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butlervibesonly · 2 days ago
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I THINK I LOST MY MIND, ANYTHING FOR BENNY
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I’m having a really bad day today, gimmie some Benny smut I know you’ve got something in that brain of yours 🤍
LEAVE
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Pairing: Benny Cross x reader
Summary: You try to leave Benny, but he has other plans.
Warning: smut, toxic relationship, Benny being a pathetic ass, reader has a child, Benny gets physically violent.
Note: Couldn’t deny Miss Cross herself y’know? 😏I know I’m not as good writing smut but I do my best for you. Hope you get better and this makes you feel better! 🫶💗
Also, this is heavily inspired by a combo @aust-een and I had about how Jeff held back a lot from what the real Benny could have been. I just know Benny wasn’t this quiet nonchalant thing. He was jealous, possessive and violent.
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Your life was monotonous, you woke up, got ready, had breakfast, went to your job, put your with annoying customers, came back home, slept. Repeat. That was up until you met Benny.
Your life did a 180, in your routine and emotionally too. Benny was an interesting character, he was a mistery to a lot of people. And to you too, your friend warned you to not even look in his direction, he was always cruising for a bruising. Him and his bike were in for any sort of trouble. That’s what drew you to him.
Your last boyfriend was too plain, too vanilla. You often sought out a way to create any sort of tension. With Benny, that wasn’t necessary. He was the problem himself. With you having to bail him out of jail more times that you liked to admit it. A part of you knew this wasn’t healthy. Specially not for your son, he saw everything.
Benny lived in your house, so, obviously you were the head of the house, you worked and brought in the money. But Benny didn’t care, he flouted in and out the house as he pleased. Anxiety ruled over you, not knowing if he would come back or not. You could stay awake all night just waiting for him.
At some point, you knew it had to be over, it wasn’t healthy anymore and you spent days more stressed than happy. So you waited for him to come back. You had put your son to bed upstairs. Your leg bouncing as you drank a beer, you heard the front door open and you saw Benny come in, black boots stomping on the wooden floor.
“What are you doin’ awake still?” Benny spoke up as he saw you in the couch, his eyes a bit tired as well as his voice.
“Waitin’ for you.” You said, putting out the cigarette on the ashtray.
“You ain’t gotta do that.” Benny scoffed, he took his pack of Marlboro Reds out his pocket and lit up just one, he walked towards the kitchen and grabbed a beer. He looked around, no food. “No food tonight, I see. That’s how you care for your man?”
“It’s too late at night, only cooked for Robbie and I.” You said, you stared at him as he walked around. He just smirked in disbelief at what you said.
“What’s with the face?” He asked you as he came back to the living room, taking another hit from the cigarette.
“I want to talk to you about something.” You said, taking in a deep breath.
“I don’t want to hear it.” Benny rolled his eyes.
He had been off and weird lately, you had believed you were crazy but no, you started to accept that he was in fact different.
“I can’t live like this no more, Benny.” You confessed as you stood up, your hands on your hips. “This ain’t right. Not for me or my Robbie. I want you to leave.”
You said, it took everything in you to get the words out of you. Because you didn’t know how he would react.
Benny pressed his lips together as he took a deep drag from the cigarette, shaking his head. “That ain’t happening. I ain’t leavin’.”
Benny was hard headed and he did not follow nobody. If he was told to do something, he did the opposite, but you were tired. Of everything.
“It’s not a question, Benny. I can’t keep carrying on like this. It’s eating me alive.” You said, trying to appear firm as you stood up.
“You can’t keep carrying on like this?” He repeated your words, you could easily tell he was mocking you. “What else did you think this would be?”
You stared at Benny in disbelief, a part of you thought you could have changed him. Make him more responsible, more emotionally present, more anything, but no. He was still the same troublemaker you met. It hurt you to kick him out but there wasn’t any other choice.
“I just want you to leave. Get your things and leave.” You said, the words getting stuck in your throat.
“So you can bring in another man? Who you gonna bring next? Cal or that son of a bitch with the camera?” Benny accused you, he was very jealous and possessive. He didn’t like bringing you to meeting too much, specially not when Danny or Cal talked to you. There was a reason he didn’t let you meet up with Danny to do his interviews.
