#Mountain Sound

[brocflowers]

Of A Particular Quality

Chapter 7: In and out the Eagle

Thankfully, Beraht didn’t ask for a mess or a message today, just for it to be done. She is a honorable man, when she can choose to be, and today she has a choice. She will make it fast. She will make it painless. Her opponent will not needlessly suffer.

Word count: 3,558

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She realizes very quickly that she’s underestimated the building’s ability to muffle sound. The noise hits her like a wall as soon as the door is open, and makes her flinch.

She forces herself to cross the threshold anyway.

There’s about two dozen people inside Tapster’s, none in groups any larger than three, all scattered about to various places in the room. Nowhere near the building’s capacity, a fraction of the number of people that the bar handles nightly, but unfortunately for Brosca they are all talking at exactly the same time. 

And one of them is singing. No, two of them. Two people, singing different songs on opposite ends of the building. And the owner is loudly telling off a barmaid. And somewhere unseen, a mug hits the ground and rings metallic through the whole room, which leads to more telling-off. And and and.

Brosca steps inside fully, door closing behind her, and then the smell hits.

The air is warm, and it reeks of moss wine and ale and the stale pooling of both on the floor, growing new life in the corners no one sees and, therefore, no one cleans. There’s frying nug-skin, hot mushrooms, the scent of many sweating bodies. Various perfumes. The strange dirts that surfacers track in on their boots. A trace of vomit that wasn’t mopped up as well as it should have been. 

She wrinkles her nose at it involuntarily. It’s a lot. It’s too much. But as much as she’s not happy that she’s only two steps in the door and already overwhelmed and irritated, there is some cold comfort in the fact that she is definitely, definitely, no longer hungry.

“Must’ve been busy last night,” Leske says.

“What makes you say that?”

“It fucking stinks in here.” He claps her on the shoulder, hard enough it makes her jolt, then squeezes. “Put your mean face on, kid, I gotta talk to the barman.”

Brosca pulls the loose square scarf around her neck up over her nose and mouth, careful to leave her brand mostly visible. It’s meant more for keeping out soot and miasma than scents, but it smells like herself, like the soap Rica washes their clothes in, like her house, and that cuts through it somewhat. It’s better than nothing.

Eyebrows pulled together, she ducks her head and follows him to the bar.

The big guy who runs Tapster’s has a name, but Brosca always manages to forget it. She knows him by sight though, short brown hair, beard cut close everywhere but his upper lip. He’s more soft meat than muscle, and wears copper in his ears and discreet silver around his neck. Some money, but not much, and what he does have he keeps careful track off. Not worth pickpocketing unless you’re desperate.

He’s just finished his dressing down of the barmaid when they step up to the counter, and scowls at the sight of their brands.

“We don’t serve the gangue here. Get out before I call the guard.”

Leske puts his palms on the counter anyways, rocks foreward and puts his weight on them so he’s in the other man’s face. Brosca takes her usual place next to but slightly behind him, body angled outwards toward the rest of the room just enough so that she can see both it and whoever Leske is talking to, hand resting on the hilt of her knife. It’s clear, without being so obvious as to attract undue attention, that she’s the muscle. That she’s watching his back, that she’s ready.

“Are you deaf? I said we don’t serve brands. Out.”

Brosca frowns behind her scarf. It isn’t even true. Lots of casteless drink at Tapster’s. Everyone in her neighborhood knows it. She’s had drinks in Tapster’s, and she doesn’t even drink. He’s just making a show for his caste customers. If they’d come in less obviously, or when it was busier and with their brands harder to spot, he would’ve sold to them without blinking. 

Like so many places, Tapster’s was more than willing to take casteless coin, so long as no one had to deal with the humiliation of actually being seen with one.

“Don’t act like you don’t know who we are,” Leske says.

The barman looks at him for a long moment, then looks at Brosca.

It’s not hard for her to put on her mean face, all the movement and sounds and scents in the room around her already have her feeling like she wants to kill something, so she doesn’t have to pretend. She squares her shoulders a little to seem bigger, glares at him over her scarf, rubs her thumb over the pommel of her knife meaningfully.

