#Lilith

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I'm a Lillith in the 1st degree of the 5th in Sag.

So, yeah, life is endless humiliations and social suffering when you're a native with Lillith in the 1st degree of the 5th in Sag. 💀

But, you're also disgustingly hot and intellectually as warm as a wet scalpel. That could be my Mercury placement, too, though. Also, I do not wish to return to Earth for pretty much any reason anytime after this one is over.

OUR OBSESSIONS (LILITH THROUGH THE HOUSES)

*Do not plagiarize my writing under any circumstances.*

“Heaven has no rage like love to hatred turned, nor Hell a fury like a woman scorned.” ― William Congreve

Lilith in the first house or Aries: You dislike being told what to do because you crave perpetual control. Be wary of self-destructive behavior; don’t let it lead to your demise. Pursuing vengeance may sound very appealing, but what happens when you have to set yourself on fire for others to be burned? Is it worthwhile? I’m sure it frustrates you that other people regard you as something to conquer and fulfill their desires. Even in those moments, when they force you to destroy your self-worth in front of them, a part of you enjoys it. You’re always willing to make a sacrifice for them. Those around you think you’re a bizarre and provocative character, and no matter how much you try to hide, they can’t help but notice you. Society tries to make an example out of you, but it seems to backfire for them each time.  Even if you swear you don’t want any trouble, it always seems to find you. I’ve never seen anyone who can derive so much power from other people’s gossip and criticism, and you never seem discouraged or weak in the face of an enemy. How powerful must it feel to know that your own body may be used as a weapon even when you don’t intend it to be? 🥀

“The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.” ― Maya Angelou

Lilith in the second house or Taurus: Maintaining this false sense of security is something you stress over. When you think about your wounds, you wince in sorrow because you realize you were so young that you had no chance against the cruelty you witnessed. Those around you had damaged your trust at one of those pivotal moments of your childhood innocence. You constantly desire to save yourself from death and destruction after years of watching others succumb to it. Believe it or not, you don’t have to keep justifying your very existence to people. The upside of people not appreciating you and not adequately compensating you is that you learn to harness your personal strength and establish your sense of self-worth. You can finally enjoy all of the freedom, self-love, and authenticity you’ve always desired. You don’t have to spiral and lose yourself in a futile quest to bring that inner child justice through self-destructive behavior. 🔥

“Many times in life I’ve regretted the things I’ve said without thinking. But I’ve never regretted the things I said nearly as much as the words I left unspoken.” ― Lisa Kleypas

Lilith in the third house or Gemini: Every time you attempted to be yourself and communicate all the ideas and thoughts running through your brain, others around you appeared to punish you for it. I understand you have a lot to say, but it is crucial to never spiral enough that you begin to deceive yourself. Instead, embrace it all, even if the truth is painful. Lilith doesn’t want you to think in illusions; she wants you to reflect within that fundamental truth, and we both know you’re mentally strong enough to do so. Through this acceptance, you begin to reclaim your power. It’s extraordinary to see just how you can pick up on even the tiniest shifts in others’ behavior. Still, I’m sure it’s stressful to keep up with their energy to the point where you have to entirely change how you interact with others to be adequately understood. Excessive conduct in anything that calms your senses should be avoided. Accepting yourself and learning to express yourself freely is an essential lesson that needs to be learned here. 🖤

“I am done looking for love where it doesn’t exist. I am done coughing up dust in attempts to drink from dry wells.” ― Maggie Young

Lilith in the fourth house or Cancer: I know you find solace in your isolation. I mean, it’s easy when you could be sitting right next to someone and still be so far away. You’ve had to find temporary homes in your daydreams and through the bittersweet what-ifs. This urge to run away is pointless if you feel unsafe no matter where you go. You don’t even trust your own bodies instincts at times. I know it feels as though you’re the only one who has to learn via trial and error, and everyone else can walk away without a scratch on them. You are familiar with loss as it has been etched through your family from mother to daughter and father to son. I wonder, aren’t you tired of holding onto other people’s burdens and making them your own? This form of self-sabotage has been disturbing your home, your soul, and roots, in fact, your very existence. It has forced you to harden your exterior too. You are now rougher in parts where you thought there would always be a soft side. How you have interpreted your cold environment has shaped you into the powerful person you are now. However, I hope you know that everything you thought made you weak has taught you more about genuine strength than anything else. 🥀🥀🥀

