#Option Paralysis

[guerrilla-operator]

The Dillinger Escape Plan // Farewell, Mona Lisa

Wash it down the drain Drown the dream Wash your smile down Wash it down the drain please Like animals destined for fuel or observance Our role is clear never stray far from the path Everything must have an end

[onesonghastogo]

option paralysis by the dillinger escape plan ^_^

[stargazer333]

I'm not crying, you're crying... 🖤🖤🖤 The Dillinger Escape Plan and PETA

[depravednotdeprived]

Four Year Strong Option Paralysis sticker sheet via PureNoise records

[scificrows]

i like to make fun of murderbot for being all "i hate everyone, i don't care about anything or anyone, fuck off" while simultaneously caring very much about the people around it and the situations it finds itself in. i love how it "accidentally" ends up caring quite a lot about the friends it makes along the way. but i think something that i tend to forget is that murderbot actively decides to care - at least at some point in its story.

idk, as a person that struggles with depression, this paragraph from artificial condition really resonates with me. prior to all systems red, murderbot had contracts. it had routine and it had protocols. it knew what it had to do to just get by, how to perform so no one would notice it had disabled its governor module. it was deeply depressed, yes, but it was functioning (for lack of a better word). in artificial condition, murderbot's routine is gone. it cannot go on in that state of numbly going-from-contract-to-contract, putting in as little effort as possible, consuming media to cope. that option is gone because it escaped (and note that escaping the company was not an active choice, it kinda happened to it). murderbot has two options now: it can either gather all its energy; actively do something new and difficult and distressing; change something in its life and try. or it can let the numbness and the emptiness take over and stop trying. if murderbot wants to survive as a rogue secunit, it has to try. no matter how difficult that is. the wording in that paragraph really hits home for me. the way the non-caring sees an opportunity to slip in and to take over. does murderbot even care? does anything really matter? is anything really worth the hassle? wouldn't it be so much easier to just let your mind slip away a little, to go numb, to be passive, to watch media and wait for things to happen to you? wouldn't it be nice to stop thinking and struggling and feeling complicated things? to stop making an effort? you've been dealing with a lot lately and maybe it's time to just shut down. maybe you'll just take a little break. just slip deeper into this chair and start the show. time flies when you're not paying attention. trying is exhausting. who cares if you don't do the things you wanted to do, you were supposed to do. it'll be fine. let's just ignore those things for now. just let the non-caring take over. just stop thinking. you can deal with the aftermath later. just watch your shows. who cares. but murderbot cares. it decides to care. it decides to fight with all it has and i think that is so brave. and i think in the later books caring is less of an active decision for murderbot. once you start caring, it's easier to keep going than to stop; and murderbot, for all its "i'm a grumpy rogue secunit, leave me alone" behavior, knows just how important caring is. so it's not that it doesn't know what's happening; rather, it lets itself care. tl;dr: caring is not the default for murderbot, it's just the more difficult of two options. and it decides not to take the soft option. it decides to struggle. it decides to care. and so it does.

[menlove]

the way that changing your circumstances should work, i think, is that you should be able to close your eyes and clap your hands and wish really hard and when you open them again everything worked out in the best possible way and you didn't even have to make any tough decisions or go through all the necessary steps to change your circumstances. this would be better!

[haredjarris]

it's autism dinner hours in my house tonight!

save me pickerwheel

pickerwheel save me

[themeraldee]

Boo, who's been procrastinating writing all weekend? Me. Who's not gonna get another kinktober fic I promised this week? You 😞

However just to hold myself accountable bcs it's a lot easier to write when there's a deadline I do still wanna get it out in a day or so, sooo wish me luck!

[ping-ski]

do you take commissions by chance? 🥺

nope! it's rare that i do anymore, sorry! <3

my commissions are usually open when im suuuper tight on cash/emergencies. i have 2 jobs rn and the big downside is that i just don't have much time for myself- let alone draw for someone else!

however, if i do open commissions again, similarly to requests, i'll make a post about it with info! <3

that being said, im not taking requests right now either. (too busy ;w;)

[wraithdolll]

can u guys give me canon wof character drawing requests i wanted to do my own wof character a day challenge but the list is too big and intimidating

[wizardnuke]

this is a lighthearted little informational about parasomnias (disruptive sleep-related disorders) that happen when you're falling asleep/waking up. because some of the tags on my exploding head syndrome poll are blowing my mind. more than the ehs does. i am not a doctor i am just parasomnias georg.