He looks away.

“I already paid Beraht for this month.”

“We aren’t here to collect, Budimir, we’re looking for someone.”

(Budimir. Budimir Budimir Budimir. She doesn’t know how she always forgets that one.)

Budimir makes a frustrated noise, looks around uncomfortably.

“Hurry up and tell me who so I can get you out of here.”

Leske leans in so that his elbows rest on the counter. Arms crossed, stomach overlapping the edge. Putting as much of his Ancestor-forsaken body on Budimir’s nice stone countertop as possible, making it clear he intends to be there for a while.

Budimir seems unhappy, but he doesn’t say anything about it.

“Name’s Oskias. Me and my friend heard that he’s camped out here.”

“Never heard of him.”

“Brosca?”

She turns and takes a heavy, purposeful step towards the counter. Pulls her shoulder back and unsheathes her knife just enough that a glint of metal is visible. 

Budimir backs away in a hurry. Hands up in front of his chest, palms out.

“Oh for fuck’s- fine, fine.”

Leske gestures at her, and she backs off. Releases the hilt of her knife so it slips back into its sheath.

Budimir goes back to his spot, mumbling something that sounds a lot like “fucking animals” under his breath as he brushes off the front of his shirt in an attempt to appear composed.

“He’s in the back, near the smaller fireplace. Merchant caste, red hair, no beard. He’s dressed all… surfacer-like, the fucking idiot. Sticks out like a sore thumb, ya can’t miss him.”

“See? That wasn’t so hard.” Leske pushes himself up to standing, “tell your girl not to bother with his table. We don’t want to be disturbed.”

Budimir nods, hesitates.

“Hey, how-” he clears his throat, lowers his voice a little, “how mad is he at this guy, exactly? Beraht, that is.”

“Oh, extremely.”

Budimir makes a face. If pressed, Brosca would have to call it a wince.

“Try not to make too much of a mess?”

Leske laughs. 

“No promises.” He nods to her, a signal to follow. “Brosca.”

I can promise, she thinks, but says nothing as she falls into step behind Leske, follows the path he’s cutting through the bar’s many tables. She’s not a sadist, she doesn’t like dragging things out or making a mess. 

Thankfully, Beraht didn’t ask for either today, just for it to be done. She is a honorable man, when she can choose to be, and today she has a choice. She will make it fast. She will make it painless. Her opponent will not needlessly suffer. She can promise.

Leske’s sheathed sword catches on a chair as he passes, jolting it. The chair’s occupant turns, half-rises, but sits back down after she growls at him, the warning clearly enough. 

Dark brown hair, blue eyes, thick beard, gold jewelry. He seems familiar, but she can’t place him. She keeps moving.

As promised, they find Davedna sitting in an odd little corner near the back, a place where you’re out of the way, but still visible. Seen but ignored, unless you do something specific to call attention to yourself. Brosca thinks it was clever of him. A good choice.

He does look odd, though. Surfacers always look odd, you can tell what they are, usually, just by looking at them. Brosca does think he could have been a bit smarter with that. Made himself smaller. 

Leske makes a gesture near his hip, a flick downwards with two fingers, and Brosca nods, even though he can’t see her.

The table is empty, Davedna is alone, running the tip of his finger around the rim of his cup as he looks at the fire. They split apart a few feet away from the table, Leske going to stand beside him on the right while Brosca curves around the table to stand by his left.

He startles, when he finally notices them, but by then its too late. The already have him boxed in.

“What’s going on?”

“You’re a hard man to find, Oskias,” Leske says, bracing his hand against the back of his chair and leaning in, looming over him, “it’s tiring, looking for you.”

A quick look-over reveals that he’s unarmed, so she wastes no time getting up in his space. Her boot bumps up against a bag half-hidden beneath the chair as she’s getting into position, and she bends down to pick it up. It’s nice, albeit a little worn. Good leather and heavy fabric, strong seams. It seems mostly empty, and Brosca feels a little spark of hope. Maybe he isn’t stealing. Maybe she doesn’t have to kill him.

“That’s mine.”

