#Oooooof that was worth it

[fareehaandspaniards]

In case anyone was wondering, why my nickname is Fareeha AND some Spaniards, answer is right under the cut! (Since Tumblr is basically a diary, and I REALLY want to describe, tell, write down, draw and even put it in my blog) Long post ahead! Many screenshots, personal stuff, memes etc.

So you decided to read... Good :'D

It started with Dark Souls 3. The first game experience was very exciting. I spent for about 3 hours creating a character, dealing with a disgustingly made character editor, and they came out.... Simply terrible. Some chubby-cheeked femboy (I have nothing against it, even like it sometimes, but he looked really terrible) with a face like he wants to betray you right now, taking away your family castle and all your feudal possessions. What a waste of time… Also it was sad that I spent 3 hours in the game without starting it. Therefore, I deleted this character and hastily, literally in 5 minutes, created new one - I barely changed one of the in-game templates - slightly lengthened the nose (because big noses are an art); decided to take a hairstyle that would be a little feminine, but at the same time more or less practical - a bun :’D ; made a slightly more stern appearance and it turned out that he was very attractive! There was a problem with the name, but then I also took the first one that came to mind - Esteban. I took the Deprived class because I couldn’t decide who I want him to be and I also wanted to try the so-called “most difficult class,” which turned out to be the most comfortable.

During the game I fell in love with him so much exactly the way he was - and he turned out to be a little frivolous, jester, Casanova, just a handsome guy in my favorite armor of the Black Knights (those devils look INCREDIBLE and make me squeal) and funny older brother of my husband's character.

Tbh now I see that I am making a kind of a doll game out of Fromsoftware games, as it was in childhood - all my characters have their own story, relationships, preferences and strong family bonds lmaooo Why not (I won’t stop)

Esteban was the first "Spaniard". Playing with him as my avatar was incredibly fun - numerous deaths were not perceived so hard, there were LOTS of funny moments, I was scolding Esteban, amusing my husband… In general - we became close, and for a long time finishing the game I could not calm down and was talking about him too much (I genuinely don’t know how my hubbo puts up with me). I was drawing, even wrote a fanfic. And since I LITERALLY CAN’T live without a romantic story, Esteban was the first simp of Prince Lothric and a little bit of Orbeck and Fire Keeper xdd

After DS3, we started Elden Ring. There I created Miguel - also a spaniard, Wretch, cheerful, but more mischievous and feminine than Esteban. I couldn't stop changing his appearance for a very long time until I found something that suits Miguel and fully reflects his character. I really liked Gideon Ofnir, well, really, really liked, but Miguel didn’t share my interest, and I couldn’t really ship them (except for a few explicit drawings :’D). Miguel stayed with Ranni, whom I love dearly, and I started the game again, with a new character. I created a girl. She turned out to be french and received the name Fiquet, and she not only gave me inspiration to finally write a fanfic about her and Gideon, but also brought me mental satisfaction because I finally took the Sorcerer class and spent the entire game killing enemies so easily (except for Mogh and Malenia) with a few hits, without tactics, thinking or other crap. Fiquet, my girl Q_Q

I miss them, enjoy the pics of them

Hello, sir :^)

After Elden Ring we started DS1, where Ramon was created in the same way, and also Jose in DS2 (I didn’t go further than Majula, I can’t help it - I don’t like this game. The desire to continue appears only because of Jose, who is my funniest character I think)

Ramon as his is. No screenshots of Jose, he jumped of a cliff and now looks kinda bad lol...

So it became a tradition to start the game with pathetic (I mean his class xd) spaniard and continue with girl (although I have only Fiquet for now. Others are not much remarkable). That’s how Guillermo was created for playing Bloodborne! I already did absolutely everything I could in BB (I even created a female character to come to Edgar so choir boy won’t be so sad :'D), but Guillermo remains with me - kind, sweet, a little nervous, like an angel from vintage postcards (I see him that way xD), caring, kind of mother figure, confident in his rightness, responsive and sensitive, but at the same time with an impenetrable moral shield (I mean, it’s impossible in any way hurt his feelings). I brought him together with Micolash (not surprising, I guess), came up with a tragic and romantic story for them and an AU with a continuation of the plot after the squid hunter ending for a happy end, endowed him with the blessing of Kos and gave him a backstory. There is something attractive about it when a man receives the blessing of a female deity who protects women - it says a lot about him as a more feminine person on the inside than he appears on the outside.