“What are you even talking about, Benny? This is about us. You and I!” You snapped, he always tried to blame others for everything, because in his own words ‘he never asked anyone for anything’.
“Don’t even yell at me. Watch it.” He said, his voice monotone.
“I’m tired of you leaving without saying anything. And expecting me to take you back. I can’t keep waitin’ on ya. I just can’t. So please, leave. Because I can’t handle you being a son of a bitch anymore.”
Oh, that set him on fire. You, calling him a son of a bitch. He didn’t like that. There was a silence in which he clenched his jaw, put out the cigarette into the decorative table by his side.
“Right?” Benny said calmly before he snapped. And he threw the decorative table to the floor, making the flower vase break down to little pieces.
You flinched, Benny had his violent outburst, you hadn’t quite gotten used to them yet. Throwing beer bottles or anything on his reach. His nonchalant demeanor was something that was only a façade to either give you the cold shoulder or appear more brave with the club.
As soon as he walked towards you, you backed off, only for Benny to grab you by the neck.
“Who do you think you are?” Benny growled, his voice always held that nonchalant tone to it. Which you hated. You never knew if he did this because he cared and wanted to stay or just for the fun of it. “I ain’t asking anything from you, so you can’t come here askin’ anything from me.”
Benny was so close to your face, his hand wasn’t really gripping your neck tightly but he was holding you hard enough to scare you.
“I ain’t gonna let you go around like one of them loose women. You’re mine. Mine. You get it?” Benny whispered in your ear.
But you wanted this to end. For your son.
“I ain’t doing this because I don’t love you. I do it for my son.”
“I really don’t give a shit about your son. Never did and never will, doll.” Benny scoffed. “I should listen to what you’ve told me, give you a baby so you can finally shut up. So that I’ll never be able to fully leave you.”
Benny placed his knee in between your legs, pressing it against your core. Making you shiver, most of the time, Benny having you by the neck turned you on immediately, and it was working right now.
“You don’t want me to leave, do you?” Benny purred in your ear. “No words now? Did the cat get your tongue?”
Benny leaned in and kissed your lips, the friction of his knee with your core sent shivers across your body. You wanted to rip off his clothes, and so he did. He ripped open your shirt, those cheap buttons didn’t stand a chance.
“How many times have I told you I hate these clothes? Mhm?” Benny whispered. It was a two piece set, the sleeveless button shirt and the matching shorts. It was a look that was in right now, you had wanted to fit in. Albeit, Benny didn’t enjoy it. “You want everyone to look, don’t ya? Everyone. There’s a reason why I got you that jacket.”
Benny pulled you to the couch, throwing you into it. The jacket was the one that had ‘Property of Benny’ in the back, made you wear it every time there was a meeting.
Benny got rid of his colors, his jacket and vest on the floor as well as his worn out white tshirt, he got on top of you. His lips finding their way to yours, you tasted the whisky on his lips, made you hum. You were enjoying how aggressive he got at times.
His hand traveled from your hair to your breast, squeezing it through your bra, you moaned on his lips, your back trying to arch but his body blocked you from doing so. Then his hand traveled all the way to inside your shorts, his touch feather-like as he caressed you over your underwear, your toes curled up at the feeling, you shivered once again.
“My doll is so desperate. I thought she wanted me to leave.” He kept rubbing you over your underwear. You let out breathy moans.
You wanted to deny it. But you couldn’t even speak properly. He wasn’t even doing anything extreme and you were already losing it.
He worked with his hands, he was so masculine. The smell of Marlboro Red filled your nostrils. It made you so— ugh. You couldn’t get enough of it, or him. Even if part of you hated it, there was something about him that you couldn’t reject.
“I’m gonna make sure— everyone in the fuckin’ street knows who you belong to. Alright?” Benny grunted as he undid his pants, he was as hard as he ever was when he’s with you.
And to be fair, your ex-in laws lived next door. You were in for a ride as soon as he pulled down your shorts and underwear. His boxers came down as well.
