#Posting all mah shit here.

[clayorel]

Sooo. Sewwwww. Some of my art since I'm thinking of opening comms possibly. This is I guess my regular style, here are a bunch of OC references (all OCs which I'd like to write descriptions for on this blog at some point lol). Comms in this style would probably be like $30-40 uncolored, $35-$45 colored. Depends on complexity.

(lots more examples and other styles under da cut)

I also got different coloring styles I liek to experiment

(WIPs oops)

I also have a chibier style that I usually use mspaint or some pixel tool for. These would probably just be like $5-7 for uncolored doodles, $10-15 colored.

And then the other art I've posted on here which is cartoon imitation art. I have fun imitating cartoon-y styles. These would probably be like $10-15 uncolored, $15-$25 colored depending on how complex.

You can DM for more examples trololol

[oceandiagonale]

good mornin Im on the last!! 3 panels of line art for the pla run and then it's just backgrounds and I want. to get gene home. before pride month ends. So I might just post like ohhhhh 4 updates on friday 😳

[hibiscus-tea-party]

THANK YOU FOR CALLING THIS DUMB BITCH OUT. IF YOU REALIZED THE ABSOLUTE DESTRUCTION THEY DID TO ME MENTALLY AND PHYSICALLY IN LATE 2023 EARLY 2024 YOU'D VOMIT

(Note: I don't have specific screen shots bc my phone storage flubbed in March and deleted all my folders ;; but if you ask to see something anyone said, I'll see if I can retrieve proof for ya!)

((Important note: I have a bad case of potty mouth, but I'll still try to tone it down from everyone's sake. Still, proceed with caution. Also in 2023 I was still pretty immature, though it never warranted the emotional and mental abuse I endured))

For those who don't recognize me, my name used to be Ace, but it's now Cole or Piper, whichever you like (I used to run an account here called Ace-my-boy, more on that later). I'm 20 and actually used to be great friends with/date Nico! (Blame them for the date part I didn't ask for that shit) So I've known them about a year before the incident.

Now, for what they did.

I really don't feel like explaining it all again because I've had to so many times, so I'll just boil it down to a brief list:

-Lovebombing. So much of it.

-Manipulation of the mind (and heart)

-Threatening to off themselves, constantly

-Talked about their "Shitty" ex as soon as we started dating (the ex didn't even do anything wrong, they just broke up after discovering that they were aro, which Nico accused them behind their backs of it being a lie just to excuse breaking up with them), and even before that, they would always lament to me about their breakup and insist it was my responsibility to listen

-Lied to me, and about me, a lot, about the most mundane

-Talked shit about the "friends" they tried to turn against me (again, more on that later)

-SENT ME "KYS" ASKS ON BOTH MY OLD ACCOUNT (ace-my-boy) AND THIS ONE. I had to delete ace-my-boy because as they turned people against me, that was the blog they flocked to just to tell me they hate me. Lol.

-[TW:CSA!!!] Sent me anon asks telling me, an actual victim of child rape, that I deserved it. FYI, that event started when I was 10 and didn't even end there, so...happy with yourself, Nico?

-Sent me asks harassing me and apparently claiming I wanted them back? Which isn't true, considering they...

-BEFRIENDED A KNOWN PEDOPHILE (among our former friend group, before the revelation of what she was of course), WHO HAS BEEN KNOWN TO INTENTIONALLY SEND NSFW PICS TO HEAVILY MINOR POPULATED SERVERS!!!! Her name is Mage btw idc abt her privacy 💀 (she's another can of worms)

-Literallu got Mage to harass me AND MY FRIENDS FOR SUPPORTING ME???

-Started accusing me and a good friend (I'll call her Newt, for her safety) of being proshippers/groomers after a third, neutral friend brought up those accusations to Mage personally, even though they know that me and Newt are survivors of that type of shit, so why tf would we do it????

-Tried to tell everybody that I doxxed them and threatened to kill them (I...don't even know where they live...and I can't even do basic code no less dox someone. How do you even do that????)

-Had worked with Mage to turn most of my friends against me (I got some of them back recently which is honestly a win, but still)

-Would demand my time late at night to complain to me, even though I told them multiple times that staying up late and losing sleep causes me to have HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE SEIZURES. They didn't even want advice, they kept me up just to bitch to me about other people.

-Manipulated multiple minors into being their personal comfort assistants, and one minor EVEN KNEW THEY WE'RE BEING MANIPULATED AND STILL DEFENDED THEM?

-Would deny any advice I tried to give them, despite always asking for it?

There's so much more. So so much more. I don't even remember every single thing because But instead, let's go into how it affected me overall.

-My depression increased drastically, of course

-My temper increased drastically (Bipolar Disorder, folks!)

-[TW:ED AND VOMITING] I went back to my bulimic tendencies, that I had kicked for 5 years

-I was convinced nobody wanted me alive (and yes, Nico is to blame for that too), thus plunging me into sh tendencies

-Even before the bulimia relapse, I was throwing up just thinking about what they said to and about me JUST FOR WANTING AN APOLOGY.

-I literally could not have fun or get anything done. Ever since that shit hit the fan, I would not be able to do anything without moping.

-I consider myself a strongwilled person irl, but when I tell you I cried everyday bc of their bullshit (I actually like, fr loved Nico before and even briefly after the fiasco started, so think about that please)

There's more, but they're issues I'm not sure if Nico/Mage directly caused, so I won't lay it on their doorstep.

Oh, but here's the best part. You wanna know what caused this altercation?

...I expressed boundaries to Nico that they kept breaking, and I told them it was making me angry

So when I want an apology from Nico for responding passive aggressively, I'm instead met with Nico not once, but twice harassing me and soft blocking me on ace-my-boy, insisting I don't deserve a apology and that itwas why people don't like me...like literally what in the elementary school type drama is that shit wtf (esp since their

Man there is so much more. I could write and publish a fucking novel on this situation alone, no less what they've done to others. But I think enough is said to get a glimpse of how reprehensible a person Nico is. I would suggest everyone not interact with them at all, no matter how sorry everyone feels for them, for everyone's safety! Nico does not want help. They will not accept help. They want comfort through making everyone feel worse than they do. And for a so-called friend? Not worth it.

Again, I'll admit I'm exponentially more mature then I was then, but it doesn't take a genius to know that you dont try to make someone as mentally unwell as they made me just because someone "sounds too mean" when they tell you that you did something wrong.

I'd love to say more, but I could write a novel on what I have on Nico. But the point of this post is to inform and warn, not to vent. Please ask me questions if you have any and sorry for my unhinged nature throughout this post. Thank you!!!

(DO NOT HARRAS THIS PERSON, JUST IGNORE THEM. ALSO GARTIC PHONE THING WASN'T THEM)

Piacere, space, whatever you go by, you said you wouldn't mention anyone from this, or at least that was what the deal was, I hope you were told about it. We'd not mention you, as long as you wouldn't mention us. But you did, so a new callout post with new points, people defending you don't really do a good job. TLDR: they blame everything on mental health, takes little fault for hurting people because of said mental issues, vents to people decently younger than them constantly, and they demand boundaries, but get extremely upset when anyone asks for them to do so for them.

NOTE I didn't directly see any of this, I'm doing this to defend my friends because, no offense, they are kinda letting themselves get walked all over. If anything is wrong please tell me. Do not harass anyone in this situation, no one deserves it.

First up a recap on the first situation with a new moral because talking to your friend made it more obvious what the issue was, you blaming mental health. My friends silver and JJ banned someone from wheezle's easel for in their mind being toxic, the other mods including piacere and their friends didn't feel the person was that bad, but instead of voicing that they went on a rant at how they were never listened to. Even when given an opportunity to unban the person piacere went on about not being listened to while actively ignoring their attempts at giving them an input. They caused my friends to have anxiety attacks and cry, yes they apologized, but only after saying my friends were horrible people. I don't know how you go from that to sorry in a few days and mean that apology. Proof under this, and another situation and perspectives of other people on them.

Now for the new situation i heard of, they were in my friend's server, velon's, and they'd do their constant venting. They were asked to not mention suicide so often and got really upset. More stuff must have happened because like, everyone there says how they would make them super stressed out with how often they'd beg for attention and do things like make sex jokes with people who were uncomfortable with it. Here's people's opinions on it and also i'd check out Typhoonclade's post on them here for more opinions.