When I imagine any cool plot with Guillermo x Micolash, I feel like

Guillermo in case if you hadn't see him already:

You know, all my oc x canon look like that

(my OCs are always sort of Sportacus for their loved ones lol And also their loved ones are almost every time evil and edgy)

With all this I want to say that my spaniards and Fiquet have probably become like children to me... I love them, I continue to write about them, they are an integral part of my perception of games, and yes, this is probably really a peculiar need to play with dolls at my age xd Maybe that's why Guillermo wears Doll's gloves, Esteban enjoyed wearing Zullie the Witch's dress and gloves (with ADORABLE manicure yknow!!!) and etc lol...

Thanks for reading! I love to tell stories (As you may guessed lol), tho it take a plenty of time to translate it. Love yall

[theneighborhoodsave]

WIP for the first home in Pendula View, a historical Victorian mansion for the Williams-Hirose Family. This shell was oooooof... so complicated! It took me a majority of my day to work out all of the elements. I'm confident it's going to be beautiful when it's finished and totally worth the effort!

[screampied]

‼️ GOTTA WORK 💪🏼 GOTTA MAKE THAT MONEY 💰 MAKE PURSE 👜

WOOOOOO AN ATINY HERE ?????? OMGGGGGG ATEEZ IS MY FAV BOYZGROUP TOO ‼️‼️‼️‼️live laugh love ateez i lob them sm GIRLLLLLLL i’m so happy i found my people 🫂🫂🫂 who’s your bias i’m curious 👀

ooo fun day nice ! what did you get for dinner and drinks ? :))) omggg plants i recall you telling me you had plants some months ago how are you fine ass plants doin’ ?🤭🤭🤭 did you buy something online ? (’ω’)

yeah i hope i won’t flop 2025 too, i hope only the best for this year for everyone 🤸🤸🤸 OMG SONG WRITING I GOT INTO IT RECENTLY TOO WE’RE MATHCING but samies here it’s so hard to find good lyrics but the thing is that i don’t compose songs and all bc i don’t know which app to use and i don’t have instruments so i do my lyrics over nothing :D OOOOO NEW BASS GUITAR it’s so cool🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼🙏🏼

thakn you vegas, don’t forget to rest too ! (and get tacos again, i swear it’s all worth it🙏🏼🙏🏼)

for boxing 🥊, the first session was pretty cool and relaxed we just hit the box sack (box bag?? idk) and tried some moves but yeah it’s pretty good it’s worth a try! it would suit you real good 😈😈😈 aaaaa martial arts i wanna try it one day 🤞🏼🤞🏼

yes me too i’d love to try bts but, army’s are what scares me the most… THANKS FOR THE RECS ILL TRY AND TELL YOU!!!! i did not really tried girls groups since now but i reaaaally wanna try so i’ll let you know 🦧🦧 ENHYPEN 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂 bless their heart, who’s your bias :3333??

OOOOOOF thanks a lot for your recs vaygus theyre really precious💋💋💋 thanks for everything and have a good day night and dreams !!

-🌟

I LOVE ATEEEEEEZ my bias is minji :3 their coachella performance was so ????? 💪💪 ahh def my fav group of this year fs. who’s yours 🫵

i ate some macaroni pie, hot pot ‘n fried rice for dinner !!!! visited my folks, had some yummy caribbean dishes was soooo yum. hehe my plants are doing good !!!! 💞 recently bought a venus fly trap n she’s so <3

AHHHH SONG WRITING TWINS PERIOD. ur right !!! i mostly write songs just for fun, i love thinkin im like bruno mars 💪 i just write anything, i prefer playing the bass tho hehe. YEAAAAH i got a new one, got it for a discount too which was niceeee. i wanna learn electric guitar later this year also that’d be cool. need my jimi hendrix moment 💯

oooof ur right. i think some of the fandom is pretty sweet tho !!! u just gotta look out for those ones, i do wanna get into bts one day tho. RAAAAH ENHYPEN 🔥🔥 my bias is def sunoo

[shibe-myths]

ANGST TIME! Ro reaction to the mc getting all dressed up for a date but it’s with someone else?

