#Ray only friends

[kinnbig]

I can go anywhere as long as I have you.

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Greenest Flag Prelims: Ray (Only Friends)

Propaganda: "I’m only submitting this because First described him as a green flag once and I think that’s hilarious and it would be very funny to include him"

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Only Friends + textposts part 2/?

[kimkhimhant]

[fanfictionroxs]

Ray's hands around Sand's neck are just 😳👀

People DIED okay?

[hiskinndbodyguard]

[lesbiansluffy]

imagine inviting your ex, the guy your ex cheated on you with, that guy's fuckbuddy, and your new guy's fuckbuddy to your halloween party raymew are insane fr

[autisticbokutoenthusiast]

person who is sooooo normal about ray talks about the end of episode 10, what it confirms, what it introduces, and what it may even promise:

"can you please forgive me?"

starting off with this line.... there is a specific brand of betrayal and hurt reserved for the people who feel like the only ones in the world that can make you feel loved. we've seen ray get angry and even lash out at the other characters before but we haven't seen him breakdown the way he did in the sandray apartment fight. i think i took ray saying that he finally was starting to understand his feelings more in episode 9 too lightly, because it seems he meant more then just "i think i like you too" kind of thing, i wouldn't be surprised if ray realized the love he felt as well, and not just romantic love but the "you've seen so much of the ugliness in me but still stayed" kind of love and, if im gonna be bold, acceptance.

"you can be angry or hate me all you want"

lines like this tell me two things, the first being the guilt ray feels over the way he treats people and the second being how much pain he thinks he deserves for it. though i will say this time it feels different then in episode 4 where ray asks sand to call him a burden, because before he wanted sand to hurt him back (a bit of retaliation a bit of self-harm even) but this time he is asking for sand's understanding and forgiveness. he still thinks he deserves it, but now its more then just asking for someone to hurt you in order to reconcile (we will get to the fact sand isn't really there don't worry) there is a sort of emotional growth is what im trying to say.

"i know now that you want nothing from me"

this is also such a huge line for me. we know ray views himself as worthless, he would rationalize why anyone would want him (this is why he was so hurt about sand accepting money from his dad but that's already been meta'd to death so i won't get into that), so him not only thinking but verbalizing that sand is someone who is kind to him without expecting anything in return is huge for ray's ability to see himself as more than a burden or his father's money. in fact, i'd say him admitting this here means he is already beginning to gain a sense of self-worth.

"though i've been nothing but an asshole to you, you are always there for me"

this is the part where we really see ray break. im not good at reading other people's emotions so im not gonna comment on what emotions the actor is trying to portray (tho he is portraying some big ones goddamn), from a text stand point, im interpereting this as pain. I talked before a bit about guilt but i'd say at this moment the realization that someone can care for him so deeply that the parts of himself he's sure are not only unlovable but hurtful won't drive them away, causes him a lot of pain. as someone who is bad feeling cared for or appreciated as a person and sometimes acts like a dick about it, i too would break apart at this moment.

"please understand me"

now this is the line that inspired this post in the first place. he struggles with the connections he has with others but you can see how lonely this man is. like he has been told he is a burden, he interperets his life events and the way other people treat him as proof he is fundamentally unlovable and bad luck for anyone he gets close to, and he is a self-fulfilling prophecy about it.

when he asks sand to understand him he's asking sand to look deeper then his self-sabotoging and attachment issues and see the love and care he has that he struggles to understand and feel and express. he is filled with so much pain how could it not start to infect everyone around him, but from what we see of him, he probably never wanted to hurt other people in this way to begin with.

i think the reason this line specifically broke my heart is that, so much of his behavior at times can be interpreted as a subconscious cry for help, help he won't except but help he needs anyway. i knew any arc involving ray addressing his addiction would destroy me because there is the pain experiencing the things i mentioned above, the pain in thinking you're helpless to them, and then the pain in doing what it takes to try to move forward from them, like this shit is hard. the clarity ray is able to adress imaginary sand with is so incredible even though its in his head, especially given how stubborn he'd been about admitting any issues in the first place.

"being with me requires some patience"

all that i said above and more... i don't think ray will get over that feeling of being a burden any time soon if he ever does because it becomes so ingrained in your worldview and the way you interpret other people's behavior. i like the way this line is phrased (i know its a translation but still) because it alludes to him feeling that he is capable of being loved, it'll be hard but not impossible.

