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Something interesting I noticed during my rewatch of Steve Sagaâ
The first seven episodes of SS (the ones that were lost media until reuploaded) are actually REALLY interesting for a few reasons
It shows Steves transforming into other colors and having the ability to change. Sabre had come in contact with a Green Steve, but angered him enough to a point where it turned completely Red.
It reminds us how much power Sabre has over the Steves. Changing the gamemode controls their behavior towards them, and Sabre had the ability to change from peaceful to hard over and over and over to the point where Steves became nearly permanently aggressive, even in peaceful mode. Sabre has the ability to manipulate their very wills/minds. Imagine what he could have done with people like Nightmare or Void.
The main reasonâ During those first seven episodes, Sabre switches servers twice. (possibly 3 times) He visits multiple worlds before he comes to the one where he summons Blue Steve, where the series truly kicks off. Think about that, whole other WORLDS with Steves. If you put it into a lore perspective and acknowledge that the main SS server has history prior to Sabre's appearance, than like,,,,,,,,,, imagine the lore to that
These worlds could have their own histories, their own people and kings and villains and heroes and ??? And Sabre was there for only a short moment before disappearing into the next server. He left his mark with experimentation and a few blocks and then he was gone
Do the steves of those worlds still speak of the strange figure that was seen?????? Is Sabre some feared folktale passed down around campfires and in bedtime stories!!!!?????!! What if Sabre had stayed, where would his story go, orrugjjaou I am, need a moment to think about thsi,,,,
#steve saga#favremysabre#LIKE WHAT?????#PUTTING IT INTO FULL STORY CONTEXT....#IMAGINE#Other Rainbow other Light other Galaxy Family#other Origin other Alex??????#Universe where the Galaxy Family gets along#HRBASAAERRGHâźď¸âźď¸âźď¸âźď¸#THE CHANCES...#Not me entering a SS phase now
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Mario Bros: "The way things used to be"
A gift for @stripetkattelalala54-gf
TW: body injury, PTSD, fear of drowning and anxiety attacks.
From drabble prompt #57 âI miss the way things used to be.â
They all noticed it. The shift in his mood, the haunted look that he tried so hard to hide. And yet it kept forcing its way to the surface. Â Â It started small. A shiver, a whimper at loud noises that he would quickly choke back. The slam of a car door or the blare of a car alarm and he'd pull away, sapphire eyes darting around nervously. Â Â Â "I don't know what to do, Ma." Luigi confessed one night as he helped wash up from dinner. "I keep askin' if he's okay, he just says he's 'fine' and won't say anything else. Â Â Thinking it over, Marianna hummed. "Let me see what I can do." Her result was the same as Luigi's. A light shrug, and a quiet "I'm fine, it's nothing." Â Â Unsure of what else to do, Marianna turned to Arthur for help. Thinking some time together might coax his nephew to open up, he invited Mario to the arcade. Agreeing, Mario went with along with Bria and Tony. Â Â Â "So how 'bout it, kid? Go karts?" Arthur asked. Mario looked towards the karts as they shot past and Arthur saw it. His whole body tensed as he took a step back.
  His kart shook beneath him as he tried to steer, tried to stay on the road while chaos erupted around him.
   "M-Maybe laser tag." Mario suggested, trying to calm his pounding heart. Bria cheered and grabbing her dad's hand, led the way into the arcade to the arena. Once fitted with their vests and laser pistols, the group entered the main room. Everything seemed to be going well until the scarce lighting shut off as a voice came over the PA system.    "Look out, space cadets, we've got a birthday in the galaxy and you know what that means! Raaaaaiiinbow madness! Find the aliens hiding in the rainbows!"   The walls glowed as neon rainbows appeared all over. In the glow, Arthur could see it. Mario's eyes had gone wide and his chest was heaving. As the floor tiles flashed with the bright colors, Mario let out a faint cry.
  His ears were ringing from the explosion and then water was around him, over his head and cold, so cold. He was going to drown, he would die here, never see his family again...
   "Kid, wait!" Arthur called out as Mario took off, ripping off his vest and dropping the laser pistol. Chasing after him, Arthur caught up in the men's room as Mario ducked into one of the stalls and hunched over, coughing and gagging. A moment later he stumbled out of the stall, face streaked with tears. Arthur put an arm around him.    "C'mon," he said softly. "We'll go home." Mario shook his head. "I just, I need some air. Let Bria and Uncle Tony finish their match."    "Alright." Leaving the men's room they found the other two waiting for them. Both took one look at Mario and insisted the night was over, Bria proclaiming she was tired and wanted to go home and watch movies as she latched onto his arm. Mario gave a weak smile and gave in, the group returning to the apartment building.   Going into the living room, Mario went to take a seat on the couch. Salvatore was in his usual chair, a murder mystery on the TV. A character in the show tossed a brick to break into a house. The sound of glass shattering filled the little living room right as Tony entered.
  Glass cracked, the sound mixing with the screech of broken metal and all he could feel was pain enveloping him. His twin, where was his brother? It was so loud, the glass shattering beneath his body. Something in his arm had snapped, the pain growing until he wanted to black out...
  Mario was up and breathing frantically, he hurried past Arthur and Tony and down the hall to the Bros room, slamming the door behind him. Luigi jumped up from the couch and he and Arthur both went to follow, only to be grabbed and held back.    "Hang on you two." Tony said, letting them go. "Let me talk to him. I think I know what's going on."   Noticing his twin's hand went to his side as he spoke, Arthur understood and stepped back.   Tony was quiet as he slipped into the bedroom, making sure to close the door behind him. His heart ached when he saw Mario was on his bed, curled up tightly as he trembled. Soft sniffles escaped him. Sitting on the edge of the bed, Tony continued to remain silent until the figure beside him shifted and sat up, legs drawn to his chest.   Eyes gazing around the room, the older man settled on a poster of a race car.    "I ever tell you your Uncle Art and I were in a car accident?" he began softly. Mario raised his head, listening. Sensing the movement, Tony continued without looking at him.    "We were teens, had just been cleared to drive on our own, so we wanted to try night drivin'. Why we picked a rainy night, I'll never know." he closed his eyes as that night came back to him.    "I was driving. Things were goin' pretty good, too. Then I pulled into the intersection and that truck came barrelin' through."
  He heard the blare of the truck horn and his arm shot out, instinctively reaching to protect his little brother. An ear splitting scream of metal twisting on metal and the seatbelts snapped. He was airborne, glass shattering as his body twisted and flew forward.
  A hand to his side again. "Got cut up pretty bad and it knocked me out. Still got the scars on my side."
   "Tony! Please, wake up! PLEASE!"
  Mario was sitting beside him now, listening.    "I remember beyond the pain, all I kept thinkin' was 'Is Art safe? Where's my lil bro?'." Tony continued. "Heh, after that, I let my license go. Didn't drive again for two years. That's why Art drives most of the time when we go somewhere."   Thinking about this, Mario realized something. "But you work at a garage." A wave of his uncle's hand. "A way to face my fears, you could say. I still get nervous hearin' glass break. Still sometimes have bad dreams."   His nephew stared at the floor, shoulders slumped. "That rainbow road I talked about." he finally said. "There was a bomb that went off. At least, it felt like a bomb. The road broke apart. And there are times I feel it again. Falling into the ocean, water closing in on me." his voice choked as he teared up. "Or it's that fight. I feel myself hitting the car. F-Feel the glass..." he let out a sob. Tony put a hand on his shoulder.    "Feel the glass break?" he offered gently. Another sob and Mario shook his head.    "It won't st-stop!" he cried. "I see it over and over! An' all I can think is that, that thing is gonna kill Lu, gonna kill my family!"
  Bowser saw Mario looking towards the twins, his expression giving it away.    "Ah, those two mean something to you." Bowser purred. "I'll kill them when I'm done with you and your brother!"
  Breaking down more, Mario clung to his uncle as he shook with sobs. âI want it to stop! I m-miss the way things u-used to be!â   Holding him, Tony remembered crying in Marianna's arms, saying the same thing.    "It will be," he repeated, "it takes time, but it will be." He held Mario a little tighter. "And we're all here for you until it is."
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By "CC"
#fanfic#luigi#mario#super mario bros#mario movie#uncle tony#uncle arthur#mario fanfic#mario bros#ptsd#tw ptsd#tw anxiety#Takes place after Mario Movie#Gift fic
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I saw some other Nessian folks doing this so I thought I'd jump in.
Here's my current line up for Nessian week for the final WIP Wednesday before the event!
Day 1: Banter - The Knight and his Witch Chapter 1
âI let the first man into my cottage in nearly five years, and thatâs what you open with?â she said.
âThe first? Iâm flattered, sweetheart.â
She chuckled coldly, and said, âCall me sweetheart again, and you very well could be the last.â
Day 2: Yearning - The Knight and his Witch Chapter 2
âCassian,â he said. âItâs just Cassian.â
âRight,â she said. But even as she said it, he knew. His name would never fall from her mouth again. Once he left through that door, sheâd never have a reason to.
He didnât want to walk through that door.
Day 3: Symphony - City of Stars (drabble)
Sheâs staring down. Down past the jagged rock and into the city below, where the glimmer of lights make their way up.
They look like stars. If up was down and down was up, he supposes the city looks like the night sky, with the way the lights twinkle and the colors of the Rainbow reflect, even miles away.
Like a far off galaxy.
Day 4: Alternate Universe - The Knight and his Witch Chapter 3
Through the wanting and the hunger, Nesta saw it. The love that he had for her. She knew from the way he touched her with his hands, soft in the places that needed to be soft.
Stroking down her cheek. Gliding her hair between his fingers.
But right now, Cassian was not soft.
Day 6: Legends & Destiny - The Knight and his Witch Chapter 4
Cassianâs stubble was rough on the pads of her fingers. In a split second, she decided this was how she wanted to wake up every morning from here on out: across from Cassianâs lazy grin, the warmth of his hands seeping through her as he held her by the crook of her waist.
Day 7: Free Day - Toss up between an epilogue for TKAHW or Chapter 4 of Family Man.
#nessian#nessianweek2024#nesta x cassian#wip#wip wednesday#nesta archeron#cassian#medieval fantasy au
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What are your favorite kinds of stories to tell? What are your favorite type of characters to write? Favorite dynamics?
I love this question, thank you so much! Most broadly, my favorite kinds of stories to tell are the character-driven ones. I often tell my friends that I find it easier to write dialogue than describe actions in my MLP stories and I think that's a reflection of how interpersonal interactions are where I really feel at home as a writer.
I can write anything from friends to enemies to lovers but I think my favorite dynamics to explore are between family members. I am incredibly close with my family irl so I enjoy putting that into my stories. Even the less happy family interactions make for an emotionally-gripping exploration of the tensions and traumas that do exist within homes. The thread of generational trauma that runs through Bojack Horseman had me especially captured so I like to explore those themes in my own work. I am a mama's girl so mother-child relationships are usually my favorite within stories, particularly those that are very much loving but complicated like the Tempest Shadow/Raspberry Sorbet dynamic. I also like delving into a little relationship drama (like in Scootaloo and Terramar's arc) because that kind of angst is just so much fun to write. Marmalade Meringue's arc is among the upcoming arcs I'm really looking forward to because it has relationship drama AND family tension, both themes I love.
As for my favorite types of characters to write, I've consistently been drawn to the angsty/sad asshole types. Those characters who make terrible choices and are perhaps unkind to others but carry some deep trauma inside of them. Turquoise Edge, Galaxy Guard, and Firefly from the Kindverse were those types of characters to varying extents. I write Scootaloo like that in the Auraverse where she makes mistakes as a mother while also coping with internalized ableism and a shitty marriage. Rainbow Dash is also that character for me in the Kindverse and Thirdverse where things keep going wrong for her and she responds by pushing others away. Blueberry Sticks in the Auraverse is another one of those characters; her arc consists of the Sad Asshole trope AND familial drama which makes it another I'm especially excited about. Outside of the MLP fandom, I really enjoy Smiling Friends fanfictions that portray Charlie Dompler struggling with his vices and trying to become a better man despite his behavior harming others, so my enjoyment of that trope is more widely applicable. I like exploring this trope in a way that shows the angsty asshole really trying to make things better. When they succeed it feels all the more rewarding, and if they fail it's even more heart-wrenching in a good way.
I really like writing character driven angst as you can tell lol but I've also had fun writing the Dottieverse which in a lot of ways is the opposite of my pony projects. Sure there's some light angst, but it's mostly lighthearted and funny and told through doodles, shitposts, and lore dumps rather than full stories with dialogue. One thing it does have in common with my other projects is the heavy focus on character interactions, of course. Plus, I've been known to make shitposts and doodles alongside my pony arcs as well so that part isn't new. I'm going to try to make some more pony content in the lighthearted and informal format of the Dottieverse because I have really enjoyed that. It might make the angst a little less overwhelming if I have more of a balance in format and tone.
#AskKind#my little pony#mlp fim#mlp g4#auraverse#thirdverse#kindverse#dottieverse#asks open#send asks#send me asks#ask me stuff#ask me anything#ask me things
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Blood Daughter - Chapter 18: The Good Fight (End)
Story Summary: After Kallar Viren flees the Empire, his daughter sets out to find him, only to discover he has been taken by Imperials. With help from Clone Force 99, Zeraphine pushes through her losses in a race against the clock to rescue her father or face the galaxy as the last of her family.
Warnings: None.
Chapter 17
Read from the beginning.
A/N: I can't believe I actually finished this one, but here we are at the end! To all of you who have read this all the way through, thank you so much! I am planning a sequel but it may be a bit of a way off yet.
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Grumbling, Zeraphine straightened up and picked off the specks of lint from her fitted shirt, twisting slightly and studying her reflection in the floor-length mirror. The knives strapped to her knee-high boots soaked in the silvery light on top of the reflective glass and cast a rainbow shimmer up the side of her trousers.Â
She brushed away the last of the fluff from her clothing before fastening her chest plate and matching shoulder pads, her touch lingering on the distinctive grey and red style of Mantle Squad. Vesper had spent weeks perfecting the design, refining elements from their former division and the familiar patterns of her home. Their late night discussions and her candid admission of not wanting to abandon her past completely had sparked the idea, and he figured what better way for her to carry her family and her loved ones with her than in the armour she wore to shield herself.Â
âA token of love and protection,â he whispered to her as heâd helped her try them on for the first time. âAn emblem of how far you have come.â
With the pieces fixed into place with a satisfying click, she slid on a pair of snug, fingerless gloves and flexed her hands. A strange sense settled over her to shed the Blood Daughter uniform, to set that part of her in the annals of her life and step out into the world anew.Â
As she trailed her fingers up her left arm, she tracked the smooth lines of her newly healed tattoos. A stark black skull with a crimson Aurabesh â99â contrasted the pale skin on her bicep, and delicately dotted on her wrist were three powder blue achelda flowers, the symbol of peace on her homeworld and representative of her departed family.Â
She took in her appearance and smiled. The restless fidgets subsided, and she began to see herself through clearer eyes, as the person she always dreamed of becoming. A fighter on her own terms. With no superiors left, there would be no more bowing or obeying orders. Her path from now on was her own to decide, hers to shape and create, and a dispirited thrill surged through her.Â
One half of her vibrated with anticipation, eager to unleash havoc upon the Empire, but the other clung to fragments of her old life. All she had ever known was the Phominian army, the esteemed Blood Daughters and their mission to safeguard their home. In truth, she wasnât entirely certain of her identity without them, but she remained resolute in her quest to discover it. To honour the warriors of Phomina Nine and do her family proud.Â
The door slid open with a soft whoosh. As Vesper entered, he slowed, mesmerised by the woman checking her reflection. Since she had returned to the clone base, her reserved silence had transformed into a quiet, resolved rage. The once loose clothing that hid her form now hugged her silhouette, and the braided hair that used to cascade down her back and obscure her face was fashioned into a regal crown atop her head, openly displaying the bold red markings on her cheeks. A storm disguised as a dream, heâd thought to himself a few mornings ago as he watched her dress from the comfort of their bed.Â
âArenât you a sight for sore eyes?â Vesper said, retrieving her glass swords from the clips on the wall and helping her clasp them to her belt. Their delicate, deadly sound twinkled in such an alluring way he couldnât imagine ever growing tired of it.Â
âIt is a little odd to be out of the uniform I spent so long in,â she confessed, savouring his touch as he placed his hands on her hips and nestled his chin on her shoulder. âBut⌠this is more like me. The start of my legacy.â Her fingers instinctively found their way to the Viren family pin dangling from her slender chain.Â
Vesperâs agreeing hum resonated up his throat as he planted kisses on the Mantle Hawk markings she once told him she hated. Yet now, she bore them with pride, with tenacity. âI am proud of you,â he murmured between open-mouthed pecks.
As he tightened his arms around her midriff, she placed her gloved hands over his scarred ones and tilted her head to catch his mouth, her eyebrows dipping as he licked along her bottom lip and teased his way in.Â
âSometimes, I wonder if I have dreamed all of this,â she breathed. âIf Iâm going to wake up and youâre gone.â
âI am here,â Vesper promised, squeezing her hands to emphasise his presence and his commitment. âYou arenât dreaming. You feel me here with you, right?â
âI do. I feel your body close to mine, and in here.â She guided his hand to rest against her chest, above her heart.Â
The room hushed. Their breathing aligned and for a peaceful moment, they existed as one, united in love and cause.Â
âI love you, Vesper,â Zeraphine sighed. âBy the stars, I love you.â
âI love you too,â Vesper replied, inhaling the citrus scent of her shampoo. âMy sunlight.â
The device around the captainâs wrist buzzed and beeped, shattering the tranquil lull they had cultivated. âIt looks like theyâre almost here,â he said, parting from her with reluctance and angling her away from the mirror. âOkay then. Are you ready?âÂ
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Like a halo crowning the horizon, the sun sank and waved goodbye in a bloom of fiery gold. Crouched in the autumnal grass, the clones of Rexâs network got to work painting the mass of paper spheres, replicating the helmet patterns of their fallen brothers. Chatter tickled the evening air, and the occasional flutter of laughter broke out amongst the groups. Joining the gathering, more arrived from the base, armed with paint and contributing to the symphony of voices and the flourishing field of remembrance.Â
Rising from her knees, Zeraphine set her brush into the water jar and dusted the residue off her palms. Across the plain, the wilting grass bore the weight of hundreds of designs, the survivors memorialising the departed in the only way they knew how: together.Â
As she walked between clusters of preoccupied clones, she picked up on the promises spoken to the orbs, pledges to fight for a better day uttered into the paint like oaths. Even after the longest night, the sun always rises, she thought, reflecting on the Phominian proverb her mother had shared during setbacks. And it will. We will bask in that warmth.Â
The longer the Imperials continued their tirade, the more her doubt grew, questioning if they would ever embrace that comforting light again, whether the Republic would be born anew and the troubling times left for the history books. But as she looked around at the assembled clones, the unbreakable bond they shared blanketed her in a warm optimism. How could such unwavering loyalty and fearless bravery not grant them the quiet they so rightfully deserved? The Empire would fall and they would all get their peace. She would make sure of it.Â
A ship approached from above the city line, engines purring as it came to an abrupt halt and pivoted before touching down on the dirt. Spotting familiar armour descending the landing ramp, she broke into a sprint. Wrecker caught her first, his brawny arms lifting her into a dizzying whirl. âI was wondering where you were,â she said as he gave her a quick squeeze and deposited her back onto her feet.Â
âWe were taking our new ship for a spin,â Hunter replied, patting the exterior.
