#PTSD is a bitch y'all

[queerunpleasantdanger]

I fucking hate the 4th

[littlefankingdom]

The irony of people being baffled by DC having Bruce being abusive and nobody never addressed it again or it's excused extremely easily, because they can't understand that morality is subjective, and people don't all agree about what is abusive and what isn't (in art school, one of my teacher was a comics writer and he defended hitting children as not being abusive. He is far from the only one), than turning around and writing posts and fics where the batfam say and do stuffs that my family did, were abusive and I'm still healing from that, but painting it as normal and with no effects.

I'm not saying what Bruce is doing sometimes isn't abusive, I'm saying "we don't live in a world where everyone is on the same page about what is abuse"

[blububs]

I just had the funniest idea!! So you know how I'm being gangstalked and it fucking sucks. But, also, it's kinda like being a superstar. You know, everywhere I go, hundreds of people follow me. They take pictures too, like the paparazzi. Although, it's hidden. So they act like they are just shopping or out for a walk, when really they are there to spiritually and emotionally drain my energy and my life force.

Another thing about me is that I love dancing and I miss going out. So I was thinking that I should buy an outfit, like something a star would wear on stage. Print out pictures of myself. Hire a couple security guards. And then go dancing alone!

That way if anyone says anything to me, I can autograph a print and hand it to them!! A special gift from a chosen one to a loser gangstalker!! Because that's exactly what they are!! They are all just a bunch of losers looking for attention. Me vs all y'all?!?! Gtfooh!! They lucky my male alter is a gentleman, because I woulda backhanded them one by one.

[binch-i-might-be]

no offense but why does the narrative keep focusing on Roger. I don't care about that guy

[rebeltigera]

Absolutely obsessed with V!Wukong and Blind!Macaque.

I have questions, overall comments and some hypothesized things. (Feel free to ignore or not answer all of them, but the ADHD has kicked in and I gotta splurge because YES)

OKAY! So;

You’ve mentioned in the past that B!Macaque is terrified of Wukong because of what was done to him, PTSD is a bitch. How would V!Wukong get around this to show that, to Mac, he’s not a threat?

* My first thought was, oh! He could start leaving his things around that smell like him so Macaque gets used to his smell, but that seemed more like training a dog, so probably not. But maybe?

Would V! Wukong try and steal Macaque some new eyes that work or an elixir that could heal his sight? Is it possible for his sight to even be healed at this point? Is that something Macaque would even want?

Once some time has passed and Macaque got more comfortable with this Wukong, would Macaque show his growing trust for V!Wukong by grooming his fur? Or allowing V!Wukong to groom him?

How would they show their growing intimately outside of… well, physical affection? Would they feed one another? Pick out clothes they know the other likes? Little things unique to them.

Would V!Wukong ever tell B!Macaque about his macaque? And if he did, how long would it take him to open up? Same scenario with Macaque, how long would it take him to open up?

I like to imagine that the word “Destiny” is a forbidden word for both of them. Neither of them like hearing it. Good way to get V!Wikong to start growling.

Your B!Macaque is so beautiful, he reminds me of a delicate crystal flower, I like to imagine V!Wukong is scared to touch him for a while because he’s afraid he’ll break him further.

V!Wukong violently protecting B!Macaque is something that just makes my heart happy for some reason, and B!Macaque gently cleaning up and healing him afterwards even though V!Wukong is the last person who’d ever need healing is such a tender vision in my mind.

Okay, I believe that’s the end of my rambling. I can’t think of anything else at the moment. I hope you have a wonderful day!

THE TISM HAS TISMED AAAA LOVE IT-

IDK why y'all decided that this ship is interesting after like - one art sksksmssm

But alr

... Oh boy the first one -

To be honest? I Don't know, maybe it would be his charm, the little things he'd do , or that he'd rescue Mac from falling into his own shadows. I didn't ever thought much about it

Mac wouldn't notice him at first . His heartbeat concealed, his power too. Wukong would indeed leave little things around but not in a "find my smell comforting way" . He would do that , move cluttery n dishes to more accessible places. Mac tend to leave them in the sun (to see them through shadows) but once the sun is gone they are gone from his view cuz they don't leave shadow anymore or are concealed by it.

Mac's eyes are not able to heal anymore. However Wukong would find a way to connect in a way their eyes. It wouldn't be permanent thing , just sometimes. See what I see kind of thing

Mac might not want but would need it. Because the last thing he saw was Wukong striking him . And it stuck like super glue.

Wukong might be the one to get a grooming session first. He'd be so confused and scared in a way . Like- he wouldn't expect that and sit obediently like a puppet till Mac would be done . Wukong wouldn't get to touch his fur tho.

Casual Physical affection would be everything to them . Because they both would be reluctant to it at the start .

Wukong wanting to touch but never doing so , Mac starved for it but never asking for it .

So their trust would be shown by it fully .

One thing that I can think of rn is that wuk would wake him up by gentle touches. He relies mostly on his hearing nowadays so it would be nice n comforting.

Whisper when he'd get a feeling Mac would get overwhelmed.

Outside of it , cooking , clothing etc etc - yeah it would happen

About telling him about his task- he wouldn't. Coming to that universe his memories become no more than flashes of the past. He doesn't even know what he searched so long for . He still get flashes of past Mihou and it brings him pang of pain but it'll pass.

For Mac to open up- months? Maybe years . Once he'd realize that V!Wuk is not a threat It would be easier. Wukong got nothing to hide from him so he'd be open like a book.

Mac speaking of destiny

Wukong growling it's bullshit, while hugging him closer

He'd get some pats.