“Don’t be quiet.” Benny said, as he filled you up with his cock in one swift thrust.
“Motherfucker!” You moaned out loudly, loud enough to blush afterwards. You saw his smirk.
He liked how he got to you. How much you were willing to put up from him. His thrusts were anything but gentle, the sound of skin slapping, moaning and grunting filled the living room.
“You like it? Hmm?” Benny asked as he relentlessly fucked you in the couch, but this want his favorite position, not at all. He found it boring to say the least.
Your eyes were rolling back, your mouth open and filthy noises escaped your lips, your nails digging into his shoulders.
“Move.” He said as he pulled out of you, you whimpered when you stopped feeling his cock. Damn, that’s how much you needed him.
Eventually he manhandled you, he threw you around until you were in all fours. He was behind you and without any sort of mercy, he pounded into you from behind, his cock filling you up, giving you pleasure like no other.
“Benny… p-please” You whined, it was too much, he was too much. All of him.
“What? I’m sorry, can’t hear you.” Benny said, as his hand reached to grab your throat, squeezing the air you had.
It was the adrenaline of having no air combined with the pleasure of it. It gave you too much ecstasy. You didn’t even remember the last time he fucked you like this.
“I’ll leave whenever I want.” Benny whispered in your ear as he kept choking you, you tried to grasp on whatever air was possible. But it was in vain, and after a while, he withdrew his hand from your throat and slowly made its way down to your clit.
That was your breaking point and you couldn’t hold back your moans anymore. Every moan that came out of you came from the deepest of your soul.
His hand worked wonders on your clit, making you feel overstimulated, waiting for that usual feeling for being close to the edge.
“Keep�� g-going” you managed to mutter through the moans. As his cock kept filling you up, you knew no guy could ever compare to him.
Not even one. And you didn’t even dare to think of it. Afraid that he could read your mind and get mad.
“We’re gonna have a baby. So you won’t ever kick me out again. So that your brat of a son— knows his place.” Benny kept going even faster and harder, it seemed like he was on the edge. “And so that photographer son of a bitch knows that you’re taken.”
“Benny!” You yelled as Benny hit that sweet spot of yours, pleasure erupted as you finished, your muscles relaxing immediately.
He kept fucking you, for at least a minute more before you heard his voice falter, his breath ragged. “Oh, f-fuck…”
Benny filled you up, made sure to not waste a single drop of his cum. After all, he wanted you heavy with his baby in a few months. He couldn’t wait to see your son’s face. That little brat. Knowing his mommy wouldn’t get rid of him.
“So good for me…” Benny leaned over you, whispering in your ear. “If you tell me to do anything ever again, I’ll do the opposite. Okay?”
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lordzuuko · 1 year ago
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Me playing NG+ be like...
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vulcanette · 25 days ago
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vampire iii in lyon;
🎥: diamondzinthetreez
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rosehathawhey · 1 year ago
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Walton Goggins as Boyd Crowder JUSTIFIED: CITY PRIMEVAL | 1x08 "The Question"
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asfdhgsdkjhgb · 3 months ago
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had quite the night drive earlier this evening.
