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i do love how i saw that dude in the manga w/o a name and i was just like. You Look Like A Seth.
and so it goes for this whole arc lmfao
#speculation nation#itnl shit#the. the dude who tries to recruit vash into security on the sandsteamer#i dont know he just looks like a Seth to me! and i didnt see any actual names for him. so.#itd be weird to NOT give him a name when he's actually a bit more present in the story lol#nyways 'seth' shows up 13 times in chapter 12. hi dude i gave u a random name and now this is ur name. to me.
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essay, bakugou x reader
wc: 1K
cw: pure fluff
“read over my essay, great explosion murder god dynamight” you said as you threw your book on the table in front of him.
bakugou, who’s been minding his own business, looks up at you from where he sits, face blank for a second before he furrows his brows with a grimace. “why the fuck would i do that, especially for you? go ‘nd ask the extras” his tone is unbothered, though he doesn’t push your book away.
“momo’s on a date with shoto and tenya uses the sophisticated words he learned from middle school, every time. that’s how i know what sophisticated means” you start to explain, before using a little tactic on him “and you’d help me because you’re so smart and good at school, like i wish i was as smart as you” you compliment him in a pleading way, hoping if you stroke his ego a little bit then he’ll help you.
“nah, i see what yer trying to do, go ask the nerds. i ain’t got time for your shit” bakugou says after a few seconds of looking at you and while you somewhat expected him to react like that, doesn’t mean you weren’t prepared to come up with something else.
“okayy, i’ll ask izuku. i’m sure he’ll help me in a heartbeat” you beam at him as you reach for your book, however bakugou grabs it first and holds it away from you.
“‘right, i’ll fucking do it” he yells at you and a sly smirk makes its way to your cheeks as you cross your arms and the ash blond, quickly realising his actions, puts your book down with a huff. “i get better grades than that nerd ‘nyways” he mumbles while standing up with your book in his hand, completely dwarfing it with his larger ones.
ripping your eyes away from his hand before he could catch you staring, your smirk turns into a small smile. “you’re the best kats” you look up to him, his body slightly towering over yours as he looks down on you with a hint of softness and you can see his his lips curling up a little bit at the ends. “let me know if you’re done” you grin and turn to join the girls on the couch.
bakugou doesn’t have time to reply, he’s only looking after you for a few seconds before turning to leave and read over your essay in the comfort of his room.
katsuki: come over
came the message an hour later and you swiftly excuse yourself from the group, all of them wiggling their brows and teasing you as you emerge from the common room, knowing about your crush on the explosive boy. your face turned red from all the words and gestures and you decided to ignore them, hoping your cheeks calm down by the time you reach bakugou’s room.
bakugou opens his door a moment after you knock on it and lets you in. you take a seat on his bed, where he joins you a few seconds later, sitting next to you a few inches away.
“yer essay was fine, just stop repeating words and use different sentence structures. the built up was good, though not as interesting as mine. overall it was bosting” he explained to you, smirking at the end and you looked at him with eyes narrow, lips in a pout.
“you’re doing this on purpose i swear” shaking your head, you gently push against his shoulder with yours, knowing it won’t effect him at all from how muscular he is. “do you think it’ll give me a passing grade?” you ask unsurely, looking down at your hands.
“i know, you’ll get more than a passing grade” bakugou’s voice is rough, but his tone is soft and he wonders if you can sense the tenderness in his eyes, showing only for you.
“thank you for reading over it!” you say, a smile tugging at your lips as you stand up from his bed, already missing the warmth of him by your side, even if the two of you weren’t touching. “i should probably go, it’s nearly 8:30 and i don’t want to mess up your sleeping schedule” there is no teasing in your tone and bakugou feels his heart beating a little faster at that as he looks up at you and your breath hitched in your throat at the eye contact. bakugou looked up at you with care, completely different from an hour ago and the butterflies in your tummy are going wild.
before you could make a complete fool out of yourself, you take a step back before turning to walk towards his door and he follows you with your book still in his hand. you’re so caught up in your thoughts that you haven’t seen his hand reaching towards the doorknob before you, opening it a little as he murmured a quiet “here”, holding your book out for you with his other hand. you turn around and take your book away from him bashfully, mentally slapping yourself for forgetting the very thing you’re here for.
“thank you katsu, you’re such a sweetheart!” you quietly say, before standing on your tiptoes and kissing his cheek, surprising both you and him with your boldness and you feel bakugou’s body tense slightly before relaxing and you feel one of his hand softly brush against your lower back, rubbing against your shirt gently.