The other moments he might growl more would be in safe heaven called nest, but it's story for a different acc sksksks

Wukong indeed would be scared to hurt him. Those bloodied hands are the one that destroy everything. He wouldn't dare to taint Mac with em. He would have moments when he'd think if he held him too strong he might crush him . Just like that.

The last thing might've happen , but wukong would rather want to keep to himself if he'd ever got hurt or dirty with blood . Mac is too pure.

[messitydepressity]

More March Fic Madness?? - yup

Wanted to slide one more fic rec post out before March is officially over.

This one is categorized because these recs are all over the place and I'd like y'all to be able to navigate this based on your tastes.

Enjoy! 🫶🏻

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In Universe - Canon/canon adjacent

'Fractured' by @ameerawrites

Joel gets hurt doing construction in Jackson a year after he and Ellie settle; Ellie grapples with him being injured. (Hurt/Comfort & family feels)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45734839

'Girlhood, Gunmetal' by @march-flowerr

A look into Ellie's journey from Boston to Jackson with Joel and all the shit she has lived through that shapes her. (And so many unseen moments that helped bond the two.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47068438

'The Fabric of Birth and Death' by @boopernatural (flannelfeelings)

Ellie makes an attempt to celebrate Joel's birthday and finds out the hard way why that's a bad idea. (Fluff & Angst)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47391772

‘Trust Fall' by @timelesslords

Ellie struggles with the power dynamics of Jackson and a heavy dose of all the uncle Tommy feels (spotting for me niece). A small side of hurt/comfort.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47792170

'Papa Is a Rolling Stone' by @bumblepony

A small glimpse into Tommy's mind as he realizes Joel has become a father yet again. (Good ole fluff)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/48905947

'Copper' by @two-birds-alone-together

Ellie Starts having migraines in Jackson, the cause is quite unique and ties beautifully into the world of cordyceps. (Soft Joel & Tommy)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/48689449

'Kiss, Hug, Wave' by @paigegonerogue

Tommy helps Ellie through a small bout of David fueled PTSD. (uncle tommy doing his thang)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/51724768

'Cold Is the Water' by @marceltheshellwithflipflopson

While stumbling away from the charred remains of the steakhouse, Ellie falls into the lake. (Silver lake trauma and Joel caring for his 'cargo')

https://archiveofourown.org/works/48910525

Alternate Universe

'Uncle Tommy's Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day.' by @bearrycool

Uncle Tommy is very tentatively left in charge of Joels girls, it doesn't go all that well for him. (Sarah and Ellie getting to be sisters)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52498621

'My Cow, Your cow, Our Cow' by Ciacannaa

Another modern road trip fic with our favorite duo as they head west to attend Tommy's wedding. (foster vibes)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52534942

'An Open Door' by @barlowstreet

Ellie falls through Joel's porch, and he ends up adopting a child (literal foster vibes).

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52282486

'A Grey Mist on The Sea's Face, and a Grey Dawn Breaking' by @wordspinning (Merakiae)

Set in New England, Foster kid Ellie and Lobsterman Joel find their way to each other in a wonderfully set modern AU. (If you listen close enough, you can actually hear Noah Kahan.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/52234471

'The Past Coming Back' by @mirananananan

Tess and Joel are hired to smuggle a much younger Ellie out of the QZ and end up becoming a family. (Tess lives, bitches)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47152747

‘Sit and Stay' by ninesunrisedogs

Foster kid Ellie will not get tf off Joel's lawn, and she brings a dog with her. AKA Joel takes in not just one stray, but two.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/46607134

Tess/Joel

'There Is No Road That Will Lead Us Back' by @adhdprincess (JudithWilde)

Tess lives and she's the glue keeping their little trio together as they traverse middle America on route to Jackson. (Feral Ellie, badass Tess, and savage Joel.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/54296884

'Drifters, A Book of Joel and Tess' by arien

A very obvious rec, but hot damn it this entire world so fucking gorgeous and unique.

Starts with 'Drifters Dawn' and covers their journey with Tommy in the newly infected world of cordyceps.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45565426

'Littles Digit, You've Got the World by the Handle' by @ketchupchipsaregross

Ellies first birthday in a no Outbreak world, spent with her parents Joel and Tess, and her big sister Sarah. (basically, super indulgent fluff)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/59434957

'Sweeter Than Sin' by raffinit

Joel and Tess are casual hookups until they meet at a soccer game and find out their daughters are on the same team (Fate throws them together and they can't keep their slutty hands to themselves.) Definitely 18+

https://archiveofourown.org/works/45929950

Maria/Tommy

'Flu Season' by @dancingonmoonbeams

A vulnerable sickfic that shines light on Tommy and Marias hidden sides.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63407485

'What We Become' by @bumblepony

An origin fic based around Tommy and Maria becoming romantic partners in Jackson. 18+

https://archiveofourown.org/works/57863338

'Safe As Houses' by @paigegonerogue

A look into Tommy and Marias Relationship as Joel and Ellie enter their lives and finally settle in Jackson. (Tommy and maria learn how to give a little in their partnership.)

https://archiveofourown.org/works/63424822

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I hope a few of y’all find something that inspires you or makes your day better on this list.

-Messy🖤

[littlefankingdom]

Bruce tried to avenge Jason, not Dick

This is just a rant about a lil thing that keeps coming up in fics I read. Often, Dick is "forgiven" by Jason because he "avenged Jason" by killing the Joker and Bruce "ruined it". Or Dick is written to have tried to kill the Joker after Jason's death but not Bruce, and Bruce may have tried to stop him.