Oooooof, Poor ROs. I'm gonna assume this is in the crush stage. And as I write this. I'm starting to realize that some of these romance options have more red flags than I knew.

Lady B: She hides her feelings well, going out of her way to use the opportunity to help the MC get ready. Be that doing their makeup, picking out their clothes, smothering the mc with words of advice. Anything to have that extra bit of time. And when the MC leaves, she tasks one of the Masked Mercers into watching your every move.

Bernie: They can't quite hide the fact that they're disappointed. Pouting slightly as they appraise the MCs outfit. Sticking closer than they should, never straying as the MC gets ready. Hell, bernie would even take the time out of their day to chat with the MC's intended date. Threatening them in such a way that it would go over most people's heads. But, if you look closely, there is an EDGE to their gaze. As if the only thing on their mind is to rip that rat bastard to shreds.

You never do go on that second date... hmm.

Laz: If Laz has an interest in the MC, I can see them downright blackmails your date into bailing. And it will work, trust me. As the hours would tick by, Laz would go out of their way to ensure that you end up despising that jerk by the end of the night. And then, like a good friend, they'll curl up unreasonably close with some shitty romance novels and sweets.

To help with the heartache of course.

Amyntas: He outright BITCHES the entire time. Finding anything and everything wrong with your date. All the way down to the way they breathe. (Its just so fucking annoying, ya know). By the time that douchebag decides to show their face. He's puffed up worse than a cat. Pacing up and down the halls, half ready to go feral.

And he will go feral if let loose.

Bishop: He does nothing that night, maybe wish you luck. Stays up late to make sure you get home safe. But when you've come back? Safely tucked in bed? He forces Indie to go find your date for details. Every last one. He has to know.

That his ideas of seducing you are better than theirs.

Indigo: She's pulling out the wine and fancy oud. Serenading the MC as they get ready. Fluttering about with all her bits and bobs. Letting her magic slip in here and there until the MC is practically vibrating with excitement. And then she sends them off to have their fun. Like any sane, rational woman whose secretly madly in love with their friend would do. She isn't jealous, she swears.

Okay maybe a little.

Peri: Bold of you to assume that Peri isn't already your date.

here's the secondary romances.

Asha: She laughs and asks if you'd like her to spare your date a plate. What? You're obviously not going out THIS late at night. Besides, Flin wants to bake cookies with you. And how could anyone refuse that lil dragon pout?

Lace: Spends the entire time that the MC is getting ready, getting progressively more annoyed at the fact that your date didn't think to invite your beloved sugar baby along. He's the prettiest boy in the whole of Ibereli gods damn it. He should ALSO be wined and dined!

Somehow your date ends up as their own third wheel, trapped in a crippling amount of debt as Lace drags you about the bazaar. Happy to be spoilt like the prince they truly aren't

Ribbon: She straight up asks if she could possess your date so that you two could ruin the fool financially. If that doesn't work she'll give a lecture about knowing your worth and to keep an extra blade on you, just in case.

The stranger: Wishes you luck, but otherwise ignores you for the rest of the night.

[schnaf]

I kinda want to ask you all of them, but these are my favourites: 5, 10, 11 and 25 for the End of the Year Asks ✨

OOOOOOOH i would have been fine with that too ♥

5. TV show of the year?

oh godddd ironically i didn't watch any tv series this year (or at least i didn't finish any or it wasn't worth remembering i guess)....... but oh i've got a web series i guess? i got into UNHhhh this year and it became my comfort show ♥

10. Something that made you cry this year?

wOW before i looked up this question, i was still dwelling on that time on the train when i cried the whole time and then i saw there was a new episode of UNHhhh and it actually made me stop crying for 15 minutes ♥ i cried many, many times this year......... well, every year and it won't change next year i guess (except i donate my tear glands to science). i mostly cry out of frustration or anger, sometimes i'm straight up sad i guess, but i'm going to pick something nice and that's said train trip. it was the day after a concert and the concert was so neat and i was so happy and the next day.............................. i just cried for hours. because i missed it i guess? because i wanted to go back? but not even in a sad sense, in a "it's gone now and who knows when it will happen again". it was a lot.