“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.“ ― Maya Angelou

Lilith in the fifth house or Leo: Someone once told you that embracing your joy was meaningless. They told you, why even waste time thinking about your happiness it if it was something so useless? Who taught you that your way of loving is worthless? I can see how infatuated you are with love. The concept of love.  A mother’s love for her child, a father’s love for his daughter, and a lover’s passion for another lover. Even while you’re experiencing feelings of pleasure that make your chest feel like it’s going to burst, there’s a voice in your head reminding you that grief is inevitably on the way. That any kind of vulnerability will always bring agony, no matter what. That it’ll just be a never-ending loop of horrible experiences that will finally suffocate you. Why do you continue to see yourself as a monster? You rise from the ashes like a phoenix every single time. I know that even in the moments your hands were dirty, your heart was always made out of gold.❤️‍🔥

“We’re going to have to let truth scream louder to our souls than the lies that have infected us.” ― Beth Moore

Lilith in the sixth house or Virgo: hasn’t anyone ever told you that tomorrow is a new day? You have the option to start over, believe it or not. You are not your worst mistake. In fact, you are not your mistakes at all. You are a beautiful and complex cultivation of all your reactions, experiences, and choices. You are all the tears you have shed, the sweat that has dripped off your body, every smile you’ve blessed someone with. You are constantly losing sight of the big picture by worrying over minor details. How can you continue to punish yourself even when things are going well? You’re hypersensitive to the energy around you to the point where it threatens to suffocate you, draining your vitality for the day. Stop being so eager to sabotage your success because it is not happening exactly how you wanted it to. Know that self-discipline might feel like a punishment at first, but it only leads to liberation. 🎈🎈🎈

“I will not stay, not ever again - in a room or conversation or relationship or institution that requires me to abandon myself.” ― Glennon Doyle

Lilith in the seventh house or Libra: You keep searching for consistency, for some kind of revelation that will appear to you where you get the chance to merge with someone else. That maybe a piece of someone else that can make you whole. You have to learn to find your own power and be assertive and self-sufficient. You see the best in people even as they are crumbling right before you. Compassion is usually a good thing, but what happens when you begin to attract individuals who are not exactly who they appear to be? You’re such a smart and lovely creature, however, I must admit it’s a little frightening to see how easily you can spiral, willing to part the ocean in two and leave everyone else to drown. One day you’re screaming and boiling hot, lashing out at everyone who gets too close, and the next day you’re frozen in place, turning into a massive snowstorm that quickly turns into a blizzard, as if a dam of snowflakes has burst from the heavens. 🩸🩸🩸

“I have survived. I am here. Confused, screwed up, but here. So, how can I find my way? Is there a chain saw of the soul, an ax I can take to my memories or fears?” ― Laurie Halse Anderson

Lilith in the eighth house or Scorpio: Whether it’s a brush against the lips, or something more than that, I wonder when you’ll ever stop obsessing over these fantasies. I know you try to keep a tight leash on the interests you have in the darkest parts of humanity, but I can still see the way it seems to linger around you. This intensity extends a shadow over you. You make friends out of your inner demons. You wish you could find someone willing to accept even the worst parts of you. After all, you are death and regeneration itself, and you know relationships are catalysts for change. You entirely forsake any previous attempts at concealment and expose even the most secret parts of yourself via s*x or intimacy. After all, you are willing to trade secrets just for even a little bit of euphoria. You uncover depths of life that most people are never exposed to. What does it feel like to be so unattainable?🔪🩸

“Faith is a place of mystery, where we find the courage to believe in what we cannot see and the strength to let go of our fear of uncertainty.” ― Brene Brown

Lilith in the ninth house or Sagittarius: It must be difficult to watch people be sure of their beliefs. Without a doubt, there is faith drenching every word they speak. You wished you could embody that energy and have such a robust belief system that there was power in your tongue too. That there was always something greater out there listening. That you were never alone. Despite this, you can’t help but oppose their methods. You scoff at their blindness. Please believe me; when you continue to obsess over fighting every single point of authority you come across, you will always end up being exhausted. Why does it feel like the only thing you are running from is a life worth living? It’s possible to live in harmony with people with different belief systems. You don’t have to suffer all of the time to learn a lesson when you could reclaim your voice instead. Don’t waste all the immense power you possess in seeking one universal answer or sign. There have been signs all around you this entire time. Look at yourself. You have been growing all this time. 🖤🖤🌹

“Vulnerability sounds like truth and feels like courage. Truth and courage aren’t always comfortable, but they’re never weakness.” ― Brené Brown