First of, Dick did not try to avenge Jason. Y'all really want him to be okay with killing and ready to kill to avenge his loved ones, but Dick is better than Bruce, and that also means he is less likely to cross the line. No, Dick did not want to kill Zucco (Apart from the Titans show, but this show's characterization is awful), and no, he did not want the Joker dead. When Dick killed the Joker, it was in a moment of rage because Tim was in danger. He did not plan it and he immediately regret it. Bruce, with the help of HELENA who is fine killing people, brought the Joker back to life for Dick, because it would have broken him. And Dick still hates himself afterward, for killing the Joker even tho he is alive. And, again, he did not do it for Jason.

And, sure, you can have your hc, but the moment they are in conflict with who the character is (Dick is disgusted by the idea of being a murderer, killing someone or letting someone be killed, even the murderer of his brother), then we are going to have a problem.

Now, about Bruce. Upon discovering Jason's body, Bruce was settled on avenging him. It's why he took away every evidence, so he would not have anyone interfere between him and the Joker. He spent the days following Jason's death, and then Jason's funerals, looking for the Joker to kill him. He refused to call Dick because he did not want him to interfere, he was only thinking about his revenge and did not think the emotional importance of telling Dick about Jason.

The man is not thinking straight. And when he thinks he found where the Joker may be, Superman shows up, telling him that a Gotham's criminal is now under diplomatic immunity and the US gov doesn't want Batman being a bitch about it. And Bruce punches Clark in the face. That's how fucking unstable he is at this point, punching Clark without kryptonite because he is standing between him and killing the Joker.

Clark learns the Joker killed Jason, and he tries to make Bruce accepts to only kill the Joker, the only justice Bruce is accepting at this point, once he isn't a diplomat. YES, SUPERMAN DID NOT STOP BRUCE. Batman nearly succeeds in killing the Joker, but the helicopter they are in is going down, so Superman saves him. Bruce, the fucking madman he is, obsessed over bringing justice to his boy, doesn't care about his safety, he wants the Joker's body! And when it isn't found, he isn't satisfied but accepts to go home.

The Joker will come back at least a year later, and with some ptsd from his last encounter with the Bat and escaping death. Bruce, doing better mentally now that he has a new child to take care of (which he sends with his whole class to Japan to protect), is afraid he will kill the Joker. He keeps bringing up to Alfred how much he wants to kill him for TAKING JASON FROM HIM. But Alfred reminds Bruce again and again that he is a good man and he will resist. He does. This was not the last time Bruce faced the Joker after Jason's death and thought about killing him for Jason.

And, let me be clear, I do not expect Jason to know Bruce did that. The only people who know he did that are Clark, Alfred and Bruce himself (who will probably never tell Jason himself what he did). And maybe Dick, if you want to think (like me) that Bruce sat down with him (way later, after Tim is in the picture so Bruce is better mentally) and explained his mental state when Jason died, and how he didn't tell him not because he was trying to push Dick away, but because he was obsessed with killing the Joker he wasn't thinking rationally about his decisions; not to excuse his actions but to explain how it happened.

Dick is better than Bruce, which is why he grieved Jason surrounded by his friends, people that would support him and listen to him. He did not went on a vengeance mission because he had a support system. Was he mad? Yes, but he tried to open about it to others (the Titans, Koriand'r who was his gf,...) Bruce, on the other hand, is one unhealthy mf that immediately isolated himself once Jason died. He stayed in the cave and dedicated himself only to work, taking all his emotions out on beating people up because he was sharing it. And when people tried to talk to him, he would explode the moment they say anything that he could interpret badly (Clark telling him the Joker has immunity, Dick blaming Bruce for Jason's death...) This is why Bruce tried to avenge Jason and then went out every night being extremely violent and suicidal, and not Dick.

Dick did not avenge Jason and he did not try to, but that doesn't make him a bad brother. He cared deeply about Jason's death, but he is not Bruce, he is better, and that means he is also better at handling grief and not become a self-destructive bomb like Bruce was.

Avenging our loved ones is, in Batman & co's comics, demonstrated to not be the healthy way to deal with grief. Revenge isn't the healthy way to deal with lost, it will only lead to more destruction and pain. It will not bring the dead back, it will only add more bodies in the ground, and it will not heal the wounds.

[enbypotat53]

(TPOT 16 SPOILERS!)

HEY SO WHAT IF I CRIED.

WHAT IF I CRIED, HUH.

YOU CAN'T FUCKING DO THIS TO ME WE'RE NOT EVEN THREE MINUTES INTO THE EPISODE AND I'M ALREADY SOBBING??

Mother of god my HEART dude. LISTEN I LOVE PIN BUT MY BOY LIVES TO SEE ANOTHER FUCKING DAY AND DPYA ISN'T UP FOR ELIMINATION THIS TIME WE STAY WINNING 💙💙💙

Also this. Pin I didn't think I could love you any more but you proved me wrong 💙 LOOK AT HIS FACE HE'S SO HAPPY AKSJDJHDHD- HOW CAN YOU NOT LOVE HIM??

We also have more Astrobiology and Markertree crumbs, always love to see it as a Polypact shipper :3c 💙

Okay me being a fanboy aside for a minute so we can get to the meat and bones of this episode, and.

Holy shit.

