#Me to myself because she is literally just like me frl

[onlyasimp4nobody]

Lazy illiterate fat idiot just eats my food, sleeps on my lap and stares at Jensen Ackles all day

[rae-dabae]

VOID JOURNEY❤︎︎

( long post ahead‼️‼️)

Y’all……. A HOE DID IT!! I ENTERED THE VOID!!!! but i didn’t manifest anything :(((. So basically i don’t really even remember much from last night all i remember is falling asleep and seeing complete blackness. Now i’ve been to the void tons of times without know i’ve been there. @b4ddprincess realization void post OPENED MY FUCKING EYES and got me to realize what the void ACTUALLY was. That darkness you’re surrounded by when you fall asleep and you can’t move or speak or do anything else but literally exist. When i was like 10 i woke up in the void without and it was completely dark but i wasn’t scared n shit it was really REALLY fucking peaceful and i just kinda stayed there. I always thought that darkness was apart of the dream i was supposed to have but once i realized THAT was the void……..🤦🏾‍♀️. Now i went through a wee lil phase of looking for methods n trying them out n them not resonating with me at all. I was stressing myself out BUT I KNEW that the void was easy because I’ve literally been there tons of times. Doubts were eating me alive and really fucking with my confidence and making doubt if I’ve even actually entered the void(we literally enter the void every time we sleep so basically we always are in the void). After like 3-4 weeks of me repeating the same cycle of believing i can enter, not entering and repeating the same old story over n over again. I had enough and started to slowly pull away from obsessing over the void and I focused onward what i wanted. The entire point of me even entering was so that i could manifest ALL my desires at once. I decided to find something that I personally liked and believed i could succeed with. I like sleep methods the best because they’re the most relaxing for me. I like Sats/ Lullaby method but i every time i would try it i would think “ oh it didn’t work because i didn’t affirm long enough lemme try again” so i was secretly fucking myself up because i had made up this assumption if i didn’t affirm long enough I wouldn’t get in. There was one “method” that i likes the best and it was commanding/ ordering your subconscious to take you to the void. I decided to test it out to see if you can really manifest anything just by commanding your subconscious and GIRLLL….. it works. One sunday afternoon i was heavily dreading going to school and just was NOT feeling it, so i decided to test my subconscious and see if it could cancel school for me or just get me not to go without begging my parents or faking sick. I went “ Hey subconscious, im not feeling school tomorrow, cancel it for me” and after that i forgot about it. Later that night my school posts on instagram that someone threatened to BOMB OUR SCHOOL and tons of kids were protesting they cancel (being the piece of shit trashy stank ass school they are they didn’t cancel). All my friends were protesting not going cuz im not tryna get Bombed frl. I called my mom about it and she told me I didn’t have to go to school if i didn’t want to. Then I remembered what i told my subconscious and i went “ DAMNN subconscious i know i said i didn’t wanna go but BOMB THREATS??”( i don’t think I manifested the bomb threats because as much as i dread that place i would never even try doing that) that was the test that proved to me that subconscious really will do anything you tell it….insane. BACK TO LAST NIGHT ( i got distracted Srry) i commanded my subconscious before going to sleep to wake me up in the void but because of my loud ass african mother i couldn’t sleep so i waited until i felt tired and fell asleep. When i woke up i was still in my bedroom and i had thought i didn’t get in but then i tried remember if i dreamed last night and i didn’t remember having one. Actually i remember just being in complete darkness for a while then the rest is blurry. Then it hit me. I ENTEREDD. I know i had entered because it was the same feeling i got when i was 10 and entered. Anyways now i know how to enter and what works for me so STAY TUNED FOR A SUCCESS STORRYYY!!!( ill get into full detail and give some advice)

💕💕Bye my lovess!! 💕💕

[unhinged-diaries]

Been a while. I have this problem of always trying to release new shit like big brands instead of restocking what’s popular with my customers and that’s going to be my downfall frl.

I talk myself out of it saying “They don’t really want that” but then I get messages of ppl telling me to drop new colors. Like ughhhh I just wanna drop new shit.

I just bought more samples for these sweatpants to send to ppl to make videos for me.

I also just bought $200 sample pair of jeans. It should never be that much for just a sample so it better EAT and make my ass look PHAT

Talked to this girl on Reddit who comes from a wealthy family and has a rich boyfriend she’s been dating for 2 years. She helped me with how to find a rich guy and the things I should familiarize myself with. That was a good conversation.

Also talked to one of my dating mentors who used to live in my city about how to find a provider man. When I told her that I was isolating myself until I glowed up (physically) she was LIVID. She said not to do that and to go out and gain experience being in my feminine energy and surrounding myself with an affluent lifestyle. That way as I continue to practice and get better my options get better too because I’m more well versed.