11. Something you want to do again next year?

once again, i can refer to the previous question 😭 i want to see bands i love live again. luckily, i already bought tickets for january. (HOW AM I GONNA HANDLE IT WHEN ALL OF MY CONCERTS ARE OVER) i also want to go to london again which is connected to the january tickets. and i'd love to write a lot again ♥

25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one

OOOOOOF. so i don't have many actual oc's, most of them aren't worth mentioning. (i gave one of my main characters a little sister tho and i'm quite content with her because she's bitchy but also lovely) but hm in the big fic i started this year i have a set of besties and i love them and their dynamics ♥ one of them is rational, the other one emotional but the rational one can be really soft and the emotional one really mean. they're really close and even when they spend more time with their boyfies, they still don't let go of each other ♥

thank you so much! ♥

End of the year Asks

[defenestratin]

Would your sidestep be more upset if the Rangers accepted they turned evil or assumed they were brainwashed?

OOOOOOF this is a good question omg!!!! I hope you don’t mind me just GOING here 👁👁

Mal would be upset in both circumstances but for different reasons, both involving the notion of choice.

For the latter, he’d sympathize in a way because he at least has something bigger, more tangible to hate, where he can direct his anger without any second thoughts. Brainwashing he can handle, he knows then they aren’t in control, but the former…

If the Rangers were to accept they turned evil then that’s a conscious choice they make, and while Mal’s morals are in a bit of a flux, this would muddy the waters of what he considers worth fighting for. It’s not that he didn’t believe the Rangers were good, he definitely did during his time as Sidestep because they made him BELIEVE in something, and a part of him still believes that they are doing their best to be good. There’s a parallel there to himself being seen as evil but for Mal the root of his anger in this case would be “I’m fine being the bad guy, but you didn’t have to be”. He believes that there’s good in the world, even if it isn’t meant for him, but he can’t deal with the idea of that good thing being fake and tainted. In that case, what was the point of it all?

Thank u for the ask!!! Have a couple of Mals for asking about him!

[dangermousie]

One of the reasons this relationship has a chance is that unlike Dilruba, Efnan will never hide away and confront things head on, forget pride, masks or fear. Aziz, much as I adore him, is a genuinely difficult man to live with, and he has a tendency to clam up in his hurt feelings and his disappointment and just withdraw and if you let him, because you don’t want a confrontation or because you think he should start or because of pride, it would fester forever. Efnan will never let that happen - she confronts things immediately and head on.

Yes!!! This is what is needed and I cannot imagine D doing this.

She lays it out so plainly and while she doesn’t blame him for part of her hurt, she doesn’t hide it either.

His bitterly asking this from her is actually a good sign because it means she broke through his shell. They might end up having an epic fight but this actually means they are actually talking, and expressing their feelings - you cannot work things out if you don’t express yourself.

Bwahahahaha jealous unreasonable Aziz cracks me up! Better than frozen hurt coldness though. Go off, drama king!!!!

And he’s finally spilling everything out. Honestly, in between all the plot about revolts and business and family backstabbing, I love how the show slowly and gradually and believably is teaching these two people how to have a functional relationship - he is way older than she is but he’s not even as good at close relationships as she is - with Dilruba they were the gilded perfect couple with no fights or depth before his flight and permanently out of sync after, with Efnan it all feels real - he put her on a pedestal before but that is not healthy; if they make it past this (and they are the OTP, of course they will), it will not be ideal unreal but actual based on reality. She is not a literal angel,she is a very good woman who will nonetheless occasionally drive him mad and make mistakes and etc etc and that’s fine; you cannot expect perfection and then blame the other person for your disappointment. But you can expect a loving person and you can expect to fight and make up. I think this is teaching them that. Because they haven’t had a single fight since they got together; they’ve been in blissed out paradise (even when he walked out during the engagement, he explained and they made up without fighting) and this is actually perfect - because they are both wrong and she’s not a wronged saint and neither is he.

Aaaaaa and now this is out!!! I am glad it wasn’t dragged out but the fight is about to get bigger. (But also, how telling that even after all this, it didn’t occur to him she lied about the telegram too. He really does have a lot of faith in her.)

Oooooof! But he’s also starting to clam up again because that’s his default reaction to being hurt... which is vvvv bad.

But I love that she won’t let him walk off and freeze her out...he has understandable trust issues in general and has a right to be mad here but she is not as wrong as he makes her out to be either and I love that she will fight. He’s difficult and prickly and closed off (and I love that the show does not make him perfect) but she just smashes through everything with a hammer.

