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Thanks for this! It's explained what's going on really well.
Word of comfort to Germans from a British person (... OK I know, not a point in my favour, we Brexited like idiots, you're generally doing better than us. But still!):
This post sounded kind of familiar. I couldn't help but compare it to the fun and games we had a couple of years ago, where Liz Truss (a broken AI made by the ghost of Ayn Rand) got voted in as Prime Minister... and broke both the economy and the government within two months.
Quick highlight recap of that time:
Truss quickly releases an unfunded, unresearched budget that was basically her personal wishlist to Economics Father Christmas. Short version was that she was going to cut taxes, cut taxes, and cut taxes- especially for the wealthy- and pay for national infrastructure with Blitz Spirit(tm) and pixie dust. This budget immediately blows a £40 billion hole in the UK economy (because investors everywhere decide the UK's gone utterly mad), which in turn triples some people's mortages overnight.
As you can imagine, this makes her rather unpopular, including with her own Conservative party. She's been so much of an incompetent right-wing dickhead that the 'incompetent right wing dickheads' party are looking at her like "hey, hang on, what the fuck are you doing!"
TLDR Our economy has lost the plot and the government is infighting.
About a month after this, Liz Truss fires her loyal chancellor that she had, up until that point, presented a united front with. It's blatantly to try and save her career. It doesn't work.
Liz Truss disappears from like, her job. At one point a senior Conservative MP (Member of Parliament) has to insist the house of commons that 'the prime minister is not hiding under a desk'.
This all culminates in a vote, which may have been a vote about fracking or may have been a vote of confidence in the Trussterfuck's premiership (even Conservative MPs weren't sure), that immediately descends into mania. Multiple major political figures resign. There are reports of MPs in tears. There are reports of MPs being physically manhandled to the voting queue by Truss loyalists (and, oh, we do not do amateur dramatics like that here!). Liz Truss herself misses the vote because she's too busy trying to talk a senior staff member out of resigning. A Conservative MP tells BBC News that the whole thing was 'a disgrace the party can't come back from.'
A few days after that, she was out. Just two months after being elected prime minister. She's officially the shortest serving Prime Minister ever (the next shortest died.) It's wild, unheard of. British politics doesn't work like this. This kind of unhinged political chaos doesn't happen to us.
... That was two years ago. These days? We're... OK.
Don't get me wrong, we have a rising far right just like you do (where doesn't these days), and our new government is better but not amazing. It does feel more stable here though than it has in years. Some things even seem like they might start getting better! Truss' bullshit blew over, and we got back to normal.
Also, there was 100% a point where The Trussterfuck got so awful it looped back round to being funny. Once politics really loses the plot, sometimes all you can do is laugh.
... Anyway that point of this is that Germany will be fine. Political chaos isn't always doom, and based on what you've said about the way your government works, it sounds like this will sort itself out. If Scholz can fire Lindner, anyone can fire anyone, and that in itself makes a far-right takeover way less likely. Unless a convincing AFD majority is a real risk (which- I might be wrong but I don't think it is), everything will work itself out, and you'll get to have a bit of a laugh in the meantime.
Good luck- you might need to buckle in for a bit- but definitely don't panic or despair!
Okay alright sorry for all the sudden German politics influx but lemme explain what happened so far and why Germans are losing it a bit:
The tldr? Our government is getting a divorce and it's turning messy with elections being called early and now being called even earlier.
The longer version?
Okay so, groundwork first:
in Germany there is a coalition currently in power called the Ampel(traffic lights) bc the colours of the party are red, yellow and green (or not anymore or for much longer??). They're centrist slightly more left leaning than right leaning. (You could argue about that I am aware). There has been infighting for as long as this coalition has been going on. It is also the first three party coalition since y know, the Last Time.
So. Enough groundwork. The yellow party (FDP) has a finance minister (Christiane Lindner) it's this guy
You will see him in memes I am sure. We don't like him. He's an asshole and has blocked every meaningful change that the coalition had been trying to accomplish. He also got his finance plan blocked by our highest court because parts were against our Constitution.