âHow does it fly?â Zeraphine asked.Â
âLike a dream,â Echo reported. âItâs an incredible gift. Thank you.â
âAfter everything you did for me, it was the least I could do. I also installed a secure channel in your communications unit that will put you straight through to The Progenitor. You know, if you wanted to call.âÂ
âBased on how Omegaâs been talking, youâll be receiving weekly transmissions.â
âI canât argue with that.âÂ
A warm smile passed between the two, and the young female clone peered up at her with eager eyes, a silent promise that she really would be in contact every week.Â
âWhat do you plan on doing now, commander?â Hunter questioned. âIâm guessing Rex has asked you to stay.â
âHe has,â Zeraphine confirmed, âand I have promised to do everything in my power to help him, butâŚâÂ
âBut?â Hunter prompted.Â
Zeraphine reached for her datapad, tucked away in a small pouch on her belt, and began scrolling through her messages. âA few rotations ago,â she stated, turning the translucent screen around to reveal the attached image, âI received a transmission from Rillen. He got home and started gathering information for me.â
âIs thatâŚ?â Squinting at the slightly pixilated photo, Wrecker shook his head in disbelief. âIs that Vault?â
âYes,â Zeraphine said in a delighted yet concerned breath. âRillen discovered he has been stationed on Phomina Nine since the war ended to protect the governor. Given Vaultâs knowledge of the land, I suppose itâs only logical to assign him there.â
âEither that or theyâre rubbing salt in his wounds,â Hunter pointed out. âI wouldnât put it past the Empire to want to hurt him more than they already have.âÂ
âDoes he still have his chip?â Echo asked, not wanting to dampen her hope, but also not wishing for her to jeopardise herself any further.Â
âI donât know,â Zeraphine admitted, âbut one way or another, I am going to bring him home to his family.â
âWe are going to bring him home,â a soothing, low tone corrected from behind her.
With clasped arms and nods of solidarity, Vesper greeted his brothers in turn and ruffled Omegaâs blonde curls. He positioned himself beside Zeraphine, and his hand instinctively found its place on the small of her back. âItâs good to catch up with you all again. I see you have your new ship. It turned out better than I expected.â
âYou doubt your own skills?â Zeraphine said with a devilish grin.Â
âNo. When I did the sketches, I wasnât sure about the secondary thruster placements, but it ended up working out nicely.â
âYou designed our ship?â Omega said in awe.Â
With a slight shyness in the gesture, Vesper nodded to the young clone. âI did. Youâve all done a lot for Zera and me, and we wanted to give you something in return.âÂ
A high-pitched whistle cut through the air and captured their attention. From the centre of the field of painted paper spheres, Rex signalled to the Phominian commander.Â
âLooks like weâre good to go,â Zeraphine said, her footsteps crunching through the dry grass as she led the way to the spread of waiting clones. Â
After they were all gathered, she inhaled deeply, connecting with the Force to harness that harmonious energy and release it steadily into the dirt. Slowly, the orbs began to lift, their illuminated interiors activating and casting a radiant glow that made the early sprawl of stars look dim in comparison.Â
She concentrated on the gradual ascent and once the air caught them, she let the breeze curl its caring hands underneath to continue their journey into the sky.Â
âThere,â she said to Echo, gesturing up to one orb in particular.Â
He identified the design as soon as he saw it. White with curved blue lines and red dots, and a black Aurabesh â5â, it was difficult to miss.Â
âRex painted it himself,â Zeraphine told him. âPoured weeks of work into it. He did a few others too.â
As she pointed them out in turn, like a calling, his brothers were there with him, jostling his shoulder and offering words of encouragement. Never forgotten and always a part of him.Â
The night sky blossomed in remembrance and Zeraphine looked up at the squad who had willingly followed her into darkness, who had helped her as loyally as her own and risked their lives to support her. Through every twist and turn, they had remained by her side, devoted almost to a fault. âKeep on fighting the good fight, Clone Force Ninety-Nine,â she told them. âI sure as hell am.âÂ
#star wars#starwars#star wars fanfiction#star wars fanfic#sw fanfiction#sw fanfic#star wars oc#sw oc#tbb#the bad batch#tbb fanfic#the bad batch fanfic#the bad batch fic#the bad batch fanfiction#clone force 99#tbb hunter#tbb wrecker#tbb echo#tbb omega#oc: zeraphine viren#oc: vesper#clone oc#captain vesper
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Genshin cringe headcanons part 1: the travellers
This post reclaims the term "cringe". If you use it as an insult or is triggered by it, please, DNI
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Name: Aether
Gender: trans man, he/him
Pictures of character:
Appearance: white, ethnically english, athletic, has braided long blond hair and brown eyes, scars through his body and face (including burn scars)
Age: chronologically unknown, but is phisically, mentally and psychologically 16
Sexuality: gay
Personality: kind, friendly, easily excitable, protective, joyful, hyperempathetic, trusts people way too much, knows how to read people very well, cries easily, can befriend anyone.
Area of greatest ability: travelling, communicating
Likes: travels, talking, being around people, sweets, gazing at the moon, helping others, being productive, mora
Dislikes: being manipulated, old creepy spaces, when Paimon screams, not knowing what people are talking about
Fears/triggers: the heavenly principles, being alone, someone touching the place his wings used to be
Kins: slime, light, yellow, cooking, stars.
Family: Lumine (biological twin sister) Paimon (found family lil sibling) Dainsleif (found family uncle)
Relationship status: has a crush on Lyney
Friends: basically 99% of vision ielders in Teyvat (non-vision holders donât like them very much, so Aetherâs close circle is limited to vision holders)
Disabilities: autistic and non-verbal, communicates through sign language.
Belief: believes the cosmos to be a god.
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Name: Lumine
Gender: trans woman, she/her
Pictures of character:
Appearance: white, ethnically english, athletic, has tanner skin than Aether, short blond hair and blue eyes, scars through her body and face (including burn scars)
Age: chronologically unknown, but is phisically, mentally and psychologically 16
Sexuality: lesbian
Personality: sincere, grumpy, very protective and kind in private, brave, bold, just, hypoempathetic.
Area of greatest ability: Fighting
Likes: fights, listening to stories, hunting (it can be fatui, abyss mages or just some animal), meat, being around her friends, glaze lilies
Dislikes: people who are cruel, people who think of themselves as superior, the heavenly principles, being defenseless, bad parents
Fears/triggers: not being able to fight back, losing her family, friends or girlfriend, cruelty towards children
Kins: painting, nature, white, galaxy
Family: Aether (biological twin brother) Paimon (found family lil sister) Dainsleif (found family uncle)
Relationship status: dating Ayaka
Friends: surprisingly, she gets very well with vision holders and will refer to them as her friends. However, the same canât be said about those that look on a bad way to them on the streets and later want her help
Disabilities: autistic and non-verbal, communicates through sign language
Belief: is an atheist
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Name: Paimon
Gender: agender, she/they
Pictures of character:
Appearance: white, ethnically english, has albinism, white hair, blue eyes, has atrophied legs
Age: chronologically unknown, but is phisically, mentally and psychologically 6
Personality: chatty, communicative, easily excited, petty, naive, egohistical, very worried about her friends even though they doesnât show it.
Area of greatest ability: learning languages
Likes: food, learning different languages, bright colors, when people are nice to them, talking, hearing Aether and Lumine's stories about other worlds
Dislikes: being yelled at, not understanding things, when she can't help Aether and Lumine
Fears/triggers: the heavenly principles, memory loss, losing her family, being called useless
Kins: plushies, food, sky, rainbow, glitter.
Family: Aether and Lumine (found family older siblings) Dainsleif (found family uncle)
Friends: she says theyâs friends with everyone she talks to, but is specially close to Sigewinne, Itto, Diona, Klee, Yaoyao, Qiqi, Sayu Nahida
Disabilities: autistic, hyperverbal, hypermobile, has way too weak legs to walk on her own and uses a rollator when not flying, if human would be diagnosed with a neuromuscular disease and ehlers-danlos syndrome
Belief: believes a little bit in every religion they ever came across
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Name: Dainsleif
Gender: nonbinary transmasc, he/they/it/zyr/ey/shadow
Pictures of character:
Appearance: white, ethnically german, pale, tall, has blond hair, blue eyes, eyebags, his scar looks like a Chemical burn one
Age: 554 chronologically, 54 physically
Sexuality: unlabeled
Personality: enygmathic, curious, kind, comprehensive, quiet, very attached to his principles.
Area of greatest ability: writing
Likes: sparing, talking about home, being around his niblings, gazing at the stars
Dislikes: the gods, talking to other people, the Abyss Order, being unable to help his people, sweet food
Fears/triggers: cataclismic events, giving up to corruption, things that resemble the destruction of Khaenri'ah
Kins: blue, black, painting, cleaning, space.
Family: Aether, Lumine, Paimon (found family niblings)
Relationship status: was dating Halfdan before the Cataclysm
Friends: today, the only person it says are zyrs friends are his old knight comrades
Disabilities: autistic, PTSD, depression, aphantasia, partially blind on his right eye, hypocondriac, chronic pain due to the curse, uses a cane to walk
Belief: is an atheist
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All pictures are made with this picrew: https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1931531
#genshin headcanons#genshin impact#cringe culture is dead#be cringe be free#mogai headcanon#disability headcanon#queer headcanons#aether#lumine#paimon#dainsleif
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The lowest-placing entrant in each Round 0 poll will be eliminated, as will the second-lowest-placing entrant with the overall lowest percentage.
Reasons each character is the best are under the cut!
Donald Duck: "Raised his nephews without being prompted, no questions asked. Just wants them to be safe."
Elwin Heslege: "1- Gave a bunch of the main characters stuffed animals, 2- basically adopted the one with daddy issues (daddy issues boy was injected with shadows and light and then Elwin made him stay at his house), 3- wears funky lil glasses with cool colors, 4- makes Color Light. it is Pretty. also can be used to see what's wrong with people, 5- is a physician, 6- likes to joke around and is very light-hearted, 7- messy brown hair, 8- has a wall of stuffed animals in his house, 9- shirts with funny lil creatures on them, 10- still sleeps with a stuffed animal, 11- has a pet banshee (looks like a ferret, it's an Elvin thing), 12- is an elf, 13- is a SCHOOL physician, 14- constantly on standby for his favorite patient, Sophie not-like-other-girls foster, 15- literally hung a photo of sophie in her school dance outfit. which was in a costume of a mastadon., 15- rainbows come from light. elwin controls light. he is gay, probably. (ik this is a tumblr post but i literally can't find it, 16- elwin adopting keefe (daddy issues boy) means he is Dadwin, 17- probably has trauma from having to save the kids' lives a million times but he's always very chill with them"
Erasmus Yilmaz: "Rides motorcycle. Mentor to a bunch of the young Madrigals. Seemingly the only competent active adult agent. Dies as soon as he gets backstory."
Grandpa Joe: "He genuinely cares about Charlie and they both love the factory, and- I love him"
HĂŠctor Rivera: "He just wanted to see his daughter again"
Heinz Doofenschmirtz: "His daughter is the most important person in his life. He would do anything for her."
Hera Syndulla: "Resident Mom of the Ghost crew, ace pilot, rebel general, kind, voice of reason, only one with a brain cell, cares so deeply about her people and the galaxy, would lay down her life for her family, has undergone imperial torture, baddest of bad bitches"
Hershel Layton: "look at him in his little hat! look at his clown car of tragic backstories! look at his weird little guy energy! i adore this little dad."
#poll#round 0#ducktales#keeper of the lost cites fanart#39 clues#charlie and the chocolate factory#coco#phineas and ferb#star wars: rebels#professor layton
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(I think Sapphire!Reader would be a Gem who gets away with things. (Seeing the future and/or past certainly helps). They love gossip, beautiful clothes, and the finer things in life. But... they wish they didn't have to be so... fake. With others, they feel like they're always wearing a mask, hiding any "flaws" or "cracks" so all anyone sees is what they WANT to see. Sapphire!Reader feels drained. If they didn't have their crafted masks, their false fronts... would their friends, their higher-ups, their companions (their family/their cluster) still actually care about them? Or would they only care for the mask they've made of themself? It drives Sapphire!Reader to contemplating possible shattering, or poofing themself because of their inner turmoil and doubts... But then... they meet THEM-
A Pearl.
And suddenly-
Their masks aren't wanted. Aren't accepted. This Pearl!Reader, who is elegant without trying, just- They want the real Sapphire!Reader. Not a false one, not some mask, not the perfect poised doll, but THEM, their TRUE self, their true LIGHT. And for once, in a long, long time, Sapphire!Reader feels-
Seen.
Heard.
Loved.
And they can't help but (platonically) fall for Pearl!Reader, a gem who wants the truth, who is curious, sometimes naive yet still wise, someone who finds the rainbow in light and finds the rainbow, in all its mixed colors and fractured waves so against the Empire, against Homeworld, beautiful and opulent and worthy of notice. How can Sapphire!Reader not love this gem, so real and warm and vibrant, as their closest confidant, their muse, their friend?
And Pearl!Reader loves them, too.
When they fuse for the first time, it's-
They're new.
They're whole.
And the love they feel, the love they are, is enough. They're enough, this mix of Sapphire and Pearl. And they're wonderful, just the way they are.
But...
Neither of their companions or higher-ups or courts (their own family, their own cluster) approve. They look at them, and demand they separate. They call their fusion an abomination. Unnatural. Unmoral. And their gems, their cores-
It feels like they shatter into a thousand pieces.
They try to be what they want them to be, but-
Sapphire!Reader can't do it anymore.
They want to be loved, and be themself, and their self is whole when they're with Pearl!Reader. And if their companions can't accept that... Then they can't stay.
When they sneak off with Pearl!Reader, they feel- bad, but better. Stronger. They're together, and when they fuse-
Back into a being that is THEM, both of them yet neither but someone NEW, someone made of LOVE and ACCEPTANCE-
They decide they can be themself, together, without anyone else. And just like that, they board a small ship, as their true self, and head for a new galaxy, one at the edge of the Empire, a little planet of rock and dirt and water called-
Earth...
(Special note: Sapphire!Reader was with/was family/clustered with the X-Men gems, while Pearl!Reader was with/part of the Brotherhood gems)
#honeycomb thoughts#platonic yandere marvel#platonic yandere xmen#yandere x-men#yandere platonic marvel#platonic yandere x reader#platonic yandere#platonic yandere marvel x reader#platonic yandere xmen evolution au#â¤fusionđ au
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Color Palette Legacy Challenge (Sims 4)
(MY PASTEL SIM THAT I MADE FOR THE CHALLENGE PICTURED ABOVE)
The Color Palette Legacy Challenge is a type of Legacy Challenge that I created. This legacy challenge is a regular legacy challenge but with colorful sims based on their color palette. The colors in order are: Neon, Pastel, Nature, Dark, Beach, Galaxy, Hot, Barbie, Basic, and Rainbow. I will tell you down below (where the rules are) what colors go with each palette that you will use.
(For people who donât know what a Legacy Challenge is) A Legacy Challenge is a type of Challenge where you start with a single sim and move them to an empty lot. The objective is to find a partner for that single sim and to grow your family and build your dream home. The other generations of that family continue the legacy and help grow the family and add to the householdâs funds and house.
Here are the Legacy Rules:
-Your starting sim can only use cheats before gameplay like âfreerealestateâ to move into a lot for free.
-The only time you can use money cheats is to give your sim $5000 for your beginning funds. (This is required)
-Your starting sim has to start living alone and has to at least be a Young Adult or older.
-You have to live on an empty lot with your starting sim.
-NO CHEATS IN GAME (expect for the ones you need to use in rules)
-You have to stay living in the same house for all generations of this challenge
-You may not move anyone into household unless they are your partner (Must be at least Soulmates relationship to move in)
-You may not play other households during this challenge
Rules for the Color Palette Legacy Challenge:
GENERATION 1: Neon PaletteÂ
*Colors for the Neon Palette are Neon Green, Neon Pink, and Neon Yellow
-Aspiration: Party Animal
-Traits: Party Animal, Cheerful, and Goofball
-Career: Entertainer
-Get at least 3 promotions in the Entertainer Career if possible before you die
GENERATION 2: Pastel Palette
*Colors for the Pastel Palette are Pastel Pink, Pastel Blue, and Pastel Green
-Aspiration: Friend of the World
-Traits: Socially Awkward, Good, and Creative
-Career: Painter
-Max the Painting skill and hang at least four paintings you made in your home before you die
GENERATION 3: Nature Palette
*Colors for the Nature Palette are Dark Green, Light Green, and Brown
-Aspiration: Freelance Botanist
-Traits: Loves Outdoors, Green Fiend, and Vegetarian
-Career: Gardener
-Max the Gardening skill and plant at least 5 plants on your lot
GENERATION 4: Dark Palette
*Colors for the Dark Palette are Red, Black, and Purple
-Aspiration: Public Enemy
-Traits: Evil, Mean, and KleptomaniacÂ
-Career: CriminalÂ
-Complete Aspiration and steal at least 10 items before you die
GENERATION 5: Beach Palette
*Colors for the Beach Palette are Blue, Tan, and yellow
-Aspiration: Beach Life
-Traits: Child of the Ocean, Child of the Island, and Loves OutdoorsÂ
-Career: Conservationist
-Complete Aspiration and build a pool on your lot before you die
GENERATION 6: Galaxy Palette
*Colors for the Galaxy Palette are Dark Purple, Black, and Dark Blue
-Aspiration: Nerd Brain
-Traits: Genius, Geek, and Adventurous
-Career: AstronautÂ
-Complete Aspiration and build a rocket before you die. Optional: Get promoted at least 5 times in the Astronaut Career (for an extra challenge)
GENERATION 7: Hot Palette
*Colors for the Hot Palette are Red, Orange, and Yellow
-Aspiration: Master ChefÂ
-Traits: Hot-Headed, Foodie, and RomanticÂ
-Career: CulinaryÂ
-Max cooking skill, Build your own restaurant, and get promoted at least 3 times before you die
GENERATION 8: Barbie Palette
*Colors for the Barbie Palette are Pink, Pink, and more Pink
-Aspiration: Mansion Baron
-Traits: Romantic, Self-Assured, and Outgoing
-Career: Designer
-Complete Aspiration, and earn at least 200,000 funds for household before you die
GENERATION 9: Basic Palette
*Colors for the Basic Palette are White, Black, and GrayÂ
-Aspiration: Renaissance Sim
-Traits: Book Lover, Neat, and Snob
-Career: Business
-Complete Aspiration, read at least 15 books, and buy at least 5 new books before you die
GENERATION 10 (LAST GENERATION): Rainbow PaletteÂ
*Colors for the Rainbow Palette are colors in the rainbow (Red, Orange, Yellow, Green, Blue, Purple)
-Aspiration: Successful LineageÂ
-Traits: Cheerful, Family-orientated, and Loyal
-Career: Education
-Have at least 1 million funds in household total, Complete Aspiration, and have at least 3 stories in your house before you die
I hope you like this challenge that I thought of! Use your own creativity and imagination by creating your sims with their color palette. Feel free to post your sims that you created for this challenge and tag me in the comments of your post. Also feel free to give feedback and comment about this challenge down below.Â
#sims 4 challenge#sims 4 gameplay#sims 4 legacy#sims 4 cc#sims 4#sims 4 screenshots#my sims#the sims 4#the sims community#sims 4 challenges#sims community#pastel aesthetic#pastel colors#color palette
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Star Wars Holidays
Okay I was thinking today is christmas eve but there is no christmas in the star wars univeres. At least not that I'm aware of and except for Life Day which is on the 17. novemeber and I totally missed it I don't know any other holiday.
But I love holidays because they special and all the tradition behind it is always really beautiful.
So I decided to make my own holidays based on those in our world and that my family and I celebrate:
Rainbow Festival -> between 3th. February and 9th. March: It's like carnival in our world. Parades, music, masks and dressing up play a very big role here. The festival lasts about a week and ends 48 days before Egg Day with a big celebration, parade and fireworks. In this week there are in all places bigger and smaller fairs with ferris wheels, roller coasters and much more.
