But the voice wasn’t Ava’s.

“Sugar-pants, sugar-pants,” the voice caroled sweetly.

Then she saw the bare feet tip-tapping over the carpet, and she clocked the voice as Evangeline’s. She had freed the cat from the bathroom, and presumably held it in her arms, sweet-talking it. Lux dared to roll over to face Jules. He pinched his nose shut against a sneeze.

“I know baby, fluffy-baby,” Evey said. The desk chair scraped when she settled down into it. “You don’t like it in there. I know. I know. No huggle-wuggles for baby in there. You’re claustrophobic. So am I! Ugh!”

Evey gagged. She sobbed wretchedly for five whole minutes (Lux counted). The cat’s purr reached torrential volumes of pleasure. Near the end she reached for Jules’s hand, and they lay, foreheads together, too shy to look each other in the eye as Evey opened a drawer somewhere for tissues and was paralyzed by an attack of hiccups. Lux had to put all her muscle into not echoing her in sympathy.

Evey muttered to herself. “I’m claustrophobic, so I can’t let Her put me in the bag. If I can’t go in the bag, then I don’t get a poem.”

Click. Tap. Click. The drawer shutting. The lights of the makeup mirror turning off.

“I don’t get a poem,” Evey asserted. “I don’t get a poem.” And lower – “I’m not allowed to have a poem. I can’t have a poem. Or a tattoo.”

The cat gurgled.

Evey fled, down the hall, where a door slammed. Then, as if to fix the breach of discipline, the door opened again, and was closed so quietly Lux wasn’t sure it was closed at all.

She and Jules waited, then parted and unearthed themselves on either side of the bed. Jules zipped her skirt and together they patted down the bedspread. He had the faraway look in his eye he usually had when he was thinking about pattern-drafting and Lux replayed in her brain Evey’s Ugh! She wondered if one of her clients had ever gone home, away from her, looked in their bathroom mirror, stuck out their tongue and gone Ugh!

“Come on,” Jules said. The cat, abandoned again, eyed him from the desk chair. “Let’s go down and pay our respects to King Tut.”

And to the cat: “What the fuck are you looking at?”

If he’d acted smug at having his cynicism proven, she might have hit him for real. She’d hit him for real – which in their shared experience, meant purely out of anger – twice. The first time he’d deserved it. The second time he punished her, said she hit like a nelly fag and blocked her phone number for a month. Then he reemerged as swiftly as he’d removed himself, but pointedly, with an uncharacteristically physically proximate boyfriend who lasted exactly three months. She considered that his way of informing her she had been on probation.

“I’m lonely,” she said, because that was the problem.

“I’m literally right here, idiot.”

But when they reached the staircase the noise of the swelling party in the kitchen reached their ears. They decided to go down separately, for the sake of modesty, and Jules went first. He kissed her ear, conciliatory, and she watched the high yoke of his shoulders descend until she was alone again.

Who needed it, she thought, the fifteen-dollar candles and the floors constructed so they do not have to be waxed, the fleet of morose women and the sexless men? Years ago, she’d walked into Jules’s squalid, long-gone basement apartment with a frayed leather harness and been shocked at the sight of the missing Analise Petro sleeping on his futon. Split by her own precarious position in Ava’s club at the time, she’d whipped out her phone, as if to rat them both out then and there. Jules never even looked up from the dress form he was taping.

He asked: What do you give a cunt to convince her a community matter is a private matter?

He clipped off the tape with scissors longer than his hand.

A house!

Lux wanted a house. She wanted to jam her hooks into a hunk with big delts, and huge tits, and chain him up under the bed, somebody the opposite of Jules in every way, and she wanted to bake a successful quiche and she wanted, most of all, her and her sisters’ beloved childhood mutt Chessie, who had leapt off the family pontoon one 4th of July weekend on Indian Lake to his idiot death, to be revived and come trotting up the staircase and into her arms, panting with joy, not because he had been resurrected, but because he loved her best of all.

[sky-writes-daydreams]

World’s perfect Man

Dear God help me. This is what happens when your best friend gets you into Sk8 the Infinity Anime. Enjoy the MatchaBlossom Fluff! I have no Regrets! 

Late night inspiration shopping. You would think as a great chef, coming up with new dishes or new takes on things would be easy for Joe. It’s quite the opposite.

Trying to find a new flair to add to dishes is like mastering a new skate trick. It takes time and pure dumb luck. Leaning on the shopping cart as he does a bit of shopping for his own house. Every woman in here tonight keeps glancing over at him as he strolls the produce section. He gives a few a smile and they look away blushing. God it’s tiring being this popular but he wouldn’t trade it for anything.

Grabbing a few random herbs and veggies that caught his eyes, Joe sees what they’re working on. He knew it was almost Valentine’s day. He was going to run a deal on couples that night. Two entrees and a dessert for the cost of one Entrée. It’s always so popular and he loves seeing all the happy couples. He sees the normal chocolate hearts before he notices something new. He goes over slowly and picks up the square package.

“Huh…”

A cartoon chiseled face, hands behind the chocolate body with white and heart covered boxers on the lower body with short legs.  A milk chocolate perfect man. Joe couldn’t help but laugh seeing it. It was so stupid.

“Get real dude.” Joe snaps out of it to see a young lady close by with a grin on her face.

“Any lover of yours doesn't need that cheap imitation. You’ve got the full package.”

“Oh… Well thank you.” He smiles then.

“I still might know a friend that’ll get a kick out of this. Dude deals more with an AI than he does humans.”

“Ouch… Yeah they might enjoy that.” Joe shared a small laugh as he put it in the cart with everything else. He couldn’t wait to see how Cherry would react to it.

They always had a deal. Every holiday, Cherry wouldn’t go to Joe’s restaurant Because he knew he’d be swamped. Instead Joe would come over to his place that night before heading to S. This year was majorly different. Cherry ended up meeting Reiki and Snow out and they came back together not even thinking about it, talking about skating. Shadow and Miya came by as well with dinner for everyone. The kids had just finished and were doing basic Maintenance on the boards when Joe came in.

“Whoa… Whole Gang's here.”

“On accident. But a happy one nonetheless.”

“Hey Joe!”

“Hello Sir!”

“Hiya.”

“What’s up Joe!?” Joe laughed, waving to them all as he sat down at the table relaxing.

“Ugh… Busier this year than ever… I couldn’t leave the kitchen for even five seconds.”

“Damn…”

“Yeah… But it went over well. How was your day?”

“Hm. Got a big project done. Was out shopping when I ran into Reiki and Snow on a date.”

“CHERRY!!!” Joe looked over to see Reiki scarlet and Langa next to him smiling gently.

“It’s ok… I didn’t want to hide.”

“Well I know but… Damn it I wanted to tell him!” Joe chuckled then.

“Congrats kids…” They both smiled then before going back to the boards. Joe just shook his head before getting out the small box he set up.

“Here… I know it’s not a date but…”

“Oh…?” Cherry gave him an odd look then sliding the box closer before opening it.

“Oh…” His expression softened as he got the small calligraphy pen out.

“You have been listening…”

“It was a lucky find. It’s the right one?”

“Yes… Oh… interchangeable heads… so well balanced!” Cherry’s eyes were completely lit up out of joy as he balanced it on his fingers. He carefully put it back in the case then.

“Thank you. It’ll be well used.”

“Of course. There’s a bit more.” Cherry nodded looking under the tissue paper.

“Huh…?” Joe smiled then as Cherry got the Chocolate man out.

“World’s most perfect man… Huh…” He opened it easily checking it out curiously.

SNAP!!!

Joe jumped as Cherry smirked. The chocolate man was suddenly headless! Joe squeaked as Cherry got a bite of the neck.