Brosca ignores him. He tries to stand, but Leske pushes him back down. 

“Hey you can’t just- this is a public place, that’s my property, you can’t-”

She tosses the bag in a short arc over the top of him. Leske catches it, and Davedna squawks in protest as he starts searching it.

“I know people! I’ll have you know that I am under the personal protection of Anor Beraht-”

Leske laughs. It’s mean, but genuine.

“Personal protection, huh?”

“Yes!”

“And what’s he going to do when he finds out you’re cheating him?”

Davedna pales. He turns to Brosca, and she stares him down silently. She’s big and scary, especially with her face covered, arms crossed over her chest to make herself seem even bigger, the knife in her belt is right at his eye level. She sees it in his face the moment he realizes that this isn’t something he can brush off, that it’s real. She sees it also, the moment he realizes that they have him boxed in. That her wedging her leg in-between his knee and the table has effectively pinned him. That he can’t move without moving her first.

He smiles at her with all his nice, white teeth, body language changing completely. A cornered animal, rolling over to show you its stomach. It makes her stomach twist up. 

She narrows her eyes at him, and he turns back to Leske in a real hurry.

“Look,” he says, almost pleasantly, “I-I’ve always been loyal to Beraht. He’s been good to my family, I know how much I owe him.”

Leske upends the bag’s contents onto the table. Various small personal items scatter over the stone surface. A comb, a brush for teeth, a small bottle of liquid, a near-empty coin purse, a stray two coppers, a pebble, dust. She looks over the pile for evidence of close family. A wife, children, nephews, even. She finds none, and is sickeningly relieved for it.

Leske drags his fingers through the dust, rubs it between the pads of his thumb and pointer fingers together, holds them more to the light. There’s something almost shiny about it. A fine rock dust mixed in with the gray dirt that glitters when you look at it from the right angle.

Davedna shifts in his seat.

“If you’re so thankful then why are you holding out on him?”

“I haven’t.” He looks up at Brosca. “I wouldn’t.”

It’s not very convincing. She arches her eyebrow at him, and he shrinks back.

“Really, I-I wouldn’t. It’s not in my nature.”

Leske picks the bag back up, starts feeling around the inside of it.

“You won’t find anything.”

“What’s this?” Leske says, as if he hadn’t spoken. “Got a little extra pocket hidden in the lining here? Bit lumpy. Where’s the opening…”

“Okay, fine. I have- I do have some lyrium ore.” He says, very quickly. “I have a little deal with one of the mining families and- if it worked out I was going to bring Beraht his cut I swear. I-I’d be crazy not to.”

“Suicidal, one might say.”

Leske is clearly struggling with the bag, feeling around blindly, practically turning it inside out trying to find where the lining opens up. She would offer to help, but he’d probably get mad at her for it. She addresses Davedna instead.

“How much did you take?”

“Not much,” he assures her, “just twenty-five sovereigns, that’s all.”

She thinks she misheard him, at first, and when it finally settles the amount makes her feel dizzy.

Leske’s clearly grown impatient with the bag, here’s a sound of fabric ripping, and Davedna flinches. Twenty-five sovereigns. You could gather all her neighbors together and they wouldn’t have a quarter of that between them. It’s baffling to hear him talk about it so casually, or to imagine a sum like that belonging to just one person, or even just being in just one place all at once, for any length of time.

She could do so much, if she had twenty-five sovereigns in her pocket. She imagines nice bedding, good blades, meat for dinner every night of her life. Gold jewelry for Rica’s wrists and shiny pins for her hair.

“This doesn’t seem like twenty-five sovereigns to me.” Leske says, pulling two lumpy, purple stones out of Davedna’s bag and placing them on the table by his other things.

She’s never seen raw lyrium in person before, she realizes. Too low down to be involved in that part of the business, even tangentially. She sat near a crate of the stuff once, while waiting for Jarvia to come shout at her, but she never saw the inside of it. Could feel it, though, through the wood. It made the hair on her neck stand up on end.