Egg Day -> between March 22nd and April 25th.: Equivalent to Easter and set for the first Sunday after the first full moon in spring. It is traditional to paint eggs four weeks before Egg Day and then give them away to loved ones on Egg Day. Another tradition is that everywhere in the galaxy there are painted eggs, sweets and candy hidden all over the place so everyone can search for it. There is no big "giving out expensive gifts".
Force Day: Mostly celebrated by the Jedi themself, in which they celebrate the existence of the Force and show their gratitude that they were chocen by the Force and stuff.
I can't decide if this should be on the 4th May like Star Wars Day or the 25th May the day when Star Wars came out for the very first time.
Harvest Day -> 23th September: Equivalent to "Thanksgiving" in the USA and the "Erntedankfest" in germany. On this day, nature is thanked for the rich harvest it has given for the cold autumn and winter days. Nature is also asked to ensure that there is enough food in autumn and winter and that the harvest will be plentiful again next year
Pumpkin Eve -> 31st. October: Like Halloween. People decorate their houses with spooky decorations, crave pumpkins and go trick or treating. There are also scary festivals in many cities.
Kindle Season -> 1st December-24th December: Celebrated like the Advent Season starts on the 1st Day of December and ends on the 24th Day of December. A candle is lit here every sunday till the 24th. Those candles are lit everyday then to spend light in the dark time. People (most of all children) also get a Kindle Calendar with chocolate or other candy (no toys or anything else). In the end on the 24th all four candles light up and in the middle a fifth big candle is placed.
Boot Day -> 6th. December: Like Saint Nicholas Day. Children put their boots out and their parents put a few little things in them such as orange, apples, nuts, sweets that aren't already in their Kindle Calendar etc.
Light Eve and Light Day -> 24th-25th December: Equivalent to Christmas and also kinda celebrated like Christmas but without the whole consumer industry and giving out all the gifts that are very expensive. It is celebrated in a more traditional way like families coming together and spend time with eachother. If at all there are only small gifts and most of the time something selfmade such as clothes, sweets or food, small toys or plushies, selfmade jewellery, handicraft stuff etc. Many people are playing a little game called "Gift Treading" which is like Secret Santa where everyone buys just one gift and then they roll the dice until everyone has one.
New Year -> 31st. December-1st. January: I don't think this has to be changed and can simply be taken over.
I know there are a lot more holidays in other cultures but I'm not really familiar with them. That's why I didn't really dare to approach these days. Even those holidays I put there are mostly inspired of how my family celebrates them and/or how I wish those days would be celebrated. So feel free if you have an idea to share it. I would love to add them to this list too so it really feels like holiday calendar of the whole galaxy. I also want to come up with a few holidays and traditions for the Jedi, Clones, Mandalorians, Sith etc. and maybe even of different species like Togruta, Twi'Lek etc.
#star wars#star wars oc#star wars ocs#clone oc#clone ocs#jedi oc#jedi ocs#sith oc#sith ocs#mandalorian oc#mandalorian ocs#togruta oc#twilek oc#jedi order#clone troopers#star wars holiday special#star wars holidays
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Ok-street fever explanation time:
Shelbyâs lore and backstory: pretty much the same though with one difference,when she aqired her magic the rest of her family grew distant from her aside from her parents. However then the incident happened. She dad accidentally unleashed her power at her grandpa in rage and he chucked a beer bottle at her head,giving her the head scar. And thus the rest is history. When she came into town she kept the fact she was magic a secret except from her kids. She aqired plushies of cars and when she accidentally brought them to life,they inherited various types of magic. One day casper..tragically died,full in tangled style-shelby brought him back with the power of magic infused tears,while also accidentally giving nala magic.
The crews magic:
Nala: weapon based magic,can summon weapons and claws whenever she wants
Casper: angel magic,can do anything a angel can do,his base form is actually a more tame looking disguise of his true form
Midnight: shadow magic,can cause places to become darker and control shadows. Cause sheâs so emotional and young,she can lose control of her power,causing darkness to spread in her room when upset
Pinkie: party magic,basically think anything that pinkie in the show can go-and think that-
Temp: dark magic,has dark magic,like the kind of magic a typical demon could use. Cause of how much it gets a bad wrap,temp prefers not to use it and hides his face so that no one can see him.
Sunny: light magic/can control light and brightness of a light source or his own body.
Simba: Eldrich power of choas/basically chiken nugget :3ďżź
Herb: plant magic/can manifest and control plants and nature,flowers,grass trees,if itâs in a forest,she can control it.
Seasalt: water magic/ can manipulate and control water and can also walk on water.
Lavender: healing magic/can heal anyone whoâs hurt or sick by holding thier injured spot,or the rapunzel way by singing-
Blaze: ARSON-I mean fire magic/ can control and manipulate fire.
Snow: snow magic/ can summon and control ice and snow.
Nightfall: space magic/can summon and control stars that look like the ones in the night sky.
Galaxy: rainbow magic/has the power to summon a rainbow or use it as projectile weapons or a rope. In other words TASTE THE RAINBOW MOTHER-
-mod shelby
(Powah >:3)
(Also I'm throwing Shelby her illusion magic brother now-)
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Is loving you a sin? Is it unforgivable in the eyes of the heavens? Am I to be blamed for falling for you? But now that I know of the wonders and horrors sewn into your destiny, how could I not? How could I have walked away, leaving you amidst the chaos humanity has brought upon themselves? How can I turn my back on you, now having seen the way your eyes sparkle as you cage in my universe in them? Darling, you are a complex mixture of everything foreign to me. You are of poetry and galaxies. You are of honey and sunsets and rainbows. Your heart is one of a kind; it breaks, sure, as all hearts do, but you, you find a way to mend it back. You stitch it back with hope and love and care and everything I can't give you. You are everything I could ever ask for. You are my salvation, the last string I hold onto for sanity. You believe too much in finding a way out of this together, but that is impossible. This is the last chapter to you and I, even though it's all but abrupt. If only, I could get the tiniest loophole in the outrageous dead end, I'd destroy everything in my path to you. I would burn worlds and walk on fires for you. I have no compunction other than reaching you, mi amor. But this is doomsday for us, and everything we had. My love, I have planned things I never thought I would, for us.Â
For everything we could've been.
I love you without reason, and that alone, gives me reasons more than I ever learnt to count. I love just about anything if it's about you. The amber honey of your eyes, and the way I drown in them. I wish you could see them for yourself when the light hits, I almost lose myself in your soul's intricate tapestry. I love that you challenge me, and I love it when you're grumpy. I love you when you speak, any word falling out of your mouth, I will listen without hesitation. I love it when you look at me and tell me you love me, with that angelic voice of yours that would make me drop anything to attend to you, because it reminds me you're human. And mine. I love you every second of the day and every day of the year.
I want to lose my breath and stop mid sentence everytime you walk in the door. I want to feel the butterflies everytime you're around. I want to spend every Christmas, New Year and Fall with you. I want to take you out on dates and court you not like the princess, but the queen you are. I want to spend late nights around Campfires, roasting marshmallows and feeding each other. I want to write sonnets about the curve of your nose, or the mole under your lips. I want to meet your parents and play soccer with your brother. I want to know you inside out so when you're sad, I can know exactly how you like your coffee. I want to kiss you goodnight and kiss you good morning. I want to hear you sing and assure me you'll be there. I want to dance under the stars barefoot, even if you keep stepping on me. I will attend every boring family meeting if you come with me. I want to see the fireworks bombard the sky as my mouth worships yours. I want to mark every inch of your skin and tattoo myself into your soul. I want to spend the rest of my life loving you, for you deserve not to be a part of my life, but it in itself.Â
When I'm with you, all else is forgotten. When I'm with you, my heart has a brain of its own; it pumps my blood the fastest and loudest, so loud I hear it roaring in my ears. My hands overflow with sweat and I just can't seem to find the right words. You turn my world upside down and leave me breathless, used, driven high in glee. You have come into my life the way light seeps into an abandoned dungeon. Blinding, obsessive. You, my dear, will be the death of me, and I would gladly relish my last breath in your arms.Â
If you are reading this, then it's over. I loved you, more than love. I loved you and I still do. But I can't spend my life with you, darling. I can't spend my last breath with you near me, nor could I do any of the things I want to. Desires are selfish things. And I suppose, too much if just about anything, even love, can reel minds into madness. By now, I hope you know why.Â
Our stars don't align, we're not puzzle pieces. You are not my better half, nor my other. You deserve way more than I could ever provide you with, in a million years to come. You were my first, last and only love. In every single lifetime that will succeed this, it will always be your soul that mine tangles with. I love you, and I want you. In every single way, all of your being. But nobody gets everything they want. I just wish, the way I was taught that, wasn't soâŚ.. cruel.Â
I am now without you. It's tearing at my flesh and eating at my bones. It's accumulating in my muscles and weighing my heart. It's plaguing my brain and rushing my blood. It's disrupting my life and now, without you, I can't do this anymore.Â
If you are reading this, my love, I'm gone.Â
Love,
Anonymous.
#love#long reads#random late night thoughts#original post#writing#spilled words#i want this#random#quotes#addiction#you wont be disappointed#comment?
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Prologue:
A Brief History of The Goddess
The first Goddess was born on a little green planet in a tiny solar system near the heart of a galaxy of which no one has ever heard. Zenoti was the planetâs nameâa lush world of vast tropical forests, aquamarine oceans, and clever reptilian peoples.
Evolved from great serpents with glittering rainbow scales, the Zenopelti learned to harness the elements and channel the wisdom of the earth to build a great and peaceful empire. They worshiped the Goddess, whose presence they felt in the earth, trees, and the stars beyond their skies. They called her Ginishi, the Galactic Mother. The governing force of the universe.
The first incarnated Goddess was half Zenopelti, or so the story goesâa priestess of the proud race of healers and alchemists who ruled Zenoti for three million years.
She came as a uniter, a guiding light to join two worlds as one.
When they invented space travel, the Zenopelti visited their neighborsâsister planets circling the same sun. The first planet was Asatyru, a desolate, uninhabited world with a dozen desert moons.
The other was large and watery Miyuna, inhabited by a strange mammalian species who called themselves âhuman.â They, too, worshiped the Goddess in their own primitive way, though they called Her by a different name.
The Zenopelti were fascinated by humans and by the elemental forces of Miyuna, so different from those of Zenoti. They wished to inhabit the planet to learn about its people and magic.
But the Humans were not so keen.
They were youngâa civilization that had not yet touched the heavens or harnessed their planetâs wisdomâand they were fearful.
For the first time in hundreds of thousands of years, the Zenopelti faced conflict. The humans did not like to be visited by strange beings with unimaginable power and technology. They were foolish and did not trust the towering reptiles with rainbow scales who offered them education and technology in exchange for the right to dwell on Miyuna. The humans fought with what primitive technology they had to keep the Zenopelti out.
But the Zenopelti were proud. They would not relent.
A war loomed.
The Goddess heard the two races calling. Their seers foresaw great violence and prayed to the Galactic Mother for guidance. In answer, a piece of her soul came like a beam of light from the Galactic Heart to take corporeal form.
It is said She was born of a Zenopelti and a Human, for she appeared as both in one body, with violet skin and rainbow scales and long, beautiful hair. She was gifted with foresight and unimaginable healing powers.
But so old are these stories, and so long fallen the Zenopelti, that no one is sure of their truth any longer.
All that is known is that the Goddessâbeing of both races and more powerful than any priestess ever born âwas able to unite the two worlds by their faith in Her.
A peace accord was struck. In time, Miyuna and Zenoti became as sisters should: a family bound by their love for a Goddess in physical form.
The Zenopelti shared their wisdom and technology, and the two races mingled their blood in honor of the Goddess. In turn, the Goddess promised to be reborn again and again in their midst so that she could continue to watch over them.
For thousands of years, the two worlds grew together. The humans learned Zenopelti magic and their lifespans grew long. Disease became a thing of the past. Asatyru was terraformed, and a magnificent temple was built there to honor and house the Goddess.
All was indeed well.
Until the Eladani conquerors came.
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Prologue
Six thousand years later, Planet Eladan (formerly Zenoti)
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It all happened so fast.
Prince Loklan was drunkâas usualâand heâd done something vile.
He couldnât remember what, though.
His brother, Thenn, was there in the gardenâWhose garden? Motherâs?âand there was a woman, too. The delicate taste and scent of a high-born Lady clung to his senses.
Thennâs handsome face glowed with rage, blue eyes rolling, lean figure tense with impending violence.
Loklan stumbled in the moon-dappled grass and caught a flash of blue-white skirts edged with fine lace. He came up hard against a tree and laughed. The sound rose in the air around him, raw and wild, like the call of a prairie wolf on the hunt.
Thenn charged him. The younger man bellowed something.
A woman screamed, âThenn, no!â
Lachlan took his brotherâs weight full-on and they both went to the ground with a bone-jarring thud!
Loklan looked up and saw her there, eyes wide with terror in her small, pale face.
And then he remembered.
She was Thennâs woman. His brotherâs betrothed.
It was she that Loklan could taste. Her perfume that lingered in his nose.
This was Thennâs engagement party.
Loklan had a single moment of sober thought, gazing up at the little princess in her moon-glow gown with her soft mouth hanging open in horror.
Goddess, what have I done?
And then his brother loosed a rain of heavy-fisted blows about his head and shoulders.
Fighting back was simple instinct. Rage rose within him like an old friendâa fiery defender, fed by a lifetime of snubs and snide remarks. Of rejection and betrayal.
Of shameful, sickening secrets.
Bastard sonâŚworthless princeâŚdoesn't deserve his titleâŚ
BeastlyâŚDisgustingâŚ
His vision narrowed, edged with a creeping lace of blackness. But he could see Thenn. That was enough.
He knocked Thennâs fists away and rolled the smaller man beneath him, then landed a single, resounding blow to the perfectly squared jaw. The golden head lolled for a moment, eyes flashing white as they rolled back.
Triumph surged in his veins.
Loklan hit him again. And then again.
He didnât hear the woman screaming anymore, or the other voicesâfamiliar voicesâcrying out for him to stop.
He wouldnât have listened anyway.
Primal rage took over, riding the wave of whiskey in his blood. It drove the creeping blackness back. Burned away the drunken clumsiness.
Blood wetted his knuckles. He could smell it. Bright and coppery-sweet.
A rush of animal excitement filled him, unhindered by princely inhibitions. Untouched by a lifetime of strict royal etiquette and practiced civility.
Loklan ceased to be Loklan. Thenn ceased to be Thenn.
They were nothing but beasts now. Vessels for animal violence.
Defender and enemy. Victor and victim.
Predator⌠and prey.
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World of The Ethereal
Ava's Bedroom
A traditional Latin bedroom, at first glance. However, once you notice the little details, it is the bedroom of a troubled person. A bedroom that is full of energy, whether good or bad. It has been suddenly encapsulated by a portal created from a shrine to the ownerâs husband. She has been struggling to grieve her loss, resulting in dark magic rituals. Rows of candles lead us to an altar, warmly lit by hundreds of candles and decorated with old photos. Her bed is unmade, her tv is unused and not yet upgraded, laundry is still not done. All of these reflect who inhabits the room, Ava, a mother suddenly overtaken through a depressive episode caused by grief.
Shrine to Rafael
Many Latin-American families create a special place for a lost loved one in their home. Some have pictures surrounded by biblical figures, some have scriptures, and others have gifts, flowers, and treats. In this closet, though, the tradition is taken to an unhealthy level. Hazardous amounts of flame surround it. A mysterious book lies open on the floor. The pictures seem old and roughened up. And they all depict the same person, Rafa.
Portal
A physical connection between the living and the dead. When you call for the price of life to get to the one you have lost, you can tear through the walls between the world of the living and the dead. This tear then takes over whatever it touches, growing in glowing vibrance. The portal feels and looks like it is made of space, stars, and entire galaxies. Just like one would say a person has passed, they will always look over you in the stars.
Circular Array of Houses
After experiencing a trip through the portal, we land on the World of The Ethereal. A strange yet familiar world, where a circular array of houses, like those from their neighborhood in Puerto Rico, levitate and glow. At its center is an enormous dome of light. The container of all the souls that have passed. It is a peaceful place. Serenity radiates from the dome into the houses. All of these homes reflect those who have passed, each family having their own unique space. A rainbow of colors decorates this world, representing the possibilities and wonder that one might imagine the afterlife to be. This is also a place of culmination, where one will eventually fall at peace in leaving the past behind.
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Part Eighteen of the Rough Day Series
Rating: Explicit
Word Count: 19.5K
Warnings: SMUT, religion kink (maybe?), squirting, consensual stalking/pursuing, canon-typical violence, mention of underage drinking, uhh I believe thatâs it but as always, let me know if Iâve forgotten anything please!
A/N: Hey yall!!! So I know this chapter has been a long time coming and though Iâm not completely satisfied with it, I hope it brings a little happiness to you for an hour or two while you read! School has been kicking my ass and Iâve been in a bit of an emotional slump recently, but I pulled a few all-nighters to post this on time and itâs finally finished! Thank you to everyone who has stuck with me and sent me encouraging words over the past month or so, I hope you enjoy the end of the Sanctuary arcđ
Also like last time, part 2 of my collaboration with @followwhereshegoes will be posted after the chapter!! As a reminder, sweet girl is a reader insert and every imagining of her will be differentâthis is Lisaâs interpretation of her and her artwork is absolutely gorgeous, so please go give her a follow!
Day 5â11:13am:
You zone out again in the early morning, but that happens a lot. Din always keeps you up so late, all the time, and without any caf here, the rising sun just makes your eyes droop instead of flutter brighter and wider. You helped a bunch of younglings find their way into their robes when it was still dark out, tying sashes and fitting masks while holding back your yawns. The walk into Nariss is close to three hours, probably more with all these tiny little legs, and you almost forget to change into your new digs before everyone grabs breakfast.
Even though your ragtag entourage leaves for Nariss just as soon as everyone finishes eating, you donât reach the city until nearly lunchtime. Mostly because the kids walk about as fast as the elderly holy women chaperoning the trip. You and Naydee lag behind the group, forcing yourself to meander slow as fuck when you nearly sprinted this same exact path just a few days ago. On the way there, you listen to children of all sorts sing happily as they walk, chatter about their excitement for the parade, complain about wearing the fabric mask they made themselves, and more than once, somebody takes a tumble onto the ground and is left in teary sniffles and dirt stained clothes. Likely for this reason, the robes are designed to be two piecesâa long tunic with a hood and a separate pants portion to prevent tripping instead of a draping skirt, but the smallest ones are clumsy and find a way to fall anyways.
Itâs a colorful bunchâa chaotic rainbow of babies running around, and you share easy conversation with your new friend about the plans for the day until she asks something that makes you nearly trip and join the dirty robe club.
âSister Drya said your family is meeting you in the city,â she tells you, ignoring your immediate subtle toe stub and the awkward shuffle you have to do to make up for it. âThereâs going to be lots of people downtown, Iâm worried it might be hard for them to find you.â
Your heart thuds in your chest and you feel a bit short of breath at being abruptly confronted with the need to lie, but at the same time, you kind of love it. Having a secret, hiding the truth from others, and just the reminder that youâre almost guaranteed to see Din and the baby before midnight pours warmth and tingles through your tummy. Everything together is a hit of spice, filling you with a kind of excitement that used to be foreign to you. Having fun, experiencing new things isnât quite over yet, but home is calling and you miss it with every fiber of your being.
