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ITS SERIZAWAS BDAY TODAY!! IM SO GRATEFUL FOR THIS MAN YALL!!
sns and the kids after celebrating all day long... having sweet lil dreams
#and on easter sunday as well... my boy is BLESSED#i had ran into so many obstacles trying to draw something for him whew boi but i had to... its him!!!#oh yes i will finish the other seriweek stuff too... just making sure i got today on time hehe#piglet stop accidently drawing serirei when you didnt intend to...#WELL WHAT CAN I SAy...heres two dudes just napping on each other... one holding onto the other... nothing going on here no siree!! *sweats*#my art#mp100#mob psycho 100#serizawa katsuya#reigen arataka#shigeo kageyama#ritsu kageyama#tome kurata#teruki hanazawa#shou suzuki#ekubo#serizawaweek2024
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My biggest fear when I was younger was forgiving those who have wronged me, because it meant I moved on.
#there was a longer version of this convo but i shortened it down <3#anyways- here's a brief concept I though of#it's a conversation between Ford's younger Uni self and Ford's older self (<- A DISASTER WAITING TO HAPPEN)#how kind do you think the twins would be to their younger selves#we've seen them meet one another's younger counterparts- how do you think they would be with themselves?#the duality of someone who's had the time to work it out and learn to forgive VS. someone whose wound is still so raw and fresh#they can't help but keep poking at it until it gets infected#and the irrationality of holding onto your anger and keep feeding it even though it's doing nothing but hurt you#doesn't necessarily mean you have to forgive- but in the context of the twins- it really isn't doing any good#the fear of letting go meaning that you lost- and the other won#the pointlessness of it all- O! is it not poetic?#anywho <3#my art#gravity falls#grunkle ford#gravity falls ford#ford pines#stanford pines#this is literally done so lazy but i had to get the idea out of my head
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This is SHINee five and we're right by your side.
@userdramas event 18: music @userdramas get to know me bingo: group
#shinee#dailyshinee#shineeedit#shineenet#malegroupsnet#malegroupsedit#kpopco#tusermona#userginpotts#useralien#roserayne#haeyongs#*gifs#*events#i've been holding onto these since may for no particular reason and nothing else is working for this event so!!!#you can just have them like this#my forever and evers
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One of Steve’s favorite parts of raising his teenage girls is listening to their drama.
He’s said it since he was in high school himself – girl drama is way more interesting than boy drama. Is he playing into gender roles a bit there? Sure, but sometimes there’s a bit of truth to it.
The thing is, drama is a lot different in 2018 than it was when Steve was in high school. The social media piece of it is totally wild to him – the way that there is an underlying meaning to it all is kind of incredible though. Not really in a good way, obviously, because it’s all completely petty and small and dumb, but that’s exactly why Steve loves hearing about it through his kids.
Like, Moe will ask Robbie,
“Dude, what was up with Molly getting cropped out of that photo Ava posted?”
And then Robbie will launch into a whole goddamn narrative – with secondary characters and side stories and plot twists and everything – and Steve totally lives for it every time.
“Shit, I just accidentally liked Lauren’s VSCO,” Moe said.
“Damn,” Robbie commented without looking up from her phone.
“What’s wrong with Lauren?” Steve asked, because last he checked Moe and Lauren were friends.
“She, like, dropped out of school,” Robbie replied.
“Not dropped out,” Moe clarified, “She withdrew from school because she didn’t like anyone and now she’s doing it all online or something.”
And, see, that’s another thing that’s different between now and when Steve was in high school – he’s an adult, with an adult brain and a handful of psych degrees, so the line between what’s drama and what’s an actually concerning event is quite a bit more defined for him than it is for his daughters’.
“What do you mean she didn’t like anyone?” Steve asked.
“I dunno,” Moe shrugged, “She just, like, stopped hanging out, you know. Like, we’d say hi and she wouldn’t say hi back and she left the group chat and she was avoiding sitting with us at lunch and stuff like that.”