Pen was already a character I adored, but oh my god he might genuinely be one of my alltime favourites now. His development this episode felt so right, and seeing him take Liy's advice and let his anger out in a productive way was genuinely so cathartic to watch. My boy has put up with way too much shit for way too long. He's always been sort of a laughing stock character; being put through the wringer because "haha funny, look at this idiot 🅱️en lmfao", but seeing him finally snap about Eraser and just how much he's lost? God, he cares SO MUCH for his friends, he's genuinely such a sweetheart 💔

Not to mention - the integrity he has at the end of the episode? It's impossible to hate this man, he has the personality of a golden retriever and the fact that he recognised that Pencil wasn't acting entirely maliciously; that she was scared and had changed so much due to being trapped in the EXIT for years, is so fucking respectable. I'm a petty bitch and ABSOLUTELY would've let her be tagged if I was in his place, but. Damn. He's so kind?

I'm not saying Pencil is a saint, though. Seeing Golfball and Donut finally agree was super fun to watch I'm not gonna lie - both of them are favourites of mine for sure. But jeez, the EXIT really did bring out the worst in her, huh? I'm looking forward to seeing where JnJ take her character (at least, if she doesn't get eliminated). Her PTSD plotline is genuinely interesting to see, and as frustrating as it was to watch her actively sabotaging her teammates, I still felt for her, especially towards the beginning and end of the episode (which is more than I can say for Pillow, anyway). Liy also grew on me a lot - I didn't really care much for her before all of this, but she's honestly great. Looking forward to seeing more of her friendship with Pen, ngl :3

And now back to.. whatever the fuck these two were doing this episode. When I tell you I CACKLED seeing the Cake At Stake intro 😭 not to mention just how absolutely insane Four and X were during the whole episode, it was the PERFECT juxtaposition for all of the angst/heartwarming moments. Sure I cried at this episode, but I definitely laughed a lot, too. Especially at Four disintegrating the little alien dude (X's face had me in stitches HE WAS SO SAD 💔)

What I do find interesting is the fact that One seemed to take a backseat again this episode? I only saw her a few times - once in the bush, again when she moved time forward, and again in Roboty's pocket dimension. There could be more I'm missing, but it's fascinating to see her take a step back once Two is out of commission (although I think it was the perfect choice writing-wise. It allowed for a hell of a lot more character development and interaction whilst still occasionally reminding us of the looming threat of the world being a few cracks away from destruction. Fucking phenominal job, JacknJellify. Hats off to y'all.)

I definitely missed a few subplots/character interactions (not to mention the double elimination HELLO??), but this was a damn good episode, and I'm SO glad I was awake to watch it 💙

Finally, take a Tree for scrolling this far! He's awesome (and y'all are too!) :3 💙

[happypotato48]

Theory of Love Romcom Watch Along Episode 3 : Friends With Benefits (Lazy Unhinged Edition)

My first week joining this clowns train and have to say fuck you Third! I hate this movie very much and and it triggered my 2010s PTSD. Mila Kunis was ok but oh boy Justin, oh Justin you sucks so hard and you was so annoying. Dylan and Jamie "Romance" was so dull, cringey, and devoid of kmistry but somehow make perfect sense. this two deserved each other like a sad Mime giving a handjob to an invisible man with a perfect body and zero personality. y'all can go read my wonderful friends very smart and in depth analyses of this movie and its connection to the theme of this ep.

Ok let get clowning!

Third is a เบียว! *byo as the youths would says. it's came from the japanse word Chūnibyō aka main character syndrome aka this bitch is so up his own ass he realized that he the main character in a Thai BL. like i can see a version of this show that a fourth wall breaking comedy that i probably be 100% obsess with. anywho in this EP third purposefully and delusionally put himself in a spot where he whould get hurt again and again by Khai (with has zero fault in this aside from being a generic fuckboy played by Off.) i have no sympathy for this bitch, she gasligh gatekeep girlboss into Khai's apartment and somehow has the audacity to be sad when he caught Khai with a another girl. like at this point they've been friends for ages Third knows Khai through an through, but because he's too delulu and watches too many bad romcoms it made him stuck in his own head.

In Thai he uses the word Satisfied. Third views his life as a movie he views everyone around him as archetypes, every situations as movie plots and it make him has unrealistic expectations of reality, and fuck it if that isn't fucking relatable . cause like yep i've been there (mostly, i was never this bad tho) and as much as it frustrating to watch i appreciated this show sticking to the theme of Com art students being Com art students.

Oh one more thing i want to live and die in Mike's tiny patch of facial hair. mua55555555555

[gay-disabled-characters-showdown]

LGBTQ+ Disabled Characters Showdown Round 2, Wave 3, Poll 2

A character being totally canon LGBTQ+ and disabled was not required to be in this competition. Please check qualifications and propaganda before asking why a character is included.

Check out the other polls in this wave and prior here.

Chu Sangwoo-Semantic Error

Qualifications/Propaganda:

hey this is just a little more info on Chu Sangwoo (obvs you don't have to include him if you don't want to but I'd figure I'd send some more stuff in) (I also don't think I submitted him? but I know who he is) So there's a manhwa (Korean webcomic) and a tv series (I'm personally more familiar with the tv series). Basically, he's very strongly coded as autistic, though it's never explicitly stated (though in the manhwa I believe they mention that he has some unspecified disorder).So here's a list of some of the things he does in the series that are why people say he's autistic-coded:

meticulously organized and adheres to a strict schedule he set for himself

struggles when things happen that he didn't predict beforehand/throws a wrench into his plans

is very blunt, gets labeled as antisocial/being like a machine, and struggles with understanding other's social cues

practices saying things so that he won't come off as insincere

creates his own systems to accomplish tasks and struggles to work in unfamiliar environments/environments with lots of distractions

views life very logically and doesn't like it when things happen that break his rules of logic

wishes he could format his brain so he wouldn't have to deal with confusing and unnecessary feelings

There's others but that's a few of the main ones.Anyways here's a little clip from the series that hopefully helps add more context? https://youtu.be/Mai2WvTpIv8 And anyways if you still decide to not include him, that's fine, but I'd figure that I'd send y'all some more info just in case! Excited for th bracket regardless!!!