âI donât think so,â you eventually respond, hoping she can see your kind smile and the sentiment it carries even as light, shimmery fabric wraps right around your mouth. âIf I disappear, youâll know why.â
Naydeeâs eyes crinkle in the corners to match yours. âHopefully youâll be able to see the fireworks first,â she nudges you, her skin glowing against the pale cream fabric she has wrapped around her own mouth and the hood laying delicately over her braids. âThey start at eight.â
The fireworks, you almost forgot. You know what? Today is a good day. You hear yourself think the full sentence multiple times, and the words put a spring in your step after every single one. The road gradually becomes wider and filled with more travelers, and you feel safe in the back. Like some kind of sheepdog bringing up the rear of this migrating cluster of children, making sure none of them drift off by themselves and start eating grass or something.
Surprisingly, the kids manage to be relatively patient and well-behaved once theyâre in line at the gates. The Sisters shuffle them along one by one as everyone moves up slowly, taking even longer to get into the city than it did a few days ago. The entrance is packed alreadyâso many people visiting for the festival, and theyâre all dressed in costumes or robes of sorts, or at least a mask. Most are beautifully crafted, but some manage to look slightly scary even with the soft springtime color schemes. Itâs a completely different world, a different life for each person as you pass them by. Your stomach is starting to growl by the time you finally make it to the front, and luckily the guards just let the kids through without any ceremony. Just you and the rest of the caretakers in light robes need to hold still for the retinal scan, matching each other perfectly except for differing shades of fabric, skin, and eye color. Once the gates open for you and you step through, though⌠itâs⌠Maker.
Extravagant, magnificent are both words. Floral is another.
Itâs like they hung up bouquets wherever they could think to fit them, and this is just the edge of the city. As the group moves through the streets and closer to downtown, it becomes more and more overwhelming. The air itself is a warm fragrance wafting all around you, sunshiney and breezy and perfect, flowers of all kinds lining the modern buildings and archways like they were planted there from the very beginning and it just took this long to bloom between the cracks in the concrete. You wish you had names for all of them so you could list themâthe only thing you can offer is the color and vague descriptions of the ones that stick out to you. Tiny yellow ones that are so small, they need to be bunched all together in massive quantities to even resemble normal flowers. Up overhead, elaborate arrangements of enormous blue and purple and pink ones, wrapping around each other and hanging down from rooftops. Some donât even have petals, itâs like theyâre big green cups that are big enough to hold things inside them. Youâre fascinated by every single one, wanting to stop and smell them all individually but needing to keep up with the large group and not allow any stragglers to be left behind, including yourself.
About an hour later, when youâre almost in the middle of the city and there are people everywhere, itâs time to eat lunch. There isnât much to it because of how expensive it is, and youâd normally feel bad for accepting the small meal each one of the children gets, but you donated all of your credits to the Keja and left absolutely zero for yourself. Good intentions, terrible idea. Still, you pull your mask down and snack on some deliciously fried food, trying not to eye anyone elseâs platter after you finish yours. Itâs so good and itâs gone in an instant; you couldnât even say what exactly it was besides which stall you got it at. Whether itâs just the brilliant atmosphere or if the food on this moon is really just that good, youâre not really sure, but youâre still slightly hungry afterwards with no extra money to sneak a snack.
Soon after, the kids all line up to get their faces painted, or whatever portion of their face is visible behind the cloth masks and hoods theyâve got on, and music blares from at least four different directions and none of the songs are even in the same language. Depending on the part of town, it seems like the celebrations are all different. It makes sense, considering most if not all of these individuals were victims of the Empireâs wrath, spread far and wide across the galaxy. Here, theyâre free, and they want everyone to know it. Spring festivals of some sort are likely common for most cultures, at least those from planets with seasons, not like Arvala-7 where it was arid and hot year-round, and youâre assuming there are multiple things being celebrated today depending on which street you live on. Thereâs chanting in different tongues, dancing and drums, outfits and masks from different cultures every single time you look.
At some point, the children spot a crowded street with flowery rails set up all along them, and you stand behind the tiny heads while everyone waits for the parade to begin. You think your heart has just been beating slightly faster than normal all day today, but when you finally hear the sound of sirens blaring in the distance and cheers begin to pour out from the gathered crowd, it kicks up and you feel like youâre just as wide eyed at the spectacle as the waist-high babies all huddled together up against the railing.
A flurry of people and things pass in slow succession. First, New Republic officers with their blaring holobikes, bright orange as always. Then come large groups of people walking behind banners in languages you canât read, some of them waving, some of them making different sounds and songs. Bands marching in formation, dancers in dresses and masks and gorgeous flowers in their hair like crowns, and then brilliant hovering vehicles decorated in bright colors and festive depictions. The craftsmanship and cultural significance is stunning to witness, itâs so insanely loud, thereâs so much going on, and yetâŚ
Through it all, you think of Din. No matter the faces, the sights you see. Thereâs someone juggling. Thereâs either a very tall man and woman walking together or theyâre both on stilts. There are enormous balloons being led through the air, people are riding atop an assortment of animals youâve never seen before, there are traditional costumes and spectacular stunts being performed. Stalls with games and prizes line the stretches of concrete on the cross streets, people are laughing and celebrating and drinking in equal parts, everything is so lively and festive and fun, and yet, though it all, you think of Din. Him and the baby, theyâre always in the forefront of your mind, occupying your thoughts and making your tummy stir more and more as the time passes like the parade in front of you. You donât think this environment would ever be his favorite, and in some far away galaxy, perhaps if you lived other lives together and called a beautiful moon exactly like this home, then you might have to drag him out to see all the with you and the kid every year. Youâd have to bat your eyelashes and kiss his cheek and snuggle up to him all nice and pretty like, and heâd probably grumble and complain about it while wrapping his arms around youâall the people and the noise, sweet girlâbut heâd go. For you, heâd go.
Your thoughts suddenly stop short and you blink for a second. Why⌠Why was that scene so vivid? So wistful? You used to preoccupy yourself with fantasies about Din all the time, back before you even knew him as Din. But in every single one, it was sexual and likely came from a place of boredom, a lack of external stimulation. Here you are amidst bustling surroundings, and youâre daydreaming about domesticity with him. Why? You want to travel the galaxy, right? You want to see things youâve never seen before, right?
For some reason, you think of the floor, and you miss it.
***
Day 5â5:04pm:
Itâs late afternoon at this point and nobody can find the teens.
More people have made their way into the city and itâs starting to get extremely fucking crowded, especially where you are downtown, and the handful of them mustâve slipped away with all the excitement happening and how difficult it is to keep the young ones together now that the parade is over. You donât know how long theyâve been goneâone second they were walking around just slightly detached from the rest of you, you assumed because the boisterous younglings fucked with their cool vibe, and then the next Naydee is gasping out to you that theyâre gone.
âSister Drya is going to kill me,â she hisses, her dark eyebrows furrowed in self-admonishment and stress. So many fucking people here, you know her pain. âI was supposed to be chaperoning them, they were just hereââ
She shakes her head under the loose, cream-colored hood, groaning and then speeding up her gait to catch up with the woman in charge, but you decide to grab her wrist before she can relay the bad news. Â
âI can go find them,â you offer, speaking as low as you can with the blaring noise surrounding you. âBefore anyone knows theyâre missing. Is there a way to convince everybody to stay in one spot for a little while? You wonât get in trouble, but I need to know how to find you again.â
Naydeeâs eyes widen in surprise, and even though itâs likely a bit out of character for you, you have a feeling itâll be a deceptively easy task. Even with the masses right now and how atrociously big this city is, you already have a general idea of where theyâre likely to be. Besides, youâre not even sure your absence will be noticed if Naydee is the only one who figured out the teens were goneâthe other Sisters can thrive without you while missing anyone else would be noticeable, and you owe your new friend a thousand favors for helping you out these past few days. The least you can do is save her from the scolding of one of the scariest old ladies you've ever met.
âBe as quick as you can,â she finally agrees. Itâs a lot of trust to put into you, but youâve had experience in reading the most unreadable man in the entire galaxy, some teenagers shouldnât pose too much of a problem. âIf youâre not back in thirty minutes or somebody notices, Iâll have to say something.â
You nod, silently breaking away from the group without another word. You think you can hear her announce to everyone that it might be best to eat dinner now to skip any long lines laterâsmartâbut youâre out of their hearing range and line of sight almost immediately.
***
Day 5��5:17pm:
âReally?â You raise an eyebrow since they wonât be able to see the way your mouth is twisted up underneath your mask, crossing your arms and tapping your foot against the ground to further illustrate just how not fucking impressed you are.
Seven teenagers freeze, and slowlyâdepending on how much bravery they can individually musterâthey turn around on their stools to face you. The atmosphere in the tavern is bustling and cheery, booze being passed around a large crowd that laughs and mingles, but your vibe is stone cold and quiet. The contrast doesnât feel wrong on you like it normally would; the negative and disapproving energy youâre emitting makes you feel powerful, untouchable, armored and strong.
âHow did you find us so fast?â One of the twin boys squeaks out behind a light blue robe, sounding worried.
âHad a hunch,â you grumble, glaring sternly at each of them in turn. Your tone is dry, your voice sits lower in your throat when youâre pissed off. All you had to do was look for the closest bar that doesnât have any orange jumpsuits poking around waiting to card underage younglings, it wasnât that difficult. âYouâre not exactly unpredictable.â
âAre you gonna rat us out?â The other twin asks you, in a voice thatâs oddly deep compared to his brother.
âI should,â you snap, quickly reaching out to push their drinks away. âI should let Sister Drya rain down her holy fury on your asses, got good people all twisted up over you for nothing and Iâm missing dinnââ
You donât know why, but you suddenly cut yourself off and jerk upright, spinning around.
The sounds of glasses clinking and boisterous voices fill the bar, but they seem to fade out for a second. Your eyes fly around the crowded space, your heart lodged in your throat and looking for anything reflective. Every flash you see is a false alarmâbelt buckle, wristwatch, cocktail shakerâ
Heâs here⌠isnât he?
Only, thereâs nothing. Nothing is out of place, nothing jumps out at you the way youâre assuming it will. Youâre braced taut and ready to bolt at the first sign of a chase, but it never comes.
Itâs so⌠unexpected, this feeling. Itâs not like youâre being hunted anymore, but instead, youâre the hunter. Youâre feeling the weight of him from this far away and itâs like heâs calling for you to come find him, teasing the wild adrenaline rush you get from just feeling his presence, as if he absolutely knows it happens. Whispering soft in your ear and then vanishing the second youâre able to turn around, like heâs here but heâs not. Playing with you from so far away.
This⌠this is a taunt. Â
The whole thing at the inn was leagues below this, that was rudimentary. Teasing, getting even, having fun with each other, whatever you want to call that, thatâs what it was. This is scarily sophisticated. Fluid and practiced and the best kind of frightening, stark and dangerous compared to the carefree and upbeat setting surrounding you. Youâre not making it up, itâs not just you being paranoid. You know him with your eyes closed. You know heâs here somewhere watching you, just like you know the starlight that streaks across the pitch black horizon of hyperspace. Not because you can see it, not really, not directly. But because by it, even in the vastest and darkest and emptiest of voids, youâre suddenly able to see everything else.
âYou okay, Nerida?â
The volume gradually comes back up and you blink, suddenly remembering where you are, who else is with you. The chatter becomes slightly louder than it seemed before.
âYeah,â you eventually say, slightly airy while continuing to stare emptily at the crowded room. Heâs not here, you donât think, not anymore at least. But youâre not stupid, you know what this means. Youâre already caught, thereâs nothing you can conceivably do that will delay the reunion for the nextâyou look down and pull the loose sleeve up to check your communicatorâseven fucking hours, thereâs no way. Heâll pull back and follow you, keep up with you from a distance and then snatch you away right when you let your guard down. You at least need to get the kids back to their guardians before that can happen, though.
âLetâs go,â you quietly tell the group of foundlings, grabbing elbows and hauling them out of their stools. âNaydee was the only one who knew that you were gone when I left. Hereâs to hoping she managed to keep it that way.â
***
Day 5â5:32pm:
Against all odds, youâre able to rally the wayward teens and successfully lead them through shoulders that are beginning to move closer together as the crowd grows and grows. You stay towards the back and donât look behind you onceânot only do you not want to give the younglings an unnecessary reason to become paranoid or to question your actions, but you can still feel Din lingering. Moving like a shadow, probably fitting in perfectly with the masked festival-goers, nothing drawing any attention to him with all the spectacular sights and noise occurring.
Soon you return to the same spot from before, and you and the teenagers seamlessly integrate yourselves back into the rest of the group without anyone noticing a thing is out of place. When you move to stand beside her, Naydeeâs bone-deep sigh of relief is palpable even behind the concealing fabric; she squeezes your hand incredibly tight in a silent gesture of thanks, and then pulls something from the deep pockets of her robe and passes it to you sneakily. A purple fruit. She mustâve saved it for you.
Maker, fuck yes. Itâs not much but itâs more dinner than any of the seven troublemakers get, but Naydee quietly assures you theyâll be able to eat something once they return to the Keja around midnight, just not the tasty expensive treats theyâre selling at the vendors. As the sun goes down, you try not to stain your pretty fabric a deep maroon as you chomp and feel your lips start to curl upwards. It sounds so fucking stupid when you put it like this, but you keep going back to Din and revelling in knowing that heâs so close, like youâre just mentally checking in on him. You donât get the sensation by thinking, thoughâmore like you just focus really hard on your heart and feel him there just a second afterwards.
Is that how pure, stupid, shameless love feels when youâre completely entrenched in it? Itâs not like itâs surrounding you, itâs not suffocating you or making you float. Itâs just a thing. Like⌠a thing inside your chest, a physical thing you can search for and find, something you can point to on your body and say itâs right here, this is where my love for him lives. Right at the bottom of your heart, right where it curves and beats strong when other hearts meet flat at sharp angles. You do it over and over again, reconfirming its existence every single time. You donât know what else youâd call it. Love is the only word. To love, to know. To hold in the heart.
Soon, you start to notice that people are slowly moving around your stationary group. You look up and watch the crowd begin to walk, some of them giving soft smiles to the cute children as they pass by, but all of them following the same unspoken direction.
âWhere is everyone going?â You ask Naydee, standing on your tiptoes to watch the crowd migrate like a giant system, an organism or mechanism of thousands (or tens of thousands?) of smaller moving parts all traveling in tandem. Itâs fascinatingâyouâve been to crowded places, you know what it looks like when a lot of people are packed into one area, but youâve never seen what it looks like when they all move together. They would normally be bumping into each other, slipping in between, fighting and never really getting anywhere, interacting individually and thinking separately. Now theyâre progressing in one single direction, so many with the same mindset and understanding of what comes next. A second parade, almost, with New Republic officers directing the flow of pedestrians as they pass.
âThe eastern part of the city!â Naydee yells over the noise and points, and beyond her extended finger, you can barely see the light of a dusky body of water in the distance beyond the buildings. âThe fireworks are going to go off over the bay, but it takes awhile to get there!â
âIsâŚâ You blink for a second, suddenly caught off guard, trying to think back to the holomap the concierge pulled up at the front desk of the inn. Surely you wouldâve noticed it, but your sudden childlike hope makes you ask anyway. âIs it part of an ocean?â
Naydee shakes her head. âA really big lake!â
Your shoulders drop just the slightest bit in disappointment but still, you ache to see it. You canât even imagineâthe fireworks are likely going to reflect across the water, giving everyone double the view. And luckily, after all the children and caretakers are individually accounted for, you start to behind the slow-moving crowd towards the docks you know lie beyond. Â
Naydee scurries ahead to keep the kids together, ushering them forward and preventing any drunk passer-bys from accidentally stepping on them, and you quietly bring up the very rear of the entourage. You take the time to observe more than anything, walk in the back and experience instead of trailblaze. So many people, so many stories to be told, so many differences and diversity around you. Your face is partially concealed and you donât move your head too much, just your eyes. They flick around to take in everything, the crowd thinning little by little as you make it out of the confined space downtown. Youâre able to make out full bodies and outfits again instead of just heads and shoulders, allowing you to breathe just a bit easier under your mask.
And then at one pointâand itâs almost a little startling because it happens all at onceâthe organizers must decide that the sun has officially gone down, because the lights come on. All of a sudden, paper lanterns and bulbs flicker into existence all around you and the world decides it wants to glow, glint and twinkle from the inside out. Theyâre everywhere, draping across rooftops and tangled around street signs and stuffed into the flower bouquets overhead, raining soft colors down on everything. Youâre in complete awe, trying to keep walking but also needing to look at as much as fucking possible in the suddenly luminescent city. Itâs so colorful, so vernal and warm and you feel like youâre⌠Like when you took a shower on the Crest for the first time and spent a few happy moments just playing with the water and soap for your own enjoyment, itâs as if all the brilliant rainbow of colors the bubbles would make under the fluorescent light decided to surround you at the same time. Youâre inside stained glass, blinking at the flowers and wondering if Din can even smell the air or if itâs filtered, processed and reduced to nothing under the helmet.
And thatâs when you see him.
But with the way your chest rapidly constricts and you can count your heart beats as they pound, blaring white noise through your ears and adrenaline through your veins, itâs like he's just allowing it to happen. You immediately understand that you donât have fucking anything the second your eyes land on him; this isnât a heads up that you caught wind of early, itâs not a gift or an advantage youâve incidentally gained over him that you should be thankful for. Being able to see him directly like this, being able to make out all these fucking details from this far awayâŚÂ This just feels like youâre being informed of the endgame right before it comes. If you were anyone else, if you were a real bounty and this was a real hunt, his armor glinting and reflecting the lanterns overhead would feel like a knife you're about to be on the wrong side of.
You have a decision to make, very quickly. Either keep in this same direction, head straight towards him and just pretend like you are who youâre dressed as, a random caretaker for a bunch of rowdy foundlings during a spring festival on Nariss, or disappear. Drop back, move through the crowd and use the distance you have between you right now as your only hope of getting away in time. Neither one gives you a particular advantageâyour chances of being caught have already skyrocketed exponentially just being able to see the reflection in his armor, the hovering shield at his side with big black eyes⌠staring directly at you.
You almost trip over your pantlegs, gasping. Baby. He beams at you and you think he calls out through the passing crowd, his tiny arms extending out, and your chest feels like youâre pulling organs as if they were muscles, cramping up and seizing with emotion. You want to run to them even though youâre meant to be running from them, call out over the noise and wave even though youâre not supposed to. You want to hold the kid again, squish his little forehead with kisses, walk around with Dinâs hand pressed against your lower back and see the fireworks with him.
Your hands clutch at the draping fabric covering your chest, pulling and twisting it uncertainly. What do you do, what do you do?
No matter what, you know itâs over. Keep your head down and try to move past him, or break away from your group and try to escapeâboth are different paths that lead to the same result. Whatâs the point of running when heâs the one chasing you? The heart-pounding thrill is the only reason youâre even considering it, but his body stands so tall amongst the crowd, not moving while people ebb and flow like a river passing around him.
Except then you can hear his voice repeat the last thing he said to you in person as if he says it directly into the comm in your ear. When you do see me⌠try to outrun.
You should runârun, itâs better than just hoping he doesnât see you when you already know he does.
UnlessâŚ
Out of a trillion different possibilities, you soon realize that there is exactly one situation in which this could turn out in your favor. You can immediately picture the scenario in your mind, but thereâs just too many variables to conceivably rely on getting them all right. This maybe has a⌠two percent chance of working? Maybe? Everything would have to go perfectly, just fucking flawlessly, but what other choice do you have? Two percent is better than whatever odds youâre dealing with now.
You walk silently behind the group of foundlings as you approach closer and closer, keeping your head purposefully down as they skip and giggle and dance ahead. He knows youâre hereâhe has to know, youâre counting on him knowing. Walk right in front of him, pretend like you donât see, make sure you keep left. Keep left, keep left, keep your head down, keep your head downâ
A leather glove suddenly catches hold of your wrist hard enough to tug you backwards.