And that had Steve’s counselor-brain completely overpowering his drama-brain, and now he’s wondering if he knows Lauren’s mom well enough to weasel his way into the situation.
#this does not hold when his children are the ones actually involved in the drama#when that happens Steve is standing over their shoulders watching the group chat and telling them exactly how to respond#and he forgets *nothing* - he holds onto grudges against 16-year-old children like nobody’s business#steddie#liv’s steddie dads verse#steve harrington#steddie dads
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Hi, sorry to be anon, but can I ask to see the Vargas family post trick or treating? Divying the goods, or just being tired from the event? Thank you and Happy Halloween!
Day 30 - Fine, but you're taking nightmare duty
#Requestober#My art#Vargas#Scriabin#Edgar#Todd#Shmee#Called it on being late today lol - not bad for the first (and hopefully last!) of the season tho!#Also no prob on the anon :) As long as you're following the rules it's all good! Anon's there for a reason <3#And Happy (Almost) Halloween! :D#They're back from Trick Or Treat! Edgar and Scriabin in this year's featured costumes haha <3#Once again refusing to show them outside the apartment lol it's just a reliable setpiece!#And since I didn't get any ISaT reqs this time around I decided to throw in a reference myself lol#Toddfrin hehe little guy <3#The adults are very tired from all the running around - Scriabin especially haha his lack of impulse control and being new#Looks like he managed to keep his costume on the whole night tho good for him ♪#Even exhausted he's still going to find some way to poke at Edgar just his nature haha#Todd was going to listen! He's a good kid <3#We all know there's no way Scriabin's getting up after all the excitement haha barely holding onto the back of the couch#We'll just have to pretend Todd gets perfect sleep and nothing spooky happens :') It could pan out that way! Maybe!#I always enjoy this midway-to-chibi style hehe it's cute! But still a little lanky#Little bit quicker and good and cute ♪ Enjoyable
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THEY DON'T KNOW YOU LIKE I DO
#3hats au#me when i think about them as extremely doomed sifloop#they cared about each other so much to the point it turned to hatred. loop cares but is so so angry that stardust made the same mistak#loop hates this. hates him. how dare you steal my family. my identity. my feelings. my thoughts. AND now my own fate.#but weirdly enough it comes from caring so much. caring that this happened again. did they do something wrong? did they not do enough#for him? in their own loops?#and now there's nothing left for either of them. besides themselves. loop selfishly clings because thats all they have left in these loops.#but stardust is equally selfish. wants loop around because it doesn't want to make more life changing decisions. doesnt have energy to.#loop has lead for so long#why take it away? he can't do it any better anyway#this push and pull of wanting to stay with the other but not knowing if the other cares the same#holding onto the one thing you can keep. holding onto the one thing that's familiar.#but they're still mad at each other. still frustrated. and they fight more than necessary. they still hate each other. but care so much.#god#my art#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#isat sifloop#sifloop#isat spoilers#in stars and time#in stars and time spoilers#in stars and time siffrin#in stars and time loop
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I love the idea of Gary and Ash traveling together and doing Professor Assistant stuff in their teen years
#pokemon#ash ketchum#gary oak#my art#also i ship them#if you werent picking up on that lol#pokeani#whats their ship name?#palletshipping#theres nothing heterosexual about the way they chose to hold onto that broken pokeball#ESPECIALLY on Gary's side like... bro
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anybody else absolutely gutted that dapper and pomme almost died today for the sliver of hope to get their dad back, ventured into the deep dark for ritual materials and faced against a warden, then when finally they made the ritual it didn’t even work right
#qsmp#qsmp pomme#qsmp dapper#qsmp ghosties#qsmp badboyhalo#just the slap in the face that there’s nothing you can do#no wonder the stream is called fading light#they have to hold onto the hope
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okay thinking about her
the tree bark at his back scratches him as he shifts. there are bruises on his skin that sting. he feels the slide of blood at his temple, unsettling and unfamiliar, even after all these years. castiel looks down at his hands, a little calloused, now, and wrinkling, and tries to center himself. there is dirt on his palms, under his fingernails. a small cut on his index finger that is loud and sharp. he curls his fists and tries to reach within himself. the well of his grace has been running low for a while, now, and castiel hasn't been sure of...well, anything.