She also said something lovely. Along the lines of “men need that ‘feminine’ (I hate this word) energy and some woman out there that knows what she’s doing. That men are lonely and need their eve because they literally die early without her. My man is waiting for me and I’m rotting away In my bedroom under some made up pretense.”

She’s right and with that being said I’m going to start accumulating my new wardrobe next week because I literally have nothing aside from my work uniform and sweats. It’s time to get out there ladies!

[stateswscarlet]

Hi scarlet! So I realized that I felt like I was being held back. I’d love to hear your pov.

Storytime: I was in a long relationship so I got accustomed to having my person (sp). He was my person and basically my best friend that I told everything to, I have always been very private about my life but with him in the picture, I would tell him stuff and forget to inform any of my other friends. I’m also very antisocial and introverted so finding my person was literally a dream come true.

This also resulted in me not rly having any actual close friendships and although I had like one real friendship, she got a boyfriend and became the same exact way I was but even worse (she frl be neglecting me).

We shared a friend group though and so if I wanted to go out because I didn’t want to neglect my friends we would go or vise versa. We didn’t just suddenly abandon them yk. He was the extrovert in our relationship. I spent every single day with him. We also weren’t comfortable with having friends of the opposite gender (if they were our friends before it was good and ofc we could have convos with the opposite gender). So I was completely fine with this bc I just don’t be talking to anybody.

But once we broke up I felt like I was missing out on everything. He had his guy friends and even made girl friends (my assumption). He was going out and even with these girl friends. I had nothing to do with my days. Now I definitely want him back. But my eye twitches when I overhear this girl saying “It’s not funny you woke me up when you called me and asked me to run” or when she’s all touchy on him.

Since I certainly know that, that would NOT be happening if we were together. I certainly know that if I want to get back together with him even hanging out with my guy friends alone would bother him (I would be too) and I just can’t have that guilt of knowing I want him back and hanging out with and talking (being friendly) with guys while being single. Because I know once we get back together I would cut all these guys off in a heartbeat and we would have a conversation on what we did when we were not together. It’s just embarrassing yk.

He was so madly in love with me when we were together but once we broke up, he honestly embarrassed me and I don’t wanna embarrass myself even more doing all this stuff when I know for a fact I would drop all these guys in a heartbeat and never look in their direction if we got back together

Sorry this was so long! I just felt like I’m not living life how I should be and I seriously have no friends (which I’m fine with) but if I was with my man, I would be out everyday doing something.

you do realize you can apply the law to having your ideal social life/friends right? it doesnt have to remain exclusive to manifesting sp.

i completely get where you’re coming from, and as someone who is also an introvert and wasn’t really surrounded by a bunch of friends and USED TO mainly rely on my bf for a social life (him being the extroverted one), I will tell you right now that being this way may seem cute and feel normal on paper, but its the number one way to become codependent on your bf and the relationship you have. you don’t need a massive friendgroup or a booming social life, but you CANNOT be waiting on sp to liveyour life. idc what you do but you need your own independence and personality and hobbies aside from the relationship, and you should have at least one friend who you treat equally as your partner (manifest a best friend if theres no one u have rn).

as for your guy friends situation i just feel like you’re overcomplicating this too much, if you feel uncomfortable then don’t hang out with them, but also keep in mind you’re not in a relationship in the 3D, so it makes no sense to act like you are and cut them off (if they’re good friends) just because you “know if sp was here you’d cut them off”; well sp isn’t in your 3D as your mans so you shouldn’t be doing anything that you would do in a relationship. whatever you do in the 3D never conflicts with imagination because everything is neutral and you aren’t doing this to see it in the 3D.

also, you need to forgive sp for hanging out with girl friends bc to be fair you guys aren’t together in the 3D and I understand feeling annoyed, but that is something you need to work on yourself and move on from otherwise you’ll never stay loyal to your new state. it sounds harsh but i promise i was in your situation too, but he isn’t responsible that you choose to have a different (almost nonexistent) social life. theres no point being hurt and annoyed knowing damn well you’re choosing this for yourself day after day.

[slimschance]

Wednesday - 29/05/24

7:10am

i feel so (emotionally) empty and dull wtf... i don't wanna cry or nothing i just wanna disappear with no disturbance, to be in full isolation with nothing but 4 walls

on the plus side, i put my hair in a really cute low bun, but i think it's falling out or moving bc it's getting looser and starting to pull now. for context i never do my hair, it pure hates me so i'd normally just detangle it and then leave as is.