Your gasp is audible over the sound of the crowd and you spin around, jerking your head up to look at him in fear. Your heart slams as the beskar reflects your mask and hood back at youâyouâre terrified and it shows, you can see it in your eyes.
You quickly try to yank your hand away, even as your index finger stretches up towards the communicator around his wrist.
âMiss Nerida?â A childâs voice cries, and then small hands grab at you from behind as you bury the urge to actually fight him. Your instincts are demanding you attack when his grip is this strong, but you just whine and struggle, slapping weakly at him with your free hand and feeling more of the younglings begin to pull at you, their high pitched voices calling more and more attention to the scene.
Your gaze flicks to the side, suddenly landing on a pair of New Republic officers helping direct the thousands of moving bodies from the closest street corner. Theyâre looking at you, pointing and beginning to speak into their own comm units. Dinâs helmet snaps sideways to follow your gaze, and then heâs immediately dropping your wrist and stepping back, retreating as quickly as he caught you. Though you donât want toâthough you donât want to give yourself away even more, you want to pretend fully that he was a complete stranger and the children were right to try to help you get awayâyour eyes fall to your son in the hovering crib by his side and you feel yourself crumble just a bit.
Just a few more hours, kid. A few more hours.
Children pull you away while your pursuers both disappear into the crowd, and you quickly turn to soothe the tiny babies instead of chasing after the one you miss so terribly.
âIâm alright,â you tell them, scooting them up and encouraging them to continue walking. Blend in, blend in, donât let anybody think anything is wrong. âCome on, weâre fine, come on, we have to catch up.â
They take your lead as soon as one of the caretakers turns around and sees the small group crowding around you. You think she asks what happened, but you just tell her a man mistook you for someone else and nothing more comes of it. Sheâs able to settle the chaos better than you are, and by the time youâre continuing to travel forwards once more like nothing happened, the communicator suddenly flicks on in your ear.
âWhat did you do?â He breathes out, his footsteps moving fast through his voice. Heâs traveling much quicker than you expectedâis he still being followed? The officers are gone from your sight, they might be going after him right now, weaving between bodies and calling out to the perpetually vanishing glint of armor as he navigates his way out of danger.
You look down at the comm on your wrist and your heart nearly soars with victory. It worked. It worked. You just have to outlast a bit longer, donât draw any extra attention to itâheâs preoccupied and he certainly doesnât sound happy, but you hope thatâll be enough to make him slip. Use his frustration to your advantage, let him think the only thing you were successful at was momentarily escaping him.
âThe cops werenât part of the plan,â you admit quietly, keeping your head down as your loose hood billows in the twilight breeze. âDonât get caught.â
Thereâs a few moments of just his breathing, his footsteps, and the noise floor humming through the comm, before he finally responds. âYou look beautiful.â
You stare unseeingly down at the concrete under your feet, still feeling your hand tingle from where he caught you. The line abruptly mutes on his end and you just keep moving forward, onward, wanting to look back but knowing heâs already long gone.
***
Day 5â5:24pm:
Din is fucking furious.
He had you. You were right there, right in front of him, and even if he hadnât been subtly trailing you all day, seeing the red footsteps get covered and flicker out of existence just a few moments after you make them, he wouldâve recognized you anywhere. In black and white, in the fading light, with your face covered, children calling you by a different name and attaching themselves to you like theyâve known you foreverâdoesnât matter, he wouldâve known you. Your eyes have always given you away, always so expressive and starry and soft, but able to see right through solid steel whenever you look at him.
But then you slipped from his grasp, and then more guards pushed him further and further away from you. They must all be in constant communication, because every single jumpsuit he sees immediately spots him and starts following. Itâs fucking exhausting, and he thinks of you the whole time.
He waits in a dark alley with the kid and taps the side of the helmet a few times to bring up the time on his comm, but then relaxes just slightly when he sees the hour. Itâs earlier than he thought it was, heâll be able to find you again.
Though, something tugs at him while heâs looking at the clock ticking away in front of his eyes, counting down each second that passes. There was⌠a moment. Back in the square, when he was holding onto you again, when you were looking directly into his once moreâeverything in his helmetâÂ
No, he shakes his head while the kid looks up at him curiously, it canât be. It was just a split second, it was gone so fast.
But he canât get rid of it. Though thereâs no explanation, he thinks the display screen flickered. The sky behind you looked different for a single frame, your footsteps werenât bright red and visible anymore, your eyes werenât grey and he stopped wondering what shade of fabric you and your friend decided to choose for you to wear. It was silvery, heâs almost certain. Like his armor, it only reflected the color of everything around it.
Color. Everywhere. Bursting for a blink of an eye, and then gone just as quick, before he could actually figure out what it really meant.
***
Day 5â6:59pm:
This water is quiet here, but it sparkles.
It doesnât ever really get truly dark thanks to the enormous hanging moon and ringed gas giant dancing with Sanctuary II, constantly reflecting light back onto the surface and reacting with some of the trace chemicals up above the atmosphere, and you think the sky just might be the prettiest youâve ever seen it. Must have something to do with the equinox, the glimmering angles of light being played with by celestial bodies in this stunning system, but itâs a dream. The Maker apparently couldnât decide which colors he wanted tonight so he just splashed all of them together all at once, let them run and blend like ink in the gentle water below, like the various people who call this moon home.
That view in front of you, coupled with all the flowers and lanterns lining the streets behind you, and youâve lost track of time the exact same way you hoped Din would. You think youâve stood for about an hour or so in this one spot, half-listening to excited chatter from the babies, mostly just gazing across the stretch of water and being able to just barely spot the docks in the distance, but it feels like itâs only been minutes.
You check your watchâthe fireworks should be starting any second now. You donât know what to expect, just that in your experience, explosions tend to be loud. You've decided youâre not going to plug your ears, though. Tummy twisting with nerves and another inexplicable feeling you canât quite put your finger on, you resolve to experience the unknown exactly the way itâs meant to be. Fully, without worry or fear.
Then, lacking any warning or ceremony whatsoever, a single flare launches silent and high from one of the small boats skimming the bay, and the crowd seems to hold its collective breath as the dim light disappears into thin air for a split second, beforeâ
Itâs⌠quite possibly the most dazzling thing you think youâve ever seen. So shamelessly decorative just for the sake of it, not serving any other practical purpose besides celebration and visual spectacle, and youâll probably never know another extravagance like it. You grew up with dust pelting against tired eyes, you never thought theyâd get to reflect such gorgeous bursts of color back up at the sky, glassy and childlike amongst a group of equally wide-eyed children.
As expected, a deafening boom follows closely behind the singular display, but just witnessing it is incredible enough to make you forget to brace yourself for the sound and you jump almost violently in response. There comes a loud cheer from the people standing around you, a few delighted gasps and children who decide now is the best time to start crying, but then more flares begin to launch from the boats and the subsequent show will sear itself into your memory to replay over and over again.
Still, you think the endless sky and dark water below would have to light on fire to stop him from coming to mind.
Din.
You click the comm on, continuing to stare in stunned awe but wanting nothing more than to hear his voice right now, feel his hand rest on your lower back and the kidâs three fingers squeezing one of yours while the stars rain down from above. Youâre only continuing to run from him because itâs expected of you, thatâs the reason youâre here, but itâs becoming harder and harder to argue with yourself. âDo you always see in black and white?â
It takes him just a few seconds to respond, but he always does. âOnly when Iâm tracking someone.â
The loud booms can be heard over the earpiece, happening maybe a second after they crack and sparkle above you. You canât tell if the latency is due to the electronics or if heâs just that far away from the source of the sound itself, but⌠you donât think he is. He feels close again, like he could just walk up right next to you any second, or maybe thatâs just how he always feels now.
âDoes that mean you havenât seen the sky here?â You ask after a moment. This whole time, everything has been grey for him?
âI saw it,â Din murmurs, and even though itâs quiet and explosions are thundering loud enough to deafen more sensitive ears, his quiet voice somehow breaks through it all. âWhen you left the Crest, I saw it behind you.â
For some reason, you suddenly feel like crying. Whether itâs the way he phrases it or the sentiment in the words, youâre close to tears without even knowing why, looking up at the sky illuminating spectacularly. He says it like he wasnât the one who parked on this moon and told you to go on without him. âCan you⌠turn it off for just a second?â
He takes a second, before clarifying for you. âI turn it off and I lose your footprints.â
So that was the ultimatum. He doesnât want to turn it off until youâre back with him again. Does he not understand? Does he not know what you know? Maybe you just happened to feel it first, this overwhelming physical sensation inside you whenever you think about him. Itâs like the exact opposite of a hole in your chest. And itâs so odd, so counterintuitive. Being comforted in his absence, feeling him with you when he isnât. Falling in love in the dark, knowing him without ever seeing him.
âYou never needed them,â you say, reaching up to pull your mask down under your jaw and chin for a moment, wanting to freely breathe the freshwater and flowers while stars explode and fracture across the sky. Itâs a truth youâre acknowledging, something youâll carry with you, something you fundamentally own at this point. âYouâd find me without the helmet. And Iâd find you.â
The fireworks continue to bleed into the water beneath them, multicolor splashes rippling into existence and disappearing just as quick. You couldâve never imagined a more colorful, magnificent landscapeâbesides your waterfall on Naboo, of course. That was a pure product of nature though, a place hidden away and untouched by people, completely sacred. Light refracting against mist, natural glass that would shatter under your weight. This is a celebration of life and family. Loud in a different way, affecting you in a different way, but just as wonderful and touching. A cultivated paradise, designed to be beautiful and safe only because they wanted it to be.
âThink so?â He asks softly. He sounds so deep and warm, but⌠a little distant. Youâre able to hear it in his words. You donât know why, though. Doesnât he believe you? Perhaps⌠perhaps this isnât The Way. Perhaps this is part of a completely different oath, one where knowing and loving somebody isnât the same thing as looking at their face, not at all. Where you can have them exist entirely separate from each other, because this is love. This is real, enduring, bone-deep love, and you havenât ever seen his face, so how would he explain that? How would the Mandalorians reconcile that? You bear the mark of the mudhorn, youâve moved through time and space with him, youâre a mother to his son, and youâve never seen his face. It defies both the Mandalorian oath and traditional understandings of love, or it meets them right in the middle, depending on how you look at it.
âI know so.â For the first time, you think you might sound more confident and certain than he does. Maybe he doesnât fully get it yet, but then you suppose heâll just have to trust you. âWill you look at the sky?â
âI see it,â Din tells you, but you know he doesnât. Not the way you want him to. And stars, you just want so many things for him, donât you? The sky, fresh air, water, light, food, rest. You want him to see the galaxy the way you doâhave a new appreciation for the gifts that are given just because youâre alive to experience them. All the physics and mathematics aligned perfectly for it to happenâall the chemistry, the systems, the dynamics that dictate the universe, they all got together and crafted a world where you, him, and the kid all exist together at the same time. You want him to know the significance of that.
âWith color?â You ask, knowing his answer before he seems to.
âIâŚâ Din wants to argue, or at least say it again. He canât or heâll lose you, he already told you he doesnât want to turn the setting off. Itâs such an unnecessary conflict, but you want to respect it so much that youâre willing to give up things of your own to make it happen.
âHow do I fix it then?â You whisper, so desperately wanting this one thing for him, this one grandeur to behold. How do you fix this problem? How do you convince him to look with you? Youâd offer to just go and find him instead of continuing to run away for the next few hours, but you know the show will be over soon and you donât have much time left. âDo you want me to come look for you? Itâll be too late by then, youâre too far away. Look at the sky.â
Itâs silent for a momentâtruly silent, even though colorful bombs are going off above the bay. You donât know why youâve attached yourself to this so strongly, but itâs almost devastating when you donât get a response. You look away from the spectacle for the first time in an eternity, gazing unseeingly into the crowd of onlookers with a sudden sadness taking hold of you. He wonât look, heâs too stubborn, he holds onto things too tightly.
But then, a flurry of flares start launching in rapid succession from the distant boats, screaming and crying on their way up and then igniting into showers of light, and the abrupt increase in activity manages to catch your attention once again. This must be the end, they saved the best for last. Every corner of the horizon flashes and sparks, and youâre mesmerized at how bright it is, how many colors theyâve managed to fit into one single frame.
âItâs beautiful,â comes his voice, and the smile that you break into feels just right for the brilliance of the view above you. Maker, it is, isnât it? Now you can hear itâhe sounds like heâs looking at it too, with color, in all its breathtaking glory, and you feel like youâre flying. Like he picked you up and let you watch up close, like you can feel his armor under your fingers right now as he carries you through the sky.
It swells up inside you, a rising wave similar to the ones you can see in the distance, and you know you probably shouldnât say it because itâs not in your best interest to say it right now, but you have to say it anyways. Itâs an unknowable compulsion, a need to connect and communicate directly with him but for your sake, not presently, not at this exact moment in time.
Luckily, you mute your comm just in time and simply give the words to him from very far away.
âHurry up,â you say, sending the sentiment into the sky with all your love, and the conflicting hope that he wonât take the advice until a bit later on. âCome and find me.â
***
Day 5â7:37pm:
After the fireworks are over, people start to drift off in separate directions, clearing the traffic and congestion from the streets around you. Someone puts their hand on your shoulder and you blink a few times, spinning around and almost stepping on a bunch of tiny little feet by accident.
Stars, thatâs a lot of children. Theyâre all crowded around Naydee, who pats a few heads and almost buckles under the younglings clinging to her leg.
âFigured you would be long gone by now,â she grins at you from behind her mask, and youâre reminded to pull yours up over your face just from looking at her. âItâs lateâweâre going back to the Keja.â
âOh, shit,â you breathe in surprise, but the noise of the gradually dispersing crowd manages to cover it up. At least from younger, more easily distracted ears, but you think Naydee hears you. Her dark eyes roll good-naturedly, looking happy but exhausted from the long day. Youâre going to have to say goodbye now.
âWhat happened to your family?â She asks after a moment, and you think sheâs being careful with the way she says it, likely because family is a difficult topic to navigate in general around some of the children hanging on her and begging for her attention. âHave you been in touch with them? If not, Iâm sure you can come back with us. Itâll be late by the time we get there, but at least youâll be safe.â
You open your mouth to automatically decline her offer, knowing Din is still in the crowded city looking for you and wanting to stay where thereâs lots of people.
But then⌠well, he would expect you to do that, wouldnât he?
Thereâs more people here. More danger, but better places to hide. Itâs the obvious choice, itâs the one that makes the most logical sense. But youâd also be completely alone and youâre assuming the only reason he hasnât snatched you up yetâwhich you know he couldâve done multiple times by now, is likely because youâre with a group of innocent foundlings, moody teenagers, and very stern older women. He probably doesnât realize youâve told them about him and the kid, though you were slightly vague on the details.
Itâs also a little over three hours to get back, but youâre banking on it being closer to four with how whiney and tired some of the small voices sound, others sounding like theyâre an enormous sugar rush contained into a tiny little capsule. Would he have the gall to try and get you right from under their noses? Will he even know you left the city, or will he assume you made the smartest decision possible and simply account for it ahead of time? No, you're overthinking it, just make a decision and stick with it.
âThereâs also free food,â Naydee shrugs while youâre still considering, but⌠well, that settles that. Almost three days of friendship and she already knows exactly how to win you over in the end. Sustenance for your empty tummy, an escort the entire way there, and heavily guarded walls beyond. Din will have to get creative in responseâyou flaunted your imagination for days, coming up with dozens of evasion tactics to outlast him, but this one just seems⌠incredibly practical. Exploiting a weakness of hisâisolating it, having it be reinforced by precedent, and then taking advantage of it. You bet heâll catch on, but still, itâll make it more difficult for him, and youâre grasping at straws to hang on just a little longer.
âIâŚâ Quick, come up with something. You clear your throat. âThe city is too crowded, I havenât been able to find them. I could just⌠tell them where Iâm headed and see if they can find me along the way?â
Naydee smiles and nods. âSounds perfect.â
Yet, the entire walk back⌠you keep thinking youâre going to feel Din trailing behind you, waiting to feel the nerves twist in your tummy and your palms to sweat, but you donât. You keep glancing over your shoulder and then down at your wrist, needing to talk yourself out of addressing him through the comm to let him know exactly what the plan is. You like maintaining a sense of secrecy from the new characters youâve met on your adventuresâNaydee, Karga, Peliâalmost everyone youâve been introduced to, you found a way to find a subtle enjoyment in hiding certain things from them. But with Din, you donât have any walls. They crumbled nearly a full year ago when he silently pushed a cauterizer in your hand and took his armor off for you, and youâve felt the inexplicable need to bare yourself to him in return ever since. It would be to your extreme detriment to do it now, but you still have to fight the urge.
Even if you donât feel him following, you still find yourself acting like he is. Constantly turning back to double check the road behind you, drifting off in the middle of shallow, distant conversations with tiny foundlings who canât tell the difference, keeping towards the middle of the pack this time to avoid being picked off towards the back. The belltower at the orphanage is loud and will ring for quite a distance, so your timing has to be utterly pristine for this to all work out. You eye your comm the entire way there, trying to stall just the right amount to avoid any realizations or fall into any traps he may be setting for you.
You eventually leave the city walls far behind you, and now you have no clue where he is. You lost him, and maybe thatâs why you feel your heart beat insanely fast the whole time. He could be anywhere now. Behind you, adjacent, parallelâyou canât decide where to look, but it keeps you wide awake and focused while the group tiredly travels back to the temple.
***
Day 5â11:32pm:
You can see it in the distance, the brick buildings slowly coming into view. One might think your stress would have worked itself out by now, been brought back to a manageable level after four hours of walking, but youâve been on red alert for the past hour or so. Any movement or rustle that doesnât come from the sleepy children or exhausted caretakers, youâre on top of it, snapping your attention to the offending tree or animal and not being able to relax even after affirming itâs just nature, itâs not shiny metal bounding after you in the darkness, ready to take you down.
The infants are all likely snoozing away in the nursery, and the Sister who volunteered to stay behind and look after them comes to greet the group at the gate as you approach. Like always, two Brothers open the iron bars to allow you inside, and you feel the anxiety dig its claws into your tummy. If Din is going to get you, this is the very last moment to do it. These walls are guarded and youâre nervous for him, youâre nervous for yourselfâyouâre just fucking nervous. Jumpy and worried, not being able to pinpoint him anymore and feeling all the more anxious because of it.
It doesnât feel right. Nothing feels right about this, but you canât figure out specifically whatâs wrong. This was the exact plan, this was a way for you to just survive these last few hours and yet, it doesnât feel right that you actually succeeded in doing so. It doesnât make sense that heâd allow you to return all the way here, especially when he was close enough to touch you earlier. Din has had so much time to snatch you up, so many opportunities to lure you away, confront youâanything to catch you, and he hasnât done it yet. Why? Either you truly did escape and he has no idea where you are, which doesnât feel right, or heâs choosing not to get you for whatever reason, which also doesnât feel right. Whatâs he waiting for? You canât have won. It was all too fucking easy, youâre expecting to see him around every single corner because he should be there, he shouldnât have allowed this to happen.
When someone gently touches your elbow, youâre so on edge that you nearly whip around in surprise.
âSorry!â Naydee immediately apologizes, taking her hand back to lift her hood and remove the mask covering her face. âDidnât mean to scare you! I was just going to say that the commissary is still open,â she offers, and you watch the small group of hungry teenagers break off from the group to make their way there. âItâs going to take awhile to get the children ready for bed, so weâll be in the dormitories if you need to sleep. Otherwise, Iâm not sure Iâll see you again.â
You stare at her and blink a few times, trying to readjust your focus. Sheâs your new friend, she just said this was likely the last time youâll see each other, but you canât stop thinking about Din. Imagine heâs hours away in the city right now, still looking for you. Youâre trying to evaluate your priorities here, but you truthfully never expected to get this far. Inside the gates, surrounded by brick buildings and silent guards. You know your way around here, you know hiding spots, you know how to outlastâitâs incredibly advantageous for you to be inside these walls. What is he doing?