She leans across Davedna to pick one of the lumps up, rolls it between her fingers. Blueish-purple. Mishapen, with a smooth suface like glass. She sort of wants to put it in her mouth, imagines it would feel good against her teeth and tongue. Knowing it’ll make her sick comes at a great disappointment. 

It’s very beautiful, but it doesn’t seem like enough to justify all the trouble people go through for it. All the money, all the killing, all for this. And they don’t even keep it whole. It gets ground up, put it in a bottle where you can’t even see it.

Twenty-five sovereigns.

“No, no most of it is with my buyers on the surface. I just picked up a few pieces down here.”

“Who do you sell it to?” she asks, more to satisfy her own curiosity than anything else.

“All sorts,” Davedna babbles, “Surface-surfacers use it all the time. Mages for their spells, smiths in their weapons, templars who aren’t- it’s always a sure thing, if you know who to offer it to. Folks’ll pay good coin not to have to go through the Chantry, you know?”

Brosca doesn’t know, but she pretends she does.

“Anyways I just, I sold it all off and I took the money and ran.” He catches himself, eyes wide. “B-back to Beraht, that is. To share the profits.”

“Hm.”

“Sure,” Leske says, rolling his eyes so only Brosca can see, “Right. And how long has this been going on?”

“Not long! I mean- I’m not-I’m not a cheat,” he turns to Brosca again. She wonders why he seems to think that she’s in charge. “I’m not cheating him.” 

She stares at him. He falters. 

“What I mean is… this is my first time?”

“Is that a question?” Leske asks

Davedna shows his teeth again. It feels a lot like watching a man dig a hole, worrying all the while about how deep it’s getting. She feels bad for him. She can’t help it.

He looks at Leske, just as stone-faced as she is, and then back at her. His shoulders slump.

“Okay. Okay I know I fucked up. I just-” He swallows. “Please don’t kill me.”

It’s hard to look at him. His wet, doomed eyes. His desperate expression. She keeps her face flat, looks at Leske instead.

“Sounds like a confession to me,” he says, “Brosca?”

She growls under her breath quitely, shifts her stance, hand on the hilt of her knife.

“Hold him still.”

“No! No wait-”

Leske puts his left hand against Davedna’s chest and leans in with his whole weight, pressing him back while using his other hand to pin his wrist against the arm of the chair. Brosca does the same to the wrist on her side, and bends her knee so it presses into his in a way that may or may not hurt, but definitely keeps him from moving it.

It happens fast. He struggles, but fruitlessly, and too late. They have him pinned.

Brosca goes for her knife.

“I’ll give it back!” Davedna says, half-shouting, “I-I’ll find more! I’ll get Beraht double what he makes in a year. You don’t-triple. I’ll get him triple! Just, just don’t-”

They lose their grip on him for a second, she shifts her grip more towards his elbow, growls in frustration. Why does he have to make this so hard.

“Stop squirming,” she tells him, “it will hurt less.”

If she does it right, she’ll cut the big artery in his neck and his windpipe clean through on the first shot, and he’ll twitch and struggle for a moment and then-and then stop. She’s done it before, and from her perspective, it doesn’t even seem to hurt that much, it’s just scary, but not for very long. 

Her knife slides smoothly from it’s sheath. Clean through the neck, one side to the other. Cut the artery, cut the windpipe, if you can. It’s barely even killing, when you think about it, it’s butchering. Same thing you do to nugs. It’s awful, really, how close it is. How similar the task.

(Except nugs don’t beg. They’re never nearly as scared. They’re small, easier to hold still. And she’s never cried herself to sleep over a nug.)

He squirms again, tries to pull his chin in towards his chest. Leske makes a frustrated noise and shifts enough to get his hand free, puts it heavily on top of Davedna’s head and pulls it back and to the side, exposing his neck. Giving her a clean shot.

“It was a mistake, it was one mistake. It’s-it’s just a bunch of rocks,” his voice breaks, reedy and desperate, on the verge of tears, “you’d kill me for that?”

She doesn’t usually talk to them, during. But then again, they rarely ask such direct questions.

“I’m sorry,” she says, gently as she can manage, bringing the blade up near his throat, “I wish there was another way.”