Chu Sangwoo is canonically gay, the series is a gay romance & he falls for Jaeyoung, who's the complete opposite of him personality wise. Hence the title- semantic 'error' since attraction wasn't expected. It's a really good series and Chu Sangwoo is realistic and well-written (speaking as a fellow queer autistic).

Elim Garak-Star Trek: Deep Space Nine

Qualifications:

He has PTSD due to child abuse, as well as a painkiller addiction due to a brain implant. He is also extremely gay. Like literally everybody who watches DS9 immediately understands this about him. He was explicitly played by his actor, Andy Robinson, as attracted to Julian Bashir, and his only heterosexual romance is truly painful to witness. Andrew Robinson has also said that he has had a one-night stand with Dukat, one of the main villains of DS9 and noted lizard nazi. Do with that what you will. His closest relationship onscreen by far is with Julian.

Propaganda:

This man. There is a reason so many people are obsessed with him. Former spy, current tailor, forever an incurable bitch. Guilty of many war crimes, including onscreen attempted genocide. Once intentionally blew up his own tailor shop (with him in it) because he didn't want to ask for help with something. In his very first scene on the show, he wears an shirt that strongly resembles a watermelon, propositions Julian Bashir, and leaves while canonically high on painkillers. He has PTSD due to child abuse at the hands of the head of the space lizard KGB, who is also his dad, and a painkiller addiction due to a brain implant he has to help him withstand torture. He tortures a main character in one episode, and then a few episodes later they start having regular breakfasts together. Once got high on Space Weed and started systematically murdering people while making ominous announcements about chess over the PA system. The Most Character Ever.

Anything Else?:

He once told Julian to eat his rod. It was about a futuristic USB stick (datarod) but he still very much said it.

Submitted by @convenient-plot-device

[justyourtypicalwriter]

I just saw the post SERVICE DOGS HCS PLEASEEE !!!

HERE WE GO GANG! These are the one's I have so far! Feel free to suggest recs for any characters or disabilities y'all wanna see! (feel free to rec it even if it's for a character on the list)

STAN:

Service Dog: Brown Newfoundland, Delta (F)

Psychiatric Alert & Response Dog

Disabilitie(s): Major Depressive Disorder (MDD), Minor Psychosis 

The hair dye oh my god. He can rarely drag himself out of bed during depressive episodes but occasionally he’ll get a random burst of impulsivity and re-dye his hair. Most of the time he does the same shitty job at bleaching it blonde

“DARLING! GUESS WHO’S BACK FROM THE PSYCH WARD” vibes

Sharon and Randy officially divorced when he was fifteen. He got a little better now that there isn’t constant screaming or the threat of a drunk or high Randy doing something stupid

Don’t get me wrong, he’s still a total mess-

Patched his relationship with Shelly

Misdiagnosis club AND public breakdown club

God his entire aura just radiates LOSER energy but he’s somehow insanely popular

Not cousins with Craig & Red in this AU but their parents are insanely close so they hang out a lot

CRAIG:

Service Dog: Irish Setter, Saturn (M)

Medical Alert & Response Dog

Disabilitie(s): Epilepsy

Lowkey autistic but Saturn isn’t task trained for anything related to that

Goes non-verbal at times but it’s pretty spontaneous. Most people outside his group can’t tell if he’s actually non-verbal or just not talking to fuck with everyone

Peru drama was secretly worked out when they were twelve. Craig was hospitalized for a while when they were running tests to get a diagnosis, it was roughly a month long stay. He told Stan he’d call it even if Stan looked after Stripe until he was out. Tweek was away for the summer and he knew Stan wouldn’t let anything happen to her since he’s a massive animal lover

Gotta maintain the bitch personality 

TWEEK:

Service Dog: Doberman, Latte (M)

Psychiatric Alert & Response Dog

Disabilitie(s): Chronic Anxiety,

“Ah fuck, the magic school bus is waiting outside to take me back to rehab-”

I kid you not, he was absolutely terrified of Latte when he first got him

Which is funny because Latte is the sweetest goddamn thing, not at all like Fable whose a fucking demon shit

CPS was called on his parents right before senior year

Placed with the Broflovski’s so he and Kyle got closer

Public breakdown club

BUTTERS:

Service Dog: Boxer, Haven (F)

Psychiatric Alert & Response Dog

Disabilities: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), Depression

Public breakdown club (IN DEVELOPMENT)

KYLE:

Service Dog: Black Giant Schnauzer, Noble (M)

Medical & Psychiatric Alert & Response Dog

Disabilities: Diabetes, Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), Avoidant Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID)[This one might be switched]

Tubie Kyle (I fucking LOVE this one)

For once I give Kyle an ED that doesn’t stem from body image issues

Humancentipad trauma bc I love being problematic about the episode

DESPISES his lows because it means he has to eat something

Also goes non-verbal but only during times of high stress

Noble is a program dog. Kyle got him when he was 14 and initially he was so against it. He wants to function independently but he really fucking can’t. As he grows older he learns to accept the help more

HATES mirrors. The Humancentipad incident left him with scars

Public breakdown club

KENNY:

Service Dog: Anatolian Shepherd Dog, Harbor (M)