“‘s okay” he breaths against your hair after you pull back and with a final glance at each other you leave his room with a grin and he returns it.
later that night, it’s well past his bed time and bakugou is still up, thinking about your little encounter from earlier. he knows that he likes you and he also knows that he needs to make a move before someone snatches you away from him. he gets out of his bed, fully aware that it’s past curfew and as quietly as he can, he exits his room.
he feels his heart in his chest as he knocks on your door, fearing that you might be asleep already, but you open the door, still awake. bakugou utters out the words before he can stop them upon seeing you.
“go on a date with me”
#bnha x reader#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou x yn#bakugou x reader#bakugou x you#katsuki bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugou x you
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Ok but..... Enemies to lovers with Mike 👀
Hey guys finally got my rest from the hell week I'm ready to write now:3 nyways will make pt2 of this!!
Pairings - Mike Schmidt ft. Reader
"Oh so you are applying for that position?" Steve said as he looked over mike's documents, "But it's already taken, you can be janitor if you want." he joked as mike only looked at him with no reaction.
"Hmm.. Well maybe both of you can be guards if you wanted." he stated again as mike nodded in agreement, "okay sounds good." mike said as both of them stood up to shake hands as he leaved the room feeling angry about the person who took the job first as steve was hesitant to give mike the job.
He opened the door of the place as he already knew you were there as he saw a car outside the place.
"Who the fuck are you?" You asked as you hands are on your hips as if you are someones mother with their child coming home late at night, "Oh you are the person who stole my job." mike spat back as he walk away through the room where he should work.
"Hey I'm talking to you!" You yelled turning at him who just slam the door shut shaking his head, "I'm tired of this shit." he thought as he sat down at the chair as the wheels move a bit sighing at the sight of you from the cctv seeing you using your phone on work.
"This girl istg.." he whispered seeing you already watched the video that is named after him with a tape as he put it again because of his curiosity.
As the video glitched he didn't even finished the video as you entered the room, "Boo you are seriously using that vest.." You looked at him out of judgment well you didn't use yours because it didn't match your outfit.
"you are not taking this back?" Mike asked as he looked at the badge from the vest, "No, it looks goofy you can keep that." you said as you pushed his hands that contains the badge into him.
You looked at him on shock as you rushed on the table getting your things, "You didn't touch my bag didn't you?" You asked as you hugged the bag close to you.
"No i wouldn't, why would i? Crazy woman" mike sighed as you put your jacket at the floor before putting your favorite hand bag.
It didn't take much long for mike to notice on how you care of your belongings other than things that didn't match your outfit. Maybe he will like you after all your sassiness.
"I'm guessing your name is mike?" You asked as you stood up from where you are sitting, "Isn't it obvious?" Mike gave your attitude back to you.
"Fucking asshole." You scoffed before leaving the room as mike just laughed at you.
Maybe this job isn't really bad as he think it is? Looking at your hand bag really reminds him of your attitude, your outfit really fits your attitude on him.
#five nights at freddy's#fnaf#mike schmidt x reader#mike schmidt#mike afton#fnaf movie#mike schmidt x you#josh hutcherson x reader#mike afton x reader#josh hutcherson x you#josh hutcherson
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hi :D for the ask game What do you wish more people understood about kazui? Which trial 2 MV do you enjoy the most, and why?
thank you for the ask i would grovel at ur feet in gratitude i hope the sun shines down and makes the light dance for u and you only today
1. if anything ive seen a few theories of kazui possibly revealing himself to be a two faced manipulator of sorts due to his self proclaimed liarness…. like ‘ohh u cant trust what he says he cld be trying to make himself look pitiable to the audience to get voted inno’ sort of theories which is. no he wont do that???
is he a liar? to a degree yes—liar not in the sense that what he says are direct falsities, but more like hes built much of his character to constantly disguise his true intentions/feelings as a defense mechanism. the lies he says are less of words from a schemer and more of redirections from someone who is, all in all, an insecure adult scared of what will happen if he isnt able to meet peoples expectations of him
as much as he calls himself a liar hes mad honest about where he thinks his capabilities lie, which is to say he doesnt believe in his capabilities at all lol. when amane asks him for help with her studies, he turns her down after some consideration bc he doesnt believe himself to be smart enough to help (despite having graduated from a university; sports degree or not credit shld be given where credit is due). when he talks to shidou post ktk attack, he refuses to admit doing any of the work in taking care of the situation and instead puts all the praise onto shidou. even his physical strength and skill (which is arguably the one part of him he does acknowledge and take some sort of belief in) is something he treats as less of something that he has achieved himself and more of an obligation of his—like, hes strong bc to him he HAS to be, bc it is expected of him to protect those who need protecting. he does want to protect others, sure, but much of that wanting comes frm how ingrained it is in him that thats what hes good for, thats what his strength is for (his timeline w/ yuno on her bday says as much nyway)
the way i see it, that self deprication of his plays back into his obsession with meeting the expectations placed onto him, or at least lessening the disappointment of others by lessening those expectations in the first place. if u tell someone that u didnt go to the right university, that u didnt do much to help anyway, that u were born so fundamentally wrong as a person that everything is bound to go to shit as long as ur there (he basically said this to es in his t1 vd im not even kidding), wouldnt that ensure the safety that youre less likely to ruin someone elses confidence in you? less likely to ruin bc in the small chance that u still fuck up, theres not much left to ruin at that point
in the end ig what i wish more ppl understood abt kazui is that hes a liar yes, but not a manipulator. he lies to stay safe, not to be a sadist or whatever. you cant take what he says at face value (in much the same way u cant do the same for any other prisoner tbh), but that does not mean u shldnt take anything he says srsly at all!!!
