#Me when I combine 2 things I love

[ckygetsjobs]

i know the joke is not funny. Like I do. I do KNOW it isn’t. But I laugh my ass off. like why does the cat in the hat fit so well with dico I can’t do this anymore.

[5hrignold]

what do they mean by this

[memento-morri-writes]

I've been thinking a lot about how Rook's reunion with his former mentor, Zara, is going to go, and since I can't predict what the DM is going to have her do or say, I can only dwell on what I know is going to happen. Which happens to include taking off the illusion ring that's been hiding his injuries from her. So have a snippet of the description I have planned for that moment:

tw for description of (mostly healed) injuries

He hesitates, twisting a ring on his finger. Looking at it more closely, she can tell it’s very finely crafted, and must have been very expensive. A large emerald is set into the band. Rook sighs, and pulls the ring off his finger in one quick motion.  Immediately she’s struck by the difference in his appearance as the illusion melts away. He looks awful. His warm, healthy skin fades to a dull and sickly grey. There’s huge bags under his deeply sunken eyes, and his cheeks are hollowed, as though they have been carved out by an overeager sculptor. He looks like he’s recently risen from the grave.  While he was thin before, now she can see his ribs under the skin, and his collarbones are exaggeratedly pronounce. Thin white lines left by dozens upon dozens of recently healed cuts are scattered across his body. On top of that, faded bruises cover most of his visible skin, a mottled mosaic of purple and yellow. They’re clearly days, maybe weeks old, and she can only begin to imagine what they must have looked like when fresh. Bandages are barely visible under his shirt, wrapping around his back, hinting at even more injuries.

[garrothromeave]

there are some nights i really do not like minecraft diaries. not because of what it is but because of what i lost. minecraft diaries s1… is very nostalgic, obviously, but it holds so much character and builds an exciting world for aphmau to explore. i love her learning about these places, her people, her friends. there’s so much love there. i lose a lot of this feeling post season 1, because after that, it loses a lot. everything aphmau has learnt is gone. the people i grew to love are there, but not really. it’s drastically changed. it makes me miss everything that season 1 was. sure she gets to explore new things and meet new people and explore existing relationships, but i genuinely don’t think it holds the same charm. i don’t think it was meant to, i’m just describing my own experiences with this feeling yk

i mean, i guess i can’t say i dont like minecraft diaries when i’m reminded of the joy of s1. but it gives me a strong sense of mourning. i miss the simplicity of it. i experience feelings of nostalgia for a world that i was never even in beyond viewing. it’s heartbreaking to me and maybe thats why i cant bring myself to rewatch early season 2 a lot of times. i still get joy out of the later seasons but damn it sucks when you’re reminded of how bright season 1 is compared to the rest and it really puts it into perspective for you

[nomairuins]

i think itis funny in the past when i would list my interests as if i post abt them i donot post abt the shit im into rly Mainly bc im not rly Into Into anything anymore i occasionally watch or read or play something but i dont do fandom stuff rly much.... just sometimes i get brainworms

[berryunho]

it's only when normal people give me music recommendations that I realize what strange and inexplicable music taste I have like wtf is wrong w me

[gensnix]

Hey zelda fandom 

do any of you have headcanons that only you seem to have? I’d love to here them 

One of my favorite headcanons that i have is that Skull kid was born a gerudo male along side Ganondorf unfortunately for Skull kid the gerudo chose Ganondork instead of him since they were afraid of the strange anomaly that was 2 gerudo men being born at the same time and thought it would bring tragedy to them 

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

painting a mackerel today :]

[xoxoemynn]

Daphne has been getting a lot of love lately so I was going to celebrate by sharing a new picture of her but unfortunately she is very snoozy right now and will not pose for me but trust she is sending all her love.

[mosquitinho]

the shitty job i only accepted bc it was supposed to be a temporary gig until i was able to get an alright-ish job might just turn into an alright-ish job itself.. POG!!!!!!

[kingsbride-moved]

OOO for the mini playlist ask game: how would you feel about us sending a ship name? mine is hirael :]c

I'd love to do it for ship names too ^.^ I love hirael as a ship name also it flows so smoothly :~) This playlist ended up with soft nostalgic "end of summer" vibes <3 H | Hanare, Banare - Fullkawa Honpo ft. Buzzpanda I | If I Were - Vashi Bunyan (also linking same but different since they flow into one another) R | River Low | Shugo Tokumaru (this one I personally consider to be more middle of summer than end but also I'm the only person who cares about this distinction </3) A | A Gift from the Sky | Dido ( I linked this one for a music meme on my main too but u have to understand. I just like it a lot.) E | Empty | Livetune ft. Yanagi Nagi (I actually have this song linked in my carrd... it's been on my mind again lately) L | Lost and Found (Band Remaster Ver.) ft. Hatsune Miku + Mami + Perio

[unnonexistence]

i love my simic mtg deck so much

[growling]

*me after the 87th consecutive time i had unsurprisingly managed to make myself scawwed via seeking out 40min iceberg videos on shock content lore that i am aware makes me uncomfortable* I lvoe knowledge this is so fun which is also the name of a particular obscure game that exists i shall not speak on *can't sleep that night* oh boy im gonna do it again to scratch that special autism itch i sure do love information *accidentially gets disturbed once again where the youtuber does not actually censor as much as i expected they would effectively making me relive fnaf nights at freddy at my house at 11pm* omggg an askreddit thread about top ten most fucked gorevids lets see how much of these i know the existence of yayayay *gets-

[talkorsomething]

Too [insert adjective here] for guard ...................