Lilith in the tenth house or Capricorn: How exhausting to base all your value on all the things you can accomplish. Are you attempting to reach your ambitions or finally receive the approval you’ve always desired? You’re so focused on having this tremendous influence that you refuse to live in the now, your thoughts racing and anticipating what will happen next. I understand how difficult it is to let go of your tight grip on your reputation, especially given your history of anxiety and fear of failure. You’re well aware of how power may captivate those around you. It’s nice to have the upper hand, but what if you obtain all you desire and are still left feeling unsatisfied? Don’t put up such a strong defense that you believe someone is trying to throw a punch when it’s just a helping hand. ❤️

“You crushed us to build your monarchy on the backs of our blood and bone. Your mistake wasn’t keeping us alive. it was thinking we’d never fight back.” ― Tomi Adeyemi

Lilith in the eleventh house or Aquarius: I watch the way you desperately try to assimilate to fit in. But my love, they will always see you like a wolf, even when you’re in sheep’s clothing. Instead of feeling bad about it and enabling yourself to be the scapegoat through relationships with nasty people, accept that some people cling helplessly to their labels. Please don’t fall into the trap of becoming one of them. You take pride in supporting the underdog. I know you’re proud of it, but keep in mind that betrayal, envy, and rejection from someone you consider a friend can happen at any time. It is easy to feel unwanted when your community acts if this permanent stain of sin is on your hands. As you’re being shunned, you wonder what horrific thing you did in a previous life to make everyone so eager to cast you aside and crucify you. You must start accepting yourself and separating your identity from other people’s opinions. 🌬🥀❤️‍🔥

“I don’t know if you’ve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but I want it when I get like this. That’s why I’m trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.” ― Stephen Chbosky

Lilith in the twelfth house or Pisces: You gave in to your paranoia. You know your mind is powerful, but you still let your anxieties dictate your daily actions. With your bare hands and omniscient energy pulsing within you, you can move mountains. You had never been terrified of monsters under the bed because they had always followed you around wherever you went. So, why do you continue to stifle your intuition by depriving yourself? In the flow of your movements, there occurs unconscious self-destruction. You’re willing to take a risk in the name of helping others. But then how come you are so ready to escape your own troubles when they simply follow you into your subconscious? It’s better if you let go of the toxic crutches you’ve been clinging to and know that once you do, you’ll be stronger than you’ve ever been. Know that discipline is a muscle we never stop attempting to strengthen, even when we’re at our weakest. ❤️‍🩹📿🧿

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Vídeo art:

[redzelnut]

Take me back to when we met at the Garden

I'm not crying you are 🥹

[totallylala]

pick a pile: Your current Feminine energy

How to properly pick a pile: take a deep breath, in through the nose, out through your mouth, slowly. Say your name, 3 times to call your energy back to you. Say out loud, the title of the PAC, then close your eyes. Out loud, say Pile one, and wait. Pile 2, and wait. Pile 3, and wait. With your eyes closed, your Soul will guide you to the pile you need to hear from through signs from your body. See when you yawn, or burp? That's the pile for you.

This is a collective reading. It addresses a large crowd throughout time and space. Not every single thing can resonate with you. It is not a personal reading. So, only receive what aligns with your Heart and leave what doesn't.

Triggers: My readings can be triggering as per the depths I connect to. If you feel violently upset about the reading, breathe and check in with your Heart. You always have a choice to accept the truth, or reject it. Everything is a choice.

Pile One: I choose to focus on the good.

There is a lot of avoidance energy in this pile; Feminines who consciously choose to ignore certain part of the Feminine collective and focus solely on the parts that bring them what they want, on the part that fit their own narratives.

I’m seeing that, here, Feminine energy is used for a purpose only, on its own you see no use to the Feminine energy. You have a very limited vision of it. Your vision of the Feminine very much the one the toxic Masculine has. It is similar to the vision of the Feminine Patriarchy holds: a Feminine that has a very specific use and should therefore be used for that purpose and nothing else.

It is a vision that traps Feminine energy into a role, behind a golden cage, which closes you off from amazing opportunities. 

You seek the Feminine energy as weak and unable to take you where you desire, protect you, provide for you.

'Let your creativity pay you.' I hear. But you also have a distorted view of creative energy.

Your Jupiter suffers greatly. Because you have this amazing planet of expansion and abundance which desires to bring you opportunities for growth, for wisdom, for knowledge and for prosperity, but you reject them all constantly.

The energy of this pile as a Feminine is one of a Dog: loyal to the Masculine that has trained them into fearing change, fearing their own power and fear of standing in your own power. You’ve been trained into servitude and obedience to a master that….is that Masculine master treating you well, Feminine?

You feel like you have no choice but obey and stick to the Masculine’s side regardless how wrong and detestable their views are against everything that you are, want to be, and need, because you were made to believe that this is all you can aspire to. I am sensing some of you Pile one are stuck in a moral battle following the US elections.