hypnagogic/hypnapompic hallucinations are hallucinations that happen when you're falling asleep/waking up. they can be visual, tactile, or auditory. i most often experience auditory hallucinations, and i hear footsteps and indistinct voices. a lot of people hear someone calling their name. when i was little, i had tactile hallucinations that felt like someone was touching/holding my hand. 70% of people experience hypnic hallucinations at least once, plenty of people experience them regularly, and they're completely harmless and they're also not a warning sign that you have or will develop any mental illnesses that involve hallucinations/psychosis.

hypnic jerks are that falling sensation you get as you're falling asleep. we know this one. it's harmless.

exploding head syndrome (or episodic sensory cranial shocks, which doesn't sound any better) happens when you hear a very loud sound (banging, crashing, gunshots, etc) as you're falling asleep/waking up. some people also experience visual/sensory effects (flashing lights or a popping sensation) with it. they're uncommon but once again, completely harmless despite the whole "feels like brain exploded" thing. ive recently learned that a lot of people only hear a sound/see lights and don't have a corresponding popping sensation in their head, which i am jealous of.

ehs is not the same as hypnic hallucinations - hypnic hallucinations can absolutely be startling/scary, but they don't have a jumpscare factor. if you hear someone whisper your name and it kind of wakes you up, that's a hypnic hallucination. if you hear someone scream your name and it makes you startle awake kind of like you would with a hypnic jerk, that's ehs.

hypnic hallucinations, hypnic jerks, and ehs are all exacerbated by stress, a lack of sleep, and medication use. i 100% have them more often when i'm stressed/overtired, and fairly recently i managed to triple-threat myself by starting a new medication and had like ten instances of hypnic jerks/ehs in one night. but that's okay! the brain does weird things when you're stressed and tired, and it often continues to do weird things even when you're not stressed and/or tired just because that in-between sleep/wake state is a weird liminal zone for your brain and sometimes it sets off the wrong signals. they're not a sign of underlying mental or physical illnesses! of course talk to a doc if your symptoms are concerning or getting in the way of sleeping, but. yeah. it's all good!

[satanic-fruitcake]

what the fuck is wrong with meeee 👍

[dandelionjack]

i can’t start testosterone because being viewed as a masculine person will prevent me from embodying my self-assigned fairytale roles (the fridged girlfriend who motivates the partner to keep fighting/the lonely girl who falls in love with some shunned monstrous being/the naive protagonist of a cautionary tale folksong being led astray by a mysterious stranger) i suppose you can still identify with these archetypes if you’re some kind of waifish twink but knowing what my father looks like i’d become the opposite of my self-perception ideal. on the other hand if i don’t get top surgery soon i’m going to suffocate under the weight on my chest tragically cheesy pun intended. do you choose a story or a liveable life. i should die for something worthwhile before i’m forced to make that choice. time is running out i’m becoming a woman and it terrifies me. either i remain a girl forever frozen in time through death or i transition now and become something unknowable to myself

[mothric]

I just fell asleep on the floor and had a dream that Daniel Thrasher was crabwalking in my living room while making direct eye contact and when I asked if he was ok he said "it's crab walking time" while backing himself down a set of stairs and out of sight

[descendant-of-truth]

Okay I've been stuck on this for my Frontiers AU/rewrite for entirely too long now, so I gotta ask. If Sonic were to give The End a nickname before finding out their identity (like he did with say, Chip), what do you think it would be?

Potentially important context: Sonic has amnesia from the very start. The End is, ironically, the first person he ever meets, and by the time he's nicknaming them, they've earned his trust.

I've considered Radio, Echo, Choir/Chorus, Gale, Raine, Chord, Decibel... and not all of those are out of the question, but it's hard to figure out what Sonic would call them. He doesn't have a lot to go off of even in my own story, because they're just "a mysterious voice in the sky" who gives him information. and who he makes fun of a little bit for not having a sense of humor

So now I consult the fanbase on this one: got any new ideas for what they should be called? Or maybe you want to vote for one of the ones I already came up with? They're gonna be called this for like 90% of the story, so it's important that it works

Edit: About a week's worth of story development later, and I think I've reached a decision on the name! I won't reveal it in this post, but it's one that wasn't originally listed.