2. ok this one i have to give a bit of thought, mostly bc i cant pick just one
if the standards were which t2 mv do i enjoy for its direction music n visual wise, purge march takes the cake so quickly. the music itself is so bomb (which like, i cant even find a logical explanation as to why… its just so good to listen to) n the mv itself does such a great job at creating the right atmosphere, both in its flashy theatrics and the subtle uncanniness under it. mayb i have a slight bias bc tpm was the whole reason i got into milgram in the first place, but i stand by it idccc
aesthetic wise, def all knowing and all agony. the horror elements r genuinely disturbing, but not so overbearing that it overwrites the pop style that milgram has going on. i luove the use of amber for blood, plus the filters that remind me of found footage u usually see show up in asian horror movies. i think i was actually terrified the first time i watched the mv
symbolic wise, its cat always and forever god bless. it takes advantage of its aesthetics to hint at subtle secrets so well that it makes me giddy as hell. the use of colors as a part of the set, the transitions frm scene to scene having its own part in making the story, n honestly making the bg more blank than usual readjusts the focus of the mv on what matters p well. i cant mention every detail rn or else id be here all day
#asks#rambles#milgram#kazui mukuhara#sigh#idk how off topic this got i was a bit excited if u cant tell#thank u for this opportunity#<3
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hello okay i've seen you reblog 4433 posts so this is my invite for you to go fully incoherent rambling about why you love 4433 pretty please?
okay so i sure as hell ain't a vet but i Am intrigued invested enamored hopelessly sinking and it goes like This:
ONE. racer4racer ruthless4ruthless champion4champion. yall heard lewis talk about booing?? it just fuels me 💪💪. yall heard max? i'll just take my trophy home and they can have a nice evening ☺️. the objective energies are a SPECTRUM apart. but then you look a little deeper and Yeah, that's. thats a champion there and champion there.
alexa play monza 2021 silverstone 2021 jeddah 2021 interlagos 2022. in other words: racing other people?? yeah, fine. Can Do, no Problemo. racing each other? explosion Noises.
i.e. u know the phrase Opposites Attract? well. Yeah . onto
TWO. Opposites! e.g. Agendas (for lack of a better word.) max will kneel, will speak when spoken to. but give that kid the choice and he aint sayin a word. he is there to Race and have Laffs why u askin me about my political stance on cheese 🙄😒. lewis on the other more vocal hand Will Speak Out. prbly maybe it traces back to their childhoods, but im not getting into that Particular thing bc its too heavy for this and im not about to make it into a joke, So. yeah, the way they view their own Purpose within fame, the way max Wouldnt bc he thinks hes too small, insignificant in worldwide change, doesnt believe he can do Much for those larger social issues, then lewis doing so many things bc he might not alter the globe singlehandedly but he wants to be part of that smth Bigger. and no that is Not me saying max doesnt have a heart or doesnt want to help bc we've seen him raise donations and be Kind and condemn people for their shitiness. i just think, Opposites.
keeping with the seriousness: yall ever seen max wear smth not white and jeaned other than his racesuit and swim trunks?? MAYBE i can give him the singular fucking bowtie. lewis? ur catchin him suckin of the w14 before u catch him in that shit (Affectionate).
and to their hearts: both of them, who race to win, to be the fastest, to take home the trophy, to feed that fire as it burns on the track, to make their fathers proud. and then: lewis, who lives with faith, who races with God, who want to break records. max, who lives against superstition, who races with gut, who wants to rest. so Yeah. Opposites.
nYway,
THREE. i realize i havent actually touched much on their actual Dynamic HEE, so like. theyre fukin . miscroscope-worthy. in that they should be Studied. intently. i Cant with the whole, the whole Thing they have like. yeah no theyre not Best Buds or anythin but they Have been amicable. acquaintances. Rivals. and there is no fucking way im feeling Nuthin about two men racing with the Sole Focus of beating the other. first, thats 🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈YYY!!! second, that is Everything. who tf is feeling what either of them are feeling going into abu dhabi 21. who Else is putting down his visor knowing its Make or Break. who else is sinking into their cockpit pulling up at the starting line exhaling into their helmet as they watch the lights go out knowing its Now. its there, for Me or Him. its pinned in the center of Us right in the middle, could tip either way. who else, if not each other???? who ELSE I ASK!! also when tf did it happen before that two f1 title rivals went into the final race on equal points??? once?? idk but the Point is, theres two fuckin people (or close to) in the entire World who've been There, only one person who knows how you couldve truly Felt in ur Soul, hands on the steering wheel foot on the gas, has felt it too and hes sitting to ur left, takin a fuckin selfie of u both like sum social media Diva. smfh.