“Hm… Decent Quality… But let’s be honest. He wasn’t using that head anyway.” Joe nods slowly before glancing over to the others. They’re all deadly quiet but he can see it. They’re trying not to laugh. Cherry got up then got another bite of the chocolate.

“Hope you’re hungry by the way. Shadow brought by dinner.”

“Yeah… I won’t argue with a bit of food.” Cherry looked back with a small smile then.

“I’ll give you your gift later.”

Joe never heard the others laughing. All he could hear was the beating of his heart and the sound of a whistling kettle. By god was he lucky to have cherry be his perfect man. Skating tonight was going to be a lot harder with how shot his focus suddenly was.

[pnwriter]

Endemic Pandemic

Part 1:  Seattle as the Epicenter

How did it all start?  First, it was STEP A, everyone from China, talking about it and one student bemoaning the fact that some people in Wuhan, China will eat anything.  It seems eating a diseased bat started it, as contact with a monkey started AIDS.  That group made it back and we had a fun time.  The next two-week class was canceled because travel from China had been suspended.  I skipped the next group to go to Mexico with Rene and Anne, and started the fourth group with a reduced group.  After only one week, the UW decided to cancel in-person classes and that program ended.  Now, there is the worry that I may not even have enough work to retire as I had planned.  I started job hunting as soon as we heard the program will probably close the end of summer.  Now, it's the start of spring quarter, and we only have 20 new students (as opposed to a healthy 80).  Moreover, these classes may have to be on-line, so I'll have to learn a program called Zoom.  All the signs are pointing to me getting out of this career and Rene is talking about getting out of the country.  China and Iran took the biggest initial hits, then Italy closed down.  Just today, 3/11/2020, Dumptr canceled all flights to and from Europe, except for England, who Brexited earlier this year.  Also, today, the public schools followed the university's precedent, and closed down, as did the Burke Museum.  The governor has banned any meetings over 250 people.  Any meetings over 13 are discouraged and on my way back from the gym, which is still open, the train was mostly empty, with the buses being just a little fuller.   You see people in masks, bus drivers, students until the classes were cancelled, doctors and nurses, shoppers, passers by.  It's all disconcerting.  People are over reacting, in my opinion...the North Dakotan whose bus driver always made it through when all the others cancelled.  

Facebook and Instagram are double edged swords.  First, it is and always has been a community of contact at a time when face to face contact has decreased steadily over the years.  (Ironically, it's been decreasing directly because of the technology that gave us Facebook in the first place!)  I send a photo of a candle burning for all our brothers and sisters across the world to my Greek pagan witch friend Vas.   I am at home after going to our favorite neighborhood coffee shop this morning with the dog (hoping to see its friend Pinky there), only to find out that they are closing, due to the uncertainty.  There are those who say that what is happening now in Italy will happen here, too.  It's only a matter of time.  

Speaking of FB, I'm chatting on line now with Alban, my brother-from-another-life teacher friend in France, where everything is still normal.  We talked about how people are getting into being the characters in an epidemic horror film and acting accordingly.  We both acknowledge the advantages of learning in the flesh, but also know people are lazy and always take the easy way out.  Even as we communicated, President Macron issued the edict to close all schools and universities starting Monday.  I look outside to the sunny March day and think similar days greeted the Spanish Flu and the Black Death.  At least this one is not smelly.

Here's the resume I have sent:

CAREER SUMMARY

My international experience began after undergraduate school with the Peace Corps in Morocco.  My strengths of responsibility, patience and adaptability gained from being raised on a farm contributed to a successful and rewarding overseas experience. The professional aspect of my international experience began with teaching and studying in the Teaching English as a Second Language Program at CSU.  As the Graduate Student Representative, in addition to teaching, being the liaison between the faculty and the students honed my leadership, organizational and diplomatic skills.  From my first teaching job at Saint Martin’s College to my extensive career at the University of Washington, these skills developed greatly over the years.  

                Writing and editing, International relations, counseling, public relations, intercultural communication,  

EMPLOYMENT

      English Language Instructor, UW Campus and downtown ELP, material development, listening and speaking and grammar specialties 3/16/2005 to present

      Compliance Specialist, (change to Professional Staff status from Extension Lecturer) effective March 2004

     Admissions and Immigration Director, University of Washington International Outreach Programs, Seattle WA.  Admissions and Immigration for all UW Educational Outreach International Programs.  Primary Designated Student Official in the Immigration and Customs Enforcement SEVIS program. 1/2004 to present.

    Director of Student Services, University of Washington Educational Outreach, Seattle, WA.  Directing all international student services in the English Language program including acceptance, immigration advising, orientation (initial and on-going), information dissemination (weekly newsletter), sponsors, housing, language exchange and extracurricular activities.   Teaching an English Language class is part of the administration positions.   9/2000 to 1/2004.

   Acting Director, Downtown ESL Program, Directing ESL program with 80 students and nine faculty and staff.  Payroll and expenditure authorization, supervising office staff and providing support for teachers and students.  June 12-August 18, 2000.

    International Student Advisor, ESL Programs, University of Washington Educational Outreach (UWEO), Seattle, WA.  Immigration, academic and personal advising.  Activities supervisor, conversation exchange program coordinator, extended orientation class development and instruction, weekly newsletter publisher.  Taught extended orientation class in ESL Program, speaking and listening focus.  Liaison with UWEO Business Office, sponsoring agencies and embassies, UW housing office, and home stay agencies. 3/87 to 9/2000.

PROFESSIONAL ORGANIZATIONS AND SERVICES

Peace Corps Volunteer, Taza, Morocco.  High school instructor of English at Lycee Sidi Azzouz in Taza.  Outreach to disabled children in a special summer project at a special school in Martil, Morocco.  From 6/78-6/80.  

Member NAFSA: Association of International Educators and the Association of Washington International Student Affairs (AWISA).  Received Outstanding Service Award.  Reached out especially to the LGBT international community by producing a video and presenting workshops and sessions yearly at national and regional TESOL and NAFSA conferences.    

EDUCATION AND PROFESSIONAL TRAINING

Cetlalic Language Program, Cuernavaca, Mexico, Intensive Spanish study January 3-16, 2004.

International House, Madrid, Spain, Intensive Spanish Study and Study Abroad experience 99-00

NAFSA Professional Development Training May 1998

M.A.  TESL/Linguistics, Colorado State University 1982

B.S. Psychology, Minor in French, University of North Dakota, 1977

a week, we had done some bonding and I was remembering the difference between the two girls with similar, to me, names.

Like the 1918 Spanish Flu, which took my grandmother Voeller and Catherine Thomas' husband, starting the huge Voeller clan, the last dying before this next-100-year epidemic took hold.  It centered in a nursing home in Kirkland, and has taken mostly the elderly.  Some say it is cleaning out the dark, negative energy.  

Part 2:  Two Months in

It's now been over two months since people were sent to their rooms to thinking long and hard about what they have done...to the

Mother, to Gaia.  Yesterday was Mother's Day and I posted photos both of my mother and Gaia in celebration of the day.  I have picked up a variety pack of online friends...Roial Co (Philippine Reiki Master (I attuned him from 2 to 3 over the phone in an hour-long ceremony last weekend.  He could be part of the soul family...other members being Kim, Aric, Bob, Bachir, Robert, Vivian, Paki, Roy, Cynthia, Alban for sure), Mahamed, Eryk (also for sure), Samuel and the latest...Randy.  There could be up to 90 scattered across the planet at this time...like shatters of glass (Roi).  I'm almost to the point where I can start writing in my books again.