(his face at her words because he knows she is right...)

And now she’s the one walking off and he calls for her and I lose it because he clearly cannot be without her - he does not want her to leave and it’s not just because he loves her and cannot be without her and now the concept of her walking away (even if for a bit) is real, he does not want it, but because it means she got through to him - man who walls himself off as a reaction to hurt or anger or disappointment does not want to do so because he realizes none of this matters in light of her loving him and his loving her and basically without meaning it, she proved their relationship is worth it because she didn’t let himself close himself off but fought for him and for them, and I don’t think anyone ever did before, Dilruba retreating in light of his spikes or putting out her own, his family at best just going “oh, it’s Aziz, he’s crazy, we are not going to deal with it rn” etc. But here is someone who is fighting with him while loving him - hell fighting with him because she loves him and she’s fighting for them and I bet it’s novel as hell.

And then the French show up, boo!

[imjustwritingg]

I haven't watched live since 10x12 because of the absurd time I have to wake up hasn't seemed worth it. But now that I am actually looking forward to an episode and hoping that trusting the goddamn process pays off, 5am wake up call it is 🙂

Oooooof. You’re a warrior for that. I hope it’s worth it for you and for all of us pal!!

[tortoisebore]

hi tortoise! WHAT. A. CHAPTER!!!!! i’m still blown away by it that i can’t even be coherent about it. it was so SO worth the wait - the angst was 🤌🏻 (made me teary, thanks for that), the doorway moment 🥵 (don’t want to spoil it for those who have yet to read this masterpiece!!) and the ending 🥹🥹🥹 run, sirius run!! already can’t wait for chapter 7 (but ofc, take your time, do life and all that) 💕 ps. basketball remus may be one of my favs ever

AAAAAAAAAAAA im so glad you liked it 😭😭😭

the angst was soooo angsty i didn’t mean for it to be that sad but oooooof. poor little guys. but we’re on an upward slope now!! in fic time it’ll all be resolved in the matter of an hour!! they are too obsessed with each other to be upset for long, your honor!! they’re in love (basically)!!

i cant cant cant wait for u to read chapter 7 🫶 it’s alllllll fluff from here on out

[jeonqkooks]

I really want to know what made obs jk leave in the first place that he now has to suffer through this ????!!! Nail biting for real ! I feel bad for him after reading the recent chapter, but it honestly makes me wonder even more why did he leave 😭 does he think it was worth it or needed ???

Also you had said in an earlier response that he wasn't expecting to see oc again. This makes me sad again </3 like did he ever plan to come back or leave her for good with no reason ???? is he only coming back because oc is finally moving on and forgetting him ?? IM SO SCARED 💔💔💔💔

Love this though thank you sm for sharing your writting with us <333

bestie i've been writing this scene in my head (which still counts as writing !!!!!! 🤐) for the jk chapter where he decides that he has to go and oooooof y'all are gonna Feel for homeboy 😔

he wasn't ever planning to see her again!! and it just happened bc jin demanded to have oc working on his album so i guess we have world wide handsome to thank 😗

thank you so much for reading !! lyyyy ☺️

[simpleblue9]

naked titties, colored hair, remembering things. paint brush pussies

My head isn't in the gutter. I haven't written much on here in a while. I feel like I'm generally softly horny most mornigs. I misd cuddling.

I stayed with a friend this weekend and also made a good decision about a girl I was talking to. I need space. I deserve space. If someone isn't willing to give it then its not a good fit for me. I need to say just a teeny bit more sometimes. Be honest , concise and also just refuckinglax more. I can really apprehensive about being myself or saying something that could somehow upset someone. Also driving and know that it takes more mental effort energy from me. Some people will NOT understand that. I love hoodies. I want to share a bed/ couch, spoon, my thoughts with someone. I want to go on walks with someone. Watch cartoons and masturbate with someone. I want to be vulnetable and have that be a place of security for me. Eye contact. Sometimes I avert, sometimes I stare or give people too much eye contact. I'm eager,I'm a good listener. I get excited very easily. I sweat and get anxious nervous a whole fuckload nore than I ever realized. Feeling seen or heard excited me. It makes me feel appreciated.