FOUR! they Actually get along???? like ik to some poople theyre tryna Kill each other 25/8 but dawg i think about tom sharing that lil story abt max asking lewis about his hair all the fucking Time its so Unhealthy i need More. n less often but still deserves Stage Time: lewis saying This Guy, this Fucking guy, and max calling him out on it right there on the podium. lewis showing max shit on his phone, makin him goddamn Giggle. the two of them just Joking Around, idk i think its Sweet. that they Can be okay, yknow, even with all the head to head (head 👀) shit they drove each other to in 21.
FIVE: the misc things! i.e. theyre no1s theyve both fucking Dominated the field. who else has on the current grid, i hear? No Fucking one. only Them. i.e. i think there is so much Potential. ik theyre so Different almost polar arctic antarctic north south but it warms my heart sm when theyre together Because of that. i.e. ik this post doesnt read quite so Shippy as it couldve but idk they make me feel More than that in a way bc theyre just so. Apart. and when they come together, it feels Monumental. plus the absolute Dawg the Cunt the 🧎🧎🧎 they can fit into a single photo:
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Yeah .
#if u had ur head in the gutter with one of those last sentences get it Out#xiao: waffle#waffle: mv1.lh44#zhalia my beloved#3344#4433#Anyway . time to go Life#theres prbly More btw but i just#haha cant Think
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how do you imagine zan interacting with each of the dream friends? sorry if thats a question thats asking for a lot.
never apologize for wanting me to write an essay regarding zan partizanne i would do that for a living if i could
nyways luckily zans the one responsible for announcing n showing off the dream friends on twitter so we can have some idea ! of that ! kinda ! as a base !
(note:ive previously answered regarding her feelings on marx, susie n magolor here! so i wont touch on them for this one)
animal trio:its her most brief tweet regarding the announced characters, so i dont think she rly has any thoughts on them ? she doesnt even bother w a nickname, so i imagine shes just neutral on them, lightly bothered rick n kine r notorious for slacking, maybe looks down on them a bit in a "wow my trio is sm professional n stronger than yours." way
gooey:gooey, along side void n the other generals, r the only characters who get nice nickname privileges from zan, in gooeys case v likely she recognized him as part of dark matter n immediately went for expressing appreciation for his holy existence in her peculiar little way (i recall someone pointing out zan has three naming ways for ppl:derogatory, cutesy affectionate n Extreme Respect By Using Full Name.not related just silly aside), i think shes Very Appreciative of gooey n therefore rly affectionate towards him but shes also rly religious abt him.like if a christian met jesus on the street.btw being gooey must be crazy yk nothing abt yourself or your origin n then you find out theres a cult for your species w sacrifices
adeleine/ribbon:throughout her tweets zan.rly goes in on insulting adeleine.like yeah her hairline comments but she keeps bringing up how adeleine seems weak n hides like a little girl (SHES LIKE 12 SHE IS A LITTLE GIRL!!!) n while zan usually atleast acknowledges others fighting skills before claiming shes better, for adeleine she instead insists on constantly bringing her down anyways even when shes surprised at her having a new skill, n her last tweet is literally "hah, im looking forward to facing you!" after commenting ado n ribbon r dancing around adorably, basically she seems to.lowkey hate her LMAO? the adeleine tweets r sooo important to characterizing zan constantly challenging ppl tho !!! she prides her own strength (she even calls herself a battle hardened warrior) a lot n constantly wants to prove it, n hates what she sees as weak or cowardly to the point she seems to lowkey want to teach ppl like that a lesson? so yeah no she has some weird personal one sided beef w adeleine that ado is prob so confused abt, she actually seems to ignore ribbon in her tweets so i imagine she just thinks of her as some extra to ado than a partner to take seriously
honestly shes prob projecting some stuff but thats another post n this is long enough of a paragraph already lol
DMK:not much on the tweets aside from the usual "I CAN BEAT YOU UP" (btw she sounds a bit excited abt it? shes so cute) i dont think she has much interest in him beyond "sounds fun to beat up".shed probably lose btw bc an essential part of zans ego is she does not realize her boss fight is designed to have safe spots bc shes not actually that good at this 🩷
daroach:she doesnt have much to comment but does compare daroachs leadership style to her own, knowing her shes prob gonna get competitive abt that, i cannot see daroach caring back beyond being annoying abt it for fun lol
taranza:so this one is fun bc i think taranza sympathizes w her quite a bit, yk whole "you ever absolutely adore your evil boss n they could not give less of a shit back?" n so he thinks he can help smooth the way into acceptance of trauma bc he did it by himself so he can help n itll be less lonely n hard if he does! n like.its coming from a good place! he rly does want to help.but ultimately their situations r crucially different in what ended up happening (sectonia died n taranza could tell when enough was enough, hyness survived n zan has.no awareness his behavior was bad shes in full acceptance he can treat her like that if he wants to) so what ends up happening is he just gets on her nerves. a lot.bc shes absolutely not anywhere near where taranza started after sectonia died, zan in the tweets acknowledges the similarities between them withhhhh no awareness of what happened to taranza after n honestly knowing her...ego problems shed probably think "what actually happened is you were not good enough, when i would fail lord hyness always found a way to still make me useful.i am simply better than you n you refuse to see it." taranza by some miracle still tries to atleast be friendly w her.he rly does want to help n be there when he can man
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List five things that make you happy, then put this in the ask box of the last 10 mutuals who reblogged something from you. Spread the happiness and positivity!! (no pressure!!)
