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#Ok I've finished the game now
mothshrub · 2 months
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I'm not sure I've ever seen world-building that's as intensely trans-positive as Vaugarde.
Like--I've seen 'yeah sure nobody cares if you're trans, it's all fine!', but Vaugarde is a country whose main religion literally reveres change as a central tenet. Followers are supposed to actively aspire to change as a way of life. Major institutions host classes so people can constantly try new things and potentially find new paths to explore. There's yearly festivals to show off how much you've changed. It's an established common and accepted thing that regular-ass people (not just devout followers) will withdraw for a while, change everything about their appearance and personality (including voice training if they want) and appear one day like a butterfly from a cocoon and everyone welcomes the new person without missing a beat. Isabeau is an example of this, and although he's vague about his younger self's gender, everything about his personal plot quest outlines a story of someone who hated their past self and pushed hard to embrace presenting differently to be someone Isa could love more.
Everything about Isa's story is so profoundly trans, and it's not just a regular phenomenon in Vaugarde--it's kind of expected. Sometimes people go through a Change multiple times in their life. Mirabelle regularly agonizes that she hasn't radically changed herself enough, and when change as a concept is inherently a trans-themed...
Just--it's all kind of on a different level. There's "'sure we'll use your pronouns", and then there's 'self transformation is a revered way of life'.
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turtlespancake · 2 months
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me when i write a character who is prone to dooming themself and then they run off and doom themself. core traits are stubbornness and a willingness to disregard their own humanity gET BACK HERE IM NOT DONE WITH YOU
#rambling#surprisingly this is not about jakob.. im just really consistent about my favorite character archetypes 😭😭#WARNING THE NOTES ON THIS ARE REALLY LONG I STARTED RAMBLING#“ouhh i have a headache i'll just lie down and rotate my blorbos in no general direction for a while until it goes away” and then boom.#serious plot considerations. 2 questions answered 24million new questions raised. this is specifically Not what i asked for.#so now im sitting here STILL dizzy running mental calculations on how i can get this bitch out of peril without reworking everything#but they literally keep dying in every timeline 😭😭 every single plausible road leads to them running off and screwing themself over#“character who doesn't realize they want to live until it's way too late to look back” VS#“character who is forced to live and handle the things they never though they'd survive long enough to deal with” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT.#fucking hell i have never had this much trouble writing a character as i have with them#they genuinely do just run off and do shit without my permission and then i have to pace for an hour or two wondering#“ok they wOULD do that. but should they. do i feel like i can confidently write that.”#im like constantly in this tug of war trying to get them to CHILL#but also they are absolutely my favorite character from the entire project. but like. FUCK GET BACK HERE#is death the most satisfying end to this arc? is someone who was Set on dying then NOT dying the most satisfying end to the arc?#how many bridges can you burn until you irreparably set yourself aflame too?#would ghost or revival plotline work?? would it make sense with the worldbuilding??#do i just Like Them enough to want them to not die?? where do i draw the line between personal bias and a good arc?#is death not feeling as impactful as survival solely because i've been writing for so long that it's lost the initial impact?#and other such plot considerations...#im gonna have such an easy time writing another character though 😭😭 because THAT character's dynamic in the second act#is to stare at character 1 and be like “why are you like this. i mean i know Why but can you chill. please.” and like damn bro me too#actually wait no i think kaey.a is the hardest character i've ever written i take it back#had to worry about his 20million facades AND his Actual feelings AND canon compliance. shit is hard#i still havent finished the k/aeya fic i started back when the chasm first released which is uhh. two years ago. oops.#i think i struggle writing emotionally repressed liars i think thats what this is 😭😭 anyways.#(voice of guy who has been obsessed with nonlinear narratives and tragedies for several years):#“is it too much to kill this character in a nonlinear exploration game with tragic elements”#like bitch what are you talking about 😭😭 YOU'RE the target audience here figure it out#sorry the notes on this are just my writing journal now apparently
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v-iv-rusty · 2 years
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bloodborne is one of the few games that can be kind of emotionally draining for me if I play it for too long (in a good way) but the main thing that keeps me going is the need to see what new kind of fucked up creature is creaching just around the corner
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saintedbythestorm · 2 years
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Oh they apparently fixed the tiny text on outer worlds huh... hmmm... maybe I can actually play it without sitting on the floor now then...
Maybe I should give it another go...?