Generally they'd vent everywhere around like 16-18 year olds as an almost 20 year old. they'd constantly cry about not getting attention while they got a lot of attention from at least half the active members in our server. And also a lot of weird sexual stuff that granted is hearsay to me but tbhI don't care anymore, there's no way two unrelated people have similar stories. Here's some other stuff of them being mean about people and attention seek-y I have.

Piacere, you won't read this tbh, but just get off the internet, its clear you can't handle it, and you hurt people, for everyone's good, please just get offline. I know real life sucks for you, you'd say it a lot man, but its not an excuse to hurt people who aren't doing anything to you. Just, idk what you should do, other than leave the wider internet.

[bengiyo]

Ben's Big BL Blurb 3: Blue Canvas of Youthful Days Blew It, But I Still Recommend It

I finished Blue Canvas of Youthful Days today, and I don’t like where we left off with this show. Let’s get into that, and then check in on some of the other shows I’m watching.

Blue Canvas of Youthful Days Didn’t Give the Audience Catharsis

I don’t begrudge the show going for a happy ending, given how so many other BLs from their home country end with sudden traumatic turns. However, I don’t feel like we got catharsis from the ending at all. I struggle to full articulate my frustration here, but I think I just really wanted an ending akin to Weekend (2011) or Gameboys 2 (2022).

I think these two were in a position where they were unable to be together now, and I think they should have ended on a separation. When Cairo and Gav had to separate at the end of Gameboys, it was the correct choice. They were still building their lives, and Gav wasn’t doing well on his on. Similarly, Blue Canvas established a scenario whereby Qi Lu did not have the power to stop his father from harming Qin Xiao. Likewise, Qin Xiao couldn’t keep the local gang from beating Qi Lu.

I would have preferred they have the boys confront that they were hiding things from each other, and how they both failed to protect each other from the horrors. I am disappointed that we didn’t get a poignant goodbye from them as they accept that they can’t be together right now. I wouldn’t have minded so much a blurb at the end of the show with the pitch for a season 2 that they didn’t get to film (though @thisonelikesaliens commentary makes even what they wrote dour). We didn’t confront the issue with the dad at all, and we didn’t deal with Qin Xiao losing all he’d worked for.

Genuinely, I would have been okay with them getting a tag at the end of the show with them seeing each other on the street again and sharing a meaningful look. However, we never saw them face the music of their double noble idiocy, and that sucks. It especially sucks because we had Let Free The Curse of Taekwondo this year, and so we saw the consequences of this. We could have had these two railing against the world and promising to see each other again. The tag at the end of the reuse of the fantasy sequence feels tacked on and unearned. That kinda sucks more.

Final Verdict: 8, Recommended With Reservations. I really liked most of this show, and I think they wrote some phenomenal characters until the finale here. Like @lurkingshan I ended up not pleased with this ending. I am disappointed in the lack of resolution about the withholding, and I think they needed to face the separation and goodbye. However, I really liked the cast, and I respect the team that worked so hard to get this to us.

On to the rest of the show, presented in no particular order…starting with the worst. I’ll put in parentheses what episode number I’m on as of this post.

Haunted Hearts is Boring (5/7)

Magic, mah friend! Your show is boring. I do not know why these boys won’t kiss, and at this point I feel like I don’t care anymore. They’re introducing yet another ghost next week and I just am so disinvested. I try so hard every time to support Oxin Films and Regal Entertainment, but they make it so fucking hard. Holy shit. There’s only so far the boys being cute can carry a thin concept like this.

City of Stars is Better Than I Expected (2/12)

I am catching up on this show. The acting isn’t great, but I’m really enjoying a lot of what’s happening here. I will report back when I finish.

See Your Love is Fun But Kinda Weird (7/13)

The visuals are great in this show, and the leads are filling in the aesthetic gap left behind by Jimmy and Tommy in a way that really works for me. There’s been way too many pratfalls in the last two episodes. We are at 1.5 pratfalls per episode at this point. The side couple is absolutely ridiculous. I’m having fun.

Caged Again is Becoming a Favorite (4/10)

Junior is the best protagonist of the year. I’m obsessed with this penguin boy. I love the way this show uses its supernatural elements to drive its storytelling forward, even if I think the plot got a little silly in episode 4. The friend group dynamics are so fun, and I haven’t enjoyed a group of Thai boys this much since Knock Knock, Boys! (no surprise, two of them are in this show, too).

Your Sky is a Weekly Delight (3/12)

The 2gether rewrite show is great, and I will be reading no commentary to the contrary. These boys are so great, and they are one of the best couples of the year. This show is doing fake dating in a way that’s just so excellent, because it’s real dating! The boys are genuinely trying to get know each other so they can pretend to be a better fake couple. This is so close to being excellent meta commentary about dating in the digital age, and how so much of dating for the current generation is about how others perceive the validity of your relationship. It’s actually so fun to watch a show where the characters are doing all the things you’re supposed to do when you’re trying to build something with someone, but one of them doesn’t fully understand what they’ve gotten into. This show is great, and I love it.

Love in the Air: Koi no Yokan is so Slick (5/10)

If there’s one thing a Japanese drama is going to get right it’s trauma! This show delivered on Kai’s horrors in a way that was so visceral that I needed to pause and catch a breath. I remain obsessed with the casting of Nagatsuma Reo as Kai, because he’s taller than Suzuki Asahi sometimes. I really love that they didn’t give us the BL height difference trope, and I like that they didn’t style Kai in a way to make him look more feminine. There’s a egalitarian physical balance between Fuma and Kai that I find extremely refreshing, considering the massive class, wealth, and suffering gap between the two characters. It’s no surprise that we’ve had a dearth of gifs of their sex scene, considering it doesn’t play to the kind of asymmetric aesthetics that folks seem enjoy in their pairings.

As always, the Rei and Kai friendship remains one of the best parts of this story, and I like the way this version of Sky talks to this version of Rain about the queer stuff. He feels like he’s being careful with his friend, and not just ghosting him on important conversations about his friend’s sexual awakening (one of my major gripes with the original Thai adaptation).

Our Youth is Taking Over My Brain (4/11)

I have not moved on from the “Infect me” line, and I am still obsessed with the plausible deniability of the “no homo” that Hirukawa relies upon as he continues to pursue Minase. Now that Minase has reached his breaking point, I’m so looking forward to seeing where we go next. We’re due for a major separation, and I’m ready for a Japanese BL to not fuck up a second chance romance attempt this time. Perhaps adapting Korean work could the solution?

Spare Me Your Mercy is a Welcome Return to the Sammon Feeling I Enjoy (1/10)

I just really love when Sammon shows feel like the mystery matters more than the romance, and this feels like it’s in the correct space. I loved the initial setup, and the potential for there to be multiple murderers. I really hope that they start killing younger people in this show, because they said there were only 40 palliative care patients, and we downed three of them in the first episode. I’m so happy to see JJ again, and Tor looks great. I am looking forward to the weekly watch and theorizing with this show. Most importantly, I’m looking forward to the complex meditation on euthanasia, which this story feels like it’s taking seriously.

Love is Like a Poison Finally has Given Us a BL Battle Couple Again (11/12)

We haven’t had a BL battle couple in what feels like forever. I love that this show continues to reward us for believing in Haruto and Shiba. Haruto’s dad is the absolute worst, and I really want him to lose. I love Shiba, and I love that the show continues to give him some of the visual tropes of a legal drama (like the pan up near the end). I’m in love with this show, and it’s going to be one of my favorites of the year, I’m sure.

Fragrance You Inherit Hurts Me Because Everyone is Doing The Right Thing (4/8)

This show is actually so painful sometimes, because no one is doing anything wrong. Everyone is being as emotionally honest as they can be with everyone they speak to about all of the things that are going on. There’s absolutely nothing wrong with Sakura choosing to let go of her lingering crush on Mone now that they’re both moms and their kids are dating. Besides, we presume that Mone is still married! The conversation with On-chan makes me think that Mone misunderstood the relationship Sakura had with him in college (My man is ace but not aro! We love to see it).

I just really love that everyone is trying to do right by everyone around them, and I think all of the things that remain unspoken in this show have been withheld for completely valid reasons. There are no villains in this story, and that makes it even harder to watch really kind people treat each other politely in every scene. I’m just feeling a quiet scream in me the entire time I watch a good son by a thoughtful gift for his loving mother with the help of his supportive and lovely girlfriend, as he prepares a surprise from the old friend who clearly still cares about her friend and the unrequited/unexpressed feelings between them. This show is incredible. Go watch it right now. Thank you again to @isaksbestpillow.