I am feeling so many Feminines in this piles resenting Feminism and thinking it is the source of their struggles. They don’t want to work, they don’t want to hustle and suffer…. Who said you had to?

Feminism is the movement that fought for women to have the right to educate themselves and read books. It is the moment that gave you the right to no longer be property but a person, as such you no longer belong, by law to the male of your house (father or elder brother or uncle, etc) first, and then your husband. You are a person in your own right. Feminism gave you the right to vote in the society you live in. Feminism is the mouvement that gave you the right to choose whether you want to have children or not. It is the moment that brought to light the sexual violence women, married or not, faced at the hands of men. Being forced into pregnancy by non consensual sex. The moment fought for the end of slavery so all women could be free and not belong to any man. It gave you the right to travel on your own, and be outside of your house without a chaperone.

Educate yourself before resenting the freedom you enjoy. The hard life you resent is the result of capitalism and patriarchy. Greed of the riches impovering those who have less than them, and resentment at women seeking to build a life of their own and no longer being propriety for men to violate led to measures to push women back into unions that not only dimmed their light, but also completely stole it from them. It is an entirely different thing.

Understand that as a Feminine being, you are a creator. Once you reconnect to the energy of fertility and creation, you will be able to create the life you desire as you desire to.

Your joy is the ultimate creator. Your joy and your pleasure. 

Can you say with honesty that you feel complete joy at your life and the person that you are? Can you say that your body lights up at the thought of going through with your day? Do you smile randomly throughout your day knowing you are exactly who you dream of being at the bottom of your heart and you made your dream come true for yourself? 

Can you look into the mirror and tell yourself you love yourself with your whole heart?

Pile 1, the card ‘Answer the call’ came for you.

It seems you have felt disconnected from your Feminine energy, from your life or even your Heart lately. I feel a singing that has stopped. A heart that used to be buzzing with so much energy that now no longer vibrates on this frequency, the buzzing can no longer be heard.

You are called from the depths of your own being, to find yourself again. Before you are lost to the shame, the guilt, and the darkness that has slowly been consuming you, before you become this person that lives on auto pilote and moves through the motion of life without truly being there, forever. It is not too late. All it takes is the courage to put a step in front of the others towards another door.

I am being shown a situation where it is not safe for a Feminine to be who they want to be, because of their family, the people they live with and depend on.

I am shown to start the inner work, as you reclaim thee lost pieces of your own self, you will gain strength and be able to receive more opportunities. These opportunities will align you with your freedom. It’ll be a slow but steady journey into reclamation of your Feminine and reclamation of your joy and life.

You have to look at this whole situation, and who you are in a different light. First, you have to be honest with yourself. I feel like you refuse to face the truth because deep down, you hate yourself. You hate that you cannot be this Feminine goddess who rests, loves, makes loves to a counterpart that loves you gently. You dream of softness and beauty and art and you hate who you’ve settled to become instead. You have told yourself your dreams cannot come true, it’s unrealistic and you hate on women and Feminine beings who experience the love, the ease, the flow and joy you crave. I am seeing you send so much evil eye and negative energy towards other women. There is also for some of you a racism angle to this: you particularly hate on Black women who have what you don’t. You were told you were better than Black women, that they were the bottom of the food chain, and so you don’t understand nor can accept when a Black woman is being loved as you desire to be love (but aren’t, earning lots of money, being successful and living the life you aspire to but haven’t achieve.

I feel this wound of envy, hatred and anger in my left side, on the middle back. It is so sharp it hinders my breathing. 

Until you admit to yourself the envy and hatred you hold in your heart and why, it’ll continue not only to eat you alive, but hinder you from actually healing, and creating the life of your dreams. You cannot free yourself and step into your Divine Feminine self from a place of hatred towards the Divine Feminine.

Pile Two: I choose Joy, I surrender.

Exhaustion is the first word that resonated into my space as I felt this pile.

You are at the end of a long road, Pile 2. You have stopped pretending. I am seeing this is no longer something you’re willing to do. The energies of Sekhmet and Lilith came forward so strongly, like a powerful whoosh. A gust of wind that filled the space.

You put your foot down, pile 2. You decided to stop pretending, playing princess and actually become a fucking Queen.

You decided the Feminine you aspire to become was worth the destruction of the person you currently were, and the life you led along with it.

And the Dark Feminine is showing up to support your transformation journey. Destruction is what leads to creation. Only by destroying what no longer has a place in your life can you have the space to create what you truly desire.