sorry for taking so long to answer this, I really just didn't feel like it ajandnm
if it's alright, I'd rather just whoever stumbles upon this to answer the question (if they want to), don't wanna send this to 10 mutuals that I'm pretty sure I don't have ^^" NYWAYS
five things I like hmmmmmm
1. Doki Doki Literature Club! (Despite the psychological horror the game and its characters give me WAY TOO MUCH HAPPINESS WWWWWWW i could go on for days about this sshhot)
2. ESCAPE ROOMS (please puzzles are just so cool and stuff and also well designed ones are AMAZING)
3. Amphibia (Finished the show a while back, did I sob? Yes. Does that really matter in this? No. The show is amazing and much happiness ^^ ALSO MARCY WU MY BELOVED she just like me for real)
4. Escape the Night (Wow, I suddenly wonder why I am so inclined to enjoy scary shit despite being scared of loads of things? Anyways, THIS SHOW IS SO GORY/DISTURBING /POS AND PUZZLES AND MAYBE I WATCHED IT WHEN I WAS A BIT TO YOUNG BUT AKEKEMDKFKEMSKSLWLWL)
5. Mystery/Detective (please mysteries are my jam I love trying to figure out whodunit and stuff hMMMMmmm and puzzles sometimes meet with these stuff so like MMMMM YEAH)
Bonus!!!
6. Other People (I know, I know, typical answer, but there's a couple of people who hold a special place in my heart you fucking flanuer smp members I'm going to end my contract /inside joke /j)
#mug talks#doki doki literature club#ddlc#escape rooms#escape room#amphibia#escape the night#etn#mystery#FlaneurSMP
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The ship wars in this fandom continues, and im so glad we are on the same side (aeon)
The hate/attitude people give you for pointing out aeon things/moments/etc. is so uncalled for. Like, I’m sure if it was their ship that had those moments etc. they would jump at the opportunity to post about it like, hypocrisy much
Sorry I don’t mean to make your dms all negative with this. Just want you to know that you’ve got an aeon backing you up <3 take care!!
it's barely a war lmao
people can ship whoever they want- it's been aeon all along
I KNOW RIGHT - GOD FORBID I LIKE SOMETHING SO I HAVE FACTS
i just don't get people who go out of their way to shit on other ships, like ??? the fact that aeon gets shit on SO FREQUENTLY IN THINGS THAT HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH AEON IS SO DUMB
like that cl*on twitter that deactivated because all they did was engage in fights with aeon people, and like go onto aeon twitter accounts and screenshot their tweets to make fun of them?? like?? i thought your hobby was stanning cl*on why are you always on aeon pages???
nyways it's all good, it's mostly funny to me. i just come here for a giggle and gush about aeon and then move on with my life lol
tysm! <3
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kindaaaa funny 2 b like as actively suicidal as ik being (grain a salt idfk like who knos ab others n uhhhh my feelins go frm 0 to 10000000 n the xtereme is likee well. deservednir smth idrrrfk but not n the same way as uhhh th rly guiltything. nyway thts half a why its like whatever i feel awful who evennnn gives a shit. and not in a ohhh pity me way its genuinely fuckin weird 4 ppl 2 care when I barely do like uhhh idfk anyway)
idr what I was sayin im doin like soooo "bad" but i think itsss like fine ill sleep n leave it 4 either tomorrow or someone elseeee haha
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Summary: Elena and Connor have a small discussion
“You never talk about yourself, why is that? Do you like being the whole, ‘troubled, but cute guy with a heart of gold’? Or do you like leaving people all confused about who you really are? I mean...Most people would tell someone they’re seeing about their past, or living situation.”