7:23am

uno it's bad when your "me and who" pinterest board is just pictures of people being friends... so fucking disheartening to tell adults, both family and teachers, no, i won't enjoy my last day, or any days of school, nor my school holidays, because i have no friends. i do genuinely enjoy listening to their stories of them and their mates but they all refuse to listen one bit when i tell them i won't be enjoying mine. the teachers try and say shit like "of course you do (have friends)" and "i didn't have many friends either", yet go on to explain their friend group of 20+ people, their 3 best friends, all the parties they got invited to, their 2 different boyfriends and how they went to uni on the bank of mum and dad, making at least 20 more pals that they talk to weekly till this day.

literally my best and only pal is my 11y/o cousin and that doesn't even count for anything because we're related man. i used to be close with his sister, my 15y/o cousin but we just don't hang out at all like whatsoever, even at functions. i do love her sm still, i always make sure to buy her treats when shes on her period, check up on her when shes ill and ensure shes safe and happy. i'll also just gift her for no reason so she has higher standards for her future boyfriends, she really doesn't pick the thoughtful ones at all. either way, she's heavily motivated to do go on and make lots of money and go into further education, difficult jobs ect. so i don't worry too much, i know she has her head screwed on.

most of the time i have to pretend the concept of best friends is just a concept, simply a movie trope, to stop myself from breaking down. i full course envy every single person whos had a best friend, one that actually enjoys your company, even if that best friend doesn't reciprocate (as in count you as their best friend), i envy you 😭 i literally just long for someone who doesn't mind my company. not even someone who likes my company, just someone who tolerates it. how fucking sad is that

i genuinely don't think anyone at all classes me as a friend, and anyone who could be a friend has never wanted to talk outside of school despite having my snap, email and insta, and i know every last one of them has chat shit about me minimum twice, every single one. i've never harmed any of these people physically nor mentally, all my previous friends (not exactly a decent sample size, i can count them on my hands) that fucking hate my guts still admit i'm one of the kindest people they know and that i'm a great friend, supportive, useful and funny, it's literally because i'm unattractive and neurodivergent that people don't like me i swear down 😭 i asked someone to reword a sentence once and they gave me death stares for 2 years and still chat shit to this day bro. at least there was actual reason for this one i spose, usually it comes from fucking nowhere

anyway i've been writing too long its 7:58 now erm

10:52am

just finished watching the girl next door on netflix, i love this film 😭 shame it's leaving netflix early next month. they're a cute couple frl

7:00pm

i watched pretty woman like 6 hours ago, yet julia robert's smiles still got a hold on me bro. every time she smiled i smiled with her because her smile is that charming, gosh.

6:55am next day - summary

i didn't update but my nans seemingly safe after her surgery - we were all up nan's from 7ish and we watched BGT, me and my cousin played subway surfers, that fruit drop game and all sorts of the tile music games. he gave me a dead leg like five times from sitting lit on me though ahaha

mum told me if i wanted to go out in the week cah i've been pretty miserable, i could message my (other, not the one with surgery) nan or cousin, when i said "no, i have no energy to message someone and i don't wanna get shot down again" (i'm too sensitive to rejection, even from my nan who loves me like heck) she had a go at me. i'm sorry but almost everything is disappointing nowadays, i'm not gonna add to it unless you want me stepping off the 3rd floor by next week ffs.

anyway, i'm just glad and incredibly lucky to still have both my nans alive. thankful

[theit-girl111]

Is this my sis 😭

D/w : don't read children

I am a boy of 15 now and I wanna confess this when is was like 10-11 I was sexually curious about everything... I felt like touching my sister's v*agina also my mother's, touching there breasts, smelling them and what not. I know that's all gross. My mother never bothered bcs who will think of a child can be like that but my sister kinda know what I am upto as she catched me doing that to my mother touching her at wrong points when she was sleeping so I just wanna say Yes I was a bad person so just curious idk

I am good and changed now, now I respect woman but idk if somehow I left my sis with so much of trauma who was 14 Or something at that time

I just felt like confessing this anonymously also writing that because you thought that was funny but idk about woman but I think my boys are curious at that age and do all that

Ok but wtf. Please don't send asks like this, im literally a child myself.

When I said it was funny i was talking about the original ask + I didn't know what molested mean since I thought it was the same as simply "molestar" from Spanish.

Pss ; To any anon / person that goes through my blog (especially the ones that are racist, disrespectful & that threatened me) treat me like you would treat any other kid under 16 cause i literally am a kid under 16. You all are weird frl.

[aot-brainrot]

so you go home before hotch and emily

and hotch says you can’t touch until they both get home, emily then gets home before hotch and keeps pushing you and trying to play and you’re like

“but sir said-“and emily’s like “yea yeah blah blah he’ll never know” so she convinces you

but hotch gets home early and hears moaning coming from the bedroom and he has to decided what to do with y’all

whole ass:

🧍🏻‍♂️

“y’all frl?”