Shaking your head to clear your thoughts, you give Naydee a quick hug and she happily accepts it. âIâm sure weâll meet again at some point.â
She smiles and nods, pulling back and letting a couple grumpy foundlings catch her robes and yank on them impatiently. The loud group eventually disappears into the dorms, and the door shutting behind them cuts off the tired crying and chatty voices determined to stay awake, leaving you in silence that feels slightly unfamiliar after going without it for so long.
Fuck, you just need to breathe. As soon as the dead quiet grips the air around you, you realize you need to relax. Youâre way too fucking wound up; you want to bolt at the smallest thing and the sudden silence of being alone multiplies it to the point where you have to remind yourself of its importance. Breathe. Focus. Thereâs about fifteen minutes before the bells ring, fifteen more minutes and the chase will be all over.
Can you eat? You thought youâd want to, but you think youâre too fucking antsy. You canât stay here alone, thatâs for sure, but you also donât want to be around all the children right now. The commissary will have a handful of people wandering around, teens snacking and maybe a Brother or two standing guard. Itâs the best place to wait the clock out, so you make your way there. The gentle breeze billows around your loose robes, your pantlegs swishing as you walk.
A few minutes later, youâve got a plate of food in front of you but your mask is still up, and youâre just sitting there. Towards the back of the large room, sitting by yourself at one of the tables and staring down at your communicator. Five minutes. You have five fucking minutes left before he finds you. Can you feel him? Is he closing in?
You sit up a bit straighter, taking a deep breath. Focus on that feeling from earlier. The presence in your chest, the weight that didnât used to be there months agoâfocus on that feeling and branch it outwards. Can you feel him?
Something catches your eye.
Or no⌠it doesnât, does it? Nothing is out of place here, nothing is visibly wrong or amiss. The only thing thatâs changed from all the times before is how dark it is through the windows, and how there are only a few kids in here grabbing a midnight snack instead of being packed like usual. Nothing else.
But thereâs⌠thereâs an acolyte in the far corner, standing guard with his back to the wall. Itâs not his presence that gives you pauseâyou expected him to be here, thereâs always been at least one present whenever youâve sat down to eat. He doesnât look any different from the rest of the Brothers youâve passed by this evening or the days beforeâtall, silent, dark brown robes, hooded and mysteriousâso why do you suddenly feel yourself break out into a cold sweat as soon as your eyes land on him?
Bubbling laughter and chatter echoes through the large room from one of the tables near the entranceâseven teenagers stuffing their faces with food and sharing animated conversation with each other now that itâs late and theyâre aloneâbut your stomach twists and your fingers start to tremble as you slowly rise from your seat in the back. You want to keep your head down and be casual but itâs impossible, you desperately need to keep looking at that silent guard in particular and your heart kicks up in your chestâ
âand then it wrenches sideways when youâre carefully backing away from the table and the offending acolyte takes a single step forwards.
Run. Everything in you screams for you to run, and itâs rarely done that before, but you canât. Not yet, you donât want to draw attention, and the logical part of your mind rages against your gut instinct to haul ass. Heâs hereâof course he is, the thought screams through your veins as you try to weave quickly in between tables, feeling light on your toes and readying yourself to run as soon as you can. The dark figure seems to find a careful pace behind you, staying just far enough behind and walking in perfect silence, and you have so many fucking questions but you canât even think a single thing beyond run away, run away. Whereâs the kid? How did he get those robes? Did he actually take his helmet off just to get to you in a room where anyone could confront him?
Your feet propel you forward as soon as you make it out of the door, you break out into a sprintâjust flat out bolting because you know how fucking fast he is and you need as big a headstart as you can get.
You race down the stairs and through the courtyard, the beautiful surroundings contrasting drastically with the way youâre running for your fucking life through them. Itâs not beautiful to you right now; you feel clumsy and physically unable to move fast enough no matter how quick you go, your eyes are wide and every nerve is on fire and you canât even tell if heâs behind you anymore with how silently he moves, but you just trust that he is and keep barreling forward. Your breath puffs against the clinging fabric of your mask as you keep sprinting, willing your legs to pump faster. Get to the belltower at least, get to where you have the smallest chance of being caught by the people who guard this place.
As soon as you allow yourself to even conceive the possibility, two Brothers in dark hooded robes suddenly turn the corner a little ways in front of you and your reaction time is perfectâyou jerk to a halt and take a single step forward as soon as they spot you. Since your momentum already committed you to it, you just have to walk, keep your head down, move directly past them and hope Din disappeared from behind you in time.
Step, step, stepâkeep going, control your breathing, youâre okay, youâre allowed to be up late tonight and they shouldnât stop you. Walk right byâŚÂ Stars, you feel their silent stares as you casually pass, and it just feels so cold and analytical compared to the kind of danger Din is gives off when dressed in the exact same clothing. Heâs hard and tangible and an unrelenting force, where they just feel like ghosts that haunt this place. The threat they present is impersonal and detached, but the terror currently chasing after you is so real that he can read your mind.
You wipe the sweat from your brow as soon as you turn the corner, and your feet are already starting to speed up on their own knowing youâre out of their sight. Run, get to the belltower before Din does, you can see it standing tall about a hundred feet away. The stairs leading to the door come closer and closer, but you hear something behind you and it propels you faster. Itâs like you can feel him right at your heels even though you havenât seen him, snapping at your ankles even though your footsteps are the only ones you can hear anymore.
You scramble up the stairs and close the door behind you, spinning around and facing it even as you slowly retreat backwards into the moonlit tower, trying to stay quiet. Breathing through your nose, eyes shifting around the enclosed space, continuing to back up and away from the door. Where is he? There are so many windows that allow you to look outside, but why canât you spot his movement through them? Wasnât he right behind you?
Behind you.
Thereâs no reason or logic at all to it; you just react. Spinning around and throwing a mean punch.
Din jerks back just in time to miss it, twisting and dodging at the very last second to avoid your next few hitsâbut⌠things seem to slow down, even if theyâre happening so fast. The moonlight cascades through the dozens of windows lining the circular walls and it shines just enough to reveal small glimpses of him. With every aggressive strike from you, you see something elseâyou see a flash of his chin when you try to uppercut, you aim for his chest and you see a bit of his jaw. When you go for his jaw, he steps sideways and catches your wrist, and you see the bend of his nose catch the light this time.
But then itâs like he finally figures out that youâre actually fighting him, and now heâs coming for you. Trained and ruthless, not weighed down by any armor and lightning quick, launching perfectly aimed attacks that youâre only able to avoid from reaction and muscle memory alone. You block or move whenever he strikes, you attack whenever you see an opening, you sidestep at the same time he doesâ
Until you land a spin kick directly to the center of his chest and snap your leg to shove him back, your heel smashing into that soft spot right above his stomach with dead precision and brute force. He exhales sharply and takes a few more steps back to steady himself while you pause to catch your breath.
Din abruptly comes back and you fall into it with him again, keeping a sharp rhythm with each other thatâs faster, harder, and way more real than any sparring match youâve ever shared. The hours and days in hyperspace you spent practicing with him are but a fraction of what heâs throwing at you right now, the combinations so rapid and blurred that you just have to trust your knowledge of him and his movement through the dark.
But then, your downfall. Bells begin ringing an earsplittingly familiar melody above you, and it shatters your concentrationâyou falter just as he grabs you and sweeps your feet out, and though you know how to get out of that, youâre not quick enough on the jump nor counterswing to prevent it. He takes you to the ground, hard, and then your wrists are being pinned together above your head and your mask is being tugged down.
Dinâs mouth on yours makes you want to cry.
The whole thing is like coming home. You spent a week surrounded by strangers and having them call you by a name not given to you, fending for yourself, and now here he is. Someone who knows who you really are, someone that wants to care for you. Tears come to your eyes even as they're pressed tightly shut, and Din kisses you like heâs never known anything else. His mouth fits to yours as if the Maker made your lips before ever considering the rest of you, his bare hand clutching your jaw and forcing you to open for him, letting him lick deep inside after going so many days without it. It might feel dominant and overwhelming if it happened to any other person, but through it, you can also taste his desperation and weakness, how soft he is even when heâs squeezing your jaw and squishing your wrists together too tightly.
Rigid steel that bends only for your touch.
He pulls back and your heart throbs at how moonlight continues to bathe just the smallest glimpses of him under the hoodânever the full thing, never the whole face, but enough. The quiet light that brushes the arch of his nose, how it bathes the hard line of his jaw so that you can barely see his scruff when he turns his head the right way. His eyes are hidden in near darkness but thereâs the faintest glimmer where they should be, and itâs the closest youâve ever been to looking at him without the helmet. You can see him, you can see shadows of his chin, his neckâdear stars, his fucking neck. Youâre pinned and paralyzed under him and the ringing bells, yet you feel like you just might float if he wasnât holding you so tight to the floor.
âWhereâs the baby?â You finally lift your chin and ask, needing to raise your voice over the melody clanging loud throughout the tower.
âMaking friends,â Din pants back down at you, and⌠stars, then you just start giggling. Adrenaline turning into pure joy, imagining the kid wreaking havoc with all the other babies in the nursery right now. It feels more light and airy than anything your body should know.
âWhat are you so happy about?â He asks, swallowing and then continuing on with the same quick gasps. âYou lost, I caught you in time.â
âDid you?â You drop your head to the brick floor and ask, biting your lip as he stares back down at you. Suddenlyâ
âBongâ
Din holds utterly still over you while you take a quick breath and wait for the next eleven bellsâŚÂ
âŚbut then break into a slow grin up at him when nothing but utter silence follows.
Thereâs a moment. Just a single moment where the cogs turn rapidly under that shadowy hood, one where the faint reflection of light in his eyes flickers down to the communicator on your wrist that says midnight and back to you, one that solidifies the longer it takes for another bell to ring. Itâs not going to.
One oâclock.
You think he puts it together. The one moment he was never able to figure you outâwhen you tried reprogramming the comms just a few days ago. The one trick up your sleeve that you resigned to throw away and almost forget about because the circumstances for pulling it off were never realistic. Fuck with the electronics and set the clock back just one hourâall youâd need to do is reset his communicator, the timecode is synced together. He told you before that itâs connected to his helmet, but all the buttons still work. Rapid, panicky thinking and a wild surge of bravery in the face of certain downfall is the only reason you were able to pull it off, and youâre perfectly willing to admit you just got lucky⌠especially when heâs still holding dead still over you.
But then Din moves so suddenly. You canât account for it because thereâs no build-up whatsoeverâitâs so fast, you yelp while he grabs your knees and throws them both to one side. You flop over sideways and large hands reach up under the draping length of your tunic to yank your pants down over the curve of your ass, before heâs fitting his palm up between your legs and pushing two thick fingers inside you.
Your head thunks back against brick with how unexpected and merciless it is, but his other hand is grabbing your jaw and twisting, forcing you to look up, stare right into the dark shadow under the loose cowl. The whole thing is too overwhelmingâyouâre trying to keep quiet but your breathing feels like thunder crashing inside this tall, echoing chamber. Heâs touched you so many times, he knows exactly how to do it by now, but it feels like so much more than that. Probably because you can see the way Dinâs mouth silently falls open as he feels you, stretching his fingers up and hooking them tight inside. You can tell when he closes his eyes, the smallest glint slowly disappearing into nothingness while the hand around your jaw blindly moves up. It catches your chin and lips, and then two fingers push over the bottom edge of your teeth to slip into your mouth.
Your entire leg twitches and jerks while you lay sideways on the ground and open up for him, your neck twisted at a sharp angle to keep your eyes on him and his fingers in your mouth, giving you something to bite to stop making noise. Din makes room for himself inside you two different ways, and you just choke on his fingers and try to stay quiet, praying heâll go deeper.
But then youâre not expecting his whole fucking arm to start moving the way it doesâoh fuck, what is that? First you just feel jostled and displaced, but then suddenly a wicked, deep, burning pleasure starts to roar through you, radiating outwards from the rapid motion of just two fingers inside you. Itâs not in and out, itâs up and down so hard and quick against your g-spot that your eyes cross and your hands go numb.
You think you grab at him, clutch onto his arm or chest and open your mouth to moan at the new and overwhelming sensation, but his hand pushes up against your chin and closes it for you, the bend of his fingers caught hard between your teeth but you donât think he cares.
âQuiet,â Din hisses the word down at you while his arm continues to work, your toes starting to curl as the feeling overwhelms you. Fuck, what is happening, what is happening? Itâs like heâs just shoving unfamiliar sensation at you so forcefully that you canât even think straight anymore, not even ten seconds in. You can only feel the pleasure, fire blurring hot and shapeless through your entire body as your eyes clamp shut, his fingers isolating that perfect spot and stimulating it directly, relentlessly.
Something dull and white hot presses up tight against all the muscles you have down there and youâre almost afraid of how strong it is. You gasp and choke and he has to take his fingers out of your mouth and just clamp down around your entire jaw, sealing the whole thing shut with his large hand. And then Dinâs fingers leave your pussy tooâand stars, you should be embarrassed by how desperately it clamps around nothing for as long as it does. Heâs not even inside you anymore but your body is on such a delay from the hot, twisting pleasure, and he doesnât put them back in until your muscles are finished spasming.
Everything comes back full force as soon as he starts moving again. Noise starts to come from your throat, humming in your vocal cords to deal with the arcing, swirling build, and so Din just moves his hand there instead. He finds where itâs vibrating from your neck and he pushes up against it, trapping the sound right at the source. Heâs fucking perfect at it for some reason⌠how many times must he have done this to know how to cut noise out without stopping airflow? You clutch at his wrist and silently mouth his name, feeling his arm work between your legsâfaster, faster, harder, pushing you higher, higherâ
Din pulls his fingers out again and this time, one of your thighs suddenly feels warm and wet while you spasm and you hear him growl out a ragged, âFuck yes.â Everything is sparks zapping through you long after his touch is gone, you cry out but itâs all trapped under Dinâs expert grip. His fingers soon push back inside you and you dig your nails into his forearm, your sounds muffled and quiet enough to hear his raspy groan. Â
âLet me see it again,â Din breathes, his arm starting to work up and down once more, and you donât even know what heâs talking about anymore. What does he want to see? You losing your mind again? Being reduced to an utter mess in front of his shadowy but unobstructed gaze just because you managed to pull one over on him?
Fucking⌠apparently. Itâs what happens, after all. Youâve never seen him like this before; whenever heâs worked up and taking it out on you, there was always something in it for him, too. Heâd hammer into you and rock your world until his eventually shattered, and then youâd both lay exhausted afterwards, equally affected and satisfied. This isnât like thatâthis is just cruel, targeted retribution on his behalf, coaxing the molten pleasure out of you with his fingers and keeping his other hand locked around your throat. You blink helplessly up at him, your vision starting to blur by the time he leans down to whisper to you.
âI missed you, sweet girl. Did you miss me?â Itâs so soft and quiet compared to the strength and relentlessness of his movements. You canât speak even if you wanted to, but when he finally pulls away to yank his hand out and you feel all your muscles automatically flex outwards and push against the sudden emptiness inside you, his voice groans long and satisfied while your thighs get wet again âYeah you did,â he breathes, pushing your shaky legs to the brick with his hand and watching you struggle through the aftershocks.
Did you just cum? You donât even know, thatâs how fucked up you are right now. The whole thing felt like an orgasm from the very beginning, just a boiling hot tornado ripping through every single cell in your body, never really having a peak. If you didnât cum, then why do you feel so weak? You feel heavy, your limbs donât work properly, and you barely even register Din pulling at the fabric of his own robes until he fits himself up against your entrance.
When you do realize it, though⌠your body burns with it, wrecked already but wanting him to take what he wants from you.
âOh, pleaââ you gasp but you donât even have enough time to get the full sentence out. Heâs already pushing his hips forward, pressing you tight into the ground and opening you up after what feels like a fucking eternity without him. Itâs the hottest, slickest welcome you could give him, you hear it in the whispered curse his lips brush up under your ear, the wet noises your body makes that get louder the longer you hold the moan in your throat and bury your head into his shoulder. He throbs thick and perfect inside your tight, spasming cunt, stretching you and smacking the rough ground near your head with how fucking good it is to be back, finally, finallyâ
Your hands grab uselessly at his chest while you try to acclimate, try to breathe while youâre blind with sensation. Itâs so fitting for him, isnât it? That your reunion should be just as physically debilitating as it is mentally. Dinâs voice scrapes on a groan like heâs dragging it across the brick ground as quiet as he can, catching when you clamp down on him and shuddering when you clamp down harder. Thatâs just itâyou donât ever loosen, you just keep tightening and tightening around him, threatening to break and cum again.
This feels different from before, though. Itâs deep, purposefully so. His hand reaches up to push the fabric of your hood back, lifting himself up over your body and wanting to start as deep as he can. You feel him in a place youâd never be able to reach and thatâs just the beginningâthatâs before he starts thrusting into you, hitting a dull sensation at the apex of each movement so hard that it becomes sharp. His hips donât make practically any sound smacking into you because they donât really smack, they just rock downwards and fuck you into the floor without needing to pull out really at all. You know heâs just trying to keep it as quiet as possible, but what he lacks in speed and agility he makes up in power.
You donât even realize youâre making too much noise until a palm wraps tight around your mouth and the room gets a little emptier. Din keeps you all to himself on the floor, silencing as much as heâs working you up, smothering as much as heâs freeing you. Thereâs no easing up, no dragging it out, no gradual build or climbâitâs just there all of a sudden, pleasure and pain pummeling you all at once, engulfing you in flames.
You reach up to grab at the loose fabric of the hood over his face, catching a fistful of it before his hand suddenly snatches your shaky wrist and pins it back to the ground.
Maker, you forgotâoh, you completely forgot about how many people could find you right now if they ever decided to look in the right place. Youâre not in hyperspace; your body is rocking against rough brick, youâre probably going to have a lump on the back of your head from how terrible you are at trying to map out heaven while holding still. Heâs pinned down what he can with one hand; your fingers are the only things that can move besides how tight you can curl your toes, but you feel your moans turn into words against his palm. They garble indistinctly and youâre not really even sure what youâre saying, but Din decides itâs worth hearing.
âShh,â he whispers, slowly lifting his hand from your mouth. âShh, tell meââ
âW-wanna look,â you hear yourself whimper, trying your best to keep quiet but wanting to scream it while he fucks you hard and slow on the ground, ââI wanna see, I wanna look at youââ
âFuck,â Din gasps, and though his grip tightens on your wrist and you know he canât do it right this second, the words seem like they shatter something inside him, âKeepâoh fuck, please, k-keep sayingâŚâ
âI want to marry you,â you nearly whine for him, feeling his hips kick up rapidly and start hammering in and out, in and out, in andââI want to see your face, I wanna be yours, I donât want anyone else to know you the way I-Iââ
You think he drops his head into your neck to muffle his own sounds. Though they start out rough and quiet and indiscernible, but they gradually become louder as he repeats himself over and over again, growling and fucking you rough. You only catch it on the peak, when he pulls his mouth away from your skin and gasps them raggedly one last time.