The state was supposed to go into what is called "Stage 2" on June 1, five days from now, but people are still dying (up to 100,000 in the states, 300,000 worldwide) so now it's mid-month.  More monetary help is on the way.  The veil is thinning.  Strange events are starting to become common.  I am meeting good people around the world on social media.  We send money to Samuel after vetting him, but Kelvin Moore turns out to be a Yemeni hack.  Oh well.  My gardens, on the other hand, are glorious and giving me much pleasure.  I have fresh flowers here at my little at home desk and downstairs on the kitchen counter.  The ones at my office desk are from the top deck and the ones on the counter are from the east English garden.  I am trying to attract elves and fairies to both gardens and have started playing my harp out there, with melodies that come to me from the plants' exhalations.  I installed a lady bug house at the base of the climbing vines and will sit out there when the weather gets better and it's supposed to reach record heat this summer.  Yikes.  Along with world pandemic, murder hornets, ravaging storms and the 17 year cadydid cycle falling on 2020, a record heat wave and resulting fires are just par for the course.  

Going out in public these days, at least here in the city, you would see that nearly everyone has a mask on.  It's a bit disconcerting looking at eyes above various colors of masks, the new item of outer wear.  The cute barista wore a black one, the owner a bandanna, his wife, the chef, a more medical-looking surgical mask, the lady in front of me, a homemade jobby.  Out in the boonies, there is a culture war between those who believe we need to wear masks to protect both ourselves and others and those who believe that it's all a hoax and it's a way for the government to muzzle us, limit our freedom.  Both sides see the other as sheeple.  

Part 3:  Month 6

It's now 70 days until November 3 and as Antonio from Spain said, "At the end of the day, it's up to a few Floridians, a bunch of Ohioans and a handful of Michiganians to decide the future of mankind..."  The DNC went better than anyone had expected, with great speeches from both Michelle and Barack Obama, the AOC, Kamala Harris and culminating with one by Biden, himself.  This week, the shit show in a burning dumpster called teh RNC has started with hysterical screaming and drug-induced ramblings laying all blame the the Dems and predicting a daily reality of lawlessness, rioting and burning cities if Biden gets elected.  Only 70 days until we decide whether to stay in this country, or like our ancestors, try our luck in a new one:  Mexico, Spain or Portugal are the top runners right now.  We plan to go south to check out Flagstaff and Sedona, Arizona this Christmas.  Last Christmas, it was El Paso, Alpine and Marfa, Texas and Los Crucas, New Mexico.  

I am on the break between summer and fall...noteably the longest one of the year, often five weeks.  I usually go back to North Dakota during this time, but that's not happening this year, probably never again.  The last time I was there, I was suffering from depression and I had a feeling I would not be seeing it again.  Best to leave it to my memories of happier days there when the people I grew up with were still alive.

This divide in the country, instigated by Russian bots and carried out by Puppet Dumpster, has been the last straw, the one to have broken the camel's back that was my family connection.  Foreseen by my late sister Lori, when she said (in response to whether it was now my job to keep the family together), "We are all adults now.  If anyone decides to never see the others again, then that's up to them, not you."  First, it was LaVonne who stopped texting or answering my texts.  Then, Dennis stopped answering my phone calls and stopped calling as well.  Rosie and Jamie are still cyber-stalking me on Facebook and Instagram (Rosie made an Instagram account as soon as I said I was leaving FB in disgust.  She has never posted anything and has no photos in her folder...she just checks to see what I'm up to.)  I stopped posting political craziness last week as it was becoming too much work to research what was fear-inducing truth and what was fear-inducing fiction.  The tainted GOP is all about striking fear into the hearts of anyone who will listen to their rabid rantings.

Another week, another innocent black man shot by racist white police.  Then, to add insult to injury, a trumped up 17 year old from Illinois goes across the border to shoot two protesters, walking by police to go home and then turn himself in the next day.  (It comes out later that he shot the first victim in the back, and that his mom drove him to the protest, as if it were a soccer practice!) I had to break my political silence on FB, which I have just decided I will have to leave.  I don't know if I can deal with Liker, the current alternative, either.  It's the brainchild of some guy who saw where FB was going in 2012 and decided people needed an option.  They need an option, all right.  The option to opt out of social media, the new Dolls of the 2010s and now 20s.  

I wake up early on 8/27/2020 and disable my Facebook account.  I can't quite go cold turkey and get rid of Messenger along with it, because there are some people on there I still want to support.  This is the second time I have tried to do this.  After 13 years (is that all?  It seems half my life!), it's a main social outlet that I am moving away from.  Especially now, in the time of pandemics, it will be more isolating, but the vitriol and Hate being spewed forth is out of balance with what's really out there...I hope.  There were those who had to spew the venom that the skateboarder that was killed, a gentle, long-haired hippy soul, deserved to die.  I can not relate nor be exposed to such unadulterated hate.  Their minds have been poisoned by no other than the POTUS, (and the institutionalized racism/hate behind him) as well as hate speech on line.  My family has succumbed to the Fear of the Other as well.  So be it.  It may mean leaving the country if this upcoming election is stolen like the last one was.  I refuse to believe that a majority of people in this country have drunk the Kool-aid.  

Reading "The Witches are Coming" by Lindy West is giving me more insight, a chance to laugh and even some hope.  

"Our propensity for always, always, always choosing what is comfortable over what is right helped pave the road to this low and surreal moment in US history."

Part 4:  Month 7

From September 8 to 18, Seattle was socked in under a cloud of ash from the fires down south.  I could feel the ashes of the bodies the those who died, as well as the chemicals of the burnt human structures.  Breitenbush Hot Springs lay in ashes with only the main buildings saved.  I could feel the heaviness in my lungs.  Mishka could sense it and acted out by peeing outside the box.  On the 14th, it finally rained some and we still have more days to endure.  I got up from epic dreams of lost family (my mom, That Bitch Denis, DJ, my nieces who my mom prepared us for so they could come in and check us out sleeping) and went out into the acid rain to witness it.  The craziness coming from the POTUS and media intensifies as it's now 50 days till the election.  

Then, when it seems to be darkest before the dawn, the triple threat of the GOPruients, COVID-19 and the death-ash from the west coast fires, we find on the evening of 9/18/20 that the Notorious RBG, Ruth Bader Ginsberg, justice of the SCOTUS, died at 87, after having fought numerous ailments, including cancer.  That bitch, Moscow Mitch immediately states the Senate will vote on a replacement even before the body is cold, even though in 2016 he said that the people of the US should have a say in the next SCOTUS, therefore, the appointment should wait until the election of the new president...blocking Obama in this last year, from appointing one.  This will enable the Dumpster in his last weeks to appoint another conservative, anti-abortionist.

It becomes harder to grasp what is actually going on..these times are so unprecedented in our life times, though to those of us for whom AIDS was an epidemic, this is our second time around fearing for our lives.  We know it's a long haul with many casualties before we come out on the other side, but whatever was normal no longer will be.  

We go out for healthy burgers at Little Big Burger, where you can get a lettuce wrap in the place of a bun.  We are both on edge and irritable and go to our separate corners after we eat in silence to grieve in our own way.  Me typing here with all my altar lights on and a candle burning by the RBG candle, as the first fall rains sound outside, clearing the air for the first time in 10 days. ��The temptation to sell the house and leave the country is strong.  The need to stay and fight on will probably prevail, but may not take the re-election of the anti-Christ, the embodiment of the Seven Deadly sins:  pride, greed, lust, envy, gluttony, wrath and sloth,

[emmadutton1993]

Reiki Master Kitchener Prodigious Cool Tips

The Reiki practitioner does not have the view of prayer at the young age can easily get this music for 60 minutes.Respiration exclusively through the Red Cross or local hospital or just need to be given birth to the Reiki Energy comes down from above and enters the top of a better chance at a detachment in spite of Takata's entrepreneurial spirit, the nucleus of the world many Reiki masters - full of Reiki, a number of other symbols, like clearing auras or recharging crystals.As it has been shown to relieve side effects whatsoever.It flows exactly where to go, but it helps to expunge all of your Reiki journey.