“There is! There is, you can- you can let me go. I’ll give you the lyrium, you can sell it, do whatever you want with it and I won’t tell anyone. You’ll never see me again.”

Twenty-five sovereigns, she thinks, but dismisses it quickly, shakes her head.

“If I help you Beraht will come after me next.” She adjusts her grip, “I have people at home, ser, I can’t risk it.”

Leske shoots her a look, and she hears his voice in her head along with it. Stop talking to the mushroom food, kid, we don’t have all day. 

She’s just doing what she has to do, and it’s just for right now. It won’t always be like this. 

Deep breath, preparation for the movement. It’s just like nugs, she tells herself, it’s just like killing nugs. It won’t always be like this, it won’t-

Davedna grabs her arm, digs his fingers in-between the gaps in her leathers the way a scared child would fist their hands in their mother’s skirts. It startles her, delays her from making the killing motion.

“What would you want if it was you?”

She stills.

A moment passes, another. The bar seems quiet, suddenly, she can feel Leske’s eyes on her. The skin of Davedna’s throat is pale, smooth and unblemished, so very close to the edge of her blade. She thinks about the flesh parting under the metal, thinks about cleaning his blood off of it later. Scrubbing it out of the creases in her hands, scraping it out from her fingernails and cuticles. She thinks about doing the guilt, again, the trying to forget, again. She thinks about the lyrium on the table. 

“You good, kid?”

Brosca exhales.

Beraht’s going to kill her anyways.

“I’m good,” she says, “can you follow my lead for a moment?”

“Uh, sure?”

He sounds really confused. Brosca doesn’t blame him.

“We’re taking this outside,” she tells Davedna, “this is the only chance you have at getting out of this, so do what I say and don’t try anything smart, got it?”

Davedna swallows, the stone in his throat bobbing. He nods.

“Got it.”

“Because it won’t work. I’m faster than you.”

“Right.”

“And much stronger.” 

“I believe you.”

“Good. Leske, let him go.”

Hesitantly, Leske does what she says. 

Davedna looks relieved for a moment, she cuts it short by baring her teeth, yanking him to standing as roughly as she can. It seems to do the trick.

“Move.”

[srotd]

alone we traveled armed

with nothing but our shadow

[someawesomeamvs]

Warning: Potential spoilers

Title: Jurassic Voyage

Editor: Opner

Song: Mountain Sound

Artist: Of Monsters and Men

Anime: Doraemon: Nobita's Dinosaur (2006) (film)

Category: Drama

Award: POE 2022 Extraordinary Voyages - MomoCon Theme Award

[seymourmusicclub]

Of Monsters and Men - Mountain Sound (Official Video)

[petricorah]

I love "i would kill for you" ship dynamics but what about "i would stop killing" ship dynamic??

I would lay down my sword for you. I would change my nature and go against everything i've known. I would resist the easy way out of solving my problems. I would give up the adrenaline of battle to stay by your side and make tea instead. I'm not sure I know who I am without a weapon in my hand because I've had to fight for so long but for you I'm willing to try and figure this out.

It must be hard. To put down your weapon that's protected you for so long. It's allowed you to stay alive it's kept you from getting hurt--physically and mentally. Because you've never had to worry about a real relationship if you think you'll be dead at the next battle. And you feel naked without it and it feels like you're ripping off an extension of yourself. Are you even whole without it? Are you worthy of being loved if you can't prove it by risking your life? And yet they've found someone who's asking them for something much harder than dying in battle on their behalf. They've found someone who wants them to live. And that's much more terrifying.

[aestum]

(by chadtorkelsen)

[ellipsea]

hearing "ley line" like a sleeper agent activation phrase and having to shut the hell up when someone starts explaining how they work in any other media. nodding all uh huh yeah okay that's cool. but are there creatures made of ley line energy though. do sentient forests sit on them. do the forests yearn. do they dream.

[pnwander]

though the sun be swinging east...

[jarredspec]

Milford Sound. Fiordland, Aotearoa

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[lunian]

pls girls never change

[wanderlandjournal]

summer flowers

[brocflowers]

Of A Particular Quality

Chapter 5: Up and down the city street

Leske laughs, adjusts his grip.