#just me rambling again#web weaving#(?)#uh. one of my friends who is out of town for college was visiting and i got to see him and our friends and the only core member of that#group of people missing was my ex girlfriend who you may also know of as my wonderful wife#who has I assume been very busy with their own life things but has also barely and very sparsely had any hint of communication with any of#us within the past few months which I've been realizing very recently sort of hurts my feelings because we used to be so close and#they had been saying that they would be constantly making sure we still were in each other's lives. but then very quickly have#seemingly dropped off the face of the earth#anyways. I was driving aforementioned friend who is in town back home (family home not college obv) and when i was finally going back#towards my house afterwards my Google maps finally lead me to an area that i was more familiar with driving and i got to an#intersection and it was telling me to take a right to go home but i knew that i knew the way perfectly from that intersection to my#ex girlfriend / best friend / wifes familys house from all of the times I've gone that direction through the past years and so#i turned off my directions and i took a left towards their house#not super sure why but my brain and body just knew it was something i needed to do and so i went and drove down their street and cried#a lot the whole time and then drove myself home from their house once again following a super familiar path#and idk im still feeling very emotional about it. the fact that halloween by noah kahan was the first song to play on Spotify#after i made that left turn im sure didnt help (knowing that i miss them so much and am going to be leaving this area myself#soon enough here and there's been an open offer for a while now that they are welcome to follow and live with me once they get their degree#(and also um. halloween is next week lol)#idk i just havent felt the full force of how badly i miss having them in my life until tonight. when i was around this person i could feel#our souls singing in harmony. i genuinely cannot describe the feelings of our relationship in words i feel like only vaguely abstract art#could communicate the connection that was forged between us and the level of understanding and knowing#something not dissimilar to looking into the sun directly or trying to describe a vivid color to someone who is completely blind#something about the way the entire universe breathes in unison and everything around us are all pieces of the same stars#sigh#i miss my wife tails i miss her a lot /ref
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jackass-jones · 6 months ago
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My madoka magica hot take is I like sayaka/kyoko as a ship more than madoka/homura
#madoka magica#both ships are very very good and make me feral but god kyoko/sayaka really caters to me#i am biased cuz sayaka is my favorite character lol and i just want good things for her#but i mean we get them as enemies fighting to the death obsessively like sayaka gets so focused on proving herself to kyoko she cant think#of anything else and she wastes her energy fighting her instead of witches and just the foil like#both used their wish to grant something for someone else and kyoko lost everything as a result and decided that nothing good will ever come#of helping others so she should only look after number one and of course shed think that cuz shes all she has left#meanwhile sayaka refuses to take care of herself because she never wants others to suffer so she only exists for others#and both of them change their perspectives in pursuit of each other theyre literally red and blue#and i love seeing the development of their relationship and kyokos feelings i love her offering to kill ryosuke for sayaka#and how terrified she is in that moment when she sees sayakas lifeless body separated from the soul gem#or how she shares her story and remembers why she started fighting because of sayaka and fucking#THE WAY SHE ACTS SELFLESSLY AND STUPIDLY OPTIMISTIC TO SAVE SAYAKA FROM HER WITCH FOR#THE WAY SHE SACRIFICES HERSELF TO CONNECT WITH HER THE LOVE SONG#THEM HOLDING HANDS WHILE SAYAKA CRIES AND KYOKO IS THERE FOR HER AND THEY UNDERSTAND EACH OTHER SO WELL#god fucking dammit these fucking gay people are ruining my sleep#yeah idk if its obvious but i have a specific type when it comes to ships i love when characters beat each other up and are the center of#each others motivations and go through the horrors together and come out the other side and love each other deeply#love each others flaws and theres understanding and tenderness#i haaaave to draw them but i also have to draw a lot of blorbos rn alkksk
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mwagneto · 1 year ago
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sometimes i'm home alone for months at a time coz my parents leave (like rn) and ofc that's usually when the "ooh neighbour scary you never know what you live next to" stories find me which almost spook me but then i'm like. idk why i'd be scared of my neighbours being insane when i'm literally the insane neighbour
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lovers-teeth · 1 year ago
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ok I'm a little not done cause like. part of the factor of polar bear is like. the way they're cute and entirely alien from people. bears are like totally cute by human standards but unlike dogs/cats/whatever it's not for us it's pure chance. polar bears exist in an incredibly niche and specialized way that makes them so separate from humans and any human morality or society- but they still have our face. they still have eyes that say I won't hurt you (they lie)
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buggbuzz · 1 year ago
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all those pics of house looking super crazy cause of the way the light hits his eyes are so scary to me because my mom has the exact fucking same color eyes 😭😭 do you know how SCARY it is to have a mother with eyes like a ghost with unfinished business?? i wake up at 7 am and walk into the kitchen to talk to my mom and stare into the depths of a frozen hell
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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year ago
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You don't understand how unhinged I feel trying to construct an ending for Bleach that I personally would enjoy while knowing Bleach does not deserve my time and also not remembering enough to actually make anything coherent. And yet here I am.