it's harder to find his dimming grace within, here in purgatory. harder still to coax it to the surface. sweat beads at his brow but castiel keeps his fingers clenched, mumbles to himself in enochian — words to songs of praise and comfort and strength that mean so little now, and yet come to him easy.
there is a thin stream of silver light, and castiel heaves a breath, sinks further into the hollow of the tree. he unclenches his fist, and there are red half-moons carved into his palm. the cut is gone, but there is a scar, still, and castiel cannot stop looking at it. it looks like a thin tear in fabric, like the cracks in between the worlds that let them through. it looks like the beginning of the end.
he rubs his thumb over the scar, feels the slight raise of his skin. his thoughts begin to spin, and all he can focus on is the heat building at the back of his neck, the rushing of blood in his ears. suddenly, then, a ripple within. a breeze by his ear that pull at his core. that compels him to quiet, to listen.
someone, somewhere, is invoking him in prayer.
his grace surges now, easy as it hasn't been in a while, and while it doesn't heal him still, castiel feels more angel than he has in a long time.
Cas, I hope you can hear me... that wherever you are, it's not too late.
castiel sighs, something inside him relaxing. he hadn't even noticed the way his muscles had been pulled taut. hadn't noticed the tendrils of fear creeping into his heart. dean's alive. dean's alive.
I should've stopped you.
castiel swallows. digs his fingers into his thighs. his grace spins out, trying to find the source of the prayer. It's harder than it is on earth, and harder than it should be for an angel of his caliber, but castiel keeps trying.
You're my best friend, but I just let you go. 'Cause it was easier than admitting I was wrong.
castiel wishes dean would stop saying these things. he bites his cheek, listening, following dean's voice. he's always following dean's voice, even when he doesn't want to.
I – Ohh. I don't know why I get so angry. I just know – I know that it's – i-it's just always been there. And when things go bad, it just – it comes out. And I can't -- I can't stop it. No matter how –
dean breaks, and castiel pauses, stares at the blinking doorway that will lead them back onto earth. back into a battle that they are bound to lose. he thinks about jack, lost forever. about chuck, who cannot be beaten. about the pointlessness of what they are doing, the desperation with which he has been clinging to hope.
— how bad I want to, I just can't stop it.
he wishes he could see dean. there is something solid pressing against the back of his throat, like he has swallowed a rock, like it is blocking the air. his eyes sting. he wishes dean would just — just talk to him.
And — And I — I forgive you. Of course I forgive you.
castiel shakes his head. his wings are more bone than anything else, skeletons he lugs around because he cannot bear to sever them from his trueform. now they twitch, twined with his grace as they are. castiel lets them curl inwards, pretends he can feel them whole, their warmth, the comfort of it.
I'm sorry it took me so long – I'm sorry it took me till now to say it. Cas, I'm – I'm so sorry.
castiel forgives him, despite everything. thinks he'd forgiven him long before this, before dean ever thought to ask. he wonders if dean knows that castiel doesn't know how to loathe him, even if he wanted to.
longing surges out to him, the pull of the prayer strengthened by cords of need, of want.
dean thinks he's dead, and he's desperate for him to not be. castiel knows what dean can be like, when he loses those he considers kin, when he's even faced with the prospect of losing them.