Connor sighed to himself as he threw on his shirt. He had almost forgotten why he usually got the hell out of dodge in the middle of the night instead of sticking around for breakfast. He never liked dealing with the fallout of the whole, “never giving any real details” aspect of his life. It’s why he usually just hopped in his car once he got restless, and it was like a switch flipped. He never liked to get comfortable, knowing that he often had to go wherever the money lead him, or his instincts.
“Wha’ can I say? Most people ain’t gotta deal with th’shite I have to. Not all of us own our own company ‘nd are billionaires. Why are ya bothered by wha’ th’hell m’doin’ with m’time ‘nyway? Don’ ya have someone else t’go ‘nd bother?”
A soft chuckle left his partner’s lips, as she leaned forward on the bed, resting her chin in her hands while staring at him.
“No need to get dressed so quickly, little godling. I’m quite enjoying the view, even if your ass is as flat as a board. I know that this is nothing serious, but you could always stop trying to hoof it on your own. Get in contact with Dagda...Learn how to control your magic a bit better, no?”
Elena sat up, crossing one leg over the other, and watched him stiffen. She knew the subject of his family was always a sore one.
“Nah. Haven’t done it yet, sure as shit ain’t gonna start now. ‘Sides, wha’ if I wanna go back t’Scotland someday? Pretty sure ‘ny wolf tha’ met me ‘nd smelled Fae on me would get all on their hackles or some shite. Plus, bein’ in a bit of a crowd ain’t exactly m’scene. Fer a job? Sure, it becomin’ m’life? I don’ see tha’ happenin’. Plus, I like m’lifestyle, I ain’t gotta stick ‘round, ‘nd I can jus’ pack up whenever I like.”
Connor wasn’t sure if he was trying to convince her or himself of that when he spoke. The road did get lonely, every now and then, but he never liked the idea of settling down, relying on someone else. Elena could at least sympathize with him. She remembers how long it took her to get used to being apart of the mortal realm again, and she’d have been lying if she said that she still didn’t have her own issues. She was just better at hiding them, compared to him.
“There there, no need to have an existential crisis. Believe it or not, I do understand. My family wasn’t perfect, and I can’t say I’ve let my own anger about failing my goal go, but...”
He hadn’t even heard her walk towards him, and flinched when he felt arms wrapping around his waist and her head press against his back, now he just felt awkward. Elena gave a soft laugh, enjoying the closeness.
“I like to think I’ve learned how to live with it. You can too. I’m not saying you have to love Dagda, but try to get to know them. Be better than what came before, better than I.”
He felt the woman unwrap her arms from around his waist and heard her return to the bed.
“Never heard ya be so...vulnerable before. S’kinda nice t’know tha’ heart of yers isn’t as icy as ya like t’pretend it is.”
He let a small smile come to his face as he heard a soft laugh come from Elena’s lips.
“What can I say, I just happen to have a soft spot for stray puppies~”
#m;connor#elena's another oc of mine who was someone connor used to sleep with#but also filled him in on fae/werewolf relations#drabble tag.
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oh my god wait i finally understand the whole "men tend to stand with their legs spread and weight evenly distributed whereas women tend to shift their weight from foot to foot" thing. i never understood why they wouldnt shift foot to foot bc i have chronic foot pain and thats how ive always juggled it is by giving each fot rest periods but it literally has nothing to do with their feets its becuse theres a dick and balls and even soft that takes up space so they have to give it room to breathe, the feet come second
#and like yeah mines silicon but i think also i must have at least a little bit of bottom growth because the pressure of it just. being#there sometimes gets uncomfortable#oh fuck me im a man arent i#like not just a masc aligned but mostly gender neutral thing but like dtraight up a man#every single thing that changes makes me feel more 'like a man' and it makes me so happy#it is impossible to overestimate how much better being able to actively transition makes things#i honestly do think if i wasn't doing this right now my mental health would be such a worse trainwreck than it is#like. an entirely unrelated trainwreck mind you#the relief of getting to be a man is just taking something very heavy off the pile and giving me room to breathe#ough sorry i just went down the longest mental rabbit hole of my life#looking up aerial yoga classes near me because i want to build up some muscle but my body cant handle most exercise#nyways. im not gonna do anything about this yet i dont think#honestly i think thats how most of my friends percieve me at this point anyways and who gives a shit about work