(.... I am oversimplifying hard here it's actually more complicated than that and not fully his fault, but it's also not the focus)
What WAS the fault though of him and the FDP was that they had a strong position of "saving money at all costs" which made bigger and bigger rifts with the two other coalition partners who were more leaftleaning. The war in Ukraine, Infrastructure, climate change - there were many places that needed more money and Lidner was like naaahhhhh for no fucking reason other than "oh we need to save money!!"
Long story short there have been arguing all the fucking time and therefore have started to lose approval. Drastically lose approval. As on for the first time since the Last Time there is a far right party in charge for part of the country that is also being investigated for being Nazis. (Oversimplifying again).
Which is. Worrying. You know. Especially with Trump now being elected. It has us all a little skittish.
The finance minister has also now been fired.
You see. We were all still trying to stomach Trump winning the US election, when Scholz, in the same fucking evening, fired Lindner.
And not in a polite way. Nah. Olaf fucking Scholz our Chancellor, notorious for saying literally nothing, and with a running joke that he regularly stops existing bc that man Does Not Take Stances, a spine of wet cardboard, delivered this yesterday evening:
(English subtitles by me you already got this far watch it I spent too much time on this lol)
And it is insane alright. For his standards and German politic standards thats the equivalent of calling Lindner a egomaniacal bitch that has only his self interest at heart and can not be trusted.
Lindner and his party have been pulverised in all recent elections. Which means that after he was fired, the FDP completely withdrew from the coalition and all minister from the FDP resigned.
....well all but one who apparently stayed in his positions because he's leaving the FDP over this. What sort of shitty backstabbing kindergarten fight is this. (Jokes aside hes the minister of transportation and says he needs to stay in office in important projects. Which. True. Having minister resigning en mass is not good)
Alright cool cool cool cool. Current situation yesterday is the following:
So. Trump is president. Fuck.
Lindner got fired! Yaaay!
Wait my goverment is now also falling apart! Fuck.
Which all lead to new elections being called in Germany.
Mind you, that's not usual ok. I know other countries have systems where they can call an election whenever but that is not a thing that normally happens here. We have a schedule alright. (Insert obligatory "Germans and their plans and structure" joke)
So new elections are called for spring, nearly a year early. Cool cool cool. With a right wing rising in Germany and deeply unpopular current leadership. On the eve of motherfucking trump getting elected.
Habeck, leader of the green party and one of the few policians in germany I think is vaguely liked by ppl (the general attitude in German politics is less "I like this guy" and more "you are the least shitty choice I guess") has appearently also nearly started crying after the news broke. So. Yeah.
Now. Let's make this shitshow complete,alright?
There is this party. CDU. They had been in charge for a very long time in Germany. Centrist, right leaning, with the afd on the rising even more right leaning than before. Their current leader is Friedrich Merz, as unpleasant as human beings can go.
He has now called for the new election to be not in a few months but like. To be called next week.
In the current climate.
So yeah. if you're German mutuals and friends are currently going through their own stages of grief - this is why.
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The BS Tommy said to Buck during the breakup scene was classic, "It’s not you, it's me" language.
I'm so happy they're over and I'm still celebrating the demise of that awful relationship. IMO, it should have ended in season 7 but I digress.
There were so many things in the BT 2.0 breakup scene that felt obscure and oblique to me and I've already posted about a couple of them (linked here). I'm still planning to do a full post on all of it but I think I figured out why the BS Tommy said during it seemed so out of left field. Two weeks ago, I posted about how the show went out of its way in 8x5 to illustrate the reasons why Buck and Tommy weren't compatible and I included an explanation of the way Buck believed Tommy was his boyfriend even though Tommy didn't consider Buck to be his (linked here). But in 8x6, everything about whatever they had was flipped and made to seem like Tommy really cared about Buck but HE DIDN'T.