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roboromantic · 2 years
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ough I really oughta just pay for an Actual blender course instead of trying to teach myself via youtube tutorials and messing around bc holy adhd, batman
#I wanna MODEL I wanna SCULPT I wanna RIG and ANIMATE I wanna make MATERIALS I wanna figure out GEO NODES#and like. tutorials are nice and all but a lot of the time they don't generally explain /why/ things work#or what /exactly/ different tools do and are good for#I should probably try to focus on one aspect at a time. try to master modeling then sculpting then materials etc.#bc like ok I wanted to make a self-portrait kinda thing before the end of the month but things've been busy with my dad's fiance moving in#and also I've been in Minecraft hyperfixation mode for 2-3 weeks now with no sign of it letting up anytime soon#so I was spending more time gaming than learning blender#BUT a couple days ago I figured I could use that to my advantage and just. model my Minecraft skin#it's just cubes it couldn't be THAT hard right#*cue several hours of trying to figure out various ways of making materials bc I can't quite get them looking the way I want*#I did also make it a bit more interesting by making some stuff 3d and not just painted onto the cubes#I wanna try a couple more things before I post it tho#anyway point is I keep getting distracted and only really learning how to copy stuff#and sometimes not even that bc it doesn't work with the newest version or they skip a step that's obvious to THEM but not absolute beginners#I think part of it is I wanna share these Absolutely Perfect Finished projects when really I should be focusing on /making/ the project#I should start posting wips or something. make Yet Another sideblog for all my blender stuff#get distracted learning just enough html and css to make it look cool even though nobody looks at desktop versions of blogs anymore
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astrxealis · 3 months
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back again ! ywehaw cowbaby :3
#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚#the last... 5 days including today... i have been going outside... i am so Tired !#it's all for valid reasons bcs we need to prep for college and also getting braces but. fucking hell man.#in the past week or so despite having been outside. i have also racked 20+ hours of dai.#it's Insane. ok. i love dragon age so fucking much man.#apparently dao works alr on the gaming laptop so i don't have to Get it to work like i did on the other laptop <3 and i've decided i will g#w rogue like i did when i was 13-ish and tried the game for the first time on the goddamn xbox 360#and human noble! to which when i got the game on steam a while back (2 years ago? 3?) when i played again i did warrior bcs i forgot i did#rogue the first time :P bcs i'm tryna do again what i did then but now it's more complicated.....#at the very least ik. not who i'll be romancing LMFAO i lovw morigan but she wld probably hate me and esp i am a girl 💔💔💔#she should also be for the women this is unfair. anyway. it's between alistair zevran leliana#bcs the first time around yeahhh alistair <3 i also still adore him but i was cemented on romancing zevran now bcs i didn't know he existed#back then since i only finished the redcliffe (?) castle bit iirc and then the circle bug hit me :(#leliana i didn't think much of back then too but 1. generally Growing Up also in taste yk 2. going thru dai. wow!)#anyway. i can talk abt da sm i adore this series (i also love criticising it LOL but shhh for now) <333
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fon-master-ion · 4 months
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yay I made good writing progress :) <- wrote ONE word in an already existing sentence
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felixvanhuss · 4 months
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Guess who's siiiiick! Because I simply cannot catch a fucking break!
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byanyan · 6 months
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"Yeong-hwan? Who's that?" Flynn's head is turning, newly acquired service dog by his feet - though he's heard the way Byan has stilled when the name was said. "Wait, is that you? No way. Byan is much better for when you're a famous designer anyway - like Shakira."
call byan by their full name, see how they respond
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ㅤeven with the paper they'd left behind now in hand and the classmate who'd been kind enough to return it to them already gone, byan remains tense in their seat. flynn repeating the name the other had used doesn't exactly help matters, though they try to seem unbothered by it as they stiffly shove the paper into their bag, facial features twitching slightly as he immediately puts two and two together. damn, so much for any hope of trying to lie and say the person had simply mistaken them for someone else...
ㅤ—what they don't expect, however, is the way he moves immediately from that initial disbelief to insisting that byan is far superior, skipping right past any of the usual questions, comments, or amusement which most tend to display at the revelation. the conclusion of 'like shakira' even earns an almost startled snort of a laugh through byan's nose that then melts into a series of chuckles as they lean back in their seat, body relaxing as quickly as it had tensed.