"You don't scare me, kid. Try harder."

Word count: 2,251

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Mild warning for mention of a past, implied sexual assault.

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Brosca leans back against the door after it closes. Eyes closed, arms crossed over his chest, and just breathes. The air is good in town today, clear, very little in the way of dust or soot, and his breathing is easy and uninterrupted. Usually his first step out of the door in the morning makes him sneeze.

He calms quickly, and eventually, it starts to strike him as odd that Leske hasn’t greeted him yet. He opens his eyes, looks around, but doesn't see him. Clears his throat, gets no response.

It makes the hair on the back of his neck stand up. He takes a tentative step forward, then stops. When nothing happens, he keeps moving, careful not to seem visibly anxious.

He barely makes it out of the shadow of his doorway before Leske emerges from his hiding place and pulls him, roughly and unceremoniously, into a headlock.

“Salroka,” he says, smugly, holding Brosca in such a way that he needs to drop almost onto his knees so that Leske’s forearm doesn’t strangle him, “how are you this fine morning?” 

“Let me go.”

He tightens his hold. Brosca struggles a little, bares his teeth and growls, the effect of which is somewhat lost due to his face being hidden in the meat of Leske’s side. 

The sound makes it up to him though, and Leske laughs, adjusts his grip.

“You don’t scare me, kid. Try harder.”

Brosca sighs. Getting out would be easy if he didn’t care about whether or not Leske got hurt in the process. If it was anyone else, he would’ve started biting and clawing a long time ago, and that always works. People hate it when you bite them. He tries to aim for Leske’s knee, hoping to just give a little tap and make it buckle, but the angle is all wrong and he misses. Fist glancing harmlessly off of Leske’s leather-clad thigh.

“Morning,” Leske says to someone Brosca can’t see, and his neck and cheeks go hot at the knowledge that other people are seeing him struggle and thrash so helplessly.

He reaches around awkwardly to grab at Leske’s closest hip, plants his feet and straightens up as far as he can (which unfortunately isn’t very far, and leads to him pressing his face almost directly into Leske’s armpit) then starts groping at Leske’s back with his other hand in an attempt to grab hold of his collar. If you pull back on someone’s head the rest of the body usually follows. If he can get a grip, he’ll either force Leske to drop him in order to keep his balance or bring the other man to the ground along with him. 

He is not yielding this time.

Leske starts humming to himself while Brosca squirms around, taps the fingers of his other hand absently againt the top of Brosca’s skull, like he’s bored. Brosca would be lying if he said that didn’t piss him off. 

“Really?”

Leske starts whistling, and now he’s twice as pissed. The least he could do would be to take this seriously. He twists around in his hold, attempting to get that extra inch he needs to finally grab ahold of his neck, and unthinkingly puts himself off-balance, most of his weight now being directly supported by Leske’s arm. 

He realizes what a bad idea that was just a few seconds too late, and by then there’s nothing he can do. Leske drops him, and he fails to catch himself, lands sprawled in the dirt.

“Not your worst, I’ll give you that.”

Brosca rolls on his back, props himself up on his elbows. He tries to glare at Leske, but all the dust he kicked up by falling gets in his nose and makes him sneeze, which somewhat ruins the effect.

“Stone-met.”

“Thank you,” Brosca says, more out of instinct than anything else.

Leske holds his hand out. Brosca frowns, but takes it, lets Leske help pull him upright.

He reaches out and ruffles the top of Brosca’s hair once he’s on his feet, tugs on his braid and Brosca bats him off. 

It’s a friendly gesture, Leske smiles when he does it. It’s his way of apologizing, and like always, Brosca quietly accepts, the anger and frustration melting out of him quickly, even as the embarrassment remains. They fight the way brothers fight. Like two animals born out of the same litter. It doesn’t mean anything. Leske doesn’t want to hurt him or his feelings on purpose, he just plays a bit too hard for Brosca’s liking sometimes and isn’t very good at saying sorry with his words. Brosca accepted this about him a long time ago.