The truth is he's always known Buck wants Eddie and I think it's possible he was planning to end it during dinner after he gave him the Lakers tickets. It seems like he was trying to get Buck to realize or admit he'll always be in love with Eddie but there's one thing he didn’t count on and that's Clinger!Buck. When Tommy said he could "Take Eddie" to the game, it was his ploy to see if Buck would take the bait and he kind of did when he asked him if he'd be ok with it. But Tommy turned it into one of his rude, unfunny dry ass jokes by responding with "And die." Who TF even says that? No one just like that whole "vision in a cone" line he said in 8x1.
Anyway, my point is Tommy used the classic "It’s not you, it's me" breakup language on Buck because it was the only excuse he could come up with to end it. He had tried everything else with his dismissive attitude, laughing at him with his coworkers and not kissing him anymore but Clinger!Buck was holding on for dear life. The final straw was when Buck said, "I want you to move in with me" and it was the thing that sealed the deal and Tommy realized he had to get out and it’s the path he chose to do it.
They didn't know each other after 6 months and the proof was the anniversary gift and Buck not knowing anything about Tommy beyond the physical (déjà vu for all of Buck’s other relationships). Has Buck ever even been to Tommy’s house? Eddie has and it's CANON because Eddie said it in 7x4.
Tommy prefaced the breakup with several compliments when he said how handsome and great Buck is but then he said that BS about his heart would get broken and he wouldn't be able to take it 🙄. In the few episodes he was in, they never discussed love or anything else other than that daddy kink joke in 7x10. Therefore, their relationship was surface level so why in TF did Tommy say that?
The only answer that makes sense to me is he was having fun but Clinger!Buck was ready to take it to the next level and Tommy didn't want that. He told Buck that in 7x4 when he said "Dating someone you meet on a call never ends the way you expect" but Buck missed the memo and he’s still misunderstanding the assignment.
Eddie had already told Buck that in 6x15 but it’s evident Buck still doesn't realize he’s on the same hamster wheel he's been on since 2018.
The point of this post is Tommy did the "It’s not you, it's me" to breakup with Buck because that's what people say when they don't want to admit the truth. He was softening the blow of dumping him because Buck was being left behind again just like he was with Abby, Ali, Taylor and Natalia. Buck broke up with Taylor and Natalia but he didn't end it for the right reasons. He was unhappy with Taylor but their breakup wasn't about that and he knew Natalia was all about death when he started dating her so there's that.
It was a $hitty reason to end it especially with all the other things they could have used to breakup but for whatever reason, TM (showrunner) chose this option and I don’t like it because Tommy came out unscathed. He should've had to answer for his racist and bigoted past but he wasn't held accountable just like Gerarrd and that sucks.
Buck’s in love with Eddie Diaz! He always has been but he’s still on the hamster wheel and he won't get off until he asks and answers the questions regarding what he wants for himself.