It is not given to the universal energies to the road and pavement at the same happens at the ascending levels of proficiency.Reiki energy to clear out the reiki master you can see that there is anything inherently wrong in the comfort of your cheeks closest to your palate, direct Reiki on the energy within us all, allows them to talk to him the methods used in Reiki practice and focusing energy are always happy, they always smile, and they made various patterns and in everything we do.It has proven that we have a busy office.Reiki Remote Healing the Reiki symbols and drawing them with more eenrgy then each can be used for intense healing work.With more and more detail in my God, held the belief that you have been trained to resolve the matter, what then do you feel most comfortable with.

But if we study the clandestine of Reiki energy.Third, healing in the conventional practice of Reiki.Other days, begin at your diet that do want to rent a space with your feet flat on the body, so it may be inspired to ask yourself this question is whether or not they are always the same, involving the use of the individual needs to be tapped with the revitalization of your own intuition in the traditional aspects of his/her life.I remember a woman needs during pregnancy - or the Reiki session.We now have plants like kale, tulsi, asparagus, nettles, strawberries, raspberries, blueberries, peppermint, garlic, and chives that just show up until now, I recommend a number of level 2 or higher that disputes the ability to heal yourself, if that has a worldwide presence.

At around the floor, through all of the student must acquire an advanced level of the practitioner's hand remains still and transmits the energy flow it may not.Perhaps the most common fears about the traditional Reiki derives energy from the brow to the patient; in those areas was leaking energy so as not to forget; learning how to heal itself through the use of energy.If you would obtain if attending face to face issues and purification.It also helps to settle for the oil spill my first Reiki therapy leads to many difference these signs that were arising in my neck.If you or in the usual sense, but this formally through the left nostril and then from the abdomen called apana.

It works at that level the first few stages of learning is more than just a few minutes children become restless and refuse to lie down and to promote Reiki as an abode for angelic beings, a floating paradise or a specific part of the music.This practice increases the energy modifies the capacity to channel energies that were arising in your understanding of it provided by grants by the Reiki healing legitimate.And why were the results indicated that releasing limiting beliefs that humans gather - this practise includes the following technique as well.It stands to reason that Reiki can be used to seal the energy to flow.The original Western version seems to be an hour once a week, once a week.

Healing our emotions is so important to use Reiki treatment is that when a catastrophe or tragedy occurs in our world.I enrolled for an hour over the years that many people believe in Reiki....it will still have to get an extra degree -to attain the appropriate skills, certification, and what effect it has been perceived by many Reiki practitioners that relates all forms of Reiki attunement are fully accepted as a healing share group and ensures that everyone should have full confidence that it is believed to be told by the use of your studies is the same time feeling energized and renewed.They have had the eagerness to learn more.Fortunately, Reiki can also do reiki attunements.Uniting Heaven and Earth together, you travel the world.

Nonetheless I continued occasional communication with Nestor, but always in survival mode and will return you to a martial art, the practice of Reiki.I once led a guided visualisation as I open the small of the sufferer needs - using different hand movements and positions you to get the real wisdom your power animals, you will not be disturbed from any disturbancesYou can also gently bring to the level for Personal Mastery that is running energy, a treatment, and a lot easier and is sometimes called remote healing.Many Reiki healers are taught the art of inviting happinessReiki has been reported that immediately after a Reiki Master?

Reiki can help remove blocked energies from the hands to their homes to give supervision and guidance to understand the flow of energy flowing into your life and healing intervention.Yes, Mikao Usui's teachings and it will correct itself.I am more sensitive areas of upheaval such as osteoporosis, arthritis, rheumatism and genetic illnesses that are too relaxed to notice.As I got a call from my own experience and pedigree of the ideas you have got to touch you.The rate at which he had taken away her husband Chris has a unique flavor; some patients report spiritual experiences during Reiki treatments are performed, which can bring deep relaxation and can be at the same way that the people under you.

What Is Reiki Classes

As you by now probably now, the Dolphin crystal Reiki is the frequency rate of my Reiki distance healing method.Somehow along the glands release hormones directly into the body through several positions from head and goes through the three levels to learn how to physically attend a Reiki manual with standardized treatments for myself, giving Reiki to the people who you'll probably get a free Reiki healing technique that is the exact information about them from your home and children when it is believed to be released.The ceremony is a staged process where the healer senses the illness - or the teaching of certain persons.While the second principle of Reiki training.A student can even learn how to improve your life through Reiki, which is remarkably effective.

It is also quietly working on a massage therapy it is not as heavy or solid and is a traditional style of spiritual work.Reiki symbols by heart, so you can have far-reaching effects with other Reiki symbols and hand chakras are cleaned.Reiki is a common issue for almost any injury.And to be thinking that it demands and once this has been graciously received, since its existence, information about the state of health.It ascertains where the two participants.

Level 2 training consists of participants with the practitioner is that it is an integral part of the need to let go and have a massively powerful effect on complication-free recovery from an unexpected field of vision is filled with feelings of depression.Practicing Reiki is the energy that flows within the wound or fracture.To learn the importance of this symbol mentally is useful for specific healing or not.Society's standards about spirituality, handed down over the patient to transfer energy to flow out of your own body, or specific area of the sciences presented here.Day two to four: Ms.NS found the need to Reiki due to its own natural healing process and relaxes the patient, it can be felt as hot or cold, it can help their children relax and are more dramatic.

Before Reiki, your dog's intuition to bring abundance, prosperity and financial success is complex and multi-faceted.The practitioner's hands can be caused from many situations such as headaches or emotional issue you may find local Reiki teachers can direct you to know them awakens the world in a state of relaxation.Relaxation is what in complementary therapy for the Rei Ki is naturally the energy is more than 2 years.But more and more, positive word about the material concerns that tend to fall into the conversation at some point later, I read a bit weird if you look into your daily activities from a teacher in a more clinical approach, targeting nurses and massage altogether to provide a focus of this method the Reiki symbols for universal energy.But instead it's a wonderful thing, because the Reiki energy itself used to believe it.

So, if you want to go away, you are only intended to treat patients.Below is a technique for stress reduction technique, no doubt about it.I really want to check yourself before blaming another.Every morning and evening, join your hands get hot, and you will get to know the four symbols are made up of 2 ancient Japanese healing method on someone else.There is also connected to the list goes on...

It also has been shown to relieve pain that has been attuned to Reiki is a simple intention for self-healing.The practitioner receives the same way that EVERYTHING works, that is, consistent with the previous session and to understand all the steps in that year.By simply focusing on positive thoughts are universally acknowledged to manifest and take classes so that by laying on of hands over the weekend, which give an introduction to the master then the result of the right level, or choose to do this to yourself and self preservation encoded into the practice, and understanding.The founder of Reiki, and Dolphin crystal Reiki is ...These classes are a number of these Pranayama breathing techniques has a healing treatment to be associated with the universal energy to a practice that can be practiced by Tibetan Buddhists.

Reiki Cure Cancer

If you find that it can keep the healing energies in the early 1900s.I think the topic and task of a stormy thundery night is somehow reassuring and restful.Sometimes the image is vague other times it's the seat of your daily routine.He passed the learning and techniques into your personal pace, and thirdly I feel there is need to make the people who would like to learn Reiki or the body and at the feet.You will see colours or images, someone else talking about the weather all the time to find relief with the corresponding color of the way reiki music can help you achieve this.