ââve youâI l-love yââ
He kisses you to stop himself. But itâs not really a kiss, itâs more desperate than that. Though itâs beautiful, itâs beautiful in a different light. Itâs not rejoicing at having you back with him once again; itâs a last prayer begging you to stay by his side forever. He loves you. He gives it everythingâit feels even more concrete and simple than taking the hood off him and revealing his face would. You told you that you'd know him without ever seeing him, and you did. You picked him out and found him when absolutely nothing was giving him away, and this feels like a manifestation of that. Even if youâre not in a place where he can show you his face, his beautiful brown eyes, something still feels like it changes. He loves you. You gasp into his mouth and his tongue sinks deep into yours, tenacious and brave and unyielding. Â
When you finally cum, you almost bite him on accident. Â
Everything surges hot and molten while he pulls back and keeps fucking you through it, and you canât tell where youâre touching him anymore, just that his skin is blazing hot under your hand and he feels like everything the armor isnât. He loves you. Youâre looking into his eyes right now. You canât see any of the details, not really, but the moonlight flickers like silent stars moving through dark depths, staring right back at you and giving you an anchor for the euphoria rocketing through you. He loves you. Your nails dig in sharp and slowly drag downwards, scratching hard red lines into whatever thick muscle that isâ
The back of his neck, making his hips stutter and when he cums for you, he does bite.
You lift your head just in time to feel his teeth catch your chin instead of your mouth, and his entire body shakes while you keep dragging your nails down the side of his neck and his throat. Din fucking lives for it, he releases you and arches into the pain and owns your marks like he wishes you made them deeper, stretching his neck and lifting his chin into the moonlight andâ
Maker. You can see it, with direct light, you can see more of it than ever before. You can see his soft lips and white teeth gritting the sound of your name as quietly as he can, the dark facial hair dusting across the lower half of his face. A fucking gorgeous jawline and throat extended long over you, flexing hard with his cock pulsing inside you. You can just barely see the bottom of his nose from under the brown hood, the dark curls brushing up under his ears.
Stars, you still never see his eyes, the fabric of his hood acts like a blindfold draped over them, but you think you cum again. Even if itâs on accident, itâs meanâDin tries to keep from squishing you and his hand pushes down hard against your lower tummy while he shoves his hips deep one last time, and you cum while staring at half of his face in the moonlight. Completely lovestruck.
How can he be this beautiful when youâve only seen fractions of him? You have everything but the eyes now, everything but the most mysterious thing about him, the reflection into his deepest self, but you feel like youâre hypnotized by every single feature you do see. His tongue coming out to wet his lips, the vein pulling under his sharp jawâheâs gorgeous, heâs gorgeous, and your body agrees. It shakes and shudders under him and eventually, Din finishes and you keep looking as his chin slowly lowers, face disappearing into the shadow once more.
Stars. Heâs so handsome and no one has ever told him, fucking dreamy and the biggest grump youâve ever met. Without being able to see him, you already want to reach your hands out and touch him, drag your nails through his scruff and force him to extend outwards into the moonlight again for you. Whenever he does end up showing you his face, you know right fucking now that youâll never be able to look away. For the rest of your life, youâll be staring at him, apologizing blankly for your rudeness but not feeling sorry at all.
Din leans down and gives you a slow, gentle kiss, finally relaxing into a slouch and breathing hard with the effort it took to shatter you with pleasure.
âThe kid is with the other foundlings,â he whispers against your lips. âYou⌠youâll have to go get him, I need to grab my armor.â
You squeeze around his cock, pulling at the fabric of his robes and ignoring him for just a second. He fucked you in robes belonging to one of the guards and nobody has mentioned it, you need to say something. âWhere did you get this?â
âI found it,â he tells you after a moment, kissing up under your jaw. Oh fucking Maker, he feels so good and perfect inside you, shoulders so broad and crowding you on the floor, and his lips are plush and hot, brushing and fitting your skin like itâs just an extension of his own. âSome guy was wearing it.â
It takes you a second.
âMando,â you suddenly gasp in quiet horror, pushing at his chest and trying your best to detach his mouth from your throat. Itâs so much more difficult than it needs to be, but you eventually succeed. âWhat did you do to him? Where is he?â
He lifts his neck up just the tiniest bit, turning his face towards yours under the hood and holding still for way too fucking long. Heâs too close to see the expression heâs making, but you know the tone of his silence. Heâs in trouble and he knows it before you do.
âMaââ
âTheyâre in a closet,â he admits at the very same time, completely monotone.
You donât know which word to emphasize. A fucking closet? Theyâre? Plural? Instead of stressing any particular word, you decide not to do it at all and it ends up just coming out in the same exact blank tone as him. âThey're in a closet.â
âInside the Temple,â Din continues on when you lay still as a statue underneath him. His head slowly dips down once more, pushing his hips against you just the slightest bit to make you remember the cock still inside you instead. Your eyelashes flutter with itâfuck, focusââI didnât know thereâd be more than two.â He kisses your neck so gently. âIt was an accident.â
You donât say anything at all, your mouth pinching down at the corners because it should but your heartbeat galloping with how⌠fucking sexy he is. You shouldnât encourage this, this horrible behavior just to get close enough to catch you, but your curiosity overtakes you and you ask a question youâve asked yourself before. âDid they put up a fight?â
âMm,â he whispers noncommittally, rocking his hips down once more. âYou did.â Your nails dig into his chest, making him falter just slightly before slowly kissing your neck again. âDid so good. Fought hard, outsmarted me. Pretty fucking girl.â
And then your eyes pop open as you feel it. His cock suddenly beginning to harden once again inside you, twitching and gradually gaining a thicker shape, and for a moment, you actually fucking consider it. Heâs the only one in this galaxy that could not only ruin you on these sacred grounds, but then coax you into doing it more than onceâstars, are you actually considering it?
âWe canât,â you automatically tell him, but itâs fucking pitiful. Zero effort, absolutely no umph behind it, leaving it entirely up to him and how much he wants it. Your logic reminds you that the kid is probably wreaking havoc in the nursery and there are tied up guards in the fucking temple that could be discovered any second. You shouldnât have even let him fuck you here in the first place, butâŚÂ âMando, we canâtââ
His mouth opens against the crook of your neck and his tongue brushes velvet hot on your skin, tasting the glistening sweat there and not moving his broad figure a single inch over you besides getting closer, deeper. Your nails dig into his collarbone, aiming for reason one last time. Itâs apparent that youâd be better off rephrasing, knowing the challenging streak in him and how much telling him what to do doesn't help.
âItâs not a good idea,â you attempt instead, breathless and trying not to move under his mouth and lazy hips. âNot smart. Bad idea to fuck again.â
Dinâs body stops moving, even though he keeps getting harder. His jaw opens and then his teeth scrape softly against your flesh, making you tilt your neck back and gasp.
âLater,â he lifts his head to state aloud, committing it to truth now that itâs been spoken and heard by another person. âLater, Iâll fuck you on the ship, in our bed, when I can get you naked and have your taste in my mouth.â
Tingles rock through your body and you squeeze around his cock just as he pulls it out and tucks it back into his pants. Your lungs quiver when you inhaleâitâs shaky, but it reminds you of how long itâs been since youâve been able to breathe correctly.
âLater,â you finally agree, combing your fingers through your hair and glad you have this hood to cover your freshly fucked dishevelment. He came inside you and you donât want to be leaking and getting your nice pretty robes all wet and stained, but then of course, without any prompting, Din quickly scoots back on his knees and drops his head down to take care of it for you.
***
Commotion.
After Din helped you clean up the way he sometimes likes and then disappeared to change back into his armor, you put your mask and hood back on and tried to look as casual as possible walking to the nursery. Your knees wobbled slightly and you couldnât stop smiling under the mask the entire walk there, but when you arrived, you just saw a dim room with sleeping infantsânot what you were expecting. Soon, however, you hear it: down the hall, distant and coming from the dormitories, you hear a loud commotion.
Fuck, youâre nearly wincing with every step you take now, and not because youâre sore. Well, you⌠are, a little bit, but in a great way. No, youâre just dreading the ridiculous shinanigans you already know are well underway, wondering if Din actually dropped the kid off in the dorms from the beginning or if he somehow migrated his way there to cause trouble.
When you walk inside, the first thing you see is a handful of crying and shouting toddlers, and while you canât immediately spot your favorite floppy-eared monster, you donât have to see him to know heâs probably standing tiny directly in the middle of this tense showdown. Automatically, youâre taking a few steps forward to rescue him, but then you stop as soon as you see what the other babies are so mad about. A large piece of chocolate leftover from the festival levitating just beyond their pitiful little reaches.
Hm. Who could possibly be responsible for using demon powers to steal snacks and hold them hostage from a sizeable group of hostile children. A mystery that may never be solved.
It makes you take a second. The sheer⌠the⌠stars, you canât even think straightâhow fucking typical it is just hits you right in the chest, sends your heart into orbit. Of course. Of course this is what heâs gotten himself into without immediate supervision, of course this is the shipwreck youâd walk into, and youâre holding back a chuckle before making a single move to intervene. In the midst of everything, you can hear adults approaching distantly from behind you.
ââdonât know where it came from, I was helping the younglings into bed when I heard the ruckus and Iââ
The voices gradually grow louder, and you snatch the floating piece of candy out of thin air and whip around right before Sister Drya and Naydee walk in. Their hushed, concerned conversation is cut to an abrupt end, and you clear your throat as they take you in, standing in front of chaos central continuing to go off behind you. Do you⌠look as freshly disheveled as you are? Youâre not supposed to be here, you know, but hopefully the only strange thing is your presence itself and not anything concerning your appearance.
âNerida,â the older lady suddenly announces, the name alone holding so much expectation, and the younglings missing their candy have now turned their ire towards you and the crinkly food wrapper hidden in your fist. âWhat is the meaning of this?â
âAh, yeah,â you stand up a little straighter, letting the chocolate casually fall out of your grip behind you, and a stampede of feet suddenly kick up to recover it. Itâs fine, nobody will know, itâs fine. âItâs justâŚâ Your head tips behind you to the cause of the uproar, feeling a bit sheepish yet so incredibly fond. âMy⌠kid.â
Sister Drya stares at you for a few seconds, before tipping sideways and staring at the culprit. âThat is your child?â
You turn around just in time to see him, now abandoned by the angry mob of children, finally notice you. All of a sudden, his pitch black eyes light up something bright and sunshiney, and you just start beaming in return. What an adorable little creature, apple of your eye and pain of your ass.
âYep,â you sigh, dropping into a squat and watching him barrel towards you, catching him right before he can trip over his brown potato sack and scooping him up into your arms. âHiya, bug,â you murmur with a grin, lifting back up and plopping him in his favorite spot in the universeâyour left hip. âYou making friends?â
He giggles and itâs like sparkles and bubbles fill the room instead, wrapping tiny arms around the largest surface area he can get and clinging. He laughs with a tiny open mouth, bless him, clearly not understanding the sarcasm, and suddenly your eyes feel just the slightest bit wet. No, youâre not crying, donât be fucking ridiculous, but you missed him like hell and heâs just the cutest fucking thingâwhy do you feel like crying?
âSorry about that,â you apologize to the two women while slowly turning around, brushing your thumb over one of his cheeks and smiling as it squishes. âHeâs⌠uh. Not great at sharing. Weâll work on it.â
Takes after his dad, you purposefully leave out, just a different kind of sharing. Din hasnât shown you his full face yet and the kid performs magic tricks to taunt a roomful of children a fraction of his age for a single piece of chocolate, completely different kind of sharing.
Sister Drya says something in response, but when you look up to address her, all you see is Din standing silently behind her and Naydee, slowly dropping his hand from his helmet to his side. They donât seem to notice heâs there and you automatically try your best to pay attention to the Sister speaking to you, but your eyes get caught on the silver reflecting in the dim light beyond. Fuck, heâs a presence. An immediate distraction, taking all your focus with a single glimpse. Seeing him fully armored again, staring at you from the silent shadows behind everything⌠you melt a little bit, knowing that youâve seen more of whatâs underneath than anyone. Your shoulders settle and your entire body burns warm, wobbly like the air around a fire, and one of the kidâs hands leaves you to reach out towards his dad.
You watch the metallic helmet tilt sideways after a moment, saying everything without saying anything. Come on, make up an excuse, letâs get out of here.
Looking at him in the quiet shadows, youâre reminded once again about how much you love him, how much softness you have inside you for a man so hard, so guarded. And, for the first time, a voice in your head finishes a poem you didnât realize you were writing, adding its own verse and bringing everything back around to the beginning. He loves you, too. How much he lets his guard down for you, the way heâs revealed more of his face to you than not. You love each other. Youâre family.
So, all at once, you decide to mess with him, because thatâs what family does best.
âDonât be shy, come say hello,â you suddenly urge his silent figure, taking a step forward and speaking directly to him. âSister Drya, Naydee, Iâd like to introduce you to myââ
Itâs remarkable, you see it happen in front of you. Like he has powers of his own, Din just literally fucking disappears. Like magic, heâs nowhere to be found within a blink of an eye. You know heâs capable of it; heâs done it plenty of times during the chase just to fuck with your head, but youâre staring straight at him when it happens this time and it might just be the funniest fucking thing youâve ever seen him do.
Sister Drya and Naydee both turn around to an empty hallway bathed in shadows and you laugh. A deep, shameless, loud belly laugh. Where the fuck did he go so quick? You were staring straight at him and you have no fucking clue. Heâs just out, and youâre left alone with his child and the unspoken understanding that heâll just catch up with you later.
Youâre giggling even as you shake your head and give the women your genuine thanks for keeping you and feeding you these past few days, grabbing your backpack with all your belongings and eventually using three green fingers to wave goodbye to them. The very first thing Din says when he seamlessly joins you outside the Keja later is, âThat wasnât funny,â which just makes you laugh harder.
***
About a half hour has passed, and youâre walking along a dirt road, cradling a very happy baby in your arms and giving the grown man next to you an incredibly hard time.
âYouâre unbelievable,â you mutter, your back twinging slightly at the way youâre leaning about as sideways as you can get without falling over. You think youâre basically just the hypotenuse between the ground and Din, who easily supports almost your entire weight with your backpack slung around his far shoulder and readily allows you to rest against him.
âTheyâre fine,â he grumbles in response, squeezing you tight to his side. You just have to focus on moving your feet; itâs like heâs practically carrying your upper-half anyways. âI gave them the night off.â
âYou stuffed them in a closet,â you hiss, feeling his shoulder shrug under your cheek.
âI gave them the robe back,â he says, not really defending himself and more just throwing it out there to see if it helps any. âIâm sure someoneâs found them by now, theyâre fine.â
Your eyes suddenly go wide, absolutely mortified at the thought. âWait. What do you mean you gave the robe back?â
He shrugs once more, apparently not seeing the problem yet. âI borrowed it, so I gave it back after I put my armor back on.â
If you could plant your feet on the dirt road and screech to a halt, you would, but all your weight is already resting on him and youâre working solely off his forward movement. You just hope your tone holds the same amount of shocked disapproval your body language wouldâve conveyed if you werenât so completely attached to his hip like a parasite he adores.
âYou fucked me wearing it, though.â Your voice is strangely flat, so fucking confused and horrified by the mental image of him just tossing the soiled garments haphazardly somewhere in the temple behind you, or even worse, leaving them somewhere respectful, and Din soon stops in the middle of the deserted road.
âOh,â is all he says, emotionless and blank through the modulator. Did he not even consider this?
âI had to promise them I was a virgin just to sleep there, you know,â you admit, and you can tell thatâs brand new information to him with how still he goes as you continue to lean against him. Youâre getting the feeling that he probably knows a lot more about your experiences on this moon than you think he does, but can tell that this is brand new information to him. âAnd you locked three of their holy men in a closet, chased me across the temple grounds, fucked me in one of their robes, and then. You gave it. Back.â
Din stays perfectly silent for quite some time. You can never go back to that place, you know this for a fact. Youâre banned forever now, itâs what you deserve.
Never one to be outdone but not actually having anything to say for himself, Din suddenly decides to just scoop you into his arms and boost up into the sky without a single word like an actual fucking maniac.
You squeal and damn near drop the baby because of it, but he cinches you tight to his chest and refuses to loosen with your struggle. Eventually, after you realize heâs completely locked you in and you wonât fall to your death with this poor innocent child in your arms, you glance over the shiny pauldron on his shoulder and watch the kidâs crib disappear by the abandoned road as Din takes you higher and higher.
The cribâhe forgot the cribâ
âD-Din,â you stammer out through the whistling air, stiff as a board. Stars, you have such a different sense of adventure than him; an explorer and a daredevil, one who gets a thrill from discovering the existence of the edge of a cliff and one whoâll take a running dive off of it without thinking twice. Heâs hit with blaster fire some days, he faces down death completely fearless like it owes him one every single time, and youâre stiff as a fucking board while he carries you through the sky. Itâs stunning up here, itâs exciting and wonderful, but youâre so scared that you can barely even look. Heâs giving you the most fantastical view, everything your budding adventurous streak could ever ask for, and your terror is crushing. It would be different if you could hold on, but youâre responsible for not letting the baby slip through your arms and you just have to trust that he wonât let you slip through his.
You raise your voice. âDin?!â
âI wonât drop you,â he automatically reassures, and well you sure as fuck hope not, but thereâs something else.
âWhat about the crib?â You call out over the wind whipping, tucking the baby tight to your chest and settling your hands over his ears to avoid them flapping and whacking you repeatedly in the chin.
âWeâll come back for it,â he responds, just as easily. Maker, you wish decision-making came that easy to you, that commitment and choice should be so simple as to just fly away from things on the ground and promise out loud to come back for them. You know he will, but still, his spontaneity shocks you after spending the past week thinking every decision through meticulously, and youâre taken aback by the casualness of it all while soaring through the sky, committing such spectacular feats without a single thought beyond it.
Soonâincredibly soon, which honestly kind of blows your mindâyou spot Nariss glowing in the distance and then youâre flying overtop of the city, slowly dropping altitude in the middle of a quiet little side street.
Din carefully allows your feet to settle on the ground before letting go, but you still stumble a bit stupidly after flying so high without any sort of safety measure besides him, prioritizing the steadiness of the baby in your arms instead of your feet underneath you. His gloves catch at your clumsy body and pull you along with him without another word, leading you out of the quiet alley and into the middle of a beautiful, luminescent street.
Whatâs he doing? He seems slightly hurried, and youâre clueless but you go with it, clamoring along behind him to wherever heâs leading you.
Though, you suddenly remember one of the very last things you told him last night right before he steps up in front of a vendor.
âCaf,â Din grunts, sliding a few credits towards the man standing behind the counter. âThe⌠biggest one you have.â
Okay, well. You could just about fucking cry.
âYâsure?â The vendor asks skeptically, jerking his head at the large thermos behind him. Heâs balding, wearing a white outfit with his eyes scrunched up and forehead sweaty, likely working all day. âIt ainât fresh. Closinâ up soon, was just about to trash it and go home.â
The helmet turns to gauge your response to the news, the sharp angles and contours looking so sleek and dangerous as they reflect the colorful lamplights, but just filling you with comfort beyond anything in the entire galaxy. Heâll take that armor off for you tonight and youâll sleep next to him. Heâll call you by your given name, or the fond name heâs given you, and youâll cuddle your baby on a metal floor in hyperspace with him, and all will be well. Even if he needs to leave again soonâeven if you donât get to go with him, youâll always have these small eternities with each other, and thatâs more enough for you now.
Youâre completely zoned out while staring at him, and Din turns back to the vendor before you can even remember the conflict he was attempting to defer to you.
âYeah, just empty the whole thing in there for her,â he mutters, and you want to marry him. Itâs been a long week, and in your haze and delight of being with him in this gorgeous setting, your brain turns to cavewoman mush. Big man, makes me happy. Strong man, loves me, knows me. Provider, makes me feel good, protector, loves me.