I am seeing so much red and crimson and a deep burgundy. I am seeing light coming from a fire so pure. You are in the process of reconnecting to your Dark Feminine by unleashing your rage. It is giving you the strength necessary to set the world ablaze.

“As long as you choose Love, you choose you,” Sekhmet says. “It takes strength to choose Love, no matter what. It is a lonely road and not many have the courage to walk a path by their own selves.”

Validate yourself. 

Have pride in your choice, knowing not many have the courage to make the same one.

This transformation cycle of yours will be extremely busy. It’ll bring so many feelings up to the surfaces that you will need to discuss with the Feminines around you. I see a lot of discussions and receptivity as well. Friendsips will end as you no longer ar e willing to compromise on your Heart, your principles and it is important to let them go. You will receive connections that don’t demand you to betray your Heart, and will allow you to be your fullest and truest self.

Be gentle with yourself along this process, understand it is a journey. You will slip up; You will hesitate. It’s okay to fear loosing it all. It’s okay to need a minute. Just keep asking your Heart, feeling your rage, and having the courage to demand more. From the world and from yourself.

It is not a time for you to mindlessly argue though, Spirit is showing me to not bother with communication with those whom you feel just want to argue. If you sense they are not connecting to your Heart but instead wants your attention, your time… let them go and rest your voice.

In a time of transformation, your Mind cannot be the compass, you must learn to trust your Heart. This is where your Dark Feminine lies, where your power lies. In times of transformation, chaos surrounds you and you cannot see clearly through it. Your Heart can as it your Soul. Trust that. Even if none of the steps it guides you to take make sense. Trust your Self.

Pile Three: I was born to be free, I choose to be free.

When you look in the mirror, what do you see Pile 3?

I see a swan and beautiful pink roses, blooming incessantly. I see an elegant dive to the depths of the lake. I see a graceful glide over the unperturbed waters. I see ease. I see flow.

But you don’t see that. You feel as if you’re not there yet. You feel like you haven’t connected to your Feminine energy, as if you’re not doing the right things. Feminine energy isn’t doing, it is an embodiment. Masculine energy is in our actions; Feminine energy is in our embodiment, our stillness. Consciousness and Matter.

I see you longing for a home not realising that you embody it. You seek to uncover the secrets of the Moon and dance with Venus, not feeling their intimate whispers in your ears. Venus is in your dedication to your Feminine and your respect. The Moon flows with you in the way you navigate life and all these little inconveniences.

You’ve learned to navigate your emotions, to accept your emotional self, your sensitivity. You have stopped telling yourself you feel too much, are too much, and cry too much. You now love and respect your sensitive heart, and you hold space for it.

You’ve done well, Pile 3.

All that is left to do now, is for you to let go of the shadow of your past self, the one that didn’t love and respect your sensitive Heart. It is time for you to see yourself, who you have become and embody, and let go of the past self you still believe you are.

Let go of them, so you can finally move forward at great speed.

I feel so much restrictions and frustrations in your energy and even in your life. These are the product of you operating from the past self and not fully embodying this loving Feminine. Your curent iteration wants to have fun, and would have an easier time manifesting shit if they were’t held back but the shadow of your past self, gritting their teeth in anger and frustration.

They don’t understand why you allow yourself to be happy and ‘so damn emotional’. These words had a male voice when spoken into my mind, so I’m sensing there were men around you throughout your life, who repeatedly told you that your sensitivity was too much, and a burden, and something to get rid of.

As you are currently still holding onto these men and the love you have for them, the fear you have of them and because they have a strong hold on you, you haven’t been able to get rid of your past self.

A cord cutting would enable you to let go of that past self, but also to free yourself from the negative hold these men have on you. Once you let go, let it all go, you’ll be able to move forward in life with much more ease. Your cup will start filling top and your ability to trust and receive will be the only things left to work on. 

The cord cutting you will do will need to address the Head space (Crown energetic center, Mind center and the limiting beliefs they filled your head with). 

You’re doing great, Pile 3!

I hope this reading brought the healing you needed to receive at this time 🌻✨.

With love, Lala 🌸

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[claryshortredheadedwabadtemper]

Hi, can I please have a scene with Lilith and Seb in a coffin♥️

hiii 🤍 here you go, sweetie!

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[firecurls-27]

EEEEEEE I LOVE IT OKL-

I never posted this so it's an outdated look to @firecurls-27's lilith but I was actually happy with it.

[nattycat08]

Don't be mad at me, I adore Lucifer, at least he tries to be a good father😭❤️

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[nerdypuddincup]

Charlie now has two sets of parents. Good for her.

[qquoe]

The Owl House 🦉✨

my full piece for @tohgrimoire!