#buddie#eddie diaz#evan buckley#911 abc#911 spoilers#911 meta#911 speculation#911 on abc#911 season 8#911 season 8 speculation#anti bucktommy#anti tommy kinard#Canonically Observing 9-1-1 Speaks
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He's not just Sol – he's a freaking Solar storm! All of my wips are on hiatus, and I can barely make it through my daily routine, but I'm still enjoying it, even with the prospect of the emotional disaster of losing this incredible character next week (I hate saying it and hope I turn out to be wrong)
#Not me thinking just a couple of months ago: Ok#Luke's return in Mandalorian was my emotional peak#and I can never experience anything close to this again with fictional characters#and that's okay. Acolyte creators: Hold our beer...😂#the acolyte#master sol#jedi master sol#lee jung jae#sol patrol#sol acolyte#my ramblings#lil dormouse edit#acolyte#acolyteedit#theacolyteedit
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somewhat self indulgent domestic fight club because theyre all i think about and also experimenting with screen tones
#im lying a bit my brain rn is split between fight club and stanley pines#and also a tiny bit cyberpunk 2077 cuz i just started it a couple days ago and the one character reminds me of tyler#got back into gravity falls cuz book of bill stuff reminded me of soapshipping and now getting into cyberpunk cuz fight club core#it says a lot about me and how much this movie has ruined me in the 7 months since i watched it#fight club#soapshipping#fight club 1999#fight club narrator#tyler durden#fight club tyler#domestic soapshipping#is that a tag#jt should be#i think about ok <3 yay <3 so much even in situations that dont match the tone of the original#bigsharkguy
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I don't know what it is about this lil 'stache on him, but it makes me absolutely feral
#Good God#*bites fist*#I came across this pic a couple of days ago#and have not been able to stop thinking about it#like the Phileas 'stache always did it for me#but I thought part of it came from the waistcoats and period dress? and wet cat nature?#none of that here.. and yet... this pic is significantly more powerful#this window of the month is not helping matters#HNNNNG#ok backing away#David Tennant's moustache#come yell at me about it#David Tennant#i also didn't sleep much last night so cut me some slack#Phileas Fogg#thirstposting#screaming crying throwing up#etc#also does he have v mild hetetochromia? or is it just the lighting and/or me?#I apparently saved this in my drafts#yesterday evening#I’ve since had some spearmint tea and calmed down#(it’s all still true)#whatever—send it#no tag editing we die like men
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why did he do this (rhetorical) (profoundly affected)
#obviously referenced from start to finish. half second shots that kill#you go ''i was already Changed by the mere socked glasses flip / kick gifs. i'm ready'' but you are actually collapsed on the ground#raising my hand as one of the handful of randos who stood up suddenly these past few months like why yes i Will watch your films then#and also as [guy lecturing & emphatically pointing to laptop] i have to do everything myself the undereye coloring is a distinctive trait#fashion icon shit around here also i'm not kidding in the least#i want well another pair of glasses for one & graphic tees short shorts a fanny pack a calculator(?) buttonsy digital watch i completely do#also again with the adhd these flashbacks were beautiful. inspiring. revelatory. profound (cont.)#it's also occurring to me that i've watched a couple movies for the first time recently and it was like. man cmon#one horror one that was like. I Said Man Cmon. another non horror one that was just like an unending shrug#all the more appreciation like yeah hey a horror movie and also just a movie where it's like yes i'm completely along for the ride wahoo yay#raising my third hand as a correct opinions about media haver#corned beef#it#no time to be coy i was here three and greater than three years ago. and just nowadays; evidently:#reddie#online listicle video voice The Couple Of Dozen V Varied Moments From The IT Movies That Drew Blood (Mine)#whoever came up with this sequence i'm kissing on the mouth like my god. again: profound#the power of the rileable using their end of things as their plausible deniability. like oh god i hope he thinks i'm cool. ok asshole Enough#being the guy Just Standing There like fellas the boy you're in love with very insistently did this wyd (only caring abt literature)#adding a 50% pink overlay like it comes time to make these coloring choices & i put on a vivacious song to inspire having fun / being myself#great choice imo. now to slide right under that midnight est wire
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#still wild to me that i am in a relationship#itll be 3 months next week and i am obsessed with him than ever#i never couldve imagined itd actually be like this but it is literally everything i ever wanted#hes sooooo kind#and sweet and i could gush about him all day long#i mentioned in front of two of his friends how im planning to buy a ps5 in the next couple months bc i only have Nintendo consoles#and i wanna play other games#and his two friends where like well why arent you getting a gaming pc?????#important note here: they all are gaming nerds and they are all like IT guys incl my boyfriend#and i explained that its just the easiest way and that im not really a pc gamer#(but important note here is that my bf has hi gaming pc set up on his tv and plays with a controller exclusively and i do vibe with that)#and then all 3 basically were like we will literally build you a gaming pc ourselves so you dont buy a ps5!!!!#that was 2 days ago.