Din hands you the large cup of steaming caffeine, clueless to your grunted inner monologue but knowing better than to reach out and grab the kid from your other arm. Youâre just fine like this, hands full, the little frog snuggled up against your side and blinking up at your face instead of any of the shiny or glowing things around you. When you look down at him, you can see the world through his eyesâquite literally, theyâre reflective and giganticâand his fatherâs hand quickly finds its preferred spot on your lower back.
âTry to drink it quick,â Din advises you gruffly, pulling you snug into his side and sloshing the big cupful of piping hot liquid in your hand.
âItâs a thousand degrees,â you protest, trying to balance your three favorite things in the universe all begging for your direct attention at once. âIt has to cool down.â
He gives a dismissive hm in response, and you frown even as your heart soars with how tightly heâs gripping you, how little leeway you have to even move without him. Part of you is so thrilled at being reunited with him that you consider snarking something back at him, excitement making you brave. He could probably chug boiling hot liquid in thirty seconds and doesnât see the point in letting it sit any longer, and you could make some stupid joke about filtering it through his helmet or having a built in bendy straw but you decide to keep it to yourself.
So then you just stand there together, under stringed lights and flowers everywhere, and he waits. Holding you glued to his side, completely silent and clearly just waiting for your caf to stop steaming so threateningly in your hand so you can drink it. For some reason, the fact that heâs wanted by the New Republic doesnât really register at this secondâyouâre not looking for cops, though he may be. Youâre just lost in this beautiful, fancy city thatâs on the edge of finally quieting down after a long day, and youâd like to see more of it with him next to you.
âWell, do you wanna justâŚâ You ask, tilting your head around at all the vendors. âShop around for a bit?â
âShop⌠around,â Din repeats slowly, sounding the words out like theyâre not common Basic. Admittedly, they do sit a bit awkward in his voice when put together like that, describing a phenomena heâs likely never even considered a thing before, but itâs so fucking pretty here and youâd like to show him something this time instead of the other way around.
âYeah, like,â you shrug a shoulder, tipping your head in a random direction. Anywhere, youâll go literally anywhere with him, the three of you can go explore. âJust wander around, and look at all the pretty things.â
From where youâre standing right now, you can already see glittering crystals and jewels being sold at the tent across the street, thereâs a booth dedicated entirely to floral arrangements and crowns next to it, you can hear a distant quartet playing melodically in the distance and a couple is being painted by an artist on the corner. Bars are in full swing at this point, as if they werenât all day, and even though the merchandise is all different, the multicolored tents look slightly similar when theyâre underlit with multicolored lights. Itâs less slightly lively than it was in the daytime, but also⌠more beautiful, in a sense. Muted, softer, more romantic.
âI donât have any more credits,â Din admits casually, finally turning to look around at everything. You get the feeling that heâs just now seeing it, even after spending the entire day here. âThat stale caf was the last of it.â
Money well fucking spent, you can assure him of that.
âItâs okay,â you tell him automatically, gently bumping your hip into his. âWe donât need credits, we can just look.â
So thatâs what you do. Even though itâs completely not his fucking style, for the next hour or so, you just walk around downtown with him and sip your caf, looking at anything and everything new and experiencing it with him. At first, you think heâs just entertaining you, following you while you discover new streets and attractions, but then he points out different things and you know he's looking, too. There are large animals harnessed up and pulling carts for people to ride, there's an enormous spinning wheel set up in the distance, its colorful lights flickering out as soon as you ask what the fuck that is and why anyone would ever get inside one.
You eventually end up finishing your caf around the time heâs leading you back through a quiet, abandoned alleyway, and you hand him the empty cup to throw away in one of the trash cans on the corner. The conversation has faded to a comfortable quiet and you donât really need to askâyou go willingly, not requiring anything beyond his hands on you and the baby dozing in your arms.
âCome on, sweet girl,â he murmurs, gently sweeping you up into his. You sigh, glad heâs giving you a moment to prepare yourself this time, holding the sleeping kid securely to your chest and resting your head on his shoulder. âLetâs go home.â
After youâre comfortable, Din rockets up from the ground and climbs high up into the canvas sky. He disappears with you and the baby into the pastel clouds above, making it back to the Razor Crest in probably about an hour, maybe less. You and the baby do nothing more than climb into the comfy floor blankets while Din starts up the engines, and you think youâre dozing off together by the time he makes the pit stop to collect the crib and the jump into hyperspace.
You think he might shower? Youâre not sureâyou just know he moves up behind you in bed at one point without any armor, burying his face in your hair while you cuddle the sleepy kid to your chest. Itâs dark in the hull, Dinâs palms are bare and warm as they slide around the front of your body and he breathes you in, and there isnât a single place that can touch you here, not a single place youâd rather be.
Home.
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even winter ends | jjk
âł synopsis:Â jeon jungkook is winter, but like all seasons, winter eventually comes to an end.
âłÂ pairing: jeon jungkook x reader
âł word count: 3k
âł genre: angst, tiniest hint of fluff if you squint?
âł warnings: none
Ⳡa/n: i actually originally wrote this fic way back in june of last year because i suddenly got inspired even though christmas was literally six months away. i planned to post it during the holidays, but i was busy visiting my family, and i am not waiting another year to release this around wintertime! i hope you guys enjoy my first ever tumblr fic, and happy (not really) reading!
Jeon Jungkook is the personification of winter.
He is your favorite Christmas song, distinct and melodious, blasted on repeat as you dance around your apartment in your favorite red and black plaid pajama pants and black oversized tee shirt at ten oâclock on a Saturday morning.
He is the string of rainbow holiday lights adorning each and every one of the houses in your neighborhood, bright and captivating and inconceivably beautiful.
He is your favorite holiday movie, cheesy, flawed, and downright ridiculous at some points, but still managing to make a smile stretch across your face every time you watch it.
He is your favorite pair of thick, woolly socks, having come across them by chance and not particularly caring about them before eventually growing to realize how much you need them, especially during frigid and difficult times.
He is your favorite chipped mug, the one you fill to the brim with hot chocolate to sit with in front of the roaring fireplace as snow gently blankets the ground outside, the mere taste of the beverage warming you inside and giving you ecstasy.
He is the present that youâre most excited to open underneath the Christmas tree, because you can plainly see that it is wrapped delicately and with care. Itâs certainly not the largest or the prettiest one, but itâs the most appealing to you.
And when youâre finally able to open that present, whatâs inside is even better than its wrapping paper. Itâs none other than Jeon Jungkook, and he is all you ever wanted, all you ever needed. He is kind and generous and funny, loyal and trusting and sweet. He is good, and oftentimes it makes you wonder if he is just a dream, if his existence is a mere figment of your imagination.
But those thoughts are always dispelled when youâre in his embrace, his arms warm and strong and steady. Heâs your refuge from the horrors of the world, from the stress placed upon your shoulders due to school and work, and from the weight of the future that lies ahead.
When youâre in his embrace, the two of you are the only ones in the galaxy, in the universe. It is the two of you alone, without the presence of lingering worries or intrusive thoughts. You are frozen in time, eyes closed, bodies still, hearts beating in the same musical rhythm.
Unfortunately, as much as you wish you could, it is impossible to stay in Jungkookâs embrace forever, just like how it is impossible for the winter season to last year round. It is just that: a season.
Jeon Jungkook is your favorite Christmas song, now attached with an entire film reel of painful memories, eventually removed from all of your playlists once you discovered that you couldnât listen to it without crying, despite its joyful tune.
He is the string of rainbow holiday lights adorning each and every one of the houses in your neighborhood, including your own, which you couldnât have managed to put up in the first place without his assistance.
He is your favorite holiday movie, cheesy, flawed, and downright ridiculous at some points, now permanently stashed away in the very back of your large pile of DVDs, out of sight and out of mind.
He is your favorite pair of thick, woolly socks, now two sizes too small and much too itchy and inconvenient to wear, stuffed in the back of your socks drawer and forgotten amongst all of the other pairs.
He is your favorite chipped mug, the one that is no longer chipped but shattered to pieces, no longer in your possession but in a landfill somewhere far away where youâll never be able to get it back. He is your favorite chipped mug, the one you accidentally dropped onto the floor in shock after hearing the following six words leave his mouth: âI think we should break up.â
He is your favorite shattered mug, the one he immediately rushed to clean up by your feet and make sure that you werenât harmed, all while you stood there like an imbecile trying to process his words. He is your favorite shattered mug, the one thrown carelessly into the trash can after being with you for two years, impossible to be repaired.
He is the present you are still most excited to open underneath the Christmas tree, because you can obviously tell that it is wrapped delicately and with care. In comparison to the others, it still isnât the largest or the prettiest, but it remains the most appealing to you.
When youâre finally able to open that present, whatâs inside is even better than its wrapping paper, because itâs none other than Jeon Jungkook. He is all you ever wanted, all you ever needed. And you love him. You love him more than he will ever be able to fathom, and that is a fact.
It is also a fact he doesnât love you back. At least, not anymore.
Jeon Jungkook breaks up with you exactly a week before Christmas. He shoots you a text at ten oâclock on the dot when you are already in the middle of your weekly Saturday dance session, so you donât see it until a few minutes afterward.
The text message has no underlying tones, just a simple âhey, can i come over?â It isnât out of the ordinary since the two of you are typically always at each otherâs places; Jungkookâs apartment is your second home, just how yours is his. However, itâs been a while since either of you have gone over to each otherâs residences, too caught up in the hustle and bustle of life. You swiftly reply with a âyou already know the answerâ before heading into the kitchen to prepare a mug of hot chocolate for when he arrives, your own mug already in hand.
Three distinct knocking sounds against wood approximately fifteen minutes later prompt you to make your way over to the front door, and without even having to look through the peephole, you already know that itâs Jungkook outside. (Heâs the only one who chooses to knock rather than ring the doorbell.) When you open the door, heâs standing before you wearing a plain black short sleeved shirt and grey sweatpants, which his hands are stuffed in the pockets of.
You stand on your tiptoes and press your lips to his cheek like you always do when you see him, greeting him with a âgood morningâ before leading the way back into the kitchen. Jungkook crosses the threshold of your apartment silently, shutting the door behind him before murmuring a barely audible âgood morningâ in return and following after you.
Instantly, your gut tells you that something is up with Jungkook. His demeanor is off and his attitude is noticeably much less enthusiastic than the several other times heâd visited your apartment before. However, you try to ignore the nagging feeling, shoving it away to the best of your abilities as you hand Jungkook his hot chocolate, supplied in the mug he always uses when he comes over. You chalk it up to the fact that Jungkook is just not a morning person. He never has been and never will be, and you donât blame him because you arenât either. Having Jungkook there with you admittedly makes mornings a lot better, though.
He takes his hot chocolate from you without a word, bringing it up to his lips for a fraction of a second before setting it down on the kitchen island. You arenât sure who he thinks heâs fooling, because anyone can tell that he didnât take a sip of the drink.
Rather than push him to speak his mind, you lift your own mug up to your lips, finishing the last of the hot chocolate youâd made for yourself earlier. Jungkook calls your name quietly once youâre done drinking and you turn to look at him, patiently waiting to hear whatever it is thatâs been plaguing his thoughts since before he arrived.
âI think we should break up.â
The hand thatâs wrapped around your mug involuntarily loosens out of shock and your mug slips from it and falls to the floor, meeting it with a raucous crash that shatters the mug into several small pieces, scattering all around your feet and miraculously none piercing your skin. You donât comprehend whatâs just happened even as Jungkook rushes to the supply closet in the hallway to grab the broom and dustpan and returns to the kitchen in the blink of an eye. He hurriedly sweeps a safe path to you and kneels down, checking to make sure that none of the shards injured you. After a thorough examination, he begins silently sweeping the pieces of the mug around you into a neat pile, and does so without meeting your eyes.
Throughout all of this, you remain silent, though finally having come to your senses and stepping out of the way as he works to clean up the mess you made.
You canât help but wonder if perhaps thatâs why heâs breaking up with you. Is it because you always make messes that he has to deal with the aftermath of? Are you too high-maintenance for him to handle?
Once he finishes sweeping all of the broken pieces into a pile and then moving them into the dustpan, he opens up the trash can and pours everything in, every last piece of your favorite mug. You can't help but feel a tad bit resentful about the action. Obviously, the mug is shattered beyond repair, but he still chooses to throw it away without hesitation, without a second thought, just like that.
Perhaps thatâs why heâs breaking up with you. Not necessarily because of your attachment to inanimate objects, but because of the sentimental value you hold to things, the powerful emotions you feel. Although he feels things just as deeply as you do, Jungkook has always had difficulty expressing his emotions. It was one of the obstacles you had to overcome in the early stages of your relationship, and nowadays, he showers you with love and affection.
At least, he used to. Somewhere along the line, apparently something went wrong.
Jungkook leaves to return the broom and dustpan to their places in the supply closet before entering the kitchen again, eyes on you with the intention of providing an explanation. He yearns to clarify what he means, and you can tell he does. Words tumble out of his mouth at the speed of light, stringing together sentences revolving around the typical âItâs not you, itâs meâ blather, which really means âIt is you, but I still care for you and I donât want to hurt your feelings.â You canât help but notice that the pet name âbabyâ falls from his lips exactly twice, most likely out of habit.
Everything he says goes in one ear and out the other as you selfishly try to memorize the way he says that one word, how melodious it is to your ears and the shape his mouth makes when he does so. Instead of focusing on whatever it is that heâs telling you, you try to memorize those things, and you hope with all of your heart that youâll be able to recall it for a long time, because you know youâll never hear him call you that again in this lifetime.
Jungkook seems to have finally ended his nonsensical and unnecessary speech slash apology, but you donât dare meet his eyes, unsure of how youâd emotionally and verbally react. This will probably be your last time seeing him, wonât it? Do exes typically keep up with each otherâs social media? Arenât they supposed to cut off all contact with each other, never to cross paths again? That seems to be a common occurrence with all of your friends and their past lovers.
âPlease say something,â Jungkook begs quietly, the silence from you eating away at him. âAt least look at me.â
Your body reacts before your brain can, and youâre doing as he requested, elevating your gaze from the floor in order to meet his eyes. Looking at him, you donât feel anger. Youâre not sure if you can ever feel that emotion toward him. You donât feel hurt either, you realize surprisingly. You just feel⌠sentimental, in a way. You trace the shape of his nose with your eyes, follow the line of his jaw, outline the curve of his lips, count the beauty marks on his face. This is the face of the man youâve grown to love. This is the face of the man who no longer loves you back.
Perhaps another person standing in your shoes would fight for your relationship and dig those broken mug pieces out of the trash can to glue together in a desperate attempt to fix it. But youâd be lying if you said you didnât see this coming. Itâs the reason why you were so afraid of getting attached to Jungkook in the first place. The process of him falling out of love with you was just as effortless and smooth and accidental as the process of him falling in love with you was.
Finally, you open your mouth to speak. âI donât really know what you want me to say, Jungkook.â
âI donât want you to say anything specific, I justâŚâ He sighs and his hand stretches out toward you, as if he wants to hold your hand in his and rub his thumb over the back of it soothingly like heâs done so many times before, but he stops himself and shoves his hand back into his pocket. âI just donât want you to hate me.â
âI could never hate you,â you reply, because itâs true. You could never hate a single bone in his body, could never wish to harm a single hair on his head. You could never, and it all comes down to the fact that you love him. So you decide to tell him that, because you know that youâll never get the chance to do it again. âI love you too much.â
âI love you too,â he says, but you can tell he only says it out of habit. It is so blatant that the intimate phrase is meaningless to him, and that there are no true feelings behind those words. You canât help but wonder if itâs been like that throughout the entirety of your relationship, and if you were just too blindsided by your own love to notice.
âIs that, uh, all you came over for?â you ask, unsure if you can handle being in his presence any longer now that the two of you were officially broken up and your now ex-boyfriend is just standing there in your kitchen like itâs nothing.
âUm⌠yeah,â he says awkwardly. âI didnât want to do⌠you know, it, over text or call. I feel like that wouldâve been insensitive.â
âYeah. Thank you for that,â you reply genuinely and he nods. Youâre glad he cares enough not to break your heart in one of the aforementioned ways. You donât know what you wouldâve done if he did, but it probably wouldâve been something much worse than accidentally dropping your favorite mug.
You keep sending casual glances over in the direction of the front door, hoping for Jungkook to get the hint instead of you having to verbalize your request for him to leave, and thankfully, he does.
âI think Iâll get going now,â he says quietly, and he begins walking over, his hand lightly brushing against yours as he moves past you to get to the exit. You ignore the spark you receive from the split second of physical contact. He stops in front of the door, one hand on the knob, and turns back to where youâre standing.
âBaby,â Jungkook breathes, and suddenly your heart rate is speeding up twice its normal rate. You were wrong earlier. That is the last time youâll ever hear him call you by that name. âCan I pleaseâŚâ
âCan you please what, Jungkook?â you ask, and you can tell by the way his breath hitches that he, too, is memorizing every last bit of you, from the way you part your hair to the way you say his name.
âCan I please hold you?â he asks, his grip on the doorknob already loosening. âOne last time?â
If you thought your heart rate was erratic before, itâs even worse now. You could hardly hear his words over the rapid thumping of your heart against your ribcage. What was he trying to do, playing with your heart by asking to hold you one last time when he was the one who made the decision to give up on you? You donât know if this is some sick tactic to get you to miss him more when he ultimately leaves, but you do know that you arenât going to decline his request.
Not for his sake, but for your own. You deserve to be selfish just this once.
You exit the kitchen and run over to Jungkook, throwing your arms around his neck. You take him by surprise and knock him backward a couple of steps, but he doesnât hesitate to wrap his arms around your smaller figure with the same degree of tightness that youâre holding him. He buries his face in your neck and you feel him inhale deeply against your skin, taking in your aroma. Itâs taking everything in you not to burst into tears in his embrace, the last one heâd ever grace you with.
âThank you for being the first person I ever loved,â he says, effectively shattering your heart into pieces, just like your favorite chipped mug.
You shut your eyes tightly and savor the moment. Youâre in Jungkookâs warm, strong, and steady embrace, and he is your refuge. Youâre in Jungkookâs warm, strong, and steady embrace, and the two of you are the only ones in the galaxy, in the universe. Youâre in Jungkookâs warm, strong, and steady embrace, and you are frozen in time, eyes closed, bodies still, but hearts no longer beating in the same musical rhythm as they once did.
You force yourself to pull away first, and the moment is gone all too quickly. Jungkook seems to have difficulty letting go of you, but he still does so, albeit unwillingly. He almost looks like he regrets his decision to end your relationship, like he wants to change his mind about it. You decide not to give him a chance to, though, because whatâs done has been done, and if Jungkook no longer wants you in his life, then so be it.
You pull open the door and look back at Jungkook, who, despite his tall stature, seems so small standing there beside you. His hands are back in the confines of his pockets and as he stares at you, heâs biting down on his bottom lip so hard you worry it might bleed.
You open your mouth to bid him farewell and the typical âI love youâ crawls up your throat out of habit, but you prevent those words from slipping out of your mouth.
Instead you opt for, âI guess this is where we go our separate ways.â
âI guess it is.â
You muster a small, tight-lipped smile, not wanting your last moments together to resemble anything of the negative sort. âGoodbye, Jungkook,â you say, and you almost add, âIâll miss you,â to the end but decide against it.
Jungkook seems crestfallen, though you donât know why. He takes a look around your apartment, one last good look, before turning back to you, managing a small, tight-lipped smile of his own. âGoodbye, Y/N.â
And just like that, he leaves. You silently shut the door behind him and make your way back into the kitchen and over to the sink, pouring out his full mug of hot chocolate thatâs now gone to waste. You walk into the living room afterwards, collapsing onto the couch, and stare into space for several moments. Then you begin to cry.
Jeon Jungkook is the personification of winter.
But like all seasons, winter eventually comes to an end.
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