Conclusion

That’s more shows than I’ve been watching in a while. It’s nice to have some Thai shows back in my rotation that I’m actually enjoying. I really want the Chinese to now fuck up their endings, but it seems like 2024 will not be that year. I’ll try to check in with the end of Love is Like a Poison when the Netflix release schedule completes so folks can binge it then. In the mean time, let me know what you’re enjoying, and what else I should consider picking up.

[kairunatic]

Since CBT for Woofia is ending I bet you guys are curious if all the shit I've been posting about this game is all true

Especially the CG like you're probably wondering "Hey is Kairu even telling the Truth is the CG animation really good or he's just overly Exaggerating as usual" and Blah Blah Blah All that shit XD

Well good news for You cause I recorded Some of my Fave CG just to prove u wrong mah Friend

*kek*

Friendly reminder this is in mandarin So u jork off for the animation and not for context (well unless u use a Machine Translation lol)

Anyway here ya go

>> Yuhyun CG

>> Tayangsuyi CG

>> Kumoyama CG

God and my Absolute Fave!!!

>> Dallavan CG

Happy Jorking off while u wait for Official release lol

[waitmyturtles]

Gelboys, and the Delicious Art of Eliciting Cringe

A bunch of my amazing friends are doing an amazing project in rewatching the wonderful 2019 drama, Theory of Love, and watching the romcom films that are thematically associated with each ToL episode. Their recent ToL posts have gotten me thinking about Third and cringe.

When I think about Theory of Love, I always firstly think about wanting to chuck a chancla at Third's conker.

I'm a Khai defender, even while admitting that he was a gigantic putz to Third during a lot of the series. But, as the lovely @lurkingshan said to me when I first tuned into ToL -- Third was the architect of his own misery.

Oh, indeed he was. This incommunicative wet blanket! I wanted to keep yelling at Third: if you crush on a person, they can't read yer mind until you say something about it!

Third filled me with a sense of dread and cringe. He couldn't bring himself to communicate his crush on Khai to Khai. My dread came from watching Khai continue to do his Khai things, with my knowing that Third would get increasingly heartbroken vis �� vis Khai, without Third intervening unto himself to stop his cascade into misery until it was too late for him. As a viewer, I saw Third devolve, slowly crumbling into more and more despair.

In my 2023 review of Theory of Love, I argued that part of the show's brilliance in presenting such a pitiful Third at the start was a brilliant narrative move to lull us viewers into feeling a sense of implicit empathy towards Third -- a sympathetic bias that would then lead to us viewers to not question Third on his actually very questionable decisions. I thought it was such a good play on the part of the screenwriters to tease us viewers like this.

What I'm absolutely LOVING about the currently-airing Gelboys are similar feelings of simultaneous empathy and cringe for the guys in the love triangle that's been established as of episode three among Fou4mod, Chian, and Bua.

We were first presented with Fou4mod and his life deal: his wildin' family, his musical predilections, his bisexuality -- and his very strong internal demand for clarity in relationships. Surely the moment of crying in the mall to end episode one gave me the teeny-bopper shivers, but I got the strongest sense of cringe from Fou4mod's behavior at the end of episode two, when we saw him -- in real time!!! -- compromise and negotiate around his internal emotional compass for the sake of keeping the waffling Chian close to him.

(h/t @clairedaring )

That shit was just painful to watch (and it was AMAZINGLY well done). For my sake, it was particularly painful because I could so, so, SO relate to being just like that when I was a teenager.

I'm an old mom and auntie now, but ::hacking cough:: back in mah day, I remember being a 15-year-old teenager and thinking that my only rule in relationships would be that if I was lucky enough to date someone cute, then that would be all I'd need. I wouldn't demand anything else. I'd consider myself worthy if someone cute liked me back.

Cue the sirens and alarms! Someone should have, because of course, with that mindset, I got myself into a whole lot of messy-ass shit, dealing with a bunch of assholes during and well after my college years. I had a common mix of low self-esteem and and ill-conceived priorities that led me to date a string of incompatible dillweeds until I got myself into more mature relationships from my mid-20s on (with those relationships not always being perfect ones, either).

I find the cringe that Fou4mod and Chian present to be SO particularly viscerally painful because, to me -- it is SO relatable.

We have here teenagers who don't know what they're thinking, what they're feeling, what they're even doing -- because they don't have the comparative life experience to know what their actions might result in by way of what we, as the more mature and invisible audience, expect as their natural emotional ends. Fou4mod and Chian have no idea, because this is the first time they're going through these waffling human interactions, in love, dating, courtship, relationships, hook-ups, whatever.

Take even Chian's waffling and cringey behavior. I am loving all the varied takes on Chian (cc @tinrange and @mirmoria). It is so easy at this point, now that we've consumed episode three, to perhaps demonize Chian, and I definitely feel at times like I want to do that, too.

But I want to take a step back and assess Chian's existence as we know it at this moment -- from my perspective, of all things, as a worried mom, and as a former teen myself.

I love what @tinrange presented in her post about Chian's existence and status as a teenager who is very, very alone, and is looking for some kind of connection ANYWHERE, no matter how unhealthy he knows, and his friends know, those connections to be. Chian is so alone, we might even consider his current state one of (temporary?) abandonment. I love that his moment getting advice from chatGPT shocked so many of us to states of stomach discomfort.

But, also -- this kid is ALWAYS connected online. The headphones are in. Killing time with his napping and/or studying friends, watching a drama on 2.0x. Scrolling IG endlessly. Repeatedly editing his Close Friends list. Thinking about the symbolism of sharing a story to literally one person. Receiving the heartbreak, in silence, of realizing those symbolic efforts keep cyclically coming to naught as Bua flip-flops his attention to others.

Chian is in an almost constant state of distraction. During the very few times that we see him disconnected -- like the moment above, when he sees Bua with Moo after doing Bua's nails (like a chump), or the moment when he negotiates his unclear status with Fou4mod -- he is able to, finally, get in touch with the discomfort of the instability of his status with Bua. And it's clearly breaking him.

But he's not stopping the cycle, as of episode three. His wheel, for now, seems to keep turning in the same direction, back towards his attraction to Bua, almost serving Bua the attention that Bua wants, on a platter.

Chian, I'd posit, doesn't have the life experience yet to know how to break that cycle. From the perspective of a worried mom, what would I say to Chian? "That Bua guy is a POS, you gotta move on"?

My advice would be useless, we know that. We know Chian's not been listening to his friends, to the point of his friends giving up on Chian, knowing Chian is going to repeat the cycle of servitude and rejection that he's been dishing up to Bua.

But besides Chian not listening to his friends, I'll say again that Chian -- especially without the physical presence of supportive and empathetic family near him to give him perhaps sounder advice than his friends -- does not have the guidance or skill set to know HOW to change his behavior. He might only be able to break away from Bua when Bua does something idiotic or drastic. Which, we know, will leave Chian even more in the dumps -- because that specific scenario would leave Chian with absolutely no agency to change his hoped-for outcomes.

WE, as the viewers, know how Chian needs to change his behavior. But Chian, as a very wonderfully written natural teenager, has no idea how to do that yet. And I think that's just so very raw and realistic, and it's being beautifully done in this show.

What was great about Khai in Theory of Love was that, in the second half of the series, we saw him engage in very specific acts of behavioral change to get to a place to be a realistic partner to Third. I talked in my ToL piece about how behavioral change is very much the most difficult type of change a human can make.

While I don't have a lot of hope for a positive outcome for Chian (YET), I am at least encouraged by Fou4mod continuing to dally around the center of his own moral compass, hinting to Chian that he'd like an update on that status question, stat.

Fou4mod centers himself around his desire for clarity, even though he's really messing around the edges of it, eliciting the concern of Baabin. But Fou4mod still has that conviction. It hasn't burnt out yet. He has hope, and that hope is defining and disappointing him, as we see in the last scene of the episode, as he stands in-between Bua, Moo, and Chian. And unlike Chian -- Fou4mod has family, lots of it, around him, and a friend that's patiently by his side, there to comment on Fou4mod's navigation of this very titchy and ick situation.