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ㅤㅤ" 'like shakira,' huh? "ㅤthey repeat, amusement dripping from the words while they pointedly try to avoid thinking too much about how easily flynn says 'when you're a famous designer,' like it's the only obvious future. like he has all this impossibly casual faith in them.ㅤ" y'know, that's not really what i had in mind when i came up with the nickname back in first grade, but, like... you're not wrong. does kinda have that specific sorta ring to it, don't it? that 'you don't need the rest'a my name, you should already know who i am' kinda energy. never thought about it that way before, but i do like that. "ㅤplus, you know, they hate their given name, but that's... actually no longer the point, thanks to him.ㅤ" —not that i was plannin' on goin' by anythin' else at any point anyway, but y'do make a convincin' argument. "
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very-uncorrect · 8 months
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Fuck it I'm not putting myself through this anguish any longer, I'm just gonna watch the ending of portal 1 on YouTube so I can be in the knowing when playing portal 2
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ranvwoop · 1 year
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I talk a lot of crit abt pokmon here but uhh. average pokemon fan is ambivalent about pikachu, pikachus Pikachu who has been obsessed with pikachu for 16 years is an outlier and pi should not be counted. this context is important I think
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becca-alexa · 1 year
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god i hate having to do course evaluations
#becca.txt#i've been in college almost ten years now and i've only ever written two bad evaluations - just finished the second one now#i hate having to do them in general because they're just annoying to fill out#but the bad ones deserve the bad reviews#fun story the first bad review i wrote was for a game dev professor in my undergrad who had a personal vendetta against me#i told her three months in advanced that i would be missing a single day of class because i'd be out of the country (the class was weekly)#she had the audacity to demand - not even ASK IF I COULD#DEMAND - i change my flight#and i told her that if she was willing to pay me the 1k+ to get a new ticket i would do so gladly - and she hated me ever since#like seriously hated - to the point where the other students in the class started speaking up FOR me because it was so blatant#one time she went off on me for a good 30mins about using pre-made assets in my game and the girl beside me had them and she said it was ok#that sort of petty shit#and she would also take attendance in MINUTES so god forbid you had a bad lunch and had to poop#anyway i called her batshit crazy in her review and she was later fired for stealing a few thousand dollars in VR equiptment#also fired because the department head found out she wasn't actually teaching - and hadn't taught in years#all of her assignments were us making tutorials that she would use to teach the next semester's course#she made none of the material herself so she could never answer any questions#the woman was awful
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cyrsed · 1 year
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ok new plan to finally play dead space even though i'm baby: play dead space 2
i'll maybe slightly desensitize myself so i'm not too freaked out when i try to play the remake again. also my laptop can't run the remake but it Can run ds2 and 17 year old me hadn't developed taste yet so i liked ds2 better than ds1 at the time, which means i've also watched this one guy's LP of ds2 so many times so i remember the order of events and scares extremely vividly lol
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ellecdc · 27 days
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Hi!! Ok this is my first time doing an actual request so…I hope I do this right 😭.
Poly!marauders x transfer student reader: Reader comes from the US, where quodpot is the more popular wizarding sport (like quidditch is rugby and quodpot is football). Reader has always LOVED quidditch and is excited Hogwarts actually has a team. Maybe reader trying out for the team? Seeker would be cool bc the reader would be able to practice that by themself. Reader going to the pitch early every morning to practice leading up to tryouts, Sirius and James watching from the stands bc that’s normally THEIR time to practice. Remus sitting with a hot tea and bundled up…UGH I LOVE!
this was such a cute idea! this is actually the second fic I've ever written that involved 0 dialogue and I only realized that about either fic once I finished this one, so hopefully it's good! thanks for your request, love, I hope I did it justice!
poly!marauders x transfer student!reader who is obsessed with quidditch [900 words]
CW: .... I don't think any?? read is Gryffindor, written for a fem!reader (term that's used is witch) but could be read as gender neutral as they/them/their are used
If someone were to ask Remus why he could suddenly be spotted haunting the castle grounds before the sun rose most mornings now-a-days, he would quickly blame it on his sodding no good energetic and horribly devious boyfriends (who he loved very much). 
But the real answer was a far more selfish one.
You see, Remus (and Sirius and James) had developed a rather peculiar crush on a rather peculiar witch in their final year of Hogwarts. 
The rumour had been that a new student transferring from Ilvermory was going to be attending Hogwarts for their seventh year, and with Hogwarts (and the wizarding community in general) being as small as it was, it had created quite the buzz. 
The rumours were proven true when a witch far older than the many first years lined up for their turn at the sorting ceremony took their place below the hat only for it to shout GRYFFINDOR before their robes were decorated in red and gold.
You seemed utterly enchanted by it all; by the floating candles, by the stone walls, and by the feast itself. 
Watching you skip throughout the castle in the weeks following the Welcome Feast was nothing short of inspiring; it was as if watching a muggleborn first year see the castle and all of its secrets for the first time again. 
You seemed to be very skilled at finding the magic in, well, magic. 
Remus wondered then when magic stopped feeling so magical to the rest of the seventh year class; even children who were raised by magical parents were nothing short of ecstatic to begin honing their own skills at Hogwarts.
When did that stop feeling so exciting? When did throwing up silencing charms and summoning objects towards yourself become second nature instead of an exciting and exceptional learned skill? When did transfiguring buttons into butterflies become an arduous lesson instead of a wondrous adventure?
And that's not to say that you hadn’t seen or experienced magic before; on the contrary, you were a very talented witch. But you seemed to be awestruck by every single thing that you set your eyes on.
The fact that you were living in a castle had been particularly exciting for you, from what Remus had overheard, as was the game of quidditch. 