Man, I hope you can hear me. I hope you can hear me.
longing can feel a lot like love.
angels were never meant to decipher the nuances of human emotion, and despite all the time he's spent on earth, even castiel is not all that good at it. so when prayer is made with longing, it can feel a lot like love.
and maybe it is. castiel doesn't know.
it's almost unsettling, the way warmth bleeds into his trueform, as dean finishes praying, as he makes his way closer. castiel tries to reign in his weak grace, pulsing away under his skin. tries to not let himself get carried away.
he looks up at the grey sky, the sunless world he is trapped in. he thinks about the empty. he thinks about his son.
maybe it isn't. human love is so complicated, after all.
somewhere to his right, footsteps. castiel breathes, wills his lungs to loosen, his heart to slow. he pulls the leviathan blossom out of his coat pocket. all that fighting and the fidgeting has smushed it a little. he rubs a thumb over one of its strange petals, and puts it back in his coat.
dean is getting closer. castiel can hear him breathing now. can hear the way his heart races.
he gathers himself and pushes out of the hollow of the tree. straightens a little.
"dean," he calls. he sounds tired, even to his own ears. human. god. "you made it."
#doe's writing#the trap: coda#destiel#spn drabble.#spn fic#UHHHH#okay so: netaphysics of prayer. also. cas never thinks about how he loves dean directly bc if he does he will explode#this is sth he truly believes about himself#i also think!! optimism and hope are really hard things for cas actually. but he holds onto them bc he needs to. for dean. for jack. for sa#for other people. he knows the world is atleast half terrible and he is trying to keep it from his children (metaphorically)#also. on the metaphysics of prayer. i don't think cas hears i love u. i think he just hears I NEED U I NEED U I NEED U I NEED U he just do#does noy understand#and also he's the king of deluluing himself into thinkings he's not important to people#aNYWAY#no beta we die like my will to live#uhhh sorry sorry jk we die like nothing we are jjst vibing here
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matt has been ON THEIR ASSES trying to get them to hurry up and kill ludinus da'leth and he just stopped everything to give them a moment in a fucking woodcarving museum solely to remind them (and/or the viewers) that there are, in fact, things to do after this moon chicanery
#🍃#critical role#critrole#some BULLSHIT is going to go down at popcon#and honestly nothing is funnier than saving the world being the climax and the end being totally low stakes#but again holding onto hope for opal rescue. they saved laudna they can save her
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... Really though, how WOULD the Hornsent view Morgott or Mohg? WOULD they revere them, for the aspects they bear - the horns, the tail, the wings - or would their hatred toward Marika be that strong that, even for the omen twins, they would still hold contempt?
#{{outofbloodboon}}#morgott the omen king#mohg lord of blood#Picturing Mohg in particular. Like... This place. This is his moment to shine!#A place of belonging!#But the Hornsent hold nothing but hatred toward him for Marika's blood still flows in his veins.#And you can just sort of see the heartache on his face.#Because even among the hornsent he's still despised.#... Yet he doesn't quite hold it against them. He knows their hatred toward Marika. He holds that same hatred for Marika.#And that hatred is only further flamed the more he learns.#And then he finds the shaman village and feels his emotions turn complicated.#... So this was where it all started?#He'd been holding onto this hope that... At some point Marika had felt remorse for locking himself and Morgott away.#Holding onto the hope that at one point Marika HAD loved them.#But seeing the shaman village. Learning what became of her people. And the answer becomes quite clear.#There was never any love...#But by that point in time Mohg is simply far too exhausted after everything to really hold any more hatred.#He won't ever forgive her. No. But...#...
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a notepad that slowly got turned into a journal
#ffxiv#haurchefant greystone#geese art#ocs#oc: kiriltugh#back when he was still a summoner he’d go through at least three of these a month#and that only got worse when he had to start beefing up his spells due to the. well the everything#and then THAT got worse when all of a sudden he had to hold onto those letters from his good friend#for. you know. the important information on them. and nothing else#neowwww…. my most important author’s note for this piece isssss#that tear was made after he had finished filling this one up.#my second most important note is any spelling mistakes are uhhhh definitely intentional kiril’s bad at spelling#and it’s not just really hard writing in a fantasy script LOL#heavensward kiril#I GUESS
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what if i put my life in your hands? what if i took your life in mine?