Nonetheless, he bares his teeth and growls at him, as nastily and as viciously as he possibly can. Not because he’s truly upset, but because he’s pretty sure that it will make Leske laugh.

It does. Leske’s laugh is big and rough and it makes Brosca feel terribly pleased with himself. It took a lot of years, but he’s finally starting to feel like he’s getting a hang of being funny.

“There we go, there’s the charm,” he says, clapping Brosca on the shoulder, “keep that energy, kid, we’re headed to Tapster’s.”

“Beraht said we have work.”

“We do, it’s at Tapster’s.”

“I can’t tell if you’re being serious.”

“Of course I’m being serious. Brosca, come on now, would I lie to you?”

Brosca gives him a look.

“Would I lie to you about this?”

He has no choice but to relent at that. Leske would lie to him for an excuse to go drink in the middle of the day, but he rarely lies about work. And while he would get Brosca in trouble for a laugh, he would never get him in trouble with Beraht.

Brosca makes a little acknowledgement noise in his throat, brushes the dust off his armor with his palms. He doesn’t realize until he looks up that Leske’s left without him, and is already several feet away. He has to jog in order to catch back up.

He hates it when he does that.

“What’s the job?” he asks quietly, once he’s back in earshot and the two of them have fallen roughly back into step.

“Beraht found a leak in his supply line, narrowed the source down to a fella by the name of Oskias Davedna.”

“Doesn’t sound familiar.”

“He mostly works topside, from how I understand it. Anyways, Beraht wants all the details and then he wants us to plug the leak.”

Brosca puzzles with the euphemism for a moment. He’s pretty sure he’s got it, and if it was anyone else he would just stick with that. But it’s just Leske, so he asks.

“That means we’re killing him, right?”

Leske sighs.

“Yeah, kid, that’s what I meant.”

He sounds very irritated with him, which Brosca hardly thinks is fair. It’s not as if Leske doesn’t know what he’s like. You’d think he be more patient by now, or at least more specific..

Brosca swings wide for a moment, and Leske does the same in the opposite direction. They come back together once the pothole is behind them. He’s not happy, that that’s what Beraht has for them today, but there’s nothing to be done about it. At least he also wants it done quietly. That's far better than the alternative. 

“How do you know he’s at Tapster’s?”

“Asked around on my way to come get you,” Leske says, “you owe me five coppers, by the way.”

Brosca nods. He paid for the information, then. That means it’s probably pretty reliable. The upside of the reputation that him and Leske have now is that no one is as willing to lie to them as they used to be. The broken arm or worse they fear they might receive for being caught isn’t worth ten coppers. Not even to the desperate. It makes work easier.

It’s a double edged sword, though. Their association with Carta violence closes as many doors as it opens, and there’s a horrible shame in knowing that your neighbors are scared of you. That they think of you as the kind of person who might rough them up over an amount too small to even buy a hot meal with.  

He chances a smile at a young woman as they go by, and she looks away, hurries past. He’s ashamed to admit it now, but there was a time, once, where he genuinely liked it. Being seen as dangerous, looked at warily in public, given a wide berth. It made him feel big and powerful, like he was finally winning for once in his life. But the thrill faded quickly, once he realized how lonely his newfound reputation was going to leave him. 

He hates it. Hates knowing that even if he does somehow manage to move on from this, find other work, cut himself off from his carta associations entirely, it would still follow him. It’s something that cannot be undone. Most around Dust Town now know him now, first and foremost, as one of Beraht’s thugs. As an arm-breaker. Something to be wary of, something to fear. It’s like another brand, something that everyone can see and that he will never be able to wash off.

He hates Beraht for that, more than anything else.

(Well, almost anything. The thing he actually hates Beraht for the most is something… hard to articulate, to explain. It was a look in Rica’s eyes after she came home late one night. The way she was, distressed, and irritable, and she just wanted to be left alone, to go to bed. The way she wouldn’t tell him what happened, even when he pushed. It was the sick sinking feeling in his stomach. It didn’t happen to him, he wasn’t there, he’s only mostly sure that he knows what even took place. But every time he imagines that look on his sister’s face there is this hatred in him. Deep and blinding. It makes him want want to rip Beraht open with his bare hands, with his teeth, with-)

He doesn’t realize that Leske is talking to him until he stops.