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#dumb brain things : still talking almost exclus in tags and never tagging myself bc of that time super early in my trans experience#where terfs trowling trans tags to spew vitriol found one of my selfies n mocked me (a then litcheral teenager)#its like... this is one of those potentially anonymouse webbed sites and i start shit w ppl unironically spitting bad takes on others.#but this is my comfort webbed site. i doomscroll a littel bit bc at this pt its unavoidable and ignoring it to focus on what makes me happy-#-that doesnt fix anything. taking ur eyes off it bc theres a 'good leader' elected gives them carte blanche to do bad without pushback#i simpley dont want to start shit with dumb idiot brain fungus over it so i add my comments in the tags and call it there#that way ppl who do as i do (trowl the notes to see what the biggest bad takes are) but from the opposite angle dont come to me abt it#its nothing other than a defense mechanism and i had so much anxiety over tags being added to notes of op bc of it bc thats suddenly nonzero#nz that i get roped into discourse on my curated little dumpster fire#its very much dont find me dont perceive me and thats unavoidable on a large number of other platforms!#but ive basically made my peace long ago that anything i make online will stand on its own and i dont want a huge following due it#that loneliness is preferable to death and suffering#simultaneously apes together strong. and group efforts are necessary if we are to succeed in surviving climate and politics#but also with that comes the ease that state dogs have in targeting EVEN ppl PERCEIVED as a Group (re targeting ppl over their politics)#@nyways breakfast today was good and the sight of the moon in the morning is more than i could ever ask#im feeling better slowly nature is healing etc but........ i cant help but repeat what we were even told by this admins public admission#''nothing will fundamentally change'' is even a common tag for me now. the blue party is stuck in the neolib mind prison of business as usul#we must SEIZE the future we crave because there is no help from respectability politics and compromise with the unjust man#everybody saw it and yet the gross majority wants to give this a try still? come on man.#theres so many problems facing the present that its easy to doomer that itd be easier not to even try. its what everybody before us did.#and bc of that history nothing other than red hot radicalization will save us. we NEED to step up to fix the planet or it WILL kill us#we're action movie levels of humans out of time- and yet we must argue civility vs being cancelled vs dehumanization?#STOP! get out! do not derail us! neolib news and politics is a distraction when we need anything else!#if by n large thats what we are roped into talking about then the few fucking us over by policy and profit will keep on to lifeboats#(illusion though they may be as the planet is the only life boat possible in our lifetimes)#success depends upon doing things today and today and the today afterwards#at risk of one then be the hydra. each and every one of us is capable of being the david against the cyclops goliath#as usual when i get down to it its redposting thats replaced my desire for roleplay bc of the necessity of survival#writing that helps the soul and the brain but only provides a panacea for the problems.. we are plagued by 'later' forever.#did you know that theres a 30 tag limit uwu
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nothing makes me feel more sick than hockey registration and tryouts
#it gives me panic attacks#like i could thow up right now#and all the girls and boys who i am always sure are better than me but like my skates just arent sharp enough#and my parents make me register and do all that shit by myself which gives me so much anxiety#however i am allowed to move if i make this team#god i want this so bad#i want to move out right now#so i will register and tryout even though i might get INTENSE panic and anxiety#and my training will actually start tomorrow#fucking rest in peace junk food :( hello excessive amounts of protein and broccoli#also cardio#fuck#i think im gonna puke just thinking about try outs and being by myself#ive never made friends with my team mates because ive always been so focused on winning and making it#pressure from the parents#im always fucking by myself with these things#my parents expect great things from me but not my siblings fucks sake#like sorry for not being able to keep my top of the class rank make a AAA team and live out my personal music interest#and take care of you and my little sister and get called down for idk what#nyways im stressed as fuck#not to mention my raging hate for myself#hockey#tryouts#sports#jadesstuff#not marvel#not 1d#personal
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#my most disgusting habit (jk there r worse.. my toxic trait ??) is that i regularly dnt finish my drinks n find then days later n drink them#evn tho the vodka is warm n nasty n w/e i used 2 mix is flat n old n yuckie......... cant waste it tho! 