#god. no one gives a fuck abt bleaching. i am screaming into the void. y cant i put this energy into being productive#i just want there to be themes and a satisfying ending. and ending that is sad and yet happy#i just think. for me. ichigo kurosaki died on the night rukia pierced him with her zanpakto. oh fuck i cant spell. fucking strap in#i kno he didnt technically die according to the rules of the universe but i think as soon as ichigos soul left his body. that body became#a corpse. so when he goes back into it its not suitible to live in anymore and he only starts to feel that with the fullbring arc#i think when rukia jumpstarted his powers she lit the fuse of a bomb and becoming a visor allowed him to chanel his resentment#bc he does resent. ichigo is an emotional person. he felt emense guilt when his mothet died bc he felt he couldnt protect her bc he was#being raised to protect. the boy has a complex and its kinda fuckrd up and its 1000% isshins fault. so when thr opportunity comes for#ichigo to sacrifice himself for his family he does and he literally and metaphorically dies. his life from that point on is overtaken by#death. so what do we do with ichigo after everything is said and done bc he cant go back to being human he cant be a living corpse. he has#to go to the soul society. bc i like to imagine everything hes done to his soul. his twisted cosmically weird special boy soul. hes like a#bomb. its unstable and they need to teach him to control it so he doesnt tear a hole in reality and let thr hollows pour in. so its safer#if that happens in thr soul society. and rukia lil miss ice princess can teach him to do that. i would also make it weird with god stuff but#i never read the blood war stuff so i dont kno enough abt the gods. also i would make rukia more at odds with everyone who was gonna let her#fucking die and who overlooked her bc she should b held with more reguard for her fighting. but misogyny 😒 so then what do we do with#ichigo in thr soul society? i cant stand the idea of him becoming part of the institution. i cant. i think he should be rogue. rebell. idk#train to be strong and battle agaisnt the 13 court guard squad who r clearly going to try to control him as he tries to control himself.#send my boy to therapy so he can control his reatsu? is the the word? idk. maybe he should go to that dead dog district and look for kids#with spiritual pressure. he needs to feel useful. maybe id just give him weird god powers. i am an ichigo special boy apologist#thats as far forward as i can think. ichigo has to b dead. has to learn to control his power before he can go fight. rukia can teach him#he rebells against the institution. encourages rukia to go apeshit bc fuck everyone. and then idk. he keeps trying to save ppl forever#or he dies and destroys the universe. a big ball of resentment and bad feels and secrets upon secrets upon secrets. god y am i thinking#abt this so much. ive got bullshit to deal with. anyway. idk i just like ichigo a lot and i think thr ending to bleach is th worst forever#bleach ramblings
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meezer · 1 year ago
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me trying to pretend I don't care about romantic love and devotion and sexual intimacy irl when really I feel like it's the meaning of my life
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saym0-0 · 1 year ago
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grahh i need to remind myself to Not Involve myself in fandom space in this fandom. look at pretty fan creations thats it. im guilty of kinda posting about the fandom (see: this post) but i need to put it somewhere yk. idk everyone is so negative sharing their opinions on other peoples headcanons,, im going back to my complex roseblings/esmp1 centric multiverse that i havent properly posted about even tho its fully how i see the characters. what am i even saying im not tagging this post i dont want people to find it
oh my god guys do NOT open tags i reached character limit on most of them AND got to all 30 tags
#actually though i need to talk about my esmp centric multiverse#ik i just said no tags but#these dont count they're not filter tags#theres like two versions of my silly multiverse. one is like#3 time periods: esmp1#ocs/the ancient capital before it was ancient and esmp2#the other version is basically most of the emperors r born nd raised on esmp1#but when they 'come of age' 17-20 depending on the empire#they go onto other servers and basically become travelled people. they're only allowed 2 come home when the current ruler is gonna die soon#harsh. but we ball. N E WAYS yeah empires is well known across servers as one of the biggest 'home servers' basically where people just liv#like theres games servers like mcc or hypixel and theres like. building servers idk like hc? idk servers are sorted into catagories#empires is a hardcore home server. for citizens. its kinda fucked up how tulers get infinite respawn just bc the world says so but whatever#basically rulers r pretty anonymous they go by their titles so they can live as regular players in that time from adult to ruler.