Fou4mod has optimism and is guided by his center. Bua seems like a big ol' playa (but we'll find out more if/when we get an episode about him). While Chian, in many ways, does indeed deserve to be put into a blender, I want to make one little note of hope I have for him, something that makes me cringe at him just a tiny little bit less:

While Bua used his Close Friends list to show off his flirting towards Moo to Chian, Chian removed Fou4mod from his list before he uploaded his own flirtatious moment with Bua.

The whole IG flirting circle thing is just messy and uncool anyway. But at least Chian thought to put up a boundary that Bua himself hadn't thought of. Maybe Chian will show us a glimpse of an internal compass that we're unaware of as this series goes on.

[zithergiltscorner]

Why am i allowed to be happy if i'm not perfect?

i've got TWO girlfriends now mwueheheh

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Me;

Names: Zith, Zeth, Ziggy, Zelda, ZigZag, Ellie and KIRBY

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uh.... this used to be very complicated but i think i figured it out

she/her

May have a second personality, who gets text like this;

Wazzup bitches

He goes by he/him and uh... we don't get along

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Srs: Panromantic bisexual thanks for asking!

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#ZigZag musicmood - When the yapping is about the best thing in the universe [ music ] #Ziggy the qoute collector - qoutes i've collected #frankiefitcheck - when a moot of mine posts a fit check, i'll do a list of cool things in the photo. These mostly go for @frankiefridayyy, hence the name.

Interactions with mah mootsies

#pikkpia - Interactions w/ @ladyloss-blog, my canonical mom and comfort person #a wild bea appeared - interactions w/ @honee-bea, prolly won't be many with these, she very busy woman #aussie moot - interactions w/ @chaos-gremlin, my little arsonist #toaster rat cronicles - interactions w/ @the-toaster-rat, my friendly neighborhood cult leader #rae yay - interactions w/ @raeprise, one o' mah first moots #blizzie the wifey - interactions w/ @blizzardtheartisticfox, my canonical wife #Shen the father - interactions w/ @stuck-in-a-forest, my canonical father #A wild bea's malewife - Interactions w/ @t0by-h, my very nice canonical uncle. Also the master of baiting. #skeleton prizon - interactions w/ @thelovelyvie, i see 'em as an aunt now. Mom's mortal enemy. #dearest creechur in creachun - interactions w/ @l3sb14nc4t, my daughter. The name's a reference to the poem, and how all my children are "dearest, dearie, dear". #ze great zage - interactions w/ @sage-way, kitty person #Lexi my beloved <3 - interactions w/ @locothewolf mwuah

Other ppls tags for interacting wit me

#mother posting >:] - @ladyloss-blog's tag for interacting with me #ziggy the silly - @the-toaster-rat's tag for interacting with me #my zigzag child - @stuck-in-a-forest's tag for interacting with me #zig zag - @raeprise's tag for interacting with me #the smol - i believe @thelovelyvie's tag for me #mona momma - @l3sb14nc4t's tag for me #ziggyposting - @digi-tor's tag for miiii #Zither my beloved <3 - @locothewolf's tag for me

EVEN THOUGH I MIGHT MAKE CRUDE JOKES, I AM A MINOR.

My stats!

weight: 56.2 kg's / 123 pounds

height: 5'10 / 178 cm

waist measure: 64 cm / 25 inches

and that's the image maximum

~ auntie Ziggy <3

[thomaskong]

4 minutes fancon highlights‼️‼️‼️

Let me just start off saying this was genuinely SO fun. Like it was silly! It was entertaining! Sometimes it was sexy <3 Even sad! And of course always exciting. I wasn’t expecting it to be THIS fun lol

the fanservice was genuinely SO good. Like. The inside jokes within fandom type fanservice. Like ฮ็อบ y’know

When Den/Job asked the audience what Great’s name was and everyone went MUAYYYY—MULTIPLE times (me included!)

Tymegreat going on what I would call a post-waking-up-from-their-4MP-date and having a little dress up dance moment??? Tyme/Jes kissed Great/Bible’s cheek and of course everyone lost their minds. They also “won” (Great/Bible couldn’t win one of the two so he straight up unlocked the machine and pulled it out😭) the iconic cats in a recreation of their date in Great’s 4MP hehe

THE ACTORS WHO PLAYED YOUNG GREAT AND YOUNG TYME HAD A PERFORMANCE TO BUTTER BY BTS AND IT WAS GENUINELY SO FUCKING FUN AND THEY WERE LIKE BREAK DANCING ??? THEYRE SO GOOD!!! LITTLE UDON IS SOOO CUTE (honestly maybe the main highlight for me…)

Bon Jovi cover from Jes on the drums and Bas on the guitar. Genuinely so fucking cool.

Even the dance stages that weren’t related to the show were so fun. Like jjay doing mmmh by Kai…. OHHH LORDDDD. Jes and Bible are good dancers! And also they’re so hot😁 I have to emphasize this guys😁

Full cast ohm hiwwhee cover!

Tyme/Jes and Den/Job had a scene as when they were in med school and it was so sillay and a little gay of course. Very entertaining I love the dynamic these two have

BUMP APPEARING FOR ONE PERFORMANCE LMFAO. IN THE SAME LITTLE SKIT TITLE/JET AND DOME/MIO HAD A LITTLE GAY MOMENT AND THEN BUMP KISSES BOTH THEIR CHEEKS AND RUNS AWAY SKSKDJKS (it was like. Them as freshmen)

“If this love triangle was a musical…” coming on screen right before a musical between korn/bas, tonkla/fuaiz, and win/jjay made me lose my SHIT. it was LITERALLY 4 minutes: THE MUSICAL. Fuaiz was cunty as hell. Bas is honestly a great performer. And jjay got water dumped on him very dramatically/sadly as it “rained” LOL

Dome/Mio singing billkin’s lahn mah ost to Tonkla/Fuaiz. V sad </3

DENKORN PARALLEL UNIVERSE. IF GREAT INSISTED FOR KORN TO GO TO THE HOSPITAL AFTER GETTING CUT IN THE NECK. AND EVEN FUNNIER THEY PARALLELED TYMEGREAT THE WAY DEN WAS LIKE …yeah I’ll take care of this guy Bee. AND IT GOT SO GAY LOLLLL

THE LIKE LITTLE DANCE PARTY WE HAD AT THE END??? Job was DJing and the cast was jumping around with everyone, going into the audience, and just having so much fun lol (esp Jes hehe)

PONGTONG WERE HERE AND THEY PULLED EM UP ON STAGE TO DANCE WITH THEM!!! Even the young actors danced too and mio was like carrying them it was very cute hehe

Just. Apo’s presence for the auction is always <3 and btw they raised over ฿400k for HIV research!!! They also kept kissing their photos LMAO (since the couple photo was last, jesbible kissed it at the same time kdksjd)

SEASON TWO BEING ANNOUNCED!!! It seems like 8 hours is about when you dream👀 and yes there was lots of screaming (tbh, it was nonstop screaming the whole time ofc)

ALMOST FORGOT. THE WAY THE COUPLES SHIRT MERCH WORKED FOR ALL OF THEM (in terms of characterization (mostly) and ship wise—including ghost ships LOL). Those wearing white: jes, jjay, bas, and mio; those wearing black: bible, fuaiz, job, and jet

[sharkietheshork]

Here's some Overhaul doodles I drew in mah new 'DESIGNER JOURNAL' i got for christmas! plus one Magne drawing cause I got upset that she barely had proper screen time

I didn't draw much

so

uh

yeeah

I was gonna draw more but i decided to abandon ship because of a crazy ass d r e am loll

I've never really drawn Overhaul before, at least his head, and ngl this whole page was me trying to figure out how to draw his hair without it making it look like he has a bigg ass forehead- and- uh- well- yeeeeah.

He's definitally a Drama Queen, that green jacket WITH the purple fur??? like- AND he wears it with confidence??

slay.

In this one I tried remaking my 'Egirl Overhaul' pic I drew for shits and giggles, If i can find where it is i'll post it for you all to see

Overhaul: Kurono do NOT talk to me, I'm doing my mascara.

THIS MAN'S EYELASHES THO. WHY ARE THEY SO GOOD??? like either he has really good genetics or he purposely does mascara on just his bottom lashes

just- this cutie patootie...

who does-

child abuse

Have some Magne because she deserves Justice

JUSTICE FOR MAGNE.

anyways-

here's one of my favourites I made

now, WHY did I draw Overhaul with two small sharks crawling over him like puppy dogs?

well, y'all about to loose yer damn mind

BECAUSE HE H A S SHARKS!!