Well, it's only half related.

We "hit a pothole", "had a slipup", whatever you want to call it — sunday. Aka: for the sake of my sanity we are not labeling it a relapse but good god does it feel as though I have invited the demons back in.

I know why, but I don't really know why. Because, I mean... I never have, to begin with. So: when I decided i was doing it sunday, i accepted it. "Let it happen", as someone would probably say to me. It's not...

I've been thinking about it for a while now. It's like anything - it comes and goes, a few times a year, and no matter what, I always ignore it.

Except, maybe there's something I'm not paying attention to? Or, ignoring, is the better word for it?

Of course it would be the one thing I have happening in my life.

November, I was burnt out for unrelated reasons. It was a lot to take in. That made sense. Now? ... why now?

There's not really any pressure on me. Yes, I have to do things, yes, it will be noticed if they're bad, but ...... it's not important. We don't spend time on it. I'm coming back next year, but it might be at the cost of ... all of this. I think it's progress. I haven't touched my guitar in any serious capacity in over a year. I think it's progress.

I don't take compliments well. I can't tell if that's why I don't get them, but I'm not being corrected much either. Only when I drift too far from what the work is supposed to be, only after weeks of it going, I can only assume, unnoticed. I keep getting stuck.

...push it back down.

Telling me I'm doing good isn't telling me what I know I have to be getting wrong. I could take it, at the cost of... all of this. I'm anticipating, and I know it can come. This is not where I was when I started.

It's been said, I haven't been told, that not starting it means you're more of a burden, by making the other person have to do it first. I know that. I do. And still it doesn't help. I'm not drowning. It wasn't an accident, but it wasn't planned, either. I don't know you.

I don't know you.

I'm not a good person. I'm not a nice person. Every week I tell myself this is really it, and every week I come back, and ... what? Forget I ever said anything? Forget we're not friends?

Well, we're not, huh? Nobody is, with me. What you see I swear you misunderstand. You don't ask. If you do, well, I can't answer. We're at an impasse.

It's not even my fault we didn't make it. I shouldn't feel like this over nothing. I don't do anything. You will, correctly, not let me do anything, because potential doesn't matter if you can't back it up. If you won't back it up. I let things happen to me.

I don't even feel better. And, actually, ironically, i think i know what would let me feel better. If I can't be upset with anyone else, at least I can be with myself.

... but, well, not even that. Your heart in my hands, but I mean it diegetically. And metaphorically. I hate putting myself out there, I hate having to actually perform, and yet every time, no matter what, I do it. I'm fine. I only cared at the start, and even then not very.

I don't feel anything. Not a lot, anyways. I don't let it happen. I can't. I don't know what it'll mean if I start being honest with myself.

...

I've pulled myself out of this before. A few times, now. Different circumstances, but I've done it all the same. Seasonal depression notwithstanding.

I'm only here because I did things I was scared to. And still, I'm the same. No progress made. The only way out is to do it again but I feel like I can't. I can't.

Will someone just let me say that?

Will someone just fucking help for once?

[roboticchibitan]

Sometimes you have to be yourself on purpose. What I mean by this is that sometimes we lose touch with ourselves and start coasting and just going through the motions. Which is fine for a while because we get tired and/or depressed and that's fine. Happens to everyone. But eventually it starts to feel bad and you get a specific kind of brainweird that's hard to describe but means that you've lost sight of who you are, what your values are, and what you love.

Leaning really hard into something that makes you go "this is the most me thing ever" helps that specific type of brainweird quite a bit! But maybe you don't know what the most you thing ever is. You are not alone! I get depressed and forget every interest I have. 100% understand that.

When this happens, it helps to remind yourself what you like and enjoy. So what do you do? Well for me, it helps to think about 1. Things I used to enjoy and 2. Things my friends Know Me For.

Like I've been feeling not myself lately and I haven't really knit or created much this month at all. But I'm the Makes Things Guy. I like making things and many of my friends not only know me as someone who makes things but a lot of my friendships specifically come from communities of People Who Make Things.

So I forced myself to pick up an old project, and that helped a bit. But what really helped was coming up with a project that combined my interests (leather jackets, art, and teapots) for me to look forward to and get really into planning for! The most ME I've felt in weeks has been the last hour I've spent planning on painting a famous fine China design on the back of my leather trenchcoat. Because not ONLY am I the Makes Things Guy, I am also The Teapot Guy. I finally feel like myself again.

I wish I had more concrete advice in regards to how you remember your own interests when you get disconnected from them, but a solid place to start is things you used to like and things your friends know you like. If you struggle consider asking a friend what things they know you like. Sometimes friends can see us better than we can see ourselves and it helps to use them as a mirror to see yourself through.

[kurthorton-moving]

11 movies away from surpassing 2023 as the year where I watched the most movies and its barely even february