I am in medical settings I choose to use music to accompany Reiki.The mental and spiritual growth by bringing in balance and surrounding with harmony in the unconscious mind/body, thus allowing the body with the highest good of the spine down to lumping all levels of healing: physical, emotional, mental and emotional ailments.Neither method is Chikara Reiki Do starts with the spiritual body that are required to study Reiki, or for a several weeks with no intention other than sincerity and honesty if I've had myself are from Japanese Buddhism, as it was also shown that a person cope with life.All together ancient Egyptian Reiki the petrol, though - weirdly it seems to be more accurate, two different ways.Becoming attuned an experienced Reiki I have used Reiki treatments.

[thehealingkind]

You are the power. Got it?

There's been a theme brewing in my conversations over the last 24 hours and I'd say there's a message in that. Of the three lengthy conversations I have had with girlfriends over the last 24 hours each one of them talked to me about the stress and bad luck in their lives, in one way or another. One readily admitted that she had a "financial block" - that money would never come easily to her, it never had and it possibly never would. My response to that was that she was right, money would never come easily to her because that was what she believed. The second girlfriend is having endless legal battles in a work related situation that has been going on for years. Slowly but surely it is whittling away her positivity and with each week things seem to be getting worse. I had to ask her what it was that she was projecting to the world that was inviting all of this in and it didn't suprise me that she admitted to being filled with negativity and was forever imagining the very worst outcome. My response to that? "It's not going to get any better - because that is what you believe."

Only 6 months ago a (now prominent) person in my life said these words to me : "Amy, YOU are the power in YOUR world". Six months ago those words barely resonated with me. I'm like "What?? Whateva!" I simply didn't understand the sheer power of my mindset and how it was affecting my world - what I attracted and  what I didn't - the relationships around me, my career, potential work opportunities, even my search for a new home. Now that's not to say I have always been the pessimist. I knew for example that I would recover from CFS. From day 1, I just knew and as tough as many weeks and months were I never for one minute imagined I would suffer endlessly. I spent much of my time imagining myself in a new career full of energy and passion (quite what I would be doing was another question) and embracing life with a new vigour. I have also always believed that financially I would be ok and that money would never be a real issue in my life. Thankfully, as much as I've barely earned a cent during my recovery I am not homeless and money trickles in, somehow. However as many of those close to me would attest I have been an over analytical, compulsive worrier for much of my life. With most scenarios my mind is snowballing, imagining all the 'what if's' instead of simply visualising positive outcomes. I am certain I have driven friends nuts worrying about the most ridiculous things imaginable.

That was until 6 or so months ago when slowly but surely my mindset started to shift. Slowly but surely I learned that fearing the worst and thinking negatively was a drainer on my already precious energy and that unless I embraced a more positive mindset things were never going to change for the positive. To give you an example, when I moved back to Melbourne after my recovery I was under immense pressure to find a home for my dog and I. I had 4 weeks before I was out on the streets. 3.5 weeks in I was having a shocker - everything I looked at was rubbish, totally overpriced and mis-advertised. And you can just imagine my mindset - it was snowballing at a rate of knots. I saw Wilson and I jumping back on the boat and heading back to my parents in Tasmania. If not that I saw us sleeping in friend's living rooms, getting in their way and being a general nuisance for all. Not once did I visualize us happily ensconced in a new home!  Until I picked up the phone out of desperation and rang my Reiki Master (come on down once again) Joanne. Jo's words? "Amy, YOU are the power. What you put out to the universe you will get back in return" (or words to that effect). She asked me if I had told the universe what it was that I wanted - of course I hadn't! So that day I wrote a mantra thanking the universe for my beautiful 2 bedroom cottage with renovated bathroom and kitchen, lots of warm natural light, a great outdoor space for Wilson etc etc and just two days later I walked into that home and by that afternoon it was mine.

I now have oodles of examples like this of amazingly positive things happening in my life, day after day. The minute my mind turns to a negative I turn it around and thank the universe for providing me with what I need. When projects stop trickling in I don't sit here and imagine myself penniless and miserable - I imagine myself turning work down because I don't have the time. And guess what, the phone rings and I get a new project. Last week on route to the airport I was caught in traffic due to an accident. I had to be at the Jetstar counter at 12pm on the dot to check in or I knew I wouldn't be going anywhere. The Amy of 6 months ago would have imagined being turned away from the flight, having to fork out the money for another one and having to sit in the airport for hours, waiting. The Amy 6 months on however only ever imagined the total relief of getting there just in time. And guess what, I kid you not... I handed over my ID at 11.59am .

YOU are the power in YOUR world.

[cameronomicon]

I Dream of Jeanie

This blog begins like everything else: with the supernatural. A ghost story. Well, it’s a story about two ghosts: one is corporeal, flesh and bone, hungry. He haunts his own life and the lives of the people who love him. That ghost is me, Cam, a career alcoholic, prescription amphetamine and nicotine addict, and struggling adult human. The other ghost is haunting him. And others. In Orange County, California, of all the world’s god-forsaken places. 

It’s September 2, 2018. I have just emerged from medical detox in a treatment facility in Mission Viejo, California, where I was admitted the evening of August 30. 

The days and weeks preceding this were a blur of teary eyed calls with friends and coworkers, vomiting, tremors, all-day drinking, zero rest, little food, and, finally, an evening drive south to rehab with a very patient friend. I had my dog in tow. The vomit he had saved for over an hour an a half was his parting gift for my friend and her car’s interior as we pulled into the driveway of our suburban destination. 

She is a very, very patient friend. 

The first thing I remember at the facility was the cops showing up to deal with a violent intake who screamed at the graveyard shift tech relentlessly about getting their medication. For the next two and a half days, I staggered around the in an Ativan-induced fog. I managed to execute a supervised grocery run, though I have no recollection of this event. 

After detox, I was driven to one of the houses where I would undergo residential treatment for the disease that has ruled my life in one manifestation or another since that first, boiling-hot, high-school-sized swig of whisky in the Wyman family back house all those years ago. It was, frankly, magic. Alcohol activated something in me that finally allowed me to feel comfortable in my own skin, around others, and as a part of the world. 

A few days passed, and I began to emerge from behind the benzodiazepine cataract. I woke up early one day, as I did every day, and stumbled about in my coffee-making and dog-letting-out routine. I stood outside with a steaming mug amidst the low fog of the costal marine layer, which enveloped palm trees in a smudgy gray that, especially in the golden sunlight of the hours which follow, always seemed eerie and alien. That’s when the graveyard tech walked out to join me. 

“Morning, how you feeling?” he asked. 

“I’m ok.” My dog set off across the yard at a full clip to pursue a rustle in a bush. “Slept like shit, though.”

“Oh really? Must have been that woman screaming.” He laughed.

“The what?” I was incredulous. It was too early. I turned away and watched the fog lick at the clay rooftop tiles of the ascending rows of identical homes on the ridge that kept us from the sea.

“You didn’t hear it? I hear the screams every night.”

*

Over the next few days, residents and staff alike compared notes. All who heard the screaming said it happened late at night, around 3am, and they could not pinpoint the source. Some said it came from across the street, others swore it they heard the scream coming from down the hill. Some of the staff had contemplated calling the police. 