"but if you don't want to put up with me anymore, that's alright. i get you"

remember how i just said i think he now believes he's lovable... well actually i still mean it. he's been constantly told and shown how his behaviour and mentality are hard to deal with, like he thinks his existence is so burdensome it killed his own mother BUT he now knows sand is different. he won't blame sand for not wanting to deal with him, he's always been aware of his shortcomings but can now honestly address the effect his actions have on others, and at the same time he knows that its possible to care for him.

this is why i think sand is his motivation for going to rehab, he's shown ray what is possible for him in ways no one else before sand has.

"but please know this"

there is something so special about the impact sand has had on ray that i think goes beyond their relationship. sand made ray see the value in having a future, in being loved, in being happy. in episode 8 ray tells sand that he's finally happy when they spend time together, and it may seem like he's repeating it here but again this sand is imaginary. he's not saying this to get sand to answer his texts or hang out with him. he's imagining his reason for wanting to recover from addiction. like the weight this scene carries at least triples for me everytime i remember sand isn't really there. this was such a beautiful choice to make imo like ray saying these things to sand would probably be good for their relationship but it wouldn't have the same impact on ray's character arc.

my conclusion is once again don't know why i rambled on besides, ray as character was manufactured in a lab to drive me insane. like i've triggered my mood disorder twice over the course of watching this show but i wouldn't take it back for even a second. i love ray, i love what we've seen of his mentality and backstory, i love that we're seeing him making the decision to address his addiction, i go numb with the thought of where his arc will go next, but i especially love seeing everyone come together to scream about this character that means so much to me (not at all subtle reference to the fact i've read hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone by @jgyapologism what three? times now) anyway hope we all continue to scream about him this week. 🫡🫡

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I couldn't decide which version is better so you get both

[prapaiwife]

And the emmy goes to khaotung 🤧 no but seriously This has to be the most heart-wrenching scene I've ever seen in a minute, I mean, we all knew khao would just kill it, but man, did he! First off, this line "being with me requires some patience." My eyes were already teary, but that line hit so close to me. He even says that he knows quitting on him would be just easier. But he needs sand to know he's been the happiest he's ever been with him. He doesn't want sand to second guess that he really didn't mean anything to him and that he did this just for something in return. Ray is facing the person who makes him look at his life in a completely different light. The same person who has consistently showed up even when things went bad. This person who showed him love and what it's like to be reciprocated. And the thing is, up to now, Sand didn't give up. Sand cares so much that Ray can't even fathom someone going to lengths he did for him. Ray wants to be better for sand to make him proud. To better better for him and especially himself. Cause he knows how he is and how he didn't treat sand the way he desvered to be treated. He's so accustomed to being alone. that's all he knows. But he has sand who is so good to him. Any Ray voicing basically he doesn't want sand to give up on him was a big thing for him.

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Most Unhinged Round 2: Vegas (Kinnporsche: The Series) vs Ray (Only Friends)

[Propaganda Under Cut]

Vegas: "This man has never done ONE hinged thing in his life. He tortured a man so good he became his bdsm boyfriend wtf is that"

"Wore pants into a pool"

Ray: "The alcoholic rich boy that followed Sand cuz he was sus he was sellimg drugs(pit kettle) that suggest a 3way every time Sand tried to find someone to bang, as a ploy to get the other person to back off only to end up in a almost 3way with Sands ex and proceded to engage in a dick measuring contest with Boeing resulting in him kissing said ex he also has possessive and suicidal tendencies and ended up dring for hours after finding out Sand was with Nick camping He also aired all his friends laundry out loud, almost died cuz of a car crash, almost gor arrested for drug possession and spent 80% of the show drunk Pretty unhinged for a 22yo in university"

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Only Friends + Textposts part 1/?

[three-milkz]

Sand: I love that you’re shorter than me. Makes it easier to do this *kisses his head*

Ray: I am not that much shorter than you.

Sand, backs him against the wall and towers over him: You were saying?

Ray:I'm so light and small that you should definitely pick me up and pin me against this wall!

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something something Sand slipping through Ray's fingers

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[kinnbig]

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