#their faces arent recognisable outside of the server itself. HOOO I JUST REMEMBERED MY FAV JOEL HC THAT I JUST KNOW THE FANDOM EOULD HATE I#THEY KNEW. basically hes a bearded vulture hybrid bc hes my fav and they're my fav bird thats it thats my reasoning. also mezalea colourful#bearded vultures wear makeup u get my drift. also he makes clones and can transfer his soul into them. pre last life where they get yoinked#his bird body has never left the esmp server. as a precaution against kidnapping he has these cuffs on his real ankles like a house arrest#that beep when they go off server#because safety reasons or something idk i just think its funny. ANYWAYS i think its silly fwhip gets away from the rapture scott free so he#gets some pretty gnarly 3rd degree burns and also loses his leg. he builds his own prosthetic like he built his own wings woot woot.#also hes a changeling. and he and gem are twins. and sausage is their half brother older by 3 years but acts younger. if u care#saus inheritef the throne at 18 a year after he went exploring bc his dad became unexpectedly ill#no reason for that i just wanted to. also i stole the changeling fwhip from my fav fanfic ever if u see this ill tell the name#depending on ur tastes roseblings either manage to server hop to hermitcraft bc fwhips default state is a direct copy of gem bc changeling#so they kinda trick the whitelist and he recovers and probably gets help w his leg from the hermits bc theres so many metal hermits jc/pos#thats the silly hurt comfort hermit route the other one is closer to canon where they settle somewhere probably on a private server with#their 3 dragons and they heal pretty isolated from everyone. gem goes back nd forth to hc and after hes mostly healed fwhip goes to hardcor#othef servers like afterlife and esmp2 i think are literally rp like they just want lighthearted fun w friends so they roleplay dragons wit#their illusion magic that they havs or something#I RAN OUT OF TAGS LMAOOOO YALL GET NO MORE ITS 12:37 BYE
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ectogeranium · 2 years ago
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I might just be having an episode, but I’m currently figuring out the tattoos I want, and the placements >:3
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#who needs therapy when you can finally figure out how you wanna ink your body??#okay.. so… here’s what I’m thinking#I still want Eddie Munson’s bat tattoo on my left arm#that’s a given#symmetrical soul eater moons on both sides of my collarbone#like… I can’t explain the area well but like.. underneath the bone and towards my shoulder?#idk if I’m explaining that right hgyjhhkuhkj#I want asura’s eyes in the middle of my collarbone#(yes ive hears how painful chest tats are. do I care? I might. but I don’t :3 )#**heard#let’s see… I know I want a death the kid skull somewhere. I’ve considered it behind my ear but ehhhhhhhh idk on that one yet#hear me out… Midas from fortnite has this one tattoo of a skull with flowers and horns#HEAR ME OUT…. I ALSO want an unus annus tattoo on my left wrist….#of the countdown timer saying 00:00:00….#……what if I combined the two and put the zeros on the skull’s head and replaced the roses with lilies ??? 👀👀👀#…I need to draw that hold on—#anyways#Spyro tattoo. I found art of a super cute ps1 styled Spyro head w sparx and if I ever have the balls to get it I’m gonna dm the artist#and ask if I can get it done#here’s the thing tho.. I don’t want colored tattoos.. and the Spyro ones are obviously colored… I’ll cross that bridge as I get closer—#I wanna get a matching one with Taty but we don’t know what we want yet#and about the symmetrical moons… I don’t want that ugly ass sun on my body jygjhbhjb#so…. two moons :3#n e ways#that’s all I got so far. mwah
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neverendingford · 1 year ago
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#tag talk#as much as I hate to see the social cinema grow as I get new followers. we're at a good and satisfying number. and I like that#also also also. I've introduced a friend to Hannibal (tv show) and he's loving it and I'm so happy cause none of#of my other friends have been able to stomach the body horror. so it's super cool to find someone to hype over it with#another random story that I genuinely can't remember if I said already. got told by a kid in minecraft that he's smiled a lot more around me#which. huge compliment. genuine honor to make people happy and smile and laugh#people don't laugh enough. we don't smile enough. be happy or die. and I'm too powerful to die. been there. haven't done that#cry and then laugh and then punch as hard as you can.