LOOK AT HIM!! HE'S A SHARK DAD!!! WTH SHARK CHIDLREN!!!

soo context, I bought a overhaul action figure for christmas (since it was the only mha fig in the store but we ain't gon talk about that-) and my parents got me this shark excavation kit for christmas. aaand once I found how tiny the sharks were (the excavation area was so big tho?? tf Natintonal geographic?? waste???) I decided to give them to Overhaul! and they fit in his arms so perfectly I made it canon that he has sharks.

I. freakin love Sharks.

ANYWHO.

hope yah enjoyed

I'll defintally go and find the Egirl Overhaul pic. I think I drew Egirl Dabi & Shigaraki too, and MAYBE aizawa but I can't remember...

I belon infederal prison-

[sharonisthebettercarter]

hugh campbell is literally the tallest member of the boys in the show and it's one a my favorite details<3

they rarely show it off and tend to use camera angles and posture (hughie boi i see you constantly slouching--LOOK AT HIM~<3<3<3 just casually *unintentionally* making butcher appear is *actual size*--) to play up or downplay/switch up height differences, but i kinda love that hughie went from being the second shortest member (comics) of the boys to the literal tallest<3 (butcher was generally in the middle with homie just casually being a head taller than him--, frenchie and mm being the taller guys on the team, love sausage of course being the biggest guy when there~<3<3<3 he still is btw--)

love love LOVE him so fucking much<3<3<3 literally the *only* REAL bear in this damn series (HE STRAIGHT UP BEAR HUGS BILLY IN THE COMIC AHHHHHHHHHHH~<3<3<3!!! we better see moar of him i swears--). mm is a close one, but he's more of a good big papa wolf~<3 butcher's a scraggly dumpster kitten or fuckin' heifer--

i *also* love love LOVE the single inch height increment hughie and billy got goin' on with homie, it's just the cutest most fun thing~<3 it goes--

5'11" (homie<3)

6'0" (billy bean<3<3)

6'1" (not so wee hughie<3<3<3)

6'2" (LOVE SAUSAGE~<3<3<3<3!!)

i see you sandwiched right inbetween those bois there, 'ey billy~<3? ;)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

throw in mm between billy and homie, it's hard to find a solid height on that bitch<3 (and they *def* keep trying to downplay his height and bulk cause holy FUCK, THAT MAN--) but i'm gonna say he's probably around 5'11.5", closer to 6'0" maybe??

lol for the roughest layout i guess, they tend to bill urban a bit taller than he is (you can tell cause they'll bill quaid at the same numbers but he's definitely taller than urban, also i SWEAR everytime this man is in a photo that's not a solo glamor shot he's tryin' out some jank ass angles always always always leaning *in* to the camera to make himself look *bigger* leik honey you are so fuckin' cute-- and they *def* keep trying to make billy look *way* bigger than he actually is, BILLYYYYYYYYYYY--) but boi, i see you too<3<3<3

i guess maybe a little closer, it might go something like...

5'11" (homie)

5'11.75" (mm)

6'0.5" (billy bean)

6'1.5" (hughie)

in which there's .75 increments, and then a full 1 inch leap from billy to hughie. either way, they're def very close and not a single one is 'small' per se (except compared to love sausage--tho i do bet starr is one of those fuckers to downplay his height so other men get insecure LMAO--), but i just love the sequencing<3<3<3

what i *also* love~?

(bad posture homie lol) homie's reaction to hughie posturing at his full height was fucking amazing. IT WAS OH MY GAWD--i can't. he had his little surprised moment and then made a *pleased* "ooh~<3" and then smirked like THIS--

leik hughie... MAH BOI--i know he *tried* so fucking hard but leik. homelander is just so unthreatened by him that he's fucking *amused* and engaged with hughie *trying* to be brave. *he relaxed further*-- he just... he just doesn't give a shit. and it's horrible. but also *beautiful* because at this point, you can tell he's just so bored out of his mind that he even *welcomes* the challenge in some ways. he is LOVING that people feel so attacked by him without him doing much--LEIK.

there are a couple other unhinged and unsettling *positive* reactions he has to people similarly enough, (his descent into madness in real time--not gonna get into it now lest this post become *all* about homie--) but man oh man~<3

little bit less posture difference here, will say it's silly fandom obsesses over/exaggerates single inch height differences (particularly between homie and billy while ignoring/reversing hughie and billy, leik C'MON--let hughie be his height~<3! also we should be obsessing over the perfect~<3 *sequencing*, DUH--) but it's honestly pretty amazing how much of a nonfactor the height is in general.

for homie, it's pretty obvious he doesn't give a shit as he's particularly relaxed and unbothered by people being taller than him (especially hughie--literally amused by people posturing LEIK--by the gods his reaction to hughie challenging him--I CAN'T IT WAS FUCKING--GOOSEBUMPS~<3<3<3), but it just goes to show. motherfucker is just playing with his food--

BONUS~<3

lmao blurry ass pic of baby urban getting *dwarfed* by dwayne "i'm 5'11" and wear lifts" 'the rock' johnson. (also that mofo got so much bigger leik gotdamn i am actually curious how much more he'd *DWARF* urban cause ya look at him now and just. he ate a truck--ya look at the rock next to a guy leik SHAQ and HOLY FUCKIN' SHIT the differences are staggering leik one inch is nothin' baby--) SWEET BABY JEEZUZ--

bonus bonus~<3

another detail i *love*?

the shorter two (and frenchie~<3<3<3!) have the bigger/longer noses and... *likely* the biggest cocks--

;))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[espioakakeith]

I think I'm gonna make tumblr my main place to just ramble on about wrestling and here's a long rambling rant why.

I joined blueskyI thought for sure I found a group of people that liked and enjoyed wrestling the way I do. And for a while it was kinda of the case, and then it became all just negative bullshit every conversation. And if it wasn't negative, it was snippy or not convo at all.

But I just wanna talk wrestling in all of its forms, I wanna riff about it, joke about it, talk shit about it, all without it being taken so fucking seriously. 'cause at the end of the day, its usually two or more dudes, half naked, with inflated egos, in babyoil and leather, wrestling.

IT AIN'T NEVER BEEN THAT SERIOUS MAH BOI!!!

So, I have made the decision to mainly liveblog/livereact here during Wrestlemania weekend. I did it last year and I THOROUGHLY enjoyed it! Yall over here on tumblr are the most level headed when it comes to watching and enjoying wrestling. The past few months I've been on bluesky, which is LEAGUES better than twitter but you still have your fucking shit heads.

Any time I post about WWE, it's always some fucking loser "duuuuur MAGA!!! duuuuuuurrr Triple H said this. Duuuuuuur fuck Booker T. I as a white person feel like. AEW SO BAD"

Anytime I post about AEW, it's always some fucking loser under it goin "duuuuuuuurrr its only flips, duuuuuuuuur fuck swerve! duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh, only ex-wwe guys! duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh duuuuuuuuuh scared of the griinnnd! SO MUCH BETTER! WWE SO BAD"

If I post about GCW, TJPW, NOAH, Progress or whatever, its always some fucking loser going "duuuuuuuuuuuuur GCWWE! dduuuuuuurrr Fuck effy for saying mean things! Duuuuuuuuuuuuuh TJPW isn't Stardom!!!! Duuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh NOAH isnt NJPW so its baaaaad"

LIKE OMFG LET ME JUST WATCH TWO HALF NEKKID MEN FIGHT THEIR PROBLEMS OUT!

Yes I want to see these men and/or women fight their problems out. No I don't care that much about what the reasoning is.

Do I like The Young Bucks? Not really!

Do I let that stop me from enjoying the show?

Sometimes the make it hard, I will admit that. Same with Jericho.

Do I like Logan Paul? I don't have any strong feeling towards him because that would mean that I see him as more than the trash that he is, thus warranting any real usage of any emotional capital.

Will I like the booking and results of these companies all of the time?

NO!

BUT I watch Gundam and anime, bitch half the folks I enjoy get killed before the 25th episode in some horrific way.

I like watching the things for FUN! I'm sorry my personality isn't based in my escapism consumption!

[cer-rata]

WIP Wednesday: Valentine's Violence Edition

Listen, I've made a lot of dubious life decisions, okay.