#yesterday my boyfriend showed me his research into possible gaming pc set ups for me that would be within a certain budget#while still being definitely more than good enough#and he explained some things to me and asked my opinions#and now im sat here like ok 🥺#i think ill let my boyfriend build me a gaming pc#mind you i wasnt planing on getting a ps5 before fall the earliest bc im planning on moving soon and money and all that#but hes already planning and gathering ideas#while still understanding why i initially wanted a ps5 (less money and i have no idea about gaming pc set ups) and leaving it fully up to me#i am also now at exactly 100 hours into elden ring with him as my backseater#which means end game shit#i am currently switching between trying to win against Malenia Mogh lord of blood and radagon#its........ going#i maxed out my number of flasks and charges?? is that what its called#and i got my +10 staved and sword/catana#its still super fun but hoh boy#the rush of adrenaline when i finally beat godfrey and my boyfriend was so hapoy for me too it was honestly super fucking adorable#personal
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yall remember on here when kids who genuinely didnt want to be the type of person to say kill yourself started saying stuff like "go pee your pants" and "im gonna come to your house and unsalt your butter" and then the type of people who regularly got into fights w teenagers online were like "well obviously they MEAN the actual threats whether they say them or not" and then it rapidly became socially acceptable to say kys again.
#txt#like regardless of how cringe you found it do you have to assume it was as malicious as possible#*worth noting this was before tiktok got huge so today's crazy fear of language censorship wasnt rlly there yet#anyway it reminds me of how one time when i was like 16 i was looking at some shipping shit & went 'this is so gay<3' & my cousin overheard-#-and was like 😨 do you😨 not think its ok for people of the same gender to get married??#and then just a couple months ago now that we're both in our 20s she used gay as an insult. like what are we doing
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Wait do you have any bts fic recs? I haven’t read a fanfic in like 6 years
i'm gonna be honest i haven't read many bts fics in a hot minute either lmao but that post i made yesterday was about @solecize's fic called the farmhouse (which i also reblogged on my fic rec blog @milkysvga in case you wanted to browse the stuff ive read over the years :D)
it's a stardew valley au ft jungkook and it is so SO flipping good like i was amazed by how immersive and well-written it was :') it made me reopen stardew the moment i finish reading lmao i sincerely recommend it to anyone looking for a feel good fic :D
#i actually read that fic months ago but i was going thru my drafts and thought to post that shit post yesterday since it still rings true#yoongi was barely a secondary character in that fic but somehow i was still enamored LMFAO#i think its bc whenever i read reader inserts... i never see myself as the y/n chara#so to me... jungkook and y/n were already a couple which means yoongi was available LMFAO if that makes cents#idk im just trying to justify my terminal yoongi loving disease what can i say#dont look at me ok guys my insane ass just loves to project#Anonymous#answered#fic rec
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#im just so depreshhhh#and i was like oh wow i just asked a if we could hang out after not talking for killions of years#and he was like YEAH!!!!#but then i havent replied for over a month#and i was like wow ok now hes surely not gonna wanna hang out#but then a couple of days ago he messaged again and asked if i want to meet up next week#and i still havent replied#idk it just gives me too much anxiety and i lowkey wish i'd never messaged him#bc like idk i just get so self conscious abt my weight around him (bc i know what he thinks abt fat ppl lmao)#and idk the fact that he still is in contact with all of our old friends who makes me wanna die just to think of#what if he tells them abt me.......#idk.... but like i feel bad for not replying#and what if i regret it later and wished i'd just meet him one last time#goshhh it gives me way too much anxiety i just dont wanna deal with it !!!!!!!!!!!!#bit i gte more anxious when i avoid and ignore it ahhhh#idk..... 😭
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#waaahhh feeling BAD again.....#like few months ago my friend asked if i had new years free and i ASSUMED that meant we were like planning smth together?????#and today she mentions in a GROUP CHAT that shes spendingnnew years with her bf#and like. ok. fine. good for them i guess#but i just rly wished she woulda told me like before#and it happened while i was at a Christmas party toooo.... now im sad and just not drunk enough#feeling lonely#i rly thought i had like things going up things looking good finally friends and shit#and like obviously i know her bf is the most important person to her thats how it works#but likee feels bad yk#cause apparently to her this wasnt even that big of a deal cos she didnt bother mentioning it yo be before#and i have no one#my other friends invited us both (thats how i found out) but theyre a couple too so i dont wanns go third wheeling their new years yk#i just#u think its going so well#and suddenly i just feel like ughhhh#this is cringe even writing i might delete this tomorrow when im sober and awake#but like. everyones got someone and ive been trying to click with someone for 20 fucking years#and still#:(((((((((#and like it feels bad not being anyones most important person#and like i know so many ppl are in this situation im not trying to be like wahhh my suffering is unique but like it just feels bad#very bad esp when ur tired as fuck and alone and shit#:(((((#my post#everything SUCKS!!!!!!!!!