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

HAHAHA I love you, miss girl.

When you texted in the groupchat to ask if you could touch, you anticipated that Emily would be the first to respond and give you permission to go ahead because she liked getting your videos and audios of you moaning and falling apart while screaming their names, but it was Hotch who responded first this time, just to say: “Hands off until we’re both home with you.” You whined and tried texting a billion pleas, but neither of them ever responded. You slumped and stared at the ceiling, trying to ignore how needy you already were and trying to avoid giving into the temptation of being a brat and touching anyways. Emily was the brat for Hotch while you were the obedient one. If you started acting out now, who knew what the two of them would do to you; so you decided to wait.

Only a few minutes passed, though, before you heard the front door open. You didn’t move out of bed because you were too excited to see the two of them and start touching the second you were given permission. But your heart sank when you only saw Emily enter the bedroom. She was smirking, impressed by how you were already naked, your legs spread wide, eager fingers dancing on your shaking thighs. When you asked where Sir was, she glanced over her shoulder in search of a ghost.

When she looked back at you, she answered, “He got caught up in a meeting, but he sent the team home.”

“Why weren’t you answering my texts?”

“I was busy driving, bunny... But I saw every single beg of yours. Do you still wanna touch?” She sat on the bed and slowly dragged an index finger up your slit, starting at your dripping core and working her way up to your throbbing clit. “Aw, bunny, you do wanna touch.”

“I need to touch, Mistress,” you corrected while trying not to move.

“You don’t need anything.” She pinched one of your nipples. “But I can see how badly you want it, so I’ll let you touch.”

Your eyes widened. The thing was, in your dynamic, Hotch was the Dominant to you and Emily, and while Emily was only Dominant for you. When it came to commands, whatever Hotch said was literal gospel, while Emily had to kind of follow what he said, even when it had to do with you. So when he said that you had to wait for both of them to be home, yet she was giving you permission, you knew that her permission didn’t ultimately mean anything. If Hotch found out that she gave you permission... Not only would you be in trouble for touching, but she’d be in trouble for undermining his authority. Hell, he’d probably put her on no-touch for a week or two with me.

“Why so hesitant, bunny?” She teased your slit again. “Don’t you wanna touch for me?”

“Of course, Mistress; but Sir said--”

“Yeah, but he’ll never know if you cum for me before he gets home.”

“I don’t know, Mistress.”

“Okay, so then you don’t have to touch.” She pulled away from you entirely  and started peeling off her clothes. “I’m going to touch myself, though, and we’ll see how long you can last while watching me.”

You pouted as she laid beside you, and without hesitating, her fingers found her own clit and she started going at it. You watched as her back arched off the bed. A moan left her lips and her attention to her pussy increased, impressing you with how fast she was going just to chase an orgasm that Hotch would never give her one he would get home and see us like that.

“Mistress...” you croaked, wiggling your hips around. “Please... stop...”

“No, bunny,” she responded before moaning again.

You couldn’t help yourself. Watching her like that, knowing that you didn’t have permission to touch her-- that you could only touch yourself-- you had to give in and do what she wanted. So you adjusted beside her and started playing with yourself, too.

“No cumming, bunny,” she warned.

“But, Mistress--”

“No.” Her hips bucked and her free hand squeezed one of her breasts as she got close to the edge. “Fuck...”

She looked so pretty while falling apart. The way her head shook against the pillows, giving her noticeable bedhead, and her cute moans echoed through the house, sending a shiver down your spine and straight to your core... You loved her. You loved everything about Emily Prentiss, but watching her in her most vulnerable form in that moment nearly took your breath away.

“What the fuck do you two think you’re doing?”

You and Emily jumped in a panic when you heard his angry voice boom from the doorway. When you looked up, you saw Hotch there, still holding his briefcase, entirely shocked by the scene he had just walked in on-- a scene which he made clear shouldn’t have happened in the first place. You gulped and hid behind Emily as she sat up to address him.

“We were playing, Sir. What does it look like?”

She had a death wish, you were convinced.

“My instructions were clear, though,” he said, setting his briefcase down. “No touching.”

“Only bunny asked, though.”

“Exactly, which is why you should have waited and asked, too.” Suddenly, his hand was on her neck and he was squeezing gently while she clawed at him. “And then you came without permission.”

“I don’t need your permission,” she dared to say.

He huffed. “Fine. Then, I’ll put you in the chastity belt.”

“Wait, Sir--”

While Emily tried to protest, Hotch let go of her and wandered to the closet. He looked at me as he walked around the bed. “And you, bunny, no touching for a week.” You saw that coming. “If I catch you, I put you in chastity, too.”

“Yes, Sir,” you agreed obediently.

“Good girl.” And then he disappeared into the closet.