...And that's not stopping today!

For some reason, I've decided to try to finish three WIPs by the 14th.

Which actually means midnight the 13th.

I'm not going to tell you how much I've actually written, but I will reaffirm that this is a mistake.

So here's the deal. I will post the names of these three WIPs, you, if it pleases you, can DM the name of one of those WIPs, and I will write at least a paragraph of said work.

You can send more than one even, fuck it, the house is already on fire, but if you do send a couple in a row, maybe mix it up a lil idk.

I'll be working on these today and all day tomorrow as I try to get it together.

In any case, the WIPs:

"Lost Time" (Slobo/Anita Fite)

"A Light at The End" (Duke Thomas/Bao Pham)

"No Return" (...look there's a lot of shit going on here okay, if you see a tag and you don't understand why it's there, it probably has something to do with this--)

That's it, please, please use this opportunity to beat my ass.

I will tag people, however, instead of inflicting you with this, I instead direct you to my friend @shadowuserannie 's Much More Sane Writing Game Rules to follow instead.

Anyway, violence:

@kara-zor-els @radioactive-earthshine @paladin-of-nerd-fandom65 @authenticaussie @im-not-buying-it-ether @fancyfade @strunmah-mah @jellyfishjuliet @heartofrhea

If I've forgotten to hit you...I'm...sorry...?

[jaedenlostboysbchasin]

Jaeden and Creator's Introduction.

Hello, unfortunately I'm having to do this cause my creator is busy with other stuff. So- Hi! I'm Jaeden, I am from the early 1800's, I grew up near Arkansas. I have a thick country accent, but I don't dress country at all. *I will forever be 19 *I have split die hair, red and black *I'm 5'9 *Genderfluid *Afab *They/he pronouns. *I'm Bisexual/poly I met Marko first.. it was very- Chaotic. Then I met the Twisted Sister Twin. I'd like to say I'm less chaotic than they are but, we both know that once human bleed is in my system I'm more chaotic than the two combined.... Anyway. David made me do some sketchy shit, but we don't talk about it. and Dwayne.... mmmmm DwAyNe- but Marko????? OH MAH GAWD.. If i was his victim, i'd just let him kill me.. simple as that. Those dudes saved me from a bad fire, took me in, and made me eat what I thought was maggots.. but it didn't bother me at all, man. You got to eat with what ya got I suppose. #protein

That's all I got for ya, if ya got any questions just send'a ask! ------------------------------------------------------------- Hi! I'm the creator of Jaeden. I'm 19, and I may or may not have 2 other accounts on here that I post shit on- teehee I'm Pan/Omni/Poly

[marointhemoon]

Yes, please infodump! I always enjoy reading your thinking behind your fics.

Limiting myself to four, but more than happy to drop another ask later if you're up for it!

1 - Not everyone can be the main character!

13 - drowning in affection

14 - loophole

22 - go in service

okay okay okay an infodump to tire myself out once and for all before i collapse into bed (it's about midnight where i am and i FINALLY finished the very first part of my lady of mercy. i'm going to clean it up tomorrow and finally post it and i am very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very excited.

SO! i'm gonna briefly chat about the general vibe of each thing and give an excerpt if there's one that i particularly like. what i'm saying is you're going to be eating very very well.

Not everyone can be the main character!

What's the vibe: A slice-of-life chronicle of life going on on the NX-01, outside of what the Main Seven do. There's laughs. There's gaffs. There's character development for characters you have literally never heard of. It's a little bit of an OC fic without 100% being an OC fic.

Who does it feature: A metric fuckton of side characters. You've got the usual suspects (e.g., Rostov, Kelly, Hess, Cutler), for sure. But you also have some people who had literal seconds of screentime (e.g., Zabel, Fletcher, Tanner, Jane Taylor). You've got people who straight up only appeared in the novels (Ravi Chandra, Mireya Meir, Donna O'Neill) (characterization may vary). You're got straight up OCs (e.g., both of Malcolm's seconds-in-command (because I 100% refuse to believe that one member of personnel would have been seated with all of his administrative shit)). As I say, there's laughs, there's gaffs, there's chaos, there's character development.

When can we expect to see it in full: Not for a good long while. All told, this work is probably my white whale, and it will probably be simultaneously the richest yet most piecemeal thing I create for a good long while.

An excerpt:

April 13th, 2151. 1600 hours. “Lieutenant senior-grade Annika Hess, reporting for duty.” “Commander Trip Tucker—Trip’s just fine. You must be mah new second. You just get promoted?” “Ah—yes, sir.” Shit. What did I say? “You don’t have to say ‘senior-grade’.” “Oh. Right.” I can already feel my face going red. Commander Tucker laughs lightly, and I feel like dying. “This must be yer first time in command, too, huh?” “Ah… yes, sir.” How humiliating. Trip smiles and puts a hand on my shoulder. “Well, you’re here on time and ya seem to have yer wits about ya. I’m sure you’ll be fine.” I allow myself an uneasy chuckle. “I appreciate that, sir.” “Ah mean it. Ah’ve heard nothin’ but good things from yer past COs. Couldn’t ask for a more qualified second.” Americans and their flattery. I swallow thickly, trying to get myself to say something. Anything, so long as I don’t further embarrass myself.

drowning in affection

What's the vibe: The thing that was supposed to be my submission for Drown Malcolm Reed Month. Basically Malcolm is touch starved as fuck, so Trip and Hoshi offer him a cuddle sesh. He refuses for months, until a bad day hits (complete with edible arrangement in the form of a migraine) and he's left with few other options than to accept the affection or wallow in misery.

Who does it feature: Malcolm, Trip, and Hoshi. I wanted to experiment with the idea of them as a threesome, but not necessarily as a romantic or sexual one.

When can we expect to see it in full: Not for a while, albeit not as long of a while as the slice of life thing. IMO, this is kind of rushed and piecemeal, much more so than I'd like. Just because it's the G-rated equivalent of PWP, that doesn't mean I want it to be completely contrived. Ultimately, I want to flesh it out significantly so that things make sense.

An excerpt:

Before he thinks better of it, he’s commed Trip to let him know to expect him. It feels like he’s doing something wrong, somehow. Like he’s heading off to be taken apart and debauched, as though Trip and Hoshi think the solution to his migraine is to fuck his brains out. But he knows them well enough; that was never the offer being made. This was never a sex thing, nor was it even an offer of a romantic relationship. Still, protests that small, defensive, ever-insecure part of his soul. The stern, sardonic, stiff-lipped Chief of Security, off to be cuddled? Suddenly, he’s ringing Trip’s doorchime. The door opens, and things start to happen relatively quickly. Trip offers his hand. Malcolm lets himself be pulled into the dark room. He’s sat down on the comforter of Trip’s bunk. Hoshi’s not far behind him, come to help along the plan she’d hatched. She crawls onto the bed, behind him. Her body nears his, and he shivers as he feels her nails lightly trail over his shoulders. She settles in, resting her head right between his shoulder blades, drawing a contented hum from both of them. Then, the piece de resistance: Scritch, scritch, scritch. Malcolm mushes his face into Trip’s shoulder, feeling his spine turn to jelly as the engineer's blunt nails gently scratch at the base of his skull. “Aww…” Trip can’t help himself, his baritone drawl at full strength. “Does that feel good?” “Fuck off.” At least, that’s what Malcolm wants to say. What comes out instead is a low, disgruntled whine, which only makes Trip pull him closer and Hoshi coo with adoration. That’s a new one: adoration. People have been attracted to him, that’s true enough. He knows what that’s like— to be wanted, desired —but this is different. Trip and Hoshi don’t just want him. They like him. They want to take care of him. That’s new. And oh, it feels good. Trip’s hands move, his thumbs sometimes coming back to rub firm little circles behind his ears. If either he or Hoshi say anything in the next minute, it’s lost to warm, sleepy oblivion.

loophole

What's the vibe: Hoshi's having nightmares and the NX-01 rumor mill is a well-oiled machine, so she finds out about T'Pol's neuropressure "services" (such as they are) and decides to see if she can't be helped.

Who does it feature: T'Pol and Hoshi. The original intention wasn't to have it be explicitly shippy, but the work is so early in the process that there's still some room for me to change my mind.