#okay look there's a reason i've been obsessed with this scene for 21 slutty slutty years#imagine for a second you're yue#your master—whom you loved more than your own existence—decided his work was finished and didn't need you anymore#and he pushed you into the dark where you slept for centuries until a little girl woke you up by sheer dumb luck#you now are trapped in this horrible new era where everything is too loud and too fast and too bright#you're also trapped in a body that isn't yours jockeying for room with a completely separate soul that you don't know or particularly like#and you're draining your meager stores of magic to the dregs in order to keep the two of you alive#under the surface of tsukishiro yukito you're drowning—and the both of you are fading away entirely#and then this boy#pulls you to the surface of yourself#and says with his whole heart 'i won't let you disappear'#he smiles at you and teases you and then pours his not inconsiderable power into you#and you take and you take and you take and he never says stop#he never says only a little but no more#he holds you close and lets you sup on the very marrow of his magic until there's nothing left and he's simply an ordinary human#and for the first time in centuries—perhaps ever—you feel full#when you finally step away and ease his unconscious body onto the bed as gently as you can manage#you murmur that you ought to thank him#but it's such an inadequate way to convey your gratitude#how do you give thanks for what you've made him lose?#you put your life in his hands and he cradled it as if it were precious... and then he gave you his own in return#in the world before this one you would have been as good as wed#you thumb the swell of his cheek and allow yourself one last look at your would-be husband#and then turn around to face the threat behind the door#as it creaks open to reveal a little body wracked with sobs you think you would face anything that would dare come for him or his sister#not because it is your duty as the guardian of the cards#but because you love them#touya/yue#ccs#yue
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I just really need ppl to integrate the fact that Jews being explicitly racialized and violently targeted for elimination under white supremacy is in fact the reason this is all happening to begin with so perhaps rhetoric which conflates is with the group of people who have been ethnically cleansing and genociding us for centuries is like, not the hottest thing to do idk
#its not NECESSARY to claims this is WHITE PEOPLE VS BROWN PEOPLE to advocate for Palestinian freedom or hold the state of israel accountable#it is not TRUE firstly which i wish was reason enough in a lot og leftist spaces lmao but#like. its not helpful.#its allowing white westerners to lazily map racial dynamics they feel familiar with#onto a situation they know nothing about#which is dangerous for diaspora Jews. it is dangerous for us. your rhetoric is DANGEROUS TO US#GOING TO THE CEASEFIRE RALLIES WITH HORSE BLINDERS ON SO I DONT HAVE TO SEE GENTILES SAY HATEFUL THINGS#FUCKS SAKE
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you're losing a savior and a saint
#vandermorgan#rdr2#spring cleaning (my follower count)#anyway really fucking obsessed with am picking up on how dvl posits himself as a father figure to angry disenfranchised young men#to manipulate them to his own ends like how dvl swoops in to validate efs anger in lieu of rf to rip off the us army out of greed/revenge#and reflecting on his own relationship with dvl and how thorougly disillusioned he is with dvl and his ideas. how much is his self just#what dvl wanted him to be? so entrenched in his outlaw life and putting the gang and dvls needs before his own that he cant do anything but#hold onto the hope that he can get through to dvl knowing hes just another toy soldier for dvl to break cause he has nothing left#dvl calling ef 'son' but not am in my last son.. dvl withholding fatherly validation from am when he rejects dvls authority. the ebb and#flow of their coerced 'father/son' relationship is a poor mimicry of unconditional love because it was never about making am feel loved#but making sure dvls needs were met because he can only 'love' people who serve him in some fashion.. there is no unconditional love to dvl#thanks for listening to me brick wall#my art
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