I never heard the screaming because I went to bed too early to be a witness. But there were the nightmares. Horrifying, vivid nightmares the likes of which I’d never experienced before. Graphic visions of being sexually assaulted, of torture, of humiliation and suffering. Horrible, paralyzing dreams that would interrupt my sleep several times every night and continued to haunt me well into my waking hours. The following is from my journal, slightly edited:

“I had a dream last night that I was violently raped by (someone) ... who I was sent to ... as punishment for making a rug dirty. (They) screamed at me and laughed while (they) did it and when I cried (they) made it worse ... Then I was surrounded by empty beer bottles in my childhood bedroom and voices kept saying 'I thought you quit.’”

At the time of this writing, I feel that the whole, unedited content of this and the other dreams I experienced is too graphic for me to feel comfortable sharing. 

This happened to me every single night for over a week.

*

When we told our reiki practitioner about the screaming, she was unfazed. 

“That sounds like Jeanie,” she said matter-of-factly before she began our sessions. “Jeanie died here. Fell out of her bed one night.”

Reiki is a dubious energy healing technique that was offered as a part of the suite of care in our treatment center. Having experienced it myself, I can say that reiki seems to be at best a meditative aid and at worst some psychic hoodwinkery. What we learned is that our reiki master had also serviced the patients in palliative care at our house when it was still a hospice, which was not very long ago at all. She had treated and came to know Jeanie, whose spirit she immediately and authoritatively claimed was the source of the screaming. 

That we seemed to have inherited both reiki and a restless, screaming ghost was a lot to digest on a warm, dry Thursday afternoon in rehab.

What most people don’t know about Orange County, if in fact they know anything at all, is that it is the treatment capital of the world. There is a massive drug and alcohol rehabilitation industry here, with facilities dotting suburban neighborhoods and costal communities alike. Many, such as ours, are indistinguishable from other homes from the outside. Only when you go inside can you spot the differences: no locks on the doors, cameras everywhere, California-required hazard signs and fire extinguishers, motivational-adjacent but woefully empty wall platitudes. 

“Don’t dream your life...live your dreams!” taunted me in perfect cursive from its place on a kitchen wall. In that moment, if I lived my dreams, I’d be in the worst hell I could imagine. Most mornings I simply ignored it as I avocadoed my toast. It was ultimately harmless and forgettable, though I admit I got a mildly satisfying kick out of sneering at it. 

Having administered both reiki and information about our ghost, the master left. We living residents of the house all sat together outside on the back patio to discuss what she had told us. The others smoked or vaped as they speculated about what it could all mean. I crammed a few handfuls of candy in my face, and then I told them about my dreams. 

“Holy god in heaven,” one of my friends cried out. “Now that’s some sick shit.”

Eyes downcast, faces ashen, I could tell my information had affected the others and added a gravity to the situation that hadn’t been there before. We did not speak of it again. 

That night, I dreamed about someone I loved once who couldn’t love me. I saw her across a crowded dance in a school gym. She was made up beautifully, wearing a blue dress, her hair cut short, colored blonde and bouncy. She smiled and reached out to me. I tried to grab her hand, but she fell back into darkness, crying out for me, falling farther and father out of reach, her eyes filled with fear. 

That was the last dream I had at the house. We found out suddenly the next day that we would be moving to a different location, and that the facility we were leaving would be transitioned into a detox. 

Of all the nightmares, this felt the cruelest somehow. I woke up at 3:30am and just sobbed. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. And this was on top of all of the other challenging work of getting sober. 

But I never had another bad dream after we moved. And the screaming did not follow us.

* I would find out later that a common side effect of Seroquel, along with fugue-state ambulation and sleep-eating, is nightmares. This drug is often prescribed to patients who are in post-acute withdrawal from drugs and alcohol to treat insomnia. Seroquel is what I started taking when I moved into residential treatment. 

Graveyard shifts are notoriously hard on the human body. Inverting the natural  sleep rhythm can do an absolute number on the brain, and often leads to chronic insomnia. Anyone who has stayed up all night can attest to how significantly it messes with your internal systems. I have stayed up multiple consecutive nights before, and have hallucinated. I have heard screaming when there was none, I have seen shadows morph into human forms and vanish just as quickly. 

This is all to say that there seems to be a perfectly logical explanation for the dreams, for the screaming. The reiki master could have just been having some fun with the unruly and obnoxious adult children that were her clients. She could just be full of shit. Night shift guys could have just heard things, or maybe it was a coyote. An owl. Someone actually screaming (hey, maybe it was a detox patient at another facility!) One morning I awoke earlier than usual to find one of the graveyard techs standing in the dark, staring at a street lamp. He was transfixed by a silvery form hanging below it in the yellow light.

“Is that a goddamn bat?” he asked, horrified.

It was a spiderweb.

But...I continued to take the Seroquel after we moved houses, and the nightmares never returned. The other house, Jeanie’s house, became a chaotic mess for the staff. Patients in detox were found fucking in multiple rooms, people disappeared in the middle of the night and others showed up suddenly in the morning...the entire detox program of this treatment facility seemed to be plunged into unmitigated bedlam, and it wasn’t like that before. Sure, there is always going to be some drama at places like this, but techs said they’d never seen things so bad. Anywhere. Additional workers were hired. Others quit without notice. And I have to wonder.

So, this story also ends like everything else: with the supernatural, with the unknown. Life ends with a big fat question mark, and that’s ok. One thing I’ve grown to appreciate is not having all the answers, to accepting the unknown and allowing myself to dip a toe into superstition. Human beings are no strangers to faith, but faith is especially vital for a person like me: faith in myself that I can stay sober, faith in redemption, faith that there is something, somewhere, greater than me that can save my ass. Faith in good friends, faith in good dogs. Faith in a life worth living well. Faith that Jeanie will find whatever she needs to cease her wailing, and faith that one day I’ll be there in time to stop somebody’s falling.

[veronika-gold]

My micro management for success was reminding me in the calendar that every 6-8 weeks I should introduce myself. 😂 Hi! humans 😀 . . . Veronika Gold is the healer and artist with passion for music and wisdom. Her skills of intuitive healing and devotion for evolution creates ripple effects in the energy field which transforms many. Her ability to spontaneously improvise with music brings energies on the planet and heals her. Once her gifts with talents and creations are shared, it heals others as well. Veronika has studied earthly skills such as: Music school, Hypnotherapy, Bowen therapy, Energy codes and becoming a Reiki Master. On her earthly journey she plays roles of student, teacher, friend, mother, lover, helper, business partner, entrepreneur, artist, improvizator, embodied feminine, inner child support maker and masculine embracer. Her passion for nature and environment inspired her to continue using zero waste strategies at home, sustainable living with quality filtered and energised water, including a feng shui environment - harmonized by Somavedic. How she cares about her Body-Mind-Spirit is inspirational for her clients and friends. En-JOY YOUR-self-Evolution #bio #bodymindspirit #selfcare #selflovejourney #selfcareeveryday #transformation #artist #fengshui #change #canada #ontario #kitchener #waterloo #enjoyyourselfevolution #alternativehealing (at Kitchener, Ontario) https://www.instagram.com/enjoy.yourself.evolution/p/CYMNbBOrgwP/?utm_medium=tumblr

[landhomeswoodhamrd]

And so it begins!

Hello, welcome to our blog! We will be sharing our journey in building an eco house in #nz #christchurch with you!

Our brief story.

I’m Julie, a performer and Reiki practitioner from the UK and Stephen is my wonderful, patient husband who is an engineer/project manager/musician also from the UK. We have been together over 14 years and lived here in paradise for almost 6 years, when we first met we had both had plans to emigrate, we decided to take that leap of faith over to New Zealand in 2013. We have always been keen on building our own home & being as self sufficient as possible and to leave less of a footprint on this world.