An excerpt:

As it was, Hoshi stood nervously outside of her quarters. She’d been trying to muster the courage to ring the door chime for the last hour and struggling to sleep for the last three. Falling and staying asleep had started getting harder a week ago, and things had been steadily getting worse since then. Last night, she’d only gotten three hours of sleep. She couldn’t keep on like this. Despite her anxiety, Hoshi yawned. What time was it, 0130? Was the Sub-commander even awake? Oh, to hell with it. Hoshi rang the doorchime. “Come in,” said a low, feminine voice. There was no hesitation behind it. Hoshi took a steadying breath. She could do this. She opened the door and timidly stepped into T’Pol’s quarters. A faint smell—incense?—hit her nose, and she immediately felt a little calmer. T’Pol looked up from where she’d been meditating, her expression neutral as ever. “Ensign. What can I do for you?” “Hi. Um…” Hoshi sighed, already feeling her cheeks going warm. “Look. I heard through the grapevine that you’ve been doing neuropressure to help with sleep issues. I’ve been dealing with similar things, and I thought about trying to do it myself, but I’ve also heard that you can get really hurt if you do it wrong. If you’re not comfortable doing it, that’s fine, I just wanted to—” “Ensign,” T’Pol said calmly, cutting Hoshi off. The younger woman snapped her mouth shut. “I…” Hoshi was stunned. The Sub-Commander, at a loss for words? She was so screwed. “Normally,” she said, snapping Hoshi out of her reverie. “Neuropressure is a fairly intimate act. Along the lines of massage or acupuncture. Having said that, it’s logical that you would want to see someone who knows what they are doing. I … I can appreciate your being proactive in that regard. My concern has more to do with fraternization. You are, after all, in my direct line of command.” “I understand.” Hoshi looked away. “Just … forget I said anything. Please don’t report me.” T’Pol blinked. “Why would I report you?” “I don’t know, I just … didn’t want to come off too strong. I’m being weird. Sorry.” T’Pol regarded Hoshi for a moment. To the best of her knowledge, Starfleet’s fraternization regulations prohibited personal relationships: romance, cohabitation, sexual intercourse, and things of that nature. This didn’t seem to be a proposition for any of those things. Quite the opposite: even taking it in the least charitable light possible, Ensign Sato was asking for something slightly more intimate than their professional relationship allowed. It wasn’t as though T’Pol had no boundaries; she could push back if things went out of hand. Besides, she figured, Sato’s work is bound to suffer if she doesn’t rest. T’Pol fought the urge to wrinkle her nose in disgust. If she could do this for Corporal Cole, surely she could do it for her ensign.

go in service

What's the vibe: T'Pol is well outside of her pon farr and therefore has almost no sex drive. Unfortunately, Trip does. Luckily, thinking outside of the box has always been one of his strengths.

TL;DR - T'Pol is grey-ace and outside of her pon farr, so ServiceTop!Trip, wanting to both get off and make her feel good, does a body worship.

Who does it feature: Trip and T'Pol. I really like the idea of ServiceTop!Trip, especially as applied to non-sexual contexts. I suspect, given everything that's happened between them (sexually and not) that there's this really easy intimacy between them. Not totally identical to a human couple, to be sure, but they're certainly not shy with each other in terms of nudity.

HOWEVER!

I also wanted to explore the idea of T'Pol being on the ace spectrum, particularly outside of her pon farr. I feel like it's pretty reasonable to assume that Vulcans have sexualities outside of that, regardless of whether they express them or not (traditionalists like Soval might not, but others like T'Pau, Spock, and T'Pol might). Even so, it follows that acespec Vulcans are a thing, and I wanted to try to balance that idea with how sexual Trip and T'Pol's relationship canonically is. Obviously, T'Pol is sexually attracted to Trip, and obviously she's not 100% sex-repulsed, but there's absolutely nuance beyond that that I think could be super interesting!

An excerpt:

Trip pressed his lips to T’Pol’s, unhurried and gentle. There was, at most, a very delicate heat to it, Trip softly humming and moaning in the back of his throat. Faintly, T’Pol wondered if he’d try to introduce his tongue—she would have had no problem with that—but he never did. He wasn’t there to claim her, or attempt to make her submit. These kisses were gentle and patient, calm and easygoing. Ultimately, this was why she would always want Trip. He was her peace, and she knew she was his. For him, a shelter from the chaos of his circumstances. For her, an outlet for the chaos of her mind. Almost meditating on that, she allowed herself a long, slow breath, prompting him to hum approvingly. He pulled away, pressing a soft kiss to the corner of her mouth. “You’re so beautiful,” he murmured, before starting to kiss his way up her cheek. He smiled as she turned her head, allowing him more access. “That good, darling?” She hummed in approval. Hesitating for a moment, he pressed a kiss to the shell of her ear. She shuddered. He paused, concerned. “That okay?” It was her turn to hesitate. “I… would prefer that you not. I have changed my mind.” “No worries.” He pressed a kiss to her temple, prompting another hum. “Thanks for tellin’ me.” Gently turning her head, he kissed her other temple. She allowed herself a sigh, and he smiled even wider, trailing kisses down the other side of her face, then down her jaw. As he reached her neck, his hands came to rest on her waist. “Let’s get you settled and relaxed, shall we?”

i hope you enjoyed my infodumping! i'd be happy to share more if you want to hear more! for now, i'm going to bed!

thanks for the ask!

for those just joining, the link to the original ask game is right here!

[dolliedyhard]

Hello and Welcome! I’m Lucy, better known as the creator of Dollie Dyhard ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ I’m a MEGA creepypasta fan like… SUPER-ULTRA-MEGA. As you can guess my blog will be all about Creepypasta! Hooray🎉☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆ From fanart to OC’s to creepy stories to comics, I’ll make it ALL! In fact I have my own creepypasta oc! Her name is Dollie Lilium, alias Dollie Dyhard (hence my username). She’s the blonde girlie in the pic above and my pfp :3

Stuff about meh!

♥︎black girl🇺🇸🇿🇦 — bday is June 5th♥︎

♥︎Requests: NEVER — Art Trades: OPEN — Commissions: N/A♥︎

Yes I am a Jeff the Killer fangirl and I am not ashamed to admit! HES MY FAVORITE SO DON’T EVEN ASK, I WANT THAT TO BE OBVIOUS!!!! XD

Nina, Jane and Slenderman are also my favorite creepypasta’s too♡

I used to scared of Slenderman and Jeff the killer when I was a little girl. Back then I thought they were real, now I wish they were ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

I’m a songwriter & I want 2 sing as beautifully as Amy Lee one day!

I have a humongous stamp & blinkie collection…ITS NOT AN ADDICTION.

My favorite movies are The Craft (1996), Interview with the Vampire (1994), and The Prince of Egypt.

My OC’s!

You can find all information about Dollie and my other OC’s here in this post: General Post for my OC’s

Creepypasta AU’s:

The link for my creepypasta AU’s are here. That’s also important to read if you wanna know more about Dollie and stuff. It’s only 2k words so it won’t take long to read.

Oh! And also feel free to ask questions about my characters, love answering them! And I’d appreciate suggestions on OC designs, story, etc as well as constructive criticism. I’m always trying to improve my work and I value other opinions :)

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this is a list of things I’m good with u doing!

Making fanart for me (OF COURSE DUHHH PLZZZZZZZZ)

Shipping ur OC’s with mine

Writing fanfic about my OC’s

Including my OC’s in ur OC lore (but u BUTTER give meh credit for mah oc >:c)

Sending me dm’s to be friends

“DONT YOU DARE” List

This is a list of things ILL KILL U FOR IF U DO IT.

Making “your own version” of any of my OC’s

Stealing my art

Tracing my art

Reposting my art

Taking too much inspiration from me

Copying me

And buggin me for free shit (That’s a friends & moots only privilege HAHAHA.)

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#Lucy’s Sketches — Sketches I’ve made with pen and paper.

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#Dollie x Jeff — My OTP featuring Dollie and Jeff the Killer. Their official ship name is “Jellie” <3.

#The Dollhouse — Content of my teen CRP AU.

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MUSIC TASTE

Every creepypasta fan comes with an obsession with punk-rock and alternative music, it’s a fact! Aaaaand that fact applies to me too ofc _(┐「ε:)_ Favorite bands & musicians? Here’s a list! (In no particular order :v)

Pierce the Veil, Panic! At the Disco, My Chemical Romance, Get Scared, Set it Off, Ghost Town, Flyleaf, Three Days Grace, Avril Lavigne, Evanescence, Black Veil Brides, Linkin Park, Type O Negative, HIM, & Sliverstein.

