I appreciate the support and empathy I've gotten with the previous post, but ultimately I've decided I don't want to be apart of this fandom anymore. Being here has just been a never-ending cycle of feeling isolated, feeling unappreciated, being ignored and being made angry at others. I just want this all to end now.
It's infuriating seeing people get praise and recognition for the same thing you do, while you get ignored. Especially when it comes to the bigger SC artists.
Even when it seems like I get noticed, it still feels like I don't really matter. I used to be moots with Rink0ree on twitter, but he retweeted something that really pissed me off, so I ended up blocking him. Even then, I was so insignificant he probably didn't even noticed I blocked him or even that he was a moot of mine.
I let another creator use my art and it probably became one of their most popular pieces of content and even then I was just "this guy" to them.
Mad_bunny gave me a shout out on my old twitter, but pretty much forgot about me after I rejoined. But they'll still post memes of that content farm video that uses my stolen artwork on their twitter...
I wanted to do artwork for a fellow creator who was looking for artists and even after dming them twice I was ignored.
So, I'm pretty much done trying to get the approval of these people, because it's just fruitless and just makes me feel like I'm worthless or unworthy.
So what lays in the future for me? Idk, but don't expect smiling critters fanart. I know most of you follow me for that, so whether you stick around is up to you. I'll probably find a new fandom to make art for and/or just make art of OCs and character designs. But who knows what the future holds.
Anyway, thank you taking the time to read this and sorry for any typos.