The popular and more commonly played sport in the magical United States was that of quodpot, and what little Remus actually understood about quidditch, he understood even less of quodpot, which is to say that he understood absolutely none of it. But even Remus had to admit there was something mesmerising about watching the way your tongue stuck out a little bit through your teeth as you drew out different drills and formations in your dedicated quidditch journal.
Though the quidditch season hadn’t started yet, every time there was a pickup game or a one-on-one, or even a few players feeling the familiar itch of flying through the air at record speeds and dodging other players and flying balls, one could be certain that you would be standing in the bleachers - often even hanging over the edge of the railing (in a way that made Remus very nervous, thank you very much) - with a wide smile on your face as you took it all in. 
And if Remus was really lucky, he’d even get a chance to watch as you balanced on the balls of your feet as if your body was just itching to join in on the fun. 
And if Sirius and James both took the piss for Remus finally enjoying ‘quidditch’ enough to put his sodding book down every once in a while, well, that was neither here nor there. 
So, the second that madame Hooch announced that tryouts for house teams would be starting in a few short weeks; you were hardly ever spotted around the common room anymore. 
Any time there was a free moment, one could bet you’d be down at the pitch - or even elsewhere on the grounds - with a broom underneath you and your eyes peeled for the wiley little snitch. And anytime you were found at the pitch? Well, one could bet James and Sirius would be too.
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… As was Remus. 
James was all too happy to finally have (enthusiastic and consensual) company in the mornings to comment on the fact that it had been nothing short of painstaking torture to extricate Sirius from his bed for quidditch practices before you had transferred to Hogwarts, or to comment on the fact that it had been nothing short of painstaking torture to extricate Remus from his bed on any given day before you had transferred to Hogwarts.
Because it appeared that they were all in agreement that, even if it had to be at six in the bloody morning, watching you experience the unbridled joy that Hogwarts and quidditch and magic could give you was the best place to be.
Sirius leaned casually against the railing flashing you the odd wink or holler of encouragement when you happened to look over at your admirers in the stands whilst James shouted pointers and cheered you on, basically hanging over the railing in much the same way you would when the roles were reversed.
And Remus?
Well, Remus usually had about three layers on, a hot cup of tea, and a book that laid untouched as he got to enjoy the view.
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syrinq · 2 years
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being stuck in a perpetual loop for several days straight, doing nothing but listen to music all day and open the tumblr dashboard like it's a fridge is a boring hell, ESPECIALLY if you desire to do other stuff like "wow golly gee i want to play this new game i got a week ago!" but somehow you just fucking don't and you basically feel like a roomba stuck on its task and it ends up hitting the wall 50 times
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aamircoeur · 3 months
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Could you possibly write some headcanons for Kenji Sato with a s/o who's a figure skater that competes nationally?
Ken Sato with a figure skater lover ー hcs.
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surely my love ! thank you so much for the request.
sfw. gn!reader. scenarios and situations are made up! happy reading 🤍 UNEDITED
warning: i have little to no knowledge about ice skating so i apologize if there's any incorrect information about what i've written! corrections are appreciated
baseball was ken sato's thing, so it would be unlikely that he'd show any interest towards other sports on a normal day
he went ice skating with his mom and dad when he was a child like two times and that's all he knows so far
but before he even started dating you, he willingly learned everything about figure skating to try and get to know more about you this way
he watched yuzuru hanyu's clips during the 2018 winter olympics and studied the rules, how the judging worked, different skills and moves, etc.
now that you're dating, you found it so cute when he told you that he learned all of that just for you
he comes to your competitions no matter where it was held, sometimes even asking coach shimura if he could be excused from one game of his just so he could watch you
he has never been allowed yet but he asks every time, saying that it was always worth the shot
he gets recognized by some fans when he's there because he doesn't wear any disguises to your games
you told him that he should so that he could at least have some privacy
but he declines, saying that he'd want everyone to know that ken sato is cheering on his lover
he's the loudest to cheer when you've successfully performed an axel, knowing how hard you practiced them alone
he buys two bouquets of roses whenever he comes to your games, one to throw into the rink when you've finished your performance
and the other to give to his baby after each competition
the two of you share your sports with one another, him letting you mark your initial on his bat while you let him wear your medals when photographers take your pictures after yet another win
he teaches you baseball, gives you access to mina's hologram so you can play and practice when you want
he buys you a bat in your favourite colour!!!!!
he gives you his jersey and even buys you a custom-made one with your surname and preferred number
on the other hand, you go on ice skating dates with him sometimes
he absolutely sucks ass though icl
he'd fall down multiple times a mere second after stepping into the rink
he'd semi-crouch as a way to maintain balance
and you'd just skate around him teasingly
you hold his hands while skating around the rink
although he doesn't enjoy not immediately being amazing at something, he likes learning from you
and being with you
and having you
ok he loves you whatever
mf installs an ice rink in his big-ass house just so you could spend more time with him by training there on your free time
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