More about the music I like here!

OUTRO!

Thank you SOO MUCH for reading! ((o(^∇^)o)) a lot of people don’t read intros >_> so I’m glad you did :) (Comment with a 💖 emoji if u made it dis far ^_^) I hope you stick along for the ride because it’ll definitely get wild! XD

If you want to see more art from me check out my gallery on DeviantArt!

Anyways, that’s pretty much everything I got 2 say :D Stay Frosty❄️ BAIIIIIIIIII

[wsancho]

The unconditional Figaro love

It’s mah bois’ birthday!! 🥰👑🐻

I meant to post fanfiction, but I started late and couldn’t finish on time. Plus the fic got some angsty shit going on, and I refuse to soil this day with that 😤

Today we celebrate!! 🎉🎂🍾🥂🎊

Today I spam and ramble 😌

Many of us (by which I mean me, ESPECIALLY ME) fantasize/glorify/fetishize twin relationships, but I have seen twin siblings saying that “it’s not a magical thing, anyone could have that type of deep bond with another person”. The intensity is what sets it apart from the rest, and it could range from the most sickening possessive hate-filled control, to the most detached accepting and nourishing love, passing through the clingiest and most crippling forms of codependency.

I got my own obsessive and ridiculously exaggerated bias about the Figaro twins, but I have seen several playthroughs where they stand out to the player as “the representation of brotherly love”. Even before getting the brothers’ cutscenes (in some cases the players happen to miss the coin scene and/or the reveal at the airship).

People this is brutal, don't do this 😭💔

But it’s always clear that there’s genuine love there.

The word "love" is often misused and abused. When I use it to talk about the Figaro twins’ relationship, I mean unconditional love, as in:

No strings attached

No expectations or demands

No judgment or condemnation

No impositions

No control

Accepting without enabling

Generous without creating dependence

Respectful

Peaceful and calming, because of all of the above

In past posts I mentioned Edgar’s controlling and condescending actions, and also his very codependent nature. Also Sabin’s departure can be interpreted as selfish. Before I backtrack elaborate on that, I think it’s important to suspend disbelief approach the subject of love with the knowledge that each and everyone of us is imperfect, but perfect love is always achievable and within reach. Our deficiencies make it painful, but not impossible.

Let’s get to it!

Edgar taking over as king is the most obvious loving act, because it’s scripted, but the depth of it is revealed in such a subtle and missable way, that forces the viewer to pay attention and to think harder about what we’ve learned about the brothers up to that point. It’s shown in a modest way, as modest as Edgar has been about the action itself. Love does not need praise or recognition, it is its own reward.

Was this condescending? It’s debatable.

Is it condescending to use simpler vocabulary when you speak to a small child? Stepping down from where you’re at to meet the other at their level is respect, not condescendence. To think yourself above the other because of some advantage you have, is condescendence.

Someone described the rigged coin deal as “Edgar letting his brother abandon familial duty while saving face”, and I believe this is a misunderstanding. Sabin doesn’t need to “save face” and Edgar doesn’t see it that way. Sabin was going to leave no matter what, and Edgar was going to stay no matter what. The coin didn’t decide for them, and neither did Edgar. Edgar’s words say it all: the coin meant to free Sabin of guilt, not of duty. Even if Ed breaks his own heart with the outcome.

An even more modest and almost always overlooked act of love (even in real life) happens when the brothers have a little moment alone while mourning their deceased father. Sabin is lashing out at everyone, he even pushes an old lady (the High Priestess) and unfairly accuses her of being as heartless as the Figaro politicians. Again we see Edgar being very tactful and just allowing Sabin to let it all out.

When one gets emotional and others start with the “don’t cry”, “it’s all for the best”, joke-to-make-you-laugh-because-your-pain-makes-ME-uncomfortable... This is all toxic positivity. It’s very refreshing to see that mah bois don’t do this to each other.

There’s even more missable stuff here. In this moment when Sabin cannot contain his rage, is that Edgar tells him pretty much that the politicians are right: the kingdom needs to be looked after. Now this would be a perfect trigger to Sabin, but instead he’s disappointed (of the outcome, not of Edgar). He doesn’t yell nor tries to convince him. Attempting to persuade would be to disregard and disrespect the other's concerns (this goes both ways). At his lowest and most volatile, Sabin is still capable of fully accepting Edgar. In this moment he couldn’t disagree more with Edgar’s views, but chooses to respect him and to still follow through with his own decision, even if it breaks his own heart.

When Edgar makes the proposal, Sabin lowers his head and won’t even look at him or the coin. It's not the bet what matters, he’s just sad Edgar won't join him (we know Sabin doesn’t judge Edgar, and is very proud of him as king and as a person).

Would it have been better if Edgar was sincere? No way to know, but the kingdom was in urgent need of leadership. 10 years later Sabin is still carrying guilt, and we know this because he’s the one to bring up the subject at the end. No one blamed him, not one questioned him and yet he needed to speak up about it for some reason.

Edgar was right in assuming that Sabin would be troubled, and hoped that a little nudge would help him trust his own instincts. But regarding the condescendence part, I think what messed with Sabin was that Edgar kept to himself for a bit too long, making Sabin feel left out 🥺 And I see this as an innocent miscalculation on Edgar’s part. He’s good at reading people, but not infallible.

Is it condescending to use non-technical vocabulary to explain physics to a child? Not at all, unless that child happens to be Michio Kaku, who built a particle accelerator in his parents' garage.

As children the twins spent a lot of time apart due to Sabin being constantly ill and bedridden. By circumstance Edgar would observe and learn things around the castle that Sabin could not. Sabin would necessarily be at a disadvantage in his ability to understand political games. In shielding Sabin, Edgar is giving him the chance to assimilate reality at his own pace, even if it gets lonely for Edgar.

But 10 years later they’re back together, and Edgar doesn’t really know the person Sabin has become (I'm more inclined to think they maintained little to no communication, the only part I have not pulled an explanation out of my ass cannot justify is how casual they are when meeting again at Mount Kolts), so Edgar still treats his brother as he always did, only now trusting that he’s big and strong and healthy and can take care of himself… But he’s not aware of Sabin's growth as a person (and to be fair, Sabin clearly has some more growing up to do). Edgar keeps to himself because he wants to prevent Sabin from returning to Figaro out of guilt, he wants Sabin to have his freedom always. This is where he miscalculates, because he never knew where Sabin was coming from:

Sabin didn’t want to be away from Figaro, he wanted to define his own individuality without their influence

He never intended to stay away for good, he intended to come back and contribute in his own way

He didn’t join the Returners just because there was an emergency, he joined because now he knew the part he could play in the big picture

As mature as Edgar is, he’s a bit damaged and never really gave himself the chance to prioritize his own needs, it might even be a blindspot. The skirt-chasing seems to be the only thing he does for the pure pleasure of it, but even that ended up turning into work, at least once. This is why I said in a previous post that it would take patience on Sabin’s part to get close to him again. Because for Edgar to feel assured that Sabin came back of his own free will, it would require a clear and repeated pattern where

Sabin demonstrates that he sees the castle as home and does not feel aversion towards it

Sabin comes back during times of peace, when there’s no emergency and no threats to deal with, he comes back and stays because he wants to, not because he has to

Sabin shows genuine interest in government matters. Otherwise Edgar would not burden him with any of it

Sabin stays as carefree and joyful as always. That’s all Ed wants for his little bro, whom he thinks he still needs to protect (again, nothing but an error in judgment)

And only then would Edgar maybe possibly perhaps probably consider sharing more of his concerns allow himself to rely on Sabin to shoulder some of the burdens 🫠🫠🫠🫠

From what my biased ass infers, I think Sabin is doing all of that, to extent of his possibilities. It’s hard to love someone who’s so guarded. Yet Sabin is doing exactly that. It’s not just about getting Edgar to reciprocate and grow out of his ways. In staying close while demonstrating confidence, Sabin is allowing Edgar the chance to assimilate the new reality at his own pace, even if it’s lonely for Sabin, because if he pushes, this might turn Edgar too self-conscious.

Love is not for the weak, and mah precious Figaro twins are fucking powerhouses 😤❤️💪🏼👑🐻