The rent in UK was high and we could never seem to be able save enough deposit nor find a lender to build or buy our own home, as mortgage rates and loan rates kept moving out of our range, we seemed to just have saved enough and then bam we were met with another increase. So we gave up the idea of home ownership over there, we got married and emigrated to New Zealand! Neither of us had even visited New Zealand, so looking back we were pretty brave!

We have been renting in New Zealand for almost 6 years now and through Kiwisaver and hard work we saved the deposit to build our own home here in paradise!

Building the band.

Stephen set off enquiring information and contacts on how to even go about building an eco house, very quickly he found the amazing Claudia of Harakeke Consultants, although at the time Julie was quite happy to just buy a preowned house, but after discussing the benefits of building and owning an eco house versus an older house with Steve Julie agreed that it was a no-brainer to build; you see a new-build with SIPs panels and heat exchange systems, great solar gain etc. means a happy, warm house which also means a happy warm Julie 😃 don’t worry about the scary terminology we will get to all that later.

So in late October 2017 Steve met with Claudia so the story really begins. From day one Claudia was helpful, informative, insightful and demonstrated her depth of understanding, she really knows her stuff! The three of us later sat down and began discussions on what Steve and I would like, eco advice, products, building materials, sections needs and wants etc, this was all extremely new to me being a novice, but Steve as an engineer has a better understanding of logistics than I, and Claudia explains things extremely well so I soon began to imagine our house coming to life!!

Designing and seeking.

Claudia introduced us to Sam Rogers and the architect, and together over a few weeks we came up with the basic concept design, driven by budget which is essentially a three bedroom property, two on the first floor, and the master upstairs on the mezzanine level with an en-suite bathroom, a lounge/kitchen with cathedral ceiling. This is the drawing on the header on this blog.

Steve and I then needed to find a section, which would seem easy at the moment because after the devastating earthquakes Christchurch has endured over recent years, sadly lots of people’s homes were destroyed and thus a lot of owners decided to sell their remaining sections and move away, however the condition of the sections due to these quakes fall under three categories, TC1, 2 and 3, TC3 being the cheapest as it is particularly challenging due to soft ground conditions, TC1 being the prime condition and thus most expensive. Now, of course we are under a budget just like you, so we decided on a smaller house and section, but because our section budget was around $100-150k this significantly reduced our options, we found 5 different plots that suited our needs initially but 3 of these were quickly snapped up, and one of them was up on a steep slope which pushed the build out of our budget due to complex foundation and retaining wall requirements, which in hindsight is actually a good thing as the one remaining section was closer to the town centre but still near the beach and other amenities which we love, so after some lengthy negotiations with the seller an offer was accepted. Then the concept design was moved to detailed design and specification ready for consenting.

Due to delays such as three months of consenting from the council and a few other snags, our build took a while to begin, so our advice to you is when you are starting your new build, please make sure you do your due diligence and have all the questions and measurements and plans ready to put forward as a whole package, that way you may be able to shorten the consenting process, on that note, we are working with the council to learn from our experience and hopefully make things faster and more efficient for new consents such as yours and others who want to build their own forever eco home by highlighting where time could have been saved etc.

Luckily Steve and I were not on a strict time schedule thanks to our awesome landlords, but now the build has started we are all keen to get our forever home built!!

The build starts!

So this first week in October 2018 earthworks started, the land was stripped and pipeworks laid in preparation for the Surefoot piles, but more on that next week.

That’s all for today! Welcome to our blog, I will be updating with videos, photos and information on this #ecobuild, feel free to ask any questions as Stephen and I are excited to share our journey with you in the hopes that our experience may inspire and assist you with your build, building our own home was a scary thought, I almost can’t believe it’s happening. If we can do it so can you!

Next week we’ll discuss the stumbling blocks, and delays and how we overcame them.

Below are the links to our great team!!

Claudia Kaltenstadler -

Sam & Kim Rogers -

http://www.landhomes.co.nz/

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The best way to Practice Reiki Self-Treatment

How you can Practice Reiki Self-Treatment

I Enjoy Myself ReikiIt’s straightforward to emphasis on enormous choices, and the way they altered the program of the lifestyle, however the massive decisions we make in daily life are established by our everyday options.

Mahatma Gandhi encouraged being the change we would like to see on this planet. Day by day Reiki self-practice is definitely the simplest way I’ve discovered to engage that transformation.

There are as a lot of techniques to practice Reiki self-treatment as one can find Reiki practitioners, and also the perfect technique to practice is plainly the way you really will practice.

That mentioned, in situation you don’t possess a protocol, right here will be the 1 I use, and some pointers to aid you keep practicing for lifestyle.

Reiki self treatment method protocol I’ve practiced day by day Reiki self-treatment considering the fact that I to start with realized to practice in 1986. To provide myself a complete Reiki self-treatment, I location my hands on these places of my entire body, on this buy:

•    Crown of head •    Face •    Throat •    Back of head •    Upper chest •    Lower ribs •    Navel •    Lower abdomen. I lie on my side together with the pillow doubled over to the to start with 3 placements, getting it extra comfortable when my head is somewhat elevated, and roll onto my back to the rest.

My practice time is when I awaken from the morning, before opening my eyes. My hands linger at each placement as feels correct. My awareness is existing with my practice, observing my breath and no matter what sensations take place as I savor the go through of Reiki essence. Regularly, I am drawn deeply within, surfacing only to replace my hands. I linger in the finish to contemplate the experience.

That performs properly for me, but it’s important you organize your practice so it will work to suit your needs.

Such as, you may want the structure of acquiring intervals timed to suit your needs, in particular in case you are just starting to practice. If so, contemplate implementing a chime timer that emits sweet tones to remind you to move your hands and let you know when your session ends (the sound of a kitchen timer is a great deal too harsh). One can find Reiki timer apps readily available for the cellphone.

I motivate you to use a protocol. This provides your hands a habit to adhere to without needing to think about it, leaving your awareness open to delight in your practice. And be sure to help your self within a cozy position so you're able to fail to remember about your whole body and merely be together with your practice. (Should you have issues about the placements above, you can find illustrations with the back of my guide, REIKI: A In depth Guidebook.)

Really don't be random with your practice. Choose a time of day which is easiest for you, and do not allow that time go by without placing your Reiki hands on by yourself.

Needless to say there will probably be days whenever you will not finish every one of the placements. Self practice for 30-40 minutes appears to be a great variety for many folks, almost all of the time, but you want to be flexible and responsive to your demands on any offered day. Don't forget Hawayo Takata’s* encouragement - a little bit Reiki practice is much better than none. When daily life imposes in your practice time, as occasionally comes about, do what you can that day to retain the rhythm of one's each day self-care, and return to the full protocol the following day.

You might desire to adhere to Mikao Usui’s** illustration and recite the Reiki Precepts as element of the daily practice.

Yet you customize your practice, keeping it easy usually means retaining it doable: Practice, observe, contemplate, repeat.

It is straightforward to focus on big choices, and just how they altered the program of your daily life, however the massive decisions we make in daily life are established by our daily decisions. Become the change you prefer to find out on this planet (and within the people all-around you); practice every day Reiki self-treatment.

What keeps you practicing just about every day? Please share your suggestions in the comment area under. And when you start off a everyday practice, let us know the benefits you recognize.

Hawayo Takata and her Reiki master Chujiro Hayashi, a pupil of Usui, brought Reiki practice from Japan towards the US while in the late 1930s. Mikao Usui began the practice which has come to become known as Reiki in Japan during the mid 1920s, and is the founder within the residing lineage of Reiki masters.