I like using this as like a not filtered thing for me. I appreciate the fact that Alyssa was what got me here. It started with seeing where she was but over the yesrs it has turned intoso many things. I enjoy writing. Maybe I should have a goal to write things out habitually again. I still need to work on my Elmo voice. Its kinda crazy how much I reepond to positive appreciation from women. Ya know how a lot of stories are like you often do this because you didn't get enough praise from your father, its like thst but with my mother. Somehow I have it in my head that I did't get enough praise or acknowledgement from my mom, so now I seek it out with other women in my life. I feel weird saying it but have to admit. I feel good about myself or was kind of fantasizing/ easily aroused when my bosses and women that I look up to tell me I'm good at what I do, that I'm a good person, or that they think I don't need yo work on things as much as I do/ try to. Fuck its like Idk my mom wasn't directly cruel but there were important times for me where she was either upset, disappointed, or told me that I needed to do better, so I can never be or do enough. oooooof

well yeah titties, tummies, booty and pussy, how the fuck did I get here 😜😅

I think I actually do that with most people I need to be good at things, feel like I belong, am worth othet people's time/ effort. Like I have found times when some of my close friends spend more time with people I get a little jealous or feel like I need to be more interesting than that other person. Its so weird because so often people find me interesting andceasily to talk to/ get along with .. I wonder when my frends have felt like I accidentally took over the room or something. I knowJosh thought I wad flirting with his gf that one time when I was more trying to be curious because I was buying in to the idea of I want my friend to be happy and he seems this way with her.

Words, things, people, places, ideas, NOUNS

[satans-codpiece]

Okay so I proved myself wrong, about me saying I'm dropping everything I'm doing to read your stuff. I found out about Eleven Years Chpt. 5 in the morning and had to go to work RIP. Needless to say I was very distracted and as soon as I got home I got ON IT-

Bit of a shame for my wireplay obsessed ass you didn't go a bit harder on that but GOd it was still hell of a ride. Reader getting handsy after the fucking and Ram not handling it well™ was.... oooooof. I'm so normal-

I guess since I got on the EY hype train, mind if I just, go nuts a little more??? I could be biased here cuz Ramram, but HOW did you actually, genuinely make me feel sad for the captor in a Stockholm syndrome scenario????? HELLO???? What wizardry did you pull to do that??????? Like yeah Ram kidnapped reader and is lowkey torturing them without fully realizing it, but he's so awfully genuine with everything else????????????

And just. Okay slightly late to the party but in chpt. 4, the conversation about Ram being afraid of touch both to not accidentally harm reader AND the reputation of his model is just....... When I read that, my reaction could only be described as going absolutely fucking feral. Bro do not EVER worry about characterization again because jeSUS CHRIST-

I actually ended up showing that set of paragraphs to a friend that isn't in this fandom much (likes a different hero a whole lot and is loosely aware of everyone else, kind of like me actually lol) aaaaand their reaction was pretty much the same as mine-

And to not ignore what you replied with my last anon ask bc lordy I'd feel bad: ... I mean.... if you wanna build up to a big piv scene.... *glosses over your WIP list* I can see Hanakaki going there pretty easily, without all the painful emotional mindfuckery that comes with kidnapping...

LMAO I feel like Blizz employees (the creative art-related team, to be more accurate) are not really allowed to interact with fandom so their ideas don't get influenced by fanon and therefore the company does not get accused of stealing ideas or whatever. BUT, here's a funny idea... since these people write fanfiction that is actually canon... Can you imagine someone writing out their dirtiest fantasies and said writing having to be actually archived at Blizz because intellectual property LOOOOOL-

soBBING THAN K YOU this was such a delight to open my inbox to!!!

hehehe for what it's worth, if I do end up writing the prequel there will be a bigger focus on wireplay (given that it's before he's made any modifications to himself) :3c

but ah I'm so glad you sympathized with Ramattra because that's exactly what I wanted!! He's done something awful- is doing something awful- but he's doing it because he loves you so much. Everything he's done, he's done because he's had a hard life and you were one of so few good things he's had. I really wanted the reader (ie the real people not the stand in character) to have... complicated feelings about this version of Ramattra.

and ;_; thank you... being OOC is truly just my nightmare of writing, I need my blorbos to be perfectly canon-aligned (or explicitly AU'd) or I'll die.

but in particular fjdshg yes! When Ramattra was actually striving for peace, he had to work against such heavy biases against him simply because of his model (both the vendor in Nepal and Nameless make comments on him being an r-7000 as soon as he meets them), so he must be acutely aware that he is treated differently than other omnics.