Medical Response & Mobility Aid Dog

Disabilities: Muscular Dystrophy, Chronic Pain

Regularly hospitalized, fucking dies, and revives the next day

DUMPSTER DOG<3333

He trained Harbor mostly by himself (Wendy, Tolkien, and Kyle pitched in a bit and bought him books on training techniques)

MOM FRIEND! Bro I just love making Kenny one of the parental figures of the group. He’s just got a bag of shit he carries around for both himself and everyone else. Stan forgot to swap his bandages? Boom, Kenny’s got new ones. Kyle’s sugar is low? Boom, he’s got whatever little snack the boy is able to tolerate. Someone needs a distraction? Medical episode causes them to need a vomit bag? Boom, done. Mom friend Kenny

So fucking ADHD

JIMMY:

Service Dog: Grey Great Dane, Kitty (F)

Mobility Aid Dog (IN DEVELOPMENT)

TOLKIEN:

Service Dog: Papillon, Jax (M) (IN DEVELOPMENT)

WENDY:

Service Dog: Black German Shepherd, Nike (F)

Psychiatric Alert & Response

Disabilities: Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) (IN DEVELOPMENT)

CLYDE:

Service Dog: Husky, Fable (F) (IN DEVELOPMENT)

BEBE:

Service Dog: Golden Retriever, Bucky (M)

Medical Alert & Response Dog

Disabilities: Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS)

Misdiagnosis club

Went to multiple doctors from 13-15 who all told her it was all in her head

And she’s just sitting there like “bitch please, the only thing in my head is my girlfriend and how hot she is. Now tell me why I keep experiencing these symptoms-”

HEIDI:

Service Dog: Chocolate Labrador, Isa (F)

Psychiatric Alert & Response Dog

Disabilities: Autism Spectrum Disorder

Public breakdown club (IN DEVELOPMENT)

[glorious-cloud-wombat]

It would've made so much more sense if Max's COVID PTSD came from just seeing so many people die of it, including his mom. "I thought she had taken the vaccine but she didn't" instead of her stroke meds.

Like I'm sorry, but that man is just way too healthy to have Gone Into A Coma On A Ventilator For Months from that damn plague. People that had that either were more susceptible to begin with, or ended up with lasting effects we're still tying to it and trying to understand.

If they really wanted their backstory they should've committed and given him health complications, but they didn't, so it's stupid, and I say so. 😤

Also why is everyone automatically assuming Tristan would be a shit dad, "he doesn't act like one", he's not one bitch. Y'all work on a cruise ship. That's your established career for multiple years and none of y'all are married. Y'all have fun. Y'all need therapy for various reasons. None of it is really "don't have kids before then" level. One does not need to Act™️ like a parent before becoming a parent. Often times it is the becoming of a parent that one starts acting like a parent.

Also he's so much more people patient than y'all, pretty sure he'd be great with kids.

[posttexasstressdisorder]

To my tumblr homies...

...and y'all know who y'all are...

Let's hope the coming year isn't nearly as bad as we think it's gonna be.

Something tells me there may be something out of the ordinary happen in this shitshow that we can't see because reasons.

Reasons like doomscroll propaganda, like Yet Another Influx of Bots...pornbots, russian psyop bots. liking posts from 3 or 4 years ago, and following.

Case in point, one I blocked yesterday: seemed to be someone "on our side", with multiple posts generally supportive of the Good Guys, but in their one-page-blog, there was 1) an antimask post, and 2) an antivax post, and 3) a political post basically saying we're doomed.

I'd advise everyone to block all unfamiliar usernames, especially those with obvious pornbot names like "sweetemily98", etc. See unfamiliar usernames in your likes or follows? Nuke-em!

These past ten days away from posting have been odd and rough. One of our number, my brother-from-another-mother in eastern OR called me out of the blue two days after xmas to tell me his wife had passed away that morning. This one hit hard...wonderful lady, he and I have been bros for 25+ years now...the two of them were beyond kind when I went on my big road trip in '13. They loaned me their vanagon to camp in for a week...just wonderful folks. And she made a damn fine breakfast. Please send some love to my bro. He'll know.

As for my situation, I tried to just let myself collapse for a few days. Tried. Downstairs neighbor situation gone DefCon4. Banging/thumping long into the night, and all day. Noxious chemical smells, several different ones, wafting up through the floorboards. Sometimes I wake up with my bronchs completely closed, especially when she uses one particular one.

I am, essentially, being poisoned in my own bed. They refuse to change their behavior, except to maybe bang less loudly. Chemical fumes come up through the floor like they are IN MY BEDROOM.

I did some googlin', and I think I figured out what they're doing: the daughter is probably making fake braids and "weaves" out of synthetic hair. google the dangers of that shit. I'm at wits end. I've had the manager up here a couple times to listen and smell but they always stop what they're doing when he's here...they see him walk up the stairwell.

She came up and screamed lies at my front door, trying to make all the other neighbors think I was the bad guy. She says the noise I hear is "children next door running up and down their livingroom". Bullshit. Bitch responds when I say something loud enough for her to hear: either gets mad and slams it all harder, or takes whatever it is into the bathroom, which is just as bad, and makes worse smells.

A few times she tried to bang softer, but every thump hits me in the kidneys. My PTSD is off the hook. I could not sleep for four straight nights. She went until 3:30 am one night, regularly goes until after 1am. Absolutley unresponsive. Absolutely not taking responsibility for endangering my health. I have asthma. These fumes are literally killing me in my sleep.

She refuses to do this in another part of the apartment, like the living room, or the kitchen where there is a VENTILATION hood, no no no she HAS to do it right under my fucking bed.