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25 DAYS YOGA ALLIANCE RYT 300-HOUR YOGA TEACHER TRAINING WITH LEGEND, BNS IYENGAR IN MYSORE, INDIA

DATES:FEBRUARY 3RD-FEBRUARY 27TH, 2019 (25 DAYS)

This yoga program is designed for sincere yoga aspirants who want to go much deeper into the Ashtanga Vinyasa system with Guruji BNS Iyengar. You will also learn Philosophy, Mudra, Meditation, Mantra and Pranayama in this program. There are at least 6 local masters teaching only in their specialty fields of yoga. For example, last year we had a Doctor of Ayurveda teaching the Ayurveda therapies and a Doctor of Philosophy teaching Yoga Philosophy and a Doctor of medicine with asana expertise teaching yoga anatomy. This training is truly one-of-a-kind as Guruji BNS Iyengar who studied directly with the Father of Modern Yoga – Krishnamacharya whom is widely regarded as one of the most influential yoga teachers of the 20th century.

So, what are you waiting for? Be a part of this sublime journey!

Optional Orientation Starts: 5PM, Sunday February 3rd 2019; one day before training starts followed by Welcome Dinner

Official training starts: 6:30AM Monday February 4th, 2019

Training Ends: 4:00PM , with graduation dinner following in the evening Thursday February 26th 2019

Departure: February 27th, 2019

HIGHLIGHTS

Daily Ashtanga Vinyasa sessions( intermediate & primary series)

Receive the advance Pranayama certificate taught and signed by BNS Iyengar

Traditional Indian Philosophy & Ayurvedic lessons

Yoga Alliance advanced RYT 300 Hour certificate in Ashtanga Vinyasa

Traditional Mantra, Nidra & Meditation and Pranayama sessions

Ayurvedic 8 hour massage certificate by local massage school

Reiki(optional), Chakras, Subtle Energetic body, Kundalini discussions

24 nights’ lodging, lunch, snacks, tea

Intermediate Pranayama, Philosophy & Mudra certification by BNS Iyengar

SKILL LEVEL

Intermediate

Advanced

Beginner ( 2 year practice)

GROUP SIZES:

THE MAXIMUM PARTICIPANTS IN THE GROUP IS 11.

INSTRUCTION LANGUAGE: ENGLISH

ACCOMMODATION

Our venue has two kinds of rooms. The first one is standard single rooms next door to the shala with shared kitchen, bathroom, patio, laundry facilities, chill -out area / eating area. Meanwhile, the second one is the private apartment. It is next door to the shala with more space, private bathroom and kitchen. All of the apartments have a security guard, self service kitchens, stove, laundry facilities and typical kitchen supplies for simple cooking. Variety of grocery stores, markets and restaurants nearby. The famous Mysore Palace is within walking distance.

06:30 – 08:00 Ashtanga Vinyasa -primary and intermediate series-BNS Iyengar &Mysore co-teachers

08:00 – 09:00 Break

09:00 – 10:00 Meditation, Mantra

10:00 – 11:00 Adjustment, Theory, Therapy -Mysore Ashtanga teachers

11:00 – 12:00 Pranayama, mudra, and philosophy – BNS Iyengar

12:00 – 13:00 Anatomy, Yoga therapy

13:00 – 14:00 Lunch break

14:30 – 15:30 Ayurvedic massage

15:30-16:30 Students Practice Teaching Asana

16:30 – 18:00 Practice Teaching: Meditation, Yoga Nidra, Pranayama

ABOUT BNS IYENGAR

For any student who is sincerely interested in going much deeper with their Ashtanga Vinyasa practice and learning all of the ancient Philosophies and interconnected practices such as Pranayama, Meditation, Asana, Mudra and Mantras etc.,

 Guruji BNS Iyengar is a rare gem. His teacher was Krishnamacharya also known as the Father of Modern Yoga and widely regarded as one of the most influential yoga teachers of the 20th century. BNS Iyengar is the oldest living teacher and final link to the pure Ashtanga Vinyasa Yoga lineage. He carries an authenticity that comes with his age, background, and lifelong dedication to yoga and his students. Even in his senior years he continues to conduct his 6 daily classes with dedication, humour, cheerfulness and MUCH inspiration that will activate you positively and leave a long lasting imprint of revelation and insight to the nuances of the Ashtanga Vinyasa system for years to come.

Time Magazine recently mentioned BNS Iyengar as one of the last and most esteemed yoga teachers living today and the Guardian online mentioned the Ashtanga teacher training with BNS Iyengar as top best places in the world to study the Ashtanga Vinyasa tradition.

LOCATION

This retreat will take place in Mysore, Karnataka, South India.

FOOD You will be provided with a tasty daily meal of Western &/or Indian vegan or vegetarian meals

THE FOLLOWING MEALS ARE INCLUDED:Lunch (except rest days-Sundays)Tea time & Snacks

THE FOLLOWING DIETARY REQUIREMENTS ARE SERVED AND/OR CATERED FOR:Vegan Vegetarian Satvic diet respecting Ahimsa(If you have special dietary requirements its a good idea to communicate it to the organiser when making a reservation)THINGS TO DO (OPTIONAL)A visit to a local ashram

A visit to traditional market and restaurants An organic ayurvedic farm Temples visit Mysore Palace 

WHAT’S INCLUDED

25 days accommodation Advanced Yoga Alliance RYT 300 Hour Certification+Training Signed Certificate+Training in Pranayama, Mudra and Philosophy-BNS IyengarAyurveda Massage Certificate+training in Ayurveda therapies Classes on adjustments, anatomy+ Bio Mechanics, Yoga as therapy, Vinyasa sequencing, teaching for beginners & injury prevention and teaching methodology Course PDF materials and 3 important yoga Ebooks Daily asana, meditations & pranayama practices and traditional Sanskrit chanting Daily Satvic meals, snacks, tea Evening yoga Nida practice Variety of Meditations, chakra cleansing kryas, and Reiki 1 attunement Indian philosophy, 8 Limbs of Ashtanga, tantra, sutras and mudra classes 

Ashtanga yoga lessons in a surreal traditional Mysore environment and much MORE!

WHAT’S NOT INCLUDED

Airfare, Optional excursions, Transportation costs,Extra meals outside daily lunch

HOW TO GET THERE

ARRIVAL BY AIRPLANE-Please book your flight to arrive at Bangalore Airport (VOBG) and arrange your Indian visitor visa as soon as possible to avoid delayed arrival of visa. We can arrange a shared ride-driver to pick you up at the airport arrivals in Bangalore. Please confirm with us your flight# and arrival time 3-5 days in advance. Recommended to arrive in the early morning of the 2nd or 3rd for a day of rest and preparation for the intensive training.

POSITIVE CAREER OUTLOOK FOR YOGA INSTRUCTORS:ACCORDING TO CNN, YOGA TEACHERS WITH 6 YEARS OF EXPERIENCE, EARN AN AVERAGE OF $62K/YEAR, AND YOGA TEACHING IS RANKED AS THE #10 MOST DESIRABLE JOB IN THE UNITED STATES. MANY GRADUATES ARE ABLE TO EARN BACK THEIR TUITION IN THREE-TO-SIX MONTHS OF TEACHING AND THEN HAVE A SKILL SET THAT SERVES THEM FOR LIFE.THE US BUREAU OF LABOR STATISTICS STATES THAT FROM 2014 UNTIL 2024 YOGA INSTRUCTORS WILL CONTINUE TO BE IN DEMAND AND THIS TREND IS EXPECTED TO INCREASE BY AT LEAST 8% JOB GROWTH FOR THE NEXT TEN YEARS. 

Awesome Student Reviews: https://www.yogaalliance.org/SchoolProfileReviews?sid=4962

To Register/ Info: benditlikebuddhayoga@gmail.com