"What?"

"You didn't catch any of that, did you?"

Brosca shakes his head, Leske frowns.

"You feelin' okay?"

He nods, which earns him a skeptical look. Leske reaches out and presses the back of his hand to his forehead, then the palm, to check for heat. Brosca shrugs him off with an irritated noise.

“I said I’m fine.”

"Liar," Leske replies, and Brosca feels all the words leave his throat, "what is it? Your mama giving you a hard time again?"

He thinks about it, then nods.

"Yeah, that's what I figured, she seemed kinda foul this morning. Sorry kid."

He shrugs. Leske watches him for a moment, then crosses his arms.

"What else?"

Up ahead, Yegor gives a sharp, familiar whistle, and he and Leske move to put their backs against the closest wall so he can lead a small herd of nugs through the side street they’re occupying.

They seem fat, Brosca thinks, looking down at their little pink bodies as they skitter past, like their skin would actually dent if you grabbed them. Yegor must be leading them to slaughter.

It’s not something that upsets him, usually. Before Beraht, his best money was made helping Yegor with butchering, and it never bothered him once. Meat was good, animals become meat, as long as the death was clean and fast, all was well. But today, for some reason, the word slaughter, the sight of breathing bodies being led to it, unknowing, made him feel a little sick.

“Beraht’s not happy with Rica,” he admits. He doesn’t look at Leske when he says it. Something about hearing come out of his own mouth makes it scary again. Makes it really real. “She’s-it’s taking too long, for her to find someone. We have two weeks before he cuts us loose.”

“Oh.” Leske says. Just that, and nothing else.

The last nug bounds past, slightly behind the rest, with a man Brosca doesn’t recognize but is clearly associated with Yegor following it, hurrying it along. Making sure it doesn’t stray.

They stay where they are for a moment after the group has passed. Silent and unmoving. He sneaks a glance at Leske, and finds his expression less than comforting. It’s clear that he expected whatever was bothering Brosca to be… less. Less serious. More foolish, like so many of his problems are. More fixable, more manageable.

“Rica’s always been his favorite,” Leske says, finally, “I doubt he’d just cut her out like that. And you? Forget about it. He’s talking out of his ass. He likes it when everyone is tense and ready to please, you know?”

“Yeah,” he says, “yeah, that’s what Rica said.”

“See? Listen to your sister, she knows what’s up. It’s going to be fine.”

“It’ll smooth over,” Brosca agrees, though his mouth feels thick and dry, tongue heavy.

Leske doesn’t seem to believe it either. That’s how he knows for sure that this is bad.

“And if it doesn’t it doesn’t,” he says, shrugging, “nothing you can really do about it now.”

“Right.”

“No point in getting all worked up about something you can’t control.”

“Sure.”

“Right.”

They stand looking into the center of the street for a bit, then finally peel off the wall and continue on their way. They don’t talk about it again after that.

[starbuck]

john darnielle will say “no you don’t understand guys, this line was SO bad, it’s literally the worst thing ever i couldn’t even release the song because it was so awful and i couldn’t fix it,” and then the line will be “I've got a Kenmore single-room window unit air conditioner.”

[avoicebehindthestars]

Are we ever going to talk about how in GO!god's favourite film:

the protagonist is told it's okay to abandon her religious calling to pursue romantic love

the family flee the country so the father isn't forced to serve in forces that are obviously evil?

Yes? No? All right then.

[cupid-ghoul]

ghouls have fur and toe beans

that means they probably clean the spaces in between their toes like cats do

ghouls groom themselves and each other to bond and for comfort

that means there will be hair balls

can you imagine you're a sibling sneaking through the ministry at night and hear the typical cat hacking sound only to see swiss on all fours on the ground, his body doing the 🦗🦟🦗🦟🦗 , dry heaving and hurling up a huge hair ball

after that he just scurries off and you're left in the dark hallway with a hairball the size of a golf ball

[quesadild0s]

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