#Phillabuster

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Art by Phillabuster

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Phillabuster

Please forgive me

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Phillabuster

I miss you and love you. I hope one dY we can talk again.

[feuerschadel]

Phillabuster

יְבָרֶכְךָ֥ ה' וְיִשְׁמְרֶֽךָ׃  יָאֵ֨ר ה'  פָּנָ֛יו אֵלֶ֖יךָ וִֽיחֻנֶּֽךָּ׃   יִשָּׂ֨א ה' ׀ פָּנָיו֙ אֵלֶ֔יךָ וְיָשֵׂ֥ם לְךָ֖ שָׁלֽוֹ

[adamsarette]

I don't know what I am going to do...

 I wasn't able to get a day labor job today. I have a quarter tank of gas, 1 quart of oil, and 1 dollar to my name. 

Homeless and unemployed. not enough gas to get anywhere to get food for the day. 

Surprisingly... I am not depressed nor in dispair.  Since I have embraced witchcraft and the way of magick I have had no thoughts of self harm while my situation hasn't changed.

Now instead of being a homeless, unemployed Jewish Queer Cis Gay Man... I am a Homeless, Unemployed, Jewish, Queer, Cis Gay male witch... 

I still miss my husband Dylan, a Transmale witch. I hope and pray that his life is successful and that he is prosperous.  I hope that one day he will forgive me for my emotional shortcomings. 

I still miss Merrick, my former lover before Dylan, who i know is happily living his life with Phil. I wish both of them Happiness and success.

I am just reaching out to the universe... asking for help... to help me find a job and a place to lay my head and some food to sustain myself.

I am at a loss. I loved all my last partners from Dylan, Phil, Merrick, Lilith to Lynx. I never physically abused them. I know that emotionally I failed. Ir wasn't because I was indifferent it was because I was struggling inside from fear of inadequacy.

I am sorry that I failed all of you. Is this my punishment? 

[feuerschadel-haus]

Temprace and Phillabuster

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Art by Phillabuster

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Phillabuster

Please forgive me

[spencernotspencer]

[adamsarette]

Leatherman; Proud and Queer

2023 gave me a chance to truely  reconnect with my Leather past. When I was in my late teens I met an amazing man. Yes he was several years older but I loved him. Perry was a Leatherman and a rough and hard Top, not that common for a Vietnamese gay man in the 80's.  I was in love with him. We were together for a few years. Unfortunately for what was also common for the 80s gay community and which hit the leather community pretty hard was AIDS and it took Perry from me. Perry introduced me to leather, a community I am still proud to be a member of. 

Over the years I have always remained part of the leather community but also remained on the mostly in the BDSM Kink Community.

I was honored to serve for a few years as the LADs Liaison and Representative to the Los Angeles Leather Coalition. It was a privilege when Master George invited me to be part of the security and dungeon monitor teams at the Los Angeles Leather HEAT conference for the few years that event occured.  I always felt it was an honor being the security at the Southern California Leather Gathering every year prior to COVID and my move to Arizona. 

Now in Arizona it is not only a privilege and an honor to be a member of the Arizona Men of Leather but has been an enriching experience from the friends I have made to the events I have been able to participate in that have helped strengthen the club but also helped us, as a group, to help LGBTQIA groups, Like Arizona's only grouphome/fosterhome for LGBTQIA youth who have been abandoned by their families or who have escaped abuse by their families. 

I am proud to be a Leatherman and a member of the Leather Community 

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Phillabuster Furry Art

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Art by Phillabuster

[tempracelove]

Merrick

Temprace, I love you.

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Phillabuster Furry Art

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Phillabuster Furry Art