I am a nervous fucking wreck. I just re-added up bills for January and now I am gonna be like $45 short. I put one fucking gallon of gas in my truck, afraid to put more. I will have to only partially pay the Electric bill, I guess.

Living in abject poverty, in what is essentially an un-safe place that costs $2800/mo. And the agency that is trying to find me a roommate said i needed to "lower my price" to $1300/mo, but that won't pay the fucking rent.

I got notified in October that I am on the "waiting list" for a really cool "seniors only" subsidized complex in Berkeley that is on a creek, next to a park, run by a nonprofit org, that will take 1/3 of my SSI as the rent. I might actually be able to...you know, LIVE.

But it may be literally YEARS before I can actually end up there. I went back to the listing, and they say "no previous evictions", so if I finally am evicted for being broke, I won't be able to get into that complex.

I have no idea where i am on the list, I have no idea how many old people would essentially have to die for me to finally get an apartment there. I've been doing my best to just keep repeating a little mantra of "my new address is..." all the way down to the zip code. Over and over. I don't know what the fuck else to do.

The stress of this shit, plus the incoming shitshow that we all know is gonna happen, feels fucking lethal. But I'm a PTSD-stricken, broken old autistic nearly 66 year old man who can't really keep up the energy to "mask" enough to leave the house and get groceries, so what do I know.

I know I woke up screaming from a nightmare this morning.

I feel like I'm being hyper-acutely "Spidey-Sensed" to death. And as I typed that, the thumping from downstairs started in again.

Drums. Drums in the deep. That never stop. I am living in the fucking Chamber of Mazarbul. Literally.

I am gonna wait until tomorrow to start posting "regularly" again. My energy levels are not gonna allow me to do the three radio show posts, I will have to cut it back to one a day. So that brings me to another point:

All the shows are on my archive page.

I made this a week-long poll, to get as many responses as possible before I make a firm decision.

To wrap this post up, thank you to all of y'all who have been so loving and supportive. Y'all are essentially all I got right now.

As we approach this symbolically "new" year, I hope we all wind up in better, safer, more humane circumstances.

Love y'all,

PTSD (aka Mr. Baggins)

[missfangirll]

DMBJ Recommendations

I was inspired by @mekare-art's rec post, so have some of my favorites 🥰

Disclaimer: If some of these have been named already I'm sorry, it just shows they are really good 😁 Also that is not even a tenth of what I want to shove into y'all's faces, this tiny fandom produces some incredibly good works 😁 (Maybe I'll add more when I remember them 😅)

fanvids - Light Years Away by Mrseclipse555 (PingXie) - Selfless by Mrseclipse555 (PingXie) - Bubblegum Bitch by Fallen Star (HeiHua) - Loving Strangers by Plum Moon (HeiHua) - Young and Beautiful by Plum Moon (PingXie & HeiHua)

polyamory - sweet thing by lungache (Iron OT3: slice of life, Iron Triangle are old men) - the water remains water by OnyxSphinx (Iron OT3: Xiaoge learns to want)

pingxie - Tabula Rasa by xantissa (Xiaoge has a bout of amnesia and reaches some conclusions regarding Wu Xie) - till some other door opens by Humanlighthouse (Xiaoge has PTSD) - Sanguine by MnemonicMadness (Xiaoge has a nosebleed)

heihua - everything ilgaksu has ever written, really, but especially the involved metaphors series; that one is my favorite; look how long this love can hold its breath (Xiao Hua is Xiazi's safe space) - been trying to find my way back by ilgaksu (Wu Erbai gives Xiazi a shovel talk) - the whole The Art of Conversation series by destimushi and JhanaMay

honorable mentioning because I have no idea where to put it: - choose your own erasure by ilgasksu (Xiaoge goes to Xiazi for advice, includes a hint of Iron OT3)

[tentenismybitch]

Me a nosey and messy bitch:

Soooooooo, whats the hot take 🧐👀👂

i was gonna be like "come off anon and i'll tell you privately!" but honestly idgaf, this is my blog!!

i've been reading fanfiction since i was 9 years old, and writing it since i was in middle school. in my early teen years i mostly read fanfic for "het" ships (primarily nejiten, sasuino [lol] and shikatema.) as an older teen/adult i've been consuming more gay content. as y'all know i love team gai. my fave ships are kakagai, nejiten, and gaalee, so these are the ships i read the most fic of. and i've gotta say.

IN MY EXPERIENCE!!! fics for gay ships are usually way better written! BY A COUNTRY MILE!!! and idk why it is!! i have found NUMEROUS long + incredibly well-written fics for kakagai and gaalee, less so for nejiten. even searching ao3 and seeing fics for other "het" ships that nejiten is a side pairing of, just on the summaries alone i can tell A LOT of them are not for me....sorry! sorry!

like i don't want to be a mean and messy bitch but alas here we are. sometimes, the plots just aren't giving. like, they're not interesting! but also, i am primarily talking in terms of technical writing craft and skill!! summaries be riddled with grammatical issues and typos*, or don't make sense, or, again, aren't compelling and make me want to read the fic. or the characterization is abysmal! from blatantly out of character actions to, just, like, fundamental misunderstandings of the characters

i just find a lot of nejiten fics that are written exactly in the way that i used to write when i was 14!! and i'm sorry again! that may work for some people but i am a voracious reader and also want to write as my CAREER, so that's just not gonna cut it for me....

of my 3 favorite naruto ships, nejiten is the only one that i've been shipping SINCE the beginning of my days in the naruto fandom (aka when i was 9/10 years old!!) but of my 16 ao3 bookmarks, only 4 of them are nejiten-centric fics–two of them are by the same author (shoutout to @winterberryholly) and 1 of them is a oneshot.

hence the point of my original post. WHERE are the well-written, nejiten-centric fics that are, like, longfic. i've found cute oneshots or shorter fics here and there but it's like damn. what's a bitch gotta do for a 300k slowburn friends to lovers bi4bi ptsd trauma + healing nejiten fic? write it myself?!