👊😔 nyway im a lil daydrunk n i hav#2 grocery shop soon n uhhhh @ this point i rlly do hope i get sick n die lmfao @ my immune system just kill me already bitch we r tired of w#aiting -_- genuinely my menchul helth hasnt been this fucked since i was...................... idek since the last time i Srsly tried 2 kms#(i mean b4 the last time.. which was recent n didnt count bc nothing happened n only a few ppl evn knew i *ttempted lmao)#nyway FUCK a quarantine i am losing my goddamn mind here :')#like lichrally all the hehe uwu i have more time 2 try new things shit is wearing thin n eye am lichrally spending evry hr of the die trying#2 convince myself that it wld b Bad Achually 2 die :') guilt is the only thing keeping me from attempting n like...... idk. i shldnt b talki#abt it here but also. who cares where i talk abt it LMAO im not gnna do shit but Wrow eye am Srsly Unwell folks lmao#i told the b*y i am feeling v bad n in a lot of pain n Trying my Best 2 take carea myself (read as: not die) n he just said please please do#as in.. please take care of urself.. bitch if u dont SHUT the fuck UP i swear to GOD i will ghost ur ass....... no 'im sorry ur in pain' no#'is there anything i can do' no 'i wish i were with u' no NOTHING but do bttr bitch stop hurting LMFAO like........ god........... okay.....#nyway bye i hate coming on here idek if my queue is still goin but im 2....... idk i just dnt care 2 scroll mindlessly n fill it again lmfao#my whole body hurts from the strain of Not Killing Myself n eye am trying not 2 worry evry1 who gives a shit abt me n eye am trying 2 keep#myself occupied n hnstly i just wanna take seroquel evry time i wake up so i can pass back out lmfao but instead im staying Mildly Tipsy 24/#7 so i @ the V least dnt have 2 think as much but obv 2d it isnt working........... i still have a cup of coffeetho guess ill dump more#rumchata in it lmfao see if that helps :') idk 4r i am v unwell n v tired n i wish i cld d** w/o hurting ny1s feelings abt it lmao but i can#t so i wont n itll b........ miserable but fine! same as the rest of life has been lmfao#i feel bad im ignoring so many mssgs but genuinely i dnt ahve the mental capacity rn 2 keep up conversations in which im not allowed 2 b a#suicidal mess like............ ALL my energy is going in2 not killing myself i genuinely just dnt have the ability 2 pretend 2 b Fine n Okay#n Positive Outlook n Healing Nature rn lmfao so w/e if evry1 hates me coming outta this n thats fine :')#ok BYE ill shut the fuckup now lmao
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new year same old rat but more teen angst and rage probably??
#i DONT know what i wanna be called im so sorry god ksjdkjfk. matt is fine and so is ezra n any of those other names in my abt uhg#my art#me#mta#ok this looks rank i got frustrated at the end bc i. hate fucking. formatting#or whatever. making text look nice and aligning it nice??? im good at art but text stuff drives me up the wall 😪#everything turned kinda bad and im getting :/// trying to fix it and make it look pretty so this is gonna have to do#everything looks pretty ok until the window w/ my name n flags uhG#god everything looks so gunky im gonna bite it kdjfksjkj :(#it was fun even if it didnt. work out though yikes#sorry if you cant read all the stuff i wrote?? i cant either my handwriting is a mess. its probs easier if you zoom into it#nyways you can tell i have more self respect even if just a little bc i didnt draw myself like i just crawled out of a grave this time#its because i got a haircut and im giving less fucks thats self care yall#i mean i still care enough to split my knuckes open every other week but like#i gotta say Not Giving A Shit has been so beneficial for me kdjkfdjj#like. who cares. move on. if ppl wanna be unhappy and mean then whatever im not gonna deal with ti
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&. i should probably write up a hc about how yondu found abt ego / why he decided to keep peter / etc. bc it’s important i guess but also i could just talk about it in the tags like i do with the majority of my headcanons
#AKSKFNDKNJKSD i talk in the tags so much its just easier and less pressure to make things sound cohesive#nyway i hc that mantis probabl.... VERY SUBTLY bc ego cant know... points yondu 2 the cave of skeletons#and hes like god damn those sure are some#fuckng skeletons#and like he intentionally ignores the implication#but on the way to terra it clicks and like he KNOWS whats going on now#but he figures he can ignore it one last time andget paid for this delivery#and be done with it#bc at this point he has enough money to keep his faction afloat#and also his crew? dont give a fuck abt these kids as much as he does#like esp taserface + those like hime#are very... u know... they wanna get paid and they dont care what they have to do in order to do so#anyway hes trying to ignore it and he picks up peter#and he knows hes sending this kid off to his death#THIS KID WHOS JUST... SO SAD AND LONLEY AND CLUTCHING HIS MIXTAPE#BUT ALSO PUTTING UP A FIGHT AND YELLING AND MAKING SNARKY REMARKS#and ofc yondu sees himself in this kid. of COURSE he does#bc its exactly what he was like when stakar picked HIM up#and he cant send him to his death#yondus a piece of shit but he cant knowingly do that. he just cant#so he makes up some story abt how they have the money they need and they need a kid to help with thieving#and thats that right??#except during this point (after pickin up petey)#stakar shows up#storms in starts yelling bc hes pissed for GOOD reason (hi i love stakar)#and exiles yondu#and now its like. u know. a shitty day for everyone but at least hes saved one (1) kid#and thats enough#and he can pick himself up and go back to being a captain#(and a father!!!!! even tho hes got no clue what hes doing)
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