HAHAHA it's SO funny of all my WIPs you mention hanahaki... because 1) Hanahaki is actually like 4 paragraphs from being done and 2) there isn't a shred of nsfw in it! I wrote it just to write some angsty pre-relationship stuff, but ultimately just is emotional porn, nothing physical.

Ah that's probably to some degree true! I'd love to see someone working w Blizz just. sit on all their nsfw fics and works until they quit and be like. 'haha yeah i JUST made all these. definitely not under contract w Blizz dont worry about it :>' [piles of concept Ramattra porn fall out of their jacket]

[lemongrad]

oooooof I made a giant batch of triple-chocolate cookies for my brother's birthday and as one is wont to do while baking, had a few cookies worth of dough and now tummy hurty

[oh-my-damn]

Vampire

I've gotten (more than) a few requests to break these lyrics down for the past few weeks

I finally got around to listening to it

And let me just say.......

Let's fucking do this.

I know nothing about her private life so this is all guesswork and speculation based off her lyrics.

Vampire by Olivia Rodrigo

Hate to give the satisfaction asking how you’re doing now How’s the castle built off people you pretend to care about? Just what you wanted

She is going IN right off the bat. It's giving Taylor in her Fearless era.

Look at you, cool guy, you got it I see the parties and the diamonds sometimes when I close my eyes Six months of torture you sold as some forbidden paradise I loved you truly You gotta laugh at the stupidity

This guy absolutely ruined her. Maybe took away what she considered her innocence. Thats what torture is alluding to.

‘Cause I’ve made some real big mistakes But you make the worst one look fine I should’ve known it was strange You only come out at night

This is a guy who legit will text "you up?" at 2am

Maybe he only "had time" after midnight even. I've been there. They make you think its real but theyre just busy – but in truth theyre using you.

I used to think I was smart But you made me look so naïve

She believed what he was selling.

The way you sold me for parts As you sunk your teeth into me, oh Bloodsucker, famef—er Bleeding me dry like a goddamn vampire

Okay, yep. He was absolutely using her.

And every girl I ever talked to told me you were bad, bad news You called them crazy, God, I hate the way I called them crazy too You’re so convincing

This is always a red flag. If they call their exes crazy it means something happened to make them crazy. She realizes now.

How do you lie without flinching? (How do you lie? How do you lie? How do you lie?) Oh, what a mesmerizing, paralyzing, f—ed up little thrill Can’t figure out just how you do it and God knows I never will Went for me and not her ‘Cause girls your age know better

OOOOOOF. Calling him OUT. He's clearly older (I suspected so) and used her. Men will be shitty men. Isn't that the saying? In my book it is.

I’ve made some real big mistakes But you make the worst one look fine I should’ve known it was strange You only come out at night I used to think I was smart But you made me look so naïve The way you sold me for parts As you sunk your teeth into me, oh Bloodsucker, famef—er Bleeding me dry like a goddamn vampire

Same lines as earlier. What was said earlier still applies. He used her for everything she was worth and practically "left her for dead" – sometimes thats what it feels like when they just use you for your body/money/fame etc. You're suddenly a vessel and no longer a person.

You said it was true love, but wouldn’t that be hard? You can’t love anyone, ’cause that would mean you had a heart I tried to help you out, now I know that I can’t ‘Cause how you think’s the kind of thing I’ll never understand

Oh he played the "victim" card. Some guys do. We never know who is sincere about it until we get hurt. He used that card on her to get sympathy.

I’ve made some real big mistakes But you make the worst one look fine I should’ve known it was strange You only come out at night I used to think I was smart But you made me look so naïve The way you sold me for parts As you sunk your teeth into me, oh Bloodsucker, famef—er Bleeding me dry like a goddamn vampire

He made himself seem like the victim when he is to be blamed for everything that happened to him. He said his exes were bad or crazy, but he made them that way. He used her for everything she is. He didn't care – ever.

[the-kipsabian]

NO

YOU DONT

UNDERSTAND

HOW MUCH

I LOVE

SETH

[spicy-pozole]

I’m so glad that I work with a nice boy I can have normal conversations with because after the date that I went on today I was about ready to never speak to a man again