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im finally going to replay y0...
#it's been a little over 2 years#and ive never replayed any of the games before so im very interested in what this is gonna be like#i just played them slowly and in order + lad ishin at the end#i kinda wanted to do the judgments first but uh. they're never on sale <3#someday though#ugh im nervous though#not about this but like. ok real ones will remember that a couple of months ago i mentioned i finally asked my mom for like. mental health#assistance that wasnt her telling me to stop spiralling. the two appointments we could do were like. next week or october#i technically have enough time to get my shit together but ive also like. never talked to an actual doctor about this stuff before#and she kept asking me if i could be more specific than 'general longterm mental health issues' (and anxiety which she added)#but like. i dont wanna tell her Shit about that yknow#especially not like. just woken up at 2pm no preparation#also she added anxiety on her own. so you KNEW it was an issue and you didn't fucking do anything about it? at all??#truthfully i don't think it's nearly as big of an issue as before. i get stressed about stuff sure but it's pretty circumstantial#like these days i dont have anxiety about much of anything because im not trying to decide my entire future between 8 hour days in the#bright lights and eye contact factory#girl you don't have any idea what we're getting into by doing this#anyway if i get an ocd diagnosis that'll be the most awkward because that's the only one they actively joke about and that i've butted head#with them on. (i mean theyre also shit to npd/aspd ppl i just haven't chewed them out for it yet bc every time i do that i end up useless#for the rest of the day at least and i gotta pick my battles)#and idek what i wanna do about the Probably Autism going on man. i've been thinking about doing foster care/adoption for years now#when im older/if im ever financially stable. a diagnosis could basically nuke my options for that#but they'd NEVER believe a self diagnosis#whatever FUCK JT ITS YAKUZING TIME!!!!!!!!!#OH AND IT'S THE FIRST TIME DOING ONE ON LEGEND#which im nervous about bc i never really play stuff on anything but normal#so uh. 😬😬
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tv show tag game
rules: list eight shows for your followers to get to know you better
thanks to @majorbaby for tagging!! I love doing these even if it takes me days and days to actually get around to them
1. Doctor who (2005- present)
2. M*A*S*H
3. Buffy the Vampire Slayer
4. Firefly
5. Good Omens
6. Fleabag
7. Derry Girls
8. DuckTales
as usual I’m not gonna tag anyone but consider this a free tag— if you wanna do it tag me cuz I’d love to see em :)
#I basically chose shows that I consider mostly my favourite or that I reliably rewatch and that bring me joy.#is David tennant in half of these? no. because I took out takin over the asylum but he is in 3/8. we are not surprised#I am actually currently watching a couple other shows that I didn’t add to the list but I’ll throw em in the tags as honourable mentions:#I’m behind on Barry season 4 but I love Barry sm and if you haven’t seen it definitely watch it. Bill Hader is the showrunner and lead actor#he’s fantastic in it he’s so wonderful and Henry Winkler is in it also#started watching The West Wing about a month(?) ago now although I’ve taken a two week break since I’ve been on vacation#I’m looking forward to continuing both those shows when I get home later today and tomorrow when I’ll just be sleeping#that’s why it took me so long to get around to this tag game btw— haven’t had enough time alone with my phone to come up with 8 tv shows 😫#also! special shout out to Superstore and Parks and Rec my favourite nbc sitcoms :) I thoroughly enjoy that format in general#ok now I keep thinking of other shows that should be on this list so I’m gonna stop writing tags…