TLDR my hot take is that gay ships tend to have much better written fic than "het" ships

[lexygabe]

tora aikawa / twisting tiger headcanons/rewriting/etc.

(march/11/1990)

pisces sun | virgo moon | aquarius rising

INFP - 9w8 - sx/so - 974 - ESI - RLUAI - EFVL - Melancholic-Phlegmatic

general headcanons:

• trans masc, he/him, gayace,

• nobody cares but his sexuality headcanons were made by me when i was mad at wattpad bitches infantalizing him and making him their uwu japanese anime boyfriend,

• also he is little gremlin man before anybody start treating him as omg so cute trans boy hahaha gay baby. nah, he will kick you directly in the balls (even if you don't have them) and he will do this with pleasure,

• as a kid he was creepypasta enjoyer (he tortured miko with them when he was trying to sleep),

• philosophy nerd, not only into "asian philosophy", but philosophy in general. marxism, stoicism, nihilism, epicureanism, etc. everything,

• he reads this big fucking books weighing tons and they are always the craziest shit ever like "the idiot" by fyodor dostoevsky,

• i think he is russian literature fan in general,

• i think he had something that we could describe as depressive episodes, but he was never diagnosed with it til adulthood. and to be honesg tiger himself thought that everyone have felt something like that from time to time,

• probably has light ptsd,

• his friendships with nakama players (besides his and miko bond) aren't that strong like they used to. this is "when both of you start to distancing from each other and you become strangers to each other" situation, (he misses them)

• he self expressing himself very often in form of his new tricks, but also in his writing (he has a lot of notebooks with multiple essays),

• loves cartoons,

• <energy drinks3,

• he has keyhole top surgery type of scars,

• he become strika member after his whole transition journey,

• when doc got his medical results he was a little bit confused bcs birth certificate said that tiger is afab, so he informed coach about it,

• some day after training coach took tiger aside and told him that if anybody's gonna have problem with his identity, he will talk to them and he also asked tiger if he was capable of informing him or doc about his problems/health,

• rasta was first to know, bcs he and tiger went out for a beer together once and tiger started pointing out on his chest and telling a whole story totally drunk. the next day rasta walked up to him and asked in friendly-jokingly way is it safe for him to remove his muscle breasts, to which tiger replied with laugh,

• besides rasta, coach and doc. shakes, klaus and probably whole reserve players bench know about him,

• y'all will eat me (for speaking the truth) but matador, joe and north don't know about the fact that he is trans. bcs north definitely says f/aggot at least once a day, el is this cis lgb+ stereotype in tigers eyes (even tho matador doesn't care about gender identity, if you are hot, then you are hot and you will have to deal with his interest in you) and joe may perceive tiger differently when he would come out (again, this is how tiger feels about him),

• he is very critical of the sigma male trend and whole "sigma" idea in general, he even done a research and watched and read american psycho and fight club (yeah ik this is so random),

• idealist. he is close with his feelings and morality, so he assumes very often that everyone controls their own emotions like him,

• he is both idealist and skeptic,

• texts >>>>>>> voice messages/video calls,

• had religion crisis,

• he develops his trust to people very slowly,

• has mulitple accounts on twitter and makes the best trolling posts out there,

• he has decent knowledge about politics,

• watches kdramas when bored,

• he was wearing brackets in the past,

• has a lot of collections (like gadgets from chips' wrappers, TALISMANS, jewelry, figurines), but he is not obsessed about them,

• has tattoos like this:

• DEFINITELY HAS SOMETHINGG FROM HYPERMOBILITY SPECTRUM. that's why he is so flexible.

throught the series (og tv show, rewriting):

• [—] is waiting to be completed.

relationship with:

• miko: ik a lot of you ships them, but they are platonic to me.

they are like brothers. sometimes they fight for dear life and the other time they send each other funny memes at 3 am. in my head, both of them didn't have a great family dynamic, so they stayed together late at night.

miko was more easy going, so he was always worried about tiger when something happened to him. they aren't ashamed to show their love to each other.

• inyo: when they were kiddos she truly loved him in the most sisterly way you can think of. both of them are very careful when it comes to developing relations so they become very important to each other. it hurt when they had no contact with each other for years and then they become super league enemies (they never even have a talk after this).

• rasta: tiger is welcomed in rasta's house and tiger is always open to do something for rasta in return. buddies.

• cool joe: its complicated. on the one hand they are good friends and joe considers tiger as one of the most normal mates in their team, but they still have that unresolved tension that prevents them from deepening their relationship further.

• others: ?

fashion headcanons:

• smokey eye makeup supremacy,

• TW SCARYASS PRINTED SHIRT. he wears t-shirts with the most obscure shit on them

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• his style is something between grunge, gothic and alt,

• he wears platform shoes to look taller than he actually is,

• some examples of his fits:

music headcanons:

• soft rock!! (car seat headrest is his beloved), j-pop, mcr & bôa.

NSFW:

• had a tdick at the time when he was playing for nakama,

• is into t4t relationships, bcs every cis gay guy he had thing for were super weird about him and either have had internalized transphobia or specific fantasies that crossed his boundaries of comfort,

• tldr give this man a trans bf so he could have the most non sexual intercourse.