#got to visit some of my favorite residents from the nursing home I first worked at. lotta new staff but my three favorite nurses are still#which is nice. I cried when I left that job because even though it crushed my soul I loved my coworkers and most of my residents.#I get why some healthcare workers grind themselves to the bone for the job. you're making such a huge difference in people's lives.#I tried but didn't have the fortitude for it. but it's nice to be able to go back and say hi to the friends I made and see how things are.#anyway. sorry for being weird like.. one or two weeks ago. I think things are settling out again. moving is rough but we're making it work#It's been a lot of Lear again lately. especially while being at my parents house. he doesn't mind being deadnamed as much sooo....#idk. at least one of us is capable of surviving the dmv and the state medicaid website. heaven knows I can't manage.#trying to stop using him as a crutch for getting things done has just resulted in us not being able to get things done.#but I don't want to be someone else I want to be me. I don't want to be the armor I want to be the human inside.#I don't want to live defensively. pushing everyone away. I can't do that.#anyway. we're back home! and work is on the horizon. hopefully this job works out cause I don't want to have to apply for new jobs.#the hr rep is a man at this store and I immediately got set on edge and our voice dropped as I stepped back.#then we introduced ourselves with the wrong name and he got confused and I just felt stupid about it#but how am I supposed to know which name he's been told. he didn't even use our paperwork name. Anyway that was a disaster#but we're on track and embarrassment is not a setback but a feeling about the way things progress. and it is progress we're making
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ghostlypawn · 2 years ago
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started thinking about mermaid horror movie :/
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brutalmasks · 3 months ago
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❛ you have no idea how much i like you. ❜ @clawsextended
'to love, and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides.' bunny mask wasn't really the type to be reminded of a specific quotes existence randomly — but if there was one thing that she knew, it was that merely being around selina felt like she was being consumed by light at times. and she was generally viewed as having a 'dark nature' by others more often than not; death being the one consistent thing that followed bunny mask's presence wherever she went for the longest time. but today, especially after hearing selina's heartfelt words, bunny recalled that even she had her own personhood.
that she wasn't just an avenger of those who'd been done wrong, and the idea of her being a creature that didn't fit in with anyone else was wrong. selina and her were both honest to their core. they both didn't seem to want to be anyone but themselves, from what bunny mask could tell, and this made them alike. though if she was being honest... this also sometimes made her feel afraid that she would lose the other. not because of rejection, but because bunny mask was always looking for the next criminal to punish. to kill. it was ultimately her goal to look out for other's, after all, and that meant she in reality unfortunately had little downtime from one 'hunt' to the next.
but here selina was, surprising her in the best way possible. she'd stuck around in her life and bunny mask found a smile melting across her lips. her eyes squinted, too, in pure joy while she turned to look at the other. nothing could ruin this moment for her. that was all bunny could think about as she ate another bite of the sugar-filled funnel cake the two opted to share that day, whilst sitting on the steps of the new fair in town. bunny mask had never been to one until she'd met selina now; so, that was yet another first that she claimed in regards to their relationship.
❝ really? well, selina, i am very touched that you would say that. it is not often that i meet someone and we click... i think it is called, immediately. i actually do not think this is something that has ever happened to me before you come to think of it, ❞ before you, after you. bunny mask really hoped that thinking in those terms unintentionally wasn't that much of a cliché. they were supposedly unbearable at times. bunny scooted one of her sandal-clad feet across the pavement just to preoccupy herself with something.
❝ you should know that you mean a lot to me, too. even just doing something little like sharing a confectionary like this one with you makes me feel as if i am on a cloud. i find myself counting the days until i can see you again as well, ❞ bunny mask brought her knees up to her chest, her voice giving off an even calmer feel to it, ❝ this makes me think that you have my heart, selina. ❞
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