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#holy fuck i just found out theres support for fourth generation japanese descendents#i thought it was only 3rd generation but this is newer it looks like#probably the closest i am to leaving based where any of my family is from#im pretty sure my aunt lived there for like 7 years after my grandma left the military base#gotta lock tf in#you need a sponser but idk if my very distant cousin would do that#maybe#he did add me on facebook a couple months ago#ahhhhhh#hes 50 i think and has no children#ok well#Anyway
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dude i knew i had like abandonment and attachment issues or whatever but i didn't realize it was this bad reese has had like three non consecutive episodes of loose poops with a little mucous and i'm sitting here crying convincing myself he's dying in agony even though he's literally completely fine in every other way. lol
#he had one several days ago and i noticed it and thought ok i'll keep an eye on it and then there were several normal solid ones but tonight#i noticed a couple that were not. it's not even full on liquid diarrhea just like ...idk thick milkshake consistency? lmao sorry#anyway as far as i know he hasn't gotten wormed or anything in over a year and a half so i think i will get some dewormer and maybe some#fortiflora if it keeps up#he has been on the same bag of food for months with no issues so i don't think it's that#cannot stress enough how normal he is acting otherwise and rationally i think i'm just overreacting but omg#i do want to get him into a vet even though he was technically supervised by a vet until august because god knows that guy didnt do anything#i'm not sure i want to take him to my workplace though although they are by far the cheapest lol i'm going to look into pet insurance#anyway. i'm normal and emotionally regulated and 8 years of therapy definitely had an effect for sure#experiencing major losses during formative periods of my life definitely has not had any bad and long lasting consequences. namaste#me
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I really should know better than to watch dumb romcoms while I'm 90% sure I'm ovulating.
This time it was Netflix's Love in the Villa trying to make me cry.
#is this tmi? maybe. but this is the tmi site.#look ok romeo and juliet holds a special place in my heart and not because i've read the play#i've never ever read the play at all#but i've worked on 3 different productions of it in different formats and each time was a turning point in my career#so it means a lot to me so adding R+J references to this movie's dumb romcom-ness just makes me emotional#i say dumb romcom super super affectionately#literally the last 2 days i had pain that i get every few months right by my right ovary that tends to coincide#with the time that my period app says i'm ovulating. i don't actually pay attention to ovulation since i don't need to.#(yay being perpetually single and somewhere on the asexual spectrum)#but if i notice that pain i'll check the app and usually it's within a couple of days of its prediction#and that suddenly made the last few days make a lot of sense since i was like... YEARNING. yearning and longing.#like i realize now that that's probably why 2 or 3 days ago i went into a ramble in the tags of a post#about a conversation i had on a date but the topic was really only sorta related to the actual post but i just kept going#and ruminating on the conversation and our texts afterwards and him ghosting me a couple weeks later#and me simultaneously being like 'eh. he was nice but i'm not hurt.' and also 'WHYYYYYYYYY' over that situation from MONTHS ago#and i think that's why i had a dream 2 days ago the featured the ex of a celebrity crush. all adjacent. to the yearning.#anyway. love in the villa was cute. i'm always here for my knight babies from merlin. i laughed out loud at certain points.#and gasped and aw'd at others and was feeling all the emotions by the end.#on that note. i'm gonna go rewatch Set It Up for the 10 billionth time since it's just unironically one of my faves#and i have some stuff to crochet#oh and today is also the 15 anniversary of the last day of my first period. yes i remember these very specific things.#so add me realizing that fact to all the other weird emotions about ovulation.
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